I've had depression for the last 15 yrs due to chronic illness and chronic pain many people tell me that my sense of humour is really good what they dont know is the funnier i am the sadder i am feeling 3 words i use a lot is humor hides hurt ..i am on medication for it and i have dark thoughts but today i am ok as for tomorrow i wont know til tomorrow
I needed this reminder! Never take on the cloak of your moods and let them label you and define you. I have suffered from periods of depression my entire life, but lately I have been using self-talk that has been self-labeling as a depressed personality. No! I am a creative and passionate person having a period of depression. Today, I won’t let my mood define me…I already feel the gray cloud lifting.
You made it through!!!! Numbers are numbers at the end of your life. Being your true self makes your life magical no matter what UA-cam's top 1-10 says. But you had huge growing pains you had to go through to find yourself once again. Now it's YOUR time to live again!!! YOU built this channel on being YOU because you had nothing to lose. Keep being just who you are to keep your channel as you know. HUGE HUGS!!! Adulting is hard but this test you pasted with flying colors!!!
I am so glad you found your cure! I had to be treated for depression several times in my life and each episode ended only, when I got to a point where I found out what was missing from my life and found a way to get that back at least partly. It is good to see that not only you got professional help but also that you managed to identify the missing piece. Sending my best wishes for you to get your audaciousness back into your life in the amount and persistence you need to be happy and giddy and feel yourself. And thank you so much for sharing how this happened. This is very helpful for anyone struggling with similar issues. It is so important to make sure that you can be yourself and not only try to be, what you think you are supposed to be. Looking forward to seeing you wearing your new tattoo 😘. Love you!
I feel like our brains go through seasons and need to weather the storms during the gloomy times. The important thing to know is... it will pass. (I'm not referring to clinical depression where counseling and medication may be needed.) Glad you are in a better place now.
I understand the need to keep going to pay the bills. I'm a nanny and recently had to take 2 weeks off for health issues. I still am having the health issues, but I needed to get back to work so I can paid and so the family doesnt need to keep scrambling for childcare. This isn't the first time this has happened in my 10+ years of being a nanny. It's been a lot of loving what I do and pushing through burnout and health problems (even a concussion once). This video is really leading me to reflect so thank you for being vulnerable and sharing.
Don't forget that depression isn't always about being sad or being in a bad situation, but a chemical imbalance in the brain that impedes the ability to function despite what is going on in life
I lost my self in pleasing others and got low self esteem. After theraphy I learned confidence and self esteem comes from who i am, and my values. I started writing them down and now i have a new baseline of conficence. Imagining somebody critizising my work now is silly because i value creativity and authenticity, so i can say.. oh seems like this video wasnt for you, but there are so many others that like them
Some of those videos you mentioned, I remember seeing and thinking, I came here with no expectations and received perfection. Yes, more of that, please!
Hi Jazza I’m up in Townsville Qld Australia.. mate I suffer from depression and anxiety and dealing with horrible pain that needs surgery watching your video I can see a lot of me there.. I’m acting I’m alright like the typical Aussie slang she’ll be alright I’m struggling.. by listening to your video is helping thank you for helping me ❤❤❤😊😊😊xxxx
UA-cam: "Algorithm doesn't like your stuff" Jazza: "Yeah? Then I will become the algorithm. Algorithm is me." Algorithm: "Obnoxious! But consistent..."
I'm sorry that you felt this way, but I'm glad you feel better! Depression is this state, that people experience differently and it's tricky to understand you're depressed: it's like yes, something is different, I don't feel good, but I'm still functioning. Until one day you wake up and realise that life became dull and nothing brings pleasure - drawing and painting isn't fun anymore, sunsets and sunrises and music not inspire anymore and just irritates eyes with it's brightness, food and drinks become tasteless. But after treatment, when you're cured one day you start feeling joy again and life becomes much more important all of the sudden. In my case when I cured depression years ago I just realised that I want to live and create and feel as much happiness as possible! It's like I've become greedy for all positive emotions. Please be careful with it, I've heard that once you experienced depression later it can back after you've cured: I mean don't live in fear that it will go back, but be prepared and armed If this "unwanted guest" decides to come back. x) And also one thing that doctors not always tell is that many medications for depression can cause weight gain, but If eating healthy it's ok. And of course you can be you! People who watching you are already accepted you and watch you because they are interested in your world view, what you do and your unique artistic voice! You shouldn't be someone else to be accepted and loved: world needs your honesty and ideas and all the things that bring you passion and inspiration.
Jazza is my role model, and has been since I rediscovered him and his art a few months ago. Not only because he is a true cartoonist, (a word I don't use lightly) but also because I feel like I see my future self whenever I watch any one of his videos. Because I am also an artist who dreams of making content of my own one day. I have been struggling with serious depression, but watching his videos makes me know that I'll be okay. That I will be a great artist, that I will inspire millions of people. I can't wait to be brave, I can't wait to be audacious. Thank you Jazza, you're everything I could ever dream to be.
Great to hear you are feeling so much better and I hope this is a permanent upswing for you. But be careful too, as it you had a diagnosis of depression, it’s not just about good and bad moods, it can be chemical etc, so keep doing the work and be careful of your mental health. I’d hate to think you were burning yourself out by trying to be audacious all the time
Thanks Jazza! Your openness really means a lot! It is so encouraging to hear that you have overcome this and that you don't Always have to be audacious all the time but just be yourself! So I thank you for that! Blessings to you and your family! 🥰💖😀😊
YAY! JAZZA'S BACK! Geez I love you!...and I love your meditations! Please just be yourself, your authenticity (and audaciousness :) ) is why we love your company so much!
Thank you for sharing! Keep being audacious as you named what keeps me watching your videos! *Sidenote* I am audacious in my high school classroom and when I lose sight of that I find it hard to do my job also.
Thanks for sharing this wonderful inspirational message with me today! I truly appreciate your encouragement to just continue to keep being positive, supportive, & above all myself! Glad you’re enjoying & feeling better too! 🥰
Jazza, the fact that you continuously bare your soul to your subscribers and the world at large, is an amazing thing. I'm sure there are many of us (myself included) who take so much solace and inspiration in your messages and your courageous ability to put it all out there, even if it makes you feel vulnerable and uncomfortable. The warmth and generosity you're able to convey, in your videos, have pulled me up at times when I've felt like I was drowning. All of this said, your personal mental health always has to come first. The Insert Art crew were really starting to hit their straps when it all went down. Perhaps giving them their own projects to work on could add to the content and take the continuous burden of content creation off your shoulders to some extent?
Glad you found this along your journey of self discover. Depression is never easy to deal with. I'm excited to see you take some bigger swing, I know your best content is yet to come. Cheers!
It's your silly videos I love the most. Not only do I get to see art, but I get to smile too. That moment of realization catches one off guard, doesn't it? I used to think to myself sometimes when I felt at my lowest that I hope a day would come when I could look back at that exact moment and think "I can't believe I ever felt like that". That moment came. A lot happened in my life. Enough to keep a person on their knees. My aunt always says that it is okay to go through deep waters because you're a good swimmer. I used to be timid. Not since that realization! Obnoxiously Audacious and Consistent would make a great shirt. Besides, I don't think that would fit as a tattoo under the other big toe! 😁
What ppl see on the outside is no indication of what's going on inside Jazza. Maybe you've been burning the paintbrush at both ends for so long that it caught up. You are human. And we love that about you. What courage it takes to admit it to the world as you do. Keep doing 'you' because, up or down, we think you're great!❤
You are one of the only creators who will include their mistakes as part of the video. You are clearly in this to enjoy it and even though I am slow at keeping up with people I am subscribed to, I make a point to watch your vids. Keep it up:-)
Glad to see youve found, at least in part, the reason, you are one of a very few whose videos I look forward to, keep being you, its was and still is what draws me to your channels. The saying goes " heavy it the head that wears the crown " please dont let that crown break your spirit.
Weird. My saving "epiphany word" was "depression". I realized I "had depression". I HAVE depression. It doesn't have ME. It's MINE.... ...and that means I'M in control of IT. I decide how it affects me. How much it makes me feel. How deep into the darkness I want to journey... ...or if I'd rather just hang out in the sunshine instead.
I just want everyone to know that it’s very possible to have depression, and anxiety, but still be a positive person even optimistic. Your symptoms of depression and your overall outlook on life are different things.
Wonderful! Looking forward to seeing more audacious stuff from you now. Also what you said at the end about learning to love yourself is so important. It took me way too long to learn that too and am still working on it. In fact, I am currently reading Louise Hay's 'You can heal your life' right now, which is about that. And it's quite eye-opening. Recommend.
I think if you were to start taking some risks by going against what it is you think you should do and succeed at that, you may feel relieved by seeing just how much control you have in your life. You aren’t just going through the motions and doing what you have to do but rather doing what you want to do. I don’t know… just a thought. I did want to add my own little bit of positivity and just say that you are truly an inspiration and my favorite creative personality of the platform! Please never stop being AUDACIOUS!
Hey Jazza, I'm happy you feel better in finding yourself again and defining your core values. Be proud that you have reached out to get treatment for your mental health! It's the first big step. There is depression in many forms. Burnout is one of them. If you struggle with depression it is hard - but important - to understand and to accept that it is an illness; not a flaw, weakness or somewhat in that direction. There are as many forms of depression as people who have them. Accepting that depression is an illness and accepting that oneself is affected by depression and therefore ill was one of the hardest things on my own way fighting it. Espacially when grown up in a society where you are not allowed to be "weak"! Wish everyone who needs it all the best! Never stop fighting. And never forget to do things you love and enjoy! :)
You earned my respect with your making things. You earned my love by being you. Keep being you friend, and I'll keep being happy when i watch you be you.
Audaciousness is to creatives, what eccentricity is to the wealthy. It's something that only we're allowed to hold in a way that makes sense. That being said, this is an incredible reminder as I go through an particularly demanding time, that as someone who also does too many creative things, that I must embrace the idea of being more audacious every day, and embrace that part of me while getting to everything else.
I am a people pleaser too and with adhd and I often end up taking life too seriously and my dad was the class clown so he raised me to embrace being more playful so I ADORE your playfulness and impulsive "dumb" ideas because far too many places don't play. I think if you drew this favorite word as a prompt and released it as limited edition merch to celebrate this breakthrough or just to keep being the same old brand new you I think it would sell well no matter if you made it dumb or epic, because it is Jazza, and we love Jazza.
You were Jazza before the algorithm dictated anything formula. THAT is why people are here. I'm so sorry YT is a wild ride of flaming hoops for content providers to jump through. Thank you for sharing real human stuff. It's very inspiring on several levels.
It's interesting to me that you mentioned your content not being as out there as it used to be. I was just thinking about that and how, for lack of a better term, simple things have gotten here. I hope you get back to doing this at the scale you want to!
"UA-camrs as chairs" is still my favorite video from you. And there is even another video where you talk about my channel, but the one I go back to watch from time to time is UA-camrs as chairs. I also started a treatment a few months ago. It's audacious of you to talk about all this in public. One thing is to want to share and normalize but you never know who's at the other side of this asymmetrical relationship. So I can only imagine the other things you don't get to talk about. In return, your audacity here is helping a lot of people who likes to connect with you in your lows and highs. Thanks
I am a Houseless artist in Hawaii, my most expensive pieces are only $300, for now 😁. Today I started with $40 and have 15 left after coffee breakfast and lunch. It is noon now and I hope to sell one small piece at 60 bucks. I need to make 165 before the 19th to pay my 3 month phone bill and I have a goal to get 210 ASAP to make an online order to get material to elevate my art. I get depressed easily. How do I get over it? Breathe,know that because I keep going and believe I will be ok. Create, if to depressed to create, stack rocks, indulge in a tasty treat. Main thing is look at everything you have, think about all the joy in your life and focus on the things you want to create and make better. Ignore everyone who puts you down, trust me ,my situation, my passion for things and respect for everyone around you mentality, I get attacked a lot, verbally, physically, psychologicaly. It's tough, but I keep going, I continue to spread my beliefs on nature, I continue to clean and maintain land that belongs to no one. Just Create my friend, Create Create Create, nothing else matters. Enjoy creating positivity and Fk the haters.
hey jazza, glad you are doing better, much love and keep creating, use your pain to fuel your art, however i am not the professional artist here so keep on keeping on ultimately (sorry for rambling)
Hey Jazza, can you make transformable toys in your channel, could be from plastic, wood, etc! Like the ones in kinder surprise? Just a diy experiment since i am curious!
I love this story! Thank you for sharing. Something as simple as a word can unlock so much and become a guiding start forward. That really inspires me - I've also gotten stuck in the loop of asking "Why am I not myself?" and every time some simple elegant realization makes it's clear it's not about answering that question, cuz you are yourself!! Just start again, over and over, just start again. Looking forward to whatever comes next🎉
Ya know you could probably work with some of your staff to do parts of the videos. Your doing it on the art channel some? Maybe give your self some wiggle room by adding some of the video making off to other folks? The art channel could remake your previous character art videos, new artist interpretation, and tag the new master character class. That might get you more content for the art channel, traffic to the original videos, and traffic and sales for your master class. Just a thought. I love all your videos, please do what makes you laugh and have fun. It reminds me I can do fun things too.
I think people (including the person themselves) need to remember is that humans can’t follow a ‘brand’. Sure we may have traits that are fairly consistent but we are human and by definition are not a constant. Life and its experiences cause fluctuations in beliefs, personality etc. And it’s okay to not be okay basically. Try not to be so hard on yourself to always be happy and perfect ❤ Possible idea on how to keep the bills being paid whilst avoiding burnout (I’m no expert so maybe these wouldn’t work I dunno): Film a few videos at once and then release them once a week, so you keep the algorithm happy but get a break?
Embrace the intrepidly daring parts of yourself and you’ll never feel down again ;) Here for the long haul and living the content, but dude, your *empire* has now grown so much you have *gotta* look into getting some relief or supporting cast on the channel, be it guest appearences from other creators, or some from the crew «trying to be jazza» for a collab week or two, something that can ease the burden a couple of weeks a year for some proper time off, could be some really great content involving the creative staff as well :) One thing is having time to be both the creative force *and* running the business, that can be done in several ways, but the *brainspace* needed is something completely different, and harder to control, and the brain needs to rest sometimes :)
Thank for sharing the last few vlogs, I started where you opened up and just followed up. Gotta say, I like sad Jazza. Not, that I like that you are being depressed, just the way you share. I was having a rough day, wondering why I get myself in this situation And then you uttered the word ''Audacious'' It gave some sense to the decision that made my day suck. It still suck for now but make me feel less shitty. So you can put a notch in your ''that was useful for someone'' yard stick.
Mate, oscillating with emotions ain't good. If with at flick of a switch you feel well that can indicate hypomanic episode in bipolar. It ain't good. Thanks for being yourself, pls get it checked
Would it be audacious to suggest that you could work more with Audacity? 🤔 Just kidding. 😅 It’s a great video and I never thought about that not being audacious might be an issue. And you’re a great artist anyway. Thanks for sharing!
I see it. The last couple of years of videos haven't felt as fun as they were earlier, even when it's been similar content. It's like you're a spiky, interesting shape, but youtube has filed off all the spikes.
It's amazing to have an epiphany that validates your life. But something you said stuck with me - that you CAN'T take breaks. You have to start programming in those breaks into your production schedule. Both for your mental health and your staff. The more consistent you are with the schdeule the more free you will be to let your audacious side shine. I really wish you'd stop calling your art stupid. It's insulting to yoursf, your employees, and your fans who love your art. Everytime you call a project stupid, you're acknowledging that YOU don't have pride in your projects, even the silly ones.
I'm so frickin happy for you! 🥳😊 I gotta be honest I had to Google "audacious" cause English isn't my native language but it is indeed fitting. I mean there are so many steps to your career that a person who's playing it safe wouldn't have taken in the first place. Thank you for sharing with us and I can't wait to see where this will take us ❤
I would argue that *all* of the internet has become formulatic and playing it safe, creating even bigger arguments, the lack of media literacy becoming rampant, and making wanting to take higher risks to be more difficult. MatPat from the Game Theroist, before his retirement, had specificly said that 2023 was his "Yes, and...." phase of his life and took the risks that he couldn't take if he was following the formula of what UA-cam wanted and left with a bigger bang than he really thought was possiable. I think it's about time you took back your "Yes, and..." for *yourself* and be as Audacious as you ever wanted. I've noticed more people have been leaving social media or limiting their time on Social Media beecause of the issues you pointed out in here due to just everything feeling "Formulatic" and just there to try to catch your attention. If everyone is doing the same thing.... then no one becomes well known. If you're feeling the weight again (It's human nature to go through cycles) I suggest your "take a break" be more "Try to be as audacious as I can be without the camra with my art" Something you wouldn't "think" would be a "good video" and just.... do it without the camra. You'll be suprised how much more invigorating it'll feel when you've finished it because you did something, you may got a new idea to play with in the future *and* you're not feeling like you're doing nothing. It's how you created Table Top Time when you did that with your minis, why not do something like that every time you start feeling burnt out? Just taking time to yourself to just *make* something which may or maynot become a video idea in the future. Just yesterday I decided to do my own "Yes, and...." for May 18th. There was a conversation that bugged me for weeks with how digital artists are focusing so much on perfection even in their traditional art when they try to start, and keep saying "it's not perfect".... Perfection is a myth. it's always have been. The only reason why tables and chairs are "straight" because a machine created that "perfection". *We are not machines*. My goal now is to dispell this thought by doing my first (and maybe more if I help even one person with this idea) Twitch stream on an art lesson on how to do Gesture drawing, and how to switch to traditonal art when you're a digital artist. there's a misunderstanding what a kneaded eraser is used for origonally, how to actually use them, but that your sketches have to be "clean" and "flawless" and thus it becomes daunting for those digital artists understandably because of these misconceptions. So take those risks. Be "Obnoxios but consistant", cus that's why I gravitated to your videos and kept watching them to this day. (Gods I think I started watching you when you were in your tutorials stage of your career. When you *first* launched Arty Party. It's been a long time now thinking about it.)
Core values. Don't fight them, embrace them. Be audacious, and we will be right by your side to enjoy.
I've had depression for the last 15 yrs due to chronic illness and chronic pain many people tell me that my sense of humour is really good what they dont know is the funnier i am the sadder i am feeling 3 words i use a lot is humor hides hurt ..i am on medication for it and i have dark thoughts but today i am ok as for tomorrow i wont know til tomorrow
I needed this reminder! Never take on the cloak of your moods and let them label you and define you. I have suffered from periods of depression my entire life, but lately I have been using self-talk that has been self-labeling as a depressed personality. No! I am a creative and passionate person having a period of depression. Today, I won’t let my mood define me…I already feel the gray cloud lifting.
Next character design session needs to see the rise of ⚡️AUDACIOUS MAN!⚡️ Hero to the masses.
Ooh! Is that like Autismo?!
You made it through!!!! Numbers are numbers at the end of your life. Being your true self makes your life magical no matter what UA-cam's top 1-10 says. But you had huge growing pains you had to go through to find yourself once again. Now it's YOUR time to live again!!! YOU built this channel on being YOU because you had nothing to lose. Keep being just who you are to keep your channel as you know. HUGE HUGS!!! Adulting is hard but this test you pasted with flying colors!!!
I am so glad you found your cure! I had to be treated for depression several times in my life and each episode ended only, when I got to a point where I found out what was missing from my life and found a way to get that back at least partly. It is good to see that not only you got professional help but also that you managed to identify the missing piece. Sending my best wishes for you to get your audaciousness back into your life in the amount and persistence you need to be happy and giddy and feel yourself. And thank you so much for sharing how this happened. This is very helpful for anyone struggling with similar issues. It is so important to make sure that you can be yourself and not only try to be, what you think you are supposed to be. Looking forward to seeing you wearing your new tattoo 😘. Love you!
It's great to hear you broke through! Be audacious my friend! UA-camrs as chairs part 2!
I'm happy you can be happy again ❤
I feel like our brains go through seasons and need to weather the storms during the gloomy times. The important thing to know is... it will pass. (I'm not referring to clinical depression where counseling and medication may be needed.) Glad you are in a better place now.
Yes mate, bring us your authentic audacity ❤ I've said for ages, truly authentic videos overcome algorithmic analytics ❤
I understand the need to keep going to pay the bills. I'm a nanny and recently had to take 2 weeks off for health issues. I still am having the health issues, but I needed to get back to work so I can paid and so the family doesnt need to keep scrambling for childcare. This isn't the first time this has happened in my 10+ years of being a nanny. It's been a lot of loving what I do and pushing through burnout and health problems (even a concussion once). This video is really leading me to reflect so thank you for being vulnerable and sharing.
You are such a massive inspiration to me and so many other artists! your openness is admirable and we always support you. Weve got your back jazza💓
Don't forget that depression isn't always about being sad or being in a bad situation, but a chemical imbalance in the brain that impedes the ability to function despite what is going on in life
So glad you're feeling better and have rediscovered yourself! Thanks for being open and sharing your full journey 😊
Take pride in your own direction before a direction takes your pride. Keep it up, mate.
I lost my self in pleasing others and got low self esteem. After theraphy I learned confidence and self esteem comes from who i am, and my values. I started writing them down and now i have a new baseline of conficence. Imagining somebody critizising my work now is silly because i value creativity and authenticity, so i can say.. oh seems like this video wasnt for you, but there are so many others that like them
Some of those videos you mentioned, I remember seeing and thinking, I came here with no expectations and received perfection. Yes, more of that, please!
Hi Jazza I’m up in Townsville Qld Australia.. mate I suffer from depression and anxiety and dealing with horrible pain that needs surgery watching your video I can see a lot of me there.. I’m acting I’m alright like the typical Aussie slang she’ll be alright I’m struggling.. by listening to your video is helping thank you for helping me ❤❤❤😊😊😊xxxx
UA-cam: "Algorithm doesn't like your stuff"
Jazza: "Yeah? Then I will become the algorithm. Algorithm is me."
Algorithm: "Obnoxious! But consistent..."
I'm sorry that you felt this way, but I'm glad you feel better! Depression is this state, that people experience differently and it's tricky to understand you're depressed: it's like yes, something is different, I don't feel good, but I'm still functioning. Until one day you wake up and realise that life became dull and nothing brings pleasure - drawing and painting isn't fun anymore, sunsets and sunrises and music not inspire anymore and just irritates eyes with it's brightness, food and drinks become tasteless. But after treatment, when you're cured one day you start feeling joy again and life becomes much more important all of the sudden. In my case when I cured depression years ago I just realised that I want to live and create and feel as much happiness as possible! It's like I've become greedy for all positive emotions.
Please be careful with it, I've heard that once you experienced depression later it can back after you've cured: I mean don't live in fear that it will go back, but be prepared and armed If this "unwanted guest" decides to come back. x) And also one thing that doctors not always tell is that many medications for depression can cause weight gain, but If eating healthy it's ok.
And of course you can be you! People who watching you are already accepted you and watch you because they are interested in your world view, what you do and your unique artistic voice! You shouldn't be someone else to be accepted and loved: world needs your honesty and ideas and all the things that bring you passion and inspiration.
Jazza is my role model, and has been since I rediscovered him and his art a few months ago. Not only because he is a true cartoonist, (a word I don't use lightly) but also because I feel like I see my future self whenever I watch any one of his videos. Because I am also an artist who dreams of making content of my own one day. I have been struggling with serious depression, but watching his videos makes me know that I'll be okay. That I will be a great artist, that I will inspire millions of people. I can't wait to be brave, I can't wait to be audacious. Thank you Jazza, you're everything I could ever dream to be.
“Just being me is enough “ Yes! That being said, can we get a pupdate??😂
Great to hear you are feeling so much better and I hope this is a permanent upswing for you. But be careful too, as it you had a diagnosis of depression, it’s not just about good and bad moods, it can be chemical etc, so keep doing the work and be careful of your mental health. I’d hate to think you were burning yourself out by trying to be audacious all the time
Thanks Jazza! Your openness really means a lot! It is so encouraging to hear that you have overcome this and that you don't Always have to be audacious all the time but just be yourself! So I thank you for that! Blessings to you and your family! 🥰💖😀😊
YAY! JAZZA'S BACK!
Geez I love you!...and I love your meditations!
Please just be yourself, your authenticity (and audaciousness :) ) is why we love your company so much!
Thank you for sharing! Keep being audacious as you named what keeps me watching your videos! *Sidenote* I am audacious in my high school classroom and when I lose sight of that I find it hard to do my job also.
Thanks for sharing this wonderful inspirational message with me today! I truly appreciate your encouragement to just continue to keep being positive, supportive, & above all myself! Glad you’re enjoying & feeling better too! 🥰
Jazza, the fact that you continuously bare your soul to your subscribers and the world at large, is an amazing thing. I'm sure there are many of us (myself included) who take so much solace and inspiration in your messages and your courageous ability to put it all out there, even if it makes you feel vulnerable and uncomfortable. The warmth and generosity you're able to convey, in your videos, have pulled me up at times when I've felt like I was drowning.
All of this said, your personal mental health always has to come first. The Insert Art crew were really starting to hit their straps when it all went down. Perhaps giving them their own projects to work on could add to the content and take the continuous burden of content creation off your shoulders to some extent?
Thanks for the updates! I'm glad you're doing better! For the last several weeks I've been dealing with post-event blues.
Glad you found this along your journey of self discover. Depression is never easy to deal with. I'm excited to see you take some bigger swing, I know your best content is yet to come. Cheers!
It's your silly videos I love the most. Not only do I get to see art, but I get to smile too. That moment of realization catches one off guard, doesn't it? I used to think to myself sometimes when I felt at my lowest that I hope a day would come when I could look back at that exact moment and think "I can't believe I ever felt like that". That moment came. A lot happened in my life. Enough to keep a person on their knees. My aunt always says that it is okay to go through deep waters because you're a good swimmer. I used to be timid. Not since that realization! Obnoxiously Audacious and Consistent would make a great shirt. Besides, I don't think that would fit as a tattoo under the other big toe! 😁
What ppl see on the outside is no indication of what's going on inside Jazza. Maybe you've been burning the paintbrush at both ends for so long that it caught up. You are human. And we love that about you. What courage it takes to admit it to the world as you do. Keep doing 'you' because, up or down, we think you're great!❤
You are one of the only creators who will include their mistakes as part of the video. You are clearly in this to enjoy it and even though I am slow at keeping up with people I am subscribed to, I make a point to watch your vids. Keep it up:-)
Glad to see youve found, at least in part, the reason, you are one of a very few whose videos I look forward to, keep being you, its was and still is what draws me to your channels.
The saying goes " heavy it the head that wears the crown " please dont let that crown break your spirit.
Weird.
My saving "epiphany word" was "depression".
I realized I "had depression".
I HAVE depression.
It doesn't have ME.
It's MINE....
...and that means I'M in control of IT. I decide how it affects me. How much it makes me feel.
How deep into the darkness I want to journey...
...or if I'd rather just hang out in the sunshine instead.
I just want everyone to know that it’s very possible to have depression, and anxiety, but still be a positive person even optimistic. Your symptoms of depression and your overall outlook on life are different things.
Great insight bro. This is a therapeutic realization... Be audacious, be you!
I love this so much Jazza... You didn't have to share this but you did. And now we can all look for that little piece of us to start working towards
Wonderful! Looking forward to seeing more audacious stuff from you now. Also what you said at the end about learning to love yourself is so important. It took me way too long to learn that too and am still working on it. In fact, I am currently reading Louise Hay's 'You can heal your life' right now, which is about that. And it's quite eye-opening. Recommend.
I think if you were to start taking some risks by going against what it is you think you should do and succeed at that, you may feel relieved by seeing just how much control you have in your life. You aren’t just going through the motions and doing what you have to do but rather doing what you want to do. I don’t know… just a thought. I did want to add my own little bit of positivity and just say that you are truly an inspiration and my favorite creative personality of the platform! Please never stop being AUDACIOUS!
Hey Jazza, I'm happy you feel better in finding yourself again and defining your core values. Be proud that you have reached out to get treatment for your mental health! It's the first big step.
There is depression in many forms. Burnout is one of them. If you struggle with depression it is hard - but important - to understand and to accept that it is an illness; not a flaw, weakness or somewhat in that direction. There are as many forms of depression as people who have them.
Accepting that depression is an illness and accepting that oneself is affected by depression and therefore ill was one of the hardest things on my own way fighting it. Espacially when grown up in a society where you are not allowed to be "weak"!
Wish everyone who needs it all the best! Never stop fighting. And never forget to do things you love and enjoy! :)
You earned my respect with your making things. You earned my love by being you. Keep being you friend, and I'll keep being happy when i watch you be you.
Thank you for sharing your story!
at the exact moment when you said that I probably not know what audacious was I was typing it into google lol
Audaciousness is to creatives, what eccentricity is to the wealthy. It's something that only we're allowed to hold in a way that makes sense.
That being said, this is an incredible reminder as I go through an particularly demanding time, that as someone who also does too many creative things, that I must embrace the idea of being more audacious every day, and embrace that part of me while getting to everything else.
I am a people pleaser too and with adhd and I often end up taking life too seriously and my dad was the class clown so he raised me to embrace being more playful so I ADORE your playfulness and impulsive "dumb" ideas because far too many places don't play. I think if you drew this favorite word as a prompt and released it as limited edition merch to celebrate this breakthrough or just to keep being the same old brand new you I think it would sell well no matter if you made it dumb or epic, because it is Jazza, and we love Jazza.
You were Jazza before the algorithm dictated anything formula. THAT is why people are here. I'm so sorry YT is a wild ride of flaming hoops for content providers to jump through. Thank you for sharing real human stuff. It's very inspiring on several levels.
Woo! Keep being you, Jazza! Everyone has struggles and you're no exception. It's great to hear about your experiences too.
It is 5 am and I'm not ashamed to be watching this. I need sleep but I'm glad to hear you are doing amazing
Yes! Audacious is absolutely the perfect word for you 😊 glad you’re feeling better ❤
This was a really good video literally crying at the end
Congratulations. I'm so glad you're feeling better.
It's interesting to me that you mentioned your content not being as out there as it used to be. I was just thinking about that and how, for lack of a better term, simple things have gotten here. I hope you get back to doing this at the scale you want to!
Audacity has gotten such a bad connotation over the past 30 years. You have explained it under a different light, and I appreciate the perspective.
Audacious Dude you can make a T-shirt in lieu of a tattoo!
"UA-camrs as chairs" is still my favorite video from you. And there is even another video where you talk about my channel, but the one I go back to watch from time to time is UA-camrs as chairs.
I also started a treatment a few months ago. It's audacious of you to talk about all this in public. One thing is to want to share and normalize but you never know who's at the other side of this asymmetrical relationship. So I can only imagine the other things you don't get to talk about.
In return, your audacity here is helping a lot of people who likes to connect with you in your lows and highs. Thanks
New channel “The Audacious Art Lab” 🧡
I am a Houseless artist in Hawaii, my most expensive pieces are only $300, for now 😁. Today I started with $40 and have 15 left after coffee breakfast and lunch. It is noon now and I hope to sell one small piece at 60 bucks. I need to make 165 before the 19th to pay my 3 month phone bill and I have a goal to get 210 ASAP to make an online order to get material to elevate my art. I get depressed easily. How do I get over it? Breathe,know that because I keep going and believe I will be ok. Create, if to depressed to create, stack rocks, indulge in a tasty treat. Main thing is look at everything you have, think about all the joy in your life and focus on the things you want to create and make better. Ignore everyone who puts you down, trust me ,my situation, my passion for things and respect for everyone around you mentality, I get attacked a lot, verbally, physically, psychologicaly. It's tough, but I keep going, I continue to spread my beliefs on nature, I continue to clean and maintain land that belongs to no one. Just Create my friend, Create Create Create, nothing else matters. Enjoy creating positivity and Fk the haters.
We now need a t-shirt with the word audacious. ❗ Glad you are feeling better now! ❤
Hello my lovely, thank you for your honesty . Audacious what a fantastic word
This is so good ☺☺
6:49 You are watching this on a phone you can't google it 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
And now a quick word from this video’s sponsor, Audacity!
"Cured" is a strong word. Maybe "alleviated".
Came here to say the same thing
Good to know You've found yourself 😄
hey jazza, glad you are doing better, much love and keep creating, use your pain to fuel your art, however i am not the professional artist here so keep on keeping on ultimately (sorry for rambling)
Hey Jazza, can you make transformable toys in your channel, could be from plastic, wood, etc! Like the ones in kinder surprise? Just a diy experiment since i am curious!
I love this story! Thank you for sharing. Something as simple as a word can unlock so much and become a guiding start forward. That really inspires me - I've also gotten stuck in the loop of asking "Why am I not myself?" and every time some simple elegant realization makes it's clear it's not about answering that question, cuz you are yourself!! Just start again, over and over, just start again. Looking forward to whatever comes next🎉
Looking forward to being audacious with you Jazza 💕
"what is your center?"
- North (Santa Claus) in The Rise of the Guardians
Seems like you found yours, im very happy for you
Ya know you could probably work with some of your staff to do parts of the videos. Your doing it on the art channel some? Maybe give your self some wiggle room by adding some of the video making off to other folks? The art channel could remake your previous character art videos, new artist interpretation, and tag the new master character class. That might get you more content for the art channel, traffic to the original videos, and traffic and sales for your master class. Just a thought. I love all your videos, please do what makes you laugh and have fun. It reminds me I can do fun things too.
I think people (including the person themselves) need to remember is that humans can’t follow a ‘brand’. Sure we may have traits that are fairly consistent but we are human and by definition are not a constant. Life and its experiences cause fluctuations in beliefs, personality etc. And it’s okay to not be okay basically. Try not to be so hard on yourself to always be happy and perfect ❤
Possible idea on how to keep the bills being paid whilst avoiding burnout (I’m no expert so maybe these wouldn’t work I dunno):
Film a few videos at once and then release them once a week, so you keep the algorithm happy but get a break?
so nice
We lOVE you JAZZA 😘 Do what you want ❤
I'm going through a similar journey as you
Q: What's happening with the Arty Games app?
Embrace the intrepidly daring parts of yourself and you’ll never feel down again ;)
Here for the long haul and living the content, but dude, your *empire* has now grown so much you have *gotta* look into getting some relief or supporting cast on the channel, be it guest appearences from other creators, or some from the crew «trying to be jazza» for a collab week or two, something that can ease the burden a couple of weeks a year for some proper time off, could be some really great content involving the creative staff as well :) One thing is having time to be both the creative force *and* running the business, that can be done in several ways, but the *brainspace* needed is something completely different, and harder to control, and the brain needs to rest sometimes :)
The audacity!
1st lol Jazza you are the BEST m8 Love your Vids , Great talent
0:04 - A chicken!? Great! I'm hungry! Oh wait... you meant a check-in, didn't you? D:
How audacious of Joss to go two weeks without posting a vlog!
Thank for sharing the last few vlogs, I started where you opened up and just followed up. Gotta say, I like sad Jazza. Not, that I like that you are being depressed, just the way you share. I was having a rough day, wondering why I get myself in this situation And then you uttered the word ''Audacious'' It gave some sense to the decision that made my day suck. It still suck for now but make me feel less shitty. So you can put a notch in your ''that was useful for someone'' yard stick.
Get the tattoo. It sounds awesome
UA-cam and economy is arse. Art is the healer and its a fight to keep it in your life.
You need to revisit Bob Ross twerking video
Mate, oscillating with emotions ain't good. If with at flick of a switch you feel well that can indicate hypomanic episode in bipolar. It ain't good.
Thanks for being yourself, pls get it checked
Would it be audacious to suggest that you could work more with Audacity? 🤔 Just kidding. 😅 It’s a great video and I never thought about that not being audacious might be an issue. And you’re a great artist anyway. Thanks for sharing!
I see it. The last couple of years of videos haven't felt as fun as they were earlier, even when it's been similar content. It's like you're a spiky, interesting shape, but youtube has filed off all the spikes.
I agree!
It's amazing to have an epiphany that validates your life. But something you said stuck with me - that you CAN'T take breaks.
You have to start programming in those breaks into your production schedule. Both for your mental health and your staff. The more consistent you are with the schdeule the more free you will be to let your audacious side shine.
I really wish you'd stop calling your art stupid. It's insulting to yoursf, your employees, and your fans who love your art. Everytime you call a project stupid, you're acknowledging that YOU don't have pride in your projects, even the silly ones.
I'm so frickin happy for you! 🥳😊
I gotta be honest I had to Google "audacious" cause English isn't my native language but it is indeed fitting. I mean there are so many steps to your career that a person who's playing it safe wouldn't have taken in the first place. Thank you for sharing with us and I can't wait to see where this will take us ❤
I would argue that *all* of the internet has become formulatic and playing it safe, creating even bigger arguments, the lack of media literacy becoming rampant, and making wanting to take higher risks to be more difficult. MatPat from the Game Theroist, before his retirement, had specificly said that 2023 was his "Yes, and...." phase of his life and took the risks that he couldn't take if he was following the formula of what UA-cam wanted and left with a bigger bang than he really thought was possiable.
I think it's about time you took back your "Yes, and..." for *yourself* and be as Audacious as you ever wanted. I've noticed more people have been leaving social media or limiting their time on Social Media beecause of the issues you pointed out in here due to just everything feeling "Formulatic" and just there to try to catch your attention. If everyone is doing the same thing.... then no one becomes well known.
If you're feeling the weight again (It's human nature to go through cycles) I suggest your "take a break" be more "Try to be as audacious as I can be without the camra with my art" Something you wouldn't "think" would be a "good video" and just.... do it without the camra. You'll be suprised how much more invigorating it'll feel when you've finished it because you did something, you may got a new idea to play with in the future *and* you're not feeling like you're doing nothing. It's how you created Table Top Time when you did that with your minis, why not do something like that every time you start feeling burnt out? Just taking time to yourself to just *make* something which may or maynot become a video idea in the future.
Just yesterday I decided to do my own "Yes, and...." for May 18th. There was a conversation that bugged me for weeks with how digital artists are focusing so much on perfection even in their traditional art when they try to start, and keep saying "it's not perfect".... Perfection is a myth. it's always have been. The only reason why tables and chairs are "straight" because a machine created that "perfection". *We are not machines*. My goal now is to dispell this thought by doing my first (and maybe more if I help even one person with this idea) Twitch stream on an art lesson on how to do Gesture drawing, and how to switch to traditonal art when you're a digital artist. there's a misunderstanding what a kneaded eraser is used for origonally, how to actually use them, but that your sketches have to be "clean" and "flawless" and thus it becomes daunting for those digital artists understandably because of these misconceptions. So take those risks. Be "Obnoxios but consistant", cus that's why I gravitated to your videos and kept watching them to this day. (Gods I think I started watching you when you were in your tutorials stage of your career. When you *first* launched Arty Party. It's been a long time now thinking about it.)