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So much for the end of censorship and/or punishing people for speaking the truth. I wonder if that will ever change as this seems to have happened all throughout human history. And...without suppression and oppression we would have no way to develop our spiritual, emotional and mental muscles to learn the Truth. What a ride! Thank you for all you do. 🙏
I came across your channel a few weeks ago and feel that it has some of the best material on spiritual awakening. I will say though, I would like to see you as a person sharing this, not just images. I would be much more willing to join your community if I could see the person behind these videos.
1. Your old self is gone 2. Embrace the unknown 3. Feel everything intensely 4. Crave solitude 5. Your circle gets smaller 6. You align with purpose 7. You find peace in the face of adversity Been a blessing for me❤
I am going through this. I quit my job bc I was not happy. Major Anxiety had to be put on medication.Now I have no friends nor family. I keep losing more and more. Homeless living in my car. Trying to get a job an I have to great degree finance and engineer. I put in applications everywere nope. It’s like I don’t exist. I even put in a job at Walmart with my college background I’m like I got this nope denied. I am like what is going on. I am really scared. But at the same time I feel like God has a different path and I need to fulfill what I was meant to do here on Earth. Please pray for me. Everything he is saying I am going through.
I have one small suggestion. Never ask yourself “what more could life throw at me?” The Universe will answer. Rather ask something like “how great is my life?!”
Yes. I agree. I don't challenge the universe anymore. Made that mistake once. Humbling as hell to have the tower card show up reading after reading in your life.
Thank you for this comment! I learnt this the hard way... to never think "life can't get worse done this!" ... because guess what... life will prove you wrong ...
LMAO so many times I said life can't do more...I was wrong. Eventually I got to a point of wanting more. Break me! I got to a point of everything no matter how bad I kept control no fear or worry almost laughing at their wasted energy.
Good to know that there are other people. From the age of 25 to 43. It's been 18 years for me. My youth is gone with intense suffering. And I am alone. Stay strong.
@@alicivrilify Same. There is a reason why we spend majority of our lives suffering. I accepted solitude because I knew I had to remove myself from the norms to improve my broken mental and spiritual self. For me, solitude is the simplest way to achieve balance, clarity, and peace.
I moved into the mountains for this very reason. Animals give unconditional love. They look into your eyes and you feel it. I am talking about wild animals....not just pets.
I enjoy being alone , I am never lonely , I don’t mess what was past it’s in the past . We can’t bring back lost loved ones who have died and moved on .. I never ever want another person I have to take care of . I like me just the way I am . Peace to all I love in 2025
My first "dark night" was at birth, where I survived, but my twin sister did not. Of four siblings I, the eldest, and my parents, am the last living. I'm a recovering addict since 2008, clean more than 5 years now. I have a daughter, son, and three grandchildren. I'm 68. A Vietnam Era veteran.
I'm in this stage of life: just one to two friends, no longer fear of losing people; in fact, it is a blessing in disguise that made me realise who I really am. Things are clear now; I'm proud of myself and find solitude a blessing.
How timely! When I was awakened, everyone left. Friends I played music with, those I thought were lifelong friends vanished, even family...gone. During my first moment of meditation/prayer, I had many questions. Was I losing my mind? Was something wrong with me? I was absolutely elated when I discovered that the answers were within. I've never looked back. Sure, it was painful at first, but now the peace, joy and assurance I have of this new journey is beyond anything I could have ever expected. I hear the voice of my Creator, and it's wonderful! New sub! Thank you for this!
I lost all of that and went through so much more ! I wish that’s all that happened to my life. You wouldn’t believe my dark night of the soul and if it hadn’t been for the most high giving me visions I’m not so sure I would have made it through. Sending you love ❤
It’s terrifying to feel different. To know you are stepping away from a life you thought was reality. But you can’t resist who you are - and the reality is you will never be satisfied with the life of the collective. You yearn to feel. You yearn to grow beyond your means. You yearn for MORE. The Dark Night of the Soul is what answers you. We must be broken down to be reborn. To shed our skin and transform into something new.
This is exactly what happened 😢and exactly where I am. In the unknown. My intuition has expanded and I no longer fear the unknown. I trust it more than the known now. The known is in the past. Learning to surrender to the soul of my being is my comfort zone 🙌 It’s learning to live in presence.
Yep, been there done that. It wasn't fun. But glad I went through it. It helped me to wake up, and walk away from a lot of things, thoughts and beliefs that I came to realize did not serve me.
I cleared away many people in my life, thing is I now find other people's energies rather intense now with a few exceptions. I'm a house husband now instead of manager and musician, years of emotional intensity from past experiences had me suffering ptsd, depression, all sorts that made up my dark night over years, then suddenly I realised, I'm loved, I'm a good man, I'm a help to others, now I enjoy my time alone, no social media, no more anxiety. It's difficult but the feeling of inner peace comes, it's a miracle I tell ya
Crazy! Your story is mine, musician/manager….people pleaser, etc…. I gave it all up, got off the “stage” and deleted my social media, quit bands, cut off toxic friends, gave up on my family giving me love (which is sad) and realized I’m a very good person in a very sick world. The only thing that really sucks is having to work in the world still to eat and pay bills. It’s so toxic and damaging. I hope one day it won’t be. I just won’t allow others to steal my peace or project their bs on me anymore! It’s no. Fuck off.
Thank you so much for this video! It was wonderful! I have been on this journey surrounded by people who were very successful in the worldly realm. My husband and I were too. We had a horrible thing happen to us, and we go abandoned by all or our religious friends…. They could no longer be in relationship with us because we no longer could fit in there social circle. It was the best thing that has happened to us… it has been a very long 12 year journey of lose and pain, but I have been awakened to know I am a spiritual being and know I am an Errant only passing through this place only my way to a higher calling! Blessings to all who took the time to read this! I am cheering you on… it is a hard path! blessing to you all!
I have been through this many times , death and re-birth . The awakenings are all different .The journey continues , currently i am celibate and peeling of more layers .
Third time for me. Each about 16 years apart. Almost exactly. I'm 'in it' and yes, some days I don't 'think' I will survive the depths. But having gone through this twice prior I 'know' that I will make it out the other side. Admitting powerlessness over things is never easy. Letting go of old habits that I've outgrown is never easy either. I walk and trust in Infinite Spirit. Knowing Spirit has more in store for me.
Been alone most of my 44yrs other than a 12yr relationship that ended just like that she was gone that's been a little over 5yrs ago and the first 2yrs I went through a darkness that I've never delt with before I started turning to spiritual life but I don't know anyone who is as well secondly I'm a Introvert and like you Solitude is another peace I enjoy I just wanted to say to you being alone isn't lonely like you I choose peace over chaos I see so many people in toxic religions because they can't handle being alone it's a self reflection some can't deal with I wish you the very best and I'll make a suggestion if you don't have a pet dog or cat I recommend a dog lol I'm a dog dad to 3 beautiful sweet loyal loving Rottweilers they are the best
@@troygrissom8956 My goodness, my friend. Your energy is in full speed. I don’t think you are as introvert as you believe you are. You are pacing your walls looking for a way out…a crack that lets you see the outside world before you will step into it. But you want to. That is why you are here. You aren’t alone. As someone who has gone through the shattering and my tower crumbling I know very well where you are. Let the tower crumble, my friend. It doesn’t serve you anymore.
I've been going through the dark night of the soul since around 2010. Been through so much pain and terror but lately I've felt more and more trust in my intuition and I feel so on the right path and it feels so good. I'm not through totally but I know I will pull through. I still feel anxiety at times but it's like only physical but it doesn't take over control of my mind. I'm in control. And fear doesn't get a grip on me anymore, but I sure feel his attempts. But I feel my trust in the Universe is getting stronger every day.
The purge is complete. I know and always have known what I have to do and where I must go. Obstacles are gone and distractions are no longer there. Thanks for the reminder
I went through 9 years of anxiety and depression due to a chemical imbalance and came out of it in 2018 after a powerful epiphany and i thought I'd got through the dark knight but that was mind and emotions that got clarity now it's the hardest part , the physical body but i have all the tools. These past 4 months I've rose in the unconditional love of Jesus Christ and now I'm falling more in love with you all and humanity,so beautiful,a world full of loving hearts. Once finished it'll be the beginning of new battle's Bring it on darkness. I've spent the last 7 months alone just going out to buy shopping but always shining a smile or a polite word to someone.
I've been at it for 15 years now. It started at the age of 18 with a shattering of my dreams and ambitions ; now I'm almost 33, still lost and grieving, without a clear goal and without an identity. "It feels like you're free falling into an endless void" oh yes it does
Yes. It's almost a magical transformation, stepping into your life purpose. It's been a long process which is still happening right now. For the first time in my life, I am becoming the woman my creator intended me to be. It is as exciting & a bit scary. I am finally comfortable in my own skin. I can relate to all that's spoken here. Thank You❤
This is it . When i awaken in the morning i will be standing alone for at least a week to completely clear out what's still floating in my physical bodies energy. God bless you all. 🙏😇🌍❤️🕯️❤️🌍😇🙏
Thank you. This is the reassurance I need right now. I have been cranky and crave solitude, which I have for two months. The teacher always appears at the right time. ❤🙏🙏💛
If only achieving peace of mind was as easy as lighting some incense! Unfortunately, all that seems real to me most days now is my anger, my confusion, and my desire to see justice done. 😒
I agree, it’s definitely not just that. Whether it’s a Mantra, an item or something else…reminders that our struggles are just fog on a profound path can be helpful 🙏
OMG. Have no idea why this video popped up but… Wow! Every single thing I needed to hear. I have been feeling so drained the last couple of days and looking and trying to gain strength, and this just gave me a huge boost! Perfect example of serendipity and answered prayers that we all look for along the way. Thank you so very much for putting this video out! ❤🙏🏼
It would have been such a gift if these teachings were available when I chose the path of the heart, felt that once I learned how to love, everything would just automatically adjust. Boy, was I wrong. Shortly after my decision of the path I wanted to travel, was hit with what they called the "Dark Night of the Soul". It was more like the Dark Years of the Soul. It felt like the carpet was pulled out from under my feet and I hit my head on the floor. I cried everyday for years losing beliefs about what I believed was love, it is nothing like you think it is. I prayed all the tears, physical and mental pain would help others on their paths. This video brought back so many memories. Thank you for this podcast. May you be blessed with love and respect for your contribution to all those who need this gift of knowledge now. 🤍
Thank you for your kind words 🙏 it's comments like this that keep me going. It sounds like you've been on quite a journey through it all, dispelling our beliefs, attachments (to people and things) especially the closely held ones, can be immensely painful. I'm always mindful of the buddhist teaching 'if you see the buddha on the road, kill him'. Meaning if you see what you believe to be 'it' the thing you're looking for, a preconceived idea of what 'it' is, what an awakening is...get rid of it, because that's not it. I'm glad the video resonated with you, may you be happy 🙏
@@ForbiddenTexts 🌹 I am very happy now, it is all like a dream now. Share for the love of all my brothers and sisters so they will realize they are not alone. Realize many say one can't reach those in darkness, if you believe that, then it is true. I have a wonderful master teacher reach into the darkness to bring me out and I am so grateful. If we can help one other life, blessings will be abundant. I see what you are reaching out to help others. Thank you.
I strongly believe I needed to hear this! Pain and darkness were my teachers to find my light, my inner peace. I've asked myself a lot about the dark night of the soul and had read and watched many different videos but yours was full of understanding. I always had a hard time understanding the real story behind it, you nailed it. This is exactly what had happened to me. And my soul confirmed it while watching. Anytime something is true I get huge spiritual chills, coming from my soul pushing outwards. i can feel it so intense that I kind of understand whats my soul trying to say. I made it through it and I promise anyone who's still on their way, trust the process. believe in yourself. Don't fear anything because in the end you will come out like a lion. Im so happy I didnt give in, in life. I wanted to so many times, Im glad Im still here to see myself rise up like a phönix from the ashes.
thank-you this is exactly what happened to me, a break up caused DKOTS and walked through the fire, God re-molded into a better version, my authentic self. I discovered my true purpose and awareness, then consciousness. I leveled up! As painful as it was, I am glad I went through it. I'm now back to school chasing my dream in Film, I want to share my stories and help the collective achieve their fulfillment.
Best thing I have seen today🎉 subscribed... Because this SHIT happened to me❤ With a good dose of NDE🎉🎉🎉🎉 BACK WITH VENGEANCE... BTW, completely healed... Impressive what we can really do
Well, it seems I've been that place since I was getting shape inside my mom's womb. Sometimes, it gets very difficult but God always sends me his support through videos,a movie, someone's comment, a sunrise, books , a song or even my own mistakes.
I am my whole life in a transformation, i just didnt realize it, i always has low self esteam and fear to talk to people outside of my family esacely women. I had much trouble in life and i have experienced so much "dark holes" in my life and still continuing, but they are not so intense and long as the previous ones when i was younger. I have now developed after 35 years a deep self esteem, and understading why i am how i am. i dont like to be with superficial people, i have my own little group of peoplo who i trust. And i am trying to do my best to save the soul of my two little daugthers, even i make many mistakes, still today. But i am learning now faster, i adopt faster, i change my perspektive much easyer when i see i am wrong. i am not into money or succes, my first priority is my family and money is only a tool, and i view succes as a result of having true values. not dollar or euro bills.
Dark night of the soul can happen without any big external events. When you face every part of you, including your shadow. When you learn to accept yourself with truer, deeper fuller self awareness, and naturally balance yourself.
I’ve looked at the abyss thrice, each for different reasons. But this year feels particuarly enlightening. And only possible because of the previous metamorphosis. Makes the journey wilder doesn’t it. I feel sorry for people too afraid to stare down the abyss. Great to see so many people have gone through and thrived.
I have been asking God for a sign for better things. I have lost two long-time friends (””) and before bed I click on this. I have been racking my brain trying to figure out what I have been going through. And this video has helped a lot. I can't check all the boxes but most of them. I always have an issue with completing things I start so I don't start.… I have no discipline… I’m working on it. Healing and fixing yourself is hard as F*ck
In my experience, being red pilled was a by product of deep change and shifting. I don't take much credit for it though, for I attribute much of it to just getting older. Im grateful Ive lived long enough to learn things I wouldn't have otherwise. Knowing that I can still learn is a kind of a relief. Im 60.
Im learning to sit with things that are not comfortable. It is extensively painful. I feel i have gone away a thousand times, and know it isnt over. Im trying to cultivate self love and create boundaries in the moddle of everything breaking and shifting.
I did not think when I was in the initial stage that I could even suffer anymore and I was completely wrong. I turned away from it and have spent the last 20 years in the dark night of the soul. Everything that used to bring bliss or joy now I only feel infinitely sad. It’s a much longer process than you’d think. (I fully intend to go much much further before I leave here)
I know it's because the .move I had to make to the city disallows me to see the stars within the night skyline. It's almost like they disappeared when I was forced to leave my life.
Great video. My awakening happened spontaneously 26 years ago when suddenly I found myself face to face with the Mysterium Tremendum. It was over the top ecstatic. Then I darkened and the unconscious started uncorking and Pandora's Box was opened. The first phase "Dark Night of the Senses" took me 12 years to complete. The 2nd phase "Dark Night of the Spirit" was much more difficult and lasted 11-12 years. I am now in the rebirth or ascension phase. Christians believe there is free salvation by simply reciting the Jesus prayer. This is a lie. My awakening was horrific, agonizing, anguishing, long, arduous...easily the most difficult thing I have ever done. Yes, it had me on my knees and I almost lost my life. It's real. We really are evolving reincarnating spiritual beings. Problem is, the Soul Core is frozen and dormant in most people and they don't even know it is there. 99% of everyone does not know who and what they are.
Not to sound like Kate McKinnon's "Mrs. Rafferty" character...but it was a little different for me. 😀It lasted 20 years and in retrospect it was like being in a cocoon. (At the time it felt like being in Hell.) Ironically, the thing that kind of snapped me out of it was looking into a mirror and saying, spontaneously: "I love you man!" It was as if I saw the same me that had been looking back via the mirror my entire life, and I finally recognized that "person". It was such a cool feeling to finally meet myself and somehow know everything was okay. In fact, my realization is/was that I had actually been living in a Heaven/Hell paradise my entire life. The difference was/is that now, I'm finally at peace with myself and my life/life's circumstances. And the one main lesson I took -- the only real sin... is fear. Peace.
I am the eternal void falling through sense perception. Sense perception is not who I am. I am registering sense perception through all forms in existence. My being is too vast for existence, which is why one body cannot hold it and why there exists infinite forms of me. These infinite forms only represent my eternal being outside of sense perception. What else could represent eternity in form but infinity? I am as unborn as I am undying. I cannot go anywhere for there is nowhere for me to go. I am alone in my own creation and I cannot fathom all I am for all I am is never ending and everlasting. But I can see that I am split in two, forever longing for one another-myself in the other.
Today I lost my mama... but my awaking happened 2014 after my only daughter passed away.. the awaking happened! I understand now... what is weird! I'll grieve for a couple of days.. then I'm ok.. is this wrong! I know she's good!
@ForbiddenTexts Thank you.. going through my lessons are getting harder... I find peace through music and family... meditation helps.. for now I'll release all my feelings.. I'll be OK.. my family needs me..
Experiences before thee knowledge is a wild ride to know thy self…. Thanks for the video. Rainbow Warriors mount up!!!!!!! Meanwhile, CREEECH. Video Games. Xbox. Yo Ween. I AM. WAH
I am now homeless after leaving a 20 year marriage. He stole EVERYTHING. Its so crazy to retain , hard mourning and greaving yourself , alone, in city streets.
I was enjoying this, then 1 min in there was an ad selling financial products. Shortly after that, there was an embedded ad for incense. At 6 minutes there was another ad. I stopped the video at that point.
This podcast is offering energy for energy (money), something physical for energy. It costs money and time to do up these videos for our benefit. I have never been to any podcast that didn't want donations or supported by members or advertising. You are still given the choice to do what is right for you but do not miss out on what may change your life. Blessings
@@gavinandrews9026 The choice is always yours and respect that. I reach out to you in love. We live in a polar matrix, everything has its opposite, good, bad, cold, hot, etc. We choose which polarity we will focus on. You have decided to focus on your perception of negativity but you can also decide to focus on your perception of positivity. The choice of which polarity we choose, reflects back to us what we believe. You are right until you decide to change. 🤔🤍
Most of have knowing…but applying it takes wisdom. The human Ego mind keeps trying to pull you back into human and away from Being…I’m exhausted. I do not want to be in the duality anymore. I’m good now….still trying to let go of the grief of losing my Son…that’s a darkest night of the soul and unless some good, joy , a new door….stuff pours…really hard to move forward. Sometimes knowing can be irrelevant, the nothingness can feel very lonely and letting go into the unknowing takes courage. And actually, searching for home, the mundane of the human routine, ritual can lose its lustre….and the desire to connect back to Source, our ET family, and leave behind the 3D….sighhhhhhh
You need copes to use your copes. Brutal! I want to be the old me, but that is likely impossible. I want my old life, but when I reach out to those old acquaintances, I am reminded why I left and can only return to an eminent ruin. Forward to the new me. I cannot go back the way I came.
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Human is a narrative wake up from it instead calling us so !!!
So much for the end of censorship and/or punishing people for speaking the truth. I wonder if that will ever change as this seems to have happened all throughout human history. And...without suppression and oppression we would have no way to develop our spiritual, emotional and mental muscles to learn the Truth. What a ride! Thank you for all you do. 🙏
@@solsticelakshmi4639that's about the better side of WWW connection with the internet.
Until then, i felt more alone than any stone on the eart-H ❤.
@@ForbiddenTexts After half a dozen of my comments disappeared, i thought it best to unsubscribe...
I came across your channel a few weeks ago and feel that it has some of the best material on spiritual awakening.
I will say though, I would like to see you as a person sharing this, not just images. I would be much more willing to join your community if I could see the person behind these videos.
1. Your old self is gone
2. Embrace the unknown
3. Feel everything intensely
4. Crave solitude
5. Your circle gets smaller
6. You align with purpose
7. You find peace in the face of adversity
Been a blessing for me❤
This is where I am. ❤
I feel as if I m between 5 and 6 :)
I’m not afraid of anything now.
Absolutely❤
@@TallisKeeton me too, welcome to the club ❤
I am going through this. I quit my job bc I was not happy. Major Anxiety had to be put on medication.Now I have no friends nor family. I keep losing more and more. Homeless living in my car. Trying to get a job an I have to great degree finance and engineer. I put in applications everywere nope. It’s like I don’t exist. I even put in a job at Walmart with my college background I’m like I got this nope denied. I am like what is going on. I am really scared. But at the same time I feel like God has a different path and I need to fulfill what I was meant to do here on Earth. Please pray for me. Everything he is saying I am going through.
Wishing you strength, this too shall pass 🙏 it’s good to have you here
God bless you ❤
I'm so sorry. You are strong as hell.
Where are you? Region wise.
@regulusmine2336 by now, it's called DESTINY and she's gone from striving to thriving❤
I have one small suggestion. Never ask yourself “what more could life throw at me?” The Universe will answer. Rather ask something like “how great is my life?!”
Yes indeed. I stopped asking silly questions myself...
Yes. I agree. I don't challenge the universe anymore. Made that mistake once. Humbling as hell to have the tower card show up reading after reading in your life.
Thank you for this comment! I learnt this the hard way... to never think "life can't get worse done this!" ... because guess what... life will prove you wrong ...
So true learned the hard way over and over smh 😔
LMAO so many times I said life can't do more...I was wrong. Eventually I got to a point of wanting more. Break me! I got to a point of everything no matter how bad I kept control no fear or worry almost laughing at their wasted energy.
Anytime I lose something, I know my creator is just making room for something new...
40 years straight. Hope the world will benefit from the pain I’ve experienced and all the knowledge and strength that came from it.
One awakened soul is worth a million asleep. Yes, you matter, my friend, your efforts are priceless and needed in the world.
Good to know that there are other people. From the age of 25 to 43. It's been 18 years for me. My youth is gone with intense suffering. And I am alone. Stay strong.
@@alicivrilify Same. There is a reason why we spend majority of our lives suffering. I accepted solitude because I knew I had to remove myself from the norms to improve my broken mental and spiritual self. For me, solitude is the simplest way to achieve balance, clarity, and peace.
Yes I so crave solitude ❤️ but very comfortable with animals around me. I really struggle to hang with people unless if I have to.
Relatable!🌱
I moved into the mountains for this very reason. Animals give unconditional love. They look into your eyes and you feel it. I am talking about wild animals....not just pets.
I enjoy being alone , I am never lonely , I don’t mess what was past it’s in the past . We can’t bring back lost loved ones who have died and moved on .. I never ever want another person I have to take care of . I like me just the way I am . Peace to all I love in 2025
I feel exactly the same, best time ever
My first "dark night" was at birth, where I survived, but my twin sister did not. Of four siblings I, the eldest, and my parents, am the last living. I'm a recovering addict since 2008, clean more than 5 years now. I have a daughter, son, and three grandchildren. I'm 68. A Vietnam Era veteran.
May the force be with you❤
@@2blackcatz426 He always is🙏
I think I want to get “out there” and once I do I remember why I don’t. Lol
I've survived it by the grace of God.
I'm in this stage of life: just one to two friends, no longer fear of losing people; in fact, it is a blessing in disguise that made me realise who I really am. Things are clear now; I'm proud of myself and find solitude a blessing.
@@jonathandryon8205 It's powerful, I don't have a real friend in this stage but I decided to go with the flow and let it come when it's time.
@@zinavejzovic9247 You got this!
How timely! When I was awakened, everyone left. Friends I played music with, those I thought were lifelong friends vanished, even family...gone. During my first moment of meditation/prayer, I had many questions. Was I losing my mind? Was something wrong with me? I was absolutely elated when I discovered that the answers were within. I've never looked back. Sure, it was painful at first, but now the peace, joy and assurance I have of this new journey is beyond anything I could have ever expected. I hear the voice of my Creator, and it's wonderful! New sub! Thank you for this!
Lost my job, husband, and farm (literally) all at once. I had my Jacob moment (and THANK YOU, Lord!) I am not the same.
I lost my son in a car accident and it has lead to an Awakening for me! I know see that we do not die..we transition!
I lost all of that and went through so much more ! I wish that’s all that happened to my life. You wouldn’t believe my dark night of the soul and if it hadn’t been for the most high giving me visions I’m not so sure I would have made it through. Sending you love ❤
@@valeriesnyder2157 right back at ya ❤
@ I've seen a transitioned family member - you're correct. I pray for the Holy Comforter for you. 💌
It’s terrifying to feel different. To know you are stepping away from a life you thought was reality. But you can’t resist who you are - and the reality is you will never be satisfied with the life of the collective. You yearn to feel. You yearn to grow beyond your means. You yearn for MORE.
The Dark Night of the Soul is what answers you. We must be broken down to be reborn. To shed our skin and transform into something new.
This is exactly what happened 😢and exactly where I am.
In the unknown. My intuition has expanded and I no longer fear the unknown. I trust it more than the known now. The known is in the past.
Learning to surrender to the soul of my being is my comfort zone 🙌
It’s learning to live in presence.
I am who I am ✨Gratitude 💛✨
Yep, been there done that. It wasn't fun. But glad I went through it. It helped me to wake up, and walk away from a lot of things, thoughts and beliefs that I came to realize did not serve me.
I cleared away many people in my life, thing is I now find other people's energies rather intense now with a few exceptions. I'm a house husband now instead of manager and musician, years of emotional intensity from past experiences had me suffering ptsd, depression, all sorts that made up my dark night over years, then suddenly I realised, I'm loved, I'm a good man, I'm a help to others, now I enjoy my time alone, no social media, no more anxiety. It's difficult but the feeling of inner peace comes, it's a miracle I tell ya
This is so good to hear. It’s good to have you here 🙏
Crazy! Your story is mine, musician/manager….people pleaser, etc….
I gave it all up, got off the “stage” and deleted my social media, quit bands, cut off toxic friends, gave up on my family giving me love (which is sad) and realized I’m a very good person in a very sick world. The only thing that really sucks is having to work in the world still to eat and pay bills. It’s so toxic and damaging. I hope one day it won’t be. I just won’t allow others to steal my peace or project their bs on me anymore! It’s no. Fuck off.
Thank you so much for this video! It was wonderful! I have been on this journey surrounded by people who were very successful in the worldly realm. My husband and I were too. We had a horrible thing happen to us, and we go abandoned by all or our religious friends…. They could no longer be in relationship with us because we no longer could fit in there social circle. It was the best thing that has happened to us… it has been a very long 12 year journey of lose and pain, but I have been awakened to know I am a spiritual being and know I am an Errant only passing through this place only my way to a higher calling! Blessings to all who took the time to read this! I am cheering you on… it is a hard path! blessing to you all!
Thanks for sharing Sharon, it’s good to have you here 🙏
I have been through this many times , death and re-birth . The awakenings are all different .The journey continues , currently i am celibate and peeling of more layers .
Third time for me. Each about 16 years apart. Almost exactly. I'm 'in it' and yes, some days I don't 'think' I will survive the depths. But having gone through this twice prior I 'know' that I will make it out the other side. Admitting powerlessness over things is never easy. Letting go of old habits that I've outgrown is never easy either. I walk and trust in Infinite Spirit. Knowing Spirit has more in store for me.
Ive been alone for so long that i started to enjoy my solitude, thank you for this, very insghtfull and resonates very much with my heart🙏
Same here 😊
@jennyroth6583 ❤️🙏
Me too.
Been alone most of my 44yrs other than a 12yr relationship that ended just like that she was gone that's been a little over 5yrs ago and the first 2yrs I went through a darkness that I've never delt with before I started turning to spiritual life but I don't know anyone who is as well secondly I'm a Introvert and like you Solitude is another peace I enjoy I just wanted to say to you being alone isn't lonely like you I choose peace over chaos I see so many people in toxic religions because they can't handle being alone it's a self reflection some can't deal with I wish you the very best and I'll make a suggestion if you don't have a pet dog or cat I recommend a dog lol I'm a dog dad to 3 beautiful sweet loyal loving Rottweilers they are the best
@@troygrissom8956 My goodness, my friend. Your energy is in full speed. I don’t think you are as introvert as you believe you are. You are pacing your walls looking for a way out…a crack that lets you see the outside world before you will step into it.
But you want to. That is why you are here.
You aren’t alone. As someone who has gone through the shattering and my tower crumbling I know very well where you are. Let the tower crumble, my friend. It doesn’t serve you anymore.
I've been going through the dark night of the soul since around 2010. Been through so much pain and terror but lately I've felt more and more trust in my intuition and I feel so on the right path and it feels so good. I'm not through totally but I know I will pull through.
I still feel anxiety at times but it's like only physical but it doesn't take over control of my mind. I'm in control. And fear doesn't get a grip on me anymore, but I sure feel his attempts. But I feel my trust in the Universe is getting stronger every day.
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Trust yourself
I went through the dark night.
I thought I wasn't gonna make it. I was so painful and lonely.
I was like why did I choose to awake 😂 take it back.😅
I think maybe it chooses you.
The purge is complete. I know and always have known what I have to do and where I must go. Obstacles are gone and distractions are no longer there. Thanks for the reminder
I have gone through this, and yes, l am stronger than ever!! Love n light. ❤😊❤
I have been through a few of these, crazy! I am no longer who I was! Several times over. Love growing and learning!
I went through 9 years of anxiety and depression due to a chemical imbalance and came out of it in 2018 after a powerful epiphany and i thought I'd got through the dark knight but that was mind and emotions that got clarity now it's the hardest part , the physical body but i have all the tools. These past 4 months I've rose in the unconditional love of Jesus Christ and now I'm falling more in love with you all and humanity,so beautiful,a world full of loving hearts. Once finished it'll be the beginning of new battle's
Bring it on darkness. I've spent the last 7 months alone just going out to buy shopping but always shining a smile or a polite word to someone.
I love your spirit 🙏 face the darkness with light
That's the "Christ consciousness" young "set apart" one! Think about it! Within your own precious h-eart ❤
It's not isolation. It's transformation.
What was the epiphany ?
2020 started my dark night finally seeing the light I was supposed to be❤❤❤ thank God 😊
I've been at it for 15 years now. It started at the age of 18 with a shattering of my dreams and ambitions ; now I'm almost 33, still lost and grieving, without a clear goal and without an identity.
"It feels like you're free falling into an endless void" oh yes it does
You don't need an identity. YOU are enough.
Yes. It's almost a magical transformation, stepping into your life purpose. It's been a long process which is still happening right now. For the first time in my life, I am becoming the woman my creator intended me to be. It is as exciting & a bit scary. I am finally comfortable in my own skin.
I can relate to all that's spoken here. Thank You❤
I was always like this. I never worked for just money, and was fired up by what interested me.
Don't know where I'm headed, but I know where I've been.......love is all that matters and counts.....❤❤❤❤❤
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Thank you so much. Be strong everyone. God bless us all🙏🏼🫶🏻
This is it . When i awaken in the morning i will be standing alone for at least a week to completely clear out what's still floating in my physical bodies energy. God bless you all.
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Thank you. This is the reassurance I need right now. I have been cranky and crave solitude, which I have for two months. The teacher always appears at the right time. ❤🙏🙏💛
Thank you.
Yes, I must have silence now most of the day. Everything has gone my Job and more.
Much has been born in me 🙏🏾❤️
Yes solitude is a sangkturu. My soul is at peace. ❤ Thank you for your wise word.
Thankyou ❤ this is definitely were Im at .
Wow thank you for the powerful reminder ❤️ love to everyone
You’re welcome, good to have you here 🙏
I'll become what ive always been ....the factual truth 💯...
If only achieving peace of mind was as easy as lighting some incense! Unfortunately, all that seems real to me most days now is my anger, my confusion, and my desire to see justice done. 😒
I agree, it’s definitely not just that. Whether it’s a Mantra, an item or something else…reminders that our struggles are just fog on a profound path can be helpful 🙏
OMG. Have no idea why this video popped up but… Wow! Every single thing I needed to hear. I have been feeling so drained the last couple of days and looking and trying to gain strength, and this just gave me a huge boost! Perfect example of serendipity and answered prayers that we all look for along the way. Thank you so very much for putting this video out! ❤🙏🏼
You’re welcome, I’m glad it helped 🙏
It would have been such a gift if these teachings were available when I chose the path of the heart, felt that once I learned how to love, everything would just automatically adjust. Boy, was I wrong. Shortly after my decision of the path I wanted to travel, was hit with what they called the "Dark Night of the Soul". It was more like the Dark Years of the Soul. It felt like the carpet was pulled out from under my feet and I hit my head on the floor. I cried everyday for years losing beliefs about what I believed was love, it is nothing like you think it is. I prayed all the tears, physical and mental pain would help others on their paths. This video brought back so many memories. Thank you for this podcast. May you be blessed with love and respect for your contribution to all those who need this gift of knowledge now. 🤍
Thank you for your kind words 🙏 it's comments like this that keep me going. It sounds like you've been on quite a journey through it all, dispelling our beliefs, attachments (to people and things) especially the closely held ones, can be immensely painful.
I'm always mindful of the buddhist teaching 'if you see the buddha on the road, kill him'. Meaning if you see what you believe to be 'it' the thing you're looking for, a preconceived idea of what 'it' is, what an awakening is...get rid of it, because that's not it.
I'm glad the video resonated with you, may you be happy 🙏
@@ForbiddenTexts 🌹 I am very happy now, it is all like a dream now. Share for the love of all my brothers and sisters so they will realize they are not alone. Realize many say one can't reach those in darkness, if you believe that, then it is true. I have a wonderful master teacher reach into the darkness to bring me out and I am so grateful. If we can help one other life, blessings will be abundant. I see what you are reaching out to help others. Thank you.
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@@amygraham4132 😉🥰
@@DreamWeaverSoul❤🕊❤️ does your teacher help others?
I strongly believe I needed to hear this! Pain and darkness were my teachers to find my light, my inner peace.
I've asked myself a lot about the dark night of the soul and had read and watched many different videos but yours was full of understanding. I always had a hard time understanding the real story behind it, you nailed it. This is exactly what had happened to me. And my soul confirmed it while watching. Anytime something is true I get huge spiritual chills, coming from my soul pushing outwards. i can feel it so intense that I kind of understand whats my soul trying to say.
I made it through it and I promise anyone who's still on their way, trust the process. believe in yourself. Don't fear anything because in the end you will come out like a lion.
Im so happy I didnt give in, in life. I wanted to so many times, Im glad Im still here to see myself rise up like a phönix from the ashes.
Thanks for your kind words, I’m glad it resonated with you 🙏
thank-you this is exactly what happened to me, a break up caused DKOTS and walked through the fire, God re-molded into a better version, my authentic self. I discovered my true purpose and awareness, then consciousness. I leveled up! As painful as it was, I am glad I went through it. I'm now back to school chasing my dream in Film, I want to share my stories and help the collective achieve their fulfillment.
That's great to hear and I love your dream, I wish you well with it 🙏
Best thing I have seen today🎉 subscribed... Because this SHIT happened to me❤ With a good dose of NDE🎉🎉🎉🎉 BACK WITH VENGEANCE... BTW, completely healed... Impressive what we can really do
Ask the universe for the strength to endure its lessons! Face fear, especially within one's self.
This video is nothing more than PERFECT!!!!! That dark night of the soul was wild......
I think im still in, but towards the end (of this one at least). I see the light at the end of the tunnel ❤❤
These words are so good for me! Thank you! THANK YOU!
Whew! Worth it!🕊️
Well, it seems I've been that place since I was getting shape inside my mom's womb. Sometimes, it gets very difficult but God always sends me his support through videos,a movie, someone's comment, a sunrise, books , a song or even my own mistakes.
Thank you for sharing 🙏
For me the Best explanation abaout awekening hat dawn thanks and thanks again we need more People like you Love is the only law in universe
Stanisla
I am my whole life in a transformation, i just didnt realize it, i always has low self esteam and fear to talk to people outside of my family esacely women.
I had much trouble in life and i have experienced so much "dark holes" in my life and still continuing, but they are not so intense and long as the previous ones when i was younger.
I have now developed after 35 years a deep self esteem, and understading why i am how i am.
i dont like to be with superficial people, i have my own little group of peoplo who i trust.
And i am trying to do my best to save the soul of my two little daugthers, even i make many mistakes, still today.
But i am learning now faster, i adopt faster, i change my perspektive much easyer when i see i am wrong.
i am not into money or succes, my first priority is my family and money is only a tool, and i view succes as a result of having true values.
not dollar or euro bills.
Dark night of the soul can happen without any big external events. When you face every part of you, including your shadow. When you learn to accept yourself with truer, deeper fuller self awareness, and naturally balance yourself.
I’ve looked at the abyss thrice, each for different reasons. But this year feels particuarly enlightening. And only possible because of the previous metamorphosis. Makes the journey wilder doesn’t it. I feel sorry for people too afraid to stare down the abyss. Great to see so many people have gone through and thrived.
solitude in nature is all i need !!!
I've experienced this before. For the first time I'm not afraid.
Continue on it keeps the rest of us a flame
I have been asking God for a sign for better things. I have lost two long-time friends (””) and before bed I click on this. I have been racking my brain trying to figure out what I have been going through. And this video has helped a lot. I can't check all the boxes but most of them. I always have an issue with completing things I start so I don't start.… I have no discipline… I’m working on it. Healing and fixing yourself is hard as F*ck
Unveil the breakthroughs of spiritual awakening-your journey from the shadows to the light starts here! ❤❤❤❤❤ 💕💕💕💕
Thank you for the motivation!
In my experience, being red pilled was a by product of deep change and shifting. I don't take much credit for it though, for I attribute much of it to just getting older. Im grateful Ive lived long enough to learn things I wouldn't have otherwise. Knowing that I can still learn is a kind of a relief. Im 60.
Yup, I've survived the dark night of the soul.. 😅😅😅 👍👍👍🤣
Thank you ❤... New sub.. i needed this.. This explains so much...wow 💯.
Im learning to sit with things that are not comfortable. It is extensively painful.
I feel i have gone away a thousand times, and know it isnt over. Im trying to cultivate self love and create boundaries in the moddle of everything breaking and shifting.
Great Voice.
I did not think when I was in the initial stage that I could even suffer anymore and I was completely wrong. I turned away from it and have spent the last 20 years in the dark night of the soul. Everything that used to bring bliss or joy now I only feel infinitely sad.
It’s a much longer process than you’d think. (I fully intend to go much much further before I leave here)
Thank you
Thank u so much...!!!
"AMEN" 💙😊🙏🙏🙏✌
Thank you for putting this into words ❤
I Appreciate You So Much For This 🙏🏿❣️
Thanks Troy, I appreciate you watching 🙏
FOREVERMORE AMEN🖤🖤🖤
I know it's because the .move I had to make to the city disallows me to see the stars within the night skyline. It's almost like they disappeared when I was forced to leave my life.
Go find them💫
The feeling you’re searching for is already inside of you 🙏
Great video. My awakening happened spontaneously 26 years ago when suddenly I found myself face to face with the Mysterium Tremendum. It was over the top ecstatic. Then I darkened and the unconscious started uncorking and Pandora's Box was opened. The first phase "Dark Night of the Senses" took me 12 years to complete. The 2nd phase "Dark Night of the Spirit" was much more difficult and lasted 11-12 years. I am now in the rebirth or ascension phase. Christians believe there is free salvation by simply reciting the Jesus prayer. This is a lie. My awakening was horrific, agonizing, anguishing, long, arduous...easily the most difficult thing I have ever done. Yes, it had me on my knees and I almost lost my life. It's real. We really are evolving reincarnating spiritual beings. Problem is, the Soul Core is frozen and dormant in most people and they don't even know it is there. 99% of everyone does not know who and what they are.
thanks for the videos. they are excellent 😎🙂
It's the only way. And a process ❤
I’ve been shattered multiple times. I’ve survived and suffered great loss.
Yes yes yes ❤❤
❤thank u so much, only today I've realized I'm an ascended master on flesh and bones ❤ hahahaha... nice!
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Not to sound like Kate McKinnon's "Mrs. Rafferty" character...but it was a little different for me. 😀It lasted 20 years and in retrospect it was like being in a cocoon. (At the time it felt like being in Hell.) Ironically, the thing that kind of snapped me out of it was looking into a mirror and saying, spontaneously: "I love you man!" It was as if I saw the same me that had been looking back via the mirror my entire life, and I finally recognized that "person". It was such a cool feeling to finally meet myself and somehow know everything was okay. In fact, my realization is/was that I had actually been living in a Heaven/Hell paradise my entire life. The difference was/is that now, I'm finally at peace with myself and my life/life's circumstances. And the one main lesson I took -- the only real sin... is fear. Peace.
Thanks for sharing that. It’s good to have you here 🙏
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I am the eternal void falling through sense perception. Sense perception is not who I am. I am registering sense perception through all forms in existence. My being is too vast for existence, which is why one body cannot hold it and why there exists infinite forms of me. These infinite forms only represent my eternal being outside of sense perception. What else could represent eternity in form but infinity? I am as unborn as I am undying. I cannot go anywhere for there is nowhere for me to go. I am alone in my own creation and I cannot fathom all I am for all I am is never ending and everlasting. But I can see that I am split in two, forever longing for one another-myself in the other.
I survived the dark knight of the soul here friend here Mr Fred E Butler
Today I lost my mama... but my awaking happened 2014 after my only daughter passed away.. the awaking happened! I understand now... what is weird! I'll grieve for a couple of days.. then I'm ok.. is this wrong! I know she's good!
@@constancemoore6040 I am so sorry for your loss Constance 🙏
@ForbiddenTexts Thank you.. going through my lessons are getting harder... I find peace through music and family... meditation helps.. for now I'll release all my feelings.. I'll be OK.. my family needs me..
God bless you. So sorry for your loss. 🙏❤️
❤100 💯 ♥️ truth 💯 🙌 👏 👌 ❤️
Experiences before thee knowledge is a wild ride to know thy self…. Thanks for the video. Rainbow Warriors mount up!!!!!!! Meanwhile, CREEECH. Video Games. Xbox. Yo Ween. I AM. WAH
I am now homeless after leaving a 20 year marriage. He stole EVERYTHING. Its so crazy to retain , hard mourning and greaving yourself , alone, in city streets.
Is there any shelters you can go to? I am so sorry that happened to you. Women should be protected!! I am praying for u......❤💪🙏
I was enjoying this, then 1 min in there was an ad selling financial products. Shortly after that, there was an embedded ad for incense. At 6 minutes there was another ad. I stopped the video at that point.
This podcast is offering energy for energy (money), something physical for energy. It costs money and time to do up these videos for our benefit. I have never been to any podcast that didn't want donations or supported by members or advertising. You are still given the choice to do what is right for you but do not miss out on what may change your life. Blessings
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@@DreamWeaverSoul I felt there were too many ads to be able to absorb the message.
@@gavinandrews9026 The choice is always yours and respect that. I reach out to you in love. We live in a polar matrix, everything has its opposite, good, bad, cold, hot, etc.
We choose which polarity we will focus on. You have decided to focus on your perception of negativity but you can also decide to focus on your perception of positivity. The choice of which polarity we choose, reflects back to us what we believe. You are right until you decide to change.
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Most of have knowing…but applying it takes wisdom. The human Ego mind keeps trying to pull you back into human and away from Being…I’m exhausted. I do not want to be in the duality anymore. I’m good now….still trying to let go of the grief of losing my Son…that’s a darkest night of the soul and unless some good, joy , a new door….stuff pours…really hard to move forward. Sometimes knowing can be irrelevant, the nothingness can feel very lonely and letting go into the unknowing takes courage. And actually, searching for home, the mundane of the human routine, ritual can lose its lustre….and the desire to connect back to Source, our ET family, and leave behind the 3D….sighhhhhhh
You need copes to use your copes. Brutal! I want to be the old me, but that is likely impossible. I want my old life, but when I reach out to those old acquaintances, I am reminded why I left and can only return to an eminent ruin. Forward to the new me. I cannot go back the way I came.
I survived and dont know how.
This is Daves wife not Dave.
Good to have you here Dave’s wife 🙏