What Does A SPEEDBALL Feel Like? | HEROIN & COCAINE | Opioid Epidemic
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- Опубліковано 23 сер 2024
- In this video I explain exactly what a Speedball feels like for me as well as what it is like to be a complete addict to a heroin and cocaine mixture. I started using drugs very young, and was a heroin addict at age 17, a product of the opioid epidemic. Me and a childhood friend became addicts together and on this day we decided to shoot up our first speedball together. It was an instant euphoric rush and was so intense the only thing I would compare the feeling to is a full body orgasm. Shooting speedballs caused me issues with my body as well and I had infections from missing injections. It was a dirty lifestyle and I'm glad to be out of it now. Let me know what you thought in the comments!
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Where did you get money to buy all those daily speedballs?
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Actually heroin is cheap. Especially compared to medicinal/pills variants like Oxy or Dilaudid. Especially if you inject it, but please don't. A normal dose of heroin for someone without tolerance (IV) would only be like 3MILIgram. So go figure how much doses u can make of just 1gram. However if you use daily ur tolerance will build up high so u'll need quite more. Still very cheap tho if you compare it to every opioid that you could find. Not a good thing cuz it's more dangerous ofc, especially cuz of fentanyl.
I just made the decision to get clean off coke about a week ago. It's been tough but seeing you speak sober, calm and clear is really inspiring man. Best of luck to you.
@justice good for you man, I was thinking about doing the same.
Proud of you stranger.
Keep trying, keep doing better. You can.
Hey man, stay strong.. it’s the worst pain physically/ mentally at first but I’m 10 months out and I feel like my old self. You find out that life is extremely incredible sober and you get your feeling back. I can walk outside and feel naturally happy and grateful that I didn’t get a hot l-shot and die. It’s so worth it man. I wouldn’t watch videos like this though. Even though he’s trying to help and bring light to the issue, it can still be a trigger for people like us.
How u doin
11 months ago.. how are you doing buddy????
This takes some serious balls to address, especially publicly. It’s crazy to me that there’s still a stigma revolving drug addicts in our society considering the current opioid epidemic. It’s shown that it doesn’t discriminate against the rich poor black white etc.… It will take anyone and everyone soul/ happiness. Thank you for sharing your experience. Currently 10 months sober and it truly is a blessing that I survived to talk about it.
Thanks man I appreciate the support!
What do you mean stigma? Addiction is not a positive for anyone, any class or culture.
@@sambistabeauty Agree, shouldn't there be a stigma?
Never did a drug in my life but I love watching addiction/recovery vids. 🤷🏼♀️ The best education comes from you guys who made it out.
Never did hard drugs either but it is what keeps me scared straight
And statistics, and knowledge of biochemistry.
21 year BTH vet here. In and out of rehab 7 times and 4 OD’s later and amazingly I’m still here. The Narcan alarm clock is was what saved me each time. Speedballs were never my thing and honestly they scared the shit out of me because a close friend of mine died right in front of me after taking his bump. I’ll never forget the look on his face. His heart literally ruptured and within a few seconds he fell down like a bag of sand. I’m haunted by the look he gave me almost daily
Wow that’s insane! Yea I’m sorry to hear about that with your friend. But I believe it! That stuff is insane bro I could easily see how it could rupture your heart. That’s mad scary.
@@danielsinrecovery yeah, it was way back in 06 when it happened and it wasn’t a coke/ heroin speedball it was meth/heroin speedball. Either way they are both pretty much deadly especially if you have heart issues to begin with.
On a different note, as far as sobriety goes. For over 2 decades I’ve been an idiot and always have compromised when trying to get clean. I’ve hit rock bottom a few times and most people learn their lesson or simply go back like me. Maybe because it’s so readily available in my line of work . Know your triggers.
You don’t want to have to learn the hard way like me . Last August 3 of my vertebrae collapse out of no where due to an infection (MSRA) osteomyelitis that has been slowly eating away at my spine. All due to using needles. I thought I was being clean, but we never are when using street dope. Was in the hospital for 3 months on IV antibiotics and will have to continue doxycycline until the day I die. I have an 85% chance of it happening again due to traces being Dormant. Anyway ... be careful out there man and thanks for the vids
Wow that’s insane brother I hope everything stays smooth for you. You have a very interesting story to tell my friend! I would honestly like to get you on here for an interview if you would like to
Dam bro u scared the crap out of me one time i took a speedball with meth/heroin amd i had just got back from rehab so i waa pretty much fresh and uknow alotta ppl oberdose cus they come back tryna take the same amount they did before rehab so it hits harder cus they aint use to it no more my boy hit me and i woke up in my. Brothers car a couple hours later my brother was already inside the house amd left me in the car cus he said i wouldnt wake up and his dumbass dont kmow any better i bet be didnt eben check if i was breathing. We wer at .my homies pad butt we wer parked in the ally by his house so he went inside i guess my bro drove back home n parked the car amd left me inside i woke up throwing up n shit butt dam so i guess im lucky asfuck i could have died???
Thank you for sharing. You’re extremely blessed that you’re still here, we all are. You’re alive for a reason and you matter. Make the most of it.
My older brother used to do heroine when he was high school until 24-25. Sitting next to him whenever we played video games I saw him doze off. My parents yelled at him for doing heroine and it would be a constant fight between him and my parents. He got cleaned still the age of 25 or 26. Unfortunately in 2006 he passed away at 27 from a car accident.
I’m so sorry to hear that
I’m obsessed with this series ahahaha keep up the good work! I love the way you talk about your experiences with these drugs. good luck staying clean! Love from indonesia 🇮🇩
thank you! i need to start getting more of these out for you guys which i will be shortly, this month of February i plan on dropping only story time videos!!!!
Bro’s like “way back when I was 17, a few months ago…”😄
i dont age my boy im 30 lol
Yooo 😂
@@danielsinrecovery your 30???
@@danielsinrecovery same I'm 28 people think I'm still on highschool
i don't know why, but this video hits different! amazing work bro!
thanks my man, means a lot!!!
You have a very strong mind and are also very lucky to still have it. Many people take half as much for half the time and don't keep half of themselves when they do get clean.
There is no real way to explain that, except that you are still blessed with a real alternative.
5th fav video!!!!! Skin looking magnificent, Daniel!
Hey thanks bro I appreciate it!!!! Thanks for watching!
hello,
in 2018, my mom passed away from a speedball as the heroin was laced with fent. she was clean for over 7-8 months, we’re still not sure what made her snap. her name is Heather
wow, so sorry to here that, thats absolutely horrible
I’ve been reading Junkie by William S. Burroughs and it’s eerie how similar your story is to the content in that book. Your story matters!
I loved the speedball the most. It’s been 20 years since the last one and there are times when I try and remember the feeling and can almost taste it. I imagine the sound of the air surrounding my ears, the echo and the sound of water when I flushed, the warmth that fills every muscle and how my vision would start to shake until it would settle into a brand new, clearer than before sight. That’s a rush nothing else can touch. At my worse I had a screaming abscess and didn’t go to dr either. Too ashamed. I went to Murdochs and bought some horse antibiotics and injected the amount I calculated based on weight and then halved that 😂 I weighed about 110lbs
yea its an insane feeling, im glad im not in that world anymore now, those were some real scary times in my life and the people i had to deal with it was just insane!
@@danielsinrecovery 💯 % chance I would be dead if I was born 20 yrs later. In fact, it’s the fent/tranq that ironically keeps me sober now. I have less desire than ever to relapse since that stuff has replaced heroin.
Glad you’re out of that craziness too! ❤️
I don't like the way you glamorize this, but I am happy you are still alive. Glad you turned it around.
You are really honest
I appreciate that
absolutely
Daniel thanks for sharing your experience, wishing you all the best for the future.. keep it real bro
E4 Mafia checking in 😂.... love the channel Daniel. keep it coming brother!
haha hell yea thanks my boy much appreciated!!
Nice video my guy ! 🙏
You speak the truth. 😎
I was literally thinking The taste of the up then the rush of the down. Ringing in the ears.
Then you say it.....lol
Lol 😂
@@danielsinrecovery hey bro I have a question for you whenever I think about the times I was using speed balls my heart starts to beat so fast and I get tingling sensations all over my body it's fucking nuts does that ever happen to you bro?
I was suicidal and wanted to try heroin before I killed myself as a steroid addict I was familiar with needles I skipped smoking heroin and first time trying was a needle and next one was a speedball I didn’t kill myself but wished I had sometimes these drugs have ruined my life and ironically saved it! I think the feeling of injecting heroin and coke will never be forgotten it’s so hard to do any drug once You’ve felt the intense speedball feeling I mixed all my life with speedballs I stuggle to find normal sex enticing or just about anything I nearly lost both legs thru bad injections I’m on the last 12ml of a methadone taper which has taken me years to get here! Both the drugs counteract each other the opiates tolerance goes sky high cause the coke is making you stay awake and it’s scary how it led me from healthy guy in his 20s job car place beautiful girlfriend ect to homeless mad diseases frequent hospital visits and the disease of addicts still convinces the addict that this time it will be different Iv lost so many years and so many good people that it’s hard to think of a reason to be clean! But in this struggle when I get clean I’m gonna write a book about my diagnoses with HIV and totally chaos if I can make it I can help thousands
Hell yeah I love this story proud of you stranger ❤
@@jandro4144 thank you my friend
How’s it going man
DAAAAAMMNNNNNN HIV IS CRAZY
Never give in brother 👍wish you well.
So glad you have stopped daniel!! You sound more wise every time i watch a video!! 💚🦋💚🦋💚🦋💚🦋💚🦋💚🦋
Thank you Amanda I always appreciate you!!!
Love ya bub!! So proud of you! You blow me way away!!! 🤗🤗
@No One …..awwwww….nobody loves you? 😳 fuckwad twit
I did that once 50 years ago.......Well it felt very nice.
Great job in this video bro 🙌🏻
Thank you Jen !!!
My "speedball" is indica bud and potent coffee. I can use them like gears to select my balance, and I don't think either one is going to bankrupt me. Or kill me.
People say this, probably jokingly, but wouldn't kratom be necessary or something? Weed is a psychedelic, not a depressent? Maybe it depends on strain or person... I speed ball too I guess
@@marcusrosales3344 Weed is very person dependent you're right but at the same time I think indica is a depressant not so much a psychedelic, might be in the terms of time is different and other senses are altered but bottom line indica is a depressant. For many, sativa is a stimulant but in some cases it has been reported that ADHD cases it relaxes them! Me! Sativa relaxes me, indica puts me in a coma. Caffeine doesn't work on me like others, it makes the voices quite down instead of energizing me. It really depends on a person haha!
much healthier thats for sure!
I went from shooting speedballs to drinking kratom and redbull speedballs. Much healthier alternative
Definitely I would have to agree. I tried Kratom but personally couldn’t keep it under control.
@@danielsinrecovery oh yeah many people definitely ignore that kratom has some pretty shitty negatives to it, of course not nearly as bad as morphine, heroin addiction or even methadone but kratoms definitely got some faults. I've had some batches that felt more intense than 200-400 mgs codeine and I've definitely experienced withdrawal from kratom alone yet the whole community on Reddit completely doesn't acknowledge it, it's ridiculous. So many kratom users say ridiculous shit "it's just a plant" yeah so is datura. With all this said, it definitely still beats methadone.
@@danielsinrecovery Yes Kratom at high doses gives a lot of people INSANE anxiety, like panic attack central.
@@mongogojjo5944 true that and opium as well
@@danielsinrecovery I could definitely understand that I’ve never heroin but I’ve done oxy and dilaudid and honestly if you do enough kratom really doesn’t feel that far off
Thank you for sharing your experience, esp. if it leads to people getting help who really need it. I still use cocaine to this day, and yeah it's mostly for recreational purposes - but I do genuinely believe it has the potential for being used in psychotherapy. It gets you talking - but in a way that's different than the honesty that comes with drinking a lot of alcohol. I have Asperger's Syndrome and for me, at least, cocaine helped me to admit to flaws in my way of thinking and behavior (e.g. I told the person I was doing lines with that I have problems with bad perspective taking/empathy, and emotional dysregulation). Freud definitely was right, but yes I think the ultimate goal should be NOT needing to be on drugs to make a breakthrough happen.
I always liked coke and percocet. I'd crush the pills and mix it with the coke and snort it. I had a couple scary experiences. It's a weird cool feeling until you do to much. I'd always hop in the shower if I was to fucked up and feel like I was getting yanked and pushed.
yea its a rough ass life!
Where you from bro? Good video man I’ve been there felt a lot of what u said , was livin that for real in Nyc
From Las Vegas! west coast shit over here
Great videos Daniel . good energy, real, straight up You address our condition different. You take away a little of shame of using... Im not im proud at all. either Thanks mate. :-) Much respect
He said i could watch paint dry and be content. Facts yo.
legit!
I used to do speedball in my 20is after war in Croatia the feeling is first you fell coke you have like zzzzzzz sound in the ears like plesent noise then in seconds you fell heroin like warm blanket there is no comedown from coke heroin take that away wery intens and dangerous
yup i know exactly what you mean! shit is crazy
Daniel it would be interesting if you talked about what "made you" quit -》9:05. Because IMO ssomething may happend, but ultimately is our choice. A choice most of the people can't be proud of.
Yo just had a snowball honestly 40 years of drugs i hate to admit it but i feel fucking great merry xmas one love❤😁🕉
just be safe friend
SEVENTEEN and already addicted to H. My god man, you had balls. I've always been too afraid to touch it.
Thanks for making this. I've always been really curious how this felt. Your description reminds me of when I would mix stupid amounts of xanax bars, and then snort a line or 2 (coke) after. It felt amazing.. and then it felt like hell, lol.
i didnt have balls, i had no brain lmao, i wish i never did that to be real obviously!
Man. I remember how shit u can feel when coke is running down 💀
Wished rlly it didnt had that tbh. Would give it a higher rate otherwise. Despite its unhealthy. But idc as i dont do it anymore anyways.
Thanks for sharing your journey. God bless
thank you!!!!
I had so many abcesses in my groin from shooting coke, not even many missed shots just so corrosive and bad for you. I have a hole the size of a golf ball in my groin. Never had any issues with just heroin though but as soon as I went on a coke bender I had issues
you shot in your groin??
ooooh shit yea thats not fun
Bro that was me back in 2017 thank God I'm out of that life it was no bueno.
thats good man foreal!
@@danielsinrecovery update relapsed last week with Xanax and fentanyl od they gave me narcan and brought me back and had the worst dope sick of my life two weeks of hell. Thank God I'm back and feeling better.
Thanx for replying to me . Dig your web site . Honesty is the best policeykeep the faith ian😊
thanks my boy!
thanks dude, lets just say this is a very very familiar story....
yea i know it, it is for many
1:16 u knew him since u were 17 years old? But u knew him since elementary? I'm lost lol. But glad ur clean, it's a good thing! Keep it up.
Nice video, you got a talent for this.,
thankkk you ! means a lot to me!!!
This is the best video ive ever seen of how to describe snowballs we call it in u.k. but instead of coke we use crack cocaine mixed with heroin. I used to be like you for 5 years straight 5 times a day. At the time it was all normal and just another way to get High. It got to the point were it just made me sick evrytime i did it. I never missed tho it stings if its not in the vein? My arms weirdly are sound? But yea brilliant story. How did you replace the high and what made you Stop?. I youse weed now. Seen so many lives ruined by it? "SAY NO TO DRUGS" ❤
Just curious. What made you decide to start using? Like most people have heard of how terrible crack and heroin are, and you try it anyways? Like I’m genuinely curious of the thought process behind it. Not meaning disrespect but…
It doesn't sting at all though I'd say crack mixed up with too much citric or vinegar can sting for like a second. The coke though numbs so fast though
@@Jordan-jv1tz junkie.
Man I was shooting speedballs the moment I woke up for work. No fucking about. Through out the day in the work toilets. I spent 29 years on heroin and 20 on coke. Destroyed me physically.
yea it will do that, glad your out of that life now!
Keep it up bro don’t go back 💪🏼❤️
you already know!
Another wild story..... sounds like you had some cellulitis brewin Brother! Glad you are here to talk about it!
Thanks brotha and yea it was crazy! I never had an infection like that before in my life!
How clean and sober are you today, Daniel?
I just did one like 5 minutes ago. I don't feel anything but it was a skin pop.
I call the speedball hit a braingasm .
yea its definitely something different!
Brilliant
thank you!!!
im addicted on speedball, seeking for help!!!
Because you have experience bro
Where can I get one of these speedballs? Can a doctor prescibe them?
did you learn nothing from this video?
I often here about missing coke shots amd the trouble it comes with but honestly ive missed tens of shots and i havent gotten one infection just numbness. Maybe its about purity? Sweden btw
vårat jonk är inte som deras heller.
@@guardianangel379 jävligt konstigt jonk som cirkulerar nuförtiden öht. Konsistens som hash och svagt som fan. Måste ha med talibanerna o göra
My exact story, thank you for sharing.
absolutely! thank you for watching!!!
Damn u started using H at a very early age!
unfortunately, yup I know
Interessant
Meh, they always seemed to cancel each other out for me, and it was a total waste of money.
I didn't know you slammed. I thought you only smoked for some reason.
Yea bro unfortunately I had bouts where I would switch over to shooting. And any time that ever happened I was shooting speedballs. But for some reason I would always end up back smoking it. It’s what I liked the most, I think chasing the dragon was a big part of it for me also because I was good at it. And enjoyed almost everything about it even the dam taste. Shit was crazy , my bad for the long one bro! Thanks for watching and supporting 💯
@@danielsinrecovery
Ah, I see. Makes sense, man. Luckily, I never went to the needle.
I'm from the midwest, so it was mainly the tan and white powders. So I preferred sniffing. It was quick and easy. I only saw and smoked tar once, when I was stationed in San Diego.
Don't trip on the long comment lol
And for sure! You're pushing some good content ✌️
This bloke looks 13 years old
Piece of advice from me. Don't shoot the drugs
I knew a girl that could only hit in her neck. Don’t know what ever happened to her. Had no veins left. All were collapsed and scared.
I am a “ Hard Stick” drawing blood. I tell them which vein and sometimes just hit myself for them.
Yea I knew people like that as well! That’s deep when you’re only option is to shoot up in the jugular
My wife will usually hit me when we use.
Is the H high worth it?
If you are wondering about and ask about it in that way, the answer is NO (I mean exclusively for you the answer is no)
Not really everything Except Salvia, is overhyped.
noooooooooo!
It seems like he is kind of screaming
Woops... A little powder left on the nose there, no biggie.
Chasing Jason
At 17 i didnt evenk wo how to do the most simplest things and this dude was taking facking heroin at thos age hs
I have been thinking of what injecting H feels like for ages, can someone tell me if the high is really worth it? Does the withdrawls traumatize you etc???? Is it really better and stronger than a million orgasms at once? And also after that first amazing high, is it possible to get that high again, or is it a chasing game forever.? Does it change who you are? make you unsatisfied with life etc..... It makes me wonder. I wanna try it but don't know if it's worth it.
Don't bro.
Talking about "million orgasms at once" is pure bullshit in my opinion, it is entirely the opposite (although I never tried heroine, I'm talking about opioids in general). Those substances are very calm, kind and warm, friendly and loving, even in a way "sacred" I can say, there is no "rush" in it, no great euphoria, just contentment and overwhelming peace, but are those experiences are worth giving your life away? Please think about it again
Only in very, very rare cases - but PLEASE, don't be influenced by it, that's only my personal opinion, and I could be wrong - the answer is YES. It is worth it. For me live with opioids is the best life you can ask a God to receive - maybe because they act like pure medicine. Even more unfortunately, I love them more than my own safety or even humanity, I want to live with them and to die with them😭It is absolutely possible fentanyl will kill me soon, I'm trying not to let him in every way possible but I can feel sense of fate over me
Idiot
One time i got high from kratom, it felt like that feeling when you orgasm but maybe like 60% of it for half an hour it was amazing. I can only imagine what heroin feels like
It's not worth it. It's great to begin with, but within one year you will be it's prisoner. You won't be enjoying anything by this point, everything is now about getting money to score. You won't be getting high any more. You are only still using it to keep the horrendous withdrawal from setting in. All day every day, for the rest of your life. Any family you have will never look at you with love in their eyes, you will be lucky to see pity. Most likely you will see shame and pain and disgust. Shall I continue? Does this sound like it's worth it? It is not, so do not start at any cost. You are worth a great deal more than that 🙂
Cap
Chris Farley died of this
@@josh930 and John Belushi
Hmmmm there is no going back.nothing compares to a snowball.🤪❤🕉☯️💉💉💉✌
Whats your reddit?
u/Opioidtolerant
You were definitely never a junkie
Why doubt him? I've been a heavy speedball user and everything he's saying is spot on.