I’m 42 & I’ve had it since I was 12 😣 I use to be able to control it but now can barely keep anything down. I can’t stop puking even when I don’t want to it’s terrible & my mouth won’t stop watering 😬 & I think it’s rotted my teeth
I had anorexia/bulimia for a few years. When I was a low weight and had bulimia I binged and purged 18 hours per day for 2 years straight not missing a single day. I honestly don't know how I'm alive. After binge episodes I would be so dehydrated water was like a drug and I would gulp it down. I still live in fear of the long term physical effects I must have caused that I may not be aware of. It is a HORRIBLE thing to go through I wouldn't wish it upon anyone
I had anorexia b/p, I say had, because I am in recovery over four years now :) just want to wish you all the best and hope you’re doing better now. Recovery is possible and the other side is so much sweeter…
Dehydration nearly killed me last year- a combination of various purging behaviours and fluid restriction (like you very much control related). It was something medical professionals didn’t take seriously, along with very low heart rate (they thought I was fit from exercising) until they had to get the defib pads out to resuscitate me. The financial and social aspects are just as crippling and you just get made to feel guilty… great video
I have not had bulimic issues, just anorexia/binging but I know the pressure can rupture your stomach and kill you almost instantly. So frightening to think about..but on the happier note, I am so happy to hear about the help coming your way. You’re on the right path and I can tell you are really trying to get your life back. You’re gonna beat this illness, just keep fighting it sis!
Thank you so much for making yourself vulnerable This has helped me in my studies of eating disorders as part of my course on Mental health issues to be more understanding and less judgemental now that I know just how devastating this is for people who desperately want to get well again. Take care and look forward to enjoying life again. You are a beautiful person.
I’ve had every eating disorder under the sun. Bulimia is a difficult one to talk about openly. I recently saw some people who knew me in high school and they bullied me and it was difficult to deal with
Thank you… just fighting so much with urges and this video made me at least distance a little bit from the urges because the pictures of the effects actually scared me
This is so saddening because you’ve literally just mapped out my exact same way of how I live with bulimia/anorexia :( I hope you get all the help sweetie., i’m yet to have the courage to seek help it’s so hard because I’m ashamed and no one knows of my bulimia people think I just don’t eat alot because i’m a vegetarian and have a busy lifestyle, I eat way more than enough every evening but I have been self inducing vomiting for 10 years that now I don’t even need to stick my fingers down my throat I just eat so much that I can throw it all up by using stomach muscles 😔 it’s becoming so bad though because I get bloated so easily and it makes me feel like I can just run straight to the toilet and be sick, it’s like when you’re actually sick/unwell that’s how easy it is for my body to reject all the excessive food.
@@dailyfruit6220 :( I hope you get the help too lovely, I did recently see my doctor due to my weight and I was going to be referred to a therapist for recovery support, but my stupid ed took over in my head and won so I never followed through on it, it’s truly an evil disease and I hope anyone suffering can recover including myself 💖 x
How are you now? I have that too, I either wanna go back to not eating anything but then when I start eating I just can’t stop and then purge it out, it’s really draining because I’m exercising too
I had a different type of bulimia than the one everyone talks about. Mine was more like AN but with episodes of binging then days of literally eating nothing and exercising to the point i almost passed out. My lowest weight wasnt anything low either- in fact a bmi that was ‘healthy’- but on average i was eating the same as a 2 year old even with the binging. Weirdly enough substance abuse kinda saved me from my eating disorder, i started smoking and to this day im still addicted to nicotine but am not too bad. Even after 3-4 years since i recovered i still have severe iron deficiency, IBS and really thin skin and chronic infections. It is honestly easier not to eat when you have a restrictive ED than. It is to eat ‘normally’. My stomach has not recovered even though i have so i cant imagine what would happen if i was underweight lol.
Hey thank you so much for that video! I just had a very bad bp session again and I hate myself so much rn. But your video makes me feel not so alone. You seem to be a very strong woman, I should take that vibe as a role model, thank you :) You can do it! You can fight the demon!
I'm in quite a struggle ngl and I just really want a definite answer, I'm diagnosed with anorexia and body dysmorphia and have a bmi of around 16.3 currently, my lowest ever was around 15.5 a year ago, so I've restored weight a bit. I'm fairly sure I'm secretly bulimic though however as I have a day of binging (where I often eat 3k - 4k calories at a time), and then purge by fasting the next few days and then repeat the cycle. Then again I'm also somewhat curious whether or not I have rumination disorder as instead of vomiting after I eat, I guiltily regurgitate the food back up and re-chew it to get the taste back but the same calories absorbed of course. I've noticed that despite this period being my skinniest point in my life, my face as never looked more fat and round, is this because of the binging and regurgitating (swelling of the glands), cause like my body is literally stick thin where my ribcage is visible, yet my face is so chubby looking, and I literally used to have quite the opposite years back when I was a healthy weight. It just causes so much anxiety and I hate it, I really just want to gain weight and quite honestly a bit of fat on my body/limbs, but my face looks like it already is fat :(
Thank you for your honesty. I’m an almost 31 year old man who’s had the illness since middle school. God bless you and your recovery
I’m 42 & I’ve had it since I was 12 😣 I use to be able to control it but now can barely keep anything down. I can’t stop puking even when I don’t want to it’s terrible & my mouth won’t stop watering 😬 & I think it’s rotted my teeth
I had anorexia/bulimia for a few years. When I was a low weight and had bulimia I binged and purged 18 hours per day for 2 years straight not missing a single day. I honestly don't know how I'm alive. After binge episodes I would be so dehydrated water was like a drug and I would gulp it down. I still live in fear of the long term physical effects I must have caused that I may not be aware of. It is a HORRIBLE thing to go through I wouldn't wish it upon anyone
the abusing laxatives side of it too…….its good to hear about someone talk about the gross side of the disorder (vomit n sh*t)
I had anorexia b/p, I say had, because I am in recovery over four years now :) just want to wish you all the best and hope you’re doing better now. Recovery is possible and the other side is so much sweeter…
Dehydration nearly killed me last year- a combination of various purging behaviours and fluid restriction (like you very much control related). It was something medical professionals didn’t take seriously, along with very low heart rate (they thought I was fit from exercising) until they had to get the defib pads out to resuscitate me. The financial and social aspects are just as crippling and you just get made to feel guilty… great video
I have not had bulimic issues, just anorexia/binging but I know the pressure can rupture your stomach and kill you almost instantly. So frightening to think about..but on the happier note, I am so happy to hear about the help coming your way. You’re on the right path and I can tell you are really trying to get your life back. You’re gonna beat this illness, just keep fighting it sis!
It was very brave of you to post it. I'm sorry you're going through this and I wish you speedy and once forever recovery!
Thank you for sharing. Your video helped me understand a friend who's probably bulimic. Take care of yourself, best wishes!
Thank you so much for making yourself vulnerable
This has helped me in my studies of eating disorders as part of my course on Mental health issues to be more understanding and less judgemental now that I know just how devastating this is for people who desperately want to get well again. Take care and look forward to enjoying life again. You are a beautiful person.
I’ve had every eating disorder under the sun. Bulimia is a difficult one to talk about openly. I recently saw some people who knew me in high school and they bullied me and it was difficult to deal with
Hope you are doing better now
Thank you… just fighting so much with urges and this video made me at least distance a little bit from the urges because the pictures of the effects actually scared me
This is so saddening because you’ve literally just mapped out my exact same way of how I live with bulimia/anorexia :( I hope you get all the help sweetie., i’m yet to have the courage to seek help it’s so hard because I’m ashamed and no one knows of my bulimia people think I just don’t eat alot because i’m a vegetarian and have a busy lifestyle, I eat way more than enough every evening but I have been self inducing vomiting for 10 years that now I don’t even need to stick my fingers down my throat I just eat so much that I can throw it all up by using stomach muscles 😔 it’s becoming so bad though because I get bloated so easily and it makes me feel like I can just run straight to the toilet and be sick, it’s like when you’re actually sick/unwell that’s how easy it is for my body to reject all the excessive food.
same for me, except ive only had bulimia for less than a year and pretty quickly ive been able to use my stomach muscles to push food out
@@dailyfruit6220 :( I hope you get the help too lovely, I did recently see my doctor due to my weight and I was going to be referred to a therapist for recovery support, but my stupid ed took over in my head and won so I never followed through on it, it’s truly an evil disease and I hope anyone suffering can recover including myself 💖 x
How are you now? I have that too, I either wanna go back to not eating anything but then when I start eating I just can’t stop and then purge it out, it’s really draining because I’m exercising too
@@moonlovesme ☹️still same sweetie, exactly what you’re describing x
@@Brit-jr-1988 aw I hope someday it’s all gonna be easier, take care of yourself 😕💗
never found a video so similar to my experience
I had a different type of bulimia than the one everyone talks about. Mine was more like AN but with episodes of binging then days of literally eating nothing and exercising to the point i almost passed out. My lowest weight wasnt anything low either- in fact a bmi that was ‘healthy’- but on average i was eating the same as a 2 year old even with the binging. Weirdly enough substance abuse kinda saved me from my eating disorder, i started smoking and to this day im still addicted to nicotine but am not too bad. Even after 3-4 years since i recovered i still have severe iron deficiency, IBS and really thin skin and chronic infections. It is honestly easier not to eat when you have a restrictive ED than. It is to eat ‘normally’. My stomach has not recovered even though i have so i cant imagine what would happen if i was underweight lol.
Hey thank you so much for that video! I just had a very bad bp session again and I hate myself so much rn. But your video makes me feel not so alone. You seem
to be a very strong woman, I should take that vibe as a role model, thank you :) You can do it! You can fight the demon!
I hope you get better beautiful young lady 😢😊
Thank you for sharing. I relate so much to you. You are a good person and so brave. You really are.
I appreciate your reality of bulimia
Appreciate the video, hope you are well
Wait wait wait, are you telling me this is the cause of my jaw problems?!?!
Thank you
I'm in quite a struggle ngl and I just really want a definite answer, I'm diagnosed with anorexia and body dysmorphia and have a bmi of around 16.3 currently, my lowest ever was around 15.5 a year ago, so I've restored weight a bit. I'm fairly sure I'm secretly bulimic though however as I have a day of binging (where I often eat 3k - 4k calories at a time), and then purge by fasting the next few days and then repeat the cycle. Then again I'm also somewhat curious whether or not I have rumination disorder as instead of vomiting after I eat, I guiltily regurgitate the food back up and re-chew it to get the taste back but the same calories absorbed of course. I've noticed that despite this period being my skinniest point in my life, my face as never looked more fat and round, is this because of the binging and regurgitating (swelling of the glands), cause like my body is literally stick thin where my ribcage is visible, yet my face is so chubby looking, and I literally used to have quite the opposite years back when I was a healthy weight. It just causes so much anxiety and I hate it, I really just want to gain weight and quite honestly a bit of fat on my body/limbs, but my face looks like it already is fat :(
my body goalsss❤😭
Thats unhealthy
thank u for this ❤
I regret everything bro I feel so guilty like really guilty I fucked up my tooth I can feel it and I’m scared My mom is going to be so mad
Thanks for sharing.
Thank you for this video…. Can you contact with me if is possible…
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Still talking about it. That is not who you are. You are a child of God. Speak in the name of Jesus and rebuke demons. You have holy strength
What are u babblin about
I have bulimia and my eyes are kinda puffy and i was near to death once with starvation but i was not unconscious