thank you for telling your story, I've struggled with anxiety all of my life and still tend to get anxiety attacks to this day especially about my health despite not much being wrong with me, I wish I could be there for you, I wish I could give you a hug, just know you are one of the strongest people I have listened to.
Thanks for sharing, I know it can be difficult to talk about these things and it’s refreshing to hear someone’s else’s perspective and reminds me that im not alone in my struggles. You got this ❤
Im happy that you're okay. When i watched this video it kinda felt like looking into a mirror but not liking what i see. I also have asperger (and might also have adhd) and this video makes me feel useless and lazy for not dealing with my problems and doing nothing productive in general and i doesnt even know why im writing this because i will still do nothing about it and still refuse help. Anyways i just hope that this video will help other people and hope that you will have a great life.
I think I understand where you're coming from. I had no friends in most of elementary, a few in middle/high school, and all but one of them weren't really people that talked to me outside of lunch. My parents- drug addicts and narcissists - weren't there for all that much. My mom being bipolar and using that as an excuse to bully my brother, who probably has the same thing, and outside of occasional good days, it seems she doesnt even try to do anything a mother or parent should do. My dad on the other hand basically said to tough it out and never took responsibility for his lack of affection or willingness to hear me/my brothers out whenever I had bad/suicidal feelings or considered running away once... He just sits there, high, judging others. And thinking anyone gay is trying to groom me apparently, because I spend time with my older brother and his friends... none of which are even gay or talk about anything like that. The few times I've tried to confide in other family members about how I feel, they seem to not understand that them immediately telling my parents that Im criticizing them embarrasses me and results in my parents being mad at me and taking the moral high road. I'm not sure I have anyone in the family to look up to. I went to church for a year or two before covid, but ultimately left after one of the pastors said to blatantly lie not to offend people. Sometimes you can only rely on yourself to keep yourself happy. I was saved/born again about 6 years ago, though before and after I had a lot of same-sex feelings. Not towards a particular person but in general. Both physically and emotionally. It's been really hard suppressing those feelings - I have to because of my faith - but I thankfully don't lust after people anymore like I did as a teen. Still, I find little reason to like or respect myself for the things I do or the desires I try to ignore. It's an infinite feedback loop, doing something wrong and being depressed and seeing no reason to improve myself with nobody who wants to give the time of day to help. To top it all off I pray for understanding on things I'm unsure are okay or not and don't seem to hear anything, and then I fear I'm willfully being ignorant, and thus sinning, and thus don't like myself... I want to be angry but I know being angry is pointless and that leads to me being angry at myself for feeling angry! I feel I am a coward for not having the spine to stand up to my parents and tell them how much they suck. For the last few years I've told myself it's okay to almost never be happy, and being content - neither happy or sad - is okay. that's a bad mindset. I regret not talking to people, even if I thought they'd do nothing real to help. I try to pride myself on not having any addictions, although the comforting familiarity of wallowing in self-loathing, or pity or whatever it might be, certainly is one that I have yet to break. Anyway, just wanted to vent, I guess... I don't know how to frame this more positively.
I never struggled with anxiety or schizophrenia or Asburgers. But I had a friend who would straight up attack anything or anyone who had mentioned snails. I asked him why he was afraid of them and he didn't have a reason to fear them but for some reason he just hated them and scared him.
Dark lyrics of a very beautiful song Saturday night and you're still hangin' around Tired of living in your one horse town You'd like to find a little hole in the ground For awhile So you go to the village in your tie-dye jeans And you stare at the junkies and the closet queens It's like some pornographic magazine And you smile Captain Jack will get you high tonight And take you to your special island Captain Jack will get you by tonight Just a little push, and you'll be smilin' Oh, yeah Your sister's gone out, she's on a date You just sit at home and masturbate Your phone is gonna ring soon But you just can't wait For that call So you stand on the corner in your New English clothes And you look so polished from your hair down to your toes Oh, but still your fingers gonna pick your nose after all Captain Jack will get you high tonight And take you to your special island Captain Jack will get you by tonight Just a little push, and you'll be smilin' So you decide to take a holiday You got your tape deck and your brand new Chevrolet Ah, there ain't no place to go anyway What for? So you got everything, ah, but nothing's cool They just found your father in the swimming pool And you guess you won't be going back to school Anymore Captain Jack will get you high tonight And take you to your special island Oh, Captain Jack will get you by tonight Just a little push, and you'll be smilin' So you play your albums, and you smoke your pot And you meet your girlfriend in the parking lot Oh, but still you're aching for the things you haven't got What went wrong? And if you can't understand why your world is so dead Why you've got to keep in style and feed your head Well, you're 21 and still your mother makes your bed And that's too long But Captain Jack will get you high tonight And take you to your special island Well, now Captain Jack will get you by tonight Just a little push, and you'll be smilin' Captain Jack will get you high tonight And take you to your special island Well, now Captain Jack will get you by tonight Just a little push, and you'll be smilin' Captain Jack will get you high tonight And take you to your special island Captain Jack will make you die tonight Well, now Captain Jack will make you die tonight
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thank you for telling your story, I've struggled with anxiety all of my life and still tend to get anxiety attacks to this day especially about my health despite not much being wrong with me, I wish I could be there for you, I wish I could give you a hug, just know you are one of the strongest people I have listened to.
Woah! Congrats on reaching 1k subs, u deserve this so ima leave this here to remind you that you can do even better! C:
Also i love this video too lol
Thank you so much! I am extremely excited about it haha, I'm working on a 1K sub special!! ^_^
i will try my best to be one of the first to watch!
Thanks for sharing, I know it can be difficult to talk about these things and it’s refreshing to hear someone’s else’s perspective and reminds me that im not alone in my struggles. You got this ❤
Im happy that you're okay. When i watched this video it kinda felt like looking into a mirror but not liking what i see. I also have asperger (and might also have adhd) and this video makes me feel useless and lazy for not dealing with my problems and doing nothing productive in general and i doesnt even know why im writing this because i will still do nothing about it and still refuse help. Anyways i just hope that this video will help other people and hope that you will have a great life.
I think I understand where you're coming from. I had no friends in most of elementary, a few in middle/high school, and all but one of them weren't really people that talked to me outside of lunch. My parents- drug addicts and narcissists - weren't there for all that much. My mom being bipolar and using that as an excuse to bully my brother, who probably has the same thing, and outside of occasional good days, it seems she doesnt even try to do anything a mother or parent should do. My dad on the other hand basically said to tough it out and never took responsibility for his lack of affection or willingness to hear me/my brothers out whenever I had bad/suicidal feelings or considered running away once... He just sits there, high, judging others. And thinking anyone gay is trying to groom me apparently, because I spend time with my older brother and his friends... none of which are even gay or talk about anything like that.
The few times I've tried to confide in other family members about how I feel, they seem to not understand that them immediately telling my parents that Im criticizing them embarrasses me and results in my parents being mad at me and taking the moral high road. I'm not sure I have anyone in the family to look up to. I went to church for a year or two before covid, but ultimately left after one of the pastors said to blatantly lie not to offend people. Sometimes you can only rely on yourself to keep yourself happy.
I was saved/born again about 6 years ago, though before and after I had a lot of same-sex feelings. Not towards a particular person but in general. Both physically and emotionally. It's been really hard suppressing those feelings - I have to because of my faith - but I thankfully don't lust after people anymore like I did as a teen. Still, I find little reason to like or respect myself for the things I do or the desires I try to ignore. It's an infinite feedback loop, doing something wrong and being depressed and seeing no reason to improve myself with nobody who wants to give the time of day to help. To top it all off I pray for understanding on things I'm unsure are okay or not and don't seem to hear anything, and then I fear I'm willfully being ignorant, and thus sinning, and thus don't like myself... I want to be angry but I know being angry is pointless and that leads to me being angry at myself for feeling angry! I feel I am a coward for not having the spine to stand up to my parents and tell them how much they suck.
For the last few years I've told myself it's okay to almost never be happy, and being content - neither happy or sad - is okay. that's a bad mindset. I regret not talking to people, even if I thought they'd do nothing real to help. I try to pride myself on not having any addictions, although the comforting familiarity of wallowing in self-loathing, or pity or whatever it might be, certainly is one that I have yet to break.
Anyway, just wanted to vent, I guess... I don't know how to frame this more positively.
You are a legend!
I heavily emphasize with you. A lot of the metal stuff you described is vary similar to my own experience. Just know that your not alone.
I never struggled with anxiety or schizophrenia or Asburgers. But I had a friend who would straight up attack anything or anyone who had mentioned snails. I asked him why he was afraid of them and he didn't have a reason to fear them but for some reason he just hated them and scared him.
10:20 💔OOF my hart’s broken for u my dude. I’ve experienced similar things and I wish I was there so I could give you a big fake vr hug.
i love rexouium
Dark lyrics of a very beautiful song
Saturday night and you're still hangin' around
Tired of living in your one horse town
You'd like to find a little hole in the ground
For awhile
So you go to the village in your tie-dye jeans
And you stare at the junkies and the closet queens
It's like some pornographic magazine
And you smile
Captain Jack will get you high tonight
And take you to your special island
Captain Jack will get you by tonight
Just a little push, and you'll be smilin'
Oh, yeah
Your sister's gone out, she's on a date
You just sit at home and masturbate
Your phone is gonna ring soon
But you just can't wait
For that call
So you stand on the corner in your New English clothes
And you look so polished from your hair down to your toes
Oh, but still your fingers gonna pick your nose after all
Captain Jack will get you high tonight
And take you to your special island
Captain Jack will get you by tonight
Just a little push, and you'll be smilin'
So you decide to take a holiday
You got your tape deck and your brand new Chevrolet
Ah, there ain't no place to go anyway
What for?
So you got everything, ah, but nothing's cool
They just found your father in the swimming pool
And you guess you won't be going back to school
Anymore
Captain Jack will get you high tonight
And take you to your special island
Oh, Captain Jack will get you by tonight
Just a little push, and you'll be smilin'
So you play your albums, and you smoke your pot
And you meet your girlfriend in the parking lot
Oh, but still you're aching for the things you haven't got
What went wrong?
And if you can't understand why your world is so dead
Why you've got to keep in style and feed your head
Well, you're 21 and still your mother makes your bed
And that's too long
But Captain Jack will get you high tonight
And take you to your special island
Well, now Captain Jack will get you by tonight
Just a little push, and you'll be smilin'
Captain Jack will get you high tonight
And take you to your special island
Well, now Captain Jack will get you by tonight
Just a little push, and you'll be smilin'
Captain Jack will get you high tonight
And take you to your special island
Captain Jack will make you die tonight
Well, now Captain Jack will make you die tonight