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Aww thank you @IsabelEdith. This is such a sweet message!

At the end of the day you have to do what’s right for you in your own time. Take it at your own pace. If things feels overwhelming just remember to work on smaller bits one at a time. You will find your way!

Hello @JorgeAyabar. As I once heard, the opposite of depression is expression.. not joy.. so it can be easy to enter those dark heavy spaces when you do not feel you can express yourself freely. I think there is no wrong age to be your truest self- trans or otherwise. If you feel HRT can help you in your expression I don’t think there is any wrong age to explore those options. This being said I am careful to not really give advice on HRT. Talk with a doctor about your options. They will help you get well informed options. Not every doctor may be great for that so you may have to look around. But do get a doctor you trust as HRT is nothing to play around with. Whatever path you take, I hope you do come to a place where you no longer feel you are living double lives and can be your authentic self in all aspects of your life 😊✌🏻

Thanks babe I love your comment about the hormones and I don't have any insurance I got medical and I don't know if it Covers transition to be a girl

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Thank you @MrTaHeR! That is so sweet of you! I’m glad you are enjoying it! I will hopefully have something new up within the week! 😊

I am so intrigued. Are you saying you want me to be your man? Bc I’m also not your man bc I’m a woman 😅 We could play cat and mouse like this forever 🫶🏻

@@AylaBelle you a man in a women's body

I have to think something is being lost in translation here… Either way thanks for stopping by!

Thank you @eddieormerod5062! ☺️✌🏻

You are most welcome I just feel like you’re completely honest and I definitely admire that so be yourself and be happy!

Thank you ☺️

Yes. I am not trying to change my DNA.. you realize the whole “trans” part of transition is the acknowledgement that I was born male and now live as a woman right? Like a “trans woman” is its own thing… I assure you, all your assumptions of me of likely false… and you know what they say about assuming things right? (It makes an “ass” out of “u” and “me”) (Btw thanks for taking the time to add so many comments to all my vids! This will really help boost my channel rating)

You see me however you want, hunn.. I’ll tell ya.. been travelling the world and like 95% of people address me as “miss”. And many others chose to respect me when I correct them. So enjoy being the 1%. I guess that makes you special or something. Just not in my world 🤷🏼‍♀️

Yes. I am not trying to change my DNA.. you realize the whole “trans” part of transition is the acknowledgement that I was born male and now live as a woman right? Like a “trans woman” is its own thing… I assure you, all your assumptions of me of likely false… and you know what they say about assuming things right? (It makes an “ass” out of “u” and “me”) (Btw thanks for taking the time to add so many comments to all my vids! This will really help boost my channel rating)

Yes. I am not trying to change my DNA.. you realize the whole “trans” part of transition is the acknowledgement that I was born male and now live as a woman right? Like a “trans woman” is its own thing… I assure you, all your assumptions of me of likely false… and you know what they say about assuming things right? (It makes an “ass” out of “u” and “me”) (Btw thanks for taking the time to add so many comments to all my vids! This will really help boost my channel rating)

@@AylaBelle and you can't take the truth you was born a male and you never can change that

I’m literally agreeing with you. Yes I was born male. I live as a female. A trans woman is person who was born male and lives as a female because their identity-not their body- has always felt female. I’m not “taking any truth”. This is the truth. It’s a well documented phenomenon that has been occurring across all cultures for many millennia

Well at least we can be sure my transition was out of truth and not vanity ❤️

Yes. I am not trying to change my DNA.. you realize the whole “trans” part of transition is the acknowledgement that I was born male and now live as a woman right? Like a “trans woman” is its own thing… I assure you, all your assumptions of me of likely false… and you know what they say about assuming things right? (It makes an “ass” out of “u” and “me”) (Btw thanks for taking the time to add so many comments to all my vids! This will really help boost my channel rating)

In Tuesday it will now be exactly 7 years of estrogen

I hope it goes well!

Thank you. It is unfortunate and definitely something that medical systems could better work on but I am grateful for the personal lesson and growth. It challenged me and ultimately reaffirmed my conviction of self and my journey. So a blessing in disguise perhaps?

@@AylaBelle Yes indeed you could have been treated better.

100% if you ever go to Blue Lagoon, give yourself a full day! Rain or shine it will be amazing! Iceland has been amazing! I have not had any issues with people! Everyone is so accepting! I have only been misgendered literally in England! I am starting to feel like I maybe have passing privilege? Which isn’t an experience I have all the time at home. I will say, I can’t say I will never make videos on trans issues again. It can just be a hard topic to stay in and still feel excited about film making for me currently. But there will at least be one video talking about how awesome and accepting Europe has been ❤️ Thanks for the love and support and happy to hear from you again! 😊

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Thanks for your support! Welcome to my wild stories and life 😅

Interesting… I am unaware of being featured anywhere other than The Queer Network. Where exactly did you see me?

Looking now, I see Megyn Kelly did an interview with Isabelle Ayala who had detransitioned. I think you have me confused with this guest. My name is Ayla Belle which bears some similarity I guess. Yes I did detransition but I must say it was because I lost access to my hormones due to miscommunications in the medical system where I was living. I took time off of hormones after being anxious about how precarious access to life saving medicines could be. Ultimately I did return to my hormones and continue my transition though.

Woohoo! 🙌🏻 You won’t regret it!

Honestly… *GOALS*

🥰🥰🥰 You are just the sweetest! Thank you! Ultimately I think losing access to hormones was tough but I owned the opportunity to really explore the realization that being trans for me means to be medically dependant… so that was an important part of my journey. And yes! I will do some more editing tonight to be sure the rest of Iceland and my Europe ventures hit UA-cam in a timely fashion ❤️ Thank you so much for following along! 🙏🏻

Thank you Catherine! I’m glad you’re enjoying it! Thanks for watching and following along 🥰

I discussed everything with my family doctor. We went over pros and cons and what options would be ideal for my circumstances.

You can also call planned parenthood if you have informed consent laws in your state. Surprisingly, even Texas of all places has them.

Thank you! Unfortunately HRT has had no effect on my voice. Any soothing or sweet nature to it has just been gradual socialization. I have tried feminizing vocal practices but ultimately felt I was harming my voice more than doing good. And honestly I get a fair amount of compliments on my voice, but personally feel quite self conscious of it. So thanks for the support and the compliment. Sorry I don’t have better news 😅

Can we b friends ?

Transition is a very difficult process. Medical transition especially. We all have different ideas, comfort levels and allowances for where it might take us. It makes the process very unique for everyone as well as a continuous process. I hope you get everything you are seeking from your journey and experience lots of support, confirmation and gender euphoria in your process ❤️

@@AylaBelle thank you!

Each of us, as enlightened Spiritual Beings, are non binary in our perfect state. The body is only part of your Beingness. You're supposed to be PERFECTLY Unique. ❤

I do this with my videos too! Sometimes my audio was coming from multiple cameras/ audio inputs so I would put each input on a different track and work the audio to all level equally and nice with each other. This also allows that if I have footage from my zve1 at the beginning and end of my video, because that’s all in the same track it will get treated together. I do the same thing with colour corrections or grading on the visuals

@TheDuppyKillah 🥰 Thanks so much dude! 💯 THIS! Full send! You ‘get’ it! Thank you for watching and truly getting things. I put a schpiel elsewhere that said how consuming such diverse and contrasting content helps a creator also make more unique content. This goes hand in hand with your mentioning of how every moment before you pluck the strings on an instrument shapes the sound that follows! There are huge ripple effects and yes the journey as a creator is naturally introspective and explorative for this very reason! And I definitely agree- UA-cam is shifting and it’s a beautiful thing! Yes there are some people who are going to grow because maybe they are into doing the shorts and the reels etc. But I think people are also seeking authenticity, tranquility.. long form content that isn’t trying to be something it’s not.. and that is super exciting too!

Thank you Sharina! I hope all is well 😘

You can discuss with your doctor any changes you want to make in the medications you take. You don’t ’have to’ take estrogen life long. Just make sure you discuss with your doctor as a number of factors can affect how quickly you make the change and whether or not you potentially need to take something else in lieu of the estrogen.

Ugh, I know right? Such a pain to have to shave all the time 💁🏼‍♀️

Aww yes! Definitely what this series is all about! Connected with others over a shared love for awesome art and music! 🔥🔥🔥

Thank you for that sentiment (re: evolved). It was a struggle but i do ultimately feel like the detransition period was a HUGE lesson for me. I have got back on hormones now for 4 months but I now feel more secure in my identity and who I am, medications or not. But have also resigned myself to the notion that a life of transition (for my journey) is a life of medical dependency.

Aww congrats on the starting of your journey! And yes! Transitioning into womanhood is a journey to say the least 😅

Aww @Reed5016 Sending my well wishes and support! Take care of yourself! Safety always comes first! ❤️

@@AylaBelle Thanks. I really appreciate it.

Aww thank you so much 🥰 I’m glad you're enjoying it!

Thank you so much for watching this video with an open mind @tegamingother 💕 This video is still an incredibly vulnerable share even all these years later. But I’m glad it can offer a pause for reflection if not insight into the battles between external perception and personal expression.

Hi Marisa! Thinking of you and sending supporting vibes and warm wishes 🏳️‍⚧️💜

Who am I fooling if you feel like you see the truth? Unless I'm not a dude and fooled you into thinking I am one? 🤔 Kind of a redundant comment unless you're admitting you're "fooled"...

@@AylaBelle No, still a boy wanna be something he will never be. I will paint my Ford red and put a Ferrari sticker on it. Than I have a Ferrari!!! 🎉😆🤦🏻‍♂️

😂 Way to ignore my sentiment... and it's not like I ever tried to "sell my ford as a ferrari". Anyone who comes across me is well aware they are dealing with a "ford with a ferrari sticker" as you so elegantly put it.. so idk where your antagonism comes from. 🤔🤷🏼‍♀️

@@AylaBelle I came to take a look at your knife. And then all of a sudden a guy is trying to fool me and other people. That is disgusting! 🖕🏻

@@b-rj1171 i am trying to fool you? My channel - my space - makes it quite clear what the reality is. No one is being fooled into anything. If you don't like me, or what I'm about, you're welcome to walk away. I couldn't care less if you think I'm disgusting 😂

Thanks for the love! 🖤✌🏻

Oh I didn't mean that goth is simply a "look" for you, what I meant is that the specific goth look you did for the concert was really awesome.

Aww thank you @laurenemilykoster7362! How sweet of you! Im hoping to be putting together more videos make up "how to's" and playing around with different looks! Thanks for the love and much back at ya 🖤🏳️‍⚧️

You're welcome!! I actually wanted to ask you to make some makeup how-to videos but didn't want to put pressure on you, so I'm glad to hear that you're already planning to do some! Looking forward to seeing them! 😀

Hey @laurenemilykoster7362 I have put up an eyeliner tutorial a few weeks ago and am finishing up an eyeshadow video for this weekend!

Awwww, serendipity! I was just doing my eyeliner tonight and totally went off course like my kid self scribbling outside the lines. I did eyeshadow too and that came out better but was still a mess. I'll totally look at the eyeliner video as soon as I get the chance and can't wait to see the eyeshadow tutorial! Thanks so much for doing these!!😃