What else do you want to see me react to? 🤔 Comment below! Also if you like the song in the intro listen to it here: ua-cam.com/video/j2FSqyWRLzc/v-deo.html 🙌🙏
I love your reactions 🥰🥰🥰. I can't wait to another NF reaction. I can't waaaaaaaaitttttt😵😵😵😵. You should check out "You're special", " Like this ", "Thinking"
Give mason wav a listen he’s a new rapper has 3 songs out so far I think he’s got good flow. Even if you don’t keep up the good work love you reactions
@Beed Beezy Now that's a question. But he did say, "if they don't *feel it."* I feel some Indian and Japanese songs and have no idea what they're saying.
The first time I heard this song was about a year ago. I just started breaking down. Just imagine how sad of a backstory this is. Don't take what you have for granted
Fact: The ending was recorded like it happens in the song. There was supposed to be a 3rd verse but at the end of his second verse he had a breakdown. Asked everyone to leave the studio but leave the mics on. The "3rd Verse" is him crying at the end.
@@jeebusdaddygamingmy few ideas is think of some topics that inspire you or you like then just sound out the words or just try to rap with or without a beat . For ex - My motion telling no swollen eleven like Ellen the pen villain . It's all about experiment and what you may or may think works . If it sounds good or you may think it sounds better in another verse then try that . If any questions feel free to ask away
This is the first song of NF’s that I ever heard. I lost a son to addiction two years ago and the line “I hate the way I remember you” hit me so hard because all I remember of my son is the horrible 6 years of his addiction. I pray that one day I can begin to remember my son as he was before his addiction. I know he was so much more than his addiction, every person is! I want to remember my happy, sweet and loving son.
Tina Bagheri sorry for your loss 😔 I hope you do find peace and you start to remember your son when he was in a good place and not just the bad parts! 🙏🏻♥️
Just Jessy thank you. I pray time will heal the pain. I do know my son had a huge heart, and that has helped. Knowing he is finally at peace also helps.
Nate had two sisters , his father and mother got divorced and his mom's boyfriend physically abused him (and sister i guess) and he writes about him (step-dad) in the song Mansion
@@kittykat7654 see thats why if I had kids I don't know what I'd do if I wasn't with their mom and some guy was abusing them when my mom walked out on me and my dad he said he never trusted a woman to treat me like I was their own son its hard when you have kids
I think that by the line “telling me this Isn’t you” his mom meant like “son why are you writing this kind of music? this Isn’t you” which is another way of Nate saying that she really didn’t know him
I think that its his mom saying that this isn't her and his music inspired her to change. Because next line says that she was listening to a different tune later. Which means she didn't actually change like she said she would. I THINK
Naol Demisse I’m a month off😅sorry ‘bout that, I agree but by “different tune” in my opinion I thought it meant simply “doing another thing” implying that she had passed away
Draco Granger-Snape when was the interview? ‘Cause I believe she passed a year after he graduated so I think 2010, not sure but I know It’s not easy at all, It’s basically a must, I haven’t gone through personal experiences but I get it and I hope you’re doing better😊
I thought that by her saying that this wasn't her, she was flat out denying what she put the family through. But perhaps she couldn't lie to herself and shut out the pain that way as she hoped, and that was the final straw that drove her to kill herself. That would add yet another layer to his anguish, if he held himself even slightly responsible for her suicide simply because he had tried to tell her the truth and she couldn't handle it. He shouldn't hold himself responsible, but I think that most people would, in a situation like that.
My daughter and I saw his Therapy Session Tour in Greensboro, NC back in 2017. When he was performing this song, he couldn't get through it. He sat on the stage and cried. We cried with him. So brave to try to perform it, but his raw honesty and human struggle (courageous)!
In the song "Nate" from The Search, he tells his younger self "At twenty-five, you'll put out Therapy and gain some traction . Skip to track number four, now that's a really sad one" (this song is number four) So powerful and sad :( Thanks for reacting to it man, killed it as always.
"Skip the track number 4" could also refer to when he said in an interview that looking back at this song, he would never have wrote it like that because he understands what was happening now instead of just laying blame on himself and his mom. Just a thought.
Knox. A lot of people will say that reactions are just Capitalizing on others work. But you always bring a new light. Keep up the work man. Lots of love
If I'm honest the thing I want most is to see more people react to heavy nf songs when they haven't heard him before. They usually do it cause they hear he's different, get the gist of what he does, but they're still NEVER ready for the emotional weight of his lyrics, and I love seeing their eyes be opened, in a sense. And I also love the newfound respect they almost always have for him afterwards too.
9:01 Nate is the oldest child, he has 2 younger sisters. Nate was about 17-18 when his mom died. (He mentioned “a lady in the corner watching us, while she’s taking notes” which we can assume if cps. Idk if he ever went to foster care) His parents divorced when he was young, and he was raised by his mother, who was an addict. She began falling in with the wrong crowd, and attracting the wrong kind of people. There was a boyfriend who started coming around, who would allegedly abuse NF and one of his sisters physically. Until his estranged (?) father took him away. I believe Nate currently has a good relationship with his bio dad.
10:00 When he says "she startet crying and telling me this isn't you" i think that his mother said that because she actually didn't "know" NF. Like he said, his mother was never there for him and therfor never got to know him properly.
He made everyone leave the studio in the end cause he wanted to be alone while crying and venting. This is one of the most powerful, raw, deep songs I’ve ever heard. NF truly is one of a kind.
I liked the genuine emotion and personal pain he was able to share. He went deep....and it truly shook him. Great reaction Knox. If you’re not moved by NF on this track? You’re not human.
I saw NF live last month and it absolutely broke my heart when he played Mama. He played footage of his mum and had to take a break crying His growth is incredible
My husband came home awhile ago and showed this song to me. I have never met my birth mom. I love the woman who adopted me but my birth mom was an addict when I lived with her. She gave me to my dad and signed her rights away and has never met me. Broke my heart to hear this song. My reaction was like urs I have three kids and it's an influential memory that's turned me into the parent I am today. I will learn from her mistakes and will never let my babies think anything comes before them. This song has made me cry everytime I've heard it
I'm assuming the living with her was when she was a baby, before she could really remember her. Thank you for sharing your story. My mama gave up parental rights before I was even a year old. She came back ten years later, but I never trusted her or believed she really cared. She gave too much proof otherwise.
Think she means her mom was an addict when she lived with the adopted mom and the adopted mom told her your mom is an addict which is why you live with me?? Maybe??
Y-yeah...this song really hit my hard cause I love my mom and dad so much....but I know that I'll eventually lose them to their drug and alcohol addiction...I almost never get to see them In person...I almost died because of my mom driving drunk...
I don't think I've ever come across an artist to NF's degree where his listeners simultaneously want to applaud the brilliance of his work and curse him for the emotion he evokes.
this song hits me so hard , taking care of my grandmother who is addicted to pain pills..... it hurts so bad and this song rips me apart every time i hear it edit: also i was a former addict and hearing you say “you always chase the high” i broke down crying....because that is true, you always chase it and it’s all you want. now being sober i have such a new found respect for those who struggle with that demon. it’s not easy to walk away from but i promise it’s worth it
Wow, amazing story. Congratulations on being clean. Sorry to hear about your grandmother but thank you for sharing your story and your struggle with us 🙏 Appreciate you taking this journey into NF’s music with me and for supporting the channel
I'm in a simmiler boat, my Grandma was addicted to smoking. And when I was like... 8, or 9 She died of a heart attack and died. The docter said the main reason was the smoking. The older I got, the more it hurts. I broke down when he said, "but if your still watching ma!"
This one always cuts deep. I lost my father due to popping pills. Going i. And out of hospitals every few weeks because he would OD. I'm 35 now and it hurts like crazy. I dont take pain pills because of it. Your raw emotion shows me youre a wonderful father. My girl has 2 beautiful girls one 6 and one 12. Unfortunately she can no longer have kids and i always wanted one. But her kids i love like my own. Would die for. I've been in the picture for 5 going on 6 years and their dad is a major dead beat. Rips up their drawings in front of them things like that. I can't imagine a life without them. They saved my life. I suffer from depression and tried to comit suicide in the past. I can never be more greatful for the women by my side and those kids. I'm proud of you for being there for your kids. I could only hope to be as good of a dad like you man. Much love! 🙌🙏
@@Alan-xn6ip thank you. That means alot to be honest. It's been a tough process as ive never been a dad and its scary as hell but I'm there when they need me.
I hope you are blessed richly for being a good dad & husband to your wife. It helps with the depression to have precious people in your life. Sounds like they bless you almost as much as you bless them!!
am i sobbing at 3am over this song for the hundredth time since becoming a fan of nate? yes sir yes sir. i'm so happy you finally reacted to this song, one of his most touching ones imo
Lot of people started with "How could you leave us" thinking if this music is real or not. Are those real tears ? Real crying noises we hear in the background ? What about the end ? You did not. Because you know that NF is real. And we are ALWAYS having emotions, even good or bad, or sad. Because we know it. I love your work, keep it up.
I came across this song about 3 years ago. My mom died from an overdose in 2015. This song has helped me cope so much. The first time I heard it, I was in disbelief because I thought I was alone. There are not enough resources for the children of drug addicts. And the resources that are out there, are extremely faith/religion based. I was struggling with religion even before my mom passed, so I was trying to find ways to cope that wasn't just telling me "she is in a better place", or "she is with God now." I needed something different. And NF's music was that for me.
im a little late but i relate too i lost my parents as a teenager basically dad died my mom left me to take care of myself. its hard. i made it through so far. much luv knox!!!!
I've heard this song so many times at this point, mostly from watching other reactors, and I still tear up to it...and im not a crier, it takes a lot to pull at a heart string enough to get me to well up...and yet this song has never failed. This is bar none, one of the...if not THE...most powerfully emotional songs I've ever heard.
Knox Hill, you are one of my favorite reactors to NF, NF is my favorite artist and he's a big inspiration to me! Please keep doing more reactions and more NF
The white hat makes me think he's pointing out someone else who's darker than him. Most of his stuff is about his own mind and his own problems and he wears the dark to show it, but this is strictly about his mom and her mess. Also, the song is more like a question, right? "How Could You Leave Us?" Fact is, he didn't really know his mom that well either if he's asking the question "How Could You Leave Us?". If he did, he'd know why she left. "Them pills got you, right? Them pills got you, right?". "If you're still watchin', WHY?!". He was just a kid when it happened, not sure how old, but as a kid you don't understand what adults are doing. He'll never know his mom well enough to know why. It'll always be a hole. In "Got You On My Mind" Nate says this about his now wife, "Oh, said you lost your dad, girl I know how that feels I lost my mom, tryna deal with that still I guess we connect on our hatred for pills". That's gotta be some major common ground to connect on listening to this song, the most raw song of any he's done. I'd say "If You Want Love" is closer to this, "Hate Myself" is but it's got a different feel. Thanks for the review. You got 2 girls, I got 2 too. I'm not on drugs but did have a close call bad fall from 25' off a ladder last year, sitting in the hospital not knowing what's wrong on the inside (2 broken ribs and a cracked vertebrae) and I couldn't let my kids see me when my wife put them on video chat. I didn't want them to see me with the neck brace and the tubes and wires and needles stuck in me. Nate's mom probably thought that, she didn't want them to see her in her bad condition, but that's the addiction. If anyone is watching, work towards not repeating the pattern or starting a new 1 in your family. There is hope, just reach out. Nate said in his suicidal thoughts he "might do something different like talking to God more" in The Search. If you're addicted to drugs it's a different kind of suicide. Numb the pain to die to it. In recovery, you wake up to the pain so you can live through it. You're not just in a physical war, but a spiritual one. Love the fam.
The line '' last year i felt suicidal, this year i might do something different like talking to god more'' is from change i think, and i agree with everything you said
@@ko_chan5599 that's right! Change. Also an amazing song I think I did leave a comment on that song Knox did a reaction to as well. Hitting up all these NF songs!
the crying you hear throughout the song in the background was Nate actually crying during the recording session. The end of the song where nate is talking, he told the studio to leave for a few minutes but to keep the song rolling. this song was so heavy for everyone in the studio, they had to call it a day right after recording finished.
Good luck with this one 😢 It's deep on another level. He actually didn't start wearing all black til a bit later on in his career. I don't believe it symbolizes anything. He actually made everyone leave the room when he recorded the end. #KnoxHill #VerseFam
NF is one of the only artists that can make you feel how he wants you to; if he wants you to cry, he'll make you cry. If he wants you to laugh, he'll make you laugh. If he wants you to feel, he'll make you feel. NF is a legend in every way possible and the legacy he will leave will be phenomenal.
Im so sorry to hear that... i have not lost my mom or dad..but when I listen to this it makes me think about what would be if she were gone... im already depressive and start crying everytime i hear this song...im 18 years old btw
This song is always an emotional one. Why did I have knoxs NF playlist on auto play. Trying to type while discreetly wiping tears to this song is not easy!
Thank you for reacting to this song!!! This song still sends shivers down my spine, and I couldn't listen to the whole song the first time I listened to it.
This song makes me appreciate my mum getting sober and being able to work on a relationship with her, I could listen to it all day. I was about 22 and 26 now, there were a lot of memories we could've had but also so many still to make! Our relationship is far from good but the fact that she's trying and actually cares now make the struggles worth it!
The most beautiful part of this video is hearing your kids running around the house. Thats why i watch your videos, and listen to your music. Because you realize that those kids are the only thing that truly matters, and you gotta do everything in your power to raise then properly.. give them the life they deserve.
It took me a long time. I never was a huge fan of your reactions because u talk so much. On this video I listened. When u talk u know what your talking about. I subscribed. Not many reactors say anything real or have feelings. U do. U earned my respect. My respect means nothing but u have it
When I first heard this song, i cried, i felt his pain even though I've never had anyone in my family who went through addiction. Powerful and deep stuff. Been in his train since moment album.
I worked in adoption for 18yrs as an adoption psychotherapist. Working with all parties to adoption. Birth families esp birth mothers adopted adults and adopted children and families. All connected uncles grand parents and so forth. I expect I have heard this particular experience of addiction with birth parents the most. Nate’s song is so real, authentic and true. Children, including adult children never full recover. We can help heal but the trauma of the deepest cut of all which is losing a parent who can not be a care giving parent. It’s impossible to not hear his pain. It’s a message the world needs to hear. The pain for birth parents is always difficult to come to any kind of peace with, they think of their child or children daily. Unless they have dissociated. Nate gives us the gift of truth over and over again and above. I think he must be a special person and I would have liked to meet him.
Man coming back to this song and watching and then seeing how far he has come emotionally with his new song "Mama" makes me so happy for him. Its cool to see your old videos and how far you've come as well!
He made everyone leave the studio so he record the last part where he was crying. his mom really did pass away so that’s even harder for him to do this song especially at the ending when he was actually crying.
NF is my favorite rapper because he doesn’t swear he is a Christian and I am too but also because it’s awesome to see a rapper who is so against drugs and money and fame like you look out there and all these other rappers live for drugs they live for their money and they want the most fame. Mug NF has said multiple time that he hates fame and this whole song states that he hates drugs and it’s awesome to see and makes me respect him more and more because he’s not afraid to be different. Like he says in “all I have” I don’t live for the world, I live for the king. Which perfectly depicts the fact that he isn’t rapping for the world or worldly things and he doesn’t care about what the world thinks.
I cried the first time I listened to this I called my eyes out bc my mom is sick (like incurable sick) if she were to get the common cold she could die. If she were I wouldn’t know what to do 😭
When i found this artist and this song is what really got me into him cause it hits home for me my brith mom i lost her to her too drugs and the system so every single time i listen to this song i just break down into tears
I’m just here for the millionth time just rewatching your ИҒ playlist all over again. Thank You for sharing your musical knowledge ६ taking the time to explain certain things that most casual listeners might not notice.
this is one of the first five songs I listened to of Nate's, he was recommended to me from a friend, and I literally bawled my eyes out listening because you can just feel how absolutely raw his pain is and its so amazing how much power that song has!
I lost my mom to cancer when I was 12 years old, I relate to this song too much. But Nate did it beautifully and poured his soul out, which takes a lot of courage. It's probably one of my favorite songs by him even though I can't listen to it.
My mom left me when I was only two but now I have her back in my life after 13 years (I'm 15 now). I've only known her for a hand full of months now but recently she's started doing drugs again from what my dad told me. From just listening to this song is making me think of a future where I don't have my mom. I've heard this song before and I've broken down before but now knowing what it's like to have my real birth mom addicted to a drug. Now the song just feels different like I'm on a much deeper level. I don't want to lose something I just got back... Momma I just got you back please don't leave me again
Ethhasaprob 83 I’m sorry you’re struggling, maybe you could talk to your mom and tell her how you feel and you could show your her this video and tell her that you’re scared of losing her the same way Nate did and the song maybe this song could really resonate with your mom and help her get better? I hope things get better 🙏🏻♥️
I get it. My mama left when I was 10 months old, then came back years later. I begged her to take care of herself and just generally get her crap together. Unfortunately, she never made me a promise she actually kept, and I lost her when I was 17. I know you must be going through so much pain, and I wish I could help. ❤️
The first time I heard this song I ran out of class because I was crying because I relate to this song so much. I mum was abused domestically and I had to witness most of it.
For some reason I keep rewatching this video over the years. This song is my life and it hard to find people that have the patience to understand.The empathy you break this song down with keeps drawing me back.
I found you through those NF reactions and only recently got into your music that you released yourself and I freaking love it. For example, I looked at your albums on Spotify and the song Gemini stood out to me because my zodiac sign is Gemini but once I listened to it, it hit on a different level because i relate to it so much. You are so underrated and you deserve more attention.
Man, this songs hits my soul, love the way you deconstruct each song. Pleaseeeeeeee listen now to Trauma, this one gets me a million times more because I can relate to it more than How Could You Leave Us. Keep up the good work, @Knox Hill !
Great reaction. I personally believe the line “this isn’t you” is about her and Her belief she can be better. Lost my little bro to pills last year and still can’t grasp it 100%. As a parent, I can’t imagine leaving my two little ones this way.
WOW you did an awesome job here Knox. I've watched dozens of reactions to this song and you just hit it right. Soooo good. Thanks for your reaction and deep thoughts and breakdown. Loved it brother.
After hearing this song for the first time, I force my mom into a 5 minute hug, no matter how unwarranted, no matter how much she thinks she doesn't want it. She breaks down in tears every time and that is what love is all about
By far my favorite NF song, really hits home with my mom being addicted to drugs and me now being a father of two boys and not having my mom around to see them..
“Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had”- this part spoke to me so deeply. I didn’t have a parent in my life that was addicted but I was adopted at 9 months old. Throughout my childhood I struggled with depression because I couldn’t understand why my birth mother wasn’t there. I blamed myself for my adoption believing that she didn’t want me and it was my fault. I don’t even have a picture of her but I tore myself apart for so long thinking I wasn’t allowed to miss someone I never even met or knew the face of. I will never be able to escape the fear of being abandoned by people I love even though I’m an adult now. Sometimes I wonder if she even remembers she had me, or if she moved on and started a new family. Do I have brothers and sisters I never met? This song let me feel validated and is by far my favorite of NF’s songs
I've never seen a song do this to you. Almost every time I listen to this song I cry. My dad was useless (still is) and my mom wasn't really there when I was younger so this song just hits home for me. Its crazy how powerful music really is man. Much love brother.
Such a great reaction man, thank you for this bro, my parents and siblings are battling addiction and I haven’t seen my parents in like 3 years on Christmas, this always gets me in my feelings cause I can relate so much.
What else do you want to see me react to? 🤔 Comment below! Also if you like the song in the intro listen to it here: ua-cam.com/video/j2FSqyWRLzc/v-deo.html 🙌🙏
I love your reactions 🥰🥰🥰. I can't wait to another NF reaction. I can't waaaaaaaaitttttt😵😵😵😵. You should check out "You're special", " Like this ", "Thinking"
Do outro but you need to react to all NFs music video from perception all the way to mansion to make outros make sense
Sending you a virtual hug. Much love bro, wish you were my friend.
I really enjoy watching your reactions. Actually you should check out every single song from him. But I'd really like to see "Mansion" or "Intro 3"
Give mason wav a listen he’s a new rapper has 3 songs out so far I think he’s got good flow. Even if you don’t keep up the good work love you reactions
I heard that on the last bit when he talking he had to get everyone out of the studio. That’s how you know how emotional he really feels. 😢
Tagg Veteto yea. it was originally a third verse but he just broke..
YEP.. TRUE. 💯
Tagg Veteto that’s true!!
Hi this made me think about my dad
I believe it that part hits hard
This song is like a psychopath test. If you don't feel this, there is something wrong with you.
I feel it, but I didn't cry
I cried at the title.
I kept eating pizza...then I ordered chicken wings.... then I still cried ... that darn NF still got me again... how does he do it?!
@Beed Beezy Now that's a question. But he did say, "if they don't *feel it."* I feel some Indian and Japanese songs and have no idea what they're saying.
The first time I heard this song was about a year ago. I just started breaking down. Just imagine how sad of a backstory this is. Don't take what you have for granted
Fact: The ending was recorded like it happens in the song. There was supposed to be a 3rd verse but at the end of his second verse he had a breakdown. Asked everyone to leave the studio but leave the mics on. The "3rd Verse" is him crying at the end.
S4m1 whoops sorry I didn’t mean to reply to you 😭
love NF
i think you mean there was supposed to be a 4th verse
I can't listen to this song without crying midway. it takes quite a lot to make me cry imo. powerful song.
Couldn’t agree more. Amazing artist amazing song
I also agree
I agree strongly
I feel the same way.
@@jeebusdaddygamingmy few ideas is think of some topics that inspire you or you like then just sound out the words or just try to rap with or without a beat . For ex - My motion telling no swollen eleven like Ellen the pen villain . It's all about experiment and what you may or may think works . If it sounds good or you may think it sounds better in another verse then try that . If any questions feel free to ask away
This is the first song of NF’s that I ever heard. I lost a son to addiction two years ago and the line “I hate the way I remember you” hit me so hard because all I remember of my son is the horrible 6 years of his addiction. I pray that one day I can begin to remember my son as he was before his addiction. I know he was so much more than his addiction, every person is! I want to remember my happy, sweet and loving son.
Tina Bagheri sorry for your loss 😔 I hope you do find peace and you start to remember your son when he was in a good place and not just the bad parts! 🙏🏻♥️
Just Jessy thank you. I pray time will heal the pain. I do know my son had a huge heart, and that has helped. Knowing he is finally at peace also helps.
I am so sorry for your loss. ❤️❤️
Sorry for your loss
I’m so sorry for your loss
Nate had two sisters , his father and mother got divorced and his mom's boyfriend physically abused him (and sister i guess) and he writes about him (step-dad) in the song Mansion
If my fiancé and I broke apart and I found out that her new man was physically abusing my children I’d go to jail for murder
Great song
@@kittykat7654 see thats why if I had kids I don't know what I'd do if I wasn't with their mom and some guy was abusing them when my mom walked out on me and my dad he said he never trusted a woman to treat me like I was their own son its hard when you have kids
`zoe_wolfy` :p yea Nate and his sister were abused by their moms boyfriend and then his dad was able to take them away from all that.
@@ethanrampergash9173 yea thank god his dad was there to take them away
The emotion behind his voice is incredibly powerful. You can feel it in every single word. I've never heard anything quite like it.
It is one of my favorite songs of all time. Thanks for commenting & supporting!
I think that by the line “telling me this Isn’t you” his mom meant like “son why are you writing this kind of music? this Isn’t you” which is another way of Nate saying that she really didn’t know him
I think that its his mom saying that this isn't her and his music inspired her to change. Because next line says that she was listening to a different tune later. Which means she didn't actually change like she said she would. I THINK
Naol Demisse I’m a month off😅sorry ‘bout that, I agree but by “different tune” in my opinion I thought it meant simply “doing another thing” implying that she had passed away
Draco Granger-Snape when was the interview? ‘Cause I believe she passed a year after he graduated so I think 2010, not sure but I know It’s not easy at all, It’s basically a must, I haven’t gone through personal experiences but I get it and I hope you’re doing better😊
Draco Granger-Snape thats good to hear☺️and ah okay gotcha
I thought that by her saying that this wasn't her, she was flat out denying what she put the family through.
But perhaps she couldn't lie to herself and shut out the pain that way as she hoped, and that was the final straw that drove her to kill herself.
That would add yet another layer to his anguish, if he held himself even slightly responsible for her suicide simply because he had tried to tell her the truth and she couldn't handle it. He shouldn't hold himself responsible, but I think that most people would, in a situation like that.
My daughter and I saw his Therapy Session Tour in Greensboro, NC back in 2017. When he was performing this song, he couldn't get through it. He sat on the stage and cried. We cried with him. So brave to try to perform it, but his raw honesty and human struggle (courageous)!
Not gonna lie your reaction and breakdown is actually making this song more powerful for some reason
Truth
Facts
In the song "Nate" from The Search, he tells his younger self "At twenty-five, you'll put out Therapy and gain some traction
. Skip to track number four, now that's a really sad one" (this song is number four) So powerful and sad :( Thanks for reacting to it man, killed it as always.
"Skip the track number 4" could also refer to when he said in an interview that looking back at this song, he would never have wrote it like that because he understands what was happening now instead of just laying blame on himself and his mom. Just a thought.
I thought number 4 was referring to The Search album as it’s the 4th album and it’s full of emotional songs
@@riodeleon4279 this is track four of Therapy Session, definitely referring to this song
@@riodeleon4279 a little late but it says "track" and this song is the 4th track on therapy session
Yeah that's one of my other favourite NF songs
*Can we just take a moment to appreciate that Nate posted such a heartful and important song and let it out in the world?*
facts, one of the best songs ever from anyone out there IMO.
YESS
Knox. A lot of people will say that reactions are just Capitalizing on others work. But you always bring a new light. Keep up the work man. Lots of love
Another very good breakdown channel Is TheThirdErnest
He's not a reaction channel , he's more of an analysis channel
@@aimangupta9778 breakdown channel is like the same thing pretty much
Please do NF „Intro3“, „Remember this“, „Mansion“ next please!!!🙌🏻🙏🏻
First mansion then intro 3
remember this real af. Legendary song!
Remember this is my favorite song by nf
Yes those are important
If I'm honest the thing I want most is to see more people react to heavy nf songs when they haven't heard him before. They usually do it cause they hear he's different, get the gist of what he does, but they're still NEVER ready for the emotional weight of his lyrics, and I love seeing their eyes be opened, in a sense. And I also love the newfound respect they almost always have for him afterwards too.
9:01 Nate is the oldest child, he has 2 younger sisters. Nate was about 17-18 when his mom died.
(He mentioned “a lady in the corner watching us, while she’s taking notes” which we can assume if cps. Idk if he ever went to foster care)
His parents divorced when he was young, and he was raised by his mother, who was an addict. She began falling in with the wrong crowd, and attracting the wrong kind of people. There was a boyfriend who started coming around, who would allegedly abuse NF and one of his sisters physically. Until his estranged (?) father took him away. I believe Nate currently has a good relationship with his bio dad.
This is the saddest NF song
Awonddy up there with Therapy session
And Trauma.
ok but you can literally hear the pain in his voice when he yells “MA!” that made me sob so hard-
He yelled why I think
When I first heard this song I was in school and I just started sobbing it’s a very powerful song
I respect
10:00 When he says "she startet crying and telling me this isn't you" i think that his mother said that because she actually didn't "know" NF. Like he said, his mother was never there for him and therfor never got to know him properly.
Yea that part really got to me. What a great emotional song and journey from Nate. Thanks for sharing 🙏
He made everyone leave the studio in the end cause he wanted to be alone while crying and venting. This is one of the most powerful, raw, deep songs I’ve ever heard. NF truly is one of a kind.
I liked the genuine emotion and personal pain he was able to share. He went deep....and it truly shook him. Great reaction Knox. If you’re not moved by NF on this track? You’re not human.
True that my friend
I saw NF live last month and it absolutely broke my heart when he played Mama. He played footage of his mum and had to take a break crying
His growth is incredible
My husband came home awhile ago and showed this song to me. I have never met my birth mom. I love the woman who adopted me but my birth mom was an addict when I lived with her. She gave me to my dad and signed her rights away and has never met me. Broke my heart to hear this song. My reaction was like urs I have three kids and it's an influential memory that's turned me into the parent I am today. I will learn from her mistakes and will never let my babies think anything comes before them. This song has made me cry everytime I've heard it
you say you never met ur birth mom but u say you lived with her
I'm assuming the living with her was when she was a baby, before she could really remember her.
Thank you for sharing your story. My mama gave up parental rights before I was even a year old. She came back ten years later, but I never trusted her or believed she really cared. She gave too much proof otherwise.
I'm so sorry, life is hard for me too 💔💔💔
Think she means her mom was an addict when she lived with the adopted mom and the adopted mom told her your mom is an addict which is why you live with me?? Maybe??
Finally!!!!!!! took ya long enough knox
I reckon everyone here watching is crying or has cried over this song and its message at least once
i've listed to this song over a 100 times and i cry every time
Yep
Y-yeah...this song really hit my hard cause I love my mom and dad so much....but I know that I'll eventually lose them to their drug and alcohol addiction...I almost never get to see them In person...I almost died because of my mom driving drunk...
Yup
Laser Storm multiple times it never gets old because the pain I feel doesn’t
It don't matter how many times I hear this song.. it gets to me everytime.. NF is so special..the emotion he puts into his music 🖤
Couldn’t agree more. Thanks for supporting and taking this journey with me 🙌
I don't think I've ever come across an artist to NF's degree where his listeners simultaneously want to applaud the brilliance of his work and curse him for the emotion he evokes.
Joel Harris isn’t that what makes NF exceptional? He is revealing his raw pain & suffering to help us face our own.
this song hits me so hard , taking care of my grandmother who is addicted to pain pills..... it hurts so bad and this song rips me apart every time i hear it
edit: also i was a former addict and hearing you say “you always chase the high” i broke down crying....because that is true, you always chase it and it’s all you want. now being sober i have such a new found respect for those who struggle with that demon. it’s not easy to walk away from but i promise it’s worth it
Wow, amazing story. Congratulations on being clean. Sorry to hear about your grandmother but thank you for sharing your story and your struggle with us 🙏 Appreciate you taking this journey into NF’s music with me and for supporting the channel
I'm in a simmiler boat, my Grandma was addicted to smoking. And when I was like... 8, or 9 She died of a heart attack and died. The docter said the main reason was the smoking. The older I got, the more it hurts. I broke down when he said, "but if your still watching ma!"
This one always cuts deep. I lost my father due to popping pills. Going i. And out of hospitals every few weeks because he would OD. I'm 35 now and it hurts like crazy. I dont take pain pills because of it. Your raw emotion shows me youre a wonderful father. My girl has 2 beautiful girls one 6 and one 12. Unfortunately she can no longer have kids and i always wanted one. But her kids i love like my own. Would die for. I've been in the picture for 5 going on 6 years and their dad is a major dead beat. Rips up their drawings in front of them things like that. I can't imagine a life without them. They saved my life. I suffer from depression and tried to comit suicide in the past. I can never be more greatful for the women by my side and those kids. I'm proud of you for being there for your kids. I could only hope to be as good of a dad like you man. Much love! 🙌🙏
your a wonderful person takes a real man to loves someone elses kids like their your own
@@Alan-xn6ip thank you. That means alot to be honest. It's been a tough process as ive never been a dad and its scary as hell but I'm there when they need me.
I hope you are blessed richly for being a good dad & husband to your wife. It helps with the depression to have precious people in your life. Sounds like they bless you almost as much as you bless them!!
@@anitaschoonover2488 thank you so much. Im beyond greatful to have them in my life!
am i sobbing at 3am over this song for the hundredth time since becoming a fan of nate? yes sir yes sir. i'm so happy you finally reacted to this song, one of his most touching ones imo
I get goosebumps every time I hear this song, it's such a powerful song. even tho I didn't go through anything close to this I still feel his pain.
Lot of people started with "How could you leave us" thinking if this music is real or not. Are those real tears ? Real crying noises we hear in the background ? What about the end ?
You did not. Because you know that NF is real. And we are ALWAYS having emotions, even good or bad, or sad. Because we know it.
I love your work, keep it up.
I know im late but, #realmusicuntilwedie
I came across this song about 3 years ago. My mom died from an overdose in 2015. This song has helped me cope so much. The first time I heard it, I was in disbelief because I thought I was alone. There are not enough resources for the children of drug addicts. And the resources that are out there, are extremely faith/religion based. I was struggling with religion even before my mom passed, so I was trying to find ways to cope that wasn't just telling me "she is in a better place", or "she is with God now." I needed something different. And NF's music was that for me.
This song makes me cry everytime.
im a little late but i relate too i lost my parents as a teenager basically dad died my mom left me to take care of myself. its hard. i made it through so far. much luv knox!!!!
Wow, thanks for sharing that man. Good luck to you and take care 🙏🙏 All the best
jesus hope everything is going fine for you if not hang in there!
"One of the first things I wrote is *I wish I would've called* " - NF, Mansion
Man, the first time I listen to that album. Specifically that song, there so much I cried about!
Such a great song. Thanks for taking the time to comment & support!
Welcome
I've heard this song so many times at this point, mostly from watching other reactors, and I still tear up to it...and im not a crier, it takes a lot to pull at a heart string enough to get me to well up...and yet this song has never failed. This is bar none, one of the...if not THE...most powerfully emotional songs I've ever heard.
You can just feel the pain in his voice. You’re right, I’ve listened to it a lot since this reaction and it still hits me
Knox Hill, you are one of my favorite reactors to NF, NF is my favorite artist and he's a big inspiration to me! Please keep doing more reactions and more NF
Even knoxhill dropped tears to this song, its such a powerful song
The white hat makes me think he's pointing out someone else who's darker than him. Most of his stuff is about his own mind and his own problems and he wears the dark to show it, but this is strictly about his mom and her mess.
Also, the song is more like a question, right? "How Could You Leave Us?" Fact is, he didn't really know his mom that well either if he's asking the question "How Could You Leave Us?". If he did, he'd know why she left. "Them pills got you, right? Them pills got you, right?". "If you're still watchin', WHY?!". He was just a kid when it happened, not sure how old, but as a kid you don't understand what adults are doing. He'll never know his mom well enough to know why. It'll always be a hole.
In "Got You On My Mind" Nate says this about his now wife,
"Oh, said you lost your dad, girl I know how that feels
I lost my mom, tryna deal with that still
I guess we connect on our hatred for pills".
That's gotta be some major common ground to connect on listening to this song, the most raw song of any he's done. I'd say "If You Want Love" is closer to this, "Hate Myself" is but it's got a different feel.
Thanks for the review. You got 2 girls, I got 2 too. I'm not on drugs but did have a close call bad fall from 25' off a ladder last year, sitting in the hospital not knowing what's wrong on the inside (2 broken ribs and a cracked vertebrae) and I couldn't let my kids see me when my wife put them on video chat. I didn't want them to see me with the neck brace and the tubes and wires and needles stuck in me.
Nate's mom probably thought that, she didn't want them to see her in her bad condition, but that's the addiction. If anyone is watching, work towards not repeating the pattern or starting a new 1 in your family. There is hope, just reach out. Nate said in his suicidal thoughts he "might do something different like talking to God more" in The Search. If you're addicted to drugs it's a different kind of suicide. Numb the pain to die to it. In recovery, you wake up to the pain so you can live through it. You're not just in a physical war, but a spiritual one. Love the fam.
The line '' last year i felt suicidal, this year i might do something different like talking to god more'' is from change i think, and i agree with everything you said
@@ko_chan5599 that's right! Change. Also an amazing song I think I did leave a comment on that song Knox did a reaction to as well. Hitting up all these NF songs!
🙏 Amen
❤❤
I feel like the white hat can also represent the innocence of him being a kid, that doesn't understand why that is happening
the crying you hear throughout the song in the background was Nate actually crying during the recording session. The end of the song where nate is talking, he told the studio to leave for a few minutes but to keep the song rolling. this song was so heavy for everyone in the studio, they had to call it a day right after recording finished.
Good luck with this one 😢 It's deep on another level. He actually didn't start wearing all black til a bit later on in his career. I don't believe it symbolizes anything. He actually made everyone leave the room when he recorded the end. #KnoxHill #VerseFam
NF is one of the only artists that can make you feel how he wants you to; if he wants you to cry, he'll make you cry. If he wants you to laugh, he'll make you laugh. If he wants you to feel, he'll make you feel. NF is a legend in every way possible and the legacy he will leave will be phenomenal.
Every time I hear this song I get chills all over my body, I have cried so much on this song...
This song brings back so many memories man
This is why I vibe with him.NF real music, keyword: real. He shows everything and mask nothing.
I have seen this video several times and never consciously noticed the piano hit scene change. Good catch
This made me realize how lucky Em is to still have his mom. I respect the sacrifice NF made to make it. Nothing but respect
Knox has never commented on NF less, this song needs no introduction or explanation. This is raw real despair.
I get tears every time I listen to this song. It feels like a classic to be honest.
this song gets me going i lost my mom to a intoxicated car accident so this song reminds me of her
Im so sorry to hear that... i have not lost my mom or dad..but when I listen to this it makes me think about what would be if she were gone... im already depressive and start crying everytime i hear this song...im 18 years old btw
@@Tsukuyomi69 im 18 as well
I’m sorry but my mom and dad are addicted to drugs my mom lives 3 hours away and I live with my dads mom and dad my mawmaw and pawpaw
9:18 he talks about hi sister in “my life”
also can you do mansion-he talks about what goes on in his mind
This song is always an emotional one. Why did I have knoxs NF playlist on auto play. Trying to type while discreetly wiping tears to this song is not easy!
Thank you for reacting to this song!!! This song still sends shivers down my spine, and I couldn't listen to the whole song the first time I listened to it.
you made my eyes lucid, it's obvious how much you love your daughters. keep it up bro
This song makes me appreciate my mum getting sober and being able to work on a relationship with her, I could listen to it all day. I was about 22 and 26 now, there were a lot of memories we could've had but also so many still to make! Our relationship is far from good but the fact that she's trying and actually cares now make the struggles worth it!
The most beautiful part of this video is hearing your kids running around the house. Thats why i watch your videos, and listen to your music. Because you realize that those kids are the only thing that truly matters, and you gotta do everything in your power to raise then properly.. give them the life they deserve.
Good luck. As a parent this is a tough one.
It took me a long time. I never was a huge fan of your reactions because u talk so much. On this video I listened. When u talk u know what your talking about. I subscribed. Not many reactors say anything real or have feelings. U do. U earned my respect. My respect means nothing but u have it
Knox's intro :
Hmmm what item should i give ppl today?
Good job man love the reaction
Grateful for recovery today after hearing this for the first time 😭
When I first heard this song, i cried, i felt his pain even though I've never had anyone in my family who went through addiction. Powerful and deep stuff. Been in his train since moment album.
I worked in adoption for 18yrs as an adoption psychotherapist. Working with all parties to adoption. Birth families esp birth mothers adopted adults and adopted children and families. All connected uncles grand parents and so forth.
I expect I have heard this particular experience of addiction with birth parents the most. Nate’s song is so real, authentic and true. Children, including adult children never full recover. We can help heal but the trauma of the deepest cut of all which is losing a parent who can not be a care giving parent. It’s impossible to not hear his pain. It’s a message the world needs to hear.
The pain for birth parents is always difficult to come to any kind of peace with, they think of their child or children daily. Unless they have dissociated. Nate gives us the gift of truth over and over again and above. I think he must be a special person and I would have liked to meet him.
This guy would be a good English professor
Interesting
Man coming back to this song and watching and then seeing how far he has come emotionally with his new song "Mama" makes me so happy for him. Its cool to see your old videos and how far you've come as well!
nice reaction!!
now at last that you did this...now do MANSION - NF
He made everyone leave the studio so he record the last part where he was crying. his mom really did pass away so that’s even harder for him to do this song especially at the ending when he was actually crying.
Knox finally reacts to “how could you leave us”
*everyone liked that*
NF is my favorite rapper because he doesn’t swear he is a Christian and I am too but also because it’s awesome to see a rapper who is so against drugs and money and fame like you look out there and all these other rappers live for drugs they live for their money and they want the most fame. Mug NF has said multiple time that he hates fame and this whole song states that he hates drugs and it’s awesome to see and makes me respect him more and more because he’s not afraid to be different. Like he says in “all I have” I don’t live for the world, I live for the king. Which perfectly depicts the fact that he isn’t rapping for the world or worldly things and he doesn’t care about what the world thinks.
I cried the first time I listened to this I called my eyes out bc my mom is sick (like incurable sick) if she were to get the common cold she could die. If she were I wouldn’t know what to do 😭
I hope she's alright and wish her good health
When i found this artist and this song is what really got me into him cause it hits home for me my brith mom i lost her to her too drugs and the system so every single time i listen to this song i just break down into tears
You should listen to the three intro's, it shows how NF evolves over his early albums.
I’m just here for the millionth time just rewatching your ИҒ playlist all over again. Thank You for sharing your musical knowledge ६ taking the time to explain certain things that most casual listeners might not notice.
“I can’t imagine not being there for them” awww🥺🥺🥺
The last part hits even harder now cause he's confirmed that he's gonna have a kid now...
i always get chills at the 3rd verse...
this is one of the first five songs I listened to of Nate's, he was recommended to me from a friend, and I literally bawled my eyes out listening because you can just feel how absolutely raw his pain is and its so amazing how much power that song has!
I lost my mom to cancer when I was 12 years old, I relate to this song too much. But Nate did it beautifully and poured his soul out, which takes a lot of courage. It's probably one of my favorite songs by him even though I can't listen to it.
knox got the realist reactions. dissecting not only the music but the visuals too, keep it up bro!
I cry every time i listen to it ;')
I heard this song this often but still get goosebumps everytime
My mom left me when I was only two but now I have her back in my life after 13 years (I'm 15 now). I've only known her for a hand full of months now but recently she's started doing drugs again from what my dad told me. From just listening to this song is making me think of a future where I don't have my mom. I've heard this song before and I've broken down before but now knowing what it's like to have my real birth mom addicted to a drug. Now the song just feels different like I'm on a much deeper level. I don't want to lose something I just got back... Momma I just got you back please don't leave me again
Ethhasaprob 83 I’m sorry you’re struggling, maybe you could talk to your mom and tell her how you feel and you could show your her this video and tell her that you’re scared of losing her the same way Nate did and the song maybe this song could really resonate with your mom and help her get better? I hope things get better 🙏🏻♥️
I get it. My mama left when I was 10 months old, then came back years later. I begged her to take care of herself and just generally get her crap together. Unfortunately, she never made me a promise she actually kept, and I lost her when I was 17. I know you must be going through so much pain, and I wish I could help. ❤️
I’ve seen NF in concert- he is by FARRRR one of the most RAW, REAL & INVOLVED IN HIS FANS IN THE MOMENT. I loveeeeeee NF, HUGE fan.
The first time I heard this song I ran out of class because I was crying because I relate to this song so much. I mum was abused domestically and I had to witness most of it.
This was the 1st nf song I heard, and that was all I needed to become a fan
damn knox you gonna have a pool of tears with more songs like this
For some reason I keep rewatching this video over the years. This song is my life and it hard to find people that have the patience to understand.The empathy you break this song down with keeps drawing me back.
I found you through those NF reactions and only recently got into your music that you released yourself and I freaking love it. For example, I looked at your albums on Spotify and the song Gemini stood out to me because my zodiac sign is Gemini but once I listened to it, it hit on a different level because i relate to it so much. You are so underrated and you deserve more attention.
This is my favorite reaction of this song yet, it just felt so genuine.
Man, this songs hits my soul, love the way you deconstruct each song. Pleaseeeeeeee listen now to Trauma, this one gets me a million times more because I can relate to it more than How Could You Leave Us. Keep up the good work, @Knox Hill !
I watched a lot of reactions to this song, and you're the only one I saw actually feel it. I cried along with you brother.
Great reaction. I personally believe the line “this isn’t you” is about her and Her belief she can be better. Lost my little bro to pills last year and still can’t grasp it 100%. As a parent, I can’t imagine leaving my two little ones this way.
This is song is ruff. Its so relatable and im glad you reacted to it because its so relatable and effects everyone.
WOW you did an awesome job here Knox. I've watched dozens of reactions to this song and you just hit it right. Soooo good. Thanks for your reaction and deep thoughts and breakdown. Loved it brother.
After hearing this song for the first time, I force my mom into a 5 minute hug, no matter how unwarranted, no matter how much she thinks she doesn't want it. She breaks down in tears every time and that is what love is all about
By far my favorite NF song, really hits home with my mom being addicted to drugs and me now being a father of two boys and not having my mom around to see them..
“Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had”- this part spoke to me so deeply. I didn’t have a parent in my life that was addicted but I was adopted at 9 months old. Throughout my childhood I struggled with depression because I couldn’t understand why my birth mother wasn’t there. I blamed myself for my adoption believing that she didn’t want me and it was my fault. I don’t even have a picture of her but I tore myself apart for so long thinking I wasn’t allowed to miss someone I never even met or knew the face of. I will never be able to escape the fear of being abandoned by people I love even though I’m an adult now. Sometimes I wonder if she even remembers she had me, or if she moved on and started a new family. Do I have brothers and sisters I never met? This song let me feel validated and is by far my favorite of NF’s songs
you have no idea how joyful i was when i saw the notification =D
I've never seen a song do this to you. Almost every time I listen to this song I cry. My dad was useless (still is) and my mom wasn't really there when I was younger so this song just hits home for me. Its crazy how powerful music really is man. Much love brother.
Such a great reaction man, thank you for this bro, my parents and siblings are battling addiction and I haven’t seen my parents in like 3 years on Christmas, this always gets me in my feelings cause I can relate so much.
Being a single dad of 2 that battled addiction in the past...this song made me cry so hard...damn