I love when you show us your repeating challenges throughout the week 😘 Please do more in the future! I love your comments in between and the long videos are great when I’m eating and trying to distract myself. You’re so cute and pleasant to watch ! Thank you for your videos 🦄
I know you may not see this, but i just wanted to personally thank you for changing my life and motivating me to start recovery. A few weeks ago i watched your “10 aha moments” video and it acted as a wake up call to me that i do NOT want to spend the rest of my life like this and that i need to take action. since then, i’ve been challenging myself like crazy and trying to force myself to do as many opposite actions as possible. i’m really grateful for your insight and for you sharing the advice of your therapist as well. you’ve really inspired me and your words have genuinely changed my life for the better. thank you
Also could you please please do a video on eating when you no longer are underweight... I realise and understand food is not only for people in recovery .. but often I wonder how much is enough for my body and I’m afraid of over doing it and being actually unhealthy for my body... like , will choosing higher calorie foods not make me gain weight when I am at a healthy weight Like how much is a normal amount of food for someone who doesn’t need to gain weight anymore ? Xx Sorry my head is messed up and constantly have these thoughts sometimes xxx
Anna Lynch Eat to your appetite and have the scary foods, your body won’t gain forever and it’ll settle on it’s set weight that it feels happy at, even eating these foods and eating without restriction. Trust your body ❤️
Loren G Thank you for your response xx I don’t want to sound rude , but I can’t help but wonder , why do people become obese then? If we all have a set weight , and should be able to eat unrestricted and free , why do people get to an unhealthy state? I hope I make sense and don’t come of as ignorant or rude x
@@annalynch7987 I have had the same question before. My mom is really overweight but when I see her eat it doesn't look like an abnormal amount. So, I think, well she's eating that and is really big. If I eat it I will get really big too.
You can put it so clearly into words what I am experiencing too! Food always has to be perfect otherwise it feels like wasted calories. The right temperature, the perfect flavor, the best quality etc. That ED thing is really controlling so much of my life and makes me still so unfree! Thank you so much for showing us how you are trying to break these habits, it really motivates me to break myself free from these ED chains myself. Good job Meg!
You do a terrific job of vocalizing the weird world of eating disorder food rules. My husband pointed out that when I get a sweet like a cookie, I always ask if he wants one. He asked me if I was doing that to justify my having a cookie. I actually had not thought of that, but I think he's right! I'm recovered, but have a few weird lurking eating disorder-ish thoughts. Here's one: I can have a muffin for breakfast without batting an eye, but if I have cookies (which I frequently do by the way), which have just as much sugar and butter, I tend to think it's less healthy or "bad." These thoughts don't stop me anymore, but I do have them. Weird. Go you for continuing to challenge your last few rules.
Friend of Terese how did you get past fear of weight gain after all your years of ED? I am really struggling to even try to commit to weight gain. I see Megsy's struggle after a year and worry that being heavier but still disordered must be worst of both world's??
@@catherineskeates8018 Hi Catherine. It's a very gradual process that takes a great deal of patience and self love. One day at a time! I slowly went over the weight I always thought was the absolute heaviest I could ever weigh, noticed that nothing terrible happened, that my husband still loved me, and the world kept turning. I don't weigh myself unless I'm concerned I've LOST weight, otherwise, I just let myself weigh what I weigh. It's a different journey for everyone, so please be compassionate and patient with yourself. Someone may be recovered in 6 months, someone else it may take years. Gradual, consistent progress is the key, not perfection. Keep challenging your food rules, trust in the process, and you will see for yourself the freedom that comes. Oh, and just a side note, you know how all your weight comes in your tummy at first? That eventually evens out. I didn't believe it when people said that, and I thought I would always have this huge tummy and stick arms, but it all evened out and I'm pretty symmetrical. Wishing you all the best!!
@@friendoftherese1 thank you. Yes after 35 years I must not expect a quick result. Will try Tabitha Faraars mantra of actually "committing" to weight gain....it's just so scary after being underweight for so long-a whole belief system there that I didn't even realise governs my thinking. X
You know what I fucking love about you? That you feel the fear and do it anyway. You have come so far in your journey - I'm not referring to appearance btw - all the behaviours, rituals and thoughts that you've challenged time and time again until they are far less intrusive. THAT, is something you should be so proud of. Yeah recovery involves weight increase, but it's so nice to have someone who focuses more so on the mental side of recovery and pushing the boundaries in order to eliminate fears. Cos if we don't 'mayo/latte/baked item/cheese repeat' then we'll never truly become free with food. Also love how you do address other things like coping with weight gain/restoration and a changing body, as for so many of us this is what makes us either go forward with fear, or backward to safety. Ngl, I'm super scared of how I'm going to look after gaining weight in a short period of time but you know what? Fuck it, cos like you, I'll be a Liv sized Liv and nothing else matters. X
Thank you so much for this video. I really admire your honesty and bravery. It’s hard to fight our fears but we must if we’re to fully recover. I’ve realised that the more fear foods I can overcome, the more choice I will have day-to-day, and when I’m in social situations. Plus, the more foods I can eat, the more interesting meals and snacks l can create! I wondered if you’d tried real mayo with tuna and sweetcorn? It’s lovely in a bagel/sandwich/wrap and also on a jacket potato or stirred through warm pasta :) I also wanted to let you know that I’m going much better with the larger portion of porridge for breakfast. I’ve been doing it for nine days now and it’s definitely got easier... no wobbly legs now! Good luck with continuing to challenge your remaining fear foods! You can do it! Thank you for inspiring us all. Also, your ear piercing looks fab! I’ve been wanting to have a second ear piercing for a while but couldn’t quite face it. I’m feeling a little braver now after seeing you do it! Well done to you! Lots of love, D xx 🌻
you look amazing and soooo gorgeous meg!! 🤩 i was super excited to see you upload a new video!💕💕 love your videos and you are the most relateable EVER! love you so much!! oh and you have the cutest cats in the world😻😻😻
The ice cream situation in the supermarket is soooo me!!! 🙈😂 This shows exactly how many rules the Ed makes up for us and none of them make sense!!!! (so why)?!! Just bugger off anorexia!! So super proud of you for challenging your fear 💪💪💪 and that you preferred the taste 🙌🙌🙌 Real mayo is something that I fear. I can handle it in a pre packed sandwich or something, but putting it on stuff myself is currently a no no. However I have to have Subway for lunch at work sometimes and never choose it, just automatically say 'no' but thinking next time I might try it with mayo!! Thank you so much for inspiring me in this video (as always)!!!!! No, don't challenge, repeat the piercings, lol😂😂😂❤️❤️❤️ Everyone needs a Brendan in their life to shut down the anorexia. Love his casual, no nonsense response!! 💯👌
Clare Watt omg good for you!!!! I really hope you can do it, that’s the exact way I first challenged it, spontaneously at subway! Hard bit now is to keep repeating because it still feels horrible & wrong 🙈
@@megsyrecovery191 bless you. Yes challenge, repeat, challenge, repeat. Honestly we can do this 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻❤️❤️❤️ I will let you know how I get on with the 'Subway'!! Once again, thank you so much for the inspiration!!!!!!! Have been trying to think of other ways to introduce it gradually before commiting to buying an actual jar for myself! (although that squeezable bottle looked like an easier step before the jar) again, inspired by you Meg!! 🙏🏻❤️😊 Xx
Your cats are precious. I love how you are challenging your ED so consistently. Mayo isn’t so scary for me but with the foods I have fears of my biggest problem is I tend to compensate. I’m trying to avoid that. It doesn’t help that most recovery programs are very obsessed with healthy food like quinoa bowls (which make my IBS worse).
Well done on continuing to challenge your fear foods!! I find it so interesting that you've had this need for food to be perfect, because I've found it easier to eat food that wasn't perfect, that wasn't super good or my favorite, because I felt like I didn't deserve good food. In treatment I always just wanted bland food that wasn't special in any way, and freaked out if we got food that was "better" in some way, or maybe a favorite food from when I was a child. I also had this really weird thing that I didn't allow myself to toast my bread, because that would make it better to eat, and I didn't deserve that, so I just jealously watched the other girls toast their breads and ate mine cold. So weird, ED rules make no sense sometimes! Anyway, I love your videos, and it's so inspiring to see you keep challenging your fear foods despite anxiety!
I recently went on a family holiday and struggled so much with comparing the amount I ate to the amount my brother ate and also the amount of walking and swimming my brother did compared to me and it was actually such a struggle 😫 nearly had a meltdown one day because it was lunchtime and no one was getting anything and my mum convinced me to get a muffin and I thought we were all having muffins but when I realised my brother wasn’t having anything I caved and cancelled my order and went around hangry all day. Comparison is definitely the thing I struggle the most with. Your videos and all your little tips and stuff have really been helping me recently you’re so inspiring xx
Allie O’Connor so glad they can help. I always think to myself “different bodies, different paths”. My body doesn’t give a shit what some one else is or isn’t having, it just knows it wants & needs food. End of. 😚
You should be so proud of yourself. The whole matching your calories with Brendans resonated with me so much, I find myself trying to match mine to my fiancés all the time, I will even text him when we are both at work to see what he has had for lunch so I can see what I will allow myself. Its something I really struggle with and would be something I really need to challenge. I love all your videos! x
@@AngelicasRecovery it's horrible and can be so destructive because if he has skipped lunch or not had a lot I can get angry at him and he literally has done nothing wrong or if I can't get into contact with him I go into an anxiety spiral because I can't pick what to eat... bad times. x
Such a helpful video thank you so much!! I love it when Brendan is the rational voice, the things he says to you are awesome!! When you’re doing these challenges how do you fight the thoughts telling you to compensate? When you had the latte before the mayo did you still have morning snack because the urges to skip it would’ve been so strong and although Brendan is totally right a latte has nothing to do with it I just find things like that so hard not to not compensate😅
OMG Megggs!!!! The ICE-CREAM(s) xD Mayo, my second fear... post butter and ready "nuddles"... (the ramen). NO MORE "food" ALLOWENCE :) Btw, I adored Aladin too
I convinced myself that I HATED mayo. I had ate it a bit when I was a kid but was kind of picky back then. Once my ED started then I refused to eat it for very different reasons. Only recently did I try it when I was in Belgium (they serve it with chips). I justified it because I was backpacking with friends and I was allowed but since then I have been trying to allow myself to have mayo at home because I realized that I actually do enjoy it. I just still feel very guilty for enjoying it but I hope that will pass. Great video!
Hi Megsy xx an amazing video( as always) I was just wondering how can you differ an eating disorder thought from your own thoughts ... I often when going to choose stuff try and challenge myself to pick the higher calorie food item then something of the same type , however when I choose it , I often wonder , what if I was to choose the lower calorie one.. would it really have an impact, would I mind... Sometimes I find it hard to figure out is it my anorexia telling me something or just simply my body... xxx
Yes, feel scared and to it anyway! Do you think you will find it different when it comes to spooning it out of a jar? Seeing this process is so good. This really highlighted to me how I too find it harder to have certain things if it means choosing it myself, rather than someone else. Once again you hit the nail on the head. The 'earned, burned, deserved' encapsulates really well what can paralyse us with anxiety. p.s. your dresses really suit you! I love your fashion sense.
H yeh weirdly I do think I will find it harder out the jar. But just having it anyway is good practice I’m sure. This dress was Forever 21, I’m loving dresses & skirts at the moment
You’re the best I wish I can be brave like you. I’m trying but I always fail And hating my self more. I have bulimia and I can’t stop I can’t afford a dr and it’s getting worse Thank you for all you’re doing please keep making videos they’re helping me a lot 🥰love you
Do you have a way to find out what is a fear food that you actually like and what is a food you genuinely dislike? I struggled with that a lot. Eg, I am now certain I don't like caramel, fudge, marshmallow, candy, etc because it is too sweet for my tastes. As a child I used to scrape icing sugar icing off cake for that reason. I do love fries and mayo and I do prefer fried dumplings over boiled (took a while until I accepted that one). How do we tell after banning so much?
For me it's just about giving food multiple chances over time in different contexts, so if I try it like five times and I like it none then maybe I dont like it for real (but I might still try again in a couple of months just to check)
Hi Meg! Thank you so much for everything you share. How have you been feeling physically through recovery? Like you I have been dealing with this for years and am in recovery now, and I feel so extremely horrible. Dizziness nausea , brain fog, fatigue and the list goes on. If you've experienced the same, has it gotten better? When? I'm so exhausted..
hey meg! i just wanted to say thank you for the 'no compensation' mantra. i've been repeating it to myself recently because i realised that i was still compensating after some meals/foods. it's so useful! also, nice job on the mayo! i hope it gets easier for you soon. also also, your cats are so gorgeous!
I'm struggling so bad. I live in chronic pain. Have osteoarthritis and degenerative disc disease. Have a herniated disc in my lower back and two bulging discs in my neck. Its left me feeling neausous all the time. And now I have really bad food anxiety. I've lost soooò much weigh. Been to my dr and got high calorie drinks . But I'm still loosing weight. I just have no appetite. I'm down to 43kgs
may i ask? how are you with cheese toasties/cheese in general nowadays? i know that was one of your challenges in the past, and i was wondering how much progress was made (if you're okay with saying)
I used to eat the extra light shit mayo that tasted of water and disappointment and would end up eating so much of it as it was so... nothing. Real mayo has a thousand times more taste and a 'normal' amount is actually satisfying so I no longer have to drown my food! Fats are healthy :)
First time in Macdonalds this morning after 15y with egg and baken macmuffin. And it wasnt even that bad, went there, ate it and forgot about it. I did check the nutritional info so that's the next stage of challanges but still.... 💪and i will challange it again and repeat, food is just food. Thanks Meg :)
Hi Meg, love your content and videos! :) May I ask, where did you get the cute Starbucks cup? Did you buy it from a Starbucks shop or did you get it somewhere else? :) I've been looking for a Starbucks cup like this one for a while now :) Many thanks!
Just went to the shop and bought mayo because of yoooou! It's so hard when the light and extra light one are just sitting next to it on the shelf, it's like we'll I may as well get this and I'll just be a bit more chilled and feel less guilty...no! Being chilled in recovery usually means restriction. Ok I'll stop this written monologue...😆
Jen Toomey yayyyy well done you 👏 I agree, & also I’m such a believer in having the ability to have anything. That’s why I’m trying to face all the last fears I’ve got, even if they seem small & they don’t get in the way too much. Can’t just be a little bit eating disordered so 🤷♀️
Stevie named after Stevie Nicks, I'm guessing? Thanks for this. I still eat no fat mayo as a 'safe' salad dressing. This is probably something I should address.....
This is fantastic because real mayo is 100 % better tasting than any low fat alternative. My grandma used to make our own out of our chicken eggs and it was tasty! And ummm when it comes to fat ... isn’t that sort of the point of mayo?! It’s supposed to have fat and therefore add satisfaction and yummyness to food. Low fat mayo doesn’t make sense and they just put other junk in there to make up for not adding enough eggs and oil. Maybe they add more sugar? Never ever rip yourself off with the low fat garbage.
I love when you show us your repeating challenges throughout the week 😘 Please do more in the future! I love your comments in between and the long videos are great when I’m eating and trying to distract myself. You’re so cute and pleasant to watch ! Thank you for your videos 🦄
I know you may not see this, but i just wanted to personally thank you for changing my life and motivating me to start recovery. A few weeks ago i watched your “10 aha moments” video and it acted as a wake up call to me that i do NOT want to spend the rest of my life like this and that i need to take action. since then, i’ve been challenging myself like crazy and trying to force myself to do as many opposite actions as possible. i’m really grateful for your insight and for you sharing the advice of your therapist as well. you’ve really inspired me and your words have genuinely changed my life for the better. thank you
You're such a stunner Meg! So in love with your videos and courage. It warms my heart, keep going x
Also could you please please do a video on eating when you no longer are underweight...
I realise and understand food is not only for people in recovery ..
but often I wonder how much is enough for my body and I’m afraid of over doing it and being actually unhealthy for my body...
like , will choosing higher calorie foods not make me gain weight when I am at a healthy weight
Like how much is a normal amount of food for someone who doesn’t need to gain weight anymore ? Xx
Sorry my head is messed up and constantly have these thoughts sometimes xxx
Anna Lynch this is a great idea!
Good idea!
Anna Lynch Eat to your appetite and have the scary foods, your body won’t gain forever and it’ll settle on it’s set weight that it feels happy at, even eating these foods and eating without restriction. Trust your body ❤️
Loren G Thank you for your response xx
I don’t want to sound rude , but I can’t help but wonder , why do people become obese then? If we all have a set weight , and should be able to eat unrestricted and free , why do people get to an unhealthy state? I hope I make sense and don’t come of as ignorant or rude x
@@annalynch7987 I have had the same question before. My mom is really overweight but when I see her eat it doesn't look like an abnormal amount. So, I think, well she's eating that and is really big. If I eat it I will get really big too.
You can put it so clearly into words what I am experiencing too! Food always has to be perfect otherwise it feels like wasted calories. The right temperature, the perfect flavor, the best quality etc. That ED thing is really controlling so much of my life and makes me still so unfree! Thank you so much for showing us how you are trying to break these habits, it really motivates me to break myself free from these ED chains myself. Good job Meg!
You do a terrific job of vocalizing the weird world of eating disorder food rules. My husband pointed out that when I get a sweet like a cookie, I always ask if he wants one. He asked me if I was doing that to justify my having a cookie. I actually had not thought of that, but I think he's right! I'm recovered, but have a few weird lurking eating disorder-ish thoughts. Here's one: I can have a muffin for breakfast without batting an eye, but if I have cookies (which I frequently do by the way), which have just as much sugar and butter, I tend to think it's less healthy or "bad." These thoughts don't stop me anymore, but I do have them. Weird. Go you for continuing to challenge your last few rules.
Friend of Terese how did you get past fear of weight gain after all your years of ED? I am really struggling to even try to commit to weight gain. I see Megsy's struggle after a year and worry that being heavier but still disordered must be worst of both world's??
@@catherineskeates8018 Hi Catherine. It's a very gradual process that takes a great deal of patience and self love. One day at a time! I slowly went over the weight I always thought was the absolute heaviest I could ever weigh, noticed that nothing terrible happened, that my husband still loved me, and the world kept turning. I don't weigh myself unless I'm concerned I've LOST weight, otherwise, I just let myself weigh what I weigh. It's a different journey for everyone, so please be compassionate and patient with yourself. Someone may be recovered in 6 months, someone else it may take years. Gradual, consistent progress is the key, not perfection. Keep challenging your food rules, trust in the process, and you will see for yourself the freedom that comes. Oh, and just a side note, you know how all your weight comes in your tummy at first? That eventually evens out. I didn't believe it when people said that, and I thought I would always have this huge tummy and stick arms, but it all evened out and I'm pretty symmetrical. Wishing you all the best!!
@@friendoftherese1 thank you. Yes after 35 years I must not expect a quick result. Will try Tabitha Faraars mantra of actually "committing" to weight gain....it's just so scary after being underweight for so long-a whole belief system there that I didn't even realise governs my thinking. X
You know what I fucking love about you? That you feel the fear and do it anyway. You have come so far in your journey - I'm not referring to appearance btw - all the behaviours, rituals and thoughts that you've challenged time and time again until they are far less intrusive. THAT, is something you should be so proud of. Yeah recovery involves weight increase, but it's so nice to have someone who focuses more so on the mental side of recovery and pushing the boundaries in order to eliminate fears. Cos if we don't 'mayo/latte/baked item/cheese repeat' then we'll never truly become free with food. Also love how you do address other things like coping with weight gain/restoration and a changing body, as for so many of us this is what makes us either go forward with fear, or backward to safety. Ngl, I'm super scared of how I'm going to look after gaining weight in a short period of time but you know what? Fuck it, cos like you, I'll be a Liv sized Liv and nothing else matters. X
i looooooove it when you upload a new video, i find all of them helpful! it also makes me happy seeing your progress, you go girl 👏
Thank you so much for this video. I really admire your honesty and bravery. It’s hard to fight our fears but we must if we’re to fully recover. I’ve realised that the more fear foods I can overcome, the more choice I will have day-to-day, and when I’m in social situations. Plus, the more foods I can eat, the more interesting meals and snacks l can create!
I wondered if you’d tried real mayo with tuna and sweetcorn? It’s lovely in a bagel/sandwich/wrap and also on a jacket potato or stirred through warm pasta :)
I also wanted to let you know that I’m going much better with the larger portion of porridge for breakfast. I’ve been doing it for nine days now and it’s definitely got easier... no wobbly legs now!
Good luck with continuing to challenge your remaining fear foods! You can do it! Thank you for inspiring us all. Also, your ear piercing looks fab! I’ve been wanting to have a second ear piercing for a while but couldn’t quite face it. I’m feeling a little braver now after seeing you do it! Well done to you!
Lots of love, D xx 🌻
you look amazing and soooo gorgeous meg!! 🤩 i was super excited to see you upload a new video!💕💕 love your videos and you are the most relateable EVER! love you so much!! oh and you have the cutest cats in the world😻😻😻
I have no idea what I would do without these videos!!
you are so totally relateable! My fears/thoughts are the same. Thanks for talking through it all. its so helpful!
The ice cream situation in the supermarket is soooo me!!! 🙈😂
This shows exactly how many rules the Ed makes up for us and none of them make sense!!!! (so why)?!! Just bugger off anorexia!!
So super proud of you for challenging your fear 💪💪💪 and that you preferred the taste 🙌🙌🙌
Real mayo is something that I fear. I can handle it in a pre packed sandwich or something, but putting it on stuff myself is currently a no no. However I have to have Subway for lunch at work sometimes and never choose it, just automatically say 'no' but thinking next time I might try it with mayo!! Thank you so much for inspiring me in this video (as always)!!!!!
No, don't challenge, repeat the piercings, lol😂😂😂❤️❤️❤️
Everyone needs a Brendan in their life to shut down the anorexia. Love his casual, no nonsense response!! 💯👌
Clare Watt omg good for you!!!! I really hope you can do it, that’s the exact way I first challenged it, spontaneously at subway! Hard bit now is to keep repeating because it still feels horrible & wrong 🙈
@@megsyrecovery191 bless you. Yes challenge, repeat, challenge, repeat. Honestly we can do this 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻❤️❤️❤️ I will let you know how I get on with the 'Subway'!! Once again, thank you so much for the inspiration!!!!!!! Have been trying to think of other ways to introduce it gradually before commiting to buying an actual jar for myself! (although that squeezable bottle looked like an easier step before the jar) again, inspired by you Meg!! 🙏🏻❤️😊 Xx
Your cats are precious. I love how you are challenging your ED so consistently. Mayo isn’t so scary for me but with the foods I have fears of my biggest problem is I tend to compensate. I’m trying to avoid that. It doesn’t help that most recovery programs are very obsessed with healthy food like quinoa bowls (which make my IBS worse).
I missed youuu. Really good video, as always no matter what!!
Well done on continuing to challenge your fear foods!! I find it so interesting that you've had this need for food to be perfect, because I've found it easier to eat food that wasn't perfect, that wasn't super good or my favorite, because I felt like I didn't deserve good food. In treatment I always just wanted bland food that wasn't special in any way, and freaked out if we got food that was "better" in some way, or maybe a favorite food from when I was a child. I also had this really weird thing that I didn't allow myself to toast my bread, because that would make it better to eat, and I didn't deserve that, so I just jealously watched the other girls toast their breads and ate mine cold. So weird, ED rules make no sense sometimes!
Anyway, I love your videos, and it's so inspiring to see you keep challenging your fear foods despite anxiety!
I recently went on a family holiday and struggled so much with comparing the amount I ate to the amount my brother ate and also the amount of walking and swimming my brother did compared to me and it was actually such a struggle 😫 nearly had a meltdown one day because it was lunchtime and no one was getting anything and my mum convinced me to get a muffin and I thought we were all having muffins but when I realised my brother wasn’t having anything I caved and cancelled my order and went around hangry all day. Comparison is definitely the thing I struggle the most with. Your videos and all your little tips and stuff have really been helping me recently you’re so inspiring xx
Allie O’Connor so glad they can help. I always think to myself “different bodies, different paths”. My body doesn’t give a shit what some one else is or isn’t having, it just knows it wants & needs food. End of. 😚
Meg your hair looks so long and luscious in this vid 😻🙌🏻
Gosh can relate a lot to your thoughts, ED loves rules it will search for anything. You are so real and authentic thank you!
You should be so proud of yourself. The whole matching your calories with Brendans resonated with me so much, I find myself trying to match mine to my fiancés all the time, I will even text him when we are both at work to see what he has had for lunch so I can see what I will allow myself. Its something I really struggle with and would be something I really need to challenge. I love all your videos! x
Sarah Cummings ugh I do this to sometimes
@@AngelicasRecovery it's horrible and can be so destructive because if he has skipped lunch or not had a lot I can get angry at him and he literally has done nothing wrong or if I can't get into contact with him I go into an anxiety spiral because I can't pick what to eat... bad times. x
Such a helpful video thank you so much!! I love it when Brendan is the rational voice, the things he says to you are awesome!! When you’re doing these challenges how do you fight the thoughts telling you to compensate? When you had the latte before the mayo did you still have morning snack because the urges to skip it would’ve been so strong and although Brendan is totally right a latte has nothing to do with it I just find things like that so hard not to not compensate😅
OMG Megggs!!!! The ICE-CREAM(s) xD Mayo, my second fear... post butter and ready "nuddles"... (the ramen). NO MORE "food" ALLOWENCE :) Btw, I adored Aladin too
Yesss Meg well done! I'm always so happy when you upload a video, they're so so inspiring each time thank you so much!!!
I convinced myself that I HATED mayo. I had ate it a bit when I was a kid but was kind of picky back then. Once my ED started then I refused to eat it for very different reasons. Only recently did I try it when I was in Belgium (they serve it with chips). I justified it because I was backpacking with friends and I was allowed but since then I have been trying to allow myself to have mayo at home because I realized that I actually do enjoy it. I just still feel very guilty for enjoying it but I hope that will pass. Great video!
Hi Megsy xx an amazing video( as always)
I was just wondering how can you differ an eating disorder thought from your own thoughts ...
I often when going to choose stuff try and challenge myself to pick the higher calorie food item then something of the same type , however when I choose it , I often wonder , what if I was to choose the lower calorie one.. would it really have an impact, would I mind...
Sometimes I find it hard to figure out is it my anorexia telling me something or just simply my body... xxx
Soooo courageous!! Wow I am in awe! Some day I'll be able to do it too 💪
"Nomnomnom I'll eat all the mayo" is my new inspirational quote! That was the cutest! 😍
Yes, feel scared and to it anyway! Do you think you will find it different when it comes to spooning it out of a jar? Seeing this process is so good. This really highlighted to me how I too find it harder to have certain things if it means choosing it myself, rather than someone else. Once again you hit the nail on the head. The 'earned, burned, deserved' encapsulates really well what can paralyse us with anxiety. p.s. your dresses really suit you! I love your fashion sense.
H yeh weirdly I do think I will find it harder out the jar. But just having it anyway is good practice I’m sure. This dress was Forever 21, I’m loving dresses & skirts at the moment
@@megsyrecovery191 Me too, I've rarely worn trousers since I first started recovery *cough* 9 years ago.
Forever proud of you. ❤️
You’re the best I wish I can be brave like you. I’m trying but I always fail
And hating my self more. I have bulimia and I can’t stop I can’t afford a dr and it’s getting worse
Thank you for all you’re doing please keep making videos they’re helping me a lot 🥰love you
Do you have a way to find out what is a fear food that you actually like and what is a food you genuinely dislike? I struggled with that a lot. Eg, I am now certain I don't like caramel, fudge, marshmallow, candy, etc because it is too sweet for my tastes. As a child I used to scrape icing sugar icing off cake for that reason. I do love fries and mayo and I do prefer fried dumplings over boiled (took a while until I accepted that one). How do we tell after banning so much?
For me it's just about giving food multiple chances over time in different contexts, so if I try it like five times and I like it none then maybe I dont like it for real (but I might still try again in a couple of months just to check)
Hi Meg! Thank you so much for everything you share. How have you been feeling physically through recovery? Like you I have been dealing with this for years and am in recovery now, and I feel so extremely horrible. Dizziness nausea , brain fog, fatigue and the list goes on. If you've experienced the same, has it gotten better? When? I'm so exhausted..
hey meg! i just wanted to say thank you for the 'no compensation' mantra. i've been repeating it to myself recently because i realised that i was still compensating after some meals/foods. it's so useful!
also, nice job on the mayo! i hope it gets easier for you soon.
also also, your cats are so gorgeous!
I'm struggling so bad. I live in chronic pain. Have osteoarthritis and degenerative disc disease. Have a herniated disc in my lower back and two bulging discs in my neck. Its left me feeling neausous all the time. And now I have really bad food anxiety. I've lost soooò much weigh. Been to my dr and got high calorie drinks . But I'm still loosing weight. I just have no appetite. I'm down to 43kgs
I’m in recovery too but I never ever liked mayo.. not even as a kid
may i ask? how are you with cheese toasties/cheese in general nowadays? i know that was one of your challenges in the past, and i was wondering how much progress was made (if you're okay with saying)
alexandra I’m curious too n
Well done!! I hope you don’t mind me asking- do you never butter your bread/bagels/etc. ? ❤️
I used to eat the extra light shit mayo that tasted of water and disappointment and would end up eating so much of it as it was so... nothing. Real mayo has a thousand times more taste and a 'normal' amount is actually satisfying so I no longer have to drown my food! Fats are healthy :)
Exactly! Less fillers etc used in ingrediants too 💖
First time in Macdonalds this morning after 15y with egg and baken macmuffin. And it wasnt even that bad, went there, ate it and forgot about it. I did check the nutritional info so that's the next stage of challanges but still.... 💪and i will challange it again and repeat, food is just food. Thanks Meg :)
do you get ur cats cut like that? (I really like them)
Meg your tiny are you still progressing well? Do you think if your near recovery you will UA-cam your life instead? Vlogs etc x
i LOVE that dress !! you always have such cute outfits, where do you shop ?
I put goat cheese on my dinner tonight, and it was SO GOOD!!
Hi Meg, love your content and videos! :) May I ask, where did you get the cute Starbucks cup? Did you buy it from a Starbucks shop or did you get it somewhere else? :) I've been looking for a Starbucks cup like this one for a while now :) Many thanks!
Kristina Valen got it at Starbucks 😚 I broke my Costa one 🤦♀️
@@megsyrecovery191 thank you for letting me know! xo
love you! :)
You're so strong.
Just went to the shop and bought mayo because of yoooou! It's so hard when the light and extra light one are just sitting next to it on the shelf, it's like we'll I may as well get this and I'll just be a bit more chilled and feel less guilty...no! Being chilled in recovery usually means restriction. Ok I'll stop this written monologue...😆
Jen Toomey yayyyy well done you 👏 I agree, & also I’m such a believer in having the ability to have anything. That’s why I’m trying to face all the last fears I’ve got, even if they seem small & they don’t get in the way too much. Can’t just be a little bit eating disordered so 🤷♀️
@@megsyrecovery191thank you!! I completely agree, life's too short to be even just a little bit ruled by eating rules!
Stevie named after Stevie Nicks, I'm guessing?
Thanks for this. I still eat no fat mayo as a 'safe' salad dressing. This is probably something I should address.....
Eye piercings.... could be the next "it" trend among all the hip kids!!! 😂
I freak out about real mayo too.!! NOT HAPPENING!! I GET IT. You're Fantastic!! Great job!
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This is fantastic because real mayo is 100 % better tasting than any low fat alternative. My grandma used to make our own out of our chicken eggs and it was tasty! And ummm when it comes to fat ... isn’t that sort of the point of mayo?! It’s supposed to have fat and therefore add satisfaction and yummyness to food. Low fat mayo doesn’t make sense and they just put other junk in there to make up for not adding enough eggs and oil. Maybe they add more sugar? Never ever rip yourself off with the low fat garbage.
That's like me and low-fat cheese vs normal cheese. Like its not even that much more its just a dumb mindset.