last art vlog of 2023 ✽ packing orders, opening up about loss and coming back to myself

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  • Опубліковано 8 вер 2024

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  • @curiohk
    @curiohk 8 місяців тому +41

    Hello Caro, this is my first time putting a comment on UA-cam. Your willingness to share your pain encourages me to speak up to let you know how much you are valued. As a mental health therapist, your videos are an essential part of my self-care. Watching your gentleness and passion for the earth gives me hope. Your way of living, your perspectives on life, just you being you, makes me get in touch with the little girl in me who is also curious about the world. Thank you ❤️

  • @zahraleila8780
    @zahraleila8780 8 місяців тому +13

    Dear Caro, I put on this video after a bit of a nervous breakdown, in need of some peace. Your videos always provide me with that, but this video was so much more! It felt like a message just to me: you sharing about depression and thinking you had "overcome" that part of your psyche by doing so much healing work over the last decade. I feel the exact same, I put so much pressure on myself that I should "know better, do better and feel better", but the truth is that motherhood caught me off-guard. And maybe for the better, as like you say, my bright parts wouldn't be there without the shadows. I also wanted to say: you don't need a test to prove you were pregnant, you are such an incredible intuitive being (from what I have seen in your videos), trust your intuition! We don't need anything external to validate our experiences (and I am saying this with all the compassion because I catch myself doing just this all the time). Last thing: thank you for giving me hope for getting my driver's license, it was so healing to see that someone else has struggled with this and actually overcame it, I am sooo close now, but still doubt myself sometimes. Thank you thank you thank you for all you have given me with your videos

  • @RoMan_707
    @RoMan_707 8 місяців тому +15

    Oh Caro, my heart hurts for you. I’ve watched your videos since 2018 and have always admired your creativity, thoughtfulness and kind soul. These kinds of losses are so hard and yet not talked about enough, leaving many women isolated and alone in their time of need. Like you, my first miscarriage presented similarly and I’ve had multiple since then due to endometriosis but rarely ever shared. Thank you for your courage in sharing and in creating a safe space for us when so few exist. Sending much love from the west coast ❤

  • @buddhabro.9130
    @buddhabro.9130 8 місяців тому +5

    The Places That Scare You is the first Buddhist book I ever bought, way before I became Buddhist. Pema Chodron's books are ones you can go back to again and again and get some new insight every time. Thich Nhat Hanh is another awesome writer I love. Good Choice! 😊🙏

  • @patinadord
    @patinadord 8 місяців тому +7

    Your video literally saved my Christmas. Thank you so much for talking about mental health. We need people like you, who produce content about the importance of our art as a cure. You are a very important artist/person in our community!
    Thank you very, very much! ❤🎨

  • @Cs-ry3fx
    @Cs-ry3fx 8 місяців тому +4

    Dear Caro,
    I am truly sorry for your loss..It's hard to share things that hurt us. But good to open and share, It's a part of healing. Thank you for trusting your followers with your news. I usually don't comment much but just wanted to say I am praying for you. You are beautifully created by a God who loves you.. many blessings to you and yours.

  • @ThePattiw
    @ThePattiw 8 місяців тому +4

    wow Caro! What a beautiful and heartfelt video. Of course you would go through some downtime. Miscarriage is a huge loss. I went through something similar around 36 years of age and I felt so sad. Again, even if we didn't do a pregnancy test our bodies know and then feel the loss. So glad that your spirit and art making came to your aide. I have been saying lately that us artists are lucky because we have our art practice to lean on, even if we feel unmotivated to make the art while we are going through a bad time, just trusting the process helps our mojo come back. And congratulations on getting your license!!! I too got mine at 30 , and I tell all the young women who dont drive "If I could do it you can too!". I dont enjoy driving to this day, but the independence and power it gives us women is amazing,. So proud of you 👏🏽👏🏽 Wishing you only the best for 2024, looking forward to what ever you choose to share of your journey, and wishing for Peace and an end to the horrible violence in the world. All the best to Ivo as well.

  • @HannaHHumpHreys
    @HannaHHumpHreys 8 місяців тому +6

    Even though I don't speak Spanish. It's so lovely hearing you speak in your mother tongue 😀 I can surely sense a larger ease that enfolds you. Thank you for your art. And well done on passing your license 🥳

  • @karenlorensen1567
    @karenlorensen1567 8 місяців тому +3

    You are not alone, I too have felt the immense grief of having a miscarriage…so happy you have come out the other side and enjoying life again!! Thankyou for sharing ❤️. There is something very therapeutic about watching you pack orders 😊 Congrats on being licensed to drive!! 👏🏻. Looking forward to the beautiful things you create in 2024…Happy Yule to you and yours 🌲

  • @katec9893
    @katec9893 8 місяців тому +3

    Caro this is probably my favourite video of yours because it is so real and authentic and heartfelt. I think online most of us only share our good times and it can feel like we're the only ones who are suffering. I'm so sorry about your miscarriage, that must have been really hard to experience physically and emotionally. My mental health has been pretty bad this year too after my beloved cat died, she was my best friend and also like my child. I wasn't able to do much as I had to focus on my mental health but slowly I have been keeping going.
    It's so great you passed your driving test, congrats. I have been inspired by you for years and finally did my first two markets a few weeks ago, I've been holding back for years due to fear. I'm currently doing a big life review after a lot of painful losses and I've just written out my goals. You make such a good point about how some goals can seem so scary, overwhelming an impossible but if we keep believing in ourselves and working towards them we can achieve them. Sending you love and peace for Christmas and New year from across the sea ❤️🍄🌟🎄

  • @pepavalenzuela3582
    @pepavalenzuela3582 8 місяців тому +3

    Carito, has sido tan compañera en estos últimos dos años. solo quería abrazarte con el corazón, gracias por compartir tu historia, la luz, la pena, los desafíos ñ. Mi 2023 fue muy difícil también y gracias al cielo también tengo mi botiquín de sanación, medidas de amor y autocuidado que me mantienen y rescatan. Quiero decirte que no estás sola y que somos muchas las que sentimos parecido. Te mando mucho amor y deseo para ti un año nuevo luminoso

  • @ChantelleArts
    @ChantelleArts 8 місяців тому +3

    I haven't seen flowers used like that in cooking! it's so pretty ❤❤

  • @lidialopezmartin
    @lidialopezmartin 8 місяців тому +11

    Carol, perder un bebé es todo un duelo, es muy fuerte, date tu tiempo y lloralo porque es bueno para ti. Estoy formándome como Doula y los abortos espontáneos nosotras lo tomamos como duelos que tenemos que respetar. Te mando un abrazo, me emocioné mucho al escucharte mientras cuentas en español, amo escucharte en español 🫂💚💜❤️

    • @ddia1959
      @ddia1959 8 місяців тому

      ❤❤❤❤❤

  • @marilynclayton3430
    @marilynclayton3430 8 місяців тому +3

    I agree that we need more space for sharing our light and also our shadow. It’s what makes up our lives as humans and you are one of the most beautiful and thoughtful humans. You inspire me. Happy holidays 🎄 I’m excited for my daughter to open her yoga mat on Christmas morning. Thank you for sharing your beautiful life shadow and all. 💚

  • @catb4629
    @catb4629 8 місяців тому +2

    Caro- thank you for always being so authentic, sharing your journeying with us, and inspiring others to do the same. Much love, Cat

  • @user-nw1et4im6o
    @user-nw1et4im6o 8 місяців тому +3

    Unas de mis herramientas favoritas dentro de la cajita que me ayuda cuando estoy mal, son tus videos, tus cursos y tu arte. Gracias ❤

  • @monikascheddel-pfaff6335
    @monikascheddel-pfaff6335 8 місяців тому +1

    Hey Caro, im so proud of you for Sharing. I have Depression since i was a child and know about the ups and Downs. Good for you that you gathered so many Spiritual techniques that are at service when you Need them. I am Not that positive and determined and can learn so many Things from you by watching you living your Artist and spiritual practices. Thank you so much, Take Care of yourself. With Love,
    Moni

  • @nadyartillustration
    @nadyartillustration 8 місяців тому +6

    Much love to you Caro, you are a big inspiration and a wonderful human being ❤ Although I don’t know Spanish (I read the titles :) I see how you come alive when speaking in your mother tongue :)! I’m so sorry to hear about your loss 😔 hugs, Nadya

  • @olkin85
    @olkin85 8 місяців тому +6

    Beautiful! ❤ Hehe I had to smile when you said sitting in the car: yes yes yes you can do anything! Big hug to you, resonate with the tough times this year and proud we made it!

  • @SacredSoulArt
    @SacredSoulArt 8 місяців тому +3

    Sending you so much love. ❤ I would say the same has happened this year for me in terms of being on a spiritual/healing journey for years and thinking I could get through anything now but this year I have felt anxiety/depression well up inside, something Ive not felt in years. Thank you for talking openly about it all. Sorry for your sadness💕. We are never alone even though it feels that way sometimes. Lots of love xxx PS your Spanish is just beautiful and I loved listening to it xx

  • @Camilabovo
    @Camilabovo 8 місяців тому +2

    You are so special! Hope you all the Best (brazilian protuguese: você é tão especial! Te espero tudo de melhor!)

  • @gabrielavargastelaya
    @gabrielavargastelaya 8 місяців тому +5

    Ay Caro! me identifico tanto con lo que cuentas, yo tuve una perdida el año pasado dentro de las primeras semanas y tampoco fue algo planeado pero claro que me afectó un montón la perdida, al inicio pensé que no, porque conscientemente pensaba que me sentía tranquila con la situación y que todo pasa por algo, pero como lo dices, quimicamente y energéticamente pasa algo en el cuerpo que nos cambia un montón, luego de eso también estuve muy deprimida y con una ansiedad que me superaba! muy muy fuerte, y tb tuve que buscar en mi "caja de herramientas" de todo lo que he trabajado en el pasado para ver como lograba ayudarme a salir de eso. Una de las cosas que me ayudó un montón fue estar cerca a mi familia, aunque siempre he sido muy independiente el estar de vuelta en casa de mis papas me ayudó a recuperarme mucho. Igual todos estamos en un proceso de crecer, cambiar y seguir curandonos todos los días. Te mando un abrazote inmenso y quería contarte lo mío porque al escucharte me sentí menos sola y espero esto ayude un poquito a sentirte más acompañada también. Abrazote fuerte y vienen muchas cosas bellas siempre :)

  • @jawarablake
    @jawarablake 8 місяців тому +2

    It has been a rough year. I appreciate your sharing. You are great.

  • @bichopalo7181
    @bichopalo7181 8 місяців тому +2

    Siento mucho tu pérdida, Caro. Gracias por tu generosidad al compartir tus luces y tus sombras (y tus aprendizajes), a los que estamos al otro lado de la pantalla nos ayuda a no sentirnos tan solos en nuestras propias batallas

  • @deborahmeyers551
    @deborahmeyers551 8 місяців тому +1

    Your tool box lives in your heart helping you ask what do I need from my tool box you have it's feedback it's blessing may you be healed Caro ❤

  • @aliseromeiko
    @aliseromeiko 8 місяців тому +2

    Congratulations on your driver's license! What a gem. Thank you for sharing everything and anything you shared this year. Wishing health and peace for you and your family and friends. Thank you so much for sharing about your experience of miscarriage, multiple of my friends went through this as well this year, so i appreciate you speaking up and just sharing. It is so important and i celebrate you. Lots of love from Riga Latvia.

  • @belencastellanos7748
    @belencastellanos7748 8 місяців тому +3

    Me encanta que el vídeo sea mitad inglés, mitad español❤ Me ayudas a practicar inglés además de motivarme a seguir con mí arte y ayudarme a ver la belleza de la vida❤ gracias!

  • @auntyvic
    @auntyvic 8 місяців тому +2

    Love hanging out with you on the internet ✨💕 no hay la luz sin lo oscuro.

  • @booksandroses1473
    @booksandroses1473 8 місяців тому +1

    Caro Congratulations on your driving licence, I am very proud of you!! 💚 Greetings from Austria, Love, Lisa

  • @marilynclayton3430
    @marilynclayton3430 8 місяців тому +1

    Love Andre 3000 I’ve been listening to him since day one💚

    • @Cafeinacoli
      @Cafeinacoli  8 місяців тому +1

      Same!! The Aquemini album was gifted to me back in 1999 by my cousin and it changed my world forever, Rosa Parks is my favorite Outkast song 🤍🤍

  • @anjajune6747
    @anjajune6747 8 місяців тому +2

    thank you for sharing your story. for me, it is as important as sharing your love for life, your high vibrational inspirations.. we need to hear how we are all cultivating that love for life, each and evey moment, even when things are not all light and love. in this society of success and achievement and fantastic images...we need to create spaces for healing stories.. otherwise i think we are only contributing to a mental health decline.. every healing story contains overcoming a struggle.. in the how is the key to a transformation. so thank you for sharing your how. much solstice blessings to you.

  • @themystikmana7516
    @themystikmana7516 8 місяців тому

    My love, as a mother now but one who lost her first child really early on- I pray that you use your creative gift to alchemize the grief and loss you’ve endured, allowing it to inspire your future creations. I know it’s so difficult to try not to build an emotional attachment when the seed was just conceived but that is life growing in your womb, you deserve and deserved to relish in all of the emotions that came up. When the time is right, I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO DOUBT you will be the most inspiring, down to earth, wild wombyn of a mother. I receive so much inspiration from you in how I choose to walk my path on earth connected with the elements and teaching my daughter the ways of the land. To many spirit babies are so woo woo but in my heart I know their life force still flutters around me reminding me they are well. I trust it was all divinely orchestrated - with that being said it does not make the grieving process any less tumultuous. Eye love you, Eye see you & Eye hear you. Sending you an abundance of love, inner strength, healing and resilience 🤎

  • @schmalbratze7632
    @schmalbratze7632 8 місяців тому +1

    I just realized the book "alchemy and mysticism" you have was the one written by my art professor who teached me my art skills :-)

  • @L_24678
    @L_24678 8 місяців тому +2

    Aw Caro I love you as in I understand you, you know as best as another human can. Brotherly love, sisterly love, Common humanity love, yep 👍 ❤

  • @Ananda.fineartist
    @Ananda.fineartist 8 місяців тому +2

    Than you for sharing this video! I’m going to pass driving exam next year! I’m also freaking out about that lol! Thanks for sharing this moment too 🥹🙏❤️ drive save and have a magical new year ✨

  • @ambercarlijn
    @ambercarlijn 8 місяців тому +1

    Just sending you all the love and light and thank you for your honesty/vulnerability, an inspiration! ❤❤ (and wow your license, that's also my biggest fear but dream at the same time as well, congrats!!!)

  • @ImaniTolliver
    @ImaniTolliver 8 місяців тому +1

    Sending light love! 💙🕊️

  • @fortunaastral
    @fortunaastral 8 місяців тому +1

    Lo siento mucho Caro. Thank you for sharing all of yourself.

  • @freshspiritworks4535
    @freshspiritworks4535 8 місяців тому +1

    Hi Caro - Hope you are looking forward to the new year.
    A few friends and I have been struggling with depression this year, lots if old thoughts coming up from childhood or other things coming up. Just offering there that there are things coming up that we haven't fulling dealt with or no longer serve us and it's our time to let them go. It sucks though in the meantime and I hope you mind and heart will ease.
    Very sorry about your loss as well. You are both blessed and a blessing to all of us.
    Merry Christmas to you both.
    Linda H

  • @bella619
    @bella619 8 місяців тому

    Deepest condolences to you, Caro, for your loss. And.
    Well done on getting your license!!!

  • @travelling2myself
    @travelling2myself 7 місяців тому +1

    Hermosa! wow gracias por compartir esto. creo que me siento super identificada contigo, en varios aspectos. Hay que ser valientes como tu y compartir o dejar salir todas esas emociones que a veces nos consumimos por el miedo a la vulnerabilidad. Gracias gracias. Hay tanto que quisiera compartir y no me atrevo, pero tu eres una de esas personas que inspiran hacerlo. Somos humanos y tenemos emociones que vivir, el contraste para poder expandirnos, y cuesta a veces muchas lagrimas, pero con las herramientas que mencionas, somos capaces de sobrellevarlo, y ahi es donde se ve todo los trabajos de 10 años. ay Eres Luz. Necesitaba escuchare esto. :) Gracias

  • @carliemichelle3110
    @carliemichelle3110 8 місяців тому +1

    Wishing you a beautiful new year and thank you for being an inspiration to me. And btw you always play that most beautiful music in your videos. ❤🥰

  • @rebkaro4437
    @rebkaro4437 7 місяців тому +1

    Sending all my love ❤🌺

  • @PurpleHazel
    @PurpleHazel 8 місяців тому +1

    Hi Caro! Your honesty touched me. I really wish you the best this year❤

  • @tinarieck322
    @tinarieck322 8 місяців тому

    I would give the advice to get a reusable ceramic pie baking form. 🥧 With time the form becomes a vessel for memories of previous pies and sharing with loved ones x

  • @creativityofcolor
    @creativityofcolor 8 місяців тому +2

    We love you

  • @itsemeliesabel
    @itsemeliesabel 8 місяців тому

    I loved listening to your Spanish! More of this 🙌❤️ sending lots of love!

  • @garnellwallace5594
    @garnellwallace5594 8 місяців тому +1

    Sending you love♥

  • @hofma119
    @hofma119 8 місяців тому +1

    Lots of love!!

  • @user-wz4nn5et3j
    @user-wz4nn5et3j 8 місяців тому +3

    いつも あなたの動画を見て気持ちを癒やしております❤
    ココアセレモニーを知って 日本でささやかに見様見真似でやっております✨
    これからも 楽しみにしてます☺💕

  • @vivicorra8022
    @vivicorra8022 8 місяців тому +2

    Hola Caro, mi corazón y sentimientos están con vos, al escucharte decir lo que te ha sucedido, hace algunos años me sucedió lo mismo, dos veces, y tambien quiero creer que estuve embarazada auque fuera un par de mes, es muy doloroso y triste pero se sigue, mis problemas de hormonas y de ovarios impidieron que llegaran bebes, pero vos sos joven y fuerte seguro, con algunos estudios y analisis ginecologicos pronto va llegar ese hermosa noticia de un bebe!!!, que va ha tener un montón de tías del corazón de todo el mundo!!! a no decaer Caro, eres muy vital y positiva!!! Te deseo todo lo mejor y exitos!!! Beso y cuidate mucho, soy Vivi desde la Argentina, ❤🥰

    • @Cafeinacoli
      @Cafeinacoli  8 місяців тому

      Mandándote muchísimo amor Viviiii 🤍🫶🏽✨

  • @maxineoliver7404
    @maxineoliver7404 8 місяців тому

    Happy Holidays!!🎄

  • @Wie-gt7if
    @Wie-gt7if 8 місяців тому

    Hi Caro, love your vlogs as always. Thank you for sharing and also speaking up on more difficult topics! ❤ Since you mentioned that you listen to Andre 3000 (whoms music I really like) - do you have a playlist you might be interested to share? I always appreciate new music but I also know that it can be a personal thing. Wishing you a great 2024 and thank you for all your work ☺☺

  • @dianaclaramendoza9545
    @dianaclaramendoza9545 8 місяців тому

    Carooo, happy holidays. ❤ I am just curious, what printer and ink do you use in printing prints? Thank you! Congrats on your shop update, many more to come! Thank you for making us all a witness of your life, your passion and your art, you inspire me a lot. ✨️

  • @SabinePint
    @SabinePint 8 місяців тому +1

    💚

  • @The111anna
    @The111anna 8 місяців тому +1

    Dear Caro,
    I'd like to say...about your loss... I also know what you're talking about, even though I had a miscarriage after only 5 weeks of being pregnant, I also felt sad because I already got inspired that I'm going to have a baby... This was almost 10 years ago when I just got married. Then I thought: ok, maybe it's not the right time for us yet and didn't do anything about it. Unfortunately. And now I regret it a little bit, that I didn't address the possible issues that I know of now. Now, 10 years later, we're planning a baby but...haven't succeeded yet. I wish you to have a healthy baby in the future when there's time for your family and if there're any issues you know of now regarding why this happened, I wish everything will be all right! Lots of love to you and THANK YOU for the wonderful videos and thoughts you share.
    Anna

  • @Manifesting_Secret_Sketchbook
    @Manifesting_Secret_Sketchbook 8 місяців тому +1

    Hey there. First of all i am fascinated that your background is Peruvian. And i have considered going there. Secondly very sorry to hear of your miscarraige., its IMPORTANT to talk about this as its effecting you and we appreciate you letting us into your life. not sure if this will give you some reassurance but you will always be the mother of that pregnancy, nobody can take that away from you. hey will be waiting for you in the next life/ dimension so you will see him/ her/ them again. Those foerus/ babies keep growing in the next life while you are here in this one.
    PEACE and Love from another Artist in England UK

  • @1_awkwardgeek
    @1_awkwardgeek 8 місяців тому +1

    ❤❤❤

  • @summerboyce2387
    @summerboyce2387 8 місяців тому +1

  • @canelacanela4339
    @canelacanela4339 8 місяців тому

    Caro ❤

  • @BNeron
    @BNeron 8 місяців тому

    Because I’ve had several, I researched a lot (still process emotions of course) but I wanted to let you know that the body will only reject a fetus because it’s smart enough to know something about it won’t survive. So if you’ve ever had one, it’s because the body decided that fetus wasn’t fit to survive out in the world, usually for a health reason which can be from any number of ancestors. I trust the spiritual reasons as well, such as a perosn or situation not being ready. However I wanted to add this for anyone who thinks it their fault(drinking, drugs and other things aside) that it is most certainly not. ❤ love sent to you and luck for a healthy fetus : work on your bodies health if neither apply

    • @BNeron
      @BNeron 8 місяців тому

      With regards to specific drugs I did take pure E before getting fully pregnant the first time, I believe it opened me up to the experience. As well as during my second, in the breastfeeding journey; I micro-dosed a lot which led to some very special reconnection with myself and my children and also with my situation and my child also seemed to be extra intelligent which a lot of microdosing moms do report. So I don’t mean those drugs when I say hampering the Process. I also used marijuana at that time almost every day. Which I don’t exactly think is best but I did do.
      Just a note on the drugs section. It depends on the person and the ally. We all have completely unique chemistry.

  • @ebvisionnetwork8758
    @ebvisionnetwork8758 6 місяців тому +1

    This is my first time coming across your videos/ just wondering was it difficult to speak in English. I really enjoyed your first video I watched even sent it to my daughter.

    • @Cafeinacoli
      @Cafeinacoli  6 місяців тому

      hiii and welcome! i learned english in middle and high school in peru, moving to the US 10 years ago has definitely help me "think more" in english than I used to, but I still have to first think in spanish, then translate on my brain and then speak english, so even though the whole translation is still happening and I feel I am getting better and faster at it, I feel it is an ongoing journey :)

  • @maeliduval5956
    @maeliduval5956 8 місяців тому

    ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @alkhemiegypt
    @alkhemiegypt 8 місяців тому

    Congratulations on getting your driving licence! 😀👍

  • @sockerplommon
    @sockerplommon 8 місяців тому

    ❤❤❤

  • @cendrinerey5756
    @cendrinerey5756 8 місяців тому