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I fell like ill never be able to see a live stream I'm just hated by god and life to much that it well never happen......

Vent incoming (TW: talking about potential pr3d4tor) My sibling (they/she) figured out that this guy they barely talked to since childhood got a girlfriend, and they suddenly became very interested in figuring out how Discord worked. After a bit, they started talking about how this one dude was really fun to talk to. Like, they talked about him ALL the time. One day, she tells me that he’s 17 and I say “so way too young for you.” Cause she’s in her damn 30’s, and she hesitates. I remind her that talking to minors in a romantic manner is kinda wrong and she should avoid doing that, and she agrees. Mind you: I didn’t say “stop talking to him” though maybe I should have, I just said “stop talking to him like a potential boyfriend.” Not even a few days later, they gave up Discord cause it was “too boring.” I got worried and asked if it was because they stopped talking to the 17 year old like a potential partner and they VERY CASUALLY said yes. At that point, I said I needed space from them which made them super sad. They tried to hug it out with me, but I refused. She still sometimes tries to come and hug me, sounding all sad and shit, and I just can’t. I just can’t look at her the same way anymore.

Very proud of you for finding a healthy outlet for your emotions!! Bottling it up is never a good thing and I'm very happy for you that you have managed to find an outlet and an audience to help you get out your emotions!

im sorry you going through that, you dont deserve any of this eden :( you deserve better <3 feel better soon, take care

(TW for csa, abuse, sh, sui, cussing? homophobia/transphobia and all things related) Hey eden, ik you prob won't see this, but your vents have actually brought a lot of comfort to me during my depressive episodes. I know i'm only 14, but i've gone through really similar shit. I feel for you. I understand what it's like to rebuild a life after grooming, manipulation, abuse, and whatnot. And to try to push through mental disorders while neurotypicals make life look easy. It's not fun to be dodging mental hospitals at such a young age. But at times to where i want to kms, I'll sometimes look at these videos, seems dumb, but it helps to find somebody who relates, even if they have no idea who you are. I decided to come back through after a suicide attempt and an ugly experience with transphobic family, and i really thought you would appreciate to know that your videos do make a difference. and your artstyle is amazing. I found your main account recently, and it's really nice to see the happy golucky side of you aswell. I'm sure you're an amazing and wonderful person, no person deserves to go through what you went through, or what i went through, or any sort of trauma like that. Now i can firmly say it's been 9 years today since my first abuser, and 1 year and a month since my most recent. We do heal. no matter how early or late in life. I don't even know why i'm writing this anymore, maybe because the scars that i embedded into my own skin aren't a story enough? I don't know. But I suppose to any internet traveler reading this, good luck on your path of life. I hope you find what you're looking for in your journey, and you meet a satisfactory afterlife, or lack thereof. <33

I don't really know you, but I read the description and I'm sorry that today sucks, but I'm glad you feel a bit better :)

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better.

"let me effing die, just LET ME EFFING DIE-" "nvm talked to my therapist all is well" if that isnt a major mood lmao

Im happy your feeling bettee :3 /positive

I refuse to acknowledge this was posted already 2 months ago Also, this has been one of those songs for me that "Damn I like these lyrics but the music is mid" and seeing it animated really made my day

Listen Eden your not the only one going throw some shit I've been hurt to more times from my dad then I can count but I'm here with you ill support you plea don't give up like I did were all here supporting you your not alone no mater what becaus I know how it feels to go throw hell day after day after day it hurt and some time evening makes you want to kill your self Nexus of the pain but there is still hope for you I know it Eden so plea plea for the love of god don't give up I can't handle the burden of fucking up some ones life because if I get broken agin...there's no coming back for me so ples don't give up keep fighting were all here all 7.76k of us were here to support you till the end

overall i feel like i have no say so to speak about my family..cuz,i..i get their intentions and that overall they are very nice but they are also super neglective to the needs i had as a kid and overall ignored all signs of my disorders from a early age and even my bullying to a point of suicidal thoughts at 11 years of age and extreme depression until this very day, im on medication but u know how it is..in a way my moms random bursts of ''i was so scared i got mad'' has given me alot of trauma throughout my childhood and i had alot of trust issues thanks to her, i just got yelled at when i finally told her i was depressed and suicidal at the age of 13, she took the phone and threw it against my ear and tugged me to sit down on the couch yelling and basically threatening me to call someone if it was so very serious..finally when i turned 19 and managed to move out to a boarding school we got on better terms but..i still hate her in a way,i want to love her she is so damn nice but she is also so damn messed up with her own shit she probably has, and my dad? he is living in his own world,playing games and doing and focusing on his own thing not really noticing or taking things in like most would,even when i vented to him on a walk when younger he just seemed so awkward about it and never was able to tell me anything or even hug me, besides that my sister bullied me all until she turned 18 last year and i had moved out for good.. i mean..can i hate them? even if they are '''better''..i just cant forgive them for all the neglect and trauma they induced on me (i now on my own got a ADD,Depression,Autism diagnoses, depression diagnoses a few years ago but still need the medicine and probably need a therapist)

(Your art is gorgeous!) I'm sorry that life is difficult for you recently, just remember you're way more then what the world throws at you and everything will get better in time, even if it doesn't feel like it right now. ❤

Aweosm❤

Also I like how much your art has gotten better

I've recovered but its hard no not go back

Like me getting into self harm and doing drugs at a young age while also struggling to remember the good times

This videos represents my childhood

myself LIKE?? / MY / ME / MYSELF ???\??!? JUST A LITTKE OLD ME IJ A BIGGIG WORLDDDD ❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉

The Moral Orel audio- I love that show- also I hope you get feeling better!

My dad fucked my child hood up I litlery don't feel pain or emotion any more have cuts all over my body because I just gave up trying to be free all he dose is adjust what I say to something he wants to hear sure I go to my room and ignore him but its still hard because once he's in a mood to have a argument he always go to me because I'm just so easy to break . (I'm sorry for all those who have to go throw worse then me and I'm sorry for those who goes throw the same thing

Honestly I ant dramatized but I fell hopeless because of my dad he's just a pure asshole he drinks and true to adjustifi what I say he makes me just want to end my self but I don't have thestrenght plus I'm ok with self harming plus it get numb after a while I mean I've been during a lot just in places no one well ever look

I can’t believe that happened to you. I don’t know how people can be so cruel.

Tw: Abusive cycle/psychosis episodes I still remember one day when my ex-friend started to be arrogant towards me and another friend because we didn't invite him to talk on ONE specific call. He said we should have been more understanding since he has social anxiety, but: 1- Everyone in the group has a certain degree of social anxiety (plus I'm also autistic) and he was treating it as if no one understood how hard communication is; 2-It was just that one time. We didn't exclude him, we just specifically tagged another friend because we were making fun of their name and thought it would be cool to include them; I discovered that after I moved away from this person, he started using an episode of psychosis as an excuse to act stupidly towards someone. I have paranoid schizophrenia, I have constant episodes of psychosis if I go without my medication, and seeing that made me furious. Of course we can say horrible things in an episode like this, but the wisest thing would be to apologize instead of using it as a shield for any criticism. Nowadays I feel happy that I walked away from that person, and I'm proud of you for doing the same.

not once in my life have i ever met someone so similar to me in terms of how their mothers were and its so comforting to know i'm not alone, but also maaan i'm sorry</3 you deserve love

I have DADDY ISSUES *😭…*

Mommy issues suck :[ (Idk what else to say :/ uh drink water, if me saying that is offensive or problematic I'll delete or edit it)

Are you okay..? Otherwise, I'm sorry...

What is a ''Kinsona''? please someone tell me :,D

..Are you okay?

Have you heard of the song called ptolemaea??

This is kind of random, but I want you to know that you're a great person despite what life threw at you.

Eden, you alright? I hope you'll feel okay soon :[

im so sorry you are still suffering from this :( i hope you find peace and feel better some day :)

Tw: Pet death 2 of my pugs died today.. my mom left them out for 2 hours in the sun and forgot about them.. she didn't even tell anyone there were outside i would've watched them to- They were so sweet.. accidents suck huh... Yep! They were my mimi's dogs but- I knew them since forever basically its horrible how i keep thinking about it..

hope you feel better eden<3