I feel the same. I don’t feel sharing this with my husband even if I know he loves me. I am losing it . I don’t have a friend I can trust . I am alone . Literally crying as I type this . I hope you are feeling better now. Thank you for sharing
I feel like I’m in the same boat lol, my brain thinks my husband is cheating but God let’s me know he’s not, none the less I still am learning I need to face my fears and stress. I want a healthy baby, and I really want my husband to step up. I wanna see her flourish with a healthy family, I wanna feel like if I sit down, the things we need done will still get done
I literally feel the same way. Also bawling as I type this. I feel like a burden on I’m bc I’m a basket case but also have no other outlet so I feel so alone. I hope you’re doing better
Thank you for this. I'm 17 weeks pregnant, cant sleep, lost appetite, i just find myself bursting into tears at different points of the day with silly triggers. I'm not a social person and my husband is clueless about my feelings. This just helped me see that it's not just me. I hope all the mamas out there are okay now.
I didn’t smoke or drink before pregnancy, but food was what cheered me up when I was sad or stressed. Now that I have food aversions to everything, I don’t find joy in good food anymore. That makes me even sadder. I don’t want to go out to eat, I don’t want to grab Starbucks, I don’t want to go shopping bc malls sell food and food makes me gag. Plus, since I’m not eating right, I have no energy and that affects my mood too.
I’ve been a smoker for years, I’m 26 and have been smoking for over 10 years. A few months after I had my now 5 year old son, I turned from cigarettes to vaping bc I could do it inside and not smell or deal with going in the cold. Then I started smoking weed regularly. Long story short I was able to deal with quitting smoking weed, I was using the dab oil pens by the end of it and tbh think it was laced but never had it tested… but I CRAVE so badly for my vape…. I’m ashamed and I’ve turned back to God but like the girl says even Christians can be depressed. I just went on a mini rant…😢 I’m 24 weeks pregnant with my second baby. I don’t want to stress my husband so I haven’t told him
This has been so helpful. And super relatable. 30 weeks pregnant here, a yoga and meditation teacher and meditation has NOT helped my sadness throughout this pregnancy. It’s so weird because I never really believed in “depression” or even anxiety until now.
Just came across this video and I’m feeling the same way. I am pregnant with my 4th baby, and it’s my first boy... and I feel so much rage, or I’m crying about everything. Extremely tired, and constantly snapping at my girls and feeling like I don’t want them to touch me. Then I’m hard on my husband who works so hard for our family. I feel like a failure and a horrible mom. I was saved a few years ago, and constantly fail by not turning all my troubles and feelings to The Lord.
It's so lonely. I am 9 weeks pregnant and not thrilled about it. I feel guilty about it! My family is definitely paying a price too. I am not enough for them right now and that hurts
I am currently 32 weeks pregnant and until a couple of weeks ago I was feeling so happy, i didnt have any bad symptoms (its my first pregnancy) have been an wonderful pregnancy in terms of my physical health...However this last trimester have been really hard for my mental health. I am having a hard time to accept my body (and I didnt even gain so much weight) but I always was the type of person that cares a lot about my looks (I know it sounds superficial but it is how I feel) just the silly fact that I have a big belly now, makes me feel ashamed to go out, I dont want other people look at me, I feel like nothing that I wear right now looks good and I just feel like ridiculous with the clothes I wear. Also, I lost apetite, I cant enjoy eating like before, I feel like I am just wasting my time because I am not doing anything interesting or useful right now, specially because I feel limited by this last trimester which I feel tired, uncomfortable with my body and not excited about anything....I dont want to see anybody now and I know I need to wait just 2 more months, but it feels like forever. AND then I have a lot of anxiety about my due date, I am so scared that it will hurt... (sorry my english, not english speaker hehe)
I am on my 2nd pregnancy and this is so different and I feel more detach from this one. I haven't been happy or felt the feeling of being pregnant again is special. I am trying to cope and it's really hard. So I relate to this so much.
I’m 22 weeks pregnant and girl you definitely helped me. I felt so alone. I thought I was the only one going through it. Praying for you and your family ❤️
Thank you for being so open and transparent. I’m currently 6 weeks and was told I have to stop all my anxiety medications. I feel like a mess. I’m so anxious I feel I can’t even be excited I’m pregnant. I’m praying for all other mamas going through this.
You’re gunna do great, God helped me a lot with my anxiety, I read the Bible, just a few chapters a day lookin for peace (I had bad depression), my anxiety meds made me angry so i don’t take em. I don’t feel anxious but my body says otherwise. Anyways, you’re doing great, taking walks or exercising at home really does help, my depression got better, I definitely didn’t feel anxious. God does help, if you feel you need help with people go for it, therapy can help but my therapist didn’t help me the way God did 😅 I liked finding the root of my problems (not all the time but looking back for sure lol) with God cause he didn’t tell me, “alright, see ya next week” He sat down with me and talked, Go ham on having fun, I just want a healthy baby and I’m learning to do things that may or may not be the best way long term (trying to push aside my feels to get stuff done cause I feel like a single mom at this point), kinda helps when I’m trying to conquer my fears and feelings cause I wanna be the best mom I can be for the baby, she didn’t ask to be born but she will be very loved
Thank you for sharing your feelings. I know this video is a few years old and i hope you are doing well. I'm right here in the thick of it. It's so nice for me to know I'm not alone. The comments are very encouraging as well. 💛
I feel so alone. Did you make it through? I'm only 6 weeks and my husband argues with me all the time. I just wanna run away. I literally think I might leave. Does it get better?
Thank you for sharing your story. I am pregnant with my first child and at 32 weeks. I feel exactly the same way. I am on the fence about going back on my antidepressants which I was on before I got pregnant and went off when I found out I was pregnant. The guilt I feel for feeling like I need the meds is overwhelming.
I appreciate that you mentioned rage, it was definitely something that I hadn't dealt with in the level that I've had recently. I have a teenager and I don't really snap at him but with my husband and more so outside external things; like my doctors, my neighbors who keep burning incense and practically suffocating us to death, my cat meowing at night or banging on his crate, or eating stuff off the floor, or if we order out- food that isn't cooked right and strange things will just trigger me and I think it's because I can't control those outside factors. There are things I can do, but am limited in a lot of ways. It's something I've been praying for God to help me with.
Today I know that I had depression during pregnancy and after At the time no one noticed until my second child was 5 months and a doctor asked for more testing My depression means low energy, strong body ache and trouble sleeping Looking from the outside no one notice that I was suffering so much, and I just felt like getting it through hour by hour, day by day … My pastor at the time told me that I present myself too well that’s why people couldn’t understand that I was falling apart for 4 years Then after getting sick too frequently one doctor spot my sintomas then I started looking to get help Still people don’t understand . How can I be depressed with two gorgeous kids My greater help come more from my church and doctors than family and friends A wonderful pastor helped me for 10 years to deal, to understand my depression, and mental disorder SEEK professional HELP, family can have a good heart but at some point profession counseling is best Church can be an heaven when we are “alone” and struggling
Thanks for sharing this. I'm 13 weeks pregnant and feel like my life is a disaster. My plans have all changed. I have some tasks on my to do list, but I can't bring myself to do anything. I just got married and a week later evicted. We moved from the city to a small town to stay with my family so that we could get ahead financially. But then I got sick, discovered I was pregnant and now I can't work the construction gig I came down here to do. No job, no health insurance, no extra money for nutritional food. I'm too ashamed and depressed to go down to the welfare office. I'm at least grateful to have my family around to help.
I haven't even gotten half way through this but the talk about God and not wanting to go to him when you're a mess really hit so hard 😭 I am struggling so bad with anxiety during this pregnancy and I have always ran from God and recently it keeps coming back around to smack me in the face that I need to get a relationship again with him so this really hit me in the heart 😭
Hi Cheyanne how are you now? I am also going through the same. I feel like I disappointed God so much, now that I am pregnant t, I am filled with anxiety and stress. I sm afraid that I am letting my baby down.😢😢😢😢
This video is 2 years old but it helped me feel a little better. I have had the worst anxiety this pregnancy and I'm only around 15weeks along but I feel it has amplified every day. My pregnancy began very traumatically, I was having fainting episodes around 4-5weeks , dizziness, shortness of breath, went to the E.R several times within the span of like a week or two and then I went to the obgyn who confirmed I had a sub chorionic hematoma (I had bleeding) and a cyst, the doctors & ultrasound techs were absolutely negligent and horrible (only making my anxiety worse). I remember during my subchorionic hematoma, I went to the ER, they let me sit there bleeding, for Hours in the ER then, they sent me to do an ultrasound, the ultrasound tech shoved the intravaginal ultrasound up so hard that I cried, when she pulled out the wand there was so much blood, she was also extremely rough and I asked her if she was almost done to which she gave me a cold tone "Do you want me to stop? or do you want me to get the pictures done that they need?". Not only was I going through a miscarriage scare, I had to deal with abusive tech's. Then from weeks 6-9 I had EXTREME nausea (hypermisis gravidarium levels), I couldn't eat or drink that well, my eyes kept rolling in the back of my head, I had chills, weakness, my husband was taking care of me and had to walk me to restroom and shower... and my doctors were just telling me "take tylenol you'll be fine", so I did that... I took tylenol when I couldn't withstand the pain anymore and then ? I had an allergic reaction to the Tylenol. When I went back to my ob/gyn instead of being comforting or understanding she said "You need to stop going to the E.R" (I was only going because that is what the nurses and doctors were telling me "if your symptoms get worse go to the ER" also fainting is not okay and my condition was really bad, but I was too weak to argue.) Finally around 13 weeks I began to feel a little better, got my energy back but since then... I've been processing all of the traumatic events and trying to work through my feelings. Now they are testing me for all kinds of genetic abnormalities and I am seeing a high risk ob/gyn. It has been difficult and I feel like a lab rat rather than an expecting mother. I have had so many vials of blood taken in the past few months alone... and I have to face the circumstances of uncertainty in the future (possible pre term labor, health issues, baby's health). And also deal with life... it's been a difficult journey and I'm glad that I'm not the only who dealt with anxiety while pregnant
I’m so sorry you had to deal with that!! I had to go to the ER for an early miscarriage too last year and the transvaginal ultrasound was brutal and felt like it would never end. They took so long just to tell me bad news. It was horrible so I can sympathize with some of what you went through. ❤️ I hope everything from that point on has been easier for you.
i’m 23 weeks pregnant and i feel like i’m always doing something wrong :( i’ve never drank or smoked or anything like that but it’s just small things like if i go underwater in the bath for a few seconds has that affected babies oxygen supply or when i took a few anti sickness meds has that done something to babies development (i only took 2 and then threw the pack away bc i was too scared of side effects).. i also worry about worrying like can my baby feel me worry :( also you’re doing a great job and the fact you’re conscious of things shows you care cos truly bad mums don’t overthink and worry like we do x
I'm currently 12 weeks pregnant and recently did a cross country move from PA to MT so I have no support system here in MT and have been severely depressed. I have a history of anxiety/trichotillomania but have never seen a doctor for it. I luckily have lots of people to call but have been very isolated and am focusing on getting through the week and then getting through the weekend. It's been awful. I was recently prescribed a low dosage of zoloft and I just hate everything. Thank you for sharing your journey. We will all be okay, I'm just trying to remind myself that this is only temporary. One day at a time ladies
I'm so glad for the brave face you've been able to put on to talk about this. When I was pregnant in the mid eighties and early nineties neither postpartum, nor neonatal depression, was EVER talked about in light of it being both a hormonal imbalance and as treatable. It rather was looked at as shameful and something that you as a mom was doing wrong. Throughout my pregnancies, except for the second trimester, when estrogen is much higher and progesterone lower, I suffered horrible, dark depression. I then suffered postpartum for over a yr following the birth of my babies. The intrusive, irrational thoughts that setup head space in my mind and took over night and day literally drove me to suicidal thoughts. While I knew the love I had love for my babies, I felt like the world's most terrible mother for being unable to bond with them, or have those warm fuzzies I seen my friends displaying. It was not until I started into menopause yrs and yrs later and was losing estrogen at a higher ratio then progesterone that the same type of depression resurfaced. By then the worldwide was at our fingertips. It was not until my research lead me to the topic of depression during menopause being connected to both neonatal and postpartum, that I stumbled across the unbelievable body of work by Dr Elizabeth Vliet. This then lead me to an OUTSTANDING functional medicine doctor who ordered an entire battery of blood test that no traditional ob/gyn physician would even know about, much less order when looking into the well being of their patients. At the end of the day, I was one of the fifteen percent of the female population that is highly sensitive to the psychiatric implications of progesterone causing moderate to severe depression. The only way of countering it is to block it all together, or make sure estrogen is substantially higher than your progesterone level. So while this is not possible during pregnancy because of the fine dance that needs to take place between hormone levels to grow a new little human, postpartum depression can often be treated with a single, or a series of estrogen injections. The goal being to keep your levels high until your body's own ability to regulate it kicks in. Often after birth, estrogen production, at least in a population of some women, is slow to return, hence more episodes of postpartum depression, or when severe enough, postpartum psychosis. Now here at age fifty-six and in menopause, my physician has me setup on a cycle of three months of continuous estrogen hormone replacement, followed by twelve days of progesterone/estrogen therapy combined, so I'll have a quarterly menstrual bleed. She's assured me that research has shown having a cycle every three months is sufficient to keep any overgrowth of cells within the uterus. We of course confirm this with bi yearly pap smears. The estrogen she adds in during my progesterone therapy, buffers and helps keep the unwanted side effects from being severe. While I still may feel a little blue during this time, it compares nothing to when when my body and mind are exposed to progesterone alone. It's been a real. God send.🙏💞
I can’t even put into sentences what I feel. But i just broke down listening to you because the worst feeling is summer just passing by and im just in bed and my kids are eating cereal twice a day and snacks and running around in the yard with friends. Their hair is a mess and I just feel like a failure.
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. I feel so guilty for being in such a dark place. I relate to everything you’re saying. I’m scared of asking for SSRIs but I don’t know if I have another option.
I hope you’re looking back on this video and you’re happy and healthy. And your kids are too. I’m in the same situation as you with the anxiety and irritation, and I feel I’m failing my daughter too. I know I can do better but I’m feeling so crushed. And the anxiety is bad, and all my husband can do is fight me and make it worse and I end up reacting in the most explosive way. And I end up regretting after, although it’s true I did blow, I feel he puts me through too much. Am dealing with so much including considering divorce, feelings of abandonment and being alone. And the worry about post partum, and the kind of mom I’m going to be for both my kids. I hope you’re well and will watch more of your videos. Will pray it’ll all be okay soon. Know that you helped someone far away today. God bless ❤
Lost my father this year and now my parents moved away from the city me and my husband lives. I am 9 weeks pregnant and i am losing it i feel like i will fuck up my relationship due to constant crying and severe anxiety.
Thank you so much for sharing. This is my story right now and so many people talk about postpartum depression (which is great) but I had no idea there was such a thing as prenatal depression until I started experiencing it myself.
Thank you for sharing. Your video has been a great source of comfort for me, especially as I'm currently 10 weeks pregnant and experiencing some anxiety. 😢 I truly appreciate your mention of seeking help from God, as I wholeheartedly believe that God always listens to our prayers and has the power to guide our lives. As a Muslim, your talk serves as a valuable reminder of where I should turn for support first. Thanks again.
I needed this so bad today.. currently 13 weeks and I’ve been experiencing a lot of the same feelings mama. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression from a young age as well and I really appreciate you making this video 😭❤️ the pandemic stress is really getting to me lately I just wanna be healthy and be there for my baby 😭😭😭
That's great sending love for you and the baby.....i also have anxiety and im so stressful... having this kind of feelings it's very hard to explain what's going on in mind like crazy 😖
Thank you for this video. I’m wary of topics of religion dealing with anxiety but you made such a safe space. Thank you and I hope you’re feeling better.
this is an amazing video. I'm just over 8 weeks pregnant and have been feeling this since 6 weeks. I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression at 16, and then bipolar at 21. I feel it's more common for those who have the disorders prior to pregnancy. I don't have triggers for my disorders mine are due to brain chemistry issues and I think with the changes in hormones by brain chemistry is off again. Thank you for this video it's nice to know I'm not alone :)
I really appreciate this video. Thank you 🖤 I can’t thank you enough for sharing the irritability aspect with your son and the dogs. Exactly what is happening to me right now. And the guilt. And the concern about what type of environment the baby is growing in and the guilt about not making nutritious meals. It’s like you read a script out of my head. Thank you 🙏🏼🖤
Thanks for sharing! I've struggled with depression and anxiety since I was a young girl and now that I'm pregnant (FTM & 30 weeks) Its been rough at times. I'm also a Christian and my faith and relationship with the Lord is the major reason I have made it through. Being pregnant definitely makes dealing with things more challenging. I have had many days where I just break down and feel like I can't cope. I also have been feeling more angry at times and I don't like feeling out of control with my emotions. I have never been on medication for it though and have mixed feelings because of some personal reasons. I hope the rest of your pregnancy goes smoothly and that you can find relief whether its through taking medication or not. I'll be praying for you. God bless! :)
Thank you so much for sharing Mary! I’m so glad that you can find strength through the Lord during this time. I definitely feel you on those times of just feeling out of control. I pray you can get some relief and peace through the rest of this pregnancy 🧡 please do whatever you can to take care of yourself, even if it’s reaching out to family and friends just to talk. You got this mama!! And thank you for the prayers ☺️
I don’t know if you will see this but I am thankful for this encouragement as I relate to everything you shared and glad to know I’m not alone in this struggle and that there is hope. 🙏🏼 I resented the idea of medication for so long and finally am at the point where I just need something so that I can show up as the best mom and wife that I can at this time. I hope you are doing well. God bless. 🤍
I know this is 3 years old, but I’m glad I came across your video. I’m 18 weeks pregnant, it’s been very hard, I’ve been going through the same, I have a 4 year old daughter and I’m pregnant with twins. Sometimes I can get very stressed because my daughter doesn’t listen, so I have to scream at her , I do not spank her either, and my husband thinks she doesn’t listen because I don’t spank her 😭 but I was mistreated as a child and I can not spank my daughter. I’m very depressed too. I cry a lot . I pray every day. I know God can handle our stress and anxieties. I don’t want this to affect my babies 😭😭😭 Lord I pray for you to put peace in my mind and heart ❤️ so I let this anxiety and stress in your hands. Thank you for your video. God bless you 🙏🏽
I am currently 6 1/2 months pregnant with baby number six and I am telling you the depression and anxiety has overwhelmed me I feel like I can’t even enjoy this pregnancy even though I want to and I try to it’s just I’ve been through so much within this last year and it just tears me apart every time I think about it and now I’m on the fence all the time thinking about the whatever it’s in stuff like that it’s crazy a year ago me and my husband were apart for 3 1/2 months and it’s devastating myself and our children he was not in his right mind he was not thinking about his family he rather party and club and that’s something that I have never done and never will do but I constantly think about what he’s doing when he’s at work and to where I can’t even focus during the day and being 6 1/2 months pregnant I cry a lot and I just lay in my room in the dark I don’t want to be around nobody and I’m falling into a dark place and it scares me because in my mind I feel like there’s only one way out and I know that there’s not I am a Christian I’m not gonna tell you that the walk in Christianity is easy because it is not and it scares me because I feel like I’m failing God every time I cry for depression I don’t wanna ask nobody for help because I’m embarrassed I came across your video and I just want to say thank you for sharing because there’s so many of us women especially who are going through this and I just wanna say thank you for sharing you’re not the only one and you’re not alone
I'm pregnant with my 2nd child. My daughter is turning 17 in a few months. I had her when I was 23. I'm now 40 and pregnant. I already suffer from anxiety and depression...being older and pregnant I'm not only scared but thinking what the hell am I doing?! I'm already a home body but since I've been pregnant I have absolutely no desire to go out. I feel completely exhausted too.
I pray for you now. May you get better ❤ no matter if youre 40, you are caring new life ❤ its a blessing and may it not be stolen from you as a blessing it is!
YOU’RE NOT ALONE!!!!! We’re all human and it’s perfectly okay to feel anxious sometimes. A very wise mall Santa that I met, back in 2018, once told me that “even on the cloudiest day the sun STILL shines behind those clouds meaning that no matter how dark it looks, the sun is STILL there and the joy and happiness is there for you as well”. No matter how scary or how uncomfortable things get for you, just know that everything’s going to be okay because you deserve to feel safe, loved, comforted, encouraged and for those who loved you and who really want to help u and be there for you and stay by your side either way. Whether from friends, family or anyone you trust and feel safe with. I maybe an autistic women whose probably may or may not have had a lot of panic attacks but I can honestly tell u. I’ve had anxiety attacks due to my fear of failure in school or at work and not being good enough as a person and losing my job and I’ve also struggled with anxiety and depression for quite a long time so I do understand perfectly well the feelings of worthlessness, lack of self esteem, anxiety, depression, self hatred, loneliness, feeling trapped, frustration, remorsefulness, insecurity and the feeling of wanting to get try to better yourself but always coming out as a failure. Plus having been through Covid and being forced to follow Covid safety protocols like many others, myself, has been deeply traumatizing and extremely difficult for me as well socially, mentally, physically and emotionally. The point is, your anxieties, your depression and everything mental health related DOES NOT define u for who you are, it’s what’s inside your heart and all the things we’ve accomplished in life and the kind of person u REALLY are in your heart that truly defines u for who u are. Some people are not gonna always understand what you’re going through and maybe they never will but as long as you have the people in your life who loved and cared about you or that special someone whom deeply loves u and genuinely cares about u and will do anything in the world to help u to overcome this, you’re gonna come out even stronger and more courageous than ever and before you’ll know it, you’re gonna surprise people by how far you’ve come in the end. The fact that you had the courage to make this video and open up about your inner struggles and your vulnerability REALLY MAKES U A MUCH STRONGER AND BRAVER PERSON IN MY BOOK and it say A LOT about you. Give yourself a pat on the back. U did an amazing job!! 😊😊 Stay strong, have courage, be kind to yourself, take heart and NEVER EVER give up hope because you ARE beautiful and practically perfect just the way you are in every way . ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Hi. Im 24 weeks. I struggled with anxiety, panic 2 years ago due to a bad relationship. I had got it under control. Over the past 2 weeks, Ive felt anxious, uncomfortable. Thoughts have been just racing. I haven’t even done my hair in a month. Its a process for sure.
Thank you so much for sharing. I’m dealing with the same thing. This is my fourth pregnancy and with my last two I struggled with severe ppd with intrusive thoughts and now I’m dealing with ptsd and my anxiety is so bad. I’m going to mention it to my ob not sure if they can help if not I want to prepare myself for ppd by finding a therapist to talk to. Ty! Got bless and you’re in my prayers ❤️
I keep trying to tell people like my mom or husband my older kids. Like I’m not ok, I’m so tired, I don’t want to leave my room, I’m irritated, I’m emotional. But they don’t hear me. I’ve been trying not to get on meds. I stopped taking meds for depression and anxiety when I learned I was pregnant. I’m 18 weeks, and this is baby number 6.
I'm 36 weekspreganancy, my first child. I do know that I had anxiety etc but I never go to doctor with it hence I'm not diagnosed. On July 26, 2022 at around 2 am I felt this urge starting with feelings like I cant breathe, then it get more intense. I also have a string faith, but not baptise as yet, but He really have being there for me, my mom and my child because He bless me with my baby. So I'm thankful for that. So thanks for your story for I feel the same. I'm declaring God Help etc over us and our pregnancy through Jesus Christ of Nazareth and Him Crucify. Amen
I have someone around me that makes me cry almost everyday with thighs he make me remember, because I hurt him a lot and now I’m about to have my baby but he still makes me cry and torment me with the things he says and make me remember I wanna move on and forget about the past and focus on my baby but is really hard, and I feel my baby can feel this
thank you for sharing you're doing a lot more than you think you are. I'm in a much earlier stage than you with Prego and feeling like I'm doing absolutely nothing actually which is affecting myself worth. you're doing so much more than many of us by even making this post and inspiring people
Thank you so much for sharing. Going through this and you explained how it feels perfectly. Thanks for the passage as well. I agree it’s hard to have faith when you’re so deep into the darkness. I pray you’re doing well present day ❤ blessings for you and your family. Thank you again bc it gave me strength to be vulnerable to accept I need the help.
Thank you for this video, can I ask you how you feel now / how you felt after pregnancy? Did it ever get better ? I really need some hope, I feel so depressed and sad and I’m still early in my pregnancy, I did reach out to my doctor to talk about possible medication. I’m supposed to be excited and it’s just been all sorrow
I am 9 weeks pregnant and going through something I can’t explain. Constant crying and my body feels different to me. A feeling of emptiness and worrying will this result in a miscarriage or I might have miscarried and will come to know about it on my first scan. This overwhelming feeling is eating me from inside. I can’t share it with my parents as I cant see them stressed about me. They live in a different country so no point in stressing them out. My husband wanted me to abort the baby because he thinks I don’t deserve to be a mother. And today he said this baby is only mine and he wants a separation. The reason is me, I keep asking him to be with me, I don’t like eating most of the stuff, fatigue makes me not wanting to cook. He can’t keep cooking for me, he gets tired too. Its so easy for men to say this baby has nothing to do with them whereas a mother cant even imagine to say this
I am prego and dont want to be Im not happy about it I cant stop it My husband is doing his best keeping me happy but its failing. I just want it to end. No one talks about this, its bringing up old ptsd with my childhood abuse ive faced with my parents. All of it is so overwhelming
Im 12 weeks , happy to get baby but since now i fell in some kind of loss of will to do stuff... im not crying but kind of lost motivation to do things, would like to just stay in bed. But I believe Jesus will help me and I pray for other mothers.... for you also and thank you for sharing your story! May Jesus bless you!
Husband here: my wife is 12 weeks pregnant and it’s a complete mess. She is so angry, so mean, I can’t do anything right, she won’t touch me, she makes time for everything except me. She won’t go to church anymore. She is very mean. Like, incredibly mean. She makes me feel so useless and ugly, unwanted and unappreciated. Even though I pay for everything, work 60 hours a week, she never gives me praise for anything that I do. She won’t even make eye contact with me. She says “this is all your fault”….. I feel so unloved and like an outsider who just provides all the money and protection. I get no love in this house anymore
Hi Momma. Ive also been struggling with depression. I was diagnosed back when I was a teen. I thought it was all gone and it was just the hormones. Was happy during my first trimester. However Ive somehow hit the rock bottom at second trimester. Im very anxious that having the illness will affect the development of my child. Is there any potential risk after you have given birth?
The rage is definitely me! I went home to visit family for two weeks, and I was so irritated and sleep deprived. I feel bad for all the mean things I said about my family. I live 2000 miles away and I live in a boring lonely town. This is my first pregnancy and I am not excited at all. On top of these doctors wanting all these stupid azz genetic tests!
Girl... I am so sorry your going through that, ESPECIALLY while pregnant.. That has got to be extremely hard. I feel for you. Honestly, I felt this way but not while i was pregnant, but while my 1st was 5-6 months old. ( hes 7.5 months old now, so very recent) I believe there was a few things that went into it.. but i believe the biggest thing was the steroid shots the dr.s were giving me. I was all the sudden not just stessed out and overwhelmed and tired.. but i was all the sudden in a very dark place and i was snappy as well, all i wanted was to sit in 100% silence.. the dark shaking his head pissed me off and my baby crying??? ya my voice was raised and im not proud of it. The guilt that comes with it is real. Its hard. Crying and screaming in my pillow while i talked to God was the ONLY thing that helped. You will get through this, there will be light sooner than you think. Just keep praying for help. Jesus heals ALL. God bless you.
Hello.. I see you have posted in awhile and also I’m trying to find your instagram so I can message you. I’m a UA-cam and stay at home mom. And I’m currently expecting a baby girl as well! I hope everything is going okay!
You news to talk to your husband and get help. The health providers told me it was normal. I had a misscarrage and went to a wemans clinic to help me because I was afraid of being sent home or not taken seriously. I got help with passing the baby. However, it cost me my marriage. You can't do this alone. Go get help. Tell people. This is a clinical problem that you will need help with.
I feel the same. I don’t feel sharing this with my husband even if I know he loves me. I am losing it . I don’t have a friend I can trust . I am alone . Literally crying as I type this . I hope you are feeling better now. Thank you for sharing
Hi AnnMaria, are you pregnant?
I feel like I’m in the same boat lol, my brain thinks my husband is cheating but God let’s me know he’s not, none the less I still am learning I need to face my fears and stress. I want a healthy baby, and I really want my husband to step up. I wanna see her flourish with a healthy family, I wanna feel like if I sit down, the things we need done will still get done
Same
I literally feel the same way. Also bawling as I type this. I feel like a burden on I’m bc I’m a basket case but also have no other outlet so I feel so alone. I hope you’re doing better
I am 10 weeks pregnant and I can completely relate to you, but there are people here for you and it’s completely valid ❤️
Thank you for this. I'm 17 weeks pregnant, cant sleep, lost appetite, i just find myself bursting into tears at different points of the day with silly triggers. I'm not a social person and my husband is clueless about my feelings. This just helped me see that it's not just me. I hope all the mamas out there are okay now.
I’m also at 17 weeks feeling the same way thank you so much for putting out a vulnerable video
I am 23weeks and having same things. I am just so scared
Same here and 15 weeks pregnant
Same here, 9 weeks and struggling with my anger towards my body, mind, soul.. the moment I surrender, and let the tears all out... Shifting happened
The fact that I’m pregnant and can’t smoke or drink or get out of the house makes me cry and makes me feel guilty because I should feel happy
Definitely me
I didn’t smoke or drink before pregnancy, but food was what cheered me up when I was sad or stressed. Now that I have food aversions to everything, I don’t find joy in good food anymore. That makes me even sadder. I don’t want to go out to eat, I don’t want to grab Starbucks, I don’t want to go shopping bc malls sell food and food makes me gag. Plus, since I’m not eating right, I have no energy and that affects my mood too.
I’ve been a smoker for years, I’m 26 and have been smoking for over 10 years. A few months after I had my now 5 year old son, I turned from cigarettes to vaping bc I could do it inside and not smell or deal with going in the cold. Then I started smoking weed regularly. Long story short I was able to deal with quitting smoking weed, I was using the dab oil pens by the end of it and tbh think it was laced but never had it tested… but I CRAVE so badly for my vape…. I’m ashamed and I’ve turned back to God but like the girl says even Christians can be depressed. I just went on a mini rant…😢 I’m 24 weeks pregnant with my second baby. I don’t want to stress my husband so I haven’t told him
Honestly same
This has been so helpful. And super relatable. 30 weeks pregnant here, a yoga and meditation teacher and meditation has NOT helped my sadness throughout this pregnancy. It’s so weird because I never really believed in “depression” or even anxiety until now.
Just came across this video and I’m feeling the same way. I am pregnant with my 4th baby, and it’s my first boy... and I feel so much rage, or I’m crying about everything. Extremely tired, and constantly snapping at my girls and feeling like I don’t want them to touch me. Then I’m hard on my husband who works so hard for our family. I feel like a failure and a horrible mom. I was saved a few years ago, and constantly fail by not turning all my troubles and feelings to The Lord.
It's so lonely. I am 9 weeks pregnant and not thrilled about it. I feel guilty about it! My family is definitely paying a price too. I am not enough for them right now and that hurts
I am currently 32 weeks pregnant and until a couple of weeks ago I was feeling so happy, i didnt have any bad symptoms (its my first pregnancy) have been an wonderful pregnancy in terms of my physical health...However this last trimester have been really hard for my mental health. I am having a hard time to accept my body (and I didnt even gain so much weight) but I always was the type of person that cares a lot about my looks (I know it sounds superficial but it is how I feel) just the silly fact that I have a big belly now, makes me feel ashamed to go out, I dont want other people look at me, I feel like nothing that I wear right now looks good and I just feel like ridiculous with the clothes I wear. Also, I lost apetite, I cant enjoy eating like before, I feel like I am just wasting my time because I am not doing anything interesting or useful right now, specially because I feel limited by this last trimester which I feel tired, uncomfortable with my body and not excited about anything....I dont want to see anybody now and I know I need to wait just 2 more months, but it feels like forever. AND then I have a lot of anxiety about my due date, I am so scared that it will hurt... (sorry my english, not english speaker hehe)
I am on my 2nd pregnancy and this is so different and I feel more detach from this one. I haven't been happy or felt the feeling of being pregnant again is special. I am trying to cope and it's really hard. So I relate to this so much.
I’m 22 weeks pregnant and girl you definitely helped me. I felt so alone. I thought I was the only one going through it. Praying for you and your family ❤️
Thank you for being so open and transparent. I’m currently 6 weeks and was told I have to stop all my anxiety medications.
I feel like a mess. I’m so anxious I feel I can’t even be excited I’m pregnant. I’m praying for all other mamas going through this.
You’re gunna do great, God helped me a lot with my anxiety, I read the Bible, just a few chapters a day lookin for peace (I had bad depression), my anxiety meds made me angry so i don’t take em. I don’t feel anxious but my body says otherwise.
Anyways, you’re doing great, taking walks or exercising at home really does help, my depression got better, I definitely didn’t feel anxious. God does help, if you feel you need help with people go for it, therapy can help but my therapist didn’t help me the way God did 😅 I liked finding the root of my problems (not all the time but looking back for sure lol) with God cause he didn’t tell me, “alright, see ya next week” He sat down with me and talked, Go ham on having fun, I just want a healthy baby and I’m learning to do things that may or may not be the best way long term (trying to push aside my feels to get stuff done cause I feel like a single mom at this point), kinda helps when I’m trying to conquer my fears and feelings cause I wanna be the best mom I can be for the baby, she didn’t ask to be born but she will be very loved
Me right now. 5 weeks and in a constant state or worry and panic. I can’t even sleep :(
@@sarah7645 talk to the doc hun, they told me one I thought about taking but I’m already 5 1/2 months so I wanna wait a little longer
@@sarah7645 how you?
Thank you for sharing your feelings. I know this video is a few years old and i hope you are doing well. I'm right here in the thick of it. It's so nice for me to know I'm not alone. The comments are very encouraging as well. 💛
Hi there ❤ I see you and I’m also beginning this pregnancy journey with anxiety. It’s hard but you got this 🦋
25 weeks and crying as I type this comment. 40 years old with preterm labor. I have never felt so alone. 😞
I feel so alone. Did you make it through? I'm only 6 weeks and my husband argues with me all the time. I just wanna run away. I literally think I might leave. Does it get better?
Thank you for sharing your story. I am pregnant with my first child and at 32 weeks. I feel exactly the same way. I am on the fence about going back on my antidepressants which I was on before I got pregnant and went off when I found out I was pregnant. The guilt I feel for feeling like I need the meds is overwhelming.
needed this so bad im 11 weeks and I feel like im losing my mind. this has been such a hard time in my life. I don't wish this on anyone!
how are you now?
I’ve get the same way girl .
Did it get better? I'm the same way.
I appreciate that you mentioned rage, it was definitely something that I hadn't dealt with in the level that I've had recently. I have a teenager and I don't really snap at him but with my husband and more so outside external things; like my doctors, my neighbors who keep burning incense and practically suffocating us to death, my cat meowing at night or banging on his crate, or eating stuff off the floor, or if we order out- food that isn't cooked right and strange things will just trigger me and I think it's because I can't control those outside factors. There are things I can do, but am limited in a lot of ways. It's something I've been praying for God to help me with.
Today I know that I had depression during pregnancy and after
At the time no one noticed until my second child was 5 months and a doctor asked for more testing
My depression means low energy, strong body ache and trouble sleeping
Looking from the outside no one notice that I was suffering so much, and I just felt like getting it through hour by hour, day by day …
My pastor at the time told me that I present myself too well that’s why people couldn’t understand that I was falling apart for 4 years
Then after getting sick too frequently one doctor spot my sintomas then I started looking to get help
Still people don’t understand . How can I be depressed with two gorgeous kids
My greater help come more from my church and doctors than family and friends
A wonderful pastor helped me for 10 years to deal, to understand my depression, and mental disorder
SEEK professional HELP, family can have a good heart but at some point profession counseling is best
Church can be an heaven when we are “alone” and struggling
Thanks for sharing this. I'm 13 weeks pregnant and feel like my life is a disaster. My plans have all changed. I have some tasks on my to do list, but I can't bring myself to do anything. I just got married and a week later evicted. We moved from the city to a small town to stay with my family so that we could get ahead financially. But then I got sick, discovered I was pregnant and now I can't work the construction gig I came down here to do. No job, no health insurance, no extra money for nutritional food. I'm too ashamed and depressed to go down to the welfare office. I'm at least grateful to have my family around to help.
I haven't even gotten half way through this but the talk about God and not wanting to go to him when you're a mess really hit so hard 😭 I am struggling so bad with anxiety during this pregnancy and I have always ran from God and recently it keeps coming back around to smack me in the face that I need to get a relationship again with him so this really hit me in the heart 😭
Hi Cheyanne how are you now?
I am also going through the same. I feel like I disappointed God so much, now that I am pregnant t, I am filled with anxiety and stress. I sm afraid that I am letting my baby down.😢😢😢😢
This video is 2 years old but it helped me feel a little better. I have had the worst anxiety this pregnancy and I'm only around 15weeks along but I feel it has amplified every day. My pregnancy began very traumatically, I was having fainting episodes around 4-5weeks , dizziness, shortness of breath, went to the E.R several times within the span of like a week or two and then I went to the obgyn who confirmed I had a sub chorionic hematoma (I had bleeding) and a cyst, the doctors & ultrasound techs were absolutely negligent and horrible (only making my anxiety worse). I remember during my subchorionic hematoma, I went to the ER, they let me sit there bleeding, for Hours in the ER then, they sent me to do an ultrasound, the ultrasound tech shoved the intravaginal ultrasound up so hard that I cried, when she pulled out the wand there was so much blood, she was also extremely rough and I asked her if she was almost done to which she gave me a cold tone "Do you want me to stop? or do you want me to get the pictures done that they need?". Not only was I going through a miscarriage scare, I had to deal with abusive tech's. Then from weeks 6-9 I had EXTREME nausea (hypermisis gravidarium levels), I couldn't eat or drink that well, my eyes kept rolling in the back of my head, I had chills, weakness, my husband was taking care of me and had to walk me to restroom and shower... and my doctors were just telling me "take tylenol you'll be fine", so I did that... I took tylenol when I couldn't withstand the pain anymore and then ? I had an allergic reaction to the Tylenol. When I went back to my ob/gyn instead of being comforting or understanding she said "You need to stop going to the E.R" (I was only going because that is what the nurses and doctors were telling me "if your symptoms get worse go to the ER" also fainting is not okay and my condition was really bad, but I was too weak to argue.) Finally around 13 weeks I began to feel a little better, got my energy back but since then... I've been processing all of the traumatic events and trying to work through my feelings. Now they are testing me for all kinds of genetic abnormalities and I am seeing a high risk ob/gyn. It has been difficult and I feel like a lab rat rather than an expecting mother. I have had so many vials of blood taken in the past few months alone... and I have to face the circumstances of uncertainty in the future (possible pre term labor, health issues, baby's health). And also deal with life... it's been a difficult journey and I'm glad that I'm not the only who dealt with anxiety while pregnant
I’m so sorry you had to deal with that!! I had to go to the ER for an early miscarriage too last year and the transvaginal ultrasound was brutal and felt like it would never end. They took so long just to tell me bad news. It was horrible so I can sympathize with some of what you went through. ❤️ I hope everything from that point on has been easier for you.
i’m 23 weeks pregnant and i feel like i’m always doing something wrong :( i’ve never drank or smoked or anything like that but it’s just small things like if i go underwater in the bath for a few seconds has that affected babies oxygen supply or when i took a few anti sickness meds has that done something to babies development (i only took 2 and then threw the pack away bc i was too scared of side effects).. i also worry about worrying like can my baby feel me worry :( also you’re doing a great job and the fact you’re conscious of things shows you care cos truly bad mums don’t overthink and worry like we do x
Thank you for this video. I’m in my second trimester and dealing with anxiety mostly at night 😢
I'm currently 12 weeks pregnant and recently did a cross country move from PA to MT so I have no support system here in MT and have been severely depressed. I have a history of anxiety/trichotillomania but have never seen a doctor for it. I luckily have lots of people to call but have been very isolated and am focusing on getting through the week and then getting through the weekend. It's been awful. I was recently prescribed a low dosage of zoloft and I just hate everything. Thank you for sharing your journey. We will all be okay, I'm just trying to remind myself that this is only temporary. One day at a time ladies
I'm so glad for the brave face you've been able to put on to talk about this. When I was pregnant in the mid eighties and early nineties neither postpartum, nor neonatal depression, was EVER talked about in light of it being both a hormonal imbalance and as treatable. It rather was looked at as shameful and something that you as a mom was doing wrong. Throughout my pregnancies, except for the second trimester, when estrogen is much higher and progesterone lower, I suffered horrible, dark depression. I then suffered postpartum for over a yr following the birth of my babies. The intrusive, irrational thoughts that setup head space in my mind and took over night and day literally drove me to suicidal thoughts. While I knew the love I had love for my babies, I felt like the world's most terrible mother for being unable to bond with them, or have those warm fuzzies I seen my friends displaying. It was not until I started into menopause yrs and yrs later and was losing estrogen at a higher ratio then progesterone that the same type of depression resurfaced. By then the worldwide was at our fingertips. It was not until my research lead me to the topic of depression during menopause being connected to both neonatal and postpartum, that I stumbled across the unbelievable body of work by Dr Elizabeth Vliet. This then lead me to an OUTSTANDING functional medicine doctor who ordered an entire battery of blood test that no traditional ob/gyn physician would even know about, much less order when looking into the well being of their patients. At the end of the day, I was one of the fifteen percent of the female population that is highly sensitive to the psychiatric implications of progesterone causing moderate to severe depression. The only way of countering it is to block it all together, or make sure estrogen is substantially higher than your progesterone level. So while this is not possible during pregnancy because of the fine dance that needs to take place between hormone levels to grow a new little human, postpartum depression can often be treated with a single, or a series of estrogen injections. The goal being to keep your levels high until your body's own ability to regulate it kicks in. Often after birth, estrogen production, at least in a population of some women, is slow to return, hence more episodes of postpartum depression, or when severe enough, postpartum psychosis. Now here at age fifty-six and in menopause, my physician has me setup on a cycle of three months of continuous estrogen hormone replacement, followed by twelve days of progesterone/estrogen therapy combined, so I'll have a quarterly menstrual bleed. She's assured me that research has shown having a cycle every three months is sufficient to keep any overgrowth of cells within the uterus. We of course confirm this with bi yearly pap smears. The estrogen she adds in during my progesterone therapy, buffers and helps keep the unwanted side effects from being severe. While I still may feel a little blue during this time, it compares nothing to when when my body and mind are exposed to progesterone alone. It's been a real. God send.🙏💞
I can’t even put into sentences what I feel. But i just broke down listening to you because the worst feeling is summer just passing by and im just in bed and my kids are eating cereal twice a day and snacks and running around in the yard with friends. Their hair is a mess and I just feel like a failure.
Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. I feel so guilty for being in such a dark place. I relate to everything you’re saying. I’m scared of asking for SSRIs but I don’t know if I have another option.
I hope you’re looking back on this video and you’re happy and healthy. And your kids are too. I’m in the same situation as you with the anxiety and irritation, and I feel I’m failing my daughter too. I know I can do better but I’m feeling so crushed. And the anxiety is bad, and all my husband can do is fight me and make it worse and I end up reacting in the most explosive way. And I end up regretting after, although it’s true I did blow, I feel he puts me through too much. Am dealing with so much including considering divorce, feelings of abandonment and being alone. And the worry about post partum, and the kind of mom I’m going to be for both my kids. I hope you’re well and will watch more of your videos. Will pray it’ll all be okay soon. Know that you helped someone far away today. God bless ❤
Lost my father this year and now my parents moved away from the city me and my husband lives. I am 9 weeks pregnant and i am losing it i feel like i will fuck up my relationship due to constant crying and severe anxiety.
This is one of the only helpful and relatable videos on the internet about this topic. Thank you so much for posting. I feel less alone.
Thank you so much for sharing. This is my story right now and so many people talk about postpartum depression (which is great) but I had no idea there was such a thing as prenatal depression until I started experiencing it myself.
Thank you for sharing. Your video has been a great source of comfort for me, especially as I'm currently 10 weeks pregnant and experiencing some anxiety. 😢 I truly appreciate your mention of seeking help from God, as I wholeheartedly believe that God always listens to our prayers and has the power to guide our lives. As a Muslim, your talk serves as a valuable reminder of where I should turn for support first. Thanks again.
Hi I’m suffering same thing . I’m Muslim as well . How are you now ?
I needed this so bad today.. currently 13 weeks and I’ve been experiencing a lot of the same feelings mama. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression from a young age as well and I really appreciate you making this video 😭❤️ the pandemic stress is really getting to me lately I just wanna be healthy and be there for my baby 😭😭😭
How are you now are you ok?
@being honest I'm well thank you so much for asking 😊 💓💓 my son is now 10 months and very healthy and happy
That's great sending love for you and the baby.....i also have anxiety and im so stressful... having this kind of feelings it's very hard to explain what's going on in mind like crazy 😖
@@skylarrpierce Which medicine can u eat dear
@@skylarrpierce Are u ok now dear
I feel mentally unstable. I know it’s the pregnancy. I also don’t have a support system.
Same here I don’t have anyone who I trust to talk too 🥺
Have you downloaded the peanut app? It's helping me talk to expecting moms who also share pregnancy depression
Thank you for being so open and making those of who are also struggling not feel so alone ❤
Thank you for this video. I’m wary of topics of religion dealing with anxiety but you made such a safe space. Thank you and I hope you’re feeling better.
I'm really struggling with perinatal anxiety and depression. 8 weeks before due date
this is an amazing video. I'm just over 8 weeks pregnant and have been feeling this since 6 weeks. I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression at 16, and then bipolar at 21. I feel it's more common for those who have the disorders prior to pregnancy. I don't have triggers for my disorders mine are due to brain chemistry issues and I think with the changes in hormones by brain chemistry is off again. Thank you for this video it's nice to know I'm not alone :)
Are you ok with your baby
@@munazzamunir338 are you feeling same mama
I am 20 years old and I am 26 weeks pregnant with my first baby and I was feeling a little down today and came across your video.
I really appreciate this video. Thank you 🖤 I can’t thank you enough for sharing the irritability aspect with your son and the dogs. Exactly what is happening to me right now. And the guilt. And the concern about what type of environment the baby is growing in and the guilt about not making nutritious meals. It’s like you read a script out of my head. Thank you 🙏🏼🖤
Thank you for this..... It's really helping me❤
Thanks for having the courage to share this. Your video has made a difference in my life and I just want thank you for this ❤
Thanks for sharing! I've struggled with depression and anxiety since I was a young girl and now that I'm pregnant (FTM & 30 weeks) Its been rough at times. I'm also a Christian and my faith and relationship with the Lord is the major reason I have made it through. Being pregnant definitely makes dealing with things more challenging. I have had many days where I just break down and feel like I can't cope. I also have been feeling more angry at times and I don't like feeling out of control with my emotions. I have never been on medication for it though and have mixed feelings because of some personal reasons. I hope the rest of your pregnancy goes smoothly and that you can find relief whether its through taking medication or not. I'll be praying for you. God bless! :)
Thank you so much for sharing Mary! I’m so glad that you can find strength through the Lord during this time. I definitely feel you on those times of just feeling out of control. I pray you can get some relief and peace through the rest of this pregnancy 🧡 please do whatever you can to take care of yourself, even if it’s reaching out to family and friends just to talk. You got this mama!! And thank you for the prayers ☺️
i just found your page and i really needed to hear this. Thank you!
I don’t know if you will see this but I am thankful for this encouragement as I relate to everything you shared and glad to know I’m not alone in this struggle and that there is hope. 🙏🏼 I resented the idea of medication for so long and finally am at the point where I just need something so that I can show up as the best mom and wife that I can at this time. I hope you are doing well. God bless. 🤍
I know this is 3 years old, but I’m glad I came across your video. I’m 18 weeks pregnant, it’s been very hard, I’ve been going through the same, I have a 4 year old daughter and I’m pregnant with twins. Sometimes I can get very stressed because my daughter doesn’t listen, so I have to scream at her , I do not spank her either, and my husband thinks she doesn’t listen because I don’t spank her 😭 but I was mistreated as a child and I can not spank my daughter. I’m very depressed too. I cry a lot . I pray every day. I know God can handle our stress and anxieties. I don’t want this to affect my babies 😭😭😭 Lord I pray for you to put peace in my mind and heart ❤️ so I let this anxiety and stress in your hands. Thank you for your video. God bless you 🙏🏽
Thank you for sharing ❤
Going through the same thing. This video was beautiful and you’re so brave. You helped many of us ❤ - first time mom
I am currently 6 1/2 months pregnant with baby number six and I am telling you the depression and anxiety has overwhelmed me I feel like I can’t even enjoy this pregnancy even though I want to and I try to it’s just I’ve been through so much within this last year and it just tears me apart every time I think about it and now I’m on the fence all the time thinking about the whatever it’s in stuff like that it’s crazy a year ago me and my husband were apart for 3 1/2 months and it’s devastating myself and our children he was not in his right mind he was not thinking about his family he rather party and club and that’s something that I have never done and never will do but I constantly think about what he’s doing when he’s at work and to where I can’t even focus during the day and being 6 1/2 months pregnant I cry a lot and I just lay in my room in the dark I don’t want to be around nobody and I’m falling into a dark place and it scares me because in my mind I feel like there’s only one way out and I know that there’s not I am a Christian I’m not gonna tell you that the walk in Christianity is easy because it is not and it scares me because I feel like I’m failing God every time I cry for depression I don’t wanna ask nobody for help because I’m embarrassed I came across your video and I just want to say thank you for sharing because there’s so many of us women especially who are going through this and I just wanna say thank you for sharing you’re not the only one and you’re not alone
How are you now and the baby
I'm pregnant with my 2nd child. My daughter is turning 17 in a few months. I had her when I was 23. I'm now 40 and pregnant. I already suffer from anxiety and depression...being older and pregnant I'm not only scared but thinking what the hell am I doing?! I'm already a home body but since I've been pregnant I have absolutely no desire to go out. I feel completely exhausted too.
I pray for you now. May you get better ❤ no matter if youre 40, you are caring new life ❤ its a blessing and may it not be stolen from you as a blessing it is!
YOU’RE NOT ALONE!!!!! We’re all human and it’s perfectly okay to feel anxious sometimes. A very wise mall Santa that I met, back in 2018, once told me that “even on the cloudiest day the sun STILL shines behind those clouds meaning that no matter how dark it looks, the sun is STILL there and the joy and happiness is there for you as well”. No matter how scary or how uncomfortable things get for you, just know that everything’s going to be okay because you deserve to feel safe, loved, comforted, encouraged and for those who loved you and who really want to help u and be there for you and stay by your side either way. Whether from friends, family or anyone you trust and feel safe with.
I maybe an autistic women whose probably may or may not have had a lot of panic attacks but I can honestly tell u. I’ve had anxiety attacks due to my fear of failure in school or at work and not being good enough as a person and losing my job and I’ve also struggled with anxiety and depression for quite a long time so I do understand perfectly well the feelings of worthlessness, lack of self esteem, anxiety, depression, self hatred, loneliness, feeling trapped, frustration, remorsefulness, insecurity and the feeling of wanting to get try to better yourself but always coming out as a failure. Plus having been through Covid and being forced to follow Covid safety protocols like many others, myself, has been deeply traumatizing and extremely difficult for me as well socially, mentally, physically and emotionally.
The point is, your anxieties, your depression and everything mental health related DOES NOT define u for who you are, it’s what’s inside your heart and all the things we’ve accomplished in life and the kind of person u REALLY are in your heart that truly defines u for who u are. Some people are not gonna always understand what you’re going through and maybe they never will but as long as you have the people in your life who loved and cared about you or that special someone whom deeply loves u and genuinely cares about u and will do anything in the world to help u to overcome this, you’re gonna come out even stronger and more courageous than ever and before you’ll know it, you’re gonna surprise people by how far you’ve come in the end.
The fact that you had the courage to make this video and open up about your inner struggles and your vulnerability REALLY MAKES U A MUCH STRONGER AND BRAVER PERSON IN MY BOOK and it say A LOT about you. Give yourself a pat on the back. U did an amazing job!! 😊😊
Stay strong, have courage, be kind to yourself, take heart and NEVER EVER give up hope because you ARE beautiful and practically perfect just the way you are in every way . ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you so much❤
Hi. Im 24 weeks. I struggled with anxiety, panic 2 years ago due to a bad relationship. I had got it under control. Over the past 2 weeks, Ive felt anxious, uncomfortable. Thoughts have been just racing. I haven’t even done my hair in a month.
Its a process for sure.
Thank you so much for sharing. I’m dealing with the same thing. This is my fourth pregnancy and with my last two I struggled with severe ppd with intrusive thoughts and now I’m dealing with ptsd and my anxiety is so bad. I’m going to mention it to my ob not sure if they can help if not I want to prepare myself for ppd by finding a therapist to talk to. Ty! Got bless and you’re in my prayers ❤️
I keep trying to tell people like my mom or husband my older kids. Like I’m not ok, I’m so tired, I don’t want to leave my room, I’m irritated, I’m emotional. But they don’t hear me. I’ve been trying not to get on meds. I stopped taking meds for depression and anxiety when I learned I was pregnant. I’m 18 weeks, and this is baby number 6.
I'm 36 weekspreganancy, my first child. I do know that I had anxiety etc but I never go to doctor with it hence I'm not diagnosed. On July 26, 2022 at around 2 am I felt this urge starting with feelings like I cant breathe, then it get more intense.
I also have a string faith, but not baptise as yet, but He really have being there for me, my mom and my child because He bless me with my baby. So I'm thankful for that.
So thanks for your story for I feel the same. I'm declaring God Help etc over us and our pregnancy through Jesus Christ of Nazareth and Him Crucify. Amen
I have someone around me that makes me cry almost everyday with thighs he make me remember, because I hurt him a lot and now I’m about to have my baby but he still makes me cry and torment me with the things he says and make me remember
I wanna move on and forget about the past and focus on my baby but is really hard, and I feel my baby can feel this
I’m extremely tired as well just as u explained u are. It’s so hard. 🥺
thank you for sharing you're doing a lot more than you think you are. I'm in a much earlier stage than you with Prego and feeling like I'm doing absolutely nothing actually which is affecting myself worth. you're doing so much more than many of us by even making this post and inspiring people
Thank you for being real. I can relate so much to this .
Thank you so much for sharing. Going through this and you explained how it feels perfectly. Thanks for the passage as well. I agree it’s hard to have faith when you’re so deep into the darkness. I pray you’re doing well present day ❤ blessings for you and your family. Thank you again bc it gave me strength to be vulnerable to accept I need the help.
Thank you for this video, can I ask you how you feel now / how you felt after pregnancy? Did it ever get better ? I really need some hope, I feel so depressed and sad and I’m still early in my pregnancy, I did reach out to my doctor to talk about possible medication. I’m supposed to be excited and it’s just been all sorrow
I am 9 weeks pregnant and going through something I can’t explain. Constant crying and my body feels different to me. A feeling of emptiness and worrying will this result in a miscarriage or I might have miscarried and will come to know about it on my first scan. This overwhelming feeling is eating me from inside. I can’t share it with my parents as I cant see them stressed about me. They live in a different country so no point in stressing them out. My husband wanted me to abort the baby because he thinks I don’t deserve to be a mother. And today he said this baby is only mine and he wants a separation. The reason is me, I keep asking him to be with me, I don’t like eating most of the stuff, fatigue makes me not wanting to cook. He can’t keep cooking for me, he gets tired too. Its so easy for men to say this baby has nothing to do with them whereas a mother cant even imagine to say this
I have similar feelings :( mixed feelings guilt, anxiety, stress..fear
Cat is so cool haha,he came to give you support ❤
I am prego and dont want to be
Im not happy about it
I cant stop it
My husband is doing his best keeping me happy but its failing.
I just want it to end. No one talks about this, its bringing up old ptsd with my childhood abuse ive faced with my parents.
All of it is so overwhelming
Same
I feel the same..!
How are you feeling now?
I’m so sorry 😢. I can relate.
Thank you for sharing this xxx
i can relate, thank you so much for this video . i know we can make it , through our Lord Jesus Christ . Just keep Praying.
Im 12 weeks , happy to get baby but since now i fell in some kind of loss of will to do stuff... im not crying but kind of lost motivation to do things, would like to just stay in bed. But I believe Jesus will help me and I pray for other mothers.... for you also and thank you for sharing your story! May Jesus bless you!
Husband here: my wife is 12 weeks pregnant and it’s a complete mess. She is so angry, so mean, I can’t do anything right, she won’t touch me, she makes time for everything except me. She won’t go to church anymore. She is very mean. Like, incredibly mean. She makes me feel so useless and ugly, unwanted and unappreciated. Even though I pay for everything, work 60 hours a week, she never gives me praise for anything that I do.
She won’t even make eye contact with me. She says “this is all your fault”…..
I feel so unloved and like an outsider who just provides all the money and protection. I get no love in this house anymore
Sounds like your wife needs to talk to her OBGYN about pregnancy anxiety. Something is wrong.
@@CelesteLandon Yes something is very wrong. She has become selfish and almost evil. She won’t even let me eat of the fridge or touch her
Did it get better for you?
Hi Momma. Ive also been struggling with depression. I was diagnosed back when I was a teen. I thought it was all gone and it was just the hormones. Was happy during my first trimester. However Ive somehow hit the rock bottom at second trimester. Im very anxious that having the illness will affect the development of my child. Is there any potential risk after you have given birth?
Proud of you 💜
Thank you, I love you 🧡
Is there any safe medication for anxiety and depression during pregnancy? Are there natural foods or supplements to help?
magnesium glycinate
The rage is definitely me! I went home to visit family for two weeks, and I was so irritated and sleep deprived. I feel bad for all the mean things I said about my family. I live 2000 miles away and I live in a boring lonely town. This is my first pregnancy and I am not excited at all. On top of these doctors wanting all these stupid azz genetic tests!
I agree 💯
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Girl... I am so sorry your going through that, ESPECIALLY while pregnant.. That has got to be extremely hard. I feel for you. Honestly, I felt this way but not while i was pregnant, but while my 1st was 5-6 months old. ( hes 7.5 months old now, so very recent) I believe there was a few things that went into it.. but i believe the biggest thing was the steroid shots the dr.s were giving me. I was all the sudden not just stessed out and overwhelmed and tired.. but i was all the sudden in a very dark place and i was snappy as well, all i wanted was to sit in 100% silence.. the dark shaking his head pissed me off and my baby crying??? ya my voice was raised and im not proud of it. The guilt that comes with it is real. Its hard. Crying and screaming in my pillow while i talked to God was the ONLY thing that helped. You will get through this, there will be light sooner than you think. Just keep praying for help. Jesus heals ALL. God bless you.
Hello.. I see you have posted in awhile and also I’m trying to find your instagram so I can message you. I’m a UA-cam and stay at home mom. And I’m currently expecting a baby girl as well! I hope everything is going okay!
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You news to talk to your husband and get help. The health providers told me it was normal. I had a misscarrage and went to a wemans clinic to help me because I was afraid of being sent home or not taken seriously. I got help with passing the baby. However, it cost me my marriage. You can't do this alone. Go get help. Tell people. This is a clinical problem that you will need help with.
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