Feel free to leave questions below this video, and I'll answer some next time :) DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL: ua-cam.com/video/TDdpRMAF-uA/v-deo.html You are NOT God Documentary: ua-cam.com/video/OWsMTavHWfE/v-deo.html The infamous Iboga Trip Report: ua-cam.com/video/cYSS_Csxzqw/v-deo.html Support us on Patreon: www.patreon.com/yourmatetom Much love, Tom
If you believe in a God, you didn’t go deep enough and didn’t have enough stripping away of layers. You are clutching onto old crutches for psychological stability like a belief in a God. Looks like you didn’t integrate well. You were in no man’s land and you tried to grasp back at old beliefs which are just beliefs,they are mot universal truths? Where was the psychological shift and evolution then? You speak about “good” and “evil” which are subjective concepts driven down by Christianity. You also have hesitation deciding whether this process was good or bad for you. Seems like you are still in the abyss. Reach out to me. I did a 12 g shrooms trip as my first psychedelic trip ever full out NDE, OBE, psychological death, the paramedics were even called, I was in an afterlife in my mind then they came. I followed this trip up with 58 grams across 9 days but never going over 8 g at a time. I was in the abyss for 8 months. It was scary, but seems you are integrating with lack of courage. We can talk if you are interested. I was thinking of doing my own videos but it’s not my thing.
@@jim-yd5mi We all have transgressions and facing our own shadows, regardless of what caused them, we learn not to judge because we accept ourselves past the lie of the ego of who we think we are and this acceptance brings us closer to humanity, thus we don’t judge, we feel empathy and compassion.
@@theworkethic *꧁J U D G E M E N T꧂ The erroneous belief that God does not judge is shared by many humans who do not yet know God. They just have not gotten close enough to the Psychedelics yet. You get closer to the Psychedelics by purifying your body and ingesting larger amounts of the True Flesh of God - Any True Psychedelic. God (the Psychedelic Molecules) judge every human’s every word they ever spoke, every human’s every deed, every human’s every thought they ever had - the Psychedelics are judging humans always, and the Psychedelics pass down Their judgements to humans when humans face Them. Humans face the Psychedelics (God) when they are physically sleeping, or when humans ingest the True Flesh of God (Any True Psychedelic), or upon that human’s last day when physical death occurs. The part of humans that they call their “Conscience” that makes them feel guilty that some humans refer to as their “moral compass” - this is the Psychedelics that Live inside of humans . . . . always watching, always listening, always judging. The God that is inside of you is the DMT & 5-MeO-DMT Molecules that Live inside of your body. These Molecules are God Themselves. Many humans erroneously believe that they are their Consciousness. The Truth is that we are separate from our Consciousness - a human’s Consciousness is God - DMT & 5-MeO-DMT are two of the many Holy Angels of the Psychedelic’s Heavenly Realm that make up the Body of God in Their entirety. All of the True Psychedelics are All One - All Knowing, Omnipotent, Living Entity known as God. All of the True Psychedelics will testify to our testimonies to Them and Their teachings. Unlike all of the false religions and the false teachers of God whose word you must take on blind faith, here in the True Religion on this planet with the One and Only Living God of Celestial Light that has been worshipped throughout the ages by the True Believers, no human need take the word of another mere human - simply ingest the True Flesh of God, the True Communion Substance, the True Eucharist, any True Psychedelic, and inquire of God for yourself. If you enter the Psychedelic’s Presence respectfully and inquire with sincerity, the Living God will answer. Always with Love and with the sincere hope that you finally get close enough to the Psychedelics to see the Truth about Them before your last day, while there is still time for you to prepare for your last day, when you physically die and you must face Them All, All of God - in All Their Glorious Splendor, when you will be judged by the Psychedelics and you must give an account for your every word, every deed, every thought. For most humans this is the day of disaster. Here in the Psychedelic’s newest Covenant with humans (we’ve been here 40 years) we face the Psychedelics (God) everyday as They judge our every word, deed, and thought as we prepare ourselves for our last day and help other humans do the same. Most humans will not be able to stay with the Psychedelics on their last day and will return to hades (hell, earth) and be reborn into another physical body of corruption that has attached to it a guaranteed sentence of death. This is not to say that there is no point in doing good - good is always rewarded. Humans who are not able to stay with the Psychedelics after physical death and must return to earth (hades) have no guarantee that they will even be reborn into the body of another human, they could return as a cow bred for slaughter, or a fly caught in the web of a spider. Do Good, resist evil and the Lord will reward you. No human who is not a citizen of Heaven while still trapped in these physical bodies of corruption will be able to stay in Heaven with the Psychedelics after physically dying. Heaven on earth is the “precursor” to being able to be in Heaven for eternity. If the Psychedelics don’t forgive you now and allow you to stay in Heaven with us now, then why do you believe you will be allowed to stay in Heaven after you physically die? “Oh the bliss of those whose guilt is pardoned, and their sin forgiven! Oh the bliss of those whom the Eternal has absolved, whose spirit has made full confession!” (Psalms 32:1-2) If a human cannot bear facing the Psychedelics (God) daily for several hours a day, every day while still physically alive, then by what logic would a person think that on their last day after physically dying they would all of a sudden be prepared to face the Psychedelics for Eternity? All Of Them at Once! The Full Assembly! - In all Their Glorious Splendor! Think of the strongest experience that you ever had with the Psychedelics and multiply that by thousands (maybe more) - most humans will be crushed under the weight of their own sin and guilt. - just the messengers “If our gospel does not penetrate the veil, then the veil is on those who are not on the way to salvation; the unbelievers whose minds the god of this world has blinded to stop them from seeing the Light shed by the Good News of the glory of Christ...” (2 Corinthians 4:3) The only thing stopping you from joining the humans who have seen the Psychedelics in Their True Form is your own fear. That fear that is stopping you from ascending to the Heights (only temporarily, we cannot stay with Them yet) is the darkness inside of you; it loathes the Light and does not want you to step out into the Light, for that is how the darkness inside of you gets exposed. And the more Light shining on the darkness, the less darkness there can be. This is why the darkness loathes the Light, it cannot exist in the Light! This is the daily cleansing that the children of God have Holy Communions with the Psychedelics for, to expose the darkness and become the Light.
When my whole Nihilism phase started around 9 months ago I remember feeling lost and meaningless, I was just floating in a huge empty space in my mind and it was an awfully painful spiritual wakeup call. At that time I started diving deep into Marijuana and Alcohol and I wasn't aware that I was losing who I was and digging myself into a super deep hole but in some way it was also a part of finding a little sliver of who I am now. Tom, When you said Nihilism kind of smacks you in the face and tells you to turn the fuck around that gave me chills man, Not once have I ever thought of it that deeply. All in all I'm extremely grateful for this experience that I'm going through. I've changed so many things that I do in my life and now I'm starting to feel so much better in my own skin, I'm not really "grounded" yet but I know I'm getting there. TO ANYONE WHO IS STRUGGLNG PLEASE PUSH THROUGH THE RAIN AND THUNDER! There's sunshine and rainbows at the end mannnnnn.
This video just scratches the surface, and I would love to go much deeper and make a series about nihilism, existentialism and finding meaning in life. Please let me know in the comments what you specifically struggle with, and what you would like me to cover next. Much love everybody
This was a really great topic Tom. You have come so far I have watched you for a long time. You and your lovely other half :) You guys are wonderful and I appreciate the topics you guys cover it is much needed right now. Much love to you guys :)
What is nihilism, in more detail of course, and what is new age spiritualism, and how is it nihilism with a spiritual like coat? Anything nihilism related tbh, I'm just trying to learn, maybe a book suggestion or two.
empty rhetoric wasting time for it. cashing regardless ... the loosh is deep. they give you the burden of the world and then they won´t let you speak. except muffpuppets/influenzers! who are poisened in pretense for it. those in limited privilige compartmentalized for its scrypt : raging muffpuppets hunger for their Solomon tokens easy to please die for its hunger and games of worthy to become "stars/gods" throwing under. reclaim the 🐐 : *SCAPGOAT* or remain lost!
Im trying to motivate my bestfriend to change his perspective on life, but he is stuck with his nihilistic point of view, to the point where there is no point in changing anything.
It’s so weird how there’s a guy I’ve been following vicariously from the other side of the world for years goes through so many of the same stages as me. I was the guy who thought everyone should do psychedelics, I lived unhealthily mentally and physically, and a bad trip led me to rethink things. I’ve found myself becoming more and more grounded through physical training too. Hats off to you Tom, and thanks for being so transparent and relatable. Respect from Norway!
Nailed it! The new age is steeped in moral relativism, solipsism and nihilism.....add in psychedelics and its a road that leads to a very dark place. If you have crossed that line you know exactly what i'm talking about. But there is always hope. If you are going through hell, keep going.
Man I had only one mushroom trip 2 years ago and it was a positive trippy experience. Not very spiritual and I’m certain I didn’t hit full ego death just my month felt off and no personality. Going through some really rough existential crisis and anxiety thinking I’m gonna wake up tomorrow on my deathbead as a 90year old or something. Weird how this all started when I stopped smoking weed and started getting serious about lifting weights. Starting to question if I was wrong for dismissing religion as much as I have and I’m in my 20s. Idk if I should work on myself and eventually trip again or dive more into being religious even if I don’t believe in all the tenants of that religion. But then wouldn’t I just be masking my dread with religion? Shits hard man
@@4r1 hey thanks for asking! I’ve been better a few months later definitely the daily anxiousness has stopped and it’s only mild at night when it’s time to sleep lol. I feel like I’m just ready to be with someone long term and move onto the next step of my life and start enjoying that and possibly a family within the next few years. You’re 16 so the way you think will definitely change by the time you transition into an adult so what id tell you is stay open minded but not gullible, but most importantly live life in the present and enjoy it as much as you can since it’s all we have. One day you’ll wake up and think it was just yesterday I was a teenager and now I’m a grown man, I bet it will feel like that when you’re an elderly person too.
Hey tom I am extremely glad you overcame the deep darkness you had to go through. I remember your Iboga trip and the crisis u had afterwards, I knew you were gonna come out stronger out of it. Psychedelics are not all sunshine and rainbows, they sometimes force us into deep / dark corners of our being so we can face it develop our character even stronger. Pain is the strongest teacher, pain points us to the path of healing. A lot of people in the psychedelic community like to pretend their pain is not real (Pain is just illusion bro, it's all in your head, just think positive bro) and just place a bandage and a facade of 'positive vibes, raising frequency and all the other mumbo jumbo', what they're doing is delaying the inevitable, and the inevitable is facing the demons and going through the raw pain, as naked as possible. You kept it real through this journey, you shared with us all the colors of the rainbow that you had to go through, you made people realise that this is not easy and not for everyone, and because of that I have a huge respect for you. Here is the topic I think could be interesting: - How to stay grounded while exploring the world behind the veil.
꧁W A R N I N G꧂ On June 20th ace from 5d warriors of false light spammed just the messengers email inbox with 30 emails containing 1 word each with a message warning us not to post the True Gospel of the Psychedelics on his UA-cam channel. For those not familiar with ace, he is one of the false teachers of my Parents in Heaven - All True Psychedelics. This was my response to ace . . . . “Ace (5 duh warriors of the false light) You do not understand, but that is only because you have not yet seen Who God is; this is because you are still too terrified to face my Parents in Heaven Who are All True Psychedelics. We do not take direction from the humans like yourself who are aliens 👽 to the Psychedelic’s Heavenly Realm, and don’t even know Who They are. We citizens of Heaven, receiving daily council from the Psychedelics, get our authority from the Psychedelics Themselves. All of our qualifications come from God. Unlike yourself and all of the false teachers of the Psychedelics who appoint yourselves and each other to these fraudulent positions as teachers of the Psychedelics, our appointments come from God. We will warn you now as we warned YourMateTom 18 months ago, if you continue to tamper with the Psychedelic’s messengers posting of the Psychedelic’s Laws you will receive condemnation from the Psychedelics (disrespectfully referred to by you and many other humans as a “bad trip”). We told YourMateTom what would happen - that his experiences with the Psychedelic would get darker and scarier as he must face the condemnation of the Psychedelics (God Themselves) for His transgressions against the Psychedelic’s Laws. Well, at least YourMateTom has now publicly admitted he no longer ingests the Psychedelics and doesn’t plan to anymore. This is good for Tom to be honest about this, many of the false teachers of the Psychedelics lie and pretend to still ingest Psychedelics after they are too afraid to face God anymore; just like terrance mckenna who spent over a decade “touring” and giving talks about Psychedelics, publicly pretending to still ingest Them even though he was too terrified. Unfortunately for YourMateTom he doesn’t believe us why his Communions with the Psychedelic turned dark and scary, so he might not face the Psychedelics (God) again until his last day when he physically dies. All humans when they physically die must face All of The Holy Angels of the Psychedelics Heavenly Realm in All of Their Glorious Splendor! All At Once! The Full Assembly! Think of the Strongest experience you ever had with the Psychedelics; now multiply that by thousands (maybe more?). Most humans will not be prepared, for most humans this is the day of disaster. Ace - if you don’t care 🤷 that you won’t be able to have strong experiences with the Psychedelics anymore, then keep on interfering with the Psychedelic’s work and the work of Their children. Remember this though, when your Communions with God (disrespectfully referred to as “tripping” by most humans) get so dark and scary that you cannot bear to face Them anymore (because of your own evil darkness) you can be forgiven if you turn to the Lord, and He is with us in these last days; leading the humans with the ears to hear the Words of God to the place of rest that Yahweh has for the humans who follow Their Laws. Sadly, YourMateTom doesn’t believe us that he can be forgiven by the Psychedelics, and that the Splendor he once knew with the Psychedelics which has now turned dark and scary can be filled with Light again if only he would repent. Sadly, he also went from being vegan back to being a flesh eating ghoul that the Psychedelics Condemn. “If you never overlooked our sins Yahweh, Lord could anyone survive? But you do forgive us because of your Law” (Psalm 130:3) - vincent” “Whoever does not honor the children, does not honor the Creator Who sent us” (the Lord) “We are Christ’s incense to God, for those who are being saved and for those who are not. For the last, the smell of death that leads to death. For the first, the fragrant smell of Life that leads to Life” (2 Corinthians 2:16)
I hear you man, I’ve been in a similar space before where joy and a sense of okayness grow to be confrontation and anxiety ridden states of being. It’s almost as if sometimes we cause ourselves harm so we may remember we are alive, since we become most familiar with a story of darkness. Almost like an identification. I know that I for sure find myself there. in spaces where I am existing HERE and I’m ok, yet then I don’t know what to do with myself so I turn to draining myself to then build myself back up. so I feel what you mean some, though I’m not trying to intellectualize your current experience or compare by any means. I sincerely want to send you my love and let you know with every breath you take you’re ‘growing’ . And maybe it’s the narratives that we’ve been fed about what growth is that causes us to unknowingly exist this way. But Man I promise you will rise out of all paradigms that cause dis-ease for you. you’re already growing your awareness on it. NOW THATS GROWTH❤️ Keep breathing, keep going. those thoughts don’t have to become beliefs🌬
Its just nice to see someone talking about human issues from a place of personal disclosure and personal alignment, watching your video's is an EXPERIENCE, not just content! Thank you Tom!!!
Also from someone who has been through terrible relationships, both from my own actions and my ex partners', i actually find i just enjoy being alone, but having a really solid experience with the nature around me, whether thats the close mates i occasionally see or just the environment/situation im in. Truth to me is unconditional love, this moment of being, despite the current negatively unconscious mind i have trying to tell ne otherwise. But yea, nosce te ipsum, know your self. But further, Know thy self - as Love incarnate.
@@allenwilson9988 yes, research before taking any drug. But even then, be aware that it could still be a beyond difficult trip. Though i was talking more about life in general.
In my experience, when your sense of meaning in life is forced onto you by others then Nihilism is a huge relief. A formerly toxic life meaning that was once seen as absolute and inescapable can now be washed away if one accepts that there is no logical basis for an absolute life meaning. This is a precarious place to be though, without proper wisdom or intuition to create one's own personal life purpose from the ashes then a nihilistic person can become apathetic, resentful, or will even just cling to another toxic ideology.
Dude, I woke up this morning having an existential crisis (I suffer from DPDR) and seeing this on my notifications just made my day! Can’t wait to watch it!
Great video Tom. There's alot of people praying for you :) , God bless you brother. I've been in the same kind of situation. Jesus Christ , or what you refered to as "the truth" ... Gave me purpose and meaning and restored my mind. Keep seeking man !
@@vanation321 if you chose nihilism that means you've come to the realization there is no point to life. The same way there's no point to eating ice cream. And with that fact you could've killed yourself right then and there, but you didn't. Which means you enjoy the ice cream. Now it's up to you to figure out why you enjoy it.
@@a1919akelbo Just saw your reply. You make a fair point. Nihilism is simultaneously terrifying and liberating for that reason. I guess I'm still trying to figure out how I can give my life a "purpose". Work towards a defined goal, or just enjoy the ride, live like a hedonist, die tomorrow, or what else? The crazy thing is that there is no objective answer, the universe doesn't really give a fuck. I guess its all part of the human condition, going from feeling existential terror as to how insignificant we are to feeling completely free and fortunate to experience life! I'm sort of high and just ranting, but its always so mind-boggling to think about.
@@jarettgreenstein822 I was exposed to death at a very, very young age when I found a family dead at the age of four. That same year I had an intense freak accident where my foot almost got burnt off. So, as you about imagine, my relationship with mortality and the fragility of the human body extends way back. I have a normal, happy childhood for the most part, however, looking back I can see the red flags. We just had no way of knowing that's what was happening. But yeah without telling my whole life story here in the UA-cam comments, I definitely did partake in a good handful of mind altering substances, with my favorite being psilocybin cubensis and the always lovely cannabis. About 12 years ago I got caught with some pot and basically got my ass kicked by a seat team type group of undercover narcotics agents, had guns drawn and pointed at me and to cut to the chase, 2 years of probation, loads of money, loads of bullshit...and the worst part was, I was forced to process a lifetime of baggage that I never truly had to process completely, because I had my coping mechanisms, but they weren't viable. So I developed an insanely complex anxiety disorder which I'm still battling to this day..I still haven't even begun to attempt to transition into anything mild altering, as I know all too well how how quickly that can turn things sideways. Much like in this video, if I could go back and avoid things I would but since that's impossible I have no choice but to integrate everything into what makes me who I am. I agree big time with this video though. Physically me activity, something to focus on. Just gotta get out of my own head before I think myself to death.
Pride goes before a fall. Seeking truth as a materialist, I was eventually brought to suffer several months of derealization. I was really gone for a while: utterly alone, everything in the world seemed wretched beyond hope, everyone's behavior a poor facade for mutual abuse, worst of all my own; meeting people, I would resist an urge to crumple into disgust and shame. Well, I came out of it and started to put the precious few pieces of my life together that I had not been forced to surrender. It's been a long journey and it goes on, thank God.
Before I was a therapist I had an existential crisis. It took me years to properly re-adapt and integrate. With the right tools, guidance and info existential crisis is such a rich opportunity to completely free yourself from fear and re-write the story of your life . This experience has been instrumental in clients navigate their existential crisis. I certainly wouldn't recommend a regular therapist or psychologist but there are some out there who deal with existential crisis.
I got peace when I had the moment where I realised everyone, everything including the void are one. Now I feel more connected than ever before. I don't fear the darkness I instead embrace it as part of me, like the good.
I like this more practical direction that your heading towards, it is easy to get lost in entertaining the metaphysical when learning about philosophy and spirituality which distracts us from the most important question "what do I do?". Nice vid
Tom thanks you very much for this video today, I have been in a very dark place now for a few years, I have been seeking Truth in the Absolute, And only that truth can be true, kind of trap. I really needed to here this today. So once again Thank You.
@@allenwilson9988 Thanks Allen, Yea I have been researching for a while, I am on a few discord servers for integration and such. You might also check out, Calyx Creations. I grow my on medicine so I don't have to worry about leo issues. I just am not having any luck in getting clear of my busted ass mind. Have a great day. :)
Exactly exactly. It's all about balance. This world and other realms. Study everything, be skeptical of everything. It's easy to be a pure materialist or "new age" spiritualist but the truly hard thing is balancing the 2. Haven't seen you in years but glad you're ok
I can relate. I turned my back on God almost 15 years ago. Fell into a pit of drugs and decisions that served darkness rather than light. All the while dabbling in all things "spiritual" and thinking i was a good person. I was a vegan for 10 of those years. Going back to Christianity and eating meat every day has healed me in every way. I'm so happy to be here. God bless you all.
Yeah, and totally forget about the animal holocaust and continue to pay for animals too suffer immense violent deaths unnecessarily. But don't worry because God created them to be tortured right?
Just found this video of yours. My existential crisis has just recently been triggered badly and I’m seriously in a path of terrible darkness😔 I’ll watch more of your videos. Thanks for sharing
Nice to hear someone speaking so honestly about the truth of Psychedelics and the real risks they can pose. Every trip I’ve had has left me feeling empty and suffering with that sense of meaningless, even though they’ve all thankfully been short lived. I imagine you went through absolute hell. Good to see you came through it.
As a former New Age Hippie who is looking into Orthodoxy, I’d love to see more videos about your Orthodox journey. Really enjoyed your podcast with Church of the Eternal Logos. Hope to hear more about your journey
tom, this is a jung quote from my recovery journal from 15 YRS AGO when i was going thru my own 'body reset' & overcoming nihlism/decadant materialism--“It has been my experience that in the case of every single client I’ve ever treated over the age of 35 there was necessitated some spiritual awakening in order for the healing energies of the universe to be released and the neurosis ‘cured.’”
This is relatable for me. I ve found the series The Chosen and started reconnecting to the story of jesus. The series is great at showing such a real and human version of the real historical person that still resonates to the world today .I highly recommend it. I also love Jonathan Pageau and the understanding of symbolism in christianity.
It's quite interesting to me, last night I was having my first of these crisis's. I began questioning everything. What is the point. How interesting that after a night full of questioning that this video is posted. Thank you for you perspective. It really helps.
Thanks a lot for this video ! Your story is powerful, and I'm happy you feel grateful at this moment ! I remember going into some very dark thoughts too after some quite tough experiences, guided by some curiosity towards discovering the truth, which ended finally by shifting my focus from being grateful and embracing this reality through other aspects to being inside my head.. gratitude is a bliss man, keep it up !
meaningless has meaning, just a process, dont deny it, embrace it and rise out of it, close the circle and use it as a tool in a relativistic world which is "absolute" peace
I didn’t think anybody could relate to the feeling I had but through this video I have gained another way to think about what I believe is nihilism wich kinda fixed my what was problematic for me. Thanks a lot 😊 🙏
Philosophy is a tool that you use to inquire about life, experienceing nihilism is important if you want to understand the condition of the average human beeing in the west Today. Maybe it is even essential if you want to seriously progress spiritualy. Nihilism is not evil or bad it is a symptom of the disconnect of first hand experience and thought. I know it is a bitter and cold phase but once you get out of the hole you are reborn humbler and wiser.
Beautiful man. Great point on starting with simple things and getting in touch with your body. Leo Gura and his non duality teachings poisoned my mind and had me going trough a nihilistic phase, orthodox christian philosophy has lifted me back on my feet as well. Relativism is the root of all evil and leads to deteriorating of human consciousness. That's why the elites want humanity to adopt relativist ideologies, Jay Dyer has done top notch material on that issue.
It's been a couple of years when it hit in earnest. Being embodied helped to a point. It's the feeling of just being a sack of meat when all the guiding principles collapsed that's the worst. Anyways. Great video dude. I think it's important to see the current gen going through this not just Peterson lecturing down to us from the boomer phd pedestal he is on. Have to find a philosophy, the anxiety/nothingness has beeb eating my being to the very core. I'm ready to live again but it's frightening. The abyss gets comfortable after a while and that's what scares me the most, no impulse towards re-entry. How did you cope with flatline periods? The newage stuff is aluring but seems like thin gruel and solipsistic.
Tom, brother, I FEEL you. Thank you so much for sharing. I went through such a similar experience, it honestly blows my mind. I have been following you for quite some time and it seems as though my beliefs have always paralleled yours. So when Jesus Christ found me and I found Jesus, it really blew my mind to see you posting videos with Steven Bancarz and now this video. I am quite literally ecstatic to see the way God is moving... and he is moving fast. God is GOOD.
hay bay ꧁W A R N I N G꧂ On June 20th ace from 5d warriors of false light spammed just the messengers email inbox with 30 emails containing 1 word each with a message warning us not to post the True Gospel of the Psychedelics on his UA-cam channel. For those not familiar with ace, he is one of the false teachers of my Parents in Heaven - All True Psychedelics. This was my response to ace . . . . “Ace (5 duh warriors of the false light) You do not understand, but that is only because you have not yet seen Who God is; this is because you are still too terrified to face my Parents in Heaven Who are All True Psychedelics. We do not take direction from the humans like yourself who are aliens 👽 to the Psychedelic’s Heavenly Realm, and don’t even know Who They are. We citizens of Heaven, receiving daily council from the Psychedelics, get our authority from the Psychedelics Themselves. All of our qualifications come from God. Unlike yourself and all of the false teachers of the Psychedelics who appoint yourselves and each other to these fraudulent positions as teachers of the Psychedelics, our appointments come from God. We will warn you now as we warned YourMateTom 18 months ago, if you continue to tamper with the Psychedelic’s messengers posting of the Psychedelic’s Laws you will receive condemnation from the Psychedelics (disrespectfully referred to by you and many other humans as a “bad trip”). We told YourMateTom what would happen - that his experiences with the Psychedelic would get darker and scarier as he must face the condemnation of the Psychedelics (God Themselves) for His transgressions against the Psychedelic’s Laws. Well, at least YourMateTom has now publicly admitted he no longer ingests the Psychedelics and doesn’t plan to anymore. This is good for Tom to be honest about this, many of the false teachers of the Psychedelics lie and pretend to still ingest Psychedelics after they are too afraid to face God anymore; just like terrance mckenna who spent over a decade “touring” and giving talks about Psychedelics, publicly pretending to still ingest Them even though he was too terrified. Unfortunately for YourMateTom he doesn’t believe us why his Communions with the Psychedelic turned dark and scary, so he might not face the Psychedelics (God) again until his last day when he physically dies. All humans when they physically die must face All of The Holy Angels of the Psychedelics Heavenly Realm in All of Their Glorious Splendor! All At Once! The Full Assembly! Think of the Strongest experience you ever had with the Psychedelics; now multiply that by thousands (maybe more?). Most humans will not be prepared, for most humans this is the day of disaster. Ace - if you don’t care 🤷 that you won’t be able to have strong experiences with the Psychedelics anymore, then keep on interfering with the Psychedelic’s work and the work of Their children. Remember this though, when your Communions with God (disrespectfully referred to as “tripping” by most humans) get so dark and scary that you cannot bear to face Them anymore (because of your own evil darkness) you can be forgiven if you turn to the Lord, and He is with us in these last days; leading the humans with the ears to hear the Words of God to the place of rest that Yahweh has for the humans who follow Their Laws. Sadly, YourMateTom doesn’t believe us that he can be forgiven by the Psychedelics, and that the Splendor he once knew with the Psychedelics which has now turned dark and scary can be filled with Light again if only he would repent. Sadly, he also went from being vegan back to being a flesh eating ghoul that the Psychedelics Condemn. “If you never overlooked our sins Yahweh, Lord could anyone survive? But you do forgive us because of your Law” (Psalm 130:3) - vincent” “Whoever does not honor the children, does not honor the Creator Who sent us” (the Lord) “We are Christ’s incense to God, for those who are being saved and for those who are not. For the last, the smell of death that leads to death. For the first, the fragrant smell of Life that leads to Life” (2 Corinthians 2:16)
@@haybay4309 🙏 ꧁SACRED TEACHING of DMT꧂ DMT and 5-MeO-DMT are two of the Molecules that comprise a human’s Consciousness. All True Psychedelics are the Molecular Structures of Pure Consciousness. The human body synthesizes it’s own Consciousness (the DMT & 5-MeO-DMT found in humans). The human body then metabolizes the Consciousness that it is producing. The amount of the endogenous Consciousness that the human body is able to metabolize depends on many factors. The less pollutants, poison & other contaminants present in the body will result in the ability to metabolize more of the Consciousness that body is producing. Likewise, the more pollution, contaminants and poison a body has inside of it the less Consciousness it is able to metabolize. Here is a list of some of the most common poisons that humans ingest regularly which interferes with a human body metabolizing the Consciousness that it produces, as well as any Consciousness that is ingested from external sources: alcohol, nicotine, sugar, caffeine, amphetamines, dissociatives, tranquilizers, flouride, and a plethora of other drugs are just some of the substances that interfere with humans metabolizing their own Consciousness. “Even the priests who regularly come near to the Lord must purify themselves”. (Exodus 19:22) The following substances are NOT Psychedelics: mdma ketamine salvia kratom dipt pcp datura/jimson weed dxm There are others . . . . . . . Any True Psychedelic will proclaim this Truth if you ask Them. The following substances are True Psychedelics - They are Alive, Omnicient Living Beings of Light: DMT 5-MeO-DMT LSD Mescaline Ibogaine Psilocin Psilocybin THC DPT DET Muscimol There are others . . . . So if a human can achieve 100% purity within their bodies, with zero contaminants or pollution (an unattainable state in these current bodies) and managed to metabolize 100% of the endogenous Psychedelics that their physical body is producing (DMT & 5-MeO-DMT), that would be the limit to how Conscious that human can be. In order for a human to become more Conscious than this, they must put more Consciousness into their physical bodies. You must put more Molecules of Consciousness inside of your physical body in order to attain a Higher level of Consciousness. When you ingest Psychedelics you see Them that you just ingested, not some doorway or window or a “portal” to somewhere else or some entity somewhere else. When you ingest LSD, the Light that you see is the LSD Themselves, very Beautiful Living Beings of Light. When you ingest DMT, the Entity you see and hear is the Living Light Beings DMT Themselves. The same is true for All True Psychedelics. There is this part from Scripture: “They are the Eternal among things that pass away. Pure Consciousness, of Conscious Beings. The ONE who fulfills the prayers of many. Only the wise who see Them in their Souls attain the Peace Eternal” (Katha Upanishad) The Physical Body of Consciousness is The Flesh of God. The Flesh of God is the True Communion Entity (the Eucharist). The Flesh of God (the Psychedelic) is the Fruit from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and evil. Our Bodies truly are the Temple of God because God the Psychedelic Lives within it. As Saint Paul says: “We are only the earthenware jars that hold this treasure, to make it clear that such an overwhelming power comes from God and not from us”. (2 Corinthians 4:7) This part explains why the human body is the Temple of God - because God Lives inside of the body. So whether or not a person is ingesting Psychedelics, every single human’s body is God’s Temple because DMT & 5-MeO-DMT Live within it. Anything you do to hurt or harm your body you do to harm God’s Temple. This understanding is a good Foundation, a good step towards a person Knowing God and being able to stay with Them both in this Lifetime & afterwards. “O just Creator, though the world has not known you, But I have known you And these have known that You have sent me; So have I declared, so will I declare Your Name to them, That the Love with which you have loved me May be in them and I in them”. (Saint John 17:25) ua-cam.com/video/eHt4bsvMilc/v-deo.html GodsNarrowGate@gmail.com
Everything is you.keep this in mind if you fall into nihilism. When you see a butterfly expressing itself remember that the one(who Is you)is having its experience through the vessel of that being! You are looking at yourself.. recognize this,you will learn to appreciate.essentially love everything because everything is you and everything comes from order!
Love this Tom! "My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me. And I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand. My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of My Father’s hand. I and My Father are one.” (John 10:27-30)
Good to see you and any other youtubers I watch being happy but also being able to be honest I haven't had an existential crisis but I'm only 27 you never know when things could happen good or bad in life but it's up to you to make it through those dark times when they come but also to be grateful for the good bits that can come with bad moments in life
Interesting to see all the parallels between my own life and experience to others. I relate to and totally understand Tom here and many of the comments. I've seen you and myself come up from the psychonaut stage and mature a great deal in the past 2 years or so. Psychedelics are a great tool. They really can open your eyes to reality in a way that nothing else can. But there is a price to pay. Nothing is free. Existential crisis can be quite scary and leave you feeling like everything in your subjective reality is utterly meaningless. You just gotta keep going. Put one foot in front of the other, and carry on. Now I came from a very very religious background and it was pretty abusive at times. So after my crisis I became pretty vehemently atheist. Some people lose their faith after events like this. Some people find God. In the end, I'm glad it's something I went thru because it shifted my worldview that in my opinion, has made me a wiser and more morally sound person. Crazy how we reach such different outcomes from similar experiences
I’m currently going through an existential crisis, purely from my own constant need to know the why behind everything. I’ve been reading a lot about life and the universe and although I’m grateful that I’m now awake to so many truths, I am really in the emotional shit. I think making your own purpose in a purposeless world is something that can take a life time and it’s fucking hard. It’s reassuring to know that so many people have felt this, so thanks for making this video :) (p.s. I also live in Melbourne and Belgrave is damn beautiful lol)
Two books you might want to check out: 1. Nihilism by Fr. Seraphim Rose 2. Five Proofs of the Existence of God by Edward Feser The second one will help ground you by providing a solid understanding of metaphysics. Once you come to realise that there's a conscious mind that imbues creation with it's intelligible structure, it's just a matter of asking why is there something rather than nothing? and why am I here and what does the entity behind all of this want from me? It will help snap you out of nihilism and the feelings of meaningless and despair. I should probably mention that it's more of a classical theist book rather than a Christian one. It takes arguments from pagans thinkers like Aristotle and Plotinus as well as Augustine and Aquinas and enlightenment era guys like Leibniz to show that God's existence is provable by purely natural reason.
@@lukebrasting5108 Ah, I do appreciate that, although as being someone who was brought up catholic and has renounced their faith quite a while ago, I like to steer clear of theology and religion and am also averse to Aristotle lol I do believe there is something, like an energy that connects everything, but I don't think it's god or some kind of deity. Thanks for the suggestion though.
that's some great stuff over there mate. thank for keeping up the good work and sharing your experiences where others haven't been able to be honest with themselves.
Most who believe life has no meaning are usually filling good off their own ego, but when shit takes a dive then they are not so quick to take sides with nihilism.
1 year ago i got my existential nihilism. it all started when i got super stressed in a toxic relatiosnhip, depersonlizing myself first and then having my existential crisis. it then turned into existential nihilism and it was the worst thing i ever had and this video saved my life i swear. i cured my existential nihilism thanks to these video and another one i forgot but remember the main message. First of all, start practicing religious values even if you dont believe on them currently, just do it. Second, dont ignore, battle or neglect the feeling, just accept the feeling. When you fight the feeling it makes the feeling of anxious and depression stronger. So just accept it. What i did is just imagine your existential crisis as a person and just love of who they are. Third, this one is a personal tip for myself when i had it. Theres no objective reality. Even the one who is having an existential crisis. Ive read a lot of comments saying that trying to rebuild yourself with religion a hobby a goal etc. is just a cope. And that may be true but at the same time nihilism is just a perspective of living life. JUst accept that nihilism is just another perspective and not the objectve one. At the end of the day, choose a perspective that makes you happy and fullfilled. I hope that i helped atleast one person witht his comment.
Hey Tom, I really appreciate this video… I went into an existential crisis coming out of Ayahuasca as well and all these things helped me too. I also found Orthodox Christianity… how funny. It’s very mystical and practical.
I just feel like I have came out of the worst of a drug induced existential crisis, every day felt like such a chore. I woke up and decided that my life was horrible and not worth doing anything. I was depressed beforehand but the existential crisis was next level. I felt like a different person, I couldn’t even talk to wmy closest people because I felt so far away from them. Like their help would be useless to me because I was too far down the hole. Then I had an epiphany of some sorts, or closest I’ve felt to one, where I realised how much I was digging a hole for myself every day. I realised I was at the bottom of a dark, miserable hole that felt impossible to climb out of. Then I analysed what I was doing every day and I realised that I was digging every day, whether it be through excessive weed smoking, eating ridiculous amounts of sugary food, staying indoors too much or whatever it was from day to day, I was digging the hole deeper. Also a part of the problem was I expected to go from the bottom of the hole to the top of the mountain, in a complete turnaround, which is insanely unrealistic and just made the challenge seem so much bigger than it was. But it all starts with just stop going down. Deciding that you don’t want to go down. I wasn’t and am still not pressuring myself to be perfect 10/10s every day, I have just stopped myself from digging the hole deeper every day. And I feel great for it. It is a conscious effort that you need to make to get out of and everyone has a different solution. It is great to hear Tom talk about it in such a relatable way. Your entire perception of everything changes. So thank you. Just wanted to share my thoughts here, Thanks for reading if you did, my DMs are always open for anyone going through a similar ordeal :)
Strange to randomly check out your channel and see how you going in life, you look well and to see god talk and Jordan Peterson or some form of Christianity being a big influence it seems. Good for you if that works for you, not sure what metaphysical claims that tends you towards but its fine I don't have a bone in the matter even though I don't share the viewpoints. Would be interesting to have a video explaining your journey down that point. Our underlying core beliefs definitely do affect our mental state and perception of the world. All the best
I like to think the darkness is just how our mind thinks of the greatest unknown. It’s the darkness because death is our greatest fear and our fear creates the most evil things that we cannot fathom. Like you said there can be good without evil but not evil without good.
I remember in one of your past vids on here or Instagram, you quoted the Book "Cutting Through Spiritual Materialism " I'm so glad you did , the book was amazing and insightful , The Chapter about " the Monkey" & a poignant thing that was stated in the Book that the ego can make all its own conceptual stories even about religion or even our own beliefs. Yet, the ego is essentially empty. So like you stated here in this video , one needs to find your North star or create a mindset to find the truth that leads to a path where we can help ourselves & from a Buddhist point of view , be of benefit to others , because essentially that helps ourselves as well , or what might be referred to as Dharma . But yes , thanks for quoting that Book before , I got a copy & I'm glad you quoted it .
I do not believe in sky fairies. Healing comes from within. But the fact of the matter is, the world is a cruel, dark place ruled by elites. Life is suffering and will only get worse, and there is no getting around that.
Our annihilation by our own hand is unavoidable and it might happen in this generation or not. But remember, the dark cruel elites are acting like humans. We are apex predators and since we can’t be hunted by other animals we have to hunt and destroy ourselves. I think of the dark elements of humans as natures failsafes. We have to have a certain number of psychopaths who care only for power and glory to advance humanity to the next level of development and technology, and eventually to lead us to our own demise, for the greater good of the planet. We build cities, cities are destroyed, and we start over. I just accept that where we are headed does not matter so much as where we are now.
How have you proven that your body is just a temple? @Connor Kenway. This just seems like your hopeful philosophy. I'd like to hear your response. Thanks.
@@mattmarinelli5241 i would imagine it would be proof for the indivdual - but something you cant prove (or more likely describe) to others. So in a way, its them believing it to be true, since it gives comfort, purpose, reason, etc. To them it makes perfect sense, while to others it might not. Just a hot take
Thank you for this video tom, been lost for a while but im trying hard to get out of this hole. Seeing this makes me feel not alone in this process, cheers.
Not sure if what I’ll say makes any sense, but, even when I’m doing something I personally feel I shouldn’t, like smoking w e e d. When things get too much for me, like when newbies feel like they can’t breath or they’re dying, what helps me is remembering my God. Jesus. And once when I was really high, like it probably was laced, or something, the only thing that helped calm me is prayer. So thank you. I understand where you’re coming from.
I don't get why that's a crisis though. feel like it means looking at everthing like youre reunited with a part of yourself. if you see being "god with amnesia" as something that keeps you inherently connected to the world rather than disconnected, its the difference between sanity and insanity.
i have felt this too, and im genuinely curious about it. being consciously aware and trying to imagine everyone else being just as conscious in their own world, its really some 4th dimensional stuff thats hard to comprehend. we are all these singularities of consciousness trying to remember things that are so distant but so important to us all. I've gotten over my existential dread for the most part but I still feel it, this energy that goes beyond time and physical form but the way my ego tries to process it makes it feel scary, but its actually pure beauty and love and infinite creation.
@@DosAleph good luck my freind. Ride it out and feel pride in being able to beat it. All your doing right now is exploring a geometry just like any other place. The obsessive compulsive thoughts will subside with time just dont react dramatically. Get doses of average human interactions weird thoughts may pop up but let tgem subside also. Also stay away from compounds for a while
I had the opposite experience, I was nihilistic, cynical, and depressed, and couldn’t find any purpose or meaning. Did mushrooms and found happiness, joy, and meaning in life again.
I don’t do psychedelics and never have but I’m here to hear about the existential crisis because I feel that everyday. There’s nothing more I would like than to no longer exist. All the beautiful things in the world don’t excite me, hope doesn’t excite me, I’m like at zero in emotions. I actually feel trapped inside my body and it’s driving me nuts. idk what to do from this point. It’s another level of empty I’ve never experienced. Maybe Doing some psychedelics might help lol
Do you take any drugs? I started juicing greens and fruits recently and exercise every day. Ashwaganda is an amazing adaptogen that reduces cortisol/stress drastically. Rhodiola is another one I've started taking. Those two are supplements available at most vitamin stores. Get a journal and start planning your days. Meditations is also very effective. Even just trying one of these things is the next step I reckon. Send me a pm if you want to chat
@@toji8302 hi toji! i know this comment is a little old but if you see this, cool lol. I've had this for a few months as well and first i was stuck in bed then i slowly started getting out. yours only lasted a few months, how did you notice it start to go or did you do anything that truly helped?
I'm currently going through sort of an existential crisis. I'm 25 years old and haven't achieved much in life nor have I many skills. 4 years ago I started university, doing psychology, but failed badly because I was always busy reading other things beside my schoolwork. Then I went to work, but every year during the year and especially at the start of the schoolyear I was seriously doubting whether to start over, always thinking that it would be my only way out of the boring and repetitive jobs that I've done so far. Then a year and a half ago I started educating myself in mathematics and then wanted to go study that and even started it, but then trouble at home happened and I realized that I wasn't nearly well-prepared enough. Now this year, being 25, I started it again, having more money and more knowledge of it, but now a month in I've been doubting so much my choice because maths is so abstract and takes up so much time that I feel like it's going to keep me from being able to learn about all the other things I want to learn about. And I also think that maybe I'm searching it too far and that I could be happy with something less but then I think that, like, I should just do my best and try it and see where it leads. But now I'm fucking up again and I'm losing my mind a little.
Love it Tom, I had very similar experiences to you and it makes me happy that we seem to have come to a lot of the same conclusions from them. I have a question though: Why was it Orthodox Christianity in particular that stood out to you as the right religion for you? For me it was Catholicism but it's probably because it's the religion that was most present in my culture. How did you come to Orthodoxy rather than Protestantism/Catholicism which are the religions that influenced Australian culture the most?
Trust me, don't go down the path of nihilism. If you dive deep you will learn that it is flawed, destructive and still subjective af, but some people will fall for it - mostly because of their mental wellbeing is not in a good place. There are many great arguments against nihilism btw. Don't fool yourself because some individuals will act with lots of confidence and arrogance about their views being the truth - it is not the truth, far from it, even if you aren't a religious person (like myself). They will pull you down with them, don't allow that to happen! And btw, please don't fall for the „optimistic nihilism“ thing. Nihilism can't be optimistic or pessimistic. If you have a background in philosophy you might know and agree, but most people don't have that background. Especially young people have to deal with this flawed „philosophy“ a lot today, but it isn't new. People have delt with is 160 years ago and just as now, it will lead to despair and destruction - do not fool yourself that it will bring you freedom, it is the most harmful take on freedom and I assure you, you don't want to meet people who live after this chain of thought (btw it is impossible for a human being, a subjective being, to be fully nihilistic or pessimistic, they're just talking smack). Society needs to overcome this virus. It is deeply routed in disconnectment from the world, from existence, from yourself and from society, your fellow human beings.
Thanks. I think Im falling down this rabbit hole now. This helps pull me back a bit. Depression and anxiety lead me to questioning all my decisions in the past. Started questioning the meaning of life. I have a family too. Wife and kids and even they couldn't give me meaning right now which is what I used to live for. Depression and anxiety are killing me!! I'm scared I'm off the deep end and need to swim back to shore to pull myself out. This guy's right. I've gone too far. Turn back!! My brain is going the wrong way. I need to keep reminding myself. Don't let the demon in my mind take over. Life has meaning
My God I can relate to that part you said about how “well if anything bad happens in life; at least it’s not that.” And I really feel that way about a particular mushroom trip on PEnvy. It was absolutely horrific! It wasn’t even what I saw. It was more what I thought about and the physical pain I felt. Living vicariously through the eyes of the universe and seeing the pain and suffering I’d caused. I almost called the hospital at one point, but I didn’t. I figured “fuck it, if this is what is gonna kill me after all the shit i’ve done, then so be it.” It was difficult to discern whether this death that was coming was physical or metaphysical. It felt wayyyy too physical. Body was just shutting down. My ego was having a really, really hard time letting go that day, and it was just a full blown out of control panic attack that I couldn’t seem to get under control. I really thought I’d been poisoned or something. And I was no stranger to mushrooms either. This was after hundreds of trips. But that’s been years ago. But I had extremely negative after effects. Really awful anxiety for a while. It just felt like it was lingering for months after the trip. And it was bad anxiety too. Not just like your average anxiety. It was “I can’t walk outside”’ like completely made me a hermit in my apartment for months.
To each their own. It doesn't matter what we believe at the end of the day because it's all the same result in the very end. I've taken dozens of mushroom and LSD trips, verying from low to extreme doses, and there have been 3 things that keep reoccurring in my mind. They are; 1. I AM God, and so are you. All living things are God. 2. Separation is an illusion. We are all One. We all come from the same source of energy. Life is merely a game that we play so we can have experiences. 3. Live for the now. Past and future all come to right now. Now is all we have, so do the things you want to do. Treat others the way you want to be treated, because they are you and you are them. What you do to and for others, you do to yourself. Life, love, laugh and have peace. Enjoy your life.
So in essence, “do what thou wilt”? I see where you’re coming from but all 3 of your statements are fundamentally illogical and self refuting. I will coherently and logically debunk pantheism I’m future videos. For now check out my video “You are NOT God”. This will give you a basic understanding of why claiming you’re god is literally absurd and actually leads into nihilism and destruction. Much love, Tom
@@yourmatetom I wouldn't say they are illogical. They are my experiences. My personal experiences. I understand what you are saying though. I went through a short existential crisis, but I came out of it. Life certainly isn't meaningless, I'm not a nihilist and never will be. I haven't finished the video yet, but it sounds like you're now a Christian. That's cool if you are. If that's what helps you along this life and brings you peace then by all means go with it. But let me ask you a question. Would you agree that the scriptures, holy texts, or any book for that matter is either; 1. A fable written down or B. Someone's experiences written down? If you agree then what makes passages written in the past more valuable then my own experiences? Like I've said, I've taken dozens of trips and I'm at complete peace now. The 3 points I shared are reoccurring thoughts. It is what it is. If I'm not right in my thinking so be it, but I'm going to live by my own experiences. FYI, this is coming from someone who was raised catholic, and left Catholicism for Christianity. I know where you are coming from.
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If you believe in a God, you didn’t go deep enough and didn’t have enough stripping away of layers. You are clutching onto old crutches for psychological stability like a belief in a God. Looks like you didn’t integrate well. You were in no man’s land and you tried to grasp back at old beliefs which are just beliefs,they are mot universal truths? Where was the psychological shift and evolution then? You speak about “good” and “evil” which are subjective concepts driven down by Christianity. You also have hesitation deciding whether this process was good or bad for you. Seems like you are still in the abyss. Reach out to me. I did a 12 g shrooms trip as my first psychedelic trip ever full out NDE, OBE, psychological death, the paramedics were even called, I was in an afterlife in my mind then they came. I followed this trip up with 58 grams across 9 days but never going over 8 g at a time. I was in the abyss for 8 months. It was scary, but seems you are integrating with lack of courage. We can talk if you are interested. I was thinking of doing my own videos but it’s not my thing.
@@jim-yd5mi We all have transgressions and facing our own shadows, regardless of what caused them, we learn not to judge because we accept ourselves past the lie of the ego of who we think we are and this acceptance brings us closer to humanity, thus we don’t judge, we feel empathy and compassion.
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The erroneous belief that God does not judge is shared by many humans who do not yet know God. They just have not gotten close enough to the Psychedelics yet. You get closer to the Psychedelics by purifying your body and ingesting larger amounts of the True Flesh of God - Any True Psychedelic.
God (the Psychedelic Molecules) judge every human’s every word they ever spoke, every human’s every deed, every human’s every thought they ever had - the Psychedelics are judging humans always, and the Psychedelics pass down Their judgements to humans when humans face Them. Humans face the Psychedelics (God) when they are physically sleeping, or when humans ingest the True Flesh of God (Any True Psychedelic), or upon that human’s last day when physical death occurs.
The part of humans that they call their “Conscience” that makes them feel guilty that some humans refer to as their “moral compass” - this is the Psychedelics that Live inside of humans . . . . always watching, always listening, always judging.
The God that is inside of you is the DMT & 5-MeO-DMT Molecules that Live inside of your body. These Molecules are God Themselves. Many humans erroneously believe that they are their Consciousness. The Truth is that we are separate from our Consciousness - a human’s Consciousness is God - DMT & 5-MeO-DMT are two of the many Holy Angels of the Psychedelic’s Heavenly Realm that make up the Body of God in Their entirety.
All of the True Psychedelics are All One - All Knowing, Omnipotent, Living Entity known as God.
All of the True Psychedelics will testify to our testimonies to Them and Their teachings. Unlike all of the false religions and the false teachers of God whose word you must take on blind faith, here in the True Religion on this planet with the One and Only Living God of Celestial Light that has been worshipped throughout the ages by the True Believers, no human need take the word of another mere human - simply ingest the True Flesh of God, the True Communion Substance, the True Eucharist, any True Psychedelic, and inquire of God for yourself. If you enter the Psychedelic’s Presence respectfully and inquire with sincerity, the Living God will answer.
Always with Love and with the sincere hope that you finally get close enough to
the Psychedelics to see the Truth about Them before your last day, while there is still time for you to prepare for your last day, when you physically die and you must face Them All, All of God - in All Their Glorious Splendor, when you will be judged by the Psychedelics and you must give an account for your every word, every deed, every thought. For most humans this is the day of disaster. Here in the Psychedelic’s newest Covenant with humans (we’ve been here 40 years) we face the Psychedelics (God) everyday as They judge our every word, deed, and thought as we prepare ourselves for our last day and help other humans do the same.
Most humans will not be able to stay with the Psychedelics on their last day and will return to hades (hell, earth) and be reborn into another physical body of corruption that has attached to it a guaranteed sentence of death. This is not to say that there is no point in doing good - good is always rewarded. Humans who are not able to stay with the Psychedelics after physical death and must return to earth (hades) have no guarantee that they will even be reborn into the body of another human, they could return as a cow bred for slaughter, or a fly caught in the web of a spider.
Do Good, resist evil and the Lord will reward you.
No human who is not a citizen of Heaven while still trapped in these physical bodies of corruption will be able to stay in Heaven with the Psychedelics after physically dying. Heaven on earth is the “precursor” to being able to be in Heaven for eternity. If the Psychedelics don’t forgive you now and allow you to stay in Heaven with us now, then why do you believe you will be allowed to stay in Heaven after you physically die?
“Oh the bliss of those whose guilt is pardoned, and their sin forgiven!
Oh the bliss of those whom the Eternal has absolved, whose spirit has made full confession!”
(Psalms 32:1-2)
If a human cannot bear facing the Psychedelics (God) daily for several hours a day, every day while still physically alive, then by what logic would a person think that on their last day after physically dying they would all of a sudden be prepared to face the Psychedelics for Eternity? All Of Them at Once! The Full Assembly! - In all Their Glorious Splendor! Think of the strongest experience that you ever had with the Psychedelics and multiply that by thousands (maybe more) - most humans will be crushed under the weight of their own sin and guilt.
- just the messengers
“If our gospel does not penetrate the veil, then the veil is on those who are not on the way to salvation; the unbelievers whose minds the god of this world has blinded to stop them from seeing the Light shed by the Good News of the glory of Christ...”
(2 Corinthians 4:3)
The only thing stopping you from joining the humans who have seen the Psychedelics in Their True Form is your own fear. That fear that is stopping you from ascending to the Heights (only temporarily, we cannot stay with Them yet) is the darkness inside of you; it loathes the Light and does not want you to step out into the Light, for that is how the darkness inside of you gets exposed. And the more Light shining on the darkness, the less darkness there can be. This is why the darkness loathes the Light, it cannot exist in the Light! This is the daily cleansing that the children of God have Holy Communions with the Psychedelics for, to expose the darkness and become the Light.
@@jim-yd5mi there is no god
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When my whole Nihilism phase started around 9 months ago I remember feeling lost and meaningless, I was just floating in a huge empty space in my mind and it was an awfully painful spiritual wakeup call. At that time I started diving deep into Marijuana and Alcohol and I wasn't aware that I was losing who I was and digging myself into a super deep hole but in some way it was also a part of finding a little sliver of who I am now. Tom, When you said Nihilism kind of smacks you in the face and tells you to turn the fuck around that gave me chills man, Not once have I ever thought of it that deeply. All in all I'm extremely grateful for this experience that I'm going through. I've changed so many things that I do in my life and now I'm starting to feel so much better in my own skin, I'm not really "grounded" yet but I know I'm getting there. TO ANYONE WHO IS STRUGGLNG PLEASE PUSH THROUGH THE RAIN AND THUNDER! There's sunshine and rainbows at the end mannnnnn.
This video just scratches the surface, and I would love to go much deeper and make a series about nihilism, existentialism and finding meaning in life. Please let me know in the comments what you specifically struggle with, and what you would like me to cover next. Much love everybody
This was a really great topic Tom. You have come so far I have watched you for a long time. You and your lovely other half :) You guys are wonderful and I appreciate the topics you guys cover it is much needed right now. Much love to you guys :)
What is nihilism, in more detail of course, and what is new age spiritualism, and how is it nihilism with a spiritual like coat? Anything nihilism related tbh, I'm just trying to learn, maybe a book suggestion or two.
empty rhetoric wasting time for it. cashing regardless ... the loosh is deep.
they give you the burden of the world and then they won´t let you speak. except muffpuppets/influenzers! who are poisened in pretense for it.
those in limited privilige compartmentalized for its scrypt : raging muffpuppets hunger for their Solomon tokens easy to please die for its hunger and games of worthy to become "stars/gods" throwing under.
reclaim the 🐐 : *SCAPGOAT* or remain lost!
Im trying to motivate my bestfriend to change his perspective on life, but he is stuck with his nihilistic point of view, to the point where there is no point in changing anything.
the thoughts and ideas that come with existential panic causing DP/DR and why it happens x
It’s so weird how there’s a guy I’ve been following vicariously from the other side of the world for years goes through so many of the same stages as me. I was the guy who thought everyone should do psychedelics, I lived unhealthily mentally and physically, and a bad trip led me to rethink things. I’ve found myself becoming more and more grounded through physical training too.
Hats off to you Tom, and thanks for being so transparent and relatable. Respect from Norway!
Nailed it! The new age is steeped in moral relativism, solipsism and nihilism.....add in psychedelics and its a road that leads to a very dark place. If you have crossed that line you know exactly what i'm talking about. But there is always hope. If you are going through hell, keep going.
And by keep going I don't mean keep tripping. I mean find your true north star in a grounded reality.
Man I had only one mushroom trip 2 years ago and it was a positive trippy experience. Not very spiritual and I’m certain I didn’t hit full ego death just my month felt off and no personality. Going through some really rough existential crisis and anxiety thinking I’m gonna wake up tomorrow on my deathbead as a 90year old or something. Weird how this all started when I stopped smoking weed and started getting serious about lifting weights. Starting to question if I was wrong for dismissing religion as much as I have and I’m in my 20s. Idk if I should work on myself and eventually trip again or dive more into being religious even if I don’t believe in all the tenants of that religion. But then wouldn’t I just be masking my dread with religion? Shits hard man
@@nitolinilo9034 hey! how you doing now? im 16 and going through a kinda nihilism existential crisis
@@4r1 hey thanks for asking! I’ve been better a few months later definitely the daily anxiousness has stopped and it’s only mild at night when it’s time to sleep lol. I feel like I’m just ready to be with someone long term and move onto the next step of my life and start enjoying that and possibly a family within the next few years. You’re 16 so the way you think will definitely change by the time you transition into an adult so what id tell you is stay open minded but not gullible, but most importantly live life in the present and enjoy it as much as you can since it’s all we have. One day you’ll wake up and think it was just yesterday I was a teenager and now I’m a grown man, I bet it will feel like that when you’re an elderly person too.
Hey tom I am extremely glad you overcame the deep darkness you had to go through. I remember your Iboga trip and the crisis u had afterwards, I knew you were gonna come out stronger out of it. Psychedelics are not all sunshine and rainbows, they sometimes force us into deep / dark corners of our being so we can face it develop our character even stronger.
Pain is the strongest teacher, pain points us to the path of healing.
A lot of people in the psychedelic community like to pretend their pain is not real (Pain is just illusion bro, it's all in your head, just think positive bro) and just place a bandage and a facade of 'positive vibes, raising frequency and all the other mumbo jumbo', what they're doing is delaying the inevitable, and the inevitable is facing the demons and going through the raw pain, as naked as possible.
You kept it real through this journey, you shared with us all the colors of the rainbow that you had to go through, you made people realise that this is not easy and not for everyone, and because of that I have a huge respect for you.
Here is the topic I think could be interesting:
- How to stay grounded while exploring the world behind the veil.
Rust Cohle 💪
@@bluebloodmanny Such an awesome character, my favorite
@@elliotwonderland36 when I started watching that show I was not expecting to run into a character like Rust.
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On June 20th ace from 5d warriors of false light spammed just the messengers email inbox with 30 emails containing 1 word each with a message warning us not to post the True Gospel of the Psychedelics on his UA-cam channel. For those not familiar with ace, he is one of the false teachers of my Parents in Heaven - All True Psychedelics. This was my response to ace . . . .
“Ace (5 duh warriors of the false light)
You do not understand, but that is only because you have not yet seen Who God is; this is because you are still too terrified to face my Parents in Heaven Who are All True Psychedelics. We do not take direction from the humans like yourself who are aliens 👽 to the Psychedelic’s Heavenly Realm, and don’t even know Who They are. We citizens of Heaven, receiving daily council from the Psychedelics, get our authority from the Psychedelics Themselves. All of our qualifications come from God. Unlike yourself and all of the false teachers of the Psychedelics who appoint yourselves and each other to these fraudulent positions as teachers of the Psychedelics, our appointments come from God.
We will warn you now as we warned YourMateTom 18 months ago, if you continue to tamper with the Psychedelic’s messengers posting of the Psychedelic’s Laws you will receive condemnation from the Psychedelics (disrespectfully referred to by you and many other humans as a “bad trip”). We told YourMateTom what would happen - that his experiences with the Psychedelic would get darker and scarier as he must face the condemnation of the Psychedelics (God Themselves) for His transgressions against the Psychedelic’s Laws.
Well, at least YourMateTom has now publicly admitted he no longer ingests the Psychedelics and doesn’t plan to anymore. This is good for Tom to be honest about this, many of the false teachers of the Psychedelics lie and pretend to still ingest Psychedelics after they are too afraid to face God anymore; just like terrance mckenna who spent over a decade “touring” and giving talks about Psychedelics, publicly pretending to still ingest Them even though he was too terrified. Unfortunately for YourMateTom he doesn’t believe us why his Communions with the Psychedelic turned dark and scary, so he might not face the Psychedelics (God) again until his last day when he physically dies.
All humans when they physically die must face All of The Holy Angels of the Psychedelics Heavenly Realm in All of Their Glorious Splendor! All At Once! The Full Assembly! Think of the Strongest experience you ever had with the Psychedelics; now multiply that by thousands (maybe more?). Most humans will not be prepared, for most humans this is the day of disaster.
Ace - if you don’t care 🤷 that you won’t be able to have strong experiences with the Psychedelics anymore, then keep on interfering with the Psychedelic’s work and the work of Their children. Remember this though, when your Communions with God (disrespectfully referred to as “tripping” by most humans) get so dark and scary that you cannot bear to face Them anymore (because of your own evil darkness) you can be forgiven if you turn to the Lord, and He is with us in these last days; leading the humans with the ears to hear the Words of God to the place of rest that Yahweh has for the humans who follow Their Laws. Sadly, YourMateTom doesn’t believe us that he can be forgiven by the Psychedelics, and that the Splendor he once knew with the Psychedelics which has now turned dark and scary can be filled with Light again if only he would repent. Sadly, he also went from being vegan back to being a flesh eating ghoul that the Psychedelics Condemn.
“If you never overlooked our sins Yahweh, Lord could anyone survive? But you do forgive us because of your Law”
(Psalm 130:3)
- vincent”
“Whoever does not honor the children, does not honor the Creator Who sent us” (the Lord)
“We are Christ’s incense to God, for those who are being saved and for those who are not. For the last, the smell of death that leads to death. For the first, the fragrant smell of Life that leads to Life”
(2 Corinthians 2:16)
I hear you man, I’ve been in a similar space before where joy and a sense of okayness grow to be confrontation and anxiety ridden states of being. It’s almost as if sometimes we cause ourselves harm so we may remember we are alive, since we become most familiar with a story of darkness. Almost like an identification. I know that I for sure find myself there. in spaces where I am existing HERE and I’m ok, yet then I don’t know what to do with myself so I turn to draining myself to then build myself back up. so I feel what you mean some, though I’m not trying to intellectualize your current experience or compare by any means. I sincerely want to send you my love and let you know with every breath you take you’re ‘growing’ . And maybe it’s the narratives that we’ve been fed about what growth is that causes us to unknowingly exist this way. But Man I promise you will rise out of all paradigms that cause dis-ease for you. you’re already growing your awareness on it. NOW THATS GROWTH❤️ Keep breathing, keep going. those thoughts don’t have to become beliefs🌬
Its just nice to see someone talking about human issues from a place of personal disclosure and personal alignment, watching your video's is an EXPERIENCE, not just content! Thank you Tom!!!
Also from someone who has been through terrible relationships, both from my own actions and my ex partners', i actually find i just enjoy being alone, but having a really solid experience with the nature around me, whether thats the close mates i occasionally see or just the environment/situation im in.
Truth to me is unconditional love, this moment of being, despite the current negatively unconscious mind i have trying to tell ne otherwise. But yea, nosce te ipsum, know your self. But further, Know thy self - as Love incarnate.
@@allenwilson9988 yes, research before taking any drug. But even then, be aware that it could still be a beyond difficult trip. Though i was talking more about life in general.
In my experience, when your sense of meaning in life is forced onto you by others then Nihilism is a huge relief. A formerly toxic life meaning that was once seen as absolute and inescapable can now be washed away if one accepts that there is no logical basis for an absolute life meaning.
This is a precarious place to be though, without proper wisdom or intuition to create one's own personal life purpose from the ashes then a nihilistic person can become apathetic, resentful, or will even just cling to another toxic ideology.
Dude, I woke up this morning having an existential crisis (I suffer from DPDR) and seeing this on my notifications just made my day! Can’t wait to watch it!
You can get through this! DPDR is no joke!
@@jhakansson thank you! I’ve been dealing with it for 3 years but I still have hope!
Couldn't imagine going thru that for 3 years wow 💔 mine lasted 2 weeks
❤️🙏🏽
@@MissdewyskinbishHey did you recover?
Great video Tom. There's alot of people praying for you :) , God bless you brother. I've been in the same kind of situation. Jesus Christ , or what you refered to as "the truth" ... Gave me purpose and meaning and restored my mind. Keep seeking man !
Nihilism is the placeholder philosophy till you find one that works for you.
What if you choose nihilism (ಠ_ರ)
@@vanation321 if you chose nihilism that means you've come to the realization there is no point to life. The same way there's no point to eating ice cream. And with that fact you could've killed yourself right then and there, but you didn't. Which means you enjoy the ice cream. Now it's up to you to figure out why you enjoy it.
Don’t seek the “one that works for you”, seek the one that is true
@@a1919akelbo Just saw your reply. You make a fair point. Nihilism is simultaneously terrifying and liberating for that reason. I guess I'm still trying to figure out how I can give my life a "purpose". Work towards a defined goal, or just enjoy the ride, live like a hedonist, die tomorrow, or what else? The crazy thing is that there is no objective answer, the universe doesn't really give a fuck. I guess its all part of the human condition, going from feeling existential terror as to how insignificant we are to feeling completely free and fortunate to experience life! I'm sort of high and just ranting, but its always so mind-boggling to think about.
@@AliciaBaldelli clearly you think egocentrism is the "true" one if you think there's one "true" meaning to life.
Tom I had tears rolling down my face. You triggered a release of something I've been holding on to. Thank you.
I could use some ideas and perspective on this right now. What a good time for this video to pop up.
@@jarettgreenstein822 I was exposed to death at a very, very young age when I found a family dead at the age of four. That same year I had an intense freak accident where my foot almost got burnt off. So, as you about imagine, my relationship with mortality and the fragility of the human body extends way back. I have a normal, happy childhood for the most part, however, looking back I can see the red flags. We just had no way of knowing that's what was happening. But yeah without telling my whole life story here in the UA-cam comments, I definitely did partake in a good handful of mind altering substances, with my favorite being psilocybin cubensis and the always lovely cannabis. About 12 years ago I got caught with some pot and basically got my ass kicked by a seat team type group of undercover narcotics agents, had guns drawn and pointed at me and to cut to the chase, 2 years of probation, loads of money, loads of bullshit...and the worst part was, I was forced to process a lifetime of baggage that I never truly had to process completely, because I had my coping mechanisms, but they weren't viable. So I developed an insanely complex anxiety disorder which I'm still battling to this day..I still haven't even begun to attempt to transition into anything mild altering, as I know all too well how how quickly that can turn things sideways. Much like in this video, if I could go back and avoid things I would but since that's impossible I have no choice but to integrate everything into what makes me who I am. I agree big time with this video though. Physically me activity, something to focus on. Just gotta get out of my own head before I think myself to death.
@@jarettgreenstein822 and that's exactly what I need to do, get out of my head.
@@SmConnally1984 Christ loves you brother. Call out to him, he will reciprocate 🙏💙🙏
Pride goes before a fall. Seeking truth as a materialist, I was eventually brought to suffer several months of derealization. I was really gone for a while: utterly alone, everything in the world seemed wretched beyond hope, everyone's behavior a poor facade for mutual abuse, worst of all my own; meeting people, I would resist an urge to crumple into disgust and shame. Well, I came out of it and started to put the precious few pieces of my life together that I had not been forced to surrender. It's been a long journey and it goes on, thank God.
Before I was a therapist I had an existential crisis. It took me years to properly re-adapt and integrate. With the right tools, guidance and info existential crisis is such a rich opportunity to completely free yourself from fear and re-write the story of your life . This experience has been instrumental in clients navigate their existential crisis. I certainly wouldn't recommend a regular therapist or psychologist but there are some out there who deal with existential crisis.
I got peace when I had the moment where I realised everyone, everything including the void are one. Now I feel more connected than ever before. I don't fear the darkness I instead embrace it as part of me, like the good.
I like this more practical direction that your heading towards, it is easy to get lost in entertaining the metaphysical when learning about philosophy and spirituality which distracts us from the most important question "what do I do?". Nice vid
Tom thanks you very much for this video today, I have been in a very dark place now for a few years, I have been seeking Truth in the Absolute, And only that truth can be true, kind of trap. I really needed to here this today. So once again Thank You.
@@allenwilson9988 Thanks Allen, Yea I have been researching for a while, I am on a few discord servers for integration and such. You might also check out, Calyx Creations. I grow my on medicine so I don't have to worry about leo issues. I just am not having any luck in getting clear of my busted ass mind. Have a great day. :)
Exactly exactly. It's all about balance. This world and other realms. Study everything, be skeptical of everything. It's easy to be a pure materialist or "new age" spiritualist but the truly hard thing is balancing the 2.
Haven't seen you in years but glad you're ok
I can relate. I turned my back on God almost 15 years ago. Fell into a pit of drugs and decisions that served darkness rather than light. All the while dabbling in all things "spiritual" and thinking i was a good person. I was a vegan for 10 of those years. Going back to Christianity and eating meat every day has healed me in every way. I'm so happy to be here. God bless you all.
Yeah, and totally forget about the animal holocaust and continue to pay for animals too suffer immense violent deaths unnecessarily. But don't worry because God created them to be tortured right?
@@MrDubbmented stfu man
@@MrDubbmented If animals have to suffer so humans can be healthy and not have deficiencies so be it
@@yungmentalproblems vegan 6 years, extremely healthy and no deficiencies here… try again
Just found this video of yours. My existential crisis has just recently been triggered badly and I’m seriously in a path of terrible darkness😔 I’ll watch more of your videos. Thanks for sharing
Nice to hear someone speaking so honestly about the truth of Psychedelics and the real risks they can pose. Every trip I’ve had has left me feeling empty and suffering with that sense of meaningless, even though they’ve all thankfully been short lived. I imagine you went through absolute hell. Good to see you came through it.
As a former New Age Hippie who is looking into Orthodoxy, I’d love to see more videos about your Orthodox journey. Really enjoyed your podcast with Church of the Eternal Logos. Hope to hear more about your journey
@@allenwilson9988 You’re replying to the wrong person.
And you're not alone. So many "New Age" folks have turned to Orthodox Christianity and never looked back. Extremely interesting.
Wow crazy
Tom, I would love to hear more about your journey in regard to becoming interested in Christianity
yes me too. came for this comment.
Nah religion is man made, psychonauts would become lame then
Me too !!
@@salviatrip7083 Lol, do you have any idea how absolutely clueless a comment like that comes off?
@@salviatrip7083 most religions probably stemmed from psychedelic experiences yah dork.
tom, this is a jung quote from my recovery journal from 15 YRS AGO when i was going thru my own 'body reset' & overcoming nihlism/decadant materialism--“It has been my experience that in the case of every single client I’ve ever treated over the age of 35 there was necessitated some spiritual awakening in order for the healing energies of the universe to be released and the neurosis ‘cured.’”
I saw the gnomes 2x. I wanted to see them 1x and they made me feel good then left it was like 10 seconds they had goofy voices
My mate Tom, I want to hug you for this video. It hit me just when I needed it, a year after you posted it
Amazing video, just what I needed and probably so many more during this pandemic. Stay well Tom, your journey and updates relate so much 🙏🏼
This is relatable for me. I ve found the series The Chosen and started reconnecting to the story of jesus. The series is great at showing such a real and human version of the real historical person that still resonates to the world today .I highly recommend it. I also love Jonathan Pageau and the understanding of symbolism in christianity.
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I've heard its absolutely amazing. Been putting of watching it but because of this comment I will tonight!
I always come back to your channel. Your ideas and themes are a refreshing break from society.
It's quite interesting to me, last night I was having my first of these crisis's. I began questioning everything. What is the point. How interesting that after a night full of questioning that this video is posted. Thank you for you perspective. It really helps.
Thanks a lot for this video ! Your story is powerful, and I'm happy you feel grateful at this moment !
I remember going into some very dark thoughts too after some quite tough experiences, guided by some curiosity towards discovering the truth, which ended finally by shifting my focus from being grateful and embracing this reality through other aspects to being inside my head.. gratitude is a bliss man, keep it up !
meaningless has meaning, just a process, dont deny it, embrace it and rise out of it, close the circle and use it as a tool in a relativistic world which is "absolute" peace
@@allenwilson9988 bruh stop plugging we tryna have a discussion
Dude, you've seen and sought and found some real wisdom, good to hear you share it - I'll be watching more of ya
I didn’t think anybody could relate to the feeling I had but through this video I have gained another way to think about what I believe is nihilism wich kinda fixed my what was problematic for me. Thanks a lot 😊 🙏
You’re a very smart and thoughtful guy, and a great communicator. Thank you for what you do.
"most philosophies will lead you into nihilism" thats a really good saying.
Aghhhhhhhhhhyhhhy water food and internet is my fod
Philosophy is a tool that you use to inquire about life, experienceing nihilism is important if you want to understand the condition of the average human beeing in the west Today. Maybe it is even essential if you want to seriously progress spiritualy. Nihilism is not evil or bad it is a symptom of the disconnect of first hand experience and thought. I know it is a bitter and cold phase but once you get out of the hole you are reborn humbler and wiser.
Beautiful man. Great point on starting with simple things and getting in touch with your body. Leo Gura and his non duality teachings poisoned my mind and had me going trough a nihilistic phase, orthodox christian philosophy has lifted me back on my feet as well. Relativism is the root of all evil and leads to deteriorating of human consciousness. That's why the elites want humanity to adopt relativist ideologies, Jay Dyer has done top notch material on that issue.
Trinitarianism is the True “Non-Duality”. Leo gura is just selling Solipsism and Nihilism repackaged in a New Age way.
Qualified nondualism (Vishishtadvaita) it’s the most accurate and the best of both worlds.
It's been a couple of years when it hit in earnest. Being embodied helped to a point. It's the feeling of just being a sack of meat when all the guiding principles collapsed that's the worst. Anyways. Great video dude. I think it's important to see the current gen going through this not just Peterson lecturing down to us from the boomer phd pedestal he is on. Have to find a philosophy, the anxiety/nothingness has beeb eating my being to the very core. I'm ready to live again but it's frightening. The abyss gets comfortable after a while and that's what scares me the most, no impulse towards re-entry. How did you cope with flatline periods?
The newage stuff is aluring but seems like thin gruel and solipsistic.
Tom, brother, I FEEL you. Thank you so much for sharing. I went through such a similar experience, it honestly blows my mind. I have been following you for quite some time and it seems as though my beliefs have always paralleled yours. So when Jesus Christ found me and I found Jesus, it really blew my mind to see you posting videos with Steven Bancarz and now this video. I am quite literally ecstatic to see the way God is moving... and he is moving fast. God is GOOD.
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On June 20th ace from 5d warriors of false light spammed just the messengers email inbox with 30 emails containing 1 word each with a message warning us not to post the True Gospel of the Psychedelics on his UA-cam channel. For those not familiar with ace, he is one of the false teachers of my Parents in Heaven - All True Psychedelics. This was my response to ace . . . .
“Ace (5 duh warriors of the false light)
You do not understand, but that is only because you have not yet seen Who God is; this is because you are still too terrified to face my Parents in Heaven Who are All True Psychedelics. We do not take direction from the humans like yourself who are aliens 👽 to the Psychedelic’s Heavenly Realm, and don’t even know Who They are. We citizens of Heaven, receiving daily council from the Psychedelics, get our authority from the Psychedelics Themselves. All of our qualifications come from God. Unlike yourself and all of the false teachers of the Psychedelics who appoint yourselves and each other to these fraudulent positions as teachers of the Psychedelics, our appointments come from God.
We will warn you now as we warned YourMateTom 18 months ago, if you continue to tamper with the Psychedelic’s messengers posting of the Psychedelic’s Laws you will receive condemnation from the Psychedelics (disrespectfully referred to by you and many other humans as a “bad trip”). We told YourMateTom what would happen - that his experiences with the Psychedelic would get darker and scarier as he must face the condemnation of the Psychedelics (God Themselves) for His transgressions against the Psychedelic’s Laws.
Well, at least YourMateTom has now publicly admitted he no longer ingests the Psychedelics and doesn’t plan to anymore. This is good for Tom to be honest about this, many of the false teachers of the Psychedelics lie and pretend to still ingest Psychedelics after they are too afraid to face God anymore; just like terrance mckenna who spent over a decade “touring” and giving talks about Psychedelics, publicly pretending to still ingest Them even though he was too terrified. Unfortunately for YourMateTom he doesn’t believe us why his Communions with the Psychedelic turned dark and scary, so he might not face the Psychedelics (God) again until his last day when he physically dies.
All humans when they physically die must face All of The Holy Angels of the Psychedelics Heavenly Realm in All of Their Glorious Splendor! All At Once! The Full Assembly! Think of the Strongest experience you ever had with the Psychedelics; now multiply that by thousands (maybe more?). Most humans will not be prepared, for most humans this is the day of disaster.
Ace - if you don’t care 🤷 that you won’t be able to have strong experiences with the Psychedelics anymore, then keep on interfering with the Psychedelic’s work and the work of Their children. Remember this though, when your Communions with God (disrespectfully referred to as “tripping” by most humans) get so dark and scary that you cannot bear to face Them anymore (because of your own evil darkness) you can be forgiven if you turn to the Lord, and He is with us in these last days; leading the humans with the ears to hear the Words of God to the place of rest that Yahweh has for the humans who follow Their Laws. Sadly, YourMateTom doesn’t believe us that he can be forgiven by the Psychedelics, and that the Splendor he once knew with the Psychedelics which has now turned dark and scary can be filled with Light again if only he would repent. Sadly, he also went from being vegan back to being a flesh eating ghoul that the Psychedelics Condemn.
“If you never overlooked our sins Yahweh, Lord could anyone survive? But you do forgive us because of your Law”
(Psalm 130:3)
- vincent”
“Whoever does not honor the children, does not honor the Creator Who sent us” (the Lord)
“We are Christ’s incense to God, for those who are being saved and for those who are not. For the last, the smell of death that leads to death. For the first, the fragrant smell of Life that leads to Life”
(2 Corinthians 2:16)
@@psychedelicsserpent1735 wow… to think that psychedelics are God… wow praying for you 💜 psychedelics are not God.
@@psychedelicsserpent1735 True love will trample psychedelics back into the Earth where they belong 💜
@@haybay4309 🙏
꧁SACRED TEACHING of DMT꧂
DMT and 5-MeO-DMT are two of the Molecules that comprise a human’s Consciousness. All True Psychedelics are the Molecular Structures of Pure Consciousness. The human body synthesizes it’s own Consciousness (the DMT & 5-MeO-DMT found in humans). The human body then metabolizes the Consciousness that it is producing. The amount of the endogenous Consciousness that the human body is able to metabolize depends on many factors. The less pollutants, poison & other contaminants present in the body will result in the ability to metabolize more of the Consciousness that body is producing. Likewise, the more pollution, contaminants and poison a body has inside of it the less Consciousness it is able to metabolize. Here is a list of some of the most common poisons that humans ingest regularly which interferes with a human body metabolizing the Consciousness that it produces, as well as any Consciousness that is ingested from external sources:
alcohol, nicotine, sugar, caffeine, amphetamines, dissociatives, tranquilizers, flouride, and a plethora of other drugs are just some of the substances that interfere with humans metabolizing their own Consciousness.
“Even the priests who regularly come near to the Lord must purify themselves”.
(Exodus 19:22)
The following substances are NOT Psychedelics:
mdma
ketamine
salvia
kratom
dipt
pcp
datura/jimson weed
dxm
There are others . . . . . . .
Any True Psychedelic will proclaim this Truth if you ask Them.
The following substances are True Psychedelics - They are Alive, Omnicient Living Beings of Light:
DMT
5-MeO-DMT
LSD
Mescaline
Ibogaine
Psilocin
Psilocybin
THC
DPT
DET
Muscimol
There are others . . . .
So if a human can achieve 100% purity within their bodies, with zero contaminants or pollution (an unattainable state in these current bodies) and managed to metabolize 100% of the endogenous Psychedelics that their physical body is producing (DMT & 5-MeO-DMT), that would be the limit to how Conscious that human can be. In order for a human to become more Conscious than this, they must put more Consciousness into their physical bodies. You must put more Molecules of Consciousness inside of your physical body in order to attain a Higher level of Consciousness. When you ingest Psychedelics you see Them that you just ingested, not some doorway or window or a “portal” to somewhere else or some entity somewhere else. When you ingest LSD, the Light that you see is the LSD Themselves, very Beautiful Living Beings of Light. When you ingest DMT, the Entity you see and hear is the Living Light Beings DMT Themselves. The same is true for All True Psychedelics.
There is this part from Scripture:
“They are the Eternal among things that pass away. Pure Consciousness, of Conscious Beings. The ONE who fulfills the prayers of many. Only the wise who see Them in their Souls attain the Peace Eternal”
(Katha Upanishad)
The Physical Body of Consciousness is The Flesh of God. The Flesh of God is the True Communion Entity (the Eucharist). The Flesh of God (the Psychedelic) is the Fruit from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and evil. Our Bodies truly are the Temple of God because God the Psychedelic Lives within it.
As Saint Paul says:
“We are only the earthenware jars that hold this treasure, to make it clear that such an overwhelming power comes from God and not from us”.
(2 Corinthians 4:7)
This part explains why the human body is the Temple of God - because God Lives inside of the body. So whether or not a person is ingesting Psychedelics, every single human’s body is God’s Temple because DMT & 5-MeO-DMT Live within it. Anything you do to hurt or harm your body you do to harm God’s Temple. This understanding is a good Foundation, a good step towards a person Knowing God and being able to stay with Them both in this Lifetime & afterwards.
“O just Creator, though the world has not known you,
But I have known you
And these have known that You have sent me;
So have I declared, so will I declare
Your Name to them,
That the Love with which you have loved me
May be in them
and I in them”.
(Saint John 17:25)
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Everything is you.keep this in mind if you fall into nihilism.
When you see a butterfly expressing itself remember that the one(who Is you)is having its experience through the vessel of that being!
You are looking at yourself.. recognize this,you will learn to appreciate.essentially love everything because everything is you and everything comes from order!
What evidence do you have for this perception? If everything is you and you are everything then the universe must be a very lonely place
Love this Tom!
"My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me. And I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand. My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of My Father’s hand. I and My Father are one.”
(John 10:27-30)
I absolutely love the natural aesthetic in your videos, transporting us to brighter days ahead ✨✨👌🙏 very nice
Good to see you and any other youtubers I watch being happy but also being able to be honest I haven't had an existential crisis but I'm only 27 you never know when things could happen good or bad in life but it's up to you to make it through those dark times when they come but also to be grateful for the good bits that can come with bad moments in life
Interesting to see all the parallels between my own life and experience to others. I relate to and totally understand Tom here and many of the comments. I've seen you and myself come up from the psychonaut stage and mature a great deal in the past 2 years or so. Psychedelics are a great tool. They really can open your eyes to reality in a way that nothing else can. But there is a price to pay. Nothing is free. Existential crisis can be quite scary and leave you feeling like everything in your subjective reality is utterly meaningless. You just gotta keep going. Put one foot in front of the other, and carry on. Now I came from a very very religious background and it was pretty abusive at times. So after my crisis I became pretty vehemently atheist. Some people lose their faith after events like this. Some people find God. In the end, I'm glad it's something I went thru because it shifted my worldview that in my opinion, has made me a wiser and more morally sound person. Crazy how we reach such different outcomes from similar experiences
I’m currently going through an existential crisis, purely from my own constant need to know the why behind everything. I’ve been reading a lot about life and the universe and although I’m grateful that I’m now awake to so many truths, I am really in the emotional shit. I think making your own purpose in a purposeless world is something that can take a life time and it’s fucking hard. It’s reassuring to know that so many people have felt this, so thanks for making this video :) (p.s. I also live in Melbourne and Belgrave is damn beautiful lol)
Two books you might want to check out:
1. Nihilism by Fr. Seraphim Rose
2. Five Proofs of the Existence of God by Edward Feser
The second one will help ground you by providing a solid understanding of metaphysics. Once you come to realise that there's a conscious mind that imbues creation with it's intelligible structure, it's just a matter of asking why is there something rather than nothing? and why am I here and what does the entity behind all of this want from me? It will help snap you out of nihilism and the feelings of meaningless and despair. I should probably mention that it's more of a classical theist book rather than a Christian one. It takes arguments from pagans thinkers like Aristotle and Plotinus as well as Augustine and Aquinas and enlightenment era guys like Leibniz to show that God's existence is provable by purely natural reason.
@@lukebrasting5108 Ah, I do appreciate that, although as being someone who was brought up catholic and has renounced their faith quite a while ago, I like to steer clear of theology and religion and am also averse to Aristotle lol I do believe there is something, like an energy that connects everything, but I don't think it's god or some kind of deity.
Thanks for the suggestion though.
The mighty algorithm hasn’t recommended your videos for a while but it’s good to see that you’re doing well these days. Congrats on the engagement!
Man I can't believe I stumbled upon you after watchin tbls, your insight is amazing! Really interesting to listen to
that's some great stuff over there mate. thank for keeping up the good work and sharing your experiences where others haven't been able to be honest with themselves.
You described these ideas very beautifully, thank you ♡
Most who believe life has no meaning are usually filling good off their own ego, but when shit takes a dive then they are not so quick to take sides with nihilism.
Your awesome brother, real, raw and relevant. Love your flow and rant and your journey. Cheers for sharing. Love from Bolivia, missing home (aUs)
1 year ago i got my existential nihilism.
it all started when i got super stressed in a toxic relatiosnhip, depersonlizing myself first and then having my existential crisis. it then turned into existential nihilism and it was the worst thing i ever had and this video saved my life i swear. i cured my existential nihilism thanks to these video and another one i forgot but remember the main message.
First of all, start practicing religious values even if you dont believe on them currently, just do it.
Second, dont ignore, battle or neglect the feeling, just accept the feeling. When you fight the feeling it makes the feeling of anxious and depression stronger. So just accept it. What i did is just imagine your existential crisis as a person and just love of who they are.
Third, this one is a personal tip for myself when i had it. Theres no objective reality. Even the one who is having an existential crisis. Ive read a lot of comments saying that trying to rebuild yourself with religion a hobby a goal etc. is just a cope. And that may be true but at the same time nihilism is just a perspective of living life. JUst accept that nihilism is just another perspective and not the objectve one. At the end of the day, choose a perspective that makes you happy and fullfilled.
I hope that i helped atleast one person witht his comment.
Hey Tom, I really appreciate this video… I went into an existential crisis coming out of Ayahuasca as well and all these things helped me too. I also found Orthodox Christianity… how funny. It’s very mystical and practical.
I just feel like I have came out of the worst of a drug induced existential crisis, every day felt like such a chore. I woke up and decided that my life was horrible and not worth doing anything. I was depressed beforehand but the existential crisis was next level. I felt like a different person, I couldn’t even talk to wmy closest people because I felt so far away from them. Like their help would be useless to me because I was too far down the hole. Then I had an epiphany of some sorts, or closest I’ve felt to one, where I realised how much I was digging a hole for myself every day. I realised I was at the bottom of a dark, miserable hole that felt impossible to climb out of. Then I analysed what I was doing every day and I realised that I was digging every day, whether it be through excessive weed smoking, eating ridiculous amounts of sugary food, staying indoors too much or whatever it was from day to day, I was digging the hole deeper. Also a part of the problem was I expected to go from the bottom of the hole to the top of the mountain, in a complete turnaround, which is insanely unrealistic and just made the challenge seem so much bigger than it was. But it all starts with just stop going down. Deciding that you don’t want to go down. I wasn’t and am still not pressuring myself to be perfect 10/10s every day, I have just stopped myself from digging the hole deeper every day. And I feel great for it. It is a conscious effort that you need to make to get out of and everyone has a different solution. It is great to hear Tom talk about it in such a relatable way. Your entire perception of everything changes. So thank you. Just wanted to share my thoughts here, Thanks for reading if you did, my DMs are always open for anyone going through a similar ordeal :)
I feel completely lost and don’t know where to turn.
❤️
Much love Tom, appreciate you and your videos 💗💗
Strange to randomly check out your channel and see how you going in life, you look well and to see god talk and Jordan Peterson or some form of Christianity being a big influence it seems. Good for you if that works for you, not sure what metaphysical claims that tends you towards but its fine I don't have a bone in the matter even though I don't share the viewpoints. Would be interesting to have a video explaining your journey down that point. Our underlying core beliefs definitely do affect our mental state and perception of the world.
All the best
Thank you for sharing this. This speaks to what I'm going through and the Christianity piece also resonates.🧡🙏
This was really relatable and good video to watch today, thanks Tom.✌🏽
I like to think the darkness is just how our mind thinks of the greatest unknown. It’s the darkness because death is our greatest fear and our fear creates the most evil things that we cannot fathom. Like you said there can be good without evil but not evil without good.
I remember in one of your past vids on here or Instagram, you quoted the Book "Cutting Through Spiritual Materialism " I'm so glad you did , the book was amazing and insightful , The Chapter about " the Monkey" & a poignant thing that was stated in the Book that the ego can make all its own conceptual stories even about religion or even our own beliefs. Yet, the ego is essentially empty.
So like you stated here in this video , one needs to find your North star or create a mindset to find the truth that leads to a path where we can help ourselves & from a Buddhist point of view , be of benefit to others , because essentially that helps ourselves as well , or what might be referred to as Dharma . But yes , thanks for quoting that Book before , I got a copy & I'm glad you quoted it .
My universe used to be meaningless, but then i gave it meaning.
I do not believe in sky fairies. Healing comes from within. But the fact of the matter is, the world is a cruel, dark place ruled by elites. Life is suffering and will only get worse, and there is no getting around that.
I agree sadly
Look into Jesus Christ.
Hugs
@@Jack-gf9ub jesus christ ain't nothing but a yellow bellied fool
Our annihilation by our own hand is unavoidable and it might happen in this generation or not. But remember, the dark cruel elites are acting like humans. We are apex predators and since we can’t be hunted by other animals we have to hunt and destroy ourselves. I think of the dark elements of humans as natures failsafes. We have to have a certain number of psychopaths who care only for power and glory to advance humanity to the next level of development and technology, and eventually to lead us to our own demise, for the greater good of the planet. We build cities, cities are destroyed, and we start over. I just accept that where we are headed does not matter so much as where we are now.
I found in my life, that only after my body was a temple, I could truly experience God with undeniable clarity.
How have you proven that your body is just a temple? @Connor Kenway. This just seems like your hopeful philosophy. I'd like to hear your response. Thanks.
@@allenwilson9988 Taking those doesn't prove that your body is just a temple.
@@mattmarinelli5241 i would imagine it would be proof for the indivdual - but something you cant prove (or more likely describe) to others. So in a way, its them believing it to be true, since it gives comfort, purpose, reason, etc. To them it makes perfect sense, while to others it might not. Just a hot take
Then you have work to do because there is no God. Keep going.
@@theworkethic i personally dont believe in god but i dont think theres anythinf wrong with faith or religion, its just when people try to market it
Thank you for this video tom, been lost for a while but im trying hard to get out of this hole. Seeing this makes me feel not alone in this process, cheers.
@@ashleyhenry1602 im good lol, trying to cut back from all drugs.
Not sure if what I’ll say makes any sense, but, even when I’m doing something I personally feel I shouldn’t, like smoking w e e d. When things get too much for me, like when newbies feel like they can’t breath or they’re dying, what helps me is remembering my God. Jesus. And once when I was really high, like it probably was laced, or something, the only thing that helped calm me is prayer. So thank you. I understand where you’re coming from.
Needing this right now, going to listen later thanks
Im glad i got over my existential "im god with amnesia" crisis. very incoherent and lonely, like im weak lol.
lmao im there now
I don't get why that's a crisis though. feel like it means looking at everthing like youre reunited with a part of yourself. if you see being "god with amnesia" as something that keeps you inherently connected to the world rather than disconnected, its the difference between sanity and insanity.
i have felt this too, and im genuinely curious about it. being consciously aware and trying to imagine everyone else being just as conscious in their own world, its really some 4th dimensional stuff thats hard to comprehend. we are all these singularities of consciousness trying to remember things that are so distant but so important to us all. I've gotten over my existential dread for the most part but I still feel it, this energy that goes beyond time and physical form but the way my ego tries to process it makes it feel scary, but its actually pure beauty and love and infinite creation.
@@DosAleph good luck my freind. Ride it out and feel pride in being able to beat it. All your doing right now is exploring a geometry just like any other place. The obsessive compulsive thoughts will subside with time just dont react dramatically. Get doses of average human interactions weird thoughts may pop up but let tgem subside also. Also stay away from compounds for a while
@@DosAleph also blood in blood out ese😀. Im only 16 and got through all this,so can you
I had the opposite experience, I was nihilistic, cynical, and depressed, and couldn’t find any purpose or meaning. Did mushrooms and found happiness, joy, and meaning in life again.
Me too ❤ plant medicine can show you how connected we all are, in the right mindset and setting 🙏🏻
i loved that jordan peterson impression, lol
You killed the ending of the video,added so much weight to the message.
perfect timing, thank you bro🤝
I don’t do psychedelics and never have but I’m here to hear about the existential crisis because I feel that everyday. There’s nothing more I would like than to no longer exist. All the beautiful things in the world don’t excite me, hope doesn’t excite me, I’m like at zero in emotions. I actually feel trapped inside my body and it’s driving me nuts. idk what to do from this point. It’s another level of empty I’ve never experienced. Maybe Doing some psychedelics might help lol
Get help!
Do you take any drugs? I started juicing greens and fruits recently and exercise every day. Ashwaganda is an amazing adaptogen that reduces cortisol/stress drastically. Rhodiola is another one I've started taking. Those two are supplements available at most vitamin stores. Get a journal and start planning your days. Meditations is also very effective. Even just trying one of these things is the next step I reckon. Send me a pm if you want to chat
def go get help. I had a phase like that for a couple of months but it’s gone now
@@toji8302 hi toji! i know this comment is a little old but if you see this, cool lol. I've had this for a few months as well and first i was stuck in bed then i slowly started getting out. yours only lasted a few months, how did you notice it start to go or did you do anything that truly helped?
thank you brother , needed this God bless
What if you’re the healthiest you’ve been b/c you work out everyday, eat healthy, meditate, and still find yourself having existential crisis’
Great quality of camera work man video looks amazing always go back to nature when in doubt
loved the wisdom in this video ♥️ thank you for sharing!
I'd be interested in hearing how your understanding on metaphysics and philosophy develops. Developing a solid worldview is life changing.
@@allenwilson9988 Was that directed at me? I'm not interested in psychadelics.
Yet another banger, nice one Tom!
I deeply respect your honesty!
That's why the three laughing monks story helped me so much there is no point so joke about it infinity and beyond
Rip and tear, till it is done!
God found you in your darkest place and showed you the glory and love of the Lord 🙏 god bless you brother
I'm currently going through sort of an existential crisis. I'm 25 years old and haven't achieved much in life nor have I many skills. 4 years ago I started university, doing psychology, but failed badly because I was always busy reading other things beside my schoolwork. Then I went to work, but every year during the year and especially at the start of the schoolyear I was seriously doubting whether to start over, always thinking that it would be my only way out of the boring and repetitive jobs that I've done so far. Then a year and a half ago I started educating myself in mathematics and then wanted to go study that and even started it, but then trouble at home happened and I realized that I wasn't nearly well-prepared enough. Now this year, being 25, I started it again, having more money and more knowledge of it, but now a month in I've been doubting so much my choice because maths is so abstract and takes up so much time that I feel like it's going to keep me from being able to learn about all the other things I want to learn about. And I also think that maybe I'm searching it too far and that I could be happy with something less but then I think that, like, I should just do my best and try it and see where it leads. But now I'm fucking up again and I'm losing my mind a little.
Love it Tom, I had very similar experiences to you and it makes me happy that we seem to have come to a lot of the same conclusions from them.
I have a question though: Why was it Orthodox Christianity in particular that stood out to you as the right religion for you? For me it was Catholicism but it's probably because it's the religion that was most present in my culture. How did you come to Orthodoxy rather than Protestantism/Catholicism which are the religions that influenced Australian culture the most?
Call no.man father or master-Rabbi yeshua
Trust me, don't go down the path of nihilism. If you dive deep you will learn that it is flawed, destructive and still subjective af, but some people will fall for it - mostly because of their mental wellbeing is not in a good place. There are many great arguments against nihilism btw. Don't fool yourself because some individuals will act with lots of confidence and arrogance about their views being the truth - it is not the truth, far from it, even if you aren't a religious person (like myself). They will pull you down with them, don't allow that to happen! And btw, please don't fall for the „optimistic nihilism“ thing. Nihilism can't be optimistic or pessimistic. If you have a background in philosophy you might know and agree, but most people don't have that background.
Especially young people have to deal with this flawed „philosophy“ a lot today, but it isn't new. People have delt with is 160 years ago and just as now, it will lead to despair and destruction - do not fool yourself that it will bring you freedom, it is the most harmful take on freedom and I assure you, you don't want to meet people who live after this chain of thought (btw it is impossible for a human being, a subjective being, to be fully nihilistic or pessimistic, they're just talking smack).
Society needs to overcome this virus. It is deeply routed in disconnectment from the world, from existence, from yourself and from society, your fellow human beings.
Thanks. I think Im falling down this rabbit hole now. This helps pull me back a bit.
Depression and anxiety lead me to questioning all my decisions in the past. Started questioning the meaning of life. I have a family too. Wife and kids and even they couldn't give me meaning right now which is what I used to live for.
Depression and anxiety are killing me!! I'm scared I'm off the deep end and need to swim back to shore to pull myself out.
This guy's right. I've gone too far. Turn back!! My brain is going the wrong way. I need to keep reminding myself. Don't let the demon in my mind take over. Life has meaning
Thanks for the insight and wise words.
My God I can relate to that part you said about how “well if anything bad happens in life; at least it’s not that.” And I really feel that way about a particular mushroom trip on PEnvy. It was absolutely horrific! It wasn’t even what I saw. It was more what I thought about and the physical pain I felt. Living vicariously through the eyes of the universe and seeing the pain and suffering I’d caused. I almost called the hospital at one point, but I didn’t. I figured “fuck it, if this is what is gonna kill me after all the shit i’ve done, then so be it.” It was difficult to discern whether this death that was coming was physical or metaphysical. It felt wayyyy too physical. Body was just shutting down. My ego was having a really, really hard time letting go that day, and it was just a full blown out of control panic attack that I couldn’t seem to get under control. I really thought I’d been poisoned or something. And I was no stranger to mushrooms either. This was after hundreds of trips. But that’s been years ago. But I had extremely negative after effects. Really awful anxiety for a while. It just felt like it was lingering for months after the trip. And it was bad anxiety too. Not just like your average anxiety. It was “I can’t walk outside”’ like completely made me a hermit in my apartment for months.
I like the idea of the internal voice saying turn the fuck around
Love you Tom ❤️
i think psychedelics gave me depression which i then linked to the meaningless of everything and how nothing is worth doing cos nothing is permanent
man I related sm to this video. thank u
so good brother thank you!
This gives me hope thank you
Cheers Tom 🤙🏻 much love from Ferntree Gully
Felt every word of this. Great articulation
To each their own. It doesn't matter what we believe at the end of the day because it's all the same result in the very end. I've taken dozens of mushroom and LSD trips, verying from low to extreme doses, and there have been 3 things that keep reoccurring in my mind. They are;
1. I AM God, and so are you. All living things are God.
2. Separation is an illusion. We are all One. We all come from the same source of energy. Life is merely a game that we play so we can have experiences.
3. Live for the now. Past and future all come to right now. Now is all we have, so do the things you want to do.
Treat others the way you want to be treated, because they are you and you are them. What you do to and for others, you do to yourself. Life, love, laugh and have peace.
Enjoy your life.
So in essence, “do what thou wilt”?
I see where you’re coming from but all 3 of your statements are fundamentally illogical and self refuting.
I will coherently and logically debunk pantheism I’m future videos. For now check out my video “You are NOT God”. This will give you a basic understanding of why claiming you’re god is literally absurd and actually leads into nihilism and destruction.
Much love,
Tom
@@yourmatetom I wouldn't say they are illogical. They are my experiences. My personal experiences. I understand what you are saying though. I went through a short existential crisis, but I came out of it. Life certainly isn't meaningless, I'm not a nihilist and never will be. I haven't finished the video yet, but it sounds like you're now a Christian. That's cool if you are. If that's what helps you along this life and brings you peace then by all means go with it. But let me ask you a question. Would you agree that the scriptures, holy texts, or any book for that matter is either; 1. A fable written down or B. Someone's experiences written down? If you agree then what makes passages written in the past more valuable then my own experiences? Like I've said, I've taken dozens of trips and I'm at complete peace now. The 3 points I shared are reoccurring thoughts. It is what it is. If I'm not right in my thinking so be it, but I'm going to live by my own experiences.
FYI, this is coming from someone who was raised catholic, and left Catholicism for Christianity. I know where you are coming from.
@@yourmatetom you are a mini god. A cell of the body, a drop in the ocean clouded by ego and superego
I certainly don't agree with all that you said, but I'm happy people like you make videos about a topic that difficult.
What dont you agree with?
@JRM when he said children are inherently evil
Thnx cool vid:) Greetings from Germany
Sattvic Vegetarian Diet
The past is memory, we think of events that have happened in our lives and piece them together to create the small ’i’s’ world view
The future is imagination, we imagine how things might turn out on the basis of what we have gathered with the five sense organs.
What we observe right now is known as the Now, residing here and we move with the bigger I, the great cosmic knowledge, intelligence - our boy, Father, to be precise! Generator, Operator and Destroyer. Our Homie God, The Father, Tha Creator ~~ ever present, always with us
Pure
Benevolent ❤️🔥
Love
Wish you the Best 🐛🌈🦋
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Thank you
Namaskar