doctors & depression (my story, statistics, coping) | Dr. Rachel Southard

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  • The rate of depression/SI in resident physicians, and physicians in general is alarming. I experienced depression during my first few months of residency, and I didn't expect it to be THAT bad. In this video, I discuss my experience, statistics, my coping strategies, and why I believe the rates are so high.
    This is a very delicate topic, so please be kind.
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 575

  • @RachelSouthard
    @RachelSouthard  2 місяці тому +432

    "Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be kind. Always." - Robin Williams
    "If you're that depressed, reach out to someone. And remember, s**cide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." - (also) Robin Williams

    • @pinkrose372
      @pinkrose372 2 місяці тому +13

      Robin williams died from suicide i wish he had taken his own quotes to heart😞.

    • @pinkrose372
      @pinkrose372 2 місяці тому

      Robin williams died from suicide i wish he had taken his own quote to heart

    • @livyhart
      @livyhart 2 місяці тому +2

      ❤️❤️❤️

    • @mayanksharma9442
      @mayanksharma9442 2 місяці тому

      @RachelSouthard Hello Rachel! I know depression is the worst type of pain that a person feels. But I would like to share my experience that It is very much treatable through Ayurveda therapies( ancient wisdom of sages)in India. Once you try those therapies you will feel the changes all over the body. The therapy not only works on the mind but also on your gut and complete body tissue levels. Must try things you will actually love and enjoy it.

    • @Dingdong0130
      @Dingdong0130 2 місяці тому +3

      @@pinkrose372he died from lewy body dementia, go read his wife’s essay about it

  • @livyhart
    @livyhart 2 місяці тому +690

    We need to blow up the engagement on this video and make it go viral. THIS IS THE TYPE OF THING MILLIONS OF PEOPLE NEED TO SEE

  • @RawBlunder
    @RawBlunder 2 місяці тому +496

    People who don't go through it can't appreciate it. To be spending hours a week learning and reflecting on how you did something, how you could have done it better, wondering how others interpreted it, wondering if what you did was enough. To spend YEARS of your life where every move you make is evaluated and could make or break your future. A future that is so dependent on a system that doesn't allow for emotion or mistakes and is hinged on hundreds of thousands of dollars of debt. Where you get paid minimum wage but your decisions can and will change someone's life, and potentially end it. For people to disregard all the additional effort you are putting in OUTSIDE of your 80-hour residency weeks to make these videos for those who are in medicine or hope to be there someday is so disappointing. You don't owe anyone anything except yourself. Be kind to yourself Rachel. You know how hard it is and that's enough. Much love for you.

    • @RachelSouthard
      @RachelSouthard  2 місяці тому +43

      THIS. I appreciate you so much.

    • @pinkrose372
      @pinkrose372 2 місяці тому +5

      Shes not paid minimum wage shes a doctor thats a reach she doesnt flip burgers at burger king but she is still underpaid for the amount of stress she has to go through.

    • @livyhart
      @livyhart 2 місяці тому +1

      ❤️❤️❤️

    • @ctgctg1
      @ctgctg1 2 місяці тому +14

      @@pinkrose372if you include the additional studying hrs it does translate to minim7m wage.

    • @angieyk3930
      @angieyk3930 2 місяці тому +10

      I found myself crying without any reason a lot during the last year of medical school, unable to attribute a valid reason and feeling at a loss because I had no idea how to cope with my negative emotions. My sense of personal achievement dwindled and I felt submitted to a system that didnt value the effort I was putting in. Meanwhile the school's philosophy was strong on promoting values that we must act for the greater good setting aside any personal benefit as if I must keep sacrifing to perservere. Eventually I wasnt noticing that I wasnt paying attention to my personal needs and had to be hospitalized for my mental health. My peers complaining about their own issues got too much since the reciprocity wasnt there. So many people in medicine go through these experiences because of the demanding academic environment, and I think voices like yours are infinitely valuable so we dont feel alone ❤ thanks for your comment, opened my eyes to what I was unknowingly feeling.

  • @lukewatson1484
    @lukewatson1484 2 місяці тому +159

    This is a conversation that needs to be had at every workplace

    • @user-ti4pb6jy1b
      @user-ti4pb6jy1b 2 місяці тому +2

      well yeah....if she is bawling every other videos over plain work, some co-worker would want to go: wth is up with you bro? dont want to wake up? its a job. you're not even in THAT demanding of a specialty compared to the other stuff.

  • @joshmcgoo
    @joshmcgoo 2 місяці тому +109

    Depression in residency is SO common. More people should be open like this

    • @mannagarwal5390
      @mannagarwal5390 2 місяці тому

      Hey you're in EM right

    • @joshmcgoo
      @joshmcgoo 2 місяці тому

      yea@@mannagarwal5390

    • @dr.physio9594
      @dr.physio9594 23 дні тому

      Agreed, but there should be some outcome to overcome from these kind of steess

  • @sarahfeingold8794
    @sarahfeingold8794 2 місяці тому +125

    From someone who went the other route and quit, it saved my life. Your life is not defined by your profession, and there is purpose beyond medicine. You are allowed to choose yourself. It’s not a weakness, walking away from something you’ve worked towards your entire life is the bravest thing I’ve done. It will be okay. When a plant is struggling to thrive, we don’t blame the plant, we blame the environment. Love yourself enough to change your environment if you need to 💗💗💗

    • @noraaa8479
      @noraaa8479 Місяць тому +1

      Did you complete medical school? I recently graduated and I want to quit so badly because of how badly my mental health is but don’t know what my next step is

    • @lhm1586
      @lhm1586 Місяць тому

      @@noraaa8479 Did you get professional help? First step is to take care of your mental health for you to be able to address this situation with more clarity.

    • @noraaa8479
      @noraaa8479 Місяць тому

      @@lhm1586 I’ve been going to therapy for two years now and I’m on SSRIs, nothing really helps when I’m still in this stressful route in life it feels like a lost cause and the only way out is by quitting medicine all together I just need to know what alternative routes to take especially after dedicating 7 years or my life to it.

    • @lindaibarra219
      @lindaibarra219 Місяць тому +1

      I also quit medical school. It also saved my life and well-being. I am way happier and although sometimes I am sad and have a hard time forgiving myself, I realized I am overall more successful in life by enjoying more time for myself, family, friends, and my job.

  • @Jayjay-cp3yb
    @Jayjay-cp3yb 2 місяці тому +93

    I’m a dental hygienist and I completely regret going into this field. It’s miserable! I just recently quit, not sure what to do next but I’m praying that the right path will come my way

    • @AlexiaHammond-rw7qq
      @AlexiaHammond-rw7qq 2 місяці тому +5

      I did it for 10 years and I want out too! How long did you do it?

    • @TroopsofDoom666
      @TroopsofDoom666 2 місяці тому +1

      Hope you are doing okay

    • @snowps1
      @snowps1 Місяць тому +2

      Can you share why it's miserable?

  • @betsybabf748
    @betsybabf748 Місяць тому +5

    Not a doctor, but I am a suicide widow. My husband was diagnosed bipolar, but it was never severe, with mild to moderate mania in his teens and 20s. He was never suicidal. From diagnosis, he on medication for 15 years, and he never had one episode while medicated. It became a non-issue in our life. He was an extremely hard-working business owner and wonderful husband & dad. The week he turned 45, after having no episodes since he was diagnosed at 29, he thought it was safe to take a break from his meds, stopping them abruptly. He hung himself 3 weeks later. I found him. Four weeks later, my mom was diagnosed with terminal lung and brain cancer, dying months later and the same year my best friend died of cardiac complications from Type 1 Diabetes. I never had any sign of depression, but now, I am on an antidepressant. Severe grief lead to depression which I couldn't shake so finally went to my doctor.

    • @awolf81
      @awolf81 Місяць тому +1

      Terrible story. I’m sure your husband was a great man. So sorry. I’m studying to be a psychiatric nurse practitioner. I’m hopeful I can prevent stories like yours.

  • @user-tq6vk5cl3e
    @user-tq6vk5cl3e 2 місяці тому +65

    As a medical student who felt depressed during my surgical rotation, this brings me to tears. It is so real and I am so sorry and I really needed to watch this video.

  • @seanwalsh5717
    @seanwalsh5717 2 місяці тому +77

    This is what strong, good people look like. It is tough, and we all need support.

    • @foodiesworldUSA
      @foodiesworldUSA 2 місяці тому +1

      Yes we need support especially when we are kind snd we want to do the right thing always even if it allowing someone to be rude to us and we have to be to strong to walk away❤🤗

  • @heatherscarlett4459
    @heatherscarlett4459 2 місяці тому +116

    I won’t be able to watch the rest of your video. My 24 son took his life June28/2022 and it is still too fresh. Thank you for sharing this. My son suffered with autism, anxiety, depression, ocd and several other disorders. He was medication resistant and he was starting to experience psychotic episodes. He wanted to be a social worker, not a doctor, but life was too difficult. If you can help one person then this is worth it.

    • @gaylefw5072
      @gaylefw5072 2 місяці тому +10

      Sending you love 🤗❤

    • @jeandonovan8640
      @jeandonovan8640 2 місяці тому +3

      ❤❤❤❤

    • @celeste2329
      @celeste2329 2 місяці тому +1

      🩵🩵🩵🤍🤍🤍🙏🏾🙏🏾

    • @puzz88
      @puzz88 2 місяці тому +3

      So sorry for your loss 😞😭🙏❤️ and thank you for sharing. Your story will also helps to make a difference for other people too ❤️❤️

    • @zhuzhupetlover6673
      @zhuzhupetlover6673 Місяць тому

      I’m so sorry for your loss!

  • @JakeGoodmanMD
    @JakeGoodmanMD 2 місяці тому +83

    I can’t thank you enough for sharing this, Rachel! This is the type of video that saves lives. Best UA-cam video I’ve seen all year, hands-down. Grateful to know you, and looking forward to meeting you in person one day. Your patients are lucky to have you.

    • @zhuzhupetlover6673
      @zhuzhupetlover6673 Місяць тому

      Great seeing you here Dr. Goodman! I love your TedTalks and love how you are also getting rid of mental health stigma especially in medicine. So thank you ❤

  • @chantillyyakes7714
    @chantillyyakes7714 2 місяці тому +64

    This video hits home. A CT surgeon who I knew well recently died from suicide. I would have never guessed he was struggling. 20+ years as an established physician with a good practice and family. It is absolutely heartbreaking that this is the reality we live in.

  • @deerockt
    @deerockt 2 місяці тому +75

    I am a clinical psychologist and I think your videos gave a great input in my decision to continue my education with a master’s in “clinical psychology applied to the hospital setting”. I really want to make the difference for both hospital staff AND patients. I think it’s really important to work with both. 2020 really taught us a lesson about this! Some of the things you talked about in previous videos were really inspiring for me. I’m really sorry to hear about your struggles and I’m super happy you’re doing better. I hope other people watching this can be inspired to ask for help when in need.

  • @gef352
    @gef352 2 місяці тому +88

    I was at my lowest during residency. I quit, and now I'm the happiest I've ever been. My family and friends are not disappointed, but supportive. I'm so glad I did it. I wasn't happy at all during it, and I wouldn't have been happy when it was over either working as an attending

    • @ashleyh8352
      @ashleyh8352 2 місяці тому +11

      What do you do for work now? I'm considering quitting the medical field but I'm not sure what other options are out there...

    • @gef352
      @gef352 2 місяці тому

      @@ashleyh8352 I work in fitness now (personal training). The pay is lower than it *could've* been if I had stayed on the medical path of course, but I am definitely, definitely much happier currently. I don't work with and think about the *could've beens* though; I prioritized my mental health and safety (SI and depression are no joke) and I don't regret that at all. And with the newest changes to repayment plans for loans, currently I'm paying $0 in interest monthly, for the foreseeable future.

    • @sigh1685
      @sigh1685 2 місяці тому +10

      I left as well!

    • @ashleyh8352
      @ashleyh8352 2 місяці тому +5

      @@sigh1685 what are you doing now for work?

    • @sigh1685
      @sigh1685 2 місяці тому

      @@ashleyh8352 lab tech assistant, but I'm also planning to be a Nurse (RN)!

  • @zhuzhupetlover6673
    @zhuzhupetlover6673 2 місяці тому +62

    Sending you the biggest hug, Dr. Rachel. Residency is a tough thing doctors go through. I’m sending you strength and love! Keep hanging in there! ❤

  • @floweringtulsi
    @floweringtulsi 2 місяці тому +46

    Thank you for making this video. I was told by my cardiologist 3 weeks before my MCAT that I would never be a doctor because he saw that I was taking mental health medication, even though he knew that I was sexually assaulted by my best friend in college. Fast forward a few months later, I got a good score, but still full of doubts. It was nice to see this and how honest you were.

    • @rosalia7482
      @rosalia7482 2 місяці тому +21

      I hope you switched cardiologists after that.

    • @LaMarieOne
      @LaMarieOne 2 місяці тому +15

      That cardiologist has no idea what he’s talking about

    • @user-xv7zz2ew6h
      @user-xv7zz2ew6h 2 місяці тому +9

      He must not know that most of his own colleagues are on those same medications...

    • @Hailanator
      @Hailanator 2 місяці тому +8

      Some of the best doctors I've ever had are the ones that have been through the trenches themselves. My sister went through suicidal ideation and severe anxiety and depression due to a recent abusive relationship and never truly got the help she needed until one doctor came along who went through the same thing. Thanks to her, I still have my sister with me. Ive been obese (BMI 45-50) my entire life and struggled to lose weight because of hormone issues and insatiable cravings. It wasn't until I switched to a primary doctor that specialized in obesity (and also had lost over 150 pounds herself) that I was finally seen as a person and not just a number on a scale. With the medications she prescribed me, I've not only lost 30 pounds so far, but I've been able to make a complete 180 with my diet. No more fast food. All home cooked meals. Meal preps, portion control, nutrient calculations, calorie tracking, exercise. 3 months of strict habit forming so I have the tools to fall back on when I taper off the meds. Without her, I would've never made any of these changes. I wouldve continued with the struggle to fight the cravings and I would've never learned how shitty the foods I was eating ACTUALLY made me feel. So shame on that cardiologist for telling you that you'd never be a good doctor. As horrible as your trauma was (and i'm so sorry you even had to experience it), you will always have the ability to see and treat your patients better because you understand the gravity of it.

  • @y.m.505
    @y.m.505 2 місяці тому +22

    It hasn't changed much because it's like a taboo topic. Many residents are silently suffering and enduring. I'm glad that you came through.

  • @nevertheless2024
    @nevertheless2024 2 місяці тому +21

    4th year med student here ✋🏾 definitely bookmarking this for residency. Thank you so much for being vulnerable about this because this is truly the reality of it all.

  • @taylordeville8870
    @taylordeville8870 2 місяці тому +45

    Oooo girl, so proud of you for this.
    I’m a psychiatric RN and boy do I suffer too. My most recent and intense ideations was in November, 2 months after I graduated and into my first job. I felt so confused, ‘why do I feel like this when it’s all I’ve ever wanted’. Luckily my workplace picked up on it too and were super supportive.
    Thank you for being so transparent, this disorder truly TRULY does not discriminate x

  • @paolaorozco6072
    @paolaorozco6072 2 місяці тому +53

    I’ve been following you since my first year of medical school and I’m now an M4 and I can’t emphasize enough how powerful watching this video was. You’re so brave and I’m so inspired by you!

  • @alondragamboa2039
    @alondragamboa2039 2 місяці тому +8

    Mental health is so important, especially in our field.

  • @mpm2004
    @mpm2004 2 місяці тому +15

    As someone who has experienced depression and suicidal ideation and also a mental health counselor, thank you so much for sharing. The more you speak out, the more awareness and less stigma there will be. So proud of you.
    In Utah, a law was passed that allows physicians, nurses, mental health providers, police, fire, and EMTs, if needing inpatient care, to can go to a surrounding state for inpatient care at in-network rates. We lost several physicians to suicide, and they want them to get help and not be near where they work.

  • @cassiegonzalez1752
    @cassiegonzalez1752 2 місяці тому +5

    It’s so refreshing to have honesty and transparency nowadays because so many people on social media try to have this perfect looking lifestyle that is just not reality. THANK YOU for being brave enough to do this video. I am a nurse and although I haven’t been in your shoes, I can definitely relate to what you are saying. There isn’t enough mental support (or care) for medical workers and I feel this is really negatively impacting the nurse and Dr professions, and ultimately patient care.

  • @okumangodfreyemmanuel7615
    @okumangodfreyemmanuel7615 2 місяці тому +5

    went to med school in Uganda and happened to do my internship during the second wave of COVID-19. I had always observed patients die and helped nurses do last office as a student. but doing a 36hour shift and loosing over 20 patients only at A&E and then coming back after a break of 12 hours for another 8 hour shift and loosing another 20 or more and this went on for about a month, I completely lost myself, exhausted in every aspect of the human sphere and knew I had hit rock bottom, after internship, i didnt even bother looking for a job. i just sat at home for a whole year before applying to my first job coz i needed that break from all the rigor of medschool and a traumatic internship. You are strong Rachel

  • @mikaellarmond
    @mikaellarmond 2 місяці тому +32

    Hey Rach! I’m so happy about your transparency and highly anticipate this video. A lot of doctors and medical students are UNHAPPY even though they won’t convey that on social media. I’ve seen it reflect in their attitudes towards themselves, each other, their patients and people in general. There’s nothing noble or gratifying about the rigorous training we go through. I hope reform comes in a timely manner.

  • @user-sm5mq2wh3r
    @user-sm5mq2wh3r 2 місяці тому +49

    Dr.Southard thank you for the honesty. The patients who have you as a doctor are very lucky.Cheers.

  • @monephaengland3223
    @monephaengland3223 2 місяці тому +18

    As someone who wants to be a doctor, this is so pivotal to hear & honestly scary. I know it gets better over time (as other doctors say) but when you're in the thick of it *as you currently are*, it seems very daunting and scary. I'm glad you have your people & other outlets. Thanks for sharing and being open about this.

    • @jassy0903
      @jassy0903 2 місяці тому +2

      I also wanted to be a doctor, went through all of premed and took the MCAT. It was then that I realized that every doctor I had ever worked with that was younger than 40 was absolutely miserable and on the verge erge of quitting every. Single. Day. I switched to becoming a registered dietitian and it was the best decision I ever could have made. Just remember you have options where you can still treat patients,love what you do, and not be treated like this

    • @noraaa8479
      @noraaa8479 Місяць тому

      @@jassy0903honestly good for you realizing this early on, As one of the under 40 year old doctors you’re talking about I really wish I realized that from early on and changed paths

  • @jayshrutisingh3648
    @jayshrutisingh3648 2 місяці тому +2

    I am a pediatric resident in india , i resigned my seat 3 month prior because i was so depressed being surrounded my death of young children , and toxicity of workplace , and 36hr week shift with no time to sleep . I felt like i was loosing my mind i had crippling anxiety and palpitations and depression i didnot feel like doing anything i would lock myself in a room and cry for hrs after a 36 hr shift. I was almost on the verge of dying i still have that dispo filled with adrenaline i felt that my life was no longer worth living but then i sought psychiatric help and i resigned and now i am prepararing for the same entrance again !! Going to do everything all over again .

  • @anavalenzuela3223
    @anavalenzuela3223 2 місяці тому +7

    Imagine those who aren't as emotional intelligent and walk around in scrubs.....the system I believe needs to improve. Thank you for this video...for your authenticity.

  • @calmaesth
    @calmaesth 2 місяці тому +4

    Please Rachel don't blame yourself for crying! It is human and it NEEDS to happen for new emotions to develop! such as hope, happiness, calm, and eventually well-being

  • @Josh_love_
    @Josh_love_ 2 місяці тому +34

    Hi Rachel,
    I came across your channel in 2020, shortly after the COVID-19 pandemic hit the United States. At that time, I was pursuing a software engineering, computer science, and biology degree, along with several minors. I was going through a rough patch in my life, and my depression was at an all-time high. I struggled to focus on my studies and lacked the motivation to do anything. That's when I stumbled upon your videos, and they made a significant impact on me. Your videos showed me that I wasn't alone in my struggles and that success is still possible despite these challenges.
    I left my first comment on your video in 2021, where I talked about adding a premed concentration to my already long list of goals and thanked you for creating the content that you do. I eventually dropped some of those minors to make room for the premed concentration. Fast forward to 2022, and I'm happy to inform you that I got accepted into medical school, an osteopathic one, no less! I'm currently in my first year as a medical student, and things are looking good. However, I still experience feelings of depression, just like before. Your videos continue to inspire me and many others, as evident from the comments section on every post. So, thank you for sharing your videos. Thank you for sticking to your guns and continuing to post raw videos like these despite the fears of the fear of the public's negative stigma towards mental health disorders. I hope to continue to see you unapologetically be yourself and, in doing so continue to inspire and lift up other people like myself.
    Cheers!

  • @courtneypaige11100
    @courtneypaige11100 2 місяці тому +7

    I watched this and just cried. My sister is a EM resident and I’m terrified every day that I’ll lose her to this process.

    • @NurseAllison
      @NurseAllison 2 місяці тому +2

      Emergency medicine? Does she know you’re worried?

    • @courtneypaige11100
      @courtneypaige11100 2 місяці тому +1

      @@NurseAllison yeah. She knows we all worry. She worries too on the days she’s not as deeply depressed. It doesn’t help that where we live it’s like practicing medicine in a third world country or a war zone because the system is so strained.

    • @NurseAllison
      @NurseAllison 2 місяці тому

      I’m so sorry. I don’t work with ER docs much, but greatly appreciate the ones I have met. Love residents. This really opens my eyes to their potential struggle. Hugs to your sister.
      💓💓💓

  • @heathercason3490
    @heathercason3490 2 місяці тому

    Thank you SO MUCH for opening up at talking about this. I needed to hear this today

  • @ino81f
    @ino81f 2 місяці тому +3

    Thank you, Rachel, for posting this!! ❤

  • @mariahoakes6064
    @mariahoakes6064 2 місяці тому +3

    Thank you for being so vulnerable. I needed to hear this.

  • @kimberlyrosa1179
    @kimberlyrosa1179 2 місяці тому +2

    Thank you for sharing this with us we appreciate you Rachael!

  • @lukewatson1484
    @lukewatson1484 2 місяці тому +3

    Thank you for being raw and real with this video

  • @coralholt6363
    @coralholt6363 2 місяці тому +2

    Rachel this came at the exact perfect time for me :’) thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing your experiences

  • @inesm01
    @inesm01 2 місяці тому +1

    Thank you for this video. I'm so sorry you had to go through this and I hope it only gets better from here. Keep opening up about these issues and keep fighting for your dreams. You inspire a lot of people on this channel. Keep going ❤️💪

  • @keishaabreu393
    @keishaabreu393 2 місяці тому +1

    I admire you so much for being real with us. God bless you Dr. Southard

  • @deborahelen2603
    @deborahelen2603 2 місяці тому +1

    i´m so proud of u for talking about it. I love enjoy your journey and I think it´s so important bring this kind of subject cause a lot people feel the same way. I admire u so much!

  • @laurie3531
    @laurie3531 2 місяці тому +1

    So glad to hear you are feeling better.

  • @christellesalomon
    @christellesalomon 2 місяці тому +2

    Thank you for shedding light on these incredibly important issues!! Its honestly crazy what y'all go through as residents and I am looking forward to positive change continuing to take place! It can't go on like this! Sending you so much love and I'm so happy to see you genuinely joyful :)

  • @stephanieoregan
    @stephanieoregan 2 місяці тому +2

    Bless your heart and soul Rachel ❤ thank you for sharing all these hard feelings, you make such valid arguments ❤

  • @Gladioli10
    @Gladioli10 2 місяці тому +2

    I admire you so much, thank you for being vulnerable

  • @christinaj22514
    @christinaj22514 2 місяці тому +1

    Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability, you are so brave for sharing❤

  • @amydas4421
    @amydas4421 2 місяці тому

    This is REALLY important to talk about. Thank you for sharing your experience. So proud of you always

  • @anoushkabarpujari6714
    @anoushkabarpujari6714 2 місяці тому +2

    Thank you for sharing this-I can only imagine how much strength it takes to post something like this, please know it is greatly appreciated!

  • @milsbeaury213
    @milsbeaury213 2 місяці тому +3

    thank you so much for sharing this part of your story. im sure this is going to help soooo many people, myself included. thank you for making me feel less alone, thank you for being so real and human. youre gonna go very far!!

  • @sylviamullen1435
    @sylviamullen1435 2 місяці тому

    You are so strong Rachel. Thank you so much for opening up, being real, and talking about such a sensitive subject with the utmost grace and honesty. Always routing for you Dr. Southard

  • @finance2medicine
    @finance2medicine 2 місяці тому

    Thank you for being brave enough to share your story, and for bringing attention to such an important matter 💛

  • @racquelwelch9549
    @racquelwelch9549 2 місяці тому +1

    The struggle is so very real Rachel. I admire your grace and fortitude. Always adapt as we fight for change. 🙏🏽

  • @hollyhele3729
    @hollyhele3729 2 місяці тому +2

    You are so brave and I really appreciate you openly talking about something so important!! Thank you 💕

  • @erikaw8383
    @erikaw8383 2 місяці тому

    Your patients are so lucky to have you Rachel. I can resonate with everything you described here as I went through this in my career as a teacher. I had to leave which was the best thing for me but now I feel lost and need a new purpose. I’m glad you have made this video and it will help so many people. ❤

  • @Lisamarievalerio
    @Lisamarievalerio 2 місяці тому +2

    Wow. You’re literally such an inspiration. Thank you so much for sharing this. I will tell you that this helped me as I’m currently going through a rough period.

  • @clintpotts5799
    @clintpotts5799 2 місяці тому

    Thank you for being so vulnerable, I appreciate this as I’ve struggled with this as a healthcare professional as well. Thanks for helping remove the stigma, and also providing statistics. The depression and anxiety during my professional working experience has only affected me while at work, when I wasn’t at work I would feel absolutely fine. There have been moments where I thought I’d be better off doing something else. Thanks for also saying it gets better because it truly does.

  • @imanebennani7732
    @imanebennani7732 Місяць тому

    Amazing video with a timeless message. Thank you for sharing such a personal story ❤

  • @DomoJelly
    @DomoJelly 2 місяці тому +2

    Super duper important conversation you are having! Thank you for putting compassion over fear and for making this video 💙

  • @Jeffrey_Yang
    @Jeffrey_Yang 2 місяці тому +1

    And this is why I will always be an avid follower and fan of your channel, Rachel!! Thanks for always speaking the hard truths and sharing with the rest of the world how you are feeling. I definitely felt this one deep to the core, as a fellow 2nd year DO student, with boards coming up very soon, and all the anxiety/stress that goes along with that. Keep doing amazing things and take care of yourself, Rachel!

  • @melodiesbysophia
    @melodiesbysophia Місяць тому

    You are brave. You inspire me. We love you, Dr. Rachel 💕

  • @fearful5312
    @fearful5312 2 місяці тому +2

    Such a fantastic video. You are incredibly inspiring. Thank you for continuing to go against the grain and speaking up for those with no voice.

  • @meohsolovely
    @meohsolovely 2 місяці тому

    Really glad you're doing better Rachel. Please continue to be good to yourself.

  • @artbyemmafleming
    @artbyemmafleming 2 місяці тому +2

    Thank you Rachel. Going through this is so hard and feeling isolated only makes it so much worse. Today, you have made me feel less alone. Thank you for your efforts to make change and spread awareness ♥️♥️

  • @AmandaShawxo
    @AmandaShawxo 2 місяці тому +3

    Thank you for sharing your vulnerable moments like these

  • @maintenance2medicine631
    @maintenance2medicine631 2 місяці тому +2

    Blessings to you. I have been through such feelings a number of times, and I say that these things are never as bad as they feel in the moment. Keep yous ocial connections strong, stay active, and don't hesitate to talk to folks (as you stress in the vid). You have been an inspiration, and I look forward to seeing you continue to grow.

  • @jrdoctorsnotebook
    @jrdoctorsnotebook Місяць тому +3

    I'm burn out too.. I work 14 hours a day. Most of the time there's no time to sit in the hospital. Someone's always expecting something from us. I never feel enough because there is never end to learn in medicine. I feel tired all the time, I have exams all the time. Private life: None. I stopped thinking about it. :) You're unhappy when you think. :) I don't know.. The only thing that strongly connects me to this profession is that I experience an indescribable wonderful feeling when I perform intubation or CPR in the emergency/operating room and the patient comes back to life... The work you do is priceless. :)

  • @us6ey
    @us6ey 2 місяці тому +2

    I’m really impressed by your honesty and bravery in making this video!

  • @hannahkline2029
    @hannahkline2029 2 місяці тому +3

    Thank you, Rachel, for being so honest. We've got your back, and just thank you for your videos!!!

  • @oliviabanister4538
    @oliviabanister4538 2 місяці тому

    Thank you so much for posting this. That takes so much courage. If I could make this video viral, I would. You are making a huge impact!

  • @Madeleine.Williams
    @Madeleine.Williams Місяць тому

    This is one of the best/most important videos about medicine I've seen in so long. Thanks so much for sharing your perspective and experience, Rachel. Glad to hear you'e feeling better :)

  • @masonmcdowell1298
    @masonmcdowell1298 2 місяці тому +3

    Thank you for sharing. You are an inspiration to all of us!

  • @mswright6538
    @mswright6538 Місяць тому

    I just love watching you. You are so real. And i definitely appreciate this topic considering i suffer with it from time to time ❤❤❤

  • @337carmelcutieful
    @337carmelcutieful 2 місяці тому +1

    Thank you for always keeping it real ❤

  • @SebConte202
    @SebConte202 2 місяці тому +4

    Really appreciate your courage in making this video Rachel, thank you very much.

  • @fran0162
    @fran0162 2 місяці тому +8

    Depression is very real...I have lived with it for many years 😢. Only now have I come to terms with it and try my best every day. Thank you Dr. Rachel for giving this the voice it needs.

  • @livelaughlove33333
    @livelaughlove33333 2 місяці тому

    Youre genuinely so brave and we need more people like you shedding light on matters like this. Youre starting a much needed movement in healthcare and we are all here for it to support and be part of it any way we can. Thank you.

  • @hollysouthers4342
    @hollysouthers4342 2 місяці тому +2

    This is a conversation that needed to be had!! We love you, we support you and we are all so proud of how far you’ve come!! ❤️🫶🏻 -fellow pa student 🥹

  • @hannahtay11
    @hannahtay11 2 місяці тому +3

    Rachel, thank you for opening up and sharing with us. You have always been my inspiration, the thing that keeps me focused and motivated. Your videos helped me through the MCAT, first year of med school, and now board prep. What you are doing is so beautiful and I just want you to know how influential and inspiring you have been for me. You matter so much, and I just applaud you for opening up and being so vulnerable with us.

  • @user-xv7zz2ew6h
    @user-xv7zz2ew6h 2 місяці тому +1

    Thank you thank you thank you for this video! I feel like the true experiences of residency are soo sugarcoated, and I love how honest you were about it. I'm also hoping and praying for better. I can't thank you enough for this video

  • @user-gn5zq5re1v
    @user-gn5zq5re1v 2 місяці тому +2

    I am praying for you Rachelll❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻

  • @ms.penguin6252
    @ms.penguin6252 2 місяці тому

    I'm so happy for you. You inspire me. I'm proud of you!!

  • @thehangover98
    @thehangover98 2 місяці тому

    Rachel, this brought tears to my eyes! I started watching your videos when you first started medical school five years ago. You have overcome every adversity life has thrown you, and you continue to conquer this life! Keep making a difference, we are cheering you on!

  • @jxu8888
    @jxu8888 2 місяці тому +3

    You are so inspirational Dr. Rachel! Thank you for sharing your story! This video has given me lots of insight as well as lessons that I will carry through my dream of becoming a doctor like you!

  • @aminahtaylor9105
    @aminahtaylor9105 2 місяці тому

    I absolutely commend your vulnerability and transparency I feel like as health care professionals we’re often looked at as “ superhumans “ and our bad days aren’t as accepted , it’s very important to shed light to that side of things and your so brave and strong I feel the same way as a nurse so I can only imagine how much pressure you can be enduring as a Physician and I appreciate this video so much I know I’m not alone ❤️ you got this !!

  • @brendacastro3976
    @brendacastro3976 2 місяці тому +1

    I’m literally in tears Rachel I can relate to you so much, and I literally take my hat off for you to keep pushing and getting the support you needed your such an inspiration even to people not in the medical field. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @user-fg8yb3er3y
    @user-fg8yb3er3y 2 місяці тому +21

    After dealing in heavy SI and depression in 2017, residency was something I've been worried about because of those issues. Thanks Rachel for posting this. Makes feel like I can handle it because you've gone through it too.

  • @zhuzhupetlover6673
    @zhuzhupetlover6673 2 місяці тому +16

    From the bottom of my heart, thank you for this video. I was struggling with depression and SI during my first semester of college. The workload was so intense. I’m doing much better now. Thank you for always spreading warmth, light, and kindness! Love you dearly Dr. Rachel!

  • @iAmNasia17
    @iAmNasia17 2 місяці тому +10

    I relate to this so much. I was depressed at one point and no one had any idea. It is scary how we can hide it so well like you said. I’m happy you’re here Rachel! I also can’t believe that I am still here pursuing my dreams of becoming a physician. Life is worth living. ❤

  • @JordynLynnia
    @JordynLynnia 2 місяці тому

    Rachael I’m so glad that you’re here today ❤ this conversation needs to be talked about so much more. I’ve struggled with mental health my whole life and I’m going into medicine so I’m glad that I have some tools to deal with it.

  • @orangeblossom1712
    @orangeblossom1712 2 місяці тому

    thank you so much for posting this. I am a hospital social worker and have so much respect for the residents I work with.

  • @sophiewoods21
    @sophiewoods21 2 місяці тому

    Thank you so much for making this video Dr. Southard, it is so incredibly brave of you!! And yes we need so much more openness with mental health and checking in on our HCPs regularly! I am a nurse and am working toward becoming a DO. Depression I’ve experienced at times working as a nurse and a huge lack of support in the past from my healthcare teams made me question so many things about my future. Luckily, there are other teams out there that will provide more support and check-ins like you said! For me, the biggest thing was being afraid of the “confidentiality” that you mention, and discrediting my chances of becoming a physician. Again, I am glad you are bringing these things to light, and that you are doing better ♥️ we got this!

  • @robertstanley9633
    @robertstanley9633 2 місяці тому +5

    Thank you for sharing this and being vulnerable and open about mental health. Stay bright and best of luck 💞

  • @Vesta0831
    @Vesta0831 2 місяці тому +2

    I’m happy your program caught on and reached out!

  • @kathrynrachael
    @kathrynrachael 2 місяці тому +3

    I want to hug you, and squeeze you, and love you. I am so grateful to hear that you've pushed through those hard times. You and YOUR EXISTENCE is SO important to US!!! We love you Rachel!!!

  • @twilightgrlmel
    @twilightgrlmel 2 місяці тому +1

    I am so glad you spoke on this. I want to got to medical school but watching your journey had me worried. But hearing this today made me feel so much better. I hope more people understand how to overcome this no matter their circumstances. 😊

  • @redowl2291
    @redowl2291 2 місяці тому +4

    Rachel...you are a true warrior. Not many individuals take the time to share their experiences to help others. You are a gifted, compassionate communicator. All the best on your journey.

  • @cxcr9817
    @cxcr9817 2 місяці тому +15

    Thank you so much for making this video - It couldnt have come at a better time for me. I’m an M2 currently studying for Step 1 and this past semester has been so challenging for me mentally. I was in such a dark place and felt so much shame, I’m just now crawling out of it and started seeing a therapist again last week. Thank you so much for speaking up about physician mental health - Were human too and theres still SUCH a stigma that really compounded the pain I was already feeling. I hope you know you brought so much comfort to at least one medical stduent, thank you for all you do, you’re an amazing doc snd were so lucky to have you!!!!❤

  • @amberj3941
    @amberj3941 2 місяці тому +3

    Rachel, I hope you know you are so loved and I’m so proud of you. I don’t know you in person but your videos and ability to open up are so humbling. Keep changing lives.

  • @TheEpicPlace
    @TheEpicPlace Місяць тому

    Thank you this helped me. I'm in school right now and facing this. This is encouraging me as I'm facing something similar. I also want to keep going to help future generations have a better time. Thank you.