the truth about my mental health // PPD update
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- a day 6 vlogmas mental health check-in. ppd is a rollercoaster but I'm here to remind you that you aren't alone. sending you lots of love. xox
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Lisa ... just BE! No expectations. Pretend nobody exists except the 4 of you living in your apartment. Surround yourself with whatever you want in your reality. You don't need outside groups until you are ready. Forget about the baby milestones. None of this is important. My son didn't talk or chew food until he was almost 5. I didn't care. He did things at his own pace. I never even told him to do good at school and now he is a computer programmer even though he is blind. Stop overthinking. You will look back at these times and be mad that you didn't just sit back and enjoy your little baby without sadness. Just be you!
Yesssss. So so true . Who they are is who they are . And you need to just be you.
The mom guilt is SO real.
Happy that you were able to listen to your gut about a situation that was not serving you. There’s for sure a time to push out of your comfort zone but I think deep down you always know when something’s just not right.
I know Annie’s only 4 months, but you modeled a lot of strength for her. She’s super lucky to have you as her mom.
Thank you. Needed this today. xox
As a momma who managed to get two kiddos to adulthood, I want to say that you should definitely trust your intuition first and foremost above everything. You are doing great, Lisa! Annie is one very lucky little girl!
You're my hero!
All a baby needs is a loving home and a loving mom and dad ❤Annie is going to be great don’t push urself ur doing great 😊
I've got a few I follow doing Vlogmas - I hope you don't stop, your vlogs make me feel sane and I love watching.
You made my day!
As a homeschooling mom of 3, I must say this to you. Just say no. It took me years to figure out why I wasnt enjoying "mom" things, co-ops, texting groups, Facebook crap, its because we are allowed to NOT enjoy or even partake in this. And believe me when I say this, your daughter will still thrive. When I took control and said enough of things that tire me or my children out, or make me spin out of control, I took a step back, said NO and live a much better mentally healthier life that serves my children and husband better. We don't always have to go with the status quo. I bet you that you already have your very own mom tribe. We don't need to feel pressured to find more, it will come naturally and organically. And FYI, i think after every kid I hibernated for a year😂 give yourself that grace. ❤❤❤
The way you feel like you're so incredibly real. I know I'm still working through my postpartum heart failure. And every single time I watch your videos they makes me feel less alone, and thank you for that.❤ Sending you all the positive vibes on your journey.
My daughter is a little over two. First year is hardest in my opinion because it’s just so monotonous and routine based that life just goes in a big circle. Once she’s a toddler it will get more fun and less predictable!!! Push through the blah moments ❤❤❤
From one mom to another, our kids deserve a happy mom. You intuitively know what is right. You're doing great! :) We are all doing great!
I’ve been going thru breast cancer treatment for the last year+.
I was declared cancer free in march (YAY!) but still had radiation ahead (I had a double mastectomy oct 2022 and chemo from nov-feb). Radiation was 5 days a week for 5 weeks, ending may 24.
I FINALLY had my reconstructive surgery a couple weeks ago and am still recovering due to a complication.
It’s been a rough year+. I appreciate being able to “hang out” with you through your pregnancy and now.
Cancer messes with mental health pretty bad. I don’t have kids. But I’m a fellow 40-something introvert that gets really overwhelmed, especially about health stuff. On top of having general anxiety. It’s a lot.
You make me feel less alone, despite our lives being different. Your openness and authenticity is appreciated and comforting.
Keep fighting the good fight. Thanks for being a fellow advocate and being open about mental health. It really helps. 💜
I’ve had to leave a bunch of cancer groups. It got triggering. Definitely agree with deleting what doesn’t feel right. 💜
The only thing we can be sure of as mothers is that we arent going to be perfect or do everything right. Its okay! The fact that you care and have thoughts of wanting to be a good mama says a lot. You will all grow together as a family and figure out whats right for you. Sending love.
I relate to this soooo much, motherhood feels sooo lonely and soo high pressure. From no one other than ourselves. I had a pretty traumatic birth as well or more so the feelings that came flooding after that I’ve been clinging to some sort of community but it just hasn’t worked out and it’s heart breaking. I’m a pretty social butterfly or at least I think so and I feel like I just don’t connect with anyone in the same ways as before having a child. Which makes the hard days feel extremely exhausting. But to those moms who are just kind in our vulnerable moments are such angels like you said. My heart goes out to you and I hope things get easier or better for you. And thank you
Motherhood was exactly like this for me! And it GETS BETTER! You’re doing a great job ❤
My mom never brought me to any sort of mommy-and-me classes and I turned out just fine, so the fact that you even went to one session is something special! I know negative thoughts will always tell you the worst possible things, but I can tell you are an amazing mother and you’re doing your best!
Hey Lisa! I think most start vlogmas on Dec 1. I’m like super proud of you for doing it for 6 days already. A lot of people adapt it to every other or even once a week worth of vlogs.
Enjoying the journey of you both as parents. Thanks for sharing & glad this space feels ok to do that!
I think most people start vlogmas December 1st - here to support your journey ❤
Haha. Leave it to me...
Annie is so lucky to have you as her mommy! You have your priorities straight. The most important thing is you and your baby and your husband. This is a Very precious time in your life and Annie’s life. Just enjoy it and block the rest of the world out.
I know other people mean well, but sometimes it feels like a competition. But raising a child, and creating a healthy family is not a competition❤️
Love your vlogmas videos. I like having something new everyday, I work in an ER and the holidays are always hectic and busy, so having something fun and lighthearted is always nice ☺️
Same, same, and same! Also a first time mom and early on I had to stop myself with the comparison and looking at social media because it was too much with a newborn and PPA…it def made the mom guilt worse. My son just turned 10months old and I remember asking all my mom friends advice in the beginning and being told “trust your instinct” and it’s so true! You’re doing great mama ❤
Glad you pulled the pin on what you were not comfortable doing while in your not in the right head space. Always follow your gut. I think your doing great! Keep sharing your story, no idea how it will help you heal and helps others. Sometimes doing nothing is what you need to do. Mum guilt never goes away
Ok first- mom groups are SOOOO TOXIC. no matter how good of a mom you are, there is no pleasing the mom groups. Do what you have to do. Second, as much as these emotions and feelings suck thank you for talking about them. I am one year PP and it took me 6 months to get on medication. I look back at the first few months and it’s like a dark cloud. I’m sad about it, but that’s normal. Life changes so much more that you expect. It’s a big adjustment. Don’t put so much on yourself. You are doing amazing.
I think most people I follow that do it start vlogmas Dec 1. Vlogs are definitely some of my favorite things to watch on YT, so I'm glad you started earlier 😊
Blown away by a full week of vlogmas! Amazing! Hope everyone can just watch and appreciate in love and kindness and gratitude xx
You're not alone in these feelings! Your reaction to the group is one hundred percent normal, especially for an introvert and perfectionist. We all do motherhood different ways, and adding pressure is not helpful. Be true to the person you are, and you really can't go wrong.
Thank you for being so vulnerable, Lisa. I'm planning on having my first baby in a few years and will come back and watch all of your videos❤
You’re a great mom Lisa. Try not to be so hard on yourself. Parenting is a learning process and in a year or two you are gonna look back and wonder why certain things felt so hard. I think you made a wonderful choice removing yourself from the social media “mom stuff”. I had to do the same and it really did wonders for my mental health. I’m very introverted like you and had a lot of these same anxieties like you but I have found library groups and playgrounds are great ways to help my son socialize without pushing myself too far out of my own comfort zone. Annie is still very young, you have plenty of time to find things that work for her and you as well.
As a 9 month post partum first time mama I 10000% relate to this 😭❤️ those spirals are brutal and I experience them so frequently. Thank you for being so open and honest. I don’t have any mom friends. I found tremendous comfort in this ❤️
Lisa, you're a great Mom! I agree trust your intuition about the Mommy and me group. There wasnt even such a thing when I raised my son. You do you! I'm very glad you share your vulnerability with us, I appreciate you and your content! ❤
Lots of the you tubers I follow are doing vlogmas. Promise you aren’t alone ❤
Much love, Lisa! I think it's a proverbial miracle that you can function at all in such a mental and emotional state.
i hope ur open to support from the comments bc i have some! girl you are doing it! youre being a parent and you provide love and food and baths and the rest takes care of itself. dont worry about hitting her milestones. that is mostly others’ jobs to
monitor that and advise you if needed like a pediatrician. you being happy is giving your baby the best opportunities even if it means no class at 4 months. i have a community moms group on facebook and we complain and help each other and mostly tell each other not to worry if the tv was on or if mac and cheese is a common meal bc girl getting thru the day as a parent is the goal. my daughter is 2 and i was and sometimes still am struggling with this stuff.
Lisa! That gives me anxiety too. See if there is a MyGym class near you. That starts at 9 weeks and they moms near me in Long Beach at least are really nice. And the kids get to do music and movement etc while moms can chat so it’s the perfect combo. No pressure. Not therapy like at all. They’ll do balls and bubbles and shakers etc at this age. And then it gets more fun and challenging as they get older.
You don’t have to prove that you are so strong by not talking about it. The real strength comes from talking about it.
Hiya! Few things I wanna say- I am so proud of you for going with how you truly feel and not making yourself go to the class. It can be hard to make those decisions, but it sounds like you made the right one for yourself. Also, I hope the new music class goes well. That sounds fun!
Second, mom guilt is so real! Just know you’re not alone. You and Jeff are doing an amazing job loving and caring for that Annie girl! And Corny, too. 🫶🏻
Yes, please continue with vlogmas! Or as much as you feel you can comfortably do. Really enjoy watching your videos.
Sending love your way Mama! 💛
Oh Lisa do not feel bad that this group isn’t what you need. Walk away and let yourself nestle in with your family. Take your time to heal together. You aren’t depriving Annie. I had my first during the pandemic and I felt so much fear and stress as well but i was so relieved when everything closed and we could just exist at home without all the outside pressure. So much has happened in a short time you just need a pause.
You’re doing great Lisa!! We love and support you. And don’t feel bad about vlogmas.. doesn’t it technically start on Dec 1st? I’ve definitely seen other creators talking about it. You are ahead! 🎉😘
Hi Lisa, I have been following you on and off for many years. You are one of my favourite people on UA-cam. I'm a young man, so obviously, 🙄I have not been pregnant or had complications. BUT I HAVE HAD HEART FAILURE. I have been in and out of hospital over the past 4 years. My heart keeps `arresting` (now 5 times in total). It's a miracle that each time, they were able to bring me back. I have been diagnosed with PTSD. I really appreciate every time you share your experiences. x
I just found your channel. I wish I found it sooner. I'm not a mom but can relate to how you are feeling. Hugggssss!!!!
Lisa, you are totally allowed to just let yourself be with your little family and let yourself process and heal on your time. Girl, you are a warrior for fighting a very serious illness right after giving birth to your baby and that is a lot. It was a very serious situation, and processing that is going to come in waves. It's like any kind of therapy - you have to go to several different people to find one that you connect with, and if you need to take a break that's okay too.
Sometimes I have to take a break from my own therapy and just let my brain rest. If you want to try another class later on, that's cool. You're doing amazing as a mother to your baby, we can all see that. Do what's keeping you and baby and Jeff balanced and healthy as a family. I'm sending you love. 🙏🏻🙏🏻♥️
Good idea to talk to them and tell them you expected something different. Glad you found another class that is more kid oriented. You are doing your best!!! Don't be so hard on yourself! Take your time on processing. You have been through a lot, you don't want to pass over the processing of it all.
Do any of your local libraries have baby stories times? Mine do it several times a week. 30 minutes. I don’t talk to anyone lmao. Just do the thing with the kids, check out some books. And then home.
So enjoying your vlogmas videos!!
Oh honey. You went through so much trauma and I’m so sorry you are going through it. You are right that it was great for you to send that email. There is a thing called the personal bill of rights and you have the right to do exactly what you did. You have the right to make those decisions and to be honest. It’s great you did that for yourself. I’m sorry you had to but I’m proud of you. Therapy has really changed my life and it’s such a process. It doesn’t happen over night and not always is it a straight line towards progress. But over time it gets better. And I am listening to you talk about muting or deleting things on social media that trigger you and I’ve had to do that with certain content and it’s helped so very much. And I am going day by day. Sometimes hour by hour but I’m going. Doing my therapy and trying to survive this crazy life. I’m trying to be more mindful of my life and not worry about things that have no impact on my life. I’m trying to remember the circle of control. lol ugh. It’s not always easy tho. But I feel for you. I’m so sorry. My best friend has been having a hard time after her baby too and I just want to grab you guys up and hug you. I wish I could make it better but all I can do is listen and be there. It just doesn’t feel like enough. But anyway. I’m rambling but I do feel for you and I am sending you all of my best wishes and love!! It’s going to be okay. I know sometimes it feels like there is no light at the end of the tunnel but as I’ve gotten older I’ve just realized I gotta stumble in the dark sometimes but I always find that light and in the end it always ends up okay. Sending you love, all my best wishes, and hugs!
I never felt like I lost my previous life. For some reason this has become popular in the last several years.
Sending you momma love ❤️ I had 3 sons and I wasn’t like a lot of other moms , and I wasn’t a cool mom either😂 But I was and am a good mother and my adult sons love me. Take your time and there is no rush to any of this. 💕 All your baby needs is a happy
Mommy and you do what makes you happy 💕
I'm grossed out by the people in the comment section saying they are unsubscribing because you had OF in your title. One can only hope they're being serious, because who wants people looking for things to nitpick hanging around.
You are putting so much expectations on yourself. You dont have to feel like you have to keep up with the other moms. It's okay to not be an extravert. Be kind to you ❤
You've got this girl ❤
In my experience, when you put a bunch of mothers together, we can't help ourselves and we talk, talk, talk about our birth story, trauma, etc. I hope you find the group for you.
Hey Liz, I’m sorry to hear you’re going through a very difficult time with mental health. If I could please try and just ease your mind, even though I remember it never really helped me when my baby was born…. This isn’t to disregard what you are going through and experiencing now. I PROMISE you one day you will look back and you will always remember the struggle with PPD, but it does pass. It feels like it never will. I never cared to hear ppl say this because it felt like eternity. I was a teen mom and lived in a 12’x12’ bedroom with my in laws. I was diagnosed with PP Psychosis and developed a severe addiction and now have been clean for 13+ years. My daughter is a healthy 15 year old bratty teenager. The Love and fear still stay, but throughout the years it changes. It becomes different in new ways. Almost like an up and down rollercoaster, but with all different worries. The postpartum goes away, but if I may please ask you to let your dr know how you are feeling. It’s almost like how you remember, but kind of forget the labor pains…. Anyways, we are here and you’re not alone ❤
I know the spiral . Take special care and sending my love ❤️
spiral pals!
Thank you for posting this. I appreciate your vulnerability. ❤ I have those tendencies as well and last year had to leave a group for my sanity. (Found many new friends who fit much better in a different group too!) Thank you for putting words to all those feelings. I have 3 kiddos and relate for sure. Vlogmas rocks and it helps me during tough days of child rearing too. Thank you! Thank you! 🥰
✨✨✨✨✨We appreciate you Lisa! Keep being the rockstar you are!
Hugs✨✨✨✨✨
I just want to say you’re doing great!! You are a fantastic mom! PPD is so hard to deal with. I dealt with it alone for the first 6-9 months of my daughter’s life because, I didn’t know how to get help. I also felt like I couldn’t tell people how I was feeling because they would take my child from me. I had a traumatic birth I had placenta previa and my daughter’s heart rate dropped when I was pushing and my heart rate was too high and I was hemorrhaging. My daughter was my first live birth so it was really scary and hard. Everything happened so fast but, I kept thinking I can’t lose this baby. I’m so grateful everyday that my daughter Lilly made it and she’s 2 now. You will get through this! I still have a difficult time with her pregnancy/birth because of the miscarriage and just because of how delivery went. It’ll get easier to talk about though. ❤ you are strong and can and will get through this!
Just have some YOU time. Go get your nails done, hair done, massage…whatever you did BEFORE baby was here.
I had bad PPD after my first and I wish I would have had someone to tell me to just go out and say “hey, I’ve got the baby…go shop, etc”
It’s okay to do the things you did before she was here.
Do not try and recreate yourself into this “perfect mom”
And I’m sorry, but this class your in, if your not comfortable…don’t go. Do something else that YOU enjoy. (I wrote this while watching, so glad you got out)
Don’t over do it on scheduling so many mom and me classes, it will drain you.
You are doing the best for her, but do the best for you to. And don’t lose yourself in the process.
You are wonderful.
Keep doing great ❤
It’s easier said than done.
My only advise is to not think to deeply into all of these thoughts. Stop yourself when you start spiraling. Say to yourself “baby is happy, healthy, and ok” and then know whenever you go and do something for yourself that she will still be happy, healthy and ok when you get back.
And get away for all these mom groups. Even Facebook groups.
The fact that you even considered that leaving the group might be a disservice to Annie shows what an amazing mama you are. The truth is that all Annie really needs in her first year of life are you and your hubby. You are her entire world and she can learn absolutely everything she needs to from the two of you. At this age consider things such as the music class a bonus and in no way a necessary component of her development. Babies don’t need classes they need Mama so unless the class is filling your cup it is not helpful ❤
Do what's best for you. Whats best for annie will be whats best for you.
It really does get better!👍🏻🌸
My sister had her first baby shortly after you and she hasn’t done any sort of Mommy and me classes with her yet. You are not behind!
If you care enough to be anxious, you're doing fine. As for milestones, listen to the pediatrician and no one else if that helps you. Too many voices will make things harder than they need to be.
A lot of creators I watch are doing vlogmas this year! I think a lot of them wait to start until December 1st. Or some of them vlog on December 1st but post the first video December 2nd :)
Vlogmas usually starts on Dec 1. Love that you started early tho!!
Lisa..here is the honest truth...we all don't know what the f$&# we are doing as a mom. we are all always thinking if we are doing everything right, it's just a lot of guess work and hoping for the best. we try to make it seem like we know what we are doing, but I know with myself...I have no idea what I'm doing still and my son is almost 3 and I have another on the way lol it's a wild journey, but don't be so hard on yourself!! your girl is happy and healthy and that's just an accomplishment alone!
Giiiirrrrlll…. We been there.. you HAVE to have boundaries! Its healthy for you and baby! Also, there are studies (which of course, i dont have lol, maybe google it ha) babies dont really play socialize really until like 3 years old.. i take my baby to the library like two to three times a week.. its free.. maybe see if your local library does that.. its nice to talk to moms and have someone read to your kid and just be around other kids.. hang in there!!
Love you Liz ❤
Love ya back
Not a mom but I find so much comfort in hearing your every day life rambles/insights. When you were describing that feeling of doom while participating in social things esp. online… oof something I have had such a tough time explaining and haven’t heard anyone describe so well. I appreciate your open ness so much.
Have you ever considered Neuro Emotional Technique? I've done it and it has helped me emotionally in ways I never thought possible. If you can find someone who practices that in your area, I highly recommend. Love all your content. Stay strong ❤
Ooooh I will look into this! Thank you
Girl! You can NOT pour from an empty cup. Take care of you first. And everything else will fall into place. It's OKAY.
What about let it be? You are putting a lot of pressure, just go with the flow a little bit till you feel better… the baby it’s pretty young she does not need classes yet! Just enjoy your time together … if anything maybe therapy for you to be ok. She needs you! Not classes or be with other kids believe me 🥰
💞Lisa, i wish i could wave a magic wand and make everything better.
I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. I'm glad though that you came on here to talk about it. When i had my son's in 1985 and 1993.
I didn't even know what postpartum was know one in the hospital or my Dr office told me anything about that i could get this after giving birth especially after my second baby it was a very traumatic experience. i was in labor for over 24 hrs it was so intense after they gave me the bdrug to make my labor progress . It didn't make it go any faster just 100 times more intense. It took me months to deal with it
Why i said all this is to let you know sweetie you are doing great dont stress about the mommy groups just be yourself do your therapy work through everything on your own time enjoy your family your home relax Annie is doing great she is 4 months old All she needs is her mommy and daddy with her enjoying her don't worry about the outside world right now. give yourself grace and joy be selfish this is your and Jeff's time to come together and just do it your way.
enjoy your little family momma,daddy,annie,corny make some beautiful memories. SORRY THIS IS SO LONG.
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I don’t like mom groups sorry it my personal opinion. I always felt like I was a bad mom because my children never measured up to their children 😢 I stop doing anything that had to do with mom groups. I learned to give myself grace and enjoy being a mom. As long as we love our children and support them that’s all they need ❤
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Infants don't need classes. Relax and enjoy your baby!!
I've talked about my personal severe medical trauma on your videos but um, it's been 5 years now and the only professional mental help I sought out was well, I had to be hardcore medicated by a psychiatrist. I could not speak, I would just go to his office and be in terror and my mom would have to speak for me and I was having horrible PTSD episodes constantly so she would have to call him and he would hear me in the background and be like "she can't live like this!" and have to up my meds. I finally got a regiment that started helping and we're talking A LOT of medication here. I still couldn't talk. That was the first 2 years.
I did not want to do traditional therapy. I didn't believe in it because of prior horrible experiences so I spent hundreds of dollars on self help books and anything I thought would help and planned to do my own thing. That was almost 3 years ago and I've yet to look at a single book. Well, I did once and got so triggered I had to put it away. Year 4 extreme sleep deprevation set in and I can't even put that into words and I had to be medicated for that. Which brings me to year 5...
Something happened with my psychiatrist and I was already feeling ready for a change, I just didn't know what to do. I'm still on medication but a lot less and I found a therapist I really like. I didn't know that I was even ready to talk but I met him and something instantly clicked. But I'm still in the beginning and it's so draining honestly. It's the farthest thing from easy.
But the point is, you can only do this when you're ready. Your body and mind will literally shut down. You can't force it, believe me I tried and was filled with nothing but self hatred and feeling like a failure because it wasn't working. 5 years and I'm still struggling very badly. The biggest mistake I made was trying to "get over it" and believing I could if I just pushed myself. I should have been listening to my own needs and loving myself in my darkest times. It's okay to not be okay, and it's okay to not be ready. It doesn't make you a bad mom or a bad wife or a bad anything. The best thing you can do for Annie and Jeff and most importantly, YOU, is to listen to yourself and try to love yourself during this time. Sorry for the thesis... Also everyone I watch is doing vlogmas! 💜
And straight up, when you enter the "I almost died in a very traumatic completely unexpected way due to severe medical trauma club", people don't get it. Even people who have almost died. It's just different and you find yourself so alone because of that. It's horrible and mostly people just further treat you horrible because you're struggling and you're never going to be the same. They don't know what it's like to be in a 24/7 panic and having to decide whether everything you feel going on with your body is just panic or do you need immediate medical attention and you're also trying to manage that. People tell you you're being too dramatic and you're fine blah blah but they don't know and could be very wrong! And that's just 1 aspect of it.
I did EMDR after my own heart problems and it was almost instaneous the weight that went away. Found a therapist that specializes in trauma can take forever to find the right one!
@@1301274a I do have heart problems but my trauma is botched unnecessary brain surgery and I have a device stuck in my left jugular vein that can't be removed and it's all caused me 24/7 chronic head agony. I can't even have hair because it hurts too much. It's close to impossible to sleep because even my head touching pillows is agonizing. So that's not an option for me. I almost died during surgery and that's why the device is where it is. They had to stop operating and revive me. That's the extremely short version. There's also a blood clot on the device due to the surgeons neglect in refilling my blood thinners so now I have to be on them for life. The surgeon lied, laughed in my face, snuck into another hospital he had no clearance to be in and they were not sure of his intentions so I had to have security outside my room incase he tried something. Then he disappeared which honestly I'm glad because I can't ever face him again. And again, this is all the extremely short version. I'm now bed ridden on disability and I'm only 32. This happened when I was 27 and since nothing like this has ever happened before, nobody knows what's going to happen to me long term. The fact I'm still here 5 years later is a miracle. These devices are ment to be replaced and I can't have that done. I can't have any procedures done. Not even dental work. When I comment to Lisa about how I've told my story on her other videos I don't mean we've been through the same thing. I just know what it's like when it comes to severe medical trauma and almost dying due to it.
Wait is your heart 100% okay? I know it could have gone either way right? Like go away or stay forever. Are you not havjng any symptoms anhmore or having to monitor? If so thats a miricale ! But 100% ud still be traumatized. Just birth its self is trusmatizing. Less than 4 months insnt a lot of time to process truama. And its not like your life gose back to normal you are a mom now too
oh no :(
I came to check in on you, i was kind of rude in the begining but this is still going on :( Im sorry. I hope it alll fell better soon ❤ i know it will. And Anne doest wvwn know she exist so dont worry at all until she is about 3-4 years old.
Are you kidding me? Everyone I follow is doing vlogmas.
Your husband sells himself short. Does he not remember how he took care of you and the baby after the birth?
I'm suscribed for at least 5 years on this channel. Lately i seem to only find one pity party after another as a call from atenttion. I think this is not the way to call for it, if you feel unstable on your mental health please seek help from a professional. I don't see this being productive on the long run. I would take a break, try to fix my mental health and then come back with a clear mind. I really hope you can do better
Oh my goodness, I just wanna give you a big squeeze and tell you everything is going to be ok!!!! I went through exactly what you are going through with my first. What you’re going through is a literal mind f*ck, your feelings are valid, and the fact you’re even feeling like this means you are the BEST mommy. I know it’s cliche and you’ve heard it before I’m sure. But it’s true 🩷
Maybe you should stop making videos with Only fans as the title. I thought you had values
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She’s a comedian people!!! It’s called comedy and u clearly don’t watch her enough to understand her comedy
For someone who has a lot of hate to say you sure are too confident in that profile pic yuck 😂 💀🤢
@@Sasha_nicolexo it is not hate at all. I don't want to hear about onlyfabs that is my value system.and I have a right to voice it. I am loving and want her to know a whole lot of people don't want to even hear about onlyfans period. You are hateful, to shut me down
Not everything is about supporting whatever because you say so
Im unsubscribing because of the only fans title. Arent you a mother?
I think you missed the point 🤦♀️
Wtf is wrong with YOU?! BYE! YOU'RE A HORRIBLE PERSON! I'm sorry Lisa for the negativity but knowing what you've been through... JUST WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE?! GROSS! GROSS GROSS GROSS!
You really missed the point.
I love vlogmas and that we get to see you more often! I do also understand, that a daily vlog is A LOT, esp when being a new mom. Do it as long as it brings you joy and not a second longer. I'll be appreciative and thankful for whatever you choose to do.
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