The Crisis of Identity
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I am 38. Detransitioning after years on HRT. I can only say thank you God for saving me from the pit.
Thank you Father for delivering your child from this deception
I’m glad to hear you are headed the right way. Many blessings ☦️
you are a lying christian
😀🙏🏻✝️🌷
Thank you for sharing your testimony. Keep spreading your testimony as it glorifies God. ❤
Glory to God!
I am a 25 year old detransitioning woman. I decided to stop feeding into my trans-identity less than a year after I had amputated my breasts and 3 years on hormones. I thought that amputating my breasts and distancing myself from everything that was naturally feminine about my body, would make me feel happy and free.. It did not, instead I just felt more broken and lonely than ever before. I realized that we only get one life on this earth, and this body is the single most precious gift I have.. One, healthy, perfectly made vessel through which I get to experience all that life has to offer, but instead of cherishing it, I was punishing it. I had to work very hard to deconstruct the internal, mental and emotional system of ideas that led me to pursue transition in the first place. It was difficult, but certainly worth the time, pain and effort. 4 years have passed since I first began de-transitioning and I feel good. I converted and became a catholic 2 months ago, I'm getting married in two months, I have good friends who pray for me and look out for me. I never thought I would heal from all the damage I caused to myself, but here we are. All praise be to God. Guard your children from harmful infuences and teach them how to resist and use reason when they encounter dangerous ideas.
Bless you! ❤
God bless you. Thank you for sharing your story.
Congratulations your story was inspiring
2 Corinthians 3:18-- Continue to spend time beholding the glory of God so that you become transformed into His image from one degree of glory to another.
Congratulations. Unfortunately the devil has alot of people in his grasp. Glad you escaped and found god.
Imagine spending thousands seeing a therapist when you could just go talk to an Orthodox priest.
They don’t go because of pride, spite, not “fashionable”, parents & priest don’t know anything 😞
Many Priests and a few Bishops were once secular psychologists and psychiatrists too! They can take the knowledge they got for their doctorate and transform it with the teachings of the Church to help people. 🤗
@pennyk1943 maybe it didn't occur to them, maybe they're confused, lost. Maybe it's pressure. It's a bit unfair to assume people don't seek counsel from their parents and priests because they're selfish. Seeing as though most parents and religious authorities I've spoken to have destroyed my trust
If you can replace a therapist with a priest, it means that you never needed a therapist. You just did it because that was popular.
If you think it's okay to come to the monastery for that, then yes, but maybe it would be better to think about the whole concept of Orthodoxy, because I personally think that it's the only way to touch the heavens.
I did social media fasts during Lent this year and last, and it was massively helpful.
It showed me how dependent I was on instant entertainment and distraction. In a week or so, I was so much more peaceful and productive. When I returned, I could see how social media jerked my emotions around.
As I type this, maybe I feel a nudge to do a social media fast now.
This is why the only thing I use is UA-cam I don't really consider it social media.
I don't have a Facebook I don't have a Twitter I don't have an Instagram I don't have any of that trash.
I really think social media is one of the most evil bad things that you can have on your phone.
Phone's themselves are very addicting.. when you slap on something like social media and then being all obsessed with your online presence you have a dangerous combination especially for kids or for people who are grown ups but not grown up emotionally and mentally and there's a lot of those out there..
You should just quit social media.
Stop fasting from it just quit it.
I am so much happier since I quit it back in 2016.
And I used to be a heroin addict..
I think if I was still using social media even though I've only been clean for 141 days. I think if I was still using social media it would be 10 times harder for me to stay clean because it would have been 10 times harder for me to cut all the people I needed to out of my life and it would be harder to hide from those people.
You know how people are when you try to distance yourselves they tend to pop back in your life or try to find ways to pop back in your life.
I had to smash my phone change my number all kinds of crazy stuff but I'm glad I did it.
Now I've graduated from trade school(CNC).
I'm about to start my apprenticeship at an awesome tool and die shop.
I just got my first credit card 40 days ago about.
I just financed my first vehicle an SUV and literally just got it two days ago.
I don't think I would have any of those things because I wouldn't be able to stay clean and sober if I had social media.
It's just too hard to distance yourself with social media from bad people or people that you want to distance yourself from.
Even if you block them you still are going to get the temptation once in awhile to speak with them one day or they might just make a new profile there's just too many variables.
When you get rid of it outright, not only are you freed from caring about your worthless online presence that literally means nothing but you have the opportunity to escape from everybody that you really don't want to associate with, completely.
Not only that you don't have to worry about seeing stuff that you don't want to see reading stuff that you don't want to read. You don't have to worry about being censored. You don't have to worry about the online you at all.
Unfortunately UA-cam itself is getting really censory.
I've seen my comments get deleted days later even weeks later but I've seen them go bye-bye if I'm talking about a certain thing.
I've watched them get deleted in real time minutes after posting.
I've watched myself post comments say they're posted and then they don't post.
I've had it just say that it can't post it because there's some error.
Anytime I talk about something too heavily God related on most videos it gets deleted or it just will not post.
I've started to notice other people talking about this a little bit more in the comments on random videos.
I stopped making comments much of the time because it's just not worth it because I can't truly say what I want to say most of the time.
I wouldn't be surprised if this disappeared.
there's been so many times that I've checked back on previous videos from months back or weeks back and tried to search for my comment under a certain post or just look through the comments if it was my opening post and in both situations I've seen them just be gone.. and it's always because I'm either talking about God and doing the right thing in accordance to God's will or it's when I'm talking about being clean and sober from drugs or when I'm talking about conservative values.
Give UA-cam five more years.. you won't even recognize it.
You should just get off social media.
Why fast from it?
It's not a necessity like food.
That's like fasting from smoking.. or fasting from dope..
why not just quit?.
I'm not trying to hate on you I'm not talking smack about you I'm just giving you a suggestion because I think you would be a lot happier if you just dumped it all together.
I have nothing but respect for you for taking fasts from social media but I think the right thing to do and if you really pray about it and talk to God about it he will tell you the same thing, drop it altogether.
The best part about that the void that will be left over from not having social media God will fill that with something righteous and good he always does.
We are so back
lying christian
The screen is allowing me to listen to you. ☦🙂
fr ☦️🔥🔥
Thank God for Fr Paul, you can actually watch him become wiser, more assured, dialectically stronger, and more based over time by watching old vs new videos featuring him. Another great example of imperfect humanity, but ascent through humility and ever growing knowledge.
Catholic here but I'm loving the straight forward logic and reason coming from the orthodox church. Keep preaching God's reasoning, it clicks for those truly seeking the truth in a world of lies. 🙏🏻🌹
@@skittenhund it's very unfortunate that many Catholic priests don't have the GUTS that this Orthodox priest has.
❤️ Let’s transcend denominations ❤️
@@SanktSvensson you're crazy.
@@skittenhund protestant here, I agree!
Please pray the Rosary150 to save souls from the Jewish Hell and to build up your spiritual protection.
Deam Matronam Nostrae please protect me during my silence.
In Nomine Deum Jesum Christum et Deam Matronam Nostrae et Deum Patrum Spiritum Sanctum.
Oh my Deum Jesum Christum please pardon my sins and save me from the fires of hell. Please deliver all souls from purgatory especially those in most need. (3x)
Deam Matronam Nostrae et Deum Jesum Christum et Deum Patrum Spiritum Sanctum
(Ask God for what you want / intention)
Ave Deam Matronam Nostrae gratia plena. Deum Patrum Spiritum Sanctum tecum. Deam Matronam Nostrae Matram Deum Jesum Christum miserecordia pro nobis peccatoribus nunc et en hora mortis nostrae. (150x)
In Nomine Deum Jesum Christum et Deam Matronam Nostrae et Deum Patrum Spiritum Sanctum.
Please practise chastisement and don't obey the demons! 🙏
Im a nurse, years ago while elderly patient was dying, i held her hand, she whispered to me im worried if i will go to heaven, i told her accept jesus you will. She smiled.
Lot more to it than that lots more rules that needed to be upheld throughout life before death otherwise...nope you ain't getting in the only ones that do like that are babies
I live in Grand Rapids Michigan.
About an hour and a half away is the monastery that Fr. Roman Braga served in until his repose.
I was maybe 15 or 16 on my first visit for one of their “work days” where the community comes together and helps the nuns take care of outside tasks.
I remember standing next to a pond with a circle of men talking when I saw a small man draped in black make his way towards us.
He joined our circle, would occasionally speak very quietly & gently.
But the thing I will never forget is what I felt in that moment.
I felt his love. That’s probably the best way to describe an indescribable feeling. His face shined when he spoke. Time slowed down, my attention was solely fixed on this gentle quiet man. I’ve heard someone describe being next to a Saint by saying they “were making the grass grow” and I like that phrase.
I’ve visited Holy Dormition Monastery many times since it holds a special place in my family’s heart. Even when you said his name in the video I got excited & had to comment.
Thank you for this video, I enjoyed the topic very much.
God bless you Fr. Paul & Memory Eternal to Fr. Roman ☦️
That's so beautiful! Just curious, what's the symbol at the end of your comment?
I am so thankful that you shared that memory, it really moved me 🙏
You felt his love? Lol. You felt what you felt.
I'm a transsexual hunny stout true protestant Yankee dandy in intellect, quaker in heart, and southerner on foot.
Beware of foreign influence, stupid.
I use head and shoulders for shampoo and mixchicks for conditioner. lol
@@skittenhundIt’s the Cross… the three-barred cross is traditional to Orthodox Christianity, especially to the Russian Church. The top bar is the sign above our crucified Lord’s head that read _King of the Jews;_ the long bar in the centre is where His arms were spread out; the bottom bar is the footstool where His feet would rest as He hung there on the cross.
I'm a highschool student who's 17, an Orthodox catechumen living in the Philippines.. all I can say is, thank you Fr. Paul Truebenbach and Roots of Orthodoxy for your words and your opinions that helped me motivate even further into the Orthodox Faith, Lord knows when I will truly witness the Divine Liturgy and get baptized into the faith.. praying for the Philippines to have an Orthodox church in my hometown, God bless! ☦️
What is a catchumen?
God bless you and yr journey ❤️
@chucksolutions4579 a "catechumen" is a learner, someone who is under instruction before baptism. "Catechesis" comes from Greek κατήχησις meaning "instruction by word of mouth."
You will get a church one day, even if it is one you build. Maybe you are the young man who becomes the Father who brings Orthodoxy to the Philippines? Pray on it. God bless you and the Philippines! Christ is risen!☦
@@IosuamacaMhadaidhfantastic response
I had to break up with my girlfriend because she wants to transition, I love her but it hurts to see her not only destroy her body but rebel against God and contort the natural order.
Lord have mercy. 🙏
I’m sure that was a very hard decision. May God bless you and watch over her.
You made the right decision. Be there for her. I know it’s not easy with the emotions of a relationship clouding things but if you can keep those feelings aside and be there for her spiritually, maybe you can help her back on the path. Peace be with you.
I'm sorry to hear that, pray that the Lord deliver her from whatever is ailing her mind to make this decision
@@georgematta1700 and meanwhile he hurts himself. the better is let her go and let her do her. we give advice for good but if people do not want to listen we cannot do anything about. let her exercise her fr3e will. we cannot obligate no one to do anything, God do not obligate us to do nothing ¿who are we to do it?.
Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers. For what [a]fellowship has righteousness with lawlessness? And what [b]communion has light with darkness? 2 Corinthians 6:14
New King James Version
“Tolerance is the virtue of the man without conviction.” -GK Chesterton
I am a Roman Catholic, and I thoroughly enjoy the wisdom I have heard here. Thank you for expanding my knowledge!
My daughter was raised in a rural place and we had no internet, she watched two movies a week and no tv. She was only exposed to the internet and video games when she was 10. She is 14 now and can see the world so much more clearly than other teenagers her age. She says the kids her age think all the stuff online is normal because they were exposed so young. She remembers just spending time in nature.
I don't think I am a Christian, but my heart is open. I very much enjoyed the wisdom of Fr. Paul's words. Thank you for sharing. Especially about truth & love.
I think it's great you are open to opinions!
As mankind we are so caught up with our egos that we have a distorted view of what love is. Fr. Paul is absolutely correct on this teaching. I have found a lot of churches teach what we must do to be saved. I have found that salvation is mercy extended to us. And mercy and love is the Orthodox Church. Some “Christians” will condemn and judge out of spite and this superiority complex which is not true Christianity. We can judge with righteousness and love and we are commanded not suggested to love our neighbor as ourselves. That commandment alone is so powerful and changing when we tap in to what it truly means. Mercy and love. Not tolerance for evil things but mercy and love and compassion. I highly recommend you go to your nearest Orthodox Church. Don’t worry about if it’s Russian or Greek or Antiochian. Just go. My first liturgy I was in tears with how powerful it was and what God showed me that day.
We’ll be here with open arms once you’re ready. In the meantime, peace be with you.
I'm praying for you
„but my heart is open“.. how nicely you worded that 🩷 I hope it stays open
The same thing with plastic surgery, I was a victim of an ideology of beauty, ultimately reining my health. Sold as a standard of beauty, but in the back and behind all the cameras, there are thousands of women suffering from the consequences of these demonic force.
It became so normalized, it’s terrible. It so crazy to see society stray from God and the Church because they feel it’s too restraining or it evokes suffering and then they go and put themselves under so much suffering for other reasons, it’s really really sad.
I am glad you left, what is afterall an ideology :) as a woman I really thank God that as an adolescent I didn’t had money for plastic surgeries, we are so fragile and vulnerable at that age 🙏
Yes! And if you notice extreme body modification has become normalized within the trans and plastic surgery communities. And it's truly an addiction to fulfill what you believe your ego should appear as. Funnily enough though everyone, trans or not, ends up looking the same... I don't know if you've ever seen or read Laughing Man but this desire to mold the flesh into something entertaining really reminds me of the comprachicos.
I'm non-denominational and don't know this Pastor's name, but this guy was PREACHING!
Loved it. It fed my soul. I was immediately reminded that I missed church on Sunday driving back from New York. Thanks Pastor.
I will share this with my kids. They are in the middle of this cultural warfare, and a far more accepting of this identity crisis.
I will pray for some of you in the comments.
Christ is the answer,
(De)(nom)inations, see that bro?
This is Fr. Paul Truebenbach, you should find more of his videos! He is amazing and has lots of wisdom to share.
He is a priest. 😊 The Orthodox tend not to just preach and do pastoral work, but Live in such a way to inspire others. The unseen warfare is difficult, but so worth it.
*Our God indeed is a covenant keeping God. Has he said a thing and not perform it? I watch how things unfold in my life, from penury to $356,000 every three months and I can only praise him and trust him more. Hallelujah 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻*
Hello how do you make such monthly??
I'm a born Christian and sometimes I feel so down🤦🏼of myself because of low finance but I still believe in God🙏.
Thanks to my co-worker (Alex) who suggested Ms Christy Fiore
She's a licensed broker here in the states🇺🇸 finance advisor.
After I raised up to 525k trading with her I bought a new House and a car here in the states 🇺🇸🇺🇸and also paid for my son's surgery (Oscar). Glory to God.shalom.
I've always wanted to be involved for a long time but the volatility in the price has been very confusing to me. Although I have watched a lot of UA-cam videos about it but I still find it hard to understand.
I woke up at 3PM today and, for some reason, I have a lot of motivation to pray, read the bible, go to church, read the lives of the saints, etc.
I wish it
Hi! Is there a book you can recommend when you want to read about the saints? Maybe a collection?
@@sebastianf3861 i know the question is not for me but, i recommend you to read the confessions of st augustine.
Indeed, Christ warned us about all of this. That is why I continue to trust him and will forever, even in the darkest of moments. God bless ❤
Thank you. This is the first time I have heard this Father and I am thankful.
I am thankful I knew Jesus from a young age. Good stopped me becoming a monster. My home growing up was violent. My sister was violent to her boyfriends. I am glad I knew that God did not want me to have girlfriends. I would have been violent and just used them for the obvious with no love involved from my part.
I am also glad I went to God with what we called back then Gender Identity Disorder. I had it age 9-34. It was caused by violence in the home, bullying in childhood and being around the sex industry. I had no good female role models but men were kind, good, intelligent and supportive. I identified with the behaviours of the men around me and not with the nasty, sexual and sexuality gets you everywhere behaviours of the women around me. That is why I thought I was a different gender and wanted a man’s body. I am glad I went to God about this and He took me out of the poisonous environment and I was healed instantly.
God is amazing and wants the best for us. Thanks be to God!
Memory Eternal, Fr. Roman. ❤️☦️
Thank you, Fr. Paul.
Thank you. Those last words are something we need to consider always. When people look in at Christians and see us bickering and angry just like the rest of the world we are not serving God. How can we be the light of the world if we don't live a different Way than what the world has to offer?
The members of your church are blessed to have a priest like you .Thank you for your videos
Yes, they are.
"If we are to know ourselves, we must first know God. And that's why self-knowledge is so difficult" - this is absolutely true!
What a wonderful example Fr. Braga gave us to emulate!
Thank you, Father Paul! May the Mother of God protect you 🙏🏻☦️
Seek first the Kingdom of God & His righteousness... ✝️
Thank you for speaking truth in a simple and easy to understand way. ☦️
Exactly, the people who are going with the flow are the ones who have courage, yet the ones who go against the flow are not courageous. It's upside down. I remember the late Norm McDonald shocked everyone when he told that to someone on a show that he was judging on. He was a Christian and said just about the same thing. God Bless Father Truebenbach.
Bless this channel! It’s been a great source of added information in my learning and growing of theological basis. I am eternally grateful. Also thank you for Fr. Paul Trubenbauch. May all who see this video be as moved as I am by each and every upload!
Thank you Father. I am enlightened by your wisdom.
The voice of the Truest Tuning Fork ever!!! Thanks so much, Fr. Paul.
Such a smart man! Thank you, Father!
Well spoken with a lot of care , hope and belief in our Lord.
I see how many problems are în America' s society. The more we struggle to survive in a society that gives you the freedom to give up Christ, the very essence of our lives, the greater our problems become. America is in great need for Orthodoxy, and I pray God that every American in seek of Christ, to experience the encounter of Orthodoxy like Seraphim Rose had .
Father Seraphim is really a shining example of swimming against the current!
Cold hard facts and truth. The world needs this so very desperately. Thank you father for a truly blessed upload. Praise to the Lord.
Excellent example in the three circles. Also, the point of we can’t know our identity without knowing Our Creator - in whose image we are made. Thank you, Father.
Thank you Father Paul ☦
polytheist
@@louisdeniau8571 Monotheist*
Couldn't be more in agreement with you.....what's truly sad is this whole ordeal was thought through, pre meditated, an planned to divide us further, instead of uniting us as beings and REALIGNING US WITH YESHUA CHRIST❤❤❤❤🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thanks for this. I think Fr Truebenbach is doing an admirable job in communicating Holy Orthodoxy to the world. Glory to God! 🙏☦️
May God bless you dear priest!
Totally agree with the vacuum. But also digital world and social media is huge impact, also social isolation. People don’t belong to anything socially, they just fill they mind with constant media input that’s so fast they don’t even consciously know what they are feedinh their minds with. It’s a kind of hypnosis. But who’s the hypnotist?
This was a wonderful video. Thank you for sharing this. God bless you. 🙏🏽☦️🕊️
God bless you father Paul for your awesome testimony. Amen and amen.
Fr. Paul Truebenbach, not sure if you will see these comments but I wanted to thank you for you catechism classes. I have been going through them and will most likely become a Catechumen this Sunday down South at St. Xenia's with Fr. Justin.
BTW - I think the link to your channel above in the description may be off. Hopefully *Root of Orthodoxy* sees this so they can correct it.
Seems not widely understood, but childhood trauma causes undeveloped identity. Including possibly the most socially accepted of childhood traumas, divorce. Also, we don’t question allowing our children to be raised by institutions. Unstable identities are easily directed to dark corners
Well stated. Thank you.
I thoroughly enjoy listening to Fr. Paul's talks.
Amen 🙏 praise Jesus! This man is one of God's true warriors!
All very true, glory to God for Fr. Truebenbach explaining this.
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me and save me a sinner
Know Jesus, Know Peace
Thank you this is indeed very edifying! Stay strong ! Christ Is Risen!
Absolutely beautiful. Amen!!!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏
❤✝CHRIST IS RISEN ✝❤
❤💪🙏✝GOD BE WITH US AGAINST EVIL AND TEMPTATIONS ✝🙏⛪🕊
This is one of the best talks I've seen in years and probably the most important for me to hear. So many gems. Thank you, Father.
At 20min 40min ish...love this! So powerful. This has been very inspiring.
Very needed and positive message. The intellect, tone and pure faith shines through this blessed man. Thank you.
Truth here .. problem is in the heart of man . When you reject God .. this the result.
Thank you, Father Paul. I truly appreciate your candor and gentle way of speaking. I believe that you choose your words thoughtfully and carefully. I'm transgender but agree that we've gotten to an unfortunate place in our society.
Powerful! Thank you!❤
Wise words, Father. I’ll definitely save this video for future reference for my sake.
Fr Paul is so wise✝️
Catholic here! You hit the nail on the head with this. Keep up the good work
Wonderful broadcast thank you for sharing
Thank you for these words of wisdom. 🙌🙏
I’ve just remembered a verse that diagnosed the problem of confusion that I’ve been stuck with for seven years. “Whoa unto those who confuse good with evil, evil with good, light with dark, dark with light, sweet with bitter, and bitter with sweet.” Isaiah 5:20
Amen. Well explained, thank you.
Fight is between GOD and Evil. You choose who you want to welcome.
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8:44 This comes from not being able to control your desires and valuing things from the physical world too highly.
Thanks you
eastern spirituality says the ego is the source of all suffering. I really think they hit the nail on the head.
This was so excellent
Wow! I’m Speechless!
Thank you, so well spoken! Isuse Hriste pomiluj nas gresne.
That is awesome, Father!
Such edifying material here!
This video is beautiful! Wow better than any sermon I’ve seen in a while!
The return of Paul ☦️
"Not I, but the Christ within."
This is excellent.
AMEN Father.
A true identity of self is discovered and understood only by looking at God, the prototype❤️🙏
Really appreciated finding this after a couple weeks of being influenced, by my choice of course from podcasts following on "a better way of living and etc" which I think we all should seek, but from Christ alone, daily.
Loved it ❤
Danke!
Take a break from screens... As I watch this on my phone 😂 it's great advice, really. I have to be on several computers at once for my job and for school, but I understand that that's very different than a break from say, social media or something.
Brilliant
Great video
Agreed! Great video!
Amazing ❤
🎵☦🎶 "O, VICTORIOUS LEADER OF TRIUMPHANT HOSTS,
WE, THY SERVANTS, DELIVERED FROM EVIL, SING OUR GRATEFUL THANKS TO THEE, O, THEOTOKOS!
AS THOU DOST POSSESS INVINCIBLE MIGHT, SET US FREE FROM EVERY CALAMITY,
THAT WE MAY SING, REJOICE!,
O, UNWEDDED BRIDE!" ☦🎶☦
There’s a HUMONGOUS identity crisis rn
I found God again after complete transitioning. For me it was like finally getting out of the gulag of society's gender expectations. I have peace now, and by the Grace of God I pray your hearts soften with love and acceptance. You can call out the excesses but don't hit me over the head with your rifle butts.
I transitioned because of abuse growing up: my father would beat my mother and myself because he was a coward who liked to bully women. I was bullied at school for constantly moving and being mistaken most places as an effeminate boy because I was evidently too ugly to be a girl. Becoming an adult, there was the social difficulties of again for some reason people thinking I'm a man instead of a woman, whether with being suspected of identity theft everytime I called something like a bank or whatever and otherwise hillbilly or ghetto men wanting to physically assault you for being a "fa---t."
Transitioning for me then was not a matter of my thinking I am really a man - it was a matter of self-defense and survival, as apparently I would never be able to be seen or pass as a woman and I needed some greater physical strength to defend myself. Seven years later, when I tried detransitioning as far as getting off the hormones, I found I could not, as besides having had a hysterectomy and therefore having no more sex hormones of my own, I have multiple autoimmune disorders - some of which in retrospect certainly caused some of the "ugliness" issues of my childhood, going unremarked/untreated as they did. Testosterone is the only thing that I can afford (no expensive doctor's appointments, no super-expensive immunosuppressants, no also-expensive monitoring that would come with something like immunosuppressants or glucocorticoids) that suppresses them and allows me anything like health, what with testosterone being anti-inflammatory in and of itself, a "poor man's" immunotherapy (whereas estrogen is pro-inflammatory).
In all that time, I never actually believed I was a man - so it always tore at me that I have to live this way. I had lost my faith for a while, but I lately regained it, ironically and even after I had the year before visited some churches, including an orthodox one, where I felt jaded and disgusted by the petty rule of being demanded to take off my hat for being seen as a man rather than what I really am (a masculine woman). I had never personally read the Bible for myself, so I had lately done that and, besides the odious parts written by Paul, I found much in it resonated with me. So I am at the point where I cannot stand being in society - nothing I will ever do will have me be accepted by others, nor should I really care to be for how evil most people have become, nothing can physically heal me or help me, so my only friend and solace in it and all, and I hope in death, is God.
That feeling of watching tv and it just not sitting right, this happens to me every time I look at things to buy that I don't need. It doesn't matter whether that is online browsing or in store. After a few short minutes I start feeling icky and mindless. I have never been a materialist but previously it was a matter of thought rather than this visceral feeling I suddenly developed ten plus years ago.
Bedankt
Thank you! God bless
Dankjewel, het is goed zie een Christen van Nederland.
Because the soul is developed through the spirit. The spirit is in the things you desire
19:14 i was born in atheistic country and immigrated ... i was baptized in Episcopal church when I was 36 y,o without any Christian education(so is my son ) it happened that I was in the baptism ceremony as a guest and in the end of ceremony bishop asked if anybody else would like to be baptized ,my friend howled YES and it happened , but i did not know anything about Christianity i still dont know (just a dialog instead of prayers ) , I never visit that Church again, not because i am not a believer all my life i do believe and always live in a strong obeying mode,,,i dont know how Church law is working, but I always wanted experience the monastery life .Please help me with information ,where can I find a weekend Monastery and am I allowed to be there🙏🙏 Thank you
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Wow!
If you read the Bible for 30 minutes every day…which is Gods word and pray 🙏 what is right and wrong will come to light on its own…
I do believe it was President Abraham Lincoln that once said something in the lines of My deepest concerned is not if God is on my side my deepest concern is am I on God’s side God for is always right. Our feelings are definitely significant. but God and his will an way are greater I believe if we wholeheartedly Surrender and submit to God his will his word his spirit or feelings will follow.
This is right on time. I wish i could explain what just happenned and then i guess the "algorhythm" suggested this. He works is strange ways. So cliche and no matter what i type will appear so.
I think lately that is my internal battle. He is working and even in my shameful ways but its personal.
I am truly terrified and loved at the same time. It is personal.
I see it everywhere and end up in the wilderness where i feel i belong.
Then i meet you guys. Thank you✝️🙏