Battling Anxiety: Part 1 | My Struggle | Anxiety Triggers

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  • Опубліковано 11 чер 2020
  • Hi everyone!
    Thank you all so much for your support... for your comments, messages, likes and subscriptions! Thank you!
    I am scared to post this one! I'm scared I'm not putting out the content that 30k people want to see!
    Anyway...
    This video is part 1 of a 2 part series.
    I have wanted to talk about anxiety ever since I started the channel.
    Part one is simply addressing the fact that I have struggled with anxiety for most my life, and explaining how it has impacted me.
    Part 2 will be about the strategies I've used to battle these anxieties. And the different lessons I've learned over the years.
    Here is a list of most of my anxieties. Most of them are touched on in the video.
    1. Not allowing people to see me without makeup
    2. Driving in cities
    3. Eating in front of people
    4. Ordering at Restaurants
    5. Awkward situations
    6. Crying when emberrassed /phyed
    7. Talking Phone/Calling people
    8. Only buying gas at one Gas station
    9. Adulting (insurance, DMV, getting jobs, doctor appointments)
    10. Hypochondria
    11. Store cashiers/self checkouts
    12. Talking to Strangers
    13. Knocking on doors
    14. Drive thrus
    15. Public restrooms
    16. Public transportation
    17. Moving out
    18. Parking ramps
    19. Not using a Credit/Debit card for the first time.
    20. College
    Sorry that this video turned out so long!
    If you want to message me please reach out on Instagram or Facebook
    My Instagram: @myraswest / myraswest
    My Facebook: Myra West
    For Collabs or Business inquiries only: Myrawestbusiness@gmail.com

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  • @TheNinjaPandaGhost
    @TheNinjaPandaGhost 4 роки тому +1380

    In reality we just love watching genuine people because we lack those these days. Stay real!

    • @CD25w
      @CD25w 4 роки тому +29

      You just described why UA-cam was a great place, I hope more people like this appear around here

    • @alberto798
      @alberto798 4 роки тому +11

      Maaan I can´t agree more with your comment... Genuiness is lacking everywhere this days

    • @davidteres9463
      @davidteres9463 4 роки тому

      ua-cam.com/video/77qt7dMzkKE/v-deo.html

    • @BioDjango
      @BioDjango 4 роки тому +4

      @@myrawest just do what you want to do, its really helping me understand some of my friends.

    • @BioDjango
      @BioDjango 4 роки тому +5

      @@myrawest oh and i just got to Jello btw, Nice I like that.

  • @joshuashepard583
    @joshuashepard583 4 роки тому +546

    You have no obligations to this channel. Lol. Don’t be anxious about it.

    • @joshuashepard583
      @joshuashepard583 4 роки тому +43

      Well, you’ll always be a disappointment someone. Lol. Unless it’s someone you love and can go talk to, don’t stress about it. We’re real out here, but we’re also sand grains on the beach, so... 🤷🏻‍♂️👍🏻💚

    • @joshuashepard583
      @joshuashepard583 4 роки тому +17

      30 thousand is a lot of people to please. Lol.

    • @joshuashepard583
      @joshuashepard583 4 роки тому +8

      Haha. JELLO!

    • @ourkindofstoryofficial4964
      @ourkindofstoryofficial4964 4 роки тому +22

      @@myrawest You are such a great person! You should be proud of yourself! Being anxious and still opening your heart in front of people and talking about your struggles, this is courage!!!

    • @insultigknightuscantstands4648
      @insultigknightuscantstands4648 4 роки тому +9

      @@ourkindofstoryofficial4964 I agree we're all children of the universe some are more unique than others some are born with greatness others achieve greatness some have greatness thrusted upon them and Myra you're one of those people achieving greatness may God be with you on this journey

  • @edwardseman1920
    @edwardseman1920 4 роки тому +62

    As a 62 year old with many of the same issues you face, I sympathize.
    Counseling helped me a great deal. Conventional wisdom says that to overcome anxiety, you must face what makes you anxious. Realize no one is perfect. You seem to have an unhealthy concern about what others think about you. Be aware, people are not thinking about you. They are thinking about themselves.
    The
    The only person who's opinion of you really matters is your own. Any change must come from within yourself.
    Congratulations. You are growing up. Everyone has the same issues. When you are afraid, think about the worst thing that could happen. Then think about how likely it is that it will happen, and how many times the worst has happened in the past. Very few times, I imagine. Embarrassment isn't fatal, you may feel like dying, but you won't.
    If people make fun of you about your anxiety, they are not your friends. That is their issue, not yours.
    There are COUNTLESS people who have all the same issues as you. The only person that you have to be better than is the person you were yesterday.
    Oh, by the way, jello.

  • @fleurlewis
    @fleurlewis 3 роки тому +25

    Hi.
    I'm 48 and I can relate to most of what you shared., I also have no friends haven't since I was 15.
    I have anxiety and fear driving into our city and suburbs just out of the city. I suffer extreme anxiety with job interviews, awkward situations, I fear meeting people for the first time and fear them asking me a question that I wont know the answer to, I fear answering the phone to certain people, I also fear using new service stations for car and getting petrol, I fear certain types of jobs...I can not work with money as I have intense fear of giving wrong change, I have intense anxiety if I have to talk in front of a group of people where all eyes are on me.
    I just have anxiety over the unknown

    • @softpawsasmr
      @softpawsasmr 3 роки тому +1

      I feel and understand all of this!

  • @hushmonitor9150
    @hushmonitor9150 4 роки тому +409

    Myra just be yourself that is why we are all here.. your a very likable person....your interesting and down to earth

  • @shelbys3657
    @shelbys3657 4 роки тому +264

    I hate awkward situations but also feel like I’m the one making it awkward

    • @sof6371
      @sof6371 4 роки тому +18

      Same I want to meet up with my friends so bad but then part of me doesn't because I feel like I ruin the mood and just make everyone nervous yk

    • @Mofo0101
      @Mofo0101 4 роки тому

      Yeah, what makes you awkward you think?

    • @elizabeth1703
      @elizabeth1703 4 роки тому +3

      @@Mofo0101 i know personally I feel like i make situations awkward because most of my social experiences have resulted in people calling me awkward, weird, different, etc. and often people look at me funny for how i say things or what i say... so yea ive just come to expect thats the result of my presence.

    • @paultaylor5303
      @paultaylor5303 4 роки тому +1

      It's normal to feel that way and sometimes you may be but sometimes its others and sometimes it's just awkward!,

    • @kayenjee
      @kayenjee 4 роки тому +1

      Same.

  • @straighttalkingsass786
    @straighttalkingsass786 4 роки тому +68

    Girl, if you can have a channel on UA-cam with anxiety then you're doing amazing! Total respect for you!

    • @mikelisteral7863
      @mikelisteral7863 2 роки тому

      the whole internet is full of anxious introverts

  • @wow459
    @wow459 4 роки тому +71

    You're incredibly sincere, that's honestly very rare to find these days. Everyone's so afraid to be honest or reveal how they really feel without covering with a shade of cool/humour

    • @carefulcarpenter
      @carefulcarpenter 3 роки тому +1

      I have been honest and original online for about 20 years, now. My YT channel is about 11 years old. I am mostly ignored.
      People want "cool" and routine. I am random and uncool. 🌾🐡

  • @__joris
    @__joris 4 роки тому +134

    Just don’t change anything! Stick with the iphone, stick with the ‘bad editing’ just be yourself, keep it simple. Talk about your problems it comforts me🙂

  • @mscardioqueen
    @mscardioqueen 4 роки тому +144

    Let us down? What?
    Just be you - honest and unapologetic.
    You have a genuine spirit and that makes you likeable. No pressure. Put out a vid when you're ready. No pressure.

  • @eristreasurechest5008
    @eristreasurechest5008 4 роки тому +31

    I've always felt different, since I was a preschool, and always felt completely alone in that feeling of being always too terrified of anything involving social or extrovert situations. Just like you, I managed somehow to survive alone. I'm 31, no friends, and hopeless. I assume that it's just the way my life will always be. It's sad, and depressing, yes, but I've always enjoyed my self company. Just like you, I just don't know what's going on with me, than no one want me as a friend. I may be too awkward, or too shy, or too weird. I just stopped trying. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experience, I think you are a brilliant personality. ♥

    • @gadgetz2652
      @gadgetz2652 4 роки тому +3

      I'm 24. Felt that way since I was in middle school then came to the realization that I've felt that way for as long as I can remember to the point that I don't think I've had a time in my life where I've felt truly happy about anything. Life rocks 😅

  • @Mom-yg1rt
    @Mom-yg1rt 4 роки тому +31

    My worst anxiety was also the dumbest, I was scared of swallowing in a quiet room because I didn’t want people to hear it. That was at my most anxious point, I like to think it got so bad that I just got tired of dealing with it and gave up but the truth is I just beat it. When you feel your face get red you gotta tell yourself you want it to happen and it actually goes away. To get over your anxiety you have to go through it by purposely putting yourself in those situations and try to think of what you would think if you were on the other end of it. For example when you see someone fall and their face gets red you think it’s weird that their face would get red over that because it’s not that big of a deal then you forget about it 10 minutes later.

  • @Bassplayingypsy
    @Bassplayingypsy 4 роки тому +50

    Truth. Anxiety is a killer of dreams, love, happiness, and living. My daughter at 16 is kinda going through this. Not fun. On off situation. So stay on that one. Try not to let anxiety crush your world.

    • @cindi7228
      @cindi7228 4 роки тому +3

      I know these things all too well. Anxiety killed my dreams....why couldn’t I just go for it?! I just couldn’t. I didn’t know how. I eventually was diagnosed with panic disorder. I’m better now...but anxiety still steals my joy. I want so badly to travel but when I try to go somewhere, even in my own state, my anxiety gets the best of me. How the heck am I going to move back to the place where I grew up? I’m so unhappy where I’ve been living the past 25 years but I feel stuck because of anxiety.

  • @JasonSilverstein
    @JasonSilverstein 4 роки тому +143

    Don't worry about disappointing your subscribers, you won't. Just talk about what you want to talk about, and be yourself. People like you.

  • @TheRamblingsofBry
    @TheRamblingsofBry 3 роки тому +1

    Just recognising these triggers and being honest with yourself is very cathartic and ultimately healing x

  • @newsigmundfreud3023
    @newsigmundfreud3023 4 роки тому +21

    *JELLO is how people feel sometimes when in shock or in awkward situations... You are a very strong minded person. Amazing how you are working through your struggles*

  • @JayLive0
    @JayLive0 4 роки тому +123

    “Jello” , just be yourself. You’re not disappointing anyone.

  • @kibblz
    @kibblz 4 роки тому +68

    Here's a simple tip: Just do what you were doing before you went "viral".

  • @christyloves4915
    @christyloves4915 4 роки тому +16

    Oh...you are so precious....so candid...,so REAL. THAT'S ALL YOU NEED TO BE.

  • @nobodyknows3260
    @nobodyknows3260 3 роки тому +3

    I relate to all of this. That's exactly how I was at 22. That was 9 years ago and things are much better now. It will get better for you too.

    • @mikelisteral7863
      @mikelisteral7863 2 роки тому

      the older we get the more we see death and everything in life pales in comparison and therefore seems smaller

  • @Ps3luvr260
    @Ps3luvr260 4 роки тому +195

    I’m 20 and still can’t always bring myself to answer the phone even when my friends call me.

    • @MrHawksrule95
      @MrHawksrule95 4 роки тому +16

      I'm 25 and I feel this

    • @aquarius2284
      @aquarius2284 4 роки тому +29

      I'm 28 and I fking hate phonecalls. I hate them. Whenever a phone rings, I get heart palpitations. I'm nervous making calls and taking calls both.

    • @destrim7
      @destrim7 4 роки тому +3

      I’m 24 and work in TELE-SALES and I feel the exact same way. Everyday is a struggle.

    • @aquarius2284
      @aquarius2284 4 роки тому +5

      @@destrim7 it makes you wonder how in the hell you ended up in a telesales job :)) I'm in sales too. In it for the money. But I'm at an age where money is not enough anymore. I can't be in a field I hate and doesn't suit me anymore.
      I've started getting back into graphic design and illustration and slowly slowly I plan to earn through that part time, hopefully in 5 years from now I'll be able to sustain a business full time. But it's a huge commitment and needs a lot of planning, thinking, organizing.
      I think therapy is the only way I will be able to heal and move on and focus on achieving what I know I need to. I've been a perpetual procrastinator due to anxiety and depression and looking to break the wheel. Especially with this corona situation, it's been a wake up call.

    • @MrChiUTheTurtle
      @MrChiUTheTurtle 4 роки тому +1

      25 now and yeup same here

  • @bionic_bat
    @bionic_bat 4 роки тому +29

    I feel like I'm watching myself. This hits home for me. Especially when I was younger. It absolutely ruins your development into adulthood. Thankfully at 27 I've overcome a lot of these. But I still have issues with anxiety and depression and friendship. And I've accepted its how I am. Introvert ✔

    • @jankramarczyk9365
      @jankramarczyk9365 4 роки тому

      I'm also introvert, but I dont have any issues with social anxiety nor with interactiong with other people. Stop blaming introversion for your mental problems, most of us are healthy.

  • @NotYou9311
    @NotYou9311 4 роки тому +4

    Fear of uncomfortable situations and being judged IS one of the prime symptoms of social anxiety disorder. So, you are correct in that.

  • @cassieblondin9570
    @cassieblondin9570 4 роки тому +2

    Thank you so much for making this video! You put exactly what I’m feeling into words. I’ve gotten a lot better over the past years but I still find things difficult. This video helps me feel not so alone.

  • @oliverjaybower
    @oliverjaybower 4 роки тому +182

    Don’t worry about the fact you don’t have a camera and don’t yet know much about editing your content is great and very interesting :).

  • @szeloklau7380
    @szeloklau7380 4 роки тому +13

    I'm so scared of becoming more responsible/going into adulthood with the lack of support I need from my family. As a very awkward and anxious person, I find it hard to do this on my own. But you inspire me! Being able to relate to you makes me believe that I can do it too!

    • @kayenjee
      @kayenjee 4 роки тому +3

      As an only child with a difficult relationship with my parents growing up, I moved 100 miles away to go to college. I proved to myself I could figure things out "on my own" (mostly). Best of luck on your journey.

    • @j.p.d.financialservices7298
      @j.p.d.financialservices7298 3 роки тому +2

      Of course you can recover from anxiety, Sze Lok. Look at how Myra is improving every day. Maybe you can begin by setting a small goal. Try saying hello to a stranger. It gets easier. Best wishes. You can do it.

  • @RobertDannyDavis
    @RobertDannyDavis 3 роки тому +2

    I tried drinking my way out of these things when I was your age. I partied a lot and guess what? It doesn't go away trying to hide from it. I just turned 40 this year and have not drank in 10 years now. These issues are real and it is nice to see youtubers just simply being real with how they feel. I still hide it. I take out my anxiety by practicing/composing music 24/7 and keeping extremely busy. I still work out like a mad man thinking that this will help me. None of it works. Drinking, business, changing your image, etc. At least you are up front and admitting it in front of everyone. I guess that is my next step instead of immersion into activities that create extreme avoidance or fake confidence. I ran across this by accident. The good thing about the net is that we start seeing how many people there are just like ourselves who struggle with these very things.

  • @rachelelliott741
    @rachelelliott741 3 роки тому +1

    I also had no idea what anxiety was until my late teens, it explained EVERYTHING about my childhood and I so badly wish I had support from the beginning because I think I would have turned out a lot better if I did!! Much love to you (also, JELLO)

  • @bobgreene8016
    @bobgreene8016 4 роки тому +64

    “Jello” Take it from an old guy, my best advice. You just do you and you'll do great. You give an old man hope things will be OK in the world... Thank You....

    • @madamsimplicity5454
      @madamsimplicity5454 4 роки тому

      It's great to read comments showing that Myra is an encouragement to both the young & the old. 🤗

  • @Volloguden
    @Volloguden 4 роки тому +112

    Jello, wow this really hit me. I'm super alone. Realized during watching this video, I have so many of the anxiety issues that you spoke of. Using the same gas station, only going to the same restaurant and ordering the same to avoid messing up, doing a presentation and many many more.
    I'm 33 years old now and I have no friends, never had a significant other and just trying to get through daily life.
    I know exactly how you feel

    • @onelove718
      @onelove718 4 роки тому +9

      I send u love💓

    • @emmamokoena5704
      @emmamokoena5704 4 роки тому +2

      This is so sad

    • @kayenjee
      @kayenjee 4 роки тому

      Hi 👋🏼

    • @kristentansey8455
      @kristentansey8455 4 роки тому +8

      You must be an incredibly strong person. And I bet you would be the most amazing friend anyone could ask for. Do you think the anxiety is holding you back from making friends? Or having a significant other? I've had my share of anxiety problems that almost ruined my life but luckily I've been able to function. lots of ways to help manage that. I'd be willing to share some of them with you if you want. I'm telling you, you have amazing potential to break out of this and use this experience to help others.

    • @jamesync
      @jamesync 4 роки тому +1

      @@matrjmiratovic920 Everlasting life on Earth?

  • @vanessaanderson7066
    @vanessaanderson7066 4 роки тому +2

    This is so relatable. I'm 47 and still feel this way. Thank you for sharing!

  • @shermdys
    @shermdys 4 роки тому +9

    It feels so nice to hear someone talk about their stories on things that I’ve also experienced but never told anyone. It never occurred to me that I actually had anxiety until a few years ago. I have always been like this when I was little so I naturally thought that this is who I was and how my personality is. Every time I tried telling myself that I need to stop being like this and do sth to change it, I end up being frustrated because I never stopped having feelings of dread and anxiety in those situations. But after admitting to myself that I am actually dealing with anxiety, it helps me to deal with and accept those feelings as well.

  • @MelSpeaksMD
    @MelSpeaksMD 4 роки тому +38

    Jello!! The irony of this video is that posting something like this IS fearless and bold. Thanks for sharing

  • @skyf67
    @skyf67 4 роки тому +80

    You have such an adorable personality ❤️✨ don’t let anxiety get to you!

  • @stephensalay1275
    @stephensalay1275 4 роки тому +1

    Hang in there Jello! I was the worst in my early 20s. Terrible anxiety. I would constantly analyze my life and worried about literally everything. It came to a head in grad school and I had a total break down, spiraled out of control. Ever since then I've had a complete turnaround. I'm 26 now and life is exponentially better than it was when I was 20-24. You'll come out of it!

  • @dachshund5340
    @dachshund5340 4 роки тому +12

    Jello 🍮 I've gone through waves of anxiety throughout my life but not in all aspects of life. Certain things would trigger me. Once while I lived with roommates I stayed in my room the whole day being quiet and pretending I wasn't home because I felt so awkward about seeing them for the first time that day.

  • @Lightbulb909
    @Lightbulb909 4 роки тому +18

    For me, awkward silences trigger my anxiety. You know those little moments of silence between convos; hate them. Can’t stand to be in them. To me, any kind of silence, except being by myself and family, is awkward. The anxiety that comes with this awkwardness is so great that I’m willing to fill those little voids of silence with words, even if I stutter out a word is better than silently walking or looking at each other. It’s either awkward silences or phone calls. Ugh, phone calls. *shivers*

  • @johndoe7030
    @johndoe7030 4 роки тому +47

    "Jello" u r such a gift to watch. I,ve had a feeling like it is all fake now on UA-cam. All staged and for clicks and U r so natural and honest and alive.Thank You.Greetins from Poland.

  • @foreveruseless1292
    @foreveruseless1292 3 роки тому +5

    I struggle with depression and anxiety, especially social anxiety and I respect touching on this topic and think it should be more widely spoken about :) keep up this genuine style!

  • @julessmith7480
    @julessmith7480 4 роки тому +16

    Jello! I was in my mid 30's before I was diagnosed with both major depression & social anxiety. I am now 53 and it does get better. My husband reminds me when I get anxious in public that I need to get over myself because everybody around me is so self absorbed that they aren't giving me a second thought. (He says it in a loving way.)That has helped ground me. Practice helps. Do the hard things & it becomes easier & the easier things are a breeze. Also, learn to love who you are. You are special! You have special gifts God has given you. You are able to relate in a special way to special people. Depression & anxiety are not disorders. It is part of who we are. And it is okay. We are round pegs in a square world. Keep sharing!!!

    • @bmbrandon54
      @bmbrandon54 4 роки тому +3

      I like the part where you said" depression and anxiety are not a disorder. They are who you are" maybe thats why I don't like myself because I don't like having anxiety and depression so I just need to accept that's who I am. A depressed and anxious kid. Thanks for the wise words

    • @rubylace9963
      @rubylace9963 3 роки тому

      Yep we all have the spotlight effect and feel everyone notices out flaws and mistakes but most aren't paying attention.

  • @amuranday9862
    @amuranday9862 4 роки тому +9

    My life in a nutshell. Living with social anxiety is exhausting and highly taxing to most poeple. How I wish that people could understand how tough it is to live with social anxiety. You are doing well, young lady.

  • @moneymusa5607
    @moneymusa5607 4 роки тому +40

    I remember for 3 years I was terrified of getting on the bus. I gave up so many opportunities because I was scared to be alone at a bus stop and have to figure out how to put $2 into the machine and getting a transfer 🤦🏿 now I take the bus everyday to work and it’s like...the thing with crippling social anxiety is most of he time after I was put in a situation that I was deathly afraid of I was like oh that wasn’t even that bad.
    But I suffer from so much
    Saying here in class
    Talking to strangers
    Having more than one persons attention on me.
    I used to be scared to go to the store. One time I left all my change because I just wanted to get away as fast as possible.
    Used to be afraid to talk in class
    Shii I used to be scared to go downstairs when my mom had company over but it gets better

  • @amandacastillo5501
    @amandacastillo5501 3 роки тому +1

    You’ve opened my eyes to different types of anxiety that I’ve never even considered. It had taught me to be more compassionate and thank you for that!
    I hope your insurance and “pay off” gets taken care of easily I hope you have ease in your heart.
    You will be fearless and brave! I love how real you are!
    JELLO ❤️

  • @ashbhatti1670
    @ashbhatti1670 3 роки тому +2

    You're an incredibly strong and inspirational person. Thank you for being genuine

  • @alexosow
    @alexosow 4 роки тому +72

    Some people deserve a million views more than others. Some rig their way to it, through the scummiest practices. People watch you because they want to hear more about your story.

    • @alexosow
      @alexosow 4 роки тому +7

      @@myrawest Your welcome 🙂 I wouldn't be saying this if it wasn't true! People listen to you because you offer them a story that people without a million views don't tell. There's always a reason why someone clicks on a video, and in this case it's because they're curious about you and, judging by your comment section they're really empathetic towards you. You've got all these people on here willing to be friends with you, and it's a gift that you can talk with everyone on here like you've known them for awhile. Don't stress about your videos because everyone on here already knows the stress you're already going through and they want to help you have less anxiety. So keep making more content, and enjoy interacting with your audience because it's fun!

    • @alexosow
      @alexosow 4 роки тому +4

      Also you don't need to reply, I'm just glad you read my message since I did it because I wanted the best for you like any other random person on the internet with any reasonable amount of kindness would do 🙃

    • @BioDjango
      @BioDjango 4 роки тому +3

      Amen to that

  • @stu3232
    @stu3232 4 роки тому +27

    Can relate to a lot of this. I've had social anxiety since very early teens (now 29), and it stopped me from completing university, and I didn't get a job until I was 24 or so because of the fear of interviews and putting myself out there etc. It's a struggle, and i'll always be jealous of people that sail through life without 75% of their thought being taken up by their own mental reflection. There's nothing objectively for you to be scared of, you're a very good looking, very well spoken and intelligent young girl with obviously a great soul, which is very often the case with people with social anxiety. You're here doing a video in front of 30,000 subscribers, which says a lot about what you're truly capable of in terms of exposing yourself for people to judge. There's some cool books on audible you should listen to, if you wanted to, for example "how to be yourself" by Ellen Hendriksen, it'll help you to make sense of how you feel about a lot of things. By the way, the pressure you feel regarding this channel is not real, it's just a consequence of your own personal thought patterns. Do what comes natural and whenever you want and people will appreciate it, because they already have...

  • @deanarnold8501
    @deanarnold8501 3 роки тому +1

    omg i have all the same triggers lol! driving, restaurants, being misunderstood, wow i just totally get it. i don't think i've heard of anyone else understanding it on this level. thank you for sharing and putting yourself out there.

  • @tashaheykoop4295
    @tashaheykoop4295 4 роки тому +9

    In high school I had severe, severe social anxiety. I remember my parents making me order a pizza over the phone and I cried and cried leading up to the call it was awful. I had a 3.8 GPA but had an intense fear of delivering speeches. I would get so nervous that my face would blush to almost purple. I remember once working so hard on an amazing AP English speech and taking a zero on it because I couldn’t bring myself to get in front of the class. I ended up turning it in so my teacher wouldn’t think I had skipped out on it haha.

    • @thiscorrosion900
      @thiscorrosion900 4 роки тому

      I had to write and memorize my own lecture on Eastern European-USA immigration for a Jewish Cultural School graduation in 1981 and it was a NIGHTMARE. I had to get up there in front of family, parents, at least like 400 people or so, and deliver this 4-8 page paper. I honestly don't know how I got through it. But I memorized it well enough to do fairly well with it, and of course I had my written backup. I've never enjoyed public speaking of any kind. I took public speaking courses as part of my BFA degree in college, and didn't like that, either. I'm a published,
      professional writer, but I cannot stand there and talk in public, it's a nightmare. I've even gotten up and played guitar and sang in public a bit, and that was easier!

  • @mikelmoriarityy9359
    @mikelmoriarityy9359 4 роки тому +55

    You are not letting anyone down!! Dont be terrified just be yourself, you are amazing and make videos like this please they are actually helpful🥺💚🥰

  • @divebomb99
    @divebomb99 4 роки тому +52

    Grab that fear, grab that anxiety, and squish them like a bug. Hold your head high. One thing at a time! Jello.

    • @divebomb99
      @divebomb99 4 роки тому +1

      @@myrawest There's a bit of anxiety in my family as well. I've found that doing what you can to focus on the moment, and not think too far ahead, and not worry about problems that have not materialized helps a lot. It takes practice, but just let each hour come to you on its own each day. It's great that you're talking about these things. I applaud you.

    •  4 роки тому +4

      But don’t squish bugs if you can catch and release them

    • @efrainmanriquez4586
      @efrainmanriquez4586 4 роки тому

      @@divebomb99 can you give me some tips.

    • @pavledrakulic9456
      @pavledrakulic9456 4 роки тому

      Just grab it...and squish it

  • @fenrix155
    @fenrix155 4 роки тому +4

    Anxiety catches me off guard all the time. I’ll just be chilling in my house and all the sudden I start having a panic attack. Then a fear of uncertainty about everything ensues. Every time it happens I really think it’s gonna kill me, and that makes me happy cause at least I’ll be at peace.

  • @TheMellomuse
    @TheMellomuse 3 роки тому +1

    I've experienced all the social anxiety that you mentioned so I can relate and I have to say, you're very brave to be posting such personal videos on a public, social platform. People like us could use the validation, something we can't give ourselves. So, thank you!

  • @alvlup
    @alvlup 4 роки тому +10

    I literally have more than a half of symptoms that you listed! I want to add one that is walking on the street or any crowded place, I would be anxious if people looking at me like I would think that everyone is just watching me or suspecting me of something (judging for nothing). That drives me insane! I have to deal with it every single day.
    Jello!

    • @Boudi-ca
      @Boudi-ca 4 роки тому

      I’ve never heard of another person having anxiety walking out in public. It isn’t a nice feeling at all.

  • @mixterz1
    @mixterz1 4 роки тому +19

    In my teens and 20s I had terrible social anxiety. Constantly feeling judged or thinking what people thought about me, I would go red in the face . Clearly all in my head. As I entered my 30s it became more manageable through experiences and my job helped but it's still there just somewhat under control. As I said all you can do is learn to manage it.

    • @Nomatterwhat69
      @Nomatterwhat69 4 роки тому

      If you haven't done it yet and feel comfortable enough, seeing a psycho may help. It may not though so it depends.

  • @nikkij7786
    @nikkij7786 3 роки тому +2

    Your honesty is endearing, literally every single anxiety you listed I can relate to. I thought it was just me who struggled with these issues. Thank you!

  • @alexia5538
    @alexia5538 4 роки тому

    Congrats Myra for that number and touching so many hearts with your videos and being your genuine self I guess everyone needed that sincerity about topics like these addressed by someone your age

  • @alanbecerra9956
    @alanbecerra9956 4 роки тому +13

    Anxiety can be a pain but the key is to take away the people’s thoughts of you out of the mind👍🏼

  • @nathaliasolano8436
    @nathaliasolano8436 4 роки тому +22

    hello Myra! I think you are very brave for speaking up about these insecurities, I can relate so much..

  • @darce397
    @darce397 3 роки тому

    Thank you for sharing the struggles that many of us people have, knowing that you are not the only one that have those kind of problems is really encouraging and motivating. Keep it up Myra!! You are amazing!!

  • @SuAmigoElilegal
    @SuAmigoElilegal 4 роки тому +15

    my father just passed away from covid 19 complications and me and my mother were left in the house with my grandmother also infected. U can imagine the terrible psychological impact this is been to us. I my self suffer from anxiety and panic attacks and social anxiety. If im going trough this , i do hope u can do better than me. God bless u and hope u feel better everyday

  • @yehusinede9913
    @yehusinede9913 4 роки тому +17

    I relate to your video on having no friends. I'm the youngest of three children, both my parents were absent and I was constantly bullied by my older siblings. This lack of proper socialization caused me to be 'socially awkward' and didn't make me popular at school. I definitely pushed many people away (which I regret) but it was a defense mechanism. I had low self-confidence due to abuse and neglect and felt that I was a disappointment and felt that everyone sees me the same way my family sees me. I was suicidal since age 10 and have never felt safe or happy at any point in my life. I had a small friend group in high school but was never open with them. I graduated and rarely hung out with them. 3-4 years after graduating high school I now hang out with them more and am more open with them. I feel like I've missed out on a lot and have felt very alone throughout my life, but whatever.

    • @yehusinede9913
      @yehusinede9913 4 роки тому

      "My relationship with my family is nonexistent, I have no support system, no friends, nobody to turn to, nobody to hang around with, nobody to vent to, nobody to count on, nobody there's for me." Yup. I've always wanted good connections but I've always connected with animals better.

    • @jc30081983
      @jc30081983 4 роки тому

      I am glad you reach out to more people now, keep pushing forward. The past is the past, the future is all we got.

  • @cynthiawall2158
    @cynthiawall2158 4 роки тому +1

    The true definition of Courage is doing something while being fearful. I'm so proud of you!!!

  • @bladeblazer744
    @bladeblazer744 3 роки тому +1

    Thank you so much for this, Myra. I have never related so much to someone in my life as much as this. Thank you for letting me know that I am not the only person going through this. I relate to literally everything you mentioned that you struggled or still struggle with. It’s crazy to think that other people out there in the world are going through the exact struggles as I am going through. It can feel so alone with only your thoughts. Again, thank you so much. Jello.

  • @supernaturalmilgrausobrena3061
    @supernaturalmilgrausobrena3061 4 роки тому +9

    Don't be afraid about us, we love you for who you are, for this I'm here😊

  • @NosManJr
    @NosManJr 4 роки тому +12

    It's interesting that you'd park and walk into a restaurant rather then going through a drive thru. I feel like I have more anxiety about going in. I feel like you garnishing all these new subscribers is a good thing Cuz I truly believe everyone thay subscribes to you is a genuine nice person that just wants to see you flourish in life. Also jello!

  • @Jasoncerv61
    @Jasoncerv61 4 роки тому

    Jello. I am so glad you exist. You describe things about your life that I relate with so accurately its heartwarming. I've had this idea for a while but I would really love to see what your beautiful mind can come up with. The idea is simply to make either short videos displaying situations from the perspective of someone with social anxiety or a full on movie about social anxiety through the eyes of someone experiencing it. This would really help everyone going through this to find understanding and show others how we feel! I hope you see this love your growth!! ❤

  • @GarrisGamer301
    @GarrisGamer301 4 роки тому

    i really relate to your struggles, about the crying embarrassment, awkward situations and even calling someone on the phone is a huge issue for me. helping to embrace that feeling is key, although i still struggle with it admitting i am getting better. growth is a part of moving forward, which everyone does in life. i feel like ur videos help me feel less alone, thank you and I wish u well Myra!

  • @maks_____
    @maks_____ 4 роки тому +6

    This site needs more people like you, scratch that, this *world* needs more people like you! You're such a sincere person Myra, please never change and stay strong. You've got this 💪 ♥

  • @matthiaskinzinga4569
    @matthiaskinzinga4569 4 роки тому +34

    Love how you can openly talk about your anxiety
    Ps: jello

  • @valentineoreilly975
    @valentineoreilly975 4 роки тому

    You are doing a very good job Myra, the fact a video you do can get a million views shows you have so much to offer, your anxiety has held you back before, you have got over some of them, lack of confidence can do that to you, but you can get over your fears, you already have proved so much, keep going, you'll get therein the end.

  • @xkenandbarbiexsupport2067
    @xkenandbarbiexsupport2067 4 роки тому

    I have found your videos extremely helpful because of how honest you are. You're awesome just how you are! The struggles, emotions, feelings you're sharing are so real and it's nice to hear someone talk about these things. Keep doing you girl :)

  • @zaidnassar.2569
    @zaidnassar.2569 4 роки тому +18

    I'm so happy you're back ❤ I found you from "that video" and yes you're amazing and very likable hope you know that 😍❤ just keep doing you and speak to us please you helped me understand that I'm not alone ❤

  • @anthony0358
    @anthony0358 4 роки тому +12

    I had that physical education anxiety all through school. I also still have anxiety calling people on the phone

  • @nicolepickering7056
    @nicolepickering7056 4 роки тому

    Hi Myra, thanks for being so open and honest. You already are brave and talking about your anxiety has already helped give strength to people who suffer from social anxiety too. Really relate to what you’re going through, I use to avoid going on buses and in certain shops because I couldn’t deal with the interaction at the check out. Waiting to cross the road at the traffic lights use to be one of the hardest things to do too.
    Your honesty and openness is why thousands of people have subscribed, so there’s no need to try any harder with your videos, they’re perfect as is. No one cares about fancy editing, they want real content which you already provide. Don’t attach to the number of subscribers, the number doesn’t matter ❤️

  • @bimbam7580
    @bimbam7580 4 роки тому +2

    I'm just relieved that there's someone out there that's just like me. It is very comforting, thank you. Viva Myra viva!

  • @after3011
    @after3011 3 роки тому +3

    Crazy to see that no matter where we are, we all struggle with the same issues. Anxiety is part of my life since years... I can relate, Myra! After a bad episode this week, I needed to make a video about it... It hit me bad. But we keep fighting!

  • @TurkeySteam
    @TurkeySteam 4 роки тому +6

    You're very honest about being a human, it's refreshing to see. 80% of your list also turns my insides to jello. Keep surviving!

  • @phatnguyen4379
    @phatnguyen4379 4 роки тому +1

    Jello, you're not alone. And although i've gotten through many of my fear, it was truly a tough journey, and I'm so happy you are also trying your best to resist your anxious thoughts! Sometimes these feelings can be such powerful and ingrained influence just because of how they originate deeply from our childhood. Keep going and keep trying (I too still have a lot to learn), wish you the best!

  • @justinvardas8654
    @justinvardas8654 4 роки тому +1

    Jello, I didn't realize I had anxiety either. I just thought I was weird and quiet. Until my early 20's did I realize what exactly anxiety was. I have anxiety for the weirdest things too. It limits me more than I realize. I have been a server for many years and only recently realized I was torturing myself everyday. Hearing you talk makes me feel a lot better about me. Thank you for facing your anxiety even as you made this video and now as you await to see what people think. Looking forward to Battling Anxiety: Part 2

  • @EngrishVT
    @EngrishVT 4 роки тому +18

    im introvert i dont like place with alot of people this quarantine time is where i shine at hehe

  • @johnboyle9728
    @johnboyle9728 4 роки тому +3

    I was eating some Jello while watching this and couldn't help see the Irony of this awesome young lady talk about anxiety when meeting new people while talking too Thousands of new people. Myra, you are a success here because of your genuine display of your humanity. Your story and struggles are real to many of us and you share them in a beautiful way with truth and gentle descriptions that leave out the mean nature of so many other channels. I don't think you need expensive tricky editing or equipment. You have the right formula already. After all, it is the phone that we all take with us, not a five thousand dollar wide angle camera on a tripod with super perfect microphones. Oh How much more beautiful the real flower with a flaw is than the fake one with perfect colors . Don' t worry about pleasing us....just share your bouquet with us when it strikes you as important to you... as you already are doing! Good luck in your endeavors going forward and Thank you..! P.S. As I watched your video about your trip to the lake, I thought to myself "she has the qualities of a film maker" Then I found you short film...just something i noticed

  • @jordansellers6291
    @jordansellers6291 4 роки тому +2

    You're such an inspiration, thank you for sharing your stories and being so open about your thoughts and emotions. Self reflection is so powerful when used constructively. Proud of you for everything!

  • @woodly1069
    @woodly1069 4 роки тому

    Myra, your ability to add content to your channel is your gift. You don't have to be terrified of being yourself, that's why people like you! You have so much to offer there is absolutely no reason to for you to have any anxiety about anything! You are a beautiful person!

  • @fizz9116
    @fizz9116 4 роки тому +6

    Every single subscriber of yours is your friend ❤️

  • @Morbiddays
    @Morbiddays 4 роки тому +12

    Your relatable to alot of people. Your not alone :)

    • @Morbiddays
      @Morbiddays 4 роки тому +1

      @@myrawest No...Thank you for being open an honest. This is why your channel is growing an will continue to do so. Your a gorgeous person with a soul that makes us want to reach into our devices an hug ya :)

    • @pavledrakulic9456
      @pavledrakulic9456 4 роки тому

      * YOU ARE

  • @aydchavez2473
    @aydchavez2473 3 роки тому

    The reason why I think you’re so popular to me is that you’re just yourself I encourage you just to be who you are I really do enjoy your videos for once in my life it’s really nice to see somebody who’s just them selves transparent and honest you don’t find that many people like that these days and it’s sad. Please keep up the good work you’re very appreciated on my behalf thank you so very muchFor just being you

  • @eyeofthetager
    @eyeofthetager 3 роки тому

    Keep doing what you’re doing it’s always nice to see fellow people struggling but getting through things helps give me something to stay grounded.

  • @giggitywoo9884
    @giggitywoo9884 4 роки тому +3

    jello ;) i've struggled with social anxiety all my life so this was very relateable for me. stay strong

  • @flamingfilms
    @flamingfilms 4 роки тому +3

    13:45 don't even get me started on skipping out on class trips and fundraising because of social anxiety as well. Yeah public restrooms, public transpo, public everything, school, everything about school, adulting, your hitting all the points girl. Jello

  • @ratmilk8273
    @ratmilk8273 3 роки тому

    Jello!! It feels so good to finally see someone talking about the things that controlled my life for so long! I completely feel you, thank you for making videos.

  • @jamielockett2547
    @jamielockett2547 3 роки тому +2

    Just keep being you and stay genuine, nobody's perfect anyway and if people don't agree with you, oh well!

  • @shalomwanjiru400
    @shalomwanjiru400 4 роки тому +10

    It's funny how I can relate to people on the internet yet it's so hard to like come across someone just like you in real life..it sucks

  • @carlosalvarez9944
    @carlosalvarez9944 4 роки тому +9

    You're such a beautiful person.

  • @rajivpaul9122
    @rajivpaul9122 3 роки тому +1

    Jello. Also I'll add I can relate to your situation. Performance anxiety, awkward situations, but one thing I've learned since ive become conscious of it is you're stronger than you think. And if you continue to challenge yourself, then at the end of the day when alls said and done you did your due diligence. You did the work and you can be proud of that even if the results aren't obvious at first. Also you've got a really bright smile!

  • @leslieann364
    @leslieann364 4 роки тому

    You gained all of these subscribers because of your honesty and openess to share deeply personal feelings of loneliness and anxiety. People connected with your message because they feel similarly. You aren't alone in your experiences. We feel it! Sending you positive thoughts! And Jello.

  • @QuiverWasTaken
    @QuiverWasTaken 4 роки тому +8

    I still hate myself for awkward things i did when i was 4-5 (and of course everything after that aswell) . I dont even refer to myself as my actual name anymore just so i can stop remembering. Ive also never heard of someone who shares that awful feeling.

    • @christyloves4915
      @christyloves4915 4 роки тому +1

      You are literally exactly like me....but I've overcome most of it now as I'm 45.

    • @QuiverWasTaken
      @QuiverWasTaken 4 роки тому +1

      @@christyloves4915 well shit, thats roughly alot more than 15

  • @michaelwalls4346
    @michaelwalls4346 4 роки тому +12

    My sone messes up his words too when talking on the phone or when being interviewed. It's a terrible bind for him. He suffered from panic attacks while at university.

  • @jskavaloski
    @jskavaloski 3 роки тому

    Congratulations on your honesty and courage....you're a COOL, LIKEABLE, AUTHENTIC, INTELLIGENT, INTERESTING person, don't let anyone make you feel otherwise! Best wishes conquering your anxiety issues, you can do it.

  • @paulwilson2651
    @paulwilson2651 4 роки тому

    Hi Myra i've suffered from anxiety too. You have so many subscribers because you are a genuine beautiful young woman. Don't worry about all of us just be yourself that is why we are here. Take care and all the very best.