I live in the area this guy does, and have ran into him numerous times at a local bar / venue. Really an interesting guy, always keeps to himself with his notebook sketching away. Never expected him to blow up the way he did virally however. His art was always unique. Super nice guy, despite all he's been through. Talking with him never fails to make me smile.
thank you - this is amazing to hear from someone who just happened to meet him and to hear what he is like for real, not being interviewed or anything. :) 🌈
Hey Blind Dweller! I made the Bryan Lewis Sanders documentary “Art of Darkness”. What a pleasure to watch your amazing work! Your narrative, treatment was thoughtful and thorough. And loved your focus and analysis of THE ART!
Hey David, thanks so much! 😁 Art of Darkness was so beautifully done, it honestly captivated me when I first watched it! Hope to see some new projects from you soon!
I have to admit I never heard of Bryan Lewis Saunders. It's rare to find an artist who is so prolific, and also creates stunning work that's intimate and incredibly moving!
I actually seen a bit of his work before, I got recommended videos about art under drugs on UA-cam (😨😰 who knows what my algorithm feeds my page) but yeah, I like art and this guy is next level to me in so many ways. Amazing creativity, discipline and the results, I've never seen someone so prolific in his field.
As someone that hears voices, hallucinates, etc. it’s insane how the seroquel made him experience a little bit of what it helps me for. And then the ambien made him draw like an insomniac. Wild how some drugs can have the complete opposite effect on some people just because of how our brains work
Yep. I wish that there was a better way to be precise for what works for who. seroquel and lamictal gave me my life back but i know other people with bipolar who they screwed up. i hope in the future we find a way to make things more precise
I was once prescribed ambien for my insomnia. It would either knock me out or make me exhibit bizarre behavior I couldn’t remember later. My friend said he found me sitting in the corner of a dark bathroom laughing hysterically at nothing.
@@Senjamin luckily they can do tests on you to see if you’ll do poorly with certain medications! it’s not always completely accurate but gives you a baseline of what you should try
I find it hard to believe that he was getting that experience from Seroquel. If that's the case he's an idiot for taking it and his Dr. is an idiot for prescribing it.
The reason seraquel had that effect on him was because the previous day he did so many mushrooms and were still in his system somewhat causing a bad trip effect since seraquel is a downer, I’ve done psychs a bunch and had good and bad trips
I find is funny how people are referring to him as though he died when he's still uploading artwork and shit on his Instagram. Super happy for him that he seems to be trying to turn the bad parts of his life around for the better. Fucking awesome artwork too.
I saw a video not that long ago that claimed he stopped taking psych meds, made a series of weird portraits, and then offed himself... the intro to this just surprised me. They probably saw the same video. Edit: we're probably thinking of Bryan charnley.
50:55 scared the absolute shit out of me lol. I was holding my phone extra close to my face to observe the drawing and was not expecting that. Edit: I see now that there was a warning in the description lol
Whoever reads the description until they get a reminder to do so?? Not me! Heh. I also got freaked the hell out from that part. I just finished watching this whole documentary, and whilst reading comments I came across your time stamp, making me scared of that all over again because I naturally forgot what part it was at. Lol. So thanks for that… I’m gonna go change my underwear now. :P
I know right It fucked with me so hard even rewatching made me uneasy even though I knew what happened it didn't help that there was lightning almost immediately after this happened
Being someone who has struggled with several mental health disorders over the past 25 years (bipolar disorder, PTSD, acute generalized anxiety disorder, and schizoaffective disorder just to name a few), and sticking myself in really dangerous situations with dangerous people I had no business being around and getting into heaps of trouble with, I get a very familiar vibe from a lot of the self portraits and other artwork. Unfortunately some of the best art comes from misery and pain and suffering. It's difficult not to feel for the artists, especially when I can see so much of my own experience within them. Thanks very much for sharing Bryan's work with us! Absolutely an interesting and very moving artist for sure.
I always get jealous about artists who can turn their pain into art while me I just wallow in my depression and unhealthy thoughts. I wish I could use it since I have alot but I feel useless as I can never do anything with it I just get sad and sometimes cry when my only friend stops talking to me for a while and I see ppl talking about how they turned their pain into art and im just asking how did they do it I want to find out so bad.
@@akiraasmr3002 My dear, I feel your pain. I was abused as a child and suffered severe depression by age 8. I have been lucky enough to find a med which helps. I do write poetry, which can be helpful, but I’ve learned to focus on the small moments of beauty which appear in our lives, including the memory of such things. I’m not referring to art or nature specifically…though they help. I am also referring to the tiny things…the smell of baking bread, the softness of a baby’s skin, the joy in a dog’s play. When severely depressed it’s a struggle to see these things, but I try.
As an artist, I found this incredibly interesting and inspiring. That sounds empty, because honestly I have so many thoughts I want to record relating to his artistic practice and techniques that I want to explore, and just saying "interesting and inspiring" is not coming the slightest bit near to encapsulating what I was going through watching this. I don't personally have a very solid artistic practice, and seeing this made me want to try everything and be as experimental as possible (within reason, and I'm probably referring more to physical artistic techniques). The fact that he's making art every day is also very encouraging, and his pieces weren't necessarily painstaking or elaborate or planned out, they seem mainly made intuitively and on impulse, but also drawing on his visual and technical artistic language he's developed over the many years of making art. Okay, I've gotten to the point where this is getting long-winded and I'm starting to possibly sound like I'm being fake deep, I'm gonna go type up some thoughts on Saunders and his art somewhere else, a bit more privately, and delve a bit more into his artwork and that documentary. Thank you so much for this video!
inspiration is a lie. Art is created by work. Sometimes work can be fun. Sometimes its hard. Sometimes you dont want to do it. Sometimes its scary. The end result is you are better than you were before you did all that work and will continue to grow. Dont wait for inspiration because its a lie get to work and you will be set free.
This is a video that I come back to often when I’m need of inspiration during art blocks. Thank you for making such an in depth documentary, Bryan is truly an intriguing and jarringly talented individual.
Bryan Lewis Saunders is from the generation of "latch key kids." I can relate. Such an introspective, yet generously inspirational artist! I'd not heard of him until this video, & now, I'll never forget him or his art!💜🌹🌍
I actually said the same thing when watching earlier in the video, "latch-key kid." I wonder if the "bad people" were real people he repressed in his memory...
I was one too, but I just went home, watched Mtv, and ate _REALLY_ horrible food concoctions. Lol. I basically only had one close girl friend I hung out with all the time until I reached high school - her folks would take me to church group for kids every week, and let me hang out at their house a lot (her mom was a stay-at-home mom). My parents were lucky I was a good kid that didn’t get into any trouble, and that I was essentially getting watched by other adults for free a lot of the times without them even asking or caring (it’s safe to say that other adults were the ones parenting me, and guiding me to be a good kid). I’ve always thought my folks took that for granted, especially when they divorced and it was brutal. If I wasn’t fortunate enough to have that one good friend, and her caring parents and their caring church, I could have easily become so lost and a total mess. I really feel for Brian that he wasn’t able to maintain a single friendship when he was young. It would have been unbearably lonely without that precious one I had. It already was lonely on the days I didn’t see her after school. I remember her parents began getting genuinely worried about codependency. They had said something to my parents, wanting us to take a break from hanging out. My parents randomly asked me “What if she moved? What would you do? Are there no other kids you want to be friends with?” And instant panic set in - I responded “She’s moving??!! WHAT?! WHEN, WHERE?? SHE DIDN’T TELL ME!!” I didn’t understand what they were trying to tell me, and I didn’t comprehend what a hypothetical scenario was yet either. The more they talked, the more it felt like I had done something wrong to upset her/her parents, and I was so hurt and confused. That was a rough time, to not be allowed to see her after school for awhile, but Bryan went through that solitude most of his young childhood. : / My friend’s folks ended up pulling her from public school and putting her in private school for high school. That also panicked me a lot when it first happened, but it ended up being a good thing that forced me out of my comfort zone to make other friends. We still keep in touch once in a blue moon, but we grew very apart. Funny enough, both she and I were drawn to art at a young age, and both of us ended up earning an art degree. She teaches art to kids now, which I bet is helping many other Bryans out there by teaching them such a wonderful creative outlet.
Im not from the US so this term was new to me. "a child who is at home without adult supervision for some part of the day, especially after school until a parent returns from work.". Very interesting that this is such a normal thing in my country, it doesn't have a name. Kids usually walk or take public transport alone to school and back here as early as 7 or 8.
Don't try this at home indeed. I can't imagine. I don't want to. I'm glad he's been so physically and psychologically resilient so far though. Great video.
Thanks for introducing me to his spoken word music. It is seriously one of the craziest, funniest and horrific things I have heard in a long time. I don't think anyone else has made an album so deranged yet so compelling. As someone who has a fascination with the darker side of the human experience it is electrifying and as someone who enjoys drawing creepy things it is inspiring in a manic sort of way.
That “don’t look in the mirror” jump scare got me man 😭 I’m sitting on my bathroom counter air drying with my phone inches away from my face Edit: I just read the description now omg
I’ve been on seroquel before. A very poorly made decision on my former psychiatrist’s part in order to control my severe anxiety and irritability. It was absolutely terrible…zoning out, drooling, everything felt awful. I wouldn’t physically be able to move, and yet mentally i was still going a thousand miles a minute.
i don’t understand why seroquel is provided by so many psychiatrists. it was awful and i was only on 20 mgs. i was tired, so tired, and it felt like my limbs and spine were thawing from being frozen. i was on it for 4 months because they wouldn’t let me go off them but i stopped taking them after a little over a week. i was depressed still, so it didn’t even work. edit: it was my psychiatrists second pick and it should be prescribed to some people because it works for some people, it just shouldn’t be prescribed to some other people because of it won’t work for them. i shouldn’t have been given it with the meds i was on instead of switching to something completely new. but it does help people! i was being way too general because i let my emotions cloud my judgement
@@resident-evil-jerma5389 the problem is it works for some people amazingly well. i can't function without it, seroquel changed my life for the better to where i was about to go on disability and now i own a business and work a full time day job. the problem with mental health meds is there needs to be a way to be more precise with who gets the meds. unfortunately everyone rn are the guinea pigs. and sorry for hopping on the comment on this way, i just wanted to say it did great for me because i worry people wont try stuff that could help them without seeing those with the positive experiences, because those who it does help don't talk about it as much as those who it hurt (which isnt to say that shouldnt come up, just that everyone should be able to talk abt their experiences ykno)
@@Senjamin gosh i phrased my old comment so backwards. seroquel was my psychiatrists second resort. i really don’t think it should be the first thing psychiatrists look to for things like depression. it should absolutely be used sometimes because it does work wonders for some people. i guess i was being overly cynical, im very glad it worked for you :) it just was a bad fit for me
@@resident-evil-jerma5389 oh thats alright! i also didn't mean to try on jump on your personal story in a way thats stepping on or invalidate it. and i agree, i dont think its the best thing as one of the first tries for depression. in my case it was a bipolar disorder thing, i couldnt imagine using it as something for a unipolar issue as it is a bit, numbing so to speak? which is why i use it, since i need a tiny bit of numbing. i hope you're doing better now, either on a different med or without entirely!
I was on it and I'm fine. Clearly the drug doesn't work for you and the doctor put wayyy too much of a higher dose. Anti psychotics should not be used for anxiety and he sounds like a quack. It's not the drugs fault.
Absolutely incredible. After seeing your announcement this was coming out last night, I spent the evening getting a taste of the life & style of Bryan Saunders; and what I had found left me growing even more eager for this release. This was a fantastic dissection of his life and work, and I find myself enthralled in the work he has created and his philosophy behind his creative process. Thank you so much for introducing me to his work, and for doing so in such an engaging and informative manner. Your epilogue was the perfect ribbon to tie everything together, and this has all left me feeling a renewed excitement and passion for exploring my personal artistic visions. Thank you!
I had a long comment in my mind ready to write down, but in the end you narrated and explored so deep into Brian's art and reflection of his psyche, that there is no need for more right now. His approach on art is so philosophical and amazing and the positive way he turned all this pain with creativity is something that gives me hope for me as well. Thank you for this video, it was really inspiring to see such experimentation with mediums, physical and mental states that are so different from each other! Keep up the good work, youtube is a great place with creators like you around.
this has really inspired me to incorporate my experiences into my art more. ive always been too afraid to explore my traumas and mental health issues through art somehow
I’ve been a big fan of Charnley’s self portrait series for a while, and it’s pretty amazing how similar this guy’s work is to his. Thank you for exposing me to this, it’s perfectly up my alley.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT i first heard about this guy probably 10 years ago, never saw anything about him again, mentioned a description of what he does, once, to someone about 5~ years ago, and haven't thought about him since, BUT have been trying to think of this dude's name FOR THAT WHOLE TIME (10 YEARS!) and you just helped me find him!! thank you so much dude!!!
This was put together so beautifully. Thanks for spreading awareness to this artist. His work is amazing and idk if I would have stumbled upon it without your video.
I don't know what you might think of him (if anything), but have you ever considered doing a segment on the amazing outlier Lithuanian-French painter Chaim Soutine? I first happened across his startling oeuvre at around age 14; and he's consistently stuck with me in subsequent years as one of my favorite 20th century artists. Though he's usually been placed---almost by default, it often seems---in the company of the Expressionists, Soutine really remains unclassifiable. He was a thoroughly individualistic---one is nearly tempted to say "idiosyncratic"---and highly unconventional painter whose viscerally raw and untamed style has always resisted easy canonization. Symptomatic of unbridled delight in pigment and its application to the canvas surface---apart from any representational aims---the controlled fury of his paint manipulation endows even the most putrescent subjects, most notably the succession of rotting beef carcasses the artist liked to paint (in hommage to his hero Rembrandt) with a luminosity that's unepectedly transcendent. An equally ferocious line of assault infuses his many landscapes with a crackling wayward energy: trees, roads, hillsides, as well as houses and buildings, sway and weave and twist and writhe cataclysmically as though caught in the grip of some vertiginous seismic event. Yet at the very same time there's this rhythmical underpinning simultaneously pulling and holding the imagery in place, finally resolving the scene into a state of controlled chaos that plainly anticipates later Abstract Expressionism. If anything, Soutine's portraiture is even more jarringly subversive than his landscapes and still lifes. Always mindful of his own rural proletarian background he usually elected to portray his human subjects in the vocational and ceremonial dress associated with their social rank: religious vestments, a porter or bell boy's uniform, a chef's distinctive white toque, cap, and apron, and such like. Similarly, the much more well-off persons who also sat for Soutine---professional people, art collectors, society dames, and others---were usually garbed in the formal wear, suits, vests, waistcoats, gowns, frocks, and headwear indicative of their higher standing. In his figure paintings the artist balanced elements of the grotesque, almost to the point of mutilation, with authenticity of class or occupational function and, at times, abstract shapes of his own invention. Throughout these arresting images the act of painting itself---the painter was well known for working at an intensely focused breakneck speed---effectively subdued and then reconfigured the social reality of his models. The free elliptical shorthand of Soutine's impassioned brushwork creates, in a single dramatic phrase, a powerfully felt impression of pure life and vitality. In closing, I also have to add that Soutine was more than a bit of a weirdo. So he should fit quite comfortably into your format.
@@finalbreath15 Could you please translate your reply for me? I'm sorry, but I'm still pretty unfamiliar with a lot of the messaging shortland. Thanks.
I am bipolar and I take Seroquel, and it’s absolutely numbing, it drains all of the energy I have, it makes me anxious somehow. I absolutely relate to Bryan’s metaphor of the lion: the mind gets ahead of the body as the pill shuts you down
Seroquel is like a zombie pill fr. Made me sluggish and also lose time randomly, most likely because of sleepiness. Like i’d be in class one second and at home the next, as if i had blacked out.
@@ravelyv I was literally black smiting at my forge, and woke up on the ground with hot metal in my tongs. I could either stop forging or stop taking the medicine.
When I was in college a few years ago, my teacher wanted a report on anything or my choice. I randomly searched self portrait series on drugs. I found this man. I wrote my report, titled the running head as "Running Head", turned it in and aced it the same it was turned in. This artist is so dear to my heart man. Everything I did up to that report and afterwards was a true journalism experience..2013 baby.
Saunders in an artist I found through circumstance and fell down the rabbit hole, so I knew you would do him justice. His whole life was a whirlwind of chaos that turned him into one of the most unique creators I have ever seen. The way he captures the feeling of temperature in particular really caught my eye. Wonderful video!!
Thank you so much for these videos. I'm learning so much about myself and what it means to be an artist from these. They're so well made, and so captivating to me, and the artists you choose are so interesting and unique. I'm so grateful you make these. Thanks!
This is by far the most interesting thing I’ve come across in quite a while, well done.
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Thank you so much for all the videos of artists that you have made for us. Your perception and empathy is a blessing. You are a great human spiritual and enlightened being. TY
You always show me a lot of cool stuff I never would've found by myself I like seeing the different styles and feelings the art gives. Thank you for making such great content rs
The drawing 42:23 under influence of Percocet and a hangover, you can see the indentation of the drawing of the map from the day before… lol. Perfect! That would elude to the hangover from last night. 😂
The jumpscare halfway through the video scared the shit out of me. I know it's ment to simulate the experience of the artist but man..... what the fuck dude.
dude after watching like 10 videos about disturbing stuff on the internet i thought this will be some educational video to get chilled out by but that exact moment 50:57 nearly made me sh*t bricks bcs im sitting right in front of two large studio monitors, at midnight, in absolute darkness - wtf
Yeah I do apologise profusely for that 😅 I guess after hours of editing I kind of desensitised to it and forgot other people will be less prepared! I've left a warning in the description, but I definitely need to be more careful next time!
I find it hard to find inspiration for art, and even harder still to experiment with colouring. I only draw digital now, and even before that I really struggled with colour and shading, etc. I wonder if just... letting loose will help and make me grow. I'm going to attempt this with a self portrait. This was an amazing vid. Thank you!
Try hallucinating it. You can like throw lines, shapes, colors around in a messy fashion and let your brain pull an image out of the relationships between your marks. You can even do realism this way. Your brain is powerful.
My problem is staying dedicated to one medium. I must have change and options at all times or I'm easily bored, so I do everything. Paints, charcoal, graphite, pastels, ink, color pencils, acrylic/alcohol/oil markers, digital, etc. It's very typical of me, but I need to stop being a person of all trades so I can at least master one! 😅
It's kind of crazy to think that If he didn't find art he would either be dead or in prison. I wonder how many other people just didn't find the outlet like he did and payed the ultimate price.
What a great documentary! I had seen his work done under the influence, but I had no idea about the depth of his other experiments. I can’t believe he survived all of that!
When I watch the breake down of information about artists' lives from others,it always sounds so rushed and uncomplicated. But listening to how you do, it's just incredible. Beautiful. ❤
Right at 32:00 … i got an advertisement, not sure what even for as i skipped it as soon as possible. But it contained very vivid interesting imagery of a silhouette standing in front of a fire… with the words being spoken over it consisting of: “Fire can create; And fire can destroy.” Then. Back to the story. Speaking of how the disserviced church caught ablaze. Very strange.
Weirdly enough, the thing I felt the most relatable was the constant need to draw even when hospitalized. Though my experience was from the physical-- chronic health issues-- I used to also make sure I had ways of creating close by. Because without it, you loose who you are and your way of communicating. I'm at the hour and eight minute mark, so still watching the video. But that was something that struck a cord in me. While I could relate to the stress of a chaotic upbringing and having my own childhood dramas, I mostly felt sympathy rather than making a connection to Saunders on the personal level. But THIS, the need of comfort of having that outlet? That got to me. It helped me find the connection that wasn't just pity towards seeing someone hurt themselves for artistic expression. Creating is like breathing, to not create is to feel a part of yourself being strangled. To leave you gasping for breath. Just interesting to find that connection, is all.
This is flipping amazing, Thank you mr Dweller and Thank you Brian. Brian you are the truest depiction of an artist. zero bullsh-t! 100% inspiration. I only feel like creating when I am in heaven or hell (atheist btw) and truly relate to this but all my stuff is via alcohol abuse. ART SAVES!
I recognize myself in Bryan, even if I'm not a trained artist at all, I used drawing to try to make sense of what was happening to me. I didn't know it at the time but I was journaling my own falling into schizophrenia and my first psychosis. I didn't mean for anyone to see the drawings but my psychologist thought I should as part of accepting my illness. Made a video about them, and it did help. On bad days I still reject reality but being heavily medicated helps. I wonder if Bryan could have been saved.
There are many many realities. Over obsessing over any of them is where schizophrenia develops it root system. Try and figure out the roots of your obsessions, and hopefully you will learn to handle many realities without fracturing, and without big pharma medications. Good luck
Not sure what you mean by "could have been saved". As in could've avoided things like harmful drugs and whatnot? Or do you think he died? Because he's very much alive and posts regularly on Instagram with his artwork, seems like a cool guy tbh
@@exist4046@exist4046 Yes he's very much alive, and just as creative as ever. If there's anything that Bryan Lewis Saunders is, it's a survivor. I don't understand that comment either. He pretty much saved himself. You are right. He's a very cool dude. He's one of the coolest people I know.
As soon as you started discussing the idea of the color months, i was waiting for red... went about exactly the way i expected. Such an intense frequency to immerse yourself in.
This is truly inspiring, I am amazed by the way people like Bryan can convert their daily lives into science expreriments and provide such profound insights into the human potential for self-awareness. I feel more of us should do so, its much better than going through a scientific paper for sure...
I just wanted to comment that since I discovered your videos I see it and I see it again a thousand times. I'm from Spain and my English is a bit bad, but I'm getting along with my ear and the subtitles of the video. but it is worth it, you are perhaps the deepest content author of these topics that I know. Your monograph on Francis Bacon was wonderful and I've seen this video twice now. I just wanted to say, thanks for what you do. PS: sorry if the text is misread, I used google translator.
Su texto se lee muy claramente, amigo mío. No tuve ningún problema en leerlo. Estudio español, aunque no lo hablo completamente con fluidez. También utilicé un traductor para esto.
Such a fascinating series! I find the colour yellow has always resonated with me on a very personal level, and Brian’s yellow month portraits an uncanny reflection of my own self; in the words of Dylan Thomas “altarwise by owl-light”. The blue month probably sapped Brian’s energy due to the light interfering with his circadian rhythm. Always best to avoid blue light around bedtime 🥱 Fantastic body of work; both this documentary and Brian’s ongoing project.
This was a treat to watch. To me there's something very fascinating and satisfying about imagining having a life with that kind of discipline and level of routine. The portraits have a really visceral way of seemingly making snapshots of a human soul as a kind of undulating and ever-shifting invisible entity. It makes me imagine some blueprint in our bodies being consulted in order to build a soul out of nearby materials on a daily basis in a similar way to how Bryan Lewis Saunders uses various mediums to craft self portraits every day. It's probably a little less existential to picture each expression as a unique exhaust as a result of a processing of available materials but I find the former concept very intriguing. I know I'm projecting my own introspections onto art that likely never intentionally raised my specific questions but I appreciate the presence of art like this for fueling and platforming compelling discourse within my mind. If there were a mold making my soul out of scraps before it quickly meets entropy and the cycle repeats then would I be the soul or would I be the mold? Are people the same person under the influence of intoxication?
Thank you for sharing this video. I am always in search of good art content and finally I have found the kind of video that interests me! This was fascinating and though provoking. I appreciate the time and research you have put into telling Bryan Lewis Saunders' story.
While I believe he definitely had other things going on, the way he describes his experience of life through his own presepective very much resonates for me as someone who is a untethered ball of adhd and autism.
Fantastic video. You've done justice to Saunders' beautiful story. This was compelling, rewarding, and inspiring to watch. The colour experiment interested me most. Saunders felt on-edge during red month, red being the colour with the highest frequency. He felt tired and depleted during blue month, blue having a very low frequency.
Man this was so good this is one of the most interesting documentary in my opinion and has open a different perspective on art, as a beginning artist (having not as much skill) this has made me remember and realize that art isn’t just a pretty picture but can be a beautiful expression towards themes and experience thank you. PS: I love the closing message its true and is very well put!
Thank you so much. This truly was inspiring and I'm definitely going it to Brian lewis Saunders worm hole. Art totally transformed his life . Brian truly is a unique human being. Blind Deweller you are a gift
Yes Blind Dweller is a gift. I will be looking into more of his work. Bryan Lewis Saunders is a gift too. Blind Dweller does a very good job of capturing what Bryan is all about.
This is an incredible documentary and such stunning, thought provoking art!! I absolutely love what Bryan has done and his complete dedication to this project! Can't wait to look deeper into all of his work ☺️
This is one of best videos I’ve watched on UA-cam in years and I watch a lot. This was truly enjoyable. Thank you for exposing us to this artist ❤This man is truly a prodigy. He is an amazing alchemist and scientist of the human experience. Amazing work! The color challenge was so cool. Yellow made him optimistic, red made him rage and fearful & blue made him depressed and gloomy. Very in alignment with the studies of these colors. I love the psychological observation tied to his work.
Bryan is such an awesome guy! I live in the same area and was able to catch a lot of his mid-2000s to early 2010s spoken word performances at the Hideaway in Johnson City, TN.
Fascinating work! Thanks for bringing these amazing artists to the platform. Your videos are easy and enjoyable to watch, no matter the artist presented. 👍
Amazing work and great video as always! The only thing is I would recommend a warning for the sounds and distortion effects at around 50:00. It didn't bother me too much but things like that can potentially cause paranoia/bad anxiety for people with certain conditions. I know it wasn't done with any ill intent. Thank you again for a very informative and well made video!
Yeeeeah not gonna lie, I feel I kind of went too far there with some the reactions I've received so far 😅 definitely a learning curve for me, I guess I got used to it from hours of editing, not realising how much of a jumpscare I actually is...
When I got to that part I was lying down with my laptop next to me and threw it on the ground. My computer is okay. As for me, I was a little freaked out as I hear voices myself. But it was very well done and I'm glad I watched this video.
i gotta be better about reading the descriptions on videos because that seroquel voice scared the ever-loving shit out of me. great video as always, though!
I live in the area this guy does, and have ran into him numerous times at a local bar / venue. Really an interesting guy, always keeps to himself with his notebook sketching away. Never expected him to blow up the way he did virally however. His art was always unique. Super nice guy, despite all he's been through. Talking with him never fails to make me smile.
thank you - this is amazing to hear from someone who just happened to meet him and to hear what he is like for real, not being interviewed or anything. :) 🌈
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The picture of him as a baby on the phone is ridiculous and hilarious. Who could he be talking to???
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Hey Blind Dweller! I made the Bryan Lewis Sanders documentary “Art of Darkness”. What a pleasure to watch your amazing work! Your narrative, treatment was thoughtful and thorough. And loved your focus and analysis of THE ART!
Hey David, thanks so much! 😁 Art of Darkness was so beautifully done, it honestly captivated me when I first watched it! Hope to see some new projects from you soon!
I still am so very fond of your screening! You're the classic! suRRism cheers kind siR!
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Art of Darkness does it have a release?
@@desadefilms621 It's free on UA-cam
I have to admit I never heard of Bryan Lewis Saunders. It's rare to find an artist who is so prolific, and also creates stunning work that's intimate and incredibly moving!
He truly is one of a kind, very nice man as well!
Take a deep dive kind one!
I actually seen a bit of his work before, I got recommended videos about art under drugs on UA-cam (😨😰 who knows what my algorithm feeds my page) but yeah, I like art and this guy is next level to me in so many ways. Amazing creativity, discipline and the results, I've never seen someone so prolific in his field.
As someone that hears voices, hallucinates, etc. it’s insane how the seroquel made him experience a little bit of what it helps me for. And then the ambien made him draw like an insomniac. Wild how some drugs can have the complete opposite effect on some people just because of how our brains work
Yep. I wish that there was a better way to be precise for what works for who. seroquel and lamictal gave me my life back but i know other people with bipolar who they screwed up. i hope in the future we find a way to make things more precise
I was once prescribed ambien for my insomnia. It would either knock me out or make me exhibit bizarre behavior I couldn’t remember later. My friend said he found me sitting in the corner of a dark bathroom laughing hysterically at nothing.
@@Senjamin luckily they can do tests on you to see if you’ll do poorly with certain medications! it’s not always completely accurate but gives you a baseline of what you should try
I find it hard to believe that he was getting that experience from Seroquel. If that's the case he's an idiot for taking it and his Dr. is an idiot for prescribing it.
The reason seraquel had that effect on him was because the previous day he did so many mushrooms and were still in his system somewhat causing a bad trip effect since seraquel is a downer, I’ve done psychs a bunch and had good and bad trips
I find is funny how people are referring to him as though he died when he's still uploading artwork and shit on his Instagram. Super happy for him that he seems to be trying to turn the bad parts of his life around for the better. Fucking awesome artwork too.
What’s his Instagram?
I saw a video not that long ago that claimed he stopped taking psych meds, made a series of weird portraits, and then offed himself... the intro to this just surprised me.
They probably saw the same video.
Edit: we're probably thinking of Bryan charnley.
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50:55 scared the absolute shit out of me lol. I was holding my phone extra close to my face to observe the drawing and was not expecting that.
Edit: I see now that there was a warning in the description lol
Whoever reads the description until they get a reminder to do so?? Not me! Heh.
I also got freaked the hell out from that part. I just finished watching this whole documentary, and whilst reading comments I came across your time stamp, making me scared of that all over again because I naturally forgot what part it was at. Lol. So thanks for that… I’m gonna go change my underwear now. :P
Me too I'm still shook up 💀
It not only jump scared me, but combined with the descriptions it gave me a deep fear that I started crying omg
It scared the absolute shit out of me
I know right It fucked with me so hard even rewatching made me uneasy even though I knew what happened it didn't help that there was lightning almost immediately after this happened
Being someone who has struggled with several mental health disorders over the past 25 years (bipolar disorder, PTSD, acute generalized anxiety disorder, and schizoaffective disorder just to name a few), and sticking myself in really dangerous situations with dangerous people I had no business being around and getting into heaps of trouble with, I get a very familiar vibe from a lot of the self portraits and other artwork. Unfortunately some of the best art comes from misery and pain and suffering. It's difficult not to feel for the artists, especially when I can see so much of my own experience within them. Thanks very much for sharing Bryan's work with us! Absolutely an interesting and very moving artist for sure.
I always get jealous about artists who can turn their pain into art while me I just wallow in my depression and unhealthy thoughts. I wish I could use it since I have alot but I feel useless as I can never do anything with it I just get sad and sometimes cry when my only friend stops talking to me for a while and I see ppl talking about how they turned their pain into art and im just asking how did they do it I want to find out so bad.
@@akiraasmr3002 get some fucking help.
Bruh unlocked all the debuffs wtf? 😂
@@bungiecrimes7247 I'm saying
@@akiraasmr3002 My dear, I feel your pain. I was abused as a child and suffered severe depression by age 8. I have been lucky enough to find a med which helps. I do write poetry, which can be helpful, but I’ve learned to focus on the small moments of beauty which appear in our lives, including the memory of such things. I’m not referring to art or nature specifically…though they help. I am also referring to the tiny things…the smell of baking bread, the softness of a baby’s skin, the joy in a dog’s play. When severely depressed it’s a struggle to see these things, but I try.
Bryan is such an interesting artist, thank you for the full length documentary on him! I can't believe this is free.
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As an artist, I found this incredibly interesting and inspiring. That sounds empty, because honestly I have so many thoughts I want to record relating to his artistic practice and techniques that I want to explore, and just saying "interesting and inspiring" is not coming the slightest bit near to encapsulating what I was going through watching this. I don't personally have a very solid artistic practice, and seeing this made me want to try everything and be as experimental as possible (within reason, and I'm probably referring more to physical artistic techniques). The fact that he's making art every day is also very encouraging, and his pieces weren't necessarily painstaking or elaborate or planned out, they seem mainly made intuitively and on impulse, but also drawing on his visual and technical artistic language he's developed over the many years of making art. Okay, I've gotten to the point where this is getting long-winded and I'm starting to possibly sound like I'm being fake deep, I'm gonna go type up some thoughts on Saunders and his art somewhere else, a bit more privately, and delve a bit more into his artwork and that documentary. Thank you so much for this video!
delve in
inspiration is a lie. Art is created by work. Sometimes work can be fun. Sometimes its hard. Sometimes you dont want to do it. Sometimes its scary. The end result is you are better than you were before you did all that work and will continue to grow. Dont wait for inspiration because its a lie get to work and you will be set free.
Bryan is an amazing artist and proud to say a good friend! So happy to see this documentary about my neighbor! 😁
This is a video that I come back to often when I’m need of inspiration during art blocks.
Thank you for making such an in depth documentary, Bryan is truly an intriguing and jarringly talented individual.
I was using a bandsaw while listening at the “DON’T LOOK IN THE MIRROR” part. I’m relieved to report that I still have all of my fingers.
thats quite the feeling...
Bryan Lewis Saunders is from the generation of "latch key kids." I can relate. Such an introspective, yet generously inspirational artist! I'd not heard of him until this video, & now, I'll never forget him or his art!💜🌹🌍
I actually said the same thing when watching earlier in the video, "latch-key kid." I wonder if the "bad people" were real people he repressed in his memory...
I was one too, but I just went home, watched Mtv, and ate _REALLY_ horrible food concoctions. Lol. I basically only had one close girl friend I hung out with all the time until I reached high school - her folks would take me to church group for kids every week, and let me hang out at their house a lot (her mom was a stay-at-home mom).
My parents were lucky I was a good kid that didn’t get into any trouble, and that I was essentially getting watched by other adults for free a lot of the times without them even asking or caring (it’s safe to say that other adults were the ones parenting me, and guiding me to be a good kid). I’ve always thought my folks took that for granted, especially when they divorced and it was brutal. If I wasn’t fortunate enough to have that one good friend, and her caring parents and their caring church, I could have easily become so lost and a total mess.
I really feel for Brian that he wasn’t able to maintain a single friendship when he was young. It would have been unbearably lonely without that precious one I had. It already was lonely on the days I didn’t see her after school.
I remember her parents began getting genuinely worried about codependency. They had said something to my parents, wanting us to take a break from hanging out. My parents randomly asked me “What if she moved? What would you do? Are there no other kids you want to be friends with?” And instant panic set in - I responded “She’s moving??!! WHAT?! WHEN, WHERE?? SHE DIDN’T TELL ME!!” I didn’t understand what they were trying to tell me, and I didn’t comprehend what a hypothetical scenario was yet either. The more they talked, the more it felt like I had done something wrong to upset her/her parents, and I was so hurt and confused. That was a rough time, to not be allowed to see her after school for awhile, but Bryan went through that solitude most of his young childhood. : /
My friend’s folks ended up pulling her from public school and putting her in private school for high school. That also panicked me a lot when it first happened, but it ended up being a good thing that forced me out of my comfort zone to make other friends. We still keep in touch once in a blue moon, but we grew very apart.
Funny enough, both she and I were drawn to art at a young age, and both of us ended up earning an art degree. She teaches art to kids now, which I bet is helping many other Bryans out there by teaching them such a wonderful creative outlet.
@@anti-ethniccleansing465 Indeed! I really appreciate you sharing all of that, my friend! I can so relate! That's wassup!😎💜🌍
did "latch key kids" ever go away...lol!
Im not from the US so this term was new to me. "a child who is at home without adult supervision for some part of the day, especially after school until a parent returns from work.". Very interesting that this is such a normal thing in my country, it doesn't have a name. Kids usually walk or take public transport alone to school and back here as early as 7 or 8.
Don't try this at home indeed. I can't imagine. I don't want to. I'm glad he's been so physically and psychologically resilient so far though. Great video.
Couple days ago I had a seizure and had to be taken off my antidepressants. I feel very debilitated and just gone. Thank you for this video
Thanks for introducing me to his spoken word music. It is seriously one of the craziest, funniest and horrific things I have heard in a long time. I don't think anyone else has made an album so deranged yet so compelling. As someone who has a fascination with the darker side of the human experience it is electrifying and as someone who enjoys drawing creepy things it is inspiring in a manic sort of way.
That “don’t look in the mirror” jump scare got me man 😭 I’m sitting on my bathroom counter air drying with my phone inches away from my face
Edit: I just read the description now omg
It got me so badddd
I’ve been on seroquel before. A very poorly made decision on my former psychiatrist’s part in order to control my severe anxiety and irritability. It was absolutely terrible…zoning out, drooling, everything felt awful. I wouldn’t physically be able to move, and yet mentally i was still going a thousand miles a minute.
i don’t understand why seroquel is provided by so many psychiatrists. it was awful and i was only on 20 mgs. i was tired, so tired, and it felt like my limbs and spine were thawing from being frozen. i was on it for 4 months because they wouldn’t let me go off them but i stopped taking them after a little over a week. i was depressed still, so it didn’t even work.
edit: it was my psychiatrists second pick and it should be prescribed to some people because it works for some people, it just shouldn’t be prescribed to some other people because of it won’t work for them. i shouldn’t have been given it with the meds i was on instead of switching to something completely new. but it does help people! i was being way too general because i let my emotions cloud my judgement
@@resident-evil-jerma5389 the problem is it works for some people amazingly well. i can't function without it, seroquel changed my life for the better to where i was about to go on disability and now i own a business and work a full time day job. the problem with mental health meds is there needs to be a way to be more precise with who gets the meds. unfortunately everyone rn are the guinea pigs.
and sorry for hopping on the comment on this way, i just wanted to say it did great for me because i worry people wont try stuff that could help them without seeing those with the positive experiences, because those who it does help don't talk about it as much as those who it hurt (which isnt to say that shouldnt come up, just that everyone should be able to talk abt their experiences ykno)
@@Senjamin gosh i phrased my old comment so backwards. seroquel was my psychiatrists second resort. i really don’t think it should be the first thing psychiatrists look to for things like depression. it should absolutely be used sometimes because it does work wonders for some people. i guess i was being overly cynical, im very glad it worked for you :) it just was a bad fit for me
@@resident-evil-jerma5389 oh thats alright! i also didn't mean to try on jump on your personal story in a way thats stepping on or invalidate it. and i agree, i dont think its the best thing as one of the first tries for depression. in my case it was a bipolar disorder thing, i couldnt imagine using it as something for a unipolar issue as it is a bit, numbing so to speak? which is why i use it, since i need a tiny bit of numbing. i hope you're doing better now, either on a different med or without entirely!
I was on it and I'm fine. Clearly the drug doesn't work for you and the doctor put wayyy too much of a higher dose. Anti psychotics should not be used for anxiety and he sounds like a quack. It's not the drugs fault.
Absolutely incredible. After seeing your announcement this was coming out last night, I spent the evening getting a taste of the life & style of Bryan Saunders; and what I had found left me growing even more eager for this release. This was a fantastic dissection of his life and work, and I find myself enthralled in the work he has created and his philosophy behind his creative process. Thank you so much for introducing me to his work, and for doing so in such an engaging and informative manner. Your epilogue was the perfect ribbon to tie everything together, and this has all left me feeling a renewed excitement and passion for exploring my personal artistic visions. Thank you!
This is one of the best videos I've found on Saunders . Thank you for the work you put into it. He's quite the fascinating artist.
I had a long comment in my mind ready to write down, but in the end you narrated and explored so deep into Brian's art and reflection of his psyche, that there is no need for more right now. His approach on art is so philosophical and amazing and the positive way he turned all this pain with creativity is something that gives me hope for me as well.
Thank you for this video, it was really inspiring to see such experimentation with mediums, physical and mental states that are so different from each other!
Keep up the good work, youtube is a great place with creators like you around.
this has really inspired me to incorporate my experiences into my art more. ive always been too afraid to explore my traumas and mental health issues through art somehow
I’ve been a big fan of Charnley’s self portrait series for a while, and it’s pretty amazing how similar this guy’s work is to his. Thank you for exposing me to this, it’s perfectly up my alley.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT i first heard about this guy probably 10 years ago, never saw anything about him again, mentioned a description of what he does, once, to someone about 5~ years ago, and haven't thought about him since, BUT have been trying to think of this dude's name FOR THAT WHOLE TIME (10 YEARS!) and you just helped me find him!!
thank you so much dude!!!
This was put together so beautifully. Thanks for spreading awareness to this artist. His work is amazing and idk if I would have stumbled upon it without your video.
Yes he would be hard to find. I am fortunate enough to have met him in college.
I don't know what you might think of him (if anything), but have you ever considered doing a segment on the amazing outlier Lithuanian-French painter Chaim Soutine? I first happened across his startling oeuvre at around age 14; and he's consistently stuck with me in subsequent years as one of my favorite 20th century artists. Though he's usually been placed---almost by default, it often seems---in the company of the Expressionists, Soutine really remains unclassifiable. He was a thoroughly individualistic---one is nearly tempted to say "idiosyncratic"---and highly unconventional painter whose viscerally raw and untamed style has always resisted easy canonization. Symptomatic of unbridled delight in pigment and its application to the canvas surface---apart from any representational aims---the controlled fury of his paint manipulation endows even the most putrescent subjects, most notably the succession of rotting beef carcasses the artist liked to paint (in hommage to his hero Rembrandt) with a luminosity that's unepectedly transcendent. An equally ferocious line of assault infuses his many landscapes with a crackling wayward energy: trees, roads, hillsides, as well as houses and buildings, sway and weave and twist and writhe cataclysmically as though caught in the grip of some vertiginous seismic event. Yet at the very same time there's this rhythmical underpinning simultaneously pulling and holding the imagery in place, finally resolving the scene into a state of controlled chaos that plainly anticipates later Abstract Expressionism.
If anything, Soutine's portraiture is even more jarringly subversive than his landscapes and still lifes. Always mindful of his own rural proletarian background he usually elected to portray his human subjects in the vocational and ceremonial dress associated with their social rank: religious vestments, a porter or bell boy's uniform, a chef's distinctive white toque, cap, and apron, and such like. Similarly, the much more well-off persons who also sat for Soutine---professional people, art collectors, society dames, and others---were usually garbed in the formal wear, suits, vests, waistcoats, gowns, frocks, and headwear indicative of their higher standing. In his figure paintings the artist balanced elements of the grotesque, almost to the point of mutilation, with authenticity of class or occupational function and, at times, abstract shapes of his own invention. Throughout these arresting images the act of painting itself---the painter was well known for working at an intensely focused breakneck speed---effectively subdued and then reconfigured the social reality of his models. The free elliptical shorthand of Soutine's impassioned brushwork creates, in a single dramatic phrase, a powerfully felt impression of pure life and vitality.
In closing, I also have to add that Soutine was more than a bit of a weirdo. So he should fit quite comfortably into your format.
SOUTINE A GREAT ARTIST AND VERY HUMAN
This comment OP af.
@@finalbreath15 Could you please translate your reply for me? I'm sorry, but I'm still pretty unfamiliar with a lot of the messaging shortland. Thanks.
Why does this remind me of Patrick Bateman's "Huey Lewis and the News" speech from American Psycho lmaooo exact same energy
@@adamlast6001 Wow. You like that movie too?
I am bipolar and I take Seroquel, and it’s absolutely numbing, it drains all of the energy I have, it makes me anxious somehow. I absolutely relate to Bryan’s metaphor of the lion: the mind gets ahead of the body as the pill shuts you down
I hope you can find a way to live without it. I’ve taken it for a period. I would fall asleep while sitting up
Seroquel is like a zombie pill fr. Made me sluggish and also lose time randomly, most likely because of sleepiness. Like i’d be in class one second and at home the next, as if i had blacked out.
@@ravelyv I was literally black smiting at my forge, and woke up on the ground with hot metal in my tongs.
I could either stop forging or stop taking the medicine.
Look into lamictol, it’s not a sedative, it has really helped my bpd recently
I'm training for a marathon while eating 200mg of seroquel daily.
Thats my Sisyphus task.
When I was in college a few years ago, my teacher wanted a report on anything or my choice. I randomly searched self portrait series on drugs. I found this man. I wrote my report, titled the running head as "Running Head", turned it in and aced it the same it was turned in. This artist is so dear to my heart man. Everything I did up to that report and afterwards was a true journalism experience..2013 baby.
Thanks!
A video from Blind Dweller that is an hour and a half?! YES PLEASE!
oh my god, it really was that long, wasn't it?? I was so enthralled and the video was so well done that I didn't even notice
Definitely the best channel on UA-cam.
Thank you very much. Best video I’ve seen in a long time. Your work is time well spent.
YOU ARE A BOSS Blind Dweller! I watch the whole thing without notice it was over 1 hour. GRACIAS!
This dude is so cool in person. Never have I met someone cooler.
I agree. I consider his friendship an honor.
Saunders in an artist I found through circumstance and fell down the rabbit hole, so I knew you would do him justice. His whole life was a whirlwind of chaos that turned him into one of the most unique creators I have ever seen. The way he captures the feeling of temperature in particular really caught my eye. Wonderful video!!
Thank you so much for these videos. I'm learning so much about myself and what it means to be an artist from these. They're so well made, and so captivating to me, and the artists you choose are so interesting and unique. I'm so grateful you make these. Thanks!
Saw people talking about the jumpscare, still got me. Great video.
I haven't heard of him. That's a great idea, drawing yourself every day.
Bryan is very much worth getting to know.
His dedication to the self portraits is amazing. I can't write in my blog every day.
This is by far the most interesting thing I’ve come across in quite a while, well done.
Thank you so much for all the videos of artists that you have made for us. Your perception and empathy is a blessing. You are a great human spiritual and enlightened being. TY
You always show me a lot of cool stuff I never would've found by myself I like seeing the different styles and feelings the art gives. Thank you for making such great content rs
The Seroquel sketch and the sudden jump scare style editing frightening the hell out of me. Wasn't expecting that.
What an amazing documentary, great as always!
The drawing 42:23 under influence of Percocet and a hangover, you can see the indentation of the drawing of the map from the day before… lol. Perfect! That would elude to the hangover from last night. 😂
The jumpscare halfway through the video scared the shit out of me. I know it's ment to simulate the experience of the artist but man..... what the fuck dude.
yeah lol wasnt expecting that one. screwed me up for a second there
dude after watching like 10 videos about disturbing stuff on the internet i thought this will be some educational video to get chilled out by but that exact moment 50:57 nearly made me sh*t bricks bcs im sitting right in front of two large studio monitors, at midnight, in absolute darkness - wtf
Yeah I do apologise profusely for that 😅 I guess after hours of editing I kind of desensitised to it and forgot other people will be less prepared! I've left a warning in the description, but I definitely need to be more careful next time!
@@BlindDweller nah, I liked it, imagine how terrifying it actually was during it, and many have similar terrifying experiences on these meds
Yeah, that was not cool :(
Thank you for shedding light on Bryan’s artwork to the world.
I find it hard to find inspiration for art, and even harder still to experiment with colouring. I only draw digital now, and even before that I really struggled with colour and shading, etc. I wonder if just... letting loose will help and make me grow. I'm going to attempt this with a self portrait.
This was an amazing vid. Thank you!
Try hallucinating it. You can like throw lines, shapes, colors around in a messy fashion and let your brain pull an image out of the relationships between your marks. You can even do realism this way. Your brain is powerful.
My problem is staying dedicated to one medium. I must have change and options at all times or I'm easily bored, so I do everything. Paints, charcoal, graphite, pastels, ink, color pencils, acrylic/alcohol/oil markers, digital, etc. It's very typical of me, but I need to stop being a person of all trades so I can at least master one! 😅
@@LadyAstarionAncunin use all mediums for one piece.
@@LadyAstarionAncuninThere is also something to be said for not limiting yourself to only one medium.
OMG I’ve always loved looking at these! Im glad someone made something about it!
A Long video but worth every second! Such a touching story of courage. I wish him the best.
It's kind of crazy to think that If he didn't find art he would either be dead or in prison. I wonder how many other people just didn't find the outlet like he did and payed the ultimate price.
SO EXCITED FOR THIS BEEN WAITING ON THIS VIDEO
One of my favorite spotlights you've done. I loved it!! Can't wait to check out that documentary!
This documentary has been put together brilliantly. This Artist is incredible
I have seen all of your videos and this one is my new favorite, by a large margin. Love it. amazing work, and amazing artist. thank you!
I remember watching the documentary “Art of Darkness” during COVID and it was amazing. I’m glad you made a video about Bryan Lewis Saunders!
What a great documentary! I had seen his work done under the influence, but I had no idea about the depth of his other experiments. I can’t believe he survived all of that!
He is a very tough dude for sure, and very disciplined.
I’ve always been fascinated by him. Thank you so much for doing this full length documentary when everyone else focuses on the drug pieces.
When I watch the breake down of information about artists' lives from others,it always sounds so rushed and uncomplicated. But listening to how you do, it's just incredible. Beautiful. ❤
What a compliment! Thank you so much ❤️
Right at 32:00 … i got an advertisement, not sure what even for as i skipped it as soon as possible. But it contained very vivid interesting imagery of a silhouette standing in front of a fire… with the words being spoken over it consisting of:
“Fire can create; And fire can destroy.”
Then. Back to the story. Speaking of how the disserviced church caught ablaze.
Very strange.
Weirdly enough, the thing I felt the most relatable was the constant need to draw even when hospitalized. Though my experience was from the physical-- chronic health issues-- I used to also make sure I had ways of creating close by. Because without it, you loose who you are and your way of communicating.
I'm at the hour and eight minute mark, so still watching the video. But that was something that struck a cord in me. While I could relate to the stress of a chaotic upbringing and having my own childhood dramas, I mostly felt sympathy rather than making a connection to Saunders on the personal level. But THIS, the need of comfort of having that outlet? That got to me. It helped me find the connection that wasn't just pity towards seeing someone hurt themselves for artistic expression. Creating is like breathing, to not create is to feel a part of yourself being strangled. To leave you gasping for breath.
Just interesting to find that connection, is all.
this was so fasinating. I'm going to continue going down the rabbit hole of Brtans work and this corner of the art world.
Rabbit Hole describes it very well.
This is flipping amazing, Thank you mr Dweller and Thank you Brian. Brian you are the truest depiction of an artist. zero bullsh-t! 100% inspiration.
I only feel like creating when I am in heaven or hell (atheist btw) and truly relate to this but all my stuff is via alcohol abuse.
ART SAVES!
amazing, this guy might be my new favorite artist
I recognize myself in Bryan, even if I'm not a trained artist at all, I used drawing to try to make sense of what was happening to me. I didn't know it at the time but I was journaling my own falling into schizophrenia and my first psychosis.
I didn't mean for anyone to see the drawings but my psychologist thought I should as part of accepting my illness. Made a video about them, and it did help. On bad days I still reject reality but being heavily medicated helps. I wonder if Bryan could have been saved.
There are many many realities. Over obsessing over any of them is where schizophrenia develops it root system. Try and figure out the roots of your obsessions, and hopefully you will learn to handle many realities without fracturing, and without big pharma medications. Good luck
Not sure what you mean by "could have been saved". As in could've avoided things like harmful drugs and whatnot? Or do you think he died? Because he's very much alive and posts regularly on Instagram with his artwork, seems like a cool guy tbh
@@exist4046@exist4046 Yes he's very much alive, and just as creative as ever.
If there's anything that Bryan Lewis Saunders is, it's a survivor. I don't understand that comment either. He pretty much saved himself.
You are right. He's a very cool dude. He's one of the coolest people I know.
As soon as you started discussing the idea of the color months, i was waiting for red... went about exactly the way i expected. Such an intense frequency to immerse yourself in.
This is truly inspiring, I am amazed by the way people like Bryan can convert their daily lives into science expreriments and provide such profound insights into the human potential for self-awareness. I feel more of us should do so, its much better than going through a scientific paper for sure...
I've been following Bryan for years. He's a real cool guy. Excellent documentary. 😎
I just wanted to comment that since I discovered your videos I see it and I see it again a thousand times. I'm from Spain and my English is a bit bad, but I'm getting along with my ear and the subtitles of the video. but it is worth it, you are perhaps the deepest content author of these topics that I know. Your monograph on Francis Bacon was wonderful and I've seen this video twice now. I just wanted to say, thanks for what you do.
PS: sorry if the text is misread, I used google translator.
Su texto se lee muy claramente, amigo mío. No tuve ningún problema en leerlo. Estudio español, aunque no lo hablo completamente con fluidez. También utilicé un traductor para esto.
Such a fascinating series!
I find the colour yellow has always resonated with me on a very personal level, and Brian’s yellow month portraits an uncanny reflection of my own self; in the words of Dylan Thomas “altarwise by owl-light”.
The blue month probably sapped Brian’s energy due to the light interfering with his circadian rhythm. Always best to avoid blue light around bedtime 🥱
Fantastic body of work; both this documentary and Brian’s ongoing project.
absolutely fascinating video, but jesus did that jumpscare at 51:02 scare the shit out of me lmao. really good vid tho!!
phenomenal!
This was a treat to watch. To me there's something very fascinating and satisfying about imagining having a life with that kind of discipline and level of routine. The portraits have a really visceral way of seemingly making snapshots of a human soul as a kind of undulating and ever-shifting invisible entity. It makes me imagine some blueprint in our bodies being consulted in order to build a soul out of nearby materials on a daily basis in a similar way to how Bryan Lewis Saunders uses various mediums to craft self portraits every day. It's probably a little less existential to picture each expression as a unique exhaust as a result of a processing of available materials but I find the former concept very intriguing. I know I'm projecting my own introspections onto art that likely never intentionally raised my specific questions but I appreciate the presence of art like this for fueling and platforming compelling discourse within my mind. If there were a mold making my soul out of scraps before it quickly meets entropy and the cycle repeats then would I be the soul or would I be the mold? Are people the same person under the influence of intoxication?
Thank you so much for making these videos and the effort you put in. Very fascinating.
Thank you for sharing this video. I am always in search of good art content and finally I have found the kind of video that interests me! This was fascinating and though provoking. I appreciate the time and research you have put into telling Bryan Lewis Saunders' story.
Saw a show of his in Edinburgh when I was in art school several years ago, very memorable artist! Glad this video popped up
I'm a huge fan f your channle/content and personally I have never heard of Bryan Lewis. So this video was very interesting!
While I believe he definitely had other things going on, the way he describes his experience of life through his own presepective very much resonates for me as someone who is a untethered ball of adhd and autism.
47:41 probably my favorite self-portrait of his.
Awesome video - grossly underrated channel!
Fantastic video. You've done justice to Saunders' beautiful story. This was compelling, rewarding, and inspiring to watch.
The colour experiment interested me most. Saunders felt on-edge during red month, red being the colour with the highest frequency. He felt tired and depleted during blue month, blue having a very low frequency.
ありがとうございます！
Thank you so much! ❤️
what a wicked inspiring video.
I have been obsessed with this artist for a long time and still learned new things from your video! Thank you!!
Man this was so good this is one of the most interesting documentary in my opinion and has open a different perspective on art, as a beginning artist (having not as much skill) this has made me remember and realize that art isn’t just a pretty picture but can be a beautiful expression towards themes and experience thank you. PS: I love the closing message its true and is very well put!
Thank you so much. This truly was inspiring and I'm definitely going it to Brian lewis Saunders worm hole. Art totally transformed his life . Brian truly is a unique human being. Blind Deweller you are a gift
Yes Blind Dweller is a gift. I will be looking into more of his work. Bryan Lewis Saunders is a gift too. Blind Dweller does a very good job of capturing what Bryan is all about.
Well done. Everyone should watch Bryan’s documentary Art of Darkness.
This is an incredible documentary and such stunning, thought provoking art!! I absolutely love what Bryan has done and his complete dedication to this project! Can't wait to look deeper into all of his work ☺️
This is one of best videos I’ve watched on UA-cam in years and I watch a lot. This was truly enjoyable. Thank you for exposing us to this artist ❤This man is truly a prodigy. He is an amazing alchemist and scientist of the human experience. Amazing work! The color challenge was so cool. Yellow made him optimistic, red made him rage and fearful & blue made him depressed and gloomy. Very in alignment with the studies of these colors. I love the psychological observation tied to his work.
Bryan is such an awesome guy! I live in the same area and was able to catch a lot of his mid-2000s to early 2010s spoken word performances at the Hideaway in Johnson City, TN.
I live in JC now too. ETSU is where I got to know him.
I love how he considers his body as nothing but a tool for creativity, but at the same time the pain he causes himself isn't free
No it's not free for sure. He has to have a very strong mind and body to be able to do it.
Such a huge researcher of the Self. What an Artist. Thanks for this material 🙏🏻
Fascinating work! Thanks for bringing these amazing artists to the platform. Your videos are easy and enjoyable to watch, no matter the artist presented. 👍
Holy fricking cow so much inspiration! :D . Much love❤🖖🏿
When we were in Art school together, I jokeed that my goal was to corner the self-portrait market. I see he took that idea and ran with it.
Yes he did. Did he hear you say that? I'm just curious.
@@JoeThomas-kx5sw yes, it was just the two of us having conversation.
i love your channel so much!! i always listen to your videos as I paint!
Amazing work and great video as always!
The only thing is I would recommend a warning for the sounds and distortion effects at around 50:00. It didn't bother me too much but things like that can potentially cause paranoia/bad anxiety for people with certain conditions. I know it wasn't done with any ill intent.
Thank you again for a very informative and well made video!
Yeeeeah not gonna lie, I feel I kind of went too far there with some the reactions I've received so far 😅 definitely a learning curve for me, I guess I got used to it from hours of editing, not realising how much of a jumpscare I actually is...
Made me jump......good point made
When I got to that part I was lying down with my laptop next to me and threw it on the ground. My computer is okay. As for me, I was a little freaked out as I hear voices myself. But it was very well done and I'm glad I watched this video.
dude what the fuck... not cool.
I was jus way to fried made me jump out my skin
You are my new favorite content creator here on the toobz. Thank you so much for all the effort you put in to these videos.
Absolutely incredible video, you have outdone yourself once again
Thank you so much my friend for your great work, This level of analysis is what I truly love
The jumpscare was so unexpected I almost jumped out of my pants! Hahaha should've read the description! 🤣
i gotta be better about reading the descriptions on videos because that seroquel voice scared the ever-loving shit out of me. great video as always, though!