Brutally honest: going back is probably the lesser of 2 evils in terms of your health. You need to be fed and warm to be able to do anything else in life. Once you have those needs met you can make a clearer decision.
It's not selfish to want people to do those things for you like feeding you and looking after you. You can't look after other people when you have nothing to look after yourself. I'm a teacher and I see first hand how not having the basics for survival at the bottom of Maslow hierarchy of needs prevents people from feeling well or learning.
I've watched you for a while now, admittingly not constantly but I keep checking in because I adore you content and you as a person! You bring something good into this world even when the world treats you wrong! I'm sorry the world keeps letting you down. Is there a petition you can make that we can sign and get you help? Perhaps grandma's is a choice you should really consider, if it goes wrong you can always leave. Freedom comes in many forms, maybe if you go live there find something that makes you feel free. Find your escape!
Bo, does your grandmother know about your DID? Is she emotionally supportive? And understanding? Where is Casey in all this? Are they emotional supportive? Have you talked to them about how you are really doing? If Casey is over there eating all the time, why isn't he helping out with food? Bo, I know you really like your therapist but someone with your income really can't afford to pay therapist. You should get one through the government programs. You are lucky you have that as an option. Maybe people live where therapy isn't available if you can't pay. I also think you should talk to your grandmother before making a decision. Find out if she will let you bring the cats and have Casey visit? Knowing that may help you in making a decision. If you live with you grandmother, maybe you could get canceling head phones so you could still play music 🎶 as loud as you want. How far is college from your grandmother's? You would be able to continue your studies? You have a car so you would still be able to go places. Maybe you should make a list of good and the bad about living with your grandmother. It is a tough decision. But I will say as a long time follower I have noticed the difference in how you are now compared to a few years back. I have been worried about you a long time. I would sure feel better knowing you were in a place with heat now that winter is coming on. A place with food and a hot bath. You need somewhere like that for now. 💜💜💜.
Sadly the free, NHS organised therapy is a terrible scripted service that feels more like they are running through a checklist than listening to you. It's more like a way for the nhs to say 'we provide this service' because they have to rather than providing quality care. It's very impersonal and the waiting list has meant lost lives.
I just want to say even though I have never commented previously ive watched your channel for a long time now. Please hang in there. If you need to go back to your families to be able to take care of you and get better. Then do what you need to, so that you can take care of you. You are an amazing person and you need to do what is going to be best for you and your health in the end.
Forget the subscribers who leave, look at those who stay. We do not get sick of you. You have every right to want those basic things in life and the fact you are speaking out and seeking help is a huge step forwards x x going home for a while is NOT a step back, it’s a step forward x x give yourself a break and don’t beat yourself up about it. Sending virtual hugs x x
Being able to say those needs out loud is important. Recognizing that you may need to made big changes to get the basics covered and get the help you need is so hard, and so brave. I sincerely hope saying it start the steps to get you to a place where you have the basics. Brutally honest:. IMHO going back home where you can rebuild and have those base levels covered is likely in your best interest. I am so lucky to have core family and friends that can understand my invisible condition. We share some of the same struggles. From what I've heard you say over the last couple weeks. You probably need to go home for a while get healthy get the basics covered. Which will leave you more time to get college covered and therapy and all the other things. I wish only the best for you 💜💜💜💜
Brave girl. Stating your vulnerability. I can see you have a lot of Adult in you and also a Child needing comfort and support. Probably shouldn’t give advice but I think that’s what you’re asking for. Go home to Grandma. Get warm, fed, bathed. The first step in recovery from DID is safety and stability, and internally and externally. Stability first. Regarding the cats, can you find a temporary home for them. Pick them up later when you’re better. Back to Maslow ah? He knew a thing or two. I’m a qualified therapist with a huge interest in DID so if you’d like some low cost therapy on zoom message me. You are doing fab ….. working on what’s best for you right now. You inspire me.
Having been a single mum using a food bank and other services and constantly worried about getting by, it is hard to feel like you have to give up. If you're homeless then everything is even harder. Asking for help sucks but sometimes there's no other choice. Once you finish school things will get better and you'll have more options. It's such a tough choice! Sending 💜💜💜
it ain't selfish to want someone to take care of you, basic needs and worrying about them not having them can make every other thing impossible, and you shouldn't feel bad for complaining, your situation sucks might be worth it to stay with your grandmother until you're in a better position mentally and financially. keep in mind if you do since it sounds you would be losing freedom and some support structures/things you do enjoy is that it is intended to be and will only be temporary, it's a bouncing off board to get in a better place to work on yourself, you're worth that
I lived with my grandma from 18-25 years old, Bobo! She helped me learn how to be an adultier adult! I am so, so grateful for the time she let me live with her! If there is no risk of abuse at your grandma's, definitely go back! It's normal to want to have basic needs met and there is nothing wrong with asking for help! We love you Bobo and Co.! Please do what is best for you and your health!
Asking for help is not a weakness, do what you need to care for yourselves. We have just been conditioned to believe that asking for help is weakness. Fighting for yourself is the strongest thing.
Make a pros and cons list babe. Best thing you can do. And depression sucks. Having someone running some water for a bath would be amazing. Cause I battle with depression and I can't even do the bare minimum most days.
How is your roommate buying a bunch of stuff and not paying for stuff at the apartment? It breaks my heart to hear the people closest to you using you like this. Even your partner. They are not your responsibility. They should try to take care of you. I hope you can go and get better and healthy. Do what is best for you Bobo.
I'm wondering the same. Buying a bunch of makeup but they don't have hot water and the power keeps going out? I haven't even gotten a haircut in way over a year because that's money I need for bills. Can imagine buying make-up if I didn't even have hot water. She needs a much better roommate next time.
I have always appreciated your honesty so much... I wish I could help but I'm in the same boat... Complain as much as you want at least you're not pretending... I always feel the pressure to pretend I'm doing better than I really am. I do the same thing with the blaring music it helps block out the chaos?
For me it's music with headphones on and it's Ólafur Arnalds when I want to just focus on the music and forget everything else for a little while. His compositions are so beautiful that I can't even quite put it into words. But music is such an important part of us as humans; it can be a passionate emotional outlet.
I think you have already made your mind up to go back. It sounds like you need some stability, and you need your basic needs met. It is scary, and it might affect you mentally, but you can’t work on mental health if you are freezing to death. I hope you do what you need to do to feel safe, and I wish we could support more. Sending our love and good vibes.
Going to your grandmother's seems like your best option right now. You can't continue to live without heat, food lights and hot water. Winter is coming. I know it will be hard to give up your apartment but the way you're living now just isn't sustainable for you. Living with your Grandmother will give you time to sort yourself out and make a plan for going forward. In the meantime, you'll be warm and fed. I wish you well.
I think it's probably for the better that you move or at least have a conversation about it with them. It sounds like a much better option then where you are currently and a lot of the issues will probably either solve themselves or at least be work-able. Even though it may feel like a step back sometimes it's just needed to get life back on track and it's not forever, you can get back to being moved out just at a time when financially you are more able to do so.
Its not that we're sick of it, its that our hearts are breaking seeing your life getting harder and harder. I am shocked over and over that the landlord is allowed to turn the heat/gas off just like that when it feeezing - in Canada its against then law! And when you're struggling so hard thats really sad that someone else is expecting you to buy them food. All your basic needs have been gone for too long. Its frustrating and heartbreaking to hear how worse than bad its getting. I think the one inside yelling for help is right. If there is somewhere safe to go that can give you the basic foundation it would be the best option.
Here some houses have a pre-pay electric and/or gas meter. It works the same as a pre-pay phone - you go to a shop that sells the top ups and pay however much you want to put on the meter, then come home and put the card or key in the meter and you have that much electric or gas to use. Once what you paid for is used then the power will turn off until you too it up again. It is often the poorest people who end up with this system of gas and electric. Landlords who accept tennants who are on government benefits often seem to have them and also when people have got in debt to the electric/gas company because they can't afford the bills then the electric/gas company will come out and fit them. It's also the most expensive way to get electric/gas because you literally get charged just for having the thing. If you use absolutely no electric/gas at all because you can't afford it that week, it will still wrack up a debt so that when you finally put money on it, it will first take a lump sum to cover that and only leave you what's left to actually use to power your home. So yeah, the landlord is not actively turning the power off, it's just that they are probably on one of these pre-pay meters so they have to be able to pay for it before they get any electric/gas. Also, I don't know where the law actually officially stands on it but there are always cases that are common to hear about every winter of elderly and disabled people dying because they can't heat their houses enough. It's similar to the statistics of people dying because of having their government benefits taken away and not being able to survive, it's all swept under the rug and the government pretends it's not happening or that it's somehow the people's own fault so that they don't have to admit responsibility.
I can see what a tough position you're in :( but it may be best to go where you'll be able to have certain needs met so that you can gradually meet others & find your way through. Sending so many huggies. I know its hard, I was stuck living with my parents until I was 28 with a baby because of similar reasons and it was really hard for similar reasons 💔 we are all here for you whatever you do xxx
If you can’t have your basic needs met where you are then you should go where you can have them, even if it’s back with your family. Food heating, and such are more important than the rest. I really feel for you about the cats. As far as music goes, you’ve probably tried this but maybe headphones? Ik you’ve probably already tried that, though so sorry if that sounds obvious. Sending the biggest hugs, hang in there!
I'm so sorry you're in this dire situation. Basic necessities are a human right, and it's not your fault we live in capitalistic systems that commodify those needs for profit and keep us on the edge of poverty and death. It's also not your fault you have an extremely debilitating mental disorder that makes working in this capitalistic system even harder. I just donated $150 via your paypal, I hope that helps a bit. Have you considered starting a GoFundMe? I think it could help raise awareness and funding for your needs. Since you asked for our input on what you should do next, I'll say that it sounds your grandma's might be the place to go right now until you can regain stability and mental health. I think you'll be able to find your independence and freedom again once you've reestablished your foundation, and the most important thing is keeping yourself safe and alive. I'm wishing for your recovery and happiness
Hey there. Oh gosh. Tough stuff my dear. First of all, I love all the personal realisations/learning (as fricken hard as it is) that you’re figuring out about yourself and about what you need. Identifying what you need is fricken huge. You’re very on top of the pros and cons of moving back with your grandma. As someone who lives with a family member due to not being able to afford living by myself - and that family member being triggering etc - it’s a LOT. And I struggle a lot tossing up the massive list of securities I get living here vs being able to have distance from someone who isn’t good for me emotionally. I think a lot of people in the comments have a good point - for now, moving back might be the go. It’s not forever. And it could give you the rest and reset you so desperately need. Time and space to be warm, fed, and rested - and perhaps after that, the space to refigure PIP, therapy, and how to get those other important things happening. And can’t tell the future - but I see you being able to move out again. I just see you needing a desperate pause on things. A pause, rest, reset, space to look at and get help with any paperwork to help support you as you move forward (like PIP or doctors notes for college etc) And like a few people in the comments have mentioned - why does it sound like so much of this falls on you? How much do Casey and your roommate contribute to living there? Do they not see your struggles? I don’t know the ins and outs but it sounds like you’re forever in an unfair position. And perhaps time at your grandma’s with space will help you rebuild strength for boundaries as you move forward once you’re ready. And if your family turn around in any way negatively about this - gosh. I don’t know what I’d say…. If you think you can go back to your grandmas for now and it be ok enough - then hold on even extra to the people who do believe you and care and know you. And get through till you can make some different changes to living arrangements. But if it’s going to be too unhelpful - gosh. You’ve got big decisions, big needs, big worries dear Bo. But you’ve got so many lovely people here who want to see the best happen for you. And I don’t live in the UK but surely, with some space and help, you could redo paperwork for PIP and other supports. There’s got to be. And maybe what you’re saying here is you need rest and food and warmth first before those things can be figured out. Coz it’s all piling up. I’ve rambled. I’m sorry. Take care. Hold on to the people who care. One step at a time. Know that if you move back to your grandparents it won’t be forever. It’s not a step back, but a side step in order to step forward. You got this.
I’m a complete stranger to you. But to me you are my friend. I have watched your channel for a few years now and you are so relatable. I have hoped for a number of months now that you might have someone in your family or in your circle of friends who you could move in with who would take care of you. Sure it would be a bit of a trade off in some ways but, keep reminding yourself that things will get better. You will get yourself into a better position to be able to look after yourself. You can afford the things you need if you aren’t constantly supporting everyone you care about all the time. You living with grandma sounds like everything you need right now and the downfalls can be worked around. Buy yourself a set of noise canceling headphones when you don’t have to pay rent and you can listen to whatever you want without disturbing anyone. If grandma isn’t cool with Casey staying over, then stay somewhere else for the night. You will be able to afford it easier when your not scrounging for electric. If there is a will there is a way. I believe in you. If New Zealand wasn’t so far away I’d bring you home with us till you could stand on your own again. Please try grandma. And just take the cats. It’s always easier to ask for forgiveness than permission. Just turn up with two cats, and let both grandma and roommate know after the fact. Hugs to all of you. It’s going to be ok
It sounds to me like you know what you need, love. It may not be the perfect solution but you'll be safe. And you'll be fed and warm. Its okay to need help 💛
Que ejemplar ver que eres muy fuerte, afrontar situaciones tan difíciles, me gusta ver tus videos, a pesar de no entender tu situación, te mando buenas vibras y que estés bien.
I think you're stronger than you realize. You've made it this far with so many struggles and you're self aware to realize you need help and to think through your options more logically. And saying you need help is brave; not everyone is able to take that step. As long as you'll be safe with your grandma, use the opportunity to take a break from the stress of financial survival by staying there for a little while. I would say have a straightforward conversation with your grandma and maybe explaining to her that you intend to only stay temporarily would help convince her to let you keep the cats with you. Companion animals are so important for our mental health and having them depend on your care while having your basic needs met could be a good thing. Tell her that your cats help provide you comfort and motivation because you care for them. Stay in touch with friends by video chatting with them if it's possible and taking advantage of having wifi with your grandma. And I have to say it, the person spending all that time with you and eating your food when they see you're struggling and often don't even have food. Well "wtf dude?" That's not what a friend does. You said they have a home with food. A friend would take you a snack at least if they could spare it.
Oh honey! Omg I'm so sorry you're suffering like this. You need to reach out to someone closer to you then us I wish I could give you a big hug and tell you that you are SO MUCH MORE THAN NOTHING. HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT. I would love for you to reach out to us when need be but don't just stick it out. Get help. Please. As someone who has been ok and not ok(many times) please get help from someone you trust very much
I don't want to say the generic sh*t like I love you, you have a lot of value and all the other things that just make some of you feel happy momentarily because that's not what you need, we are strangers from interned we don't know each other BUT I want you to know that you can deal with it Maybe don't look like that right now and even think in suicide or thing's like that, but you can, you are not useless it's just that you pass for something really f*ck top, and it's completely normal to feel like that and think things like that anyone in your situation will be the same, You don't need help just support because you deal with something terrible and am not talking about inside your head I feel bad because I don't have money to give you and say that make me feel even worst because is really to imagine that every time you read something like that you have the hope that someone is going to help with money and when you realize that that one is not going to do it you feel bad so am really fucking sorry for don't help You can get better just some time and money, am sure someone it's going to help, but please try to find that someone I wish to be that one but am not, so please try Am happy to see your videos maybe I never comment, but I was watching Take care.
Asking for help isn't something to be ashamed of and I really hope your family is willing to help without making you feel indebted. It pains me to know you don't have food in the home. Have you tried church food pantries or any charitable food organizations in your town? Some of the places here even pay people's electric bill if they have a final notice, I live in the states so I don't know how things work in your country of residence but there are organizations to help people in need. My heart goes out to you and I hope things work out.
Personally I think going back would be best for your health because you need support. If you can, explain as much as you can to your family, remind them you’re an adult and all the things you need and try your best to tell them bluntly how you feel.
i think you would happier if you moved back! i know you are worried about not being able to go out as much or go to the shops etc but in your current situation when you are struggling you can't do things that often anyway. if you lived somewhere where you didn't need to pay as much for bills, food etc you might be able to save more money so on the occasions that you can go out or get to the shops, you would enjoy it more because you would be able to treat yourself rather than having to choose between something nice or food/bills for the day. if you move back it doesn't have to be forever, living on your own is hard especially on low income. especially when you are renting privately! i really think that this would be good for your mental and physical health as long as the house you would be moving into is safe e.g no history of toxic behaviour, manipulation, abuse, etc. there are better days ahead for you 🌻
You are super strong and brave and awesome! I think it will be safest for you to go to your grandmas, hard as it may be. As everyone else has said, its not permanent. You can get healthy and happy again, and then work out your plans.Whatever you decide tho, wishing you all the best! Lots of love xx
I think both choices are incredibly hard and I'm sorry life isn't better for you. Can you ask your grandma about your pets first and If you can take the cats that will help comfort you. As for music it's not quite the same but I have noise cancelling ear phones and blast them out loud so it's loud for me and no one else that could be a solution at your grandma's. I think if you can get food and warmth from your grandma it might be the lesser of two evils. It's not selfish to want someone to care for you. That's what you deserve someone who looks after you. You deserve to feel safe and happy. Also for pip I have so many friends who have appealed it and got it. So maybe its worth reapplying and trying again because you should be eligible out government is just awful. If you need any help with it I'm happy to help you. As for complaining. Everyone would in your situation. We love you for who you are and you are allowed to feel how you feel and complain because its an awful situation and this is your place to express how you feel so please continue to do so as we all support you.
Asking for and accepting help is difficult for me. I feel like there is always something going on in life that's a struggle. For everyone. Your honesty is a breath of fresh air in this chaotic world. I agree with the sentiment that going to your family may be the best option. As long as you're safe there. If you are not going to feel safe that isn't going to serve you for long. The impression I get is you feel safe enough going back there. Being too cold and I undernourished sends me and my system into a downward spiral. You are right, there is a big difference between now and a few years ago. I believe in you and I know you will figure out what's best for you. Keep us posted. We care.
I haven't finished but it's not weird to play music loudly. I don't have DID but I have sensory overload. But I don't blare it much anymore. My partner is sound sensitive and so is her girlfriend. I'm sorry you're struggling so hard
I play music loudly all the time then don’t know why I can’t concentrate on normal conversations lol. I’m probably doing some bad stuff to my hearing but it’s a real comfort. Even having my headphones on my ears is really nice
This is how people become homeless and for that i am.sorry. one mudt choose between a roof and all the expenses or food and the choice is always food. Your grandma' s spot sounds promising..i myself had hit that place some call the bottom and i am.46 bow..44 then..and i returned to my mum and dads place.. Its all temporary afterall.. And theres something to be said for having a safe space while getting back on ones feet and hooefully abke to put one foot in front of the other..until eventually you find your place bc we all find our way in life. And i have travelled to many countries where families living together is the norm. All you can be ia yourself..and do your best. When people love each other they help each other..and who needs fake subscribers anyway.its not a failure to ask for help. Its a failure not to. And if you keep up like tbis holding it all on your own then you may find yourself instututionilzed.be your own best friend ..
I think, if anything, you should reach out to your grandma and talk to her about your hesitations. Idk your relationship with her specifically, but it sounds better than your mums. Maybe stay there for a week, if allowed. You can feel it out before choosing. These are just my raw thoughts after watching, hope it helps a bit… I want to help.
My heart goes out to you. You look so sad. It is OK to want someone to take care of you. It's okay to need that. Once your basic needs are met, it is much more possible to think clearer. Please take care.
Some colleges can help u get food bank vouchers (mine did) and the college canceler should be able to give u advice on the rent situation I get my self in this same rut when I had it during college the concealer there gave me really good advice and got me food bank vouchers I'm going to log back into insta and give u a DM sending love n hugs maybe have a chat with ur nan and explain u would like to come back but can u all figure out some ground rules u ALL agree with like having Casey over and staying up late as u are an adult explain what areas u need support in
Please listen to that voice and do what you feel like is Best for you right now. Having warm food, warm water and heating is the Best you can do for your mental health, and i feel like having therapy but not having any of those isnt gonna solve anything, only postpone. I hope that youre gonna do what you feel like will be the Best in your situation. Im worried about you and hope its all gonna get better. Im really sorry that all of this is happening to you, it shouldnt happen to anyone. No one deserves to live like this. Please please take care
Having all your basic needs covered will give you more time and strength to do all the other things, i cant wait to see what you will do, draw, maybe when its easier on your mental health you could find something that you want to do that generates some income, of course it might take time, but slow steps and feeling out the situation is much better than rushing. But for now, i hope that you Will have all the strength in the world to get to that Cant wait to see you happy and healthy, Bo
As much as it will hurt to go back, it sounds like that's your best option for now. You can get healthy again, get your head clear and revisit more options once your basic needs are met and you have a more stable source of income to go out on your own again. I wish you nothing but the best. ❤
Bo, sweetheart! You are not selfish for wanting someone to take care of you, especially when you're taking of other people. I wish I could extend an arm to you and pull you up from the hole you're in. You're such a beautiful person, and it must be weird having people tell you these things over the internet, but I bet most if not all of your followers would be there for you in person if they could. I hate to see you sad and struggling! Wish I could give you a big hug and be there for you. It's such a helpless feeling to see someone you care about be in pain without being able to help. Stay strong, you guys ♡♡♡ you deserve to feel happy and safe
Hang in there. I just want to say, please... please, if you need to go back, even if it is only for a bit. You need time and help. It will not be fun, if anything as you have acknowledged it will be painful, sad, and hard. You might lose some of the very things that you care so much about right now, but it will give you time and comfort to build that starting block of independence again. Sometimes you need to do what you need to do to give yourself a proper fighting chance. That is what life does sometimes it piles one bad thing on top of another on top of everyone's Jenga tower unbalancing the tower further and further. While the pile of bad and sad and pain just grows, and at one point in time, it snaps and just comes crumbling down, burying you down below. Don't let this situation bury you. If it requires you to move back and get help... then do that. Get the help, start again, and build back that base, you WILL be in more control, you WILL be able to stand again, and you WILL be independent and happy again. Take care of yourself, you are an amazing person, and that is happiness and calm. Know you are not starting from step 1 again, you have gone far, you have not failed, you are not lost, you are facing a setback, and you are still moving forwards to your dreams and ideal future. Hang in there, while it doesn't seem like things will not always feel as dark as today.
Your basic needs are what’s most important right now. If your situation isn’t improving, you may have to go back to your family home. I know it will be hard being there mentally but you can focus on getting better mentally if you don’t have to worry about the basic needs. Nothing wrong with asking for help either. Also don’t focus on the subscribers that left, focus on the ones who stay. ❤️
I don't understand enough to make that decision for you, so I'm sorry, but I do want you to make sure it's what will be best for you. Like if your flat mates could pick up some of the cost (maybe they are and I'm just confused) cause I don't understand why it's all on you. Or if your family home would just be worse because of what's happened there. I just want you to be safe and healthy, so whichever choice that is please do it. I live in the house of one of my traumas and it's not easy but it's better than the alternative. I will support your choice no matter what, and I promise I will never just unsubscribe no matter what you vlog about! You deserve better. In happy news my kitten that was sick is completely better and she has been purring nonstop for 3 or 4 days now. Every time we hold her she purrs herself to sleep and it makes me so happy 🥰
It may be a bit of a long shot but have you tried going through the council to get help with housing and rent? As I’m sure you and Casey would both be eligible for housing benefit, also there’s a place called PATH that can help with things like housing and finding funds for a deposit and rent etc. it’s worth contacting them and telling them your situation. Explain that you need Casey to move with you as he is your carer. Or if you do move in with your grandma see if Casey can move with you for support. There is nothing wrong with complaining as such. If your struggling it is best to speak out and get it off your chest. Do not be afraid to ever ever speak out regardless of how big or small the problem is ❤️
Alli can say about goimg back home to grandma s house where abuse has occured in the past is tbat it is totally understandable that you would be having the internal struggle about returningto the scene of the crime. Because thats what it was..anyway hopefully the abuser is not still in home and if not then i would say that as a young adult that you have new tools in your toolbox that you have collected as you have healed..do what feels right.do what is right. For you
I think you should go back home. It’s hard to go so long without basic needs. Hopefully you’re able to make a compromise with your family in order to still have some freedoms while having a safe place to stay. I’m sorry you’re going through so much.
Go to your grandma’s house. There’s no shame in asking for help. It’s only temporary, and if you explain the situation to her then you can both work together to work something out. It’s okay to take some time to take care of yourself. If you’re not in a position to take care of yourself right now, as long as you know it’s safe for you, it’s not shameful or undignified to ask for help from other people. It probably would really help your FND as well
Absolutely not going to advise you, as only you know the full situation and where you will be safest. I just wanted to say that things will get better, keep fighting sweetheart xxx
I haven't finished watching yet but just want to chime in. It's your channel and you're allowed to talk about whatever you want, if it's complaining, hey, it's ok. You need to talk and let it out. Maybe some people don't like that, but they can just go. You've been doing it rough for a really long time, it's ok to say your not happy about how things are going. Reaching rock bottom is kinda good in a way. It forces you to reassess EVERYTHING. To make actual changes in your life. It's sounds like that's where you're at right now. You're right that in terms of your basic needs being met, something needs to change. You can't have good heath and well-being when you can't eat regularly, or be warm, or wash. It's not sustainable to keep going in the current way. IF your grandmother is a safe person, it's worth seeing if you could go there, at least in the short term, while you're studying. You'd need to have a talk about what her boundaries are regarding the cats, and Casey. And then make a decision, that's best for YOU ALL. For the music thing, can you blast your music with headphones? If staying with your grandmother becomes an option, figure out your budget, stick to it, use it as an opportunity to pay off debt, maybe save some money? You can do it. I believe in ya'll! One more thing, if your grandmother isn't really 'safe', by that I mean if it's going to do more emotional/mental damage in the long run to be around her, bin that idea. But try to figure out a different living situation. Maybe there's some cheaper option?
Hi ❤️ Im so sorry for you and I wish so deeply that I could help people like you. But we’re to similar with our situation.. 🥺 so from a spot outside for tonight with free wi-fi and company, I send the biggest hug to you ever ⭐️ I like to think that when you hit rock bottom, you have nothing left to lose. That’s scary, but all the paths are open and I’d rather die hoping than not 😜 Huge thoughts ॐ
There is alot going on. Within you and around you and in the world, everyone is feeling the stress and you certainly are feeling it more than most people. You have every right to vent and to express your struggle, I'm so sorry that its gotten to the point that you feel selfish for wanting basic needs. Thats horrible and I'm so sorry. Theres alot to take into account with the decision but what I got over all was that this may be the next part of your journey in life. Every stage of our lives is important, hard sometimes, debilitating sometimes yes, but God planned it all to strengthen you and guide you to where you need to be, that being said we can always call on God to help us, to take away pain, give us more strength, or help us make decisions. In my opinion I think it may be time to face your family and that house that you have held so much resentment and fear of. You are stronger and wiser now than you were the last time you were there and I believe you needed this time on your own to truley grasp who you are what you need and how it is in the world both good and bad. I feel if you decide to go back to your grandparents house it would be good to replenish your strength both physically and mentally but also a chance to humble yourself and know that this time of being under someones care again means that you have to respect their rules, this doesnt mean do every little thing they say without question but if you disagree you can speak respectfully to them and plead your case, and if they still say no instead of getting upset or taking it personally, try and understand their perspective and respect their final decision. Either decision you choose will be hard but I think going back to your grandparents house would bear good fruits. God bless you and keep you safe 💜💜💜
You need to go home just for a little while. Regroup recouperate and then you can try living alone again. It won't be forever living at your gradmas just until you are ok, sort out your finances, talk to college if they can help you with finances, some of them can. You can save up money while there for a new place.
So sorry,Bo..Well,I feel your other selves are looking out for you and wants the best for you.Yeah,life is a struggle especially with mental health and other health issues..I understand your worries a lot..Well,you feel safe to go back to grandma's house you should,love...Whatever,you feel is right for yourself you should to care for yourself all around.I listen to music on headphones living in an apartment complex..Maybe your grandma would allow you to take them,for cats are your comfort.Cats are sensitive and can feel when someone they love is in distress.I am not sick of it BoBo.I am still here from I understand in my own ways your struggles suffering mental illness myself.Yeah,I understand mental breaks too..[Talk to your grandma about things..]You need to get better and care for yourself.I know it's tough,I struggle myself. You not alone,Bo!
Is Casey an official carer? If so, would you be able to get a different one so they can just be your partner? It seems like you would have more help if you did since Casey isn't always there when it's needed. Wouldn't that make things easier? I'm sorry if I don't know how it all works as I'm from the US. It just seems like that might be something you could try instead of moving to your grandma's. But don't feel less than if you do need to move home. My husband and I had to live with my sister for a year and a half to get ourselves back on our own feet. I hope things start working out better for you soon.
Im going to say my opinions here...go back. Figure it out how to make it work,things will work out. But please get your needs met and get on your feet.
Sending all the love this video needs/needed I am also feeling a bit rock bottom today, mostly 'cos my dumb non Google based e-mail system has just gone back to the state where one of the copies of the app on the only device I can use now has re-synced with the archive so I lost my opportunity to delete the old e-mails I don't need. It sounds like actually as a system you might be safer mental health wise where you are. I'm sure the community here will send as much money and food as they can. I hope that helps 🙂
I have DID also. Remember, You are a survivor. Your brain is wired for survival, that's why you have DID. Your body did what it had to do for you to survive.Do not give up.I have been where you are. Going back is what you need to do for survival at the moment. As hard as it is.You need food, stable shelter and warmth.You can worry about everything else later. Right now just survive,you can do it. ❤
It's not a bad idea to ask your grandmother if you can stay there and if the bringing cats would be okay. You won't know unless you try. It will be so much harder to succeed at school unless your basic needs are met. It's not wrong to do what you need to do to improve your life. My advice is to offer to help out with whatever housework you are able to help with, and maybe even help with some expenses. Alternatively, maybe look into whether or not your school has housing on campus that you could get into or if there are other students that need a roommate in a place off campus. Ultimately the important thing is to come up with a plan. If you are able to go back to your grandmother's use that opportunity to get yourself back on your feet so that you can get your own place again in the future.
This really breaks my heart! You don't deserve living like this💔 I wish I could help in any way but I can't💔 I feel so sad about you losing subscribers because you "complain" in your videos, those people might have never gone through financial issues, it's the fucking worst not having money for your NEEDS! The only advice I could give you is that you should go with your family just for a few days/months and try to save money (earned by UA-cam or something else -?-) and when you feel a little better move out again. Maybe things get better😪
I think you answered your question yourself, love. You said that you were healthier at your grandma's, and it sounds like it's both mentally and physically healthier. I know change sucks, especially when you can see the potential of your life under better circumstances, and you focus on the positive things of a bad situation. School is so important to you right now, and if you really want to try to make it work, I say you should try going back to your grandma's. Tell them how you're focusing on being an even better person, but you need their help. Ask them for compromises when it comes to the cats and Casey. Every good relationship is based around listening, empathy, and compromises. It's not the end. You'll be independent/in your own place again some day.
Keeping you in my prayers we have DID and we also understand that money can be hard we are that same situation but hang on in there . I believe things will get better for you my friend. Maybe you can start a go fund me if have not already.
It is no where near selfishness to need support where you're not getting it. It sounds like staying at your grandma's would give you a bit of break and it sounds like the ability to save/use money for other things than rent and electric and debt. I don't know if driving is an issue because of the cost or because of your health but it sounds like both of those could be more doable if you move. It's a really hard decision where neither is fully ideal so maybe talk to Casey and maybe your roommate if you two have a relationship that it would make sense to chat with them about it.
I personally think that you should go back to your grandma's but with the firm knowledge that this is temporary and you are going to build yourself up and make plans for your next step. Planning your next step will stop you from thinking you've gone backwards. It really sounds like the right thing to do because not having heating this winter will make you so sad. I've been there. Try and take both your cats, it will help - you could pose it to your flatmate as a temporary situation, too. Change is horrible, but we are still here.
I have been here since you started the channel. Seen all the ups and down that you've shared. Ever since the move to this place things have gotten drastically worse. I know that your family is very complicated and quite horrible to you. But if there is a chance that you can be warm, clean and fed while you get back on your feet I would hope that it is a viable option. It may give you an opportunity to reassess some things in your life that are hurting you. Like someone said in the comments, is Casey an officially paid carer? If so perhaps you can get someone to do that for you. From what we have seen, you have spent untold amounts of energy and funds to take care of them. The only ones you need to worry and care for are you/the system and those kitties. I am thinking of you and keeping my fingers crossed that it will work out for you all.
Bub, go to family, get the love and care that you are craving, we all need it. Get that break and have respite Massive hugs. You can do it, you are so strong.
I would like for You... Yo be alright... mentally and fisically... And if that means being with Your grandes... I'll do that sacrifice... Mental health it's the fiesta thing and the most important...
It seems like living with you grandma might be the best decision for you rn. If you needed you could spend all your time in your room. The main downside I can see is that it could be very triggering living there. But if you can have access to people who are willing to care for you and it's a safe space then it might help your mental health a lot as well as physical. Lmk if this is out of line but it bothers me to hear that Casey lets you pay for their food, especially since I'm under the impression they're supposed to be YOUR carer not the other way around. It really upsets me to hear that bc I automatically feel like they don't have your best interest in mind, if they can afford a house they can afford food. I'm surprised at that situation and I had to say something bc it makes me a little angry to feel like you might be being taken advantage of. I love your videos, no matter how much or how often you complain. I can only hope things can turn around for 6ou soon💖💖💖
Keeping you in my prayers. It's not selfish to want those things. I would talk to your grandma about the cats.. I know my cats are everything to me. If you stay at your grandmas you could save money. Hopefully she would let you take them. Like I said I'm praying for you 🙏. I adore you ❤.
You need treatment sweetheart 🤗 I'm so sorry you are going through this, plz seek help and treatment. If grandma means food, warmth and security then go back to grandma.
Sweetheart you are literally shaking. You have tried everything you could to keep going but you need some help now. IF IT IS SAFE THERE, why don't you just try going your relatives for a short amount of time. 3 months? 6 months? Just eating and hot water will do you a world of good. It'll help you get your strength back and remove the pressures of paying for that stuff at least. I wish I could help you financially but I am going through my own crises at the moment. Love you.
are you able to apply for housing benefits, or universal credit? it should cover all your rent and bills. you deserve all the best, you're not selfish, you're being brave ♥
I really love you and every time you upload a video I feel like one of my friends is talking to me. I believe grandmother's house is a logical option under those circumstances. I'm 21, a 3rd-year psychology student and I'm living with my grandparents, I know that it won't be the same about freedom and feeling like an adult but at least stay with them until you can take care of your basic needs. Plus, I would really love to help you with your problems, at least financially. It's not a bad thing to ask for help. I hope things get better for you, I'm here for you, take care ❤️
Maybe just for a week, or two, go back to your grandmas, just temporarily. And try to get your pip back when you're there for the extra income. Get things sorted out then go back to freedom life.
Hey i got and idea... What about a Patreon Chanel? Or sharing your Paypal account? Or members here un UA-cam :D That could hello i'm some way Don't You think?
I'm so sorry but casey doesn't sound good for you. To expect you to feed them knowing you can't afford to heat your home or feed yourself is selfish. The bills and rent there should be evenly split between everyone that lives there and stays there for extended periods of time . I know you care about casey but it sounds as if though you're being used . You need to do what will help you get back on your feet, a roof over your head, food and warmth and you're grandma's sound like it would be good for you. It doesn't have to be long term you could find a place of your own if you want once you're back on your feet a little. No-one in the house you're in has you're best interests in mind casey included unfortunately
I hate to say this but what about selling your kitties or giving them up? It will be “that” much money that you could use for food on yourself? I honestly could not imagine giving up our kitties but me and my partner have an agreement that if we are struggling to look after ourselves we would give the kitties up so they could be looked after and we would be able to have that bit extra money.
@@BoboCoOfficial that’s totally understandable! It was just a suggestion. If you do decide to go back to you grandmothers I hope you are able to take the kitties. How is your roommate handling it all?
@@dominiquedugas2854 she is going on about basic needs you can live with out Wi-Fi…. Grow the fuck up really showing your age if you think Wi-Fi is what keeps you going
It was just one thing i mentioned, as a full time college student, its hard to keep up with coursework and online classes without. But thats the least of my worries, hence why ive not had wifi for 4 years. Its just a small thing on top.
access to internet at home is actually calculated into the relative poverty statistics (where your income is less than 50% of the average, e.g not being able to afford wi-fi, tv, leisure activities, phone bills etc) in social studies. where as in bo's situation they would considered in the absolute poverty, as that is when your income doesn't meet your basic needs such food, warmth, shelter to a sufficient standard to live. not having access to internet is a real issue in 2021, it's where most communication with family and friends is based and education and learning is accessed! most school aged children home work is now accessed via the internet, which leads to a whole section of children having education issues because they don't have any internet or computer type device access. so, to think that it is not a necessity is slightly closed minded!
You seem like a kind and awesome person. I am a new subscriber and if talking to someone would help, I have WhatsApp and Facebook, you are more than welcome to message or call me and it would be cool to get to know you. I know this is a old video but I am sorry that you're struggling :(
Brutally honest: going back is probably the lesser of 2 evils in terms of your health.
You need to be fed and warm to be able to do anything else in life. Once you have those needs met you can make a clearer decision.
It's not selfish to want people to do those things for you like feeding you and looking after you.
You can't look after other people when you have nothing to look after yourself.
I'm a teacher and I see first hand how not having the basics for survival at the bottom of Maslow hierarchy of needs prevents people from feeling well or learning.
I've watched you for a while now, admittingly not constantly but I keep checking in because I adore you content and you as a person! You bring something good into this world even when the world treats you wrong! I'm sorry the world keeps letting you down. Is there a petition you can make that we can sign and get you help? Perhaps grandma's is a choice you should really consider, if it goes wrong you can always leave. Freedom comes in many forms, maybe if you go live there find something that makes you feel free. Find your escape!
I totally resonate with this comment and agree.
Bo, does your grandmother know about your DID? Is she emotionally supportive? And understanding?
Where is Casey in all this? Are they emotional supportive? Have you talked to them about how you are really doing? If Casey is over there eating all the time, why isn't he helping out with food?
Bo, I know you really like your therapist but someone with your income really can't afford to pay therapist. You should get one through the government programs. You are lucky you have that as an option. Maybe people live where therapy isn't available if you can't pay.
I also think you should talk to your grandmother before making a decision. Find out if she will let you bring the cats and have Casey visit? Knowing that may help you in making a decision.
If you live with you grandmother, maybe you could get canceling head phones so you could still play music 🎶 as loud as you want.
How far is college from your grandmother's? You would be able to continue your studies? You have a car so you would still be able to go places.
Maybe you should make a list of good and the bad about living with your grandmother. It is a tough decision.
But I will say as a long time follower I have noticed the difference in how you are now compared to a few years back. I have been worried about you a long time. I would sure feel better knowing you were in a place with heat now that winter is coming on. A place with food and a hot bath. You need somewhere like that for now. 💜💜💜.
Sadly the free, NHS organised therapy is a terrible scripted service that feels more like they are running through a checklist than listening to you. It's more like a way for the nhs to say 'we provide this service' because they have to rather than providing quality care. It's very impersonal and the waiting list has meant lost lives.
I just want to say even though I have never commented previously ive watched your channel for a long time now. Please hang in there. If you need to go back to your families to be able to take care of you and get better. Then do what you need to, so that you can take care of you. You are an amazing person and you need to do what is going to be best for you and your health in the end.
Forget the subscribers who leave, look at those who stay. We do not get sick of you. You have every right to want those basic things in life and the fact you are speaking out and seeking help is a huge step forwards x x going home for a while is NOT a step back, it’s a step forward x x give yourself a break and don’t beat yourself up about it. Sending virtual hugs x x
Being able to say those needs out loud is important. Recognizing that you may need to made big changes to get the basics covered and get the help you need is so hard, and so brave.
I sincerely hope saying it start the steps to get you to a place where you have the basics.
Brutally honest:. IMHO going back home where you can rebuild and have those base levels covered is likely in your best interest.
I am so lucky to have core family and friends that can understand my invisible condition. We share some of the same struggles.
From what I've heard you say over the last couple weeks. You probably need to go home for a while get healthy get the basics covered. Which will leave you more time to get college covered and therapy and all the other things.
I wish only the best for you 💜💜💜💜
Brave girl. Stating your vulnerability. I can see you have a lot of Adult in you and also a Child needing comfort and support. Probably shouldn’t give advice but I think that’s what you’re asking for.
Go home to Grandma. Get warm, fed, bathed. The first step in recovery from DID is safety and stability, and internally and externally. Stability first. Regarding the cats, can you find a temporary home for them. Pick them up later when you’re better. Back to Maslow ah? He knew a thing or two.
I’m a qualified therapist with a huge interest in DID so if you’d like some low cost therapy on zoom message me.
You are doing fab ….. working on what’s best for you right now.
You inspire me.
Having been a single mum using a food bank and other services and constantly worried about getting by, it is hard to feel like you have to give up. If you're homeless then everything is even harder. Asking for help sucks but sometimes there's no other choice. Once you finish school things will get better and you'll have more options.
It's such a tough choice! Sending 💜💜💜
it ain't selfish to want someone to take care of you, basic needs and worrying about them not having them can make every other thing impossible, and you shouldn't feel bad for complaining, your situation sucks
might be worth it to stay with your grandmother until you're in a better position mentally and financially. keep in mind if you do since it sounds you would be losing freedom and some support structures/things you do enjoy is that it is intended to be and will only be temporary, it's a bouncing off board to get in a better place to work on yourself, you're worth that
I lived with my grandma from 18-25 years old, Bobo! She helped me learn how to be an adultier adult! I am so, so grateful for the time she let me live with her! If there is no risk of abuse at your grandma's, definitely go back! It's normal to want to have basic needs met and there is nothing wrong with asking for help! We love you Bobo and Co.! Please do what is best for you and your health!
You are so loved
Trauma robs us of so much more, than people can ever know.
Asking for help is not a weakness, do what you need to care for yourselves. We have just been conditioned to believe that asking for help is weakness. Fighting for yourself is the strongest thing.
Make a pros and cons list babe.
Best thing you can do. And depression sucks. Having someone running some water for a bath would be amazing. Cause I battle with depression and I can't even do the bare minimum most days.
How is your roommate buying a bunch of stuff and not paying for stuff at the apartment? It breaks my heart to hear the people closest to you using you like this. Even your partner. They are not your responsibility. They should try to take care of you. I hope you can go and get better and healthy. Do what is best for you Bobo.
I'm wondering the same. Buying a bunch of makeup but they don't have hot water and the power keeps going out? I haven't even gotten a haircut in way over a year because that's money I need for bills. Can imagine buying make-up if I didn't even have hot water. She needs a much better roommate next time.
I have always appreciated your honesty so much... I wish I could help but I'm in the same boat... Complain as much as you want at least you're not pretending... I always feel the pressure to pretend I'm doing better than I really am. I do the same thing with the blaring music it helps block out the chaos?
For me it's music with headphones on and it's Ólafur Arnalds when I want to just focus on the music and forget everything else for a little while. His compositions are so beautiful that I can't even quite put it into words. But music is such an important part of us as humans; it can be a passionate emotional outlet.
I think you have already made your mind up to go back. It sounds like you need some stability, and you need your basic needs met. It is scary, and it might affect you mentally, but you can’t work on mental health if you are freezing to death. I hope you do what you need to do to feel safe, and I wish we could support more. Sending our love and good vibes.
Going to your grandmother's seems like your best option right now. You can't continue to live without heat, food lights and hot water. Winter is coming. I know it will be hard to give up your apartment but the way you're living now just isn't sustainable for you. Living with your Grandmother will give you time to sort yourself out and make a plan for going forward. In the meantime, you'll be warm and fed. I wish you well.
I think it's probably for the better that you move or at least have a conversation about it with them. It sounds like a much better option then where you are currently and a lot of the issues will probably either solve themselves or at least be work-able. Even though it may feel like a step back sometimes it's just needed to get life back on track and it's not forever, you can get back to being moved out just at a time when financially you are more able to do so.
Its not that we're sick of it, its that our hearts are breaking seeing your life getting harder and harder. I am shocked over and over that the landlord is allowed to turn the heat/gas off just like that when it feeezing - in Canada its against then law! And when you're struggling so hard thats really sad that someone else is expecting you to buy them food.
All your basic needs have been gone for too long. Its frustrating and heartbreaking to hear how worse than bad its getting. I think the one inside yelling for help is right. If there is somewhere safe to go that can give you the basic foundation it would be the best option.
Here some houses have a pre-pay electric and/or gas meter. It works the same as a pre-pay phone - you go to a shop that sells the top ups and pay however much you want to put on the meter, then come home and put the card or key in the meter and you have that much electric or gas to use. Once what you paid for is used then the power will turn off until you too it up again.
It is often the poorest people who end up with this system of gas and electric. Landlords who accept tennants who are on government benefits often seem to have them and also when people have got in debt to the electric/gas company because they can't afford the bills then the electric/gas company will come out and fit them. It's also the most expensive way to get electric/gas because you literally get charged just for having the thing. If you use absolutely no electric/gas at all because you can't afford it that week, it will still wrack up a debt so that when you finally put money on it, it will first take a lump sum to cover that and only leave you what's left to actually use to power your home.
So yeah, the landlord is not actively turning the power off, it's just that they are probably on one of these pre-pay meters so they have to be able to pay for it before they get any electric/gas.
Also, I don't know where the law actually officially stands on it but there are always cases that are common to hear about every winter of elderly and disabled people dying because they can't heat their houses enough. It's similar to the statistics of people dying because of having their government benefits taken away and not being able to survive, it's all swept under the rug and the government pretends it's not happening or that it's somehow the people's own fault so that they don't have to admit responsibility.
@@gabeangel8104 thats horrifying!
I can see what a tough position you're in :( but it may be best to go where you'll be able to have certain needs met so that you can gradually meet others & find your way through. Sending so many huggies. I know its hard, I was stuck living with my parents until I was 28 with a baby because of similar reasons and it was really hard for similar reasons 💔 we are all here for you whatever you do xxx
If you can’t have your basic needs met where you are then you should go where you can have them, even if it’s back with your family. Food heating, and such are more important than the rest. I really feel for you about the cats. As far as music goes, you’ve probably tried this but maybe headphones? Ik you’ve probably already tried that, though so sorry if that sounds obvious. Sending the biggest hugs, hang in there!
I'm so sorry you're in this dire situation. Basic necessities are a human right, and it's not your fault we live in capitalistic systems that commodify those needs for profit and keep us on the edge of poverty and death. It's also not your fault you have an extremely debilitating mental disorder that makes working in this capitalistic system even harder. I just donated $150 via your paypal, I hope that helps a bit. Have you considered starting a GoFundMe? I think it could help raise awareness and funding for your needs.
Since you asked for our input on what you should do next, I'll say that it sounds your grandma's might be the place to go right now until you can regain stability and mental health. I think you'll be able to find your independence and freedom again once you've reestablished your foundation, and the most important thing is keeping yourself safe and alive. I'm wishing for your recovery and happiness
Oh my gosh thankyou so much 😭😭😭😭😭😭
Hey there. Oh gosh. Tough stuff my dear. First of all, I love all the personal realisations/learning (as fricken hard as it is) that you’re figuring out about yourself and about what you need.
Identifying what you need is fricken huge.
You’re very on top of the pros and cons of moving back with your grandma. As someone who lives with a family member due to not being able to afford living by myself - and that family member being triggering etc - it’s a LOT. And I struggle a lot tossing up the massive list of securities I get living here vs being able to have distance from someone who isn’t good for me emotionally.
I think a lot of people in the comments have a good point - for now, moving back might be the go. It’s not forever. And it could give you the rest and reset you so desperately need. Time and space to be warm, fed, and rested - and perhaps after that, the space to refigure PIP, therapy, and how to get those other important things happening.
And can’t tell the future - but I see you being able to move out again. I just see you needing a desperate pause on things. A pause, rest, reset, space to look at and get help with any paperwork to help support you as you move forward (like PIP or doctors notes for college etc)
And like a few people in the comments have mentioned - why does it sound like so much of this falls on you? How much do Casey and your roommate contribute to living there? Do they not see your struggles? I don’t know the ins and outs but it sounds like you’re forever in an unfair position.
And perhaps time at your grandma’s with space will help you rebuild strength for boundaries as you move forward once you’re ready.
And if your family turn around in any way negatively about this - gosh. I don’t know what I’d say….
If you think you can go back to your grandmas for now and it be ok enough - then hold on even extra to the people who do believe you and care and know you. And get through till you can make some different changes to living arrangements.
But if it’s going to be too unhelpful - gosh.
You’ve got big decisions, big needs, big worries dear Bo.
But you’ve got so many lovely people here who want to see the best happen for you.
And I don’t live in the UK but surely, with some space and help, you could redo paperwork for PIP and other supports. There’s got to be.
And maybe what you’re saying here is you need rest and food and warmth first before those things can be figured out. Coz it’s all piling up.
I’ve rambled. I’m sorry. Take care. Hold on to the people who care. One step at a time. Know that if you move back to your grandparents it won’t be forever. It’s not a step back, but a side step in order to step forward. You got this.
I'm a new subscriber so don't worry about losing us
I’m a complete stranger to you. But to me you are my friend. I have watched your channel for a few years now and you are so relatable.
I have hoped for a number of months now that you might have someone in your family or in your circle of friends who you could move in with who would take care of you. Sure it would be a bit of a trade off in some ways but, keep reminding yourself that things will get better. You will get yourself into a better position to be able to look after yourself. You can afford the things you need if you aren’t constantly supporting everyone you care about all the time. You living with grandma sounds like everything you need right now and the downfalls can be worked around. Buy yourself a set of noise canceling headphones when you don’t have to pay rent and you can listen to whatever you want without disturbing anyone. If grandma isn’t cool with Casey staying over, then stay somewhere else for the night. You will be able to afford it easier when your not scrounging for electric. If there is a will there is a way.
I believe in you. If New Zealand wasn’t so far away I’d bring you home with us till you could stand on your own again. Please try grandma. And just take the cats. It’s always easier to ask for forgiveness than permission. Just turn up with two cats, and let both grandma and roommate know after the fact.
Hugs to all of you. It’s going to be ok
Did you really and actually suggest stealing a beloved pet?
It sounds to me like you know what you need, love. It may not be the perfect solution but you'll be safe. And you'll be fed and warm. Its okay to need help 💛
Que ejemplar ver que eres muy fuerte, afrontar situaciones tan difíciles, me gusta ver tus videos, a pesar de no entender tu situación, te mando buenas vibras y que estés bien.
I think you're stronger than you realize. You've made it this far with so many struggles and you're self aware to realize you need help and to think through your options more logically. And saying you need help is brave; not everyone is able to take that step.
As long as you'll be safe with your grandma, use the opportunity to take a break from the stress of financial survival by staying there for a little while.
I would say have a straightforward conversation with your grandma and maybe explaining to her that you intend to only stay temporarily would help convince her to let you keep the cats with you. Companion animals are so important for our mental health and having them depend on your care while having your basic needs met could be a good thing. Tell her that your cats help provide you comfort and motivation because you care for them.
Stay in touch with friends by video chatting with them if it's possible and taking advantage of having wifi with your grandma.
And I have to say it, the person spending all that time with you and eating your food when they see you're struggling and often don't even have food. Well "wtf dude?" That's not what a friend does. You said they have a home with food. A friend would take you a snack at least if they could spare it.
Oh honey! Omg I'm so sorry you're suffering like this. You need to reach out to someone closer to you then us
I wish I could give you a big hug and tell you that you are SO MUCH MORE THAN NOTHING. HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT. I would love for you to reach out to us when need be but don't just stick it out. Get help. Please. As someone who has been ok and not ok(many times) please get help from someone you trust very much
Thisis totally sound and loving words
I don't want to say the generic sh*t like I love you, you have a lot of value and all the other things that just make some of you feel happy momentarily because that's not what you need, we are strangers from interned we don't know each other BUT I want you to know that you can deal with it
Maybe don't look like that right now and even think in suicide or thing's like that, but you can, you are not useless it's just that you pass for something really f*ck top, and it's completely normal to feel like that and think things like that anyone in your situation will be the same, You don't need help just support because you deal with something terrible and am not talking about inside your head
I feel bad because I don't have money to give you and say that make me feel even worst because is really to imagine that every time you read something like that you have the hope that someone is going to help with money and when you realize that that one is not going to do it you feel bad so am really fucking sorry for don't help
You can get better just some time and money, am sure someone it's going to help, but please try to find that someone I wish to be that one but am not, so please try Am happy to see your videos maybe I never comment, but I was watching
Take care.
Please dont ever feel guilty or bad for not giving us money! We arent asking or expecting it at all, your comment means so much alone! 💖💖
Asking for help isn't something to be ashamed of and I really hope your family is willing to help without making you feel indebted. It pains me to know you don't have food in the home. Have you tried church food pantries or any charitable food organizations in your town? Some of the places here even pay people's electric bill if they have a final notice, I live in the states so I don't know how things work in your country of residence but there are organizations to help people in need. My heart goes out to you and I hope things work out.
Personally I think going back would be best for your health because you need support. If you can, explain as much as you can to your family, remind them you’re an adult and all the things you need and try your best to tell them bluntly how you feel.
i think you would happier if you moved back! i know you are worried about not being able to go out as much or go to the shops etc but in your current situation when you are struggling you can't do things that often anyway. if you lived somewhere where you didn't need to pay as much for bills, food etc you might be able to save more money so on the occasions that you can go out or get to the shops, you would enjoy it more because you would be able to treat yourself rather than having to choose between something nice or food/bills for the day. if you move back it doesn't have to be forever, living on your own is hard especially on low income. especially when you are renting privately! i really think that this would be good for your mental and physical health as long as the house you would be moving into is safe e.g no history of toxic behaviour, manipulation, abuse, etc. there are better days ahead for you 🌻
You are super strong and brave and awesome! I think it will be safest for you to go to your grandmas, hard as it may be. As everyone else has said, its not permanent. You can get healthy and happy again, and then work out your plans.Whatever you decide tho, wishing you all the best! Lots of love xx
i think you need to talk to your grandma.
I think both choices are incredibly hard and I'm sorry life isn't better for you. Can you ask your grandma about your pets first and If you can take the cats that will help comfort you. As for music it's not quite the same but I have noise cancelling ear phones and blast them out loud so it's loud for me and no one else that could be a solution at your grandma's. I think if you can get food and warmth from your grandma it might be the lesser of two evils. It's not selfish to want someone to care for you. That's what you deserve someone who looks after you. You deserve to feel safe and happy.
Also for pip I have so many friends who have appealed it and got it. So maybe its worth reapplying and trying again because you should be eligible out government is just awful. If you need any help with it I'm happy to help you.
As for complaining. Everyone would in your situation. We love you for who you are and you are allowed to feel how you feel and complain because its an awful situation and this is your place to express how you feel so please continue to do so as we all support you.
Asking for and accepting help is difficult for me. I feel like there is always something going on in life that's a struggle. For everyone. Your honesty is a breath of fresh air in this chaotic world.
I agree with the sentiment that going to your family may be the best option. As long as you're safe there. If you are not going to feel safe that isn't going to serve you for long.
The impression I get is you feel safe enough going back there.
Being too cold and I undernourished sends me and my system into a downward spiral.
You are right, there is a big difference between now and a few years ago.
I believe in you and I know you will figure out what's best for you.
Keep us posted.
We care.
I haven't finished but it's not weird to play music loudly. I don't have DID but I have sensory overload. But I don't blare it much anymore. My partner is sound sensitive and so is her girlfriend.
I'm sorry you're struggling so hard
I play music loudly all the time then don’t know why I can’t concentrate on normal conversations lol. I’m probably doing some bad stuff to my hearing but it’s a real comfort. Even having my headphones on my ears is really nice
This is how people become homeless and for that i am.sorry. one mudt choose between a roof and all the expenses or food and the choice is always food. Your grandma' s spot sounds promising..i myself had hit that place some call the bottom and i am.46 bow..44 then..and i returned to my mum and dads place.. Its all temporary afterall.. And theres something to be said for having a safe space while getting back on ones feet and hooefully abke to put one foot in front of the other..until eventually you find your place bc we all find our way in life. And i have travelled to many countries where families living together is the norm. All you can be ia yourself..and do your best. When people love each other they help each other..and who needs fake subscribers anyway.its not a failure to ask for help. Its a failure not to. And if you keep up like tbis holding it all on your own then you may find yourself instututionilzed.be your own best friend ..
I think, if anything, you should reach out to your grandma and talk to her about your hesitations. Idk your relationship with her specifically, but it sounds better than your mums. Maybe stay there for a week, if allowed. You can feel it out before choosing. These are just my raw thoughts after watching, hope it helps a bit… I want to help.
My heart goes out to you. You look so sad. It is OK to want someone to take care of you. It's okay to need that. Once your basic needs are met, it is much more possible to think clearer. Please take care.
Some colleges can help u get food bank vouchers (mine did) and the college canceler should be able to give u advice on the rent situation I get my self in this same rut when I had it during college the concealer there gave me really good advice and got me food bank vouchers I'm going to log back into insta and give u a DM sending love n hugs maybe have a chat with ur nan and explain u would like to come back but can u all figure out some ground rules u ALL agree with like having Casey over and staying up late as u are an adult explain what areas u need support in
Please listen to that voice and do what you feel like is Best for you right now. Having warm food, warm water and heating is the Best you can do for your mental health, and i feel like having therapy but not having any of those isnt gonna solve anything, only postpone. I hope that youre gonna do what you feel like will be the Best in your situation. Im worried about you and hope its all gonna get better. Im really sorry that all of this is happening to you, it shouldnt happen to anyone. No one deserves to live like this. Please please take care
Having all your basic needs covered will give you more time and strength to do all the other things, i cant wait to see what you will do, draw, maybe when its easier on your mental health you could find something that you want to do that generates some income, of course it might take time, but slow steps and feeling out the situation is much better than rushing. But for now, i hope that you Will have all the strength in the world to get to that
Cant wait to see you happy and healthy, Bo
As much as it will hurt to go back, it sounds like that's your best option for now. You can get healthy again, get your head clear and revisit more options once your basic needs are met and you have a more stable source of income to go out on your own again.
I wish you nothing but the best. ❤
Bo, sweetheart! You are not selfish for wanting someone to take care of you, especially when you're taking of other people. I wish I could extend an arm to you and pull you up from the hole you're in. You're such a beautiful person, and it must be weird having people tell you these things over the internet, but I bet most if not all of your followers would be there for you in person if they could. I hate to see you sad and struggling! Wish I could give you a big hug and be there for you. It's such a helpless feeling to see someone you care about be in pain without being able to help.
Stay strong, you guys ♡♡♡ you deserve to feel happy and safe
Hang in there. I just want to say, please... please, if you need to go back, even if it is only for a bit. You need time and help. It will not be fun, if anything as you have acknowledged it will be painful, sad, and hard. You might lose some of the very things that you care so much about right now, but it will give you time and comfort to build that starting block of independence again.
Sometimes you need to do what you need to do to give yourself a proper fighting chance. That is what life does sometimes it piles one bad thing on top of another on top of everyone's Jenga tower unbalancing the tower further and further. While the pile of bad and sad and pain just grows, and at one point in time, it snaps and just comes crumbling down, burying you down below. Don't let this situation bury you. If it requires you to move back and get help... then do that. Get the help, start again, and build back that base, you WILL be in more control, you WILL be able to stand again, and you WILL be independent and happy again. Take care of yourself, you are an amazing person, and that is happiness and calm. Know you are not starting from step 1 again, you have gone far, you have not failed, you are not lost, you are facing a setback, and you are still moving forwards to your dreams and ideal future. Hang in there, while it doesn't seem like things will not always feel as dark as today.
How are you doing now Bo? Have someone helped you? I hope you’re ok ❤️
Your basic needs are what’s most important right now. If your situation isn’t improving, you may have to go back to your family home. I know it will be hard being there mentally but you can focus on getting better mentally if you don’t have to worry about the basic needs. Nothing wrong with asking for help either. Also don’t focus on the subscribers that left, focus on the ones who stay. ❤️
I don't understand enough to make that decision for you, so I'm sorry, but I do want you to make sure it's what will be best for you. Like if your flat mates could pick up some of the cost (maybe they are and I'm just confused) cause I don't understand why it's all on you. Or if your family home would just be worse because of what's happened there. I just want you to be safe and healthy, so whichever choice that is please do it.
I live in the house of one of my traumas and it's not easy but it's better than the alternative. I will support your choice no matter what, and I promise I will never just unsubscribe no matter what you vlog about!
You deserve better.
In happy news my kitten that was sick is completely better and she has been purring nonstop for 3 or 4 days now. Every time we hold her she purrs herself to sleep and it makes me so happy 🥰
Yay, purring kitty makes everything better 😻
It may be a bit of a long shot but have you tried going through the council to get help with housing and rent? As I’m sure you and Casey would both be eligible for housing benefit, also there’s a place called PATH that can help with things like housing and finding funds for a deposit and rent etc. it’s worth contacting them and telling them your situation. Explain that you need Casey to move with you as he is your carer. Or if you do move in with your grandma see if Casey can move with you for support. There is nothing wrong with complaining as such. If your struggling it is best to speak out and get it off your chest. Do not be afraid to ever ever speak out regardless of how big or small the problem is ❤️
Alli can say about goimg back home to grandma s house where abuse has occured in the past is tbat it is totally understandable that you would be having the internal struggle about returningto the scene of the crime. Because thats what it was..anyway hopefully the abuser is not still in home and if not then i would say that as a young adult that you have new tools in your toolbox that you have collected as you have healed..do what feels right.do what is right. For you
We’re here for you!
I think you should go back home. It’s hard to go so long without basic needs. Hopefully you’re able to make a compromise with your family in order to still have some freedoms while having a safe place to stay. I’m sorry you’re going through so much.
Go to your grandma’s house. There’s no shame in asking for help. It’s only temporary, and if you explain the situation to her then you can both work together to work something out. It’s okay to take some time to take care of yourself. If you’re not in a position to take care of yourself right now, as long as you know it’s safe for you, it’s not shameful or undignified to ask for help from other people. It probably would really help your FND as well
Absolutely not going to advise you, as only you know the full situation and where you will be safest. I just wanted to say that things will get better, keep fighting sweetheart xxx
I would either go with grandmas or the hospital, I say this with honesty and love! I have been there!
I haven't finished watching yet but just want to chime in. It's your channel and you're allowed to talk about whatever you want, if it's complaining, hey, it's ok. You need to talk and let it out. Maybe some people don't like that, but they can just go. You've been doing it rough for a really long time, it's ok to say your not happy about how things are going. Reaching rock bottom is kinda good in a way. It forces you to reassess EVERYTHING. To make actual changes in your life. It's sounds like that's where you're at right now. You're right that in terms of your basic needs being met, something needs to change. You can't have good heath and well-being when you can't eat regularly, or be warm, or wash. It's not sustainable to keep going in the current way. IF your grandmother is a safe person, it's worth seeing if you could go there, at least in the short term, while you're studying. You'd need to have a talk about what her boundaries are regarding the cats, and Casey. And then make a decision, that's best for YOU ALL. For the music thing, can you blast your music with headphones? If staying with your grandmother becomes an option, figure out your budget, stick to it, use it as an opportunity to pay off debt, maybe save some money? You can do it. I believe in ya'll! One more thing, if your grandmother isn't really 'safe', by that I mean if it's going to do more emotional/mental damage in the long run to be around her, bin that idea. But try to figure out a different living situation. Maybe there's some cheaper option?
Hi ❤️
Im so sorry for you and I wish so deeply that I could help people like you. But we’re to similar with our situation.. 🥺 so from a spot outside for tonight with free wi-fi and company, I send the biggest hug to you ever ⭐️ I like to think that when you hit rock bottom, you have nothing left to lose. That’s scary, but all the paths are open and I’d rather die hoping than not 😜
Huge thoughts ॐ
There is alot going on. Within you and around you and in the world, everyone is feeling the stress and you certainly are feeling it more than most people. You have every right to vent and to express your struggle, I'm so sorry that its gotten to the point that you feel selfish for wanting basic needs. Thats horrible and I'm so sorry. Theres alot to take into account with the decision but what I got over all was that this may be the next part of your journey in life. Every stage of our lives is important, hard sometimes, debilitating sometimes yes, but God planned it all to strengthen you and guide you to where you need to be, that being said we can always call on God to help us, to take away pain, give us more strength, or help us make decisions. In my opinion I think it may be time to face your family and that house that you have held so much resentment and fear of. You are stronger and wiser now than you were the last time you were there and I believe you needed this time on your own to truley grasp who you are what you need and how it is in the world both good and bad. I feel if you decide to go back to your grandparents house it would be good to replenish your strength both physically and mentally but also a chance to humble yourself and know that this time of being under someones care again means that you have to respect their rules, this doesnt mean do every little thing they say without question but if you disagree you can speak respectfully to them and plead your case, and if they still say no instead of getting upset or taking it personally, try and understand their perspective and respect their final decision. Either decision you choose will be hard but I think going back to your grandparents house would bear good fruits. God bless you and keep you safe 💜💜💜
You need to go home just for a little while. Regroup recouperate and then you can try living alone again. It won't be forever living at your gradmas just until you are ok, sort out your finances, talk to college if they can help you with finances, some of them can. You can save up money while there for a new place.
So sorry,Bo..Well,I feel your other selves are looking out for you and wants the best for you.Yeah,life is a struggle especially with mental health and other health issues..I understand your worries a lot..Well,you feel safe to go back to grandma's house you should,love...Whatever,you feel is right for yourself you should to care for yourself all around.I listen to music on headphones living in an apartment complex..Maybe your grandma would allow you to take them,for cats are your comfort.Cats are sensitive and can feel when someone they love is in distress.I am not sick of it BoBo.I am still here from I understand in my own ways your struggles suffering mental illness myself.Yeah,I understand mental breaks too..[Talk to your grandma about things..]You need to get better and care for yourself.I know it's tough,I struggle myself. You not alone,Bo!
Is Casey an official carer? If so, would you be able to get a different one so they can just be your partner? It seems like you would have more help if you did since Casey isn't always there when it's needed. Wouldn't that make things easier? I'm sorry if I don't know how it all works as I'm from the US. It just seems like that might be something you could try instead of moving to your grandma's. But don't feel less than if you do need to move home. My husband and I had to live with my sister for a year and a half to get ourselves back on our own feet. I hope things start working out better for you soon.
Im going to say my opinions here...go back. Figure it out how to make it work,things will work out. But please get your needs met and get on your feet.
Sending all the love this video needs/needed I am also feeling a bit rock bottom today, mostly 'cos my dumb non Google based e-mail system has just gone back to the state where one of the copies of the app on the only device I can use now has re-synced with the archive so I lost my opportunity to delete the old e-mails I don't need. It sounds like actually as a system you might be safer mental health wise where you are. I'm sure the community here will send as much money and food as they can. I hope that helps 🙂
I have DID also. Remember, You are a survivor. Your brain is wired for survival, that's why you have DID. Your body did what it had to do for you to survive.Do not give up.I have been where you are.
Going back is what you need to do for survival at the moment. As hard as it is.You need food, stable shelter and warmth.You can worry about everything else later. Right now just survive,you can do it. ❤
It's not a bad idea to ask your grandmother if you can stay there and if the bringing cats would be okay. You won't know unless you try. It will be so much harder to succeed at school unless your basic needs are met. It's not wrong to do what you need to do to improve your life. My advice is to offer to help out with whatever housework you are able to help with, and maybe even help with some expenses.
Alternatively, maybe look into whether or not your school has housing on campus that you could get into or if there are other students that need a roommate in a place off campus. Ultimately the important thing is to come up with a plan. If you are able to go back to your grandmother's use that opportunity to get yourself back on your feet so that you can get your own place again in the future.
I haven't finish watching but I'm writing this comment to let you know I'm with you. Hang in there!
This really breaks my heart! You don't deserve living like this💔 I wish I could help in any way but I can't💔
I feel so sad about you losing subscribers because you "complain" in your videos, those people might have never gone through financial issues, it's the fucking worst not having money for your NEEDS!
The only advice I could give you is that you should go with your family just for a few days/months and try to save money (earned by UA-cam or something else -?-) and when you feel a little better move out again. Maybe things get better😪
I think you answered your question yourself, love. You said that you were healthier at your grandma's, and it sounds like it's both mentally and physically healthier. I know change sucks, especially when you can see the potential of your life under better circumstances, and you focus on the positive things of a bad situation. School is so important to you right now, and if you really want to try to make it work, I say you should try going back to your grandma's. Tell them how you're focusing on being an even better person, but you need their help. Ask them for compromises when it comes to the cats and Casey. Every good relationship is based around listening, empathy, and compromises. It's not the end. You'll be independent/in your own place again some day.
Keeping you in my prayers we have DID and we also understand that money can be hard we are that same situation but hang on in there . I believe things will get better for you my friend. Maybe you can start a go fund me if have not already.
It is no where near selfishness to need support where you're not getting it. It sounds like staying at your grandma's would give you a bit of break and it sounds like the ability to save/use money for other things than rent and electric and debt. I don't know if driving is an issue because of the cost or because of your health but it sounds like both of those could be more doable if you move. It's a really hard decision where neither is fully ideal so maybe talk to Casey and maybe your roommate if you two have a relationship that it would make sense to chat with them about it.
I personally think that you should go back to your grandma's but with the firm knowledge that this is temporary and you are going to build yourself up and make plans for your next step. Planning your next step will stop you from thinking you've gone backwards. It really sounds like the right thing to do because not having heating this winter will make you so sad. I've been there. Try and take both your cats, it will help - you could pose it to your flatmate as a temporary situation, too. Change is horrible, but we are still here.
also you can afford your therapy if you stay with your grandma, and so your therapist will help you deal with being there too
I have been here since you started the channel. Seen all the ups and down that you've shared. Ever since the move to this place things have gotten drastically worse. I know that your family is very complicated and quite horrible to you. But if there is a chance that you can be warm, clean and fed while you get back on your feet I would hope that it is a viable option. It may give you an opportunity to reassess some things in your life that are hurting you.
Like someone said in the comments, is Casey an officially paid carer? If so perhaps you can get someone to do that for you. From what we have seen, you have spent untold amounts of energy and funds to take care of them. The only ones you need to worry and care for are you/the system and those kitties. I am thinking of you and keeping my fingers crossed that it will work out for you all.
💜huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugs💜
Bub, go to family, get the love and care that you are craving, we all need it. Get that break and have respite
Massive hugs.
You can do it, you are so strong.
I think you answered your own question is the freedom you will eventually get back worth dying over ?
I would like for You... Yo be alright... mentally and fisically... And if that means being with Your grandes... I'll do that sacrifice... Mental health it's the fiesta thing and the most important...
It seems like living with you grandma might be the best decision for you rn. If you needed you could spend all your time in your room. The main downside I can see is that it could be very triggering living there. But if you can have access to people who are willing to care for you and it's a safe space then it might help your mental health a lot as well as physical. Lmk if this is out of line but it bothers me to hear that Casey lets you pay for their food, especially since I'm under the impression they're supposed to be YOUR carer not the other way around. It really upsets me to hear that bc I automatically feel like they don't have your best interest in mind, if they can afford a house they can afford food. I'm surprised at that situation and I had to say something bc it makes me a little angry to feel like you might be being taken advantage of. I love your videos, no matter how much or how often you complain. I can only hope things can turn around for 6ou soon💖💖💖
Keeping you in my prayers. It's not selfish to want those things.
I would talk to your grandma about the cats.. I know my cats are everything to me. If you stay at your grandmas you could save money. Hopefully she would let you take them. Like I said I'm praying for you 🙏. I adore you ❤.
You need treatment sweetheart 🤗 I'm so sorry you are going through this, plz seek help and treatment. If grandma means food, warmth and security then go back to grandma.
9.46 -I know it feels selfish and some people might even tell you that it is, but honestly it's not at all selfish of you to feel that way
Sweetheart you are literally shaking. You have tried everything you could to keep going but you need some help now. IF IT IS SAFE THERE, why don't you just try going your relatives for a short amount of time. 3 months? 6 months? Just eating and hot water will do you a world of good. It'll help you get your strength back and remove the pressures of paying for that stuff at least. I wish I could help you financially but I am going through my own crises at the moment. Love you.
are you able to apply for housing benefits, or universal credit? it should cover all your rent and bills. you deserve all the best, you're not selfish, you're being brave ♥
If your grandma loves you all, you all should go home
I really love you and every time you upload a video I feel like one of my friends is talking to me. I believe grandmother's house is a logical option under those circumstances. I'm 21, a 3rd-year psychology student and I'm living with my grandparents, I know that it won't be the same about freedom and feeling like an adult but at least stay with them until you can take care of your basic needs. Plus, I would really love to help you with your problems, at least financially. It's not a bad thing to ask for help. I hope things get better for you, I'm here for you, take care ❤️
look at it from another point view once you hit bottom theres only one place to go-- UP
Maybe just for a week, or two, go back to your grandmas, just temporarily. And try to get your pip back when you're there for the extra income. Get things sorted out then go back to freedom life.
I know thats hard to actually do, but we just want you to be safe and healthy. Yet still have freedom and comforts. You deserve it. We love you
Are your grandmas the only family You left?
No entiendo nada pero te apoyo 😔
By the way... I love your tatoos i your hands
Hey i got and idea... What about a Patreon Chanel? Or sharing your Paypal account?
Or members here un UA-cam :D
That could hello i'm some way
Don't You think?
I'm so sorry but casey doesn't sound good for you. To expect you to feed them knowing you can't afford to heat your home or feed yourself is selfish. The bills and rent there should be evenly split between everyone that lives there and stays there for extended periods of time . I know you care about casey but it sounds as if though you're being used . You need to do what will help you get back on your feet, a roof over your head, food and warmth and you're grandma's sound like it would be good for you. It doesn't have to be long term you could find a place of your own if you want once you're back on your feet a little. No-one in the house you're in has you're best interests in mind casey included unfortunately
Go home bobo
I hate to say this but what about selling your kitties or giving them up? It will be “that” much money that you could use for food on yourself? I honestly could not imagine giving up our kitties but me and my partner have an agreement that if we are struggling to look after ourselves we would give the kitties up so they could be looked after and we would be able to have that bit extra money.
Honestly theyre the only thing keeping me alive. 🙃
@@BoboCoOfficial that’s totally understandable! It was just a suggestion. If you do decide to go back to you grandmothers I hope you are able to take the kitties.
How is your roommate handling it all?
You are si fucking beatifull.. that You don't need makeup... Please read this
Why are You Alone? :S
What do You mean that You don't like food? :S
Wi-Fi is not a basic necessity
@Jessica Jackson thanks for stating an opinion that nobody asked you for. ugh. why are people like this??
@@dominiquedugas2854 she is going on about basic needs you can live with out Wi-Fi…. Grow the fuck up really showing your age if you think Wi-Fi is what keeps you going
It was just one thing i mentioned, as a full time college student, its hard to keep up with coursework and online classes without. But thats the least of my worries, hence why ive not had wifi for 4 years. Its just a small thing on top.
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access to internet at home is actually calculated into the relative poverty statistics (where your income is less than 50% of the average, e.g not being able to afford wi-fi, tv, leisure activities, phone bills etc) in social studies. where as in bo's situation they would considered in the absolute poverty, as that is when your income doesn't meet your basic needs such food, warmth, shelter to a sufficient standard to live. not having access to internet is a real issue in 2021, it's where most communication with family and friends is based and education and learning is accessed! most school aged children home work is now accessed via the internet, which leads to a whole section of children having education issues because they don't have any internet or computer type device access. so, to think that it is not a necessity is slightly closed minded!
You seem like a kind and awesome person. I am a new subscriber and if talking to someone would help, I have WhatsApp and Facebook, you are more than welcome to message or call me and it would be cool to get to know you. I know this is a old video but I am sorry that you're struggling :(
What do You mean that You don't like food? :S