This is so interesting to me... I've followed Ronnie Radke for 10 years and have loved his work... I've joined your journey with NF for 10 minutes and love his work... Music is such a powerful thing guys, thank you
I agree , I followed theese guys , cause off FIR reactions , which i love seeing , and is one off my fav reactors to that band ! But NF !! damn didnt listened to him , until theese reactions , and i fing love it !
My son played this song for me 5 years ago. At the time I was at the bottom of a ten year opiate addiction. I felt all my kids pain in Nates eyes and words. It was the push I needed to finally seek treatment. I've been clean ever since. NF couldn't save his mom but he did save me and I am forever greatful. I've been a devoted fan ever since and this is the reason I feel that Nate is a prophet.
I'm so proud of you for getting clean!! If you haven't been on the other side of the equation you will NEVER understand how much it meant to your child but just know it was the most impactful decision you ever made. Addiction is the only disease that ruins everybody else's life too. Congratulations and I hope you continue to be that mama your kids deserve, keep it up ❤️💚💛💙
The most heartbreaking part of this song is throughout the story, he leans on how much anger and resentment he holds towards his mother...but he still ends it with "I wish you were here".
This song destroyed me the first time I heard it, I had so much resentment to my dad right until it was regret and I couldn't do anything about it, granted I was a kid but God damn did NF see right through me with this
he truly encompassed how now matter how much a parent hurts you, no matter how angry you are with them, at the end of the day all you want is your parent(s).
He wrote this song when he was like 19 or 20, shortly after she died. He said in an interview that he wrote this from that little kid's perspective. He has since, as a grown man, understand her as the addict better than when he did when he was little. she gave her kids absolutely ZERO stability. They bounced between their dad, their mom & (mostly) his grandparents. He has said he gives her more grace now and has since forgiven her. There are a few great interview videos out there. One is like an hour long and is about 5 years ago or so. Thatbis the interview that he talks about forgiving her now as an adult. Great reaction guys! I absolutely LOVE NF so much!
When Nate recorded this in the studio I’m pretty sure that he wanted everyone to leave for that last part. And from the beginning I think it was supposed to be a complete verse but Nate broke down and just cried into the mic instead. But they decided it was so emotional and fit so well in the song, so they kept it
In that regard it's like with the original video for James Blunt's Monsters - he would not allow the autotune or technical clean-up; the rawness and flaws make it perfect.
He broke down multiple times through the recording if I remember correctly. And afterward they decided it fit to include it at the end. Edit: Yea he had everyone leave and he spoke for like 5 minutes and they picked through it and put the “best” parts in.
Been waiting for this one. This song destroys people emotionally. Just so you guys know. That last part where NF is talking and crying, the song was getting to be too much for Nate so he asked everyone else to leave the studio and he just let it all out. The talkin/crying part is the result of that.
Should totally reword that bro, this song doesn't destroy people, it heals people, anything that comes from the heart is meant to heal not destroy. The power of music and the power of the words in the music.
@@GaryHicks I agree whole heartedly, this song absolutely destroyed me. Both of my parents and my step parents are addicts. Granted most of it is alcohol, I grew up with my dad getting fked up everyday. Drinking over a case of beer and any pill that he got his hands on. Put me through hell but he was my hero, ‘why?’ Cause he is my dad. But I cried and begged him to stop a million times and I would literally get laughed at. I mean, him and his brother were fked up and fighting and a gun got involved and he ended up getting shot in the head…. And he is still alive and luckily has quit doing everything and only occasionally drinks. My mom is a bad alcoholic and me and my sister have cried and begged her to stop and it never slows down. I’m 30 years old and still cry and beg her to at least slow down cause I do not wanna lose her, especially over some damn alcohol. So yes, long story short from the child’s perspective at least, this song completely dismantled my entire soul. But it doesn’t mean that this song doesn’t heal. This song has saved people and people are clean and doing amazing because of this song. But just because it didn’t ‘destroy’ you doesn’t mean this song didn’t destroy someone else. But just like Gary said, I’m not saying that in a negative way at all. Sorry for the book 😅
I remember finding NF (I was 14) and this was the first song I’ve ever listened to from him. I’ve been a fan ever since. He really came into my life when I needed it
This song honestly saved my life, I have 3 beautiful children and still wasn't ready to grow up, this song destroyed me in the best way, nf will always be the realest rapper.
This song is a beautiful and tragic reminder that our kids need us. And not only need us but need us to be RIGHT and good in the best way we possibly can for them. ♥️
Its more or less things you hear from interviews and just NF himself. He talks about it in intervals. One huge thing is that this song took him i think almost 2 days to finish recording because of how hard it was. He recorded the first half, then his producer stopped, and took him to a movie, out to eat, etc. Then the very end NF asked everyone to leave the booth so he could record it.
Don't normally comment on videos but seeing yalls reaction helped this song hit even harder. Thank you for being transparent and not holding back your own emotions. Seeing your empathy, how even you guys let your heart be on your sleeve during this video was truly beautiful. Thank you Kyle and Eric. Yall are awesome. Edit: IDK if you guys do requests. There's a pretty strong song called "The Patriot" by Topher
Fun “ish” fact about this song, after he recorded this song he asked everyone to leave him be for a moment so he could talk to his mom in the studio, afaik.
Something I've come to learn in my 46 years of life, is that it honestly does not matter that NF may have had a worse situation than you two. All that matters is that you went through something of your own. I've had a total shit life myself, but it doesn't matter how much or how bad. If a situation arises that is the worst thing that you've ever had to experience, then you understand. There should never be any discussion of trauma vs trauma and who had it worse. Most everyone has their own trauma of one kind or another, and even though we are all different, having gone through our trauma makes us all the same as broken souls. Love and respect to you both, and can't wait for the journey to continue!
"Enought to make a grown man cry" it hits deep we may not go through the exact situations but we feel his emotions and can tell it's as real as they get
This masterpiece as he has said ,is the most authentic he ever wrote. Everyone had to leave the studio at the end of the song. Also he said that now that he has become a parent ,he has taken the place of his mother and has forgiven her. Incredible touching reaction, thank you guys. There are songs you listen to and songs you F E E L !!#NFREALMUSIC
I was waiting for y'all to come across this one. This one hits so hard for me. My daughter is 6, and my son is 4. For almost 80% of that time I've been in and out due to my past drug use. It took me hitting a pretty serious bottom. Being incarcerated about a year, missing all the major holidays and birthdays, and having to process all of it with sober mind, for me to finally understand what I was doing. I've been out since the end of November of 2021, and it's been a no brainer turning my back to that toxic lifestyle. I'm just thankful to be able to be with my kids and celebrate birthdays and holidays with them. Not all addicts see way out, and I always pray that the next addict finds their way back from the edge. There were too many times that I should have died. This song tears me up harder than any song I know, but I listen to it to remind me of where I came from, and where I could go, should I ever let my guard down. Much love to you guys. And much love to the other addicts out there who are trying to pull themselves out of that dark place.
You guys are a couple of real, beautiful souls. I really appreciated your emotional honesty and I think it goes a long way to show people it's okay to get emotional over real situations and real human suffering because we all go through it. Wanna hear the good news? The next song is more of a hype song so you've made it out of the woods! 😆
The Raw Emotion is what hits the hardest. It's feeling it with him. I empathize with him as my bio dad was similar. The pain never goes away and I feel comfort listening to his music. I love y'all's reaction. Y'all are beautiful people. Mental health is important.
This is my exact childhood. Every bit of anger and tears he has I’ve had. This song made me feel so connected to him and made all of his songs and journey make sense. Great reaction guys!
I have watched so many reviews of this video and song and I will just say this; I have never cried so much watching 2 guys looking at a video more then you 2 right now. Well Done!! There is a video of NF doing this song in Las Vegas live, you can see the pain in his face still.
Yes this reaction definitely made me shed a few years along with them because they really did make this song hit harder cause usually don't see two dudes show their emotions like that and I give them props and absolutely wonderful reaction!!!
I am a grown ass woman who cries every time I hear this as he sings what was my life..One of the most powerful songs I know Thank you both for your reaction
My dad was an alcoholic for many years ever since i was little he would drink till he passed out. One day he had a very bad car accident drunk.. he didn’t die fortunately. But this is exactly how i feel about him drinking.. even tho he’s still alive it feels like i lost my dad because I don’t know him and he doesn’t know me.. NF is my hero, he says the words i cannot say…
Thank you for being brave enough to actually record this and let it all out. Also, bless Eric for trying to break the ice and bring the humour. A couple of other people have already commented about the “behind the scenes” stuff and I’ve heard the same things too. It’s interesting, NF doesn’t do many interviews at all but I suppose we know so much more about his life via his music anyway.
My Mom died because of pills when I was 7, this song came out a few years later and really helped me through it, I have been following NF since his first album years ago and I am really glad he has not only helped me through my pain but millions of other people, keep up the great work guys
I’ve been listening to NF since 2017 and this song brought me to tears. It’s been a long time I heard a song that made me emotional. NF is a great artist.
This is THE song that gets me right in the feels. Every time I hear it my heart just hurts. My mother passed away from an overdose in 2015. Growing up for me was incredibly similar to how his up bringing is depicted in this video. All the emotions are raw and exactly how he explains them. Smelling marijuana reminds me of my mother, and how she would get so high from that and pills my sister had to take care of me. The remorse of having that be the way I remember my mother weighs a heavy burden. There were so many times I had to be watched while I showered because my mother was turned in to family services. She passed when I was 21. She never got to meet my three children. She never got to see me excel at my job and get so many promotions. She never got to see me being as homeowner and owning my own land. This song is spot on to how it feels. I'm so excited that you guys are understanding how great NF truly is. I cannot wait for more NF reactions. Hopefully you guys will react to some stuff off of his mix tape.
This is the rawest emotional song I've ever heard. Hits deep every time. NF asked his producer/team to leave the studio. They continued recording and he flat out cried and talked through his emotions that you hear at the end. This is the toughest one to listen to. We promise, it gets much much better.
Not gonna lie... the first time I heard this song a few years ago, I had to go see my mom and grandma and hug them. This song will hurt anyone that listens to it even if they haven't experienced anything to this level. If anyone ever needed proof that his music is "real" this is all the proof you'd ever need.
The only song that makes me legitimately cry every time; it hits so incredibly hard and is so genuinely authentic you can FEEL the pain and how much it's affected Nate
This was a tough one to watch, I lost my mom to pills 10 years ago. I appreciate how sincere you both are with your comments, thank you for the reaction!
I survived 4yrs of pills, I never lost or left my 2 kids but I lost our trust and bond. They still don’t fully forgive me and I understand. They’re 26 & 18. But I will never put anything before them ever again!
I have been low key dreading this part of the journey because I knew it was gonna smash everyone's face in the cement. Whether it's the first time or thousandth time theyve heard it, it simultaneously tugs heartstrings that are freshly born and the old as fuck ones with deep roots. Its raw. Its disgusting. Its beautiful. And its real. I'm a single momma with 3 kids. Ive been thru more in my life than most people and that was BEFORE I had my kids. The ripple effect of trauma never really ends. Its what you do with it that matters. When I get in a dark place, I watch this video on repeat. The amount of beautiful sobbing that happens every single time you watch it, heals. It helps somehow. Thank you for going on this journey and being 100% in the dark the whole time. It makes the reactions that much more authentic and beautiful. Love you guys. I really do. Im here if you need a shoulder or a chat. I'm a pretty dope soul. And dope souls inevitably find each other. Its science. Thanks again for this. Im gonna go cry for a while and feel better after. ❤
I don't usually watch the reactions to this song but I love you guys and just subscribed to your patreon to support your channel and follow you on the NF journey. I turned 40 today and man, I wish I had NF when I was growing up. His vulnerability and genuiness is relatable on so many levels. Not gonna revoke your man cards for the tears cause I was right there with you! Don't worry, some serious bangers are coming up.
"I'll edit this to make us cool" 😂I've watched this reaction probably 3 times before and I keep coming back because you two have added so much to my NF listening experience over the last few months. Thanks, guys, for being REAL.
This track is so hard to listen to. I cry everytime i hear it. It's so powerful. And when you know how it's been produced that makes it even more impectful. Great reaction guys
Great reaction as always guys. This song is so sad but beautiful. I bawled my eyes out the first time I heard it. It reminds me of my relationship with my dad when I was a kid. It helped me focus on being there for my children and always jetting know I love them.
The last part you can hear NF cry.. he had told the team and producers to step out for a sec while he speaks from his heart.. that is also the crying in background through the song.
I was watching some therapists react to a few of NF's songs, including this, and I saw your reaction pop up in the recommended and had to click on it as well. I've seen this reaction already but, strangely enough, coming back to you two felt like coming back to a safe space? Just seeing the both of you cry (like I had just been crying) and then listening to you just talk and joke (also my way of coping) really brought me back down from all the high emotions I was feeling and soothed my nerves again. So, thanks for that ❤🩹
I've heard this song dozens of times and it still hits me in the feels. I won't go into details but I relate to this song too much. I love how you guys knew it was coming and still took it. Great reaction.
Thank you for being open about such a hard personal thing. The fact that you're here today and able to talk about it says a lot about how strong you've become.
David, my heart goes out to you with Mom-Love. Thank you for being willing to go down this path with Eric and Kyle knowing what was coming, and I'm so glad to have you here with the Rykerroad family. 😊
@@Rykerroad I appreciate both of your reactions to this (and every other video) and how open you both are with your emotions. I've learned a lot from his music, but the most surprising is how what you thought was your biggest weakness can actually be the strength to move forward. Loving the journey!
@@rykerroadMOM3123 I really appreciate the kind words, they mean a lot. They both seem like the most relatable men to me, guys I would have a beer with. Love their videos. Would love to see you in more videos by the way!
I was abused in many ways during my childhood. My mother abandoned me after a year. This song hits home. A lot of people don't understand nf. They call him a Christian rapper when he's just a rapper who is Christian. He doesn't reject those of us like me who are atheist. We can bond with him about his pain and struggles because so many of us have had similar struggles or different pains. Things we still carry with us. He does wonders for my mental health but I know he's also looking out for him. I respect him and that's something I can't say for a lot of people especially those in the music industry.
This is genuinely one of the best songs for emotion, impact, or anything that I only listen to like once or twice a year. The pain dripping from this song is overwhelming for me and others that have not even been through something like this.
My mom wasn't addicted to any drugs to my knowledge but she did abandon my sister, myself and my dad when we were just babies. I never knew her until I was an adult and now that I have two babies of my own it always resurfaces that I'll never understand how she could have done that to us. I'm sure she had her own demons and reasons and I have since forgiven her for the abandonment but I will never fully understand and I have suffered the damages from living with the idea that even your own mother doesn't love you and you werent' good enough for her so how could you be good enough for anything or anyone else. It's coming up on one year of her unexpected passing and now my baby girls will never know their grandmother either. This song is so hard to listen to because it evokes so much emotion. That's what makes it great. NF is a special artist.
Great reaction guys. I listen to NF on constantly, to the point where my daughter says “what a surprise, it’s NF” in a sarcastic tone. But this song always gets to me. I don’t cry much at all and never been through something like this, but this song ALWAYS gets me a little watery. But great reaction and if it helps, I don’t think there is any other song this deep. Lots of great tracks ahead. I don’t know if it has been mentioned but I guess he told everybody to leave at the very end when he was talking. It’s a very sad song but in the journey it’s a very very important piece of the puzzle
You guys did a great job. This is the saving private ryan of songs… great, but devastating. This song is a testament to show the wreckage left by parents who fall into addiction. It's also a place for those children or adults with that past to have someone speak to their pain. Hopefully this also helps those who have a connection/relationship to someone who is struggling with addiction to take a stand and have an a group intervention, if not for them, than at least for their kids.
I felt this pain. I lost my mum at a young age, but it wasn't drugs, but I completely felt his emotional pain 💔 😢 I love NF, and the way he has done this song.
This song will never not make me cry. I don’t listen to it anymore but I do enjoy seeing reactors videos. Thank you for being so honestly emotional; this song just hits like a tank
I lost my mom about six years ago now, and this song still hits hard. Not from pills, but from addiction(alcoholic). I had my daughter(her first grandchild) and she wanted to finally get clean for her and us. 3 days in her heart gave out from the withdrawal and she died. Please don't be afraid to call out your loved ones and get them the professional help they need while you still have the chance. I, we should have done more, and alot sooner before things got so bad.
I can't make it through this song without crying so I knew it was going to be rough but watching the two of you get emotional broke me. Incredible reaction! Love you guys!
I became paralyzed in August 2020 and have been struggling with trying to graduate, chronic pain, crippling depression, and new life style ever since. I had a hard time trying to get my parents to understand how hard it was to have my mobility and normality stripped away. We would have the same fight over and over for a year. My relationship with my mom declined and my dad blamed himself for my accident so he avoided me. It hurt because I used to be really close to them and my dad was truly a best friend. It would hurt when he’d walk past me and not even look at me. Towards the end of 2021 my dad and I were painting, watching movies, making fun of each other and my siblings like we used to. Unfortunately, on January 14th my father unexpectedly passed away from a heart attack. My family grew farther apart and now 5/8 of the people in my household suffer from depression. We no longer have my dad income but we do have 8 mouths to feed not counting out animals. I feel responsible or all the pain in my family and the panic and anxiety attacks have gotten worse to the point I can no longer console myself. I’ve been an NF fan for over five years and I hadn’t listened to his music for maybe three of the five but I feel as if God answered my pleas and sent me a guardian angel. Now NF’s songs hit a little harder after the trauma I’ve experienced. I had started loosing faith in the Lord and it scared me because without the foundation of belief, what motivation do I have to even fight the demons residing in my mind. Without hope or faith I felt nothing and the temptation to take my own life started growing too tempting. Especially after my fathers death. I am glad NF was brought back into by life because the Lord new just how he would be able to help me. I can’t wait for you guys to go on this journey too!!!
I listen to this song several times since the album first dropped. Every time I tear up. I feel like it helps me to strive to be a better father for my children. It humbles me more and reminds me to pray and work harder to be the best parent I can be. Thanks guys. Love your reactions!
This one has always hit REALLY close to me and always use it when I need to feel something. I remember the first time I heard it I had a mental breakdown infront of all my friends.
Woww this was rough for sure. God Bless this young man for being able to put it all out there and let the healing begin! Sometimes you just have to. I know your reaction was honest and true, that's what these fine people come here for and you always deliver. I love being your Mom! 💜💜
Listen to it, over and over. It's ok to have feelings and feel compassion for another human based on their experiences. That is what God meant for us, and what the world fights against.
This shit hits home to me SO HARD. Hearing this as a broken child and now listening to it as a father of 3 boys… I don’t know which point of my life it hits harder.
My sister showed me this song years ago, we went through this so it tore me up and I still cry when I hear it. It's an amazing song but as much as I love it, I agree with you. I try not to listen to it unless I have to
My mom passed 16 years ago today. NF and his music has helped tremendously still always a tough battle but this music is definitely therapy. Appreciate your real reactions it’s great to see
Eric - "Well this is fun" Hilarious. This was a tough song to watch you guys react to, but you made it through it. The rest of the journey will be much easier.
Thanks to your reaction to this touching and heartfelt song. Even a person who doesn't pass this situation, can feel the pain and the suffering of NF. The crying simply rip our inner core and make us feel the reality of this world. Sometimes it's so good to let some tears drop of our face. Thanks NF and thanks you guys for your feedback. I'm looking forward to keep accompany you on this wonderfull journey.
such a crazy train of events for me.. i started at one reaction channel a few months ago, just looking for new music i could get into... happened to come across a couple of Falling in reverse vids on said channel ( i had heard of falling in reverse, in name only) so i watched those and was just blown away by RR's voice, watched his vids reacting to content creators, basically leading me here. so my point to all this rambling is that i am thoroughly loving this channel! i had never heard of NF before, so this is my first time hearing this, and the power and emotion of this song. wow... just wow! The thing is.. i prob wouldnt have heard this song unless it just blew up or something like that, but through the chain effect of music it happened and i'm grateful! Music is healing, Music is my higher power! @Rykerroad, keep this up guys, ya'll effin rock!
I'm re-watching this after "HOPE" and it's something even better now. In this h says "I don't say I forgive you, cause it doesn't happen" but the in HOPE he forgives her and I'm literally crying my heart out...❤️ btw love your videos pls keep it up❤️❤️🫶🏻
Love NF!! Thank you for this harder reaction, I've seen an interview where they ask NF about this song, he said he understands his mom more now ( at the time of the interview) I'm sorry I don't remember what interview that was I think I've watched all his interviews by now. His wife posted a video of NF reading to his son for Father's day yesterday. It made me so happy but it made me think of what he says in this song.
I was at work and this song came on, on pandora. I was unprepared. Bawling at work. Still to this day the song makes me cry. Love that a song can make you feel a situation you’ve never felt.
Great video guys, love how honest you both are! On the bright side this is his most emotional song and he has some heavier rap stuff right after with "Real". Really looking forward to you guys reaction to that song and you very well may need to use CC as he pops off!
I am a addict mom, clean for many years. I am a step mom of three BEAUTIFUL girls who lost their mom to OD And i grew up in foster care, lost my mom to cancer 7 years after she got sober when i was 18. This song is....devastating. and beautiful.
Yall are super precious. Thank you for feeling this openly, the way we all feel it privately. Knowing we all share pain, even in different ways, is so important for every single one of us to know.
Guys, don’t ever feel ashamed to cry. We as men have this stigma and we have to stay human. We hurt. It’s okay. Even though this song is tearing us apart, sometimes it’s good to feel that. Let that out. On a personal note: I have seen what addiction can do to a person. A parent. How it affects the child(ren). And that is just heartbreaking. Your reaction was real and I respect you for it. Stay real! Much love from the Netherlands 🇳🇱 ❤
I love how raw your emotions are while reacting to this song. To my understanding it was done in one take, and he had a 4th verse but couldn't finish the song before breaking down in the studio. NOBODY does music like NF.
Almost no matter how many times I end up seeing reactors do this one, it always gets me. You guys are troopers and the rest of the journey should be a bit easier past this one. You'll really start seeing NF improve and progress as you go through the albums and I'm here for all of it 😊 Keep on Keeping on!
The two most emotional songs I’ve ever heard in my life are this song and brother by falling in reverse. Two absolutely tear inducing and beautiful songs
This is so interesting to me...
I've followed Ronnie Radke for 10 years and have loved his work...
I've joined your journey with NF for 10 minutes and love his work...
Music is such a powerful thing guys, thank you
I agree , I followed theese guys , cause off FIR reactions , which i love seeing , and is one off my fav reactors to that band ! But NF !! damn didnt listened to him , until theese reactions , and i fing love it !
My son played this song for me 5 years ago. At the time I was at the bottom of a ten year opiate addiction. I felt all my kids pain in Nates eyes and words. It was the push I needed to finally seek treatment. I've been clean ever since. NF couldn't save his mom but he did save me and I am forever greatful. I've been a devoted fan ever since and this is the reason I feel that Nate is a prophet.
Brandi!! Love as always!
We're so glad you're here with us on Rykerroad, Brandi!! 💚
You are Amazing Brandi. I don't know you personally but i am very proud of you for getting clean and getting your life back. Congratulations 🎉🎉💖💖
Praise God!! That is awesome!! Way to go Brandi!!!
I'm so proud of you for getting clean!! If you haven't been on the other side of the equation you will NEVER understand how much it meant to your child but just know it was the most impactful decision you ever made. Addiction is the only disease that ruins everybody else's life too. Congratulations and I hope you continue to be that mama your kids deserve, keep it up ❤️💚💛💙
The most heartbreaking part of this song is throughout the story, he leans on how much anger and resentment he holds towards his mother...but he still ends it with "I wish you were here".
and now in his new song, he forgives and understands her
@@cs-gj3yf yeaa
This song destroyed me the first time I heard it, I had so much resentment to my dad right until it was regret and I couldn't do anything about it, granted I was a kid but God damn did NF see right through me with this
he truly encompassed how now matter how much a parent hurts you, no matter how angry you are with them, at the end of the day all you want is your parent(s).
"music is the only place i can go to speak to you" That line has such a deep meaning and i can relate to it.
He wrote this song when he was like 19 or 20, shortly after she died. He said in an interview that he wrote this from that little kid's perspective. He has since, as a grown man, understand her as the addict better than when he did when he was little. she gave her kids absolutely ZERO stability. They bounced between their dad, their mom & (mostly) his grandparents. He has said he gives her more grace now and has since forgiven her. There are a few great interview videos out there. One is like an hour long and is about 5 years ago or so. Thatbis the interview that he talks about forgiving her now as an adult. Great reaction guys! I absolutely LOVE NF so much!
Can you give me the link to the long interview? :)
Finally two dudes that get it. Thanks for not making the rest of us feel like little babies for crying too… ❤
When Nate recorded this in the studio I’m pretty sure that he wanted everyone to leave for that last part. And from the beginning I think it was supposed to be a complete verse but Nate broke down and just cried into the mic instead. But they decided it was so emotional and fit so well in the song, so they kept it
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In that regard it's like with the original video for James Blunt's Monsters - he would not allow the autotune or technical clean-up; the rawness and flaws make it perfect.
True dedication to his artistry and his healing journey.
He broke down multiple times through the recording if I remember correctly. And afterward they decided it fit to include it at the end. Edit: Yea he had everyone leave and he spoke for like 5 minutes and they picked through it and put the “best” parts in.
This is a song where it doesn’t matter how many times you listen to it, it will always hit you the same as the first time you heard it
It really does, it’s so hard to revisit this song/video. I love that NF has allowed himself to be so vulnerable
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I still tear up listening to this song and I've listened to it 20 times. It still hits me like a ton of bricks.
Anyone who relates to this at least gets the sniffles. I know my chest locks up personally.
Been waiting for this one. This song destroys people emotionally.
Just so you guys know. That last part where NF is talking and crying, the song was getting to be too much for Nate so he asked everyone else to leave the studio and he just let it all out. The talkin/crying part is the result of that.
Should totally reword that bro, this song doesn't destroy people, it heals people, anything that comes from the heart is meant to heal not destroy. The power of music and the power of the words in the music.
No bro, it dosnt destroy, it saves, I'm one that it saved . His music brought me through being clean and sober from heroin. It absolutely saves
@@rebeccaprice7313 Relax I didn't say it in a negative way.
@@stephanlarson6631 didn't mean it in a negative way, calm down.
@@GaryHicks I agree whole heartedly, this song absolutely destroyed me. Both of my parents and my step parents are addicts. Granted most of it is alcohol, I grew up with my dad getting fked up everyday. Drinking over a case of beer and any pill that he got his hands on. Put me through hell but he was my hero, ‘why?’ Cause he is my dad. But I cried and begged him to stop a million times and I would literally get laughed at. I mean, him and his brother were fked up and fighting and a gun got involved and he ended up getting shot in the head…. And he is still alive and luckily has quit doing everything and only occasionally drinks. My mom is a bad alcoholic and me and my sister have cried and begged her to stop and it never slows down. I’m 30 years old and still cry and beg her to at least slow down cause I do not wanna lose her, especially over some damn alcohol.
So yes, long story short from the child’s perspective at least, this song completely dismantled my entire soul. But it doesn’t mean that this song doesn’t heal. This song has saved people and people are clean and doing amazing because of this song. But just because it didn’t ‘destroy’ you doesn’t mean this song didn’t destroy someone else. But just like Gary said, I’m not saying that in a negative way at all. Sorry for the book 😅
10:10 "I'll edit this to make us look cool" absolutely cracked me up!! You both are champs
I was crying and that part uplifted to me a little 🤧
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Love that moment 😂
I haven’t listened to this song since Nate and his wife had their son. The ending is even harder to listen to now 😭😭
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I remember finding NF (I was 14) and this was the first song I’ve ever listened to from him. I’ve been a fan ever since. He really came into my life when I needed it
This song honestly saved my life, I have 3 beautiful children and still wasn't ready to grow up, this song destroyed me in the best way, nf will always be the realest rapper.
So glad you’re alive, Brian
Good because you matter more than you may ever know Brian!
This song is a beautiful and tragic reminder that our kids need us. And not only need us but need us to be RIGHT and good in the best way we possibly can for them. ♥️
Its more or less things you hear from interviews and just NF himself. He talks about it in intervals. One huge thing is that this song took him i think almost 2 days to finish recording because of how hard it was. He recorded the first half, then his producer stopped, and took him to a movie, out to eat, etc. Then the very end NF asked everyone to leave the booth so he could record it.
Don't normally comment on videos but seeing yalls reaction helped this song hit even harder. Thank you for being transparent and not holding back your own emotions. Seeing your empathy, how even you guys let your heart be on your sleeve during this video was truly beautiful. Thank you Kyle and Eric. Yall are awesome.
Edit: IDK if you guys do requests. There's a pretty strong song called "The Patriot" by Topher
Thank you for being a part of this journey with us.... and let us get through some more NF and some patreon requests and we can. Just remind us lol
Fun “ish” fact about this song, after he recorded this song he asked everyone to leave him be for a moment so he could talk to his mom in the studio, afaik.
Something I've come to learn in my 46 years of life, is that it honestly does not matter that NF may have had a worse situation than you two. All that matters is that you went through something of your own. I've had a total shit life myself, but it doesn't matter how much or how bad. If a situation arises that is the worst thing that you've ever had to experience, then you understand. There should never be any discussion of trauma vs trauma and who had it worse. Most everyone has their own trauma of one kind or another, and even though we are all different, having gone through our trauma makes us all the same as broken souls. Love and respect to you both, and can't wait for the journey to continue!
"Enought to make a grown man cry" it hits deep we may not go through the exact situations but we feel his emotions and can tell it's as real as they get
The best song that nobody ever wants to hear twice.
the official lyrics are actually "If you're still watching, why?" at the end. It is way more powerful
This masterpiece as he has said ,is the most authentic he ever wrote.
Everyone had to leave the studio at the end of the song. Also he said that now that he has become a parent ,he has taken the place of his mother and has forgiven her.
Incredible touching reaction, thank you guys. There are songs you listen to and songs you F E E L !!#NFREALMUSIC
Man I cry every time...
I was waiting for y'all to come across this one. This one hits so hard for me. My daughter is 6, and my son is 4. For almost 80% of that time I've been in and out due to my past drug use. It took me hitting a pretty serious bottom. Being incarcerated about a year, missing all the major holidays and birthdays, and having to process all of it with sober mind, for me to finally understand what I was doing. I've been out since the end of November of 2021, and it's been a no brainer turning my back to that toxic lifestyle. I'm just thankful to be able to be with my kids and celebrate birthdays and holidays with them. Not all addicts see way out, and I always pray that the next addict finds their way back from the edge. There were too many times that I should have died. This song tears me up harder than any song I know, but I listen to it to remind me of where I came from, and where I could go, should I ever let my guard down. Much love to you guys. And much love to the other addicts out there who are trying to pull themselves out of that dark place.
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You guys are a couple of real, beautiful souls. I really appreciated your emotional honesty and I think it goes a long way to show people it's okay to get emotional over real situations and real human suffering because we all go through it.
Wanna hear the good news? The next song is more of a hype song so you've made it out of the woods! 😆
The Raw Emotion is what hits the hardest. It's feeling it with him. I empathize with him as my bio dad was similar. The pain never goes away and I feel comfort listening to his music. I love y'all's reaction. Y'all are beautiful people. Mental health is important.
The most gut wrenching part about this song is the Nate was physically crying when he was recording this. It breaks my heart
This is my exact childhood. Every bit of anger and tears he has I’ve had. This song made me feel so connected to him and made all of his songs and journey make sense. Great reaction guys!
I have watched so many reviews of this video and song and I will just say this; I have never cried so much watching 2 guys looking at a video more then you 2 right now. Well Done!! There is a video of NF doing this song in Las Vegas live, you can see the pain in his face still.
Omg he does this live? Wow
Yes this reaction definitely made me shed a few years along with them because they really did make this song hit harder cause usually don't see two dudes show their emotions like that and I give them props and absolutely wonderful reaction!!!
I am a grown ass woman who cries every time I hear this as he sings what was my life..One of the most powerful songs I know
Thank you both for your reaction
My dad was an alcoholic for many years ever since i was little he would drink till he passed out. One day he had a very bad car accident drunk.. he didn’t die fortunately. But this is exactly how i feel about him drinking.. even tho he’s still alive it feels like i lost my dad because I don’t know him and he doesn’t know me.. NF is my hero, he says the words i cannot say…
Thank you for being brave enough to actually record this and let it all out. Also, bless Eric for trying to break the ice and bring the humour. A couple of other people have already commented about the “behind the scenes” stuff and I’ve heard the same things too. It’s interesting, NF doesn’t do many interviews at all but I suppose we know so much more about his life via his music anyway.
Music is SO powerful man 😭🥺 Nate is an absolutely talented musician & person. The way he brings his story into his music is incredible.
My Mom died because of pills when I was 7, this song came out a few years later and really helped me through it, I have been following NF since his first album years ago and I am really glad he has not only helped me through my pain but millions of other people, keep up the great work guys
I’ve been listening to NF since 2017 and this song brought me to tears. It’s been a long time I heard a song that made me emotional. NF is a great artist.
I’ve watched this video probably 100 or more times and it still makes me cry.
This song makes me cry every time. 😭💔
This is THE song that gets me right in the feels. Every time I hear it my heart just hurts. My mother passed away from an overdose in 2015. Growing up for me was incredibly similar to how his up bringing is depicted in this video. All the emotions are raw and exactly how he explains them. Smelling marijuana reminds me of my mother, and how she would get so high from that and pills my sister had to take care of me. The remorse of having that be the way I remember my mother weighs a heavy burden. There were so many times I had to be watched while I showered because my mother was turned in to family services. She passed when I was 21. She never got to meet my three children. She never got to see me excel at my job and get so many promotions. She never got to see me being as homeowner and owning my own land. This song is spot on to how it feels. I'm so excited that you guys are understanding how great NF truly is. I cannot wait for more NF reactions. Hopefully you guys will react to some stuff off of his mix tape.
Ive been waiting for y’all to react to this for awhile
A real song with a real human reaction.
NF is magic.
This is the rawest emotional song I've ever heard. Hits deep every time. NF asked his producer/team to leave the studio. They continued recording and he flat out cried and talked through his emotions that you hear at the end. This is the toughest one to listen to. We promise, it gets much much better.
Not gonna lie... the first time I heard this song a few years ago, I had to go see my mom and grandma and hug them. This song will hurt anyone that listens to it even if they haven't experienced anything to this level. If anyone ever needed proof that his music is "real" this is all the proof you'd ever need.
Not meant to hurt, it's meant to heal. The power of the music and the lyrics.
The only song that makes me legitimately cry every time; it hits so incredibly hard and is so genuinely authentic you can FEEL the pain and how much it's affected Nate
This was a tough one to watch, I lost my mom to pills 10 years ago. I appreciate how sincere you both are with your comments, thank you for the reaction!
Omg I'm so sorry.
I survived 4yrs of pills, I never lost or left my 2 kids but I lost our trust and bond. They still don’t fully forgive me and I understand. They’re 26 & 18. But I will never put anything before them ever again!
Lost my mom to the same thing, this song destroyed me when I first heard it 💔
I have been low key dreading this part of the journey because I knew it was gonna smash everyone's face in the cement. Whether it's the first time or thousandth time theyve heard it, it simultaneously tugs heartstrings that are freshly born and the old as fuck ones with deep roots. Its raw. Its disgusting. Its beautiful. And its real. I'm a single momma with 3 kids. Ive been thru more in my life than most people and that was BEFORE I had my kids. The ripple effect of trauma never really ends. Its what you do with it that matters. When I get in a dark place, I watch this video on repeat. The amount of beautiful sobbing that happens every single time you watch it, heals. It helps somehow. Thank you for going on this journey and being 100% in the dark the whole time. It makes the reactions that much more authentic and beautiful. Love you guys. I really do. Im here if you need a shoulder or a chat. I'm a pretty dope soul. And dope souls inevitably find each other. Its science. Thanks again for this. Im gonna go cry for a while and feel better after. ❤
I’ve been waiting for this for weeks!!
Realest musician and realest reactors
Thx for that!
I don't usually watch the reactions to this song but I love you guys and just subscribed to your patreon to support your channel and follow you on the NF journey. I turned 40 today and man, I wish I had NF when I was growing up. His vulnerability and genuiness is relatable on so many levels. Not gonna revoke your man cards for the tears cause I was right there with you! Don't worry, some serious bangers are coming up.
"I'll edit this to make us cool" 😂I've watched this reaction probably 3 times before and I keep coming back because you two have added so much to my NF listening experience over the last few months. Thanks, guys, for being REAL.
This track is so hard to listen to. I cry everytime i hear it. It's so powerful. And when you know how it's been produced that makes it even more impectful. Great reaction guys
Shivers, chills, tears. Every time I listen.
Great reaction as always guys. This song is so sad but beautiful. I bawled my eyes out the first time I heard it. It reminds me of my relationship with my dad when I was a kid. It helped me focus on being there for my children and always jetting know I love them.
Awesome honest reaction lads - nothing unhealthy about shedding some tears at a beautiful piece of art.
The last part you can hear NF cry.. he had told the team and producers to step out for a sec while he speaks from his heart.. that is also the crying in background through the song.
I was watching some therapists react to a few of NF's songs, including this, and I saw your reaction pop up in the recommended and had to click on it as well. I've seen this reaction already but, strangely enough, coming back to you two felt like coming back to a safe space? Just seeing the both of you cry (like I had just been crying) and then listening to you just talk and joke (also my way of coping) really brought me back down from all the high emotions I was feeling and soothed my nerves again. So, thanks for that ❤🩹
I've heard this song dozens of times and it still hits me in the feels. I won't go into details but I relate to this song too much. I love how you guys knew it was coming and still took it. Great reaction.
thank you for this raw reaction.
Oh no. I've been waiting for this one. This one hits me right in the dick. I lost my mom to a drug overdose at 12. I relate to this one so much.
Thank you for being open about such a hard personal thing. The fact that you're here today and able to talk about it says a lot about how strong you've become.
David, my heart goes out to you with Mom-Love. Thank you for being willing to go down this path with Eric and Kyle knowing what was coming, and I'm so glad to have you here with the Rykerroad family. 😊
@@Rykerroad I appreciate both of your reactions to this (and every other video) and how open you both are with your emotions. I've learned a lot from his music, but the most surprising is how what you thought was your biggest weakness can actually be the strength to move forward. Loving the journey!
@@rykerroadMOM3123 I really appreciate the kind words, they mean a lot. They both seem like the most relatable men to me, guys I would have a beer with. Love their videos. Would love to see you in more videos by the way!
I was abused in many ways during my childhood. My mother abandoned me after a year. This song hits home. A lot of people don't understand nf. They call him a Christian rapper when he's just a rapper who is Christian. He doesn't reject those of us like me who are atheist. We can bond with him about his pain and struggles because so many of us have had similar struggles or different pains. Things we still carry with us. He does wonders for my mental health but I know he's also looking out for him. I respect him and that's something I can't say for a lot of people especially those in the music industry.
I’ve never heard anyone in my life in any genre be as real and open in their music as NF
This is genuinely one of the best songs for emotion, impact, or anything that I only listen to like once or twice a year. The pain dripping from this song is overwhelming for me and others that have not even been through something like this.
My mom wasn't addicted to any drugs to my knowledge but she did abandon my sister, myself and my dad when we were just babies. I never knew her until I was an adult and now that I have two babies of my own it always resurfaces that I'll never understand how she could have done that to us. I'm sure she had her own demons and reasons and I have since forgiven her for the abandonment but I will never fully understand and I have suffered the damages from living with the idea that even your own mother doesn't love you and you werent' good enough for her so how could you be good enough for anything or anyone else. It's coming up on one year of her unexpected passing and now my baby girls will never know their grandmother either. This song is so hard to listen to because it evokes so much emotion. That's what makes it great. NF is a special artist.
The go to when it comes to depth
Great reaction guys. I listen to NF on constantly, to the point where my daughter says “what a surprise, it’s NF” in a sarcastic tone. But this song always gets to me. I don’t cry much at all and never been through something like this, but this song ALWAYS gets me a little watery. But great reaction and if it helps, I don’t think there is any other song this deep. Lots of great tracks ahead. I don’t know if it has been mentioned but I guess he told everybody to leave at the very end when he was talking. It’s a very sad song but in the journey it’s a very very important piece of the puzzle
You guys did a great job. This is the saving private ryan of songs… great, but devastating. This song is a testament to show the wreckage left by parents who fall into addiction. It's also a place for those children or adults with that past to have someone speak to their pain. Hopefully this also helps those who have a connection/relationship to someone who is struggling with addiction to take a stand and have an a group intervention, if not for them, than at least for their kids.
I felt this pain. I lost my mum at a young age,
but it wasn't drugs, but I completely felt his emotional pain 💔 😢 I love NF, and the way he has done this song.
the last part hit different 😢
This song will never not make me cry. I don’t listen to it anymore but I do enjoy seeing reactors videos. Thank you for being so honestly emotional; this song just hits like a tank
I lost my mom about six years ago now, and this song still hits hard. Not from pills, but from addiction(alcoholic). I had my daughter(her first grandchild) and she wanted to finally get clean for her and us. 3 days in her heart gave out from the withdrawal and she died. Please don't be afraid to call out your loved ones and get them the professional help they need while you still have the chance. I, we should have done more, and alot sooner before things got so bad.
I normally don’t watch reactions for this song….but here we go. Well we all cried together and it’s good to see boys have feelings. Thanks guys.😔
I can't make it through this song without crying so I knew it was going to be rough but watching the two of you get emotional broke me. Incredible reaction! Love you guys!
I became paralyzed in August 2020 and have been struggling with trying to graduate, chronic pain, crippling depression, and new life style ever since. I had a hard time trying to get my parents to understand how hard it was to have my mobility and normality stripped away. We would have the same fight over and over for a year. My relationship with my mom declined and my dad blamed himself for my accident so he avoided me. It hurt because I used to be really close to them and my dad was truly a best friend. It would hurt when he’d walk past me and not even look at me.
Towards the end of 2021 my dad and I were painting, watching movies, making fun of each other and my siblings like we used to.
Unfortunately, on January 14th my father unexpectedly passed away from a heart attack. My family grew farther apart and now 5/8 of the people in my household suffer from depression. We no longer have my dad income but we do have 8 mouths to feed not counting out animals. I feel responsible or all the pain in my family and the panic and anxiety attacks have gotten worse to the point I can no longer console myself.
I’ve been an NF fan for over five years and I hadn’t listened to his music for maybe three of the five but I feel as if God answered my pleas and sent me a guardian angel.
Now NF’s songs hit a little harder after the trauma I’ve experienced. I had started loosing faith in the Lord and it scared me because without the foundation of belief, what motivation do I have to even fight the demons residing in my mind. Without hope or faith I felt nothing and the temptation to take my own life started growing too tempting. Especially after my fathers death. I am glad NF was brought back into by life because the Lord new just how he would be able to help me. I can’t wait for you guys to go on this journey too!!!
I listen to this song several times since the album first dropped. Every time I tear up. I feel like it helps me to strive to be a better father for my children. It humbles me more and reminds me to pray and work harder to be the best parent I can be. Thanks guys. Love your reactions!
man, the raw reactions. love you guys 🤍
This one has always hit REALLY close to me and always use it when I need to feel something. I remember the first time I heard it I had a mental breakdown infront of all my friends.
I think we all cry listening to this song,
thanks for this reaction. You should listen to "remember this" from him
I remember when I first found NF I was like 8 years old…..now I’m 15 and this song always gets me in tears.
Woww this was rough for sure. God Bless this young man for being able to put it all out there and let the healing begin! Sometimes you just have to. I know your reaction was honest and true, that's what these fine people come here for and you always deliver. I love being your Mom! 💜💜
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You guys are the realest!
Listen to it, over and over. It's ok to have feelings and feel compassion for another human based on their experiences. That is what God meant for us, and what the world fights against.
Bawling. Thanks guys for being vulnerable and sharing your genuine reaction
This shit hits home to me SO HARD. Hearing this as a broken child and now listening to it as a father of 3 boys… I don’t know which point of my life it hits harder.
My sister showed me this song years ago, we went through this so it tore me up and I still cry when I hear it. It's an amazing song but as much as I love it, I agree with you. I try not to listen to it unless I have to
My mom passed 16 years ago today. NF and his music has helped tremendously still always a tough battle but this music is definitely therapy. Appreciate your real reactions it’s great to see
Eric - "Well this is fun" Hilarious. This was a tough song to watch you guys react to, but you made it through it. The rest of the journey will be much easier.
This song is a mirror of my entire childhood, luckily Nate found a way out from under all this pain, I'm still searching....
Thanks to your reaction to this touching and heartfelt song. Even a person who doesn't pass this situation, can feel the pain and the suffering of NF. The crying simply rip our inner core and make us feel the reality of this world. Sometimes it's so good to let some tears drop of our face. Thanks NF and thanks you guys for your feedback. I'm looking forward to keep accompany you on this wonderfull journey.
The second time I've watched this song cried both times sad but beautiful song NF is a legend x I had to watch your reaction tho so raw and emotional.
such a crazy train of events for me.. i started at one reaction channel a few months ago, just looking for new music i could get into... happened to come across a couple of Falling in reverse vids on said channel ( i had heard of falling in reverse, in name only) so i watched those and was just blown away by RR's voice, watched his vids reacting to content creators, basically leading me here.
so my point to all this rambling is that i am thoroughly loving this channel! i had never heard of NF before, so this is my first time hearing this, and the power and emotion of this song. wow... just wow! The thing is.. i prob wouldnt have heard this song unless it just blew up or something like that, but through the chain effect of music it happened and i'm grateful!
Music is healing, Music is my higher power!
@Rykerroad, keep this up guys, ya'll effin rock!
Thank you so much..... im so glad it has shown you more music, especially NF.
I'm re-watching this after "HOPE" and it's something even better now. In this h says "I don't say I forgive you, cause it doesn't happen" but the in HOPE he forgives her and I'm literally crying my heart out...❤️ btw love your videos pls keep it up❤️❤️🫶🏻
Love NF!! Thank you for this harder reaction, I've seen an interview where they ask NF about this song, he said he understands his mom more now ( at the time of the interview) I'm sorry I don't remember what interview that was I think I've watched all his interviews by now.
His wife posted a video of NF reading to his son for Father's day yesterday. It made me so happy but it made me think of what he says in this song.
I was at work and this song came on, on pandora. I was unprepared. Bawling at work. Still to this day the song makes me cry. Love that a song can make you feel a situation you’ve never felt.
I can honestly say I never broke down hearing a song till I heard this when it first came out.
Mad respect to both of you guys, NF is truly a prophet in his writing, singing, and rapping. He is a new EM!
Great video guys, love how honest you both are! On the bright side this is his most emotional song and he has some heavier rap stuff right after with "Real". Really looking forward to you guys reaction to that song and you very well may need to use CC as he pops off!
I am a addict mom, clean for many years.
I am a step mom of three BEAUTIFUL girls who lost their mom to OD
And i grew up in foster care, lost my mom to cancer 7 years after she got sober when i was 18.
This song is....devastating. and beautiful.
Yall are super precious. Thank you for feeling this openly, the way we all feel it privately. Knowing we all share pain, even in different ways, is so important for every single one of us to know.
Guys, don’t ever feel ashamed to cry. We as men have this stigma and we have to stay human. We hurt. It’s okay. Even though this song is tearing us apart, sometimes it’s good to feel that. Let that out. On a personal note: I have seen what addiction can do to a person. A parent. How it affects the child(ren). And that is just heartbreaking. Your reaction was real and I respect you for it. Stay real! Much love from the Netherlands 🇳🇱 ❤
I love how raw your emotions are while reacting to this song. To my understanding it was done in one take, and he had a 4th verse but couldn't finish the song before breaking down in the studio. NOBODY does music like NF.
Almost no matter how many times I end up seeing reactors do this one, it always gets me. You guys are troopers and the rest of the journey should be a bit easier past this one. You'll really start seeing NF improve and progress as you go through the albums and I'm here for all of it 😊 Keep on Keeping on!
The two most emotional songs I’ve ever heard in my life are this song and brother by falling in reverse. Two absolutely tear inducing and beautiful songs