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My husband and I bought a beautiful home in the country just before Covid hit here in Canada, with the dreams to transpose it to garden spaces of our dreams. Most suddenly, unexpectedly my husband passed away three months ago and I find myself asking what am I to do without his presence and his support. I do turn to strenth of women like you to give me strength, inspiration and motivation. My journey journey without him has changed and i have to find a way to reinvent myself, but I want to continue the dream of moving forward with plans for this country home in his honour. Its challenging, and most times heartbreaking. Your Journey inspires me so. Blessings to you and all that you do.
Blessings Gina! I will pray that you find that new path. I have suffered a couple very serious changes recently. Life has let me know that her name is Change. Sometimes good, and sometimes not. It's constant flow, like water. A screaming flood, and then a peaceful stream. May you soon encounter the peaceful stream.❤
I never write comments but here is something I want to say and hope that you’ll read it, Eugenia. Your shared experience gave me the inspiration and courage to move to a house in the forest and start my own offgrid journey. A single mom with two kids. It’s been the happiest time of my life and I’ll be forever grateful to you - a stranger, who you will never know is telling you that with your work and resilience you’re changing lives. Stay bold and uplifted. It’s just a phase you’re going through.
You are beautiful and you've got the courage to do that with your kids. I did it also, not inspired in anyone, it was my dream since I was a little child (6yo). It hasn't been easy. I agree that some jobs weren't meant to be to a single woman, but I don't give up. I have been at my new home almost a year, it is a slow, very slow process but I have to be a carpenter, painter, builder... and everything we need to be a little bit comfort 😅 The country, the forest aren't for everyone, they are hard, but the peaceful that you get there... priceless.
I grew up on a near off grid farm in Oregon. People don’t understand how physical this type of life is. Start very small, then grow it, rather than trying to make acres of property quickly developed. Farming is very hard work, that’s why food is so expensive.
I just took 9 days off work to enjoy my gardens, finish home fix ups and throw a birthday party for myself. It was lovely, recharged and today I’m going back to work. Dreams are great, plans are wonderful, but in the end we have to take care of ourselves. Be smart, relax and know that we are always here for you! 😊
I can totally relate. Four years ago I moved to the land where my grandparents used to live. I have cleaned it, took down two old houses and build my strawbale house. I also started to work on another bulding to convert it into a meeting house. I have a small garden. I am interested in permaculture but did not have space to get into it. I was exhausted many times, fell to my knees many times but I am still going. And yes, life in the village is beautiful but it is also so full of everything else and so many things that I have done should not be done by a woman, especially that I went through severe neurological Lyme disease just before moving in. But life is what it is. And it is a gift and a miracle and our dreams are worth following. Much love to you sister
Hello, Hope you don't mind toi much that i'm a bit out of contexte but you mentionnés lyme.. Could you Sare with me ( ,if you know ), wich test IS repliable. and if you healed , how was it possible.. I live in France and they dont take this very seriously,I think. Again,
I hope that at some point in your journey, you'll find a lovely support community. Humans are not designed to live alone all the time, we are a tribe species. It's important to learn to ask for help, we don't have to do it all by ourselves all the time, even if we can do it. I hope you'll have all the help you need!
Eugenia, I love watching your videos. They touch my very soul, somehow. Although I never dreamed of living off the grid, planting and living off of what I plant, my life went completely in another direction. I served in the military and one of my assignments was in the Lajes Air Base, in the Azores - which to this day is among my favorite places that I have lived. I took an interest in your story, namely because of your location in Portugal, and the grit by which you and Pepe built your tiny house and your storage area - and came so far with those accommodations. The simplicity appeals to me, and being able to see and enjoy the work that one puts into their daily lives has always been very fulfilling to me. All those last words simply mean all of your efforts (put into the gardening and harvesting healthy foods to sustain you both) is not wasted on efforts with "no return". Then going even further by sharing you gardening experience and the recipes you have created yourself with us through your cook books etc, appears to me to be "life energy and time" not wasted. You can look at what you've done and been able to do so many things "with what you've done" for your benefit and for ours. I never minded hard work with my hands and my back, but truly it was because it was effort "not wasted" and something good was "created". So much of time today in a person's life (a very general statement, not meant to insult any of my fellow viewers lives...) seems to be non productive - and seems like it is time wasted. By the time we are old enough to realize that, we are too old to do much of anything that requires hard work that would result in such fulfillment. I only wish that I could be there as "moral support" for your strained emotional state - and "back support" for your exhausted physical condition. So with this note, I am determined to try and accomplish "some kind of support" that you may get from these words. I have my fingers crossed for you and Pepe! I am in awe of you both building your home and the plans and hard work it has demanded of you. I, as I am sure my fellow viewers are as well, rooting for you and Pepe and will continue to be with you in spirit and any other way we can help to see your "dreams" fulfilled. Love to you both and bless your dreams and accomplishments.
@@nicoeeek.7181 Thank you. I hope Euginia can feel the "love" like a band aid for her pains and loneliness. I never mentioned Lola in all those words I wrote the other day. I sincerely hope Lola is up and around being her "expressive" self soon. Thank you for your comment.
The beauty you share through very skilled camera work and story telling is invaluable Eugenia, even if it wasn’t ever part of your calculated return on investment. The vibration of what you two have created here reach far beyond what is possible for you to perceive. You always share just the right amount of real life woes to remind us that it isn’t all a highlight reel, while still maintaining heaps of inspiration to us all and an overall positive channel that brings joy and comfort. As a small woman I completely get the frustration of having a physical limit-but even bigger dreams! It may be time to consider a creative approach to growing some community around your channel IRL, like taking on permaculture or construction live/work volunteers :) Because working a big piece of land with only two people, and maintaining regular jobs for income, is no simple task (as you have made clear). Your channel has been my absolute favorite since you started posting, actually the first thing I really liked on UA-cam and showed another more beautiful way to use the platform. I appreciate all the work you have put in to sharing your journey. Wishing you 4 all the very best and look forward to your return if and when you choose ❤
It's so brave of you to make this video. I have also been going through a similar journey and I also resonate with your experience as a child. Ironically I think it is because of our childhood experiences that we are trying to get away and build a healthier and more wholesome home - because we did a lot of soul searching, and we are, dare I say, Hyper independent, which is a strength, but it also can be a big handicap, because as you mentioned, we find it hard to reach out to other people for help. It's important to see that such journeys can fail, and that I am not the only one. There isn't something wrong with me, I am just trying to do something difficult and it takes multiple attempts and different approaches, and to learn many lessons - this is my life.
You are one of the reasons I work so hard on my garden beds. I see the beautiful food that you make and all the beautiful flowers. Thanks for your wonderful videos.
How far is the new house to the new garden? Could you maybe show us a Ariel view of the distance? I am so curious because the food forest is going to look incredible! ❤
Wishing full health and recovery to you and your beautiful cat . So true life isn’t always plain sailing and it’s through navigating the though times we learn about ourselves and hopefully find ways forward we maybe weren’t able to before . I love the work you two have managed to date , I’m glad you’re taking some time off for yourselves . Take care . Much love ❤
Thank you for this video! I have been struggling with these feelings as well. It isn’t easy doing physical work all the time. Telling myself to do more and to stop being lazy. Trying to do too much and being disappointed when my body can’t handle it. Starting a homestead or farm by yourself and from nothing is too much. I have been working for 3 years and still am disappointed with my progress. Thank you for saying what you did! Maybe I can allow myself to let go of some of the things and rest. I wish you all the best!
I just started my farm. I understand that I can't do it alone, so I do what I can. I am an older person and I have a full time job. Allow yourself to rest.
This honestly just shook me emotionally. I just found your channel recently and I must say that it has been life altering for me. You are a beautiful woman inside and out. You hold MANY of the same dreams as I. Your grace and persistence really encouraged me. I understand completely that putting your self first is the most important part of all this. I pray that through all of this you realize how impactful you have been for so many people. You have changed lives and perspectives and many look up to you. It is heartbreaking to think we will not get to see you. Your honesty is beautiful. We all struggle and certainly at times we all go through anxiety and depression. Some struggle more than others. I will pray for you and your family (including your fur babies). You are loved and will be missed. Thank you for sharing your life ❤️❤️❤️
Bought 12 acres in southern Vermont before Covid hit. I’m 63 now. Been on the land three years in a temporary shelter/cabin while building house with my husband who is a builder/carpenter. I am a baker two days a week. The rest of my time I’m in the garden. This place was all woods and trees. It’s been like this for 3 years now. I am fortunate to have two women up the road that I connect with on a regular basis and they are also trying to do the same thing and grow most of their own food and self sustain. Winters are hard on my social personality as it snows heavy up here and I sometimes feel like I’m on the moon. I miss cars and I miss hearing children play and waving to people who are walking by. I couldn’t and wouldn’t want to live up here in this silence by myself. Thank you for your video it is true there are really good times where I can’t believe how happy I am and there are times of such desolation that I really want to get in the car and drive away, but I think these motions of life happen everywhere I think it’s very important to say that. I think the one thing I learned from being in silence is enjoying my own company that when the birds are around the computer is off, there’s no noise at all and my hands are in the Earth is when I feel the most complete, so I think there is somethingthat we lost in the industrialization of so many of our needs. I’d like to say the happiest moments are succeeding with the use of very little making things work with what you have I think that’s very rewarding. I think that challenge is where I find the most reward
What beautiful heartfelt words that especially for me and many many women hear so deep. Wow! We survive and are soooo strong but takes great self reflection and honesty to get to a place of healing and time for your self. I'm so proud of you that you are doing this at your young age. I say this because i feel your words are the thread of my life going going going, work work work at my age of 64. And just now this year I left my job to choose another path. My path...with no judgement ...releasing 'The Dream State" of my life to live in truly the present of my feelings. It's almost like going back to being a little girl when I felt so free and easy and happy for the day. So to you Eugenia I say...God Bless your time. Nurture yourself and Pepe and your animals. But most of all give yourself time to just be YOU. YOU TIME! xo with love, Madelyn
What a beautiful message for this wonderful video, Eugenia! Those of us that have gone through life-altering challenges in life and came out stronger because of them, we certainly understand your message loud and clear. For me, it was late-stage 3 cancer. And for those of us who are now stronger, we face new challenges, one of them being to tolerate the weakness of others and hope they can hear the messages we're sending to them, although I'm not convinced they do so much, not to the same depths as we understand. It's like you have to actually experience the tough times in order to become tougher. For that, I'm truly thankful. My heart goes out to Lolita because animals can't understand. They truly are victims when bad things happen to them. She's in the best of hands and because of it will come through beautifully. 🙏Prayers for Lolita.🙏
Wow! I remember finding your videos when your just started and admired your drive and I STILL do! You will achieve in anything, even if you feel like you failed, you inspired so many!
No questions just a big thank you ... thank you for sharing this vulnerable video ... I needed these beautiful words today as I am in a similar situation. So much love to you and your family 🥰
Thank you for sharing more vulnerability. I hope you all are able to get restoration and healing. I would love to know who makes the linen dress in the beginning of your video?
Sending brilliant light for healing for Lolita, your little fur Goddess. I love her onesie! I might be behind what is currently happening so I am hoping all is healing for her, and for your body and soul and heart Eugenia. You have such courage. I love how your are continuing to evolve and allowing the land to be a guide and talisman for your beautiful journey. Deep gratitude for all you and Pepe do. And your fur babes
You were/are my Wonder Woman/Hero… I to am following my dream… It is sort of a different dream then yours…however… Your sharing your life with me/us…has been instrumental in making the following of my dream so much more “easy” and palatable… You lived your challenged dream with such beauty, love, eloquence and tenacity, it helped me to inspire the same for me….AND….for this… I want to thank you from the bottom to the top of my heart…THANK YOU…. Also…thank you for recording your journey….as I will refer back to your UA-cam postings when I need to lean on your story for support… My prayers and intentions go with and to you where ever you are/go…. You are a Wonder Woman and a diamond… Be good to you and all of your beloveds….know you are loved… Spiritdancing….🥰🥰💞💞😇😇💯💯
Obrigada, Eugenia. Pela primeira vez, encontrei uma mulher no meu país a passar pelas mesmas dificuldades, capaz de entender a solidão que é tentar criar e manter uma quinta, especialmente, quando os outros têm uma visão romantizada do que fazemos e muitos até acham que não fazemos nada porque na natureza não há uma máquina de picar o ponto (quero dizer: não há horários fixos de trabalho, já que tudo depende principalmente do clima). Eu não escolhi viver Off the Grid, tirei um curso superior e todos esperavam que eu encaixasse no sistema. Eu apenas olhei para o que os meus avós me deixaram e achei que deveria tentar manter e valorizar o que tenho. Infelizmente, sem ajuda, até para desabafar as dificuldades, os desencantos e a falta de saúde à conta de tanto esforço físico, é muito difícil. Força, Eugenia. Não estás sozinha!
I wish you peace during this time and sending you big hugs for strength and contentment. I would love to know more about your journey leading up to buy ing your land and settling where you are... What really led you to want to live in the country the way you do. xo Much healing love to you all.
Thank you for sharing your struggles. We must always try to keep a good balance of work and rest. If we don't then we can burnout. May God bless you in your work and in all you do.
Hola Eugenia! He visto muchos de tus vídeos y cada vez me sacan una lágrima emoción. Gracias por compartir parte de tu historia, de corazón. Se lo que es sufrir en silencio, sé compasiva contigo misma
Thank you so much for your honesty and vulnerability! It's been a pleasure watching your journey over the years. In terms of questions, I'm wondering given what you now know about the process of building your own home and becoming self-sufficient is there anything you would do differently or plan to change/do differently moving forward? Also, given the demands of your garden(s) and home build, how will you make sure to put yourself and your care first so that you don't burn out? I find your journey so inspiring and am grateful for your willingness to share. Wishing you all great health and a speedy recovery! ❤
I feel so much with you. I also nearly went into a "Garden Burnout" trying to be self sufficient. One day I realized, this is no one woman show. This could only work with a supporting team which I did not really have. So I woke up to reality and downsized the project a lot. Now I am happy because in the meanwhile I found out that a lot of my unique talents do not lie in gardening, but it was hard and tearful to bury this dream of being selfsufficient. All the best to you and take care! Love, Christina from Austria
So sharing the struggles is totally okay and even encouraged. If anything you may have mislead others into the same dream. Also it seems like you didn't do your research about the land before moving there. Finally, this kind of project needs to be done in community. There are many things that went wrong that could have been prevented with some basic research.
Thank you for letting me into your journey. I hope you and your cat get feeling better and heal. It's been fun watching what you both have created and it doesn't look easy. Blessing and hugs from Michigan.
Been there, done thst, am done with it. That said, it taught me many things that carry me through living a more conventionsl life. These include making an effort on a daily basis to luve consciously and conscientiously, frugally, not wastefully, work hard but stop to smell the roses. Be grateful and aporeviative for everything. Incorporate God into your life. Treat lufe as a blessing and privilege. Dontvtake anything for granted.
it's amazing how you transformed your land. Beautiful garden. Iam so sorry about your kitty, I hope shes well soon. When Iam overwhelm and need rest , I also pray.. Blessings to you ❤
This is the first honest account of off grid living that I have seen. Thank you. And thank you also for talking about the challenges of just not having the anatomy of a contractor and not being able to do things that need to be done because of this. It is never addressed ! Either is the plight of the animals in care. I hope that your Lolita gets better and you have many many happy days together.
Eugenia I am so sorry about Lolita. 😢 she is such a beautiful cat. I completely understand you needing to take some time off. Both you and Pepe make things look so easy. You actually inspired me to want to leave the USA and move to Portugal. I know it’s a lot of hard work you guys are going through and I can’t wait to see the final product of your new home and food forest. Well I hope you don’t give up on the food forest and new home after all you have done so far. I love seeing your videos they truly inspire me. But your family comes first. I hope to see you continue to create great content. I hope you don’t stop forever and we see you back again soon. I would love it if you could do a series on your journey to move to Portugal and the process of searching for the land and how it is to buy land and the process in Portugal if possible. I send love to you and Pepe. Aspen and Lolita. I am praying for her.
Gosh i wish you had shared this need for help sooner. Community is so important. Im so sorry you are going through this alone. Putting thia out there i pray you will connect with the right people who want to and can help. I wish i had the financial means to drop what im doing and volunteer to help you. Your vision and dream is so similar to the one i had and have still. It will happen. Im glad you are not ignoring your mental and physical needs. All my love.
Your very brave post helps me to remember what is important. We must share about our struggles, too. It connects us to our shared humanity, of what it means to be really human.
Thank you for the video. Ur voice is very catchy and calm. Im also on the way to move to forest and being selfsustainable. I bought a land, forest, but im afraid of being alone there...
I really love your videos and I'm looking forward to each new one! Can you tell me, if your workshop works well for you as a greenhouse? Which panels did you use and is there enough light inside for the seedlings? Get well soon and my best wishes for Lolita!❤
Gracias por tu sinceridad en este vídeo. Constantemente vemos videos de vidas perfectas en el campo sin mostrar lo duro que es llegar hasta ahí. Felicidades!
Dearest Eugenia, You are braver than you know, stronger than you think and more loved than you will ever know ❤…… thank you for sharing your journey. Life is not easy but we all do the best we know how. Just know one thing……..YOU ARE ENOUGH! Sending you all lots of love and light and a special healing for little Lolita 🐱 big arms around you , Francesca xxx ❤❤💐💐
Glad to see a real story. There is a myth that country side self sufficient living is some sort of luxury. It is, in a sense, but not the way most people think it is. People don't seem to understand the magnitude of the challenges involved. It's certainly not for everyone. Particularly older, smaller humans who are emotionally immature(it is very physically/emotionally challenging). Thanks for showing us a window into the challenges involved
I'm looling but not finding anywhere where I insulted others or put other people down. I'm only seeing where I present an unpopular opinion, which appears to have triggered you, quite strongly.
Eugenia, your videos are always a happy moment on my Sunday evenings. Seeing all the hard work that you and Pepe are putting into making your dreams come true, it's inspiring! But hard work also requires hard resting sometimes, and that is so easily forgotten about. So, take your time to get well and come back when you feel it's time. We'll be here, as always. I hope Lolita gets better soon! I'm sending you love from Brazil
Eres tan trabajadora y constante que te admiro muchísimo. Te mereces un descanso. Nosotros vivimos cerca de Castelo Branco. Aqui empezamos una pequeña red de apoyo mutuo porque hacer este sueño realidad sin ayuda es muy duro. hacemos días de trabajo comunitario en cada quinta cada semana. Ahora que llega el calor tórrido tendremos que parar y pasar los días en la playa fluvial de Castelo novo. Podríais venir algún dia! Estoy aprendiendo a hacer cestas de esparto y creo que me voy a pasar el verano trenzando a la sombra y tomando gazpacho 😅. Espero que Lolita se recupere pronto y que tu te encuentres pronto mejor. Te mando un abrazo enorme, eres una gran inspiración ❤
Showing us the dedicated, relentless, lonely, exhausting daily work your pour into your beautiful home as you remind us that dreams sometimes push us past healthy boundaries was a brilliant way to illustrate your point. Blessings on your restorative healing and wishing you rest and renewal and much love.
That’s why they’re called dreams and not reality. Everything is possible in a dream and we put a gauzy veil over the possible problems in order to proceed, but eventually reality makes itself known.
I was think that maybe you can find a community in your town, through a church or something similar❤ Having people in your life and a support system would make your life better. I’ll pray for you and your health❤ Go find your people who probably need you as much as you need them. Good luck, you’re wonderful❤
The most beautiful things in life are not things. They are moments of joy, love, and connection with the people around us. The beauty of nature, the kindness of strangers, and the feeling of achieving a personal goal are also some of the most beautiful things in life. Just keep going Eugenia.... No one can stop you hugs🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
My parents chose this life in the 80's. They purchased a fixer upper in Italy. I can't say it was a success. It destroyed their marriage and was extremely hard on my siblings and myself growing up. It's true wat doesn't kill us makes us stronger, and the upside is that I grew up in beautiful Tuscany. That said I still entertain romantic notions of this life style...but would only do it if I had money to spare! All the best ❤
EUGENIA desejo as melhoras. Do vosso cansaço e as melhoras da Lolita . vocês merecem .muito vosso trabalho é devido ao grande esforço e luta parabéns ❤❤
Ihave been feeling this also. You spoke it very well. i noticed dreams and aspirations are good, but nothing is good without living a life completely surrendered to Christ Jesus
Its funny. I grew up on a farm and never had the dream of going ”off grid”, wonder why.. 😅 But I do admire those who try to keep that dream. For sure it brings alot of work and hardship.
Eugenia thanks for speaking your truth. Life happens! And when we choose to pretend that it doesn’t and that everything is okay, which happens far too often it can have a long lasting impact on our health and wellness. You are a brave soul and it speaks volumes to your character and who you are. While Social Media can be a good thing it can also be a bad thing that can leave permanent scars. Your mental and physical health are far too important. So take all the time you need and recover. I am praying for you as well as your husband because in all that you go through he does as well. May God bless you both and may He bring health and wellness 🙏🏾🙌🏾❤️
You are so admirable. I got sad learning you are moving on from this journey. But I’m glad I found your channel. Looking forward to the great things to come!
@@Gracious777 Yes, I see and agree about this. Yet, somehow the way of expression is strange (I felt this before with other videos too) as if it would give the impression of living alone...Maybe it is just about setting boundaries in content creation...Anyway I hope all good...
@@laladata8257 He did NOT. Her video #60 “I Left Portugal”. is of her & Pepe vacation Pyrenees border of Spain/France.u know then they plan to take time OFF. Rest,relax,wine,ski, dine. Best wishes to Eugenia & Pepe ❤️
With my two daughters, we wait each videos with impatiens. We choose some herbs in the garden to prepair an herbal tea and drink during waching. Each time it's a real pleasure to watch your "dream life". But we know nothing it's perfect and sometimes it will be difficult. Well done for everything, and good chance for Lolita ! Indiya (13 years old) ask to you: Do you think about to have children or in this life it is impossible? I was really a marvelous life! Augustine (11 years old) ask to you: Do you miss something to live in a tiny house or it's enough ?
Thanks for sharing this very personal message. I think many of us push ourselves and ignore our bodies pleas to stop and rest. Please take as much time needed...we will always be here.
Thank you for sharing the truth, that is hard to homestead. Lot of videos out there show the pretty but never talk about the actual struggles.❤ take the time you need and do you bo! Will keep you in my prayers and I will be here when u get back.
I think the biggest issue for this project is how alone you are! A project like this wants community and support so tasks and work can be dispersed and enjoyed with others
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Very valuable content Eugenia. Contructive, responsible and realistic. Thank you!
My husband and I bought a beautiful home in the country just before Covid hit here in Canada, with the dreams to transpose it to garden spaces of our dreams. Most suddenly, unexpectedly my husband passed away three months ago and I find myself asking what am I to do without his presence and his support. I do turn to strenth of women like you to give me strength, inspiration and motivation. My journey journey without him has changed and i have to find a way to reinvent myself, but I want to continue the dream of moving forward with plans for this country home in his honour. Its challenging, and most times heartbreaking. Your Journey inspires me so. Blessings to you and all that you do.
Sending you lots of love
Oh I’m so sorry, that definitely changes things. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
So sorry for your loss... 🙏🏻
Sorry for your loss.🙏💐
Blessings Gina! I will pray that you find that new path. I have suffered a couple very serious changes recently. Life has let me know that her name is Change. Sometimes good, and sometimes not. It's constant flow, like water. A screaming flood, and then a peaceful stream. May you soon encounter the peaceful stream.❤
I never write comments but here is something I want to say and hope that you’ll read it, Eugenia. Your shared experience gave me the inspiration and courage to move to a house in the forest and start my own offgrid journey. A single mom with two kids. It’s been the happiest time of my life and I’ll be forever grateful to you - a stranger, who you will never know is telling you that with your work and resilience you’re changing lives. Stay bold and uplifted. It’s just a phase you’re going through.
Your words are very inspiring ❤ thank you for sharing. All of us with our actions can change someone’s life.
You are beautiful and you've got the courage to do that with your kids. I did it also, not inspired in anyone, it was my dream since I was a little child (6yo).
It hasn't been easy. I agree that some jobs weren't meant to be to a single woman, but I don't give up. I have been at my new home almost a year, it is a slow, very slow process but I have to be a carpenter, painter, builder... and everything we need to be a little bit comfort 😅
The country, the forest aren't for everyone, they are hard, but the peaceful that you get there... priceless.
I grew up on a near off grid farm in Oregon. People don’t understand how physical this type of life is. Start very small, then grow it, rather than trying to make acres of property quickly developed. Farming is very hard work, that’s why food is so expensive.
I just took 9 days off work to enjoy my gardens, finish home fix ups and throw a birthday party for myself. It was lovely, recharged and today I’m going back to work. Dreams are great, plans are wonderful, but in the end we have to take care of ourselves. Be smart, relax and know that we are always here for you! 😊
I can totally relate. Four years ago I moved to the land where my grandparents used to live. I have cleaned it, took down two old houses and build my strawbale house. I also started to work on another bulding to convert it into a meeting house. I have a small garden. I am interested in permaculture but did not have space to get into it. I was exhausted many times, fell to my knees many times but I am still going. And yes, life in the village is beautiful but it is also so full of everything else and so many things that I have done should not be done by a woman, especially that I went through severe neurological Lyme disease just before moving in. But life is what it is. And it is a gift and a miracle and our dreams are worth following. Much love to you sister
Hello, Hope you don't mind toi much that i'm a bit out of contexte but you mentionnés lyme..
Could you Sare with me ( ,if you know ), wich test IS repliable.
and if you healed , how was it possible..
I live in France and they dont take this very seriously,I think.
Again,
I hope that at some point in your journey, you'll find a lovely support community. Humans are not designed to live alone all the time, we are a tribe species. It's important to learn to ask for help, we don't have to do it all by ourselves all the time, even if we can do it. I hope you'll have all the help you need!
Absolutely 💯 ❤❤❤ so critical, we all realize this!! We need each other. We are communal beings ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉
My partner and I love the design you show - it’s a mix of off the grid and mixed with beautiful scenery. Thank you for your stories!
Eugenia, I love watching your videos. They touch my very soul, somehow. Although I never dreamed of living off the grid, planting and living off of what I plant, my life went completely in another direction. I served in the military and one of my assignments was in the Lajes Air Base, in the Azores - which to this day is among my favorite places that I have lived. I took an interest in your story, namely because of your location in Portugal, and the grit by which you and Pepe built your tiny house and your storage area - and came so far with those accommodations. The simplicity appeals to me, and being able to see and enjoy the work that one puts into their daily lives has always been very fulfilling to me. All those last words simply mean all of your efforts (put into the gardening and harvesting healthy foods to sustain you both) is not wasted on efforts with "no return". Then going even further by sharing you gardening experience and the recipes you have created yourself with us through your cook books etc, appears to me to be "life energy and time" not wasted. You can look at what you've done and been able to do so many things "with what you've done" for your benefit and for ours. I never minded hard work with my hands and my back, but truly it was because it was effort "not wasted" and something good was "created". So much of time today in a person's life (a very general statement, not meant to insult any of my fellow viewers lives...) seems to be non productive - and seems like it is time wasted. By the time we are old enough to realize that, we are too old to do much of anything that requires hard work that would result in such fulfillment. I only wish that I could be there as "moral support" for your strained emotional state - and "back support" for your exhausted physical condition. So with this note, I am determined to try and accomplish "some kind of support" that you may get from these words. I have my fingers crossed for you and Pepe! I am in awe of you both building your home and the plans and hard work it has demanded of you. I, as I am sure my fellow viewers are as well, rooting for you and Pepe and will continue to be with you in spirit and any other way we can help to see your "dreams" fulfilled. Love to you both and bless your dreams and accomplishments.
What a gorgeous, spot on comment!
@@nicoeeek.7181 Thank you. I hope Euginia can feel the "love" like a band aid for her pains and loneliness. I never mentioned Lola in all those words I wrote the other day. I sincerely hope Lola is up and around being her "expressive" self soon. Thank you for your comment.
The beauty you share through very skilled camera work and story telling is invaluable Eugenia, even if it wasn’t ever part of your calculated return on investment. The vibration of what you two have created here reach far beyond what is possible for you to perceive. You always share just the right amount of real life woes to remind us that it isn’t all a highlight reel, while still maintaining heaps of inspiration to us all and an overall positive channel that brings joy and comfort. As a small woman I completely get the frustration of having a physical limit-but even bigger dreams! It may be time to consider a creative approach to growing some community around your channel IRL, like taking on permaculture or construction live/work volunteers :) Because working a big piece of land with only two people, and maintaining regular jobs for income, is no simple task (as you have made clear). Your channel has been my absolute favorite since you started posting, actually the first thing I really liked on UA-cam and showed another more beautiful way to use the platform. I appreciate all the work you have put in to sharing your journey. Wishing you 4 all the very best and look forward to your return if and when you choose ❤
Well said!
It's so brave of you to make this video. I have also been going through a similar journey and I also resonate with your experience as a child. Ironically I think it is because of our childhood experiences that we are trying to get away and build a healthier and more wholesome home - because we did a lot of soul searching, and we are, dare I say, Hyper independent, which is a strength, but it also can be a big handicap, because as you mentioned, we find it hard to reach out to other people for help. It's important to see that such journeys can fail, and that I am not the only one. There isn't something wrong with me, I am just trying to do something difficult and it takes multiple attempts and different approaches, and to learn many lessons - this is my life.
Thank you
You are one of the reasons I work so hard on my garden beds. I see the beautiful food that you make and all the beautiful flowers. Thanks for your wonderful videos.
How far is the new house to the new garden? Could you maybe show us a Ariel view of the distance? I am so curious because the food forest is going to look incredible! ❤
Wishing full health and recovery to you and your beautiful cat . So true life isn’t always plain sailing and it’s through navigating the though times we learn about ourselves and hopefully find ways forward we maybe weren’t able to before . I love the work you two have managed to date , I’m glad you’re taking some time off for yourselves . Take care . Much love ❤
Thank you for sharing such a thoughtful and insightful story.. Very best wishes for you and Lolita!
Thank you for this video! I have been struggling with these feelings as well. It isn’t easy doing physical work all the time. Telling myself to do more and to stop being lazy. Trying to do too much and being disappointed when my body can’t handle it. Starting a homestead or farm by yourself and from nothing is too much. I have been working for 3 years and still am disappointed with my progress. Thank you for saying what you did! Maybe I can allow myself to let go of some of the things and rest. I wish you all the best!
I just started my farm. I understand that I can't do it alone, so I do what I can. I am an older person and I have a full time job. Allow yourself to rest.
This honestly just shook me emotionally. I just found your channel recently and I must say that it has been life altering for me. You are a beautiful woman inside and out. You hold MANY of the same dreams as I. Your grace and persistence really encouraged me. I understand completely that putting your self first is the most important part of all this. I pray that through all of this you realize how impactful you have been for so many people. You have changed lives and perspectives and many look up to you. It is heartbreaking to think we will not get to see you. Your honesty is beautiful. We all struggle and certainly at times we all go through anxiety and depression. Some struggle more than others. I will pray for you and your family (including your fur babies). You are loved and will be missed. Thank you for sharing your life ❤️❤️❤️
Bought 12 acres in southern Vermont before Covid hit. I’m 63 now. Been on the land three years in a temporary shelter/cabin while building house with my husband who is a builder/carpenter. I am a baker two days a week. The rest of my time I’m in the garden. This place was all woods and trees. It’s been like this for 3 years now. I am fortunate to have two women up the road that I connect with on a regular basis and they are also trying to do the same thing and grow most of their own food and self sustain. Winters are hard on my social personality as it snows heavy up here and I sometimes feel like I’m on the moon. I miss cars and I miss hearing children play and waving to people who are walking by. I couldn’t and wouldn’t want to live up here in this silence by myself. Thank you for your video it is true there are really good times where I can’t believe how happy I am and there are times of such desolation that I really want to get in the car and drive away, but I think these motions of life happen everywhere I think it’s very important to say that. I think the one thing I learned from being in silence is enjoying my own company that when the birds are around the computer is off, there’s no noise at all and my hands are in the Earth is when I feel the most complete, so I think there is somethingthat we lost in the industrialization of so many of our needs. I’d like to say the happiest moments are succeeding with the use of very little making things work with what you have I think that’s very rewarding. I think that challenge is where I find the most reward
What beautiful heartfelt words that especially for me and many many women hear so deep. Wow! We survive and are soooo strong but takes great self reflection and honesty to get to a place of healing and time for your self. I'm so proud of you that you are doing this at your young age. I say this because i feel your words are the thread of my life going going going, work work work at my age of 64. And just now this year I left my job to choose another path. My path...with no judgement ...releasing 'The Dream State" of my life to live in truly the present of my feelings. It's almost like going back to being a little girl when I felt so free and easy and happy for the day. So to you Eugenia I say...God Bless your time. Nurture yourself and Pepe and your animals. But most of all give yourself time to just be YOU. YOU TIME! xo with love, Madelyn
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What a beautiful message for this wonderful video, Eugenia! Those of us that have gone through life-altering challenges in life and came out stronger because of them, we certainly understand your message loud and clear. For me, it was late-stage 3 cancer. And for those of us who are now stronger, we face new challenges, one of them being to tolerate the weakness of others and hope they can hear the messages we're sending to them, although I'm not convinced they do so much, not to the same depths as we understand. It's like you have to actually experience the tough times in order to become tougher. For that, I'm truly thankful.
My heart goes out to Lolita because animals can't understand. They truly are victims when bad things happen to them. She's in the best of hands and because of it will come through beautifully. 🙏Prayers for Lolita.🙏
Wow! I remember finding your videos when your just started and admired your drive and I STILL do! You will achieve in anything, even if you feel like you failed, you inspired so many!
No questions just a big thank you ... thank you for sharing this vulnerable video ... I needed these beautiful words today as I am in a similar situation. So much love to you and your family 🥰
Thank you for sharing more vulnerability. I hope you all are able to get restoration and healing.
I would love to know who makes the linen dress in the beginning of your video?
look online for 'long sleeve shirt dress linen' to find similar items... not sure which brand this is
Sending loving healing vibes to Lolita...
I liked the sharing of your struggles. It's a good reminder ton not compare on what we see. I hope you will rest well ❤
Sending brilliant light for healing for Lolita, your little fur Goddess. I love her onesie! I might be behind what is currently happening so I am hoping all is healing for her, and for your body and soul and heart Eugenia. You have such courage. I love how your are continuing to evolve and allowing the land to be a guide and talisman for your beautiful journey. Deep gratitude for all you and Pepe do. And your fur babes
11m 57sec, to the far-right of the screen: you can see the grid; they aren't plugged into that grid 100 ft away?
You were/are my Wonder Woman/Hero…
I to am following my dream…
It is sort of a different dream then yours…however…
Your sharing your life with me/us…has been instrumental in making the following of my dream so much more “easy” and palatable…
You lived your challenged dream with such beauty, love, eloquence and tenacity, it helped me to inspire the same for me….AND….for this…
I want to thank you from the bottom to the top of my heart…THANK YOU….
Also…thank you for recording your journey….as I will refer back to your UA-cam postings when I need to lean on your story for support…
My prayers and intentions go with and to you where ever you are/go….
You are a Wonder Woman and a diamond…
Be good to you and all of your beloveds….know you are loved…
Spiritdancing….🥰🥰💞💞😇😇💯💯
Yes. Take time to rest & heal!
Sending prayers for you and Lolita to be well soon. Blessings xx
Obrigada, Eugenia. Pela primeira vez, encontrei uma mulher no meu país a passar pelas mesmas dificuldades, capaz de entender a solidão que é tentar criar e manter uma quinta, especialmente, quando os outros têm uma visão romantizada do que fazemos e muitos até acham que não fazemos nada porque na natureza não há uma máquina de picar o ponto (quero dizer: não há horários fixos de trabalho, já que tudo depende principalmente do clima). Eu não escolhi viver Off the Grid, tirei um curso superior e todos esperavam que eu encaixasse no sistema. Eu apenas olhei para o que os meus avós me deixaram e achei que deveria tentar manter e valorizar o que tenho. Infelizmente, sem ajuda, até para desabafar as dificuldades, os desencantos e a falta de saúde à conta de tanto esforço físico, é muito difícil. Força, Eugenia. Não estás sozinha!
This is a beautiful testimony. Thank you for sharing it.
I wish you peace during this time and sending you big hugs for strength and contentment. I would love to know more about your journey leading up to buy ing your land and settling where you are... What really led you to want to live in the country the way you do. xo Much healing love to you all.
Thank you for sharing your struggles. We must always try to keep a good balance of work and rest. If we don't then we can burnout. May God bless you in your work and in all you do.
Hola Eugenia! He visto muchos de tus vídeos y cada vez me sacan una lágrima emoción. Gracias por compartir parte de tu historia, de corazón.
Se lo que es sufrir en silencio, sé compasiva contigo misma
Absolutely beautiful- thank you for sharing your experiences- enjoy your time off-
Thank you so much for your honesty and vulnerability! It's been a pleasure watching your journey over the years. In terms of questions, I'm wondering given what you now know about the process of building your own home and becoming self-sufficient is there anything you would do differently or plan to change/do differently moving forward? Also, given the demands of your garden(s) and home build, how will you make sure to put yourself and your care first so that you don't burn out?
I find your journey so inspiring and am grateful for your willingness to share. Wishing you all great health and a speedy recovery! ❤
I feel so much with you. I also nearly went into a "Garden Burnout" trying to be self sufficient. One day I realized, this is no one woman show. This could only work with a supporting team which I did not really have. So I woke up to reality and downsized the project a lot. Now I am happy because in the meanwhile I found out that a lot of my unique talents do not lie in gardening, but it was hard and tearful to bury this dream of being selfsufficient. All the best to you and take care! Love, Christina from Austria
So sharing the struggles is totally okay and even encouraged. If anything you may have mislead others into the same dream.
Also it seems like you didn't do your research about the land before moving there.
Finally, this kind of project needs to be done in community.
There are many things that went wrong that could have been prevented with some basic research.
Thank you for letting me into your journey. I hope you and your cat get feeling better and heal.
It's been fun watching what you both have created and it doesn't look easy.
Blessing and hugs from Michigan.
God bless you, you have help me to look beyond my thoughts about retirement in the country
mucha fuerza y suerte para Lolita 💛💛💛 espero que se recupere!!!!
Una maravilla seguir tu canal estos años. ¡Gracias por tu increíble trabajo y transparencia!
Been there, done thst, am done with it. That said, it taught me many things that carry me through living a more conventionsl life. These include making an effort on a daily basis to luve consciously and conscientiously, frugally, not wastefully, work hard but stop to smell the roses. Be grateful and aporeviative for everything. Incorporate God into your life. Treat lufe as a blessing and privilege. Dontvtake anything for granted.
I enjoy your progress in your garden. I also love the clothes you wear and am amazed at how you keep them so clean in the garden.
it's amazing how you transformed your land. Beautiful garden. Iam so sorry about your kitty, I hope shes well soon. When Iam overwhelm and need rest , I also pray.. Blessings to you ❤
This is the first honest account of off grid living that I have seen. Thank you. And thank you also for talking about the challenges of just not having the anatomy of a contractor and not being able to do things that need to be done because of this. It is never addressed ! Either is the plight of the animals in care. I hope that your Lolita gets better and you have many many happy days together.
Eugenia I am so sorry about Lolita. 😢 she is such a beautiful cat. I completely understand you needing to take some time off. Both you and Pepe make things look so easy. You actually inspired me to want to leave the USA and move to Portugal. I know it’s a lot of hard work you guys are going through and I can’t wait to see the final product of your new home and food forest. Well I hope you don’t give up on the food forest and new home after all you have done so far. I love seeing your videos they truly inspire me. But your family comes first. I hope to see you continue to create great content. I hope you don’t stop forever and we see you back again soon. I would love it if you could do a series on your journey to move to Portugal and the process of searching for the land and how it is to buy land and the process in Portugal if possible. I send love to you and Pepe. Aspen and Lolita. I am praying for her.
Gosh i wish you had shared this need for help sooner. Community is so important. Im so sorry you are going through this alone. Putting thia out there i pray you will connect with the right people who want to and can help. I wish i had the financial means to drop what im doing and volunteer to help you. Your vision and dream is so similar to the one i had and have still. It will happen. Im glad you are not ignoring your mental and physical needs. All my love.
Amo seus vídeos suas flores são lindas. EUGENIA PODE DIZER ONDE COMPRA SUAS SEMENTES OBRIGADA PARABÉNS PELO EXCELENTE TRABALHO. ❤❤
Salutări din Romania 🤗! Sănătate Lolitei si mai mult rimp pentru voi!
That is an amazing garden Eugenia! Thanks for sharing your experience..
Thank you for your stories and videos praying for your family and new journey. Blessings from California 💓
Your very brave post helps me to remember what is important. We must share about our struggles, too. It connects us to our shared humanity, of what it means to be really human.
What a courage to be so open and honest.
Blessings to you and your journey and thank you for sharing with us 💕 it’s been beautiful to witness!
Thank you for the video. Ur voice is very catchy and calm. Im also on the way to move to forest and being selfsustainable. I bought a land, forest, but im afraid of being alone there...
Take care of you. Thank you for being inspirational to so many❤️
Beautiful job
What are the seeds you are planting ?
Sunflower
I really love your videos and I'm looking forward to each new one!
Can you tell me, if your workshop works well for you as a greenhouse?
Which panels did you use and is there enough light inside for the seedlings?
Get well soon and my best wishes for Lolita!❤
I am glad you are practicing some radical self-care. It is important.
Your videos have become a part of my Sunday evening ….peaceful. 😊 May God bless you.
My heart is hurting and also praying for you precious pets - TYVM for the beautiful videos you share - and there is only optimism from me to you
Gracias por tu sinceridad en este vídeo. Constantemente vemos videos de vidas perfectas en el campo sin mostrar lo duro que es llegar hasta ahí. Felicidades!
You have learned life's greatest lesson. CONTINUE TO BE AMAZED! Also..where did you get that beautiful linen dress?
Dearest Eugenia, You are braver than you know, stronger than you think and more loved than you will ever know ❤…… thank you for sharing your journey. Life is not easy but we all do the best we know how. Just know one thing……..YOU ARE ENOUGH! Sending you all lots of love and light and a special healing for little Lolita 🐱 big arms around you , Francesca xxx ❤❤💐💐
Take care of yourselves! Sending a lot of love
Thanks for your story Eugenia. You re doing great job!
Glad to see a real story. There is a myth that country side self sufficient living is some sort of luxury. It is, in a sense, but not the way most people think it is.
People don't seem to understand the magnitude of the challenges involved. It's certainly not for everyone. Particularly older, smaller humans who are emotionally immature(it is very physically/emotionally challenging).
Thanks for showing us a window into the challenges involved
Why the need to put down others lol? It's not for everyone full stop. No need to insult. Lool who is the immature one here?
I'm looling but not finding anywhere where I insulted others or put other people down. I'm only seeing where I present an unpopular opinion, which appears to have triggered you, quite strongly.
Sending healing love to Lolita. She’s resilient like her humans!
Such beautiful words and imagery
Eugenia, your videos are always a happy moment on my Sunday evenings. Seeing all the hard work that you and Pepe are putting into making your dreams come true, it's inspiring!
But hard work also requires hard resting sometimes, and that is so easily forgotten about. So, take your time to get well and come back when you feel it's time. We'll be here, as always.
I hope Lolita gets better soon!
I'm sending you love from Brazil
Thanks for your so inspiring videos! How do you imagine the future, when you are much older and unable to take care of your garden?
The fastest recovery to Lolita! And courage to you, Eugenia, hard times pass and make us stronger, take care of yourself!
Get Well Soon to You and your beautiful beautiful kitty . Much Love and Healing 🙏💖💐
Eres tan trabajadora y constante que te admiro muchísimo. Te mereces un descanso. Nosotros vivimos cerca de Castelo Branco. Aqui empezamos una pequeña red de apoyo mutuo porque hacer este sueño realidad sin ayuda es muy duro. hacemos días de trabajo comunitario en cada quinta cada semana. Ahora que llega el calor tórrido tendremos que parar y pasar los días en la playa fluvial de Castelo novo. Podríais venir algún dia! Estoy aprendiendo a hacer cestas de esparto y creo que me voy a pasar el verano trenzando a la sombra y tomando gazpacho 😅. Espero que Lolita se recupere pronto y que tu te encuentres pronto mejor. Te mando un abrazo enorme, eres una gran inspiración ❤
Showing us the dedicated, relentless, lonely, exhausting daily work your pour into your beautiful home as you remind us that dreams sometimes push us past healthy boundaries was a brilliant way to illustrate your point. Blessings on your restorative healing and wishing you rest and renewal and much love.
"dreams sometimes push us past healthy boundaries" beautifully put
That’s why they’re called dreams and not reality. Everything is possible in a dream and we put a gauzy veil over the possible problems in order to proceed, but eventually reality makes itself known.
Thank you ❤ this video was so heartly
Get well an feel better soon!
I wish you all the best in your life, you deserve it. Please take care of your health and Lolita and Aspen and Pepe. I will miss you... ❤❤❤❤
Thanks for sharing! Take as much time as you need. Look after yourself.😊
I was think that maybe you can find a community in your town, through a church or something similar❤ Having people in your life and a support system would make your life better. I’ll pray for you and your health❤ Go find your people who probably need you as much as you need them. Good luck, you’re wonderful❤
Glad you're taking time off! Perhaps an annual sabbatical rhythm could be a lovely thing x Thanks for your beautiful videos ❤
The most beautiful things in life are not things. They are moments of joy, love, and connection with the people around us. The beauty of nature, the kindness of strangers, and the feeling of achieving a personal goal are also some of the most beautiful things in life. Just keep going Eugenia.... No one can stop you hugs🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
My parents chose this life in the 80's. They purchased a fixer upper in Italy. I can't say it was a success. It destroyed their marriage and was extremely hard on my siblings and myself growing up. It's true wat doesn't kill us makes us stronger, and the upside is that I grew up in beautiful Tuscany. That said I still entertain romantic notions of this life style...but would only do it if I had money to spare! All the best ❤
I have so enjoyed your story. I wish you blessings and peace. Blessed be.
EUGENIA desejo as melhoras. Do vosso cansaço e as melhoras da Lolita . vocês merecem .muito vosso trabalho é devido ao grande esforço e luta parabéns ❤❤
Beautiful transformation you are inspirational.❣❣❣
Ihave been feeling this also. You spoke it very well. i noticed dreams and aspirations are good, but nothing is good without living a life completely surrendered to Christ Jesus
Its funny. I grew up on a farm and never had the dream of going ”off grid”, wonder why.. 😅
But I do admire those who try to keep that dream. For sure it brings alot of work and hardship.
Eugenia thanks for speaking your truth. Life happens! And when we choose to pretend that it doesn’t and that everything is okay, which happens far too often it can have a long lasting impact on our health and wellness. You are a brave soul and it speaks volumes to your character and who you are. While Social Media can be a good thing it can also be a bad thing that can leave permanent scars. Your mental and physical health are far too important. So take all the time you need and recover. I am praying for you as well as your husband because in all that you go through he does as well. May God bless you both and may He bring health and wellness 🙏🏾🙌🏾❤️
Much love to you and Pepe. Rest and be well!
You are so admirable. I got sad learning you are moving on from this journey. But I’m glad I found your channel. Looking forward to the great things to come!
It's so strange to hear you are alone while Pepe is putting so much into your dream as well. Hope you are all fine.
Pepe leaved her? I don't understand what her talking about
@@Gracious777 I got it, thx
@@Gracious777 Yes, I see and agree about this. Yet, somehow the way of expression is strange (I felt this before with other videos too) as if it would give the impression of living alone...Maybe it is just about setting boundaries in content creation...Anyway I hope all good...
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They have a 2nd channel…ModernHouseCabin
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He did NOT. Her video #60 “I Left Portugal”. is of her & Pepe vacation Pyrenees border of Spain/France.u know then they plan to take time OFF.
Rest,relax,wine,ski, dine.
Best wishes to Eugenia & Pepe ❤️
With my two daughters, we wait each videos with impatiens. We choose some herbs in the garden to prepair an herbal tea and drink during waching. Each time it's a real pleasure to watch your "dream life". But we know nothing it's perfect and sometimes it will be difficult. Well done for everything, and good chance for Lolita !
Indiya (13 years old) ask to you: Do you think about to have children or in this life it is impossible? I was really a marvelous life!
Augustine (11 years old) ask to you: Do you miss something to live in a tiny house or it's enough ?
Thanks for sharing this very personal message. I think many of us push ourselves and ignore our bodies pleas to stop and rest. Please take as much time needed...we will always be here.
Thank you for sharing the truth, that is hard to homestead. Lot of videos out there show the pretty but never talk about the actual struggles.❤ take the time you need and do you bo! Will keep you in my prayers and I will be here when u get back.
I think the biggest issue for this project is how alone you are! A project like this wants community and support so tasks and work can be dispersed and enjoyed with others
Take good care of your heart and body ❤️ wishing you a slow et gentle next chapter ✨