My English teacher used this audiobook for our class. Its absolutely amazing,,, I don't think I could imagine any other voice for these characters but yours. the emotion put into this is insane.
Im serious! I found you through your reading of The Island of Dr. Moreau; I had to go through 6 different people’s readings because they didnt have the right voice
I couldn’t find your channel for a second so I started panicking and I thought oh no he no longer has his videos on UA-cam and thank God I found you again it’s brilliant what you do I love it
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks I've gone to sleep by starting your reading of 1984 at least a dozen times in the last 2 years, and I almost always wake up in the morning to the chapter where Winston and Julia are arrested, if not, Winston's interrogation. It's no problem, you have a comforting voice.
Can’t tell you how many times I’ve listened to the older version of this audio book! I just started to listen again last night and then I realized you uploaded the remastered version, so I guess I picked the right time to listen! My favorite book read by the best narrator 🙌🏼
I've been listening to the new audible version. something is definitely lost by editing out about 8 hours of content, as well as changing the gender and race of lots of characters. you might go so far as to say it's Orwellian what they've done to the book...
Was just thinking recently that I wanted to listen to this again - perfect timing. Been enjoying it (as much as one can enjoy such an ominous subject) all afternoon - this is the best version out there. Thanks for the hard work brother!
Steve! I have been looking for this over the last two weeks! I started it last year but never finished. You made this so enjoyable to read. Huxley is next on my list. Thank you so much! - Also Steve
omg i was looking for this. i listened to the older version for my exams and i had the sudden urge to listen to it again but i couldnt find it, i had to literally go on reddit and find it. THANK U
This is brilliant. I have listened to the previous rendition about a thousand times, and I have just discovered this new remastered version so here I go again. This is a masterpiece! Thank you Mr. Parker!
BRILLIANT!!!! Thank you!!! I was literally busy listening to the old one from 4 years ago. I'm on chapter 17. Excellent job! It's really scary listening to it "at this time" and that it was written in 1949. Looking forward to finding out the end!
I was unable to find this for a couple of months. It wouldn't show up in Mr Parker's video list or in my history beginning a couple of months ago. I'm really glad to have it back again, again.
I must confess I've listened to Steve's 1984 from start to finish at least four times, UA-cam would do good to have a bookmark option on a videos. That would increase play thru immensely.
Glad to see you've remastered this. Have an audio recording of the book, as well as an audio drama adaptation that came out recently. You definitely have a knack for audio book narration, this from someone who, being completely blind, has to rely on audio recordings of books.
I remember listening to this senior year when we read this a few years back, makes me wanna listen again! Also love how you respond to comments even from a day ago!
Hey, I just began re-reading this masterpiece and I must say, despite scouring far and wide (since I thought your works were forever gone) I haven’t been able to find anything as close to this in quality. Am very happy to see this back up and am hoping it won’t get taken down again. As for your other works, do you think you’ll be able to remaster brave new world? Thanks again for all your efforts, you are severely underrated
Unfortunately not. While it was on sale and on UA-cam, we later learned that I had made a mistake and it was not in the public domain in Australia when I made it, unlike 1984 which definitely was. Brave New World will be available in a mere 20 years in 2044. See you then! :P
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks Is it at least purchaseable on your website (or even privately?) I just truly adore your work and Brave New World was actually on my to-read list after this one. Would love to contact you if that is the case
I just bought the book after listening to this for the first time a few months back (before it was taken down) super excited to listen to it again and this time follow along
There are very few. One immediately comes to mind. It was very well done, with a large cast. Neil Gaiman's American Gods. It's a whopper too. Now, to be fair (and completely honest), nothing really compares to Mr Parker's work. His voice alone... Production quality is impeccable... Attention to detail... I could go on. In case anyone is interested... American Gods 10th anniversary cast list: FRED BERMAN ( MR. IBIS, ICEMAN, GWYDION, SALIM ) ANNE BOBBY ( AUDREY BURTON, ZORYA P., ESSIE TREGOWAN, VEGAS WAITRESS, EASTER ) DENNIS BOUTSIKARIS ( NARRATOR ) TIM CAIN ( MR. NANCY ) RICHARD FERRONE ( LOW KEY LYESMITH, HINZELMANN, MR. STONE, MR. WORLD) ADAM GRUPPER ( CHAD MULLIGAN, WARDEN, HARRY BLUEJAY, MR. WOOD ) SARAH JONES ( LAURA, BILQUIS, MAMA ZOU ZOU, WIDOW PARIS, MAMA JI, DIANE, ZORYA U. ) PETE LARKIN ( CZERNOBOG, JACQUEL, WHISKEY JACK ) NIKHIL MAINDIRATTA (TEENAGE SHADOW ) KATHLEEN McINERNEY ( SAMANTHA BLACK CROW, ALISON McGOVERN, SMALLEST SISTER, SQUIRREL ) RON McLARTY ( MR. WEDNESDAY ) PRENTICE ONAYEMI ( SAM FETISHER, AGASU, BLACK DEPUTY, BARON SAMEDI ) DANIEL ORESKES ( SHADOW ) PAULA PARKER ( ELDERLY WAITRESS, SHADOW’S MOTHER ) NICOLE QUINN ( WOMAN AT PASSENGER ASSISTANCE DESK, WOMAN @ AMOCO CASH REGISTER ) MAGGI-MEG REED ( MARGUERITE OLSEN, BAST, MRS. McCABE - LAURA’S MOTHER ) YELENA SHMULENSON ( ZORYA V., OFFICER LIZ BUTE, WAITRESS-SAN FRAN , SOPHIE ) TEDDY WALSH ( LEON ) ALAN WINTER ( PRISON GUARD - REVIEWS SHADOW’S FILE, CASHIER AT LIBRARY SALE, GAS STA. MGR., ) OLIVER WYMAN ( MAD SWEENEY, TECHNICAL BOY/FAT KID, JOHN CHAPMAN, MR. TOWN )
Why did this get taken down? I'm just curious. Fantastic work by the way, I'm going to listen to all of your other dramatizations. I've never been able to read or listen to audiobooks, the sound effects really help with immersion.
American copyright law. This book is public domain in most of the world, but the American copyright holder still holds sway there and in the EU and a few other places, and they are extremely litigious. Thank you! I hope you enjoy them all. :)
Hi :) I love your work, please dont ever stop as your one in a million!! Do you have plans doing one for ,Three Body Problem series? If you do I prob listen to that every week.
Thank you! Sorry, that’s a little too modern and won’t be in the public domain for many years, yet. Hopefully one day I’ll get enough financial backers to be able to afford some licensing, but for the moment I can only make public domain stories. Thanks for the suggestion, though! 🙂
Hey steeve, please make audiobooks of CRIME AND PUNISHMENT and THE BROTHERS KARAMAZOV by Fyodor Dostoevsky, coz only with your audiobooks I'll be able to read both masterpieces 😄 and 1984 is just fab. I complete this too with your audiobook 🙌🏻
The levels, mostly. The narration has been cleared up and the SFX quieted down a bit and stabilized. There should be far fewer instances where the SFX are too loud, or the narration too hard to hear.
I'm looking for the Brave New World audio that you did since we are starting it in my AP Lit class. Will you put that one up again? It's fantastic and far exceeds the other versions on UA-cam.
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks If I buy the digital download do I have to be on your website to listen to it or does it get download it to my phone? How does that work?
Sorry, that’s a little too modern and won’t be in the public domain for many years, yet. Hopefully one day I’ll get enough financial backers to be able to afford some licensing, but for the moment I can only make public domain stories. Thanks for the suggestion, though! 🙂
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks damn thats sad, I thought it was in public domain since there are at least two audio books on UA-cam, and one of it is from 1994 or something. I hope you manage to license it someday soon :)
Thoughts away, you heavy clouds of autumn! For now springtime comes, agleam with gold! Shall thus in grief and wailing for ill-fortune All the tale of my young years be told? No, I want to smile through tears and weeping., Sing my songs where evil holds its sway, Hopeless, a steadfast hope forever keeping, I want to live! You thoughts of grief, away! On poor sad fallow land unused to tilling I'll sow blossoms, brilliant in hue, I'll sow blossoms where the frost lies, chilling, I'll pour bitter tears on them as due. And those burning tears shall melt, dissolving All that mighty crust of ice away. Maybe blossoms will come up, unfolding Singing springtime too for me, some day. Up the flinty steep and craggy mountain A weighty ponderous boulder I shall raise, And bearing this dread burden, a resounding Song I'll sing, a song of joyous praise. In the long dark ever-viewless night-time Not one instant shall I close my eyes, I'll seek ever for the star to guide me, She that reigns bright mistress of dark skies. Yes, I'll smile, indeed, through tears and weeping Sing my songs where evil holds its sway, Hopeless, a steadfast hope forever keeping, I shall live! You thoughts of grief, away!
My English teacher used this audiobook for our class. Its absolutely amazing,,, I don't think I could imagine any other voice for these characters but yours. the emotion put into this is insane.
I'm so happy that it's available again. It's the best audiobook I've ever heard. Thank you!
Thank you! I'm glad you're enjoying it.
One of your very best videos!
Thanks, I'm glad you enjoyed it. :)
I think youre the best person to read this dark and gritty book, Steve. No one else has the right voice to convey the mood (Bookmark: Chp 3)
Thank you! I'm glad you're enjoying my work :)
Im serious! I found you through your reading of The Island of Dr. Moreau; I had to go through 6 different people’s readings because they didnt have the right voice
I couldn’t find your channel for a second so I started panicking and I thought oh no he no longer has his videos on UA-cam and thank God I found you again it’s brilliant what you do I love it
Welcome back! Probably worth bookmarking the channel for future reference, or joining the discord or subreddit for news :)
My daughter falls asleep listening to your audiobooks.
I can't imagine her dreams if she's sleeping to 1984, hahahahaha!
@SteveParkerAudiobooks she's studying this in college class called Futurism. It's an interesting class.
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks I've gone to sleep by starting your reading of 1984 at least a dozen times in the last 2 years, and I almost always wake up in the morning to the chapter where Winston and Julia are arrested, if not, Winston's interrogation. It's no problem, you have a comforting voice.
I see it's back again. Let's hope this version stays up permamently, it's the best you've ever made.
Fingers crossed.
This book is needed now more than ever.
Agreed.
Nonsence
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I LOVED the sound effects accompanying the narration
Thank you! I'm glad you're enjoying my work. :)
Can’t tell you how many times I’ve listened to the older version of this audio book! I just started to listen again last night and then I realized you uploaded the remastered version, so I guess I picked the right time to listen! My favorite book read by the best narrator 🙌🏼
Thank you so much :)
I am blown away every single time I listen to it. 🙌🏼
I guess this is my sign to listen to this Masterpiece for the third time!
:)
7 time here and I will listen to this at least once a year for the rest of my life thanks man keep up the good work
I've been listening to the new audible version. something is definitely lost by editing out about 8 hours of content, as well as changing the gender and race of lots of characters. you might go so far as to say it's Orwellian what they've done to the book...
Was just thinking recently that I wanted to listen to this again - perfect timing. Been enjoying it (as much as one can enjoy such an ominous subject) all afternoon - this is the best version out there. Thanks for the hard work brother!
You're very welcome, I'm glad you enjoy it!
I was given this book as a present on my 14th birthday. I was born in May, 1970 😔😉
Nice.
So much effort has been put into this, it's very underrated !
Thank you :)
Steve! I have been looking for this over the last two weeks! I started it last year but never finished. You made this so enjoyable to read. Huxley is next on my list. Thank you so much!
- Also Steve
Awesome! Thank you!
Tremendous job on this Steve.
Thank you :)
omg i was looking for this. i listened to the older version for my exams and i had the sudden urge to listen to it again but i couldnt find it, i had to literally go on reddit and find it. THANK U
Glad you like it! 🙂
Fantastic to see its return!
This is actually a brand new, remastered version :)
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks Love to see it, new and improved!
Steve, Thank you soo much! your recording is a MASTERPIECE itself. Beautiful experience.
You're very welcome, I'm glad you enjoyed it!
This is brilliant. I have listened to the previous rendition about a thousand times, and I have just discovered this new remastered version so here I go again. This is a masterpiece! Thank you Mr. Parker!
You're very welcome! 🙂
I've read it many times and now listen to it. Thank you. I consider it one of the most important books ever written. 🏆
Thanks, I hope you enjoy my version. :)
BRILLIANT!!!! Thank you!!! I was literally busy listening to the old one from 4 years ago. I'm on chapter 17. Excellent job! It's really scary listening to it "at this time" and that it was written in 1949. Looking forward to finding out the end!
Don't worry, everyone lives happily ever after. ;)
So glad it's back on UA-cam!!!!!!!!!!!
Made my day!
Same here :)
Love your work. Listen to this reading a few times a year so keen to hear the new version today
Thank you!
this is a phenomenal dramatisation!!! thank you so much for producing it!!! wonderful job with such a poignant book 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
Thank you so much! :)
I could never imagine experiencing this book without your voice. Thank you
You're very welcome! :)
Around the time you uploaded this was when I was listening to your Frankenstein one for school. Now I’m reading 1984 for school.
You do a great job 👏
Thank you, glad you're finding my work useful. :)
I was unable to find this for a couple of months. It wouldn't show up in Mr Parker's video list or in my history beginning a couple of months ago.
I'm really glad to have it back again, again.
It’s back! Time for me to listen to it for the sixth time. 😅
Enjoy x6!! :)
Flipping heck this is so well done even George himself would be proud. Thanks for making and thanks for sharing 👍🇿🇦
Cheers, glad you enjoyed it.
It’s back! 🥲 thanks Steve! Masterpiece
Cheers :)
I'm addicted to listening this audiobook again and again. Send help, hot chocolate and blankets!
Hahahaha! Enjoy :)
I must confess I've listened to Steve's 1984 from start to finish at least four times, UA-cam would do good to have a bookmark option on a videos. That would increase play thru immensely.
You can put it in a private Playlist on your account
Glad to see this version is back again. Nice touch in chapter 1 with what sounds like a film reel running during the 2 minutes hate sequence.
Cheers, Brian :)
Am curious what caused them to allow it to return.
best audiobook ever. thanks Steve.
Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it. :)
Imagine having the ability to remaster a masterpiece
It's pretty amazing. I learned what I know by editing things, whereas Maciej actually studied this stuff.
i must’ve listened to this a dozen times now. You are winston in my mind now lol
Hahahaha! Hopefully I'm not quite that unlucky!
Glad to see you've remastered this. Have an audio recording of the book, as well as an audio drama adaptation that came out recently. You definitely have a knack for audio book narration, this from someone who, being completely blind, has to rely on audio recordings of books.
Thanks man, that's great to hear.
I can’t get enough of this enlightening entertainment and intrusive thought provoking stuff
I remember listening to this senior year when we read this a few years back, makes me wanna listen again! Also love how you respond to comments even from a day ago!
Great to hear! I'm glad you enjoy my work. I don't want to use the word 'obsessive', but I do have a certain need to respond to all comments... :P
Hey, I just began re-reading this masterpiece and I must say, despite scouring far and wide (since I thought your works were forever gone) I haven’t been able to find anything as close to this in quality. Am very happy to see this back up and am hoping it won’t get taken down again.
As for your other works, do you think you’ll be able to remaster brave new world? Thanks again for all your efforts, you are severely underrated
Unfortunately not. While it was on sale and on UA-cam, we later learned that I had made a mistake and it was not in the public domain in Australia when I made it, unlike 1984 which definitely was. Brave New World will be available in a mere 20 years in 2044. See you then! :P
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks Is it at least purchaseable on your website (or even privately?) I just truly adore your work and Brave New World was actually on my to-read list after this one. Would love to contact you if that is the case
I just bought the book after listening to this for the first time a few months back (before it was taken down) super excited to listen to it again and this time follow along
Oh great! Glad you enjoyed it! Hope you like the book too.
Thank you for your excellent work!
My pleasure! I'm glad you're enjoying my stuff :)
Awesome!!! Thank you!
You're very welcome!
oh, thank goodness. We're in the middle of part 2 in my class, and the alternative was so monotone.
I'm glad you're enjoying it. All the best with your studies! :)
Thank You Sir. Arto from Finland
You are most welcome :)
I could listen to the Chestnut Tree song. It was well done. Very well done.
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Thank you so much, Sir!
Thank you steve another great read book.
You're very welcome 🙂
The GOAT is back
Woohoo! :)
Thank you Steve
You're very welcome!
what you're doing with this book is historic: a novel length dramatization. has it been done?
I don't think so. All dramatizations I've heard tend to be abridged scripts rather than full novels.
There are very few.
One immediately comes to mind. It was very well done, with a large cast. Neil Gaiman's American Gods. It's a whopper too.
Now, to be fair (and completely honest), nothing really compares to Mr Parker's work. His voice alone...
Production quality is impeccable...
Attention to detail... I could go on.
In case anyone is interested...
American Gods 10th anniversary cast list:
FRED BERMAN ( MR. IBIS, ICEMAN, GWYDION, SALIM )
ANNE BOBBY ( AUDREY BURTON, ZORYA P., ESSIE TREGOWAN, VEGAS WAITRESS, EASTER )
DENNIS BOUTSIKARIS ( NARRATOR )
TIM CAIN ( MR. NANCY )
RICHARD FERRONE ( LOW KEY LYESMITH, HINZELMANN, MR. STONE, MR. WORLD)
ADAM GRUPPER ( CHAD MULLIGAN, WARDEN, HARRY BLUEJAY, MR. WOOD )
SARAH JONES ( LAURA, BILQUIS, MAMA ZOU ZOU, WIDOW PARIS, MAMA JI, DIANE, ZORYA U. )
PETE LARKIN ( CZERNOBOG, JACQUEL, WHISKEY JACK )
NIKHIL MAINDIRATTA (TEENAGE SHADOW )
KATHLEEN McINERNEY ( SAMANTHA BLACK CROW, ALISON McGOVERN, SMALLEST SISTER, SQUIRREL )
RON McLARTY ( MR. WEDNESDAY )
PRENTICE ONAYEMI ( SAM FETISHER, AGASU, BLACK DEPUTY, BARON SAMEDI )
DANIEL ORESKES ( SHADOW )
PAULA PARKER ( ELDERLY WAITRESS, SHADOW’S MOTHER )
NICOLE QUINN ( WOMAN AT PASSENGER ASSISTANCE DESK, WOMAN @ AMOCO CASH REGISTER )
MAGGI-MEG REED ( MARGUERITE OLSEN, BAST, MRS. McCABE - LAURA’S MOTHER )
YELENA SHMULENSON ( ZORYA V., OFFICER LIZ BUTE, WAITRESS-SAN FRAN , SOPHIE )
TEDDY WALSH ( LEON )
ALAN WINTER ( PRISON GUARD - REVIEWS SHADOW’S FILE, CASHIER AT LIBRARY SALE, GAS STA. MGR., )
OLIVER WYMAN ( MAD SWEENEY, TECHNICAL BOY/FAT KID, JOHN CHAPMAN, MR. TOWN )
i just realized this was done by the OP. man you did a rlly good job with this
Thank you :)
i hope you know how much you’re saving my english grade
Good luck with your studies!
dig the new marching effect at 7:31 "arrest the course of history"
Thank you :)
Why did this get taken down? I'm just curious.
Fantastic work by the way, I'm going to listen to all of your other dramatizations.
I've never been able to read or listen to audiobooks, the sound effects really help with immersion.
American copyright law. This book is public domain in most of the world, but the American copyright holder still holds sway there and in the EU and a few other places, and they are extremely litigious.
Thank you! I hope you enjoy them all. :)
Hi :) I love your work, please dont ever stop as your one in a million!! Do you have plans doing one for ,Three Body Problem series? If you do I prob listen to that every week.
Thank you! Sorry, that’s a little too modern and won’t be in the public domain for many years, yet. Hopefully one day I’ll get enough financial backers to be able to afford some licensing, but for the moment I can only make public domain stories. Thanks for the suggestion, though! 🙂
This is fantastic , can i ask how long did it take you to record the voiceover?
Thank you! It took a year of performance and production to finish this one.
definitely worth it
Hey steeve, please make audiobooks of CRIME AND PUNISHMENT and THE BROTHERS KARAMAZOV by Fyodor Dostoevsky, coz only with your audiobooks I'll be able to read both masterpieces 😄 and 1984 is just fab. I complete this too with your audiobook 🙌🏻
That's about 5 years work you're asking for there, lol!
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks Ohh is that so, I didn't realised🤐
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks
We accept.
We should mark our calendars, yes?
😉
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Brilliant! I'll sign right up. You deserve it anyway.
Can’t help but feel like you’ve left something out each time I listen to your narration. Hilarious
Like what?
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks I was just leaning on UA-cam or BB cropping it. No my friend it honestly is the greatest show going I personally love it
@@tonyindiana what room 101 does to a mf
Thanks for your amazing work Steve! May I ask, what did you guys change in this remastered version?
The levels, mostly. The narration has been cleared up and the SFX quieted down a bit and stabilized. There should be far fewer instances where the SFX are too loud, or the narration too hard to hear.
Hm, I get it, thanks for your answer Steve and have a good one!
I'm looking for the Brave New World audio that you did since we are starting it in my AP Lit class. Will you put that one up again? It's fantastic and far exceeds the other versions on UA-cam.
ua-cam.com/video/lZPeerOxMeI/v-deo.html Bookmark it so you don't lose it - I have it hidden as I can't have it out in public.
Do you sell this audio book on a CD ?
No, but you can get a digital download on SteveParkerAudiobooks.com
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks If I buy the digital download do I have to be on your website to listen to it or does it get download it to my phone? How does that work?
did this get taken down? i listened to it a while ago and tried to find it but couldn’t
Yes indeed.
I thought this got taken down for good like a month or two ago ?
What's the difference between this and the other version? Currently on chapter 17 of the other. Is it worth switching over to this one?
This one has been cleaned up and the narration is easier to hear alongside the sound effects.
Lord of the flies?
Will this remaster be available in a chapter by chapter audio format?
It's probable, but not for some time.
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks I would hope you make it some day.
I miss the Brave New World audiobook :(
ua-cam.com/video/lZPeerOxMeI/v-deo.html
Brave New World
Bookmark it, spread it around.
Such a shame about the adverts. Really wanted to use this to fall asleep.
If you don't like paying with your time by watching ads, you can pay with cash if you prefer. :)
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@SteveParkerAudiobooks Really enjoyed your version. I've listened to about 5 versions recently and I like yours the best. I'll check it out.
Ey would be awesome if you guys made an The Man in the high castle dramatization
Sorry, that’s a little too modern and won’t be in the public domain for many years, yet. Hopefully one day I’ll get enough financial backers to be able to afford some licensing, but for the moment I can only make public domain stories. Thanks for the suggestion, though! 🙂
@@SteveParkerAudiobooks damn thats sad, I thought it was in public domain since there are at least two audio books on UA-cam, and one of it is from 1994 or something. I hope you manage to license it someday soon :)
6:26:20 Sounds like Warhammer 40k
Fight the power
Contra Spem Spero
Thoughts away, you heavy clouds of autumn!
For now springtime comes, agleam with gold!
Shall thus in grief and wailing for ill-fortune
All the tale of my young years be told?
No, I want to smile through tears and weeping.,
Sing my songs where evil holds its sway,
Hopeless, a steadfast hope forever keeping,
I want to live! You thoughts of grief, away!
On poor sad fallow land unused to tilling
I'll sow blossoms, brilliant in hue,
I'll sow blossoms where the frost lies, chilling,
I'll pour bitter tears on them as due.
And those burning tears shall melt, dissolving
All that mighty crust of ice away.
Maybe blossoms will come up, unfolding
Singing springtime too for me, some day.
Up the flinty steep and craggy mountain
A weighty ponderous boulder I shall raise,
And bearing this dread burden, a resounding
Song I'll sing, a song of joyous praise.
In the long dark ever-viewless night-time
Not one instant shall I close my eyes,
I'll seek ever for the star to guide me,
She that reigns bright mistress of dark skies.
Yes, I'll smile, indeed, through tears and weeping
Sing my songs where evil holds its sway,
Hopeless, a steadfast hope forever keeping,
I shall live! You thoughts of grief, away!