My mom once asked me... "What happened to the happy girl I once knew?" I responded with something that broke my own heart "She grew up, and she's still fighting" So I beg you... God loves you, and You can't give up. Take a breath, and stand up. You can do this. I believe in you.. All of you..
Mk thanks I believe in you too and you are right! God is always here for everyone even if he doesn't help you in situations because he knows they'll be better, he planned our lives before we were even born.
Thanks but..... IM BREAKING INSIDE AND IVE BEEN CRYING IM DEPRESSED IVE BEEN CALLED UGLY, STUPID, A DISSAPOINTMENT, A BRAT, RUDE, AND A NAME OF WOLF GANG BY MY FAMILY AND PEOPLE AT SCHOOL AND I DONT CUT BUT I CANT DO ANYTHING MUCH LONGER I HAVE FOUR FRIENDS AND MY PHONE + MUSIC AND THOSE ARE THE ONLY THINGS KEEPING ME GOING..... Yet my parents don’t ever understand why I always act aggressive towards them and ever sense I was born it’s been like this and I’m only 11 so I have a long ways to go..... please.... I beg anyone who reads this...... please I need help.....
I cant express in words how much this song describes. Nobody can see the pain I hide everyday, forcing laughs, and smiles. Sure sometimes everything "fine" but I always have that devil on my shoulder and I cant get away from it.
I can relate to this song so much. I cut for 5yrs and thought about suicide a lot. I'd been bullied since 2nd grade and had no real friends except 1, but she had moved away when things were getting really bad for me. I got yelled at all the time at home for no reason cause my mom had anger issues. i had a lot of shit going on (that Id prefer not to discuss). I hated my life and kept to myself. eventually, at 18, things got better and now I'm almost 21 and I'm happily married with an almost 6month old baby girl. I understand the pain, but one day things do start to get better. Keep yours heads up
True. I cut, well... Use too. Anyway, I use to feel like... No one would understand. It numbed the pain on the inside. Seeing the blood trickle down my arm? Man... I felt... Happy. But that's not me anymore.. I understand people who self harm, bc I was a victim... Bc of bullies.
I see your point, a lot of people don't understand what your going through, but Jesus does. He was betrayed, whipped, and mocked. He suffered more than anyone can imagine. Though we might feel pain we have to always remember that he conquered Satan. He can handle anything you bring to him. The same power that rose him from the dead is living inside of you. Have faith in Him and trust Him. Proverbs 3:5 says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding." We may not know why some things happen but we can trust that God has a wonderful and beautiful plan for all of us.
Came back to this song after fighting and getting through to the dawn. I wondered if I'd make it to the age of 17. I'm 19 and am starting University next week. I haven't made any suicide attempts in two years and haven't self harmed in one and a half years. Please don't give up, you'vw got too much potential, even if you don't see it now. One day in a couple of years you'll come back to this song too and realize that you made it to the dawn, and you will be proud of yourself. The amount of pride I feel knowing that I managed to survive after that battle of seven years is the best feeling in the World. Love yourself because you are perfect no matter what anyone else tries to say. They're just jealous because they'll never be as strong as you are
I started self-harming when I was 14, it was a way to let out my feelings, sometimes I was really angry with myself or my family and school partners, I was never enough for them... but the most time with myself... idk I just hated every part of me, people is always telling you that no matter how you look if you are beautiful inside , so What if I hated also the way I was? I got really down, I mean, Iwas really depressed but always trusting God. Now I’m 16 I still feel bad or frustated and still cutting me sometimes, but I relized that God created me with a purpose and that it was my decision to be part of that or spend my life feeling bad, that’s why I’m still fighting. And for all who have been having a bad day, week, year, childhood, or whatever just be strong, everything is going to change and God’s always with you guys.
I sing this song when im at lunch because I do not have any friends and when I see my ex friends walking around having fun and looking at me then whisper to eachother and giggle when they do that I start to cry and sing that song and there is this boy who tries to cheer me up and hang out with me he is the boy who hears me cry...
this is how I felt in the 5th grade. at times I had to keep myself from hurting myself. This song hits me hard. I at one point had worried even the MEANEST teacher in the school and my careless friends. and this song is true. if you have ever had any suicidal thoughts. Tell somebody PLEASE. You should never have to go through this. Just know that God is making a plan for you and he hears you. Please. I hope that someone will take this comment to thought. thank you.
I have been practicing the song for a long time and last night I sung it to my bf and he begged and pleaded for me to sing it again cause he didn't understand what it was saying so I sung it again and then explained what I means to me. This song discribes me in all ways. I do all the things mentioned in the song. Omg. I can't believe my bf finally understands why I am the way I am.
I’m a military child, so I move around a lot. Each time, I’m in depression and I’m hurt everyday. I explain things out to my mom, but she won’t really listen. I love this song because it completely describes what I feel. I came from California and I’ve lived there for 11 years. Moving to Washington, broke me down completely.
I have a few things to say. Don't cut. Don't hurt. Don't cause pain upon yourself on purpose. What does it do?! It reminds you of how you felt. And you wouldn't want to think about it when you're older, right? You would want to forget but know you grew stronger. Those scars don't heal anything. They just cause you more pain. Understand that pain is consolable and heal-able.
I can't! I just can't! Every time I try to listen to this whole song I come up with a stuffy nose and eyes full of tears. I started sobbing at 0:51. Now I am going to try to listen to the whole song.
i wanted to say that this song is almost exactly what my situation. i was bullied for 2 years and i tried cutting,but i have a large family and they would see. and also i didn't see the point bc you just cause more pain than you need to yourself. they made fun of my for my body and my basically overall appearance. everyday was a living hell and i almost killed myself. they made me feel no one would ever love me unless i was curvy and had big boobs and a big butt. a year later i suffer from bad panic attacks and ill get flashbacks and start crying. but i also have a boyfriend who loves me for me and everyday i'm grateful to have someone who helps me believe that when someone loves you,they love you for who you are. i never thought i would find love and to me it was a miracle i found him.
Don't even ask me. Cutting isn't about how deep it is or for attention. I just don't know other ways. I cry when I feel depressed, anger, disappointed, and I do want to scream my heart out to everyone who hurts my feelings. but I can't.. so I just cut to calm myself. somehow.. not because I want to die.
This has such a deep message. When I was 10 I cut my thumb because my dad wouldn’t drink, so my mom would drink more than she was suppose to. That lead to being drunk, and arguing more, and more noise. My ears were delicate then. I cut myself in the same space so many times over. I still have the scars to this day.
This song is perfect for me.Every time i am self-harming i am going to listen to this song.My parents left me when i was about 1 month old i always had hope that they will come back but they never came back but i still have hope that they are looking for me.I was in depression for along time and i am still in depression.People that know me might think this is fake cuz i smile at school but that smile is fake.I hide my pain from everyone with a fake smile until today
If any one that has depression or does self harm, I'm always willing to listen! Even if I don't know much about it because I haven't been depressed before, I'm still willing to help
this song just it makes me feel better cause every day i stay locked up in my room, i dont talk to my family that much and i keep to myself. there are people who think they are my friends and i let them think that i force smiles and laughs and just really use my acting to good use and act like its ok but no its not. things have happened that have changed me drastically and i dont want to make everyone else around me miserable but i just have a dark cloud hanging over me all the time...
This is the song that i listen to everyday when i go home after school,its not just about depression,there is also the things that breaks you that can come from anywhere,there is always a time that you break from something said by someone,depression isnt just a feeling it is part of mostly every ones life.This is just for those people who feels the same as i do.
I was depressed for two years ending in feb. I very nearly took my life. This song really speaks to me. Now while my heart breaks again cause iv just lost, gained and then lost my best friend, it helps the pain. We had one beautiful day and then everything was gone again. It hurts
Thanks for your kindness. It took longer than i expected but im getting there now. All it took was two hospital visits, one leaving home and here I am.
Yeah... this song pretty much sums up my life for the last two years... I am only grateful that God has always been there, no matter how alone I feel at the time. *God only puts you through things He knows you can handle.* "Remember: suicide doesn't get rid of the pain. It only transfers it to loved ones and other people."
Hey my name is Melody, I'm 14. When I was born my mum died, my dad abused me for killing my mum and he wished I was never born. My dad then got a girlfriend and she also stated to abuse me as well. I tried to hang myself them my sister came in and told me that "life is worth living for" but then a few months later she died in a car accident. I remembered what my sister said so I called the police and they took my dad and his girlfriend, I then moved in with my aunty and cousins. Im not a attention seeker.
This song relates to my past so much. I had an abusive mother and i had to pretend to be happy so nobody would know anything was wrong. When i went to bed every night i would cry myself to sleep. I finally one day told my teacher and my stepmom and dad found out and they battled for custody of me. I would visit my dad and stepmom in the summer and go back with my mom for the school year i failed most of my classes because nobody was there to help me. My stepmom offered to help over video chat but my mom would not let her. This went on for years my mother went through a bunch of boyfriends and she met a guy named Dave and she dropped me of places and picked her boyfriend over me. I would cry and beg for her to say with me but she would just keep leaving my grandma or uncle. My mom hurt me so many times physical mentally and emotional and i still wear those scars today. I get upset very easily but my dad and stepmom told me that i am very very strong by going through this. But there is a happy ending to this whole story, one summer my stepmom and dad had a talk with me and asked if i wanted to come live with them. I said yes so they had me call my mom and tell her that i wanted to to stay with them it was very hard, but my stepmom held me and told me everything was okay. My mom was very upset, but she didn't have a choice so i moved with my dad and stepmom. Years later, I am happy and live my amazing family and i wouldn't change a single thing. For anyone who is feeling worthless or upset i went through all of that it will get better god bless you.
I'm a twelve year old girl, and I have anxiety. I recently started going to a therapist, and things are getting better. Sometimes I feel like the friends I have at school are too amazing for me. They help me with all my problems and support me with everything I do. I feel like they don't realize how important they are to me at times, and I just wish I could help them with their problems too. My friends and family mean the world to me, but I wonder if they feel the same way every once in a while. I make fun of myself, saying I'm an attention-seeking idiot who always plays the victim card. I don't try to do these things, but I'll admit I can seem that way to others. And as I say that I just realized this could be another way for people to say I'm an attention-seeker xD
'They never get past arms length...' so true. Sometimes it hurts, but there is an opening in the tunnel. Things will get better, if you hold strong. You'll come out of this with so much good in store for you...so many blessing... so much stronger. Seasons change, and He will hold you tight and never let you go. We've been through it all, and we will be stronger because of what we've been through. Hold on- God is waiting for you to reach out and he will answer. Listen to 'All This Time' also by britt nicole, and know that He is there, loving, lasting, forever reaching out to His children whom He loves. You ARE a treasured child of the most high God!
I've been through this before. A month or so back, for a few weeks my friends were ignoring me, ditching me and when I tell them they just say "Oh sorry! I forgot that you were there!" Or "Sorry. I was distracted" Yeah right. So I became depressed at many things, always faking a smile even though a few friends knew I was lonely. I'm over that now and I'm more happy than before. But a few weeks ago, my friends were getting into relationships left right and centre and I was just there by myself and alone. I went home and I started how my face looked. So I became depressed again. My friends supported me for a bit over Instagram but when I appeared at school the next day they act like there's nothing wrong with me when they clearly knew I was upset about myself. That's what pissed me off, them pretending to care over text but when we meet in person they act like nothing happened. Then some got really annoyed at me and posted comments on my IG photos saying "Okay, you know what. You're beautiful. Enough said, now stop calling yourself ugly it's really starting to annoy me!" And so on. You're meant to be supporting me not making me feel worse that I'm annoying you with my issues! - I'm okay now, though sometimes my friends still act like I'm okay when I'm clearly not. Well fuck you... :T 😔
I don't know how u guys say feel I feel like this everyday and I love this song and who ever sang this is great and who put the words for this song great job keep it 👍👍👍💖💖💖
Hi guys my name is Sophia I’m 11 and I have really bad anxiety problems and it all started with a bad dream when I was 8 and they keep getting worse but I fighting through it I ask one thing don’t let the devil take over you keep your trust in god and you will be fine god loves all of you and don’t let the devil get in your head and your heart love you guys
my life story . its fuuny when I can' find words to describe my feelings this song explan me perfectly a nd I beak down everytime I hear it no one will understands except those who been through the same thing.
My story is something I can no longer keep to myself. I was being bullied, and that pushed me into depression. I thought I was useless so, I picked at scabs to watch them slowly bleed. My mom noticed how I had bruises, so she would ask me what happened. My response was I tripped. But in reality, I would hit myself. Then it got so bad, I was called unthinkable names that can shatter a person's heart. I finally had enough so I wrote a letter to my mom and she was shocked and heartbroken. I had to be sent to a hospital because the school thought I would end up killing someone or myself. But I got lucky because I found my true best friend. She has my back and protects me from being picked on. I am thankful for my mom and my best friend were there to understand what I was going through.
Hey. You please read this.♡◇◇ Those evil thoughts. Not worth hurting yourself. I swear someone loves you and would be so hurt if you were to leave. If you can't of someone then its me. I dont know you but I'd miss you the way you smile and laugh the way your hits dance in the lights. I promise it will be hard but worth it. Every story ends with happy ever after. If yours doesnt it means yourw story isn't over . I swear we are stars for fighting this♡♡ and tomorrow the sun will raise with you. My love will raise every morning with you. You're prefect to me and i hope you'll see it soon
Everday's the same nothing changes, the faces and the ugly words said. Like a song I'm tired of hear but is addicted to. Painful and sad but the only way I've learned to live.
Stay strong beautiful. The only one that can judge? God. Not the bullies. God. You WILL get through it, everything happens for a reason! The reason you're going through this is because God thinks your a strong, beautiful soldier, who needs to prove everyone wrong. If someone tells you you can't do a dance? Practice and prove them wrong. If someone says you can't be a lawyer or what you wanna become? Prove them wrong by doing otherwise. You are loved, and cared for. You are perfect in every way possible. Don't give up. You never know what's down the road :)
my 9th birthday was like this, I cried all through the night, nobody ever hears me, I cut from the age of 7 and still do to this day, I don't think I will ever stop till I end up bleeding and then find myself in a room as white as the youtube main background colour, wondering how I ended up like that, then having my family all wanting to rush in to tell me what a bad idea it was to cut myself, they wouldn't support me. and being called dumb for the idea of cutting would be the most I ever should get and I deserve that, I know I am probably broken, but I am used to it, I've felt like this since I was 5 years old.
OK sweetheart I love through I don't know you and so does God don't cut I will talk to you and help you I have been hurt and overcome and saved and do inspirational videos check them out I'm here for you you are loved God Bless
This breaks my heart, because I felt just like you growing up. You might not be able to ever go to your family for help, but there ARE resources out there.Talk to someone, please, please. I cut myself for over 5 years before I finally got help. I still struggle with depression, but I'm on meds now, and it's so much better. Keep in mind, this is after years of self-medication which led to drug addiction and resulted in me ending up in prison. Don't let it get that far, I know you feel helpless, but YOU are in control. Above all, whatever you do, don't give up.
My family is great, but there are a lot of terrible things in my life. Such as being Bi-Sexual. It makes me cry. Sometimes I doubt I even like boys even more. I have thought of suicide when I was 10. Added onto it, my family best friend (great-grandma) died. I break down sometimes and lay in my room crying. Sometimes I like to say everything out loud as if she can hear me.
I have a friend named Gummy and she's a little depressed and she does self harm to herself (Cuts and shoots). Her dad is mean to her and her mom died. Her friends tell her to cut herself and hurt herself, but that wasn't gonna help. She said that she shot her wrist and had to go to the emergency room to get stitches. Later she had to the emergency room again because she cut too deep. She thinks that it will never get better, but I always tell her, ''Don't do that, plz, put away the knife.'' But she keeps cutting. If you cut, you can't stop, that's what she said. I told her that I prayed for her, and that God loves you. She still cuts, but does it less often. I don't think she's AS depressed, and I know she will get better.
after a while i just start to feel numb. i feel empty. don't call me an attention seeker because i don't like attention. if you knew me then you would know that. but sometimes i just want to give up but i haven't yet.
98% of the comments: *Talks about lots of sad events happened to them. Don't fake having a bad life for attention you know. Some of it is true, and some is not. Depression and stuff isn't a joke, and you should take it seriously. Stay strong you are all beautiful.* 2% of the comments: *I just like the song*
This is a good song to bring Gods Children out of the devils evil Scams!! Please all of you that are going through this I LOVE YOU ALL and SO DOES GOD hold on and cry out to God he will rescue you I PROMISE!!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL TO GOD!! AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS!
I feel like bursting into tears hi I'm Kayla I'm 13 and right now is very tough for me I have insecurities and my mom blames me for them and she says I make them up I'm adopted and she says I'm just like my parents and will never be any better so Idk what to do plz just pray for me :(
me this year has bee rough im 14 and i have never cried and been as down as much as i have this year because of bullying and all my friends leaving me when i needed them the most and i was there for them they said its my fault maybe there right maybe i do deserve all of this......You know if it is well okay I GIVE UP!!! on happiness, friends, school!!!!!!
I love this song for some reason, I feel connected to it like I understand what people are going through and I'd like to help them in any way possible even thought I cannot relate to what people are feeling but I understand and I think I can help ❤ Don't forget to stay strong and never let anything or anyone break you or your dreams down no matter what ❤ Ily all 😘
So young so damaged .. I'm 13 this year & since 2 years ago i've been like .. Well this . My parents have always been preasuring me to do well in school , i have tons of fake friends that constantly ignores or makes fun of me , my true friends are no longer in the same school as me , i don't get along well with my brother at all & my family has tons of tragic issues (( eg; people dying , parents threatening divorce )) , i've also been cyber bullied many times in social media & people in real life telling me i'm fat , ugly , slut , whore , bitch & everything . I also have boy issues ... I hate life i just wanna die already ..
I LOVE THIS SONG!!!! Somehow I feel like it's connected to me...But I do know this is how I feel like everyday...Thanks, school! You're the worst! *Also,i'm not trying to get attention if you guys thought that.*
This is too much of me and worse. I'm not even 16 and I can't seem to smile as much. Only 4 men who I have given up all hope on meeting makes me forget those problems for those few minutes. I take smile but a lot of the time I can't even do that. They are my drug. I'm addicted. I feel happy watching their videos. But when I can't then the voices get to me, there are more scars on my arm. More blood on the sheets. More tears on my face. I need them to be alive.
Im 12 and i have cuts up to my elbow that start at my hand im getting help now but I was not ok and people need to learn how to see when someones looking for attention and when someone really needs help
This song is the song that was used in the rest in peace video for my friend. She committed suicide and this song relates to her life when she was still living and my life now.
Well since people are sharing their stories I feel like it’s time to finally share mine with the world. I am jay, I am 14. I suffer from anorexia, depression, bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder, and PTSD. My entire life I’ve been judged, manipulated and told I wasn’t good enough. This song rlly hurts me bc it reminds me so much of myself. When I was a baby, my dad would throw me around all the time, and not in a fun or playful way. He would whip me around. My dad would beat my mom. He was very overpowering and he’s the reason I suffer from many mental illnesses. My sister passed away last December and the last time I talked to her was a year before she died but my dad yelled at me for talking to her and he almost hit me that day. He locked me in a room on my 8th birthday because I told my mom he was moving into a new house/apartment. He locked me into closets. There was a few times where I would go days without eating, because he wasn’t willing to feed me. But my little sister, he just adored. My dad always yelled at me for the most idiotic things and would threaten me. He abandoned me and my sister 4 years ago on Thanksgiving. I remember very vividly what me and my sister said, she asked “where’s daddy” and I yelled back, “DONT YOU GET IT!? HES NOT COMING!! HE DOESNT LOVE US ANYMORE!!” Then on multiple occasions, I got bullied. I got punched. I got slapped. Pushed around. My dad always told me I wasn’t good enough and he always wished I was never born. Keep in mind that I have a boyfriend who truly loves me and wouldn’t do anything to hurt me. Let’s call him...Michael. Me and Michael have been together for 5 months now. 8 months ago, I was in an abusive relationship. Let’s call him...Matthew. So Matthew would slap me, choke me, and he would pick me up, set me on his lap and rub his boner on me. I didn’t like it, as you can probably imagine. But Matthew one day decided to try and pull me into the bathroom. I tried getting away and when I finally got to the first floor near my next class, he yanked my arm and dislocated it. I remember, waking up at 3 in the morning to my mom crying and blue and red flashing lights taking my dad away. Yes, I cut. A lot. I know it isn’t healthy and I need to stop but it’s the only pain that I can control. My entire life, I’ve been hated and I’ve always felt so worthless. I got diagnosed with all of my mental illnesses when I was 11. My life has been crap. My brother, he hasn’t yet gotten that when I’m scared, or I’m hurt...I laugh. So when he hurts me, he thinks it’s funny and he just keeps hitting me or whatever he does in that moment. I have scars all over my arms and legs. My mom is embarrassed by it. Ive wanted to commit suicide multiple times and I’ve tried a couple. I don’t do drugs or anything like that. But, I’m pansexual. Michael is homophobic. Some people may say that part of me that’s gay, doesn’t matter. Others may think otherwise. Michaels sister, is pansexual. He calls her a faggot all of the time. I love Michael a lot. But some of the stuff he does, hurts me. When I say he would never hurt me, I mean 1 he wouldn’t intentionally hurt me and 2 he wouldn’t physically hurt me. Our relationship is long distance. But we talk almost 24/7. We vc, we email, we talk on discord, we talk on SoundCloud, we talk on padlet. My brother is also gay. Today, Michael wanted to see my body. Keep in mind, he has before. But this time, he wanted me to show him my imperfections. For instance, my rib cage. My sternum and rib cage are misplaced, and since I’m anorexic, he wanted to see my rib cage. Me and Michael have been through everything together. I get threatened to be killed, about 50 times a day. I lost my best friend who I have been rlly close to for a year and a half two days ago. So that’s about 2/3 of my story. Comment if you want to hear the rest! Thanks for listening.
Its so sad that there is so many people who are self harming in the world. All those people out there, i feel very sad for you :( stop self harming as it wont give u any benefits. Maybe it numbs the pain that you are suffering but ure oso hurting urself n those ard u at the same time. So pls, stop... #STOPBULLYING
I'm always up all night crying and have suicide thoughts and I turn to cutting I ask and pray why doesn't anybody understand that this is not a phase I get bullied everyday all I want people to understand that depression is not a phase it is life nobody hears me cry every night
My mom once asked me... "What happened to the happy girl I once knew?" I responded with something that broke my own heart "She grew up, and she's still fighting"
So I beg you... God loves you, and You can't give up. Take a breath, and stand up. You can do this. I believe in you.. All of you..
Mk thanks I believe in you too and you are right! God is always here for everyone even if he doesn't help you in situations because he knows they'll be better, he planned our lives before we were even born.
Everyone needs to fight
Thanks but..... IM BREAKING INSIDE AND IVE BEEN CRYING IM DEPRESSED IVE BEEN CALLED UGLY, STUPID, A DISSAPOINTMENT, A BRAT, RUDE, AND A NAME OF WOLF GANG BY MY FAMILY AND PEOPLE AT SCHOOL AND I DONT CUT BUT I CANT DO ANYTHING MUCH LONGER I HAVE FOUR FRIENDS AND MY PHONE + MUSIC AND THOSE ARE THE ONLY THINGS KEEPING ME GOING..... Yet my parents don’t ever understand why I always act aggressive towards them and ever sense I was born it’s been like this and I’m only 11 so I have a long ways to go..... please.... I beg anyone who reads this...... please I need help.....
Idk why but I almost started crying when I read this
Mk I’ve said the same thing once or twice. And God loves u too. Don’t ever forget that.
I cant express in words how much this song describes. Nobody can see the pain I hide everyday, forcing laughs, and smiles. Sure sometimes everything "fine" but I always have that devil on my shoulder and I cant get away from it.
I know how that feels
Yeah
jules bader I will pray for u
You have no idea just how much I relate to you.
I feel the same
I can relate to this song so much. I cut for 5yrs and thought about suicide a lot. I'd been bullied since 2nd grade and had no real friends except 1, but she had moved away when things were getting really bad for me. I got yelled at all the time at home for no reason cause my mom had anger issues. i had a lot of shit going on (that Id prefer not to discuss). I hated my life and kept to myself. eventually, at 18, things got better and now I'm almost 21 and I'm happily married with an almost 6month old baby girl. I understand the pain, but one day things do start to get better. Keep yours heads up
I think I broke my replay button
what.......no!
0:00 there !
Loop is the Answer dudes!
Bruh same😁😂😂🤔
I hate that nobody understands teens who self-harm. We're not just trying to get attention we're hurting and we didn't chosed to feel this whey.
True. I cut, well... Use too. Anyway, I use to feel like... No one would understand. It numbed the pain on the inside. Seeing the blood trickle down my arm? Man... I felt... Happy. But that's not me anymore.. I understand people who self harm, bc I was a victim... Bc of bullies.
Watch 13 reasons why. According to my sister, it talks about self harm
I see your point, a lot of people don't understand what your going through, but Jesus does. He was betrayed, whipped, and mocked. He suffered more than anyone can imagine. Though we might feel pain we have to always remember that he conquered Satan. He can handle anything you bring to him. The same power that rose him from the dead is living inside of you. Have faith in Him and trust Him. Proverbs 3:5 says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding." We may not know why some things happen but we can trust that God has a wonderful and beautiful plan for all of us.
wow you've came a long way i wish you luck for the future..stay strong
thsi is me i self-harm my self and bec im hurt inside and the wound unside doesnt heal......
Came back to this song after fighting and getting through to the dawn. I wondered if I'd make it to the age of 17. I'm 19 and am starting University next week. I haven't made any suicide attempts in two years and haven't self harmed in one and a half years. Please don't give up, you'vw got too much potential, even if you don't see it now. One day in a couple of years you'll come back to this song too and realize that you made it to the dawn, and you will be proud of yourself. The amount of pride I feel knowing that I managed to survive after that battle of seven years is the best feeling in the World. Love yourself because you are perfect no matter what anyone else tries to say. They're just jealous because they'll never be as strong as you are
I started self-harming when I was 14, it was a way to let out my feelings, sometimes I was really angry with myself or my family and school partners, I was never enough for them... but the most time with myself... idk I just hated every part of me, people is always telling you that no matter how you look if you are beautiful inside , so What if I hated also the way I was? I got really down, I mean, Iwas really depressed but always trusting God. Now I’m 16 I still feel bad or frustated and still cutting me sometimes, but I relized that God created me with a purpose and that it was my decision to be part of that or spend my life feeling bad, that’s why I’m still fighting. And for all who have been having a bad day, week, year, childhood, or whatever just be strong, everything is going to change and God’s always with you guys.
I sing this song when im at lunch because I do not have any friends and when I see my ex friends walking around having fun and looking at me then whisper to eachother and giggle when they do that I start to cry and sing that song and there is this boy who tries to cheer me up and hang out with me he is the boy who hears me cry...
Rosalyn Benton very kind words Rosalyn
Just keep a smile when they come near! and listen to youor heart go for new friends!
this is how I felt in the 5th grade. at times I had to keep myself from hurting myself. This song hits me hard. I at one point had worried even the MEANEST teacher in the school and my careless friends. and this song is true. if you have ever had any suicidal thoughts. Tell somebody PLEASE. You should never have to go through this. Just know that God is making a plan for you and he hears you. Please. I hope that someone will take this comment to thought.
thank you.
@Olivija Strandjord I had to keep myself from hurting myself in 5th grade too but I kept my pain hidden...
I'm going into 6th grade after this summer.
I have been practicing the song for a long time and last night I sung it to my bf and he begged and pleaded for me to sing it again cause he didn't understand what it was saying so I sung it again and then explained what I means to me. This song discribes me in all ways. I do all the things mentioned in the song. Omg. I can't believe my bf finally understands why I am the way I am.
I’m a military child, so I move around a lot. Each time, I’m in depression and I’m hurt everyday. I explain things out to my mom, but she won’t really listen. I love this song because it completely describes what I feel. I came from California and I’ve lived there for 11 years. Moving to Washington, broke me down completely.
this song explains my life so much....I'm never happy, I have scars, I have to fake a smile all the time....I miss the old me..😔
me too
this song explains me exactly
same...
That_emo_freak 12 same
That_emo_freak 12 same
Same
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I have a few things to say.
Don't cut. Don't hurt. Don't cause pain upon yourself on purpose. What does it do?! It reminds you of how you felt. And you wouldn't want to think about it when you're older, right? You would want to forget but know you grew stronger. Those scars don't heal anything. They just cause you more pain. Understand that pain is consolable and heal-able.
I can't! I just can't! Every time I try to listen to this whole song I come up with a stuffy nose and eyes full of tears. I started sobbing at 0:51. Now I am going to try to listen to the whole song.
This song reminds me of my Grandfather that died before my birthday,that is why I love this song :,)
i wanted to say that this song is almost exactly what my situation. i was bullied for 2 years and i tried cutting,but i have a large family and they would see. and also i didn't see the point bc you just cause more pain than you need to yourself. they made fun of my for my body and my basically overall appearance. everyday was a living hell and i almost killed myself. they made me feel no one would ever love me unless i was curvy and had big boobs and a big butt. a year later i suffer from bad panic attacks and ill get flashbacks and start crying. but i also have a boyfriend who loves me for me and everyday i'm grateful to have someone who helps me believe that when someone loves you,they love you for who you are. i never thought i would find love and to me it was a miracle i found him.
it was 4 boys and i tried defending but after a while...you just can't anymore
Don't even ask me. Cutting isn't about how deep it is or for attention. I just don't know other ways. I cry when I feel depressed, anger, disappointed, and I do want to scream my heart out to everyone who hurts my feelings. but I can't.. so I just cut to calm myself. somehow.. not because I want to die.
I feel the same way and I do the same thing. Ur not alone and u never will be alone.
Demon_ Baby I love you no matter who you are, please do feel precious about yourself, a big hearted human being -✴︎
b thanks b. I love u no matter who u are as well.
This has such a deep message.
When I was 10 I cut my thumb because my dad wouldn’t drink, so my mom would drink more than she was suppose to.
That lead to being drunk, and arguing more, and more noise.
My ears were delicate then. I cut myself in the same space so many times over.
I still have the scars to this day.
This song is perfect for me.Every time i am self-harming i am going to listen to this song.My parents left me when i was about 1 month old i always had hope that they will come back but they never came back but i still have hope that they are looking for me.I was in depression for along time and i am still in depression.People that know me might think this is fake cuz i smile at school but that smile is fake.I hide my pain from everyone with a fake smile until today
If any one that has depression or does self harm, I'm always willing to listen! Even if I don't know much about it because I haven't been depressed before, I'm still willing to help
this song just it makes me feel better cause every day i stay locked up in my room, i dont talk to my family that much and i keep to myself. there are people who think they are my friends and i let them think that i force smiles and laughs and just really use my acting to good use and act like its ok but no its not. things have happened that have changed me drastically and i dont want to make everyone else around me miserable but i just have a dark cloud hanging over me all the time...
I understand completely how you feel, I'm the same way
I do the exact same thing as you do just to make people happy...
I'm not going through depression or any self harm but whoever is I care for u and my prayers r forever with u ilysm and remember that! 😊😚❤️
this song explains my life so well and I'm not 16 yet but I'm almost 15
same
rebekah nelson im only 11 and 8 months and I've been dealing with major depression since I was 8 and been self harming for about 2 years
Athena Baby well now your turning 16 since it's been a year
This is the song that i listen to everyday when i go home after school,its not just about depression,there is also the things that breaks you that can come from anywhere,there is always a time that you break from something said by someone,depression isnt just a feeling it is part of mostly every ones life.This is just for those people who feels the same as i do.
I was depressed for two years ending in feb. I very nearly took my life. This song really speaks to me. Now while my heart breaks again cause iv just lost, gained and then lost my best friend, it helps the pain. We had one beautiful day and then everything was gone again. It hurts
It will get better I promise u
Thanks for your kindness. It took longer than i expected but im getting there now. All it took was two hospital visits, one leaving home and here I am.
LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH
IM STILL WATHING THIS IN 2020 AM I OG? LOL
THIS IS MY FAVORITE SONG.
Everyone: *talks about sad things that happened to them.*
Me: *Just listening to the song because I think it sounds nice*
Yeah... this song pretty much sums up my life for the last two years...
I am only grateful that God has always been there, no matter how alone I feel at the time.
*God only puts you through things He knows you can handle.*
"Remember: suicide doesn't get rid of the pain. It only transfers it to loved ones and other people."
Hey my name is Melody, I'm 14.
When I was born my mum died, my dad abused me for killing my mum and he wished I was never born. My dad then got a girlfriend and she also stated to abuse me as well. I tried to hang myself them my sister came in and told me that "life is worth living for" but then a few months later she died in a car accident. I remembered what my sister said so I called the police and they took my dad and his girlfriend, I then moved in with my aunty and cousins. Im not a attention seeker.
dang your one strong girl lemme just tell you, i cant imagine! keep fighting amazing!
Stay strong! 💪🏾🤗
+Itztathere just keep fighting
i hope everything will get better for you now 😘
I hope you're doing well now
I'm sorry
This song relates to my past so much. I had an abusive mother and i had to pretend to be happy so nobody would know anything was wrong. When i went to bed every night i would cry myself to sleep. I finally one day told my teacher and my stepmom and dad found out and they battled for custody of me. I would visit my dad and stepmom in the summer and go back with my mom for the school year i failed most of my classes because nobody was there to help me. My stepmom offered to help over video chat but my mom would not let her. This went on for years my mother went through a bunch of boyfriends and she met a guy named Dave and she dropped me of places and picked her boyfriend over me. I would cry and beg for her to say with me but she would just keep leaving my grandma or uncle. My mom hurt me so many times physical mentally and emotional and i still wear those scars today. I get upset very easily but my dad and stepmom told me that i am very very strong by going through this. But there is a happy ending to this whole story, one summer my stepmom and dad had a talk with me and asked if i wanted to come live with them. I said yes so they had me call my mom and tell her that i wanted to to stay with them it was very hard, but my stepmom held me and told me everything was okay. My mom was very upset, but she didn't have a choice so i moved with my dad and stepmom. Years later, I am happy and live my amazing family and i wouldn't change a single thing. For anyone who is feeling worthless or upset i went through all of that it will get better god bless you.
I'm a twelve year old girl, and I have anxiety. I recently started going to a therapist, and things are getting better. Sometimes I feel like the friends I have at school are too amazing for me. They help me with all my problems and support me with everything I do. I feel like they don't realize how important they are to me at times, and I just wish I could help them with their problems too. My friends and family mean the world to me, but I wonder if they feel the same way every once in a while. I make fun of myself, saying I'm an attention-seeking idiot who always plays the victim card. I don't try to do these things, but I'll admit I can seem that way to others. And as I say that I just realized this could be another way for people to say I'm an attention-seeker xD
The_Newbie_Otaku
I have anxiety too. I get how you feel. :3
I am 12 yrs old too and were the same story
This song is so freaking emotional!!
Britt Nichole (The person who sings this) sings a lot of good songs like Headphones and Ready or not Ect.
'They never get past arms length...' so true. Sometimes it hurts, but there is an opening in the tunnel. Things will get better, if you hold strong. You'll come out of this with so much good in store for you...so many blessing... so much stronger. Seasons change, and He will hold you tight and never let you go. We've been through it all, and we will be stronger because of what we've been through. Hold on- God is waiting for you to reach out and he will answer. Listen to 'All This Time' also by britt nicole, and know that He is there, loving, lasting, forever reaching out to His children whom He loves.
You ARE a treasured child of the most high God!
I've been through this before.
A month or so back, for a few weeks my friends were ignoring me, ditching me and when I tell them they just say "Oh sorry! I forgot that you were there!" Or "Sorry. I was distracted"
Yeah right. So I became depressed at many things, always faking a smile even though a few friends knew I was lonely.
I'm over that now and I'm more happy than before.
But a few weeks ago, my friends were getting into relationships left right and centre and I was just there by myself and alone. I went home and I started how my face looked. So I became depressed again. My friends supported me for a bit over Instagram but when I appeared at school the next day they act like there's nothing wrong with me when they clearly knew I was upset about myself. That's what pissed me off, them pretending to care over text but when we meet in person they act like nothing happened.
Then some got really annoyed at me and posted comments on my IG photos saying
"Okay, you know what. You're beautiful. Enough said, now stop calling yourself ugly it's really starting to annoy me!" And so on.
You're meant to be supporting me not making me feel worse that I'm annoying you with my issues!
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I'm okay now, though sometimes my friends still act like I'm okay when I'm clearly not.
Well fuck you... :T 😔
It's ok I use to deal with the same situation and I promise you everything will get better sorry if I am late
Ellen frozen i been bullied for 3 years and I'm still getting bullied and I'm in 3rd grade
I don't know how u guys say feel I feel like this everyday and I love this song and who ever sang this is great and who put the words for this song great job keep it 👍👍👍💖💖💖
gigitay you just described my life .. the fake friends the broth and the parents... and the boys :(
This song describes me perfectly and this is now my favorite song
this is just like me... and how i feel.... everday
Same Hun your not alone xxx
Your not alone either!
me too...
Morgiana :P same.
Hi guys my name is Sophia I’m 11 and I have really bad anxiety problems and it all started with a bad dream when I was 8 and they keep getting worse but I fighting through it I ask one thing don’t let the devil take over you keep your trust in god and you will be fine god loves all of you and don’t let the devil get in your head and your heart love you guys
this song makes me cry !!!!! And its so good im doing this for my school talent show
tell me how many people cried. I want to know how people responded to the song.
my life story . its fuuny when I can' find words to describe my feelings this song explan me perfectly a nd I beak down everytime I hear it no one will understands except those who been through the same thing.
I watched this right before midnight going in to midnight
so this is where all the sad people are, i finally found you
My story is something I can no longer keep to myself.
I was being bullied, and that pushed me into depression.
I thought I was useless so, I picked at scabs to watch them slowly bleed. My mom noticed how I had bruises, so she would ask me what happened. My response was I tripped. But in reality, I would hit myself. Then it got so bad, I was called unthinkable names that can shatter a person's heart. I finally had enough so I wrote a letter to my mom and she was shocked and heartbroken. I had to be sent to a hospital because the school thought I would end up killing someone or myself. But I got lucky because I found my true best friend. She has my back and protects me from being picked on. I am thankful for my mom and my best friend were there to understand what I was going through.
Love this song it always makes me feel better when I feel low
One of the best songs ever
Every time I listen to the song and makes me sad
Hey. You please read this.♡◇◇
Those evil thoughts. Not worth hurting yourself. I swear someone loves you and would be so hurt if you were to leave. If you can't of someone then its me. I dont know you but I'd miss you the way you smile and laugh the way your hits dance in the lights. I promise it will be hard but worth it. Every story ends with happy ever after. If yours doesnt it means yourw story isn't over . I swear we are stars for fighting this♡♡ and tomorrow the sun will raise with you. My love will raise every morning with you. You're prefect to me and i hope you'll see it soon
I am here for anybody even if i don't go through this myself
This will be a song that will always make me feel better whenever I'm sad! You guys should also listen to skyscraper by Demi Lavato!
*lovato
Treasure Mclyntyre thanks for correcting me:)
Everday's the same nothing changes, the faces and the ugly words said. Like a song I'm tired of hear but is addicted to. Painful and sad but the only way I've learned to live.
Seasons WILL change. Hold on, and you WILL come through this, so much stronger with so much in store.
Stay strong beautiful. The only one that can judge? God. Not the bullies. God. You WILL get through it, everything happens for a reason! The reason you're going through this is because God thinks your a strong, beautiful soldier, who needs to prove everyone wrong. If someone tells you you can't do a dance? Practice and prove them wrong. If someone says you can't be a lawyer or what you wanna become? Prove them wrong by doing otherwise. You are loved, and cared for. You are perfect in every way possible. Don't give up. You never know what's down the road :)
Thank you.
Your welcome. But its the truth :)
This helps me to know that I have to not cry when I get bullied
This song is amazing
I have depression and the thing is that I can’t fell any thing and I used to be so joyful but now I am I don’t how to put it. Hopeless?
I can relate
my 9th birthday was like this, I cried all through the night, nobody ever hears me, I cut from the age of 7 and still do to this day, I don't think I will ever stop till I end up bleeding and then find myself in a room as white as the youtube main background colour, wondering how I ended up like that, then having my family all wanting to rush in to tell me what a bad idea it was to cut myself, they wouldn't support me. and being called dumb for the idea of cutting would be the most I ever should get and I deserve that, I know I am probably broken, but I am used to it, I've felt like this since I was 5 years old.
I have over 15 reasons I feel depressed on a list nobody has ever seen..
OK sweetheart I love through I don't know you and so does God don't cut I will talk to you and help you I have been hurt and overcome and saved and do inspirational videos check them out I'm here for you you are loved God Bless
This breaks my heart, because I felt just like you growing up. You might not be able to ever go to your family for help, but there ARE resources out there.Talk to someone, please, please. I cut myself for over 5 years before I finally got help. I still struggle with depression, but I'm on meds now, and it's so much better. Keep in mind, this is after years of self-medication which led to drug addiction and resulted in me ending up in prison. Don't let it get that far, I know you feel helpless, but YOU are in control. Above all, whatever you do, don't give up.
My family is great, but there are a lot of terrible things in my life. Such as being Bi-Sexual. It makes me cry. Sometimes I doubt I even like boys even more. I have thought of suicide when I was 10. Added onto it, my family best friend (great-grandma) died. I break down sometimes and lay in my room crying. Sometimes I like to say everything out loud as if she can hear me.
I feel the same I have breakdowns in the middle of school
I have a friend named Gummy and she's a little depressed and she does self harm to herself (Cuts and shoots). Her dad is mean to her and her mom died. Her friends tell her to cut herself and hurt herself, but that wasn't gonna help. She said that she shot her wrist and had to go to the emergency room to get stitches. Later she had to the emergency room again because she cut too deep. She thinks that it will never get better, but I always tell her, ''Don't do that, plz, put away the knife.'' But she keeps cutting. If you cut, you can't stop, that's what she said. I told her that I prayed for her, and that God loves you. She still cuts, but does it less often. I don't think she's AS depressed, and I know she will get better.
this song made me crie bc my life is like this all time
D':
:(
cora harrison stay strong.
best song ever
I can relate so much it's been so long since I've been happy
me too...
i love this song
people don't realize what since some people go through just make it worse for certain people
My friend used to cut and I'm afraid that she'll do it again. If I find out, I'm sending this song to her
after a while i just start to feel numb. i feel empty. don't call me an attention seeker because i don't like attention. if you knew me then you would know that. but sometimes i just want to give up but i haven't yet.
I know what you mean...
same here
I feel you
Samantha Emanuelson Me too sweetie
Never give up one day it will get better trust me I have been there
I can relate so much :(
Same
Yeah
I can too..
Yeah
this song can relate to me so so much
98% of the comments: *Talks about lots of sad events happened to them. Don't fake having a bad life for attention you know. Some of it is true, and some is not. Depression and stuff isn't a joke, and you should take it seriously. Stay strong you are all beautiful.*
2% of the comments: *I just like the song*
I'm part of that 2%!
This is a good song to bring Gods Children out of the devils evil Scams!! Please all of you that are going through this I LOVE YOU ALL and SO DOES GOD hold on and cry out to God he will rescue you I PROMISE!!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL TO GOD!! AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS!
I feel like bursting into tears hi I'm Kayla I'm 13 and right now is very tough for me I have insecurities and my mom blames me for them and she says I make them up I'm adopted and she says I'm just like my parents and will never be any better so Idk what to do plz just pray for me :(
I will. You be alright because God is watching over you and that is why you don't give up! He will help you every step of the way!
You were born for a reason...don't let what they say get to you:3
Awe thx guys
I will pray for ya and just know God is always there for u
me this year has bee rough im 14 and i have never cried and been as down as much as i have this year because of bullying and all my friends leaving me when i needed them the most and i was there for them they said its my fault maybe there right maybe i do deserve all of this......You know if it is well okay I GIVE UP!!! on happiness, friends, school!!!!!!
I'm sure it wasn't all your fault! stay strong and show the world your smile!
How when im down and depressed because of them Bella Well
I love this song for some reason, I feel connected to it like I understand what people are going through and I'd like to help them in any way possible even thought I cannot relate to what people are feeling but I understand and I think I can help ❤ Don't forget to stay strong and never let anything or anyone break you or your dreams down no matter what ❤ Ily all 😘
This song describes how I feel every day and the part "maybe making me bleed will was the slate clean" I think that everyday
This song is beautiful, the meaning..... Is one of the few christians songs i like!
So young so damaged .. I'm 13 this year & since 2 years ago i've been like .. Well this . My parents have always been preasuring me to do well in school , i have tons of fake friends that constantly ignores or makes fun of me , my true friends are no longer in the same school as me , i don't get along well with my brother at all & my family has tons of tragic issues (( eg; people dying , parents threatening divorce )) , i've also been cyber bullied many times in social media & people in real life telling me i'm fat , ugly , slut , whore , bitch & everything . I also have boy issues ... I hate life i just wanna die already ..
Exactly my life. I feel ya. But remember: Pain never lasts. ;d.
Thanks guys :')
Your welcome. Always helping a fellow in need. (:
Thanks so much ☺️ people far away from me seems to care more about me then people so close .. So close yet so far 😔
Thank u :)
FOR THOSE CONTEMPLATING SUICIDE: Just know that you're not selfish, you're giving up. Stay strong, kay?
I hate how I relate to this. 😔
I can't do this anymore
Thank you , but i told my mam about evything that has been hapening and im now in councilling and feeling alot bettter thank you
Megan Davis yey g00d
Thank you
my life in a song..
Amazing how this song totally describes my life :'(
I LOVE THIS SONG!!!! Somehow I feel like it's connected to me...But I do know this is how I feel like everyday...Thanks, school! You're the worst! *Also,i'm not trying to get attention if you guys thought that.*
I hate school too for the same reasons :/
hi sweetie I've been bullied your beautiful stop cutting tour beautiful God loves you and so do I talk with me I'll help God bless
+Rachel BHanks wait are you a boy or girl not to mean that i am not sure if you are a girl or boy :(
cecilia kriner
She’s a girl her name is Rachel it literally says it in her name
This touched my heart because I really miss my grandpa and dad but there in a good place know.... 😞
Just like me I fight I breake I wonder no one gets me😔
This song is amazing!!!
This is too much of me and worse. I'm not even 16 and I can't seem to smile as much. Only 4 men who I have given up all hope on meeting makes me forget those problems for those few minutes. I take smile but a lot of the time I can't even do that. They are my drug. I'm addicted. I feel happy watching their videos. But when I can't then the voices get to me, there are more scars on my arm. More blood on the sheets. More tears on my face. I need them to be alive.
Serpentine Determination I'll pray for you. It will get better. God has a plan for you. I promise. trust me he hears you. please stay strong
This song about my life :(
I make scars blood and pain how do I stop ;(?
Im 12 and i have cuts up to my elbow that start at my hand im getting help now but I was not ok and people need to learn how to see when someones looking for attention and when someone really needs help
This goes deep if your going through it when your deserpate it hurts like BAD😢😭
This song is the song that was used in the rest in peace video for my friend. She committed suicide and this song relates to her life when she was still living and my life now.
I love this song!!
Well since people are sharing their stories I feel like it’s time to finally share mine with the world. I am jay, I am 14. I suffer from anorexia, depression, bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder, and PTSD. My entire life I’ve been judged, manipulated and told I wasn’t good enough. This song rlly hurts me bc it reminds me so much of myself. When I was a baby, my dad would throw me around all the time, and not in a fun or playful way. He would whip me around. My dad would beat my mom. He was very overpowering and he’s the reason I suffer from many mental illnesses. My sister passed away last December and the last time I talked to her was a year before she died but my dad yelled at me for talking to her and he almost hit me that day. He locked me in a room on my 8th birthday because I told my mom he was moving into a new house/apartment. He locked me into closets. There was a few times where I would go days without eating, because he wasn’t willing to feed me. But my little sister, he just adored. My dad always yelled at me for the most idiotic things and would threaten me. He abandoned me and my sister 4 years ago on Thanksgiving. I remember very vividly what me and my sister said, she asked “where’s daddy” and I yelled back, “DONT YOU GET IT!? HES NOT COMING!! HE DOESNT LOVE US ANYMORE!!” Then on multiple occasions, I got bullied. I got punched. I got slapped. Pushed around. My dad always told me I wasn’t good enough and he always wished I was never born. Keep in mind that I have a boyfriend who truly loves me and wouldn’t do anything to hurt me. Let’s call him...Michael. Me and Michael have been together for 5 months now. 8 months ago, I was in an abusive relationship. Let’s call him...Matthew. So Matthew would slap me, choke me, and he would pick me up, set me on his lap and rub his boner on me. I didn’t like it, as you can probably imagine. But Matthew one day decided to try and pull me into the bathroom. I tried getting away and when I finally got to the first floor near my next class, he yanked my arm and dislocated it. I remember, waking up at 3 in the morning to my mom crying and blue and red flashing lights taking my dad away. Yes, I cut. A lot. I know it isn’t healthy and I need to stop but it’s the only pain that I can control. My entire life, I’ve been hated and I’ve always felt so worthless. I got diagnosed with all of my mental illnesses when I was 11. My life has been crap. My brother, he hasn’t yet gotten that when I’m scared, or I’m hurt...I laugh. So when he hurts me, he thinks it’s funny and he just keeps hitting me or whatever he does in that moment. I have scars all over my arms and legs. My mom is embarrassed by it. Ive wanted to commit suicide multiple times and I’ve tried a couple. I don’t do drugs or anything like that. But, I’m pansexual. Michael is homophobic. Some people may say that part of me that’s gay, doesn’t matter. Others may think otherwise. Michaels sister, is pansexual. He calls her a faggot all of the time. I love Michael a lot. But some of the stuff he does, hurts me. When I say he would never hurt me, I mean 1 he wouldn’t intentionally hurt me and 2 he wouldn’t physically hurt me. Our relationship is long distance. But we talk almost 24/7. We vc, we email, we talk on discord, we talk on SoundCloud, we talk on padlet. My brother is also gay. Today, Michael wanted to see my body. Keep in mind, he has before. But this time, he wanted me to show him my imperfections. For instance, my rib cage. My sternum and rib cage are misplaced, and since I’m anorexic, he wanted to see my rib cage. Me and Michael have been through everything together. I get threatened to be killed, about 50 times a day. I lost my best friend who I have been rlly close to for a year and a half two days ago. So that’s about 2/3 of my story. Comment if you want to hear the rest! Thanks for listening.
I want to hear the rest! That is so devastating though. How have you survived?
relating to this somewhat kills me even more :(:
Its so sad that there is so many people who are self harming in the world. All those people out there, i feel very sad for you :( stop self harming as it wont give u any benefits. Maybe it numbs the pain that you are suffering but ure oso hurting urself n those ard u at the same time. So pls, stop... #STOPBULLYING
" Maybe making me bleed, could be the answer that could wash this slate clean "
this represents my life but it won't get better
PolarBear Potato Stay strong.
I'm always up all night crying and have suicide thoughts and I turn to cutting I ask and pray why doesn't anybody understand that this is not a phase I get bullied everyday all I want people to understand that depression is not a phase it is life nobody hears me cry every night
yup! i love this song.