*about the AA, my mom ended up having to work and the meeting was on the complete opposite side of town. With the way I’m feeling there was just no way I could drive myself all the way over there. I will be going to a meeting this week though and I will bring y’all with!! Much love, stay safe and stay sober 🙏
You won't be battling this for the rest of your life. Promise! FIRST YEAR IS A BEAST! Battle through it. You that kind of time under your belt to believe in yourself and realize you are strong enough to beat it for good.
You’re right Richard, I need to stop thinking that way because I’ve found it’s negative to think forever this is going to be a battle. Freedom awaits, I’ve seen it through y’all. God bless man and thank you.
Thank u for letting us know how you are doing. I'm so sorry that you're not feeling well.. Is the ultrasound for your liver problems? I hope you feel better as the week goes on. .Thinking of you and praying for you. Please take care and know you're not alone. We love and care about you. I admire your honesty.. 🙏
It rarely gets mentioned but it's estimated that up to 40% of convicts committed their crimes while drunk. Alcohol is involved in most homicides, assaults, domestic violence, sex crimes, etc. Just think about how much societal damage alcohol has truly caused.
Yea man isn’t that insane….. another reason I believe alcohol is 100% the most destructive/demonic addiction out there. There is a level of evil to booze that people just don’t understand. God bless bro 🙏
Slayer, take care of yourself and then worry about the AA meetings. Having alcoholism doesn't define who you are as a human being. You're so much more than the disease. You're a great, intelligent, christian person with a huge heart who happens to also suffer from a serious disease. You have the potential to own your life, disease free, with a successful career and a beautiful wife and family. You can do this, I believe in you.
Slayer! That’s scary. Someone that drunk could get aggressive dangerous! I am glad you both are alright. Take care of yourself, liquids, nutrition, rest as the body tells you. I hope your liver is ok 💙💚🫶🏻 take care. I’m rooting for you. Hugs big hugs 🤗 😊
I know right mona? You have to watch yourself nowadays people. Mental health is out of control!! I’ll do my best to take it easy and stay healthy, much love 🙏
Hey Slayer! First, you did the right thing when confronting the guy that wanted the phone and it is like that, sometimes you need to take action to prevent worse. I hope your liver and everything else is okay, that you make it and get on with recovery. You can do this. It's hard, but you got this, you can continue on this path of sobriety. Don't lose hope there. Get on with it, every small step is a victory. There are so many crazy stories that happen in life, i could write a book about it, but seriously, you got this. Go on. You are on the right path. Don't stop now. Don't give up now. No matter if you got to this AA meeting or not, life goes on, better days will come. It's a hard and rocky road, but you can do it!
if his liver has massively elevated enzymes its a whistle to get your shit together however its better than having perfectly normal enzymes sometimes. Because at the very end you will have normal enzymes and a non functioning liver, so at least its not that bad.
Hey Slay, I’m so sorry you’re not feeling well. There’s definitely some characters found in the hospital and unfortunately, there’s so many people suffering from mental health issues and/or substance abuse. I’m glad to hear you and your mom are safe. I know what you mean about alcohol chipping away at you and taking and taking until there’s nothing left. On the flip side, even when you have possessions and on the surface you look like you’re doing just fine and thriving, you could feel utterly alone. You have to dig deep and make those changes. You will be different but better for leaving all of that behind. It’s just hard times right now but you will bounce back. You have to retrain your brain to accept that if you take a sip of that poison it will take your life. You are worth having a beautiful life Slayer, we all do. Take it light and just focus on feeling better health wise. Much love for you always.
🖤🙏hey micru, it was awesome seeing you in LD’s live yesterday. I really enjoy us all getting together and chatting. 100% our AA meeting. Also thank you so much, y’all always give me reassurance and hope. We do all deserve a beautiful life and it’s right around the corner, but we must take some steps first. Hope you’re doing amazing micru!! Again thank you 🙏 🖤much love.
@@Slayer-7373 🫶 it really is nice hanging out will you guys. I always walk away feeling energized 😊. Hope today you’re feeling better, just be patient it takes a little time but every day it gets better. Have an awesome day Slay!
Thats crazy man. I'm glad you didn't end up with a crazy psycho with a gun or something. Stay safe out there. Get better. Maybe eat some blueberries they are delicious and I believe they have antioxidants that may help.
That’s what I was thinking after the fact man, good thing he didn’t have a gun that could’ve been REAL BAD. Blueberry’s is a great idea, I should stop at the store tomorrow and grab some. I’ll be back 100% before long brother, much love.!
Alcoholism definitely doesn't discriminate, and i think in a sense we'll be dealing with our alcoholism for the rest of our lives, but i don't think it's always going to be a battle. I have faith that it will get easier. And then some day we'll all be too old to care about drinking. Haha Those were some really crazy experiences last night during an already stressful time. I'd need to just chill my brain out the day after, too. Also, try your best not to play the comparison game. We put way too much value into status. Obviously, it should be a goal for everyone to be comfortable financially in life. We all deserve stability, but you are still so young. Too young to be judging yourself so harshly. You'll have a great life, just get through this time and start building. You'll have that stability in no time. Have a great night. I hope it is peaceful, and i hope that this week treats you better!! 😊❤
Absolutely not, it doesn’t care who you are or where you’re from. I also hope it won’t be a battle forever, also yes lol hopefully with age comes wisdom. Thank you for uplifting me as always Amanda and giving me reassurance. You guys have helped more than you know. It’s a one day at a time thing no need to rush like you said we put too much into status. Hope you’re doing well Amanda, much love to you ! 🙏🖤
@Slayer-7373 ahhh, you've done the same for me, Slayer! I really never imagined I'd meet some of my greatest supports on UA-cam. I'm starting off strong today with coffee and breakfast. It's going to be a long day, but a good one! ☺️ I hope for the same for you! Much love, my friend.
Hi, thinking of you. Praying you're doing better. Never give up. You are loved and cared about every day. I hope that can help you in some way when times are hard. 🙏❤
What a creative way to deal with the phone situation. He was wondering if you were crazier than he was, haha! Plus no one was hurt. I’ve gained and lost sobriety many times and I do know that once you get farther out of the active addiction, you won’t feel like you’re battling so much. Keep winning the battles and you’ll most certainly win the war. Stay strong and carry on!
Lol thanks Lola, sometimes you have to fight crazy with CRAZY. Also yes I need to stop believing this is going to be a life long nonstop battle, it’s not. Freedom is on the other side and I’ve seen it in these comments. 💪🙏one day at a time. Thanks for the comment and love!!! Bless
The chemicals inside you are still out of whack Slayer, so give yourself time. These relapses are killing you bro and killing your spirit through kindling, maybe. You have to resolve the deep-seated pain within you, or you will relapse again, I think, brother. Maybe the bums you ran into offer a glimpse of what awaits all of us if we don't get a handle on our addiction. With you Slayer man, I just don't like to see you struggling.
Bingo Man, you’re 100% right about the kindling that’s why it keeps getting worse and worse. It’s time to STOP FOR GOOD. And yea I’d say you’re pretty much right…… I have a lot of pain that I hold on to and trauma that I need to desperately sort out….. it’s waiting for me once I start to physically feel better that’s when the mental battle comes in. Y’all are helping me so much, i appreciate you. Much love, the struggle won’t be much longer let’s hope my friend. 🙏
Hey man im sorry you're goin through it right now, just keep on keepin on bro. "how'd my life get like this, i wasn't a bad kid", that part bout brought me to tears dude, I've said that exact thing to myself, where'd it go wrong ya know? If i could go back in time and give that little boy a hug and tell him everything would be okay i would, but that little little boy is me, and he's a 27 year old man now, wondering what the hell happened lol
It sounds like we are in the same boat as far as looking back and being like wtf lol, also almost the exact same age. Trust me man it’s wild, but we are still alive!!! Which means we have the opportunity to change which is a blessing. We got this, keep me updated bro 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 right on man, we're alive so we just keep goin. Also, I watched a few of your other recent uploads and I just wanted to give my condolences about your dog, that's honestly really rough, I went through the same thing last year, but I'm glad to hear you've pulled yourself up, that takes strength. 22 days alcohol free right now, and I will not drink with you today mate, one day at a time.
Crazy story, man! I'm glad you were able to get out of that situation in one piece! You're right, alcoholism is no joke and it doesn't discriminate. It doesn't pick and choose its victims. I was a bit rebellious in my youth, but I wasn't necessarily a bad kid, and it still got me! I've seen all kinds of people in the various rehabs that I've been to, people from all walks of life. Absolutely ANYONE can become and alcoholic, and we should never judge a book by its cover as they say!
@@davidlafond8327 anyone and everyone can get it, that’s how alcohol looks at us. It’s dangerous, that’s why channels like LD’s and bat country and mine and others is so important. These communities are so important because it’s spreading awareness on this wild subject. Sheds some light on it. Thanks David, god bless 🙏
After I quit drinking, I remember it took about half a year for me to feel normal. It took about 2 months for the night shocks, Horrifying dreams, and extreme anxiety/paranoia to subside. My point is, it takes some time to return to a normal physical/mental/emotional/spiritual state. It was absolutely terrifying to me going through those first few weeks/months without alcohol. But overtime, I started to feel a peace, and positive feelings/emotions and it was so awesome, I could feel my body/mind returning to health, like before I started drinking. Glory to God. Edit: I would also like to add, when we're in that scared/anxiety paranoid state, like you mentioned in this video- strange negative things happen, like the guy leaning in your car, or the crazy guy in the ER. It's like the devil is trying everything to make us pick up a bottle and drink. In my experience, these negative moments tend to always compile other negative events, kinda like an avalanche effect. Take care brother, God Bless 🙏
Thanks for this beautiful comment my friend, full of wisdom and spot on. 🙏🙏 It’s definitely connected to demonic activity. I brought that up at the end of my new video how all of those creepy things are connected. People call us crazy but those like us who have seen it and been through it it’s not crazy at all!!!! We need Jesus in this life, god bless 🙏
Good morning Slay! Clever problem solving skills LOL. I hope you’re feeling better today 🙏🏽 Thank you for keeping us updated. Hang in there💪🏽 we’re rooting for you!!! 🖤🖤🖤
Holy f I’d be scared out of my ever loving mind. I remember the feeling of sheer panic too Slay. Hadn’t slept in over 7days 8nights driving on I10 to outpatient. I had no business driving! I am so sorry that happened to yall
@@Slayer-7373 I’ve been there done that but couldn’t hang on. My body became so dependent on my benzo for cptsd I almost died after going cold turkey for 3wks. I completely understand. Scary af I’m here anytime Slay
Thank God - that's just Terrifying I'm so sorry--do the AA meetings online -- stay safe ! You will come out strong ---- Nutrition is key -- stay away from Caffeine God Bless you
just take it easy bro-try as much as possible to stay away from stressfull situations...just walk away if you find yourself in such situations. thats the last thing you need right now while your in recovery. you can do this bro-wer all rooting for you.
Man, we’re totally the same…when I was drinking if I ever got into sketchy situations I would always act as crazy as I could and it would SCARE THEM AWAY just like your move to threaten to stab yourself! Great minds think alike!
Just catching up on some of your vids haven’t watched in a while. I’m laying in bed after having surgery in a lot of pain. Every time i watch u i get a really good energy from u and i know you’ll be ok no matter how many times u run into a ruff patch. We are all struggling with addiction and to stay sober and i may not comment to often but i do think about u from time to time and wish the best for u where ever your life takes u ✌️
@@Slayer-7373 you sweetheart! I’m good… doing the mom dog/mom human son thing wife thing lol! So freaking hot here dude omg 114 today I’m praying for u Slay everyday!!!! Love ya
@@Slayer-7373 I run Goose at 5am in the portable/playground he chases bunnies. Only time nobody is out I feel like fixture in this house during the day. Too hot out
@@debbieporter6581 hey Debbie I plan to post tomorrow most likely! I’m back to work tonight so I’m just trying to get through this haha. Hopefully within a couple days I’ll be mostly back to myself. 🙏
Today was my son's last day I could spend with him before her leaves for the military tomorrow my last chance to say goodbye and he turned his back on me because I was drinking and I just got out of the hospital yesterday 😢
Honestly, the ER is the primo place to film drama 😅. It's wild how they'll accept people who could be actual threats but there are police and security. I had got into a fight once, I got beat up this time, no shame, he literally punched me while I was asleep in order to raid my pockets (which had nothing in them but he did take the time to send his wife a text from my phone calling her a bitch). Filed charges on him the next day and he was convicted of felony assault with intent to cause bodily harm. Anyways, the doctors thought I somehow beat the shit out of myself in order to try and get pain meds. I was like I don't even care about that I just want to make sure my face isn't fractured. ER docs are so jaded. Another time i went in because my arm was swollen to the size of my leg. Once again, they thought I was faking it. I was in there for about 2 hours and finally they were like, your arm/shoulder (upper humerus on the ball) is broken an your shoulder is also dislocated. I was sent for emergency surgery the next morning and apologies from all the doctors involved. 17 staples across my shoulder, footlong scar, and permanent loss of mobility in that shoulder. Anyways...I hope you have insurance because going to the ER is NOT cheap! 😅
Omg bro 😂😓 what is up with the ER?? I can totally relate to also being accused of lying at times. Like yea I’m lying to come get drugs in the hospital, that’s just the insanity that us addicts deal with. I do have a job that has insurance thank god!!! Because yea it’s insane the prices….. Much love man, bless 🙏
Hi Just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you and praying your feeling bett er. I hope your ultrasound goes well. Please take care of yourself. We care and love you. You mean so much to all of us on here.. 🙏❤
One day it will be too late , I just lost a friend 34 years old , countless detoxes and relapses , he died alone on the beach , leaving a baby girl and a son behind . He went to the beach I hope in search of peace , but the fact is slayer man it will kill you and you got this brother just learn and move on , alcohol is poison my man
Haven't watched this yet but I'm rooting for you brother! I'm a recovering addict that still drinks once a month and partakes of cannabis medically so i understand the struggle brother! I just know my life is definitely better not raging out every single day! I'm thinking about putting booze all the way down because i know how bad it can get amd alcohol leads me to street drugs with are just a deadly toxic soup and you are playing Russian roulette with street drugs
@@amandaflaherty7528thanks for the comments! Yes I'm in a great spot and just need to keep on my plan! It's been about three weeks since I've drank. About a month ago I went on a kick with those 8-14% man can at the gas station and kinda scared me how quickly I got a taste for alcohol lol so I pulled back and just drank beer this last time lol I know for sure I can't drink more than once a month and that's it or else it will be every single day lol I'm not suggesting anyone do what I do it's just what works for me lol
Hey brother I’m rooting for you as well!!! Once a month is a lot better than once a day…. Since you have the discipline to do it once a month what you could do is next time wait 2 months. Then 3 months, then 4, 5, 6 and so on till it’s so far apart you just stop all together. Just an idea my friend, keep me updated 🙏🙏
I’ve been trying my best to drink no caffeine, I broke down and drank a coke earlier but other than that nothing. Thanks for the comment and advice my friend
No worries. Stay strong. Day 108 myself. Still getting anxiety attacks but they are becoming less frequent and less intense. ‘Careful patience is the fastest way’ - Ajahn Brahm
What this is called kindling I have to take clonazepam for my panic attacks o always said theirs nothing out there that I can't stop cold turkey, I thought I was this bad man then I start having panic attacks and I got on them did one taper did well then I lost a close loved one and I went back up on the dosage and I have tried everything to taper just some and the pain is real clonazepam.attaches to the same receptors in the brain that alcohol.does, sorry that happened to you bro at the er, wishing you the best, do not ever drink 1 more cause I had a freind who was in your position and the hospital Dr told her 1 more beer and she is dead, she can't ever have another beer, so plz don't drink another one bro!
Yes it’s 100% kindling with me at this point. That’s why it just gets more and more brutal. They will not prescribe me any benzodiazepines because if my history with alcohol, but man there were times I wish they did. Sitting at home wondering if I would make it, begging my doctor to give me 2-3 pills and no. The pain is very real, we must stick together and help each other as addicts on this difficult journey. I definitely don’t want to be at that point, but I’m right around the corner. Time to stop!!! God bless man 🙏
The only way to end the torture is to stop for good, man. Maybe this IOP and the therapist will be beneficial for you. He was just some drunken idiot. I've seen some crazy and weird shit go down in the ER. Go to the A.A. meeting if you can make it. What did the doctors say about your liver? Is it enlarged? They said you had elevated enzymes, you are in pain and they just released you?
Absolutely shades, stopping and staying stopped. Also yea they pretty much just gave me fluids and sent me on my way, said I should probably be good as long as I stay healthy and if it gets worse come back to the ER lol. You know how it is man, us addicts are treated odd sometimes. I’ve been questioning them sending me home. Anyways, hope all is well brother. Take care
Hey. Account was hacked. I haven't been around. Forgot the name of your channel. I'm back for now. Still working on things. Sorry to hear you relapsed. I hope you're doing good. Best wishes.
I think you need to make it to an AA meeting…not just tonight but every day for at least 90 days. Tell your story, thereby help yourself and others. And find a sponsor to guide you thru the steps.
Mate with the symptoms you have and you only need to listen to LD you will end up with cirrhosis and then it's irreversible. Mate you need to see your doctor, get a fibrosis scan etc. You need to see your liver condition otherwise you will end your life early. Speak to LD. Please make the right decision. Best wishes Steve LONDON, UNITED KINGDOM
Next time if you relapse, go to the meeting while you're still sick. It hits harder that way. And don't wreck your car. Watching your vids I feel that's coming.
@@Slayer-7373 he chases those who have gotten away…. He’s been on me lately as well however I won’t be taken down not by him never! Remember the Gospel of Luke the parable of the one lost sheep!!
I pray u do Slay If u can drive to the store I bet u could drive to the meeting 😉 😉 It’s a mind f Alcoholism is too accessible Instead of how or why Help me go forward
I didnt know they said each relapse gets harder. From what ive witnessed though makes sense. However the biology/science/whatever youd call it, i dont understand. Every alcoholic in my family has relapsed at least once. I understand why detox would be necessary if one relapsed and got back to their old habits becoming physically dependent on alcohol again. Seizures, DT's, the whole nine yards. I don't understand how one night of binge drinking would cause the need for detox? Cause at that point one's body isn't dependent on it, right? At the beginning its all mental. After so long is when your body cant function. Obviously my assumption is wrong, but i just dont get that?
Makes me wonder why God put alcohol an addictive stuff on the earth in the first place. Cause he already knew what the outcome was. I dont understand God. Hes the one who created poppy plants an many other addictive plants. An alcohol. I dont understand why he would do that when he knew that people were gonna suffer from them. Im not blaming God but honestly sometimes it makes sense to me to blame God tho. Hes the one who made everything. He couldve avoided all this suffering but he chose not too. I never asked to put in this earth in the first place. An now most of the world is gonna end up burning in a lske of fire for eternity. Why would God create us this way when he already knew before hand that the msjority of thevworld would end up in hell for eternity. I mean you cant sin in heaven so why wouldnt he make earth like heaven to begin with? Almost seems like he wants people to suffer. I mean i understand that Gods thoughts are higher then ours. An im sure theres a good reasons for everything God does. But those reasons are far beyond me to understand. I love God but its hard to love him sometimrs tho when you gobthrew so much in life. I dont understand why God didnt just make us all perfect to begin with? Why would he allow so much suffering. An then on top of it theres people in hell burning in unimaginable pain right now.an its never gonna end. I know god hates sin. But hes God tho. He couldve made it to were people couldnt sin like in heaven. Im not trying to put doubt in anyones minds im just venting. Because these un answered questions are haunting. An mysterious. I just dont understand man thats all. Did he do it sll for his glory? Because that doesekt mske sense to me either.
All of these questions are valid brother, these are all questions I’ve had many times myself. When you come to realize this is a fallen world, not a good world you start to understand why it’s the way it is. Yes god could have prevented all of this but really where would the story be? We are living in a giant story, a giant test. There is pain and obstacles but if you can remind yourself that ETERNITY is waiting for you on the other side you can start to understand that this world and life is nothing. Here today, gone tomorrow. We must live for what’s after this world, put faith into it. “Blessed are those who believe and don’t see”. It’s a tough road but I see you questioning things and that’s the first step. God bless brother
*about the AA, my mom ended up having to work and the meeting was on the complete opposite side of town. With the way I’m feeling there was just no way I could drive myself all the way over there. I will be going to a meeting this week though and I will bring y’all with!!
Much love, stay safe and stay sober 🙏
Plz b sober
Let me know if you need a good zoom meeting. I do one a few days a week and love it!
@@CornBeefinthePassengerSeatwhat’s the zoom name??
@@Slayer-7373 lmk if you need more info on it! My comments aren’t staying around for some reason
I still don’t see the reply I originally put but it’s called AAFORUS
You won't be battling this for the rest of your life. Promise! FIRST YEAR IS A BEAST! Battle through it. You that kind of time under your belt to believe in yourself and realize you are strong enough to beat it for good.
You’re right Richard, I need to stop thinking that way because I’ve found it’s negative to think forever this is going to be a battle.
Freedom awaits, I’ve seen it through y’all. God bless man and thank you.
This was wild Im sorry you’re not doing well slayer. Get well soon 💪
Jeff 🙏 thank you brother.
Thank u for letting us know how you are doing. I'm so sorry that you're not feeling well.. Is the ultrasound for your liver problems?
I hope you feel better as the week goes on. .Thinking of you and praying for you.
Please take care and know you're not alone. We love and care about you. I admire your honesty.. 🙏
Hey thank you so much Debbie 🙏🖤, yes the ultra sound is for liver and pancreas. I appreciate the prayers more than you know!!!!
It rarely gets mentioned but it's estimated that up to 40% of convicts committed their crimes while drunk. Alcohol is involved in most homicides, assaults, domestic violence, sex crimes, etc. Just think about how much societal damage alcohol has truly caused.
Yea man isn’t that insane….. another reason I believe alcohol is 100% the most destructive/demonic addiction out there. There is a level of evil to booze that people just don’t understand.
God bless bro 🙏
Been the main cause of my meth/coke/fentanyl/pill relapses
Interesting stats ----
You handled the situation perfectly. It's too bad you had to deal with this outside the ER of all places
Thanks Angela, the world is crazy anymore lol. God bless 🙏
Slayer, take care of yourself and then worry about the AA meetings. Having alcoholism doesn't define who you are as a human being. You're so much more than the disease. You're a great, intelligent, christian person with a huge heart who happens to also suffer from a serious disease. You have the potential to own your life, disease free, with a successful career and a beautiful wife and family. You can do this, I believe in you.
🫂 this is a beautiful/sweet comment Rita. Thank you for uplifting me and clearing my head a bit. 🙏
Slayer! That’s scary. Someone that drunk could get aggressive dangerous! I am glad you both are alright. Take care of yourself, liquids, nutrition, rest as the body tells you. I hope your liver is ok 💙💚🫶🏻 take care. I’m rooting for you. Hugs big hugs 🤗 😊
I know right mona? You have to watch yourself nowadays people. Mental health is out of control!!
I’ll do my best to take it easy and stay healthy, much love 🙏
Hey Slayer! First, you did the right thing when confronting the guy that wanted the phone and it is like that, sometimes you need to take action to prevent worse. I hope your liver and everything else is okay, that you make it and get on with recovery. You can do this. It's hard, but you got this, you can continue on this path of sobriety. Don't lose hope there. Get on with it, every small step is a victory. There are so many crazy stories that happen in life, i could write a book about it, but seriously, you got this. Go on. You are on the right path. Don't stop now. Don't give up now. No matter if you got to this AA meeting or not, life goes on, better days will come. It's a hard and rocky road, but you can do it!
if his liver has massively elevated enzymes its a whistle to get your shit together
however its better than having perfectly normal enzymes sometimes. Because at the very end you will have normal enzymes and a non functioning liver, so at least its not that bad.
@@TheSaival I'm no doc myself, so i can't tell much about this, but i just hope the best for him and everyone else here
🙏💪we got this brother, thank you for this awesome comment. No giving up, I’m gonna keep pushing forward. Y’all have helped immensely!!!
Bless 🙏
Hey Slay, I’m so sorry you’re not feeling well. There’s definitely some characters found in the hospital and unfortunately, there’s so many people suffering from mental health issues and/or substance abuse. I’m glad to hear you and your mom are safe. I know what you mean about alcohol chipping away at you and taking and taking until there’s nothing left. On the flip side, even when you have possessions and on the surface you look like you’re doing just fine and thriving, you could feel utterly alone. You have to dig deep and make those changes. You will be different but better for leaving all of that behind. It’s just hard times right now but you will bounce back. You have to retrain your brain to accept that if you take a sip of that poison it will take your life. You are worth having a beautiful life Slayer, we all do. Take it light and just focus on feeling better health wise. Much love for you always.
Awesome comment micru
🖤🙏hey micru, it was awesome seeing you in LD’s live yesterday. I really enjoy us all getting together and chatting. 100% our AA meeting.
Also thank you so much, y’all always give me reassurance and hope. We do all deserve a beautiful life and it’s right around the corner, but we must take some steps first.
Hope you’re doing amazing micru!! Again thank you 🙏 🖤much love.
@@Slayer-7373 🫶 it really is nice hanging out will you guys. I always walk away feeling energized 😊. Hope today you’re feeling better, just be patient it takes a little time but every day it gets better. Have an awesome day Slay!
Thats crazy man. I'm glad you didn't end up with a crazy psycho with a gun or something. Stay safe out there. Get better. Maybe eat some blueberries they are delicious and I believe they have antioxidants that may help.
That’s what I was thinking after the fact man, good thing he didn’t have a gun that could’ve been REAL BAD.
Blueberry’s is a great idea, I should stop at the store tomorrow and grab some.
I’ll be back 100% before long brother, much love.!
The ER has a Lot of sketchy people late at night. The best time to go is in the early morning. Take good care of you Slay. You got this.🙏❤️🩹
Yes I’ve noticed that, always some weird stuff happening late night at the ER.
Alcoholism definitely doesn't discriminate, and i think in a sense we'll be dealing with our alcoholism for the rest of our lives, but i don't think it's always going to be a battle. I have faith that it will get easier. And then some day we'll all be too old to care about drinking. Haha
Those were some really crazy experiences last night during an already stressful time. I'd need to just chill my brain out the day after, too. Also, try your best not to play the comparison game. We put way too much value into status. Obviously, it should be a goal for everyone to be comfortable financially in life. We all deserve stability, but you are still so young. Too young to be judging yourself so harshly. You'll have a great life, just get through this time and start building. You'll have that stability in no time. Have a great night. I hope it is peaceful, and i hope that this week treats you better!! 😊❤
How are you amanda
@@jeff67788 I'm good, Jeff!! How are you doing?
Absolutely not, it doesn’t care who you are or where you’re from. I also hope it won’t be a battle forever, also yes lol hopefully with age comes wisdom.
Thank you for uplifting me as always Amanda and giving me reassurance. You guys have helped more than you know. It’s a one day at a time thing no need to rush like you said we put too much into status.
Hope you’re doing well Amanda, much love to you ! 🙏🖤
@Slayer-7373 ahhh, you've done the same for me, Slayer! I really never imagined I'd meet some of my greatest supports on UA-cam. I'm starting off strong today with coffee and breakfast. It's going to be a long day, but a good one! ☺️ I hope for the same for you! Much love, my friend.
I love your honesty xx
I know it hits hard
🖤🙏thanks seg, honesty is what helps people and yourself. I’ve came to realize this over time :) hope you are well seg.
@@Slayer-7373 aww yes it definitely is,
And I think your doing amazing, and yes I'm good thankyou 😊 xxx
@@seg6629 🖤🫂
Man!! Good to see you on....updates can relieve us too, knowing your status. What a BIZARRE night at the ER !! Be safe Slayer !!
What’s up Craig!! I’ll definitely keep y’all updated. It was 100% a bizarre night…..
Hey Craig I could use your help brother please reply!! 🙏🙏 god bless
I love your sober smile
Awe thank you.
@@Slayer-7373 yeah I know when you are 🫶🏻♥️
Hi, thinking of you. Praying you're doing better. Never give up. You are loved and cared about every day. I hope that can help you in some way when times are hard. 🙏❤
Appreciate this Debbie thank you 🙏🙏🙏
What a creative way to deal with the phone situation. He was wondering if you were crazier than he was, haha! Plus no one was hurt. I’ve gained and lost sobriety many times and I do know that once you get farther out of the active addiction, you won’t feel like you’re battling so much. Keep winning the battles and you’ll most certainly win the war. Stay strong and carry on!
Lol thanks Lola, sometimes you have to fight crazy with CRAZY.
Also yes I need to stop believing this is going to be a life long nonstop battle, it’s not. Freedom is on the other side and I’ve seen it in these comments.
💪🙏one day at a time. Thanks for the comment and love!!! Bless
The chemicals inside you are still out of whack Slayer, so give yourself time. These relapses are killing you bro and killing your spirit through kindling, maybe. You have to resolve the deep-seated pain within you, or you will relapse again, I think, brother. Maybe the bums you ran into offer a glimpse of what awaits all of us if we don't get a handle on our addiction. With you Slayer man, I just don't like to see you struggling.
Bingo Man, you’re 100% right about the kindling that’s why it keeps getting worse and worse. It’s time to STOP FOR GOOD.
And yea I’d say you’re pretty much right…… I have a lot of pain that I hold on to and trauma that I need to desperately sort out….. it’s waiting for me once I start to physically feel better that’s when the mental battle comes in.
Y’all are helping me so much, i appreciate you. Much love, the struggle won’t be much longer let’s hope my friend. 🙏
crazy story, i can only imagine the rush of adrenaline didnt help while still feeling like crap
Oh dude it’s was intense as F.
Hope you’re doing well trippy 💯
Hey man im sorry you're goin through it right now, just keep on keepin on bro. "how'd my life get like this, i wasn't a bad kid", that part bout brought me to tears dude, I've said that exact thing to myself, where'd it go wrong ya know? If i could go back in time and give that little boy a hug and tell him everything would be okay i would, but that little little boy is me, and he's a 27 year old man now, wondering what the hell happened lol
It sounds like we are in the same boat as far as looking back and being like wtf lol, also almost the exact same age. Trust me man it’s wild, but we are still alive!!! Which means we have the opportunity to change which is a blessing.
We got this, keep me updated bro 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 right on man, we're alive so we just keep goin. Also, I watched a few of your other recent uploads and I just wanted to give my condolences about your dog, that's honestly really rough, I went through the same thing last year, but I'm glad to hear you've pulled yourself up, that takes strength. 22 days alcohol free right now, and I will not drink with you today mate, one day at a time.
Crazy story, man! I'm glad you were able to get out of that situation in one piece! You're right, alcoholism is no joke and it doesn't discriminate. It doesn't pick and choose its victims. I was a bit rebellious in my youth, but I wasn't necessarily a bad kid, and it still got me! I've seen all kinds of people in the various rehabs that I've been to, people from all walks of life. Absolutely ANYONE can become and alcoholic, and we should never judge a book by its cover as they say!
@@davidlafond8327 anyone and everyone can get it, that’s how alcohol looks at us. It’s dangerous, that’s why channels like LD’s and bat country and mine and others is so important. These communities are so important because it’s spreading awareness on this wild subject. Sheds some light on it. Thanks David, god bless 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 God bless, slayer! 🙏 Yes, LD and Bat Country also have great channels that shed light on this subject matter! Life saving stuff!
That guy with the phone was a jerk. You had every right to be pissed! At any rate...all i can do is pray for you. Keep talking to the right people.
Right?? What’s wrong with people nowadays?
And prayers is all I want 🖤🙏, they mean more than you know. Thank you as always.
After I quit drinking, I remember it took about half a year for me to feel normal. It took about 2 months for the night shocks, Horrifying dreams, and extreme anxiety/paranoia to subside.
My point is, it takes some time to return to a normal physical/mental/emotional/spiritual state. It was absolutely terrifying to me going through those first few weeks/months without alcohol. But overtime, I started to feel a peace, and positive feelings/emotions and it was so awesome, I could feel my body/mind returning to health, like before I started drinking. Glory to God.
Edit: I would also like to add, when we're in that scared/anxiety paranoid state, like you mentioned in this video- strange negative things happen, like the guy leaning in your car, or the crazy guy in the ER. It's like the devil is trying everything to make us pick up a bottle and drink. In my experience, these negative moments tend to always compile other negative events, kinda like an avalanche effect. Take care brother, God Bless 🙏
Thanks for this beautiful comment my friend, full of wisdom and spot on. 🙏🙏
It’s definitely connected to demonic activity. I brought that up at the end of my new video how all of those creepy things are connected. People call us crazy but those like us who have seen it and been through it it’s not crazy at all!!!!
We need Jesus in this life, god bless 🙏
Good morning Slay! Clever problem solving skills LOL. I hope you’re feeling better today 🙏🏽 Thank you for keeping us updated. Hang in there💪🏽 we’re rooting for you!!! 🖤🖤🖤
@@natsnikkii 🖤the thanks goes to y’all! In this together. 🙏
_Hope you feel better soon. You're on a hard road but, for what it's worth, you're not alone._
Tough times make tougher men right my friend? I’ve got this, y’all got me.
God bless don 🙏🙏 and thank you.
Hi, I hope you're doing.ok tonight.
Prayers and best wishes for you. Take care, Deb 🙏🙏
🙏I’m hanging in there Debbie, thank you.
Holy f I’d be scared out of my ever loving mind. I remember the feeling of sheer panic too Slay. Hadn’t slept in over 7days 8nights driving on I10 to outpatient. I had no business driving! I am so sorry that happened to yall
It’s h*ll Kristen trust me I know all too well. I’m glad someone can relate!!! 🙏hope you are well!!
@@Slayer-7373 I’ve been there done that but couldn’t hang on.
My body became so dependent on my benzo for cptsd I almost died after going cold turkey for 3wks.
I completely understand. Scary af
I’m here anytime Slay
Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out.❤
That’s Cindy, as always I appreciate you 🖤🙏
Thank God - that's just Terrifying I'm so sorry--do the AA meetings online -- stay safe ! You will come out strong ---- Nutrition is key -- stay away from Caffeine God Bless you
Online meetings are always good! Did it every week during the pandemic. BTW, your text was crossed out. I don't know if you knew that or not.
Online meetings is a great idea Jenn!!! God bless 🙏🙏
just take it easy bro-try as much as possible to stay away from stressfull situations...just walk away if you find yourself in such situations. thats the last thing you need right now while your in recovery. you can do this bro-wer all rooting for you.
One day at a time brother
@@Slayer-7373 👍🙌👏👏👏👏👏👏👈👏
tbh thats kinda how you steal phones, even if he had good intentions i would react the same
That’s exactly what I thought man! It was sketchy as h*ll.
Man, we’re totally the same…when I was drinking if I ever got into sketchy situations I would always act as crazy as I could and it would SCARE THEM AWAY just like your move to threaten to stab yourself! Great minds think alike!
The only way to fight crazy is with CRAZY lol, you know we know what’s up josh haha.
Hope you are well brother!
I love it !! Lmao Slayer
I’d do the same exact thing
You act “as if”
Much love Kristen 🙏
Thank you for the update. Feel better soon. Love and hugs ❤🤗xx
🖤🙏
Just catching up on some of your vids haven’t watched in a while. I’m laying in bed after having surgery in a lot of pain. Every time i watch u i get a really good energy from u and i know you’ll be ok no matter how many times u run into a ruff patch. We are all struggling with addiction and to stay sober and i may not comment to often but i do think about u from time to time and wish the best for u where ever your life takes u ✌️
@@StacyNichole224 hey Stacy thank you so much 🙏🖤, I’m sorry you’re in pain after surgery 😔, I wish you a speedy recovery and also the best to you 🖤
I hope you feel better buddy!!!
🙌💪one day a time a time.
I hope your doing better now brother still praying for you 🙏
🙏🙏I’m hanging in there brother, thank you so much for the prayers. That is beautiful !
Don’t compare plz
Comparing is the thief of joy
I hated that part of the job
🙏🙏
Kristen how have you been? Haven’t heard from you the last couple videos? Hope all is well. Much love
@@Slayer-7373 you sweetheart!
I’m good… doing the mom dog/mom human son thing wife thing lol!
So freaking hot here dude omg
114 today
I’m praying for u Slay everyday!!!!
Love ya
@@Slayer-7373 I run Goose at 5am in the portable/playground he chases bunnies. Only time nobody is out
I feel like fixture in this house during the day. Too hot out
@@Kristen10-22 that’s totally understandable!! Just wanted to make sure you were okay!! Love ya too Kristen, take care now 🙏
God bless you brother just keep fighting ❤
@@mutchdorse7072 🙏 god bless.
Hi, hope things are going.ok with you.
Thinking of you.
I hope you can post soon. Take care always. 🙏❤ Deb
🙏I’m doing well, hopefully today or tomorrow I Can get a video up!
I hope you will post again when you're able to so we can know how you're doing. You matter to so many of us.. 🙏❤
Please be safe.
@@debbieporter6581 hey Debbie I plan to post tomorrow most likely! I’m back to work tonight so I’m just trying to get through this haha. Hopefully within a couple days I’ll be mostly back to myself. 🙏
@@debbieporter6581 thank you 🙏
Shoutouts to the beautiful nurses, there was one in particular that made my 3 days at the hospital so much better. "He looks like mac miller" 😂
@@jakethasnake3524 yes shout out to them nurses 😍😂😂.
That was BRILLIANT of you.
Hey thanks LL’s 🙏🙏
Slay do you think all sons would protect their mom like that?
Cowards wouldn’t sadly….
@@Slayer-7373 got it.. thanks for the sons point of view 🫶🏻
Today was my son's last day I could spend with him before her leaves for the military tomorrow my last chance to say goodbye and he turned his back on me because I was drinking and I just got out of the hospital yesterday 😢
I’m so sorry Mary 😔, try to keep your head up. I know the pain this disease brings,
Slayer take it easy … please 🙏 take care of yourself.
🙏🖤 will do jackie….. it’s always hard for me to properly take the time I need to rest and get better but I will. Y’all have really helped
Yo bro you had one hell of a night 😂😂😂
To say the least man lmao 😂
Lol hahaha such a G move... reverse psychological manipulation. Dude probably walked away so confused... 🤣
He did 😂😂
How is the battle going now buddy? Hope you're okay Slay. Stay up brother, God bless mane.@@Slayer-7373
Honestly, the ER is the primo place to film drama 😅. It's wild how they'll accept people who could be actual threats but there are police and security.
I had got into a fight once, I got beat up this time, no shame, he literally punched me while I was asleep in order to raid my pockets (which had nothing in them but he did take the time to send his wife a text from my phone calling her a bitch).
Filed charges on him the next day and he was convicted of felony assault with intent to cause bodily harm. Anyways, the doctors thought I somehow beat the shit out of myself in order to try and get pain meds. I was like I don't even care about that I just want to make sure my face isn't fractured. ER docs are so jaded.
Another time i went in because my arm was swollen to the size of my leg. Once again, they thought I was faking it. I was in there for about 2 hours and finally they were like, your arm/shoulder (upper humerus on the ball) is broken an your shoulder is also dislocated. I was sent for emergency surgery the next morning and apologies from all the doctors involved. 17 staples across my shoulder, footlong scar, and permanent loss of mobility in that shoulder.
Anyways...I hope you have insurance because going to the ER is NOT cheap! 😅
Omg bro 😂😓 what is up with the ER?? I can totally relate to also being accused of lying at times. Like yea I’m lying to come get drugs in the hospital, that’s just the insanity that us addicts deal with.
I do have a job that has insurance thank god!!! Because yea it’s insane the prices…..
Much love man, bless 🙏
Two sketchy dudes in one night! 😮.
@@Redsnapper123 that’s what you call a two for one popcorn lol.
@@Slayer-7373new name here for popcorn
Hi Just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you and praying your feeling bett er. I hope your ultrasound goes well.
Please take care of yourself. We care and love you.
You mean so much to all of us on here.. 🙏❤
Thank you so much 🖤🙏
One day it will be too late , I just lost a friend 34 years old , countless detoxes and relapses , he died alone on the beach , leaving a baby girl and a son behind . He went to the beach I hope in search of peace , but the fact is slayer man it will kill you and you got this brother just learn and move on , alcohol is poison my man
It’s time for me to be done brother, I’m fighting. Haven’t felt the best again today, I ain’t gonna drink tho. 🙏🙏 I’m so sorry about your friend man.
Haven't watched this yet but I'm rooting for you brother! I'm a recovering addict that still drinks once a month and partakes of cannabis medically so i understand the struggle brother! I just know my life is definitely better not raging out every single day! I'm thinking about putting booze all the way down because i know how bad it can get amd alcohol leads me to street drugs with are just a deadly toxic soup and you are playing Russian roulette with street drugs
3:00 that could of turned bad quickly! Especially when someone is on alcohol and or drugs too!
Good for you, whocares!! You've got this. It sounds like you're going in a great direction. Keep it up!! ❤️🎉🎊💪
@@amandaflaherty7528thanks for the comments! Yes I'm in a great spot and just need to keep on my plan! It's been about three weeks since I've drank. About a month ago I went on a kick with those 8-14% man can at the gas station and kinda scared me how quickly I got a taste for alcohol lol so I pulled back and just drank beer this last time lol I know for sure I can't drink more than once a month and that's it or else it will be every single day lol I'm not suggesting anyone do what I do it's just what works for me lol
Hey brother I’m rooting for you as well!!! Once a month is a lot better than once a day…. Since you have the discipline to do it once a month what you could do is next time wait 2 months. Then 3 months, then 4, 5, 6 and so on till it’s so far apart you just stop all together. Just an idea my friend, keep me updated 🙏🙏
Have you thought or heard of the Sinclair Method? I’m thinking of trying it. LD had someone on to talk about it a few months ago.
I have thought about this my friend!!! I need to do more research, I’ll have to check LD’s video on it I must have missed that one!!
Bless 🙏
Just so u know, if things go wrong. Im still hear to listen. I don't judge.I just care.
🙏thanks Debbie, this is awesome of you.
Cut out caffeine too if you drink it. Makes the panic/anxiety much worse
I’ve been trying my best to drink no caffeine, I broke down and drank a coke earlier but other than that nothing. Thanks for the comment and advice my friend
No worries. Stay strong. Day 108 myself. Still getting anxiety attacks but they are becoming less frequent and less intense. ‘Careful patience is the fastest way’ - Ajahn Brahm
@@ishowinertia congratulations brother on 108 days, that’s amazing 🙂🙏
What this is called kindling I have to take clonazepam for my panic attacks o always said theirs nothing out there that I can't stop cold turkey, I thought I was this bad man then I start having panic attacks and I got on them did one taper did well then I lost a close loved one and I went back up on the dosage and I have tried everything to taper just some and the pain is real clonazepam.attaches to the same receptors in the brain that alcohol.does, sorry that happened to you bro at the er, wishing you the best, do not ever drink 1 more cause I had a freind who was in your position and the hospital Dr told her 1 more beer and she is dead, she can't ever have another beer, so plz don't drink another one bro!
Yes it’s 100% kindling with me at this point. That’s why it just gets more and more brutal. They will not prescribe me any benzodiazepines because if my history with alcohol, but man there were times I wish they did. Sitting at home wondering if I would make it, begging my doctor to give me 2-3 pills and no.
The pain is very real, we must stick together and help each other as addicts on this difficult journey.
I definitely don’t want to be at that point, but I’m right around the corner. Time to stop!!!
God bless man 🙏
Hope u feel better and do go AA
Thank you Bonnie 🙏🖤 I will definitely be giving AA a try!!!
The only way to end the torture is to stop for good, man. Maybe this IOP and the therapist will be beneficial for you. He was just some drunken idiot. I've seen some crazy and weird shit go down in the ER. Go to the A.A. meeting if you can make it. What did the doctors say about your liver? Is it enlarged? They said you had elevated enzymes, you are in pain and they just released you?
Absolutely shades, stopping and staying stopped.
Also yea they pretty much just gave me fluids and sent me on my way, said I should probably be good as long as I stay healthy and if it gets worse come back to the ER lol. You know how it is man, us addicts are treated odd sometimes. I’ve been questioning them sending me home.
Anyways, hope all is well brother. Take care
Now start at LD’s vids where he talks about that pain ?
I’ll have to!!
@@Slayer-7373 yep
Hey. Account was hacked. I haven't been around. Forgot the name of your channel. I'm back for now. Still working on things. Sorry to hear you relapsed. I hope you're doing good. Best wishes.
@@itscomplicatedwatches glad you’re back brother 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Thanks, man. Hopefully I'm back for good!
I think you need to make it to an AA meeting…not just tonight but every day for at least 90 days. Tell your story, thereby help yourself and others. And find a sponsor to guide you thru the steps.
@@PeterZ873 probably not a bad idea my friend. 🙏
Stay strong and pray to the Lord everyday.
🙏I’m nothing without the lord. Prayer is a must. God bless
I’ll come and drive you everywhere if u need an Uber
Had strokes, seizures or heart attacks yet?
No thank god
Mate with the symptoms you have and you only need to listen to LD you will end up with cirrhosis and then it's irreversible. Mate you need to see your doctor, get a fibrosis scan etc. You need to see your liver condition otherwise you will end your life early. Speak to LD. Please make the right decision. Best wishes Steve LONDON, UNITED KINGDOM
Will do brother, much love 🙏🖤 I’ll be okay.
Roid rage
How old are you
Late 20’s ✌️
Don’t u “feel like” u need to reply to mine ever.
I love replying 🙏🖤
Dude your hypochondria is a symptom of WD. I mean the anxiety about your health.
Next time if you relapse, go to the meeting while you're still sick. It hits harder that way. And don't wreck your car. Watching your vids I feel that's coming.
You’re 100% right bill. I think this isn’t talked about enough to be honest!
Damn Satan wants you bad Slay…
I hated working nights
Ewww
This is exactly what I’ve been thinking!!! 😓
@@Slayer-7373 he chases those who have gotten away…. He’s been on me lately as well however I won’t be taken down not by him never!
Remember the Gospel of Luke the parable of the one lost sheep!!
I pray u do Slay
If u can drive to the store I bet u could drive to the meeting 😉 😉
It’s a mind f
Alcoholism is too accessible
Instead of how or why
Help me go forward
Who pays for all your hospital care ? Do you work?
I do work brother, job includes insurance 🙏
I didnt know they said each relapse gets harder. From what ive witnessed though makes sense. However the biology/science/whatever youd call it, i dont understand. Every alcoholic in my family has relapsed at least once. I understand why detox would be necessary if one relapsed and got back to their old habits becoming physically dependent on alcohol again. Seizures, DT's, the whole nine yards. I don't understand how one night of binge drinking would cause the need for detox? Cause at that point one's body isn't dependent on it, right? At the beginning its all mental. After so long is when your body cant function. Obviously my assumption is wrong, but i just dont get that?
Sounds like your mom should avoid all you mucked up fellas for her best deal.
@@Victorseafog lol, I wouldn’t blame her.
Makes me wonder why God put alcohol an addictive stuff on the earth in the first place. Cause he already knew what the outcome was. I dont understand God. Hes the one who created poppy plants an many other addictive plants. An alcohol. I dont understand why he would do that when he knew that people were gonna suffer from them. Im not blaming God but honestly sometimes it makes sense to me to blame God tho. Hes the one who made everything. He couldve avoided all this suffering but he chose not too. I never asked to put in this earth in the first place. An now most of the world is gonna end up burning in a lske of fire for eternity. Why would God create us this way when he already knew before hand that the msjority of thevworld would end up in hell for eternity. I mean you cant sin in heaven so why wouldnt he make earth like heaven to begin with? Almost seems like he wants people to suffer. I mean i understand that Gods thoughts are higher then ours. An im sure theres a good reasons for everything God does. But those reasons are far beyond me to understand. I love God but its hard to love him sometimrs tho when you gobthrew so much in life. I dont understand why God didnt just make us all perfect to begin with? Why would he allow so much suffering. An then on top of it theres people in hell burning in unimaginable pain right now.an its never gonna end. I know god hates sin. But hes God tho. He couldve made it to were people couldnt sin like in heaven. Im not trying to put doubt in anyones minds im just venting. Because these un answered questions are haunting. An mysterious. I just dont understand man thats all. Did he do it sll for his glory? Because that doesekt mske sense to me either.
All of these questions are valid brother, these are all questions I’ve had many times myself. When you come to realize this is a fallen world, not a good world you start to understand why it’s the way it is. Yes god could have prevented all of this but really where would the story be? We are living in a giant story, a giant test. There is pain and obstacles but if you can remind yourself that ETERNITY is waiting for you on the other side you can start to understand that this world and life is nothing. Here today, gone tomorrow. We must live for what’s after this world, put faith into it. “Blessed are those who believe and don’t see”.
It’s a tough road but I see you questioning things and that’s the first step. God bless brother
dude do you have discord
I don’t but I definitely should make one!!! 😓I already had meant to do that!
@@Slayer-7373 im so sick of youtube deleting comments thats why
@@catlolis you can email me if you would like slayersober7@gmail.com
Hi Slayer here watching your video. Do you have Instagram? And or any other social media where we can follow you at. Thank you. God bless. 💯
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