I have a triggering medical appointment today so I am grounding.

TW: cult torture survivor. I have a medical appointment today that's really triggering so I will be grounding before I go; I will be reminding everyone inside me (DID) that we are safe now and if there is pain it's not being done intentionally or to hurt us. I will be bringing a boji stone which is a heavier than normal stone in one pocket, and a little sand-filled fabric frog toy that I have that is also heavy in my other pocket because the weight helps me be a little more grounded. I will be taking arnica before I go which is for triggers and to help me be a little calmer and another homeopathic remedy for anxiety and pain. And I will be taking my little safe bag which has a ton of things for different senses to help me ground and also just things that help me feel a little bit safer. All those things will help me cope better. I will also likely be telling the techs that I am a torture survivor and to please tell me what they're doing before they do it. It will depend on whether I feel like they can hear me or not, because if I don't feel like they can hear me I won't say that, and I might just say I have anxiety, which is true but it's coming from very specific triggers of cult torture and abuse. All those things help me have a little bit of a better appointment than I would otherwise. Maybe they'll help you too. #cultsurvivor #traumatok #traumahealing #didsystem