Ngl, my intuition tells me Rebecca probably recently got attacked horribly in some way. I've never seen Rebecca dressed like a male and wearing glasses...almost like trying to become invisible or hide. Bruised face, teary eyes, unable to speak... something very serious happened to Rebecca. I hope it's not what I think it is. Sending you so much healing, Rebecca.
There were pictures of him as a child wearing glasses. I think someone is helping him, since there are years of him not wearing the glasses. He is getting help I want to think.. he also looks clean here even though Mark says he could use the shower.. there are miracles though!
Rebecca is internally holding onto something that is draining the life out of here.Her pain is not just about needing another high.It's been years she could be at the top had she gotten help years ago.😢
I'm very thankful that he is doing that for people. So many people have no idea how hard it is to be addicted to drugs. It's awful. I'm very lucky I've been sober for over a decade. I have adhd and anxiety and i self medicated for a long time. I hope Rebecca is able to get her life together. I feel for her so much.
@@anastasiachaliman4234 Good for you on staying clean. I can’t imagine how hard it is with drugs and alcohol everywhere we look. I truly think recovery is super human and deserves big props.
The look on Rebecca's face when Mark gives the hug...the way Rebecca says "I love you, Mark." The sincerity, the friendship, the worry and sadness...it's palpable. I've never witnessed anything like their story and it's something I think about often. I'm rooting for you, Rebecca.
My brother was Rebecca. I almost went bankrupt trying to fix him. I almost lost my mind wondering every night where is he, is he safe, fed, housed, what can I do to save him. I lost family members and friends because I would always help my brother. I almost lost my home because he was staying with me and just about burned to the ground or was selling, using drugs at my home. I almost lost my life when he tried to stab me in my sleep in his drug induced state. I wanted to fix him, help him, love him, protect him. In the end, he died, overdosed, alone, next to a dumpster, filthy. His death put me in therapy, lots of therapy. Why couldn't I save him? Why? Because, my brother didn't want to be saved, he was ill, addicted, out of his mind. He is at peace now, at rest and finally, so am I. RIP my baby brother, see you on the other side.
I am so sorry. That’s a horrendous thing to go through for the both of you. My heart and thoughts go out to you, if I could hug you I would. Love and peace to you ❤️
You did everything you could. You went above & beyond what most people would do…even though you probably feel that you could have done ‘something else’. You couldn’t have. Let your heart heal knowing that- and that he is no longer tortured by this terrible affliction. Watching loved ones go through this destroys people. Don’t let it destroy you because you are on this earth for a special reason. Much love & hugs❤️
Rebecca looks absolutely traumatised and fragile. Mark thank you for giving her that hug. She needed that so very much. Her arms went straight out for you. That's the main thing you give her is love. Love you Rebecca. I'm so scared for her, she's looking so vulnerable and broken.
@winkiepop I think she is love starved. Seriously needs a family with 24/7 supervison like a child. I'm curious if nurturing would make a difference? You drink or drug to mask the pain of the abuse/neglect. Give her a controlled environment with lots of love and reassurance/ nurturing. I truly feel she would do great. She is a person who will always need a guardian with her the rest of her life. She is a disabled child in a grown man's body. I'm rambling. I just care about Rebecca.
I agree! I know what he's feeling, pain on a mental level. He's fighting who he wants to be are not. When he's on meth he breathes normal and when he's doing it he suffers severe. I feel for him. Addiction affiction. Before he's ta;king about what a beautiful mom he has . When she found out he's trans she started beating herself. He loves her but he can't stop being a trans. He can't stop being who he wants to be. So he can't go home because in Saudi arabis they will stone him to death are worse rape him. He's torn.
Him he, not their, is is one male with severe mental health issues and it's the people like you that enable this pandemonium and cause them to eventually lose their life where 15 years ago things would have went entirely different. A rude awakening, sure, but sure would have saved his life.
So true he seemed so sad. I think if he started crying he might not of stopped. I feel like he was holding something deep inside him. He had a swollen spot on his forehead it breaks my heart to think of someone hurting him. Mark you are a wonderful man you listening to peoples stories helps them to move on. Maybe not right away but sooner than later
I was thinking the same thing. I found out that at Disney World, the actors are told to let the kids hug you until they walk away, because you don't know how much they need that hug. A hug from Mickey might totally change their day/week/month, you just don't know.
That is so good to hear. I have been discriminated by nurses and doctors over the years as a drug addict. I was turned away at a women's hospital, accused of trying to scam pain killers when i had an ectopic pregnancy when i was 19 years old and am very reluctant to seek medical help due to my experiences. Thanks for keeping an open heart when dealing with your patients
She is clearly extremely traumatized, she's fighting back the tears the entire time. It's breaking my heart, I've been rooting for Rebecca for a long time. I hope you heal, Rebecca.
This Rebecca interview was veryyyyy sad. I've watched Rebecca for years but for some reason this interview hit me different 💔 Bless his beautiful soul. I don't think I've ever seen her truly dress as a man. Mark your definitely one of a kind ♡ We need more people like you in this world ✨🤍
@@Killstar708you can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped. Mark’s tried..offered rehab and everything numerous times from what I remember. Unfortunately the addiction comes first for Rebecca.
Omg,Rebecca has obviously had something very traumatic happen. Dressing like a man,unable to talk,the labored breathing and the inability to even talk to Mark is just heartbreaking.
It’s called withdrawal & all she can think about is wanting to feel better. Not “high”, at this stage, it’s not for the high, it’s to feel normal. Normal, as in how we feel on a regular basis without any substance. Just, normal. It’s the pain & sickness from the withdrawals & that’s all it is. There’s no “cravings” it’s knowing that only one thing will stop their pain instantly. It’s hard for some people to comprehend that addicts don’t wake up excited & happy to do drugs, contrary to the belief, but they have to. Otherwise, they’re unable to function. Depending on the drug, It’s the equivalent to needing oxygen to breathe, every time they wake up. The sickness is equivalent to the Flu x5 + Food Poisoning x3, instantaneously & consistently until their receptor gets what it needs or their body rids the toxins after 2-3weeks depending on what they use. Unless a person has commercial insurance or paying cash, those “recovery centers” don’t provide the adequate resources or time that people really need to recover. State-funded rehabs provide the bare minimum and as previously stated if the facilities aren’t going to help treat the withdrawals to make recovery bearable then we’ll continue to have a revolving door of addicts suffering from a disease! When people actually try to get help, they’re forced into a room alone with a bucket & given ibuprofen & a nausea pill every 4-6hrs. No therapy, no group, none of the lies told in their brochure. Just an attitude, judgement & some water. Imagine the sickest you’ve ever been, multiply it by 5 & then imagine going through that for 7-14days straight, no breaks and then try to understand & empathize why we have so many Rebecca’s. Rehabs are a new get rich scheme. Anytime there’s a procedure that can rid the body within 72hrs while you’re medically induced priced at $25,000…. So basically only for the wealthy when the statistical addict is considered impoverished ! This procedure would be The DREAM PROCEDURE & addiction would be at an all-time low if it was AFFORDABLE but apparently we don’t want that to happen all while we’re still screaming “WAR ON DRUGS” 🤦🏽♀️
@rachelmarti. Wow what a brilliant breakdown, you described withdrawing down to a tee, it’s got to be the most punishing thing your body/mind can go through. Thank you very much, hopefully you’ve saved even just one person today.
This interview had me in tears. Seeing her sit there like that and just..suffer silently. Thank you for hugging her Mark. Thank you for all the help you offer and the help you give. Sending Rebecca a lotta love.
Mark you are absolutely correct! Rebecca is resistant to change. The greatest gift Rebecca has is YOU and the love and friendship you give to her unconditionally. God Bless you and thank you for being so kind to so many ppl in need
This was the loudest non-verbal interview i have ever heard. She wants to cry sooo badly but won't break down no matter what. This is gut renching to watch . Rebecca's poor sweet soul is screaming for help . How I wish I could hug her tightly and make everything bad go away . Please let her know that we love her and that there's hope at the end of rehab if she would try . She would have therapy for all the pain she's carrying. Sometimes, you just have to lay your burdens down ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I agree. She looks like she's really holding back tears. Maybe because its been so long since Mark interviewed her and they've been estranged? She looks so uncomfortable too. Like she is only trying to get through the interview so she can get the money to get high. Which, is completely understandable. I'd feel so judged sitting there.
Mark, “everybody” is not thinking you’re not doing enough. I think most of us see you are her only connection to hope. You’ve given her SO much. Thank you for all you do!
I totally agree with you. Mark goes the extra mile for Rebecca. Mark is a caring and wonderful man. I can't imagine people making accusations that he's not doing enough. From what I've noticed, Mark has practically done cartwheels trying to help and has contributed much on a financial basis. (Mark, you're one in a million!)
I thought Mark quit supporting Rebecca and the family from Odd, WV. Been gone awhile....what's happened ?? Could be that this is Rebecca's way of getting Mark to "support" her again.
You don’t have to explain yourself Mark. People that follow this story know that you have offered her every opportunity under the sun. No one can force anyone to accept the help they need.
Agreed 💯 I hate that anyone comes after him for anything, they literally have NO EFFING IDEA about who he is & what he does. Fills me with rage to think about
She was fighting back tears the whole interview. I think that’s why she was so quiet. So hurt she can’t speak 💔 that hug was just the thing. Thanks, Mark.
Exactly. I really wish mark could help her, but you can’t help a people who use drugs. They have to want it, but when there’s a underlying mental illness with the person using drugs, it’s even harder for them to truly get the help they need. I just want to hug her. 😢
As a chaplain and former inmate, addict, and survivor my heart hurts watching this sweet individual. I can only imagine what happened to traumatized Rebecca in this way. Prayer changes everything! Thank you for doing what you do and reaching people like this!!! God help this situation. How can we help?
@@randimayes560He said “living like a rat” not called her a rat. 🤦♀️ It’s not a lie either. She’s mentally ill and the drugs she chooses over the help. It’s awful, but no one can force another into treatment.
Someone hurt her. I know exactly that look. When she said different things she meant other things happened. The change in clothes and everything indicates someone hurt her. Youre vulnerable to sexual attacks whwn youre homeless.
Every time she said “different things going on” made me want to sob. Her lack of eye contact. He trying to not cry. Something happened to her, something she hasnt been able to process or not ready to share. Rebecca we love you.
@@Christifit406watching how many people pass around my exes like life’s a pog riddle in double vision. Michael’s always popular, but Adam rarely appears anywhere; but who are all these people and businesses quoting all their names…I thought it was king Midas who turned to gold everything he touched.
Awe Rebecca. She seems so sad, anxious and or depressed? I wonder if she was beaten and raped again. She seems like a frightened child. That breathing us like she has so much bottled up but is afraid to let it out. She is on the verge of tears. Wish I could give her a big hug and a stable place to live.❤ Mark you are a beautiful soul. The world needs more of you.
Rebecca just melted into Marks arms you can see Rebecca feels safe, protected, respected and loved by Mark. Thank you Mark for being that person, never change
@@Foxiticom I have 2 pet rats. I can tell you they are very tidy and organised. Their favourite thing is I hand them torn up kitchen roll. They take it away to make their nest cosy. They are also litter trained. He was trying to gaslight and use it as an insult. Although it makes no sense as rats are very clean.
Keep on doing what you do. These videos put our treatment of people with mental health issue in our faces. We must no longer pretend they do not exist. We need to learn about them and how to best help them. Your videos are the beginning of finding solutions.
Seeing her reach up to Mark for a hug....😢 authentic compassion and heartbreaking reality of loving an adult with mental illness and/or addiction issues. Many protective prayers over all the Rebecca's in the world and their loved ones.
This simply brought me to tears. I've followed Rebecca since the start, and I've never seen her in so much pain. It's obvious she's been traumatized, and this assault must have been really awful. I love you, Rebecca. I pray you are able to heal and become the person I know you truly are inside.
We’ve seen this Rebecca many times. This is what coming down off the drugs looks like. You cant always be high and when stimulants start to wear off there is high anxiety (even the breathing) until she sleeps it off and it starts all over. Im glad to see Rebecca is still alive.
You may be right but ime, this is when you’ve been up for 2 weeks straight getting high. You’re sleep deprived & the meth makes it 10x more scary. Coming down off the drugs looks like crashing (sleeping) for 5 days straight after a long bender. Again, just my opinion and experience
Yeah, it’s hell, especially when you’re addicted and your body can’t function properly without a substance. I’m so glad she’s alive, too. I hope she is alive and well, both, someday. ❤
Please no one get mad at me for this but when I saw that picture of Rebecca 😮 omg so so HANDSOME like really really handsome and the glasses!!! ❤❤❤ I just hate always so sad and distraught 😢😢😢 such a beautiful soul/ person
I'm very happy that you said "I don't care what you guys think". You're doing a great job bringing awareness and every little thing that you do on and off the camera is more than 99.9% of the entire population is doing to help. Keep up the good work.
She was on the verge of bursting into tears the whole interview. I feel something terrible happened to her. Poor soul, so troubled and so lonely. That was heartbreaking.
@badsmutt Wow. Evil much? Rebecca Is a MALE. Born a male, he will die a male. Deal with it. Wishing fatality on another person will not change that. You're just sick. And in denial..
From the look on Rebecca's face I'm thinking something really bad has happened to her. We've seen her sort of sober and not talking much but this was different. There was pain in her eyes. Mark, that hug meant the world to Rebecca. Thank you!
Let me say, I'm a 12 year Sergeant on the Sheriff's Office in my state. I've met hundreds and hundreds of Rebeccas throughout my career. I've watched some of them turn their lives around and I've watched some of them let their addiction take their life. Mark, what you're doing for Rebecca is beautiful and I support you, and her, 100%. You've been consistent in your compassion and I'm proud of you for it. All we can do is love them through it. Not enable, not entertain, just be that rock for them and show them love. And hug them when they need it. Thank you for what you do, Mark. Rebecca, I'm cheering for you, sis ❤
At the end of the day Rebecca, there is one solid fact. Mark will always have water, an unconditional hug, trust and support. You deserve to thrive, Rebecca. We all love you.
@@_Elizabeth_theMaidtwo things can be true at once. Mark is to this style of video as Adam22 is to NoJumper style. Theyre both exploitive at the end of the day. Also we love Rebecca and wish for her to succeed.
I like you comment. But I was not ready nor liked seeing Rebecca like this. Fact is, I am disappointed in her. People are here to be used, not misused and abused.
This breaks my heart. Of all her videos to date, this is the hardest to watch, I am so deeply worried for her and sad to see this. Something has happened, I just feel so sad for her. Thank you for continuing to care for Rebecca, she deserves it.
I pray for her too. Hoping it's not for attention Whether positive or negative It's still attention. Either way her soul is extremely strong and endearing
@@pghPATRICK If these posters would LISITEN, Mark says Rebecca benefits and I benefit. Rebecca would benefit if she/he was put on a hold for being a danger to herself and others. Get him detoxed, diagnosed and medicated with intense in house therapy. THEN let him make his decision IF he hasn't permanently damaged his brain. Almost EVERY therapist knows that they will NOT go willingly and that's what the COMPLAINTS to Mark were all about. Mark is a hindrance to Rebecca by continuing his delusion of a benefit to her.
Your videos are important Mark. They show the human side of mental illness, homelessness and drug addiction. Your work is appreciated and necessary. Hopefully more solutions can be found to these situations.
She needs and deserves unconditional love and I think Mark is the only person who does anything but try to help. An absolute Saint! But she needs a lot of help, which we all know. I think it's Mental Illness and Addiction which is tough for someone who is capable of thinking they want to get better... It's just a horrible combination for her, or anyone. I can't see how this can end well as much as we all want it to.. Poor thing 😔
This is one of the most visually stunning and impactful thumbnails I think I have ever seen posted. Mark, your talent for capturing someone's soul- whether tortured, alight or at ease at that time- is truly unparalleled. You are a gift to this world Mark, you shine a light on people who may otherwise be shadowed and open our hearts to people in a way few could.
it's a very arresting photo. almost makes your heart stand still from the pain in her eyes. I love Mark and Rebecca and am glad she at least seems to have a few consistent people in her life, including Mark. that hug was everything.
my heart breaks watching this. usually rebecca is very energetic but seeing her making herself so small and barely talking is frightening.. you can see her holding back tears too :( i think something very bad may have happened to her. i hope she heals and gets better.
Just remember that there is a silent majority that supports you Mark! You are doing the best you can for Rebecca. It is easy for people who don’t understand addiction to judge.
Every new video that pops up, I'm sooooo waiting for the interview where Rebecca completely turns things around and becomes the person we all can see they can be
Oh Rebecca, I just want to give you the biggest, biggest cuddle & to let you know that you are a beautiful individual who deserves so much happiness. I feel your pain my darling and wish you all the love in the world 😢I do hope you will accept some support from Mark soon ! it may ease the trauma if only a little XxXxX
I have watched Rebecca so many times, today was very difficult. Her voice sounded sad, very tired, lost and in pain. I hope Rebecca turns her life around. Mark you are a very special person, don't you ever doubt that.
I feel that people sometimes need to remember how SCARY the thought of being sober is to an (ab)user - being sober is the thing that was so incredibly painful that you started to do drugs to get away from it. It's *Not* an easy choice to make.
It’s even harder to be sober after using drugs for an extended period of time…the initial problems have been compounded exponentially. It’s like trying to dig yourself out of a deep hole with a spoon. Most people aren’t able to do it. Reality is even harder to accept when you know firsthand that escapism is an option.
You may be the only person, ever showing this young man any real love and caring. He obviously is very bright. Also very entertaining. It is no secret he has mental health issues. The shame is that he cannot get off the street drugs, get proper treatment and get life changing medication. He suffers so much and does not have to if given the right treatment. There are so many broken souls. You have a kind caring heart. However no one can be helped if they will not help themselves. I know first hand. I lost 3 family members to addictions. I did what I could. My drug addicted alcoholic father lived with me for 11 years. It was very hard. I almost lost it myself in the process. However I am much stronger mentally. It is frustrating to give and give and see no improvement. We do the best we can...however many times it seems it is never enough. Another brother I have, would cry and cry, his brain was not working right. He is now in a home and getting proper meds. No more broken heart crying. No more intense suffering. If you reach a few then it has not been in vain. Everyone is "worth" it. Empathy and kindness is key. If Rebecca dies early, it will not be for your lack of helping or caring. There but for the grace of god go I. Deep hugs to you.
I agree Leemarie, he definitely needs proper help in a Mental Health Facility. I'm not sure that they will take him while he's still addicted to meth though, as l know they refused to keep one of my sons because of his drug addiction and unwillingness to see himself as an addict! They could not keep him on any medication long-term either because of the risk of him mixing his drugs with theirs into his system! He is very entertaining and intelligent and it's all being wasted as he cannot be helped like my own because they put their addiction above everyone and every opportunity in life. It's so sad but my tears are all dried up now!
I want to say that simply not using drugs doesn't fix mental illness and sadness. Even without substance use, some people can't live in the real world and get a job and support themselves. Help is needed, safety is needed.
Absolutely. Mental/psychological issues are mostly the reason people abuse drugs… not the other way around. And if they’re clean the underlying triggers can just show themselves better
Also, I agree with you- the world has become too difficult for everyone to fit in and make it. We need to create 'worlds' scenarios and environments where those who don't fit in can find purpose, a way to contribute, and be happy while clean.
Actually, substances are how many can cope with their painful reality. I WISH and SEND and PRAY for absolutely beautiful energy for Rebecca and every other soul in such pain.
Every one of your videos makes me cry. My husband had a psychotic break during lockdown. He’s never been the same. He could end up out there somewhere, it terrifies me. All these people need is hugs, love, and a place to be safe!!! Our country is so cruel to the less fortunate! Breaks my heart.
I had a breakdown back in 2009. It took about 5 years before i felt back to some sembance of normal. Im proud to say im BETTER THAN I EVER WAS. That experience gave me strength i never knew i had. Prayers to you & your husband. And thank you for not giving up on him. Its times like that when you find out who really cares about you. ❤
@@Parrotgirl-tattoo people, even my own family wanted me to leave. We are 3 years in and finally he’s getting better. Not the same, but he’s smiling and joking. It burned his life down. So hard to overcome. But after 30 years together, I’m not going any where. I Love Him. He is my person. How could anyone throw another person away. I’m so happy to hear how well you’re doing. Thanks for the reply!❤️
I hear you Mark. . Thank you for walking across camera and embracing Rebecca. Probably the first time (maybe ever) this human has been held unconditionally. I am one of your commenters who speaks her mind but has not stepped up. How can I help. I live in Canada. I am a therapist that has spent my career working with addictions, and male survivors of sexual assault. Please reach out if there is anything at all I can do. Your compassionate gesture today with Rebecca was pivotal. The smallest kindness is where we need to start with her. She is like a feral animal now. Every moment she comes forward we just extend our hand.
In my experience as a trauma therapist in a trauma/mental health/addiction clinic for many years, when a trans female suddenly presented as a male it didn’t auger well for their mental state & usually for suicidality re self-acceptance. I pray Rebecca finds her way to solid, appropriate treatment. Her sweet soul is clearly suffering so badly.
Why she didn’t follow Cosmo’s lead is beyond my comprehension. That may have been her best chance of recovery and acceptance of her true self, with a future full of hope, creativity and joy. This new version of Rebecca as a male seems like she’s been forced into it, plus she’s been beaten up it seems. Rebecca, I know you read these comments and when I tell you that I bought one of your personally signed books, you know that I truly care. Please reach out to Cosmo again and do what they’re recommending. I don’t care how drugged up you are on Crystal Meth, you still have enough IQ points to know that at this point, it’s probably your best chance of getting out of this torture chamber and back on track to become the wonderful girl you were always meant to be. Did your family get to you? What happened?
My nephew is getting out of rehab on Friday from years of battling with meth addiction. I went and visited him last weekend and couldn’t believe the amazing difference. I just pray he can stay that way.
My mother watches these to educate herself and to understand addiction and alcoholism. I, am a recovering alcoholic and addict and i am so grateful to you Mark! Keep going!!
🖐🏻 A fellow addict in recovery. It's really lovely to hear your mum wants to educate herself on addiction. That's really special and great to have support 😊 although I'm a stranger, I know how hard recovery is and I'm proud of you and all who are in the same boat. All the best 😊
Were you in recovery when your mom started watching these videos. I want to share these with the alcoholic in my life but they get angry knowing I go to Alanon.😥 I pray for their sobriety🙏🙏🙏
Its nice to hear about someone trying to understand how these things work rather than just passing judgement or hand-waving it away like its an intentional choice they're making.
I am, too! Mark, your journalistic work is of great benefit to society. It’s clear that you’ve made every effort to help people you work with, especially Rebecca. ❤
“she can’t even hold onto shoes” I have been following Rebecca through your channel since the beginning. Mark, many of us know deep in our hearts that you have done all you can.
Shoes were probably taken by whoever is "taking care" of Rebecca on the reg. Sadly she seems to be more traumatized than any other interview. So many prayers for her healing, safety, and recovery.🙏🏽
Mark - I’m so sorry that anyone said anything about what you do or don’t for Rebecca. I’ve watched for years the roller coaster she takes you - all of us, on. I applaud and thank you for your beautiful heart.
Mark is a journalist and opportunist chasing stories for profit nothing more! Can't trust do goodness at all! Rebecca fresh out that clinic him and that lady had him admitted to that 2 other of Mark guest died at!
This is exaclty how i acted after i was rxped. I cut all my hair off with kitchen scissors i just didnt want to look like me. I just didnt want to be here. Rebeccas been through something very traumatic and the laboured breathing is her trying to stop a panic attack and thats when she knows she safe with Mark. Its so sad. I pray she finds her way shes such a lost soul and its heartbreaking. She needed that hug.
I’m literally crying. She is not okay. I don’t know how you went two minutes without giving her a hug. I wanted to grab her and hold her so she can feel love, even just for a split second
Damn. Something bad happened to Rebecca. Change of attire from normal and unable to really speak. I dont think this is about drugs. She's not saying anything is saying everything. Usually she doesn't stop talking.
There are other videos of exactly this side, he's withdrawing that's the problem, just like Mark said do you need your drugs ans it's ok to say you do because we all know your using, he just couldn't say it on camera that's why he did this interview for money for drugs. Same videos I've seen before,and Mark says he's done but Everytime he shows up Mark give him money offers him a room. ECT ECT
This is one of her personalities. It's featured in several videos, but I don't think there is a video where she is like this the whole time. She always talks this way when she is in this mode. Just don't want you to be worried that something extra bad happened. Always appears very far away, agrees with everything, says "I guess" a lot.
Oh Rebecca! This made me cry! I hope your breakthrough comes sooner than later. Mark, no good deed goes unnoticed! Thank you for being consistent and not giving up on Rebecca!
This brought me to tears more than any other update of hers. She looks so fragile. So low. So tired. I hope she knows that she still has capacity for vibrancy, joy and safety. She just needs to choose that route for herself - we are all rooting for her so deeply. She doesn't need to be on her own anymore 💚
Seems like she’s coming down to me. One of the only times we see what happens when the drugs run out. This is why people use addictively, because they’re broken and in a lot of pain. Drugs are a way to numb the pain. When you come down you most definitely cry, sometimes uncontrollably until you get your fix again.
Soft belly producer you may be the one person that shows this young man positive attention, love, compassion and empathy. I pray for his healing. Keep doing what you do
Hey Brandon...If you arent aware..This is a case...THE case, rather, that Mark (Laita, the channels creator/producer) has been trying to help for YEARS at this point, if Im not mistaken..Usually "Rebecca" is here in a dress and being boisterous as they come. He(Mark) had to stop facilitating him/her(Rebecca) at some point, for his/her own good... Seems that he's given into another try...again. Its quite the saga.
You are absolutely correct. I don't need him think there's a doubt that Mark is the only person to care about Rebecca. Thank God he does He's a good man God bless you
I am so glad you hugged him, he grabbed on - tears here and I think Rebecca was holding back the tears. Sometimes it's all we humans need is someone to 'be there' and hug goes a longggggg way. Much love Rebecca you are loved from the east coast my friend. Awesome portrait of Rebecca...that face just says so much. If I could help I would. Something about Rebecca ..... 💔
That's silent scream was deafening. Having Followed Rebecca in all of her guises over the interviews, this was by far, the hardest to watch. Rebecca, you have such a beautiful soul, and are very lucky to have Mark watching over you. I'm sure I speak for many by saying that if we could all give you a hug to show you how much love there is in the world, we would. Keep fighting those demons and I hope you find the inner strength to overcome everything x much love from GB x ❤
Rebecca, I doubt it you’ll see this but imma say it anyway. I know what you’re going through,I know you feel no one cares and you’re better off gone than living. I know you’re dreading the withdrawals it’s easier to self medicate than to cope with reality it’s overwhelming. Just know there are people who care and you are loved recovery is possible life is worth living. Please don’t give up on yourself I believe in you and you’re so much stronger than you think beautiful. I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers ❤
The way Rebecca was dressed made me wonder if she had been assaulted (sexually or just a violent encounter) and the more masculine styling was done to create a less vulnerable or fragile looking image, for protection after whatever happened. She looked on the verge of crying the whole time and I was so relieved when Mark went to hug her because I was wishing I could so badly. I feel like Rebecca is getting to the end of her rope where maybe she will accept help. If not, this dejected disposition makes me fear she will make another attempt to leave this world. I'm praying that the discomfort of living strung out on the streets outweighs the discomfort of facing her pain in recovery and she decides to try.
Or She has Someone who is "caring" for, controlling, and dressing Her while also possibly degrading and abusing Her. Whatever the situation we pray for so much Healing and Comfort.🙏🏽
Mark , I can not tell you how wonderful you are! Thenk you for bringing these beautiful people and sharing their story. Dont ever let anyone say you arent doing enough! God Bless you!
Thanks Mark. Personally, I have never thought or written that you are not doing enough for Rebecca. I can imagine how painful it must be to want the best for her and constantly see her fall. I admire your continuing hope for Rebecca's happiness and recovery.
Mark, I’m a 23 year old , started watching your videos when i was 19 my friend told me about you. I love and appreciate your content so much. So much insight to why people are the way they are. instead of shaming you really help to understand perspective. I wish i could help people the way you do. One day when I’m established in whatever i plan to do, I won’t forget these videos. I want to help people too. I’m not going to forget this
@@RayThomas-fl7fo Wow, I could not even imagine the suffering you saw and I’m sure felt. Those jobs are for extraordinary people. Well done and thank you for your service 🩷
Mark I think your videos are profound because they bring so much awareness to those who watch your videos. It is a mission that you are doing….showing through human side of their stories. Thank you !
@@huitrecouture Really kinda a cold and obviously untrue statement. If you're not here to help or uplift or even care about Rebecca...no one's forcing you to be here.
@@huitrecouturepeople are concerned, there’s a difference. why would anyone who truly care write “to feel important” it’s basically ppl who care being selfless to understand what rebecca is going through and if she’s actually doing okay because she has potential. people want the best for her. she’s smart even while on whatever she’s on. she’s been interviewed for a couple of years on this platform so yes people will be concerned. people will notice the difference in her. pol want her to see what we all see which is anyone who wants the best and see she can truly turn her life around. she has a great amount of people praying for her and keeping her in their hearts. that’s selfless. not selfish.
Ngl, my intuition tells me Rebecca probably recently got attacked horribly in some way. I've never seen Rebecca dressed like a male and wearing glasses...almost like trying to become invisible or hide. Bruised face, teary eyes, unable to speak... something very serious happened to Rebecca. I hope it's not what I think it is. Sending you so much healing, Rebecca.
There were pictures of him as a child wearing glasses. I think someone is helping him, since there are years of him not wearing the glasses. He is getting help I want to think.. he also looks clean here even though Mark says he could use the shower.. there are miracles though!
i agree it looks like she was trying to hide herself to feel safe.
i pray that you have the compassion in your heart to listen to people when they are talking about something you have no experience with.
@@MCF1943 her*
I'd agree if Rebecca didn't already have an attack violently and sexually where the appearance didn't look like this.
This is the hardest Rebecca interview to watch yet
Excruciating
My heart hurts 😔
I don't like seeing Rebecca like this. Something is off😢
Meh.
Rebecca is internally holding onto something that is draining the life out of here.Her pain is not just about needing another high.It's been years she could be at the top had she gotten help years ago.😢
Rebecca is absolutely screaming silently that she is not happy and I think that hug helped
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projecting helps no one
Uhh what..weird comment
I'm so happy and relieved Mark offered a hug...I was thinking that right before he stood up...NEVER LOOSING HOPE ON YOU REBECCA 🫶🏽...NEVER 🌹✨
I see so much trauma and pain in Rebecca, it breaks my heart. Mark, thankyou for being kind to her. I wish she saw how special she is to us. 😢❤
Mark, your interviews have softened my heart for the addicted, afflicted and mentally ill. I’m very thankful for that.❤️
I'm very thankful that he is doing that for people. So many people have no idea how hard it is to be addicted to drugs. It's awful. I'm very lucky I've been sober for over a decade. I have adhd and anxiety and i self medicated for a long time. I hope Rebecca is able to get her life together. I feel for her so much.
@@anastasiachaliman4234 Good for you on staying clean. I can’t imagine how hard it is with drugs and alcohol everywhere we look. I truly think recovery is super human and deserves big props.
The look on Rebecca's face when Mark gives the hug...the way Rebecca says "I love you, Mark." The sincerity, the friendship, the worry and sadness...it's palpable. I've never witnessed anything like their story and it's something I think about often. I'm rooting for you, Rebecca.
There was a finality in that I love you, I hope it isn’t!
@@adrianrosado2223me too 🙈but Rebecca is quite resilient 🥹 and we’ve seen her like this b4. I too pray she finds her way 🫶🏼
Same. I wish the best for her and pray for a success story for her.
@@LettiesLife I don’t ever think I’ve ever seen her quite this damaged before though, do you?
Thank you so much Mark
My brother was Rebecca. I almost went bankrupt trying to fix him. I almost lost my mind wondering every night where is he, is he safe, fed, housed, what can I do to save him. I lost family members and friends because I would always help my brother. I almost lost my home because he was staying with me and just about burned to the ground or was selling, using drugs at my home. I almost lost my life when he tried to stab me in my sleep in his drug induced state. I wanted to fix him, help him, love him, protect him. In the end, he died, overdosed, alone, next to a dumpster, filthy. His death put me in therapy, lots of therapy. Why couldn't I save him? Why? Because, my brother didn't want to be saved, he was ill, addicted, out of his mind. He is at peace now, at rest and finally, so am I. RIP my baby brother, see you on the other side.
Wow. Take care of yourself. The world is a better place because of your love. Feeling your pain.
Lots of love to you ❤
I am so sorry. That’s a horrendous thing to go through for the both of you. My heart and thoughts go out to you, if I could hug you I would. Love and peace to you ❤️
You did everything you could. You went above & beyond what most people would do…even though you probably feel that you could have done ‘something else’. You couldn’t have.
Let your heart heal knowing that- and that he is no longer tortured by this terrible affliction. Watching loved ones go through this destroys people. Don’t let it destroy you because you are on this earth for a special reason. Much love & hugs❤️
@@uplatenite8in loving a drug addict is toxic. Exiling them from your life can save your own.
Rebecca looks absolutely traumatised and fragile. Mark thank you for giving her that hug. She needed that so very much. Her arms went straight out for you. That's the main thing you give her is love. Love you Rebecca. I'm so scared for her, she's looking so vulnerable and broken.
Aghhh, this comment made me cry.😢😢😢
@@TeresaJohnston-qx6xs Ay, me too😪😪
Love...to death.
@winkiepop I think she is love starved. Seriously needs a family with 24/7 supervison like a child. I'm curious if nurturing would make a difference? You drink or drug to mask the pain of the abuse/neglect. Give her a controlled environment with lots of love and reassurance/ nurturing. I truly feel she would do great. She is a person who will always need a guardian with her the rest of her life.
She is a disabled child in a grown man's body. I'm rambling. I just care about Rebecca.
Is Rebecca a guy or girl?
This person is so filled with grief. It fills their body.
I like your comment because I think mental illness often develops from unresolved grief, leading to self medicating with D&A
I agree! I know what he's feeling, pain on a mental level. He's fighting who he wants to be are not.
When he's on meth he breathes normal and when he's doing it he suffers severe. I feel for him. Addiction affiction. Before he's ta;king about what a beautiful mom he has . When she found out he's trans she started beating herself. He loves her but he can't stop being a trans. He can't stop being who he wants to be. So he can't go home because in Saudi arabis they will stone him to death are worse rape him. He's torn.
Him he, not their, is is one male with severe mental health issues and it's the people like you that enable this pandemonium and cause them to eventually lose their life where 15 years ago things would have went entirely different. A rude awakening, sure, but sure would have saved his life.
Sometimes, a hug helps more than a lot of folks realize. You are a good guy Mark!
Totally agree!!
I was actually thinking like wow a hug might help and Mark went over as if reading our minds.
So true he seemed so sad. I think if he started crying he might not of stopped. I feel like he was holding something deep inside him. He had a swollen spot on his forehead it breaks my heart to think of someone hurting him. Mark you are a wonderful man you listening to peoples stories helps them to move on. Maybe not right away but sooner than later
Hugs are free, promises at this point are lies. Rebecca loves the street life.
I was thinking the same thing. I found out that at Disney World, the actors are told to let the kids hug you until they walk away, because you don't know how much they need that hug. A hug from Mickey might totally change their day/week/month, you just don't know.
Your videos changed my approach when caring for patients as a nurse. It's another mental level of empathy.
Thank you for your kindness, thank you for growing and learning. Your work is vital 💜
That is so good to hear. I have been discriminated by nurses and doctors over the years as a drug addict. I was turned away at a women's hospital, accused of trying to scam pain killers when i had an ectopic pregnancy when i was 19 years old and am very reluctant to seek medical help due to my experiences. Thanks for keeping an open heart when dealing with your patients
Bless you ❤
i couldn’t agree more with this
His interviews have softened my heart for the addicted and mentally ill. I’m so thankful for that.
She is clearly extremely traumatized, she's fighting back the tears the entire time. It's breaking my heart, I've been rooting for Rebecca for a long time. I hope you heal, Rebecca.
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@@WrappedInFoilthere's always one of you 😂
@@WrappedInFoilYou're the dirt under my shoe.
This isn't about pronouns, it's about a human being suffering.
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This Rebecca interview was veryyyyy sad. I've watched Rebecca for years but for some reason this interview hit me different 💔 Bless his beautiful soul. I don't think I've ever seen her truly dress as a man. Mark your definitely one of a kind ♡
We need more people like you in this world ✨🤍
I had almost sworn off Rebecca videos. I hesitantly clicked. And my heart was broken. You are worth it Rebecca ♡
Same here. I actually did stop watching. For months. Today I thought about her and here I am 😢❤
This.
I don’t know how someone can say Mark has done nothing for Rebecca. He is one of the only consistent people (that we know of) in her life.
He wants to be called her. And as much as I wish nothing but the absolute best for him, I won't be roped into calling him a her.
He’s filmed Rebecca non stop and threw money here and there . But look at this new video ? Does it look like anything mark did really helped?
@@Killstar708 judgmental much? You have no idea what’s gone on there, at all.
@@missycitty9478then just use Rebecca
@@Killstar708you can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped. Mark’s tried..offered rehab and everything numerous times from what I remember. Unfortunately the addiction comes first for Rebecca.
Omg,Rebecca has obviously had something very traumatic happen. Dressing like a man,unable to talk,the labored breathing and the inability to even talk to Mark is just heartbreaking.
Its called doing a shit ton of meth for years
@@r7kelley553there’s literally a knot on his head…something had to have happened
The drug man beat her down
@@mysettingsmysettings2997 how would you know ?
@@mysettingsmysettings2997 Don't be rude!
Mark you're doing a great job. So compassionate. Some people just can't quit. RIP Ellen C, my beautiful, talented, addicted sister
So much heaviness in this video. It felt like Rebecca wanted to say something but couldn’t. I hope Rebecca is safe ❤️
Does she look safe?
The heavy breathing trying not to cry- can relate. It’s okay to not be okay Rebecca. So many people love you.
It’s called withdrawal & all she can think about is wanting to feel better. Not “high”, at this stage, it’s not for the high, it’s to feel normal. Normal, as in how we feel on a regular basis without any substance. Just, normal.
It’s the pain & sickness from the withdrawals & that’s all it is. There’s no “cravings” it’s knowing that only one thing will stop their pain instantly. It’s hard for some people to comprehend that addicts don’t wake up excited & happy to do drugs, contrary to the belief, but they have to. Otherwise, they’re unable to function. Depending on the drug, It’s the equivalent to needing oxygen to breathe, every time they wake up.
The sickness is equivalent to the Flu x5 + Food Poisoning x3, instantaneously & consistently until their receptor gets what it needs or their body rids the toxins after 2-3weeks depending on what they use. Unless a person has commercial insurance or paying cash, those “recovery centers” don’t provide the adequate resources or time that people really need to recover.
State-funded rehabs provide the bare minimum and as previously stated if the facilities aren’t going to help treat the withdrawals to make recovery bearable then we’ll continue to have a revolving door of addicts suffering from a disease! When people actually try to get help, they’re forced into a room alone with a bucket & given ibuprofen & a nausea pill every 4-6hrs. No therapy, no group, none of the lies told in their brochure. Just an attitude, judgement & some water. Imagine the sickest you’ve ever been, multiply it by 5 & then imagine going through that for 7-14days straight, no breaks and then try to understand & empathize why we have so many Rebecca’s.
Rehabs are a new get rich scheme. Anytime there’s a procedure that can rid the body within 72hrs while you’re medically induced priced at $25,000…. So basically only for the wealthy when the statistical addict is considered impoverished ! This procedure would be The DREAM PROCEDURE & addiction would be at an all-time low if it was AFFORDABLE but apparently we don’t want that to happen all while we’re still screaming “WAR ON DRUGS” 🤦🏽♀️
Rebecca is withdrawing from drugs. Not having an emotional breakdown.
@@MorteAlla_Francia_ItaliaAnelavery well said!
@rachelmarti. Wow what a brilliant breakdown, you described withdrawing down to a tee, it’s got to be the most punishing thing your body/mind can go through. Thank you very much, hopefully you’ve saved even just one person today.
This interview had me in tears. Seeing her sit there like that and just..suffer silently. Thank you for hugging her Mark. Thank you for all the help you offer and the help you give. Sending Rebecca a lotta love.
Mark you are absolutely correct! Rebecca is resistant to change. The greatest gift Rebecca has is YOU and the love and friendship you give to her unconditionally. God Bless you and thank you for being so kind to so many ppl in need
The way Rebecca reached up for a hug like a little kid. Im bawling. I want to see Rebecca well so much
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We all do - praying for her ❤
I think about her a lot 😔 ❤❤❤
@@granmasmagicalwhispersnursery me too, like every day
Agreed
This was the loudest non-verbal interview i have ever heard. She wants to cry sooo badly but won't break down no matter what. This is gut renching to watch . Rebecca's poor sweet soul is screaming for help . How I wish I could hug her tightly and make everything bad go away . Please let her know that we love her and that there's hope at the end of rehab if she would try . She would have therapy for all the pain she's carrying. Sometimes, you just have to lay your burdens down ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
He's very high, can't speak
@@angelicaloya7006no, that's not it. We have seen that version of Rebecca. This is way different.
@@angelicaloya7006 i think its lack of being high. Total withdrawals. His brain is feeling all the lack of dopamine and balance
I agree. She looks like she's really holding back tears. Maybe because its been so long since Mark interviewed her and they've been estranged?
She looks so uncomfortable too. Like she is only trying to get through the interview so she can get the money to get high. Which, is completely understandable. I'd feel so judged sitting there.
That’s a dude.
Mark, “everybody” is not thinking you’re not doing enough. I think most of us see you are her only connection to hope. You’ve given her SO much. Thank you for all you do!
I totally agree with you. Mark goes the extra mile for Rebecca. Mark is a caring and wonderful man. I can't imagine people making accusations that he's not doing enough. From what I've noticed, Mark has practically done cartwheels trying to help and has contributed much on a financial basis. (Mark, you're one in a million!)
I thought Mark quit supporting Rebecca and the family from Odd, WV. Been gone awhile....what's happened ?? Could be that this is Rebecca's way of getting Mark to "support" her again.
Mark is not the best human. He can be exploitative and abusive.
She's friends with the Queen of Melrose now which is cool, and is welcome in all of his stores. Rebecca has some friends in high places.
I could not agree more with you.
You do so much for Rebecca not just financial assistance but you’re there for her always and that is astronomical help.
You don’t have to explain yourself Mark. People that follow this story know that you have offered her every opportunity under the sun. No one can force anyone to accept the help they need.
thank you!!
Agreed 💯 I hate that anyone comes after him for anything, they literally have NO EFFING IDEA about who he is & what he does. Fills me with rage to think about
What did he do exactly, why is everyone on their knees sucking off this mark guy@@9sheri9
You are so right about him!
a mineral steam bath remedies so much for a person .bet mark has never offered. hopeful eye am wrong.
She was fighting back tears the whole interview. I think that’s why she was so quiet. So hurt she can’t speak 💔 that hug was just the thing. Thanks, Mark.
She? That’s a man
Exactly. I really wish mark could help her, but you can’t help a people who use drugs. They have to want it, but when there’s a underlying mental illness with the person using drugs, it’s even harder for them to truly get the help they need. I just want to hug her. 😢
@@brendabarraza4915 Baloney
Why doesn't he want a better life.
Maybe this is what it will take to get her to straighten out her life.
Today, Rebecca looks like someone who is processing a traumatic event. She doesn’t look like she’s doing ok at all.
Withdrawal alone is a tragic event. Over and over and over. Unfortunately we've seen the many lies of Rebecca. Give him a bump and he perks right up
I thought the same
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I thought so too , who knows what happens to her out on the streets😢
all the drama he has or makes for him self on the streets will only bring him more hardship so wat do u expect sadly my good man.
As a chaplain and former inmate, addict, and survivor my heart hurts watching this sweet individual. I can only imagine what happened to traumatized Rebecca in this way. Prayer changes everything! Thank you for doing what you do and reaching people like this!!! God help this situation.
How can we help?
Respected? After calling her a rat
@@randimayes560He said “living like a rat” not called her a rat. 🤦♀️ It’s not a lie either. She’s mentally ill and the drugs she chooses over the help. It’s awful, but no one can force another into treatment.
I don't know why but this feels like the most heartbreaking Rebecca interview yet. It almost feels like she's given up on herself.
Its a dude not "her" - she was born a man treat him as such.
I was thinking the same. I felt very sad watching this. Mark does help a lot, but the drugs are killing her mind and soul.
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Same. We’ve seen a lot of sides to Rebecca but this is different
Someone hurt her. I know exactly that look. When she said different things she meant other things happened. The change in clothes and everything indicates someone hurt her. Youre vulnerable to sexual attacks whwn youre homeless.
Every time she said “different things going on” made me want to sob. Her lack of eye contact. He trying to not cry. Something happened to her, something she hasnt been able to process or not ready to share. Rebecca we love you.
He's probably tired from being drained by Rebecca and other people he helps without any gratitude @@shannab.8328
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Very good observation soo true!! I didn’t even notice but your right , with not the typical choice of clothing.
It's like watching an abused 7 year old, just too young to take it all in but trying to be polite.
Wow! What type of 7 yr Olds are you watching over?
@@Christifit406 Stupid comment
@@Christifit406 ever thought that maybe some people work with abused kids trying to help them? or did i just explode your mind
@@Christifit406watching how many people pass around my exes like life’s a pog riddle in double vision. Michael’s always popular, but Adam rarely appears anywhere; but who are all these people and businesses quoting all their names…I thought it was king Midas who turned to gold everything he touched.
Awe Rebecca. She seems so sad, anxious and or depressed? I wonder if she was beaten and raped again. She seems like a frightened child. That breathing us like she has so much bottled up but is afraid to let it out. She is on the verge of tears. Wish I could give her a big hug and a stable place to live.❤
Mark you are a beautiful soul. The world needs more of you.
Mark does what we all want to do, and that is simply to help, in any way. Never stop mark, and i mean that sincerely
the way she perked up when she realized you were coming to give her a hug broke my heart.
Rebecca just melted into Marks arms you can see Rebecca feels safe, protected, respected and loved by Mark.
Thank you Mark for being that person, never change
It’s a fine line, rebeca doesn’t want help even tho they have the world in front of them
He called her a "rat"
No, he said you're choosing to live your life like a rat. That's completely different @@truth-hurts3089
@@truth-hurts3089he didn’t though, he said she was living like one
@@Foxiticom I have 2 pet rats. I can tell you they are very tidy and organised. Their favourite thing is I hand them torn up kitchen roll. They take it away to make their nest cosy. They are also litter trained.
He was trying to gaslight and use it as an insult. Although it makes no sense as rats are very clean.
The way Rebecca reached out to Mark, broke my heart, but was also so very touching.
Keep on doing what you do. These videos put our treatment of people with mental health issue in our faces. We must no longer pretend they do not exist. We need to learn about them and how to best help them. Your videos are the beginning of finding solutions.
Seeing her reach up to Mark for a hug....😢 authentic compassion and heartbreaking reality of loving an adult with mental illness and/or addiction issues. Many protective prayers over all the Rebecca's in the world and their loved ones.
This simply brought me to tears. I've followed Rebecca since the start, and I've never seen her in so much pain. It's obvious she's been traumatized, and this assault must have been really awful. I love you, Rebecca. I pray you are able to heal and become the person I know you truly are inside.
It's a meth comedown, it causes an inability to carry a conversation.
@@gossamer9966yeah he’s definitely not loaded in this interview. Hopefully he figures himself out.
We’ve seen this Rebecca many times. This is what coming down off the drugs looks like. You cant always be high and when stimulants start to wear off there is high anxiety (even the breathing) until she sleeps it off and it starts all over. Im glad to see Rebecca is still alive.
That and if I recall correctly, Rebecca also has Bipolar 1. This is a good example of what a "low" looks like, combined with coming down off of drugs.
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I am too. I'm so glad she's still alive. I love Rebecca wish I could give her a hug ❤️
You may be right but ime, this is when you’ve been up for 2 weeks straight getting high. You’re sleep deprived & the meth makes it 10x more scary. Coming down off the drugs looks like crashing (sleeping) for 5 days straight after a long bender. Again, just my opinion and experience
Yeah, it’s hell, especially when you’re addicted and your body can’t function properly without a substance. I’m so glad she’s alive, too. I hope she is alive and well, both, someday. ❤
Please no one get mad at me for this but when I saw that picture of Rebecca 😮 omg so so HANDSOME like really really handsome and the glasses!!! ❤❤❤ I just hate always so sad and distraught 😢😢😢 such a beautiful soul/ person
I'm very happy that you said "I don't care what you guys think". You're doing a great job bringing awareness and every little thing that you do on and off the camera is more than 99.9% of the entire population is doing to help. Keep up the good work.
She was on the verge of bursting into tears the whole interview. I feel something terrible happened to her. Poor soul, so troubled and so lonely. That was heartbreaking.
Drugs ate his brains already
No shes not! This is what a comedown from a bender while in psychosis looks like
@badsmutt Wow. Evil much? Rebecca Is a MALE. Born a male, he will die a male. Deal with it.
Wishing fatality on another person will not change that.
You're just sick. And in denial..
That’s a man not a woman you weirdo he must suffer his consequences for going against the morals of God
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From the look on Rebecca's face I'm thinking something really bad has happened to her. We've seen her sort of sober and not talking much but this was different. There was pain in her eyes. Mark, that hug meant the world to Rebecca. Thank you!
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He's been like this a bunch, this isn't a new form of Rebecca.
Rebecca, please take Marks advices. You have talents. ❤
Thank you for still showing us updates on Rebecca.
Let me say, I'm a 12 year Sergeant on the Sheriff's Office in my state. I've met hundreds and hundreds of Rebeccas throughout my career. I've watched some of them turn their lives around and I've watched some of them let their addiction take their life. Mark, what you're doing for Rebecca is beautiful and I support you, and her, 100%. You've been consistent in your compassion and I'm proud of you for it. All we can do is love them through it. Not enable, not entertain, just be that rock for them and show them love. And hug them when they need it. Thank you for what you do, Mark. Rebecca, I'm cheering for you, sis ❤
Beautiful written.
I Agree❣️❣️❣️Beautifully written!!!
Thank you for being a good apple yourself. And for your service to the community and for treating the houseless like humans as they are. Just hurt.
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Amen to that 🙏
At the end of the day Rebecca, there is one solid fact. Mark will always have water, an unconditional hug, trust and support.
You deserve to thrive, Rebecca. We all love you.
Mark is using her. Don’t be naive.
@@_Elizabeth_theMaidtwo things can be true at once. Mark is to this style of video as Adam22 is to NoJumper style. Theyre both exploitive at the end of the day. Also we love Rebecca and wish for her to succeed.
The government has hospitals and trained doctors
I like you comment. But I was not ready nor liked seeing Rebecca like this. Fact is, I am disappointed in her. People are here to be used, not misused and abused.
@@_Elizabeth_theMaidmark is using her but he's seeking mental health care because of trying to help her any way possible 😂
Rebecca your breaking my heat, GOD LOVES YOU. BE STRONG
This breaks my heart. Of all her videos to date, this is the hardest to watch, I am so deeply worried for her and sad to see this. Something has happened, I just feel so sad for her.
Thank you for continuing to care for Rebecca, she deserves it.
I pray for her too. Hoping it's not for attention
Whether positive or negative
It's still attention. Either way her soul is extremely strong and endearing
Rebecca’s breathing is labored. Could be heart issue. 😔
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Is this not a man?
@lavienestpasunlongfleuvetr2559 She is a woman
My baby was fighting tears this whole interview. Truly breaks my heart. That hug was needed.
Definitely not
@@RadRedhead222 um wat?
More like high on crack and stuck like chuck
Thank you for hugging Rebecca, Mark. Sometimes people just need to know that they are not alone and that someone cares.
Yeah and he pretty much followed it up with you stink. That's Mark with his back handed compliments.
Rebecca’s boring video is Mark’s best hit in weeks. 700k. Who’s hugging whom? You go girl! #rebeccaisalive
@@pghPATRICK If these posters would LISITEN, Mark says Rebecca benefits and I benefit. Rebecca would benefit if she/he was put on a hold for being a danger to herself and others. Get him detoxed, diagnosed and medicated with intense in house therapy. THEN let him make his decision IF he hasn't permanently damaged his brain. Almost EVERY therapist knows that they will NOT go willingly and that's what the COMPLAINTS to Mark were all about. Mark is a hindrance to Rebecca by continuing his delusion of a benefit to her.
havent even finished the ep and thats all i could think, just needs a warm hug. mark is an incredbile human being
@@goldseraph7051 🙄
Your videos are important Mark. They show the human side of mental illness, homelessness and drug addiction. Your work is appreciated and necessary. Hopefully more solutions can be found to these situations.
Just lost a great friend to suicide on Friday. He was struggling.
Please *try* to be there for people. We're all in this together
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I'm so sorry. 🫂
So sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved friend💙
The way Rebecca looked up when you came over to hug her lets me know that feeling unconditionally loved is what she needs.❤
100!!!!
@@Kindred_37 💜
She needs and deserves unconditional love and I think Mark is the only person who does anything but try to help. An absolute Saint! But she needs a lot of help, which we all know. I think it's Mental Illness and Addiction which is tough for someone who is capable of thinking they want to get better... It's just a horrible combination for her, or anyone. I can't see how this can end well as much as we all want it to..
Poor thing 😔
HIM!
HIM!
This is one of the most visually stunning and impactful thumbnails I think I have ever seen posted.
Mark, your talent for capturing someone's soul- whether tortured, alight or at ease at that time- is truly unparalleled.
You are a gift to this world Mark, you shine a light on people who may otherwise be shadowed and open our hearts to people in a way few could.
I thought the same. Stunning photo in the still.
it's a very arresting photo. almost makes your heart stand still from the pain in her eyes. I love Mark and Rebecca and am glad she at least seems to have a few consistent people in her life, including Mark. that hug was everything.
my heart breaks watching this. usually rebecca is very energetic but seeing her making herself so small and barely talking is frightening.. you can see her holding back tears too :( i think something very bad may have happened to her. i hope she heals and gets better.
Just remember that there is a silent majority that supports you Mark! You are doing the best you can for Rebecca. It is easy for people who don’t understand addiction to judge.
Sure is. 💔
Absolutely 💯
✅
The ones who find it easy to judge are the ones who desperately need compassion and empathy in their lives
She needs a long hug by a soft and squishy grandpa and I volunteer
Every new video that pops up, I'm sooooo waiting for the interview where Rebecca completely turns things around and becomes the person we all can see they can be
You need to love her as is
@@xxbbyy11 what's wrong with wanting peace and mental heath for someone. Loving someone often means wanting better for them and encouraging them.
I truly felt like Rebecca wanted to cry. This breaks my heart. Can’t imagine what trauma Rebecca has endured.
She’s so young and can’t cry .. that cuts deep 😢
Or what trauma he's caused to others through his actions.
@@TenaciousMegan I don’t think Rebecca is a vicious person.
Oh Rebecca, I just want to give you the biggest, biggest cuddle & to let you know that you are a beautiful individual who deserves so much happiness.
I feel your pain my darling and wish you all the love in the world 😢I do hope you will accept some support from Mark soon ! it may ease the trauma if only a little XxXxX
I see so much pain poor baby
I really just want this person to be okay. I want that for everyone in this world.
Love you 🙏🏼
This was a tough one to watch. Thanks for continuing to share Mark.
I agree 😢
@@carmen_sandiagoyou all need to look into mark just sayin
I have watched Rebecca so many times, today was very difficult. Her voice sounded sad, very tired, lost and in pain. I hope Rebecca turns her life around.
Mark you are a very special person, don't you ever doubt that.
She can’t breathe and I can’t breathe watching 😔 her skin is yellow and she has a knot on her head 😓
H e and h i m
Male side today? He is begging in his head for money for a fix is all that matters in his world! So sad 😢
it's a man...you people make him sicker playing into these games!
Agreed @jani775
I feel that people sometimes need to remember how SCARY the thought of being sober is to an (ab)user - being sober is the thing that was so incredibly painful that you started to do drugs to get away from it.
It's *Not* an easy choice to make.
100% FACT. As someone in recovery.
This is such a real perspective
It’s even harder to be sober after using drugs for an extended period of time…the initial problems have been compounded exponentially. It’s like trying to dig yourself out of a deep hole with a spoon. Most people aren’t able to do it. Reality is even harder to accept when you know firsthand that escapism is an option.
Very true. I've been struggling for over 20 years now with only about a week sober the whole time.
Thankyou!!
You may be the only person, ever showing this young man any real love and caring. He obviously is very bright. Also very entertaining. It is no secret he has mental health issues. The shame is that he cannot get off the street drugs, get proper treatment and get life changing medication. He suffers so much and does not have to if given the right treatment. There are so many broken souls. You have a kind caring heart. However no one can be helped if they will not help themselves. I know first hand. I lost 3 family members to addictions. I did what I could. My drug addicted alcoholic father lived with me for 11 years. It was very hard. I almost lost it myself in the process. However I am much stronger mentally. It is frustrating to give and give and see no improvement. We do the best we can...however many times it seems it is never enough. Another brother I have, would cry and cry, his brain was not working right. He is now in a home and getting proper meds. No more broken heart crying. No more intense suffering. If you reach a few then it has not been in vain. Everyone is "worth" it. Empathy and kindness is key. If Rebecca dies early, it will not be for your lack of helping or caring. There but for the grace of god go I. Deep hugs to you.
I agree Leemarie, he definitely needs proper help in a Mental Health Facility. I'm not sure that they will take him while he's still addicted to meth though, as l know they refused to keep one of my sons because of his drug addiction and unwillingness to see himself as an addict! They could not keep him on any medication long-term either because of the risk of him mixing his drugs with theirs into his system! He is very entertaining and intelligent and it's all being wasted as he cannot be helped like my own because they put their addiction above everyone and every opportunity in life. It's so sad but my tears are all dried up now!
I want to say that simply not using drugs doesn't fix mental illness and sadness. Even without substance use, some people can't live in the real world and get a job and support themselves. Help is needed, safety is needed.
Absolutely. Mental/psychological issues are mostly the reason people abuse drugs… not the other way around. And if they’re clean the underlying triggers can just show themselves better
every being needs purpose.
Also, I agree with you- the world has become too difficult for everyone to fit in and make it. We need to create 'worlds' scenarios and environments where those who don't fit in can find purpose, a way to contribute, and be happy while clean.
Actually, substances are how many can cope with their painful reality. I WISH and SEND and PRAY for absolutely beautiful energy for Rebecca and every other soul in such pain.
@@hannahw.3315 this is so very true
Every one of your videos makes me cry. My husband had a psychotic break during lockdown. He’s never been the same. He could end up out there somewhere, it terrifies me. All these people need is hugs, love, and a place to be safe!!! Our country is so cruel to the less fortunate! Breaks my heart.
I had a breakdown back in 2009. It took about 5 years before i felt back to some sembance of normal. Im proud to say im BETTER THAN I EVER WAS. That experience gave me strength i never knew i had.
Prayers to you & your husband. And thank you for not giving up on him. Its times like that when you find out who really cares about you. ❤
@@Parrotgirl-tattoo people, even my own family wanted me to leave. We are 3 years in and finally he’s getting better. Not the same, but he’s smiling and joking. It burned his life down. So hard to overcome. But after 30 years together, I’m not going any where. I Love Him. He is my person. How could anyone throw another person away. I’m so happy to hear how well you’re doing. Thanks for the reply!❤️
This one was tough, although he now has some weight and appears somewhat cleaner than usual, his soul is in so much pain. That hug was so needed.
Yeah, so much better than in the video before
She *
@@MsNikk5 no
He/she, him/her, they/them, looks much better looking as a he/him! Very good looking, and easy to look at!
@@PardieDiemStop yapping
Praying for Rebecca
I hear you Mark. . Thank you for walking across camera and embracing Rebecca. Probably the first time (maybe ever) this human has been held unconditionally. I am one of your commenters who speaks her mind but has not stepped up. How can I help. I live in Canada. I am a therapist that has spent my career working with addictions, and male survivors of sexual assault. Please reach out if there is anything at all I can do. Your compassionate gesture today with Rebecca was pivotal. The smallest kindness is where we need to start with her. She is like a feral animal now. Every moment she comes forward we just extend our hand.
Ever work at a Clinic on the Corner of Kennedy Rd. & Eglinton Ave. E.?
About 10-12 years ago?
Your name is familiar to me.
You might have helped me.
Hope soon Rebecca is ready to want help, real deep help.
In my experience as a trauma therapist in a trauma/mental health/addiction clinic for many years, when a trans female suddenly presented as a male it didn’t auger well for their mental state & usually for suicidality re self-acceptance. I pray Rebecca finds her way to solid, appropriate treatment. Her sweet soul is clearly suffering so badly.
Why she didn’t follow Cosmo’s lead is beyond my comprehension. That may have been her best chance of recovery and acceptance of her true self, with a future full of hope, creativity and joy. This new version of Rebecca as a male seems like she’s been forced into it, plus she’s been beaten up it seems. Rebecca, I know you read these comments and when I tell you that I bought one of your personally signed books, you know that I truly care. Please reach out to Cosmo again and do what they’re recommending. I don’t care how drugged up you are on Crystal Meth, you still have enough IQ points to know that at this point, it’s probably your best chance of getting out of this torture chamber and back on track to become the wonderful girl you were always meant to be. Did your family get to you? What happened?
Your wonderful please help
My nephew is getting out of rehab on Friday from years of battling with meth addiction. I went and visited him last weekend and couldn’t believe the amazing difference. I just pray he can stay that way.
🙏
I want to send love and support from England 🇬🇧
@@osirism8161 i hope your nephew can recover from his addiction. God bless him and your family
My mother watches these to educate herself and to understand addiction and alcoholism. I, am a recovering alcoholic and addict and i am so grateful to you Mark! Keep going!!
I’m proud of your recovery! You got this!!
🖐🏻 A fellow addict in recovery. It's really lovely to hear your mum wants to educate herself on addiction. That's really special and great to have support 😊 although I'm a stranger, I know how hard recovery is and I'm proud of you and all who are in the same boat. All the best 😊
Were you in recovery when your mom started watching these videos. I want to share these with the alcoholic in my life but they get angry knowing I go to Alanon.😥 I pray for their sobriety🙏🙏🙏
Its nice to hear about someone trying to understand how these things work rather than just passing judgement or hand-waving it away like its an intentional choice they're making.
I am, too! Mark, your journalistic work is of great benefit to society. It’s clear that you’ve made every effort to help people you work with, especially Rebecca. ❤
You are doing a great job. Don't let others options in. You care more than most people. God bless you. She knows you care. It's up to her.
I hope after the camera turned off, rebecca opened up and talked to mark about what happened because clearly something traumatic happened recently
Or Rebecca doesn’t want to be interviewed anymore
This is beyond high. She’s been through something major. This is heartbreaking.
It’s like he’s trying to tell himself to remember to breathe.
You say only recently?....
Why do you think that? We’ve seen them like this
“she can’t even hold onto shoes”
I have been following Rebecca through your channel since the beginning. Mark, many of us know deep in our hearts that you have done all you can.
After the initial confusion of Rebecca’s appearance my heart goes out to Mark. I know he’s in a tough spot watching so many waste away.
Shoes were probably taken by whoever is "taking care" of Rebecca on the reg.
Sadly she seems to be more traumatized than any other interview.
So many prayers for her healing, safety, and recovery.🙏🏽
Bs he made this mess for money now she is famous in skid row and being a target because of it wake up mark is a piece of crap
thanks for that hug mark. it’s just what i wanted to reach through the screen and do.
Mark, you're amazing!
Mark - I’m so sorry that anyone said anything about what you do or don’t for Rebecca. I’ve watched for years the roller coaster she takes you - all of us, on. I applaud and thank you for your beautiful heart.
She doesn't take you on anything. She's an addict. She looks very dope sick here
Mark is a journalist and opportunist chasing stories for profit nothing more! Can't trust do goodness at all! Rebecca fresh out that clinic him and that lady had him admitted to that 2 other of Mark guest died at!
I wanted to hug her through this whole video. I sighed in relief when you finally did. Thank you, Mark.
This is exaclty how i acted after i was rxped. I cut all my hair off with kitchen scissors i just didnt want to look like me. I just didnt want to be here. Rebeccas been through something very traumatic and the laboured breathing is her trying to stop a panic attack and thats when she knows she safe with Mark. Its so sad. I pray she finds her way shes such a lost soul and its heartbreaking. She needed that hug.
She cut off her hair 6+ months ago because she got lice 😞
The labored breathing is because she’s coming down from a long amphetamine bender.
Nah I dont think its that deep. Its a drug induced psychosis,
Sending you love and support Ruth ❤
Ruth, I pray that you are doing better and taking care of yourself. Always remember that you deserve to be happy and are worthy of a good life❤❤❤
I’m literally crying. She is not okay. I don’t know how you went two minutes without giving her a hug. I wanted to grab her and hold her so she can feel love, even just for a split second
Damn. Something bad happened to Rebecca. Change of attire from normal and unable to really speak. I dont think this is about drugs. She's not saying anything is saying everything. Usually she doesn't stop talking.
There are other videos of exactly this side, he's withdrawing that's the problem, just like Mark said do you need your drugs ans it's ok to say you do because we all know your using, he just couldn't say it on camera that's why he did this interview for money for drugs. Same videos I've seen before,and Mark says he's done but Everytime he shows up Mark give him money offers him a room. ECT ECT
I agree! Something very bad😞
This is one of her personalities. It's featured in several videos, but I don't think there is a video where she is like this the whole time. She always talks this way when she is in this mode. Just don't want you to be worried that something extra bad happened. Always appears very far away, agrees with everything, says "I guess" a lot.
@@SerafinaPdoes she have DID?? or is it like.. smth else
She wants something that she’s not asking for.
Oh Rebecca! This made me cry! I hope your breakthrough comes sooner than later. Mark, no good deed goes unnoticed! Thank you for being consistent and not giving up on Rebecca!
You really care for these people. Bless your heart.
This brought me to tears more than any other update of hers. She looks so fragile. So low. So tired. I hope she knows that she still has capacity for vibrancy, joy and safety. She just needs to choose that route for herself - we are all rooting for her so deeply. She doesn't need to be on her own anymore 💚
same
Seems like she’s coming down to me. One of the only times we see what happens when the drugs run out. This is why people use addictively, because they’re broken and in a lot of pain. Drugs are a way to numb the pain. When you come down you most definitely cry, sometimes uncontrollably until you get your fix again.
Soft belly producer you may be the one person that shows this young man positive attention, love, compassion and empathy. I pray for his healing. Keep doing what you do
Hey Brandon...If you arent aware..This is a case...THE case, rather, that Mark (Laita, the channels creator/producer) has been trying to help for YEARS at this point, if Im not mistaken..Usually "Rebecca" is here in a dress and being boisterous as they come. He(Mark) had to stop facilitating him/her(Rebecca) at some point, for his/her own good...
Seems that he's given into another try...again.
Its quite the saga.
You are absolutely correct. I don't need him think there's a doubt that Mark is the only person to care about Rebecca.
Thank God he does
He's a good man
God bless you
I am so glad you hugged him, he grabbed on - tears here and I think Rebecca was holding back the tears. Sometimes it's all we humans need is someone to 'be there' and hug goes a longggggg way. Much love Rebecca you are loved from the east coast my friend. Awesome portrait of Rebecca...that face just says so much. If I could help I would. Something about Rebecca ..... 💔
My heart is broken 💔
That's silent scream was deafening. Having Followed Rebecca in all of her guises over the interviews, this was by far, the hardest to watch. Rebecca, you have such a beautiful soul, and are very lucky to have Mark watching over you. I'm sure I speak for many by saying that if we could all give you a hug to show you how much love there is in the world, we would. Keep fighting those demons and I hope you find the inner strength to overcome everything x much love from GB x ❤
Silent scream is such an eerily accurate descriptor 💔
I Agree … painful ….. the worse I have ever seen her
I agree!!! Her soul definitely needed that hug!!!!💜💜💜
Rebecca DOESN'T need to apologize to us!? We dont want her better for us, we want her better for REBECCA, not us. 💔
🎯🎯🎯
She’s very depressed, I can see she doesn’t want to talk. Mark can surely see that, she’s not ok.
We can want all that but it means nothing until she wants it. At this point, i personally don’t care who she does it for. As long as she does it!
@@WendyHannan-pt7ez she is also drugged at this moment, hence her behavior of not speaking
She has talked about suicidal ideation in the past and I hope she can get through this. 😢
The hug felt around the world. Thank you, Mark
My thoughts exactly..❤️
Rebecca, I doubt it you’ll see this but imma say it anyway. I know what you’re going through,I know you feel no one cares and you’re better off gone than living. I know you’re dreading the withdrawals it’s easier to self medicate than to cope with reality it’s overwhelming. Just know there are people who care and you are loved recovery is possible life is worth living. Please don’t give up on yourself I believe in you and you’re so much stronger than you think beautiful. I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers ❤
This is easily my favorite portrait of Rebecca. It stopped me in my tracks. What a beautiful looking person. I pray for their healing!
That hug said more than the person did.
Mark Laita is an incredible man.
The way Rebecca was dressed made me wonder if she had been assaulted (sexually or just a violent encounter) and the more masculine styling was done to create a less vulnerable or fragile looking image, for protection after whatever happened. She looked on the verge of crying the whole time and I was so relieved when Mark went to hug her because I was wishing I could so badly. I feel like Rebecca is getting to the end of her rope where maybe she will accept help. If not, this dejected disposition makes me fear she will make another attempt to leave this world. I'm praying that the discomfort of living strung out on the streets outweighs the discomfort of facing her pain in recovery and she decides to try.
I thought the same thing. 😢
i was thinking this
Or She has Someone who is "caring" for, controlling, and dressing Her while also possibly degrading and abusing Her.
Whatever the situation we pray for so much Healing and Comfort.🙏🏽
While all of this might be true, what crossed my mind is she is not high, and thats taxing enough on mind and body...
Exactly my thoughts. I never seen her dressed as a man before and so vulnerable.
Mark , I can not tell you how wonderful you are! Thenk you for bringing these beautiful people and sharing their story. Dont ever let anyone say you arent doing enough! God Bless you!
Thanks Mark. Personally, I have never thought or written that you are not doing enough for Rebecca. I can imagine how painful it must be to want the best for her and constantly see her fall. I admire your continuing hope for Rebecca's happiness and recovery.
I AGREE! Couldn’t have said it better! Thank you, Mark. You have a heart of gold.
Mark, I’m a 23 year old , started watching your videos when i was 19 my friend told me about you. I love and appreciate your content so much. So much insight to why people are the way they are. instead of shaming you really help to understand perspective. I wish i could help people the way you do. One day when I’m established in whatever i plan to do, I won’t forget these videos. I want to help people too. I’m not going to forget this
If that’s what you want to do, you will. Serving others less fortunate is this world’s greatest gift you can give.
@@Liahs333 I was a child protective social worker for 30 years. Indeed, it is gift to serve others. No regrets.
@@RayThomas-fl7fo Wow, I could not even imagine the suffering you saw and I’m sure felt. Those jobs are for extraordinary people. Well done and thank you for your service 🩷
The hug heard around the world.
Brought tears to my eyes. It was so very much needed.
What a beautiful way of putting it! ❤
Mark I think your videos are profound because they bring so much awareness to those who watch your videos. It is a mission that you are doing….showing through human side of their stories. Thank you !
"I'll be better next time, I promise."
Baby, what happened 🥺🥺🥺
I'm sorry, whatever it was. You don't need to perform for us. ❤
Of course he does. You're all here for it so you can make your virtue signalling comments and feel important.
@@huitrecouture Really kinda a cold and obviously untrue statement. If you're not here to help or uplift or even care about Rebecca...no one's forcing you to be here.
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@@huitrecouturepeople are concerned, there’s a difference. why would anyone who truly care write “to feel important” it’s basically ppl who care being selfless to understand what rebecca is going through and if she’s actually doing okay because she has potential. people want the best for her. she’s smart even while on whatever she’s on. she’s been interviewed for a couple of years on this platform so yes people will be concerned. people will notice the difference in her. pol want her to see what we all see which is anyone who wants the best and see she can truly turn her life around. she has a great amount of people praying for her and keeping her in their hearts. that’s selfless. not selfish.