I host #addictionrecovery #livestreams everyday at 9pmET here on the #soberjames channel. I also host a 24/7 Discord Recovery Chat Room: www.patreon.com/soberjames I've walked in my sleep three times in my life(that I know of) Here's the story of one of them, enjoy!
Never slept walk before but I've had some dark times with some confusion and having some mild hallucinations like seeing little quick light flashes and feeling like bugs crawling on me but I'm currently going on 25 hours off a week bender relapse 😔😔 I been trying to quit for some time now and just started watching your videos and a bunch of others all night cause I couldn't sleep.. I been through about 4 or 5 pretty serious withdrawals before and this one feels a bit weird, cause I have been feeling like I'm detached from myself or the world before yesterday and I never knew how to explain it to some of my friends (they kinda know about my drinking habit) the best way was just telling them I'm feeling stupid and like I don't even exist! .. it's been a battle this past month and half (2020 tbh) and it's not like I have insurance either so I usually just do my home detoxing which works for a week or 2 then I'm right off the wagon again .. been drinking really heavy for the past 5 years and honestly the part where you said about not eating, yeah thats like me, I don't eat when I drink and it's been like that since I basically started to drink heavy.. everytime I make it to a few weeks I overcome the withdrawals (at home) and then I start to feel better and think clearly and just feel better but this year, with everything going on and not being able to find work just tends to make me fall back and that's why I'm a little afraid when hearing all these things with seizures and stuff and how I'm seeing like weird creepy creatures just randomly flashing and I've never hallucinated kinda like this I'm totally aware of everything thats going on and I know it's not really there, totally conscience of it and what I'm doing, but like I can move around and talk (come to think of it, I'm rambling aren't I??) It's just the weird hallucinations and not knowing how to deal with no Benzos to help, if I even need help like that.. I seriously want to quit and have been wanting to for the past year but always fell back, and thanks to actually looking for some help and understanding whats going on and what exactly alcohol does to your brain and just been doing a bunch of research and hearing everyones stories just kinda reassures alot and helps alot so I wanna say thank you because I do NOT want to go through any of the worst possible outcomes like death and things like that or continue to put poison in my god given body! I just want my life back 😪 .. sorry for the long text but it feels good to just let that out right now.. and I really appreciate this being a help for me, I never really started to look up on youtube for any sorta virtual AA classes and methods.. I guess maybe I didn't really wanna quit as much as I said and I really do now!
I had 3 years sober. Relapsed. It's been a gnarly ride. Today I've been up since 2:30am and drinking. I can normally function but I called into work today because I've realized I've neglected what I'm dealing with. I'm scared. I wish I could go to detox again but I don't have insurance. Your story is inspiring if I put myself first and have faith that all can change if I deal with my alcoholism first. I'm writing this with one eye open trying to spell correctly. Wish me luck. I'm calling my support peeps from recovery today. God I hope this changes. I miss chasing my fullest potential. Thank you for being honest in your videos
I'd call someone right now, tell them what you need. In doing this, you'll be passing the problem to a sober head, and also humbling yourself. I can relate to your situation, calling into work, drinking at 2:30 am. I know you're in a dark place. Call your recovery friends, it's the right thing to do, and they've been there too. Hang in there. Also, if going to detox means using a credit card, it's worth it, trust me I've done it. Health first.
Have you guys had any experience with auditory hallucinations like hearing music playing through vents? Or hearing radio stations in the "sky"? I thought I was going insane. Actually I thought I was actually hearing radio frequencies. While I was detoxing. I wrote down the stations I was hearing because after the song I would hear the DJ. And the weird thing was.. After my treatment right before I left. my doctor said he was glad i was doing so well because they were really worried about me. But he said the weird thing was, all of the radio stations I wrote down were actual popular stations in that area. I lived like 4 hours away from there so I wouldn't know.
Yeah. A guy that I was in rehab with said he heard the radio talking to him. For me it wasn't audio. "Just" bugs and tentacles and worms all over, which resulted in me having to take a picture of the BIG spider in my corner just to see if it correlated with what I saw. This was after me spraying imaginary stick bugs with two cans of bug spray plus jumping on them with a dog food bag. I saw one of the bugs here the other day, but now that I've been through it, I understood that I had to just turn my head and sleep a bit more. But! As he says, go to detox. I'm going there in a couple of months.
My DT experience was the most horrifying nightmare that lasted a week in dream time. I honestly think I had a seizure in my sleep. I was paralyzed in bed for awhile and thought I went blind. Then I couldn't walk in a straight line or play my guitar that I play every day. I had a drink and immediately the sweats stopped, I could kinda play my guitar and I didn't think I was going to die. Then I started hearing the music in the walls and seeing people that weren't there in my house. It's terrifying. I tapered with a beer every few hours and it seemed to help. I also didn't want to have a seizure.
This video really helped me I thought I was crazy for so long and never found closure about my experience long story short. I was hammering a nail into a stump in my head for 2 weeks straight and every time I hit the nail I could see my family all around me crying and I was at my own funeral, I was eating random shit off my carpet that I thought was Xanax and could hear trucks idle outside my window I could never explain it that well but I’m so happy that I’m not alone finally some closure and all my questions answered.
GOOD MORNING JAMES...ITS IRISH DEB HERE AGAIN....I TOTALLY AGREE DTS ARE THE SCARIEST THING U WILL EVER GO THROUGH DTS AND SEIZURES ARE TERRIFYING .... THANKS SO MUCH FOR HELPING ME STAY SOBER JAMES....I SLEPT WITH MY VODKA BTL FOR YEARS.. I WAS NEVER WITHOUT DRINK IN MY SYSTEM .... I DONT KNOW HOW I LIVED BUT IM HERE...XXXX PS U LOOK FANTASTIC!!
Apparently the last time I got blackout drunk, I was laughing and talking in my sleep so loudly which woke up everyone in the house. The next morning they asked me about the funny person I was on the phone with all night. Checked my phone history in the AM, wasn’t on the phone with anybody. Lo and behold, I was just experiencing alcohol induced AMS. Scary stuff! Definitely am going to try sticking with sobriety. It seems like I’ve had other instances of alcoholic AMS which seems progresses each and every time I get drunk and makes me worried for my own safety.
After coming back from the hospital after detox, when I got home and tried to sleep. I closed my eyes and saw animals on a pathway or road, and they started to turn into super creepy moving alien like black things from closing my eyes. Was so weird, and when I fall asleep during withdrawal, I have crazy dreams where someone was in my room and would hear them walking loudly or running toward me without seeing them and I would jolt and wakeup. I'm on day 1 and slowely tapered off a beer. I have a feeling I'm going to have crazy nightmares and wake up in cold sweats. Alcoholism sucks...
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Damn. I regret not writing my experience down. I think next time I detox I'm just going to record and keep a journal next to me. I can't even remember most of my hallucinations other than speaking with the devil and him saying he's given up on me. I have also noticed my brain will mix up different songs but in a sick way and I can hear them like you were listening to it from a speaker. Like I really heard this shit. There could be some positive outcome to recording your thoughts. It's like you took a hallucinogen but it's just your brain in shock and trying to repair. Crazy.
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I went through this in hospital I’m 32 now type 1 diabetic after 10 years drinking I had 2 seizures and went into hospital had diazepam all the time I didn’t go to rehab but I haven’t had a drink for 14 months
I slept walked into the backyard one night. I came to, and was like WTF? I couldn't for the life of me figure out why I would've woken up and walked into the middle of the backyard. It was one of the craziest experiences Ive had.
Yeah it's trippy. I've had theories involving elevation changes and stuff, but it always involved alcohol. If it's community you seek, I'm streaming live every day at noon and 9pmEST(see my home page for upcoming streams) and all past streams are available in my live stream playlist: ua-cam.com/play/PL4fufFjMk_prbKWBVuGoiRLayLO4d9D_l.html I also host a 24/7 Discord Recovery Chat room and weekly Zoom meetings here: www.patreon.com/soberjames
I’ve been detoxed over 20 times, I’ve had seizures, delirium tremens. I can’t do it on my own, I have finally realized I’m powerless. Someone else has to help me.
The altered mental state is very real i thaught someone was trying to break into my ward and accusing me of stealing like 30 grand off a nurse cameras in the machines so I pushed them all out of my room and took out my iv
When the alcohol withdrawal happened to me about six months ago, I dreamed that I was going home, and then when I got up I was half asleep and went home like the dream time
I'm 37 years old, I am a daily drinker. I am currently on Naltrexone for alcoholism. I find myself still drinking daily, its only helped a tiny bit from week to week if I get lucky, I may have 1 or 2 dry days a week on Naltrexone, doesn't seem like much of an improvement. I have had previous concussions in my life, and I have had a couple of seizures in the past 18 years. I have struggled with alcoholism literally for 20 years since I was 17 years old. I have had EEG and MRI scans in the past 10 years, and everything is normal, doctor clearly suggested alcohol withdrawal in which I believe is true. you mentioned the end of alcoholism is desperation, I think my situation has come to that. In the past 8 months I have now had 7 seizures!! literally every few weeks, as combined with more multiple head injuries, that now maybe causing more seizures as a result. I had a seizure while I was driving last week, luckily no one was hurt, i did not hit anyone. But the police believed I was under the influence of drugs, and they did not even let the ambulance take me, I had postictal combativeness when i came out of the seizure and had apparently "kicked" the officer, as to which I hardly remember I was very disorientated. They are charging me with assault on a peace officer and driving under the influence, in which they have no proof! no breathylzer was taken because I was not impaired or on drugs! I have to wait 6-8 months for my toxicology result to come back (they took my blood). I need support and other people's perspective on this situation. And prayers
Probably a bit late but here is my story. Unfortunately I fell into 5-day binge during holidays, some years ago, and trust me I didn't know anything about withdrawals... So I did it, hanging out with friends, drinking all day and night since I woke up to sunrise, barely sleeping or eating properly. I remember after 4 days of that I had a dream which I thought it was real and I felt totally terrified. I thought I did things I didn't, so I was basically confabulating, which is a thing that can happen after or during alcohol abuse. I asked my friends about the things I thought were real and they were looking surprised at me saying that none of that happened. I felt I was going crazy. All I had on my system was alcohol and that can make your brain go nuts, basically. Some years later did the same, and it got worse, but that's another story. In a quick note, alcohol can be okay in small doses but if you can't control it it's just better to avoid it altogether. Cheers and thanks for the video.
Sounds freaky. Alcohol in any dose is NOT okay for the alcoholic, proven as fact by the immense collective experience of alcoholics. One drink is too many and 30 is not enough.
@@SoberJames Thank you so much for the reply. I can relate to a lot of things, the only difference is I didn't drink daily, I basically only binged at weekends or parties but I guess that doesn't sort me out of the alcoholic group. The feeling of wanting always more, the last to leave the party... makes me wonder. And I had really sad episodes of drinking that could have gone way worse and so much more I could say... Cheers!
It’s a spectrum, alcoholism. One of the key indicators is “a phenomenon of craving” that happens after any amount of alcohol. Another is the progressive nature of the disease, the consequences get worse, the ammount we drink increases. Sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.
I recognise what's being siad. I was drinking a lot about 1.5 liters of vodka a day but when I start drinking a lot more than 1.5 liters of vodka things go funny I could drink 2 .5 liters a day but I lost count. at night if sleeping I would wake up every 2 hours drink a good double double vodka go back to sleep then again so I probably did that 4 times of so during the night. I would try to limit my drinking but I was still drinking 2.5 liters ish a day and my head goes funny people say I ramble I have been sectioned under the mental health act then I start having seizure I don't know I have them I only knew when my alcohol worker come to my house in the morning and I had 2 infront of her and I was rushed to hospital a few times, then I had a detox while in hospital with in a few hours I was shaking being sick I couldn't hold a cup because of the shakes even with very high doses of librium, and around 2 days in the hallucinations started I had had delirium tremans before but its still very scary the things I saw and did blow my mind in one day I messed my self 4 times I didn't sleep for 8 days it was hell on earth I didn't know where I was then I got covid while in hospital around day 8 or so and my confusion was out of this world I was talking to things that were not there .I've had 4 detoxes 2 in hospital 1 while sectioned and 1 in rehab I got delirium tremans in all 4 not all to same degree, alcohol is frightening I've been addicted to heroin and alcohol is as bad but worse in some ways it can get a hold of you so bad
@@SoberJames yeah I'm not an expert but I think it's worse for your body than heroin I suppose it's how you take it .while I was in hospital I'm from the uk there was a guy across from me he was yellow he couldn't talk very well he had I forgot the name a pipe in his penis for his urine he was not knowing what was going on and he was trying to pull it out ,it was alcohol that did it to him sadly he didn't make it .I thought I didn't care even when they told me I had liver disease I thought fuck it my life's fucked up I don't care if I die but seeing that man suffer in hospital I thought I don't want to die like that it shocked me ,I'm lucky to be alive with the heroin then alcohol lost a lot of friends now I'm more determined not to drink I just go to AA and work and take a day at a time
Dehydration...you need water you can't survive on drink only alcohol I don't shame you do with your life what you want to do just don't forget to drink water and don't overdrink water but DTS are hard to go through that's why alcoholics with cirrhosis can't stop drinking....
I can't do self-diagnosis but I think I had DTs on April 2019 and this week. Started drinking expensive beers everyday, it started to progress, I started to drink these expensive beers before worktime and when the money ended, traded to hard liquor. Lost my job as they found it and then did a "self-detox" at home back then. Thought it had the worse as I literally felt like bugs were eating my body. I undestand there was no actual bugs, but I couldn't run the feeling they were. Thought I was cured of alcoholism but I had a huge relapse last week and I was drinking, passing out, woking up, drinking. I think I drank about 1,5 liters of cheap-crackhead esque Brazilian spirit (cachaça) per day Now I stopped but it's been the worst so far now. I have a little bit of alcohol to drink every hour but I'm still suffering. Body odor started to smell like alcohol and it's grossing me out. But it's getting better. Also my mind is totaly a void. Can't remember a thing it happened recently. I hate alcohol. It ruined my life and my family's. There was once a time I was coming back from work on a bus and I was brownbagging Thought I had it controlled but I woke up on a hospital, tied and wearing diapers. I still don't really know what happened that night, but involved firefighters being called and I lost my prescription glasses. Also all of the concusions I woke up with that I just don't remember. I think they were all fights. When I'm sober, I'm a shy, quiet person. But if I'm hammered, I become violent and angry. I tried doing the "social drinking" but now I know I can't start because I have a disease called alcoholism. If I start, I don't know where to end.
After some days I just woke up one day and I screamed my dad that I couldn't get up. I couldn't move. He brought me some chocolate milk with lots of sugar, I slept and woke up better but went straight to drinking again.
Still going strong. I had two seizures about a week ago, went to the ER and they gave me two shots, one of diazepam and one of promethazine. The next day I went to a neurologist and told her everything, that I was going through alcohol withdrawal, that I haven't slept for 3 days because I was taking care of my soon-to-die dog, and that I wasn't eating well enough. She prescribed me diazepam, which is a benzo, even though I said I had problems with alcoholism. I told my mum to hide it and only give me the daily dose because I can't trust myself with that amount of benzos.
The DTs I did a self diagnostic a couple of weeks ago seems to be over now. They were the worst I had because I never had seizures until last time I was really scared of going to the ER because of Covid and I live with my parents, which are seniors But my mum insisted on going, like I said I've been on Valium since then and I'm seeing things a little better, like, my soon-to-die dog doesn't affect me as much as it did when I was sober or even lit off alcohol I'm starting to come in terms with she dying Even thought I'll lose one of the few friends I have I don't know if it's today, tomorrow, next week or next month But I can definitely see on her face she's tired She's almost 19 I had her since I was 6 or 7 She's suffering too much and I don't wanna see her suffering on this Earth just to make company to a shithead like me I don't deserve it She's too pure for living because of a cunt like me I'm trying to get sober out of alcohol but I think it's easy when you have a Valium prescription
You got a trauma from your alcohol withdraw. It just means that you're fully detoxed and the alcohol is out of your system a long time ago, but the wd's were that disturbing to you that it scratched deeply in your memorial brain function
Started to hallucinate after 24h at first it was things like the lion king , Morgan Freeman, I could hear music from the kitchen. At first it was almost fascinating but things got worst. People would appear in front of me with a soundeffect just like in horror movies and disappear. Few hours went by my hallucinations stopped. Went to a AA with a friend and boom it all started again it was glitching in front of me if I stared at something it would transform into small spiders ppl were i could hear a bipbipbipbipbip sound and ppl laughing at me I was so scared ppl taught I was on drugs my eyes were so dilated ... When I left the AA I told myfriend why are these people staring at us? He said Alex no1s there and they disapeared just like a crowd on fast forward and then my reality was like the movie Inception with Léonardo DiCaprio everything was changing form I taught I was drugged I saw dead babies snakes witches people appearing in my car . The worst part was that I had to do a 1h30min drive and it felt like it was 4hours I thought I would get pull over by cops. I arrived at my gfs place I was hallucinating a dude cooking a lasagna with his grandma .
I could write a book on this also! But to get to DT's you got to drink for years and years. Like steady, everyday or passout drunk for 15 plus years. Dont let this scare you if you drank for years or inhibit you from stopping alcohol. Fear of these things is why most dont try to stop but the science is there and if you do good research one should go into stopping drinking with some good info and not scare techniques. In my research and others fears of the unkown causes apprehensions to stopping. Stop drinking and be prepared to do it and commit. depending on the years u drink affects the severity of your withdrawls and how long they last. After that....its like getting over a messed up flu. Like the worst u ever had. After that (Few days to 2 weeks) its all a mind game. 90% of getting over alcohol is mental. Its the 10% (Going through withdrawls) that scares people...lmao! get past that part and have at it cause that where the real strength comes into play. At the end of the day..u did this to urself! You got to get out of this on ur own cause no one else can except you. Do it or be forced to do it from a car crash, nervous breakdown, jail or many other ways. Do it on ur own terms or have it impossed! You decide!!!
@@SoberJames Go to detox or if you cant or dont want to then do it on ur own or with people you trust. Its never a bad idea to let your doctor know either. I am not a fan of AA nor taking a drug to get off another drug but would happily defend and support ANYONE if thats what they wanted or felt best doing. Theres alot of numbers that sway here and there but in my studies and experience nothing wrong with cold Turkey (I did). I can literally write a book on this subject but the thing that amazes me is that no drunk was scared when they did stupid things that endangered their own life or worse....OTHERS LIVES!! werent worried about seizures, werent worried about nothing till the end. ALl I can say the earlier you commit and stop the better for you. Stop now and you dont have to imagine going into withdrawls from a jail cell or way worse scenarios. If you are Able bodied...stop ASAP!! If you dont think you have a problem then dont drink for a year/ If you think even remotley that you have a problem....MOST LIKELY YOU DO have a drinking problem. Fix it....Do it on your own terms whatever it maybe or whats at hand. Waiting isnt an option cause the more time you drink the worse the nightmare will be.
True, there is USUALLY nothing wrong with cold turkey. For the "problem drinker" or "heavy binge drinker," just bearing a three day hangover will USUALLY work. However, and I say this with two decades of personal experience, it can be FATAL for the chronic alcoholic to quit cold turkey. Safe and smart move: medical detox then rehab. Thanks for sharing nzcable, keep coming back 👍
@@SoberJames Delete this if you feel its not good but hear me out ..if you may. When a person says they got 20 years of drinking stupidity does not give them any more wisdom than the person who did heavy drinking for 5 years. I never understood that nor apply it to talking or dealing with other problem drinkers. It has no bearing or experience. Its kinda like argueing who is stupider. LOL...not a good arguement to be in. If thats the case im a moron...30 plus years of heavy heavy daily drinking. Thats probably most or all your years in age. With that said...it gives me no more credibility of alcohol wisdom. Hospital visits only gives you reflective perspectives of alcohol damage. Hospitals, rehab, blah blah blah is more of a.."If this...then that happens". Conditional statements. And as far as Statistics and rehab industry...fear is a big marketing target to promote and advertise too. Not that there is no truth in it cause there is some. Example - If you get a splinter in ur hand you should go to the doctor. Its sound advice as we can turn a splinter on paper to potentialy get blood poisoning or gangrene. The numbers are there to support that very splinter. Fear is the #1 reason people dont try to stop drinking. The fear of seizures, hallucinations, etc! Which is very very rare. Most that go into DT's die from heart heart aneurysm and respiratory failure. Most and i mean MOST have a medical history related to these. There are more conditions like Ketosis of organs and liver damage and all are prior medical problems like history of seizures or prior concussions. Alcohol can just be the "Straw that broke the camels back". Kind of like that splinter I was talking about! I can go into the numbers of actual %'s that are medical and board examined that are not paid for or impartial to the rehab industry. Not bashing the rehab industry as they work and i am all about getting that work done. Just dont like the scare techniques and them being passed on as valid knowledge because one went through hell and medical experience. TBH...if it scared ya to not drink...im good with it. But I dont think one should pass on bad info based on their experiences. To me its kinda like when a person says they know all about marriage cause they been divorced 3 times. I say that person doesnt know crap about marriage cause they been divorced 3 times. i would rather take advice from the person who has been married 40 years and never been divorced. Thats the way I see it and to me its relevant to good info being passed on to people who do need help with alcohol or whatever else. Feel free to delete this as I know its not PC to discuss anything anymore in or on social media that might go against the OP or creator.
I hear you, but respectfully, I have different opinions. If it weren't for the direct experience, strength, and hope shared with me from other addict/alcoholics that had survived to get sober, I wouldn't have known how to do it. I was powerless, without a power greater than myself, which ended up being the guidance of the 80 year old collection of experience that is Alcoholics Anonymous. Read the comments. Many people here have found my shared experience extremely relatable and helpful. AA is based on the shared commom experiences between the sober and the afflicted. 80 years of effectiveness, the pudding is the proof Also, fear of DT's and withdrawal is a very tiny insignificant reason that RARELY, if ever, comes up in conversations about why people didn't stop drinking. Alcoholism is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit, that destroys all three AND things like social competence, financial security...the list goes on. I find it hard to believe you are an alcoholic, simply because you think one can "just stop drinking." I got one question for you. If it's as simple as "just stopping," why do millions of alcoholics drink until they're dead, locked up, or insane? Your insistence that your opinion is the only way, is irresponsible and dangerous. Luckily, anyone who's experienced the powerlessness of alcoholism knows what is valid, and what is not. I appreciate you sharing your opinion, but disagree with your aggressive, "I'm right you're wrong," attitude.
I hate drinking, and yet I am reliant on it. I am a harcore combat veteran and retired police officer. I don't drink like I used to, and don't get drunk anymore. But if I DON'T drink, I am on the verge of going to the ER for "death", lol. Fucking help me!
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Please, the satire and humor needs to be removed from addiction and withdrawal stories. People need to hear the raw truth, no entertainment whoa's for your channel!
I've had hallucinations in a woke state. Saw bugs and tentacles on the walls and floor. Went i went to the ER i saw a movie in the ceiling. Later i saw a snake flying around the room. But I've also have had some "live" dreams. I was sure there was a party going in the room, but I was just sleeping in my mother's basement.
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I've walked in my sleep three times in my life(that I know of) Here's the story of one of them, enjoy!
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Never slept walk before but I've had some dark times with some confusion and having some mild hallucinations like seeing little quick light flashes and feeling like bugs crawling on me but I'm currently going on 25 hours off a week bender relapse 😔😔 I been trying to quit for some time now and just started watching your videos and a bunch of others all night cause I couldn't sleep.. I been through about 4 or 5 pretty serious withdrawals before and this one feels a bit weird, cause I have been feeling like I'm detached from myself or the world before yesterday and I never knew how to explain it to some of my friends (they kinda know about my drinking habit) the best way was just telling them I'm feeling stupid and like I don't even exist! .. it's been a battle this past month and half (2020 tbh) and it's not like I have insurance either so I usually just do my home detoxing which works for a week or 2 then I'm right off the wagon again .. been drinking really heavy for the past 5 years and honestly the part where you said about not eating, yeah thats like me, I don't eat when I drink and it's been like that since I basically started to drink heavy.. everytime I make it to a few weeks I overcome the withdrawals (at home) and then I start to feel better and think clearly and just feel better but this year, with everything going on and not being able to find work just tends to make me fall back and that's why I'm a little afraid when hearing all these things with seizures and stuff and how I'm seeing like weird creepy creatures just randomly flashing and I've never hallucinated kinda like this I'm totally aware of everything thats going on and I know it's not really there, totally conscience of it and what I'm doing, but like I can move around and talk (come to think of it, I'm rambling aren't I??) It's just the weird hallucinations and not knowing how to deal with no Benzos to help, if I even need help like that.. I seriously want to quit and have been wanting to for the past year but always fell back, and thanks to actually looking for some help and understanding whats going on and what exactly alcohol does to your brain and just been doing a bunch of research and hearing everyones stories just kinda reassures alot and helps alot so I wanna say thank you because I do NOT want to go through any of the worst possible outcomes like death and things like that or continue to put poison in my god given body! I just want my life back 😪 .. sorry for the long text but it feels good to just let that out right now.. and I really appreciate this being a help for me, I never really started to look up on youtube for any sorta virtual AA classes and methods.. I guess maybe I didn't really wanna quit as much as I said and I really do now!
Hang in there
I had 3 years sober. Relapsed. It's been a gnarly ride. Today I've been up since 2:30am and drinking. I can normally function but I called into work today because I've realized I've neglected what I'm dealing with. I'm scared. I wish I could go to detox again but I don't have insurance. Your story is inspiring if I put myself first and have faith that all can change if I deal with my alcoholism first. I'm writing this with one eye open trying to spell correctly. Wish me luck. I'm calling my support peeps from recovery today. God I hope this changes. I miss chasing my fullest potential. Thank you for being honest in your videos
I'd call someone right now, tell them what you need. In doing this, you'll be passing the problem to a sober head, and also humbling yourself.
I can relate to your situation, calling into work, drinking at 2:30 am. I know you're in a dark place. Call your recovery friends, it's the right thing to do, and they've been there too. Hang in there. Also, if going to detox means using a credit card, it's worth it, trust me I've done it. Health first.
I hope you’re doing better, Christian.🖖
Have you guys had any experience with auditory hallucinations like hearing music playing through vents? Or hearing radio stations in the "sky"? I thought I was going insane. Actually I thought I was actually hearing radio frequencies. While I was detoxing.
I wrote down the stations I was hearing because after the song I would hear the DJ. And the weird thing was.. After my treatment right before I left. my doctor said he was glad i was doing so well because they were really worried about me. But he said the weird thing was, all of the radio stations I wrote down were actual popular stations in that area. I lived like 4 hours away from there so I wouldn't know.
I used to hear that song from shawshank playing over and over
Yeah. A guy that I was in rehab with said he heard the radio talking to him. For me it wasn't audio. "Just" bugs and tentacles and worms all over, which resulted in me having to take a picture of the BIG spider in my corner just to see if it correlated with what I saw. This was after me spraying imaginary stick bugs with two cans of bug spray plus jumping on them with a dog food bag. I saw one of the bugs here the other day, but now that I've been through it, I understood that I had to just turn my head and sleep a bit more.
But! As he says, go to detox. I'm going there in a couple of months.
My DT experience was the most horrifying nightmare that lasted a week in dream time. I honestly think I had a seizure in my sleep. I was paralyzed in bed for awhile and thought I went blind. Then I couldn't walk in a straight line or play my guitar that I play every day. I had a drink and immediately the sweats stopped, I could kinda play my guitar and I didn't think I was going to die. Then I started hearing the music in the walls and seeing people that weren't there in my house.
It's terrifying. I tapered with a beer every few hours and it seemed to help. I also didn't want to have a seizure.
This video really helped me I thought I was crazy for so long and never found closure about my experience long story short. I was hammering a nail into a stump in my head for 2 weeks straight and every time I hit the nail I could see my family all around me crying and I was at my own funeral, I was eating random shit off my carpet that I thought was Xanax and could hear trucks idle outside my window I could never explain it that well but I’m so happy that I’m not alone finally some closure and all my questions answered.
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Thanks for sharing Jordan!
GOOD MORNING JAMES...ITS IRISH DEB HERE AGAIN....I TOTALLY AGREE DTS ARE THE SCARIEST THING U WILL EVER GO THROUGH DTS AND SEIZURES ARE TERRIFYING .... THANKS SO MUCH FOR HELPING ME STAY SOBER JAMES....I SLEPT WITH MY VODKA BTL FOR YEARS.. I WAS NEVER WITHOUT DRINK IN MY SYSTEM .... I DONT KNOW HOW I LIVED BUT IM HERE...XXXX PS U LOOK FANTASTIC!!
Lol thanks Irish Deb! Sobriety has been good to me, as it sure is to you ❤
Apparently the last time I got blackout drunk, I was laughing and talking in my sleep so loudly which woke up everyone in the house. The next morning they asked me about the funny person I was on the phone with all night. Checked my phone history in the AM, wasn’t on the phone with anybody. Lo and behold, I was just experiencing alcohol induced AMS. Scary stuff! Definitely am going to try sticking with sobriety. It seems like I’ve had other instances of alcoholic AMS which seems progresses each and every time I get drunk and makes me worried for my own safety.
After coming back from the hospital after detox, when I got home and tried to sleep. I closed my eyes and saw animals on a pathway or road, and they started to turn into super creepy moving alien like black things from closing my eyes.
Was so weird, and when I fall asleep during withdrawal, I have crazy dreams where someone was in my room and would hear them walking loudly or running toward me without seeing them and I would jolt and wakeup.
I'm on day 1 and slowely tapered off a beer.
I have a feeling I'm going to have crazy nightmares and wake up in cold sweats.
Alcoholism sucks...
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Damn. I regret not writing my experience down. I think next time I detox I'm just going to record and keep a journal next to me. I can't even remember most of my hallucinations other than speaking with the devil and him saying he's given up on me.
I have also noticed my brain will mix up different songs but in a sick way and I can hear them like you were listening to it from a speaker. Like I really heard this shit.
There could be some positive outcome to recording your thoughts. It's like you took a hallucinogen but it's just your brain in shock and trying to repair. Crazy.
@@kane00000 Yup, alcohol really messes up your brain, I'm 9 month and 15 days sober now, and no looking back.
@@christinatourangeau3895 heck yeah!
Hell yeah
Yes, been there done that! Thanks for sharing your story.
Weird huh? I didn't bore you before you got to the actual story part? Just curious
Of course not it’s informative. You’re doing awesome job❤️
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I went through this in hospital I’m 32 now type 1 diabetic after 10 years drinking I had 2 seizures and went into hospital had diazepam all the time I didn’t go to rehab but I haven’t had a drink for 14 months
I slept walked into the backyard one night. I came to, and was like WTF? I couldn't for the life of me figure out why I would've woken up and walked into the middle of the backyard. It was one of the craziest experiences Ive had.
Yeah it's trippy. I've had theories involving elevation changes and stuff, but it always involved alcohol.
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I’ve been detoxed over 20 times, I’ve had seizures, delirium tremens. I can’t do it on my own, I have finally realized I’m powerless. Someone else has to help me.
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The altered mental state is very real i thaught someone was trying to break into my ward and accusing me of stealing like 30 grand off a nurse cameras in the machines so I pushed them all out of my room and took out my iv
When the alcohol withdrawal happened to me about six months ago, I dreamed that I was going home, and then when I got up I was half asleep and went home like the dream time
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I'm 37 years old, I am a daily drinker. I am currently on Naltrexone for alcoholism. I find myself still drinking daily, its only helped a tiny bit from week to week if I get lucky, I may have 1 or 2 dry days a week on Naltrexone, doesn't seem like much of an improvement. I have had previous concussions in my life, and I have had a couple of seizures in the past 18 years. I have struggled with alcoholism literally for 20 years since I was 17 years old. I have had EEG and MRI scans in the past 10 years, and everything is normal, doctor clearly suggested alcohol withdrawal in which I believe is true. you mentioned the end of alcoholism is desperation, I think my situation has come to that. In the past 8 months I have now had 7 seizures!! literally every few weeks, as combined with more multiple head injuries, that now maybe causing more seizures as a result. I had a seizure while I was driving last week, luckily no one was hurt, i did not hit anyone. But the police believed I was under the influence of drugs, and they did not even let the ambulance take me, I had postictal combativeness when i came out of the seizure and had apparently "kicked" the officer, as to which I hardly remember I was very disorientated. They are charging me with assault on a peace officer and driving under the influence, in which they have no proof! no breathylzer was taken because I was not impaired or on drugs! I have to wait 6-8 months for my toxicology result to come back (they took my blood). I need support and other people's perspective on this situation. And prayers
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Probably a bit late but here is my story. Unfortunately I fell into 5-day binge during holidays, some years ago, and trust me I didn't know anything about withdrawals... So I did it, hanging out with friends, drinking all day and night since I woke up to sunrise, barely sleeping or eating properly. I remember after 4 days of that I had a dream which I thought it was real and I felt totally terrified. I thought I did things I didn't, so I was basically confabulating, which is a thing that can happen after or during alcohol abuse. I asked my friends about the things I thought were real and they were looking surprised at me saying that none of that happened. I felt I was going crazy. All I had on my system was alcohol and that can make your brain go nuts, basically. Some years later did the same, and it got worse, but that's another story.
In a quick note, alcohol can be okay in small doses but if you can't control it it's just better to avoid it altogether. Cheers and thanks for the video.
Sounds freaky. Alcohol in any dose is NOT okay for the alcoholic, proven as fact by the immense collective experience of alcoholics. One drink is too many and 30 is not enough.
@@SoberJames Thank you so much for the reply. I can relate to a lot of things, the only difference is I didn't drink daily, I basically only binged at weekends or parties but I guess that doesn't sort me out of the alcoholic group. The feeling of wanting always more, the last to leave the party... makes me wonder. And I had really sad episodes of drinking that could have gone way worse and so much more I could say... Cheers!
It’s a spectrum, alcoholism. One of the key indicators is “a phenomenon of craving” that happens after any amount of alcohol. Another is the progressive nature of the disease, the consequences get worse, the ammount we drink increases. Sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.
I recognise what's being siad. I was drinking a lot about 1.5 liters of vodka a day but when I start drinking a lot more than 1.5 liters of vodka things go funny I could drink 2 .5 liters a day but I lost count. at night if sleeping I would wake up every 2 hours drink a good double double vodka go back to sleep then again so I probably did that 4 times of so during the night. I would try to limit my drinking but I was still drinking 2.5 liters ish a day and my head goes funny people say I ramble I have been sectioned under the mental health act then I start having seizure I don't know I have them I only knew when my alcohol worker come to my house in the morning and I had 2 infront of her and I was rushed to hospital a few times, then I had a detox while in hospital with in a few hours I was shaking being sick I couldn't hold a cup because of the shakes even with very high doses of librium, and around 2 days in the hallucinations started I had had delirium tremans before but its still very scary the things I saw and did blow my mind in one day I messed my self 4 times I didn't sleep for 8 days it was hell on earth I didn't know where I was then I got covid while in hospital around day 8 or so and my confusion was out of this world I was talking to things that were not there .I've had 4 detoxes 2 in hospital 1 while sectioned and 1 in rehab I got delirium tremans in all 4 not all to same degree, alcohol is frightening I've been addicted to heroin and alcohol is as bad but worse in some ways it can get a hold of you so bad
Intense, Fubar. More evidence that alcohol is the most destructive drug on earth.
@@SoberJames yeah I'm not an expert but I think it's worse for your body than heroin I suppose it's how you take it .while I was in hospital I'm from the uk there was a guy across from me he was yellow he couldn't talk very well he had I forgot the name a pipe in his penis for his urine he was not knowing what was going on and he was trying to pull it out ,it was alcohol that did it to him sadly he didn't make it .I thought I didn't care even when they told me I had liver disease I thought fuck it my life's fucked up I don't care if I die but seeing that man suffer in hospital I thought I don't want to die like that it shocked me ,I'm lucky to be alive with the heroin then alcohol lost a lot of friends now I'm more determined not to drink I just go to AA and work and take a day at a time
I went to Fallon. I was in VA beach too. Vfa 131 and an alcoholic
I was your sister squadron. 136 Knighthawks
Encephalopathy, that's also the E in CTE chronic traumatic en-sef-al-opathy
I had a dt's patient once that saw rats everywhere with corn cobs in their mouths
Dehydration...you need water you can't survive on drink only alcohol I don't shame you do with your life what you want to do just don't forget to drink water and don't overdrink water but DTS are hard to go through that's why alcoholics with cirrhosis can't stop drinking....
Isn't it nuts how we remember what we did, but can't control it when it's happening 😵
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I can't do self-diagnosis but I think I had DTs on April 2019 and this week. Started drinking expensive beers everyday, it started to progress, I started to drink these expensive beers before worktime and when the money ended, traded to hard liquor. Lost my job as they found it and then did a "self-detox" at home back then. Thought it had the worse as I literally felt like bugs were eating my body. I undestand there was no actual bugs, but I couldn't run the feeling they were. Thought I was cured of alcoholism but I had a huge relapse last week and I was drinking, passing out, woking up, drinking. I think I drank about 1,5 liters of cheap-crackhead esque Brazilian spirit (cachaça) per day
Now I stopped but it's been the worst so far now. I have a little bit of alcohol to drink every hour but I'm still suffering. Body odor started to smell like alcohol and it's grossing me out. But it's getting better. Also my mind is totaly a void. Can't remember a thing it happened recently. I hate alcohol. It ruined my life and my family's.
There was once a time I was coming back from work on a bus and I was brownbagging
Thought I had it controlled but I woke up on a hospital, tied and wearing diapers. I still don't really know what happened that night, but involved firefighters being called and I lost my prescription glasses.
Also all of the concusions I woke up with that I just don't remember.
I think they were all fights.
When I'm sober, I'm a shy, quiet person. But if I'm hammered, I become violent and angry.
I tried doing the "social drinking" but now I know I can't start because I have a disease called alcoholism. If I start, I don't know where to end.
After some days I just woke up one day and I screamed my dad that I couldn't get up. I couldn't move. He brought me some chocolate milk with lots of sugar, I slept and woke up better but went straight to drinking again.
Thanks for sharing.
Still going strong. I had two seizures about a week ago, went to the ER and they gave me two shots, one of diazepam and one of promethazine. The next day I went to a neurologist and told her everything, that I was going through alcohol withdrawal, that I haven't slept for 3 days because I was taking care of my soon-to-die dog, and that I wasn't eating well enough. She prescribed me diazepam, which is a benzo, even though I said I had problems with alcoholism. I told my mum to hide it and only give me the daily dose because I can't trust myself with that amount of benzos.
The DTs I did a self diagnostic a couple of weeks ago seems to be over now. They were the worst I had because I never had seizures until last time
I was really scared of going to the ER because of Covid and I live with my parents, which are seniors
But my mum insisted on going, like I said
I've been on Valium since then and I'm seeing things a little better, like, my soon-to-die dog doesn't affect me as much as it did when I was sober or even lit off alcohol
I'm starting to come in terms with she dying
Even thought I'll lose one of the few friends I have
I don't know if it's today, tomorrow, next week or next month
But I can definitely see on her face she's tired
She's almost 19
I had her since I was 6 or 7
She's suffering too much and I don't wanna see her suffering on this Earth just to make company to a shithead like me
I don't deserve it
She's too pure for living because of a cunt like me
I'm trying to get sober out of alcohol but I think it's easy when you have a Valium prescription
Losing a friend, especially a dog friend, is hard. Just don’t drink.
“Pain is inevitable, misery is optional.”
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I still have dreams about my dts' like that i'm experiencing them in my dreams
its so weird, I would never expect people to believe me.
You got a trauma from your alcohol withdraw. It just means that you're fully detoxed and the alcohol is out of your system a long time ago, but the wd's were that disturbing to you that it scratched deeply in your memorial brain function
I believe you @rofflesufunny
Started to hallucinate after 24h at first it was things like the lion king , Morgan Freeman, I could hear music from the kitchen. At first it was almost fascinating but things got worst. People would appear in front of me with a soundeffect just like in horror movies and disappear. Few hours went by my hallucinations stopped. Went to a AA with a friend and boom it all started again it was glitching in front of me if I stared at something it would transform into small spiders ppl were i could hear a bipbipbipbipbip sound and ppl laughing at me I was so scared ppl taught I was on drugs my eyes were so dilated ... When I left the AA I told myfriend why are these people staring at us? He said Alex no1s there and they disapeared just like a crowd on fast forward and then my reality was like the movie Inception with Léonardo DiCaprio everything was changing form I taught I was drugged I saw dead babies snakes witches people appearing in my car . The worst part was that I had to do a 1h30min drive and it felt like it was 4hours I thought I would get pull over by cops. I arrived at my gfs place I was hallucinating a dude cooking a lasagna with his grandma .
I could write a book on this also! But to get to DT's you got to drink for years and years. Like steady, everyday or passout drunk for 15 plus years. Dont let this scare you if you drank for years or inhibit you from stopping alcohol. Fear of these things is why most dont try to stop but the science is there and if you do good research one should go into stopping drinking with some good info and not scare techniques. In my research and others fears of the unkown causes apprehensions to stopping. Stop drinking and be prepared to do it and commit. depending on the years u drink affects the severity of your withdrawls and how long they last. After that....its like getting over a messed up flu. Like the worst u ever had. After that (Few days to 2 weeks) its all a mind game. 90% of getting over alcohol is mental. Its the 10% (Going through withdrawls) that scares people...lmao! get past that part and have at it cause that where the real strength comes into play. At the end of the day..u did this to urself! You got to get out of this on ur own cause no one else can except you. Do it or be forced to do it from a car crash, nervous breakdown, jail or many other ways. Do it on ur own terms or have it impossed! You decide!!!
Right...or just go to detox.
@@SoberJames Go to detox or if you cant or dont want to then do it on ur own or with people you trust. Its never a bad idea to let your doctor know either. I am not a fan of AA nor taking a drug to get off another drug but would happily defend and support ANYONE if thats what they wanted or felt best doing. Theres alot of numbers that sway here and there but in my studies and experience nothing wrong with cold Turkey (I did). I can literally write a book on this subject but the thing that amazes me is that no drunk was scared when they did stupid things that endangered their own life or worse....OTHERS LIVES!! werent worried about seizures, werent worried about nothing till the end. ALl I can say the earlier you commit and stop the better for you. Stop now and you dont have to imagine going into withdrawls from a jail cell or way worse scenarios. If you are Able bodied...stop ASAP!! If you dont think you have a problem then dont drink for a year/ If you think even remotley that you have a problem....MOST LIKELY YOU DO have a drinking problem. Fix it....Do it on your own terms whatever it maybe or whats at hand. Waiting isnt an option cause the more time you drink the worse the nightmare will be.
True, there is USUALLY nothing wrong with cold turkey. For the "problem drinker" or "heavy binge drinker," just bearing a three day hangover will USUALLY work.
However, and I say this with two decades of personal experience, it can be FATAL for the chronic alcoholic to quit cold turkey. Safe and smart move: medical detox then rehab.
Thanks for sharing nzcable, keep coming back 👍
@@SoberJames Delete this if you feel its not good but hear me out ..if you may. When a person says they got 20 years of drinking stupidity does not give them any more wisdom than the person who did heavy drinking for 5 years. I never understood that nor apply it to talking or dealing with other problem drinkers. It has no bearing or experience. Its kinda like argueing who is stupider. LOL...not a good arguement to be in. If thats the case im a moron...30 plus years of heavy heavy daily drinking. Thats probably most or all your years in age. With that said...it gives me no more credibility of alcohol wisdom. Hospital visits only gives you reflective perspectives of alcohol damage. Hospitals, rehab, blah blah blah is more of a.."If this...then that happens". Conditional statements. And as far as Statistics and rehab industry...fear is a big marketing target to promote and advertise too. Not that there is no truth in it cause there is some. Example - If you get a splinter in ur hand you should go to the doctor. Its sound advice as we can turn a splinter on paper to potentialy get blood poisoning or gangrene. The numbers are there to support that very splinter. Fear is the #1 reason people dont try to stop drinking. The fear of seizures, hallucinations, etc! Which is very very rare. Most that go into DT's die from heart heart aneurysm and respiratory failure. Most and i mean MOST have a medical history related to these. There are more conditions like Ketosis of organs and liver damage and all are prior medical problems like history of seizures or prior concussions. Alcohol can just be the "Straw that broke the camels back". Kind of like that splinter I was talking about! I can go into the numbers of actual %'s that are medical and board examined that are not paid for or impartial to the rehab industry. Not bashing the rehab industry as they work and i am all about getting that work done. Just dont like the scare techniques and them being passed on as valid knowledge because one went through hell and medical experience. TBH...if it scared ya to not drink...im good with it. But I dont think one should pass on bad info based on their experiences. To me its kinda like when a person says they know all about marriage cause they been divorced 3 times. I say that person doesnt know crap about marriage cause they been divorced 3 times. i would rather take advice from the person who has been married 40 years and never been divorced. Thats the way I see it and to me its relevant to good info being passed on to people who do need help with alcohol or whatever else. Feel free to delete this as I know its not PC to discuss anything anymore in or on social media that might go against the OP or creator.
I hear you, but respectfully, I have different opinions. If it weren't for the direct experience, strength, and hope shared with me from other addict/alcoholics that had survived to get sober, I wouldn't have known how to do it. I was powerless, without a power greater than myself, which ended up being the guidance of the 80 year old collection of experience that is Alcoholics Anonymous.
Read the comments. Many people here have found my shared experience extremely relatable and helpful. AA is based on the shared commom experiences between the sober and the afflicted. 80 years of effectiveness, the pudding is the proof
Also, fear of DT's and withdrawal is a very tiny insignificant reason that RARELY, if ever, comes up in conversations about why people didn't stop drinking. Alcoholism is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit, that destroys all three AND things like social competence, financial security...the list goes on. I find it hard to believe you are an alcoholic, simply because you think one can "just stop drinking."
I got one question for you. If it's as simple as "just stopping," why do millions of alcoholics drink until they're dead, locked up, or insane?
Your insistence that your opinion is the only way, is irresponsible and dangerous. Luckily, anyone who's experienced the powerlessness of alcoholism knows what is valid, and what is not. I appreciate you sharing your opinion, but disagree with your aggressive, "I'm right you're wrong," attitude.
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I hate drinking, and yet I am reliant on it. I am a harcore combat veteran and retired police officer. I don't drink like I used to, and don't get drunk anymore. But if I DON'T drink, I am on the verge of going to the ER for "death", lol. Fucking help me!
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that word you are trying to pronounce is like water head...en-seff-el-off-a-fee
Please, the satire and humor needs to be removed from addiction and withdrawal stories. People need to hear the raw truth, no entertainment whoa's for your channel!
Thanks for your opinion.
So ativan is different than other benzos? Do they only give ativan for alcohol withdrawal?
yes, they're all slightly different from each other, but Ativan is used for anxiety and other afflictions, not just alcohol withdrawal.
@@SoberJames Is it extremely bad to mix alcohol with a benzo?
@truthseek3017 yes. Very bad.
I've had hallucinations in a woke state. Saw bugs and tentacles on the walls and floor. Went i went to the ER i saw a movie in the ceiling. Later i saw a snake flying around the room. But I've also have had some "live" dreams. I was sure there was a party going in the room, but I was just sleeping in my mother's basement.
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He's trying to talk about delerium tremens.. lol
It's not funny, but this story is maybe a level 2 out of 5..
What are you saying?