Hi Elisha and all, I'm blessed to be your mom Elisha. Thank you for sharing so beautifully the synchronicity of our related "seize ups" and breakthroughs. As your mom, what you share makes me aware of how much responsibility i have to "move toward freedom" not only for myself but for you and your brother. I cringe at the thought of you having to carry my unresolved trauma. I'm guessing it works both ways. I was deeply impacted by your last video where you viscerally described the state of your body and how you addressed it. I was already in the midst of coming out the other side of my "seize up" but when I heard you describe what you were going through it helped me become much more tuned into my own body. You have a gift of being able to describe your internal state with such transparency. Thanks for sharing and I look forward to our ongoing journey. I love you.
Thank you to both of you for being role-models ... 💜... we make mistakes ... seeing them, and then making a choice to change our actions is healing ... for everyone ...
This is Elishas work space with professional boundries, mum's response isn't necessarily needed here. Space can be respected like boundries, lots of love Elisha❤❤
I woke up choking on gut wrenching terror about a serious human situation that I am immersed in, "Good Morning" and because I have been your student before, this was in my email. So you helped one person already. You also backed up something that a domestic violence counselor said last night to a person who I am trying to help escape. You delivered a timely word.
Thank you for sharing. To help even one person is worth it. This is a guess, but I am guessing that the fear of freedom/terror part might have been helpful. As someone who had to escape a violent situation myself, I know how surprising it can feel to everyone else that it's harder to leave than stay. This is the thing about survival biology and our nervous systems - they learn how to survive what we teach the body to predict, and anything outside of that becomes the terrifying unknown. We all have to face this terror to move towards freedom. The level of freedom we seek will determine the amount of terror we have to be willing to move through to get there. I'm wishing you courage and strength of spirit 🌟
@@ElishaCeleste I had never heard it put in words, that the unknown is terrifying. It's so obvious but when you add language, to me at least, the knowledge becomes a conscious tool so I appreciate the gift you have. The other thing the DV councilor shared was that the victim has usually learned that silence is safety which is why they are sitting right there, and they can't speak let alone file a report. Everyone thinks they are alone when these things are really so consistent.
Elisha, I'm so grateful that did this video. I had some similar symptoms recently and I've been doing a lot of self healing. I had some sexual childhood trauma since I was young, and I can see connections between the root chakra and throat chakra, so I can understand why your move brought up these things for you. I feel sad you went through this tough experience, It sounds very scary. I hope things have become better for you. That you found a safe home that you love, and comfortable to make videos in. I recently started doing more breathwork, journaling, and have been doing other healing modalities to heal some of these symptoms. Grateful for you brave souls that share stories. Love and Light.
Thank you so much 🥰 Honestly, it has been 5 full years of moving a lot and not finding home...until 2 months ago, when I made the decision to move back to Colorado. The year after this video was filmed was one of the hardest of my life. And, I learned so much! Cried a ton. And healed a lot. It was all necessary to put me where I am now, both internally and externally. Thank YOU for sharing your comments under my vidoes, I know that other people read them and feel less alone 🌟
I most definitely have the terror of relaxation..... and whipped with switches, belts, and a paddle. Never thought about how much I must’ve clenched up back then and wanting to say “Stop” but couldn’t. I started noticing me contracting earlier this week. Very timely☺️
I'm so sorry you went through that as a child. I'm also really glad you're here, and sharing this. Since learning about my mom's belting, I have had many realizations for myself, as has Stefan (my fiancé, who was also paddled). These things get imprinted on the nervous system so deeply. For me, the terror in letting go has a lot to do (I think) with inheriting some of my mom's nervous system memories about making sure not to get in trouble (to avoid the belting). Understanding WHY these patterns exist for us is an important first step in the healing process. Sending you love 💛
Elisha I think you are amazing and love watching your videos. You have helped me in more ways that you know. Just a few weeks ago I was feeling that every time I ate or drank something it was getting "stuck" in my throat. I now understand it was a build up of anxiety. I also think you will be an amazing mom. It is the most wonderful feeling in the world holding your new born baby. We have 2 boys, 15 and 18 and wouldn't change them for anything in the world. Kindest regards Angela
Hey Elisha. What an amazing story. Mother/daughter relationships are so tough sometimes. I had an amazing healing week with my lovely daughter Lauren a few weeks ago. Unexpected. It took a lot of courage on her part, and she took a big risk, and I acknowledged that to her. Painful. Lots of tears. I practised radical ownership, and listened to what was being expressed, not the words being said. And I said sorry. Not sorry, as in guilty sorry. Sorry as in " I see you, I hear you " I felt so much grief. But I just let it flow. My ego definitely chit chatted, and wanted to defend, but I stayed with it. It was so lovely to validate her, and she texted after, to say she felt like a weight had been lifted off her. This was long over due. It was so so so empowering for me too, to let my Higher Self take charge, and allow that exchange of energy between us alchemise into healing for both of us. Sending you and Stephan much love from the UK. xxx
Hi Fiona - thank you so much for sharing this! What a beautiful gift you gave your daughter, and such an important story for people to hear. I'm really appreciating your willingness to honestly share not just the outcome, but some of why it was challenging. It's so human. I am going to ask my mom if she'd be willing to film a Zoom conversation for UA-cam about all of this. She's usually very private, but she did give me permission to share what I did here. We'll see. Thank you again for sharing, we need more stories like this 💛
I was in an apt many years ago that felt restricting inside of me. I brushed it off as the tension between me and my roommate. Then the hallway ceiling bowed. We reported it. It was brushed off. Then it fell in. The repairs showed some mold up in the beams. The guys wouldn’t listen, brushed me off and fixed the ceiling. I got really sick. I realized over the year living there that I got weaker and weaker, until I couldn’t make myself food or work. When I moved at the end of the year, a doctor in my new hometown diagnosed me with Lupus. I was sick for 4 more years. Then we moved. The doctors said I don’t have lupus. They say my lupus was medically induced. Which is not possible on a SRI alone. I know my emotional past, CPTSD, and that mold caused me to get sick. Even now I have fibromyalgia and have taken YEARS to get better from where I was. I still can’t work a regular job. My anxiety is over the roof. This all to say that I found you last night in a fit of anxiety. Thanks to connecting to my fascia and just letting me feel my pain had allowed me to come down. I finally slept at 545am. 4 hours later, and a potty trip, I am back to needing the relaxation from anxiety again. I am hopeful you will help me find the way out.
I feel like someone is choking me, light headed and dizzy. Most of the time I feel chest pain and my left under arm hurts specially to raise it… I am learning so much from you, thank you! I was not taught to acknowledge my discomforts but to simply ignore them.
Thank you for sharing. I was having such a rough day and then your video on fascia showed up and now here I am. This helped unlock something for me and I’m grateful and relieved. Why I didn’t speak up without realising was just what I needed to hear. Going to follow some fascia work now. My body has exhaled listening to you 🙏💕
Your openness and beautiful mind is a joy to watch as always Elisha 🙏🏻, just got to listen to this and I am grateful as usual. I have also studied and I practice allergy work that is based on the same concepts you are describing, as in the body also creates “allergies/rejection/fear” when exposed to a substance while being traumatized/shocked simultaneously (and we can definitely pass it on, as I see in myself and people) while healing will occur when you are exposed to it while sending a message to the body that it is now safe. However this differentiation between fear and terror has definitely given me new food for thought, thank you.
Hi Ruba, thanks for watching! And WOW - that sounds like a really intriguing way to work with toxicity. On the one hand, I get why that would work. On the other, I often think about all the ways we try to "think" or "transform" our way out of the mess we've created (humanity as a whole). With toxicity, it seems to me that we (humanity) won't stop creating toxic chemicals or using them until enough people get sick that we realize what we've done to ourselves and this planet. I've been that sick person many times (mercury, mold, pesticides, recently EMF sensitivity). I suppose the healthy path is always in the middle. Thank you for sharing, I love thinking about all the different aspects to these conversations 😊
"Last week, my mom began "using her voice" for the fist time to practice respectful confrontation." Wow, this is eerie. I've just started finding my own voice lately (to WANT to be heard), and was just telling my friend all about this yesterday...
Good for you! This is not always easy (it was terrifying for me at first, and still is at times), but it truly is worth it. You're definitely not alone.
Thank you Elisha. I always find your writing, videos, and classes heartfelt, honest, and relevant to my situation. I too am facing a period of terror in making changes in how I live. In your sharing this week, I have found reassurance even though the way forward is uncomfortable, those feelings are a part of making improvements in my life.
Thank you Elisha, I’ve just gotten to watch your videos and I’m so grateful to you for opening up about your stressors and terrors and experiences with anxiety attacks.
i've just recently been making my way through a lot of your old videos and i often wish i had found you sooner, but sometimes i think it was meant to happen in this timeline because so much of what you share resonates with me more deeply than i imagine it would have at a previous time in my life. i was crying throughout the majority of this video because it felt like having a really meaningful conversation with a close friend - thank you SO much. i really admire your transparency and your perspective. i'm feeling a lot more hopeful, understood, and a lot less alone 💕
awww, thank you sharing and being here 🥰 I believe we find what we need at the perfect time. I'm really glad this video helped you feel less alone and more understood, I know in my bones that's what we all long for and it is the key to healing 💛
Hello. I came across your video and among so many other healing related videos available, your story , understanding, awareness and view really resonate with me. I myself always believe in healing together while sharing our pain, struggles and all. I also always dreaming about the world where we can heal together as parents- child. And how you and your mother shares healing journey together is so beautiful. I also follow Gabor Mate. He’s A-mazing. Thank you for being you, doing what you do and sharing your voice with us. Love
There were many layers of richness to this. I received much so value from this powerful share Elisha, thank you for your honesty and authenticity always but especially for this video... I hadn't heard your childhood trauma story before and appreciate you sharing this in the way you did. I related to many things that you covered - body sovereignty, moving around and craving connection & community also knowing how important where I live is, ping-ponging between anxiety/fear and terror {mine has been anxiety/fear to dread} and especially the generational trauma! I am in a pretty amazing process of alchemising guilt and generational trauma through the maternal lineage and I went back to hear your video yesterday at the perfect time! You take such epic responsibility for your life and the things that have happened to you... and I feel that you just demonstrated how everyone else can do this so powerfully, whilst forgiving and loving yourself through the whole process. I'm celebrating your reconnection with your Mum and the huge breakthrough of self-awareness she had! It's such a great sign that the inner-work we do on ourselves reaches our family too. You are such an amazing human and beacon of light for others, thank you!
Hi Julia - thank you for the kind words, and for being on this path too! I truly believe we create a better world, one person at a time, when we're able to transform our pain into wisdom, compassion and understanding of the human condition. And thanks for acknowledging the bit ab out my mom, it's such a recent development I'm still orienting. But it feels really, really good. I've had dreams about my ancestors since she shared with me, and she's had conversations with her mom to learn what was imprinted on her...so much healing going on just in the awareness! Have you seen anything about my upcoming workshop yet? It's called Unlocking the Trauma Body, and is all about this: the ways we store personal and inherited trauma patterns in the body, and how to break free. With this latest piece from my mom, I finally feel ready to teach this work.
Wow. So Brave! This is huge, even beyond you/your family. A lot to process here for me , too, that will help unpack my own trauma. Love the generational concept because it feels/rings so true! Thank you. Namasté
YES, I am so happy to hear this will help you too. These concepts are kind of blowing my mind this week. I have even more to share, as I unravel this thread in my own life. I'm having MASSIVE breakthroughs this week, and hope what I'm learning will help others like you. 🧡
Thx!! Also experience going from one fear, i see it now, i swolowed from my father, to the other fear, swolowed from my mother....and has kept me in this circle of fear...curious about how the next days will be...thx for your vulnarability and showing yourself ❤
I can definitely relate, being older. So my isolation seems greater and bad thought patterns are more ingrained (bad because they seem to ultimately lead in a non-fruitful, or finally even a self destructive path.) You don't know it but I have thought of myself as your friend for quite a while. And I know I am not the only one, so I know you do have friends in your corner for whom it is really important to them for things to work out really well for you and Stefan.
Thank you so much. That means a lot, and I honestly wish (with all my extroverted heart) that I could meet all of you in person ☺️ There have been a LOT of breakthroughs this week for me. Even more than what I could fit into this video. I'll be sharing more soon, because I think what I've learned this week will help others. The patterns you describe, while they can become really ingrained, are 100% breakable at any age. In my opinion, the only thing that gets harder is the terror that comes when you decide to break an ingrained pattern. Wishing you well also 💛
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I can relate with much of what your talking about. I'm in counseling now to deal with my trauma. The concepts of generational trauma and fear of freedom(fear of success) resonate high with me. I'm sending this video to my wife and counselor to help me vocalize the trillions of ideas running thru my head. lol Peace and Much Love to you! Good Luck on your journey in Austin. I have some friends there that used to love it but now feeling the same real estate things you expressed. The pains of a quickly growing city.
Hey, thanks so much for sharing what you relate to. And thanks for sharing the video with your wife and counselor - I hope the concepts here move you through the pain into more freedom 😊
@@ElishaCeleste I'm all about that freedom! Lol. I hate feeling restrained too. And I TOTALLY feel you on the mask thing as well. I tried to to be like "my body my choice" but some ppl weren't feeling that. Lol
There is something called Family Constellation work. I haven't done it because it's never tested for me, but I know it can be VERY powerful for people.
John - nice to see you here. Thank you so much for this comment and your "baby gift" and message today. Stefan and I are both VERY grateful for the support and vote of confidence, it means a lot 😊
This was so meaningful on so many levels. Your message of Fear of freedom had eluded me. I had been unable to recognize it myself, until today, Your story, the details, helped me see how real it is in my life. Thank you! When we’re children we far less fear of the unknown! I’m trying to regain that. Your story also made me realize that it IS normal, (and healthy) to have emotions and thoughts which initially don’t make sense, or don’t seem “constructive”. They are trying to reveal what we as yet don’t see, don’t understand, aren’t aware of. Some friends and I have been able to be there for one another to move through such emotional discovery/healing processes. It’s like fresh spring water when you’re done. But, In my family such expression of emotion and the thoughts going through our minds were not allowed. Even now, my parents won’t allow me even the lightest excursions into such self-expression. They become extremely scared, even when it has nothing to do with them, and I’m smiling and reassuring them as I speak. They immediately ask me to calm down, They think I must be going crazy, truly loosing it, if I’m not 100% cool, calm, rational, collected. I’m now suspecting that they are the ones who feel they might loose it. If I open the flow of soul in myself, it reverberates in them. Like you, I’m able to open the floodgates while staying in my witness, in self-responsibility, and conscious self-direction according to my values. But when they let their emotions flow, they actually do loose self-control. This video helped me see the difference between people who retain self-control when delving into emotional trauma, and those who loose it. And yay!!!!! You helped me see the difference between anxiety/panick (inability to think clearly) and terror. If you would speak more about this, it would be much appreciated.
Thank you for this video. I can really relate to you on many levels. The feeling of being forced into things that you KNOW are not healthy for you. Masks ( on top of making me feel very dizzy ) and these cell towers and smart meters. I feel that so many people are probably sick and have no idea what is causing it and it's mold, wifi, emfs, chemtrails etc. There is no reason we should be pushed into things we don't want on our own property or in our own homes, or on our own bodies.
You have helped me as well Elisha! I too am a childhood trauma survivor and this week have been thrown back into familiar (and VERY uncomfortable) bodily reactions as a result of healing work that I have been doing with a new therapist. I enjoyed an immediate reduction in my own terror/anxiety when I heard you share about terror of freedom and the unknown. Of course! I want to be reunited with my authentic, higher self so very much! That requires facing some lifelong beliefs, and the possibility of change is literally rocking my foundation. Birth and change are messy and uncomfortable, though I keep forgetting that fact. Our bodies hold wisdom! Many thanks!
Oh wow, I LOVE reading this Heather. Thank you for sharing. I'm SO glad this helped you. We're in it together! I've had so many additional lightbulb moments since filming this, that I'll be sharing soon. My own terror is subsiding a little, but I'm sure it'll rear its head again when I actively move towards that higher authentic embodiment of who I am. I'm cheering us all on, this is hard work but so so so worth it! 💛
I had an emergency operation when I was 7, and woke up on the operating table, either before, during or just after the operation. Panicking, of course, so they reacted by pinning my shoulders down while a third person shoved the mask in my face. I got imprinted with the image of the huge light above me and then the enforced blackness descending and putting me to sleep. I apparently had a lot of nightmares for months afterwards and issues with panic attacks at various periods and in certain situations over the course of my life. And I think that I've always resisted falling asleep. Since entering my 60s (not that long ago) and developing occasional bouts of insomnia, I sometimes experience states in which I feel myself finally drifting off -- but then suddenly panic, with a sort of indescribable wall between myself and the sleeping state and a terror of going through that barrier into "non-existence". This can happen when I am up against extreme exhaustion. There has even been the unpleasant sensation of parts of the body becoming numb, which is what happens in sleep, but you're not supposed to be conscious by then...I surmise that there are different degrees of awareness of panic, mild, moderate and then a very acute form in which the panic becomes plainly evident in terms of the form that it takes, or reveals. Fortunately, I don't suffer from chronic insomnia, so it's not a frequent issue, but I believe that all of my life I've tended to unconsciously stave off sleep longer than I should. That would be the milder, thus less conscious form of panic.
Thank you for sharing. I relate to almost everything you've shared here. I definitely appreciate you not being perfect on UA-cam (or any social media)! I appreciate the insight about fear of pain vs. fear of terror. What a dream to have a family that can share and communicate in a vulnerable and healing way!
Hey Heather, I appreciate you saying that bit about not being perfect. I'll tell you...it's such a relief to give myself permission to not be perfect anywhere I go, including social media! I'm not sure it's appreciate by everyone (in fact, being myself has meant a lot of pain in certain relationships), but I definitely appreciate when other people are relaxed enough to be themselves wherever they go. I want to acknowledge what you said about having a family that can communicate like this. This was MY dream all of my life, but far from my reality. I'm estranged from all of my family (dad, brother, aunts, uncles) except my mom, and I wasn't speaking to her either until recently. These conversations were not possible for my entire life, and being around my family just felt re-traumatizing. I'm SO SO grateful that my mom is turning towards her own childhood wounds and sharing her pain and memories with me (and vice versa). But this is VERY new. So new it feels kind of shocking. Just a few weeks ago conversations with my mom were tense, awkward and unfulfilling for me. I know many people don't even get one parent who will ever go there with them, so I feel really lucky. I also think it was my boundary of stepping away from the family that created the space for my mom to have her own pain bubble to the surface finally. I asked my mom yesterday "why now? Why do you think you couldn't do this earlier in your life?" And she said "I don't know. I was probably protecting myself from the pain. And then one day I was just ready. I wasn't ready before now."
Hi Elisha, I'm writing with thanks for this video. What you shared resonates deeply and like so much of your other work, comes from your personal experience and offers tremendous help! I'm in the thick of it -- generational trauma, fear of freedom and terror on the cusp of making changes in how I live life. My body and heart thank you!
Hi Sally! I'm so glad this was timely for you. In my own life, I'm coming to the conclusion that this path (towards healing and freedom) is really just a series of concentric circles getting wider and wider...as we face each layer of terrorfreedom. The good news is, doing this repeatedly is like building muscle and it DOES get easier ;) I'm probably not supposed to talk about this yet, but I can't help sharing with you, just in case it's of interest: I've decided to create a course specifically on healing trauma through the body, and how to take those steps towards freedom even though it's terrifying. We'll be opening for enrollment at the end of this month. So many people have been asking for me to do something like this, but I had to go through this recent experience of my own before feeling ready to teach this. Either way, I am cheering you on and sending you courage and love! 💛
I'm so glad you learned a lot, that makes all of this online effort worth it 🌟 And thank you for the prayers, I will gratefully accept and send some back your way as well 🙏🏼
Hi Kashish - nice to see you here. There is no quick answer or formula here, but I can say this: with the new awareness I've had myself this week about my own trauma patterns, I finally feel confident to begin teaching this more comprehensively. So expect more free videos (and an upcoming course) on exactly this: identifying patterns, healing trauma through the body, releasing the trauma and moving beyond survival biology (nervous system patterns from trauma). For now, I recommend starting with the practice I outlined in a video from January: using fascia release to name "what is" as you contact your body and nervous system. Name and feel any sensations, emotions, impulses etc as they arise. The video was called "How to create instant mind body alignment." Sending love, this is hard work...and totally worth it.
Found you accidentally when looking for exercises to release neck tension. Oddly enough, so much of my recent stress and anxiety has been caused by our sudden relocation from being forced to flee California for FREEDOM.
Hi Vanessa. I hear you! Moving is stressful enough, but then add the current state of the world and it can definitely trigger our survival patterns. Funny enough, I decided not to settle in Austin and moved to California! Ha. I actually found Austin to be WORSE than what I've experienced overall here in San Diego. Despite top down mandates, I can shop where I want and go most places without any issues here and that was never true in Austin. I hope you're finding freedom where you are, both internally and externally 😊
I am 14 a boy so can you tell me in simple term is this mental stuff or physical like is my throat actually doing that or my mind and anxiety is and what should I do will I die
You talk a lot about what's wrong. What is right in your life? In neuroscience we learn that thoughts and speech are very powerful. Our bodies don't speak English, but we communicate via feelings. What is wrong is a feeling and what feels good is a feeling. Our bodies listen to those feelings and react. To take it a bit further, our subconscious listens and our experiences are matched by those dominant feelings. Uncomfortable feelings create uncomfortable experiences, that simple. People say we need to feel our true feeling, be authentic. However, good happy feelings are authentic and are ignored in mainstream thinking. Tell a good story, what is going on in your life that is good? Eventually those stories will dominate and there won't be any room (or less room) for uncomfortable situations. I know because my life has completely changed by living by this truth. Everything is true, but I choose this truth.
Hi Elisha and all, I'm blessed to be your mom Elisha. Thank you for sharing so beautifully the synchronicity of our related "seize ups" and breakthroughs. As your mom, what you share makes me aware of how much responsibility i have to "move toward freedom" not only for myself but for you and your brother. I cringe at the thought of you having to carry my unresolved trauma. I'm guessing it works both ways. I was deeply impacted by your last video where you viscerally described the state of your body and how you addressed it. I was already in the midst of coming out the other side of my "seize up" but when I heard you describe what you were going through it helped me become much more tuned into my own body. You have a gift of being able to describe your internal state with such transparency. Thanks for sharing and I look forward to our ongoing journey. I love you.
Love you too, mom. I'm so grateful we've broken through to this place of healing together 🧡
Thank you to both of you for being role-models ... 💜... we make mistakes ... seeing them, and then making a choice to change our actions is healing ... for everyone ...
This is Elishas work space with professional boundries, mum's response isn't necessarily needed here. Space can be respected like boundries, lots of love Elisha❤❤
I woke up choking on gut wrenching terror about a serious human situation that I am immersed in, "Good Morning" and because I have been your student before, this was in my email. So you helped one person already. You also backed up something that a domestic violence counselor said last night to a person who I am trying to help escape. You delivered a timely word.
Thank you for sharing. To help even one person is worth it. This is a guess, but I am guessing that the fear of freedom/terror part might have been helpful. As someone who had to escape a violent situation myself, I know how surprising it can feel to everyone else that it's harder to leave than stay. This is the thing about survival biology and our nervous systems - they learn how to survive what we teach the body to predict, and anything outside of that becomes the terrifying unknown. We all have to face this terror to move towards freedom. The level of freedom we seek will determine the amount of terror we have to be willing to move through to get there. I'm wishing you courage and strength of spirit 🌟
@@ElishaCeleste I had never heard it put in words, that the unknown is terrifying. It's so obvious but when you add language, to me at least, the knowledge becomes a conscious tool so I appreciate the gift you have. The other thing the DV councilor shared was that the victim has usually learned that silence is safety which is why they are sitting right there, and they can't speak let alone file a report. Everyone thinks they are alone when these things are really so consistent.
Elisha, I'm so grateful that did this video. I had some similar symptoms recently and I've been doing a lot of self healing. I had some sexual childhood trauma since I was young, and I can see connections between the root chakra and throat chakra, so I can understand why your move brought up these things for you. I feel sad you went through this tough experience, It sounds very scary. I hope things have become better for you. That you found a safe home that you love, and comfortable to make videos in. I recently started doing more breathwork, journaling, and have been doing other healing modalities to heal some of these symptoms. Grateful for you brave souls that share stories. Love and Light.
Thank you so much 🥰 Honestly, it has been 5 full years of moving a lot and not finding home...until 2 months ago, when I made the decision to move back to Colorado. The year after this video was filmed was one of the hardest of my life. And, I learned so much! Cried a ton. And healed a lot. It was all necessary to put me where I am now, both internally and externally. Thank YOU for sharing your comments under my vidoes, I know that other people read them and feel less alone 🌟
I most definitely have the terror of relaxation..... and whipped with switches, belts, and a paddle. Never thought about how much I must’ve clenched up back then and wanting to say “Stop” but couldn’t. I started noticing me contracting earlier this week. Very timely☺️
I'm so sorry you went through that as a child. I'm also really glad you're here, and sharing this. Since learning about my mom's belting, I have had many realizations for myself, as has Stefan (my fiancé, who was also paddled). These things get imprinted on the nervous system so deeply. For me, the terror in letting go has a lot to do (I think) with inheriting some of my mom's nervous system memories about making sure not to get in trouble (to avoid the belting). Understanding WHY these patterns exist for us is an important first step in the healing process. Sending you love 💛
Elisha I think you are amazing and love watching your videos. You have helped me in more ways that you know. Just a few weeks ago I was feeling that every time I ate or drank something it was getting "stuck" in my throat. I now understand it was a build up of anxiety. I also think you will be an amazing mom. It is the most wonderful feeling in the world holding your new born baby. We have 2 boys, 15 and 18 and wouldn't change them for anything in the world. Kindest regards Angela
Hey Elisha. What an amazing story. Mother/daughter relationships are so tough sometimes. I had an amazing healing week with my lovely daughter Lauren a few weeks ago. Unexpected. It took a lot of courage on her part, and she took a big risk, and I acknowledged that to her. Painful. Lots of tears. I practised radical ownership, and listened to what was being expressed, not the words being said. And I said sorry. Not sorry, as in guilty sorry. Sorry as in " I see you, I hear you " I felt so much grief. But I just let it flow. My ego definitely chit chatted, and wanted to defend, but I stayed with it. It was so lovely to validate her, and she texted after, to say she felt like a weight had been lifted off her. This was long over due. It was so so so empowering for me too, to let my Higher Self take charge, and allow that exchange of energy between us alchemise into healing for both of us. Sending you and Stephan much love from the UK. xxx
Hi Fiona - thank you so much for sharing this! What a beautiful gift you gave your daughter, and such an important story for people to hear. I'm really appreciating your willingness to honestly share not just the outcome, but some of why it was challenging. It's so human. I am going to ask my mom if she'd be willing to film a Zoom conversation for UA-cam about all of this. She's usually very private, but she did give me permission to share what I did here. We'll see. Thank you again for sharing, we need more stories like this 💛
I was in an apt many years ago that felt restricting inside of me. I brushed it off as the tension between me and my roommate. Then the hallway ceiling bowed. We reported it. It was brushed off. Then it fell in. The repairs showed some mold up in the beams. The guys wouldn’t listen, brushed me off and fixed the ceiling. I got really sick. I realized over the year living there that I got weaker and weaker, until I couldn’t make myself food or work. When I moved at the end of the year, a doctor in my new hometown diagnosed me with Lupus. I was sick for 4 more years. Then we moved. The doctors said I don’t have lupus. They say my lupus was medically induced. Which is not possible on a SRI alone. I know my emotional past, CPTSD, and that mold caused me to get sick. Even now I have fibromyalgia and have taken YEARS to get better from where I was. I still can’t work a regular job. My anxiety is over the roof. This all to say that I found you last night in a fit of anxiety. Thanks to connecting to my fascia and just letting me feel my pain had allowed me to come down. I finally slept at 545am. 4 hours later, and a potty trip, I am back to needing the relaxation from anxiety again. I am hopeful you will help me find the way out.
I feel like someone is choking me, light headed and dizzy. Most of the time I feel chest pain and my left under arm hurts specially to raise it… I am learning so much from you, thank you! I was not taught to acknowledge my discomforts but to simply ignore them.
Me too. We're changing that paradigm together. Thank you so much for sharing. I'm really glad you're learning from my videos!
Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this... truly so powerful and helpful.
Thank you for sharing. I was having such a rough day and then your video on fascia showed up and now here I am. This helped unlock something for me and I’m grateful and relieved. Why I didn’t speak up without realising was just what I needed to hear. Going to follow some fascia work now. My body has exhaled listening to you 🙏💕
Your openness and beautiful mind is a joy to watch as always Elisha 🙏🏻, just got to listen to this and I am grateful as usual. I have also studied and I practice allergy work that is based on the same concepts you are describing, as in the body also creates “allergies/rejection/fear” when exposed to a substance while being traumatized/shocked simultaneously (and we can definitely pass it on, as I see in myself and people) while healing will occur when you are exposed to it while sending a message to the body that it is now safe. However this differentiation between fear and terror has definitely given me new food for thought, thank you.
Hi Ruba, thanks for watching! And WOW - that sounds like a really intriguing way to work with toxicity. On the one hand, I get why that would work. On the other, I often think about all the ways we try to "think" or "transform" our way out of the mess we've created (humanity as a whole). With toxicity, it seems to me that we (humanity) won't stop creating toxic chemicals or using them until enough people get sick that we realize what we've done to ourselves and this planet. I've been that sick person many times (mercury, mold, pesticides, recently EMF sensitivity). I suppose the healthy path is always in the middle. Thank you for sharing, I love thinking about all the different aspects to these conversations 😊
"Last week, my mom began "using her voice" for the fist time to practice respectful confrontation."
Wow, this is eerie. I've just started finding my own voice lately (to WANT to be heard), and was just telling my friend all about this yesterday...
Good for you! This is not always easy (it was terrifying for me at first, and still is at times), but it truly is worth it. You're definitely not alone.
Thank you Elisha. I always find your writing, videos, and classes heartfelt, honest, and relevant to my situation. I too am facing a period of terror in making changes in how I live. In your sharing this week, I have found reassurance even though the way forward is uncomfortable, those feelings are a part of making improvements in my life.
Hey Jim, nice to hear from you :) I'm so glad to hear this was helpful in moving forward through the discomfort 😊
Thank you Elisha, I’ve just gotten to watch your videos and I’m so grateful to you for opening up about your stressors and terrors and experiences with anxiety attacks.
i've just recently been making my way through a lot of your old videos and i often wish i had found you sooner, but sometimes i think it was meant to happen in this timeline because so much of what you share resonates with me more deeply than i imagine it would have at a previous time in my life. i was crying throughout the majority of this video because it felt like having a really meaningful conversation with a close friend - thank you SO much. i really admire your transparency and your perspective. i'm feeling a lot more hopeful, understood, and a lot less alone 💕
awww, thank you sharing and being here 🥰 I believe we find what we need at the perfect time. I'm really glad this video helped you feel less alone and more understood, I know in my bones that's what we all long for and it is the key to healing 💛
Hello. I came across your video and among so many other healing related videos available, your story , understanding, awareness and view really resonate with me. I myself always believe in healing together while sharing our pain, struggles and all. I also always dreaming about the world where we can heal together as parents- child. And how you and your mother shares healing journey together is so beautiful. I also follow Gabor Mate. He’s A-mazing. Thank you for being you, doing what you do and sharing your voice with us. Love
Thank you for your thoughtful comment and feedback ♥ I'm glad you are on a similar path and have a vision of all of us healing together 🌟
There were many layers of richness to this. I received much so value from this powerful share Elisha, thank you for your honesty and authenticity always but especially for this video... I hadn't heard your childhood trauma story before and appreciate you sharing this in the way you did. I related to many things that you covered - body sovereignty, moving around and craving connection & community also knowing how important where I live is, ping-ponging between anxiety/fear and terror {mine has been anxiety/fear to dread} and especially the generational trauma! I am in a pretty amazing process of alchemising guilt and generational trauma through the maternal lineage and I went back to hear your video yesterday at the perfect time! You take such epic responsibility for your life and the things that have happened to you... and I feel that you just demonstrated how everyone else can do this so powerfully, whilst forgiving and loving yourself through the whole process. I'm celebrating your reconnection with your Mum and the huge breakthrough of self-awareness she had! It's such a great sign that the inner-work we do on ourselves reaches our family too. You are such an amazing human and beacon of light for others, thank you!
Hi Julia - thank you for the kind words, and for being on this path too! I truly believe we create a better world, one person at a time, when we're able to transform our pain into wisdom, compassion and understanding of the human condition. And thanks for acknowledging the bit ab out my mom, it's such a recent development I'm still orienting. But it feels really, really good. I've had dreams about my ancestors since she shared with me, and she's had conversations with her mom to learn what was imprinted on her...so much healing going on just in the awareness! Have you seen anything about my upcoming workshop yet? It's called Unlocking the Trauma Body, and is all about this: the ways we store personal and inherited trauma patterns in the body, and how to break free. With this latest piece from my mom, I finally feel ready to teach this work.
Wow. So Brave! This is huge, even beyond you/your family. A lot to process here for me , too, that will help unpack my own trauma. Love the generational concept because it feels/rings so true! Thank you. Namasté
YES, I am so happy to hear this will help you too. These concepts are kind of blowing my mind this week. I have even more to share, as I unravel this thread in my own life. I'm having MASSIVE breakthroughs this week, and hope what I'm learning will help others like you. 🧡
Thx!! Also experience going from one fear, i see it now, i swolowed from my father, to the other fear, swolowed from my mother....and has kept me in this circle of fear...curious about how the next days will be...thx for your vulnarability and showing yourself ❤
I can definitely relate, being older. So my isolation seems greater and bad thought patterns are more ingrained (bad because they seem to ultimately lead in a non-fruitful, or finally even a self destructive path.) You don't know it but I have thought of myself as your friend for quite a while. And I know I am not the only one, so I know you do have friends in your corner for whom it is really important to them for things to work out really well for you and Stefan.
Thank you so much. That means a lot, and I honestly wish (with all my extroverted heart) that I could meet all of you in person ☺️ There have been a LOT of breakthroughs this week for me. Even more than what I could fit into this video. I'll be sharing more soon, because I think what I've learned this week will help others. The patterns you describe, while they can become really ingrained, are 100% breakable at any age. In my opinion, the only thing that gets harder is the terror that comes when you decide to break an ingrained pattern. Wishing you well also 💛
Thank you Elisha, I feel you and I see myself in you, I am in the similar situation now. You got me in to tears. ♥️🌹
Sending love to you Maya, thank you for witnessing and sharing 🧡
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I can relate with much of what your talking about. I'm in counseling now to deal with my trauma. The concepts of generational trauma and fear of freedom(fear of success) resonate high with me. I'm sending this video to my wife and counselor to help me vocalize the trillions of ideas running thru my head. lol Peace and Much Love to you! Good Luck on your journey in Austin. I have some friends there that used to love it but now feeling the same real estate things you expressed. The pains of a quickly growing city.
Hey, thanks so much for sharing what you relate to. And thanks for sharing the video with your wife and counselor - I hope the concepts here move you through the pain into more freedom 😊
@@ElishaCeleste I'm all about that freedom! Lol. I hate feeling restrained too. And I TOTALLY feel you on the mask thing as well. I tried to to be like "my body my choice" but some ppl weren't feeling that. Lol
@@jerediahgonzalez2315 - it's ironic how that only works when it fits a certain political/moral agenda, but won't be extended to all bodies/choices.
@@ElishaCeleste Yeah, tribal thinking can be a hard thing overcome.
There is something called Family Constellation work. I haven't done it because it's never tested for me, but I know it can be VERY powerful for people.
Thank you, Alisha, for making real how awareness of 'nervous system patterns' really kicks in at the times when it matters most.
John - nice to see you here. Thank you so much for this comment and your "baby gift" and message today. Stefan and I are both VERY grateful for the support and vote of confidence, it means a lot 😊
This was so meaningful on so many levels.
Your message of Fear of freedom had eluded me. I had been unable to recognize it myself, until today, Your story, the details, helped me see how real it is in my life. Thank you! When we’re children we far less fear of the unknown! I’m trying to regain that.
Your story also made me realize that it IS normal, (and healthy) to have emotions and thoughts which initially don’t make sense, or don’t seem “constructive”. They are trying to reveal what we as yet don’t see, don’t understand, aren’t aware of. Some friends and I have been able to be there for one another to move through such emotional discovery/healing processes. It’s like fresh spring water when you’re done.
But, In my family such expression of emotion and the thoughts going through our minds were not allowed. Even now, my parents won’t allow me even the lightest excursions into such self-expression. They become extremely scared, even when it has nothing to do with them, and I’m smiling and reassuring them as I speak. They immediately ask me to calm down, They think I must be going crazy, truly loosing it, if I’m not 100% cool, calm, rational, collected. I’m now suspecting that they are the ones who feel they might loose it. If I open the flow of soul in myself, it reverberates in them. Like you, I’m able to open the floodgates while staying in my witness, in self-responsibility, and conscious self-direction according to my values. But when they let their emotions flow, they actually do loose self-control. This video helped me see the difference between people who retain self-control when delving into emotional trauma, and those who loose it.
And yay!!!!! You helped me see the difference between anxiety/panick (inability to think clearly) and terror. If you would speak more about this, it would be much appreciated.
Thank you for this video. I can really relate to you on many levels. The feeling of being forced into things that you KNOW are not healthy for you. Masks ( on top of making me feel very dizzy ) and these cell towers and smart meters. I feel that so many people are probably sick and have no idea what is causing it and it's mold, wifi, emfs, chemtrails etc. There is no reason we should be pushed into things we don't want on our own property or in our own homes, or on our own bodies.
You have helped me as well Elisha! I too am a childhood trauma survivor and this week have been thrown back into familiar (and VERY uncomfortable) bodily reactions as a result of healing work that I have been doing with a new therapist. I enjoyed an immediate reduction in my own terror/anxiety when I heard you share about terror of freedom and the unknown. Of course! I want to be reunited with my authentic, higher self so very much! That requires facing some lifelong beliefs, and the possibility of change is literally rocking my foundation. Birth and change are messy and uncomfortable, though I keep forgetting that fact. Our bodies hold wisdom! Many thanks!
Oh wow, I LOVE reading this Heather. Thank you for sharing. I'm SO glad this helped you. We're in it together! I've had so many additional lightbulb moments since filming this, that I'll be sharing soon. My own terror is subsiding a little, but I'm sure it'll rear its head again when I actively move towards that higher authentic embodiment of who I am. I'm cheering us all on, this is hard work but so so so worth it! 💛
I had an emergency operation when I was 7, and woke up on the operating table, either before, during or just after the operation. Panicking, of course, so they reacted by pinning my shoulders down while a third person shoved the mask in my face. I got imprinted with the image of the huge light above me and then the enforced blackness descending and putting me to sleep. I apparently had a lot of nightmares for months afterwards and issues with panic attacks at various periods and in certain situations over the course of my life. And I think that I've always resisted falling asleep. Since entering my 60s (not that long ago) and developing occasional bouts of insomnia, I sometimes experience states in which I feel myself finally drifting off -- but then suddenly panic, with a sort of indescribable wall between myself and the sleeping state and a terror of going through that barrier into "non-existence". This can happen when I am up against extreme exhaustion. There has even been the unpleasant sensation of parts of the body becoming numb, which is what happens in sleep, but you're not supposed to be conscious by then...I surmise that there are different degrees of awareness of panic, mild, moderate and then a very acute form in which the panic becomes plainly evident in terms of the form that it takes, or reveals. Fortunately, I don't suffer from chronic insomnia, so it's not a frequent issue, but I believe that all of my life I've tended to unconsciously stave off sleep longer than I should. That would be the milder, thus less conscious form of panic.
Thank you for sharing. I relate to almost everything you've shared here. I definitely appreciate you not being perfect on UA-cam (or any social media)! I appreciate the insight about fear of pain vs. fear of terror. What a dream to have a family that can share and communicate in a vulnerable and healing way!
Hey Heather, I appreciate you saying that bit about not being perfect. I'll tell you...it's such a relief to give myself permission to not be perfect anywhere I go, including social media! I'm not sure it's appreciate by everyone (in fact, being myself has meant a lot of pain in certain relationships), but I definitely appreciate when other people are relaxed enough to be themselves wherever they go.
I want to acknowledge what you said about having a family that can communicate like this. This was MY dream all of my life, but far from my reality. I'm estranged from all of my family (dad, brother, aunts, uncles) except my mom, and I wasn't speaking to her either until recently. These conversations were not possible for my entire life, and being around my family just felt re-traumatizing. I'm SO SO grateful that my mom is turning towards her own childhood wounds and sharing her pain and memories with me (and vice versa). But this is VERY new. So new it feels kind of shocking. Just a few weeks ago conversations with my mom were tense, awkward and unfulfilling for me. I know many people don't even get one parent who will ever go there with them, so I feel really lucky. I also think it was my boundary of stepping away from the family that created the space for my mom to have her own pain bubble to the surface finally.
I asked my mom yesterday "why now? Why do you think you couldn't do this earlier in your life?" And she said "I don't know. I was probably protecting myself from the pain. And then one day I was just ready. I wasn't ready before now."
Hi Elisha, I'm writing with thanks for this video. What you shared resonates deeply and like so much of your other work, comes from your personal experience and offers tremendous help! I'm in the thick of it -- generational trauma, fear of freedom and terror on the cusp of making changes in how I live life. My body and heart thank you!
Hi Sally! I'm so glad this was timely for you. In my own life, I'm coming to the conclusion that this path (towards healing and freedom) is really just a series of concentric circles getting wider and wider...as we face each layer of terrorfreedom. The good news is, doing this repeatedly is like building muscle and it DOES get easier ;) I'm probably not supposed to talk about this yet, but I can't help sharing with you, just in case it's of interest: I've decided to create a course specifically on healing trauma through the body, and how to take those steps towards freedom even though it's terrifying. We'll be opening for enrollment at the end of this month. So many people have been asking for me to do something like this, but I had to go through this recent experience of my own before feeling ready to teach this. Either way, I am cheering you on and sending you courage and love! 💛
Thanks, my prayers are with you.
Love your work and I learned so much.
I'm so glad you learned a lot, that makes all of this online effort worth it 🌟 And thank you for the prayers, I will gratefully accept and send some back your way as well 🙏🏼
Thank you for sharing
Thanks for sharing. We'll done.
Thank you for sharing your story. I needed to hear this and it helped me so much 🙏
I'm glad my story was helpful 💛
I am happy you spoke about Gabor Mate
He's incredible and his work is soooo important!
Thanks for sharing, quickly wanted to check what would be healing tools would you recommend for releasing the patterns and traumas ?
Hi Kashish - nice to see you here. There is no quick answer or formula here, but I can say this: with the new awareness I've had myself this week about my own trauma patterns, I finally feel confident to begin teaching this more comprehensively. So expect more free videos (and an upcoming course) on exactly this: identifying patterns, healing trauma through the body, releasing the trauma and moving beyond survival biology (nervous system patterns from trauma). For now, I recommend starting with the practice I outlined in a video from January: using fascia release to name "what is" as you contact your body and nervous system. Name and feel any sensations, emotions, impulses etc as they arise. The video was called "How to create instant mind body alignment." Sending love, this is hard work...and totally worth it.
You helped me. Thank you
I'm glad to hear this 💛
Great vid! I'm hoping we can make positive content just like you! :)
I feel you. I’m a bit absent tho, constantly trying to pull myself back to me.
Found you accidentally when looking for exercises to release neck tension. Oddly enough, so much of my recent stress and anxiety has been caused by our sudden relocation from being forced to flee California for FREEDOM.
Hi Vanessa. I hear you! Moving is stressful enough, but then add the current state of the world and it can definitely trigger our survival patterns. Funny enough, I decided not to settle in Austin and moved to California! Ha. I actually found Austin to be WORSE than what I've experienced overall here in San Diego. Despite top down mandates, I can shop where I want and go most places without any issues here and that was never true in Austin. I hope you're finding freedom where you are, both internally and externally 😊
@@ElishaCeleste Arizona baby!
I am 14 a boy so can you tell me in simple term is this mental stuff or physical like is my throat actually doing that or my mind and anxiety is and what should I do will I die
Come to Florida!!! Mask free ocean air
We have thought about it! Where are you in FL?
You talk a lot about what's wrong. What is right in your life? In neuroscience we learn that thoughts and speech are very powerful. Our bodies don't speak English, but we communicate via feelings. What is wrong is a feeling and what feels good is a feeling. Our bodies listen to those feelings and react. To take it a bit further, our subconscious listens and our experiences are matched by those dominant feelings. Uncomfortable feelings create uncomfortable experiences, that simple. People say we need to feel our true feeling, be authentic. However, good happy feelings are authentic and are ignored in mainstream thinking. Tell a good story, what is going on in your life that is good? Eventually those stories will dominate and there won't be any room (or less room) for uncomfortable situations. I know because my life has completely changed by living by this truth. Everything is true, but I choose this truth.