It is very hard to get to grips with. I had a little boy who followed me everywhere, we were really close. One day "Mum and Dad I am no longer happy with my body". I was very confused for a very long time. She still lives with us and I get very angry about her laziness and untidiness, so her as a person she hasn't changed.
dear mother, i’ve never encountered an album or piece of art that has touched me and my life experience so deeply. this record means the absolute world to me. you’ve destroyed the need to be seen by anyone with this album
Same, I was just chilling jamming and I heard "little girl who needs her daddy real bad" and I started sobbing so hard my husband thought I was like dying or received horrible news
This song was the reason why I was put on lexapro last summer. I could not stop listening and crying because it unlocked way too many childhood traumas I repressed.
This song is heartbreakingly beautiful. The part where she says “I thought good guys get to be happy” punches me right in the gut. THANK YOU for writing this
When I first heard this song, I was driving. I had to pull over and just sob and sob. I went to work and felt like my heart had been rubbed raw. I love this song so much.
As someone with an estranged parent, the repetition of "I'm tired of you still tied to me" hits notes in my soul that I didn't know were there. This album is a gift. Thank you Ethel (even though I'm crying now).
Never has a song ever hurt me this bad. It's so beautifully and painfully written. I experience being abused for over a decade and in the aftermath i don't know how to feel about this person. It's an emotional rollercoaster and everyday i approach my feelings towards them differently. The times where i was supposed to be innocent and enjoy my time as a child was spent in fear and discomfort when all i wanted was to be loved and cared for like a normal child. This song is healing. This song is helping me understand i actually went through a traumatic experience and has the right words to explain it all. I am so thankful i discovered this artist, I cant wait for their future projects and to give my support to someone with so much passion for what they create. Thank you Mother Cain
Hide me there, under the leaves Nine going on eighteen, lay it on me Tell me a story about how it ends Where you're still the good guy, I'll make pretend 'Cause I hate this story Where happiness ends and dies with you (mmh) I thought good guys get to be happy I'm not happy I am poison in the water and unhappy Little girl who needs her daddy real bad (real bad) In the corner, on my birthday, you watched me Dancing right there in the grass I was too young to notice That some types of love could be bad Praying I'd be like you Doing all of the things that you do And I still do And that scares me I'm tired of you still tied to me (Bleeding whenever you want) Too tired to move, too tired to leave I'm tired of you still tied to me (It's just the way that you are) I'm tired of you, too tired to leave I'm tired of you still tied to me Too tired to move, too tired to leave I'm tired of you still tied to me I'm tired of you, too tired to leave I'm tired of you still tied to me Too tired to move, too tired to leave
Ethel Cain, you're the only new artist I even care about right now Knowing a little about your background, what you've been through, you lay your soul on the table for everyone to see And you have a beautiful soul ❤️ Please, continue to do what you do I read the comments and it's plain to see that you're helping soo many people make it another fkn day Heh, like it or not, you're doing the good work Jesus Christ wants you to do by letting them know....it's OK to be hurt, to have an unpleasant history, that you can rise above it and be strong in spite of (or because of?) it all May God continue to bless you and keep you under His wings 🖤
If it's "God" you believe is driving this artist I'd say it's lots of talent and refusing to give up. It's time we all look up from our phones and at each other. Humans helping other humans is what she's doing, showing her pain to the world. That bravery is what we're responding to. Pay it forward.
Listening to this at 3am, numb and depersonalised with tears running down both cheeks, the big black dog weighing down on my back whilst I sit wishing I had hit the liqueur store before it closed. It's songs like this that help me feel something anything, your tortured expression has tapped into a wellspring of pain and despair within me allowing a little bit to flow out, and now I can sleep. Thank you from the bottom of my concrete heart!
yeah. it’s telling the story the child didn’t get to tell, in a comforting way that sounds like a lullaby, trying to make the horrifying experience a little less painful to talk about
Old Testament is the Word of God before Christ and completely relevant to the New Testament, such as many allusions in prophecies of His coming, the 10 commandments etc.
“I'm tired of you still tied to me Too tired to move, too tired to leave I'm tired of you still tied to me I'm tired of you, too tired to leave” this part makes me think of my abusive parent who I had to stop talking to for my sanity almost 8 years ago. One of the hardest choices to make
Hide me there Under the leaves 9 going on 18 Lay it on me Tell me a story About how it ends Where you're still the good guy I'll make pretend Cause I hate this story Where happiness ends And dies with you I thought good guys get to be happy I'm not happy I am poison in the water and unhappy Little girl who needs her daddy real bad In the corner On my birthday You watched me Dancing right there in the grass I was too young To notice That some types of love could be bad Praying I'd be like you Doing all of the things that you do And I still do And that scares me I'm tired of you, still tied to me (Bleeding whenever you want) Too tired to move, too tired to leave I'm tired of you, still tied to me (It's just the way that you are) I'm tired of you, too tired to leave (I just wanna sleep) I'm tired of you, still tied to me (I just wanna sleep) Too tired to move, too tired to leave (I just wanna sleep) I'm tired of you, still tied to me (Please, can I sleep, can I sleep?) I'm tired of you, too tired to leave I'm tired of you, still tied to me Too tired to move, too tired to leave
If David Lynch reboots “Twin Peaks” or any film? We found his soundtrack! Beautiful song I grew up in the Bible Belt of North Alabama the video esthetics remind me of Red Bank Creek and the train bridge we jumped off of playing chicken with freight trains. FYI I moved to Hollywood, CA when I turned 18 never looked back. #musicislife 💔❤️🩹❤️
There’s so much subtle undertones of nostalgia in your melodies. ‘No story is a straight line. The geometry of a human life is too imperfect and complex.’ “Hard Times” is pure joy & pure sadness captured perfectly. Never stop writing
Grew up in North Alabama, too, and I also moved to LA for almost a decade. Had a similar first thought when I saw this, that it looked like Indian Creek.
One of my best friends passed away from cancer 1 year ago next month I don't think I'll ever stop missing him but like many others discovering Ethel's music is helping me through these emotions Through grief is how I choose to interpret my feelings from this song,even though it's about something completely different
This song is deeply personal to me. Down to the details of the story. I never thought I would be represented, that my pain would be seen and described for the world to see. It hurts and makes me cry every time, but I wouldn't have it any other way.
My dad was sick and the medicine made him psychotic then he died when I was four this song always makes me think of him and what I wish I could say to him now that I’m 22
@@espresso_beans i know whats its actually about babes. the “tired” feeling of being tied to someone can resonate with a lot of trauma survivors. regardless what the situation was. i appreciate the song immensely for shining a light on a heavy subject.
Mother, this song paved the last generation of songs I wrote, I can finally write down about the darkest sides of my life in the rawest way possible and with the most gut wrecking words ever, all thanks to this song. Thank you, no piece of art has ever touched me so deeply
You changed my life mother. I found your song in a instagram reel one day. One hit and I just got addicted. I needed more of the Cain you know. So I listened to preachers daughter and this song had me levitating over the canopy and I live in New Jersey so there was no canopy. That’s how good you got me. I told everybody to stream I made my mom and my dad stream. I just want you to know that you found a way to say something I couldn’t really say sometimes. Your songs to me are the words on the tip of my tongue that I just can’t seem to say. But since I found you and your music I have that power again. This album and the eps give me such an essence of peace in insanity and it helps me process every little step of my life I come across now. I just want you to know you made a difference in my life.
This portrays the persistent ache of CSA and associated CPTSD so incredibly well. Ruminating on the person who caused so much harm, who also stood as a father figure in life and subsequently looking up to them in ways. It's palpable, the hopelessness that is forever being attached to them in those ways.
i’ve been feeling like the way this song sounds for a really long time and just you saying how you’re supposed to be happy even though you’re not feels really validating
Holy crap this song never fails to make me cry thank you Ethel for such a stunning song! I can relate too much to this as I realized the one person I loved dearly no matter how much he hurt me mentally and was the cause of me getting bullied in school,also hurt me this way.. If anyone's reading this comment please know you're not alone!!!!
this album is life changing for me. breaks me apart and puts me together everytime i listen. your music means the world to me. thank you thank you thank you for everything forever💗
I'm currently a waterworks right now. I'm beyond grateful to have found you and your music. Although this is the first of many that I will listen to. I can only imagine what your other songs will bring out of me.
Dear Ethel Cain it has been a week today since I went up and saw you in Portland Maine. It was definitely one of the best days of my life and best concert I ever been to!!! I drove two hours out of state and waited 3 hours in line. I was lucky enough to get up front and you were so amazing you came up and held my hand sang to me during American teenager. You rubbed my hand while doing it and I can tell you are a true genuine artist. You are the best artist ever! Thank you so much for giving me that memory it has helped with my depression and anxiety so much. Love you mother ❤❤♥️
This song leaves you teary eyed, especially when you relate to the lyrics. And it's really hard for me not to! There's a flashback of memories, whatever I've gone through.
I've heard about this before, but was "forbidden" from asking/researching it when I was younger. I obeyed to avoid more pain and I guess I just forgot about it (oppressive pastiche religious cult like upbringing full of the typical horrific abuses 😅🫤). Your comment lit up these dusty memories. Do you mind me asking how you break and heal them? (Sorry if this is a silly reply/question.)
@@tomydismay it is not a silly question. 1. Ask the Holy Spirit to bring to mind a memory of the soul tie He wants to break first. 2. When the memory comes ask Jesus to heal the deep wound in your soul. 3. Remember that memory again and see if the pain has been relieved. 4. Ask the Lord if there is anything else surround this memory is wants to do. (Sometimes it's forgiveness and or repentance that will be needed to break the soul tie along with healing the memory of the pain.
This song hits a chord inside..Conjirs happiness and sadness all at once...how can she write so beautifully song after song?? This to me is some of the best composing songwriting I've ever heard...wanting. more ethal
It is impossible to describe this album or describe the emotions it feels. All the notes, the magical tones created by the voice and instrument plays in the melody transitions.. I am in a confusion of emotions. I'm 25 years old and all the songs on this album took me back to all my experiences and memoir collections. Dear Ethel, I am happy to have discovered an inspiration like you. Lots of love and hugs! Do not deprive us of your new works.
Being raised Catholic, but getting deeper into its enthrall when my parents’ divorce, during a time I was learning to understand my own sexuality, and what it means to be different and alone, religion supplanted itself next to csa trauma from religious leaders and family ( holy that was a long sentence ). this album broke me to my core… lamenting on trauma has always bred more bad routes, often objectifying myself. even though, I abandoned religion, I feel it’s often an only hope in the end. praying whenever there’s something bad, from a religion that claims im an abomination, telling a god id change. every song, I wept from Cain. she expresses the feeling of hopeless calling. being told we are valued, but not all of us are. i wasn’t made this way to be punished. “im not happy; god loves you but not enough to save you; im poison in the water.” the chords these lyrics attack in me, it’s just a river. im insanely glad Ethel has allowed me to release this built up tension and further understand these crosses on my body. sorry for the long comment but she makes me feel pretty vulnerable 😅
your visuals are so nostalgic and familiar especially american teenager all your visuals are places ive been(ive been places similar) and even some of your lyrics i relate to keep going on this path you'll be famous
Too tired to move, too tired to leave (I just wanna sleep) I was assaulted in this exact way a few years ago in Louisiana. Telling a coworker who took me home after a New Year's party that I just wanted to sleep after refusing his requests. He allowed me and then went back on his word minutes later. I was so tired after drinking. I asked him so many times to stop and let me sleep but he told me he knows I want it and held me down. I was too weak mentally and physically to continue to fight against his grip. He was bigger and stronger than me. Kept pulling me back onto him when I left his grip. Since I didn't get to sleep that night, I haven't slept since. So much pain and desire is shared in this song. The visual, the creek reminds of those years I lived the remainder of my teens in the small town south of Louisiana. I feel so much in the South, nothing will come close it. The good, the bad, but very alive.
This is so honest and perfect .. I love how the guitar is out of tune even. Her drone has filled the Slowdive slot for an old man. It's better. This video reminds me of that Waterhouse painting of the nymphs in the water.
honestly this album, I haven't felt like there was such a raw generational talent behind it since cobain and nevermind, never thought I'd experience that feeling again, especially at my age
Since no ones posted the lyrics: Hide me there, under the leaves Nine going on eighteen, lay it on me Tell me a story about how it ends Where you're still the good guy, I'll make pretend 'Cause I hate this story Where happiness ends and dies with you (mhmm) I thought good guys get to be happy I'm not happy I am poison in the water and unhappy Little girl who needs her daddy real bad (real bad) In the corner, on my birthday, you watched me Dancing right there in the grass I was too young to notice That some types of love could be bad Praying I'd be like you Doing all of the things that you do And I still do And that scares me I'm tired of you still tied to me Bleeding whenever you want Too tired to move, too tired to leave I'm tired of you still tied to me It's just the way that you are I'm tired of you, too tired to leave I'm tired of you still tied to me Too tired to move, too tired to leave I'm tired of you still tied to me I'm tired of you, too tired to leave I'm tired of you still tied to me Too tired to move, too tired to leave
I wasn't abused by anyone when I was young. But I'm about, in a day or two, to call my father and tell him I don't want to talk to him anymore. Lastly, he was more and more tyrannic, irresponsible and being horrible with my mother, his ex-wife, and my little sister. And the more he was revealing his true face, the more I felt devastated. My father was the only adult on which I could rely on as a child, being a real "daddy's girl" (my mother was horribly toxic with me, because of traumas she couldn't handle, which I understood as a grown-up but couldn't as a child). My father was my hero, my protector, the one who seemed to truly and purely understand me. But years proved me I was wrong and that it was all on the surface : the last time we talked, he showed me how bad he knows me, not being able to see his faults or to truly say sorry. This may not be as much as certain people but it still hurts a lot. This song helps me to cry and might be the one which will help me to go through this. Thanks Ethel, you're pure beauty and healing ❤️
I listen to this song on repeat when I’m sleeping. The crickets at the beginning and the vocals are so beautiful and relaxing. My favorite song of yours.
“I’m tired of you still tied to me, too tired to move, too tired to leave” really hits when you’ve been in an abusive relationship like that.
Ugh right. You want to leave, but the abuse has totally paralyzed you and you just can’t see the point.
before i knew the origin of the song, i thought that’s what it was about. it reminds me of a relationship i was in, when i was 20.
@@cngelzI’m so sorry u went through a relationship like that, sending u love and strength 🤍
"I was too young to notice that some types of love could be bad” really sums up the CSA experience. I listen to this whenever I need a good cry.
YOURE SO REAL
former daddy’s girls who can’t seem to stop loving their fathers no matter how hard they try… how we feeling guys
Wrecked, demolished, devastated, weeping, screaming, crying, rotting, deteriorating, absolutely wasting away rn
With every tear that rolls down my cheek, I'm reminded of how deeply they wanted me to be their son...they can't accept that they have a daughter...
Ur a wonderful girl, i'm sorry they can't see that. I'm proud of u
i feel u girl
I'm proud of you too. You're amazing as you are - always know that. :)
It is very hard to get to grips with. I had a little boy who followed me everywhere, we were really close. One day "Mum and Dad I am no longer happy with my body". I was very confused for a very long time. She still lives with us and I get very angry about her laziness and untidiness, so her as a person she hasn't changed.
Felt this one, we love you
dear mother,
i’ve never encountered an album or piece of art that has touched me and my life experience so deeply. this record means the absolute world to me. you’ve destroyed the need to be seen by anyone with this album
💜
Damn
💗💗
Hope i can feel seen that way too
what they said!^
How can a song be so relaxing and yet so horrific at the same time? The talent of this woman
Fr I love the little mmmmmms
MY EXACT THOUGHTS!!
something about the way she sings the word “birthday” haunts my head
same
so true
Her southern accent
real
I'm a 30 year old woman, and this song unlocks so much pain I've been holding onto. So many tears have been poured by me.
Same, I was just chilling jamming and I heard "little girl who needs her daddy real bad" and I started sobbing so hard my husband thought I was like dying or received horrible news
This song was the reason why I was put on lexapro last summer. I could not stop listening and crying because it unlocked way too many childhood traumas I repressed.
I'm a 43 year old man, and this album destroys me ( in that kind of a good way)
❤
I don't think a song has brought so many feelings forward for me. It's so beautifully sad.💜
I can’t stop crying lol.. each “I’m tired of you” hurts more and more dude
This sound ahh cant explain in words
ooh so it aint just me??? Bett
@@debrajgogoi7326 pp
the cicadas and crickets acting as instruments ... your mind!!
Remembering some really terrible childhood trauma that I had repressed. I’m so sad I can relate to this song.
Same
Same. Lots of trauma being processed and released. These songs are everything to me.
Same
you’re not alone. i am so proud of you and you are so strong. i mean that even though i don’t know you i know you are strong!
I can’t believe I’m just discovering Ethel. What a powerful soul she has.
“In the corner, on my birthday, you watched me
Dancing right there in the grass
I was too young to notice
That some types of love could be bad”
☹️
I was too young to notice that some types of love could be bad 🥺
This song is heartbreakingly beautiful. The part where she says “I thought good guys get to be happy” punches me right in the gut. THANK YOU for writing this
In my head always
“Name one hero who was happy” - The Song of Achilles
"praying I'd be like you, doing all of the things that you do, and i still do and that scares me" breaks my heart everytime
When I first heard this song, I was driving. I had to pull over and just sob and sob.
I went to work and felt like my heart had been rubbed raw. I love this song so much.
reading your comment made me choke up. damn. my eyes are welling up with tears.
rubbed raw
When my 35 yr old extremely jaded self needs to feel something, I come here, listen, and read these heartfelt comments
As someone with an estranged parent, the repetition of "I'm tired of you still tied to me" hits notes in my soul that I didn't know were there. This album is a gift. Thank you Ethel (even though I'm crying now).
4:18 Does anyone else hear her say “please can I sleep tonight?” in the background at the end?
It’s def there not sure why it’s not included in the lyric.
Whoa omg I never noticed that until you pointed it out omg :-(
i think it’s “please can i sleep? can i sleeeeeeep?”
It’s my fav part of the song! ❤
breaks my heart every single time I hear it
Never has a song ever hurt me this bad. It's so beautifully and painfully written. I experience being abused for over a decade and in the aftermath i don't know how to feel about this person. It's an emotional rollercoaster and everyday i approach my feelings towards them differently. The times where i was supposed to be innocent and enjoy my time as a child was spent in fear and discomfort when all i wanted was to be loved and cared for like a normal child. This song is healing. This song is helping me understand i actually went through a traumatic experience and has the right words to explain it all. I am so thankful i discovered this artist, I cant wait for their future projects and to give my support to someone with so much passion for what they create. Thank you Mother Cain
“i am poison in the water” best lyric
Hide me there, under the leaves
Nine going on eighteen, lay it on me
Tell me a story about how it ends
Where you're still the good guy, I'll make pretend
'Cause I hate this story
Where happiness ends and dies with you (mmh)
I thought good guys get to be happy
I'm not happy
I am poison in the water and unhappy
Little girl who needs her daddy real bad (real bad)
In the corner, on my birthday, you watched me
Dancing right there in the grass
I was too young to notice
That some types of love could be bad
Praying I'd be like you
Doing all of the things that you do
And I still do
And that scares me
I'm tired of you still tied to me
(Bleeding whenever you want)
Too tired to move, too tired to leave
I'm tired of you still tied to me
(It's just the way that you are)
I'm tired of you, too tired to leave
I'm tired of you still tied to me
Too tired to move, too tired to leave
I'm tired of you still tied to me
I'm tired of you, too tired to leave
I'm tired of you still tied to me
Too tired to move, too tired to leave
I just wanna sleep
Ethel Cain, you're the only new artist I even care about right now
Knowing a little about your background, what you've been through, you lay your soul on the table for everyone to see
And you have a beautiful soul ❤️
Please, continue to do what you do
I read the comments and it's plain to see that you're helping soo many people make it another fkn day
Heh, like it or not, you're doing the good work Jesus Christ wants you to do by letting them know....it's OK to be hurt, to have an unpleasant history, that you can rise above it and be strong in spite of (or because of?) it all
May God continue to bless you and keep you under His wings 🖤
If it's "God" you believe is driving this artist I'd say it's lots of talent and refusing to give up. It's time we all look up from our phones and at each other. Humans helping other humans is what she's doing, showing her pain to the world. That bravery is what we're responding to. Pay it forward.
if a song could perfectly encompass all the feelings of shame, sadness and inadequacy i felt while growing up, this would be it.
Listening to this at 3am, numb and depersonalised with tears running down both cheeks, the big black dog weighing down on my back whilst I sit wishing I had hit the liqueur store before it closed. It's songs like this that help me feel something anything, your tortured expression has tapped into a wellspring of pain and despair within me allowing a little bit to flow out, and now I can sleep. Thank you from the bottom of my concrete heart!
I thought good guys get to be happy
I'm not happy
I am poison in the water and unhappy.
I felt that.
I feel that a lot too. Empty and vacuous, sapping up energy
this song is purifying i cant explain it
That's such a great word choice. It's as if it frees and releases everything held within... Leaving your soul purified.
yeah. it’s telling the story the child didn’t get to tell, in a comforting way that sounds like a lullaby, trying to make the horrifying experience a little less painful to talk about
purifying
My ears hear the Book of Ecclesiastes reverberating in your heart. Your talent truly is a blessing for ragamuffins wandering in the wilderness.
Old testament? Ugh we don't get down with that.
Old Testament is the Word of God before Christ and completely relevant to the New Testament, such as many allusions in prophecies of His coming, the 10 commandments etc.
@@paulk8072 Old testament is Satan masquerading as god.
Girlie got me crying over trauma I don't even have-
That bass drop...ugh so good
....? Lmao what bass drop? Is this a joke or....?
@@saminess2 I thought good guys get to be (BASS) happy
my heart sinks at that moment every time
in the corner (drop) on my birthday
“I'm tired of you still tied to me
Too tired to move, too tired to leave
I'm tired of you still tied to me
I'm tired of you, too tired to leave” this part makes me think of my abusive parent who I had to stop talking to for my sanity almost 8 years ago. One of the hardest choices to make
you're so strong, you got this💗
Thank you. I feel weak a lot of times but I think of everything I’ve gone through and I feel strong knowing I’m still here.
this is my favorite song on the album i think. so heartbreaking
Hide me there
Under the leaves
9 going on 18
Lay it on me
Tell me a story
About how it ends
Where you're still the good guy
I'll make pretend
Cause I hate this story
Where happiness ends
And dies with you
I thought good guys get to be happy
I'm not happy
I am poison in the water and unhappy
Little girl who needs her daddy real bad
In the corner
On my birthday
You watched me
Dancing right there in the grass
I was too young
To notice
That some types of love could be bad
Praying I'd be like you
Doing all of the things that you do
And I still do
And that scares me
I'm tired of you, still tied to me
(Bleeding whenever you want)
Too tired to move, too tired to leave
I'm tired of you, still tied to me
(It's just the way that you are)
I'm tired of you, too tired to leave
(I just wanna sleep)
I'm tired of you, still tied to me
(I just wanna sleep)
Too tired to move, too tired to leave
(I just wanna sleep)
I'm tired of you, still tied to me
(Please, can I sleep, can I sleep?)
I'm tired of you, too tired to leave
I'm tired of you, still tied to me
Too tired to move, too tired to leave
Ethel touches something so close and so personal to me. It drags up old and muted memories that have always been there but buried and locked away.
the urge to meet and befriend ethel 😵💫 this is so beautiful
Her music makes me feel like I'm not alone
If David Lynch reboots “Twin Peaks” or any film? We found his soundtrack! Beautiful song
I grew up in the Bible Belt of North Alabama the video esthetics remind me of Red Bank Creek and the train bridge we jumped off of playing chicken with freight trains.
FYI I moved to Hollywood, CA when I turned 18 never looked back. #musicislife 💔❤️🩹❤️
There’s so much subtle undertones of nostalgia in your melodies. ‘No story is a straight line. The geometry of a human life is too imperfect and complex.’
“Hard Times” is pure joy & pure sadness captured perfectly. Never stop writing
Grew up in North Alabama, too, and I also moved to LA for almost a decade. Had a similar first thought when I saw this, that it looked like Indian Creek.
@@rcgray2278 Did you grow up near Decatur?
you always pick the most natural feeling visuals :’)
Curled up while my sobs make puddles on the floor while some part of me rejoices at the sheer majestic brilliance of this artist. Gasp. Bravo!
The mulltiple meaning of the word "tired"... simply poetic
One of my best friends passed away from cancer 1 year ago next month
I don't think I'll ever stop missing him but like many others discovering Ethel's music is helping me through these emotions
Through grief is how I choose to interpret my feelings from this song,even though it's about something completely different
This song is deeply personal to me. Down to the details of the story. I never thought I would be represented, that my pain would be seen and described for the world to see. It hurts and makes me cry every time, but I wouldn't have it any other way.
My dad was sick and the medicine made him psychotic then he died when I was four this song always makes me think of him and what I wish I could say to him now that I’m 22
as a closeted trans girl i do feel courage through your art
this song opened wounds i thought i healed already but also helped me heal more than ever. this song changed me forever i love you ethel
This song is like a sad lullaby
This song perfectly embodies what is feels like to have an old wound that never healed correctly.
I'm honestly still processing this one ... Hit me in ways I wasn't expecting. Grateful and amazed.
Most heartbreaking song of 2022 imo
Tbh one of the most heartbreaking songs I’ve ever heard
this song brings a feeling in me like no other i love it omg, anyone thats been in a toxic relationship gets it
babes that's not what the song is about...
@@espresso_beans i know whats its actually about babes. the “tired” feeling of being tied to someone can resonate with a lot of trauma survivors. regardless what the situation was. i appreciate the song immensely for shining a light on a heavy subject.
if life was fair ethel would be showered in grammys left and right, seriously am in tears, this is so good !!!!!
Mother, this song paved the last generation of songs I wrote, I can finally write down about the darkest sides of my life in the rawest way possible and with the most gut wrecking words ever, all thanks to this song. Thank you, no piece of art has ever touched me so deeply
You changed my life mother. I found your song in a instagram reel one day. One hit and I just got addicted. I needed more of the Cain you know. So I listened to preachers daughter and this song had me levitating over the canopy and I live in New Jersey so there was no canopy. That’s how good you got me. I told everybody to stream I made my mom and my dad stream. I just want you to know that you found a way to say something I couldn’t really say sometimes. Your songs to me are the words on the tip of my tongue that I just can’t seem to say. But since I found you and your music I have that power again. This album and the eps give me such an essence of peace in insanity and it helps me process every little step of my life I come across now. I just want you to know you made a difference in my life.
This hit me in the mommy AND the daddy issues. (In the best way) Ethel your music is so cleansing to my soul. I truly want to bathe in it. ❤
This portrays the persistent ache of CSA and associated CPTSD so incredibly well. Ruminating on the person who caused so much harm, who also stood as a father figure in life and subsequently looking up to them in ways. It's palpable, the hopelessness that is forever being attached to them in those ways.
This song and Ethel Cain is deep therapy. So beautifully sad 💜
Thank you Mother🙏🏼💜
do not leave me alone with this album playing
this is one of the best song I ever heard in my entire life...
One of the only songs that have ever made me cry. :(
i’ve been feeling like the way this song sounds for a really long time and just you saying how you’re supposed to be happy even though you’re not feels really validating
My favorite song from the album !!
Holy crap this song never fails to make me cry thank you Ethel for such a stunning song! I can relate too much to this as I realized the one person I loved dearly no matter how much he hurt me mentally and was the cause of me getting bullied in school,also hurt me this way.. If anyone's reading this comment please know you're not alone!!!!
Far from a one trick pony, the variety of the songs are deeply grounded in a style that I love.
this album is life changing for me. breaks me apart and puts me together everytime i listen. your music means the world to me. thank you thank you thank you for everything forever💗
the way this song is so therapeutic needs to be studied !!! GENIUS !!
I'm currently a waterworks right now. I'm beyond grateful to have found you and your music. Although this is the first of many that I will listen to. I can only imagine what your other songs will bring out of me.
This is such an emotional melody and vibe
Dear Ethel Cain it has been a week today since I went up and saw you in Portland Maine. It was definitely one of the best days of my life and best concert I ever been to!!! I drove two hours out of state and waited 3 hours in line. I was lucky enough to get up front and you were so amazing you came up and held my hand sang to me during American teenager. You rubbed my hand while doing it and I can tell you are a true genuine artist. You are the best artist ever! Thank you so much for giving me that memory it has helped with my depression and anxiety so much. Love you mother ❤❤♥️
I’m in bed crying my heart out, yet trying so hard to not make a sound.
This song leaves you teary eyed, especially when you relate to the lyrics. And it's really hard for me not to! There's a flashback of memories, whatever I've gone through.
soul ties are painful but can be broken off and healed.
I've heard about this before, but was "forbidden" from asking/researching it when I was younger. I obeyed to avoid more pain and I guess I just forgot about it (oppressive pastiche religious cult like upbringing full of the typical horrific abuses 😅🫤). Your comment lit up these dusty memories. Do you mind me asking how you break and heal them? (Sorry if this is a silly reply/question.)
@@tomydismay it is not a silly question. 1. Ask the Holy Spirit to bring to mind a memory of the soul tie He wants to break first. 2. When the memory comes ask Jesus to heal the deep wound in your soul. 3. Remember that memory again and see if the pain has been relieved. 4. Ask the Lord if there is anything else surround this memory is wants to do. (Sometimes it's forgiveness and or repentance that will be needed to break the soul tie along with healing the memory of the pain.
i'll never be good enough
This song hits a chord inside..Conjirs happiness and sadness all at once...how can she write so beautifully song after song?? This to me is some of the best composing songwriting I've ever heard...wanting. more ethal
It's all you listen to now 💙
This album has been my saving grace. I feel so safe with it.
This has me in floods of tears. What a song 😭❤
I remember listening to this for the first time when it was released such a beautiful song im crying
I'm crying so hard. I can't describe how much this means to me...
It is impossible to describe this album or describe the emotions it feels. All the notes, the magical tones created by the voice and instrument plays in the melody transitions.. I am in a confusion of emotions. I'm 25 years old and all the songs on this album took me back to all my experiences and memoir collections. Dear Ethel, I am happy to have discovered an inspiration like you. Lots of love and hugs! Do not deprive us of your new works.
Being raised Catholic, but getting deeper into its enthrall when my parents’ divorce, during a time I was learning to understand my own sexuality, and what it means to be different and alone, religion supplanted itself next to csa trauma from religious leaders and family ( holy that was a long sentence ). this album broke me to my core… lamenting on trauma has always bred more bad routes, often objectifying myself. even though, I abandoned religion, I feel it’s often an only hope in the end. praying whenever there’s something bad, from a religion that claims im an abomination, telling a god id change. every song, I wept from Cain. she expresses the feeling of hopeless calling. being told we are valued, but not all of us are. i wasn’t made this way to be punished. “im not happy; god loves you but not enough to save you; im poison in the water.” the chords these lyrics attack in me, it’s just a river. im insanely glad Ethel has allowed me to release this built up tension and further understand these crosses on my body. sorry for the long comment but she makes me feel pretty vulnerable 😅
Beautiful, one of the best song of all time, period.
Fave song on the album. This is literally keeping me from ending it all. Luv u, Ethel ❤️
Please take care of yourself, hope your doing better, you are loved, you are everything you need to be. Don't mean to overstep, but I can relate.
your visuals are so nostalgic and familiar especially american teenager all your visuals are places ive been(ive been places similar) and even some of your lyrics i relate to keep going on this path you'll be famous
Too tired to move, too tired to leave (I just wanna sleep)
I was assaulted in this exact way a few years ago in Louisiana. Telling a coworker who took me home after a New Year's party that I just wanted to sleep after refusing his requests. He allowed me and then went back on his word minutes later. I was so tired after drinking. I asked him so many times to stop and let me sleep but he told me he knows I want it and held me down. I was too weak mentally and physically to continue to fight against his grip. He was bigger and stronger than me. Kept pulling me back onto him when I left his grip.
Since I didn't get to sleep that night, I haven't slept since.
So much pain and desire is shared in this song.
The visual, the creek reminds of those years I lived the remainder of my teens in the small town south of Louisiana. I feel so much in the South, nothing will come close it. The good, the bad, but very alive.
This is so honest and perfect .. I love how the guitar is out of tune even. Her drone has filled the Slowdive slot for an old man. It's better. This video reminds me of that Waterhouse painting of the nymphs in the water.
I love this! Beautiful!
honestly this album, I haven't felt like there was such a raw generational talent behind it since cobain and nevermind, never thought I'd experience that feeling again, especially at my age
Since no ones posted the lyrics:
Hide me there, under the leaves
Nine going on eighteen, lay it on me
Tell me a story about how it ends
Where you're still the good guy, I'll make pretend
'Cause I hate this story
Where happiness ends and dies with you (mhmm)
I thought good guys get to be happy
I'm not happy
I am poison in the water and unhappy
Little girl who needs her daddy real bad (real bad)
In the corner, on my birthday, you watched me
Dancing right there in the grass
I was too young to notice
That some types of love could be bad
Praying I'd be like you
Doing all of the things that you do
And I still do
And that scares me
I'm tired of you still tied to me
Bleeding whenever you want
Too tired to move, too tired to leave
I'm tired of you still tied to me
It's just the way that you are
I'm tired of you, too tired to leave
I'm tired of you still tied to me
Too tired to move, too tired to leave
I'm tired of you still tied to me
I'm tired of you, too tired to leave
I'm tired of you still tied to me
Too tired to move, too tired to leave
this saved and changed me thank you
mother i love you so much how tf can you write a song about my life like this omg
nothing will ever mean as much to me as thing song. thank you hayden.
i’ve never seen myself reflected in a song so much as this. thank you for this. this is beautiful.
I wasn't abused by anyone when I was young. But I'm about, in a day or two, to call my father and tell him I don't want to talk to him anymore. Lastly, he was more and more tyrannic, irresponsible and being horrible with my mother, his ex-wife, and my little sister. And the more he was revealing his true face, the more I felt devastated. My father was the only adult on which I could rely on as a child, being a real "daddy's girl" (my mother was horribly toxic with me, because of traumas she couldn't handle, which I understood as a grown-up but couldn't as a child). My father was my hero, my protector, the one who seemed to truly and purely understand me. But years proved me I was wrong and that it was all on the surface : the last time we talked, he showed me how bad he knows me, not being able to see his faults or to truly say sorry. This may not be as much as certain people but it still hurts a lot. This song helps me to cry and might be the one which will help me to go through this. Thanks Ethel, you're pure beauty and healing ❤️
Im obsessed with this new album. love you so much Ethel
Listening with a huge lump in my throat. Trying to find the words to make things right
I listen to this song on repeat when I’m sleeping. The crickets at the beginning and the vocals are so beautiful and relaxing. My favorite song of yours.
Cool tune. Lovin it
This is simply beautiful... the emotions it unlocks and allows to pour outta me.. I will be forever greatful for this. 💜🙏💜
You are the thing I’ve been looking for