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Morgan is a perfect example of someone who is both a victim and an oppressor at the same time
I think its also the perfect example for problems being a systemic issue, not necessarily personally and morally.
cis white women often fall in that category for obvious reasons
White womanhood in a nutshell.
i've lived this. i couldnt finish the video. Good on Jen for making a hard one. But I think i'll go watch one of the more fun ones, Still wanted to post a comment to help the algorithm. She;s helped me unpack alot of what i've had going on, still wanted to give jen a bit of credit
@@bipolartorecovery1485 i wish you luck on recovery 💖
They talk about Morgan like she’s a geriatric shelter dog that Paul was kind enough to adopt
Well said!
agreed! I think its important to acknowledge that she is a victim of circumstance but also a perpetrator of abuse as well but many seem to overlook the latter and just surmount that behavior to 100% Paul’s fault
BROOOOO LMAOOOO she deserves better
Don't let her go near Brittany Dawn's hubbie
@Emmamlis does she though?
I identify with Morgan vomiting during Paul's vows. Experiencing nausea is my reaction to almost everything out of his mouth.
I Gaspped so Hard!
Well said.
My terrible thought was, " Hunny, that was a sign from God that this is a bad idea."
I've NEVER seen a person react like that at their wedding... I wanna feel bad for her that she has to live with him but they're both hateful human beings that deserve each other fully.
I literally thought girlfriend this is your body warning you!!! Your body knows
Paul wants to get Morgan lobotomized so badly, he just lives in the wrong era for that to happen
He was super mad when he found out Stepford Wives wasn't an informercial
It almost feels like she was. She looks like she's constantly on drugs/being drugged. She used to be more "present" cognitively
@@patriceescalle9709 this comment should not be as funny as it is omg 😭
he liked his own lobotomy, so...
He is giving Handmaid’s Tale Commander here.
Paul saying “slave owner’s rights are human rights” made my appendix grow back and it ruptured again
Right 😵💫
I felt such freaking sorrow when he said that, lol. And Morgan’s just like “…” 🙃🔪
🤬🤬🤬
@@andreagudal6775 i haven’t finished the video and just glanced at the comments and hOLY SHIT WHAT THE FUCK???
I can't even figure out what point he was trying to make with that, like ????????
This man wakes up every day, mad that he was a virgin until marriage and makes it everyone’s problem
This comment made me laugh so hard that I had to pause the video until I could compose myself. I just had this mental image of Paul asleep and frowning before his morning alarm goes off. He wakes up and gets even more pissy as the realization washes over him-he’s still a fucking loser.
*screams*
Omg you nailed it here.
this shouldn't have made me cackle as much as it did omfg 😭😭
he also just straight up says that he can't pleasure Morgan, you couldn't waterboard that kind of info out of me
"depression is caused by premarital sex"
*laughs in 29 year old extremely depressed and anxious virgin*
Me, who has been mentally ill from age 2: hmmmm, something dont add up here
28 year old virgin here and same!
First depression occurred at age 11, 10 years before I committed sexual sins😅.
One of the causes....
I can assure them i was depressed LONG before i had sex 😂
Morgan claiming that sexual sin was the main factor causing her depression and anxiety, then going on to say her WORST bout of depression and anxiety was during her first year of marriage??????????? It’s not adding up
Well, actually it does. Because marrying Paul, a virgin Christian man who clearly seems to have a thing about her not being a virgin, just made her feel even more ashamed, and therefore vulnerable to anxiety and depression. She must have felt like, because she couldn't save her virginity for her husband, she was a bad wife and a bad person and being married kept bringing up incidents that made her feel like a failure and start spiraling.
@@maryannvalerio9869Dang. That’s just sad. Especially when he said the opposite in one of the videos that I watched: that she made a decision not to pursue that direction in her life anymore and decided she wanted to wait until marriage from that point & he said “how could I hold over her head what God’s forgiven?” Which is a nice thought fitting with their belief system.
So my question is does he not live that out with his actions?
@@MalloryNewcombThat’s a line I’ve heard on multiple occasions in evangelical communities. He knows he’s supposed to say that, whether or not his actual thoughts and feelings align.
@@CaitFalconer I see. :/
Such a shame. Cuz I remember a time I unironically watched their videos and while I thought her apologizing was weird (elevating her husband to near god level) & I took that line as something meant sincerely and it stayed with me. Used it in my life, like for real.
I hope that people don’t get the idea this is how typical Christians act.
@@maryannvalerio9869she didn't just feel this way out of nowhere HE made a point to MAKE her feel this way. I'm also sure she isn't allowed to say no to sex because she is "a dirty slut she liked sex so much she wasn't a virgin so how can she say no". Not that christian women have the right to say no anyway, but I can just picture him screaming horribly abusive shit at her
calling postpartum bodies undesirable and ugly right after your partner has given birth is WILDDDDD
"but not you Morgan, you've done such a great job" eww
@@lf5802 why do they put this shit out there
Like ffs I feel like this is something I'm not supposed to see.
@@lf5802 Seriously, he treats her like a pet. The language he uses to describe her behavior. It's like he's showing off a mare or something.
I seriously hope that karma will get to Paul.
@@lf5802 🤢🤢🤢
Paul referring to a post partum body as “letting themselves go” is INSANE.
oh yeah that lady really let herself go when she… pushed an entire baby out of her
You have to work really hard after giving birth, I know I did
I feel so bad for his wife. If she had depression/anxiety before I can only imagine how much worse it’s gotten after having a baby and him as a husband.
We all know you just manifest babies out of thin air. It's not like your body does all the work. She just ate too much. /s
@@FourblackcatzI mean I do hope she’s “cured” of her depression but I don’t think that’s possible so the likely reality is that she’s suppressing it. Which is worrisome.
Paul is the perfect example of personality making someone unattractive.
He's the kind of guy you see from across the room and go "wow... he's good looking." And then he starts talking to you and you go "wow. He's hideous."
I feel the same way about Morgan. I just don't know how much of what she's saying are her own thoughts or just ideas Paul and other Fundies implanted into her.
@@07Flash11MRC i get the strong sense that she has no actual identity because she can barely even pretend to have confidence in paul’s ideas half the time (visibly wincing/cringing and refusing to verbally agree with him when prompted by him) but then just agrees at the end, probably as some weird obedience of husband thing. disturbing.
a little side note, to me it is extra interesting that she’s been diagnosed with BPD and a huge part of that disorder is an unstable identity.
He's got those Patrick Bateman vibes - an attractive, charming psychopath.
THIS! The personality is 🤢🤢🤮🤮
The fact that Morgan threw up during Paul's vows says so much about this relationship....she should've gone with her gut on this one.
…Literally. ❤
I agree the body has a built in natural intuition to avoid danger ...ie if a Bull chases somebody the body runs with a natural drive to survive ....
Right?! Talk about God giving you a sign.
as a biracial person i'm so tired of people acting like interracial couples in media is "forcing wokeness", like that's literally my life. they don't realize how common interracial marriages are cuz they live in a bubble
sounds about white
And like, not everywhere had the same history of segregation that North America had and continues to have. I’m from the Caribbean which is soooo racially diverse it’s insane to me that people think “interracial” marriage is woke lololol
Like, is being blasian woke? Is existing as a non-white person in white America “enforcing wokeness”? Trust a guy named after the worst genocidal maniac in the Bible to say yes lmao.
Morgan's response makes it even more obvious how horrible Paul's take is on that. She's just like "I didn't even notice it", which is exactly how a normal person would react to that
Same here! It's so common in my life because my parents are an interracial couple, and I was raised as a military brat, so most of the kids I grew up around are interracial. Most of my friends and myself are in interracial relationships.
Can confirm Paul was a substitute teacher. He was a sub at my Christian school. We all thought he was gay and was shocked when we found his channel
That must have been WILD
I could certainly see that perception of him!
He totally strikes me as someone who is gay, but so internally homophobic that he leans into religion to deny who he really is.
Wow
Could still possibly be veryyyy closested, he wouldn't be the first gay man to find himself a beard
I swear Paul wants to be like a martyr for marrying Morgan, because he doesn't even seem to like her as a person? It's like a project for him? WTF.
Probably makes him feel better about himself
Dang that is dark
💯 most of the time it seems like he can’t stand her. He’s giving customer service level of passive aggressiveness.
I'm not sure about the project... i think he does not like her cause he's as gay as they get... and she's his god-beard.
They hate each other. I have never ever seen those two look at each other like they are actually in love. She literally thew up at the wedding, and spent most of the first year of their marriage in the worst depression of her life - all self-admitted.
I'm convinced neither of them knows what actual love is. They think what they have is "love", but it's really not.
My jaw dropped when Paul said “I identify as Black now. I played a lot of basketball when I was younger” … and then to hear him talking about “slave-owner’s rights” he fucking sucks
If slave owners get rights then so do gay people right Paul!?? See how flawed his logic is here? That's what I like to call flogic lol
I had to rewind for the "slave-owners rights" part because I genuinely could't believe that I'd heard it right the first time.
Another example how "Christian Love" drives people to embrace all forms of hate.
Just think about his "GOP voters are the new holocaust" example... the Jews were just people, living in Germany, they did NOT do anything as a group, malicious or not, they not even were all religious or anything, a lot like in today's America. The conservatives otoh go aorund making horrible laws harming millions of people, from the immigration disaster they willingly created, to the sabottage of Healthcare/Health Insurance coverage to penalize "the Poor"... Yes and the Roe v Wade Elephant in the room too, "don't say gay", Transharassment and so many more things driving people into misery. HOW is that the same as Nazi persecution of Jews??? W-T-F...
Paul was just BEGGING his wife to be as bothered by interracial couples as he is for no reason
Yes! Her "unbotheredness" was triggering him hard! You could see the mean energy all over him when she was talking.
She literally didn't care, like even she thought it wasn't worth her time. It's already dumb but even his wife thinks it's not worth a time
Yeah what was that. I didn't know interracial couples were "woke."
@@cantocant2346 yeah, he reminded me of ClassicallyAbby/Ben Shapiro’s sister’s a-hole husband in that portion.
He was giving vibes that especially reminded me of the video Abby made with him about their opinions on every Quentin Tarantino movie 🥴
@@cantocant2346 my ex was bothered I didn't judge others for no reason and at that moment I realized he wasn't worth it. He just wanted to feel better than
Jokes on Morgan, I had depression and anxiety BEFORE the premarital sex 😎
She would just say that you were sinning in other ways and that's why. In Evangelicalism depression is actually by many considered a sin in of itself. They say you're "choosing" not to "glory in god's plan" and equate it to sloth when depression leaves you sapped of energy. They'll even say 6 year olds are sinning if they have any mental health issues.
i was diagnosed w autism after premarital sex… serves me right 😔
@@georgiabundick the fact that im going for testing for the tism 💀 if only we didn’t sin so much
@@georgiabundick damnnn serves you right /(joke)
Girrrrllll you & me both 💀💀
Paul always looks like he is on the verge of snapping, which is terrifying.
He looks like that because he is 😬
I’ve always felt this way too.
I had that same thought for some years now. He looks the part of a domestic abuser with his stern look always reminding Morgan that even one step out of line could turn her into a battered wife.
@@07Flash11MRC he constantly brings up all the ways she was not good enough for him. I hope she realizes that before he does snap.
This!!!!
As someone who grew up in purity culture, I felt so horrible the first time I had sex. It’s this internalized guilt and shame ingrained in us from a young age. That’s probably why she had so much depression and anxiety about premarital sex. It’s honestly sad to see her damaging content
this!!!!!
I totally agree. Growing up within a religious community that promotes a negative outlook on sex is big factor in sexual shame for a lot of people.
I say that not as someone who is negative on religion, I’m a Christian myself. But experience with sexuality is such a significant and personal part of human experience that to have shame in this area can have a big impact on how you feel about yourself generally. To carry this idea that there is something inherently weird or wrong or dirty about you is so damaging.
So much of the language about abstinence when she was a teenager was likely fear based, so poor thing that she went through so much guilt it made her depressed and struggle with her mental health. Because she’s way more than whatever decisions she regrets from her high school years..
Absolutely! I experienced that before getting out of the church. Serious self disgust at having normal human needs, because of the internalised shame of having it drummed into me that sex before marriage makes you dirty.
Same. I even stoped having my period for months
"Her standards were just so low and naive"
Dude, those standards are why she picked you
😂
hhaha, that was funny.
although, i think not true
It’s the reason he chose her too.
Raised IBLP/Ind. Fundie. Baptist I recognize the complex issue of Morgan having been a victim of an abusive environment, becoming a misogynistic adult responsible for her own actions while jumping into a marriage formed and built on abuse. She appears to be the childhood victim who jumped into an abusive relationship yet she, herself, is responsible for her adult decisions to perpetuate this type of abusive relationship. Definitely I wish that every victim of this thinking may have the option I had to pursue a sec. Uni degree. It took 9 yrs for me to fully deprogram; I completely realize just how lucky I am to have escaped.
@@alwaysflushinpublic Don't you think you just just want to see your drama in her life you know almost nothing about? Anyway. circle of sin. But you cannot escape life of sin unless you repent for your own. We are all fallen man. None is right but Jesus. We are just different scales of bad.
It’s wild because Morgan is SO close to the mark so many times- “I didn’t notice the interracial couples, that’s not a big deal” “people shouldn’t compare their lives to the holocaust” “not everyone who is a mom has carried their child”- and yet she STILL misses it
she has so many toxic influences in her life. I don't think it's a stretch to say it's possible that she's secretly harbouring leftist thoughts but represses them deep, deep down because if she ever said what she really feels out loud she'd get berated or beaten by her asshole husband or her asshole husband's father.
Right?? Makes me so sad for her. I think there’s a world where she could be so much happier but I also think she’ll stay with Paul as long as he’ll have her ☹️
I think her husband wouldn't let her hit the mark
She just looks so done half of the time
I KNOW 😭 and then Paul goes and gaslights her and you can see her retreating. I’m watching emotional abuse in real time and I have to pause this video throughout watching it tbh
I bet she watched Magic Mike
My guess was something like Twilight lololol
honestly it could've been something like harry potter bc of the witchcraft or whatever and paul could've been offended by that lol
OMG HEY BAILEY
@@MegJuniperi didn't know it was her at first! she so funny 😁
BAILEY
Morgan looked so shook and uncomfortable with Paul’s unhinged slave owner speech
Actually, I'm not sure why there wasn't more context provided for that clip, but it changes things a lot. I can tell that he was comparing women's rights (a woman's right to choose) to slavery:
_Paul was actually saying,_ that when FEMINISTS argue, "A woman shouldn't have to sacrifice her education, her career, her goals, in order to raise a child. We need to consider how it will inconvenience the mother if we force her to carry her baby to term (while ignoring the fetus' rights)" is like advocating for slave owners who want to keep their slaves. That's his comparison...that's his pro-life argument.
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Morgan throwing up at her wedding was her subconscious desperately trying to save her. I don’t pull this card often, but I’m a licensed therapist, and I truly believe this.
yeah, that’s just chilling. seeing her whole vibe around him when he’s going on rants is so uncomfy.. girl get out of there
I couldn't agree more.
I believe that your body rejects bad energy in the same way it rejects bad food or too much alcohol. Her body was for sure telling her to get out
I totally agree! I'm not a therapist but I have done a lot of therapy and had similar symptoms.
I’m fully with you on this. I believe in psychology and gut instinct. Everytime that clip pops up I get a heavy feeling. Like the bottom will drop out for her at any second.
I've never seen a man who just so clearly doesn't eat women out in my whole life
He may view it as “unclean” or thinks her pleasure is somehow sinful. Morgan admitting that she sits on his face and farts just says he probably is terrible at cunnilingus, and she’ll do anything to keep him off her.
Lmaooo perfect description
Actually he do, check their latest video on that subject. But it is wrong. I guess, flesh-oriented people never get it, right? Do you know why there is a saying about pigs that cannot see heaven?
@@mickithompson5888 So nothing unclean about anal sex either. Since it's pleasurable, so it's good and tasty. Right?
I feel like he stares in the mirror when they are having sex.
“I’m not racist, but two interracial couples is one too many…” 😀 wtf…
😅
"I don't care AT ALL but come on, it's a little much!" Right, you don't care at all. He's such a horrid little man.
Okay but her sitting on his face just to rip ass is absolutely hysterical
Hate to say it but she did go off with that one
thats the kinkiest thing they’ll ever do
Wait, WHAT? I'm not at that part yet, that sounds horrible but deserved on his end.
Good for her
Man I’ve been celibate for two years and I still have a mood disorder
most underrated comment
Bro I'm asexual and I've got a ton of mental problems
I'm sorry but this made me cackle
@@rowanquynn9964 Same.
@@rowanquynn9964 oh shit hi me too
“…living in sexual sin was literally being eaten alive…”
Only if you’re doing it right.
in my dreams! 🤣🥳
😂😭😂
Oh that FOR SURE ended when she married Paul
😂😂😂
@@noobiedoobers2324 it’s probably 2 chaste kisses, missionary, then a hand shake and a “good girl” from Paul. Eww.
And she literally said she "can't call someone by THEIR preferred pronouns". She literally JUST used they/them pronouns without a second thought. But when someone asks for it, it's an issue?
Morgan seems so much happier in the music stuff. More alert and interested in her life, lacked that dazed staring.
She knows how it feels to be bullied, and yet chooses to bully others because they are different than her.
Shit rolls downhill. That's the only break she gets. Always that way.
Hurt people; hurt people.
It seems like she has so much anxiety about everything (I'm right there with ya, unfortunate name twin) and so, she chose a husband who would basically make the bulk of her own choices for her. I guess it must feel better to be the bystander wife to the bully than it is to be the victim for once? But good Lord, I just want to give this woman a hug, a pep talk, and a grilled cheese cut diagonal.
Those who are bullied often become the bully. It's a bad coping mechanism.
If she has to live this way and be trapped in this culture how dare others not conform as well. Who do they think they are?
Its just sad :/
“My depression is gone.”
“Satan still comes back and tries to mess with me mentally.”
Gotcha. This isn’t unhealthy at all.
Agree 💯
I had depression until I left the church and purged out its belief system
@@laurenbarber8579 I recently gotten PHYSICALLY out of church and I have been thriving. all the lingering feelings of guilt and shame are almost completely gone. I know I'll still have bad times because that's life, but I feel so much better since getting out.
@@skrtskrt22yeah you can sin and sin until you don’t feel guilty anymore because you ruined your conscience
@@LARRYCAL OR I don't let a 2k+ year old book tell me what to do anymore because it's just a book.
I'm just tossing this into the void because I felt like rewatching this video and now I'm reflecting on why. I was raised in purity culture, and about 2 months ago I had my first experience with another person, at 24, we went from nothing to completely and I genuinely hated myself afterwards. I practically sobbed the entire way back to my house. I started my deconstruction process years ago, I've been sex-positive for friends and loved ones and working on embracing my own sexuality, but I didn't realize how much of a loss it would feel like for this simple thing to be gone, and how broken I would feel. My friends are from a post-religion part of my life and dont understand, my therapist is secular, and I've felt so alone in mourning the loss of something I didn't think would feel so... heavy. Paul and Morgan would say its because I recognized how wrong my actions were. I don't know why I'm throwing this out there, but genuinely, watching this has given me perspective and reminded me of how I would approach sexuality for a friend, for a younger me, for someone else trying to let go of purity culture. Its healing, a little bit.
If you've read this, thanks lol
💖💖💖 as someone who grew up in purity culture I'm sending you all of the love and solidarity. I'm here if you need to talk. It might also help to find a therapist who specializes in religious trauma syndrome (rts is often a form of PTSD!!!! And it sounds like maybe you had some kind of trauma response maybe rooted in cptsd) 💖💖
It’s sadly a very real, very unfortunate and extremely unnecessary trauma that too many people have to experience for no good reason whatsoever.
Purity culture is such a distorted concept that only causes undue pain and destruction.
Illogical virtuous beliefs are counterproductive, put needless pressure on innocent individuals causing anxiety, fear, guilt and shame for absolutely no reason.
Virginity is placed on an imaginary pedestal which can potentially lead to false feelings of sadness and loss, unworthiness and feeling flawed or broken.
Sex is natural and good regardless of marriage as long as it’s safe and everyone’s comfortable and consenting.
I wish everyone was taught this and could believe this truth rather than believing something that only results in the possibility of suffering short term and long term trauma and pain.
i’m 25 and i still haven’t had a sexual experience bc i’m so scared of it, and i’m very open about it, i like to talk about what i’d like to do and when someone has a close minded approach, i tell them sex is the most natural thing in the world, howeveeeer, i still feel internalized guilt and i know having sex for the first time will trigger so many things for me. im quite positive purity culture ruined my life
Do you think it was attributed to the situation and the other person's actions? When I first had sex, my partner was much much more experienced. There were many years of us in love where sex was mutually amazing. The love and connection felt so real. But slowly over the years, after we had kids and had been together over a decade...there were times we would have sex and it felt so manipulative, abusive, forced and like something I had to do as "my job" and if I didn't it was a fight.....I started to see the abusive nature of our relationship.
When you don't feel safe, cherished, and loved, sex can feel like someone took something from you. You're giving your body to someone else. And in the beginning, until you're comfortable with your sexuality, it might feel overwhelming and uncomfortable. Once your body and mind mature more, you may get to a place where you have sex when you want to and it doesn't always have to have such strong mental and emotional side effects. You'll just have sex cus you feel like it at the moment. But don't feel weird that being new to sex, it might feel like you are giving something valuable of yourself to someone who didnt value it as much as you expected them to. I think that's normal, especially when you're raised modestly or with purity culture. Just remember as you grow, YOU are in control of what you want to do sexually. Own the power in that.
Sorry for the ramble but I felt very much where you were coming from.
this is exactly what happened to me, even the age is matching. I was very sex-positive, I felt that even though it would be nice to wait until at least engagement, I'm ready and wanted to have this experience - and I had a mental breakdown after my first time. you're not alone, there are plenty of us out there who know exactly what are you going through right now. ❤
I definitely think her take on premarital sin is what leads to mental illness is either a. Paul suggesting to her that her issues came because she “misbehaved” and he doesn’t struggle because he stayed a virgin of b. She was so indoctrinated with the idea of having sex as sinful that when she did the immense guilt associated with it led to her mental decline
On point
Its the second one. That is how it works in Christianity, the shame and guilt and encouragement and validation that you ARE guilty and gross and dirty for your sins (aka human experience) causes severe mental health issues that are chalked up to God telling you you’re fucking up. Of COURSE that is going to mess you up as a believer
Paul is like “I felt like such an asshole and such a douchebag and such a horrible husband” and then doesn’t change at all lmaooo
He might as well have added "and I liked that feeling." Lol
It's because GOD will change him, silly!!
Paul is the human embodiment of a notes app apology
@@-carl-6969 idk about him being changed. It's all about being forgiven 😌 like the lds and their second anointing bs. Telling people the only sin that would not be forgiven after the second anointing is; murder. That's it! Just the one thing would keep them from heaven... some people think, that if God can forgive me- what do I care.
I guessssssss she finds him funny.
what morgan's therapist probably told her is that she will always be vulnerable to depression, and there is no magic cure that "sets her free," but she misconstrued that in her head in such a weird way.
Yes her therapist was doing the responsible thing by being upfront and stating there’s no cure for depression.
Thought this too.
Morgan is a terrible narrator.
I bet the therapist was also talking about her BPD, too. Unfortunately, that diagnosis is not something that will disappear, and she will have to manage it for the rest of her life.
Morgan Hawley '007 probably got conditioned into thinking every condition that's hard to understand and doesn't have visible symptoms could be chased away through spiritual warfare. Her sect has to be among the most loathsome this world has ever seen.
As someone who both deconstructed and struggles with mental illness I can speak on the fact that 'being cured' totally and completely is very deep rooted in the idea that god is your only savior so when the mental illness doesn't completely go away forever it directly challenges that idea, wish she couuld've received that news better than she did :/
Me, who was a devout Catholic as a child, terrified of sinning, and didn't even know what sex was: still had severe depression, anxiety and OCD. bruh ok morgan
Same
Oof I felt that one
I could not imagine my husband hating me so much and then staying with him forever. I've seen it too many times in these fundi relationships (growing up especially). It's so sad and disgusting.
if I were writing a sitcom I don't think I could write anything funnier than the groom saying "I can't take care of you..." and the bride throwing up
truly divine timing
pfft. happened to me in the sims once
Shouldn't that have taught Morgan Hawley '007 that she couldn't really depend on Paul Olliges '004 for much in times of need? Why didn't she believe it the first time he told her what he was?
Your profile pic is amazing ❤
I had the same thought. It's such a comedy of errors type beat, I love it
insane to think that if this woman had just swiped left she could have ended up with a healthy relationship, an actual support system, helpful mental health resources, and a world view compatible with reality 🙃
Now that is the real tragedy here
To be fair, if she was at such a low point to marry Paul she’d marry any of the million other men just like him 🙁
I doubt it was all Paul. I think she always had that evil in her, Paul just helped it come out.
@@Oujouj426didn’t she mention that meeting him was like meeting Jesus? I am not Christian, but whether this was a metaphor or felt genuine to her, this is a dramatic encounter that expresses a deep power differential from the start.
Morgan is just as bad as Paul… the met and started dating because they have the same beliefs and p.o.v’s
It's so strange that Paul finds seeing three interracial couples on a TV show as 'woke'- my parents are in an interracial relationship, I am in an interracial relationship, my sister is in an interracial relationship. To be honest I don't even really think about it like that, because it's normal. They must not know that many people if seeing three interracial couples is ridiculous to them
Yes this is so weird. And what does he even mean by “they’re pushing interracial couples on us?” Actors of different ethnicities auditioned and got various roles in a show… that’s not woke??
biologically there is ONE human race. There are cultural and genetic (mostly phenotypic = superficials looks only) differences between smaller subgroups, but nothing justifying any form of racism.
And as we in the end all descend from proto humans that once lived in africa, even in the worst racist view we ALL would be "!interracial".
Paul gives me the vibes that he’ll hit her one day if he isn’t already. His eyes are so scary
And think it’s because “he loves her”.
I do hope he never does but I can understand the urge.
You “can understand the urge” to beat her? Wtf?
She says when she "gave up darkness" she wasn't sick anymore...
But she vomited during her vows to Paul? Girl...
Lmaoo😭😭 her body was trying to reject his evilness
And they even admitted her darkest days were AFTER they got married 🙄
Vomiting in a god honoring way
@@sickgurl138 Righteous retching, mayhap?
That was her body, telling her to run, but she didnt listen
I keep having to re-remind myself that Morgan is not 16 years old. It's not even that she looks that young physically, but everything about her reads like she's 16 and it's disquieting.
Like, the slurred speech and baby voice, too.
that's probably how paul trained her to be
Yes! Her voice and demeanor had me thinking she was a young twentysomething! Then her singing voice---what?!
She‘s totally regressed. Ofc she is. She‘s stuck in a loveless marriage all for a imaginary being that couldn‘t care about her even a little bit. Just like her husband. And her also being groomed into basically being a defenseless child is part of it.
@@cindystewart7981 well, there's a lot of teenagers who sound a bit like that, even when sober, hence why to me she sounds 16, not impaired. I dont speculate on that
Sometimes when people experience massive trauma they can kinda get stuck at that age mentally...
These two are a good argument for well funded public education . Their parents obviously avoided any sort of critical thinking skills in their upbringing.
Yes! Education is critical to helping the US out of its fundamentalism and essentialist (tribalist) worldview. I grew up in a fundamentalist home and my life changed when I went to university. Stay in school, America!
It’s disturbing because I can see hints of Morgan being able to see reason . . . but then God Paul railroads her and she just bends to his will. It’s fucking weird.
I'm so happy to know that my mental illness when I was 10 was caused by sexual sin, even though I was a virgin child.
same
same lol exactly what i was thinking
Same😭
Literally suicidal at 12…. Thrown out in the streets at 16 by my… surprise… super fundie family…
Same that's when my period started. I was so disassociated from my body didn't know how to express my feelings really down dealing with depression when I didn't know what it was.
The irony of Morgan complaining about the way her atheist friends were trying to "tell her how to live her life"
I have my doubts about her narrative, idk
@@mariaquiet6211 i do too. She doesn't seem to be very truthful
That's bullshit, Morgan doesn't have atheist friends.
fun fact, atheists don't insist you'll suffer eternal torment for not being atheist. I can't even conceive of coercion so severe, short of physical violence.
I've never told my relgious friends how to live their lives. Unless it harms other people, I don't care. I live my truth. They live theirs and were all happy!
It's wild to think that if Morgan had even a crumb of self-esteem, or if Paul had an ounce of self-awareness, the Paul and Morgan show wouldn't exist and i wouldn't have this headache right now
I think people forget that pregnancy CHANGES your body, permanently. There are many real stories of women’s abdominal muscles tearing because of c-section, becoming paralyzed in the spine, having internal or external bleeding, needing emergency hysterectomies because of risk, hormones are out of whack during and after pregnancy, miscarriages, having to abort the pregnancy, etc.
Pregnancy has killed women for a reason because of how dangerous it is. Post partum bodies don’t “bounce back” because their body is physically and hormonal changed FOREVER. Even if you work out, eat a healthy diet, it’s realistic that your skin will be stretched out because your skin literally expands during pregnancy. You’ll probably have complications after such as post partum depression or psychosis, abdominal tearing, vaginal pain and tearing, cervical problems, etc. I will never understand people who body shame people who are pregnant. It’s unwarranted and gross to shame someone who’s pregnant regardless of whether they “bounce back” or not
Morgan is so strangely multi-faceted and it baffles me, since I feel like we don't ever see these opinions from fundies. Her not even being bothered by the interracial couples Paul is seething over, her insistence that they not compare modern-day rejection of conservatism/Christianity to the Holocaust, her reminding the audience/Paul that not everyone who is a mom gave birth to their child, etc. It's really fascinating to me.
Right?? It's like there's a decent person inside of her trying to get out. I bet that's also the part of her that threw up during the wedding.
Probably pre-convert.
@@alexandraesfahani301it’s the demon inside her trying to get out 😂
Genuinely I just keep hoping that someday she wakes up and realizes how badly she played herself. I feel the same way about the Dugger children. We don’t know exactly how fundie Morgan’s family is but while I hate the shit she’s pushing, you can see something in there trying to be a better person. It’s not like Girl Defined where I see no hope.
EDIT: she just feels to me like someone who found (in this case, rediscovered) Jesus at a really low point in her life and happened to latch onto the most toxic version there is to try to find meaning.
Morgan comes across to me as being very immature. I pity their child having to live in that toxic environment.
I don’t think Morgan realizes that probably a big reason she was so anxious, sick, and depressed while having premarital sex was because she felt guilty about it. Not that sex outside of marriage is inherently wrong, but that she has absorbed the IDEA that it is so deeply that her “disobedience” caused turmoil in her and resulted in debilitating anxiety. People who were not raised with those beliefs about sex are not made miserable by sex.
True!! If you are constantly thinking about how disgusting you are for what you're doing.. it's going to cause you shame, depression and anxiety.. its unfortunate people cannot learn to have healthy relationships with their bodies.
morgan often sounds like she’s been sedated or drugged. the fundie haze is in her eyes too
100% agree. Honestly I'd need to be sedated to be with that asshole too. I kinda don't think she has the same views at Paul. I think she is in an abusive relationship.
I think she just is not smart.
If I may say, and no one asked me to, I'd say that they're prime examples of why fostering imagination in kids is so important, because without imagination empathy for anyone outside of our own circle becomes exponentially more difficult.
What I'm saying is that these losers lack the imagination necessary to understand even the tiniest bit of nuance and I'm honestly shocked that Morgan can sing Adele songs, considering how much symbolism is in them.
I've never thought of the connection between imagination and empathy but dude I think you're onto something there
He seems so genuinely surprised every time he asks her opinion on something. It's like they don't actually talk to each other unless it's on camera.
he has too much confidence to expect her to have any viewpoint that’s different than his. He thinks more highly about himself than he does about her. a total narcissist
That's such a good observation it's so true!!
@@SirBubbly33 I also think it's intentional to make her feel her opinion is always questionable.
What makes me super uncomfortable is that they never really make eye contact 😬
I know wym, did they not watch the Rings of power together? How did he not know she didn't notice the interracial marriages? I sure af didn't notice until I saw Jen show the fundies clip about it.
"I believe every woman can orgasm during sex, but i dont". That says alot about how Paul is as a sexual partner. Its sad.
Even if they fight he still expects sex that same night regardless. The entitlement is unreal lol
i wonder if his d is tiny or he's actually THAT bad
Every woman can orgasm _everytime_ she has Sex*
Her old boyfriend must have been a much better lover than Paul
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Morgan talking about her experience with that therapist is sending off STRONG signals of someone who expects to be "cured" from one session, which is completely the wrong mindset to have. As someone who has struggled with depression and anxiety for most of my life, the turning point for me was when I faced myself and admitted that I will probably be dealing with mental health issues for most of my life, and that it was going to be very hard work to try and get to a better place. That was six or seven years ago, and I'm happy to report that I am very much in a better place today, but it was and REMAINS labor intensive, and yes, it involves coping skills to maintain. If you refuse to accept that, you simply stand a much lower chance of ever getting better.
I truly blame society and its ignorance here. We almost never discuss mental health, so people feel ashamed that they have a diagnosis. I have bipolar and I accepted that I have this condition; actually after learning that I have it (so I can finally put my finger on the exact problem), I felt such a relief. It is like saying a blind person that you can get better. A lot of my friends did tell me that I can cure it with “natural remedies”. I appreciated it but it is so painful to explain that this is not simply being angry sometimes, so I take magnesium. Society should normalize diagnoses and taking meds to make our lives bearable.
Capitalism aside, I loved Scholastic book fairs as a kid. They were always so exciting and fun. My family couldn’t afford a lot of books, but it was great to flip through them and see what was out there. (My parents weren’t that strict with what we read but I had classmates for whom it was an eye opening experience). They’re a major school fundraiser too because the school gets a percentage of all the sales (although in the last couple of years scholastic has decreased the percentage because of the aforementioned capitalism :/ ).
I loved them as well! It was so fun, walking around and looking at all the books, trying to decide what I wanted to buy with the money my parents gave me.
We also had book swaps, which were almost better. You got up to three tokens, for books you brought. And you could swap these for other books. It was great.
I mean really they couldve definitely afforded to give you some erasers and cool kick knacks and some free interesting, new, books. Not just place it infront of kids who don't make any income and make them beg their parents for it. And considering scholastic typically went to public schools, these parents cant afford to buy several 30$ books for their kid.
It was always upsetting to me as a young child. Same situation with finances, my family didn’t have a lot of money but my dad wouldn’t give me any for something “not needed” even if we did have the money. Watching all the other kids get to purchase really awesome books/crafts always made me feel left out and sad.
@@leann4265 Exactly :( it's really upsetting how we're setting up kids in poverty to feel this way. It's almost intentional
Dude! Scholastic book fairs are what got me into & hooked on the Animorphs series; still to this day I can scarce believe those books were written for children lol
I've never seen a man hate his wife so much and live under this guise of "godly love". If my husband treated me with an ounce of disdain that Paul has for his wife, well we would have never made it down the aisle.
I grew up IBLP/ind Fundie Baptist. Only a handful of men in the church were NOT abusive IMO. My dad weekly tried to beat the sissy out of my older gay brother. Because of this I grew up trying to be 100% perfect so as not to anger him but their religious rules changed constantly. So very grateful I pursued a secular Uni degree on scholarship'; given to me because I had been sent to cult boarding school & later homeschooled by a mother who was classified as learning disabled and Sp Ed. The full scholarship (deep rural Southeast) was set up for anyone escaping a cult via Uni education. W/O that I would most likely still be in the abusive religion and not have the luxury of being able to support myself & pursue 9 full yrs of deprogramming. I was the lucky one. So many other childhood friends have chosen to remain in the toxic type of church.
That’s so many religious couples tho, they aren’t special or unique
Thats ever christians hetro experience
@@supme7558 not every Christian is like that
I sure have. Haven’t seen much else, tbh. 😢
its hilariously ironic how at 17:26 she says "person" and "they" when referring to the therapist a few times but was screaming about how they/them pronouns couldn't possibly exist LMAO
My challenge is discerning when “they” is singular and when it’s plural. Not in the above example, but other times when one is discussing a group that includes NB folks, it can be quite confusing for me to keep up with which “they” is being referred to, one individual or a group?
I clocked that too!!!
@@edvh88 Then ask who they are specifically referring to if you are confused.
@@edvh88 that’s why people have names.
@@edvh88 The same issue exists with "you," since formal English has no distinction between second person singular and plural.
I'm a virgin Christian with a laundry list of mental health issues. I mean obviously we knew what Morgan was saying was bs, but being a Christian and following God's word to the best of your abilities doesn't mean you're gonna get out of having Severe Anxiety, Severe Depression, ADHD, OCD, PTSD, Body Dysmorphia, all things I have had and still deal with. I was born and raised Christian. I have amazing parents who have raised me to the absolute best of their ability, and their best was wonderful! I have had a good life and I've still dealt with these things. It's so much more complicated than what Morgan wants to make it out to be. I find a lot of peace and happiness believing in my God, and there are a lot of things that have happened in my life that make be really think He's real. But these people make Him look bad, and it really upsets me.
I understand some of your struggles, depression and anxiety esp and they suck so much. But I'm so happy being Christian can bring you some peace and you have a good family around you to help lift you up too 💜 I hope you're doing ok and taking care my dude
❤
Exactly. I'm a Christian to & if anything Christians should be more open minded & see others perspectives which is why I watch this channel but I also listen in on some atheist channels or podcasts like Alex O'Connor or Matt Dilhunty because God can & does use people like that whether they know or not to humble us Christians when we need it so we realize that no, the world does not revolve around us & yes, we can be wrong. We're not monoliths nor should we be moral grandstanders that just preach down to unbelievers from ivory towers. Jesus said to love our enemies & prey for those who persecute us because kindness is what actually kills the proud but grace can also be found in every situation & no one is beyond reproach or criticism even us Christians which should be welcomed, not shunned just because we think so high & mighty of ourselves or of Christianity itself.
Whoa whoa whoa, interracial marriage is wokeness?! He definitely would've hated the 1997 Cinderella.
Is that the Brandi version? I loved it so much
His loss!!
Hey Morgan. You ever think that maybe it wasn’t the sex before marriage that caused you depression and anxiety, but rather your internalized guilt from your faith? No? Oh okay. Just the sin.
THIS
1000%
I had depression after entering a happy heterosexual monogamous marriage! It's almost like depression is something unrelated to any of the shit she is talking about! 😱
Yep
I had premarital sex and DIDNT struggle with mental illness or any other sickness… didn’t know God was picky choosy on who gets punished 🤷🏻♀️
That deep depression and anxiety from "living in sin" is just purity culture and shame from what she was taught. Not because of sex. Its so sad to see
Very sad. I’m ex Mormon and see a lot of myself in those aspects struggling with the shame & anxiety & physical things I would do to myself as a teen. Purity culture is so fucking harmful. I worry for their kids if they’re raised in a similar environment.
YES of course she’s nauseated with anxiety because she thinks she’s going to hell.
or suppressed trauma
The look on his face when he heard his wife say she doesn’t orgasm during sex is *chefs kiss*
I’m so glad I finally have an explanation on why I have mental illness!!! It’s my sexual sin, even though I was diagnosed as an 8 year old
All jokes aside, hearing her blame mental illness on sexual sin makes me feel so much rage, because of how she talks about people like it’s my fault I have these issues. So frustrating ahhhhh lmao 😍
Made me sad when Morgan said she was freed from depression and said in the same breath super quickly “but sometimes the devil tries to sneak in”. Which to me means she still struggles with it
That was a cry for help... Insane. I feel as though she has to hide her mental health because he'll take it personally if she struggles.
Yep she can't admit to it though because she's claimed God took it away from her. I don't like her but I do worry about her especially post partum if she feels she can't reach out for help because it will mean that her mh struggles have resurfaced
Ummm yes because that’s how it works lol. If you have childhood trauma or any trauma you’re going to deal with anxiety and depression for the rest of your life. But God and Jesus are by your side everyday and bring you peace when you ask for it. Not defending any of these people just wanted to mention that.
@@Myaccount923 that’s what the commenter is saying; morgan basically claimed god got rid of her depression when .. we all know that’s not how it works. i’m a believer too and ofc i believe faith can help but it’s not a replacement for therapy nor a permanent cure!
She sounds like one of those Christians who tries desperately to convince others that they're "ex gay". I'm not buying it. She doesn't want to be judged for it because she already knows her community will say she isn't devoted enough and that's why she's depressed.
It’s actually wild how Morgan expects us to take her personal experience as fact, meanwhile she ignores thousands of people explaining their personal experience with racism, and other forms of oppression.
It’s so, so common unfortunately. I think we can all be guilty of it at times if we’re honest. But yeah, her, Paul and many other conservatives seem to make an Olympic sport of of ignoring other’s experience in life.
and transgender
@@yooperskeptic doesn’t that come other “other forms”?
It was at the point where Paul was explaining oral sex that all I could think is who the fuck are these boring asinine kids? Who told them their views deserve a bullhorn across social media? Their experiences are so limited and mundane yet they seem to think they know what's right for EVERYONE. HOW are they famous?
This may be looking into it a bit too deep, but...
I'm a medical student with vast personal experience with psychiatric medicine and I just have to say, Morgan sounds constantly sedated.
Her words are slowed/dragged out, her train of thought is barely going 1mph and her emotional stunting is, well, stunted.
It all screams sedative drugs/alcohol. But again, I could be looking to into it, she could just be very very dense.
Hmmm.....the fact she threw up at the alter is telling 😮 Her body was sounding the alarms.
I think his comments about her being chill and "not a bridezilla" are the clue here: She was bullied to NOT DARE to be complicated or stressing out and it WAS stressing HER out, until it ended up on the bathroom floor.
Paul is an absolutely terrifying man. There’s something that’s so unsettling about him that I can’t place. defo the type of guy I would cross the road to avoid lol
He seems like he might snap at any moment tbh
@@phantomlovebs exactly, I feel like I’d be constantly walking on eggshells around him like he’s a ticking time bomb
To me he seems like the type who would kill his wife and then all his family and friends would defend him no matter what. Scary.
He reminds me of my dad in a bad way, like he's a walking bomb that might go off at any minute because you told him that he put the wrong laundry detergent in the washing machine
Ya he reminds me of my dad and not in the good way. My dad if you didn't do something HIS way he would get angry, for example I somehow swept the floor wrong and he got mad at me and got the belt and you can guess what happened.
Between how much Paul hates her and how much she hates herself, Morgan is probably the most hated person on this channel.
holy shit you are brutalll
TBCH, Morgan seems to hate Paul just as much as he hates her, so there ya go.
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there's probably more love and empathy in Guantanamo Bay than in Paul & Morgans relationship
I am so thankful to be single rather than being married to someone like Paul.
Makes me glad that if I had it my way, I'd rather be a unmarried virginal spinster the rest of my entire life than entertain men like Paul for more than 3 seconds lol
Paul is very good at "I'm not racist.... BUT..."
It's not because you SAY you aren't.... that you aren't. We'll be the judge of that.
I've never heard someone explaining how completely out of depression they are and still sound utterly depressed.
For real; she saddens the eff outta me. She just appears sad and….unwell? I say this as someone who’s felt as she appears and I was NOT well, no matter how much word salad I tried to speak it into existence 🫠
@@okoala62 she also just always seems so out of it. Like she’s there but her mind is somewhere else unless she’s spoken to or is asked to speak.
it's the fact that Paul literally just stood there while she literally puked and ran of stage that speaks volumes
And he was just standing there thinking about how HE would be perceived because of him being interrupted in the middle of his vows instead of thinking about her and omg is she okay? Is she sick ? Food poisoning? Is she really anxious or way over dehydrated to the point of being sick? Nope.. just I didn’t get to finish my sentence and it sounded bad
Yeah, my partner 100% would have gone after me and helped me. I can't imagine him just standing there like a useless lump.
He keeps proving, that he doesnt see her as a human being but as a provider of s3x, children, emotional labour and probably housekeeping.
it's so sad. I feel so heartbroken when I see that clip. I remember being in an abusive relationship and it being so bad that I would be wretching from the stress. having such a physical reaction to something like that is not to be taken lightly
I think puking before your wedding to the wrong guy was a plot line on Sex and the City. Except it didn’t involve domestic abuse…
the way paul is literally dennis and mac in one person kills me
this is the funniest comment I’ve ever seen in my life
Yes he’s their love child
i am GAGGED at this comment
this is so spot on
OH MY GOD
I CAN’T UNSEE IT! 💀💀💀💀💀
I had a friend once like Morgan. Mental health unchecked and pushing it down with a façade of God. My friend used to be super progressive and genuinely was the reason I even learned about queer culture and helped me realize the feelings I had about myself were part of queerness. Then a switch flipped and she spiraled, in a span of a few months she became god-fearing and told everyone Satan had a hold of her in the past because she dated women (even going as far to say the women she dated were Satan assaulting her and testing her faith WTFFFFFFFF). I tried to stay by her side to help her through this and not be pushy bc at the time I was naïve. The final straw was my cousin needing brain surgery at 19 and was told she would need yearly scans to make sure the affliction she had wouldn't return. When I was telling this to my friend, my friend had the audacity to say "She will never need to worry about that or do that, because God has put angels in her blood that will prevent all illness from returning." I never spoke to her again. Also a year later my cousin needed a second brain surgery so... yeah, go fuck your "god", and I say that as someone who was raised Catholic. I feel bad for these types of folks but at the same time it is very hard to keep supportive people around them because they actively push anyone who would care away. As a grown adult at almost 30 now, I've occasionally seen my former friend on social media and they actively fight for the stripping of my rights, of their own rights, it's horrible. I reached out to the last person they dated, because it all ended so fast. Lo, my former friend apparently showed up to the ex boyfriend's house and waved a knife around the kitchen talking about how God wants them to be together and that they can't break up because that wouldn't follow the plans the bible has laid out for them. So... yeah. Sometimes being around these types of folks is just... actively harmful in so so so many ways. I hope she gets the help she needs, I'm probably projecting my own experience onto this, because I fear for the people closest to all of them.
“I can’t imagine living life on my terms.” - Morgan
That’s the saddest thing I’ve heard her say to date. And I feel for her. When I see her videos, I see a woman in pain trying so hard to fit a mold she thinks will bring her internal peace. IMO she has given her sense of self to Paul so that she doesn’t have to think about it.
A (type of) slave defending slavery. Gross. Having been a part of an evangelical group, and buying the whole rancid enchilada, I feel sympathy for their self destructive delusions.
It’s so sad 😢
I swear she is an undiagnosed autistic and just masks her way thru life. And it's wayyyy easier to let someone else make decisions when you don't understand yourself or who you are or what you actually like. I truly feel sorry for this young woman. I mean they're both terrible racist, 1 dimensional twats but I think there's actual hope for Morgan if the right people came into her life.
yeah it's incredibly disheartening to see herself feel responsible for pauls actions, something fundie women are taught to do
I think you hit the nail on the head. She is so, so lost.
I always love that being a "sassy conservative" is fine but just the existence of people with different skin colors in a show with elves and dwarfes is pure audacity
"I'm not racist but I'm so sick of seeing interracial couples forced down my throat" as if someone put a gun to his head and made his bigoted arse watch them.
that just tells me most of the people they interact with are white. only way i can imagine paul's slavery rant happening in the 2020s
It's like when Yucker Carlson had a melty over the green female M&M not being 'sexy' enough for his strange, weird male gaze lol
When you're on an upward slope with depression, you're "healed and set free." When the depression inevitably starts getting the better of you again, it's "oh Satan is attacking."
This doesn't really sound like a healthy system to deal with depression.
It just constantly feels like Morgan is being held hostage. You can see the potential for a sweet and compassionate girl but she just lacks any critical reasoning.
Blink twice Morgan if you need our help leaving from this hellscape 🤣
It’s very clear to me that SHE cared so much about the sexual sin that her anxiety got so bad that she was vomiting every waking minute.
Or her body and subconscious was trying to tell her something
Or she was in an abusive relationship
Would have been great if Anna had vomited at her wedding to Josh. IT'S A SIGN! That sign says : RUN AWAY NOW.
While Morgan herself is also problematic, the real problem in this relationship is Paul. It is so obvious to me that Morgan has trauma from emotional abuse, probably in her past, and also currently with Paul. The way she looks at him while he is talking - like she is dissociating to not interrupt, to agree with him, and when she disagrees she laughs nervously, makes indirect non-committal comments rather than directly disagreeing, she talks in the baby / little girl voice because it is non-threatening to Paul, her mannerisms are so familiar to me, knowing women in similar controlling religious relationships. She is deeply uncomfortable and unhappy around him, and desperately trying to believe she is actually fulfilled and happy instead.
💯💯💯
Feel the same, when they talk about sex and consent it's also very clear that it's not a healthy relationship, i believe it was in a Rachel Oates video i saw their clip of that. And Morgan full on seems like she regresses and in general you can see how uncomfortable or in disagreement she is with him on certain things, and over time it seems like she's being more like "whatever I'm gonna be honest" and cares a little bit less about disagreeing with him but it's just.. so strange to watch them interact.
THIS THIS THIS THIS. She repeats this pattern over and over: starts to assert herself...realizes Paul will disapprove...stammers...looks at him...giggles...switch to baby voice. It's like watching Michelle Duggar: The Early Years of Training.
This is EXACTLY what I was thinking. While she is clearly not a very good person and holds very problematic views, I feel so bad for her. The way she acts and talks, her mannerisms when she is close to Paul remind me so UNCOMFORTABLY much to me in my ex abusive relationship. The way she always agrees with him doesn't seem very genuine, and when she says something that doesn't completely align with Paul's views, she seems like she is holding back from being honest and trying to say "but what you are saying is also right Paul!!! Idk maybe I'm wrong", she backpedals so fast. The way they talk abour sex and consent is SCARY, how she literally said she still does it even if she doesn't feel like it because it's her duty, and the way he tries to make her feel guilty for saying no if she doesn't want. I'm not necessarily saying Paul is abusive..... but that relationship is for sure not healthy and there is a clear power imbalance. I really really hope she can leave him (tho i doubt that'll happen)
Paul gives me family annihilater vibes
11:31 it’s sad because of course she felt awful while she was sexually active outside of marriage, but I think it’s due to the people around her shaming her and the extremely harmful purity culture of the church rather than sex 😬
I think Morgan vomiting during the wedding was her subconscious telling her something was wrong and not to do it.
I completely agree!
But she went through with it :( sad
Agree
In my last relationship, I broke down when I realised I was attracted to this guy who I was afraid that if he found out would view me as a 'lesser' being. I could not sleep that night. Anyways, the feels were mutual so I had nothing to worry about.
Well, he turned out to be a major piece of shiet. Next time I break down at the thought of being with or being attracted to someone, I will not ignore it.
Raised IBLP/Indie Fundie Baptist I recognize the physical sickness that comes with the transformation from victim to victimizer. Her wedding was the no turning back event that locked her into "being stuck" permanently in this highly abusive religion.
Wait a minute! If depression is caused by engagement in unhealthy s*xual relationships, then why was Morgan at the lowest point in her life early on in her marriage to Paul?? 🤔
Because she wasn’t a virgin
(From what she believes, not me.)
I don't agree with her - but it can definitely get worse, because satan can easily attack you when you're not living close to God.
You don’t think Paul was unhealthy?
im so confused when it comes to morgan, most of the time. on one hand, i truly hate P&M, and i think they hold absolutely abhorent beliefs about people and mental illness and literally anything under the sun, but on the other hand i feel very deep, deep sadness towards Morgan. I see her and i see a victim of purity culture that ran so deep it ruined the way she viewed herself and relationships, and then found a man that she thought could "fix" her that ultimately led her down the road to where she is now. I dont like her, i dont like what she believes. her existence is just deeply sad. both of them are sad, sad, *dangerous* and stupid people.
I'm not sure that Morgan is TRULY holding many of these beliefs, it feels often like she's only saying what Paul expects her to say...
did anyone else laugh when Morgan said "we can't refer to someone by their preferred pronouns" even though in that sentence alone she is referring to a singular individual ("someone") with the use of they/them/their
It’s really unhealthy how Paul tries to punish Morgan constantly for her past. He clearly holds resentment toward her as a person, he’s always trying to change every part of her and it’s never enough
maybe try to watch their videos without secondary commentary next time
Massive resentment. You know it kills him. Jackasses- the both of them. Of course, a child in the mix assuring the dysfunction generationally.
@@Zero-oq1jk Nah
But also, he loves it, because it's something he can lord over her forever. He gets to be the "bigger" person, the one who "forgave her." It's so messed up 😞
@@dianehutchinson9257 I've always hated hearing that whenever he says "I forgave her" like for what bro you created the rules that made her feel like she even was wrong in the first place.
“Call me black, I played a lot of basketball” 💀 oh boy. The slave owner argument… does Paul have a white hood in his closet? He even makes Morgan cringe.
Oh, he doesn’t even bother with the hood-it would mess up his hair. He just wears the robes and carries around a cross. Then he puts that cross in the yard of an interracial couple, lights it on fire, and yells, “I don’t mean it in a racist way!”
@@alexwyatt2911 I literally guffawed
He does, you know he does. His meltdown at ir couples on tv was a dead giveaway. I bet, he thinks being a modern knight and riding in the night is romantic.
/k.
When he started going off on slave owners “human rights” I screamed at my ceiling 😱 Me looking left, right, up, and down for the fucks I give for ENSLAVERS
@@curlyhairblacklilacs his argument was literally like but what about the money ? Don’t these enslavers have the right to make money ? Forget about treating people like literal animals and focus on the money !
I really dislike certain commentary channels that insult Morgan and talk about how she’s so brainwashed and such. I really love fundie fridays, because their main focus is not to ridicule victims, but to bring light to complicated situations. I think Paul is a very manipulative person, and he’s taking advantage of Morgan’s emotional distress to basically control her. I wish Morgan the very best.
paul: 'saying you aren't friends is pretty harsh'
paul: 'think of the inconvenience slave owner's felt when they had to release the human beings they owned as property."
Paul is constantly talking about all these problems he had with Morgan before they married that made him question whether or not she was the right one for him, but if it was such a big deal, WHY did he marry her anyway? Why go against your convictions, why marry someone who isn't a virgin if it means so much to you?? It's very clear he chose her because he knew he could control her.
Yes clearly he likes being able to hold that over her
He’ll probably never get over that or let her forget it.
literally his entire way of life is just constantly holding every "mistake" over his wife's head so that he can feel some sense of moral superiority. it's gross.
He thinks he's better than her, but in reality he was a p*rn addict...
The kicker is when she does that, you can tell he’s using every bit of willpower he has to not fly off the handle for her daring to call out his behavior.
Imagine having your husband sit there and say that it would be 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜 for him to be with you if you were 60 pounds heavier. Maybe that's a sign that you aren't mature enough to be in a committed relationship, Paul.
Right like 60 pounds aren't even that much
And saying that the postpartum person might have “let themselves go”? Breastfeeding affects people differently and pregnancy has a huge effect on your body and hormones! Not to mention sleep deprivation…
I think it's a sign that he's a dick.
The museum they're referencing at 47:30 is the National Museum of Natural History, which is part of The Smithsonian Institution, the world's largest museum, education, and research complex.
One of the most fascinating museums in the country…and they couldn’t even remember what it’s called. Just shows how open-minded they are… not.
12:14 also oh my god, my sister actually did wait for marriage before sex. That didn’t lessen her depression at all. In fact trying to be a perfect Christian increased it. She’s only seen improvement since leaving religion and her abusive marriage behind.