There is a Brenè Brown quote that goes, "shame lives in the distance between your secret self and your public self." The bigger the distance between your public, private and secret selves, the greater the scope for shame. So, in being open about your story, you shorten that distance and reduce possible feelings of shame... 🤷🏼♀️
I think one of the fascinations with Patrick, is the fact that he is well spoken. Financially stable, (continuous employment with a six figure job) educated. Most of his addiction he had his own apartment , and it wasn't on skid row. Supportive family and stable family background through his years of childhood through adolescent. He is on a totally different spectrum than most of Marks interviewees. So many folks can relate on this level, and root for him in recovery. Patrick is a reminder that addiction happens in supportive, well financial, families too.
You described all of the most extreme drug addicts I've ever known. I love his interviews because I see myself in him to a extent and I see what happened to too many of my friends who were wildly successful, remarkably intelligent, and for the cast majority of their addiction they had lives that were seemingly perfect with great job, money, home, etc. The people who can function and abuse drugs are the most dangerous because they can go so much deeper down that hole before anyone even knows and by that point they have the most to lose and enough financial resources to get crazy
Hunter Biden is not exactly a one-for-one here, but there he is. The whole governmental thing with Hunter is not anything relatable to Patrick. But Hunter is a little bit of a comparison to this guy. I mean Biden never worked a day in his life. So there's that.
@@thatgirl73067 His medical leave is up until October. His job has to follow the American Disabilities Act. Drug Addiction is legally labeled as an illness.
Id really love an update on Patrick if he's available still. His story, honesty and vulnerability is what first turned me on to this channel. As a person with a lived experience of addiction and a living experience of mental health, i really appreciate you giving the opportunity to speak to previously unheard voices.
Patrick is doing great. He has a year and a half clean and sober. He is looking forward to marriage (yikes!) later this year. Work is going well. His golf game is improving. He is in the process of helping another hopeless addict find the kind of recovery he has found. Basically, things are falling into place for him in a way he never imagined. 12 simple steps and his world has transformed.
Please please do an update on Patrick! His transparency is unmatched! He gives such a real perspective on addiction and how hard it is to fight EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY SINGLE DAY.
Yea, he really has a great job and boss. I’ve always gotten my ass fired from my jobs in my active addiction. Ha. In another video he was saying how it might not be legal to fire him because of his addiction. But just not showing up to work for long ass periods of time and being able to call and they’re like, just be here Tuesday…or whatever it was. That’s nuts. I can’t imagine a boss putting up with that even once, let alone consistently.
I work with him on his recovery. I saw him yesterday, the day before that, and had dinner with him 4 days ago. I talk to him on the phone almost every day.
@@FOBW Thanks for the update. I'm praying for Patrick. I agree with the interver that "Self-Love" is a key factor, but Self-Love is never apart from understanding how much God loves us and how he sees us. Victory Over Darkness is a very good starter book on just that.
He’s too blessed to quit. Supportive family and friends who don’t give up on him. Even his job won’t give up on him. Why would he quit? I think he either needs to replace this with something good or he’ll never quit.
I find it so interesting that his job knows about his addiction problems, but he stays employed and his job gave him a leave of absence until October. His drug addiction seeming doesn’t effect his work productivity and he seems to be a high valued member of his employment
@@tink58bell yeah! ive seen all his interviews and ive never seen someone treated so well by their place of employment. hes said in older interviews that he'd go for days on end or even more with his boss knowing full well hes on a crack binge and his boss tells him to come back when hes ready. its just crazy to me.
I agree mostly and thats why I wrote a long comment above to him basically saying I think he should ask his job to be the one to help him stay straight by giving him weekly drug screens tied to his employment there while also working on scheduling a life to keep him busy and he will also have that knowledge if he uses he wont have a good job to keep this new lifestyle of staying busy doing golf or whatever he chooses like buying fixer upper house or something... I dont think he can totally rely on just knowing he will get fired because he obviously has risked his job so much before he doesnt really care about it because his actions say so but if he starts to have responsiiilitiess and scheulding golf tournamanents of needing 40% of his income to build/fix/rent a house or whatever I think the combo can help save him. He def doesnt need the job or his mom bailing him out ever again because like you said why would he care if he knows exactly what will happen he wont suffer enough to hurt him hes use to it. Since he doesnt have kids or a wife or anthing that forces you to be busy and responsible for the majority of people anyways he has to spend extra time on keeping busy with good things with good people and having that urine screen coming every couple days just might be enough to keep him clean since he has a month or so already (if true which he doesnt seem to lie). I think his biggest setback is actually his ability to talk to people he doesnt know and make "friends" so fast and be willing to hang around people he just met who are the type to give him deadly drugs knowing he doesnt use opioids so he would OD for almost certain.. if he was shy he wouldnt have this big of a battle to be honest.. he needs to turn that talking and outgoing personality on to something that is productive and far away from the types who get him into the wrong shit and he will do well IMO
I feel so invested in Patrick’s story and outcome. He feels like a close friend that I love dearly. Please keep updating us, good or bad we’re here for you.
Yes girl! I second this 1000000% i feel the same way about him!!! I was so damn happy to see an update finally, we need more and.more and i totally agrree, good or bad doesn’t matter at all!
@@sammyjett7396 I don’t care if he goes 200 times. Every time he goes he’s bettering himself and we don’t know which time will be the one that saves his life.
I have binge watched your story, Patrick and I just want you to know how loved and how worthy you are. You’re such a special human being and I’m so glad that you’ve shared your journey with us 🧡
Patrick and Mark I'm a recent recovering alcoholic. I've been af for almost 3 months. Patrick keep your head up you're my favorite dude on here man. We're all struggling. Keep going man! Love yourself Patrick it starts with loving yourself. ❤
As a 32yr old addict in long term recovery from alcohol, heroin, fentanyl, cocaine & nicotine but who subscribes to no anonymous program, i can tell you, hes not done, hes just freshening up. Hes not sick and tired of being sick and tired yet. He still enjoys it, loves it even…
Absolutely. 37-year-old addict in long term recovery from alcohol, benzos & cocaine here. Patrick doesn't demonstrate the kind of shame as he did in his first two videos on this channel. He's reveling.
Dude he has been in 21 rehabs, the addiction is not a choice, it comes from trauma. He should try ibogaine or mushrooms, clear out all the toxic crap rotting his core
Congratulations you. You’re a superstar. Anonymous doesn’t work for everyone, in fact it just puts people in early recovery in touch with other addicts. I have had my nephew living with me for the last 2 years. Fresh out of jail and rehab no one, not even his parents would take him in. I live away from his old home and friends, and early days that was what I saw with the Anonymous group, he was making connections. He was addicted to everything, and we are now at 2 and a half years clean. I’m so proud of him, and of all of you who take on your demons and fight back.
I’m a recovering addict, and I’m coming up on one year sober. These videos have really inspired me. I relate so deeply to what Patrick is going through. Thank you for showing the truth about addiction.
I'd like to see his friends and family interviewed. Let him get the full honesty on how this is affecting all the people in his life. Maybe that will help him straighten up.
Can’t wait for the next Patrick update, we all know he can do it. Hopefully he’s still clean and just imagine how happy his family will be to watch that one!
He needed to stay in that place the full 6 months. His addicted mind recognized that it was working, and out of fear, manufactured a "valid" reason/conflict to leave. As soon as he left he was doomed to get high.
Absolutely 💯% Correct You are not in control of anything, Patrick. Here's another one for you 'Let go and let God'. Radically Surrendering Incessant Prayer You can do it. 🙏
Please have him back ASAP! Step 3 (I say this only because your story is my story) seems to be the roadblock we need to overcome. Have we truly (every morning) given our will to God. I have to say the third step prayer 100 times a day at times, my will be done. Running on my will...it's just a matter of time. I will continue to pray for you brother 🙏
I sincerely wish him the best, but I do hear a tone of "romancing the high" As the mother of a 20 year addict, I'm a skeptic. Mark, I love what your'e doing!
My son is 22. I fear he will be Patrick at 44. He has 1 year, 11 months, 16 days clean. He got arrested 3 weeks ago and so will be clean and sober while in, but could relapse as soon as he gets out. People he knows offer free stuff to him, plead with him to stop over to catch up, even if he doesn’t want to use, they actively blow up his phone or stop by and go out of their way to see him fail. I could just kill them. I don’t actually believe in Hell, but if there is one, nothing could be worse than being impotent to save your child. At least I have not had to bury David. Patrick’s parents… 21 rehabs, wow… the Agonies he has put them through. Patrick is unusual. I can’t help, but wonder if he has an undiagnosed Mental Health issues. My son is BiPolar. 1 in 5 succeed in committing suicide and they also attempt it. They live a decade less than ordinary people. David went off his meds, got arrested and now may spend years in jail. That outcome might set Patrick straight. They would seriously evaluate him, insist on appropriate therapy and meds and keep him sober. He’s shockingly cheerful about having relapsed. He is one of my favorite subjects. I hope he hits bottom and starts the healing for real.
@@annieseaside My son is 23 years old and his story is so similar to your son’s. Where do you personally turn for help to maintain and preserve your own emotional health and well being? I’ve tried Al Anon and therapy but neither seemed to help. I could really use someone to talk to who is walking in my shoes. Any suggestions?
@@panama7564 I recommend reading A Piece of Cake by Cupcake Brown. Even though she tells it from her point of you (as an addict) she doesn’t skimp on the details on how her family & “friends” played a part in her addiction/getting sober. Her story is very enthralling & at times you may want to slap her yourself lol; but her description of her bottom & finally sticking with rehab is so inspiring. Maybe it’s a book you & your son could read ❤️. Praying for recovery ❤️.
I have never once commented on a UA-cam video in my life but I felt compelled to today. I really see myself in Patrick. Aware of my own vices, aware of the things that make me happy, aware of the negative impacts my actions have, but still feeling a lack of control of those vices. His honesty with himself is beautiful. I think we all tend to be dishonest with ourselves, sober or not. I’m not religious but I find Patrick’s integrity and accountability, despite his addiction, is really impactful in spiritual way. “I understand nothing”
Patrick, I can see you working in a position where you are ministering others. Perhaps teens, men, or just people in general. Your experiences are going to help many people. Your struggles will not be in vain. 💪🏼🙏🏼❤️
Patrick was cool for his honesty at first. Now I can see he is just spoiled. He has no consequences. His mom and family are always there, he doesn’t lose his job and everyone just gives him more chances. He’s never going to stop. He doesn’t have to
He was my favorite episodes on this channel and I was so behind him and team Patrick all the way until this episode. Now I see he isnt all that honest at all. He claims he wanted to. Stop and would do anything and this bs but he isn't doing shit to quit. So first of all he was smoking crack on his trip to rehab do he didn't even go into rehab wanting sobriety, or actual sobriety IF YOU LEAVE REHAB AGAINST MEDICAL ADVICE & FIND YOURSELF SMOKING CRACK WITHIN DAYS then you have to admit that your doctors were right and your "opinion about treating addiction" has no merit!!
Months into his recovery, Patrick is still doing well. Tools for his recovery have been laid at his feet and he is using them to build a new life for himself. He is emulating a few others who came before him, those that have the peace and serenity that he craves. He is actively cleaning up the wreckage of his past, apologizing, and more importantly, making amends. Probably his biggest growth comes in that he is now helping those that came after him. The desperate ones who need someone that understands them. Someone like Patrick. The holidays are coming up and they can be hard on addicts and alcoholics, especially in the first year. Patrick is already preparing so he can get through them without any major problems.
That's so good to hear. My friend just successfully checked out of Rehab but immediately relapsed. I'm not sure how to help only to continue loving him. He always says no one understands him or knows what he's going through and part of that is true. He is 43, alone - although dreams of having a family, he has a boss similar to Patrick's where he can go back to after not showing up for a week due to a binge, etc etc.. Would Patrick be willing to connect with him? The one difference though with my friend is he struggles with honesty.. but I think that's because he doesn't believe people would accept him or love him, he had a hard childhood. Please let me know either way?
A year and a half into his recovery, Patrick is going strong. He has recently redoubled his work on his sobriety and is even helping other addicts find their sobriety. 12 simple steps and his life has been transformed. He's living the kind of life beyond what he could have ever imagined possible.
We're all Kali-Yuga dumpster babies if we want to be. Paramatma is just waiting to guide us home. Like 2 birds in a tree. One eating the fruits of happiness & distress.(jiva)The other bird(supersoul) God is just waiting for us to turn around and acknowledge that He's there. Life after life. It's up to us.
Whoever knew him from YT and offered to get high with him is terrible! How could you watch his videos and want to contribute to something he deeply struggles with and obviously tears him up inside. It almost killed him, don’t get me wrong its of course his responsibility too but to know he has an addiction and then feed into it is terrible to me😔
Just watched the whole series on Patrick. You speak things that a lot of us can relate to. Stay strong friend, you're worth more than where the drugs will lead you (you know this) . Glad to see you doing well, rooting for you!
Speaking as someone who had 20 years into heroin before recovery, he speaks exactly like someone who has decades into his addiction, understands it but still struggles. It's a cliche but true that, as he says, getting high is great but its everything that comes with it, the arrests, the hospital trips,the endless sickness...
Congratulations on your recovery 👏❤ He wasn't ready you can want something because it sounds right or good but until you truly are done there is no help in the world that will make someone stop.
I've been thinking about this guy, and hoping he would get better. I hope his ego can dissolve enough to let himself succeed. I've been there, my friend. You only get so many chances. And breaths.
I will nevet forget what one of my sponsors told me when i was toying with an obsessive idea of smoking crack again. Something that i hadnt done in 20 years. I didnt do it because she said to me .....you can try and relapse and come back but hear this not all of us have another relapse in us. We might not make it back
I’ve binged all of the Patrick videos today and somehow I went from rooting for him, to still rooting for him but also realizing how incredibly privileged and spoiled he is. He may actually need to hit rock bottom if he’s ever going to change.
I agree for the most part. But he also worked for everything, Nothing was just given to him. The fact his job still employs him is nuts. He must be an excellent engineer. It seems like his parents do a lot of enabling as well. But like you said skid row rock bottom may be what he needs to permanently get on track...
Addiction doesn’t care about privilege. It’s a red eyed monster that wants only pleasure, chaos, and oblivions release. And it exists in all of to one degree or another. Fuck off with your “privileged and spoiled” bullshit. We’re all human beings going through it as best we can.
I JUST LOVE PATRICK!!!! You are incredible! At this point when I see you, I just SMILE! YOU ARE THE PERFECT STRANGER! Yet, I feel like I know you!!! Sending you hugs and love!!!!!! ❤️
@James Topham I guess I didn’t realize spreading love was “blowing praise up there arse”. Your hate is not needed under this post. Stop wasting time here and go spend time on the things you deem worthy.
@James TophamWhy are you watching them? You do realize that those who are on this channel displaying their weaknesses, many times had something traumatic happen to them or potentially a mental illness that leads them on this path. If you’re not into it, don’t waste your time watching the videos or commenting on another persons feelings about what they’re watching. Just keep your time invested in what you personally have an interest in. ✌🏼
After watching this man's story on here, to see him now... clean but clearly fragile gives me hope for myself. His last words... "We're all just walking each other home." broke me. Such a beautiful line when I'm feeling so lost. God bless you, Patrick.
Even if that's true, it is better than ending up homeless on skid row. I do not believe that people should not help others, even if it is for a thousand times.
@@mustachadon We do not really know that. One thing is for sure though, the more excluded people are, the harder it gets to re-connect. Look at how the US treats addicts, that's a good example of how people get pushed outside the circle, on a bigger scale.
@patrick @softwhiteundedbelly Patrick you’re not ready and all the “reasoning” is not serving you at all. And too bad the people around you don’t soften or cushion your bottom. It was a hard lesson for me someone had to die for me to get the “psychic change” needed to just let go. You clean up well and I can see why people like you you’re super great! You still have ideas until you just say show me you will ok my experience get that help. I just hope with all of these IDEAS you still have that you are still alive to tell the story. Everyone who loves Patrick please let the bottom be concrete now feather. I PRAY (to whom ever you choose) I hope you don’t clean so quickly I hope you one day not talk about staying sober forever that’s too much pressure. There is a solution And all of this is my opinion because I am you. And interestingly enough that will kill you. Surrender !!
Patrick your story saved my life ...i was at the very beginning of smoking crack it was my 4 or 5th time and then i saw your first interview, and another and another...i will never smoke crack again
@@katherinespreitzer9365 thank you for your kindness Katherine! Believe me or not i didn't touch crack never again. Patrick really made a huge impact on me..wish he would knew what his story did to me and probably lot of other people to. Hope he's doing okay now
The thing I recognize in Patrick that I as a recovering addict recognize in myself is thinking I know what’s best for me and no one can tell me shit. Sometimes we need to just get humble and listen to others that have been on the path longer than us. And it is hard to do when you’ve been to so many programs and meetings but we gotta remain teachable always. You can never be too dumb to recover but you can be too smart.
I just binge watched Patrick’s story. Thank you for sharing. You’ve got this Patrick and I’m looking forward to the next one. You are an inspiration to the millions of followers on this channel.
It is incredibly saddening when you hear people leading others to the same drug they struggle with (the fentanyl scenario). Like you absolutely know the burden it put on you personally but lead someone to the same struggle. That really breaks my heart.
@@Noonecares3203 Absolutely, say hello, perhaps give some words of encouragement and let them know you too are fighting the same battle. I will never understand a person leading another to a drug. Like here try this, you “may” enjoy it today but it will be like hell on earth in the future. I know we all have our own free will but don’t introduce or offer it to someone knowing how much damage it can do.
@@newkingdom6750 I understand people do what they normally wouldn’t do when they’re using drugs. They stoop to lows they wouldn’t if it weren’t for the drug. I just can’t fathom offering someone a drug and potentially changing their life for the worse forever. That makes me incredibly upset to hear things like that. It’s not just a night of fun… it’s potentially going to change another person’s life forever. That sh*t’s no joke…
@@aliciablanchard2500 yes I agree it's serious and again not making excuses.. what you "can't fathom" is what I was trying to bring understanding to.. addiction will literally make you lose your own conscience which causes one to do the things they would never normally do.
I sincerely wish him the best. I'm not sure what else to say. I watch these videos with him, and his story resonates. I honestly think about him from time to time, hoping for the best. Best of luck, Patrick.
Patrick, first I’m in your corner for sure and honesty continues to be a trend in your interviews. The honesty is in your story telling but not in your self introspection at least in a genuine way. If I may, I’d like to call you out on some things that I think are true but you haven’t mentioned, and this stuff is true of me too. Your selfishness is automatic and operates on auto pilot with no remorse when you use. You are a momas boy, and that’s not an insult, but it’s a significant crutch. Your dad doesn’t matter to you enough. You have no threatening consequences to your actions. You always have a clean start when you screw everyone over. Job, money, friends. There are literally no consequences for you, just for others. The unconditional love you get from others is taken for granted time and time again. It’s like you have infinite lives on an arcade game. The only way out is to abhor the addiction actions to a consistent level that overcomes your compulsions to use. You have to HATE it. Literal HATE. I’m glad that you know Jesus because he won’t let you go and is waiting on you just like he did for me to surrender fully. Full surrender doesn’t mean perfection but it does mean becoming more and more like Christ as time passes. Find something that is better than golf. Find a true calling brother and make a damn difference in this world before it’s too late.
Absolutely. He is completely in denial to his moms enabling. I can’t imagine having been to rehab 20+ times and still having my mom there to pick up the pieces and move me out of my apartment. What??? Does she wipe his ass, too? I have compassion for Patrick as he’s obviously an exceptional guy but he’s not an exceptional addict. He’s so boringly textbook with his addiction and he needs to stop falling back on his “specialness” as that’s just a hindrance to getting and staying sober. He doesn’t seem to be very aware of his triggers and how to manage them. You need to start rewiring your brain which means building back the reward centers to something other than crack. Psych meds actually might help with the compulsively and I’m someone who is pretty antipharma but it definitely has its place. He needs to get out of LA or at least try to make it very inconvenient to get to skid row. I dunno, as self aware as Patrick is he seems woefully in denial about the other toxic parts of his life including his enabling family.
@@theangriestoftabbies Patrick is really intelligent and is aware of everything he is doing and the patterns that leads to his relapses (not like most addicts). I believe he is also aware about his mothers unconditional love. The issue lies in within himself, he knows what it takes to stop this addiction for good but he isn't willing to give it up. ( he talked about freedom vs living sober forever in an institution).
Why are we celebrating his 21st failure at rehab. He doesn't want to do the program, he wants to do it his way.....he goes then quits..... clearly his way isn't working.
Because that's 21 tries at bettering himself, and we should never shit on someone trying to heal. It's not how many times you fail, it's how many times you get back up
Hang in there Patrick 💪💪 Never give up! No matter how many times you try Do it again and again♡♡♡ You are worth it ♡♡ I like you You are an amazing person ❤
It all boils down to selfishness, and self hate! As a recovering addict my experience is until I started honestly appreciating my life, and stopped being a spoiled brat, and promised myself I wouldn’t say fuck it anymore, recovery was possible for me. Helping others, staying honest, and doing the next right thing keeps me sober. I didn’t get sober for others, I made a decision to not live that way anymore. Praying for you Patrick. You have to want it. 🙏🏻💗
Poor Patrick is kinda horribly clueless. Just listening to him tells me at this point, hope he survives his next relapse. Patrick has never had to suffer the consequences of his addiction. Someone always steps in to rescue him. Buddy, I really wish you the best. But your enablers are going to love you todeath.
@@robinw4039 you never know is what I've been told apparently the coin can drop or *moment of clarity* can happen at point reminds me so much of someone I know Very intelligent but massive immaturity
Lost my brother to an overdose recently. He was such a great person and everyone loved him. He was just like Patrick in a lot of ways. He also loved God and I remember one of the last things he said to me was how he was always doing better in life when he was following God. Pat if you see this, I hope you’re doing alright.
He is borderline amazing, smart and honest or amazing, smart witted, and manipulative.. I’m not sure if he’s a likable guy who unfortunately does drugs or does drugs and learned to be a likable guy to get what he wants.. love you Patrick I wish it was enough
Your comment is pretty old and you probably don't even remember writing it... But I wanted to tell you that this is a very interesting way to look at it. It always bothers me that the likeable people on this channel are praised to high heavens as if their tragic past excused everything they've done. They're praised as these incredibly smart people who have a good heart. On the other hand, some people are judged brutally because they're not as charming, not as beautiful and somehow don't evoke the feeling of pity or compassion in the viewers. There's comments saying things like "being abused doesn't excuse these actions", which is totally hypocritical. I think you hit the nail on the head. It's such a realistic way of looking at these messy people. Nothing is black or white. And a lot of these people ARE smart, amazing, beautiful - but they use that with bad intentions.
I wish you so much happiness Patrick. Just my personal observation is that I don’t see or feel Joy in Patrick. Happiness is fleeting but joy is more constant. I believe Patrick is chasing happiness…drugs, work, golf ect…. things that are outside himself. My understanding of Joy is it’s a inside job not an outside one. Joy for me is a continuous feeling of gratitude even when things are at their worst. It’s dropping in a place of peace that nothing outside of myself.. people, places or things are allowed to change that frequently of peace and joy. Personal boundaries allows me to protect my inner world while the outside world is in complete chaos. I believe Patrick is chasing everything outside himself. He needs constant feedback from friends, family ect…. Those things will all be temporary happiness for Patrick because he’s looking for outside validation. He’s a great guy but craves outside circumstances to feel Joy and that is not sustainable. God Bless.
Exactly! I think this is the real issue... but people are not aware of this difference... only when I have started to feel this kind of peacefull joy that came from some inner silence i suppose, I realize the difference...
I just looked up Joy to see the difference and it does seem to be a greater form of pleasure in life itself. It is derived from rejoice. I like the new made up term called Anti-Fragile. Coming from the concept of challenges and obstacles being strengthening to one's spirit.
An addict pretending to not be an addict anymore is asking for relapse - from myself (an addict), support groups, therapists etc. It is always a part of you. One day at a time. Go to 16 minutes in the video and you can hear him talk about this also.
Screw the girl who knew he was a struggling addict and chose to offer him drugs anyway. No, it’s not entirely her fault, but it’s still a very low-down thing to do on her part.
@@derekmatuja583 To me, it seems like he's not really. This all started for him in college if I remember correctly, and the way he described the girl and trying fent to fit in or whatever is exactly how I was in college (not with the same drugs though). Weed typically gives me anxiety attacks, yet when I was in college and a cute girl offered me weed, I was toking it up. It's just immature behavior.
The girl he met on the street after walking away from sober living could have been a positive influence if she had just kept walking after telling Patrick she recognized him. Especially after knowing his story.
I really like Patrick, That being said. He is a master manipulator. It’s a trait most of us pick up from addiction.He tells us want we want to hear. With all that said, Cut the bullshit. You’re a great guy. You can’t pray this shit away. Good luck,
I agree. I got half way through the video before I had to stop. My gut feeling is that he really doesn’t want to accept responsibility for his own actions and that he is enabled by others to continue living like this and avoiding self responsibility. He probably could turn his life around, and he appears to have a lot of opportunity to do that. He just doesn’t want to. At least not yet. It is hard to accept responsibility for your own actions. He tells the truth about what he does, but he’s not telling the truth about his own accountability for his situation.
There's a whole bunch of addicts that never get addressed here; videogames. It would be nice to have an interview with a gaming addict. I was one for many years and I looked basically like a meth addict; no shower, underweight because I never ate, never combed my hair, never got out of my bedroom, barely ate... It'd be interesting to hear about that too.
Would be cool to hear about diff addictions outside of drug and alcohol use. The stories that you don't typically hear about are the most interesting to me.
I agree, this is HUGE! I've seen people throw their careers, spouses, finances all away due to video game additions. It's an epidemic that is never discussed. And what is sad is that, children are protected from drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes, but nobody bats an eye at all the electronic stimulation starting at age 2. Too much technology. If a 2 year old throws a fit, a parent hands them a phone to keep them quiet. Then they get older and it escalates from there as video games are pretty much a staple in American upbringing. It is also a segway into other electronic addictions such as pornography. And the list goes on. Thanks for sharing that little tidbit, and I am so glad you were able to get your life back. 🧡🙌
Woah there buddy! Don't put that responsibility on the poor boys head! We've all gotta fight our own battles.....so yeah GO Patrick......Go all of us!!! U R NOT ALONE!
Thank you for sharing your life with us Patrick you have no idea how much hope you give some of us. My brother has been struggling with Heroin addiction for years and everyday I'm afraid will be his last day. But then I come here and see you. Thank you for giving me a glimmer of hope I love him so much and I'm so afraid for him. You stay diligent Patrick so many of us are rooting for you and care to see you happy and successful. 🌻❤️🙏🏽
My younger brother suffered with a meth addiction for many years. He's now a successful business owner, great father, amazing husband. I often think back to the days when I would let my mom go to voice-mail every time for fear she'll tell me he was dead. There is definitely hope, is what I'm trying to say. Much love to you & your family! It's hard to watch someone you love go through addiction & you're not alone! 🤗
I was right to be scared for my brother. He passed away on October 2nd, alone kneeling in his best friend's backyard. I wasn't going to comment but someone liked mine and it showed up in my notification. I'm just heartbroken without him if you're in trouble and you're reading this you have to get help because this drug will take your life and along with it your family's heart. God be with all of you.
I'm so glad he's back he's by far my favorite interviewer he's super open and honest and seems like he is really a smart guy with a successful career and he is one of the people u would never think did drugs 💯 love the content man keep it up buddy
I dunno. I'm starting to think that Patrick feels like if he comes to the interview and airs all his dirty laundry out, then it's ok for him to continue what he is doing. Like going to confession and then continuing to sin (for those religious folks). It has to come to a point where he takes responsibility for what he is doing. His family and friends excusing his behavior just because he is on here being honest is not going to help. Like someone else on here said, he is a manipulator. He is the epitome of the saying "it's easier to ask for forgiveness than permission"
Yeah... That doesn't work when it happens for all the world to see. Exposing your failures and addictions to the world doesn't give you any feeling of rationalization to keep doing them. If anything you feel worse about it. Addiction tries its best to hide. You only go raw like this if you want to get better. But wanting isn't enough. Sometimes you need extra help.
I could see why people would think that but it couldnt be further from the truth. Its his way of "shedding layers of his onion", if you will. Hes trying to get to his "real". The biggest detriment as an addict is that when you get sober that thought of "well, ive done great so ill just reward myself with just one hit" and you run that loop over and over and over and over in your head.
Patrick has loads of charisma and potential to do good in this world. Unfortunately, he is also a master manipulator. I wish him the best either way. I can't help but follow his journey.
not that i necessarily disagree, but in what way do you think he is a master manipulator? i hadn't considered that as being a characteristic of Patrick's and I am interested to know how you think he is. cheers
@@mrmortimerbiotic That is just my assessment after watching him for the past few months. He has been to rehab some 20 times and admitted to taking advantage of everyone from his mom to his employer.
To those viewers or subscribers that are drug users, PLEASE do not offer drugs to the people you see on this channel…. We look up to these brave souls and if anything you should be asking them for help of your not giving them help.
That’s a really inhumane thing to do if the persons trying to get clean and has some clean time behind their belt already or whatever. If they are dopesick , begging and crawling for drugs I’d help them but that’s controversial. I don’t want to be contributing to their misery
Ive been anxiously waiting to see Patrick's update. 🥰🥰 I have adored him since his first video. I want to see him succeed so badly. Im commenting before I've even watched, I just got so damn happy when I saw that cute face of his and that it was an update🤗🤗 I hope its good news...lol. Either way, super glad to see his face😊
Will there be an 2022 update on Patrick? Really interested in how he's doing. Currently starting my 2nd run at sobriety and his story has been really eye opening for me.
Patrick is so intelligent and handsome. I love seeing his videos. I truly hold out hope for his sobriety and success. I live in Arizona, spend time in the desert! Arizona is something truly special.
He has some healthy weight on him now, love it Great to see you bubba One thing I’ve learned about my own addiction is to always hold myself accountable. As a single dude, I don’t have anyone to tell me not to do anything (not that I’d listen to them anyway) but when I hold myself accountable, I’m successful in staying away from things that hurt my body about 95% of the time. Rooting for you Patrick, stay strong homenuggets!!
Yeah 👍🏼I totally agree. Nobody makes choices for you. At least as a adult and the things that come with getting high or addiction. I had a druggie friend, that tried to say I was the reason he started smoking crack. I was blown away.😱. I have never tried to get anyone to try crack cocaine. If anything I would want to keep it all for myself. Go figure. Hah ha! Since I have been clean I tried calling to see if he’s doing good. But the number was changed.
I’m so glad I did a quick search to see if there’s an update and don’t know how I’ve missed this, but absolutely delighted to see Patrick (honestly for better or worse, but hoping for better) and that he’s still with us with hope. I’m so invested in this gentleman’s recovery, he’s in the biggest battle of his life and my goodness he has an army behind him wishing him the best in getting out of his addiction. Thank you Mark for updating us and also thank you Patrick for being brave enough to continue to share your journey in its rawest form. God bless you sir
I feel like Patrick's favorite topic of discussion is himself and his addiction and hes not ready to loose that side of himself yet. It's like he's enjoying overthinking it. Not to mention he's obviously being protected from hitting rock bottom.
None of those rehabs he went to, or will go to, is gonna help him until he wants it for himself. Until he wants it he'll continue to get high. It's that simple
Mark your channel is so beautiful. Patrick, thank you for sharing your journey with us. Your honesty is so refreshing. Your hope is so beautiful. I am also Christian & I pray for healing over your addiction.
I think that a lot of people are taken with him because they don’t know the extent addicts will go to in order to keep fueling their addiction. As somebody who dealt with one firsthand for nearly a decade, I can tell you that they lie so well they fool themselves. He’s honest with his story, to some degree. But the issue would not persist if he was more honest with himself.
@@parkerholt8097 Very true but as someone who has been through this with a loved one you do reach a point where you just decide to love them while you have them. It's a hard call but the more you try to help the farther they pull away so you must make a choice that you can live with.
@@LM4210 that makes sense. I wasn't trying to be insensitive or ugly. Thank you for sharing. I've been sober almost 20 yrs and it wasn't until my Mom said "you're about to not know me anymore" and I was out of options, did I give up, stopped fighting and did the work.
I'm so much like him it's scary. I care what people think about me so much, that practically all of my successes are not because I'm motivated or driven, but because I'm afraid to fail and let people down. I don't love myself either. My addiction was pills, opioids. We are also similar in that our self awareness is so high, it almost gets in the way. I'm pulling for you Patrick.
I love all these series but Patrick is my favorite, because he’s so authentic, raw and really funny. His honesty is endearing. I pray he continues to seek God and continues to press in and break through the veil.
I've watched all of his videos, he has to many safety nets. Patrick needs to depend solely on himself, from rock bottom, or he'll never get it. He knows his job is there waiting, family and friends, it's called tough love for a reason.
There is a Brenè Brown quote that goes, "shame lives in the distance between your secret self and your public self." The bigger the distance between your public, private and secret selves, the greater the scope for shame. So, in being open about your story, you shorten that distance and reduce possible feelings of shame... 🤷🏼♀️
This is exactly what happened to me with porn. The moment I was open about my issues with it, every bad emotion tied to it just vanished.
FTP
Absolutely true. That's how I finally overcame my addictions and freedom from guilt and shame
"secrets keep you sick"
I think he is one of the biggest manipulators ever..He needs a long-term rehab..sorry just my honest opinion
I think one of the fascinations with Patrick, is the fact that he is well spoken. Financially stable, (continuous employment with a six figure job) educated. Most of his addiction he had his own apartment , and it wasn't on skid row. Supportive family and stable family background through his years of childhood through adolescent. He is on a totally different spectrum than most of Marks interviewees. So many folks can relate on this level, and root for him in recovery. Patrick is a reminder that addiction happens in supportive, well financial, families too.
You described all of the most extreme drug addicts I've ever known. I love his interviews because I see myself in him to a extent and I see what happened to too many of my friends who were wildly successful, remarkably intelligent, and for the cast majority of their addiction they had lives that were seemingly perfect with great job, money, home, etc. The people who can function and abuse drugs are the most dangerous because they can go so much deeper down that hole before anyone even knows and by that point they have the most to lose and enough financial resources to get crazy
I totally agree. I'm Patrick's age and had a similar background. I know Patricks from my own past and this is one reason I root for him all the more.
Hunter Biden is not exactly a one-for-one here, but there he is. The whole governmental thing with Hunter is not anything relatable to Patrick. But Hunter is a little bit of a comparison to this guy. I mean Biden never worked a day in his life. So there's that.
Nah. he just has a unique spirit is all. he's like everyone else. maybe a little extra charisma.
@@thatgirl73067 His medical leave is up until October. His job has to follow the American Disabilities Act. Drug Addiction is legally labeled as an illness.
Id really love an update on Patrick if he's available still.
His story, honesty and vulnerability is what first turned me on to this channel. As a person with a lived experience of addiction and a living experience of mental health, i really appreciate you giving the opportunity to speak to previously unheard voices.
THIS^
We all have a living experience of mental health! Haha
Patrick is doing great. He has a year and a half clean and sober. He is looking forward to marriage (yikes!) later this year. Work is going well. His golf game is improving. He is in the process of helping another hopeless addict find the kind of recovery he has found. Basically, things are falling into place for him in a way he never imagined. 12 simple steps and his world has transformed.
Thank you!!
Yooo get Pat back on here!
Love this guy! Thanks for the interviews, so encouraging his story
Wow congratulations on so much Patrick, nicer to hear life is good. Keep working it buddy!
Ty for the update
Please please do an update on Patrick! His transparency is unmatched! He gives such a real perspective on addiction and how hard it is to fight EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY SINGLE DAY.
There are sporadic updates posted in the comments by a close friend of his. He is doing extremely well❤
Done. Today
The more I see these videos of Patrick, the more I want to see an interview with his employer. Dude is unreal.
Yea, he really has a great job and boss. I’ve always gotten my ass fired from my jobs in my active addiction. Ha. In another video he was saying how it might not be legal to fire him because of his addiction. But just not showing up to work for long ass periods of time and being able to call and they’re like, just be here Tuesday…or whatever it was. That’s nuts. I can’t imagine a boss putting up with that even once, let alone consistently.
On God, I am a black accountant...NEVER. If I'm late I'm fired
@Maximus Meridius what the fuck? No I think that’s just your perception and you have some racism issues.
@Maximus Meridius Dude, half the amount of hours he doesn’t show up can easily be used to find another engineer…
He's selling crack to his boss
As of August 2022 Patrick is doing well. He has several months off drugs and alcohol. He is on a path to recovery.
It's a good story but how do you know?
I work with him on his recovery. I saw him yesterday, the day before that, and had dinner with him 4 days ago. I talk to him on the phone almost every day.
@@FOBW That's amazing to hear! I'm very very happy for him, that really brightens my day to know he's doing well
@@FOBW Thanks for the update. I'm praying for Patrick. I agree with the interver that "Self-Love" is a key factor, but Self-Love is never apart from understanding how much God loves us and how he sees us. Victory Over Darkness is a very good starter book on just that.
this warms my soul. no other SWU video has hit me the same way as his. i adore him so much. i hope he creates his own channel someday.
Perhaps one of the most loved people on this channel; so many people rooting for Patrick. Hope he's OK.
He’s too blessed to quit. Supportive family and friends who don’t give up on him. Even his job won’t give up on him. Why would he quit? I think he either needs to replace this with something good or he’ll never quit.
I find it so interesting that his job knows about his addiction problems, but he stays employed and his job gave him a leave of absence until October. His drug addiction seeming doesn’t effect his work productivity and he seems to be a high valued member of his employment
@@tink58bell yeah! ive seen all his interviews and ive never seen someone treated so well by their place of employment. hes said in older interviews that he'd go for days on end or even more with his boss knowing full well hes on a crack binge and his boss tells him to come back when hes ready. its just crazy to me.
I'd rephrase the question; why should he quit?
@@rckism4198 I think that is how it should be. Treating people with respect when things go south especialy.
I agree mostly and thats why I wrote a long comment above to him basically saying I think he should ask his job to be the one to help him stay straight by giving him weekly drug screens tied to his employment there while also working on scheduling a life to keep him busy and he will also have that knowledge if he uses he wont have a good job to keep this new lifestyle of staying busy doing golf or whatever he chooses like buying fixer upper house or something... I dont think he can totally rely on just knowing he will get fired because he obviously has risked his job so much before he doesnt really care about it because his actions say so but if he starts to have responsiiilitiess and scheulding golf tournamanents of needing 40% of his income to build/fix/rent a house or whatever I think the combo can help save him. He def doesnt need the job or his mom bailing him out ever again because like you said why would he care if he knows exactly what will happen he wont suffer enough to hurt him hes use to it. Since he doesnt have kids or a wife or anthing that forces you to be busy and responsible for the majority of people anyways he has to spend extra time on keeping busy with good things with good people and having that urine screen coming every couple days just might be enough to keep him clean since he has a month or so already (if true which he doesnt seem to lie). I think his biggest setback is actually his ability to talk to people he doesnt know and make "friends" so fast and be willing to hang around people he just met who are the type to give him deadly drugs knowing he doesnt use opioids so he would OD for almost certain.. if he was shy he wouldnt have this big of a battle to be honest.. he needs to turn that talking and outgoing personality on to something that is productive and far away from the types who get him into the wrong shit and he will do well IMO
I’m hoping Patrick is ok!
So many of us love him and would really appreciate an update!
I feel so invested in Patrick’s story and outcome. He feels like a close friend that I love dearly. Please keep updating us, good or bad we’re here for you.
These interviews are so poignant and moving, and we often some of the first to hear their stories. Some really do feel like a friend.
Yes girl! I second this 1000000% i feel the same way about him!!! I was so damn happy to see an update finally, we need more and.more and i totally agrree, good or bad doesn’t matter at all!
@@sammyjett7396 I don’t care if he goes 200 times. Every time he goes he’s bettering himself and we don’t know which time will be the one that saves his life.
there are few things more real than this channel
#parasocial
I have binge watched your story, Patrick and I just want you to know how loved and how worthy you are. You’re such a special human being and I’m so glad that you’ve shared your journey with us 🧡
Patrick is like family to all of us now 😆 We just want him to get well
That’s exactly what it feels like. We all just want to see him living his best life without the struggles that using beings.
🤍💜🤍💜
Seeing him this morning was like getting a hug from a beloved brother ❤️
Definitely pulling for you Patrick! ❤️👏
Spot on 👍
Patrick is one of my favorites, thank you for the upload Mark.
Been a while now. I’d love to see another update on Patrick.
I bet he did drugs again.. Inteligent but weak person..
@@D4V1D_03 Damn
@@jahsolonely6139 what did he say? Comment is gone
Patrick still around??? Love this guy
@Christian Torres whoa, what?! What makes you even say that???
Patrick and Mark I'm a recent recovering alcoholic. I've been af for almost 3 months. Patrick keep your head up you're my favorite dude on here man. We're all struggling. Keep going man! Love yourself Patrick it starts with loving yourself. ❤
As a 32yr old addict in long term recovery from alcohol, heroin, fentanyl, cocaine & nicotine but who subscribes to no anonymous program, i can tell you, hes not done, hes just freshening up. Hes not sick and tired of being sick and tired yet. He still enjoys it, loves it even…
Sad, but true I’m afraid
Absolutely. 37-year-old addict in long term recovery from alcohol, benzos & cocaine here. Patrick doesn't demonstrate the kind of shame as he did in his first two videos on this channel. He's reveling.
Dude he has been in 21 rehabs, the addiction is not a choice, it comes from trauma. He should try ibogaine or mushrooms, clear out all the toxic crap rotting his core
Izzy, let’s be sober friends! I’m in long term recovery too . Just saying. Thank you for reading this.
Congratulations you. You’re a superstar. Anonymous doesn’t work for everyone, in fact it just puts people in early recovery in touch with other addicts. I have had my nephew living with me for the last 2 years. Fresh out of jail and rehab no one, not even his parents would take him in. I live away from his old home and friends, and early days that was what I saw with the Anonymous group, he was making connections. He was addicted to everything, and we are now at 2 and a half years clean. I’m so proud of him, and of all of you who take on your demons and fight back.
I’m a recovering addict, and I’m coming up on one year sober. These videos have really inspired me. I relate so deeply to what Patrick is going through. Thank you for showing the truth about addiction.
HE IS BACK!!!!!! I was waiting for him.
I'd like to see his friends and family interviewed. Let him get the full honesty on how this is affecting all the people in his life. Maybe that will help him straighten up.
I would love to see that too.
Absolutely!
Same
@@lisalamorey3453 I’m one of his best friends ❤️ 15 years now! I would love to speak on this!!
He doesn’t care or he wouldn’t have been doing crack when his mother came to visit him and help him move out.
He’s just got to fight his demons
in 5 days, it'll be exactly one year since this video came out. I really hope Mark is preparing a surprise update on Patrick.
Same here.
Updated!
Clicked so fast. Been waiting for another update from Patrick.
Me too x
Same 😊
Same . At first I thought mark was going to say he was dead . Thank g-d he’s still here
Been wondering how you've been. You look and sound better every time. Just keep chipping away at it man.
One day at a time.
Like golf - chippin
Just like golf chipping! ⛳ 😎
Can’t wait for the next Patrick update, we all know he can do it. Hopefully he’s still clean and just imagine how happy his family will be to watch that one!
He needed to stay in that place the full 6 months. His addicted mind recognized that it was working, and out of fear, manufactured a "valid" reason/conflict to leave. As soon as he left he was doomed to get high.
Yes!
Accurate post
Absolutely 💯% Correct
You are not in control of anything, Patrick. Here's another one for you 'Let go and let God'. Radically Surrendering
Incessant Prayer
You can do it. 🙏
Hope he makes it...just not sure...he needs a very long rehab
Please have him back ASAP! Step 3 (I say this only because your story is my story) seems to be the roadblock we need to overcome. Have we truly (every morning) given our will to God. I have to say the third step prayer 100 times a day at times, my will be done. Running on my will...it's just a matter of time. I will continue to pray for you brother 🙏
I sincerely wish him the best, but I do hear a tone of "romancing the high" As the mother of a 20 year addict, I'm a skeptic. Mark, I love what your'e doing!
My son is 22. I fear he will be Patrick at 44. He has 1 year, 11 months, 16 days clean. He got arrested 3 weeks ago and so will be clean and sober while in, but could relapse as soon as he gets out. People he knows offer free stuff to him, plead with him to stop over to catch up, even if he doesn’t want to use, they actively blow up his phone or stop by and go out of their way to see him fail. I could just kill them.
I don’t actually believe in Hell, but if there is one, nothing could be worse than being impotent to save your child. At least I have not had to bury David. Patrick’s parents… 21 rehabs, wow… the Agonies he has put them through. Patrick is unusual. I can’t help, but wonder if he has an undiagnosed Mental Health issues. My son is BiPolar. 1 in 5 succeed in committing suicide and they also attempt it. They live a decade less than ordinary people. David went off his meds, got arrested and now may spend years in jail. That outcome might set Patrick straight. They would seriously evaluate him, insist on appropriate therapy and meds and keep him sober. He’s shockingly cheerful about having relapsed. He is one of my favorite subjects. I hope he hits bottom and starts the healing for real.
@@annieseaside hoping your son is able to pull through. ❤️
@@annieseaside My son is 23 years old and his story is so similar to your son’s. Where do you personally turn for help to maintain and preserve your own emotional health and well being? I’ve tried Al Anon and therapy but neither seemed to help. I could really use someone to talk to who is walking in my shoes. Any suggestions?
@@panama7564 I recommend reading A Piece of Cake by Cupcake Brown. Even though she tells it from her point of you (as an addict) she doesn’t skimp on the details on how her family & “friends” played a part in her addiction/getting sober. Her story is very enthralling & at times you may want to slap her yourself lol; but her description of her bottom & finally sticking with rehab is so inspiring. Maybe it’s a book you & your son could read ❤️. Praying for recovery ❤️.
@@KimberlyJay , thank you for the suggestion! I ordered it on Audible so I can listen to it on my drive to and from work this week.
I have never once commented on a UA-cam video in my life but I felt compelled to today. I really see myself in Patrick. Aware of my own vices, aware of the things that make me happy, aware of the negative impacts my actions have, but still feeling a lack of control of those vices. His honesty with himself is beautiful. I think we all tend to be dishonest with ourselves, sober or not. I’m not religious but I find Patrick’s integrity and accountability, despite his addiction, is really impactful in spiritual way.
“I understand nothing”
Patrick, I can see you working in a position where you are ministering others. Perhaps teens, men, or just people in general. Your experiences are going to help many people. Your struggles will not be in vain. 💪🏼🙏🏼❤️
People like Patrick can't have constant reminders.. leaving this all behind is the ONLY way.
Patrick was cool for his honesty at first. Now I can see he is just spoiled. He has no consequences. His mom and family are always there, he doesn’t lose his job and everyone just gives him more chances. He’s never going to stop. He doesn’t have to
He was my favorite episodes on this channel and I was so behind him and team Patrick all the way until this episode. Now I see he isnt all that honest at all. He claims he wanted to. Stop and would do anything and this bs but he isn't doing shit to quit.
So first of all he was smoking crack on his trip to rehab do he didn't even go into rehab wanting sobriety, or actual sobriety
IF YOU LEAVE REHAB AGAINST MEDICAL ADVICE & FIND YOURSELF SMOKING CRACK WITHIN DAYS then you have to admit that your doctors were right and your "opinion about treating addiction" has no merit!!
Thats that yt privilege lol
I love Patrick 🙏 God Bless him 💖
Lmao you don't know his life. Seriously how can you think you're smart enough to state that like a fact
Yes, he keeps getting away with it, so he's going to ride it out as far as he can
Months into his recovery, Patrick is still doing well. Tools for his recovery have been laid at his feet and he is using them to build a new life for himself. He is emulating a few others who came before him, those that have the peace and serenity that he craves. He is actively cleaning up the wreckage of his past, apologizing, and more importantly, making amends. Probably his biggest growth comes in that he is now helping those that came after him. The desperate ones who need someone that understands them. Someone like Patrick. The holidays are coming up and they can be hard on addicts and alcoholics, especially in the first year. Patrick is already preparing so he can get through them without any major problems.
That's so good to hear. My friend just successfully checked out of Rehab but immediately relapsed. I'm not sure how to help only to continue loving him. He always says no one understands him or knows what he's going through and part of that is true. He is 43, alone - although dreams of having a family, he has a boss similar to Patrick's where he can go back to after not showing up for a week due to a binge, etc etc.. Would Patrick be willing to connect with him? The one difference though with my friend is he struggles with honesty.. but I think that's because he doesn't believe people would accept him or love him, he had a hard childhood. Please let me know either way?
How is he now in what is almost September 2023??
A year and a half into his recovery, Patrick is going strong. He has recently redoubled his work on his sobriety and is even helping other addicts find their sobriety. 12 simple steps and his life has been transformed. He's living the kind of life beyond what he could have ever imagined possible.
"We're all just walking each other home." -Ram Dass
. “I can do nothing for you but work on myself…you can do nothing for me but work on yourself!”
Ram Dass
Beautiful comment
“If I knew the way, I would take you home.” Lots of lost souls out there. 🙏🏻
We're all Kali-Yuga dumpster babies if we want to be. Paramatma is just waiting to guide us home. Like 2 birds in a tree. One eating the fruits of happiness & distress.(jiva)The other bird(supersoul) God is just waiting for us to turn around and acknowledge that He's there. Life after life. It's up to us.
Whoever knew him from YT and offered to get high with him is terrible! How could you watch his videos and want to contribute to something he deeply struggles with and obviously tears him up inside. It almost killed him, don’t get me wrong its of course his responsibility too but to know he has an addiction and then feed into it is terrible to me😔
Was just thinking the same… screw that woman
I completely agree with you!!
Misery loves company
AGREE 100%
They are addicts too. He seems to have money. So.....
Just watched the whole series on Patrick.
You speak things that a lot of us can relate to. Stay strong friend, you're worth more than where the drugs will lead you (you know this) .
Glad to see you doing well, rooting for you!
Speaking as someone who had 20 years into heroin before recovery, he speaks exactly like someone who has decades into his addiction, understands it but still struggles. It's a cliche but true that, as he says, getting high is great but its everything that comes with it, the arrests, the hospital trips,the endless sickness...
Congrats on your recovery!!!
Thirded ☝🏻
Congratulations on your recovery 👏❤ He wasn't ready you can want something because it sounds right or good but until you truly are done there is no help in the world that will make someone stop.
Nailed it!! Congratulations on your recovery!!!
The battlefield of the mind.
I've been thinking about this guy, and hoping he would get better. I hope his ego can dissolve enough to let himself succeed. I've been there, my friend. You only get so many chances. And breaths.
I will nevet forget what one of my sponsors told me when i was toying with an obsessive idea of smoking crack again. Something that i hadnt done in 20 years. I didnt do it because she said to me .....you can try and relapse and come back but hear this not all of us have another relapse in us. We might not make it back
I’ve binged all of the Patrick videos today and somehow I went from rooting for him, to still rooting for him but also realizing how incredibly privileged and spoiled he is.
He may actually need to hit rock bottom if he’s ever going to change.
I feel like you are absolutely right
I agree for the most part. But he also worked for everything, Nothing was just given to him. The fact his job still employs him is nuts. He must be an excellent engineer. It seems like his parents do a lot of enabling as well. But like you said skid row rock bottom may be what he needs to permanently get on track...
Sadly, I totally agree with you. Still rooting for him though.
Spoiled in which way?!
Addiction doesn’t care about privilege. It’s a red eyed monster that wants only pleasure, chaos, and oblivions release. And it exists in all of to one degree or another. Fuck off with your “privileged and spoiled” bullshit. We’re all human beings going through it as best we can.
He is just not ready to give up the drugs.
Yep, he's going all round the houses making all sorts of excuses. He hasn't let go of the drugs yet.
Amen
I agree. Needs to grow up some, too.
Sadly you could see the excitement in his eyes that he isnt done yet with crack. You can see it when he talks
@@monicabroussard840 I agree
I JUST LOVE PATRICK!!!! You are incredible! At this point when I see you, I just SMILE! YOU ARE THE PERFECT STRANGER! Yet, I feel like I know you!!! Sending you hugs and love!!!!!! ❤️
Isn’t that incredible! I feel the same about Patrick.
@James Topham That statement you just made was some fake a** hating a** sh*t. Take that negativity and flush it down the toilet man.
@James Topham so sad that YOU take time out of your day to spread negativity and make assumptions about people you don’t know.
@James Topham I guess I didn’t realize spreading love was “blowing praise up there arse”. Your hate is not needed under this post. Stop wasting time here and go spend time on the things you deem worthy.
@James TophamWhy are you watching them? You do realize that those who are on this channel displaying their weaknesses, many times had something traumatic happen to them or potentially a mental illness that leads them on this path. If you’re not into it, don’t waste your time watching the videos or commenting on another persons feelings about what they’re watching. Just keep your time invested in what you personally have an interest in. ✌🏼
After watching this man's story on here, to see him now... clean but clearly fragile gives me hope for myself. His last words... "We're all just walking each other home." broke me. Such a beautiful line when I'm feeling so lost. God bless you, Patrick.
So long as people keep saving him, hes gonna keep sacrificing himself for the moment.
Even if that's true, it is better than ending up homeless on skid row. I do not believe that people should not help others, even if it is for a thousand times.
@@thematriarchy2075 its not helping him though. Thats the problem. Its enabling him.
@@mustachadon We do not really know that. One thing is for sure though, the more excluded people are, the harder it gets to re-connect. Look at how the US treats addicts, that's a good example of how people get pushed outside the circle, on a bigger scale.
Here for a fun time, not a long time
@@thematriarchy2075 how is this dude at all excluded?
He looks INCREDIBLE! I can’t wait to watch this all the way through. Thank you for continuously coming back to us Patrick!
I live in Worcester. This is not the city to get clean in, our crack problem is out of control. You look great though, keep going man! You CAN do it.
@patrick @softwhiteundedbelly Patrick you’re not ready and all the “reasoning” is not serving you at all. And too bad the people around you don’t soften or cushion your bottom. It was a hard lesson for me someone had to die for me to get the “psychic change” needed to just let go. You clean up well and I can see why people like you you’re super great! You still have ideas until you just say show me you will ok my experience get that help.
I just hope with all of these IDEAS you still have that you are still alive to tell the story. Everyone who loves Patrick please let the bottom be concrete now feather. I PRAY (to whom ever you choose) I hope you don’t clean so quickly I hope you one day not talk about staying sober forever that’s too much pressure. There is a solution
And all of this is my opinion because I am you. And interestingly enough that will kill you. Surrender !!
@andrea lawent agree
Hi K 🖐️
@Samantha Love He looks very tense to me. He acts like a big baby and I'm sure his Mother baby's him.
Patrick your story saved my life ...i was at the very beginning of smoking crack it was my 4 or 5th time and then i saw your first interview, and another and another...i will never smoke crack again
Ik this was 5 months ago but i hope ur doing ok still :)
@@katherinespreitzer9365 thank you for your kindness Katherine! Believe me or not i didn't touch crack never again. Patrick really made a huge impact on me..wish he would knew what his story did to me and probably lot of other people to. Hope he's doing okay now
Keep going strong brother 💪💪
"I spend way too much time thinking to know so little".....(let that sink in). This was a great interview!
The thing I recognize in Patrick that I as a recovering addict recognize in myself is thinking I know what’s best for me and no one can tell me shit. Sometimes we need to just get humble and listen to others that have been on the path longer than us. And it is hard to do when you’ve been to so many programs and meetings but we gotta remain teachable always. You can never be too dumb to recover but you can be too smart.
I just binge watched Patrick’s story. Thank you for sharing. You’ve got this Patrick and I’m looking forward to the next one. You are an inspiration to the millions of followers on this channel.
It is incredibly saddening when you hear people leading others to the same drug they struggle with (the fentanyl scenario). Like you absolutely know the burden it put on you personally but lead someone to the same struggle. That really breaks my heart.
You put that nicely. I was so pissed at that woman for inviting him to use with her when she watches him on this channel and knows his struggles.
@@Noonecares3203 Absolutely, say hello, perhaps give some words of encouragement and let them know you too are fighting the same battle. I will never understand a person leading another to a drug. Like here try this, you “may” enjoy it today but it will be like hell on earth in the future. I know we all have our own free will but don’t introduce or offer it to someone knowing how much damage it can do.
Not making excuses for anyone, but that's the beast of addiction.. It's like having a mind of it's own inside your own mind
@@newkingdom6750 I understand people do what they normally wouldn’t do when they’re using drugs. They stoop to lows they wouldn’t if it weren’t for the drug. I just can’t fathom offering someone a drug and potentially changing their life for the worse forever. That makes me incredibly upset to hear things like that. It’s not just a night of fun… it’s potentially going to change another person’s life forever. That sh*t’s no joke…
@@aliciablanchard2500 yes I agree it's serious and again not making excuses.. what you "can't fathom" is what I was trying to bring understanding to.. addiction will literally make you lose your own conscience which causes one to do the things they would never normally do.
I sincerely wish him the best. I'm not sure what else to say. I watch these videos with him, and his story resonates. I honestly think about him from time to time, hoping for the best. Best of luck, Patrick.
I'm desperate to hear how Patrick is doing! The fact that it has been so long now is worrying, but hopefully he is still clean!
Read the comments.his loved ones update his recovery on here
Patrick, first I’m in your corner for sure and honesty continues to be a trend in your interviews. The honesty is in your story telling but not in your self introspection at least in a genuine way. If I may, I’d like to call you out on some things that I think are true but you haven’t mentioned, and this stuff is true of me too. Your selfishness is automatic and operates on auto pilot with no remorse when you use. You are a momas boy, and that’s not an insult, but it’s a significant crutch. Your dad doesn’t matter to you enough. You have no threatening consequences to your actions. You always have a clean start when you screw everyone over. Job, money, friends. There are literally no consequences for you, just for others. The unconditional love you get from others is taken for granted time and time again. It’s like you have infinite lives on an arcade game. The only way out is to abhor the addiction actions to a consistent level that overcomes your compulsions to use. You have to HATE it. Literal HATE. I’m glad that you know Jesus because he won’t let you go and is waiting on you just like he did for me to surrender fully. Full surrender doesn’t mean perfection but it does mean becoming more and more like Christ as time passes. Find something that is better than golf. Find a true calling brother and make a damn difference in this world before it’s too late.
Soooooooooooooo true!
Golf's great, especially competitive scenes. Let us golf!!
Absolutely. He is completely in denial to his moms enabling. I can’t imagine having been to rehab 20+ times and still having my mom there to pick up the pieces and move me out of my apartment. What??? Does she wipe his ass, too? I have compassion for Patrick as he’s obviously an exceptional guy but he’s not an exceptional addict. He’s so boringly textbook with his addiction and he needs to stop falling back on his “specialness” as that’s just a hindrance to getting and staying sober. He doesn’t seem to be very aware of his triggers and how to manage them. You need to start rewiring your brain which means building back the reward centers to something other than crack. Psych meds actually might help with the compulsively and I’m someone who is pretty antipharma but it definitely has its place. He needs to get out of LA or at least try to make it very inconvenient to get to skid row. I dunno, as self aware as Patrick is he seems woefully in denial about the other toxic parts of his life including his enabling family.
@@theangriestoftabbies Patrick is really intelligent and is aware of everything he is doing and the patterns that leads to his relapses (not like most addicts). I believe he is also aware about his mothers unconditional love. The issue lies in within himself, he knows what it takes to stop this addiction for good but he isn't willing to give it up. ( he talked about freedom vs living sober forever in an institution).
Patrick looks so much better today bless you Patrick and please know that theres lots of us behind you xx
Patrick been crossing my mind of late. Looking for a 2022 update. Sending love 🖤🖤🖤
I have been wondering the same thing! Hope it is going well for him.
God I pray he's safe and healthy still
Why are we celebrating his 21st failure at rehab. He doesn't want to do the program, he wants to do it his way.....he goes then quits..... clearly his way isn't working.
He did three months , that’s a lot of time!
No shit. Lol
Because that's 21 tries at bettering himself, and we should never shit on someone trying to heal.
It's not how many times you fail, it's how many times you get back up
@@priderosenkranz4938 very true hes no quitter...and thats his issue.
@@jenniferdreves823 not long enough apparently!
So happy to see this guy again thank god your doing so well. This guy inspired me to stop drinking and I am over 5 months sober.
Patrick gets it. He’s sees the narrow path. Faith is everything. Hope he is well
Hang in there Patrick 💪💪
Never give up!
No matter how many times you try
Do it again and again♡♡♡
You are worth it ♡♡
I like you
You are an amazing person ❤
It all boils down to selfishness, and self hate! As a recovering addict my experience is until I started honestly appreciating my life, and stopped being a spoiled brat, and promised myself I wouldn’t say fuck it anymore, recovery was possible for me. Helping others, staying honest, and doing the next right thing keeps me sober. I didn’t get sober for others, I made a decision to not live that way anymore. Praying for you Patrick. You have to want it. 🙏🏻💗
Good comment.
So very true! Awesome comment!
Poor Patrick is kinda horribly clueless. Just listening to him tells me at this point, hope he survives his next relapse. Patrick has never had to suffer the consequences of his addiction. Someone always steps in to rescue him. Buddy, I really wish you the best. But your enablers are going to love you todeath.
We live paradise however some of us are taught to be victims my childhood friend said exactly the same as you
@@robinw4039 you never know is what I've been told apparently the coin can drop or *moment of clarity* can happen at point
reminds me so much of someone I know
Very intelligent but massive immaturity
Lost my brother to an overdose recently. He was such a great person and everyone loved him. He was just like Patrick in a lot of ways. He also loved God and I remember one of the last things he said to me was how he was always doing better in life when he was following God. Pat if you see this, I hope you’re doing alright.
I hope youre doing okay brother, im sorry for your loss
He is borderline amazing, smart and honest or amazing, smart witted, and manipulative.. I’m not sure if he’s a likable guy who unfortunately does drugs or does drugs and learned to be a likable guy to get what he wants.. love you Patrick I wish it was enough
Your comment is pretty old and you probably don't even remember writing it... But I wanted to tell you that this is a very interesting way to look at it.
It always bothers me that the likeable people on this channel are praised to high heavens as if their tragic past excused everything they've done. They're praised as these incredibly smart people who have a good heart.
On the other hand, some people are judged brutally because they're not as charming, not as beautiful and somehow don't evoke the feeling of pity or compassion in the viewers. There's comments saying things like "being abused doesn't excuse these actions", which is totally hypocritical.
I think you hit the nail on the head. It's such a realistic way of looking at these messy people. Nothing is black or white. And a lot of these people ARE smart, amazing, beautiful - but they use that with bad intentions.
I wish you so much happiness Patrick.
Just my personal observation is that I don’t see or feel Joy in Patrick. Happiness is fleeting but joy is more constant. I believe Patrick is chasing happiness…drugs, work, golf ect…. things that are outside himself. My understanding of Joy is it’s a inside job not an outside one. Joy for me is a continuous feeling of gratitude even when things are at their worst. It’s dropping in a place of peace that nothing outside of myself.. people, places or things are allowed to change that frequently of peace and joy. Personal boundaries allows me to protect my inner world while the outside world is in complete chaos. I believe Patrick is chasing everything outside himself. He needs constant feedback from friends, family ect…. Those things will all be temporary happiness for Patrick because he’s looking for outside validation. He’s a great guy but craves outside circumstances to feel Joy and that is not sustainable. God Bless.
Well said
He is very needy and has to have constant reaffirmation....he does not have any joy, you are right.
Exactly! I think this is the real issue... but people are not aware of this difference... only when I have started to feel this kind of peacefull joy that came from some inner silence i suppose, I realize the difference...
I find those words to be synonymous but I know what you're saying and you're spot on with the essence of contentment
I just looked up Joy to see the difference and it does seem to be a greater form of pleasure in life itself. It is derived from rejoice.
I like the new made up term called Anti-Fragile.
Coming from the concept of challenges and obstacles being strengthening to one's spirit.
My family is praying for you, Patrick. Start viewing the addiction as part of your past and NOT part of who you are. Much love to you, brother!
An addict pretending to not be an addict anymore is asking for relapse - from myself (an addict), support groups, therapists etc. It is always a part of you. One day at a time. Go to 16 minutes in the video and you can hear him talk about this also.
Screw the girl who knew he was a struggling addict and chose to offer him drugs anyway. No, it’s not entirely her fault, but it’s still a very low-down thing to do on her part.
He said he asked for it, but yea the whole thing sucks
He’s a big boy. Choices. That’s all it is. Coming from a person who lived this life for 35 years.
@@derekmatuja583 To me, it seems like he's not really. This all started for him in college if I remember correctly, and the way he described the girl and trying fent to fit in or whatever is exactly how I was in college (not with the same drugs though). Weed typically gives me anxiety attacks, yet when I was in college and a cute girl offered me weed, I was toking it up. It's just immature behavior.
Patrick's honesty gave me the courage to be honest about my problems. So thank you Patrick!
I just want you to know you are loved by so many people Patrick. We’re all rooting for you! You’ve got this! ❤️
The girl he met on the street after walking away from sober living could have been a positive influence if she had just kept walking after telling Patrick she recognized him. Especially after knowing his story.
I really like Patrick, That being said. He is a master manipulator. It’s a trait most of us pick up from addiction.He tells us want we want to hear. With all that said, Cut the bullshit. You’re a great guy. You can’t pray this shit away. Good luck,
Couldn’t agree more. Sadly I don’t believe a single word he says
He has tried pretty hard did 4 months sober a week high now sober.
God has removed the obsession for many.
I agree. I got half way through the video before I had to stop. My gut feeling is that he really doesn’t want to accept responsibility for his own actions and that he is enabled by others to continue living like this and avoiding self responsibility. He probably could turn his life around, and he appears to have a lot of opportunity to do that. He just doesn’t want to. At least not yet. It is hard to accept responsibility for your own actions. He tells the truth about what he does, but he’s not telling the truth about his own accountability for his situation.
@@Tdawgmcginty Me neither..creepy as hell.
I hope we can get an update on Patrick soon. ❤️
OMG, PATRICK!!!! FEELS LIKE I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS UPDATE FOR YEARS NOW
There's a whole bunch of addicts that never get addressed here; videogames. It would be nice to have an interview with a gaming addict. I was one for many years and I looked basically like a meth addict; no shower, underweight because I never ate, never combed my hair, never got out of my bedroom, barely ate...
It'd be interesting to hear about that too.
@@YourInASoulTrap you seem like a pos yourself
Would be cool to hear about diff addictions outside of drug and alcohol use. The stories that you don't typically hear about are the most interesting to me.
I agree, this is HUGE! I've seen people throw their careers, spouses, finances all away due to video game additions. It's an epidemic that is never discussed. And what is sad is that, children are protected from drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes, but nobody bats an eye at all the electronic stimulation starting at age 2. Too much technology. If a 2 year old throws a fit, a parent hands them a phone to keep them quiet. Then they get older and it escalates from there as video games are pretty much a staple in American upbringing. It is also a segway into other electronic addictions such as pornography. And the list goes on. Thanks for sharing that little tidbit, and I am so glad you were able to get your life back. 🧡🙌
Food addiction as well is a massive issue.
I’d love this topic
Seeing how much better and healthier he looks is an awesome thing to behold.
Always love this guys story. He’s become the relatable figurehead of all addicts nationwide for me. If he makes it we all make it. Go Patrick!❤️
Stop talking crap
@@markrichardson6402 I agree
Woah there buddy! Don't put that responsibility on the poor boys head! We've all gotta fight our own battles.....so yeah GO Patrick......Go all of us!!! U R NOT ALONE!
Thank you for sharing your life with us Patrick you have no idea how much hope you give some of us. My brother has been struggling with Heroin addiction for years and everyday I'm afraid will be his last day. But then I come here and see you. Thank you for giving me a glimmer of hope I love him so much and I'm so afraid for him. You stay diligent Patrick so many of us are rooting for you and care to see you happy and successful. 🌻❤️🙏🏽
My younger brother suffered with a meth addiction for many years. He's now a successful business owner, great father, amazing husband. I often think back to the days when I would let my mom go to voice-mail every time for fear she'll tell me he was dead. There is definitely hope, is what I'm trying to say. Much love to you & your family! It's hard to watch someone you love go through addiction & you're not alone! 🤗
God bless your brother and your family. Cant imagine watching a family member going through this.. He will be in my prayers.🙏
I was right to be scared for my brother. He passed away on October 2nd, alone kneeling in his best friend's backyard. I wasn't going to comment but someone liked mine and it showed up in my notification. I'm just heartbroken without him if you're in trouble and you're reading this you have to get help because this drug will take your life and along with it your family's heart. God be with all of you.
I'm so glad he's back he's by far my favorite interviewer he's super open and honest and seems like he is really a smart guy with a successful career and he is one of the people u would never think did drugs 💯 love the content man keep it up buddy
The back and forth of this guy is so frustrating to me, I can't imagine being someone close to him.
He's toxic
@@8Jah Absolutely - and he is full of himself!
My hearts aches for his parents.
We all just LOVE Patrick!! I was so happy to see his face pop up in my feed.
we ?
Not me! I think he's creepy and weird!
I dunno. I'm starting to think that Patrick feels like if he comes to the interview and airs all his dirty laundry out, then it's ok for him to continue what he is doing. Like going to confession and then continuing to sin (for those religious folks). It has to come to a point where he takes responsibility for what he is doing. His family and friends excusing his behavior just because he is on here being honest is not going to help. Like someone else on here said, he is a manipulator. He is the epitome of the saying "it's easier to ask for forgiveness than permission"
Yeah... That doesn't work when it happens for all the world to see. Exposing your failures and addictions to the world doesn't give you any feeling of rationalization to keep doing them. If anything you feel worse about it. Addiction tries its best to hide. You only go raw like this if you want to get better. But wanting isn't enough. Sometimes you need extra help.
I could see why people would think that but it couldnt be further from the truth.
Its his way of "shedding layers of his onion", if you will.
Hes trying to get to his "real".
The biggest detriment as an addict is that when you get sober that thought of "well, ive done great so ill just reward myself with just one hit" and you run that loop over and over and over and over in your head.
@@HonkeyKongLive you have to keep in mind not all addicts are the same.
He relapses because he’s an addict this isn’t some grand scheme lol
Yea he seems off to me . I dont think he's sober or atleast stayed sober.
Bless his mother..... I can't even imagine how she feels.
Poor thing. She must worry constantly. 😪
@@joolzg1936 She needs to let go, this guy is a narcissist!
@@joolzg1936 Worrying is a disease in itself
Perhaps she has found or will try naranon for family and friends of addicts.
He has rehab speak down to a science, he won't get on the real road to recovery until he gets sick of making excuses.
I love patrick. His story hit so close to home. I appreciate him doing these videos so much 💕💕💕 thank you mark
The one we’ve been waiting for! 🥺
Patrick has loads of charisma and potential to do good in this world. Unfortunately, he is also a master manipulator. I wish him the best either way. I can't help but follow his journey.
not that i necessarily disagree, but in what way do you think he is a master manipulator? i hadn't considered that as being a characteristic of Patrick's and I am interested to know how you think he is. cheers
@@mrmortimerbiotic That is just my assessment after watching him for the past few months.
He has been to rehab some 20 times and admitted to taking advantage of everyone from his mom to his employer.
@@onebadfishtoo fair enough! I haven't yet finished this video so looking forward to seeing what else comes up. He is a fascinating person.
@@mrmortimerbiotic yeah he is.
I’m rooting for him to succeed.
I don’t see him as being manipulating, remember this man is extremely smart and well educated.
Addiction is a life long fight. More power to him.
To those viewers or subscribers that are drug users, PLEASE do not offer drugs to the people you see on this channel….
We look up to these brave souls and if anything you should be asking them for help of your not giving them help.
That’s a really inhumane thing to do if the persons trying to get clean and has some clean time behind their belt already or whatever. If they are dopesick , begging and crawling for drugs I’d help them but that’s controversial. I don’t want to be contributing to their misery
Yeah, seriously. Eff that girl. Wtf
This guy is amazing to watch ! Great content as always .
Ive been anxiously waiting to see Patrick's update. 🥰🥰 I have adored him since his first video. I want to see him succeed so badly. Im commenting before I've even watched, I just got so damn happy when I saw that cute face of his and that it was an update🤗🤗 I hope its good news...lol. Either way, super glad to see his face😊
SAME 100% , Praying he gets it !
Same here, even yesterday I remembered about him! Really wish he is ok
Same.
...sigh.😔
@@thekatt... Yeah😒
It's good to be a big man
Will there be an 2022 update on Patrick? Really interested in how he's doing. Currently starting my 2nd run at sobriety and his story has been really eye opening for me.
Patrick is so intelligent and handsome. I love seeing his videos. I truly hold out hope for his sobriety and success. I live in Arizona, spend time in the desert! Arizona is something truly special.
I agree with all you've said, but I am biased to my home state Washington in the PNW.
He has some healthy weight on him now, love it
Great to see you bubba
One thing I’ve learned about my own addiction is to always hold myself accountable. As a single dude, I don’t have anyone to tell me not to do anything (not that I’d listen to them anyway) but when I hold myself accountable, I’m successful in staying away from things that hurt my body about 95% of the time.
Rooting for you Patrick, stay strong homenuggets!!
Yeah 👍🏼I totally agree. Nobody makes choices for you. At least as a adult and the things that come with getting high or addiction.
I had a druggie friend, that tried to say I was the reason he started smoking crack. I was blown away.😱. I have never tried to get anyone to try crack cocaine. If anything I would want to keep it all for myself.
Go figure. Hah ha! Since I have been clean I tried calling to see if he’s doing good. But the number was changed.
Homenuggets. Best comment ever!
Love this comment!
I am so happy to have found this channel. It reminds me of the blessings I have in my life. Thank you Matt and everyone who shares their story.
I’m so glad I did a quick search to see if there’s an update and don’t know how I’ve missed this, but absolutely delighted to see Patrick (honestly for better or worse, but hoping for better) and that he’s still with us with hope.
I’m so invested in this gentleman’s recovery, he’s in the biggest battle of his life and my goodness he has an army behind him wishing him the best in getting out of his addiction.
Thank you Mark for updating us and also thank you Patrick for being brave enough to continue to share your journey in its rawest form. God bless you sir
Thank u for the update, I'm invested in this guy now really want him to do well
We believe in you Patrick, hope you're doing well!! 🤗❤
I feel like Patrick's favorite topic of discussion is himself and his addiction and hes not ready to loose that side of himself yet.
It's like he's enjoying overthinking it. Not to mention he's obviously being protected from hitting rock bottom.
That's it, in a nutshell!
Exactly!!! He could talk about himself and his addiction 24/7.
The ego is an obstacle to successful recovery.
Great remark!
Thats all he’s ever been
None of those rehabs he went to, or will go to, is gonna help him until he wants it for himself. Until he wants it he'll continue to get high. It's that simple
Agreed
He has to hit HIS bottom. Only then will he want to be free
Or you could actually deal with brain chemistry rather than this stupid gibberish about “wanting” it
@@Asshat237 The brain chemistry of every addict is abnormal. But some get clean/sober, and others don't. How do you explain that?
@@Asshat237 I want to shoot down your comment but, you actually make a good point and I’m starting to think it would be the better area to focus
Mark your channel is so beautiful. Patrick, thank you for sharing your journey with us. Your honesty is so refreshing. Your hope is so beautiful. I am also Christian & I pray for healing over your addiction.
I think that a lot of people are taken with him because they don’t know the extent addicts will go to in order to keep fueling their addiction. As somebody who dealt with one firsthand for nearly a decade, I can tell you that they lie so well they fool themselves. He’s honest with his story, to some degree. But the issue would not persist if he was more honest with himself.
Absolutely agree.
It seems like he doesn’t want to get to the bottom of it. I think if he wanted to he could.
Yup.🎯 "The degree to which a person can grow is directly proportional to the amount of truth they can accept about themself without running away."
You know nothing about addiction if you think just "being honest with yourself" will straighten you out.
@@crabmansteve6844 Exactly. These people are looking at this from the outside, it doesnt sound like theyve ever experienced addiction.
"My mind's dancing with it." Fascinating young man and interview. Thank you!
He’s 40…
@@tink58bell That's young to me. Hope that's ok with you...
@@skyking228 nope
Probably my favorite person on this channel. I hope so deeply that Patrick makes it out of his prison.
I love how Patrick's family just keeps on loving him.
They're likely going to love him to death, literally. He needs a hard bottom, not a soft landing.
@@parkerholt8097 Very true but as someone who has been through this with a loved one you do reach a point where you just decide to love them while you have them. It's a hard call but the more you try to help the farther they pull away so you must make a choice that you can live with.
@@LM4210 that makes sense. I wasn't trying to be insensitive or ugly. Thank you for sharing. I've been sober almost 20 yrs and it wasn't until my Mom said "you're about to not know me anymore" and I was out of options, did I give up, stopped fighting and did the work.
I'm so much like him it's scary. I care what people think about me so much, that practically all of my successes are not because I'm motivated or driven, but because I'm afraid to fail and let people down. I don't love myself either. My addiction was pills, opioids. We are also similar in that our self awareness is so high, it almost gets in the way. I'm pulling for you Patrick.
That’s not self aware - it’s ego.
It’s pure ego dude … this isn’t self awareness
Are you clean now Ryan?
@@thatswhatshesaid6326 Yes. July 11, 2008. Thanks.
@@WTPFirearms that’s awesome ❤️
I love all these series but Patrick is my favorite, because he’s so authentic, raw and really funny. His honesty is endearing. I pray he continues to seek God and continues to press in and break through the veil.
I've watched all of his videos, he has to many safety nets. Patrick needs to depend solely on himself, from rock bottom, or he'll never get it. He knows his job is there waiting, family and friends, it's called tough love for a reason.
100%
I’m new to Patrick’s videos. What type of work does he do?
@@kathleenwyatt563 Civil Engineer for the municipality.
@@stovepipe1015 Thank you!
Tough love doesn't work, just ends up with dead children.