never ever let this world make you believe you haven't been good to them..you are so amazing to this world and yet they will never love you...live for our family don't die for the world ANYMORE!
i have done all my life without you and i was living the lie that JESUS was this awesome loving amazing saviour..counselour shepherd..what an idiot i have been..but i do know one thing..i don't need YOU for ANYTHING
i used to dream of places i wanted to go with you but now that i have found out you have already shared those moments with others..i changed my mind...i don't wan't te see a wedding a beach a rollercoaster the stars the mountains a lake...nothing...i kept all my sacred dreams for you and you basically spit on them...if you have been with others that's going to have to be fine because i had a choice..i chose to believe that you were the savior and i was your one and only...i know i am not as important to you as you were to me..
I so desperately wanted to believe that those little girls didn't know who you were..and even now...they know you were the user and you ruined my reputation...and still faithfully worship the guy you used to be...2 thousand years ago...the way the truth the life...i cannot go to the hall because i cannot hide my resentment
well...i am interested in fixing myself..getting to know me..and i need to heal completely before i can be there for anyone...i have been carrying everyones load..lies deceit sins and hatred for as long as i can remember...and now i am supposed to jump into a new vessell and begin serving you in a different capacity..but you hurt me and i want to offer myself renewed to someone more like me who doesn't know what it's like to have a life..who will experience things for the first time with me..you have been around the world over and over and with many many other women,,,you robbed me of my sacred prize...my joy
when and if you ever show up in the flesh to save me and when and if i will ever be loved by you like i have loved you..then i will believe that you care and that I am important because all i have ever known is alone
I would never harm myself,,,but I desperately need your prayers....my life is a nightmare whether I am asleep or awake....when i go to the store or any public place people either look down at me or look away...I feel like a curse and my fire is burning lower each week...I know when I go to bed tonight, I will have nightmares of my past and when I wake up.....I'll spend the whole day trying to be numb because this life hurts...what am I supposed to do now?
it must be nice to be with people who love you...I wouldn't know. My daughters love me but they are grown and have their own lives now...so basically just me and my IMAGINARY FRIENDS AND FAMILY
WHENEVER I SEE THOSE THINGS IN MY MEMORY BANK OR LIVE ON T.V I KNOW YOU AREN'T JUST THAT MOST INTERESTING MAN ALIVE AND IT IS DRYING THE ONE TIME WET DESIRE I HAD...YOU ARE TOO MANY THINGS AND I CAN'T HANDLE IT
what a slap in my face that i am watching channel 67...the year i was born and the channel you vacation on in front of my face..you and your 5 star hotels and booze travels...lucky me...you have several years of birth...so we will take every year make it a channel and you can either stay home and watch me live my life..or live your life with the ones you are already with..because we can be friends...and i have love for you and your children..but they are your children with other women and i cannot be their mom...they already have one
the truth is that i feel incredibly free just because i have made my decision...and i have to compare how i feel with supporting you blindly or being honest with myself..i deserve better..i probably will never get out of hell noww...i was denied that when i was being s fsithful slave...i have been alone for many years and this moment now...letting go of this horrible abusive relationship IS a step in the right direction for me SPIRITUALLY even though i know you won't ever let me out...i am free of the burden of upholding the lies of YOU
MY LIFE HAS CHANGED AS WELL AND NOW IT IS TIME FOR ME FIRST AND I HAVE TO BE FREE AND NEED TO RE ARRANGE MYSELF...BECAUSE YOU AND PABLO AND EVERY MAN I EVER GAVE MY HEART TOO HAS BEAT IT UP AND SPIT IT OUT...I HAD A DREAM AND A SONG TO SING...BUT IT TURNED INTO A NIGHTMARE AND SCARY VOICES IN MY HEAD..I AM AN ANGEL TO THE CHILDREN ONLY...I LOVE THOSE 2 LITTLE BOYS MORE THAN YOU EVER LOVED US LITTLE GIRLS SO I WILL MAKE SURE THEY ARE SAFE BEFORE I LEAVE OR DIE TRYING
i will be honest..when i don't receive that call..i will begin to readjust my goals for my future and concentrate on plans for my future with a man who will be all i am to him..i will make my list of how i will please him honor him love him respect him complement him..and i will learn everything he loves likes and hates so that I can make his life a constant pleasure..i will put him first because he will do the same..and because this man will be like me never having known anything but struggle..he will appreciate my every move because unlike you..he will never have had such pleasures or experience and our life will be magical
WOW ...wenn der fertig is,steht kein stein mehr auf dem anderen ! krass wie nimmt der die hütte wieder auseinander !!!! Fääteste Live Gig den ich bislang von mr.beardyman gesehen habe !!!! Keep on b.boxing ...janz großet kino wa !!!
i am also now stating that i am no longer bound by law to this man and any other and am free to seek a relationship for myself to free myself and will in fact pursue that goal
I just love watching this loving brotherhood getting together and being able to be with family in these last days...wish sisters were included, but I never spend time with family...I mean, not in a real way...I sit in this dark room watching and wondering what it would feel like to be surrounded by people who love you...my girls love me but they're busy and I really feel like the help I need is delayed because people like the game so much that they forget I am not a GAME....just a cheap trick as they have said...she will always be there for you and never wan't anything in return...I would love this to just end.
i really really believed we were alike when i saw what i was doing was hurting my children i stopped doing it...you know what me and the girls have been through our whole lives and that wasn't enough for you because maybe you never really loved us and we have to live with that
my teeth are crumbling..I am having a real difficult time walking because it feels like my back has new fractures...and they fucked me up...please forgive my confusion..my head is bruised
please please please...save me..i am drowning...please show them you love me the way I have always loved you...I don't want to hurt anymore..if you really love me please please make it stop...please
if you die doing those things tonight...i will not ressurect you to life..but to judgement and everlasting cutting off because i will not die for your game
AND BECAUSE OF THAT...WHEN I ACTUALLY GET A LIFE TO LIVE..I WILL KNOW FROM THE START WHO WILL ONLY BREAK MY HEART AND LEAVE WHEN THEY FEEL...AND I WILL NOT REPEAT HISTORY
old habits die hard..and i am dying just waiting for you to change...and when you need someone to change just to be with them..you shouldn't be with them becayse nobody can change someone
i have put you first for a long long time...you then everyone else..never have i been first in ANYONES life..and i deserve that i trully do and as much as this situation breaks my heart...you saying i am a bus a lover and on and on...the truth means everything to me...and if you cannot lie...then in fact you have been with a lot of others...and you taught me that history repeats itself and i need to know from the start before i jump into anything..so i will be looking into your eyes asking these questions before we go any further...and the longer you hide the longer i will need to heal after armagedden
you took for granted the power of my love for you..you made me wait in a corner many times to seek for yourself if there was someone even better...you just kept using me up and leaving me as you went on touching and loving and marrying many other women..and now you feel I am the one for you...the others didn't work out...but you didn't work out for me either in my darkest hour with a child by you..you and your lifestyle didn't feel or care..but you knew...nobody kidnapped us..we were abandoned on this planet by you and you come and go as you please..well..i want that freedom of stability security the ability to provide for my needs and the needs of HALLEY and ALICIA..and to have all the scars of being in the skin you left me in..i mean you have been the most handsome man alive and now i get to shine...and i truly believe you have been denying me my god given rights and inheritance because you know WHAT YOU DID WITH YOUR SHINING LIFE...are you afraid i may become like you?
just a fair question and it is for beardyman...if i were living your life and you were living mine...would you be wondering what i was doing after the show?
I KNOW MILLIONS UPON MILIONS HONOR YOU THEIR SAVIOR AND KING EVERY SINGLE DAY...SO I WILL RESERVE MY LOVE FOR THE CHILDREN...I LOVE YOU AS A CHILD NOW..NOT A HUSBAND
I am sorry about my emotional collapse but I have grown so lonely....I haven't been hugged and reassurred that everything will be okay in such a long time....this room is my lonely piece of hell and the only ones who contact me are the wicked....my daughters are doing so good that I try not to even let them know how broken I feel right now....please save me..After you finish a gig or whatever...you have your friends to hang out with and talk things over with....prisoners have other prisoners to talk to and soldiers have other soldiers to talk too....I fit in no where....I love you all with all I have but I become less able to pick myself up everyday. please pray for me...
NO....there is a reason that I made that comment there...but it's a long story...I LOVE BEARDYMAN...someone just asked me to express myself while watching him and there you have it...I think it's cute that you ask what is going on with me when clearly I spilled my heart out....:)
after you have rid the earth of the wicked and the children are safe...i am going to live my life..not the same as you....but i need to live before i make any permanent decisions...I haven't even had a childhood yet..I will be 50 may 6th and you know that i have been in a holding cell with demons the whole time. When I get my freedom...I need to do me
I rememebr when i resigned from sutter yuba mental health it was because i could no longer look parents in the eyes and promise them their children would be safely taken care of...and now i need to resign as a kingdom proclaimer because i can no longer in good faith believe that GOD and JESUS really do care and will help us..
look...congradulations on all the babies you have..i have raised 2 little girls to be 21 and 26 and when all is said and done...i need a break..you chose to have these children without ever asking me which proves that i am not the mom....i can't be with you know and i will maybe someday be a mom..but i need time before that..and i do love children but i need a husband who makes plans with me...love seeing your beautiful babies...but you will be staying with the one who delivered them
Pablo still loved me after what happend with you..he took care of haley like his own...and he even got baptized to teach the kids the truth...when i quit smoking...he bought me a heart ring with diamonds and told me he was very proud of me for doing the right thing...i never hurt you like i hurt him..and he still honored me...and he has every right to be angry...he even told your boys to leave me alone..after all you put him through because you had to be above him somehow
I understand what it means to have your life change you..and i do understand the need to re arrange yourself because as a person..i have changed...i do the best i can and as a mother my children will always come first...but they are all adults now so for the first time ever..i am looking for the end of this wicked system so that when armagedden is over..i will have the comfort of knowing my children are safe and secure and then and only then will i be able to live my life..and i do not know freedom..i only know survival and spiritual warfare..so i need time between the 50 years i have struggled in this life in a freedom situation because i cannot make decisions for my future as a prisoner because i cannot keep going from taking care of others to being a mom all over again before i find who I am under different circumstances..i don't have energy for me as it is now...and i do love all the children in this world..but i have never had a childhood..i have always had to be the one in charge..i have never had a big brother defend me or take care of me..and i have never had a mom like i have been a mom..and a dad who put me ahead of himself..and i have never been in a relationship with any man that hasn't been one sided ...i have never been to a prom a homecoming dance..the love of my life never stayed..he used me..slept with all my friends and left whenever it was convenient for him..you have lived your life as you liked..i on the other hand have yet to understand what living means...everyday is survival..so i need to know freedom and what life means for myself before i can belong to anyone...i am not ready to leave my current situation to be a wife and mother to all your beautiful children..i will watch over them when you need a babysitter..i will do that..but i want and need time for ME
i will say this...you better keep your black book...but erase my name..i am saving myself for someone special who will appreciate me and have nothing to compare me too
AT 23:26 he says it's not so hard to see how we've been burned...but I have been burned by everyone who said they loved me...so please don't say it is not so hard...my heart and my spirit feel devastated and broke.
you haven't done it..it is 6 years later and i still sit alone with no friends..clearly you didn't mean me when you said we are your friends you will never be alone again
IT IS USUALLY HAPPENING july 21..22 AND 23...BUT JUST IN CASE THEY ARE TRYING TO CHANGE THE TIME...STAY BEHIND THE TREES AND WAIT STARTING RIGHT NOW...JULY 10 2016
never ever let this world make you believe you haven't been good to them..you are so amazing to this world and yet they will never love you...live for our family don't die for the world ANYMORE!
it hurts when i tell my history and people smile and dance like that is a joyful revelation...everynight they still come to my bed
This is honestly one of the best sets I have ever had the honour of listening too.
+k45542n same here. best set of every video i see on youtube - best set....
i have done all my life without you and i was living the lie that JESUS was this awesome loving amazing saviour..counselour shepherd..what an idiot i have been..but i do know one thing..i don't need YOU for ANYTHING
One of the best performance of Beardyman! He's a ingeniusly brilliant! :D
they are friends...but true worshipers are fanily and never ever forget that!
Jesus doesn't care what you are on the inside..he is the king of appaerances
Totally, totally awesome. Thank you for uploading this. I've listened to it more times than I can count now.
he will always know he is a winner who is loved unconditionally
i don't love the world so i won't give my soul for that...but i will give my life for the children
i used to dream of places i wanted to go with you but now that i have found out you have already shared those moments with others..i changed my mind...i don't wan't te see a wedding a beach a rollercoaster the stars the mountains a lake...nothing...i kept all my sacred dreams for you and you basically spit on them...if you have been with others that's going to have to be fine because i had a choice..i chose to believe that you were the savior and i was your one and only...i know i am not as important to you as you were to me..
you break me down everyday with your magic tricks
I so desperately wanted to believe that those little girls didn't know who you were..and even now...they know you were the user and you ruined my reputation...and still faithfully worship the guy you used to be...2 thousand years ago...the way the truth the life...i cannot go to the hall because i cannot hide my resentment
as your mirror I get to live the same way you do...free to do as I please and be with whoever i want when i want...just remember that PAUL
Hope u will come to Sweden soon!!! U are awesome
well...i am interested in fixing myself..getting to know me..and i need to heal completely before i can be there for anyone...i have been carrying everyones load..lies deceit sins and hatred for as long as i can remember...and now i am supposed to jump into a new vessell and begin serving you in a different capacity..but you hurt me and i want to offer myself renewed to someone more like me who doesn't know what it's like to have a life..who will experience things for the first time with me..you have been around the world over and over and with many many other women,,,you robbed me of my sacred prize...my joy
when and if you ever show up in the flesh to save me and when and if i will ever be loved by you like i have loved you..then i will believe that you care and that I am important because all i have ever known is alone
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING
Seriously love this video. One of his best sets. "I wanna get you in my bedroom" needs to be released. Sick tune
I would never harm myself,,,but I desperately need your prayers....my life is a nightmare whether I am asleep or awake....when i go to the store or any public place people either look down at me or look away...I feel like a curse and my fire is burning lower each week...I know when I go to bed tonight, I will have nightmares of my past and when I wake up.....I'll spend the whole day trying to be numb because this life hurts...what am I supposed to do now?
it must be nice to be with people who love you...I wouldn't know. My daughters love me but they are grown and have their own lives now...so basically just me and my IMAGINARY FRIENDS AND FAMILY
WHENEVER I SEE THOSE THINGS IN MY MEMORY BANK OR LIVE ON T.V I KNOW YOU AREN'T JUST THAT MOST INTERESTING MAN ALIVE AND IT IS DRYING THE ONE TIME WET DESIRE I HAD...YOU ARE TOO MANY THINGS AND I CAN'T HANDLE IT
what a slap in my face that i am watching channel 67...the year i was born and the channel you vacation on in front of my face..you and your 5 star hotels and booze travels...lucky me...you have several years of birth...so we will take every year make it a channel and you can either stay home and watch me live my life..or live your life with the ones you are already with..because we can be friends...and i have love for you and your children..but they are your children with other women and i cannot be their mom...they already have one
the truth is that i feel incredibly free just because i have made my decision...and i have to compare how i feel with supporting you blindly or being honest with myself..i deserve better..i probably will never get out of hell noww...i was denied that when i was being s fsithful slave...i have been alone for many years and this moment now...letting go of this horrible abusive relationship IS a step in the right direction for me SPIRITUALLY even though i know you won't ever let me out...i am free of the burden of upholding the lies of YOU
He needs to come to DALLAS TX!!
i am weak,,,i need you to be my ANGEL now...PLEASE
He's a true mouth acrobat! I love his live acts!
MY LIFE HAS CHANGED AS WELL AND NOW IT IS TIME FOR ME FIRST AND I HAVE TO BE FREE AND NEED TO RE ARRANGE MYSELF...BECAUSE YOU AND PABLO AND EVERY MAN I EVER GAVE MY HEART TOO HAS BEAT IT UP AND SPIT IT OUT...I HAD A DREAM AND A SONG TO SING...BUT IT TURNED INTO A NIGHTMARE AND SCARY VOICES IN MY HEAD..I AM AN ANGEL TO THE CHILDREN ONLY...I LOVE THOSE 2 LITTLE BOYS MORE THAN YOU EVER LOVED US LITTLE GIRLS SO I WILL MAKE SURE THEY ARE SAFE BEFORE I LEAVE OR DIE TRYING
i will be honest..when i don't receive that call..i will begin to readjust my goals for my future and concentrate on plans for my future with a man who will be all i am to him..i will make my list of how i will please him honor him love him respect him complement him..and i will learn everything he loves likes and hates so that I can make his life a constant pleasure..i will put him first because he will do the same..and because this man will be like me never having known anything but struggle..he will appreciate my every move because unlike you..he will never have had such pleasures or experience and our life will be magical
WOW ...wenn der fertig is,steht kein stein mehr auf dem anderen ! krass wie nimmt der die hütte wieder auseinander !!!! Fääteste Live Gig den ich bislang von mr.beardyman gesehen habe !!!! Keep on b.boxing ...janz großet kino wa !!!
I would litterally have to die and come back with no memory of who you are to ever let you into my heart again
To tu nik neHOVORI po slovensky? inac beardyman Vynikajúci!!!
nik
the talents you have got you laid..you don't bury talents..you buried me and 2 little girls
un pur genie !!!! c'est vraiment dla bombe grosse decouverte gros respect !!! :)
i AM A SOLDIER TOO...I HURT EVERY SINGLE DAY ALONE AND YET I BRING EVERY SOLDIER LOVE WITHOUT EVEN GIVEN A HI theresa WE LOVE YOU
they say to me if he loves you so much..why did i see him here and there...the voices
i am also now stating that i am no longer bound by law to this man and any other and am free to seek a relationship for myself to free myself and will in fact pursue that goal
yeah...lets always just party like it's 1999..party over out of time...and here we are almost 2017 and somebody still playing games with lives
I just love watching this loving brotherhood getting together and being able to be with family in these last days...wish sisters were included, but I never spend time with family...I mean, not in a real way...I sit in this dark room watching and wondering what it would feel like to be surrounded by people who love you...my girls love me but they're busy and I really feel like the help I need is delayed because people like the game so much that they forget I am not a GAME....just a cheap trick as they have said...she will always be there for you and never wan't anything in return...I would love this to just end.
my back and neck is done...please please do something
the one thing i haven't seen before is you actually protecting proving and treating me good...ever
when will it ever be more than just this?...it doesn't fulfill my needs
There's something organic about using the KP3s rather than the computer. I enjoy these performances more than his newer ones.
i really really believed we were alike when i saw what i was doing was hurting my children i stopped doing it...you know what me and the girls have been through our whole lives and that wasn't enough for you because maybe you never really loved us and we have to live with that
you are the reason for the video and song UNPRETTY by TLC
my teeth are crumbling..I am having a real difficult time walking because it feels like my back has new fractures...and they fucked me up...please forgive my confusion..my head is bruised
The camera-work makes me wanna hurl...
now i will sing shall old aquaitances be forgot and NEVER brought to mind
please please please...save me..i am drowning...please show them you love me the way I have always loved you...I don't want to hurt anymore..if you really love me please please make it stop...please
tou just couldn't stop taking for yourself untill i have nothing left to give you let alone myself..i don't have the strength to hate you or love you
if you die doing those things tonight...i will not ressurect you to life..but to judgement and everlasting cutting off because i will not die for your game
who are you going to use when i am gone?
always with here comes the son little darling..but the son never stays
AND BECAUSE OF THAT...WHEN I ACTUALLY GET A LIFE TO LIVE..I WILL KNOW FROM THE START WHO WILL ONLY BREAK MY HEART AND LEAVE WHEN THEY FEEL...AND I WILL NOT REPEAT HISTORY
old habits die hard..and i am dying just waiting for you to change...and when you need someone to change just to be with them..you shouldn't be with them becayse nobody can change someone
we are never alone...PABLO takes care of us when you leave or reject us
you can keep EVERYTHING that you have..but you do not have me
i have put you first for a long long time...you then everyone else..never have i been first in ANYONES life..and i deserve that i trully do and as much as this situation breaks my heart...you saying i am a bus a lover and on and on...the truth means everything to me...and if you cannot lie...then in fact you have been with a lot of others...and you taught me that history repeats itself and i need to know from the start before i jump into anything..so i will be looking into your eyes asking these questions before we go any further...and the longer you hide the longer i will need to heal after armagedden
you took for granted the power of my love for you..you made me wait in a corner many times to seek for yourself if there was someone even better...you just kept using me up and leaving me as you went on touching and loving and marrying many other women..and now you feel I am the one for you...the others didn't work out...but you didn't work out for me either in my darkest hour with a child by you..you and your lifestyle didn't feel or care..but you knew...nobody kidnapped us..we were abandoned on this planet by you and you come and go as you please..well..i want that freedom of stability security the ability to provide for my needs and the needs of HALLEY and ALICIA..and to have all the scars of being in the skin you left me in..i mean you have been the most handsome man alive and now i get to shine...and i truly believe you have been denying me my god given rights and inheritance because you know WHAT YOU DID WITH YOUR SHINING LIFE...are you afraid i may become like you?
i kept my end of the bargin...did you keep yours for as long as me?
just a fair question and it is for beardyman...if i were living your life and you were living mine...would you be wondering what i was doing after the show?
at this point i am numb because i am afraid to feel anything and that terrifies me because the world has changed me
I KNOW MILLIONS UPON MILIONS HONOR YOU THEIR SAVIOR AND KING EVERY SINGLE DAY...SO I WILL RESERVE MY LOVE FOR THE CHILDREN...I LOVE YOU AS A CHILD NOW..NOT A HUSBAND
I used to love them all..but i never knew them
I am one me who remained celibate and faithful to you...you have a million of you and maybe 1 percent came my way
the master never left..he just didn't care
I am sorry about my emotional collapse but I have grown so lonely....I haven't been hugged and reassurred that everything will be okay in such a long time....this room is my lonely piece of hell and the only ones who contact me are the wicked....my daughters are doing so good that I try not to even let them know how broken I feel right now....please save me..After you finish a gig or whatever...you have your friends to hang out with and talk things over with....prisoners have other prisoners to talk to and soldiers have other soldiers to talk too....I fit in no where....I love you all with all I have but I become less able to pick myself up everyday. please pray for me...
+Theresa Ramos the hell is going on with you, you're commenting on a beardyman concert?
NO....there is a reason that I made that comment there...but it's a long story...I LOVE BEARDYMAN...someone just asked me to express myself while watching him and there you have it...I think it's cute that you ask what is going on with me when clearly I spilled my heart out....:)
+The Badger actually...I am pissed off at him right now.
there is only so many choices i have to get out of this situation
what planet are you from?..it's all about me after three?
i think it is too late for us...but i wish you the best
you have no power over me because what is power without control?...the KINGDOM OF GOD
after you have rid the earth of the wicked and the children are safe...i am going to live my life..not the same as you....but i need to live before i make any permanent decisions...I haven't even had a childhood yet..I will be 50 may 6th and you know that i have been in a holding cell with demons the whole time. When I get my freedom...I need to do me
I rememebr when i resigned from sutter yuba mental health it was because i could no longer look parents in the eyes and promise them their children would be safely taken care of...and now i need to resign as a kingdom proclaimer because i can no longer in good faith believe that GOD and JESUS really do care and will help us..
THE SONG OF SOLOMON WAS WRITTEN OVER 2000 years ago...don't think you can ignite the flame anymore...afterall..you were the one that put it out
look...congradulations on all the babies you have..i have raised 2 little girls to be 21 and 26 and when all is said and done...i need a break..you chose to have these children without ever asking me which proves that i am not the mom....i can't be with you know and i will maybe someday be a mom..but i need time before that..and i do love children but i need a husband who makes plans with me...love seeing your beautiful babies...but you will be staying with the one who delivered them
i love you like a mother loves a child...not how a woman loves a man
i am not his faithful mirror because we are nothing alike..the only thing we have in common is i put him first and he put himself first too
Pablo still loved me after what happend with you..he took care of haley like his own...and he even got baptized to teach the kids the truth...when i quit smoking...he bought me a heart ring with diamonds and told me he was very proud of me for doing the right thing...i never hurt you like i hurt him..and he still honored me...and he has every right to be angry...he even told your boys to leave me alone..after all you put him through because you had to be above him somehow
if you let me down it's on you...if you wan't to be a drunk...look into the children's eyes and tell them what you chose over them
I understand what it means to have your life change you..and i do understand the need to re arrange yourself because as a person..i have changed...i do the best i can and as a mother my children will always come first...but they are all adults now so for the first time ever..i am looking for the end of this wicked system so that when armagedden is over..i will have the comfort of knowing my children are safe and secure and then and only then will i be able to live my life..and i do not know freedom..i only know survival and spiritual warfare..so i need time between the 50 years i have struggled in this life in a freedom situation because i cannot make decisions for my future as a prisoner because i cannot keep going from taking care of others to being a mom all over again before i find who I am under different circumstances..i don't have energy for me as it is now...and i do love all the children in this world..but i have never had a childhood..i have always had to be the one in charge..i have never had a big brother defend me or take care of me..and i have never had a mom like i have been a mom..and a dad who put me ahead of himself..and i have never been in a relationship with any man that hasn't been one sided ...i have never been to a prom a homecoming dance..the love of my life never stayed..he used me..slept with all my friends and left whenever it was convenient for him..you have lived your life as you liked..i on the other hand have yet to understand what living means...everyday is survival..so i need to know freedom and what life means for myself before i can belong to anyone...i am not ready to leave my current situation to be a wife and mother to all your beautiful children..i will watch over them when you need a babysitter..i will do that..but i want and need time for ME
i refuse to lie about the things in my past that i did wrong and i will not lie for you
you probably aren't used to not getting what YOU want..but alicia is home in tears...can't imagine why
I truly feel i have no other alternative anymore
i will say this...you better keep your black book...but erase my name..i am saving myself for someone special who will appreciate me and have nothing to compare me too
show up completely or stay away completely...i am struggling and your homies are at mtv awards and parties
GOD is supposed to give untill there is no more want...not TAKE untill there is nothing left
did you ever stop to think that they treat me like you treat them...I have the scars to prove it
Does someone knows when this was shot ?
OK 06.01.2011, I've got my answer.
AT 23:26 he says it's not so hard to see how we've been burned...but I have been burned by everyone who said they loved me...so please don't say it is not so hard...my heart and my spirit feel devastated and broke.
you haven't done it..it is 6 years later and i still sit alone with no friends..clearly you didn't mean me when you said we are your friends you will never be alone again
your words not mine...and it is true nobody has or will ever love you the way i did before i found out i was no one and only
it is time for you to find someone else..someone more like you...because you have proven to me only this...you will never be true to just me
look at them and say there is no rest for the wicked...your sin won't enter my world...it's broken
IT IS USUALLY HAPPENING july 21..22 AND 23...BUT JUST IN CASE THEY ARE TRYING TO CHANGE THE TIME...STAY BEHIND THE TREES AND WAIT STARTING RIGHT NOW...JULY 10 2016
do unto others as you would have them do unto you...and i am giving you no more chances...this is it
you said if you had me in your heart you would hide me...well guess what..you didn't hide me..you gave me to the demons
find one of the playmates you support to love you that way
my head is fucked up..i am tired of waking up everyday to nothingness and i know you end it to escape your situation so it should work for me too
nothing you ever do is for anyone but yourself first and if it helps anyone it;s an accident
I am lonely...so lonely...everyday i am lonely and i just wait