Thank you EVERYONE for watching the video!!! I know it's a very graphic video, and the song touches a very delicate subject, but this is the harsh reality of life for MANY of us. I hope you all can relate, and continue sharing!!! (P.S, this video is almost at 1Million views in ONE day on Facebook!!!) so sick!!!!
Did it hit anyone else when he said “what’s a smile if you’re not really happy” or “nobody understands how u feel deep inside but u gotta stay strong with your head held high”?
This song came out just in time when I was selling meth and running the streets of vegas. I really thought I had it all together but things just kept getting worse. Fast forward 7yrs later I’m saved now and I serving Christ.I’ve stumbled upon your TikTok , I just wanted to say that this song honestly helped me to express my pain inside. If you are reading this, know that its good to let things go, we all got to learn that. God bless you on your journey; pray that you be guided and protected brother man.
Hey man I went through something like that recently. Best I can tell you is honestly ask one of your friends to just take all the shit you want to say to them. It really does help.
the Feels are Real in this Song made me Cry Yo its a Dope song Homie thank you for you know speaking out for some of us wish we could it makes you think a lot Much Love bro
Wildbill Wilson I cant tell you that your situation will get better it worse, but know that every situation has hope in some way. Find faith, pray and see the beauty of everything. Most of all do NOT give up..Be there for your kids because they need you more than anything. It can get better, don’t lose all hope because this is jsut a rough patch or your life that you will overcome if you keep your head high. Bumpy roads do lead to beautiful destinations my friend and believe me when I say this, it is not the end. I know it hurts and I know that you have probably been through things that you feel are impossible to overcome from..but everyone can overcome their struggles. These are your battle scars. When you make it out of this mess you will look back and be proud of you and your kids for making it through. Keep your head held high, the water will get deep
I hate when people won’t listen to a song bc it’s “sad” Bich life is sad. Music is an escape to some of us. It’s actually magical and beautiful someone can make such a lovely and truthful song with the pain in the background.
Same here bro. Im here for all of you and were all have it hard. Im still scared ima pop one off. But i listen and relax. Bc somewere out there someone cares
@@coryeastham5162 that's not the solution dude that is the solution only if there aren't any solutions to your problem and that if you really search for it I mean really really years of search and not some stupid ass reason like a girlfriend reject... Real problems like health reasons that block you from living your life and that only if you can't live with those problems like I am I got sick in Feb 2018 with bacterial meningitis which left me with some severe complications I almost died and I wish that would every fucking day and suicide is on my mind 24/7 ever since but every time I think of my loved ones after I do it that pain and my father would do the same thing he said it.. I just can't.. So I'm waiting if a miracle happens and I fully recover from that shit and be able to live my life cause all I can do now is wait and stay home... Every time I think of my past life even the worst of the worst days I would prefer living then than now and that why I gave my gun to a friend to keep it but didn't say why he like guns so he thinks of that why I gave it to him
Depression and anxiety are real but so is Jesus Christ. Give your life to Jesus. All this will fade when you submit to Him. God bless everyone who is dealing with these feelings and thoughts. You are not alone. God is right there by your side call upon the name of the Lord. ❤
Getting saved doesn't take depression away hun... Sorry to break it to you. I have received Jesus Christ, surrendered, and received the Holy Spirit and still deal with depression and hard times
@@FelishaPirkle He delivered me from my depression. I still have anxiety but I know it’s because I’m not trusting Him as much as I could. Once we work towards our faith in Him, I know for a fact that these feelings can fade away. And yes we are going to have some tough times but God is greater than our problems. ❤️ God bless I pray that He will deliver you from anything that is hindering you from getting closer to Him❤️
We live to seek GOD and for His glory. Life on earth is a test and sadly many fails for 2 reasons: - they are raise up in ways they should not go, - therefore Pride becomes too big and keeps us form hearing THE QUIET VOICE OF GOD.
This song hit me when it came out, 4 years ago. I was a sophomore in high school. Nothing’s changed. 2 years out of HS I still feel this way. It never ends.
It doesn't end really. So you learn to cope eventually you just gotta do it in a healthy way. I had REAL bad depression right after highschool that led me down a path of self desecration and polyaddiction to benzos, opiates, and synthetic cannabinoids. Have a goal that you actually want to do and feel like is worth working for. This is a big help. If you ever want to talk let me know!
+Bubba Alexander I know that same exact feeling my mother took my daughter from me and since thn my motivation for life has been minimum but u gotta stay strong for ur kid all u can do!
makaila granado this is how ive always been, my family got torn up and ive always had 1or both parents gone. Missing birthdays and the holidays. My dad hasnt been here for a single one of my birthdays. He did some stupid shit and got in trouble
x RouwZe SAME SHIT BRO MY DAD DID THE SAME THING TO ME THE ONLY PERSON THAT WAS THERE FOR ME AN SHOWED UP TO MY BRITHDAY WAS MY MOM HE WILL AWAYS BE IN JAIL AND SHIT !!!!!!!!!!! SO I FUCKEN FELL U HE IS OUT OF JAIL AND SHIT BUT HE STICKS UP FOR HE BITCH ASS GIRLFRIEND MORE THEN ME AND I DON'T LOKE THAT THIS MAKE ME CRY EVER TIME 😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😧😧😧😧😧😧😧😧😧😞😞😞😧😧😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😿😿😿😿😿😿😿
I remember seeing this on facebook when I was in middle school, seriously contemplating suicide and this song really hit home.. i’m happy to say I survived that time in my life, and although mental health will always be a struggle for me, I have gotten the help i’ve needed for so long, I’ve met my soul mate, and things are better.❤️ thank you for producing this, and to anyone who is still feeling this, please get help, it can be better for you.
This gets me so good...like sometimes u happy but then u are alone and the blackness comes and tears u apart...and u try finding a solution to ur problem but you've been searching and searching and NOTHINGG😭💔
Drifting Through Space Things really do get better I’ve been in a really deep depression since 6th grade and I’m now a sophomore in high school and I’m the happiest I’ve ever been just take time to focus on just yourself and what makes you happy ( even tho it seems like nothing will) u have to find it and enjoy it by yourself until u feel comfortable making friends and find the ones that actually care cause there r going to be ones that r fake af. And ig I’ll tell u my story to make it more convincing bad home life for awhile tried to commit suicide twice when to 2 mental hospitals felt the same turned to drugs, thought it made it better but it didn’t so I took time to focus on myself and did nothing in school but focus on me and now I’m happy so all it takes is time. (I know what a rant for a 15 year old)
RuTHLess SLapZ I know people say it gets better but it doesn’t I just want to die there’s nothing on the world for me all I do is hurt and I hate it why do I even try to keep moving forward
And the really fucked up part is that what you're feeling is just 1 type of pain. So many diverse styles of pain we go through as humans and yet emotional pain is the 1 that's usually the most dangerous. You or anyone else ever need to talk hit me up. I'm here for ya
@@verlitysontiktok1744 My dad left my Mom and us 6 kids and I still made it.I turned my pain into strength.I learned a trade,and found a good girl,had a cupple kids,and now I am a PaPa to two beautiful grand kids.Life goes faster as you age so grab a piece while you can!
Having a gun to your own head is one of the most empty feelings you could ever have. It's just absolute helplessness. You really feel like you've hit rock bottom and there is no lower you can go. It's simultaneously comforting and terrifying.
I remember listening to this when I was 14... once I heard this I knew something was wrong with me and decided to get hospitalised. this song truly saved my life and I'm so greatful for you. now I'm 16 (Turning 17 in september) and I'm proud of never committing, that's was one of my best choices in life. Thank you Jaytekz, you truly are my hero.
@@Robertakitch thank you so much 😭 I've honestly started falling back into this circle, but I'm trying to just stay alive. It's genuinely been so hard, but I'm still here so I must be doing something right 😅
It’s always gunna be a fight, especially when this big wave comes crashing down out of nowhere. Just remember to never be afraid to ask for help, always reach out or you’ll drown in it.
I had a very good friend kill himself. It was 2 years ago and I still think about it everyday. It had been 3 years since I saw him when it happened (Millitary). I'm glad you didn't do it because it will effect the lives of people you know in unrepairable ways. Forever.
He took out all my emotions I have been feeling for 3 years & has created it in to a beautiful written song. This honestly hit me so deep, thank you JayTekz! Much love.
I’m thankful for people like you who make music about this stuff. It helps so many of us to hear it but sometimes it’s like we all want to give up. Life is so damn hard.
Im 13, and my gma, she recently passed away, and so did my sister. And when i was 10-11 i was smoking cigarettes and weed, and drinking fire ball. Im not proud of what i did, and it still kills me. Its inside of me. It haunts me.
As someone who battles depression anxiety suicidal thoughts self harm, this song is beautiful. Take care of yourself, love yourself, seek help if you need it. Trust me there are agencies who will help.
michael applegate me and my friends recently got walked up on by a cop as we smoked weed cause honestly all of us have gone through someone or deal with something everyday and he asked us why we did it and we told him straight up family deaths depression all of our issues then he turned around and fucking laughed in our face and said there's pills for that yeah what tf ever dude pills that kill us turn us into zombies and shit fuck people that's why cops are so hated
This song keeps me alive...we're different in many ways, but I can relate to this too much. Its been a couple years now, but this is exactly how I feel. You keep me alive and taking steps forward with all of your music...
I've heard this song so many times even your other songs when I break down bc it saves me and it's all the truth I feel you so much thank you for being here making these it helps and I'm sorry you have to go through it I hate it
My little brother was 24 years old when his life was taken in a tragic car accident. He was with a friend, we are sure they were on drugs and they ran a stop sign and hit a tow truck and died on scene. In the following days we learned this was a possible suicide (the girl he was with and him also were both in bad life situations facing jail time and very depressed). My brother was diagnosed bi polar and got involved with drugs to make him numb the things he felt and would talk about suicide and his depression frequently. It has been three months and his friend Haley looked through his phone that was found on his body and found this song. EVERYTHING this song talks about is my brother. He was very passionate about music and felt so deeply. Everything in this songs lyrics hit so close to home. About not thinking he was meant for this world to wondering if things would of taken a different turn for him that things would of been better. I listen to this song every day now. Hold your loved ones tight no matter what. I was dumb enough to push my brother away when he got involved in drugs and getting in trouble to protect myself and my children and now I am numb. I listen to this and I wish I could smell him or hug him or just tell him to please not go away because I love him so much. I miss him so much- please hold everyone to so close and if they are ever battling mental illness hold them close and let them know how much they are loved.
damm.............thats the same thing that happend to me but with my cousin and he got gun. your right we need to tell everyone that we love them because one day they wont be here anymore and you will just wish that you told them at least "i love you." im sorry for your lost.
I just found your music. I lost my dad about 2 months ago this song just really hit me. No matter what you're told keep writing music you just touched my life.
Jesse Ramirez everything is hard rn it’s how they made the world fight threw it, it will be worth it I promise I’m fighting right now it’s a hard battle I’m like half way there
Shit hits hard bro. I have PTSD and some days are harder than others. Life’s a bitch and some days she is tame but damn has she been hard lately. Keep it up brother, helping us all get through this life
I have ptsd too mahn it's hard especially when you were numbing it with alcohol so you've never dealt with it without a bottle and I've been sober for so long and it hits hard after not having that to numb it
Just found this and it's been my situation spot on everyday sit on the side of the bed wondering if it's my last days till I get the courage to do it or not. people say get some help but it's not that easy you go to counseling tell them how your thinking they stick you in a room and your safe for the time but your still trapped in your own thoughts it doesn't help..
@@JesusGarcia-ih2cz Take it as strength that you are not alone in this. This man and many others has felt your pain and contemplated suicide. There are people such as me who survived and would gladly pass on encouragement and advice. Just know that even if you think no one cares that a stranger on the I internet is reaching out and willing to help shoulder the burden of life. That goes for you too, Clippy, and anybody else out there experiencing depression.
aye man put the gun down and rethink it never consider suicide! i know it’s hard but if you leave now bc your hurting, you will hurt more ppl much more than you were hurt! please don’t do that to me and everyone else that knows you! you’re far more special than you or anyone else thinks! God has a plan for your life, just wait and you’ll fly!
songs like this fuck me up yo. grew up in these fucking streets after awhile you become so numb until it all hits you. hits you so fucking hard man. to anyone thats going through what i am or anything else. we got love for you. stay strong little soldiers. ive already lost so many of mine. i dont need anymore deaths man. i love every last one of y'all. this world needs more peace.
What is life when you can't make the most of it??? Take the safety off!!! I don't need help. Sometime I do have that feeling: "I want to die tonight." There been times I always feel I do not belong here....
I remember when I found you on Facebook and UA-cam, I remember hearing this song and knowing you felt the same pain. Fast forward 4 years and I thought I was mentally better but today I went looking for your music because now I know, I will always feel this alone in the world. I pray your good Jay 🤍
If you ever feel like this, just remember that people love you. If you die, then many people will cry. Life can be tough sometimes, but just remember, your friends and family love you. You are amazing to this earth. You should be here.
"Yo I'm done talking.. stay away when I'm in my coffin" damn dood sad to say ik this feeling all to well this song hits in so many diff levels from the song itself to the video.. perfect lay out of how it is to be an addict or suicidal... real shit ❤ much love
And that's a reason I won't do it I can't imagine the damage it would do to someone who found me like that or dead in any way... Thanks Jay for this... And for most of us This... Life-saving video
Even though I’ve heard this song literally hundreds of times. Still hits me like the first time. Thank you Jay, I’m alive because of you and your music.
why do I feel like you're the only one who understands how I feel. most of the stuff I write in my journal are similar to your music. I love it. keep It ❤
I've put a gun in my mouth, I'm not only depressed, but I can't understand why I choose drugs and alcohol over my family not even willingly, wish I could put it down, listen to collicchi drug addiction, great song, great artist, wish j could say life is precious but life sucks for me at the moment, got 2 kids and a loving wife but I can't grasp on the blessing that I'm giving
+Always, JayteKz i could see you do something with logic you both have great lyrics im no one special but i dont say everyone that to everyone good job keep up the good work
How did you do it? I feel like I keep trying and trying and jump from hospital to hospital, medication to medication, therapist to therapist to doctor... I don't want to die. But sometimes it seems like it's the only way to avoid disaster.
Man, It helped with my depression. God thank you Jay, Just last night I created a rap too about suicide, It was about a kid I knew, he turned and went to heaven when he was just 15.
"But im sick and tired of being sick of life Fuck tomorrow I wanna die tonight Fuck the future Fuck the present Fuck the drama Yo fuck the stressin' Fuck the judgments Fuck assumptions Fuck the ones who made me feel like nothin' Fuck em all I'm done talkin' Stay the fuck away when I'm inside my coffin yea." Here you go
5 years later and still dealing with suicidal thoughts often, but he helps me through it even tho it is talking about suicide I am here for anyone if they need to talk.
Thank you EVERYONE for watching the video!!! I know it's a very graphic video, and the song touches a very delicate subject, but this is the harsh reality of life for MANY of us. I hope you all can relate, and continue sharing!!! (P.S, this video is almost at 1Million views in ONE day on Facebook!!!) so sick!!!!
That's what's up homie !! LOVE YOUR MUSIC
Good shit man!! this vid hit me hard 😢 deep asf 💯
that's fire bro🔥🔥👌
I'm in the same situation tho honestly
#jaytekz
+David Tenangueno ye I feel ya 💯
+Always, JayteKz well your video n lyrics are sick m8
this is one of the realest songs out there. Instead of rapping about drug sex and killing each other, he actually hit a topic so deep
Please search up PhoraYT he truth.
You guys should look up Witt Lowry, underdog and truth
I hear phora
look up the speech Rocky did about life
Search up Phora💯
Did it hit anyone else when he said “what’s a smile if you’re not really happy” or “nobody understands how u feel deep inside but u gotta stay strong with your head held high”?
Otown FTW it hit me so hard
Otown FTW hit me like a 18 wheeler doing 80 down the highway
cole mccormick lmao
Yep
Brooo hell yeah, I came down to the comments to see if anybody said it, as soon as I hear that I was like “fuckkkkk....”
This song came out just in time when I was selling meth and running the streets of vegas. I really thought I had it all together but things just kept getting worse. Fast forward 7yrs later I’m saved now and I serving Christ.I’ve stumbled upon your TikTok , I just wanted to say that this song honestly helped me to express my pain inside. If you are reading this, know that its good to let things go, we all got to learn that. God bless you on your journey; pray that you be guided and protected brother man.
Same what’s your TikTok bro?
when the person you love leaves without warning, shit I need help I can't take the pain
I'm sorry bro, you will make this I promise, just don't think about what this song says trust me.
Hey man I went through something like that recently. Best I can tell you is honestly ask one of your friends to just take all the shit you want to say to them. It really does help.
that happened to me and one of my friends another one of my friends told us to just shut off our emotions for the time being, it worked for both of us
Turn to Christ my friend, he can help.
Keep in mind brother that good things don't last forever.
He said everything I'm scared to say💯
same tbh
the Feels are Real in this Song made me Cry Yo its a Dope song Homie thank you for you know speaking out for some of us wish we could it makes you think a lot Much Love bro
yo! same!😕
yup
right💯
“But I’m sick and tired of bein sick of life.”😔
I feel ur pain I rlly do its not easy
Wildbill Wilson the pain will get worse before it subsides. Keep your head up...I’m always praying for things to get better
Crimson Chara I know it feels like you’re trapped in a box, living the same day every day . It will be all okay soo
@@tamberlynsaadieh2322 gits worse every day in as single father of 2 trying to tack care of my kids so its hard
Wildbill Wilson I cant tell you that your situation will get better it worse, but know that every situation has hope in some way. Find faith, pray and see the beauty of everything. Most of all do NOT give up..Be there for your kids because they need you more than anything. It can get better, don’t lose all hope because this is jsut a rough patch or your life that you will overcome if you keep your head high. Bumpy roads do lead to beautiful destinations my friend and believe me when I say this, it is not the end. I know it hurts and I know that you have probably been through things that you feel are impossible to overcome from..but everyone can overcome their struggles. These are your battle scars. When you make it out of this mess you will look back and be proud of you and your kids for making it through. Keep your head held high, the water will get deep
I hate when people won’t listen to a song bc it’s “sad”
Bich life is sad. Music is an escape to some of us. It’s actually magical and beautiful someone can make such a lovely and truthful song with the pain in the background.
This time 10000000
Facts
I love this 😁
Yes. Don't let these motherfuckers take your music away. Fuck em.
Have you ever heard a song and say damn what he know bout my life.. This is it..
Same here bro. Im here for all of you and were all have it hard. Im still scared ima pop one off. But i listen and relax. Bc somewere out there someone cares
@@coryeastham5162 that's not the solution dude that is the solution only if there aren't any solutions to your problem and that if you really search for it I mean really really years of search and not some stupid ass reason like a girlfriend reject... Real problems like health reasons that block you from living your life and that only if you can't live with those problems like I am I got sick in Feb 2018 with bacterial meningitis which left me with some severe complications I almost died and I wish that would every fucking day and suicide is on my mind 24/7 ever since but every time I think of my loved ones after I do it that pain and my father would do the same thing he said it.. I just can't.. So I'm waiting if a miracle happens and I fully recover from that shit and be able to live my life cause all I can do now is wait and stay home... Every time I think of my past life even the worst of the worst days I would prefer living then than now and that why I gave my gun to a friend to keep it but didn't say why he like guns so he thinks of that why I gave it to him
Billias D. I agree
Fact
@@coryeastham5162 i needed that
Depression and anxiety are real but so is Jesus Christ. Give your life to Jesus. All this will fade when you submit to Him. God bless everyone who is dealing with these feelings and thoughts. You are not alone. God is right there by your side call upon the name of the Lord. ❤
Getting saved doesn't take depression away hun...
Sorry to break it to you. I have received Jesus Christ, surrendered, and received the Holy Spirit and still deal with depression and hard times
@@FelishaPirkle He delivered me from my depression. I still have anxiety but I know it’s because I’m not trusting Him as much as I could. Once we work towards our faith in Him, I know for a fact that these feelings can fade away. And yes we are going to have some tough times but God is greater than our problems. ❤️ God bless I pray that He will deliver you from anything that is hindering you from getting closer to Him❤️
6 years later and I’m still listening to this song and feel the emotion in his words 😞❤️
Those who get it, do, much love sis
I feel how he feel
You made it!😊
Wish I knew how?
@@akeshawilson2980 COPY
I promise life will get better hold you head up 😞trust me ik how you feel
Why am I just now finding this???
Hits too close to home.
If you're reading this, don't go nowhere we need u. 🙏
Feeling like this everyday. Shits depressing.
PT Boyz same
I- lost everyone and yeah i feel like this everyday too
I'm sure one time in your life you felt like that
You probably felt like that at one time
same here
Bro please put this on spotify!! This is what I need please!
arsenalxv o Apple Music too plz
YES
Alicia got home
arsenalxv o Its on Pandora
Alicia could meet
I hear some people talk about his voice...but his voice has a lot of pain in it. No one else can rap this song with the exact same feeling.
We live to seek GOD and for His glory. Life on earth is a test and sadly many fails for 2 reasons:
- they are raise up in ways they should not go,
- therefore Pride becomes too big and keeps us form hearing THE QUIET VOICE OF GOD.
This song hit me when it came out, 4 years ago. I was a sophomore in high school. Nothing’s changed. 2 years out of HS I still feel this way. It never ends.
your not alone sis ❤️
Hehe stay strong
im sorry love, i pray that everything gets better for you. please keep your head held high, much love ❤️
It doesn't end really. So you learn to cope eventually you just gotta do it in a healthy way. I had REAL bad depression right after highschool that led me down a path of self desecration and polyaddiction to benzos, opiates, and synthetic cannabinoids. Have a goal that you actually want to do and feel like is worth working for. This is a big help. If you ever want to talk let me know!
You gotta change the way you perceive whats in front of you....mold each ouchie into a learning lesson. But actually learn. It helps.
man this song literally says everything i fucking felt inside for the past 3 years
makaila granado my baby mama is keeping my son from home, and she ripped him out of my arms, a part of me died forrreal. Sometimes i feel like dying
+Bubba Alexander I know that same exact feeling my mother took my daughter from me and since thn my motivation for life has been minimum but u gotta stay strong for ur kid all u can do!
makaila granado this is how ive always been, my family got torn up and ive always had 1or both parents gone. Missing birthdays and the holidays. My dad hasnt been here for a single one of my birthdays. He did some stupid shit and got in trouble
makaila granado I'm sorry by Joyner Lucas hit hard as fuck. listen to it
x RouwZe SAME SHIT BRO MY DAD DID THE SAME THING TO ME THE ONLY PERSON THAT WAS THERE FOR ME AN SHOWED UP TO MY BRITHDAY WAS MY MOM HE WILL AWAYS BE IN JAIL AND SHIT !!!!!!!!!!! SO I FUCKEN FELL U HE IS OUT OF JAIL AND SHIT BUT HE STICKS UP FOR HE BITCH ASS GIRLFRIEND MORE THEN ME AND I DON'T LOKE THAT THIS MAKE ME CRY EVER TIME 😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😧😧😧😧😧😧😧😧😧😞😞😞😧😧😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😿😿😿😿😿😿😿
I remember seeing this on facebook when I was in middle school, seriously contemplating suicide and this song really hit home.. i’m happy to say I survived that time in my life, and although mental health will always be a struggle for me, I have gotten the help i’ve needed for so long, I’ve met my soul mate, and things are better.❤️ thank you for producing this, and to anyone who is still feeling this, please get help, it can be better for you.
That's when I found this song an I was in same position
🙌🙌
I tried to get help and Noone really cared
@@northernpike6894 it’s because no one does just fucking do it or take pills, your call.
im feeling this way now
I listened to this song when I was 15 I’m 23 now.. man shit still hasn’t got better. This song speaks to me on volumes
You got this! Still young and plenty of time to turn things around
I wonder if i showed this to every person who's ever put me/someone down, they'd know how we really feel....
Mock Ladz I feel you man
Mock Ladz feels 😔
tried it..he didn't care 😔 we just have to be strong for ourselves we can't make people care even at this point.
This gets me so good...like sometimes u happy but then u are alone and the blackness comes and tears u apart...and u try finding a solution to ur problem but you've been searching and searching and NOTHINGG😭💔
They say “things will get better” but they never seem to.
Drifting Through Space amen brother amen
Hang in there. We're all survivors.
Drifting Through Space Things really do get better I’ve been in a really deep depression since 6th grade and I’m now a sophomore in high school and I’m the happiest I’ve ever been just take time to focus on just yourself and what makes you happy ( even tho it seems like nothing will) u have to find it and enjoy it by yourself until u feel comfortable making friends and find the ones that actually care cause there r going to be ones that r fake af. And ig I’ll tell u my story to make it more convincing bad home life for awhile tried to commit suicide twice when to 2 mental hospitals felt the same turned to drugs, thought it made it better but it didn’t so I took time to focus on myself and did nothing in school but focus on me and now I’m happy so all it takes is time. (I know what a rant for a 15 year old)
And now my grades r good also
RuTHLess SLapZ I know people say it gets better but it doesn’t I just want to die there’s nothing on the world for me all I do is hurt and I hate it why do I even try to keep moving forward
5 fuckin years later and still makes me cry. I wish nobody ever had to feel this kind of pain.
I'm feeling it I need help...
Count me in .
And the really fucked up part is that what you're feeling is just 1 type of pain. So many diverse styles of pain we go through as humans and yet emotional pain is the 1 that's usually the most dangerous. You or anyone else ever need to talk hit me up. I'm here for ya
@@isiaheisenmenger644 I greatly appreciate that. Same goes for you. We as humans have to look out for each other.
@@friendlyneighborhoodgunguy appreciate it buddy. And yes we most certainly do
I love the little bell in 1:19 for some reason it just hits me so well
I guess lol...
IKR its such a chill melody. I would love for this to be only instrumental. this song should be in the top 50 hip-hop
"Where would I be if my father was here, and mom was with him and their love was sincere."
I always ask my self "Where would i be if my father was here, and mom was with him and their love was sincere
Sorry bro
I hate my father for leaving an never looking back... Times I wonder the same damn thing...
This hit me hard the first time I heard that
@@verlitysontiktok1744 My dad left my Mom and us 6 kids and I still made it.I turned my pain into strength.I learned a trade,and found a good girl,had a cupple kids,and now I am a PaPa to two beautiful grand kids.Life goes faster as you age so grab a piece while you can!
Having a gun to your own head is one of the most empty feelings you could ever have. It's just absolute helplessness. You really feel like you've hit rock bottom and there is no lower you can go. It's simultaneously comforting and terrifying.
It's like the feeling of emptiness, but yet total control. Because you could change everything with one action. It's very sobering.
Been there ! Have not had a gun since !
I had my brothers gun to my skull a couple weeks ago. The only reason I stayed is to keep my girl happy. She means the world to me. 😔
My brother in law put a gun to his head and pulled the trigger and it missed fired
@@emosam9517 Take Care Of Your Brother Don't mess with Life Enjoy It Till Death Approaches You Instead Of You Approaching It Early
This song speaks to me, i felt every word to my core. Great song Jaytekz 🙏
I remember listening to this when I was 14... once I heard this I knew something was wrong with me and decided to get hospitalised. this song truly saved my life and I'm so greatful for you.
now I'm 16 (Turning 17 in september) and I'm proud of never committing, that's was one of my best choices in life.
Thank you Jaytekz, you truly are my hero.
Eugenio aye I’m happy you disinterested in doing that man fr that shii fucced up ik how u feel stay strong
Proud of you
@@Robertakitch thank you so much 😭 I've honestly started falling back into this circle, but I'm trying to just stay alive. It's genuinely been so hard, but I'm still here so I must be doing something right 😅
It’s always gunna be a fight, especially when this big wave comes crashing down out of nowhere. Just remember to never be afraid to ask for help, always reach out or you’ll drown in it.
I had a very good friend kill himself. It was 2 years ago and I still think about it everyday. It had been 3 years since I saw him when it happened (Millitary). I'm glad you didn't do it because it will effect the lives of people you know in unrepairable ways. Forever.
He took out all my emotions I have been feeling for 3 years & has created it in to a beautiful written song. This honestly hit me so deep, thank you JayTekz! Much love.
you sir have my up most respect, this song is just too good,simply amazing,blew my mind,keep working on music man you deserve more
Javier Orta good choice of words, “blew your mind”😑😬
Javier Orta I now have a
Fluffy71025 kmt jus stfu smh🙄
I was just praising his music
I’m thankful for people like you who make music about this stuff. It helps so many of us to hear it but sometimes it’s like we all want to give up. Life is so damn hard.
Are you doing okay?
Hey you still here,? You doing ok?
Most Underrated Rapper.
Jaden Viado yeah I know
This music for depressed people . This the good music
Jaden Viado idk look up my man bmike
@@apexgaming9609 BMike ok. Phora.
@Goatifxed Nah... 6ix9ine sux
"what's a smile if your not really happy?"
I wish I knew what the meant or feels like.
I ask myself this question every day
a mask that nobody is able to see
Thats what i am saying
Nfs💯
Do I stay strong when there’s tears in my eyes - simply my favorite line
ImDoinkx that's my favorite part to
I feel the same
Mine's stay tf away when I'm inside my cofin
Im 13, and my gma, she recently passed away, and so did my sister. And when i was 10-11 i was smoking cigarettes and weed, and drinking fire ball. Im not proud of what i did, and it still kills me. Its inside of me. It haunts me.
its 2017 and I'm still listening to this still fucking good.
iDropMusic same dude
me to
iDropMusic lol music isn't food it doesent expire no matter how old it is dumbass.
this my fav song
It's 2018 and I'm still listening
As someone who battles depression anxiety suicidal thoughts self harm, this song is beautiful. Take care of yourself, love yourself, seek help if you need it. Trust me there are agencies who will help.
michael applegate me and my friends recently got walked up on by a cop as we smoked weed cause honestly all of us have gone through someone or deal with something everyday and he asked us why we did it and we told him straight up family deaths depression all of our issues then he turned around and fucking laughed in our face and said there's pills for that yeah what tf ever dude pills that kill us turn us into zombies and shit fuck people that's why cops are so hated
michael applegate hey I have depression very bad there's day I want die
I'm figth it everyday
Boi this is squeeeeeekkkkkyyyyy
michael applegate nah they just give u pills n tell u to take them everyday... Fuck that
This song keeps me alive...we're different in many ways, but I can relate to this too much. Its been a couple years now, but this is exactly how I feel. You keep me alive and taking steps forward with all of your music...
I've heard this song so many times even your other songs when I break down bc it saves me and it's all the truth I feel you so much thank you for being here making these it helps and I'm sorry you have to go through it I hate it
this is how i feel everyday
Jeremy Day same 😞
Jeremy Day U DON'T EVEN WANNA KNOW😢
go on my youtube subscribe
Jeremy Day "Fuck tomorrow I wanna die tonight." that's a hint. and it's night time. shitty life shitty world. too much bro. adios.
Gomez Cristo surr
this hit me so hard : "but i'm sick an tired being sick of life''. I can relate to this...
Fucksickery life n dumbullshitfucker humans
I can relate to that too :(
Anything that changed is myself but that too is nothing for but this society won't ever change
This track got me through alot of dark tunnels when the light burnt out and I felt like I had nothing left
8 years later and still hits me deep
My little brother was 24 years old when his life was taken in a tragic car accident. He was with a friend, we are sure they were on drugs and they ran a stop sign and hit a tow truck and died on scene. In the following days we learned this was a possible suicide (the girl he was with and him also were both in bad life situations facing jail time and very depressed). My brother was diagnosed bi polar and got involved with drugs to make him numb the things he felt and would talk about suicide and his depression frequently. It has been three months and his friend Haley looked through his phone that was found on his body and found this song. EVERYTHING this song talks about is my brother. He was very passionate about music and felt so deeply. Everything in this songs lyrics hit so close to home. About not thinking he was meant for this world to wondering if things would of taken a different turn for him that things would of been better. I listen to this song every day now. Hold your loved ones tight no matter what. I was dumb enough to push my brother away when he got involved in drugs and getting in trouble to protect myself and my children and now I am numb. I listen to this and I wish I could smell him or hug him or just tell him to please not go away because I love him so much. I miss him so much- please hold everyone to so close and if they are ever battling mental illness hold them close and let them know how much they are loved.
hay do not be sad at least he is with you EVERY SINGLE DAY of your life he is next to you and at least he is in a better place now
CloverLeaf _ the fuck is wrong with you
Izzy Swan Damn, that's the same way my cousin died.. He was like a brother to me even though I didn't see him often
damm.............thats the same thing that happend to me but with my cousin and he got gun. your right we need to tell everyone that we love them because one day they wont be here anymore and you will just wish that you told them at least "i love you." im sorry for your lost.
I don't know you but everything will be alright I promise thank you for telling us your story I love you
I just found your music. I lost my dad about 2 months ago this song just really hit me. No matter what you're told keep writing music you just touched my life.
Nicole Davis lost my dad April on my bday month this year that shit hurt
You just spilled my soul out for me. I can't do this anymore
Jesse Ramirez don’t do it there’s always someone to talk to
You got this bro ❤️
Yo don’t do anything stupid idk if you did yet just reply back so I can make sure your here still
Jesse Ramirez everything is hard rn it’s how they made the world fight threw it, it will be worth it I promise I’m fighting right now it’s a hard battle I’m like half way there
I cut my wrist this morning and stopped cause I have a daughter
Shit hits hard bro. I have PTSD and some days are harder than others. Life’s a bitch and some days she is tame but damn has she been hard lately. Keep it up brother, helping us all get through this life
I have PTSD too, I know what you mean.. it sucks
Ptsd sucks especially when people take it as a joke😔😧
Feel better brodie
I have ptsd too mahn it's hard especially when you were numbing it with alcohol so you've never dealt with it without a bottle and I've been sober for so long and it hits hard after not having that to numb it
I totally get what your saying about PTSD. Nobody seems to understand how it causes so much chaos .
this is so deep it really explains life in so many different ways 💓
Just found this and it's been my situation spot on everyday sit on the side of the bed wondering if it's my last days till I get the courage to do it or not. people say get some help but it's not that easy you go to counseling tell them how your thinking they stick you in a room and your safe for the time but your still trapped in your own thoughts it doesn't help..
Its not your last you are needed by some.one you are some one reason to live betger days will come.
Try some volunteer work where you get to see the result of your hard work. You'd be amazed how much helping other people will lift your spirits.
Matt I know how you feel every day I think to myself y the fuck am I hear all I do is anoy people and pis them off trust me man I know how you feel
*THIS COMMENT IS DEEP AF💯. TRAPPED IN YOUR OWN THOUGHTS. I'LL LEAVE THAT HERE*
@@compamousiekc3726 NO YOUR NAME. THAT'S ENOUGH SAID.
I get even more depressed when I realize how much I compare to the lyrics
Well dont do anything dumb at least be doing coke off a hookers ass in a stolen lambo as you drive off a bridge
Se
Same
@@JesusGarcia-ih2cz Take it as strength that you are not alone in this. This man and many others has felt your pain and contemplated suicide. There are people such as me who survived and would gladly pass on encouragement and advice. Just know that even if you think no one cares that a stranger on the I internet is reaching out and willing to help shoulder the burden of life.
That goes for you too, Clippy, and anybody else out there experiencing depression.
This is still the most lyrical song I’ve ever heard. I got fixed with depression and then here I am… no cure is there…
My G's face has grown 10 years older but his voice still the same as when he was 15 in the back of that car.
Money kicks fan?
+DQ Activities I am yeah
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Farouk ak to
My G's face has grown 10 years older but his voice still the same as when he was 15 in the back of that car.
who almost cries when they hear this this shit hits me hard
me
Tommy Foxx me
right here \
Tommy Foxx mee😭
Tommy Foxx I feel u on this
plz upload this to spotify
did they?
dont think so
I'm with u
fr. great song.
Hell.yea
aye man put the gun down and rethink it never consider suicide! i know it’s hard but if you leave now bc your hurting, you will hurt more ppl much more than you were hurt! please don’t do that to me and everyone else that knows you! you’re far more special than you or anyone else thinks! God has a plan for your life, just wait and you’ll fly!
someone this emotional needs a big amount of love
My Life 😔 but I actually love this so much it's helps me a lot!
songs like this fuck me up yo. grew up in these fucking streets after awhile you become so numb until it all hits you. hits you so fucking hard man. to anyone thats going through what i am or anything else. we got love for you. stay strong little soldiers. ive already lost so many of mine. i dont need anymore deaths man. i love every last one of y'all. this world needs more peace.
Literally been thinking about this song forever now and couldnt find it. Just did. Used to listen to it all day everyday and just forgot the name.
bro u just explained my life in this song cuz
Nicky Duarte same 😔
What is life when you can't make the most of it??? Take the safety off!!! I don't need help. Sometime I do have that feeling: "I want to die tonight." There been times I always feel I do not belong here....
Nicky Duarte y
Nicky Duarte same i just wanna fken die
Agreeed. Fight on! As what I hear
I remember when I found you on Facebook and UA-cam, I remember hearing this song and knowing you felt the same pain. Fast forward 4 years and I thought I was mentally better but today I went looking for your music because now I know, I will always feel this alone in the world.
I pray your good Jay 🤍
I've listened to this at least 100 times today.
Same
right. stay strong.
same
same
same. 24/7
Praying so hard for all of you. God loves us please hold tight and do not go easy into that gentle night. 😢
This truly explains my whole life 😭💔💔💔💔
Same
same :C
Melisa Montiel same here
Melisa Montiel same
Melisa Montiel same here😫
If you ever feel like this, just remember that people love you. If you die, then many people will cry. Life can be tough sometimes, but just remember, your friends and family love you. You are amazing to this earth. You should be here.
Alien Trap good person, take care ur here for a reason to
I respect rappers like you bro. 🔥
"Yo I'm done talking.. stay away when I'm in my coffin" damn dood sad to say ik this feeling all to well this song hits in so many diff levels from the song itself to the video.. perfect lay out of how it is to be an addict or suicidal... real shit ❤ much love
Man I'm here in 2021 and this is literally my life
Keep your head up high king. It’s rough out there, life wasn’t made for us, we were made for life!
Bro ong
Keep yo head up gods with you🙏❤️
I’m here with you bro
Same thing hear
Whos still listening to this in 2020🙋♀️
Yeet, I am! Jaytekz the shit!
Me I do
Breanna Northcutt me for 4 yrs nowhere day it came out
WhOs LiStEnInG tO tHiS iN 2020???
shut the fuck up these comments are made by fucking dumbass 12 year olds now go fuck yourself
Me
This gave me chills
This song saved me honestly. Thank you Jay so much
2020? Depression and losing the war? Idk how to go on sometimes. Music has always been there
this the song that made me start following him.been a fan ever since.his music is real af
I love how the guy at the end helped you, most people would just either walk or run away from the dead person. But i can relate to this.
And that's a reason I won't do it I can't imagine the damage it would do to someone who found me like that or dead in any way... Thanks Jay for this... And for most of us
This... Life-saving video
Even though I’ve heard this song literally hundreds of times. Still hits me like the first time. Thank you Jay, I’m alive because of you and your music.
I swear I listen to this song so bloody much.
This will be the one that's played on repeat when I finally decide to go.
Won't be long now
You still here ?
I hope you're OK ❤️
I hope you're still here. 💙
R. I P
Wow, so very deep but touching.. ❤️
why do I feel like you're the only one who understands how I feel. most of the stuff I write in my journal are similar to your music. I love it. keep It ❤
*up
same
same yo
Facts
+Lynn Naise Im sorry you have to think like that everyday just know that at the end of a dark tunnel there is a bright beautiful light
Still listening even after 8 years. I hope one day you get the recognition you deserve!
suicide doesn't end the pain, it just passed it along to another person.
Crime Allowences I'm not depressed myself but I could see why someone so depressed would rather pass it on than live with it
When you are in that mental state you don’t really care if it just passes to someone else cuz you just want the pain to stop
Crime Allowences that was some real talk right there, that's what keeps me going
I've put a gun in my mouth, I'm not only depressed, but I can't understand why I choose drugs and alcohol over my family not even willingly, wish I could put it down, listen to collicchi drug addiction, great song, great artist, wish j could say life is precious but life sucks for me at the moment, got 2 kids and a loving wife but I can't grasp on the blessing that I'm giving
Deep
It feels good knowing you are not the only one going through this and feeling it yk.
I feel like this everyday, i feel like my day is coming soon. I don't want no sympathy from no one not even my family.
Same, but don't do anything, ik I'm a stranger but just know that someone in this world cares. Ik that it might not feel like it but it's true
"It's been a long time since I've felt like myself" 2024 and still listening to this song and can relate to it even more now...
I see futuristic and Jaytekz, they both have talent. I want to see them sing song together, they make good music and good beat
that would be lit🔥💯
Even both of their voices are similar to eachother
We can make it possible, just get their attention and it might happen
Futuristic is dope!
+Always, JayteKz i could see you do something with logic you both have great lyrics im no one special but i dont say everyone that to everyone good job keep up the good work
Best song of 2016 and the year ain't over yet
The most depressing/relatable song I’ve ever heard I think!!!
Try Sorry-Joyner Lucas
@@gerhardvanderbergh8137 that's a good one but this one really hits home
Since this song was released I've felt every word to much bro. EVERY WORD. Thank you for putting this together.
This song brings back memories. I got over depression but it's still there. Not all of it like it was just a little bit.
Daniel Rose i feel yhu...same here
How did you do it? I feel like I keep trying and trying and jump from hospital to hospital, medication to medication, therapist to therapist to doctor... I don't want to die. But sometimes it seems like it's the only way to avoid disaster.
Frls bro
spookyplay same way for me and im only 15
Man, It helped with my depression. God thank you Jay, Just last night I created a rap too about suicide, It was about a kid I knew, he turned and went to heaven when he was just 15.
I would love to hear it
No one care u cry baby bitch
i connect with u so much it's scary, like everything u say is how i feel inside
Destinee Tena ur gonna get threw this I promise✊🏽❤️
Destinee Tena same with me im ganna do it sorry
man thanks for helping me through high school. grown now still struggling but always moving forward.
50 cent said it" death gotta be easy cause life is hard" by the age of 18 I was done being afraid of death, just waiting for it to catch me.
Chief SmokesAlot im 15 with that mindset
Death takes you to a better place but I doubt it!
same here. Im looking forward to it
Me too bro 😥
Me too
I guess that everybody here is feeling some type of pain 😔
true shit
MELISSA84008 what
khon siu yes I think everyone is
khon siu same
My ass ain't, I just trying here some fuming music
This guy is lit 💯🔥 Like his music a lot
J Casta
I haven’t listened to this song in years. I missed who I was before I came back
I've been here before 1000 views..im proud of Jay and how now he had 7000000 views....
"But im sick and tired of being sick of life
Fuck tomorrow I wanna die tonight
Fuck the future
Fuck the present
Fuck the drama
Yo fuck the stressin'
Fuck the judgments
Fuck assumptions
Fuck the ones who made me feel like nothin'
Fuck em all
I'm done talkin'
Stay the fuck away when I'm inside my coffin yea." Here you go
💯💯
Spencer Reacts It's 'Fuck em all' not 'The fuck am i'
Ok ill change it
Thanks
Spencer Reacts 6
Spencer Reacts 💯
I'm so dead inside i feel so lost in life.
Im just waitin till death come to me...
Hope you’re doing better
Get on some antidepressants
DMT changed my life
Bruh moment omega lol
5 years later and still dealing with suicidal thoughts often, but he helps me through it even tho it is talking about suicide I am here for anyone if they need to talk.