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Adam
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Приєднався 7 лют 2022
• Ageing Millennial
• Just a lost fella
• Open and honest about the way life feels.
• No pity party
• A place for me to have a video journal
• Just a lost fella
• Open and honest about the way life feels.
• No pity party
• A place for me to have a video journal
Internet safety - Dear Hater...
This comes off the back of searching 2 words that I got from a youtube profile of a guy who posted a really hateful comment, the outcome alarmed me to the point of opening a door to talking about internet safety and what you post online and who can see it.
Internet safety is a huge thing and shouldnt be take for granted that you are protected by default. Keep private things private, and only share with the world things you want to share with them, you simply dont know how easy it could be for very personal information to be found publicly!
Internet safety is a huge thing and shouldnt be take for granted that you are protected by default. Keep private things private, and only share with the world things you want to share with them, you simply dont know how easy it could be for very personal information to be found publicly!
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Відео
Tired, Rattled, Miffed...
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one of those days when you get feel so tired and so angry at yourself, a few things unwrapped at counselling and a day full of humps and bumps that just annoyed me and rattled me a bit. Very short tether today #adam #lifeat30 #personalgrowth #lifeat35
Your feelings are NOT valid!
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A little about my earliest memories of 2 events that have changed me going forwards and how as a result I don't feel that my feelings are validated, 1 of these I don't like to talk about #adam #lifeat30 #lifeat35 #therapy #personalgrowth
Sometimes the brain just works against you.
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Bit of a strange mood for the last week or so, had me looking inwards a lot and asking a few questions that I couldnt really find answers to. #adam #lifeat30 #lifeat35 #personalgrowth #therapy
6+ Months of Therapy, My Experience
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I use Person-centered therapy, also known as person-centered psychotherapy, person-centered counselling, client-centered therapy and Rogerian psychotherapy, is a form of psychotherapy developed by psychologist Carl Rogers After doing so for over 6 months, how is it, what do I think of it and how is it helping me? #adam #lifeat30 #lifeat35 #personalgrowth #therapy
Are our limitations predetermined??
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Just something I have been battling with lately is an internal conflict about trying to achieve something which in reality may be way outside of my possibilities, are our boundaries for success already set #adam #lifeat30 #lifeat35 #personalgrowth
What would you rather be? 3 faced or...
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Just a question that came up as I as casually called something at work today, dont get me wrong it really has had the impact in me that it might seem, but I find it interesting how people behave when in different environments with different influences. what would you rather be? 2 faces, or a boot licker #adam #lifeat30 #lifeat35
I feel like a Jinx
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So this is something I have noticed for a long time (15/20 years long) I seem to be a bit of a Jinx. In work this is most obvious as its external things that cause change, but those external factors only seem to be around as long as I am. Its starting to really play on my mind that a bigger group 'suffers' as a result of my presence #adam #lifeat30 #lifeat35 #
Internal Attitude Makes a Difference
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Just reflecting on the last year and a bit and taking note of how the internal mood is shifting and how it feels that it is playing out externally. #adam #lifeat30 #lifeat35 #personalgrowth
Support, Success, YouTube Money and stuff
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Stunning weekend thought I better make the most of it. found some time to talk about how people treat you before and after success, making money on UA-cam, and a little bit of general life
Finding possible root causes, leading to a bit of mental exhaustion
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So I have been carrying a couple of things for a very long time, and a chat with the counsellor started to peal things back and highlight how they could be part of the root to some of my sticking points. However when trying to discuss them with family, I get a lot more than I bargained for #adam #lifeat30 #lifeat35 #
Just a Thank you
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A little look over channel stuff made me realise a couple of things but honestly I just wanted to say thankyou for all the support over the years. #adam #lifeat30 #lifeat35 #personalgrowth
This Advice on decision making isn't all that smart
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Making decisions can be tricky for some people, but this bit of advice I used to agree with, until one day I gave it a lot of thought and looked at it from a different perspective. I hear it thrown around a lot but how useful is the advice, to work on a decision to make it the right one?? #adam #lifeat30 #lifeat35 #personalgrowth
A sense of self; Who are you?
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Not really knowing who I am or what it feels like to be the individual you are, rather than a person shaped by the people around you. I have been struggling with knowing who I am and something hit me and made me do some digging that I didn't realise before. #adam #lifeat30 #lifeat35 #whoareyou
Work: Paid for your Time or for the Job ?
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Really interested to hear feedback on this one, when it comes to employment, do you feel you are paid for your time, or to do a specific job? I feel it is my time that I am paid for so the work I do doesnt really matter where as I noticed recently, that others feel employed for a specific job and wont do something they are 'not paid to do' #lifeat30 #personalgrowth #adam #lifeat35
MSN chat names and Instagram stories
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MSN chat names and Instagram stories
Why do we hold onto the single comments that cut deep?
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Why do we hold onto the single comments that cut deep?
Approaching 2024 by learning from 2023
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Approaching 2024 by learning from 2023
Don't give up
Nice man! We are rooting for you?
Waiting for the next video…
35 and FAILED at almost all and became burden to people around me... in debt. NO MOTIVATION FOR ANYTHING , FEAR OF FAILURE TO START ANYTHING. But still dragging myself.
I'll listen closely and right through, but wanted to say that me getting a house led to the downfall of my last good relationship that could've brought all the things you're "supposed" to do in life. At that point (I bought it myself, not as a couple) the relationship deteriorated rapidly. I simply couldn't handle the pressure. I wasn't built to handle it nor seek professional help, nor could I communicate my worries to my ex in a mature way. Instead, while living together we grew apart, with resentment kicking in from both sides for different reasons. Her and I broke up in 2019 and I've not been the same since. I've never really recovered. I'm a bit older than you and feel like my life's done. So, while you feel a "lack" in a house and a relationship, I hope it helps to know that those things don't necessarily bring happiness. They're really challenging with the wrong mindset and I became destructive as a result. At this rate, there will be no new long-term relationship and certainly no family of my own. I'm going to attempt dating apps one last time and then if no good, try to find acceptance in that life hasn't worked out as I'd expected. And, you know, we're not alone by any stretch. Life is (really) hard. Edit: I made the same mistake re: distance relationship. She (mentioned above) was in uni, I was buying a house. Those two life things are incompatible. I messed up at a critical time in my life (late 20s) clinging on to a relationship that was never practical. We fucked up, man.
The way u ve made all this things in your life and u still think u self as a failure... Don't make sense it's unfair
Im failure too just things is not appealing any more
I understand you man. Life is bullshit. To be this difficult and sad and in pain and struggle this hard is beyond meaning. I dont believe in God. I tried. There's just way too much pointless. Senseless. Suffering. Meaningless. Trying to connect the dots and shit just doesn't ever work. It's debilitating. Life is just... Fucking stupid. I'm a loser too.
Its all an illusion young man. Did you slept in a warm bed, under a sound roof? Put both feet out of that bed in the morning? can you stand up? had a shower? ate a meal? your parents still in this realm? You are winning my dude. Forget all the illusionary lies society, schools, governments, tell-u-visions and social media tells you, all that really matters is you are a breathing, thinkingm feeling being and you are alive. Success is fleeting and totally subjective of your own perspective. You still have plenty of time,.... live the ONE life you get.
I hate this whole concept of winnning at life losing at life etc. LIfe is life. A man is successful lin business, makes money ,, has lots of status symbols, He is a narcissist and has no love in his heart for even his own kids. Is he a winner? You have extreme health challenges. I wish you the best. Its frustrating if you love gym and cant go to gym, You need something else. You spinal stuff is limiting you but there has to be something . Advice is easy . I dont always practtise what i preach. The employment situation is shit, you have been treated not good but then i guess your manager has to put his business first. I guess you are on morphine, valium ? Ask your doctor if you can have modafinil ,it might overrride the effects of the other drugs and give you some oomph.. I wish y9ou the best. Keep the faith. Us brothers have to be there to support each other. Its ok to be not ok , big buzz word. Problem is , you dont want to just stay there, we are encouraged to wallow in victimhood. embrace it even. Its ok to be not ok but its not ok to want to just stay there, IT sounds like you are doing your best under heavy challenges. Cut out the talk of failing, It irritates the fuck out of me and it doesnt help you .
'Good things dont happen to you'. That's Exactly how i feel too. My experiences have taught me the same thing mate.
I guess its what happens when our brains get a little twisted at the early age, we grow up with a particular belief system.. I am learning the only way to counter it is to push back against it, its hard as hell, its the little voice in the mind that has to turn to positive rather than negative, which is a switch that feels near impossible give that its only ever know 1 behaviour for its entire existence.. But thats when you have to get uncomfortable, I dont know how to change the situation, but I do know that change takes time, starts and ends with me. Keep doing the same thing day after day, and wondering why nothing is changing is starting to give me the pissed off fire inside that is trying to force a change of things. I dont know how long that will be there for, but I am trying to act in it while I feel it, even if I feel uncomfortable or that I can't be bothered.. It feels that I'm starting to try and kick my own ass for the better, not for tomorrow, but for a year, or so down the line.. its frustrating, its depressing, but nobody else is gonna change it for me, and I ain't a believer in giving up
Me too mate. 3 years older than you. No job, still at home etc i could go on. State of the uk is terrifying. Im thinking about ending my life now. I just cant be bothered anymore
I'm 3 years older than you and in exactly the same predicament. I'm tired of trying now and I don't think there's any reason to go on.
Very brave message...respect is happening here...
This is so relatable it hurts
Sad reality
Adam there’s plenty of mental illness out there. What we’ve seen over the last month hate and insecurity go hand in hand. Often ending horrific acts. I can honestly say I never hated anything or anyone in my life if i dislike them then I move on.
20 years old, dropped out of a prestigious college in my country. For 8 montbs since, ive been floating, doing menial work, and just rotting in my bed. My third world country seems hopeless, and frankly my mental health is at an all time low. I feel like I've failed, doomed myself at my 20s.
Hey
Come and live in East Lancashire. It's the cheapest area in England and its great. I moved here from Manchester and it's the best thing I did. Good luck.
for goodness sake ignore the hate, this is the internet, you're only letting the trolls know they can get you
@@pitchwife7573 for goodness sake watch the video and realise its nothing to do with trolls and hate and everything to do about some guy posting questionable things of his daughter publicly and the lessons to all about Internet safety 👍
@@Add- i admit, i did not get that far lmao, and for the record i wish you the best in your plight! <3
I wonder if this person even has an ounce of self awareness to realise it’s them if they’re watching this video? 🤔
Reacting to reactivity is also causes personal suffering. Best thing to do is notice it, notice your feeling reaction to it and then let it pass and allow the next feeling appear. But yeah it I reckon people who hate but keep watching to give themselves more satisfaction of covering their suffering life
Haters like the one mentioned, should spend more time ensuring that what they put online is keeping themselves and their loved ones safe, then projecting their issues on channels that have nothing to do with them. 👍
The internet is full of head cases, thee end. also that guy sounds like a right dickhead.
Yeah and if you put things out on the internet. People gave the right to give their opinion on you just saying.
Which if you watch, you will see I say, I dont mind if people hate me etc. The logic doesn't make sense, I hate this guy so I will continue to watch him, but thats up to them. 👍
You haven't even watch the video, have you? Because you missed completely the point of the video.
@@Shidaar Oh...
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Merci 🙏🏼
Adam, don’t try & apply a logical and rational mindset to those types of comments. It’s not worth your time. Appreciate you!☀️
Social media unfortunately does attract the absolute dregs of society sometimes. I think you can report images if you think they are inapproriate though, so might be worth trying that as well? In general, when deciding whether or not to publish public photos on social media I usually ask myself the question: "would I be happy for this photo to be in a newspaper or a magazine?"
Adam, As long u dont stab 8 young children.. ur considered NOT crazy and NOT a threat to society.
8 seems specific, I would argue even 1 is 1 to many
@@Add- is this the guy you mentioned in the video? cant find his stuff on google meself
No not him, I wont name the dude either, his personal life is way to open, and genuinely leaves me with a sick feeling for his family
im a lonely 17 old. im really scared. i still feel like a kid. im already addicted ton a bunch of shit. xanax alcohol. i dont know what life is really, i havent eecpereinced it, i dont know why ive made the choices ive made. but yeah. really. life is just depressing. i know life just gonna pass by, it feels like ive completely failed. ive failed my mom. ive failed my dad. my grandparents. all the people who have made sacrifices to get me where i am. i hope everything works out in life. however tired, i feel i hope i can make things right. i want to live and feel proud. i know i wont i just dont know
You have acknowledged quite a bit here already of things you know you can improve on, those addictions, they have to go. Not easy in the slightest, but you want to set yourself off so that your late teens and 20s are growth and get the life you want, you kick those addictions, replace them for benefits, meaningful benefits, put the time in now, so that future you will be thankful. You are at a prime for mental and physical development, get exercise body and brain, and refocus when you get distracted. Remember those addictions and distractions are a choice, a hard one to go against but those are the things that will put you in this same position a couple of years from now. You are young enough to experience a good valued life, give yourself the best chance of it being a positive one to remember
The stress is in the resistance to what is........
"Again, you may look upon life as an unprofitable episode, disturbing the blessed calm of non-existence. The longer you live the more clearly you will feel that, on the whole, life is a disappointment, nay, a cheat."
... Bamboozled
Thanks man. Morales are for suckers. I’m in the same position. Even those in prison are given better lives than the likes of you and I. The gov has betrayed us, elders have betrayed us, women have betrayed us, the economy has betrayed us. No one is on our side, housing market is shit and I often feel these stupid feel good sentiments of “keep trying” is the mental health police trying to make themselves feel better. Suicide is looking more attractive by the day and I’m sick of mental health cheerleaders trying to pretend they know anything about you or trying to shame you with other peoples life circumstances that are worse. I am frustrated, I’m edgy, suicidal, depressed and angry. I hate humans so much. Life is bullshit
I randomly came across your video and I want you to know that I'm praying for you I don't know whether or not you're religious and you don't know me but I want you to know I believe you can overcome this hardship and once you round the corner you'll look back at this time and see how it's built you into an incredibly resilient person 🙏
Bro, slow down your car…..and your mind. Dangerous my man.
Couple of people have said this.. not that its any of your business, but 1. I never crossed the speed limit for the road I was on and 2, this isn't driving in a town, slowing my speed would actually put me as a hazard to the other road users around me.
@@Add- it will be someones business if you crash or run a kid over while Filming and driving like that, pretty selfish, saying that its not anyones business shows little respect for others my man. I like your channel, but there are other people in this world. Driving and filming like this is a dickish move.
Just for the record. I like your channel. Just take care of yourself and others, and learn how to take constructive criticism, you’ll enjoy life more. Chin up
He is a selfish self indulged twat who puts these pity party videos on you tube constantly seeking for sympathy! It's embarrassing.....the bloke is healthy has a family, could do anything he wants but is wasting his life crying on you tube about how his mum and dad had to leave a holiday separately when he was a kid!!! Bloke needs to get in the real world and realise that over half his life is probably over and if he doesn't grow up and take responsibility he will continue to waste the rest of his life blaming others for not being where he wants to be in life! All the talk of therapy is cringey and he just needs to get a grip and acknowledge that the world owes him fuck all.....doesn't need pointless therapy.....just needs to realise that he is a bloke heading towards 40 who has achieved fuck all due to his constant self pity and blaming everyone and everything for his perceived problems!! Get a grip kid and realise like everyone else you are an adult and no one is coming to save you! You have your health and that is what matters and is a lot more than a lot of people have! The only people sympathising are the ones who are as sad as you and feel that life owes them something! Grow up....get out and meet people and doors will open.....sitting in your parents bedroom playing video games will get you where you have always got.......NOWHERE!!!!!
But your constructive criticism lacks the facts, you telling me to slow down like I am driving in a built up area, as stated, you don't know the roads I am on, you don't see whats around me, you hear the engine noise and make a judgement. By all means offer constructive criticism when you have a the information at hand, but you don't, if you did you would realise how telling me to slow down here is more of a danger to other road users, I would be slower than the flow of traffic and become an obstruction. By alm means I understand that excessive speed, lack of focus and attention to the road IS a danger, I 100% agree, but as you were not there, you are only casting assumptions. If you were there you would be able to see that everything was OK for the conditions and the law
I was wondering, Adam, what your social life is like. Do you have a strong circle of friends? I know you went away for a bit a couple of months ago and came back rejuvenated. Do you see those people regularly? I know a big part of my problems in life do relate to this. I’ve always felt disconnected from people. I’ve met the odd person or two who bucks this trend, but even then, it’s hard to maintain friendships. At 35, I feel this way more than ever. I don’t want to, but I do.
I think at this point I 'know' people, I guess we would call them friends, but I feel that our lives are very different there is a disconnect for sure. As iv gotten older its felt a lot harder to to feel myself around the friends I was once close to. For me I would question if thats not a self esteem thing though. But for sure, I feel quite isolated more often than not.
For me, I know that one person would make all the difference. One solid connection, whether it’s a friend or a girlfriend, would improve my life considerably. That would be a lot better than having 10 acquaintances I half-know. But it’s fucking elusive to find. Are you able to open up with them as you do with the UA-cam crowd?
Heck nah I can't open up, tried it, for the most part they are of the attitude that men should talk about this stuff, ironically they have opened up to me about how they have had the thought of taking themselves out, I will sit and talk with them, but the moment you reverse the conversation, its a completely different thing. All it does, is drive a divide, I'm not going to open up to people who do that. Noticed it again recently with a mate.. You start to realise how shitty people can be I only 'open up' to youtube because truth be told, I started this as a way to just get stuff off my chest and have a video diary, I dont specifically do it for views, but along the way others have found it helpful or relatable, which I myself know can be what you need sometimes to feel less like your an odd ball
This one hit home... I remember back on my early days of depression that i went to the gym because i WANTED to be fit, now i just go hoping that someday i'll recover that desire, i WANT to WANT to go. Surviving, existing, everything but living. The anhedonia takes away all the joy you used to have and the anxiety you get from exposing yourself to those things just makes them not worth it. Interestingly enough, in some ocations, i find myself enjoying a conversation with friends, whenever for some random reason i get distracted enough from all the thoughts i share from this video. That gives me hope mate. There must be some way, it hasn't always been like this. We are not here just to endure, enduring is the thing needed to find the new way. Who cares anyway, we are all gonna die sooner or later so i won't take a shortcut. Maybe what we feel is not depression but the eternal search of a meaning to our very own lives, which some say, that in itself, it's the meaning of life. Whatever Adam... This makes me feel not so alone so thanks for sharing. I'm going to hit the gym, it fucking sucks but the alternative is obviously worse. And man, cry, scream, whatever you need, don't conceive depression and anxiety as illnesses but as ways of your mind of trying to tell you something, in fact, crying is gonna help you a lot with endorphines, the same way exercise does. If you are able to go to work and put smile you are able to make stuff that may seem simple to you, but others just can't. You may feel like a worthless human being because of that "I'm not strong" feelings but life in some way is about learning how much weight you can hold and doing it (Quote from Jordan Peterson), so don't compare yourself to others, i bet others would not have motivated me to go to the gym! Wishing you the best of recoveries from Spain man, i know that acknowledging you are not alone sometimes is not enough but sharing the weight helps. 🫂
Thanks for taking the time to write this out, ots given me some insight and things to look on that are easily overlooked. Keep doing what you need to, eventually it will all fall into place with good habits and routine. 🫂
Just do it! Do those things you want to do. If you make a mistake, you know you will get yourself out of it. You’ve done it in the past. Learn to trust yourself. I have this mantra that works for me: “as long as I have my health and none of my loved ones have died-I will be okay.” Keep going. Who knows, maybe doing some of those things will help you feel more alive and enjoy life. Were only here for a moment in time.
Im currently buying a house, at an other part of my country. I been through depression due to the move. But that’s what Im doing. This is the 2nd time I just moved like that. Its a really nice little house, will be so different from my appartment. Your environment can be changed. You just need to change it. Good luck!
You may not be able to release the emotion, but your body is able to release it, if you allow it. After therapy you may want to try and sit quietly and place your hand on your core and allow your body to release any emotions connected to trauma. After you have done this can try and change your focus. The fear in c-ptsd is from parents not setting the boundaries that we need and not having enough confidence to reflect back to you a sense of security and confidence to explore your surroundings. Create an affirmation for yourself where you give yourself permission to move out of your comfort zone. Try going a different way to work. Write down a few things that change your focus each day. Ask yourself what emotion you want to reflect to the world and have it reflected back to you. As a child you had no choice but to see panic, fear, guilt and other negatives. Now you have a choice to see something different. As you do this you will have more corrective experiences in therapy and in daily life.
Also, I know that it's easy to think that we shouldn't let how we feel affect our friends, but that is kinda what good friends are for. It's part of the deal you make when you are someone's friend.
Life often doesn't make sense. Bad things happen to good people, and we often don't get the answers we deserve. This is a terrifying truth that I'm only just starting to come to terms with now, at age 30.
Shout away!! I get it!
This is me bro. Especially the part about having something in you that makes you scared of trying new fun things. Hope you get better Adam
From my own experience, I have been battling some deep personal issues for quite some time, it gets very frustrating. But, through the course of this, there have been periods of time when I have felt really good. In those periods of time when I was feeling good, was when I was appreciating the very basics of life, like having walk on a nice sunny day and appreciating how good the weather is, after doing some exercise and appreciating how good I feel things like that.
i admire how you just let yourself go and discuss how your feeling. I've been seeing a psychologist and i cant help but feel the same way as you. constantly frustrated. hopefully there is an end to it. hope your well
I must have missed the video, you got a job? Congrats, what field are you working in?
Haha yeah I dont think there is a specific video, but 7 months working in a place that.... makes toys for grownup 😅
The only solace I find in this world is Jesus <3. I'm a single, unemployed loser, mentally struggling constantly looking for work, but there isn't anything going, but my Faith in God gives me a reason for perseverance
Stay Strong brother I relate
Jesus doesn't exist.....grow up! You have one life.....don't waste it
Chin up mate. Not only are you “enough”, you’re a good guy. You’re not alone mate. Seems like you had a bad day here. Remember, some days you’re the pigeon, some days you’re the statue.
Hahahaha, I didn't hear it earlier, some days you're the pigeon, some days you're the statue, that made me laugh, good one, have a nice day friend ❤😂