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Imagine listening to this first thing on a morning where you don't have to do anything. Blackout curtains cover the windows, and there's a chill in the air. It's not freezing, but it is cold enough to make staying under those covers all the more enticing. For a moment in time you get to simply exist. No demands, no responsibilities, just a quiet existence.
For me, the giant monstrous figure with large pointed antlers represents the bottled-up emotions I've kept inside. It’s as if these feelings have grown into something overwhelming, demanding to be acknowledged. If I allow myself to truly feel and release them, I believe it would shrink, revealing a more docile creature beneath its intimidating exterior.
“I warn thee, human, once the contract is accepted, you will lose all of your current memories, and any potential memories you could have in the future, nothing of you will be left, anywhere.”
*reads terms of contract* ... But I'll exist. The contract states I will lose all of my CURRENT memories and any POTENTIAL memories I could have in the future. This implies who I was and that person who would be moving forward is gone. So tell me what then, demon? Will I then be a whole new person? If so, I find these terms acceptable: Maybe this time I will be someone worth remembering.
Things like this make me truly believe there is no better form of communication, on a spiritual and emotional level than music. I know I may never meet any of you, but for this still moment while we all rest together here. I wish the best for all of you. Your time is coming soon Until then... Rest with us for a while.
For a video called "Soul Contract", I didn't expect it to be so relaxing 💙 It feels like a gentle, warm hug with the grim reaper. Like I'm quietly accepting my life is over, but I know I'll be safe in the next one
Despite the weariness you felt since making that deal, you and the beastial presence have come to an understanding or even acceptance of one another. Life isn't much different with an infernal spirit watching over you. The demon, like you, simply lives its life one moment at a time, embracing the moments of quiet between the struggle. You are from different planes of reality, yet you see yourself in its ink black gaze. The world is desolate and cold for both of you, but you have one another.
Yes but it's wants and desires are a continual battle to hold back and keep leashed as is always at the end and this leash is pulled soo taut it too screams its Tension and Contempt at being held back from the self indulging satisfaction of wrecking devastation upon any and all that have or will forsake us times 3 ( the Beast Myself and the Tie that bonds us. The Leash.) And as Moretension is applied I realize I'm the weakest link and as I struggle to hold/ keep my grip. I feel a splash and think to myself. This is Hell there's no way there's water and I chance a quick look up in da sky's careful so as to not Draw attention and relief, cold I C Rane.😢 forever to be shafted by Mortenson but what a job and no. I Skyrizen so idon't look down I look to where I'm going only up! Sooo you, better watch where I'm going After Fall! 😮
If you're feeling overwhelmed, it might be because you're too exhausted or stressed by something in your life. Take a moment to relax and be honest with yourself; don't try to run away from it. You'll feel more at ease once you find the right path forward. Wishing you the best of luck.
That happens to me a lot. If it ever gets too annoying, you just have to move your head (doesn't matter how) and it goes away immediately. But I like it sometimes because it can feel like I'm dreaming while I know I'm still awake
This beast is within you, a shadow of unsolved matter. To resolve it is to face it, embrace it, and welcome it back. Not keeping it in the dark where it grows lonely and bitter. The beast is you.
@@demonicinspirer751 Only we can define what dark and light means to ourselves. When whatever we are meant to be get stagnant and left alone, bad things happen. These bad things can however help us find our way back and teach us things about ourselves. Knowing what we want to be is important, but more important than that even, is the fact that you don't have to find yourself or know yourself. You already are yourself.
This is my new sleep track. I love this. The feeling of complete emptiness, yet it's filled with something both haunting and beautiful. The theme of this and the vibe it gives off reminds me of that initial burst of bliss of having nothing in your head, no thoughts, no emotions, after painful years of depression, a silence that is so deafening it obscures who I.. was. That renewed ignorance that maybe, just maybe, today would be the day to change my life for the better. A day that is inevitably never coming. It never did. This beauty it portrays is a facade for the loneliness and sadness that hides beneath. It is too much to bear alone, but you're not alone. There will always be someone, somewhere, that would travel the world to see you home safe, and go great lengths to see you prosper. It serves as a reminder that you are enough, and that you're worth the trouble to save. I was, and so are you. Even when you're alone and scared, and feel as if the world has abandoned you and moved on, you have someone in your life who cares for you. That will never change. Take care out there, wanderer. I know that someday you learn to forgive yourself, and to love yourself. ♡
Thank you for staying in this world, thank you for loving this life more. Thank you for everything. You’ve done so well. Sending my sincerest prayers to you, wishing you peace on your journey ahead💖
I'm afraid I need my soul for when my time is up. But even if this is our reality I wouldn't mind simply relaxing, waiting for it all to end hopefully in a peaceful way.
Lotta women feel the same way. Gotta be heard being a run through hot dog heating unit. Can't imagine having many miles worth of bologna put through me on a yearly basis. 😂
Sometimes, I wish I had the heart to tell him. Sometimes I wish I never knew him at all. He’s so sweet- kind, gentle. You’d never know what he’s been through after a few hours of talking, maybe even just sitting. He had a bad life before high school. Work and parents, the “standard” placed upon him since they knew he was alive in her stomach. He said it was tough, but he was tougher. I wish he came back. After high school, he just sort of… disappeared. Well- he never really “disappeared” for me, I texted him every day, after all. I could hear his voice when he responded back. It was always that same gentle, lullaby-like rumble in his chest. It made me feel like I was talking to him, face to face. I finally got to see him- after what felt like years. 8, to be exact. His eyes were almost lifeless. His smile - the one I knew and savored - gone. Replaced with a ghost of what once was full of joy. There were heavy eyebags under those eyes. Small chapping on those full lips I dreamed and daydreamed of kissing, just once. “Tired?” “Yeah, just a little bit.” “From what?” “Work.” After that, I invited him to stay at my house. He had lost his house to a fire- one of those billowing ones that makes the back of your head scream that if it doesn’t stop now it’ll never stop. He was scared of fire after that. I couldn’t blame him. I’m scared of bugs. He worked at home. Though, he’d go to an office about every two days. Every time he came back it was late. The latest I think was three. He’d fall asleep on the couch those days, and then wake right back up at five like he had rested a good 7 or 8 hours. Today he had an off-day, a rare occasion. “Why did you never call?” I don’t think he was ready for that question. He… sort of stiffened on his bed before looking up at me, those almost lifeless eyes showing off… fear. “What’re you talking about?” “I asked if you wanted to call, and you’d say no or have an excuse.” “I… I don’t remember that.” “It’s okay, I figured it was because you didn’t like my voice an-” “I love your voice.” His tone made me flinch back a little, that and the hard, determined glare in his sunken eyes. “I love your voice than your mother.” I bit my lip a little. He was probably just saying that. It didn’t really matter to me before, but it did now. I dropped the topic before I probably should’ve. Maybe, he would’ve stayed if I had kept going- see where that went. But I didn’t. And now? Now he’s dead. He left late that night to get groceries. I told him he didn’t need to, but he said something about needing to clear his head from “unwanted thoughts.” I’m scared to dwell on what those thoughts could’ve been of. A thief. Shoplifter maybe. Now killer. He tried to get the gun out of the damn man’s hands, and got a bullet straight through the chest. Why’d it have to be him? I’m… a liar. He’s alive. Attached to a machine, in a coma. How long has it been? Maybe… maybe two years now. I can’t live with myself, and now? All that repeats in my head is… Sometimes, I wish I had the heart to tell him. And sometimes, I wish I never knew him at all. {Just a small lil thing I wrote. None of it's real for me personally, but for the people who can relate, if every single detail is the same as you remember it, I'm here for you. Please, don't do something you can't undo. It won't be better if you're gone, because what if he wakes up? No matter what, someone will be there to love you. You might not be able to see them-- heck, you can't even see me, but I love you. Okay? You matter.}
I'm not sure how, but I feel a wierd deep connection with this video, thank you, this is truly healing, we all need this at some point. I believe that is why a lot of us are here!
I hadn't thought about this, but when I read your comment and reflected on it, it really does seem that way. Thank you for giving me a more well-rounded perspective
@@thepainwaryeah the photo and music has actually been a big inspiration towards my music. I tend to play hard fast metal but this music and image gave me a vibe that has resulted in some interesting breaks in my music. Giving it time to breathe, a more sinister breath albeit. Actually changed my background to the wallpaper and the music is perfect to help soothe me into sleep. I'm a powerful dreamer so its a perfect Segway into unique altered dreaming. Wake up with a mood and play it out. Kudos to u 👏
have i been struggling to write code for nearly 4 hours for a fairly simple problem? yes. have I managed to avoid absolute madness while writing code because of such beautiful music? also yes.
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i wish i could be standing were they are in the picture (also i love this music.. its helping me cry but tbh i rly needed it so imma deff come back here
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The AI generated image reminds me of how I wanna be so many things or creatures, especially a feral monster that looks as if I'd snap you in half. But at the same time I wanna be a calm human that wants to remember & understand our lore. Or a computer. Right now, I have a volume booster at 600% & at 7:33 the sound's so kewl imo.
I usually do not sit through background music vids this long but this one just hit the right spot. I have listened to the entire duration of it several times now working. Thank you for uploading it!
People are like warm fires in a home that allows the feeling to be like a dream. Does anyone know this, it's good. And then like do you know being trapped in a dream that's good too.
I sold my self-empathy for the ability to seek forbidden knowledge. I know secrets the world around me doesn't, but those secrets tear me, and everything I touch, apart. The only thing I can do now is warn others. Stay away from knowledge, be wary of the truth. Innocence is only valued by those who lose it.
Just crossing the 70 minute mark. I am floating contently in the warm blackness inside my own daemon. There are fragments in here of places I haven't been to in decades.
"Greetings, my child. You have come a long way to get here, so now you may rest. I have had many names in times passing; both in and before your peoples time. I've seen many of your brothers and sisters come through here, and I will forever remember them. But now I stand before you as you do me. And I stall offer you deliverance, and take you away from damnation. Turn away from the abyss, cleanse yourself of the Sun's rays, and give into your eternal sleep. I will take you into my care, for you will not be alone at the end of your fruitful existence. Remember that your life may be over... but you will not lose yourself. As long as I am here, you and everyone you love will never be truly lost. That is my promise. Goodbye... my beautiful child"
Humungous growling wolf with antlers stares menacingly at a traveler in a thumbnail for an ambient collection titled "SOUL CONTRACT", interesting choice for calm and relaxing tunes.
i feel too lonely now, barely can control my brain's condition and it looks like the consequence.. but i need to learn loneliness. not sure it is even possible. but needed. as for many people being alone, for me even a relatively short time of acute loneliness makes me not able to survive. so i need a beast like this, to be my reason, my mirror to make me feel i exist..
For how common the ability to think is, you would think thought would be everywhere. Yet we, the pioneers in thought, are yet to define it properly. The average thing can think, but the average thing can not have a thought.
Looking at the roots of some words opens little doors for me. "Soul" is one such word. I think many of us hear that and kind of tie it with Christianity, but the word goes back (likely with the same meaning) into Proto-Germanic 500 BC-200 AD. Reconstructions can't pin down it's exact root, but one that seems somewhat likely is that it's linked to "sea"; which may link it to old Germanic beliefs in waters in which the dead and the unborn dwelled. "Sea" itself may be from a meaning of "to be fierce, afflict". This could also link those words to "sore". Either that or it's from a word meaning “to bind”. I like the thought that it's linked to "sea"; which doesn't mean that's true lol, but it'll be at the back of my mind when I see her next. Early AM thoughts, over.
I don’t know what else to write so… I’ll write a poem… since I love poems. Especially when there about her Chills That’s all Chills in the way you take my will My will to say no No, to looking at your eyes Your beautiful gray eyes… I know my feelings may be one sided But Every time you look at me My heart swells Like the wells of water in your eyes Wonderful Wonderful gray eyes I know you have a boyfriend And that’s okay as long as I can stay your friend That’s all I need But But I can’t promise that I don’t wish for more You… your a light in my world Cause if you were not here I… I don’t know I try to be logical and stop these… Feelings It works with everyone else… So why can’t I stop the ones for you I feel like this is becoming more of a letter than a poem But I in the end life is a poem This letter is a poem Your words are poems All strewn with unknown and unique abilities to the others ear Keep Keep that in mind As I keep your gray eyes in mine It’s to sad Sad that you aren’t mine But that’s fine Because as long as you’re happy I am too If we where together and grew old together I’d wish for us to have children But only option is adoption Why? Because two women can’t have children Not biologically Not yet They may never have your gray eyes Nor my green eyes But But I can wish I can hope I love you dear Dearly deep in the abyss of my heart A.P-S And maybe one day + B.S
"It's just you and me now, old friend..." The hulking behemoth shifts; form blurring between icy ash and monolith treehusk. "Must we?" Its voice is thunder-crash and rockfall; its eyes pitch and piercing despite their lack of iris. My hand tightens around my blade. "Must we?" I echo faintly, eyes distant, voice catching, steeling myself; the wind howls, the behemoth shudders. "For what it's worth," I continue, forcing myself forward before I can stop, "I am sorry." The behemoth shudders once more, lowering its head between mountainous shoulders; its horns clacking and bending, lips curling in half-hearted warning. We both know who will win this; this final confrontation. "I know," It rumbles, ichor dripping from split lip. And I know he does; he really does. He always has. It makes this all the more painful.
Welp In a span of 4 months My boyfriend died My hometown was wiped out by a hurricane I got fired And the cherry on top, the studs just sheered off my car 10 minutes from home So this is rock bottom, only place to go is up!
My condolences to you! I hope you try to live well no matter how much life knocks you down. We and your spiritual guardian are always watching over you
Reflect, oh, sentient ones. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength, resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (series)
Life . A soul contract . It should NOT be broken early or feared we made it to value what existing is and when our existence ends we damn the man that comes and takes us ? Why ? The kind man that takes our souls across the river sticks for a meager single coin as he takes us slow calm ride in a boat may we not fear when he takes our hand but the pain of leaving everything our soul has marked during this contract .
i got this on my front page and thought this was a sign a demon was calling me for a contract turns out the "demon" my gf and i joke about she has she sold her soul to to get good dice rolling in DnD has now impacted me after watching this lol I went to roll dice/new character and didn't roll below 12 for my stats
The world had force upon us all, and we were forced to compensate. If indeed evil, then good was honed from it, so keep evil at peace of their own, in having at least that purpose. 'Else force change of evil into good, and forego wasting any further time.
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Thank you so very much, for this beautiful art. Have a blessed week, and a life you deserve. Love, and light to you, and your loved ones. ❤😊
@@DeliaPoleviyaoma Thank you, Praying good things come to you
This generation are just weak and big babies.
@@thepainwar this channel made me fearful of almost everything.
I have respect for this sort of purpose. This channel has my subscription!
Can y’all like this whenever y’all see this comment? I wanna be reminded of this a few months from now when someone does like it.
I don’t know if likes give you reminders, but comments do so hi
9 days
2 weeks
Please just stop
The hell farming is this nonsense idgi add it to a damn playlist
Imagine listening to this first thing on a morning where you don't have to do anything. Blackout curtains cover the windows, and there's a chill in the air. It's not freezing, but it is cold enough to make staying under those covers all the more enticing. For a moment in time you get to simply exist. No demands, no responsibilities, just a quiet existence.
это мечта каждого из нас❤
Actually me right now since I don't have a job yet. It's so relaxing after being so busy with school to just do absolutely nothing after you wake up
Me who really really wants the pic in the background-
Okay, you give me your email and I will send you the background
@@thepainwar how can I do that?
@@Averagetrashfire You can just pause the video and take a screenshot..
@@thepainwarjust send the link to the artist dawg
Humans before SS invented
That looks like the kind of monster you would instinctively run from, but come to realize that it's not as feral as it seems.
If you really meet such a monster, you'd better not run, because it's hunting you down rather quick.
If you look closer to that monster? You do realize it has sharp fangs or teeth, it would be somewhat feral.
For me, the giant monstrous figure with large pointed antlers represents the bottled-up emotions I've kept inside. It’s as if these feelings have grown into something overwhelming, demanding to be acknowledged. If I allow myself to truly feel and release them, I believe it would shrink, revealing a more docile creature beneath its intimidating exterior.
@@JamieBentall Real
I just love stuff thats like that
“I warn thee, human, once the contract is accepted, you will lose all of your current memories, and any potential memories you could have in the future, nothing of you will be left, anywhere.”
My dude, there is absolutely no need for the hard sell.
Deal.
*slams accept button*
I’ll accept the terms. My memories nor my future are importance.
*reads terms of contract*
... But I'll exist. The contract states I will lose all of my CURRENT memories and any POTENTIAL memories I could have in the future. This implies who I was and that person who would be moving forward is gone.
So tell me what then, demon? Will I then be a whole new person?
If so, I find these terms acceptable: Maybe this time I will be someone worth remembering.
Things like this make me truly believe there is no better form of communication, on a spiritual and emotional level than music.
I know I may never meet any of you, but for this still moment while we all rest together here.
I wish the best for all of you.
Your time is coming soon
Until then... Rest with us for a while.
Music is what always brings us closer. Our souls are in harmony, and we are one
Viver! Companheiro sapiens
Viver!✊
For a video called "Soul Contract", I didn't expect it to be so relaxing 💙
It feels like a gentle, warm hug with the grim reaper. Like I'm quietly accepting my life is over, but I know I'll be safe in the next one
People don't tend to give up their souls under duress.
@@DrSlobGoblin do you know this to be a fact?
Death is not as terrifying as we imagine; we operate by our soul, not by our body
@@SkellyTesty Pretty common lore that souls are more often traded or bartered for, rather than taken.
@@DrSlobGoblin so myth and story say so, you dont actually know, like he asked.
Woke up at 5 am with this playing and let me just say this music at 5 am is a vibe I can scarce describe
😊😎🎶 thank you
Stop doing meth
ngl man i just love listening to this kinda stuff while going for a walk, playing stalker or whatever i need in a peacefully dreary moment.
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Despite the weariness you felt since making that deal, you and the beastial presence have come to an understanding or even acceptance of one another. Life isn't much different with an infernal spirit watching over you. The demon, like you, simply lives its life one moment at a time, embracing the moments of quiet between the struggle. You are from different planes of reality, yet you see yourself in its ink black gaze. The world is desolate and cold for both of you, but you have one another.
Yes but it's wants and desires are a continual battle to hold back and keep leashed as is always at the end and this leash is pulled soo taut it too screams its Tension and Contempt at being held back from the self indulging satisfaction of wrecking devastation upon any and all that have or will forsake us times 3 ( the Beast Myself and the Tie that bonds us. The Leash.) And as Moretension is applied I realize I'm the weakest link and as I struggle to hold/ keep my grip. I feel a splash and think to myself. This is Hell there's no way there's water and I chance a quick look up in da sky's careful so as to not Draw attention and relief, cold
I C Rane.😢 forever to be shafted by Mortenson but what a job and no. I Skyrizen so idon't look down I look to where I'm going only up! Sooo you, better watch where I'm going After Fall! 😮
more and more my shadow is helping me find reasons to keep going. strange but good.
wow, that's amazing. I like your comments; they feel like reading a novel
Started listening, fell asleep, started feeling a falling spinning sensation. Really weird, but not scary ya know
If you're feeling overwhelmed, it might be because you're too exhausted or stressed by something in your life. Take a moment to relax and be honest with yourself; don't try to run away from it. You'll feel more at ease once you find the right path forward. Wishing you the best of luck.
That happens to me a lot. If it ever gets too annoying, you just have to move your head (doesn't matter how) and it goes away immediately. But I like it sometimes because it can feel like I'm dreaming while I know I'm still awake
This beast is within you, a shadow of unsolved matter. To resolve it is to face it, embrace it, and welcome it back. Not keeping it in the dark where it grows lonely and bitter. The beast is you.
Sounds like I've been keeping myself in the dark
@@demonicinspirer751 Only we can define what dark and light means to ourselves. When whatever we are meant to be get stagnant and left alone, bad things happen. These bad things can however help us find our way back and teach us things about ourselves.
Knowing what we want to be is important, but more important than that even, is the fact that you don't have to find yourself or know yourself. You already are yourself.
yeah, exactly what I want to convey
@@howardhavardramberg333 Thank you for this.
Sounds like an inevitablility, useless in its remindrance.
The beast is you, thats what makes it special
Huh... Thought it was final form moonless from fear and hunger lol
I really like this kind of music and backgrounds it’s truly what I find calming instead of colourful nature
In black and white we see many more colors
This is my new sleep track. I love this. The feeling of complete emptiness, yet it's filled with something both haunting and beautiful. The theme of this and the vibe it gives off reminds me of that initial burst of bliss of having nothing in your head, no thoughts, no emotions, after painful years of depression, a silence that is so deafening it obscures who I.. was. That renewed ignorance that maybe, just maybe, today would be the day to change my life for the better. A day that is inevitably never coming. It never did.
This beauty it portrays is a facade for the loneliness and sadness that hides beneath. It is too much to bear alone, but you're not alone. There will always be someone, somewhere, that would travel the world to see you home safe, and go great lengths to see you prosper.
It serves as a reminder that you are enough, and that you're worth the trouble to save. I was, and so are you. Even when you're alone and scared, and feel as if the world has abandoned you and moved on, you have someone in your life who cares for you. That will never change.
Take care out there, wanderer. I know that someday you learn to forgive yourself, and to love yourself. ♡
Thank you for staying in this world, thank you for loving this life more. Thank you for everything. You’ve done so well. Sending my sincerest prayers to you, wishing you peace on your journey ahead💖
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I'm afraid I need my soul for when my time is up. But even if this is our reality I wouldn't mind simply relaxing, waiting for it all to end hopefully in a peaceful way.
Ive let myself down too many times, failed so much. Im exhausted and drained, I just need somewhere to begin.
I'm right there. ...I am so ....tired....
Take rest once you feel energized start again freshly
It will never end, but that’s okay. Nothing ever ends. Just cycles, and breath.
start with the very tiniest smallest most fleeting thing to be thankful for. it can build if you let it grow
Lotta women feel the same way. Gotta be heard being a run through hot dog heating unit. Can't imagine having many miles worth of bologna put through me on a yearly basis. 😂
When I read the description, I just had to give it a listen. Really really beautiful music.
thank you, i hope u relax for video
Sometimes, I wish I had the heart to tell him. Sometimes I wish I never knew him at all. He’s so sweet- kind, gentle. You’d never know what he’s been through after a few hours of talking, maybe even just sitting.
He had a bad life before high school. Work and parents, the “standard” placed upon him since they knew he was alive in her stomach. He said it was tough, but he was tougher.
I wish he came back.
After high school, he just sort of… disappeared. Well- he never really “disappeared” for me, I texted him every day, after all. I could hear his voice when he responded back. It was always that same gentle, lullaby-like rumble in his chest. It made me feel like I was talking to him, face to face.
I finally got to see him- after what felt like years. 8, to be exact.
His eyes were almost lifeless. His smile - the one I knew and savored - gone. Replaced with a ghost of what once was full of joy. There were heavy eyebags under those eyes. Small chapping on those full lips I dreamed and daydreamed of kissing, just once.
“Tired?”
“Yeah, just a little bit.”
“From what?”
“Work.”
After that, I invited him to stay at my house. He had lost his house to a fire- one of those billowing ones that makes the back of your head scream that if it doesn’t stop now it’ll never stop. He was scared of fire after that. I couldn’t blame him. I’m scared of bugs.
He worked at home. Though, he’d go to an office about every two days. Every time he came back it was late. The latest I think was three. He’d fall asleep on the couch those days, and then wake right back up at five like he had rested a good 7 or 8 hours. Today he had an off-day, a rare occasion.
“Why did you never call?”
I don’t think he was ready for that question. He… sort of stiffened on his bed before looking up at me, those almost lifeless eyes showing off… fear.
“What’re you talking about?”
“I asked if you wanted to call, and you’d say no or have an excuse.”
“I… I don’t remember that.”
“It’s okay, I figured it was because you didn’t like my voice an-”
“I love your voice.”
His tone made me flinch back a little, that and the hard, determined glare in his sunken eyes.
“I love your voice than your mother.”
I bit my lip a little. He was probably just saying that. It didn’t really matter to me before, but it did now.
I dropped the topic before I probably should’ve. Maybe, he would’ve stayed if I had kept going- see where that went.
But I didn’t.
And now? Now he’s dead.
He left late that night to get groceries. I told him he didn’t need to, but he said something about needing to clear his head from “unwanted thoughts.” I’m scared to dwell on what those thoughts could’ve been of.
A thief. Shoplifter maybe. Now killer. He tried to get the gun out of the damn man’s hands, and got a bullet straight through the chest. Why’d it have to be him? I’m… a liar. He’s alive.
Attached to a machine, in a coma. How long has it been? Maybe… maybe two years now. I can’t live with myself, and now? All that repeats in my head is…
Sometimes, I wish I had the heart to tell him. And sometimes, I wish I never knew him at all.
{Just a small lil thing I wrote. None of it's real for me personally, but for the people who can relate, if every single detail is the same as you remember it, I'm here for you. Please, don't do something you can't undo. It won't be better if you're gone, because what if he wakes up? No matter what, someone will be there to love you. You might not be able to see them-- heck, you can't even see me, but I love you. Okay? You matter.}
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Currently chilling to this rn
I have listened to this every night for about a week now to help me sleep, thank you so much my darling. This is my new comfort video 🐈⬛
My pleasure
I'm not sure how, but I feel a wierd deep connection with this video, thank you, this is truly healing, we all need this at some point. I believe that is why a lot of us are here!
Thank you, I am always here to help heal and soothe your pain
@@thepainwar thank you :) you are a kind soul
I would love to have this thing in the background as a pet
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why am i feel so depressed while listening to this , like im dying...alone...
I absolutely feel like this
Stay calm, I'm here to heal and help you face the darkness within. Just relax!
Люблю работать под подобные плейлисты, чувствую себя собранно и одновременно уютно)
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Saved in my playlist. Looks like a god of the forest and he/she will do anything to protect it. Giving me Spice and Wolf/ Princess Mononoke vibes.
I hadn't thought about this, but when I read your comment and reflected on it, it really does seem that way. Thank you for giving me a more well-rounded perspective
@@thepainwaryeah the photo and music has actually been a big inspiration towards my music. I tend to play hard fast metal but this music and image gave me a vibe that has resulted in some interesting breaks in my music. Giving it time to breathe, a more sinister breath albeit. Actually changed my background to the wallpaper and the music is perfect to help soothe me into sleep. I'm a powerful dreamer so its a perfect Segway into unique altered dreaming. Wake up with a mood and play it out. Kudos to u 👏
have i been struggling to write code for nearly 4 hours for a fairly simple problem? yes. have I managed to avoid absolute madness while writing code because of such beautiful music? also yes.
Thank yiou so much. Have a nice day!
What a beautiful mix! Every track is on point and in one common theme. Thank you!
i feel asleep on this during a shower. it is very calming and soothing, and it helps me focus better. i would recommend it🥰🥰🥰🤩
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Why isn't this a movie? That picture is obviously a crazy journey through the spirit world during a young, Siberian shaman's initiation. Gogogo!
haha thank you, if it were a movie then it would be amazing😊
its so ethereal, i feel like im ascending to heaven more than soul contract.
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i wish i could be standing were they are in the picture (also i love this music.. its helping me cry but tbh i rly needed it so imma deff come back here
❤❤❤ Praying that all good things come to you and thank you
Pretty awesome background. Coordinates well with your music. Following!
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The AI generated image reminds me of how I wanna be so many things or creatures, especially a feral monster that looks as if I'd snap you in half. But at the same time I wanna be a calm human that wants to remember & understand our lore. Or a computer. Right now, I have a volume booster at 600% & at 7:33 the sound's so kewl imo.
thank you
I just keep coming back to this one, man
thank you so much, because you supported me, I will try to produce better quality work
@@thepainwar don’t be too humble haha
@@LuckWickedYT 😂😂
I usually do not sit through background music vids this long but this one just hit the right spot. I have listened to the entire duration of it several times now working. Thank you for uploading it!
Thank you for taking the time to listen to the video I created. Thank you very much
People are like warm fires in a home that allows the feeling to be like a dream. Does anyone know this, it's good. And then like do you know being trapped in a dream that's good too.
I sold my self-empathy for the ability to seek forbidden knowledge. I know secrets the world around me doesn't, but those secrets tear me, and everything I touch, apart. The only thing I can do now is warn others.
Stay away from knowledge, be wary of the truth. Innocence is only valued by those who lose it.
Damn.
No
One of those you feel like you should be running but you can't kinda vibes
This reminds me of one of those videos that ask which creature would be your protector!
Это именно то чего мне так не хватало ❤
Спасибо, хорошего дня
This is just.. beautiful.
thank you so much
I just found your channel today. The atmosphere, the music, the images-it's wonderful to write to this
thank bro
When you're strolling through the woods and you happen upon the Ancestor Spirit.
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Okay, profoundly calming emptiness in the space beyond death. Your gigantic deerwolf monster may eat me
Just crossing the 70 minute mark. I am floating contently in the warm blackness inside my own daemon. There are fragments in here of places I haven't been to in decades.
Your comment made me feel like I wandered into a magical place; I truly got lost in the imagination of your words
I love the vibe that this is going for. Strange and mysterious!
thank you!
"Greetings, my child. You have come a long way to get here, so now you may rest.
I have had many names in times passing; both in and before your peoples time. I've seen many of your brothers and sisters come through here, and I will forever remember them.
But now I stand before you as you do me. And I stall offer you deliverance, and take you away from damnation. Turn away from the abyss, cleanse yourself of the Sun's rays, and give into your eternal sleep. I will take you into my care, for you will not be alone at the end of your fruitful existence. Remember that your life may be over... but you will not lose yourself.
As long as I am here, you and everyone you love will never be truly lost. That is my promise.
Goodbye... my beautiful child"
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Been there, done that, but this is a nice reminder.
i gotta say opening the video in a 2nd tab and playing them both at the same time just a little bit staggered is an e x p e r i e n c e
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If you mainly came for the image but stayed when u listened ❤️ 👇
Humungous growling wolf with antlers stares menacingly at a traveler in a thumbnail for an ambient collection titled "SOUL CONTRACT", interesting choice for calm and relaxing tunes.
thank you, i hope u relaxing for video
BOOYAH!!!
You are not alone. I am Here with you. I promise.
oh thank you, give you a hug
Please I wanna remember this when I forget it cuz man this is just great gah dang
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I love this and Im leaving this comment here for some one to like it so I can come back 🎉
Thank you.
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This puts me at ease and I don't know why.. But thank you for making this
Thank you for choosing to watch my channel among the thousands of amazing ones out there💖 Have a nice day
Helped me out with a pretty bad headache, thanks a bunch
Thank you, wishing you good health, I will always be here to help you relax
I give my soul to thee
hatever you want, I will protect and cherish it carefully
I wish there was an extended version of this song 🥲
"And this is how I became a warlock"
i feel too lonely now, barely can control my brain's condition and it looks like the consequence.. but i need to learn loneliness. not sure it is even possible. but needed. as for many people being alone, for me even a relatively short time of acute loneliness makes me not able to survive. so i need a beast like this, to be my reason, my mirror to make me feel i exist..
oh you have done very well
why is this giant deer so cute tho, fr 😂 it's messy fur loooks so fluffly 🥺🤍 it's hungry 😊
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For how common the ability to think is, you would think thought would be everywhere. Yet we, the pioneers in thought, are yet to define it properly.
The average thing can think, but the average thing can not have a thought.
Beautiful.
Thank you. Have a good day
They look pretty dope, they can have my soul
thank you
oh my- i think i like this now :3 its so calming for me :0
oh so sweet. Have a good day
@@thepainwar okie, have a nice day bud
Cute puppy.
1st song is best❤
My toxic instinct is to pet it.
i love this music
thank you, have a good day
Yes. Please.
Gives me major Alastor vibes from Hazbin Hotel
Reminds me of Silent Hill
Great Job !!!!! ❤
thank you, i hope u relaxing
Looking at the roots of some words opens little doors for me. "Soul" is one such word. I think many of us hear that and kind of tie it with Christianity, but the word goes back (likely with the same meaning) into Proto-Germanic 500 BC-200 AD. Reconstructions can't pin down it's exact root, but one that seems somewhat likely is that it's linked to "sea"; which may link it to old Germanic beliefs in waters in which the dead and the unborn dwelled. "Sea" itself may be from a meaning of "to be fierce, afflict". This could also link those words to "sore". Either that or it's from a word meaning “to bind”.
I like the thought that it's linked to "sea"; which doesn't mean that's true lol, but it'll be at the back of my mind when I see her next. Early AM thoughts, over.
The algorithm has blessed you.
Me, a humble Canadian walking in the woods one winter evening: “oy, what’s this eh?”
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Amazing.. Now THIS, but Backrooms/ Liminal Spaces themed. Would be absolutely epic.
I don’t know what else to write so… I’ll write a poem… since I love poems. Especially when there about her
Chills
That’s all
Chills in the way you take my will
My will to say no
No, to looking at your eyes
Your beautiful gray eyes…
I know my feelings may be one sided
But
Every time you look at me
My heart swells
Like the wells of water in your eyes
Wonderful
Wonderful gray eyes
I know you have a boyfriend
And that’s okay as long as I can stay your friend
That’s all I need
But
But I can’t promise that I don’t wish for more
You… your a light in my world
Cause if you were not here I…
I don’t know
I try to be logical and stop these…
Feelings
It works with everyone else…
So why can’t I stop the ones for you
I feel like this is becoming more of a letter than a poem
But I in the end life is a poem
This letter is a poem
Your words are poems
All strewn with unknown and unique abilities to the others ear
Keep
Keep that in mind
As I keep your gray eyes in mine
It’s to sad
Sad that you aren’t mine
But that’s fine
Because as long as you’re happy I am too
If we where together and grew old together I’d wish for us to have children
But only option is adoption
Why?
Because two women can’t have children
Not biologically
Not yet
They may never have your gray eyes
Nor my green eyes
But
But I can wish
I can hope
I love you dear
Dearly deep in the abyss of my heart
A.P-S
And maybe one day
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B.S
Mankind is alive
Water is fuel
Hell is unknown
Let the mutters of your own lips define you.
this photo has given me an idea for a comic maybe i'll try to make it (even tho i suck at backgrounds...)
oh good idea. Good luck!💖
It would be nice if poster put the link of the image in the description 😊
okay i will do that🙌
3:30 has a good tune.
thank you
Wow,
love it
thank you, i hope u enjoy it
Thank You
"It's just you and me now, old friend..."
The hulking behemoth shifts; form blurring between icy ash and monolith treehusk.
"Must we?" Its voice is thunder-crash and rockfall; its eyes pitch and piercing despite their lack of iris. My hand tightens around my blade.
"Must we?" I echo faintly, eyes distant, voice catching, steeling myself; the wind howls, the behemoth shudders.
"For what it's worth," I continue, forcing myself forward before I can stop, "I am sorry."
The behemoth shudders once more, lowering its head between mountainous shoulders; its horns clacking and bending, lips curling in half-hearted warning. We both know who will win this; this final confrontation.
"I know," It rumbles, ichor dripping from split lip.
And I know he does; he really does. He always has. It makes this all the more painful.
Great! Is this a quote from a book or something?
@@thepainwar nope, just something that came to me just then!
@@mayonnaisewithbacon6099 🥰🥰 it's okay, they are amazing
@@thepainwar thank you!
Welp
In a span of 4 months
My boyfriend died
My hometown was wiped out by a hurricane
I got fired
And the cherry on top, the studs just sheered off my car 10 minutes from home
So this is rock bottom, only place to go is up!
My condolences to you! I hope you try to live well no matter how much life knocks you down. We and your spiritual guardian are always watching over you
Reflect, oh, sentient ones.
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"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength, resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
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--Diamond Dragons (series)
Life . A soul contract . It should NOT be broken early or feared we made it to value what existing is and when our existence ends we damn the man that comes and takes us ? Why ? The kind man that takes our souls across the river sticks for a meager single coin as he takes us slow calm ride in a boat may we not fear when he takes our hand but the pain of leaving everything our soul has marked during this contract .
These types of vids always have the saddest vent comments bro
That’s why I created it-for souls with scars, including myself, to have a place to express and confront them
@@thepainwarthank you
Brutal!
a debt is owed
yes. Trustees must be on your payment.
And so it shall be paid
28:14 I Love that Part from the Playlist
What is the Original Name from that song?
thank you, song is name "Abyss"
@@thepainwar Got the Right one:
Fractured Silence from
Gwen Rice
But thank you for your Answer 😄
@@DjTurkey813 sorry maybe I got the name wrong, thank you for finding the correct name of the song
It's very pretty
thank you😊
i got this on my front page and thought this was a sign a demon was calling me for a contract
turns out the "demon" my gf and i joke about she has she sold her soul to to get good dice rolling in DnD has now impacted me after watching this lol
I went to roll dice/new character and didn't roll below 12 for my stats
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Damn, that's hard
Just relax
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Can you share the track list? Or, at least, trackы at 32:40 and 1:37:26. It's wonderful!
I'm hoping for the name of the track at 32:40.
oh i'm so sorry, i recently installed the device and accidentally deleted a few previous playlists😢
The world had force upon us all, and we were forced to compensate.
If indeed evil, then good was honed from it, so keep evil at peace of their own, in having at least that purpose.
'Else force change of evil into good, and forego wasting any further time.