Sufjan Stevens, "John My Beloved" (Official Audio)

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  • Опубліковано 11 вер 2024
  • From the album CARRIE & LOWELL
    Buy it: akrec.co/akr099... / Album stream: akrec.co/1xuiuN0
    Available on Asthmatic Kitty Records
    More info: carrieandlowell...
    LYRICS:
    Are we to speak, first day of the week
    Stumbling words at the bar
    Beauty blue eyes, my order of fries
    Long Island kindness and wine
    Beloved of John, I get it all wrong
    I read you for some kind of poem
    Covered in lines, the fossils I find
    Have they no life of their own?
    So can we pretend sweetly
    Before the mystery ends?
    I am a man with a heart that offends
    with its lonely and greedy demands
    There’s only a shadow of me; in a manner of speaking I’m dead
    Such a waste, your beautiful face
    Stumbling carpet arise
    Go follow your gem, your white feathered friend
    Icarus, point to the sun
    If history speaks of two baby teeth
    I’m painting the hills blue and red
    They said beware, Lord hear my prayer:
    I’ve wasted my throes on your head
    So can we be friends sweetly
    Before the mystery ends?
    I love you more than the world can contain
    in its lonely and ramshackle head
    There’s only a shadow of me; in a manner of speaking I’m dead
    I’m holding my breath
    My tongue on your chest
    What can be said of my heart?
    If history speaks, the kiss on my cheek
    Where there remains but a mark
    Beloved my John, so I’ll carry on
    Counting my cards down to one
    And when I am dead, come visit my bed
    My fossil is bright in the sun
    So can we contend peacefully
    Before my history ends?
    Jesus I need you, be near, come shield me
    From fossils that fall on my head
    There’s only a shadow of me; in a manner of speaking, I’m dead

КОМЕНТАРІ • 866

  • @elizabeth4689
    @elizabeth4689 8 років тому +2633

    "I am a man with the heart that offends with its lonely and greedy demands."
    god damn.

    • @cyrusmurphy4072
      @cyrusmurphy4072 7 років тому +1

      100th like!

    • @testgoober193
      @testgoober193 6 років тому +9

      That broke and fixed me at the same time. That's me. Greedy.

    • @letmegoletmego
      @letmegoletmego 6 років тому +14

      There is no god that would damn that line.

    • @SarahZ
      @SarahZ 4 роки тому +50

      "The enormity of my desire disgusts me"

    • @katherinacastr4926
      @katherinacastr4926 4 роки тому +2

      I was going to comment that.

  • @drummer4916
    @drummer4916 9 років тому +2577

    "I love you more than the world can contain in its lonely and ramshackle head." Wow.

    • @Dameinthewild
      @Dameinthewild 9 років тому +120

      drummer4916 This one did me in: "I am man with a heart that offends with its lonely and greedy demands."
      This album is going to change a lot of people I think. It will be an album that marks a point in history in a lot of people's lives. It will be nostalgia. I feel pretty certain. It has already done that to me. I'll hear this song years from now and remember a fleeting moment in my 34th year.

    • @pedrofreitas3041
      @pedrofreitas3041 9 років тому +18

      +Laura Forster
      Hi Laura! I agree with you... this album is special and timeless and hauntingly beautiful...

    • @christopherschmitz2493
      @christopherschmitz2493 9 років тому +10

      Laura Forster You nailed it! I agree. My 47th summer will always be the breathy "Fourth of July" by Sufyan Stevens.

    • @gertjankeegstra2342
      @gertjankeegstra2342 8 років тому +12

      +drummer4916 Somehow I see your comments everywhere! Bless your taste of music.

    • @yuilchoi2799
      @yuilchoi2799 8 років тому +4

      I don't understand this part

  • @NewHopeRichieRich
    @NewHopeRichieRich 6 років тому +696

    I am in tears thinking of my blue eyed love who has left this world....Michael My Beloved.

    • @sophaloaf56
      @sophaloaf56 4 роки тому +39

      May he rest in peace

    • @heathercharles6205
      @heathercharles6205 3 роки тому +25

      Mine is also a Michael; if I thought I could get through without crying...

    • @adamhitze2180
      @adamhitze2180 3 роки тому +8

      Until we meet again, my friend

    • @Pixi.0.
      @Pixi.0. 3 роки тому +14

      You're in my thoughts Richard, I hope you're doing better

    • @saltyk9561
      @saltyk9561 3 роки тому +3

      Hope you’re doing well 💕

  • @sofialarramendia7985
    @sofialarramendia7985 3 роки тому +424

    i had a neighbour, an old man that ended up being a family friend, he was lonely but he was always smiling along with his dog. he would always greet me when he left for work on his truck, until suddenly he passed away one night. I played this song when i got the news and now every time i listen to it i remember him, i remember how lovely yet lonely he was, mr benitez i hope you know you were loved.

    • @aziara369
      @aziara369 2 роки тому +5

      If I may ask, where is Mr. Benitez' dog now? 🥺 Mr. Benitez, you are celebrated 🤍

    • @sofialarramendia7985
      @sofialarramendia7985 2 роки тому +7

      @@aziara369 his family took him, he's in a different city now i believe

    • @aziara369
      @aziara369 2 роки тому +5

      @@sofialarramendia7985 the dog must be missing him so bad, but it's great to know the dog's being taken care of 🤍 have a delightful time, Sofia!

    • @sofialarramendia7985
      @sofialarramendia7985 2 роки тому +3

      @@aziara369 you too🥰

    • @malekhaddad1389
      @malekhaddad1389 Рік тому +2

      Sorry for generalizing, and I don’t even know his origins, but Latino people always tend to be sooo nice and open, even when they’re struggling with difficulties of their own! Such loving people the most of them are to my experience !

  • @Anonimous1984
    @Anonimous1984 6 років тому +675

    Are we to speak, first day of the week
    Stumbling words at the bar
    Beauty blue eyes, my order of fries
    Long island kindness and wine
    Beloved of John, I get it all wrong
    I read you for some kind of poem
    Covered in lines, the fossils I find
    Have they no life of their own?
    So can we pretend sweetly
    Before the mystery ends?
    I am a man with a heart that offends
    With its lonely and greedy demands
    There's only a shadow of me, in a manner of speaking I'm dead
    Such a waste, your beautiful face
    Stumbling carpet arise
    Go follow your gem, your white feathered friend
    Icarus, point to the sun
    If history speaks of two baby teeth
    I'm painting the hills blue and red
    They said beware, Lord hear my prayer
    I've wasted my throes on your head
    So can we be friends sweetly
    Before the mystery ends?
    I love you more than the world can contain
    In its lonely and ramshackle head
    There's only a shadow of me, in a manner of speaking I'm dead
    I'm holding my breath
    My tongue on your chest
    What can be said of my heart?
    If history speaks, the kiss on my cheek
    Where there remains but a mark
    Beloved my John, so I'll carry on
    Counting my cards down to one
    And when I am dead, come visit my bed
    My fossil is bright in the sun
    So can we contend, peacefully
    Before my history ends?
    Jesus I need you, be near me, come shield me
    From fossils that fall on my head
    There's only a shadow of me, in a matter of speaking I'm dead

    • @sandra-eo3vs
      @sandra-eo3vs 4 роки тому +20

      it's so poetic i need to go sit in a corner and cry my eyes out

    • @hhoopplaa
      @hhoopplaa 4 роки тому +7

      (It's also in the decription)

  • @moldyloaf774
    @moldyloaf774 7 років тому +1651

    I came from Call Be by Your My NAme and now i am addicted to his voice.

  • @Sameoldfitup
    @Sameoldfitup 4 роки тому +112

    “Has it ever struck you that life is all memory, except for the one present moment that goes by you so quick you hardly catch it going?”― Tennessee Williams

  • @danielamarieorcine5094
    @danielamarieorcine5094 8 років тому +167

    That last breath on the end. *Chills*

  • @urinarytractinspection4747
    @urinarytractinspection4747 7 років тому +628

    Honestly when I listen to Sufjan Stevens. I can't handle it. It's just too much, man. This, Modest Mouse (circa 2000 and before), Neutral Milk Hotel, Bon Iver, David Bowie, Bob Dylan. Man there's just so much music that I just can't handle but I'm only drawn to it. I can't listen to anything else. I'm practically in tears to the point of weeping almost every time I hear it. It's so fucking beautiful. It's so painful. It's so daunting. The fact that people can make music like this appreciates humanity as a whole. It's just beautiful how we can connect to others on this planet. I'm so thankful for that. Because sometimes I just don't feel like I have people in every day life that I can connect with like I can with the pain that comes from art.

    • @Wolfyandfroggycousins
      @Wolfyandfroggycousins 6 років тому +10

      You hit the big three for me, Moon and Anarctica, Aeroplane over the Sea, and Carrie & Lowell. Add in Midnight Organ Fight for more pain. I can't help but be drawn to it, for better or worse.

    • @urinarytractinspection4747
      @urinarytractinspection4747 6 років тому +4

      Love you, and hope you're okay bud.

    • @Wolfyandfroggycousins
      @Wolfyandfroggycousins 6 років тому +4

      UrinaryTractInspection love you too brother. One day at a time and savor the moments where we are smiling

    • @urinarytractinspection4747
      @urinarytractinspection4747 6 років тому +1

      Yes, a woman makes it easier in moments, and harder generally is what I'm noticing it. Co-existence is an interesting thing.

    • @urinarytractinspection4747
      @urinarytractinspection4747 6 років тому +1

      I also just checked out your videos. It's good stuff, man.

  • @tonsoftutorials7028
    @tonsoftutorials7028 8 років тому +120

    I love the lyric
    "i love you more than the world can contain in its lonely and ramshackled head"

  • @bambiitree1673
    @bambiitree1673 6 років тому +91

    I'm never prepared for when he starts singing.

  • @azirsamson6977
    @azirsamson6977 9 років тому +247

    This, Fourth of July, Eugene and death with dignity all my favorites

    • @BrunoMalherbe
      @BrunoMalherbe 8 років тому +2

      +Azir Samson definitely agree, so beautifully sad

  • @valeriamedina94
    @valeriamedina94 2 роки тому +78

    I love this song and interpret it as an ex-lover story. But today something clicked in my brain and I realized it's also about John as the Jesus disciple. Love Sufjan Stevens lyrics, they never cease to amaze me.

    • @valeriamedina94
      @valeriamedina94 Рік тому +4

      @@Justin-fb7ni Why? I think it's really interesting. Faith is a great topic to analyze through art!

    • @Svenshine
      @Svenshine Рік тому +4

      @@Justin-fb7ni lots of stuff:
      One aunt of mine was heavily into drugs in 1970s and 80s. She happened to become a Jehovah’s Witness after talking to one. She cleaned up her whole act and stopped all the drugs and even cigarettes. Yes it’s unfortunate she got into a horrible crazy religion, but this shows that in her case it was actually a good thing for her.
      If I was atheist, I would still promote Christianity to people. Because people are dumb and selfish and wrong and egotistical. Would you agree? People tend to be immoral without fear of God and they will do horrible evil things or deeds.
      But yes religious people do very bad deeds also. But religion is created by people not God. Many religious people who do bad things are not listening to God. You shouldn’t attach to God the bad things religious humans do. The world needs less religion and more true followers of God.
      But what’s really funny and ironic is that this song is about John the Beloved. Who was one of Jesus’ twelve disciples. But many people believe that John the Beloved was in fact a gay man. And there’s a lot of evidence from that time that suggests he was. And then a lot of those people who believe that, many of them also believe or ponder that Jesus was his lover. And there’s a good bit of evidence from that time that suggests that too.
      The artist who made this song is a gay Christian (or bi idk). I am too. People get dogmatic and stuff, and they judge gay people. But God told them not to judge, but they still do it anyways. But you can’t attach what people are doing, you can’t attach that to God and blame God for the “followers” that are doing what God said not to do!
      Also the bad side, the devil and his followers, they like to infiltrate the churches so that they can do these bad things and make God look bad.
      I understand why you feel the way you do about it all. And I hope you will understand what I am saying.
      I just thought this comment was really ironic and funny because of the circumstances I explained above! Like how it’s about John the Beloved and the theories some people have about him. & How the artist is a gay Christian and so am I and the thoughts and things that come from it when you have religion who judges us for being gay. It’s hard!
      If you read it thank you.

  • @buowerc
    @buowerc 7 років тому +847

    MY ORDER OF FRIES

  • @tharunlogeishwaran6283
    @tharunlogeishwaran6283 5 років тому +21

    Sometimes I don't even understand humanity. Why in this beautiful god-forsaken earth would you ever dislike this?

  • @JBinOtown
    @JBinOtown 8 років тому +479

    This is so sadly beautiful.

    • @LeKongz
      @LeKongz 8 років тому +8

      +jake b
      SO BEAUTIFULLY SAD

    • @user-my4ez3iz4m
      @user-my4ez3iz4m 8 років тому +1

      +Children of Abel you're beautiful

    • @fulgenzio89
      @fulgenzio89 7 років тому +4

      jake b no you are beautiful.

    • @chejimenez8775
      @chejimenez8775 7 років тому +1

      Se ingoio lo sperma resto incinta?p
      L

  • @vvv-zo9ps
    @vvv-zo9ps 6 років тому +148

    I think that all the songs which we don't know if are about religion or love are about both. I think Sufjan compares his experiences with those of biblical passages.

    • @hopelessent.1700
      @hopelessent.1700 6 років тому +1

      Ugh yea but yet again look at songs such as
      The Owl and The Tanager
      All of Me Wants All of You
      Wasps
      All for Myself
      Size too small
      Mouth of Gabriel? I’m not sure on that one tbh
      The biblical references or alliterations may be present in some of the ones above but I see these songs mostly fixed on that love
      And the mixture of both love and Jesus
      To Be Alone With You
      I’m in love with his music...

    • @karan.kk.h
      @karan.kk.h 3 роки тому +2

      Yeah like ‘the song of songs’ in the bible is literally one of the greatest passages about love. It’s name itself implies it’s the greatest song of all songs, and the words can be interpreted as a human’s love for another human, or as an allegory of religious love as well

    • @MCVessels
      @MCVessels 3 роки тому +2

      The thing about stories from the Bible, or from Greek mythology or anything going back far enough is that they happen in a kind of time and space which is so long ago that it almost loops back around and becomes right now. It's difficult to explain, but the stories become such a part of us that they infuse the things we do every day. So it's not necessarily about comparing your experiences to them, it can be about feeling them singing into being *through* your experiences, if that makes sense. In some of these songs you can't have the love without the religion, and you can't have the religion without the love because it's all tied together so personally. I think.

    • @Sh4dowbanned
      @Sh4dowbanned 3 роки тому +1

      It's great to leave things up to interpretation, so that others can compare their own lives with this

  • @thatkidoffyoutube4035
    @thatkidoffyoutube4035 5 років тому +28

    Crazy how you can have such a complicated relationship with a song

  • @daytripperarrabal
    @daytripperarrabal 9 років тому +198

    I'm so happy for Sufjie. There shouldn't be happiness in the tragedies and the losses in life, but he's the proof that we can create from the ashes of our memories and beloved ones. I'm definitely getting this album.

    • @ItsJustYorick
      @ItsJustYorick 8 років тому +12

      "There shouldn't be happiness in the tragedies and the losses in life, but he's the proof that we can create from the ashes of our memories and beloved ones."
      damn, thats everything i could never seem to put into words

    • @tekkzilla619
      @tekkzilla619 8 років тому

      pain is love...

    • @radiantsun
      @radiantsun 6 років тому +6

      "sufjie"

  • @CodeDarkBlue
    @CodeDarkBlue 8 років тому +738

    "Cold in my professions, warm in my friendships, I wish, my Dear Laurens, it might be in my power, by action rather than words to convince you that I love you."

  • @grace4742
    @grace4742 6 років тому +119

    This song is so hauntingly and heartbreakingly beautiful.
    And, although it is referring to religion, specifically Jesus, you can also interpret it as a melancholic love song (to a man named John).

    • @brewonit4831
      @brewonit4831 3 роки тому +8

      John was the little light who announced the big light as in Jesus. So the moon as John announces the Sun (Son) the light of the world.
      John was dark (with out light)

    • @PlumfacesamaYTP
      @PlumfacesamaYTP 11 місяців тому +3

      @@brewonit4831 Different John. The John you're referring to is John the Baptist. St. John the Apostle was "the disciple who Jesus loved"

  • @ImpossibleSoul523
    @ImpossibleSoul523 9 років тому +54

    The confounding words of this song are all of the "you's" and "my's." If the third stanza were taken literally, it would actually be Jesus talking, as his was the cheek that was kissed by Judas. The earlier line "Beloved OF John, I get all wrong" is somehow resolved here, as (Jesus, as I am presuming) speaks John's true identity; Beloved MY John. John is securely his, and with that knowledge Jesus carries on until the day of his death (so I'll carry on, counting my cards down to one). Christ's fossil though--his memory, the way he will be remembered and thought about--is bright in the sun, which is the great physical sustainer of life and the greatest symbol of life that we have. Without it, there would be no life. The fossils from before, the memories of other lovers, perhaps, do not have life at all ("covered in lines, the fossils I find--have they no life of their own?").
    The song contrasts Stevens' human lovers, his love for his mother (second stanza), and the love of Jesus. These musings inspire the last three lines: Jesus, I need you; shield me from my ugly, painful, death-filled history with YOUR history, which is indeed resurrection and life out of death. This is why, though the phrase is colloquially "manner of speaking," he actually sings "matter of speaking." If it's a manner of speaking, then he is absolutely dead; the phrase implies that what he speaks is the truth, expressed in a certain way but true nonetheless. If it's a matter of speaking, then he is absolutely dead in that matter. If he is the one who speaks, then he is dead. But there is another matter--the matter of Christ himself, who has spoken and called John his beloved. On a more grandiose and cosmic level, in John 1 we read that Christ is the Word itself and the source of life, through whom all things were made and without whom nothing would exist, much like the sun. Because of this matter, Stevens is not dead at all.

  • @ofthetree
    @ofthetree 7 років тому +35

    All of Carrie and Lowell is Beautiful, but this song is Perfection.

  • @johnfurman4242
    @johnfurman4242 8 років тому +40

    Sufjan Stevens, "John My Beloved" Beautiful song. My favorite line: , 'I'm not going to be bitter. I'm going to have love.'"

  • @user-zs1re5gz1j
    @user-zs1re5gz1j 9 років тому +74

    for my nearly 40 years this is the best song I've ever heard
    cause i feel its like bout me and my life

  • @rayanfresard1826
    @rayanfresard1826 6 років тому +11

    "Now there are also many other things that Jesus did. Were every one of them to be written, I suppose that the world itself could not contain the books that would be written." (John 21:25)

  • @matchboxmatt
    @matchboxmatt 2 роки тому +21

    I’d like to propose a different interpretation from all the beautiful ones here. I think it’s about him visiting a bar every night, and missing his mom. So much of the text sounds like he’s missing someone he wish he got the chance to understand, and it seems like he’s getting drunk to get closer to someone who’s died. I know it might seem a bit oedipean based on the lyrics (tongue on your chest), but I read that as a child being fed. He’s been without that nourishment for so long, but now he craves an emotional one from his mother who has long since passed.

  • @abillionfollowersbutnovide3234
    @abillionfollowersbutnovide3234 11 місяців тому +11

    My name is john and this is my narcissistic jam

  • @basiliskboy17
    @basiliskboy17 4 роки тому +14

    This song, especially the opening, always paint a very vivid image in my mind. An old diner along a derelict route somewhere in the US, it's been the same since it opened in the 60s or 70s with no renovation happening at any point. The windows are dirty and don't let too much light in. A man sitting at the bar or in one of the booths who sinks into thought as he's brought his order of fries, with the lyrics all happening in his head.

  • @danieldumontt393
    @danieldumontt393 9 років тому +14

    "So can we contend, peacefully
    Before my history ends?
    Jesus I need you, be near, come shield me..."

  • @WoahNelli
    @WoahNelli 9 років тому +118

    This is truly beautiful. I love when he sings "such a waste, your beautiful face" so lovely

    • @muhammadkhaisanzataamani2091
      @muhammadkhaisanzataamani2091 9 років тому +1

      +WoahNelli wow hello sweety

    • @WoahNelli
      @WoahNelli 9 років тому

      +Khaisan Zatta hi

    • @gisselledubox
      @gisselledubox 8 років тому

      That was one of the lines that attached me to this song at first. It's such a hauntingly beautiful, soft and melancholic song.

    • @gisselledubox
      @gisselledubox 8 років тому +1

      That was one of the lines that attached me to this song at first. It's such a hauntingly beautiful, soft and melancholic song.

    • @WoahNelli
      @WoahNelli 8 років тому

      +Gisselle Dubox Glad someone else caught the same feels I feel for that line too.

  • @benschroering6464
    @benschroering6464 9 років тому +321

    Over a hundred-thousand views and NO DISLIKES? I need to hang out with more Sufjan Stevens fans.

    • @DuffDingle
      @DuffDingle 9 років тому +9

      Ben Schroering come find me big boi

    • @japandata
      @japandata 9 років тому +7

      Ben Schroering Looks like you gave someone a challenge ;-)

    • @runawaykitten9646
      @runawaykitten9646 9 років тому +13

      +Kia Yee You wasted your time. It is so sweet you care enough to take the time logging onto all of your accounts. Too bad nobody agrees with you. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

    • @japandata
      @japandata 9 років тому +10

      ***** Consider kinder words. You are on a Sufjan video, you know.

    • @HeyAstor
      @HeyAstor 9 років тому +4

      +Kia Yee do you need a hug?

  • @greenteatae5450
    @greenteatae5450 5 років тому +16

    I swear every song Sufjan Stevens creates sounds like someone, somewhere is falling in love 💜

  • @42elliott
    @42elliott 5 років тому +13

    1:22 is one of the most beautiful lines ever sung.

  • @rc_woshimao957
    @rc_woshimao957 4 роки тому +81

    Hemingway said loving someone is a religious devotion too.

    • @MCVessels
      @MCVessels 3 роки тому +6

      One of my favourite quotes from Borges: to fall in love is to create a religion with a fallible god.

    • @livvyreeves1232
      @livvyreeves1232 3 роки тому +2

      Jesus loves you💖

    • @livvyreeves1232
      @livvyreeves1232 3 роки тому +2

      Jesus loves you💖

  • @RJ-ur2dv
    @RJ-ur2dv 6 років тому +19

    🎶🎶lyrics🎶🎶0:00
    Are we to speak, first day of the week
    Stumbling words at the bar
    Beauty blue eyes, my order of fries
    Long island kindness and wine
    Beloved of John, I get it all wrong
    I read you for some kind of poem
    Covered in lines, the fossils I find
    Have they no life of their own?
    So can we pretend sweetly
    Before the mystery ends?
    I am a man with a heart that offends
    With its lonely and greedy demands
    There's only a shadow of me, in a manner of speaking I'm dead
    Such a waste, your beautiful face
    Stumbling carpet arise
    Go follow your gem, your white feathered friend
    Icarus, point to the sun
    If history speaks of two baby teeth
    I'm painting the hills blue and red
    They said beware, Lord hear my prayer
    I've wasted my throes on your head
    So can we be friends sweetly
    Before the mystery ends?
    I love you more than the world can contain
    In its lonely and ramshackle head
    There's only a shadow of me, in a manner of speaking I'm dead
    I'm holding my breath
    My tongue on your chest
    What can be said of my heart?
    If history speaks, the kiss on my cheek
    Where there remains but a mark
    Beloved my John, so I'll carry on
    Counting my cards down to one
    And when I am dead, come visit my bed
    My fossil is bright in the sun
    So can we contend, peacefully
    Before my history ends?
    Jesus I need you, be near me, come shield me
    From fossils that fall on my head
    There's only a shadow of me, in a matter of speaking I'm dead

  • @emilyslaughter845
    @emilyslaughter845 3 роки тому +14

    This came on Spotify while I was studying and I had to stop everything I was doing. It’s so entrancing, I’ve never heard anything quite like it.

  • @cosmocollier7352
    @cosmocollier7352 6 років тому +16

    I think we all (yes even those who are just here for lams) need to take a step back and appreciate the beauty of this song.

    • @CC-uf4yy
      @CC-uf4yy 6 років тому +2

      Agreed. For homework: The Mistress Witch from McClure. An oft overlooked, but exceedingly wonderful Sufjan track
      open.spotify.com/track/0g6B1zuMfnBH1hxeshOf4Y?si=VbZN50ur

    • @CC-uf4yy
      @CC-uf4yy 6 років тому +2

      Cookie Master other Top Pick from The Avalanche:
      Soul Bellow (listen to this one alone, whiles trying bathing, OR 1/3 through a long drive it will destroy you.and it will build you back up.
      open.spotify.com/track/0g1f0hZoOFWPKDjvw8oAIy?si=PpP97QSO
      2ND
      OTHERS 1000% WORTH LISTENING
      THE Henrietta Buggy Band
      open.spotify.com/track/0b8nVJDWvfDdCFrJhr5B9x?si=vy3Svkex
      Springfield, OR Bobby got a shad-fly caught in his hair
      open.spotify.com/track/1TYlZJWUNAJFXeF8FbPRIp?si=vLa7Whst
      LASTLY, The Perpetual Self
      All bias aside, this songs the jam
      open.spotify.com/track/2MmtlQDnPpoIkt4OJYJH7I?si=IUowYGLc

    • @axle.elxa2997
      @axle.elxa2997 3 роки тому

      im here for lams but i agree, this song is beautiful

  • @lukaswolf1273
    @lukaswolf1273 Рік тому +4

    Came here after reading “On earth we’re briefly gorgeous “ by Ocean Voung , forever grateful for you music Sufjan

  • @capella891
    @capella891 9 років тому +26

    My favorite song on this album... so beautiful and heartbreaking. Impossible to resist; I sat and shamelessly cried like a little child upon hearing it performed live.

  • @testgoober193
    @testgoober193 6 років тому +52

    This song in particular just pulled my soul from my body to stare at something I don't really understand, but yet I can feel it. This song is amazing. It's so sad, so hopeful, so real.

    • @JumpdeArt
      @JumpdeArt Рік тому

      I liked how you worded your reflection. Yes, I agree :)

  • @comeupandseememakeme
    @comeupandseememakeme 8 років тому +34

    I listened to carrie & lowell for the first time. There was nothing I could play to follow it after I just put the tv on.

  • @karliskrisbergs4758
    @karliskrisbergs4758 7 років тому +22

    wow, this guy makes amazing music, so glad i found out about him

  • @sanaaqahera
    @sanaaqahera 6 років тому +9

    Sufjan Stevens' songs make me feel like love will, in some way redeem me or give dignity to my existence. It doesn't have to last forever, in fact it's more honest if it doesn't but I feel like my empty moments will be less empty because I'll have someone to think about.

  • @kerewinshaw
    @kerewinshaw 8 років тому +309

    my friend named john died the day this album was released.

    • @turtlesfrommars2567
      @turtlesfrommars2567 7 років тому +21

      kerewin emil Wow I am so sorry.

    • @ninaross992
      @ninaross992 6 років тому +16

      I know how it feels. My classmate (and friend in one) died on 16th of December 2016 and I'm sorry for your loss. I'm frankly sorry that you have to feel this way. That you have to write about it. Let this song be a reminder of John. The one you have memories with. Your John. Your beloved John. Let it remind you to live while you can. Stay strong.
      Xxx
      someone whose name is not important

    • @keiw2284
      @keiw2284 6 років тому +5

      Omg :( this is for him , i'm so sorry

  • @abbythewasteland5841
    @abbythewasteland5841 8 років тому +195

    theres only a shadow of me in a matter of speaking im dead

    • @Me2Moo2Studios
      @Me2Moo2Studios 8 років тому +5

      Could you please stop spamming the comments?

    • @TAYLORROXS3
      @TAYLORROXS3 8 років тому +4

      Jesus loves you. Did he get explained away?

  • @Nick-du2re
    @Nick-du2re Рік тому +5

    This is one of my all time favorite songs, so I decided to paraphrase it as best as I could. In some parts I tried my best to write down what Sufjan was trying to get at, while in other parts I feel like I took some creative liberty.
    "Should we speak about the first day of that week? We were at the bar, and we were stumbling on our words. I still remember my order of fries, the kindness of the people of Long Island and the wine.
    John, you were beautiful, you had gorgeous blue eyes, but I read you in a completely wrong way. You were like a poem to me; you were almost fully covered in verse. But even though I liked you, did my religious beliefs hold no value? Was my love not sinful? I wanted to pretend, before our connection completely disappeared, that my heart was at fault, consumed by its loneliness and greediness. But through these thoughts, the part of me that loved remained nothing but a shadow, and I ceased to exist. Once these convictions arose, your beauty was entirely wasted. But still, I couldn’t seem to forget us stumbling on the carpet at that bar.
    In this moment I don’t want you to remember me, you should continue living your life, following the road to salvation and peace. You must overcome your own limitations, but never exhaust yourself, because when I think back at our time spent together, not only happy memories come to mind but also people’s warnings about our sacrilegious love. And because of what we did, our Lord should hear my prayer: I’ve lived through pain and suffering because of my adoration for you.
    But, back then, I wished we could still be friends, so our time spent together could hold some meaning. I blamed everything on our immense devotion for each other, unfathomable for our ramshackle world. But since I couldn’t worship you, there was nothing left for my spirit but to remain a shadow, while my earthly senses vanished.
    In our intimate moments, you made me hold my breath, and place my weight on you. At that time, I can’t imagine what could’ve been said about my passion for you. My clearest memory is of you kissing my cheek, an act that forever left a mark on me.
    My beloved, my only option is to carry on till I live out my last days and only when I’m dead, you’ll visit me at my resting place, which will be cleansed of lust. For this reason, my righteous bones will shine, reflecting the sun’s light.
    Therefore my last request before I die is to be shielded and protected. Jesus, save me from the mistakes of my past, that find ways to perpetually cause me torment. I will finally know religious peace even though I will never have truly loved and in the remaining days of my life I will live as if I’m already dead."

  • @5ystemError
    @5ystemError 7 років тому +5

    "Jesus I need you be near me, come shield me from fossils that fall on my head. There's only a shadow of me, in a manner of speaking, I'm dead" has to be my favorite line from the entire album. I know what it's like to have the past constantly weigh on you. And to pray that it will end someday.

    • @haymyellow1880
      @haymyellow1880 Рік тому

      oh, i never thought of it that way... thank you!

  • @brandloyalty1078
    @brandloyalty1078 7 років тому +235

    this is the most beautiful sad gay song ive ever listened to im calling obama and crying

  • @hiphyro
    @hiphyro Рік тому +4

    After listening to a few songs off this album for the first time in a long long while I was left… shaking involuntarily, disoriented, shed a few tears. I don’t know any other music that’s done that to me…

  • @bzenga5981
    @bzenga5981 2 роки тому +4

    im ngl this has to be the best song on the album right

  • @candidbranch3619
    @candidbranch3619 9 років тому +55

    This whole album give me GOOSEBUMPS. That little space where everything overlaps is captured with such perfection. Listening to these songs makes me feel immeasurably sad, nostalgic, but there is simultaneously such a beautiful and gentle quality I guess bc they are sung with such love. Ahhhhh I just want to cry ,,,, I love love love love Sufjan and hope hope hope I shall see him one day !!!!

  • @obeythewalrus732
    @obeythewalrus732 7 років тому +11

    My heart aches so much for this song.

  • @DeadHandX
    @DeadHandX 2 роки тому +3

    Its crazy how many people come back to this everyday... this song is masterpiece!!!

  • @umcaraaleatorioqtaporai7922
    @umcaraaleatorioqtaporai7922 9 років тому +7

    "Jesus I need you, be near ME, come shield me..." Just a little mistake above. This song is amazing.

  • @mirchas28
    @mirchas28 7 місяців тому +1

    Thinking of you Somerly while listening to your favourite song. Wherever you are, fly high angel. RIP xoxo

    • @mirchas28
      @mirchas28 5 днів тому

      still thinking of you xo

  • @lightchaste
    @lightchaste 9 років тому +9

    This song is a beauty, so is the live version from his C&L tour (Made me all teary-eyed)

    • @oliviaherman3262
      @oliviaherman3262 9 років тому +2

      +lightchaste i public-cried 3 times during his boston concert this spring

  • @KarisWaltmanmusic
    @KarisWaltmanmusic 9 років тому +26

    pure artwork

  • @PeoplesInstinctives
    @PeoplesInstinctives 4 роки тому +14

    Powerful, emotional masterpiece of an album that usually hits me super hard once this song starts to play. Incredible music.

  • @flaviofrancoribeiro
    @flaviofrancoribeiro 7 років тому +5

    The sad atmosphere in this song make it so magical and nostalgic

  • @gentianviolet2785
    @gentianviolet2785 5 років тому +18

    I like to think that this is Sherlock's favourite song & nobody can convince me otherwise.

    • @OlliePop
      @OlliePop 4 роки тому +1

      CuriosityKilledTheCat SatisfactionBroughtItBack RIGHT I WAS LITERALLY ABOUT TO SAY “y’all think this is about hamilton.... i don’t think so”

    • @loulou6554
      @loulou6554 4 роки тому

      CuriosityKilledTheCat SatisfactionBroughtItBack why tf is no one in the fandom talking about this song it's perfect 💀💀

  • @ana-he9cw
    @ana-he9cw 5 років тому +4

    There’s only a shawdow of me
    Is really powerful when he repeats that line after every verse

  • @sadginger4924
    @sadginger4924 3 роки тому +2

    This song sounds like a love song between John the beloved Disciple, it the Gospel of John he is depicted as very close to Christ, and Christ loved him dearly

  • @DaveDexterMusic
    @DaveDexterMusic 2 роки тому +3

    one of this song's many gifts is how I always think it's ending a good two minutes before it actually does, so each time the last two minutes are a surprise. a welcome, bleak, horribly depressing and beautifully expressed surprise

  • @charlierandall3894
    @charlierandall3894 4 роки тому +3

    it never ceases, that listening to sufjan first thing in the morning (in my most raw, unfiltered state)
    leads to goosebumps and tears

  • @bearsbearsbears375
    @bearsbearsbears375 5 років тому +3

    What a poet. Thank you universe for Sufjan Stevens and Elliott Smith

  • @AustinMoore2004
    @AustinMoore2004 5 років тому +8

    this song has got me through so many heartbreaks and broken friendships. thank you sufjan.

  • @thesilenttreatment6837
    @thesilenttreatment6837 3 роки тому +4

    This album is the soundtrack to my mourning.

    • @morgan_c
      @morgan_c 3 роки тому +2

      Same. I listen to it every day.

  • @joelowry1323
    @joelowry1323 4 роки тому +3

    the line "my order of fries" always tears me apart for some reason. i don't know why, but it's just so plain and ordinary in a song filled with sadness. like the world keeps moving on no matter how bad your situation is.

  • @jamestaylor292
    @jamestaylor292 2 роки тому +2

    Sufjan's music paralyzes me sometimes but it helps me to let out things that I've held in for so long.

  • @Scout1543
    @Scout1543 4 роки тому +22

    Me: "this'll be the day I finally get over unrequited love and move on with my life!"
    Sufjan's music: "Sure it is buddy"

  • @TheBigBroflovski
    @TheBigBroflovski 8 років тому +17

    This song is so goddamn good

  • @josephniehaus9082
    @josephniehaus9082 9 років тому +7

    my favorite track off C&L

  • @peace-jw3yh
    @peace-jw3yh 8 років тому +9

    it is sad but beautiful.. i love his songs

  • @onlyascreenaway1022
    @onlyascreenaway1022 2 роки тому +1

    It’s both a blessing and a curse that some songs act as "Time Capsules" where when you listen to them… you remember.

  • @flyeaglesfly76ers81
    @flyeaglesfly76ers81 28 днів тому

    While it may be irrelevant or thematically indirect, I can’t help but think of the apostle John in a nurtering, parabolic way when I hear “John my beloved”. In John’s Gospel, he used the word “love”more than any other, and while he wrote in the simplest, kindest prose, his meekness and emotion bled out all the more. Christ even instructed his “beloved” John to watch over Mary while on the stake, and in some unexplainable athletic overture, I hear that brotherly, spiritual love in this notes and rythems of this song. Perception is a wonder to behold.

  • @sugar-rice
    @sugar-rice 6 років тому +10

    I forgot this was in my playlist and now I'm sad. :(

  • @oplisarsima2163
    @oplisarsima2163 5 днів тому

    The I love you part is so beautiful

  • @laurarose8481
    @laurarose8481 5 років тому +3

    I remember like 2 years ago discovering this song because it reminded a lot of people of Alexander Hamilton and John Laurens relationship. I really enjoyed this song for awhile without thinking much about it. I eventually listened to all of the Carrie and Lowell album and loved it so much. Back in April I decided to started listening to all of Sufjan's music, which was the best decision ever. All of his songs and so beautiful and have amazing lyrics. This song is not my favorite, this version of this song is not my favorite, but it will always take me back to my junior year of high school. This song holds such a special place in my heart.

  • @ivikakatus
    @ivikakatus 2 роки тому +2

    I cry everytime i listen >any< song of this guy.... It's to much to me, it's more than perfect, it's my feelings on it. I feel my soul, i feel the satisfation, i feel my tears everytime. I love u so much for these songs...

  • @jitterbuggs
    @jitterbuggs 7 років тому +3

    It's beautiful, in it's own way, it's sad, but pretty, calm and peaceful. I really like it.

  • @gentianviolet2785
    @gentianviolet2785 5 років тому +2

    Sherlock's favourite song!

  • @wro3650
    @wro3650 3 роки тому +2

    I understand where this song comes from, but it reminds me of my friend I just spent over 5 years trying to find. And now tomorrow will be the first time I've seen him in the last decade. It seems unreal. I found him after he woke up i in a hospital - I missed him more than anything, and nobody knew what happened.
    But tomorrow, and I dunno why I thought of this.

  • @jonathancartwheelfruitloop3071
    @jonathancartwheelfruitloop3071 2 роки тому +1

    This man’s voice is so beautiful, Calm, Peaceful and so damn soothing that it brings me to the verge of tears

  • @DaveDexterMusic
    @DaveDexterMusic 2 роки тому +4

    "There's only a shadow of me; in a matter of speaking I'm dead"
    fucking hell sufjan

  • @andreasmeissner
    @andreasmeissner 6 років тому +2

    The song ends with a breath.
    The circle closes.

  • @omniufo7350
    @omniufo7350 2 роки тому +4

    Remarkable miraculous music thank you.

  • @cristinalojan5153
    @cristinalojan5153 3 роки тому +2

    Always love this song

  • @erurilover
    @erurilover 6 років тому +1

    I remember hearing this song last year, it reminds me of something sad but also happy. It's one of those songs where once you listen you wanna do research to see if like what it means.

  • @claudioagmfilho
    @claudioagmfilho 2 роки тому +4

    🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷👏🏻👏🏻 love his song, I really like his songs all of them it’s like he wrote them for me… 🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷

  • @sarahbeardsley
    @sarahbeardsley 2 роки тому +7

    the (very beautiful) religious undertones in this do not contradict the nature of the song being about two men in love. in the Gospels, John refers to himself as "the disciple whom Jesus loved"; faith and sexuality are interwoven throughout all of Sufjan's music and neither exists without the other. there is a great deal of imagery and symbology from the Old Testament, for instance, that he uses to describe this, such as in Abraham or Seven Swans. the story of Jesus' life, love and sacrifice has mythic and mystic qualities which he's using as a storytelling device, and to highlight the divine nature of the relationship in question.

  • @madisonjeanfr
    @madisonjeanfr 7 років тому +1

    this just touches me so much. I just listen to it in the dark at sunfall and open my window and it touches me.

  • @sarakschomburg
    @sarakschomburg 9 років тому +5

    ugh that inhale at the end is heartbreaking

  • @mawaalt
    @mawaalt 2 роки тому +2

    Such a masterpice, i can listen to this all day

  • @khloeg1649
    @khloeg1649 3 роки тому +3

    the lines "I am a man with a heart that offends with its lonely and greedy demands" and "I love you more than the world can contain in its lonely and ramshackle head" simultaneously rip my heart out of my chest and add years to my life

    • @khloeg1649
      @khloeg1649 3 роки тому

      that and the implications of "in a _matter_ of speaking, I'm dead" instead of the correct use being 'manner', combining "a manner of speaking" and "a matter of fact" and changing it from a metaphorical statement to a factual one

  • @shannong979
    @shannong979 6 років тому +3

    My husband and I are longtime Sufjan fans for 11-12 years. We have played this song almost every night for the past few months to put our toddler son to sleep and it works like a charm. Death With Dignity helps me deal with my dad's untimely death. Thank you for years of beautiful and thought provoking music Suf.

    • @shannong979
      @shannong979 3 роки тому

      Playing it now for my 2 year old daughter and my old comment popped up. ☺️

  • @ronymathewpc
    @ronymathewpc Рік тому

    tears/...every single time. Thanks Sufjan.

  • @josator4318
    @josator4318 4 роки тому

    Listening to Sufjan Stevens songs during this time of quarantine help me to deal with my "Existential Problem"

  • @sheryljoym.cabuslay7422
    @sheryljoym.cabuslay7422 2 роки тому +2

    My birthday... is on Fourth of July. Ironically, I died on that day too, I'm left grieving today thinking of all possible ways to revive my cheerful body and hopeful soul from the grave I myself dug years ago.

  • @imme246
    @imme246 4 роки тому +12

    I wonder if two baby teeth is a reference to Alexander and Hephaistion. He mentions them in another song.