The author of this song wrote this song in grief of his mother, who died of cancer. The lines were directly taken from the conversation he had with her before passing.
I always remember this line every time I want to give up on life. I imagine one of my family members says it and it gives me strength to keep living for them.
My Son (My Little HAWK) committed suicide last year in May. I loved this song before, but now I have a deeper appreciation. R.I.P. Jake. I love you forever.
MAFIA GIRL When I saw your initials “TT” I thought at first it was my daughter commenting that “she is the little dove!” Her initials are TT! This song is so moving-and my favorite verse in this verse “Did you get enough love, my little dove...”🌸💞🌸
Today, the 4th of July, I was supposed to end my life. That was my mission. Yesterday my friends prepare a surprise for me: a cake for me. All this party was my best friend's idea. Now I'm sitting in the living room, dreaming about the travel we're going to start in two weeks. Just want to listen to this song and remember how it feels so sad when I was at my lowest. But now, I can see some light in my future. And this, this feels so relaxing.
@@saam559 Your life worth more than you reliaze. And I'm so proud of you just for being who you are, and for stand still a little bit more! You got this ❤
I'm not ashamed to admit that I literally cried reading the comments as the song played on. I'm so sorry for everyone who had to experience grief. I hope one day you will be happy again💌
@@Suhani_Arora same girl same.. it was so hard and it’s still but it’s getting better day by day.. we’re so strong let’s live for them they love us, and we were the last person they love.
When I was a teenager, I’d cry with tears. Now as an adult, there’s no tears. My body just aches, I can’t feel my legs and I shake. *We’re all gonna die*
This song is a conversation between Sufjan and his mother, Carrie, while she was dying in the hospital. Each stanza alternates between them. Sufjan spoke of this time in an interview: She had stomach cancer, and it was a quick demise. We flew to see her in the ICU before she died. She was in a lot of pain, and on a lot of drugs, but she was aware. It was so terrifying to encounter death and have to reconcile that, and express love, for someone so unfamiliar. Her death was so devastating to me because of the vacancy within me… At that point, I was only interested in communicating my love for her, unconditionally. There was a reciprocal deep love and care for each other in that moment. It was very profound and healing. A beautifully sad album overall. This song makes me cry though.
+Liz Bajjalieh I know your comment is a month old, but in case you're still wondering, the quote is from Sufjan's interview with Pitchfork titled "True Myth: A Conversation With Sufjan Stevens"
My sister showed me this song, it's so coincidental to the loss of our mother. She died on the fourth of July at 1am. My heart goes out to those who've lost their parents❤
This makes me think about how much little me went through. She didn't deserve any of what happened. She was so confused, sad and alone. She helped everyone, but no one helped her when she needed the most. I imagine present me singing this to old me. I wish i could've taken better care of my inner child. She deserved so much more.
Same, kid me was so selfless that she gave all she had until there was nothing left. I wish i could shild her from all this pain, confusion. I wish i could go back.
I’m 14. My mom is in her fifties. I’m scared of the time that will come when she will die. I’m not prepared and I don’t think I’ll ever been prepared. I know I should be enjoying the moments with her rather than being scared of when she won’t be here so I will try. I love her so much and this song reminds me so much of her. Great work Sufjan!
This hits home. I'm 19 and my parents are closer to 60. We don't have the best relationship but songs like these make me scared of losing them even if we don't really get along. It's sad I waste so much time being scared of losing people rather than telling them how much they mean to me
@@ashanddoodles13 if you can somehow tell them. My parents are near that age too and the majority of our time together is over perhaps. so with what i have left we'll fight and hurt each other but i hope through all the turmoil they remember they were and are loved by me and the same for me
This hits very close to home I’m 14 and my adopted parents are 67 and 68 now and it’s recently dawned on me that I might not have that long left with them. I’ve already lost my biological parents and I don’t know if I could cope with loosing the people that there for me when I needed them the most
Today my grandpa passed away in the morning. When I heard the news I immediatly remembered this song. I was listening to this while remembering all my memories with him and looking at the white snowy forest, until I realised that his birthday was exactly on the fourth of july. He passed away alone in the hospital bed and no one got to say goodbye. I hope he didn’t feel alone though and felt our love towards him. Now he’s finally reunited with his love, my grandma. Rest in peace George. Just know that I love you very much.
Hi there. Just wanted to add few lines here. I'm from Ukraine and I was listening to this song while sitting in the basement because of bombs and rockets. I cannot express that feeling of near death, but that were surely the worst four weeks of my life. This song calmed me, when thoughts about absence of tomorrow came. This song calmed me, when the rocket fell in 200 meters near our house (our neighbors were lucky to be at another part of the house that time, so no victims from that one). It calmed me, when I left the dangerous area. And it calms me now, when I think of this whole thing continuing for 3 months already. I hate the war and people who started it. Let the sky be calm. Stay safe, guys. Thank you, Sufjan. UPD: as many of you asked, I'm okay, as well as my family. I'm home now, but the war still continues and we still are waking up to sounds of explosions. Had to get used to it, as well to understanding that I might not wake up next time.
i'm laying in bed in the dark listening to this, in tears. my parents don't understand where i'm at in my life. they keep blaming it on my phone and little do they know my phone is my only escape. i have no motivation for anything anymore. this song upsets me so much because it makes me think of my younger and happier self. nothing could ever bring her down. she would be so disappointed in me.
My dad's funeral is tomorrow. I'm thinking of using this song. It would've been his and my mother's 41st anniversary. He was only 64 yrs old. We didn't get a chance to tell him goodbye because of hospital restrictions on visitors.
My mother passed away 3 months ago, she died 3 days after turning 52, we also didn't get a chance to say goodbye due to restrictions on visitors, I know it feels horrible, I hope you're doing somewhat alright though
My uncle passed away a bit ago, he had two sons and a wife. He was 28 at the time. My mother's twin. We weren't able to see him either because of hospital's restrictions. It was a few months before my brother was born. My uncle never got to see my brother or his kids grow up, never got to see my mum get married. He was a good man. Kindhearted. I'm so sorry for your loss, I know how it feels. I remember being left outside and bursting out into tears when told the news. I never got to say goodbye. I know they aren't my parent but I still understand how you feel, it hurts.
Only time will heal, my girlfriend also passed away, but it was back in 2016... And I can assure you that it takes a long road with many ups and downs, but you'll heal slowly... Take care Georgie ❤️
Last year I lost my little sister in December to suicide, this was the song I listened to every night. Sometimes I listen to this song and think of her.
Hey man, this takes some balls to write❤ i Hope you feel a Little bit Better now. As an older Brother i can not even Imagine the horrors of a dead Brother/sister❤
I'm sorry and I know that doesn't take away the pain but I hope you know you're not alone. I lost a very good friend of mine. We were like twins. I loved him and his death has hit me hard. We weren't blood siblings and we weren't even friends in real life just online but still. I can only imagine the shock and sadness I'd feel if my little sister committed suicide. Just know it's not your fault. Please don't blame yourself or feel like you should've been able to know somehow what she was going through. Just try and heal and live for her. Live so that you can make something good of your life and make her proud. That's what's been keeping me going. I hope this helps in some way.💙
LYRICS : The evil, it spread like a fever ahead It was night when you died, my firefly What could I have said to raise you from the dead? Oh, could I be the sky on the Fourth of July? "Well, you do enough talk My little hawk, why do you cry? Tell me, what did you learn from the Tillamook burn? Or the Fourth of July? We’re all gonna die." Sitting at the bed with the halo at your head Was it all a disguise, like Junior High? Where everything was fiction, future, and prediction Now, where am I? My fading supply "Did you get enough love, my little dove? Why do you cry? And I’m sorry I left, but it was for the best Though it never felt right My little Versailles." The hospital asked should the body be cast Before I say goodbye, my star in the sky Such a funny thought to wrap you up in cloth Do you find it all right, my dragonfly? "Shall we look at the moon, my little loon? Why do you cry? Make the most of your life, while it is rife While it is light Well, you do enough talk My little hawk, why do you cry? Tell me, what did you learn from the Tillamook burn? Or the Fourth of July? We’re all gonna die." We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die
Liam Payne, you brought us light and happiness when we were just kids and teenagers. You were always so kind to us, even after break time. You were the member who cared not only about your solo stans but about all Directioners and, of course, the other members as well. Almost every year, you would tell us that we would see One Direction again. I’m sorry that life was rough on you and that you were surrounded by negative people and hate. I hope everyone who made you feel unloved experiences similar struggles, just to understand how words, especially negative ones, can have a bad influence on people's minds. Lastly, I pray that you find peace now. If you are watching over us, I hope you have your smiling face and are singing all the time. We, your fans, are sorry we couldn’t provide you with the protection and comfort you gave us. We will never forget you. We stay strong because of you and remember you as the humble, kind, energetic, and enthusiastic person that you were. We will miss every little thing about you-your angelic voice, your laughter, and everything else. Love you.♥♥♥
My mother died on the fourth of July battling cancer. I can relate to each and every word of this song as I have infact and lived every moment of this song with her before I discovered it, I was with the till the end and the only person I ever loved selflessly in this world. I love this song but I can't listen to it without wet eyes and avoid it because it only makes me cry. I wish you rest in peace maa and I will see you on the other side. I hope I was a good child.
My best friend once told me, "if i die dont cry and take pitty on me. Instead, remeber all all the things i did in my life." Today marks the 8th year since she died. This song reminded me very much of her. Thank you.
I lost my grandma to cancer. It's been two days, and I didn't get to see her for the last time, because her death was so quick I can't even book a flight in time for her funeral. It was a best way to go for her, as it was painless and she was aware up until going to sleep, surrounded by loved ones, and departing peacefully in the hospital. My grandpa lost the love of his life, my father lost his mom and my mother lost a woman who became her mother, not by blood, but by the kindness of her heart. We love her so much, and feel her love still. This song provided some kind of closure, because I know, that our last talk via videocall was this loving and peaceful, and it would have been the same in person. I sent her live flowers for her funeral. The red roses she loved so much. She's with her sister now, and they are finally at peace, together. I miss you so much, Alya.
im so sorry, i also lost my grandma to lung cancer 2 years ago, its so scary how cancer is. im glad she had her loved ones near and i hope your doing okay. love ya
"did you get enough love, my little dove?" this line always makes me think of my mother and her last words to me before she passed away when i was 5, its currently almost been a decade since she passed and i still continuously wish she was here still just so she could see me and how far ive come in my lifetime and see me graduate high school
“Has it ever struck you that life is all memory, except for the one present moment that goes by you so quick you hardly catch it going?”― Tennessee Williams
My brother died in a car crash the night before the fourth of July, I was fourteen. It really hits home because this song is a different kind of sad. It sounds hollow and cold and broken rather than deeply emotional, and that's the magic of it.
Oct 16th 2024 … liam payne, paynos will always be in our heart 😢🤍 “ I’m sorry I left but it was for the best though- It never felt right..” The world was not good or kind enough to his little heart
Matthew Dempsey When I heard this track for the first time, I couldn't help but cry. I lost my mother several years ago to a heart attack and she was only 46. This song brought back all those feelings that I thought I was getting over.
jsandlin71 First couple of times I listened to this it brought me back to the night my grandmother died. The tone of the song perfectly matches what that night felt like.
to whoever comes across this, i just want to say that you deserve so much more than what you've been through and you are worth so much more than you could ever comprehend
100 reasons to keep going in life: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favourite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you 75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships. 76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person. 77. Joy and happiness in the little things. 78. The power to inspire others. 79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression. 80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life. 81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet. 82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family. 83. Learn new things and develop new skills. 84. Create a legacy that will outlive you. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Cuddles 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it.
As someone who struggles with suicidal thoughts every day I liked this comment because it's helpful to me and comforting that someone cares enough to type this all out... God bless you, and thank you
Got the call this morning that my estranged father is in the active stage of dying. July 4, 2024. Just saw him and got to say my final goodbyes, tell him about his grandchildren that he doesn't know. Asked him to hold on long enough to see my sister, who flies in tonight. This album has always meant a lot to me, this song in particular, but today it means more than ever. Thank you, Sufjan.
I've said this hundreds of times but the only time I lie to someone is when I respond to a medical emergency and tell someone who is clearly terminal that he's going to be okay. There's no reason not to and there's that infinitesimal chance that it will release enough life-saving compounds to get her or him through.
My grandma passed away today. I prayed day and night hoping that she will be able to stay long enough to see me success in life and to meet me one last time. (I study abroad) I wanna hug her, be there for her one last time. See her smile one last time. I feel so lost right now
Hey! I'm sorry you had to go through that. It's okay to feel overwhelmed and cry to express your sorrow. But, you must move on, okay? She wouldn't be there to see you succeed but she would definitely want you to succeed. Hope you achieve it!!!.
hey.. just know you're not alone in this, i lost my granny 4 months ago too, i know how hard it is, but it'll get better i promise, your grandma will always be proud of you, and she'll watch you succeed in the afterlife, keep going and make her proud :,) ❤
The thing I love almost more than the songs by Sufjan is his fan base. The comments section is always interesting and empathetic and emotional... Its the good side of youtube
True. although I'm a year late to say that... still though. That's the biggest problem because some artists are great and clean, but as soon as the gain popularity the comment section goes terrible.
An absolutely heartbreaking song. "The hospital asked, 'Should the body be cast?'" is when I lost it. Both my parents died in 2013, six months apart and this is easily the first song I've heard since then that offered me a sort of sonic communion with their memory. Losing people you love can become so numbing, but this made me feel something true. Sufjan's voice is so haunting and beautiful. "Make the most of your life, while it is rife, while it is light" is the takeaway quote for me from this song. A real masterpiece in my opinion.
WCD87 I'm certain that my experiences pale in comparison to that, but recently I lost my dog. She had been there since before I was born and I felt lost without her. And I agree that this song reflects all loss. As I listened to this song, I imagined back when I had to walk out of the room in the veterinarian with my dog lying dead (she was 15 and very sick and we euthanised her) and the fact I felt like I was betraying her. And so I feel this song deep in my heart, where few other things can venture. Thank you for commenting this! It brought out a different part of this song for me.
My mother died around the time Sufjan Stevens - Illinois album came out and i used to listen to the album as i went to visit her. I also totally lost it when he sang " The hospital asked, 'Should the body be cast?'" . I'm sorry for loss and i know that numb feeling you mentioned . Just glad there are little things in life like this that remind me of the people we lose and allow us to smile at there memory thru the tears.
+WCD87 i hear you man. i lost both of my parents in 2014, about 4 months apart. absolutely devastating. as time's gone on i've found it increasingly difficult to move on from it. i hope you don't take this the wrong way, but it's sort of a breath of fresh air to hear someone else has experienced the same hell as me. it's so hard to find people who can relate. and as sad as this song is, it's also sort of life-affirming.
My cat died yesterday. I have an indescribable pain. I always listen to this song to remember all my pets who died in my name. Also, I remember my dead father and grandfather when I listen to this song. 💔😔
Yesterday. The 14th of November 2023. That's when he left. That's when cancer took him away from me. He was my best friend. He had the brightest smile and the most contagious laugh. His heart was full of love to give. He was a really smart guy. He knew so much about history. He was always able to comfort me. He was always by my side. We dreamed of the future together. But what now? He was only 18. He deserved so much better. I miss him so much. He will always be in my heart.
(I'm Russian, so I can make mistakes, sorry) Dear friend..we all can understand you..but don't cry..I think, he looks for you from the clouds.. He didn't want to hear your tears.. This autumn I had the same story.. He was my internet-brother. But he had Deadly disease - also cancer.. 15of September, in my b-day, he Ended his life by himself.. But honey..life isn't ended.. that pain inside and you should Convert it in good memories.. I believe in you ❤
14th of November 2023 was the best day of my life. I finally left my country and everything I had behind to start a totally new life. I’m sorry for your loss. Still it’s very interesting to me how we both woke up that day, feeling things that couldn’t be further apart from another. I hope that your happiest day is still ahead of you and I bet your friend is cheering you on, from wherever he is now.
My best friend Emily passed away a couple years ago, February 4th 2020. The car hydroplaned off the road, it wasn't raining but the roads were still super wet, she died instantly. A part of me is happy to know that she was never scared. She was maybe 4'11, so when the car came in on her her body was too small to handle it. She died a little over a month until her 17th birthday. Her funeral was beautiful, we had sunflowers and dragonflies and all of her favorite things. She was buried with her funkopop anime characters, stuffed animals, etc. Her body at the viewing, which was two weeks after she passed, looked absolutely beautiful. She looked like she was resting. I'll always remember our plans of moving in together, her going to college for art and me for veterinary science. I loved writing poems for her and she loved drawing pictures for me. I miss you everyday Emmy, my sunflower, my dragonfly, my little pancake. I love you, and I'll never forget our long talks, our dumb fandom interests, our cringy nicknames, I'll never forget us. Forever and always Emmy, you'll be with me forever and always.
@@bananabill2973 I'm so sorry, it's terrible to lose someone on your birthday. My grandpa passed on my birthday in 2019. It's a bittersweet feeling getting older than a loved one, especially when they pass on your birthday, but keep living for them and make them proud. ❤️
This song reminds me of my sister. She was almost 18. She had gone to stay with her mom for a bit but decided to come see us, she bought a plane ticket and she was coming to see us, she wasn't in a car. She was walking..she had her headphones in and she didn't look both ways. She didn't see the speeding car. The drunk man who hit her. I hope she wasn't in any pain in her final moments. She was going to have her double birthday with my sister. Just like always Exept this time it was her very special 18th birthday. I remember walking downstairs seeing my parents, I could tell something was wrong so I asked them what was going on, they explained to me that she was gone, but I wasn't sad, it hadn't processed yet, all I could think about was everything she had done wrong to me. I had just started 3rd grade and I missed 2 or 3 weeks of it. I remember going to her funeral, my siblings and I all held hands. I remember that they gave me a big crayon set and a huge coloring sheet to keep me occupied. I don't think I realized at the time I was in the same room as my dead sister. Soon we had another funeral this time with family that we know, that's when it hit me. That she was gone. I tried so hard not to cry. I remember the black box with her ashes. Seeing her pictures. My parents told me the night she died they remember hearing something on my baby monitor, a voice talking to me. It confused me because I had remembered waking up and seeing a bright light, I wasn't afraid, I remember asking if I would ever see it again, and I remember it replied with something like "you'll see" I turned back around and went to bed. The rest of the year I had gone deppressed, I slept all class, and I was allowed to bring a stuffed animal that she had left for me. A build a bear, toothless. I still keep him close to me at night, gave him a pin that says "Angel" on it. I'm 14 now. I lost her in 2016. I may not have been able to realize it then. But now I cry everytime I think about her. I love her. Skyler. She wanted to be an author.. She wanted to do something great. And now I'm her honor I'm going to write a book, I'm going to be what she could never be, what she could never do. I wish she could have known me now, now I'm not a brat.. Now I'm not just a stupid kid.. I'm 14.. I'm in highschool.. It's been almost 10 years since I lost my sister. And I don't know If she still visits me.. I love you Skyler..I hope your proud of me.. Edit: thank you guys so much for the replies, it honestly makes my day so much better when I get one, I've never felt this much support, I know it's really not much to reply but it really means a lot to me ❤️❤️❤️
This is a lot to share and I’m proud of you. Even if I don’t know you or you don’t know me, I’m proud of you because I can relate. I’m so sorry for your loss, stay strong darling. She’ll always be with you and just know your not alone and never will be, so don’t give up and go for your dreams. I probably sound like a lot of people if they heard your story but I truly mean what I say and it comes from my heart, even if it seems strange that I’m telling this to you, a stranger. But even if I can’t feel your exact pain, I’ve been thru something similar and I know it will be hard. 💞💗
Thank you for sharing. All we can do to deal with the grief is to try to live twice as much in their honor. Make every day count, hug your parents, your family, and your friends, because you never know when it’s your last day with them, or their last day with you. I’m sorry that you had to understand death so early. It took me until I was 17, when my father died, to really understand what it was to lose someone. I know sometimes it feels like you’ll never be happy again, but that feeling will pass. You’ll still miss them, but you’ll remember the hood and that will outweigh the pain. And don’t blame yourself for being a “brat,” you were just a small child, and siblings argue. She knew you loved her and she loved you back, and that’s all that matters. If you really want to make a difference for good in this world, don’t set your sights on some fantastical goal - the biggest influence you can have on this world is in the interactions you have every day, with the people around you. Good and bad deeds echo throughout time, and multiply. A single good deed for a stranger can bring them back from the edge, and a single unkind word can push someone over the edge. Remember that every time you interact with anyone - you have no idea what they’re going through. Treat them all like they just lost someone and need a friend to help them and show them that it’s worth being a force for good in the world.
For people who never say: I love you. We're all gonna die... My cousin died 2 years ago, was his death an accident, or was it a suicide, we never find out... His birthday was on the 4 of July. Each time, I cannot help myself but listen to this song whenever I think about him. He was just 19, and a thought that in his lifetime, I never ever said I love you to him... it haunts me till now. It's not like his life, his end would change, but the thought that he would be happier if he knew that I really loved him somehow makes me sad. Luka, Did you get enough love, my little dove? I hope now you are happy and you can feel love from people who never say I love you.
The trouble with being born, is you did not ask to be. You were thrown into life with the responsibility of learning to live, and living with an awareness that you are going to die. Your time in between is spent trying to preserve a life you never asked for, while being conscripted to positively contribute to a world that didn’t need you. But in this sea of chaos you will find that life has left you a gift “The Opportunity to Try”
My parents are till alive and I am very grateful for them. I started a new job at a new place. They visited me and left today. I couldn't see them off because i was at work. I left the house when they were still there in their pjs and I came back with them gone. It sucks to come home to a empty house. And its so scary doing big girl things without them being around. I hope I make them proud.
It is very depressing being alone and having to deal with everything by your own, but I just keep doing it because I am waiting to see if its going to get better
I love this song. My cat that's on my pfp passed off to the sky two weeks ago.. I cry daily as she was my best friend and helped me through my roughest days. Always calmed me down and played with me daily. She really ment the world to me but passed due to a broken rib that pushed through her lounge..
I’ve never lost someone in my family, and even when I did lose someone, I wasn’t really close to them. Then again, I still feel a profound sadness listening to this song and reading all of your stories. I just want to say that you’re doing great. Even though there might’ve been nothing that you could’ve done, I’m proud of all of you for sharing your stories to the world.
0:45 "it was night when you died.." my friend,not long ago, was walking home one evening when a car with an illegal speed killed him without mercy. The killer said she thought she hit a trash can. He was not a trash can,he was the most kind,talented,patient person. He was human. The killer is not in jail. Rest in power buddy
"I thought he was a trash can" this is literally the worst excuse I've ever heard for recklessly killing a person he should be in jail what the fuck man this makes me loose all my hope in mankind.
@@GG-fk2sy exactly! It sounds so dehumanitising,how dare you compare your innocent victim to a trash can??? She s trying to act as if she was insane so she wont go to jail..
It's lovely that people like Sufjan gives some people the confidence to share stories with an incredible level of intimacy. It's a beautiful way of connecting.
three days ago a friend of mine hung himself. I can't sleep without thinking about what he felt. what could i have done differently? it's really sad, he was only 18. he was a great boy and taught me so much. sweet, funny, good heart. in the past, i came here and saw some sad comments and I never thought it could be me living this kind of sadness. i close my eyes and I can see him alive. his details, his hands, his eyes. he didn't seem like himself in that coffin "it was night when you died, my firefly. what could I have said to raise you from the deads?"
it's mostly because noone wants to turn their lover into your worst nightmare,the one that makes you cry and doubt the choices you've made for that person
My cat died tonight. Didn't imagine it would hurt this much. He added joy to a joyless life I depressingly bear. Thanks for all the love, the warmth, and all the good times. will forever miss you baby.
Here I am, a 40-year-old man, holding my 5-year-old daughter as tears are pouring out after listening to this song.. I never cry about anything. Sufjan, you've destroyed me in 4 minutes and 38 seconds. Well done.. :O
I lost my little dog yesterday. The pain is unbereable. we had to put her down because she was in a coma from a blood infection. I miss her so much. I would do anything to have her back, to hear her little barks and have her by my side when i was sleeping.
This song touches me dearly. When I was about 8 years old everything was nice, but one day everything changed. It was on my mother's birthday. My dad was ill that day and stayed in bed. At about 9pm I looked after him and asked him if he wanted to come down partying with us. He told me that he would rather stay in bed and Coughed while telling to go back to the others with the last words: I love you son. I then asked if I should get help bc of the coughs. He just laughed.. After being back with the others I felt very unusual. About 20 mins later we all just heard a big bang and that was it, I ran up to his room and there he was lying on the ground Fainting and not breathing. I was in panic and told the others who also ran up and starting to help him, we then called 112/911. But no chance, he died after he got Revived 2 times. Now I'm 16 and trynna move on in life with all the got memories of him. This song made and also still makes me cry every single time I listen to it, but I like listening to this song bc it helps me remembering how it was. Thank you sufjan.
oh my god im so so sorry. i could never imagine what you've been through, but i feel like this song unites all of us. you always have a community here.
I'm sorry man, I never had a close family member die but it must be the hardest thing anyone can endure, even more for a 8 year old, I hope you're doing better
@@tejakausik6205 3yrs ago y husband of 44yrs2,wks when he sat in our beautiful back yard june7 2017 in the afternoon while our daughter,granddaughter a+age 9+ her friend our mw baby grandson and myself were all in the house when we heard the boom...it's been hard as hell but this music does something for my heart
@@donnabruce4767 honestly, i know that my words wouldn't really do anything to heal your heart. but i know that music can, and as you said yourself, music and this song has helped you get through it. sometimes, whenever i feel alone, i just listen to this song, and think about who else is listening to it too. there are people out there like me, and there are people out there who love you too. you are so incredibly strong to get to where you are today, and i know this may not mean much coming from a stranger on the internet, but i'm proud of you. i don't really know if there's a god out there, but maybe if there is, i hope they bless you.
fourth of july is the saddest song i have ever heard in my life, but it gave me comfort when i needed it the most. It will always be my go-to song whenever I feel so sad and terrified of death.
I’m very sorry for your loss. It’s tough losing someone to suicide. I hope one day you will both be able to see each other again. Keep your head held high.
@@ajisai3160 I lost my love and best friend to suicide 3 yrs ago when I first heard this song in my mind it became a bout me n him , w were 2wks away from our 45th
It's July 2024, almost an hour before it becomes the 4th and I never thought this song would apply to me until now. A few days ago I see a gofundme posted about an old friend of mine, we were close in middle school and had a few interactions in high school because she took middle college. I find out she was to pass away due to medical complications. I don't know how to grieve. I suppressed what I felt and would forget a little while but then I remember and it hits me more and more. I lay as I think about how awful it feels. She was my friend who loved to read and had wonderful ideas when she wrote, she listened to me and loved when I drew my favorite character at the time, she had a lovely laugh and smile. I remember checking if she had a peanut allergy (she didn't) so I could make her peanut butter and choco chip cookies for being my friend. We shared classes together and would miss her time to time where my friend and I would think about her and wish we could get in touch again. I find our we can't now. She was so kind, she was so smart. It feels unfair how I live with no direction or drive in my future but she had a will, she had a dream, she had interests and hobbies and she was going somewhere, until now. She was so good compared to many people in my life but of all of them it had to be her to die. To no fault to the people around me, I feel alone in my grief. I don't know who to talk to. I find myself numbing myself to the point my brain feels like a terribly thick fog and the pain and guilt just hits so hard it feels my heart is straining. It's not fair, it isn't fair at all, despite her struggles with her own mental health she was a great person I happened to lose touch with as time went on. She was one of the first friends I've had in middle school and one of the few I would've still loved to be friends with again but I can't because she's gone. I don't believe in an afterlife, I believe when your brain shuts down forever you are dead. To me, there is no soul, but the neurons that make our brain that makes our personality that makes our memories that makes who we are. And many times, I hate this. It would be easier on my heart to believe she is in a better place, but she is gone. I know this song is old, and maybe that's why I feel fine screaming into the void like this. I'll miss you Emma. You deserved so much better.
Try not to compare your life to another’s, as much as you can. Sometimes, adrift is what is meant for us. If not, you’ll find your way. Know that your friendship was such a valuable thing, I’m sure. Don’t lose this compassion. Don’t let the world take it from you.
thanks for your comment, honestly your friend reminds me of myself and its good to realize your friends would miss you a lot and everything you do. thank you
I lost my mom today. She and I weren't on great terms, and never got along, but the pain is still so severe. I wish I didn't hurt knowing she is gone, since all she ever did was bring me down and make me cry when we lived under the same roof. Despite all of the strain for our relationship, I think there was still some love buried underneath all of the negative things. Please tell your loved ones you love them while you still can and before you regret it.
My 18 year old beautiful daughter said to me a few weeks ago... 'dad... If I die I want this song to be played...'... I'm sure she didn't notice my tears, traffic went blurry in my eyes... God... I love her SO much. Allthough she's healthy and we're blessed... This song went straight to my Core... ❤
@MBBracelets-hs9zv the shear feeling of the possibillity of losing a loved one... Especially my daughter... It's the uber father feeling that came over me and the fact that you can only protect your kids so much...
Yes I have a sister who isn't loved by my mother and always letting her be alone and thinking she always knows everything, she wants to commit suicide and its.....painful and makes me cry... I love my sister and I'll take a bullet for her and I want the best for her I just want .....her life to be perfect
I first heard this when i was 6 years old. I liked it. When i was 7, I was remembered of the beat somehow. I didn't know the name of the song anymore, though. throughout the next few years this beat has been stuck in my head. Finally, at the age of 14, almost 15, I've found you.
I can honestly say this is the first song to have ever made me cry. My mum has stage 3 breast cancer so this resonates with me very much. She doesn't talk about it with me, but lately every hug she gives me feels as if she knows it could be the last and that tells me she's probably not getting better
@@amina7013 hi, so sweet of you to ask, thank you. I'm fine, my mum is still very much fighting the cancer. She had two surgeries and went through lung metastases. It feels like it'll never end honestly. We still don't talk about her illness a lot, but I've gotten used to it by now.
I don’t want to give up yet. I haven’t fulfilled my dream. And I have friends and family who care for me. I don’t want to let anyone down. And I especially do not want to let my lord down. It’s hard though.
my dad is sick and in another country. says he needs to see me before he goes. last time i saw him cry was at the airport, when i was leaving to america with my mom. that's the last memory i have with him. now he calls and cant even describe what the doctors say to him without crying. i stopped going to school so i can work more to afford my new greencard and passport to see him. but im scared itll be too late since he keeps getting worse. i like this song, it's like a blanket to make me feel ....not alone going through this.
This music kinda punched me and said “this is how you’re dad would feel if you did it” and now I’m just like sitting here. Suicidal thoughts suck but I’m glad I’m so much better now.
"Did you get enough love, my little dove? Why do you cry? And I’m sorry I left, but it was for the best Though it never felt right My little Versailles" Those line make me cry so hard, it's remind me of my relationship with my dad. We used to be so close :\
Listening to this song made my grief come back to me in a wave that's overwhelming... A few years ago, I lost my biological sister and my stepmother, their passing tore me up so badly, that I'll possibly never get over it... My sister died from cancer, while my stepmother tragically died in a motorcycle accident... I miss them every day... 💔
So my mother died when I was 11 and dad when I was 16 . I'm 19 now. It's human nature that people tend to forget people or at least they remember not quite often as time goes by. After a long time I've cried for them this much. Music is the best way to reach out to people🖤
I'm not normally the type of person to share stuff like this with a random person I don't know. Hearing this is very similar what I've gone through. My dad passed away when I was 16 and my mom went when I was 17 nearly 18. I'm 20 now. I hope for the both of us that things will get better. I'm rooting for you the same I do for myself. ❤
It's perfectly fine to experience pain, especially when losing a mother, but time helps with how profound the pain is, the more time, the less the pain. But losing a mother is the biggest pain one will experience.
Pain lingers. But most of the time we don't feel it. Just like we don't feel the wound due to immediate numbness that follows. And it is due to this numbness we don't feel pain though pain is still there. During these period we learn valuable things like getting contented, understanding others rather than going in tandem with what people say,valuing life,aaaand getting artistic which wonderfully shapes us. So in a way lingering pain does good things.
I don't like leaving sad comments but. My cat I've had for 10 years and love like my daughter was diagnosed with cancer. A rare kind, in a really devastating place. Gripping with the fact that there may be no saving her is killing me and this song encapsulates this well. Praying I have at least another year with her. I hope I gave her enough love.
The author of this song wrote this song in grief of his mother, who died of cancer. The lines were directly taken from the conversation he had with her before passing.
i hate that after reading this i can 100% hear it in the lyrics 😢
That's so sad! 😢🫂
😢
رنج ازدست دادن عزیزان مشهوده شعر وآهنگ متاثر کننده😢😢😢
one of the reasons i love this song. Very relatable with my own mum.
We’re all gonna cry.
Beautiful number of likes
@@Bfakz lemme guess, it was at 666
@@scamingnewt3016 yep
Yes we are
I count it again n it is 667...$orr¥
imagining a mother on her deathbed asking her son "did you get enough love, my little dove?" perfectly encapsulates human compassion
i read this exactly as the lyrics played. blessed.
Couldn't agree more.
How did you just paint the most poignant image in UA-cam in a single comment
That's EXACTLY what I thought!!!
This part of lyrics was supposed to represent her words after death
"Did you get enough love, my little dove. Why do you cry?"
That hit me so hard
Same.
Fr😭
FR😭😭😭😭
I always remember this line every time I want to give up on life. I imagine one of my family members says it and it gives me strength to keep living for them.
Same
“I’m sorry I left, but it was for the best, though it never felt right”
I’m sobbing
me too
I’m sad because it will always feel right to me
My little versailles
nao nao
@@thedogsquad2451 opp
My Son (My Little HAWK) committed suicide last year in May. I loved this song before, but now I have a deeper appreciation. R.I.P. Jake. I love you forever.
I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you stay save and strong during these crazy times
@@_the_
Thank you. Truly. I know he's in the best place possible, shining down on me every single day.
💜💙
i'm so so sorry. i could never even begin to fathom what you have been through, but you must be incredibly strong.
@@tejakausik6205
I come from a lineage of (true and historical) Female Warriors.. but GOD gets all the credit. I'd be dead and gone without HIM. 💜
I can't bear to have my children die before me im truly sorry for your loss
"Did you get enough love, my little dove. Why do you cry?"
This hurts, indeed.
Becky del Monte wehh
read this as he said it
Kathryn Picklesimer same
I'm the little dove TT
MAFIA GIRL When I saw your initials “TT” I thought at first it was my daughter commenting that “she is the little dove!” Her initials are TT! This song is so moving-and my favorite verse in this verse “Did you get enough love, my little dove...”🌸💞🌸
My dad committed suicide on the 4th of july this year, and now this song relates so much to me and has a deeper meaning than before. Miss him lots.
I can't imagine the pain you must be going through. i know the pain will never completely leave, but i hope that one day you can find peace ❤
I hope your doing okay
@@galaxiesdontmix5701getting there. Thank u
July 4th was so recent I feel the pain 😔
U are special❤
Today, the 4th of July, I was supposed to end my life. That was my mission. Yesterday my friends prepare a surprise for me: a cake for me. All this party was my best friend's idea.
Now I'm sitting in the living room, dreaming about the travel we're going to start in two weeks.
Just want to listen to this song and remember how it feels so sad when I was at my lowest.
But now, I can see some light in my future. And this, this feels so relaxing.
i don’t know you, but i am extremely proud of you! you got this, you deserve to be happy
Hang in there, you got this!♥
im proud
@@saam559 Your life worth more than you reliaze. And I'm so proud of you just for being who you are, and for stand still a little bit more! You got this ❤
I am so proud of you.. so, so proud
Devastating and gorgeous.
Eat Your Kimchi
fancy meeting you here!! totally agree btw.. the whole album is gorgeous but this song really does stand out
I was about to post "terrifyingly beautiful", but you said pretty much the same thing.
Of course Simon and Martina have good taste in music ;)
@@randomactsofkindness4590 Running up that hill - Kate Bush
I'm not ashamed to admit that I literally cried reading the comments as the song played on. I'm so sorry for everyone who had to experience grief. I hope one day you will be happy again💌
Honestly same. It's 3:30am where I am and I just discovered this song, was not ready for the emotions it would throw at me while I read the comments.
Thank you God bless you.
same.
I'd like to think that will be true, thx darling.
im sobbing ilysm
my boyfriend died the 4th of July 2024..at the age of 16.
I’m praying God every night, oh how I miss and love him..
I hope it gets better for you. My boyfriend also died, on 16 Feb 2024 at the age of 17 accidentally. It's the hardest pain I've ever been through...
My boyfriend died on April 24, 2018. Only a couple people showed up to his funeral. He was 39. 😢
@@Suhani_Arora same girl same.. it was so hard and it’s still but it’s getting better day by day.. we’re so strong let’s live for them they love us, and we were the last person they love.
I'm sorry for your loss, may he rest in peace.
Marking my presence here on 4th July, 2020. This has been a horrible year. A lot of people have lost their loved ones. I hope they all rest in peace.
A lot of people also lost the business they built for generations.
Amen. Rest In Peace, to the loved ones we've lost.
🙏
@@frosteerucker4259 carpe diem ! Choose how ! Good luck !
i will make my mark as well, and your comment is lovely
When I was a teenager, I’d cry with tears. Now as an adult, there’s no tears. My body just aches, I can’t feel my legs and I shake.
*We’re all gonna die*
As a teenager but I feel this one so much.
Me
Fr
Obviously
feel well soon
This song is a conversation between Sufjan and his mother, Carrie, while she was dying in the hospital. Each stanza alternates between them.
Sufjan spoke of this time in an interview:
She had stomach cancer, and it was a quick demise. We flew to see her in the ICU before she died. She was in a lot of pain, and on a lot of drugs, but she was aware. It was so terrifying to encounter death and have to reconcile that, and express love, for someone so unfamiliar. Her death was so devastating to me because of the vacancy within me…
At that point, I was only interested in communicating my love for her, unconditionally. There was a reciprocal deep love and care for each other in that moment. It was very profound and healing.
A beautifully sad album overall. This song makes me cry though.
I went through the same thing with my mother (right down to the stomach cancer). I feel like he's in my head, so beautiful.
Amazing lyrics with so much reality & passion I can relate.
Hey, I've been trying to find the source for this, can you link it?
+Liz Bajjalieh I know your comment is a month old, but in case you're still wondering, the quote is from Sufjan's interview with Pitchfork titled "True Myth: A Conversation With Sufjan Stevens"
Omar Neira this tear my heart in half 💔
My sister showed me this song, it's so coincidental to the loss of our mother. She died on the fourth of July at 1am. My heart goes out to those who've lost their parents❤
I’m so sorry 💔
Just remember that your not the only one crying in the other side of the screen. ALL pain will end.
🥺
STOPP IM LITERALLY SOBBING
Thank you
Saying things like that means so much to the people that need to hear it
I don't know wich pain you y'all are going through right now but I hope the Jesus will renew you're strength
This makes me think about how much little me went through. She didn't deserve any of what happened. She was so confused, sad and alone. She helped everyone, but no one helped her when she needed the most.
I imagine present me singing this to old me. I wish i could've taken better care of my inner child. She deserved so much more.
She's still there, deep down. If you want to scoop her up, you can. It's in your mind, but you can tell her that. I'm sure she wants to hear it.
It's not too late, the fact that you acknowledge her presence, means she's still there
Same, kid me was so selfless that she gave all she had until there was nothing left. I wish i could shild her from all this pain, confusion. I wish i could go back.
Little me deserves an apology, It doesn't even feel like i'm talking about myself, it feels like it was another kid, another suffering kid.
thank u for this comment
3:10 "why do you cry?.."
This part always made me wanna hug someone and cry
Literally.
:(
let's hug🫂
me to!!
@@autostima8263 let's hug i need a hug right now
Everyone misses, some miss the past, some miss the future, some miss someone who will never come..
😔yes.İts true
Everyone is a overreacted term to use
I’m 14. My mom is in her fifties. I’m scared of the time that will come when she will die. I’m not prepared and I don’t think I’ll ever been prepared. I know I should be enjoying the moments with her rather than being scared of when she won’t be here so I will try. I love her so much and this song reminds me so much of her. Great work Sufjan!
You are a loving child. ❤️
This hits home. I'm 19 and my parents are closer to 60. We don't have the best relationship but songs like these make me scared of losing them even if we don't really get along. It's sad I waste so much time being scared of losing people rather than telling them how much they mean to me
@@ashanddoodles13 if you can somehow tell them. My parents are near that age too and the majority of our time together is over perhaps. so with what i have left we'll fight and hurt each other but i hope through all the turmoil they remember they were and are loved by me and the same for me
This hits very close to home I’m 14 and my adopted parents are 67 and 68 now and it’s recently dawned on me that I might not have that long left with them. I’ve already lost my biological parents and I don’t know if I could cope with loosing the people that there for me when I needed them the most
This hits hard, I'm 15 and my mom is 66 and my dad is 63
Today my grandpa passed away in the morning. When I heard the news I immediatly remembered this song.
I was listening to this while remembering all my memories with him and looking at the white snowy forest, until I realised that his birthday was exactly on the fourth of july.
He passed away alone in the hospital bed and no one got to say goodbye. I hope he didn’t feel alone though and felt our love towards him. Now he’s finally reunited with his love, my grandma.
Rest in peace George. Just know that I love you very much.
Aww im so sorry, stay strong.
I´m so sorry for your loss ;( wish you the best xx
I‘m so sorry
Same happened to my grandpa. Wish I didn't know what it feels like.
Love you bb, my grandmother, a mother to me, my guide, and my strength, passed away in November last year..
This seriously might be the saddest song I've ever heard
Henry Lansing same here
Listen to ARE YOU THERE by anathema
Also to their mother
Even sadder than this
The Trapeze Swinger wants to say hi
It is
Same
Sitting at my mom's grave...on 4th of July 2024. And I find this song.
I hope you're okay now. ❤
❤❤
Hi there. Just wanted to add few lines here. I'm from Ukraine and I was listening to this song while sitting in the basement because of bombs and rockets. I cannot express that feeling of near death, but that were surely the worst four weeks of my life. This song calmed me, when thoughts about absence of tomorrow came. This song calmed me, when the rocket fell in 200 meters near our house (our neighbors were lucky to be at another part of the house that time, so no victims from that one). It calmed me, when I left the dangerous area. And it calms me now, when I think of this whole thing continuing for 3 months already. I hate the war and people who started it. Let the sky be calm.
Stay safe, guys. Thank you, Sufjan.
UPD: as many of you asked, I'm okay, as well as my family. I'm home now, but the war still continues and we still are waking up to sounds of explosions. Had to get used to it, as well to understanding that I might not wake up next time.
God bless your soul.
Hey stay safe over there. Sending love from the US ❤️
Stay safe I send u lots of prayer all the way from Mexico 💕
I hope your safe. This world is horrible, I'm sorry you have to go through this. I wish peace in yours and your loved ones lives
Made me bawl my eyes out hope you’re ok!❤️
i'm laying in bed in the dark listening to this, in tears. my parents don't understand where i'm at in my life. they keep blaming it on my phone and little do they know my phone is my only escape. i have no motivation for anything anymore. this song upsets me so much because it makes me think of my younger and happier self. nothing could ever bring her down. she would be so disappointed in me.
same bruv
Carry on, things will change
Hang in there 🫶🫶🫶
Beautiful sound thanks for sharing, big like 🌱 😃 ❤
same tbh
My dad's funeral is tomorrow. I'm thinking of using this song. It would've been his and my mother's 41st anniversary. He was only 64 yrs old. We didn't get a chance to tell him goodbye because of hospital restrictions on visitors.
My mother passed away 3 months ago, she died 3 days after turning 52, we also didn't get a chance to say goodbye due to restrictions on visitors, I know it feels horrible, I hope you're doing somewhat alright though
My uncle passed away a bit ago, he had two sons and a wife. He was 28 at the time. My mother's twin. We weren't able to see him either because of hospital's restrictions. It was a few months before my brother was born. My uncle never got to see my brother or his kids grow up, never got to see my mum get married. He was a good man. Kindhearted. I'm so sorry for your loss, I know how it feels. I remember being left outside and bursting out into tears when told the news. I never got to say goodbye. I know they aren't my parent but I still understand how you feel, it hurts.
when my grandpa passed away we wore his shirts to his funeral. i collapsed at the ashes box, it didnt register that that was the man who raised me.
It has been hard these years, I hope you guys are alright now
my grandma passed away around a month ago. she was only 62. i’m glad other people understand my pain, i don’t think it will ever get better.
A mother’s last words, asking, “Did you feel loved?”-pure, selfless compassion in its truest form.
My boyfriend passed away a week ago, there's no song that resonates more than this masterpiece.... Thank you Sufjan..
I'm so sorry for your loss :(
you doing okay?
oh.. I'm so sorry..
Only time will heal, my girlfriend also passed away, but it was back in 2016... And I can assure you that it takes a long road with many ups and downs, but you'll heal slowly... Take care Georgie ❤️
I'm so sorry.. Hope now he is in a better place💜
Last year I lost my little sister in December to suicide, this was the song I listened to every night.
Sometimes I listen to this song and think of her.
Hey man, this takes some balls to write❤ i Hope you feel a Little bit Better now.
As an older Brother i can not even Imagine the horrors of a dead Brother/sister❤
I'm sorry and I know that doesn't take away the pain but I hope you know you're not alone. I lost a very good friend of mine. We were like twins. I loved him and his death has hit me hard. We weren't blood siblings and we weren't even friends in real life just online but still.
I can only imagine the shock and sadness I'd feel if my little sister committed suicide. Just know it's not your fault. Please don't blame yourself or feel like you should've been able to know somehow what she was going through. Just try and heal and live for her. Live so that you can make something good of your life and make her proud.
That's what's been keeping me going. I hope this helps in some way.💙
Nobody should loss someone by suicide, i am so sorry for you ❤
I'm so sorry for your loss love stay strong❤
BALLS?@@lorenzoilmagnifico2431
LYRICS :
The evil, it spread like a fever ahead
It was night when you died, my firefly
What could I have said to raise you from the dead?
Oh, could I be the sky on the Fourth of July?
"Well, you do enough talk
My little hawk, why do you cry?
Tell me, what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
Or the Fourth of July?
We’re all gonna die."
Sitting at the bed with the halo at your head
Was it all a disguise, like Junior High?
Where everything was fiction, future, and prediction
Now, where am I? My fading supply
"Did you get enough love, my little dove?
Why do you cry?
And I’m sorry I left, but it was for the best
Though it never felt right
My little Versailles."
The hospital asked should the body be cast
Before I say goodbye, my star in the sky
Such a funny thought to wrap you up in cloth
Do you find it all right, my dragonfly?
"Shall we look at the moon, my little loon?
Why do you cry?
Make the most of your life, while it is rife
While it is light
Well, you do enough talk
My little hawk, why do you cry?
Tell me, what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
Or the Fourth of July?
We’re all gonna die."
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
thank u
Thank you ❤
Thanks
o my goodness. the lyrics make the song even more beautiful
thank you 💞
Liam Payne, you brought us light and happiness when we were just kids and teenagers. You were always so kind to us, even after break time. You were the member who cared not only about your solo stans but about all Directioners and, of course, the other members as well. Almost every year, you would tell us that we would see One Direction again.
I’m sorry that life was rough on you and that you were surrounded by negative people and hate. I hope everyone who made you feel unloved experiences similar struggles, just to understand how words, especially negative ones, can have a bad influence on people's minds.
Lastly, I pray that you find peace now. If you are watching over us, I hope you have your smiling face and are singing all the time. We, your fans, are sorry we couldn’t provide you with the protection and comfort you gave us. We will never forget you. We stay strong because of you and remember you as the humble, kind, energetic, and enthusiastic person that you were. We will miss every little thing about you-your angelic voice, your laughter, and everything else.
Love you.♥♥♥
Seeing comment about liam feels so painful like we all are grieving together 💔
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I love this comment, forever 31 🕊️
My mother died on the fourth of July battling cancer. I can relate to each and every word of this song as I have infact and lived every moment of this song with her before I discovered it, I was with the till the end and the only person I ever loved selflessly in this world. I love this song but I can't listen to it without wet eyes and avoid it because it only makes me cry. I wish you rest in peace maa and I will see you on the other side. I hope I was a good child.
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I bet she is doing great on the other side, she's proud of you and when your moment comes, she'll be there waiting for you. She loves you.
im sorry for your loss
you took the words right out of my mouth.
@@animunee if you suffered the same fate, I hope you are fine.
My best friend once told me, "if i die dont cry and take pitty on me. Instead, remeber all all the things i did in my life." Today marks the 8th year since she died. This song reminded me very much of her. Thank you.
I’m so sorry for your loss 😞
omg so heart breaking
Whats this Kate BBC assage reporter from airport?
I'm just highlighting they doing all this to themselves
I'm just commenting
I’m so sorry ml I hope you’re doing okay..🫶🏽
My mom passed away from cancer in my arms three years ago. "Im not afraid of death, Im afraid of.. not being here". I miss you mom..
I hug you with in mind❤
I’m so sorry love I hope you are alright..🫶🏽
I'm here for you 💝🫂
My wife passed from cancer at 31 in march.. she said the exact same thing..
اتمنى ان تكوني بخير عزيزتي
I lost my grandma to cancer. It's been two days, and I didn't get to see her for the last time, because her death was so quick I can't even book a flight in time for her funeral.
It was a best way to go for her, as it was painless and she was aware up until going to sleep, surrounded by loved ones, and departing peacefully in the hospital.
My grandpa lost the love of his life, my father lost his mom and my mother lost a woman who became her mother, not by blood, but by the kindness of her heart. We love her so much, and feel her love still.
This song provided some kind of closure, because I know, that our last talk via videocall was this loving and peaceful, and it would have been the same in person.
I sent her live flowers for her funeral. The red roses she loved so much. She's with her sister now, and they are finally at peace, together.
I miss you so much, Alya.
im so sorry, i also lost my grandma to lung cancer 2 years ago, its so scary how cancer is. im glad she had her loved ones near and i hope your doing okay. love ya
For the person reading this, healing takes time. I love you. You're so worth it. You're amazing. You're the best person in the world.
thx, I heard this song while crying hard. Hope we get better life.
Thank you
We will : )@@31G-xr8ed
Thanks
I appreciate you so much! Was crying to this at 1am 🫶🏼
"did you get enough love, my little dove?" this line always makes me think of my mother and her last words to me before she passed away when i was 5, its currently almost been a decade since she passed and i still continuously wish she was here still just so she could see me and how far ive come in my lifetime and see me graduate high school
I feel ur pain it makes me sad that my mom will never be beside me on very important stuff in my life like graduation for high school. 😪
We’re all proud of you guys ❤️
i hope you do well and i wish you the best in life and good luck with whatever comes your way, your mom is very proud of you
I am proud of you. Your mom is proud too, you know. ❤️ She is with you every day. She can see you, she can feel you. 🥰
She sees you. And she's proud of you. ❤️
when my mum dies im dying with her. bury me in the same casket, i love her too much to be without her
Same when my mother died , but the song was "Concerning sighting near Highland"
I really fell that
Same
we’re all gonna die..
Everytime i hear this i automaticaly cry.. it reminds me of stuff 💔
Lie down. Try not to cry. Cry a lot.
JonPlaysMusic lmao
oh my
ShadowXg0z should have known better
it's called sleep deprivation
Adventure Boy it's about the death of Sufjan Stevens mother. if you look up lyric meanings and the song it should explain the lyrics verse by verse!
“Has it ever struck you that life is all memory, except for the one present moment that goes by you so quick you hardly catch it going?”― Tennessee Williams
Profound
This is the best comment I've read in a while
My brother died in a car crash the night before the fourth of July, I was fourteen. It really hits home because this song is a different kind of sad. It sounds hollow and cold and broken rather than deeply emotional, and that's the magic of it.
i am so sorry for your loss😔🕊
Hey, I’m so sorry for your loss. I hope you’re doing alright because this was around the time! ❤️
@Green Soul!! I'm doing much better, really changes your perspective on life
My brother died in a house fire when I was 13, and I couldn't relate more to this comment.
@Green Soul!! Ah :( thank you for your kind words
Oct 16th 2024 … liam payne, paynos will always be in our heart 😢🤍
“ I’m sorry I left but it was for the best though- It never felt right..”
The world was not good or kind enough to his little heart
You've got the world crying in public places Sufjan!
Matthew Dempsey When I heard this track for the first time, I couldn't help but cry. I lost my mother several years ago to a heart attack and she was only 46. This song brought back all those feelings that I thought I was getting over.
***** I was listening at my work desk trying to keep it together!
jsandlin71 First couple of times I listened to this it brought me back to the night my grandmother died. The tone of the song perfectly matches what that night felt like.
I also cried on a tran ..
Matthew Dempsey Cried at work, had to clear my eyes and swallow the lump in my throat before I could talk to customers.
to whoever comes across this,
i just want to say that you deserve so much more than what you've been through and you are worth so much more than you could ever comprehend
Stop omg I'm tearing up rn😭
Wow..I really needed to hear this, I hope you're doing great and you too, are worth absolutely everything ❤ thank you.
This actually made me cry, after a horrible relationship this moved something inside me, thank you so much❤️
That made me cry :(
@@zuzanna..j_ Thank you 😭🥺this made my day🥺😭🥺😭🤧🤧
100 reasons to keep going in life:
1. to make your parents proud
2. to conquer your fears
3. to see your family again
4. to see your favourite artist live
5. to listen to music again
6. to experience a new culture
7. to make new friends
8. to inspire
9. to have your own children
10. to adopt your own pet
11. to make yourself proud
12. to meet your idols
13. to laugh until you cry
14. to feel tears of happiness
15. to eat your favorite food
16. to see your siblings grow
17. to pass school
18. to get tattoo
19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
20. to meet your internet friends
21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve
22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
24. to see untouched snow in the morning
25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
26. to see stars light up the sky
27. to read a book that changes your life
28. to see the flowers in the spring
29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
30. to travel abroad
31. to learn a new language
32. to learn to draw
33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
34. Puppy kisses.
35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek).
36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
37. Trampolines.
38. Ice cream.
39. Stargazing.
40. Cloud watching.
41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets.
42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
43. “I saw this and thought of you."
44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
45. The relief you feel after crying.
46. Sunshine.
47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
48. Your future wedding.
49. Your favorite candy bar.
50. New clothes.
51. Witty puns.
52. Really good bread.
53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
56. The smell before and after it rains
57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
60. Trying out new recipes.
61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
64.Breakfast in bed.
65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater.
66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
67. Pray (if you are religious)
68. Forgiveness.
69. Water balloon fights.
70. New books by your favorite authors.
71. Fireflies.
72. Birthdays.
73. Realizing that someone loves you.
74. Spending the day with someone you
75. Opportunity to create meaningful and lasting relationships.
76. Potential to learn, grow, and evolve as a person.
77. Joy and happiness in the little things.
78. The power to inspire others.
79. The ability to create art, music, and other forms of self-expression.
80. To explore different cultures, traditions, and ways of life.
81. To make a positive impact on the environment and help protect the planet.
82. Experience the joys of parenthood and raise a family.
83. Learn new things and develop new skills.
84. Create a legacy that will outlive you.
85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
86. Cuddles
87. Holding hands.
88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
89. Singing off key with your best friends.
90. Road trips.
91. Spontaneous adventures.
92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
94. Thunderstorms.
95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
96. The taste of your favorite food.
97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning.
98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
99. Compliments and praise.
100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realize you did it.
Thank you bro
As someone who struggles with suicidal thoughts every day I liked this comment because it's helpful to me and comforting that someone cares enough to type this all out... God bless you, and thank you
This means a lot to me, thank you ❤
❤
Es lo más bonito que he leído hace tiempo
Got the call this morning that my estranged father is in the active stage of dying. July 4, 2024. Just saw him and got to say my final goodbyes, tell him about his grandchildren that he doesn't know. Asked him to hold on long enough to see my sister, who flies in tonight. This album has always meant a lot to me, this song in particular, but today it means more than ever. Thank you, Sufjan.
im sending all of my hopes and love to you and your family ❤
damn it
death alone is nothing.
watching someone else die is terrifying.
I've said this hundreds of times but the only time I lie to someone is when I respond to a medical emergency and tell someone who is clearly terminal that he's going to be okay. There's no reason not to and there's that infinitesimal chance that it will release enough life-saving compounds to get her or him through.
Someone once said to me: "there's someone who says that having luck is to die at the right moment" now i unsderstand...
Alex price, you dont know how it is to die an unnatural death.
@@Deutschland...Geistkreist well yeah,sure.
My grandma passed away today. I prayed day and night hoping that she will be able to stay long enough to see me success in life and to meet me one last time. (I study abroad) I wanna hug her, be there for her one last time. See her smile one last time. I feel so lost right now
Hey!
I'm sorry you had to go through that.
It's okay to feel overwhelmed and cry to express your sorrow.
But, you must move on, okay?
She wouldn't be there to see you succeed but she would definitely want you to succeed. Hope you achieve it!!!.
😓💔🥺
❤😢
hey.. just know you're not alone in this, i lost my granny 4 months ago too, i know how hard it is, but it'll get better i promise, your grandma will always be proud of you, and she'll watch you succeed in the afterlife, keep going and make her proud :,) ❤
The thing I love almost more than the songs by Sufjan is his fan base. The comments section is always interesting and empathetic and emotional... Its the good side of youtube
+wooes5 Rarely do I find altercations and hatred.
+wooes5 #yeezy4preezy
+wooes5 the only arguments really I find are the ones about religion and whether he's singing about a dude and not just Jesus
True. although I'm a year late to say that... still though. That's the biggest problem because some artists are great and clean, but as soon as the gain popularity the comment section goes terrible.
wooes5 8
It's good to see I'm not alone here in Fourth of july...
You're Not alone🤝🏻🫶🏻
@@nataliekatharina. 🤞🏻
I lost my mother to cancer yesterday. this amazing album will be with me for the coming month and so many more.
+ilan yaniv Sorry to hear of your mothers passing. May she rest peacefully. And may you find peace in your own soul.
+ilan yaniv I am so sorry for your loss. xx
So sorry, for your loss. :'((
I'll keep you and your moms in my prayers big homie, she's in heaven looking after you right now, don't worry
+ilan yaniv sorry for your loss, man.
An absolutely heartbreaking song. "The hospital asked, 'Should the body be cast?'" is when I lost it. Both my parents died in 2013, six months apart and this is easily the first song I've heard since then that offered me a sort of sonic communion with their memory. Losing people you love can become so numbing, but this made me feel something true. Sufjan's voice is so haunting and beautiful. "Make the most of your life, while it is rife, while it is light" is the takeaway quote for me from this song. A real masterpiece in my opinion.
WCD87 I'm certain that my experiences pale in comparison to that, but recently I lost my dog. She had been there since before I was born and I felt lost without her. And I agree that this song reflects all loss. As I listened to this song, I imagined back when I had to walk out of the room in the veterinarian with my dog lying dead (she was 15 and very sick and we euthanised her) and the fact I felt like I was betraying her. And so I feel this song deep in my heart, where few other things can venture. Thank you for commenting this! It brought out a different part of this song for me.
My mother died around the time Sufjan Stevens - Illinois album came out and i used to listen to the album as i went to visit her. I also totally lost it when he sang " The hospital asked, 'Should the body be cast?'" . I'm sorry for loss and i know that numb feeling you mentioned . Just glad there are little things in life like this that remind me of the people we lose and allow us to smile at there memory thru the tears.
"And I'm sorry I left, but it was for the best, though it never felt right" gets me :(
+WCD87 i hear you man. i lost both of my parents in 2014, about 4 months apart. absolutely devastating. as time's gone on i've found it increasingly difficult to move on from it. i hope you don't take this the wrong way, but it's sort of a breath of fresh air to hear someone else has experienced the same hell as me. it's so hard to find people who can relate. and as sad as this song is, it's also sort of life-affirming.
+Matt and +WCD87, my deepest condolences to you both. I can't even imagine the depth of such loss. I wish you both peace and all good things.
Rest in Peace Dad, cancer is cruel and evil. You were my best friend and so full of love. Gary Allan 1961-2022.
Im so sorry for your loss❤
My dad died 3 months ago , I'm still in denial
Im so sorry for your loss 🕊
Im so fucking sorry man😢
Cancer also killed my dad I’m so sorry 🕊
My cat died yesterday. I have an indescribable pain. I always listen to this song to remember all my pets who died in my name.
Also, I remember my dead father and grandfather when I listen to this song.
💔😔
sorry for u
Yesterday. The 14th of November 2023. That's when he left. That's when cancer took him away from me. He was my best friend. He had the brightest smile and the most contagious laugh. His heart was full of love to give. He was a really smart guy. He knew so much about history. He was always able to comfort me. He was always by my side. We dreamed of the future together. But what now? He was only 18. He deserved so much better. I miss him so much. He will always be in my heart.
I’m so sorry for ur loss,ur so strong.
(I'm Russian, so I can make mistakes, sorry)
Dear friend..we all can understand you..but don't cry..I think, he looks for you from the clouds.. He didn't want to hear your tears..
This autumn I had the same story..
He was my internet-brother. But he had Deadly disease - also cancer.. 15of September, in my b-day, he Ended his life by himself..
But honey..life isn't ended.. that pain inside and you should Convert it in good memories.. I believe in you ❤
He’s still here, always. He’s your guardian angel, and you’ll be the one to keep him alive forever.
So sorry for your loss💗🕊️
He maybe be gone, but the thing hurting him is also now gone💗
14th of November 2023 was the best day of my life. I finally left my country and everything I had behind to start a totally new life. I’m sorry for your loss. Still it’s very interesting to me how we both woke up that day, feeling things that couldn’t be further apart from another. I hope that your happiest day is still ahead of you and I bet your friend is cheering you on, from wherever he is now.
My best friend Emily passed away a couple years ago, February 4th 2020. The car hydroplaned off the road, it wasn't raining but the roads were still super wet, she died instantly. A part of me is happy to know that she was never scared. She was maybe 4'11, so when the car came in on her her body was too small to handle it. She died a little over a month until her 17th birthday. Her funeral was beautiful, we had sunflowers and dragonflies and all of her favorite things. She was buried with her funkopop anime characters, stuffed animals, etc. Her body at the viewing, which was two weeks after she passed, looked absolutely beautiful. She looked like she was resting. I'll always remember our plans of moving in together, her going to college for art and me for veterinary science. I loved writing poems for her and she loved drawing pictures for me. I miss you everyday Emmy, my sunflower, my dragonfly, my little pancake. I love you, and I'll never forget our long talks, our dumb fandom interests, our cringy nicknames, I'll never forget us. Forever and always Emmy, you'll be with me forever and always.
this made me cry. you are so strong. i sincerely hope you’re doing better ❤️🩹
I’m so sorry feb 4 is my birthday and I lost one of my best friends that day
@@xannyx thank you so much!! ❤
@@bananabill2973 I'm so sorry, it's terrible to lose someone on your birthday. My grandpa passed on my birthday in 2019. It's a bittersweet feeling getting older than a loved one, especially when they pass on your birthday, but keep living for them and make them proud. ❤️
Rest In Peace Emmy ❤️
This song reminds me of my sister.
She was almost 18.
She had gone to stay with her mom for a bit but decided to come see us, she bought a plane ticket and she was coming to see us, she wasn't in a car. She was walking..she had her headphones in and she didn't look both ways.
She didn't see the speeding car.
The drunk man who hit her.
I hope she wasn't in any pain in her final moments.
She was going to have her double birthday with my sister.
Just like always
Exept this time it was her very special 18th birthday.
I remember walking downstairs seeing my parents, I could tell something was wrong so I asked them what was going on, they explained to me that she was gone, but I wasn't sad, it hadn't processed yet, all I could think about was everything she had done wrong to me.
I had just started 3rd grade and I missed 2 or 3 weeks of it.
I remember going to her funeral, my siblings and I all held hands.
I remember that they gave me a big crayon set and a huge coloring sheet to keep me occupied.
I don't think I realized at the time I was in the same room as my dead sister.
Soon we had another funeral this time with family that we know, that's when it hit me. That she was gone. I tried so hard not to cry.
I remember the black box with her ashes.
Seeing her pictures.
My parents told me the night she died they remember hearing something on my baby monitor, a voice talking to me. It confused me because I had remembered waking up and seeing a bright light, I wasn't afraid, I remember asking if I would ever see it again, and I remember it replied with something like "you'll see" I turned back around and went to bed.
The rest of the year I had gone deppressed, I slept all class, and I was allowed to bring a stuffed animal that she had left for me. A build a bear, toothless.
I still keep him close to me at night, gave him a pin that says "Angel" on it.
I'm 14 now. I lost her in 2016. I may not have been able to realize it then.
But now I cry everytime I think about her.
I love her.
Skyler.
She wanted to be an author..
She wanted to do something great.
And now I'm her honor I'm going to write a book, I'm going to be what she could never be, what she could never do.
I wish she could have known me now, now I'm not a brat..
Now I'm not just a stupid kid..
I'm 14..
I'm in highschool..
It's been almost 10 years since I lost my sister.
And I don't know If she still visits me..
I love you Skyler..I hope your proud of me..
Edit: thank you guys so much for the replies, it honestly makes my day so much better when I get one, I've never felt this much support, I know it's really not much to reply but it really means a lot to me ❤️❤️❤️
This is a lot to share and I’m proud of you. Even if I don’t know you or you don’t know me, I’m proud of you because I can relate. I’m so sorry for your loss, stay strong darling. She’ll always be with you and just know your not alone and never will be, so don’t give up and go for your dreams. I probably sound like a lot of people if they heard your story but I truly mean what I say and it comes from my heart, even if it seems strange that I’m telling this to you, a stranger. But even if I can’t feel your exact pain, I’ve been thru something similar and I know it will be hard. 💞💗
I'm sorry
I'm so sorry for your loss. May she rest in peace.
This was though to read. Really Wish you the best in your life.
Thank you for sharing. All we can do to deal with the grief is to try to live twice as much in their honor. Make every day count, hug your parents, your family, and your friends, because you never know when it’s your last day with them, or their last day with you. I’m sorry that you had to understand death so early. It took me until I was 17, when my father died, to really understand what it was to lose someone. I know sometimes it feels like you’ll never be happy again, but that feeling will pass. You’ll still miss them, but you’ll remember the hood and that will outweigh the pain. And don’t blame yourself for being a “brat,” you were just a small child, and siblings argue. She knew you loved her and she loved you back, and that’s all that matters.
If you really want to make a difference for good in this world, don’t set your sights on some fantastical goal - the biggest influence you can have on this world is in the interactions you have every day, with the people around you. Good and bad deeds echo throughout time, and multiply. A single good deed for a stranger can bring them back from the edge, and a single unkind word can push someone over the edge. Remember that every time you interact with anyone - you have no idea what they’re going through. Treat them all like they just lost someone and need a friend to help them and show them that it’s worth being a force for good in the world.
"Don't cry because its over , smile because it happened"🥀
For people who never say: I love you.
We're all gonna die...
My cousin died 2 years ago, was his death an accident, or was it a suicide, we never find out... His birthday was on the 4 of July. Each time, I cannot help myself but listen to this song whenever I think about him. He was just 19, and a thought that in his lifetime, I never ever said I love you to him... it haunts me till now. It's not like his life, his end would change, but the thought that he would be happier if he knew that I really loved him somehow makes me sad.
Luka, Did you get enough love, my little dove?
I hope now you are happy and you can feel love from people who never say I love you.
we're here for you :)
thank you
Thats crazy. Damn.. im sobbin❤
every time i hear "why do you cry" i swear i wanna cry
same :(
I start when i hear the line "Did you get enough love, my little dove" 💔
The line did you get enough love my little dove stacks the tears at 100 already. Then why do you cry just explodes it
3:14 "Make the most of your life, while it is rife, while it is light". Those are words that you all need to hear. Hold onto life
I’ll try..I’ll try my hardest
The trouble with being born, is you did not ask to be. You were thrown into life with the responsibility of learning to live, and living with an awareness that you are going to die. Your time in between is spent trying to preserve a life you never asked for, while being conscripted to positively contribute to a world that didn’t need you. But in this sea of chaos you will find that life has left you a gift “The Opportunity to Try”
@@JohnWick-kw8ge Beautifully put
Let go of what you are holding on to and wake up to freedom as soon as possible...
@@JohnWick-kw8geMy goodness, incredibly well put words of wisdom! Thanks for sharing 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼
My parents are till alive and I am very grateful for them. I started a new job at a new place. They visited me and left today. I couldn't see them off because i was at work. I left the house when they were still there in their pjs and I came back with them gone. It sucks to come home to a empty house. And its so scary doing big girl things without them being around. I hope I make them proud.
It is very depressing being alone and having to deal with everything by your own, but I just keep doing it because I am waiting to see if its going to get better
0:05 makes me feel like a light cloud
indeed
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I love this song. My cat that's on my pfp passed off to the sky two weeks ago.. I cry daily as she was my best friend and helped me through my roughest days. Always calmed me down and played with me daily. She really ment the world to me but passed due to a broken rib that pushed through her lounge..
My cat died this thursday... it is so painful but we will get through it
just know that she's still with u, and that she loved u
@@hoi-pp7ds I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you can stay strong.
My heart goes out to you. I genuinely hope you feel better.
@@helenluup5392 thank you... it getting a little better day by day
I couldn't cry because in a separate tab I was reading about instant ramen
+seafoam this comment should be framed
seafoam lol
Stinkyfinger oooooooohhhhhh shhhhiiiit!!!!!!
this comment sums up how i study
i never imagined the future would be like this
I’ve never lost someone in my family, and even when I did lose someone, I wasn’t really close to them.
Then again, I still feel a profound sadness listening to this song and reading all of your stories. I just want to say that you’re doing great. Even though there might’ve been nothing that you could’ve done, I’m proud of all of you for sharing your stories to the world.
0:45 "it was night when you died.." my friend,not long ago, was walking home one evening when a car with an illegal speed killed him without mercy. The killer said she thought she hit a trash can. He was not a trash can,he was the most kind,talented,patient person. He was human. The killer is not in jail. Rest in power buddy
🙁
Rest in peace…🕊
"I thought he was a trash can" this is literally the worst excuse I've ever heard for recklessly killing a person he should be in jail what the fuck man this makes me loose all my hope in mankind.
@@GG-fk2sy exactly! It sounds so dehumanitising,how dare you compare your innocent victim to a trash can??? She s trying to act as if she was insane so she wont go to jail..
i’m so sorry for your loss, may he rest easy and fly high ❤️🕊. also the fact that she’s not in jail is just so unfair.
It's lovely that people like Sufjan gives some people the confidence to share stories with an incredible level of intimacy. It's a beautiful way of connecting.
every time I listen to this song I cry so hard, it hits differently.
three days ago a friend of mine hung himself. I can't sleep without thinking about what he felt. what could i have done differently? it's really sad, he was only 18. he was a great boy and taught me so much. sweet, funny, good heart. in the past, i came here and saw some sad comments and I never thought it could be me living this kind of sadness. i close my eyes and I can see him alive. his details, his hands, his eyes. he didn't seem like himself in that coffin
"it was night when you died, my firefly. what could I have said to raise you from the deads?"
i'm so so sorry. if you ever need to talk to someone, i know that i'm a complete stranger, but i'm still here.
I know that feeling.. by my self and others close to me.
I’m sorry to hear that :/
I am soo sorry .....
May his soul rest in peace!
I’m so sorry for your lost and i hope he would be in a better place now.
It’s fourth of July today, thank you for this comfort song, Sufjan Stevens. 🤍
Real
Sometimes I come back to this song just to read the tributes people have written to their loved ones in the comment section.
Beautifully sorrow, aren’t they?
I wish we could all be together, it feels like a real community here.
yeah
it's mostly because noone wants to turn their lover into your worst nightmare,the one that makes you cry and doubt the choices you've made for that person
My cat died tonight. Didn't imagine it would hurt this much. He added joy to a joyless life I depressingly bear. Thanks for all the love, the warmth, and all the good times. will forever miss you baby.
So sorry for your loss💗🕊️
Thank you dear xx
@@Amberxxbbunni
Mine was poisoned by my own relatives
I'm so so sorry.
@@B4no_shyyrosss oh my God. So sorry for your loss.
Here I am, a 40-year-old man, holding my 5-year-old daughter as tears are pouring out after listening to this song.. I never cry about anything. Sufjan, you've destroyed me in 4 minutes and 38 seconds. Well done.. :O
went up to check the length of the song
Hhjcffh Ghjvh wtf don't assume that
The man should come with a health warning!
I lost my little dog yesterday. The pain is unbereable. we had to put her down because she was in a coma from a blood infection. I miss her so much. I would do anything to have her back, to hear her little barks and have her by my side when i was sleeping.
Sorry for your loss
This isn't a song, this is a storm that destroys your well-being.
Dustin Huntington Dude. Chill
Agree with my man Dustin on this one.
I too agree with Dustin
deaconz 👍
both of my parents are dying from cancer, lung and prostate
sufjan carry me away with your melancholy melodies
yeedeedee zeeghee
I hope you are okay. And life has shown you more kindness in the last four years. 💙
How are you?
Hope you're doing okay, especially during these times.
I'm sorry. I hope that your parents are doing better, and I hope that life has treated you better than before.
This song touches me dearly. When I was about 8 years old everything was nice, but one day everything changed. It was on my mother's birthday. My dad was ill that day and stayed in bed. At about 9pm I looked after him and asked him if he wanted to come down partying with us. He told me that he would rather stay in bed and Coughed while telling to go back to the others with the last words: I love you son. I then asked if I should get help bc of the coughs. He just laughed.. After being back with the others I felt very unusual. About 20 mins later we all just heard a big bang and that was it, I ran up to his room and there he was lying on the ground Fainting and not breathing. I was in panic and told the others who also ran up and starting to help him, we then called 112/911. But no chance, he died after he got Revived 2 times.
Now I'm 16 and trynna move on in life with all the got memories of him. This song made and also still makes me cry every single time I listen to it, but I like listening to this song bc it helps me remembering how it was. Thank you sufjan.
oh my god im so so sorry. i could never imagine what you've been through, but i feel like this song unites all of us. you always have a community here.
I'm sorry man, I never had a close family member die but it must be the hardest thing anyone can endure, even more for a 8 year old, I hope you're doing better
112. That means youre a dane right?
@@tejakausik6205 3yrs ago y husband of 44yrs2,wks when he sat in our beautiful back yard june7
2017 in the afternoon while our daughter,granddaughter a+age 9+ her friend our mw baby grandson and myself were all in the house when we heard the boom...it's been hard as hell but this music does something for my heart
@@donnabruce4767 honestly, i know that my words wouldn't really do anything to heal your heart. but i know that music can, and as you said yourself, music and this song has helped you get through it. sometimes, whenever i feel alone, i just listen to this song, and think about who else is listening to it too. there are people out there like me, and there are people out there who love you too. you are so incredibly strong to get to where you are today, and i know this may not mean much coming from a stranger on the internet, but i'm proud of you. i don't really know if there's a god out there, but maybe if there is, i hope they bless you.
Your songs has helped me and my family while grieve for the loss of our son John von Oehsen. He loved your music. Thank you!
"Did you get enough love, my little dove, why do you cry?"
Oh the feels...
fourth of july is the saddest song i have ever heard in my life, but it gave me comfort when i needed it the most. It will always be my go-to song whenever I feel so sad and terrified of death.
Same
Same
I love this, and Night We Met
momento mori man. we all die. momento mori
It only makes me more sad but it’s so good😭
My mother took her life June 23. A song has never made me pull my car over before this one. I don't know what else to say. Thank you.
I’m very sorry for your loss. It’s tough losing someone to suicide. I hope one day you will both be able to see each other again. Keep your head held high.
My Sunshine, first born Son committed suicide in 2019. My stepdad committed suicide in 2009. I'm incredibly sorry for your loss. 💜💙
hope you are doing okay. much love to you
@@ajisai3160 I lost my love and best friend to suicide 3 yrs ago when I first heard this song in my mind it became a bout me n him , w were 2wks away from our 45th
I'm sorry for your loss. May your mother rest in paradise. ❤
It's July 2024, almost an hour before it becomes the 4th and I never thought this song would apply to me until now.
A few days ago I see a gofundme posted about an old friend of mine, we were close in middle school and had a few interactions in high school because she took middle college. I find out she was to pass away due to medical complications.
I don't know how to grieve. I suppressed what I felt and would forget a little while but then I remember and it hits me more and more. I lay as I think about how awful it feels.
She was my friend who loved to read and had wonderful ideas when she wrote, she listened to me and loved when I drew my favorite character at the time, she had a lovely laugh and smile. I remember checking if she had a peanut allergy (she didn't) so I could make her peanut butter and choco chip cookies for being my friend. We shared classes together and would miss her time to time where my friend and I would think about her and wish we could get in touch again. I find our we can't now.
She was so kind, she was so smart. It feels unfair how I live with no direction or drive in my future but she had a will, she had a dream, she had interests and hobbies and she was going somewhere, until now. She was so good compared to many people in my life but of all of them it had to be her to die.
To no fault to the people around me, I feel alone in my grief. I don't know who to talk to. I find myself numbing myself to the point my brain feels like a terribly thick fog and the pain and guilt just hits so hard it feels my heart is straining.
It's not fair, it isn't fair at all, despite her struggles with her own mental health she was a great person I happened to lose touch with as time went on. She was one of the first friends I've had in middle school and one of the few I would've still loved to be friends with again but I can't because she's gone.
I don't believe in an afterlife, I believe when your brain shuts down forever you are dead. To me, there is no soul, but the neurons that make our brain that makes our personality that makes our memories that makes who we are. And many times, I hate this. It would be easier on my heart to believe she is in a better place, but she is gone.
I know this song is old, and maybe that's why I feel fine screaming into the void like this. I'll miss you Emma. You deserved so much better.
Im so srry that happend to you❤❤
this is truly inspiring.
Try not to compare your life to another’s, as much as you can. Sometimes, adrift is what is meant for us. If not, you’ll find your way. Know that your friendship was such a valuable thing, I’m sure. Don’t lose this compassion. Don’t let the world take it from you.
thanks for your comment, honestly your friend reminds me of myself and its good to realize your friends would miss you a lot and everything you do. thank you
I lost my mom today. She and I weren't on great terms, and never got along, but the pain is still so severe. I wish I didn't hurt knowing she is gone, since all she ever did was bring me down and make me cry when we lived under the same roof. Despite all of the strain for our relationship, I think there was still some love buried underneath all of the negative things. Please tell your loved ones you love them while you still can and before you regret it.
Im so sorry for your loss. It’ll pass too and youll get through it. Sending all my love to u.
I'm so sorry for you lost.
same even though she is
but ikr i will cry when this happens
I feel you jenny.
nu uzjauciu seni
My 18 year old beautiful daughter said to me a few weeks ago... 'dad... If I die I want this song to be played...'... I'm sure she didn't notice my tears, traffic went blurry in my eyes... God... I love her SO much. Allthough she's healthy and we're blessed... This song went straight to my Core... ❤
@MBBracelets-hs9zv the shear feeling of the possibillity of losing a loved one... Especially my daughter... It's the uber father feeling that came over me and the fact that you can only protect your kids so much...
Yes I have a sister who isn't loved by my mother and always letting her be alone and thinking she always knows everything, she wants to commit suicide and its.....painful and makes me cry... I love my sister and I'll take a bullet for her and I want the best for her I just want .....her life to be perfect
@@ichirokai5068 painfull... Keep the Faith ❤️
It is so hard to lose parents, but impossible to to imagine how terrifiyng to lose a child. I hug you
bro tried to use his english major
I love you Dan. RIP 3-16-24. Your five babies miss you.
You have all of my support
💗💗💗💗💗
I'm so sorry for your loss... No words can soothe your sadness... Can you tell me who he was to you and what happened with him?
Im so sorry 😢🕊️
❤❤❤❤❤
I first heard this when i was 6 years old. I liked it.
When i was 7, I was remembered of the beat somehow. I didn't know the name of the song anymore, though.
throughout the next few years this beat has been stuck in my head.
Finally, at the age of 14, almost 15, I've found you.
I can honestly say this is the first song to have ever made me cry. My mum has stage 3 breast cancer so this resonates with me very much. She doesn't talk about it with me, but lately every hug she gives me feels as if she knows it could be the last and that tells me she's probably not getting better
Hi how are you right now?
@@amina7013 hi, so sweet of you to ask, thank you. I'm fine, my mum is still very much fighting the cancer. She had two surgeries and went through lung metastases. It feels like it'll never end honestly. We still don't talk about her illness a lot, but I've gotten used to it by now.
@@isabelanegoita2300 I‘m so so sorry to hear that love. You and your mum do not deserve this. I wish I could help. I‘m sending you a lot of hugs
@@isabelanegoita2300 im praying for you and your mother, i deeply hope she can win the battle against cancer
❤️
One of my best friends caught a one way ticket to the Sun today. This song is potent medicine for my heart. Thank you for sharing.
hugs
This song helps a lot.
Reader, please never give up.
I don’t know why I should never give up
it’s hard
I don’t want to give up yet. I haven’t fulfilled my dream. And I have friends and family who care for me. I don’t want to let anyone down. And I especially do not want to let my lord down. It’s hard though.
I want to give up but I want to fulfil my dreams first.
6 weeks. I hate that the time since I saw you for the final time is only increasing.
Miss you Mum ❤
my dad is sick and in another country. says he needs to see me before he goes. last time i saw him cry was at the airport, when i was leaving to america with my mom. that's the last memory i have with him. now he calls and cant even describe what the doctors say to him without crying. i stopped going to school so i can work more to afford my new greencard and passport to see him. but im scared itll be too late since he keeps getting worse.
i like this song, it's like a blanket to make me feel ....not alone going through this.
@FRED THE THOT SLAYER im so sorry, i hope everything is better these days
hi, i hope your dad is doing better now.
Oh my, i really hope you made it a time
Did you make it?
well you should know that you aren't alone, and you never are alone.
This music kinda punched me and said “this is how you’re dad would feel if you did it” and now I’m just like sitting here. Suicidal thoughts suck but I’m glad I’m so much better now.
i hope you're doing ok❤
I'm proud of you❤
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For what it's worth I'll be thinking of you and hoping for the best for you. Stay strong, my friend.
"Did you get enough love, my little dove?
Why do you cry?
And I’m sorry I left, but it was for the best
Though it never felt right
My little Versailles"
Those line make me cry so hard, it's remind me of my relationship with my dad. We used to be so close :\
Same
I totally feel you my dad died in March.😭
Me too but I guess we'll be okay someday😭😭😭💜
Ik how that feels
Listening to this song made my grief come back to me in a wave that's overwhelming... A few years ago, I lost my biological sister and my stepmother, their passing tore me up so badly, that I'll possibly never get over it... My sister died from cancer, while my stepmother tragically died in a motorcycle accident... I miss them every day... 💔
So my mother died when I was 11 and dad when I was 16 . I'm 19 now. It's human nature that people tend to forget people or at least they remember not quite often as time goes by. After a long time I've cried for them this much. Music is the best way to reach out to people🖤
i hope you're doing well
@@ruthslattery7683 I am now. Thank you 😊
I'm not normally the type of person to share stuff like this with a random person I don't know. Hearing this is very similar what I've gone through. My dad passed away when I was 16 and my mom went when I was 17 nearly 18. I'm 20 now. I hope for the both of us that things will get better. I'm rooting for you the same I do for myself. ❤
These comments make me have faith that will get better with my grief.
You made me cry when I read your story... I'm so sorry for your lose, I hope you the best in your life...
Pain never goes away, but at some point it becomes bearable.
It's perfectly fine to experience pain, especially when losing a mother, but time helps with how profound the pain is, the more time, the less the pain. But losing a mother is the biggest pain one will experience.
at some point we fall in love with our pain.....
Pain lingers. But most of the time we don't feel it. Just like we don't feel the wound due to immediate numbness that follows. And it is due to this numbness we don't feel pain though pain is still there. During these period we learn valuable things like getting contented, understanding others rather than going in tandem with what people say,valuing life,aaaand getting artistic which wonderfully shapes us. So in a way lingering pain does good things.
Why do u cry ?
It hits u so hard feels like someone actually is speaking to u
I don't like leaving sad comments but. My cat I've had for 10 years and love like my daughter was diagnosed with cancer. A rare kind, in a really devastating place. Gripping with the fact that there may be no saving her is killing me and this song encapsulates this well. Praying I have at least another year with her. I hope I gave her enough love.
It breaks my heart reading your comment 💔