Thank you so much for posting this. We currently have our daughter stuck on Meth and she hasn’t hit bottom where she realizes she wants help. She has two children she isn’t present for and they are 8,000 miles away. I’m using channels like this to understand addiction and it helps tremendously. Please be well. It looks like you are well on your way to a better life. Keep your chin up. You can do this.
Pls be there for her don’t give up on her. I know the thing she probably does make her seem like she’s a whole different person because that’s what drugs do they alter your brain chemistry so it’s not her fault the way she is acting (if she is acting out) but she is still that little girl you once knew I promise. She’s still there it’s just masked under the addiction. Always have hope and don’t give up on her please recovery is very possible and meth doesn’t give physical withdrawls to the extent of fentanyl or any other opiate since meth is a stimulant. But once again please do not give up on her.
Be greatful it's Meth and not Fentanyl. That stuff really changes you on a deep level if you can survive the near fatal dosages in most $10 bags people get. Thank God for suboxone... does work. The depression she will feel will be pretty bad... can have some real dark thought when by yourself, needs to have a good support network, find some straight friends to hang out with. Some people have to geographically move just to set themselves free from the social link and access to the substance.
Keep your head up bro and stay straight. 7 years sober from all the same things although fentanyl wasn't around that I knew of then. A man that can kneel down to God can stand up to anything... Much respect from Texas
my benzos withdrawal(Xanax/Valiums)was HORRENDOUS. Sloppy messy UGLY LOoooooong Lonely Shameful. I was in physical/mental withdrawal for almost TWO f*cking YEARS.
I’ve been on Methadone for 17 years and dude you’re speaking my language😮 I don’t know many other people who are on it and can understand exactly how I feel on the daily. Thank you for putting this out there❤✌️🙂
I agree been on methadone now for 22 years got down to 40ml now but feels impossible to come much lower. What dose are you on if you don't mind me asking
@@bryn3652 I’m on 70 mg now. The highest I got was 95mg and that was back when I first started. I’ve went down really slowly, 1mg every 2 weeks for what seems like years. I actually stopped going down around a year ago and have stayed at 70mg since. Gonna have to start going down again soon tho, I don’t wanna be here the rest of my life. I’m 42 now and been on Methadone ever since I was 25. It’s definitely been a long journey to say the least.
@@miguelcervantes3739 many reasons; simply Can't kick opiates/drug; pain; Ugly old fashion Addiction. I deeply understand Any addiction. No matter how Severe, petty, per-say Silly. It's unfortunate/depressing/sad/Upsetting when people in general Just Can't "Stop" what ever it Is that has a Hold on Them. Factually affects EVERYone 1 way or another💛 📣congratulations on Your success it's a Big f*cking Deal! HUGE!!!! 🎯✔️💯🤸🏻♂️
Congratulations on your sobriety that's awesome ...I was on methadone for 12 yrs .I was on 165mgs and I was always a functioning addict a "closet addict " is what I called myself because no one knew except a few people that had a issue my family had no clue I had my own place worked raised my kids did all that I was never in and out of jail THANK GOD ...but I have been off of methadone for over 4 yrs now and looking back I feel like it had me so numbed up to certain things like emotions, feelings , the way i handled my relationship/marriage and I'm still after 4 years off if it trying to process certain things from when I was on it and it's really been hard processing it all so keep fighting the fight and good luck with your sobriety I enjoyed your video it was easy to relate too
Well done getting clean from all that methadone, it's a real achievement buddy, if you can do that, you're strong enough to do anything, I wish you all the very best on your recovery journey and keep up the good work so you can give people struggling some useful advice, take care buddy, big respect coming from England.
I know exactly how you feel!! I was on methadone 10 mgs 3x a day for pain management in 2003. I thought it was a godsend as I had a love affair w lortabs and would take too many no matter how hard I tried not too. Methadone pills never got me "high"but did numb me to where I'd sleep while the kids were in school. Had no idea how physically addictive methadone was until a hurricane knocked out the power😢.
Thanks for the video. I’m 1.5 years clean and the big hurdle for me was thinking I would never feel normal again . I’m feeling great now. Keep up the good work
that's awesome to hear good job man, I'm going to start posting again about rewriting old behaviors of our mind that doesn't serve us in living a happier more fulfilled life. And how we can still pursue our goals and dreams for this life.
Hey Ryan thanks for your channel I'm a struggling heroin and crack addict. I'm an Iv user for last 10 years I also have an addiction to pregablin 10 years and I'm finding life really hard. I keep doing my withdrawal then ill be clean for a week then use again maybe 2 or 3 days then start all over again. I'm also on methadone but I buy more than what I'm prescribed so got a bigger addiction with that. My life is so fucked and just found ur channel and ur a big help. Love your channel ❤️❤️ p.s I'm from the U.K
I've been where you're at, just know that as impossible as it sounds you can not only get clean but also feel good without using anything. it is worth going through the detox. once you're done with that I have videos that provide solutions for a happy and peaceful mind. lmk if there's a topic you'd like me to shed some light on. I will continue to post what has been working for me.
Congratulations I have entered my 7th yr of recovery. I It began with opiates from a severed nerve in my back. 17 yrs I was looped in on every narcotic that could be prescribed. Pills dried and up I spent two weeks with a needle in my arm and I almost died from first fentanyl that hit streets. I immediately went to get help. It took a few relapse to figure it all out but I have my footing and feel amazing.
Do keep making these videos…u are an inspiration to me & my problem was wine…with a lot of devastation. I’m still in early recovery & dealing with real consciousness for the first time in +6 years, so your story resonates & I’ve no doubt it will to so many. You look so healthy, you have great clarity of mind & the will to succeed. & your Mum. ❤ I wish you great health and happiness going forward. Subscribed! 😊
I'm working on a video that is going to talk about acceptance. it is a great tool to use in recovery if applied in tough moments. hope you check it out. thanks for the kind words.
Wine is so accepted by our society…it’s hard to break. So proud of you for your progress into recovery. I’m here if you need to vent or talk…just leave me a message her
Hey, just found your channel...Congrats to u on your sobriety! I'm 2 years clean off fentanyl... I actually detoxed cold turkey and it was 3 weeks of pure hell! I was determined tho... I was done with that drug! After like 2 weeks of feeling ok, I then gradually started slipping into a severe & crippling depression... I endured that for 9 months and finally reached out to a substance abuse treatment place and I was placed on the lowest dose of Suboxone...4mg once daily... for me it works very well...maybe someday I'll want to get off the suboxone but for now, it's what I want...
that's awesome. I'm considering making a video about suboxone and methadone. the benefits and the drawbacks. let me know if this would be useful in your recovery.
Yes please make that video. I’m on subs and I’m about to lose my insurance and can’t afford it. So I’m about to go cold Turkey off of these and I heard it’s awful
Please dont take this wrong, but the dr who gave you suboxen after 9 MONTHS of no opiates should be in jail!! . The suboxen "dr's" are very predatory! Please stay safe and re evaluate that if you can. Good luck either way!1
Congratulations and welcome to YOUR LIFE!! Thank you for shining your light and story. I have had addictions in my family, and am a RN working in Mental Health, and Addiction Treatment. Today is a frightening time to be an addict because of Fentanyl being added to everything. Shine on friend.
GOD BLESS YOU !!! , I did the suboxone for 2 yrs to get clean . You're Brain 🧠 needs to heal for at least 2 yrs . Then you can wean off subs slowly . I never did meth thank GOD , But I am SOO PROUD of you for getting back to you're real self 💗.
Your amazing brother! Been sober from heroin and meth intravenously for around 5 years went through a very same process as you did before I realized I wasn't truly living. The amount of energy I was sapping from myself by taking methadone was mind boggling after I quit it. Life is so beautiful without everything and I can truly feel happiness again just like I did while watching this video of your journey! Amen brother keep building and never stop!
Hey Steve, just curious how long it took you to feel “right” after you quit methadone? My brother has been on it for about 8 years and is now talking about quitting completely. He just said it takes a while for the withdrawal symptoms to be gone completely.
@@micahrowei was on methadone for 10+ years and withdrawals off mdone is grueling. Months , im talking months . It wore me down so instead of using dope i tried suboxone for maintenance,maybe for a lifetime.
@@micahroweI have been off methadone for almost 6 months. Still not 100% but I have more like good days then a week or so of less intense symptoms for no known reason. Just low energy, cold hands or feet, just worn down. Hope this helps. I was on for 10 years for pain
Hey, I just watched your video and wanted to say that I hope you are doing well. I will admit that I have no experience of taking drugs, I have an internal fear of not being in control so have never tried them. It does seem to me that people take drugs just to escape life…life can be exciting, life can be dull, life can be stressful, life can be serene, falling in love is great, falling out of love hurts the soul….but all these things are part of real life. As you said, it is about developing coping mechanisms. So glad that you are becoming a human being again. My thoughts are with you.
Interestingly, the reason why you never used these materials is why we use them. From the addict's view, life is out of control and the drugs give us control. In both cases the control is deception.
Beautiful man.. spread the good message. All hopes up for you and I’m glad you had the wherewithal to get clean. That shit is NOT easy AT ALL. Take time to congratulate and love yourself brother ❤
Thanks brother, I'm trying to kick my 25 year methadone, crack,benzo habit, atm,I really appreciate your videos, keep up the good work your future self will thank you.
Methadone is a serious government drug that I’ve been stuck on for 25 years and it’s making me incredibly tired despite getting down to a very low dose. I hear you about being spiritually dead as I feel that all I have to love is the drugs even though I have an incredible family who try to help
ya methadone has its uses and limitations. what's needed is time for your body and mind to recovery properly. its worth the fight. getting up without needing anything is invaluable
You’re an amazing man…I too am a recovering heroine addict but I did it all wrong… I detoxed by myself… it left lasting scars mentally…. Thank you for sharing… everything you say is true
Hi just come across ya chanal an subbd gd on ya for getting off all those drugs an sharing ya recovery..keep on soildering on bigup from bidzy westmids gypsy England 🙌🙏👊👍💯
Thank you You're a cool dude. And boy the human body heals miraculously because your thought process, your use of the brain's executive functioning is intact and you are intelligent. Thank you, you remind me of son. But it's me that is weaning off inhaling perc/fentanyl or morphine pills by nose. Sniff. I am 58 next month. Off and on for 2 years then mostly daily the past year. And I am getting so much from you, you see today I went to a methadone clinic, outing myself to my doctor's etc. Just got home,sat down and found you. In 2003 I had a bad car accident got addicted went to rehab got clean. Then 3 yrs ago I relapsed into this. Sometimes my son and I have a role reversal, with him getting me into this outpatient and being the"parent". He's a damn good egg with intellect and you reminded of him. God bless you Lisa
I can finally say I feel good now days without anything. I had a very bad tolerance and didn't think it was possible to not use. the main thing you need is enough time to allow your body and mind to recover. eating right and excersize speed it up. I also do daily meditation to keep my mind in check. the main thing that lit a fire was I didn't want to die while I was I toxicated. this life is too short to not be fully Involved with all your faculty intact. I hope you fight and know that in time you can live life without using and still feel good.
thanks man, those 3 things together was the hardest detox I've ever been through. it's been over a year now and I've bounced back pretty good. memory still seems to be off and I've been having intense dreams. but it's invaluable not having to tale anything to get through life
Keep up the good work. I hope the best for one on the said path. One must remind themselves of the lowest point of being and if choose to continue the lifestyle that led them there will only see the outcome worsen.. in your case death. The “animal/creature” you speak of, I use the word “primitive” for such behavior/being. It’s a mindset like you said and there are ways to help the anxiety like Water, favorite foods, and music which are all healthy. Thanks , it was a well said story. God Bless.
Good for you bro. Keep it up. There is a lot of work to be done for able body men. Find the heaviest stone you can and lift it. We as men have to stop living for instant pleasure. We have to bear are cross and pick up the torch of our ancestors. There is a war happening now. Not with guns and bullets but with psychological and spiritual attack's. We must fight! The government hates us, because we are made to lead. And be the head of our household. They want to replace us. We must not let that happen. Be proud. You're life starts now.
Winning comment. You speak the truth. Not everyone has ears. More eyes will be opened in the coming months. The world needs more men like you. Sending you love and blessings from Ireland ☘️
God bless you, brother. One is too many, one thousand is never enough. I've been an addict for 8ish years. Klonopin, hydrocodone, liquid Ativan; I struggle still every day. Currently on many different meds, Paxil, gabapentin, Keppra, various different blood pressure meds. Many of the pills I use are crutches, but I'm working to come off of everything & strengthing my connection to God (always struggled with that).
Very good video! Naturally you have the experience of what you’ve been through, but also the talent to communicate about it in a very clear manner. You would make a great counselor. One question though; someone close to mine was going through the withdrawals (Had been using a very mild opiates orally for 10 years, with a low dosage. He was able to live his life pretty much normally, but nevertheless wanted to quit.), and after one week he was still not able to sleep and eat, told me that he felt like rats were eating his body 24/7, so he eventually gave up, and went back to using. So the question is, how do you deal with the physical pain, if it’s really that horrible, and has not diminished a bit after a 7 days of hell? Thank you very much, and all the best. 🙏
the past times I tried to kick the worse part like that lasted about 2 weeks or less. this last time I had to go to the ER and admitted to the psych ward. I was in a bad state of psychosis from the meth and it was worsen by coming off benzos and fentanyl at the same time. I was there for 5 days then drooling on myself unable to move properly or sleep for 15 days. there's no getting around the pain. the onlyl thing that kept me going was I truly felt I was fighting for my life. I had decided I was done before I started detox and I didnt change my mind. years of trying different ways of getting clean and failing showed me that the o ly way for me was to go through it and get to the other side. in my experience your friend has to be beaten by drug use enough to not consider it an option. it looks different for everyone. just know that he can bounce back and feel good again without drugs.
Congrats on your sobriety! Even though I don’t know you, I’m proud of you. It’s a very hard thing to go through. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s important because I believe everyone is different. Suboxone saved my life! Keep fighting 🙏🏼🙏🏼 it took a while for me to feel “normal”
just know it's worth the fight. it takes time to bounce back and it takes work. diet, excersize, meditation and most importantly time. but it's worth not wasting this life. you have the source of life within you to do anything you put all your mind body and energy into. you may be by yourself where you live but me and many other people will always be around if you look
Keep going.good job. 6 yes clean for me. Reading the Bible got me started on sobriety and God has helped me to stay clean.stay away from people you used with or bought drugs from
OMG…..I had that same vision of death when I was into cocaine. What got me into rehab was my vision of me dead and my parents looking at me in the casket. It was so powerful. I went into rehab that day.
ya I'm very thankful for that vision. it really turned me around. I'm constantly reminded about it and it's forced me to really do life in a whole new way
Fucking congrats man. I’ve been on methadone for 6 months 0 fuck ups. But the benzos man, fuck I’ve been on 4mg of Clonazepam each day prescribed. Quitting benzos is goddamn electric that’s the only way I can describe it. Honestly tho, keep going, you got it bro!💪💪💪
it's not easy, it's worth the fight tho. to wake up without needing anything is invaluable. ultimately it took alot of time for me. to speed it up ate certain foods excersize and meditate daily
WELL DONE buddy, dude I was a addict of 20 years, opioid and opiate addiction, IV to the point where veins collapsed, Valium as well, 300 mg morphine sulphate in particular, (mono ) mate we are almost the same lol, I have been clean for 8 going on 9 years, the benzo withdrawal is brutal, it lasts for a year, hypertension and anxiety, you will see, but it does pass, it will generally come on at night,, the opiate and or opioid is a walk in the park, it is short lived, I know fentanyl has a copious half life and the synapse, maintains the craving of dopamine and serotonin but it does get equilibrium, the meth is also a prick but it also does get better, also the methedone is a good thing for a while, however it can become a crutch, I run it for a few years and got some balance, Pending doom is also part of recovery,, ironically I went back to school and did a bio med degree, stay strong mate, it is doable, cheers from Oz mate
that's awesome man sounds likeyou definitely know what your talking about. that was the hardest detox I've ever been through but it was worth it to be free today
@@a.i.dreaming8272 Good day from Oz,, I do agree with you mate, addiction really does suck,, to think the behaviour starts as a means of escape, generally from a catalyst, emotional , trauma, a lot of variables, its funny to think that a tool for escape, stimulant or drug ends up being the captor, it is absolutely the best to be free hehehe, stay strong and well mate, I wish you the absolute very best, well done
I have to stay on the suboxone. I deal with pain and since I can't take pain killers due to addiction then the choice is suboxone, I'm actually on subutex but same difference. This "crutch" is my life saver. Keeps me away from pain killers but gives me back a life too
I'm day36 no methadone, i tapered ths time from 190mg down to 6mg and leaped off, i was surprsed at how manageable my withdrawals were, i still have fatique/sleep isnt great but i got away wth not having most symptoms. last time i jumped off at 20mg and it was really bad... i also kicked benzos before CT and the anxiety feeling from that was much worse. ill take opiate wd over benzo wd
right those benzo suck, well good job, I recommend getting into excersize and eating healthy to feel physically good and definitely daily meditation to feel psychologically and spiritually good, I never gave up on the idea of feeling good just decided to no longer use drugs or quick fixes. meditation is a big one for me
I was coming off all 3 m, had a really high tolerance as well. the worst part lasted about a month. it's been a year now of non stop eating right excersize and meditation and Ive bounced back
I got extremely ill on Suboxone strips. Vomiting so much, for a year. I am in California, have full medi-cal. So. A year in, doc says, oh, you can get the patch form. They are the strongest, 20mcg an hour. I got addicted in 1995. Too late to stop harm reduction. I also take Gabapentin, for the flight or flight chill they provide. I do not wake up looking to chase. Works for me, forever. I am going back to methadone one day.
I've realized those drugs. Well fentanyl took my motivation away. Including my motivation to stop. The quality of fentanyl has gone down in my little rural town. Maybe it has tranq now. It's scary and reminds me of a spreading infection (sound familiar? It's getting worse,at the gas station and everywhere. A spreading horrible disease. 😮
I never sent anything but I smoked a whole lotta crack for like 8 years n now I’m sober with a wife n kids n the weirdest thing is from time to time I’ll still taste it randomly on the back of my tongue even years later. I laugh it off now but at first it was real triggering. N now I’m also emotionally numb n can’t decipher what emotions I feel or should feel. Yay for sobriety tho no cap
@@a.i.dreaming8272 nah bro cold turkey. Just move from city fast life Florida to mountain hicktown New Hampshire. Only way I coulda did it was to leave all together to a place it’s not convenient everywhere. I made it out pretty lucky honestly a lot of my friends switched to dope n fetty n died. I get bored at how slow my life is now but it’s way better than doing the addicts dance forever. Stay strong homie
@@almightysauerkraut6165 yea bro all the time atleast few times a month. I have enough time clean under my belt that I know no wild night getting high is worth fucking up, and also I genuinely know the outcome of going to get high. No money, no sleep, gotta lie and hang my head, won’t feel like a man, all that shit and logically it’s not worth it to go seek the drug. It also tremendously helps that drugs of any kind are extremely hard to find in this area I moved to. It’s just a str8 up hassle to go through the hoops for the drug s that ultimately will ruin your life anyway. I’m definitely white knuckle sober but it works for me.
suboxone can be a good tool to get off harder/ more dangerous stuff. like most drugs it has a certain grip on your system that becomes more limiting over time. you won't feel as good as you can feel without drugs and proper maintenance of body and mind.
Dude I too made the comparison of me addicted to being more animalistic vs a human during. In my deepest state of addiction I should've been in a cage lol.
I put this out there bc I've experienced the same kind of loneliness and darkness that drug addiction can put a person in and I want anyone who's in that place to know that they're not alone and that it's possible to be free of drugs and have a fullfilled life
Hey bud, just a suggestion. Go work a 12 step program. Your just sharing your experience on drugs. Because it's all you know. You don't know anything about real long term sobriety. Go get a sponsor. Call them everyday and go to more meetings. I think you should share. But thinking your a scholar enough in this to make a UA-cam video and think it's a solution to alcoholism and drug addiction is blasphemy. When you get an experience in real long term sobriety and using tools from a 12 step program to stay sober even threw all the shit you would use drugs or drink over is the message of hope. Not your experience with drugs and alcohol. This is called sharing the problem.
I'm working a 12 step. The point of this channel is to come together and continue to grow recovery where ever possible. There is a video that mentions this.
You couldn't have been too heavy on the benzodiazepines you look way too healthy ive had two life-threatening seizures coming off of benzos. So you absolutely couldn't have been that bad on them
Thank you so much for posting this. We currently have our daughter stuck on Meth and she hasn’t hit bottom where she realizes she wants help. She has two children she isn’t present for and they are 8,000 miles away. I’m using channels like this to understand addiction and it helps tremendously. Please be well. It looks like you are well on your way to a better life. Keep your chin up. You can do this.
Please if you have any questions let me know. I will only be speaking from a practical stand point based of my personal experience.
Praying for your daughter ❤
Prayers! Your daughter will bounce back from this!
Pls be there for her don’t give up on her. I know the thing she probably does make her seem like she’s a whole different person because that’s what drugs do they alter your brain chemistry so it’s not her fault the way she is acting (if she is acting out) but she is still that little girl you once knew I promise. She’s still there it’s just masked under the addiction. Always have hope and don’t give up on her please recovery is very possible and meth doesn’t give physical withdrawls to the extent of fentanyl or any other opiate since meth is a stimulant. But once again please do not give up on her.
Be greatful it's Meth and not Fentanyl.
That stuff really changes you on a deep level if you can survive the near fatal dosages in most $10 bags people get.
Thank God for suboxone... does work.
The depression she will feel will be pretty bad... can have some real dark thought when by yourself, needs to have a good support network, find some straight friends to hang out with.
Some people have to geographically move just to set themselves free from the social link and access to the substance.
Keep your head up bro and stay straight. 7 years sober from all the same things although fentanyl wasn't around that I knew of then. A man that can kneel down to God can stand up to anything... Much respect from Texas
Opioid withdrawal and benzo withdrawal are no joke. But combined? They are hell. You’re doing great man, keep it up.
I've been through benzo and opiate wds. It was hell. Taking Kava and Kratom has helped tremendously in my case.
my benzos withdrawal(Xanax/Valiums)was HORRENDOUS.
Sloppy messy UGLY LOoooooong Lonely Shameful.
I was in physical/mental withdrawal for almost TWO f*cking YEARS.
Imagine if everytime you had a paws craving you could be transported into withdrawals for 10min
hope you're doing well man. Keep up the good work. That is the trifecta of terrible drugs.
I’ve been on Methadone for 17 years and dude you’re speaking my language😮 I don’t know many other people who are on it and can understand exactly how I feel on the daily. Thank you for putting this out there❤✌️🙂
I agree been on methadone now for 22 years got down to 40ml now but feels impossible to come much lower. What dose are you on if you don't mind me asking
@@bryn3652 I’m on 70 mg now. The highest I got was 95mg and that was back when I first started. I’ve went down really slowly, 1mg every 2 weeks for what seems like years. I actually stopped going down around a year ago and have stayed at 70mg since. Gonna have to start going down again soon tho, I don’t wanna be here the rest of my life. I’m 42 now and been on Methadone ever since I was 25. It’s definitely been a long journey to say the least.
Why would you stay on methadone for so long I got off that crap after few months thank god I’m sober now
@@miguelcervantes3739
many reasons; simply Can't kick opiates/drug; pain; Ugly old fashion Addiction.
I deeply understand Any addiction. No matter how Severe, petty, per-say Silly.
It's unfortunate/depressing/sad/Upsetting when people in general Just Can't "Stop" what ever it Is that has a Hold on Them. Factually affects EVERYone 1 way or another💛
📣congratulations on Your success it's a Big f*cking Deal! HUGE!!!! 🎯✔️💯🤸🏻♂️
Congratulations on your sobriety that's awesome ...I was on methadone for 12 yrs .I was on 165mgs and I was always a functioning addict a "closet addict " is what I called myself because no one knew except a few people that had a issue my family had no clue I had my own place worked raised my kids did all that I was never in and out of jail THANK GOD ...but I have been off of methadone for over 4 yrs now and looking back I feel like it had me so numbed up to certain things like emotions, feelings , the way i handled my relationship/marriage and I'm still after 4 years off if it trying to process certain things from when I was on it and it's really been hard processing it all so keep fighting the fight and good luck with your sobriety I enjoyed your video it was easy to relate too
Well done getting clean from all that methadone, it's a real achievement buddy, if you can do that, you're strong enough to do anything, I wish you all the very best on your recovery journey and keep up the good work so you can give people struggling some useful advice, take care buddy, big respect coming from England.
You’re tough. I’d probably die if I stopped that much methadone. My body can’t handle extreme withdrawals.
I know exactly how you feel!! I was on methadone 10 mgs 3x a day for pain management in 2003. I thought it was a godsend as I had a love affair w lortabs and would take too many no matter how hard I tried not too. Methadone pills never got me "high"but did numb me to where I'd sleep while the kids were in school. Had no idea how physically addictive methadone was until a hurricane knocked out the power😢.
I've definitely had a hard time processing the last few years. I was so gone and numb its like it never really happened.
Thanks for the video. I’m 1.5 years clean and the big hurdle for me was thinking I would never feel normal again . I’m feeling great now. Keep up the good work
that's awesome to hear good job man, I'm going to start posting again about rewriting old behaviors of our mind that doesn't serve us in living a happier more fulfilled life. And how we can still pursue our goals and dreams for this life.
It took me an entire year to feel normal again from xanax, just surrender to it.
Hey Ryan thanks for your channel I'm a struggling heroin and crack addict. I'm an Iv user for last 10 years I also have an addiction to pregablin 10 years and I'm finding life really hard. I keep doing my withdrawal then ill be clean for a week then use again maybe 2 or 3 days then start all over again. I'm also on methadone but I buy more than what I'm prescribed so got a bigger addiction with that. My life is so fucked and just found ur channel and ur a big help. Love your channel ❤️❤️ p.s I'm from the U.K
I've been where you're at, just know that as impossible as it sounds you can not only get clean but also feel good without using anything. it is worth going through the detox. once you're done with that I have videos that provide solutions for a happy and peaceful mind. lmk if there's a topic you'd like me to shed some light on. I will continue to post what has been working for me.
@@a.i.dreaming8272 Thankyou
I subbed. You're so honest with your experiences. This channel will grow 👌 Take the best care of yourself.
Congratulations I have entered my 7th yr of recovery. I
It began with opiates from a severed nerve in my back.
17 yrs I was looped in on every narcotic that could be prescribed.
Pills dried and up I spent two weeks with a needle in my arm and I almost died from first fentanyl that hit streets.
I immediately went to get help. It took a few relapse to figure it all out but I have my footing and feel amazing.
in glad you bounced back. I didn't realize how long it would take to feel good again. definitely worth it
@@a.i.dreaming8272 I commend you. You danced with a beast that has no let go and it's getting worse by the day with tranq taking over all supplies.
Do keep making these videos…u are an inspiration to me & my problem was wine…with a lot of devastation. I’m still in early recovery & dealing with real consciousness for the first time in +6 years, so your story resonates & I’ve no doubt it will to so many. You look so healthy, you have great clarity of mind & the will to succeed. & your Mum. ❤ I wish you great health and happiness going forward. Subscribed! 😊
I'm working on a video that is going to talk about acceptance. it is a great tool to use in recovery if applied in tough moments. hope you check it out. thanks for the kind words.
Welcome to the land of the living, my friend!!!
Wine is so accepted by our society…it’s hard to break. So proud of you for your progress into recovery. I’m here if you need to vent or talk…just leave me a message her
I hope you never forget what you want through. Best of luck to you.
Hey, just found your channel...Congrats to u on your sobriety! I'm 2 years clean off fentanyl... I actually detoxed cold turkey and it was 3 weeks of pure hell! I was determined tho... I was done with that drug! After like 2 weeks of feeling ok, I then gradually started slipping into a severe & crippling depression... I endured that for 9 months and finally reached out to a substance abuse treatment place and I was placed on the lowest dose of Suboxone...4mg once daily... for me it works very well...maybe someday I'll want to get off the suboxone but for now, it's what I want...
that's awesome. I'm considering making a video about suboxone and methadone. the benefits and the drawbacks. let me know if this would be useful in your recovery.
Yes please make that video. I’m on subs and I’m about to lose my insurance and can’t afford it. So I’m about to go cold Turkey off of these and I heard it’s awful
use Good RX... you can save a ton of money
@@michaelj1552yo what state are you in
Please dont take this wrong, but the dr who gave you suboxen after 9 MONTHS of no opiates should be in jail!! . The suboxen "dr's" are very predatory! Please stay safe and re evaluate that if you can. Good luck either way!1
Congratulations and welcome to YOUR LIFE!! Thank you for shining your light and story. I have had addictions in my family, and am a RN working in Mental Health, and Addiction Treatment.
Today is a frightening time to be an addict because of Fentanyl being added to everything.
Shine on friend.
Thank you for your openness and honesty. God Bless you and Congratulatiins on what you have accomplished.
Its better if u speed it up to one step faster than normal speed. It was for me. Tysm for posting. Stay strong homie.
Im so happy for u im going on 7 years clean I thank god everyday cuz we r losen so many friends and loved ones to this
GOD BLESS YOU !!! , I did the suboxone for 2 yrs to get clean . You're Brain 🧠 needs to heal for at least 2 yrs . Then you can wean off subs slowly . I never did meth thank GOD , But I am SOO PROUD of you for getting back to you're real self 💗.
Thank you and keep on keeping on! You're doing great
Congratulations for your 6 month landmark! You are to be commended and keep up the fantastic work! :)
man this is really good. thanks for doing it. the human element is something special.
I dont know you, but I'm proud of you!!! I've been clean from meth for 19 years now, you can do it👍
Your amazing brother! Been sober from heroin and meth intravenously for around 5 years went through a very same process as you did before I realized I wasn't truly living. The amount of energy I was sapping from myself by taking methadone was mind boggling after I quit it. Life is so beautiful without everything and I can truly feel happiness again just like I did while watching this video of your journey! Amen brother keep building and never stop!
Hey Steve, just curious how long it took you to feel “right” after you quit methadone? My brother has been on it for about 8 years and is now talking about quitting completely. He just said it takes a while for the withdrawal symptoms to be gone completely.
Also, proud of your 5 years man!
@@micahrowei was on methadone for 10+ years and withdrawals off mdone is grueling. Months , im talking months . It wore me down so instead of using dope i tried suboxone for maintenance,maybe for a lifetime.
it's beautiful how much the body and mind can come back from alot of work but invaluable
@@micahroweI have been off methadone for almost 6 months. Still not 100% but I have more like good days then a week or so of less intense symptoms for no known reason. Just low energy, cold hands or feet, just worn down. Hope this helps. I was on for 10 years for pain
Thank you for your openness!
Great job, thanks for sharing your story.❤
5 1/2 years sober and I still struggle but it's amazing that you are doing well I hope you keep up the good work!
Thank you for sharing! God bless you on your journey!!
Hey, I just watched your video and wanted to say that I hope you are doing well. I will admit that I have no experience of taking drugs, I have an internal fear of not being in control so have never tried them. It does seem to me that people take drugs just to escape life…life can be exciting, life can be dull, life can be stressful, life can be serene, falling in love is great, falling out of love hurts the soul….but all these things are part of real life. As you said, it is about developing coping mechanisms. So glad that you are becoming a human being again. My thoughts are with you.
Interestingly, the reason why you never used these materials is why we use them. From the addict's view, life is out of control and the drugs give us control. In both cases the control is deception.
Beautiful man.. spread the good message. All hopes up for you and I’m glad you had the wherewithal to get clean. That shit is NOT easy AT ALL. Take time to congratulate and love yourself brother ❤
Yes I like your cat 😸
Thanks brother, I'm trying to kick my 25 year methadone, crack,benzo habit, atm,I really appreciate your videos, keep up the good work your future self will thank you.
you can do it. it takes time and alot of fight. once I realized using was no longer a practical solution for life is when I started truly fighting
Did you kick the methadone habit ?
Congratulations on your sobriety. Sharing your story is going to help you heal by helping others.
U looking good bro , thanks for the wise words of advice n stay safe
Methadone is a serious government drug that I’ve been stuck on for 25 years and it’s making me incredibly tired despite getting down to a very low dose. I hear you about being spiritually dead as I feel that all I have to love is the drugs even though I have an incredible family who try to help
ya methadone has its uses and limitations. what's needed is time for your body and mind to recovery properly. its worth the fight. getting up without needing anything is invaluable
Love yourself, don't give up! Nobody should judge you. If they do, boot them out of your life. Again, don't give up and don't give in.
thanks for the kind words
You’re an amazing man…I too am a recovering heroine addict but I did it all wrong… I detoxed by myself… it left lasting scars mentally…. Thank you for sharing… everything you say is true
Hi just come across ya chanal an subbd gd on ya for getting off all those drugs an sharing ya recovery..keep on soildering on bigup from bidzy westmids gypsy England 🙌🙏👊👍💯
thanks man
Thanks for making this. I like what you said about being 100% a creature of compulsion. That’s something else entirely that needs to be broken from.
thank you
Great vid man
Thank you
You're a cool dude. And boy the human body heals miraculously because your thought process, your use of the brain's executive functioning is intact and you are intelligent. Thank you, you remind me of son. But it's me that is weaning off inhaling perc/fentanyl or morphine pills by nose. Sniff. I am 58 next month. Off and on for 2 years then mostly daily the past year. And I am getting so much from you, you see today I went to a methadone clinic, outing myself to my doctor's etc. Just got home,sat down and found you. In 2003 I had a bad car accident got addicted went to rehab got clean. Then 3 yrs ago I relapsed into this. Sometimes my son and I have a role reversal, with him getting me into this outpatient and being the"parent". He's a damn good egg with intellect and you reminded of him. God bless you
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I can finally say I feel good now days without anything. I had a very bad tolerance and didn't think it was possible to not use. the main thing you need is enough time to allow your body and mind to recover. eating right and excersize speed it up. I also do daily meditation to keep my mind in check. the main thing that lit a fire was I didn't want to die while I was I toxicated. this life is too short to not be fully Involved with all your faculty intact. I hope you fight and know that in time you can live life without using and still feel good.
Hope you're doing well bro, really well done to come off opiates and benzos, respect.
thanks man, those 3 things together was the hardest detox I've ever been through. it's been over a year now and I've bounced back pretty good. memory still seems to be off and I've been having intense dreams. but it's invaluable not having to tale anything to get through life
Keep up the good work. I hope the best for one on the said path. One must remind themselves of the lowest point of being and if choose to continue the lifestyle that led them there will only see the outcome worsen.. in your case death. The “animal/creature” you speak of, I use the word “primitive” for such behavior/being. It’s a mindset like you said and there are ways to help the anxiety like Water, favorite foods, and music which are all healthy. Thanks , it was a well said story. God Bless.
Good for you bro. Keep it up. There is a lot of work to be done for able body men. Find the heaviest stone you can and lift it. We as men have to stop living for instant pleasure. We have to bear are cross and pick up the torch of our ancestors. There is a war happening now. Not with guns and bullets but with psychological and spiritual attack's. We must fight! The government hates us, because we are made to lead. And be the head of our household. They want to replace us. We must not let that happen. Be proud. You're life starts now.
Right on brother. Man needs to STAY ready at all times with his BEST! So everyone must stay on striving to be the best they can be.
Winning comment. You speak the truth. Not everyone has ears. More eyes will be opened in the coming months. The world needs more men like you. Sending you love and blessings from Ireland ☘️
appreciate the concern homie
Congratulations young man on your sobriety 🎉 🙏 🙌
That’s hard to do. Those withdrawals make you want to jump off a bridge the pain is so bad
God bless you, brother. One is too many, one thousand is never enough. I've been an addict for 8ish years. Klonopin, hydrocodone, liquid Ativan; I struggle still every day. Currently on many different meds, Paxil, gabapentin, Keppra, various different blood pressure meds. Many of the pills I use are crutches, but I'm working to come off of everything & strengthing my connection to God (always struggled with that).
You're looking healthy and at ease inside your own skin for 6mo clean bro. Good on ya, keep it up.
the at the time I made this video I was still going through alot of psychological insanity . it's become much calmer now took a while
Nice vid! Keep making them! Are you a part of the fellowship? Some of your wording leads me to believe you are! Great job and keep up the good work!
Yes I am!
I appreciate you! SWLouisiana here🐦🙏
You are strong enough!!!
Very good video! Naturally you have the experience of what you’ve been through,
but also the talent to communicate about it in a very clear manner. You would make
a great counselor.
One question though; someone close to mine was going through the withdrawals
(Had been using a very mild opiates orally for 10 years, with a low dosage. He was able
to live his life pretty much normally, but nevertheless wanted to quit.), and after one week
he was still not able to sleep and eat, told me that he felt like rats were eating his body
24/7, so he eventually gave up, and went back to using. So the question is, how do you
deal with the physical pain, if it’s really that horrible, and has not diminished a bit after a
7 days of hell? Thank you very much, and all the best. 🙏
the past times I tried to kick the worse part like that lasted about 2 weeks or less. this last time I had to go to the ER and admitted to the psych ward. I was in a bad state of psychosis from the meth and it was worsen by coming off benzos and fentanyl at the same time. I was there for 5 days then drooling on myself unable to move properly or sleep for 15 days. there's no getting around the pain. the onlyl thing that kept me going was I truly felt I was fighting for my life. I had decided I was done before I started detox and I didnt change my mind. years of trying different ways of getting clean and failing showed me that the o ly way for me was to go through it and get to the other side. in my experience your friend has to be beaten by drug use enough to not consider it an option. it looks different for everyone. just know that he can bounce back and feel good again without drugs.
good luck brother
Right on man 👍
Your doing awesome
Good for you keep going don't give up.👍👍👍👍😊💖
Thank you for sharing your story.you look fantastic.keep up the to great evening work.keep smiling🎈🎊🎊🎀🎇 .x
hey thanks for the kind words, if you have any topics you'd like me to share on let me know hope your day is blessed
Congrats on your sobriety! Even though I don’t know you, I’m proud of you. It’s a very hard thing to go through. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s important because I believe everyone is different. Suboxone saved my life! Keep fighting 🙏🏼🙏🏼 it took a while for me to feel “normal”
Subbed brother.
Thanks for the sub!
Im from Portugal, and i am trying stop heroína , but im alone i dont have any help..
Except your words and exempl..
Thank u share your story
just know it's worth the fight. it takes time to bounce back and it takes work. diet, excersize, meditation and most importantly time. but it's worth not wasting this life. you have the source of life within you to do anything you put all your mind body and energy into. you may be by yourself where you live but me and many other people will always be around if you look
Keep going.good job. 6 yes clean for me. Reading the Bible got me started on sobriety and God has helped me to stay clean.stay away from people you used with or bought drugs from
...... I pray you are doing good . I'm in the same boat...... at 59
OMG…..I had that same vision of death when I was into cocaine. What got me into rehab was my vision of me dead and my parents looking at me in the casket. It was so powerful. I went into rehab that day.
ya I'm very thankful for that vision. it really turned me around. I'm constantly reminded about it and it's forced me to really do life in a whole new way
How long did it take for you to feel normal from the day you stopped to feeling 100%
I just done a Valium (methodone to subutex)heroin and crack 8 year IV detox, just got a month clean now been rough but I’m soldiering on it’s no joke
I just went through fentanyl withdrawal cold turkey, it was significantly harder than heroin. Feels good to be clean though.
Fucking congrats man. I’ve been on methadone for 6 months 0 fuck ups. But the benzos man, fuck I’ve been on 4mg of Clonazepam each day prescribed. Quitting benzos is goddamn electric that’s the only way I can describe it. Honestly tho, keep going, you got it bro!💪💪💪
It's like your body has electricity running thru it and the body jolts every so often in a matter of minutes
@@screweduptexas same happens with anti-depressant withdrawl
it's not easy, it's worth the fight tho. to wake up without needing anything is invaluable. ultimately it took alot of time for me. to speed it up ate certain foods excersize and meditate daily
Well done
Hell yeah bro. Encouraging words. " I AM learning to be HUMAN again. Thank you
Yea bro congrats it’s not easy I’m sober a couple months I used IV heroin and was clean for 5 years. I relapsed on fent during the pandemic
hope your still doing good, what's your main thing you do to feel good in your sobriety?
nice hogwarts art. man of culture.
lol good eye
Congratulations
WELL DONE buddy, dude I was a addict of 20 years, opioid and opiate addiction, IV to the point where veins collapsed, Valium as well, 300 mg morphine sulphate in particular, (mono ) mate we are almost the same lol, I have been clean for 8 going on 9 years, the benzo withdrawal is brutal, it lasts for a year, hypertension and anxiety, you will see, but it does pass, it will generally come on at night,, the opiate and or opioid is a walk in the park, it is short lived, I know fentanyl has a copious half life and the synapse, maintains the craving of dopamine and serotonin but it does get equilibrium, the meth is also a prick but it also does get better, also the methedone is a good thing for a while, however it can become a crutch, I run it for a few years and got some balance, Pending doom is also part of recovery,, ironically I went back to school and did a bio med degree, stay strong mate, it is doable, cheers from Oz mate
that's awesome man sounds likeyou definitely know what your talking about. that was the hardest detox I've ever been through but it was worth it to be free today
@@a.i.dreaming8272 Good day from Oz,, I do agree with you mate, addiction really does suck,, to think the behaviour starts as a means of escape, generally from a catalyst, emotional , trauma, a lot of variables, its funny to think that a tool for escape, stimulant or drug ends up being the captor, it is absolutely the best to be free hehehe, stay strong and well mate, I wish you the absolute very best, well done
Congrats
I have to stay on the suboxone. I deal with pain and since I can't take pain killers due to addiction then the choice is suboxone, I'm actually on subutex but same difference. This "crutch" is my life saver. Keeps me away from pain killers but gives me back a life too
suboxone definitely has its uses, I'm sorry that your in pain.
I'm day36 no methadone, i tapered ths time from 190mg down to 6mg and leaped off, i was surprsed at how manageable my withdrawals were, i still have fatique/sleep isnt great but i got away wth not having most symptoms. last time i jumped off at 20mg and it was really bad... i also kicked benzos before CT and the anxiety feeling from that was much worse. ill take opiate wd over benzo wd
right those benzo suck, well good job, I recommend getting into excersize and eating healthy to feel physically good and definitely daily meditation to feel psychologically and spiritually good, I never gave up on the idea of feeling good just decided to no longer use drugs or quick fixes. meditation is a big one for me
did you withdraw individually from the 3 drugs.....congrats to you sir
I was coming off all 3 m, had a really high tolerance as well. the worst part lasted about a month. it's been a year now of non stop eating right excersize and meditation and Ive bounced back
I got extremely ill on Suboxone strips. Vomiting so much, for a year. I am in California, have full medi-cal. So. A year in, doc says, oh, you can get the patch form. They are the strongest, 20mcg an hour. I got addicted in 1995. Too late to stop harm reduction. I also take Gabapentin, for the flight or flight chill they provide. I do not wake up looking to chase. Works for me, forever. I am going back to methadone one day.
So gabapentin gets rid of that fight or flight anxiety feeling during withdrawals?
How much does gabapentin work for fent or any other opiate withdrawal? Would you say it gets rid of most of the withdrawals, some, or a little bit ?
Would love to do an interview with you
I'm curious what it would be for? my buddies started a recovery podcast called raised by wolves. you may find it interesting.
I've realized those drugs. Well fentanyl took my motivation away. Including my motivation to stop. The quality of fentanyl has gone down in my little rural town. Maybe it has tranq now. It's scary and reminds me of a spreading infection (sound familiar? It's getting worse,at the gas station and everywhere. A spreading horrible disease. 😮
I never sent anything but I smoked a whole lotta crack for like 8 years n now I’m sober with a wife n kids n the weirdest thing is from time to time I’ll still taste it randomly on the back of my tongue even years later. I laugh it off now but at first it was real triggering. N now I’m also emotionally numb n can’t decipher what emotions I feel or should feel. Yay for sobriety tho no cap
I'm noticing that numbness being a common theme. Have you had the chance to do a 12 step program?
@@a.i.dreaming8272 nah bro cold turkey. Just move from city fast life Florida to mountain hicktown New Hampshire. Only way I coulda did it was to leave all together to a place it’s not convenient everywhere. I made it out pretty lucky honestly a lot of my friends switched to dope n fetty n died. I get bored at how slow my life is now but it’s way better than doing the addicts dance forever. Stay strong homie
How long has it been? Do u still dream about getting it?
@@almightysauerkraut6165 yea bro all the time atleast few times a month. I have enough time clean under my belt that I know no wild night getting high is worth fucking up, and also I genuinely know the outcome of going to get high. No money, no sleep, gotta lie and hang my head, won’t feel like a man, all that shit and logically it’s not worth it to go seek the drug. It also tremendously helps that drugs of any kind are extremely hard to find in this area I moved to. It’s just a str8 up hassle to go through the hoops for the drug s that ultimately will ruin your life anyway. I’m definitely white knuckle sober but it works for me.
Yes I've heard that happens
Amen 🙏
What do you think about Suboxone?
suboxone can be a good tool to get off harder/ more dangerous stuff. like most drugs it has a certain grip on your system that becomes more limiting over time. you won't feel as good as you can feel without drugs and proper maintenance of body and mind.
you can do it bro
I can stop heroin but xanax i can't , it's more difficult
It's deadly, can be, to detox alone from benzos
If you’re doing all three on the regular you so t going notice any meth withdrawal the other 2 a beast to go threw
ya it was the worst detox I've ever been through but being free of the grip drugs had on me is worth all the pain I had to go through
Worst of em all is buprenorfin, longest ive lasted is 8 months when i was in jail. Im in a program probably for life
nothing wrongnwith suboxone, to feel extra good I recommend daily meditation , excersize and eating clean whole foods
@@a.i.dreaming8272 Yeah totally agree, bup/sub is better than heroine or Fentanyl for sure, but it would be nice not having to have any addiction.
Dude I too made the comparison of me addicted to being more animalistic vs a human during. In my deepest state of addiction I should've been in a cage lol.
ts easy to detox but hell to obtain long term sobriety. I take methadone 21 years
I’m currently withdrawing off 8 mg of suboxone
Still clean?
yes sir
The pressed ones on the streets ain’t Xanax 😂
Methadone has a massive half life
If you're going to do Recreational drugs, psychedelics are the way to go. Kid tested, Mother approved. No withdrawals! 😉👍🍄
I use to take psilocybin mushrooms pretty often years ago, dmt as well. I'm into meditation now and don't take anything.
Wow sorry but i just wonder why Americans like to tell the world thi sort of stuff .. its truly boggles the mind. just a thought nothing more...
I put this out there bc I've experienced the same kind of loneliness and darkness that drug addiction can put a person in and I want anyone who's in that place to know that they're not alone and that it's possible to be free of drugs and have a fullfilled life
Hey bud, just a suggestion. Go work a 12 step program. Your just sharing your experience on drugs. Because it's all you know. You don't know anything about real long term sobriety. Go get a sponsor. Call them everyday and go to more meetings. I think you should share. But thinking your a scholar enough in this to make a UA-cam video and think it's a solution to alcoholism and drug addiction is blasphemy. When you get an experience in real long term sobriety and using tools from a 12 step program to stay sober even threw all the shit you would use drugs or drink over is the message of hope. Not your experience with drugs and alcohol. This is called sharing the problem.
I'm working a 12 step. The point of this channel is to come together and continue to grow recovery where ever possible. There is a video that mentions this.
Zachary, good suggestion for 12 step program. The kid is trying to make his life better, encourage him and respectfully explain what you want to say.
Try sobriety.
I just racked a line
You couldn't have been too heavy on the benzodiazepines you look way too healthy ive had two life-threatening seizures coming off of benzos. So you absolutely couldn't have been that bad on them
Don't worry about it
Suboxone saved my life, I was able to stay off and away from drugs. I’ve been sober since 2007. Suboxone takes away taste for alcohol.