This is a quick overview of the past 5-6 years of my life and how I ended up being diagnosed with Narcissistic Personality Disorder and Antisocial Personality Disorder.
Psychopaths are born with impairments to their prefrontal cortex, superior temporal gyrus, amygdala-hippocampal complex, and anterior cingulate cortex. If a psychopath is raised in by a nurturing mother and father, then they will turn out as productive and functional member of society.
I am also a survivor of trafficking and heavy abuse as a child. I was diagnosed with C-PTSD, and outside of a trigger (actual medical triggers; they have nothing to do with getting mad) I lost 6 months of my life. I struggle a lot with dissociation and memory loss. Even in Canada, it is near impossible to get proper help to resolve trauma that comes from such childhood trauma. Child trafficking survivors are very "thrown to the wolves," so to say. And when you first get a taste of what actual life is like people are not kind, and honestly in my experience enhanced a lot of the fears I had from being trafficked. I am glad you're aware of your disorders and get the help you need. Hopefully one day trafficking survivors are actually offered help and empathized with by society.
> “my behavior is terrible and abusive and I’m trying to do what I can to be a better partner and be a better person in general even though I absolutely resent having to do that.” 😮
STOP MAKING FUN OF HER FOR NOT BLINKING....It may be uncomfortable for you, but by you jumping on it makes YOU UNEMPATHETIC. She is being very vulnerable sharing her story which is more than what most can and will do, so kudos to her. Thanks for sharing you story❤
ASPD + NPD + Sadistic tendencies and terrible and abusive behavior in her relationships as she described herself, by definition entails a lack of a CAPACITY for empathy. The vulnerability you are imagining is just that, your imagination, your projection of something in you, that does not actually exist in her. What this is, is a call for volunteers to sacrifice themselves in an attempt to save her. If you fall for that, it's your own narcissism that convinces you that can fix someone else.
@@JimBillyRayBob ok, BillyRayBob... I dont think I can save anyone, I'm not God...I believe in compassion, I'm not stupid and two wrongs don't make a right. Is that simple enough for ya...clearly with your lengthy reply and need to straighten me out it's your own narcissism 😉👌🤔
I relate to you a lot. I developed both cognitive and "real" empathy later in life (about 23 years old) I'm diagnosed with BPD and ASD (asperger's), which seems kinda similar to you. Although when I used to have weekly meltdowns I was highly distressed about it and did my best to calm down (in my mid and early teens). In my late teens I went of the rails and did a lot of blatantly anti-social things: running away from home, drinking 2 bottles of vodka every couple of days, threatening people etc. Nowadays I still struggle with impulse control and the feeling that I'm right and others are imposing their will on me, but I feel a lot of guilt and shame for my past and like you said, have developed a moral code through learning increased respect and empathy and honestly I do feel tremendous guilt for what I've done. I also had an extremely traumatic childhood, lol, it comes with the territory. People like us switch off at an early age to cope. Much love to you on your continued healing journey ❤
You are very articulate and have insight. Persons with low rehab potential seldom have insight. I know you’ve been through a lot, but to have escaped the prison system for this long, you clearly have a shot at a good life.
Thank you so much for posting this. I’m currently in the process of trying to figure out my diagnosis (leaning towards Borderline Narcissist) and it’s a very strange experience. I know that my behaviors are destructive not only to others but to myself. I can catch myself in lies but I can’t stop them. I’m very self aware of others minute behaviors and I adjust accordingly, or I “stick with my story” when I’m telling a lie so that eventually they believe me because “how could someone stone-cold lie to me? They’d have to be crazy and I know they aren’t” (what I think people are thinking when I lie) i don’t feel guilty about lying then apologizing, I just feel anxious about being caught. i know how to manipulate and deceive people. All of this came about and/or was exacerbated by an abusive and dismissive mom and pedophile older cousin which led me into severe depression and suicidal ideation which led to hypersexuality which led to being a sex worker which led to the narcissistic supply being built as I used these people for their money. All because my mom didn’t realize that physically pushing a 6 year old little girl out of the house in the middle of the night, not knowing when she was going to come back in, would come with consequences (she did many other things). Lol my parents treat me and talk to me today as if that stuff shouldn’t have affected me. So sad for them, they never get to have the genuine relationship they wished to have.
Really love this longer format of video. I didn’t know you had a UA-cam channel. I’ll be looking forward to your future videos. 😊 also people saying they don’t think you have NPD because they have NPD…having a disorder does not mean you’re qualified to diagnose the disorder. Entitled dudes need to learn the difference in that. Also co-morbid issues like DID or ED or OCD and other neurodivergent on top of things like NPD or ASPD and CPTSD it creates an entirely unique profile. The stigmatization of trauma survivors needing to be the perfect victim is exhausting. Like severe trauma that doesn’t go away or get treatment festers into serious issues. ❤ sending you love amongst all of the hate.
im researching again because im creating a character who has npd and aspd and hearing people talking about this helps me write this character correctly and sterotyping this. thank you for sharing your story and im sorry for the commention section.
Being SA as a child is horrible!! And changes you!! You need someone to help you process that!! EMDR therapy helped me so so much!! Also what was done to you was horrible!! And it’s no wonder your brain is acting like that. You will heal. Go towards the light not the darkness that they tried to give you. You are beautiful and you will give many girls hope. Whoever did that to you should be held accountable. They can’t hurt you anymore!! I am proud of your progress even if no one has seen it, I understand your effort and how painful life has been. I wish you all the success and happiness your inner child absolutely deserved.
I bet NPD is waaaay more common in anorexia patients than has been documented. I’ve encountered many people in treatment who have covert traits and severe trauma. There’s a lot of ego coddling in ED treatment which seemed to just make certain people worse. This was very illuminating to watch.
Yup never really seen it common in persons with aspd I'm diagnosed with aspd and don't got an Ed neither have never met any other person with aspd that had an ed
The content is very informative. I am curious: 1. How do you perceive the negative comments here? 2. What type of responses would you find to be practical?
You are very brave to share your story. I'm sorry that any of the traumatic things you've been through occurred. You should never have to go through that. You are not a bad person in any way. You have a diagnosis of why you have behaved the way you have. Thank you for sharing your story.
Wow … we need more testifies like this. Thank you so much for being deeply open and honest about EVERYTHING. This is so healing for victims of abuse and eye opening to those who have no idea what’s it like to experience personally.
I know this old, but you can look for non-profit hospitals and clinics. Just call them ask if they're non-profit and do free or income-based therapy. Some states offer special medicaid for certain mental illnesses.
I appreciate this. I dated an unaware narcissist who was in a manic psychotic episode. I appreciate you sharing what the experience is like from someone aware of there disorder
I have PTSD, ASD, BPD and panic anxiety disorder so on some levels I understand.. self awareness and self actualization leads to understanding and understanding is the foundation of love so keep on fighting the good fight!
Hey, I follow you on TT. Glad to see you on UA-cam because I prefer this platform and allows for longer form content. Hope you’re able to turn this into a thing and that you’re able to recover to the degree you want ❤️
I'm so sorry re your early trauma - keep trying everything you can - while you're waiting therapy, check out solution-focus therapies it's something you can make a lot of progress with on your own 🙏🏽
I was told you couldnt be diagnosed with ASPD and NPD so thank you for this. I obviously recieved false information and this has helped. I know people with ASPD have the NPD traits naturally anyway. Goodluck for the future. ❤
Wait u said u don't feel empathy... Do you mean that you don't experience emotional empathy? Since I remember on tiktok where u said that logically u know when ur partner is crying that u should comfort them. Does that mean you logically understand how someone feels from the way they act, but you cannot emotionally empathise with them (as in if ur partner is sad it makes you sad too)? I keep on asking u questions n stuff, cuz honestly ur content has not only inspired me to dig into a disorder I used to invalidate due to the stigmas around it (thank fuck I woke the fuck up lmao) but learning more abt ur disorder has actually helped me understand my OWN disorder as someone with BPD. Some of the ways you hurt people are similar to how I have hurt people, and learning how you feel and think and what causes u to behave that way, helps me compare it to my own experiences and understand myself better. Just wanna say btw, as a CSA survivor - and SA/rape victim later on into adulthood - I'm glad ur doing ur best to get better. This shit fucks you tf up, and only hammers in your toxic coping mechanisms and defensive responses. I hope you will be able to afford the healthcare you deserve. PDs are a pain in the ass to have, and we all deserve to get better. Hope u have a good day Delta :)
Oof. People don't realise that Dissociative Identity Disorder is the worst form of results of psychal trauma. And that NPD and ASP are partly result of severe childhood trauma. Something truly awful happened to you beyond belief. I'm sorry all this happened to you and that nobody treated you properly. You're so vulnerable yet people didn't respect your disabilities. It's sad you went through that. You obviously are imperfect and everyone can be held to some level of accountability, but it's different for everyone, especially if you're mentally ill. I get it's hard to give you treatment, but it's their job. Let alone that these issues are partly result of neurodivergency. ADHD gets heat for being "trendy", when in reality it's debilitating to live with, making you more prone to comorbid disorders as a result. I'm glad you have self-awareness and did treatment. You're strong and it must be super hard. I'd pay for your therapy if I could. I really hope things get better for you soon. You're in the right path, since it's the best for you and also others. Sending you love and positivity. Good luck.
In the UK here and trying to get diagnosed. Your vid helped me take the first step to finding residential treatment. Currently getting treatment for Anorexia but trying to see the psychiatrist for an evaluation is so damn hard. Thanks for sharing your insight. If you're in London, cuppa tea is on me :P
Hey Delta !, does your self-awareness and recognition that you actually are a narcissist lead you to some kind of "regret, sadness or grief" in the form of emotions ? - or are these emotions that you can't feel or experience - and it's only a rational conclusion and realisation that your narcissism is causing you problems by not being adapted to how "most normal human beings do operate and function" !?
Very good question! I know it’s a spectrum so it’s different case by case, but I do know 1 and he has no real empathy. Though he loves to use kindness and pseudo empathy as a tool to pry, extract information and control. It’s disgusting, pathetic, and almost funny to see someone go from “tears” in their eyes saying you can tell them anything, they care so deeply about you! To launching a smear campaign on you a week later. Even AI can ‘fake’ empathy. There some truly evil “people” out there, be careful! Dont over share. Let people earn your trust.
Good luck sweetheart just accepting facing and recognition of your struggles if half the battle, well done i mean it i wish i could wish an ex who suffered with same issues but hey ill wish you all the best good luck🙏😇♥️
how do actually view your conditions though? i cant imagine you see yourself as abnormal. like you don't seem bothered by your own PDs, and i dont see why you would if you dont feel bad about anything and dont care what others think. make another video about it... like what its _really_ like to be a narcissist/sociopath
PHP is partial hospitalization program. It’s where you go to residential during the day but get to go home at night. So it’s a step down from residential :)
I've been to a few rehabilitation centers for drugs and alcohol. There were a couple that literally saved my life. Please dont ever give up on life no matter what the future holds. I've been creative with psychiatry. I made up a new diagnosis for myself: Socioempath. Someone with severe empathy who refuses to live by the mores of society.
In the first sentence you have NPD ASPD DID and Anorexia Nervosa. Would it be crazy if they all had a same cause? To me that would make more sense than all of them happening independently. Have you heard about the metabolic theory of mental illness or the ketogenic diet? It would probably help you immensely
@@kitkatherine0177 there’s a reason for that. I moved out of a moldy and allergen heavy environment that was causing me several issues and has had lasting impact on my health. I don’t really see why everyone is so concerned about my blinking. If anything, it’s from the DID and not even related to my personality disorders.
This is borderline, with narcissistic traits, and problem is not about narcissism but about rationalizing own emotions and impulses, narcissism here is defense against borderline emotional disregulation.
@@Liz-wz8dh to some extent, but not really because malignant narcissists need society to get narcissistic suplay on any means, borderline is more emotionally disrrgulated and construct narcissistic defense to deel with this constant emotional disregulation but can also make maglinant from of it as means to obtain certain ways of emotional projection and emotional regulation through establishing grandiosity upon others weaknesses that can be real provoked or projected. Real malignant narcissist is much less instable emotional state and have very rigid behavioral patterns constantly rationalizing own position in regard to others for obtaining narcissistic suplay on any means with total disregard of how their behavior impact others which can be very similar how borderline behave when is emotionally disrrgulated. It's much more complex mental construct then people tend to think on behalf of common understanding of this conditions. Covert narcissist can collapse and behave as borderline and in prolonged and constant collapsing become malignant narcissist but doesn't behave so obviously emotionally disrrgulated when adopt malignant narcissistic self state, hence why in first place is covert. While overt narcissist in my opinion is early in childhood borderline adopted overt narcissism and can become malignant when rationalization gives him ability to regulate acomulated emotional disregulation through malignant narcissistic action state so no more as just defense of borderline emotional disregulation but as means of action towards obtaining emotional or impuls regulations.
Sam Vaknin recently had a video on how BPD and NPD can interact within a person. What’s scary when you think of it, she can say she’s blaming others etc and self aware but she’s only concerned about the consequences to her, not the damage she’s causing to others.
@@chamuuemura5314 that's defense of grandiosity where here emotional regulation became more important than others because of constant disregulation in interaction with others. It's provoked learned patterns of behavior as narcissistic defense because of lack of impulse and emotional control. Narcissists does also blame others, borderline blame first self and in prolonged self blame and various failed tactics for overcoming this self blame and various acting out through psychopathic state borderline learn to project not just emotional states to others but also this self blame so in a way she blame others for reason she blame self is last line if defense because of self destructive self blame. She is aware of this not like narcissist who is not aware because all construct is about elevated sense of self above others, but she because of this awareness constantly decompesate and become even more impulsive and emotionally disregulated and aquire sociopathic calculated behavior and rationalization of own behavior but still without even hint of rationalization of own emotional state.
I say the exact same thing to narcs when they do this on social media and I get HARASSED about it lol. Not to say people can't share their story cuz yes they are human too but how people don't see this as supporting them to continue their abuse is beyond me.
Please don't mind the rules, condescending shitheads hiding behind keyboards who wouldn't know self-reflection and accountability if it hit them in the face. Trauma affects different people differently and you don't need to feel empathy to behave sympathetically. "Normal" people have done the most fucked up shit in the history, we are all capable of doing evil shit. Be grateful you haven't been abused, be kind to others, be aware and if you have nothing kind or useful to say - move on.
I'm sorry, but when i first saw how dark your eyes are my first thought was "whoa, evil." How judgemental of me. Let me just say (this is empathy) i am so sorry for what happened to you. I appreciate your frankness and i wish you all the best with your partner. Ideally, you should work on yourself first before bringing this baggage into a relationship, but if she can help you along the way she's a really special person. However it toes take a toll over time, so i hope she can persist with you long enough to see you become the best person you can be. One last thing: Have you considered BDSM? Sadism can be quite the kink, but only if the partner is into it as well. Otherwise, it's just abuse. I only suggest it because it might be a way of you still getting the thrill you feel from being sadistic without being abusive. Just an idea.
thank you for mansplaining and clarifying your empathy, i would have mistaken it for a middle aged white man pretending to care but then preceding to make it obscenely and un-neededly sexual
@MisMadison Huh..? Just by using the term mansplaining, you have discredited yourself. All that means is a woman can't handle the truth. Given your self-disqualification, i have no need or desire to respond to anything else you say.
Challenging your grandioscity hurt you. Yeah, I wouldn't stop challenging my daughter in a similar way. She won't take moral responsibility for her actions. Yet she insisted on therapy so she could tell everyone else what we did wrong. I wouldn't have it. Now we don't speak.
She want therapy and you don’t want the therapist to know about the things she think you did/do wrong?! Narcissism and other personally disorders develops in childhood, so maybe you have been a part of the problem? And then you don’t want to seek therapy with her… You sound like a bad parent…..
@@vibra1562 We didn't generally talk about childhood conflict. There was plenty to talk about from more recent conflict. And everyone else was willing to take responsibility. She was not. She would generally shut down, explode in rage, or just leave when someone managed to get through her manipulation tactics to talk about what she had done, or when he therapist pointed out that she wasn't doing what she expected of others. She wanted validation of her emotions, but refused to do the same.
@@matthewbrown8679narcissism in an individual is also caused by invalidation in childhood, the wounds can grow deep and long, and you don’t sound like you have any experience validating her experiences at all. you sound like one of those exes/parents who has narcissistic traits themselves and then springs to put them on anyone in their lives you don’t talk anymore because she wanted to heal her wounds in therapy? good for her.
@@fatymah1138 My daughter had what I now recognize as narcissistic tendencies as a child and teenager. But she wasn't someone with a pathological degree of vulnerable narcissism. I watched without initially knowing what I was watching as her marriage to a vulnerable narcissist changed her. I saw her abandon her vote values just to try to make her relationship work. Those core values were largely what had protected her from her own tendencies in the past. I watched as she first accepted his victim mentality as reality, enabled that victim mentality, and developed a victim mentality of her own. I watched as she lost her empathy, as she began treating perfect strangers in hateful ways, as she lost all ability at first to acknowledge her husband's responsibility for his actions, then lost all willingness to take responsibility for her own actions. Her siblings and I have in various combinations tried to do therapy with her with similar results. Whether in therapy or out her need for validation became a bottomless pit that she was desperate to fill, but no amount of validation would fill it. Do you seriously think we didn't try? There comes a point when continued validation is enabling self victimization.
@@fatymah1138 You might want to consider the possibility that you can't divine the universe from a few brief comments. You have no idea what kind of relationships she had with her family growing up, where her self image issues originated, and what might have aggravated manageable issues into deeply pathological problems. I do. I watched as her relationship with a narcissistic husband pulled her into her own narcissistic pit. I've watched her lose all ability to take moral responsibility for her own actions, transition from a deeply empathetic and spiritual person into an empty husk that no amount of validation can fill. I've seen how she manipulated people and situations, and tried to use therapy as a manipulation tool. When others resisted and insisted on anything resembling mutualism in those sessions rather than a one way, unreciprocated validation firehouse pointing her way things generally went badly. It was her last therapy session with her mother that led to complete estrangement. Now by this anyone following this thread will be able to make a great guess as to your own level of narcissism. Are you going to take personal responsibility for making judgements with nothing resembling the knowledge necessary, or are you going to argue your uninformed point?
maybe you were too many times victimised, also if you believe in it in past life and through previous ancestory generation behaviour and trauma can surface. dont take it to heavy you are so antisocial
Ignore the haters! Good on you for putting yourself out there. It takes a hell of alot to be self aware and work on ourselves! Most people commenting with all their insulting BS probably dont have a clue!. I hope things work out for you!
They suffer due to them not wanting to change, so they end up living life and being a reflection of her abusers, then play victim and never do anything about it.
@@punk86 While I don’t want to invalidate you personally (wrong is wrong), I would like to open your mind to the idea that psychology is not fully understood in our modern society. If I were you, I wouldn’t put so much weight into the idea that people with narcissistic personality disorder are as evil as 2023 pop culture would have you believe. My main point is the brain is not fully understood so how could narcissistic brains be fully understood.
@@MyraMabryA to the fkin men. We haven't fully understood the brain. Even experts can't figure ppl out with all the time they spend diagnosing ppl and/or learning about the mind Sometimes randos think they figured it out by reading some bs on the internet that's not how it works
That's actually part of the disorder. ASPD causes more reptilian eyes and many have to remind themselves to blink more frequently while interacting with people. It's a thing, lol.
I've been arrested 3 times for public intoxication and have one harassment charge on my record. Also been in the psych hospital or rehab almost 10 times for my alcoholism and drug addiction. Never been diagnosed with ASPD. I have only seen one video of someone claiming to have ASPD who actually bothered to list the crimes that led to their diagnosis. I've only met a few people who either had or probably had antisocial personality. One was a guy I went to high school with who was charged with torturing and killing cats. Another guy I went to high school with got arrested for molesting his daughter. You might be narcissistic (so what, narcissists are ubiquitous on the internet and among millennials), but I'm not buying your story about having antisocial personality. Show us your rap sheet.
@@SLYKM You didn't list a single crime that you had ever committed. That tells me you don't have ASPD. It's been awhile since I did any drunk driving or visited prostitutes. I've never been diagnosed with ASPD, nor do I claim to have it. You said I have no credentials but didn't deny my point. That's called the ad hominem fallacy.
@@smokyquartz5817 I'll bet you are her using a different name and liking your own comment. That's why I can't see this response on my other account. My whole point was that you are a fake because you have never broken the law. It's part of the diagnostic criteria for antisocial personality disorder. Getting a few traffic tickets, smoking weed, or shoplifting once doesn't count.
@@tonrobert3391 then you are aware of the tapestry. Every lie and manipulation has a bit of truth. What does she get by posting videos? Better treatment by professionals and girlfriend stays. Acting. Faking Lying. Taking. What can prove her mind is healing? Not even words matching actions can do that. A mask of a different color is still a mask. Kudos to her for trying. If she can fake a decent mask to where people will enjoy her, good for her. That’s still a win. Until one day she pulls off that mask just to rip out someone’s soul.
I agree. her older stuff she was blinking in. Kanika says sociopaths dont blink as much and now she doesn't blink. She claimed to have DID in the past when it was popular. Now being a narcissist and a sociopath is popular and trendy. Think she has Münchausen syndrome instead.
This is how childhood trauma shapes a person. I'm sorry you're struggling with this. Thanks for sharing.
Psychopaths are born with impairments to their prefrontal cortex, superior temporal gyrus, amygdala-hippocampal complex, and anterior cingulate cortex. If a psychopath is raised in by a nurturing mother and father, then they will turn out as productive and functional member of society.
I am also a survivor of trafficking and heavy abuse as a child. I was diagnosed with C-PTSD, and outside of a trigger (actual medical triggers; they have nothing to do with getting mad) I lost 6 months of my life. I struggle a lot with dissociation and memory loss. Even in Canada, it is near impossible to get proper help to resolve trauma that comes from such childhood trauma. Child trafficking survivors are very "thrown to the wolves," so to say. And when you first get a taste of what actual life is like people are not kind, and honestly in my experience enhanced a lot of the fears I had from being trafficked. I am glad you're aware of your disorders and get the help you need. Hopefully one day trafficking survivors are actually offered help and empathized with by society.
So who trafficked you and how did that happen? Why did your parents not protect you?
Who trafficked you and how? Why did your parents not protect you?
@@anistristan1202 most kids are trafficked by their family, or are runaways/abandoned from abusive and neglectful households.
@@britsaunders2151 That's so awful. I'm so sorry that happened to you.
@@britsaunders2151 Seems strange that one's own family would traffick them? What would make a family do this?
> “my behavior is terrible and abusive and I’m trying to do what I can to be a better partner and be a better person in general even though I absolutely resent having to do that.”
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I’m doing significantly better in that regard now. I’ve made a lot of progress.
STOP MAKING FUN OF HER FOR NOT BLINKING....It may be uncomfortable for you, but by you jumping on it makes YOU UNEMPATHETIC. She is being very vulnerable sharing her story which is more than what most can and will do, so kudos to her. Thanks for sharing you story❤
Unempathetic like she is?
you do realize that she herself is more un-empathetic than we ever will be right?😂
ASPD + NPD + Sadistic tendencies and terrible and abusive behavior in her relationships as she described herself, by definition entails a lack of a CAPACITY for empathy. The vulnerability you are imagining is just that, your imagination, your projection of something in you, that does not actually exist in her.
What this is, is a call for volunteers to sacrifice themselves in an attempt to save her. If you fall for that, it's your own narcissism that convinces you that can fix someone else.
@@JimBillyRayBob ok, BillyRayBob... I dont think I can save anyone, I'm not God...I believe in compassion, I'm not stupid and two wrongs don't make a right. Is that simple enough for ya...clearly with your lengthy reply and need to straighten me out it's your own narcissism 😉👌🤔
@@discardedlotus1014 who cares, what's that got to do w it. We don't behave in comparison to others. We do the right thing period. Integrity.
The not blinking is a give away
No, it's not. Trauma and hyper-vigilance can cause that.
I relate to you a lot. I developed both cognitive and "real" empathy later in life (about 23 years old) I'm diagnosed with BPD and ASD (asperger's), which seems kinda similar to you. Although when I used to have weekly meltdowns I was highly distressed about it and did my best to calm down (in my mid and early teens). In my late teens I went of the rails and did a lot of blatantly anti-social things: running away from home, drinking 2 bottles of vodka every couple of days, threatening people etc. Nowadays I still struggle with impulse control and the feeling that I'm right and others are imposing their will on me, but I feel a lot of guilt and shame for my past and like you said, have developed a moral code through learning increased respect and empathy and honestly I do feel tremendous guilt for what I've done.
I also had an extremely traumatic childhood, lol, it comes with the territory. People like us switch off at an early age to cope. Much love to you on your continued healing journey ❤
You are very articulate and have insight. Persons with low rehab potential seldom have insight. I know you’ve been through a lot, but to have escaped the prison system for this long, you clearly have a shot at a good life.
Thank you.
Thank you so much for posting this. I’m currently in the process of trying to figure out my diagnosis (leaning towards Borderline Narcissist) and it’s a very strange experience. I know that my behaviors are destructive not only to others but to myself. I can catch myself in lies but I can’t stop them. I’m very self aware of others minute behaviors and I adjust accordingly, or I “stick with my story” when I’m telling a lie so that eventually they believe me because “how could someone stone-cold lie to me? They’d have to be crazy and I know they aren’t” (what I think people are thinking when I lie) i don’t feel guilty about lying then apologizing, I just feel anxious about being caught. i know how to manipulate and deceive people.
All of this came about and/or was exacerbated by an abusive and dismissive mom and pedophile older cousin which led me into severe depression and suicidal ideation which led to hypersexuality which led to being a sex worker which led to the narcissistic supply being built as I used these people for their money. All because my mom didn’t realize that physically pushing a 6 year old little girl out of the house in the middle of the night, not knowing when she was going to come back in, would come with consequences (she did many other things). Lol my parents treat me and talk to me today as if that stuff shouldn’t have affected me. So sad for them, they never get to have the genuine relationship they wished to have.
I hope your main priority in life is getting extensive therapy for many years to come. That's a lot of trauma.
VERY VERY INSIGHTFUL! You did an amazing job, bravo !!!!
i think its awesome how candid you were here
thank you for sharing your story
Your ability to not blink is amazing. Thanks for sharing your story. ❤
Good for You that you are at least trying to Get better...and have more self awareness ...very brave .. keep on with your Utube posts
Really love this longer format of video. I didn’t know you had a UA-cam channel. I’ll be looking forward to your future videos. 😊 also people saying they don’t think you have NPD because they have NPD…having a disorder does not mean you’re qualified to diagnose the disorder. Entitled dudes need to learn the difference in that. Also co-morbid issues like DID or ED or OCD and other neurodivergent on top of things like NPD or ASPD and CPTSD it creates an entirely unique profile. The stigmatization of trauma survivors needing to be the perfect victim is exhausting. Like severe trauma that doesn’t go away or get treatment festers into serious issues. ❤ sending you love amongst all of the hate.
Takes a lot to be this self aware, you have come a long way
Wow what a journey... You're super brave talking about those things that's a great initiative
im researching again because im creating a character who has npd and aspd and hearing people talking about this helps me write this character correctly and sterotyping this. thank you for sharing your story and im sorry for the commention section.
Being SA as a child is horrible!! And changes you!! You need someone to help you process that!! EMDR therapy helped me so so much!! Also what was done to you was horrible!! And it’s no wonder your brain is acting like that. You will heal. Go towards the light not the darkness that they tried to give you. You are beautiful and you will give many girls hope. Whoever did that to you should be held accountable. They can’t hurt you anymore!! I am proud of your progress even if no one has seen it, I understand your effort and how painful life has been. I wish you all the success and happiness your inner child absolutely deserved.
Good luck Delta 🙏🏽
I bet NPD is waaaay more common in anorexia patients than has been documented. I’ve encountered many people in treatment who have covert traits and severe trauma. There’s a lot of ego coddling in ED treatment which seemed to just make certain people worse. This was very illuminating to watch.
Yup never really seen it common in persons with aspd I'm diagnosed with aspd and don't got an Ed neither have never met any other person with aspd that had an ed
Yup. Somatization
The content is very informative. I am curious:
1. How do you perceive the negative comments here?
2. What type of responses would you find to be practical?
You are very brave to share your story. I'm sorry that any of the traumatic things you've been through occurred. You should never have to go through that. You are not a bad person in any way. You have a diagnosis of why you have behaved the way you have. Thank you for sharing your story.
Wow, thank you for sharing your story.
Thanks for sharing. I have bpd and can relate to some of the things you said
Sorry you are struggling! I appreciate your openness. Awareness is the first step, great job
Thank you for sharing 💜
Interesting to hear it from someone who was diagnosed. Would be interesting to know more about your history and causes of your condition
Wow … we need more testifies like this. Thank you so much for being deeply open and honest about EVERYTHING. This is so healing for victims of abuse and eye opening to those who have no idea what’s it like to experience personally.
I know this old, but you can look for non-profit hospitals and clinics. Just call them ask if they're non-profit and do free or income-based therapy. Some states offer special medicaid for certain mental illnesses.
I follow you on multiple platforms and didn't realize you also have DID and were trafficked. From my system to yours, we love your videos!
That was interesting. Thanks. I was wondering if you are able to feel sorrow.
thank you for your honesty
I appreciate this. I dated an unaware narcissist who was in a manic psychotic episode. I appreciate you sharing what the experience is like from someone aware of there disorder
I have PTSD, ASD, BPD and panic anxiety disorder so on some levels I understand.. self awareness and self actualization leads to understanding and understanding is the foundation of love so keep on fighting the good fight!
Hey, I follow you on TT. Glad to see you on UA-cam because I prefer this platform and allows for longer form content. Hope you’re able to turn this into a thing and that you’re able to recover to the degree you want ❤️
I'm so sorry re your early trauma - keep trying everything you can - while you're waiting therapy, check out solution-focus therapies it's something you can make a lot of progress with on your own 🙏🏽
I was told you couldnt be diagnosed with ASPD and NPD so thank you for this. I obviously recieved false information and this has helped. I know people with ASPD have the NPD traits naturally anyway. Goodluck for the future. ❤
Crazy eyes
ignorant comment
Wait u said u don't feel empathy... Do you mean that you don't experience emotional empathy? Since I remember on tiktok where u said that logically u know when ur partner is crying that u should comfort them. Does that mean you logically understand how someone feels from the way they act, but you cannot emotionally empathise with them (as in if ur partner is sad it makes you sad too)?
I keep on asking u questions n stuff, cuz honestly ur content has not only inspired me to dig into a disorder I used to invalidate due to the stigmas around it (thank fuck I woke the fuck up lmao) but learning more abt ur disorder has actually helped me understand my OWN disorder as someone with BPD. Some of the ways you hurt people are similar to how I have hurt people, and learning how you feel and think and what causes u to behave that way, helps me compare it to my own experiences and understand myself better.
Just wanna say btw, as a CSA survivor - and SA/rape victim later on into adulthood - I'm glad ur doing ur best to get better. This shit fucks you tf up, and only hammers in your toxic coping mechanisms and defensive responses. I hope you will be able to afford the healthcare you deserve. PDs are a pain in the ass to have, and we all deserve to get better.
Hope u have a good day Delta :)
Why did you fight with everyone?
Came here from your tiktok!
Great video❤️
I'm really proud of your courage 🩵
Oof. People don't realise that Dissociative Identity Disorder is the worst form of results of psychal trauma. And that NPD and ASP are partly result of severe childhood trauma.
Something truly awful happened to you beyond belief. I'm sorry all this happened to you and that nobody treated you properly. You're so vulnerable yet people didn't respect your disabilities. It's sad you went through that.
You obviously are imperfect and everyone can be held to some level of accountability, but it's different for everyone, especially if you're mentally ill. I get it's hard to give you treatment, but it's their job.
Let alone that these issues are partly result of neurodivergency. ADHD gets heat for being "trendy", when in reality it's debilitating to live with, making you more prone to comorbid disorders as a result.
I'm glad you have self-awareness and did treatment. You're strong and it must be super hard. I'd pay for your therapy if I could.
I really hope things get better for you soon. You're in the right path, since it's the best for you and also others.
Sending you love and positivity. Good luck.
In the UK here and trying to get diagnosed. Your vid helped me take the first step to finding residential treatment. Currently getting treatment for Anorexia but trying to see the psychiatrist for an evaluation is so damn hard. Thanks for sharing your insight. If you're in London, cuppa tea is on me :P
Hey Delta !, does your self-awareness and recognition that you actually are a narcissist lead you to some kind of "regret, sadness or grief" in the form of emotions ? - or are these emotions that you can't feel or experience - and it's only a rational conclusion and realisation that your narcissism is causing you problems by not being adapted to how "most normal human beings do operate and function" !?
Very good question! I know it’s a spectrum so it’s different case by case, but I do know 1 and he has no real empathy. Though he loves to use kindness and pseudo empathy as a tool to pry, extract information and control. It’s disgusting, pathetic, and almost funny to see someone go from “tears” in their eyes saying you can tell them anything, they care so deeply about you! To launching a smear campaign on you a week later. Even AI can ‘fake’ empathy. There some truly evil “people” out there, be careful! Dont over share. Let people earn your trust.
@@Limonaid Are you Delta?
I had a neighbour like that. a total sociopath. This person totalky ruined my life. she was rude and daunting.
Psychopath, not sociopath. Sociopath is not a clinical term.
This is also called narcopaths. 83% of people with ASPD end up in prison. I hope you get the help you need so you don’t end up there.👈🏻
malignant narcissists is what I use
@@punk86 yes I have studied that also. Most malignant narcs go to jail.
Thank you for sharing your experience.
not blinking is a part of the disorder guys
Do you feel real love for your partner as someone who has npd?
Not genuine love I don’t think but I do care for her and want to be able to properly love her one day
@@dammitdelta how do you know the difference between what you experience w your partner and real love?
@@dammitdeltaabuser
@@OFFICIALHappy97bro...💀
@@qazumi_ just being honest...
You always sport the dissociation look?
She's reading
gl
I probably have all those things to but if I didn't get a job and make money I'd have been homeless......twenty years later.......same thing).
Good luck sweetheart just accepting facing and recognition of your struggles if half the battle, well done i mean it i wish i could wish an ex who suffered with same issues but hey ill wish you all the best good luck🙏😇♥️
Interesting. I have BPD traits
Thank you for sharing your story. You are a brave soul to share it with the world 😁😁😁.
how do actually view your conditions though? i cant imagine you see yourself as abnormal. like you don't seem bothered by your own PDs, and i dont see why you would if you dont feel bad about anything and dont care what others think. make another video about it... like what its _really_ like to be a narcissist/sociopath
You are so brave. You are helping many by taking accountability in your videos.
Lmao "brave" 🤣 She's literally using making these videos and all you naive people for her narcissistic supply.
Very informative, perhaps you might delve deeper into the how and the why of your trauma
What is PHB?
PHP is partial hospitalization program. It’s where you go to residential during the day but get to go home at night. So it’s a step down from residential :)
Thanks for sharing. I found your video to be fascinating. I subscribed, keep posting🙂
I've been to a few rehabilitation centers for drugs and alcohol. There were a couple that literally saved my life. Please dont ever give up on life no matter what the future holds. I've been creative with psychiatry. I made up a new diagnosis for myself: Socioempath. Someone with severe empathy who refuses to live by the mores of society.
Another aspect is ASPD tend to be sexually fluid. As HG Tudor says” any hole will do narcissist “.
Her eyes tells enough...
She probably has a hard time falling asleep...
No fr! Super scary.
came here to comment this
are you psychic? maybe she's on meds. Don't draw conclusion about someone you don't know
yeah they do. as a narc she hates every second of admitting her abusive tendencies but shes telling her story and thats enough as is
In the first sentence you have NPD ASPD DID and Anorexia Nervosa. Would it be crazy if they all had a same cause? To me that would make more sense than all of them happening independently. Have you heard about the metabolic theory of mental illness or the ketogenic diet? It would probably help you immensely
Can you not say this insane shit pls
Do you suffer from dry eyes? 👀
Off and on yes. I have a chronic illness.
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Like your voice a lot..
U mad? 😂😂😂
I can tell you've been heavily traumatized.
Yep, the eyes and hyper-vigilance.
Are you still diagnosed with DID?
Am I the only one that noticed in her older content she was blinking more and now she isn't?
@@kitkatherine0177 yup I noticed too
@@kitkatherine0177 there’s a reason for that. I moved out of a moldy and allergen heavy environment that was causing me several issues and has had lasting impact on my health. I don’t really see why everyone is so concerned about my blinking. If anything, it’s from the DID and not even related to my personality disorders.
Yes, just choose not to talk about it much
Did you go to twin valley or summit behavioral health?
No, I went to Timberline Knolls, the Emily Program, and Eating Recovery Center
This is borderline, with narcissistic traits, and problem is not about narcissism but about rationalizing own emotions and impulses, narcissism here is defense against borderline emotional disregulation.
Sounds like malignant narcissism. Basically someone who cannot be part of society at this point. Scary.
@@Liz-wz8dh to some extent, but not really because malignant narcissists need society to get narcissistic suplay on any means, borderline is more emotionally disrrgulated and construct narcissistic defense to deel with this constant emotional disregulation but can also make maglinant from of it as means to obtain certain ways of emotional projection and emotional regulation through establishing grandiosity upon others weaknesses that can be real provoked or projected. Real malignant narcissist is much less instable emotional state and have very rigid behavioral patterns constantly rationalizing own position in regard to others for obtaining narcissistic suplay on any means with total disregard of how their behavior impact others which can be very similar how borderline behave when is emotionally disrrgulated. It's much more complex mental construct then people tend to think on behalf of common understanding of this conditions. Covert narcissist can collapse and behave as borderline and in prolonged and constant collapsing become malignant narcissist but doesn't behave so obviously emotionally disrrgulated when adopt malignant narcissistic self state, hence why in first place is covert. While overt narcissist in my opinion is early in childhood borderline adopted overt narcissism and can become malignant when rationalization gives him ability to regulate acomulated emotional disregulation through malignant narcissistic action state so no more as just defense of borderline emotional disregulation but as means of action towards obtaining emotional or impuls regulations.
Sam Vaknin recently had a video on how BPD and NPD can interact within a person.
What’s scary when you think of it, she can say she’s blaming others etc and self aware but she’s only concerned about the consequences to her, not the damage she’s causing to others.
@@chamuuemura5314 that's defense of grandiosity where here emotional regulation became more important than others because of constant disregulation in interaction with others. It's provoked learned patterns of behavior as narcissistic defense because of lack of impulse and emotional control. Narcissists does also blame others, borderline blame first self and in prolonged self blame and various failed tactics for overcoming this self blame and various acting out through psychopathic state borderline learn to project not just emotional states to others but also this self blame so in a way she blame others for reason she blame self is last line if defense because of self destructive self blame. She is aware of this not like narcissist who is not aware because all construct is about elevated sense of self above others, but she because of this awareness constantly decompesate and become even more impulsive and emotionally disregulated and aquire sociopathic calculated behavior and rationalization of own behavior but still without even hint of rationalization of own emotional state.
@@Liz-wz8dh yes, I have malignant NPD and ASPD.
Did you make this video in order to gain narcissistic supply by chance?
I say the exact same thing to narcs when they do this on social media and I get HARASSED about it lol. Not to say people can't share their story cuz yes they are human too but how people don't see this as supporting them to continue their abuse is beyond me.
I wonder if their robots poot to the test f9r society
Please don't mind the rules, condescending shitheads hiding behind keyboards who wouldn't know self-reflection and accountability if it hit them in the face. Trauma affects different people differently and you don't need to feel empathy to behave sympathetically. "Normal" people have done the most fucked up shit in the history, we are all capable of doing evil shit. Be grateful you haven't been abused, be kind to others, be aware and if you have nothing kind or useful to say - move on.
Yeah the most fu sh have you seen all the innocent citizens tortured in war??? I guess all the world need a diagnosis.
Hey Delta- Longearedvarmint, following
I'm sorry, but when i first saw how dark your eyes are my first thought was "whoa, evil." How judgemental of me. Let me just say (this is empathy) i am so sorry for what happened to you. I appreciate your frankness and i wish you all the best with your partner. Ideally, you should work on yourself first before bringing this baggage into a relationship, but if she can help you along the way she's a really special person. However it toes take a toll over time, so i hope she can persist with you long enough to see you become the best person you can be.
One last thing: Have you considered BDSM? Sadism can be quite the kink, but only if the partner is into it as well. Otherwise, it's just abuse. I only suggest it because it might be a way of you still getting the thrill you feel from being sadistic without being abusive. Just an idea.
thank you for mansplaining and clarifying your empathy, i would have mistaken it for a middle aged white man pretending to care but then preceding to make it obscenely and un-neededly sexual
@MisMadison Huh..?
Just by using the term mansplaining, you have discredited yourself. All that means is a woman can't handle the truth. Given your self-disqualification, i have no need or desire to respond to anything else you say.
Challenging your grandioscity hurt you. Yeah, I wouldn't stop challenging my daughter in a similar way. She won't take moral responsibility for her actions. Yet she insisted on therapy so she could tell everyone else what we did wrong. I wouldn't have it.
Now we don't speak.
She want therapy and you don’t want the therapist to know about the things she think you did/do wrong?! Narcissism and other personally disorders develops in childhood, so maybe you have been a part of the problem? And then you don’t want to seek therapy with her… You sound like a bad parent…..
@@vibra1562 We didn't generally talk about childhood conflict. There was plenty to talk about from more recent conflict. And everyone else was willing to take responsibility. She was not. She would generally shut down, explode in rage, or just leave when someone managed to get through her manipulation tactics to talk about what she had done, or when he therapist pointed out that she wasn't doing what she expected of others. She wanted validation of her emotions, but refused to do the same.
@@matthewbrown8679narcissism in an individual is also caused by invalidation in childhood, the wounds can grow deep and long, and you don’t sound like you have any experience validating her experiences at all.
you sound like one of those exes/parents who has narcissistic traits themselves and then springs to put them on anyone in their lives
you don’t talk anymore because she wanted to heal her wounds in therapy? good for her.
@@fatymah1138 My daughter had what I now recognize as narcissistic tendencies as a child and teenager. But she wasn't someone with a pathological degree of vulnerable narcissism. I watched without initially knowing what I was watching as her marriage to a vulnerable narcissist changed her. I saw her abandon her vote values just to try to make her relationship work. Those core values were largely what had protected her from her own tendencies in the past. I watched as she first accepted his victim mentality as reality, enabled that victim mentality, and developed a victim mentality of her own. I watched as she lost her empathy, as she began treating perfect strangers in hateful ways, as she lost all ability at first to acknowledge her husband's responsibility for his actions, then lost all willingness to take responsibility for her own actions. Her siblings and I have in various combinations tried to do therapy with her with similar results. Whether in therapy or out her need for validation became a bottomless pit that she was desperate to fill, but no amount of validation would fill it. Do you seriously think we didn't try? There comes a point when continued validation is enabling self victimization.
@@fatymah1138 You might want to consider the possibility that you can't divine the universe from a few brief comments. You have no idea what kind of relationships she had with her family growing up, where her self image issues originated, and what might have aggravated manageable issues into deeply pathological problems. I do. I watched as her relationship with a narcissistic husband pulled her into her own narcissistic pit. I've watched her lose all ability to take moral responsibility for her own actions, transition from a deeply empathetic and spiritual person into an empty husk that no amount of validation can fill. I've seen how she manipulated people and situations, and tried to use therapy as a manipulation tool. When others resisted and insisted on anything resembling mutualism in those sessions rather than a one way, unreciprocated validation firehouse pointing her way things generally went badly. It was her last therapy session with her mother that led to complete estrangement.
Now by this anyone following this thread will be able to make a great guess as to your own level of narcissism. Are you going to take personal responsibility for making judgements with nothing resembling the knowledge necessary, or are you going to argue your uninformed point?
maybe you were too many times victimised, also if you believe in it in past life and through previous ancestory generation behaviour and trauma can surface. dont take it to heavy you are so antisocial
lmao i actually think i went to the ohio place you went to
Ignore the haters! Good on you for putting yourself out there. It takes a hell of alot to be self aware and work on ourselves! Most people commenting with all their insulting BS probably dont have a clue!. I hope things work out for you!
can your nice patient partner help you learn to blink? it would help you appear more gentle and neuro-typical.
Narcissists suffer too
They suffer due to them not wanting to change, so they end up living life and being a reflection of her abusers, then play victim and never do anything about it.
@@punk86 While I don’t want to invalidate you personally (wrong is wrong), I would like to open your mind to the idea that psychology is not fully understood in our modern society.
If I were you, I wouldn’t put so much weight into the idea that people with narcissistic personality disorder are as evil as 2023 pop culture would have you believe.
My main point is the brain is not fully understood so how could narcissistic brains be fully understood.
@@MyraMabryA to the fkin men. We haven't fully understood the brain. Even experts can't figure ppl out with all the time they spend diagnosing ppl and/or learning about the mind
Sometimes randos think they figured it out by reading some bs on the internet that's not how it works
She's gotta be doing they eyes on purpose
Not everyone is going to do the “non-blinking “ all the time. ( I don’t expect. )
Run Forest run!!!!!!
THIS PERSON BARELY BLINKS....WHAT THE....????
It's an act
She has aspd what do you expect
It's not polite to comment on other people's looks, especially when they're sharing such a personal story
Think that's something that sociopaths do. I've noticed that a lot. 😮
@@saskiaehlers5273 So the eyes of people with ADPD don't get dry? Blinking normally has nothing to do with anxiety.
What's your zodiac and birthdate of you would be willing to share either id appreciate it , I study astrology and narcissism.
There's no such thing as studying correlations between made up crap and psychiatric issues in good faith. Science and bullshit don't mix.
@@margodphdOh I dunno.... Been doing a pretty decent job of mixing in other regards over the last few years. 🙄🙄
I have wondered the same. Both the narcissists I knew had moon in Leo, maybe that explains the secret superiority they feel
Check out these birth dates and see what you come up with??
• April 20 1889
• December 18th 1878
• December 26th, 1893
@@2320nikki on point 💯 , Leo moon has a lot of shadow and balance work to do , easy to succumb to narcissist tendencies with this placement.
1:22 I'M FUCKING INSANE!!! 🤯🤯🤯
people come from different backgrounds brutha. Clearly yours lead you to a very judgmental mindset
Can you plz blink?
That's actually part of the disorder. ASPD causes more reptilian eyes and many have to remind themselves to blink more frequently while interacting with people. It's a thing, lol.
@@ClandestineGirl16XNot true that’s just false stigma this girl just wants attention by exaggerating her disorder.
@@FreeLock808really? How do you know? Im curious
hahahahahaha she cant break character ;););) Shes so cringe...poor girl
@@ClandestineGirl16X y'all are so easy to fool xD
3:18 ... You have amazing social skills!
Know or know not. There is no believe. Remember these words
"Do or do not... There is no TRY"
---Yoda
I've been arrested 3 times for public intoxication and have one harassment charge on my record. Also been in the psych hospital or rehab almost 10 times for my alcoholism and drug addiction. Never been diagnosed with ASPD. I have only seen one video of someone claiming to have ASPD who actually bothered to list the crimes that led to their diagnosis. I've only met a few people who either had or probably had antisocial personality. One was a guy I went to high school with who was charged with torturing and killing cats. Another guy I went to high school with got arrested for molesting his daughter. You might be narcissistic (so what, narcissists are ubiquitous on the internet and among millennials), but I'm not buying your story about having antisocial personality. Show us your rap sheet.
No one gives a fuck about your shit guy.
You listed a whole lot of things and not one was "qualifications."
@@SLYKM You didn't list a single crime that you had ever committed. That tells me you don't have ASPD. It's been awhile since I did any drunk driving or visited prostitutes. I've never been diagnosed with ASPD, nor do I claim to have it. You said I have no credentials but didn't deny my point. That's called the ad hominem fallacy.
@@smokyquartz5817 I'll bet you are her using a different name and liking your own comment. That's why I can't see this response on my other account. My whole point was that you are a fake because you have never broken the law. It's part of the diagnostic criteria for antisocial personality disorder. Getting a few traffic tickets, smoking weed, or shoplifting once doesn't count.
@@smokyquartz5817 At least I did shit, gal. You didn't do a thing.
5:01 times ticking.
I don't believe you sorry
What a weird comment... what do you gain?
@@Anonymous-mp5mtrespect he gains respect
who gives a fuck if shes lying or tellin the truth, a hope she feels better for herself & others
@@pinchpancake1093 you his mom?
I do
cap
lol your funny.
Lol
Kinda hot 🫡🇺🇸
Brother
@@nathan4599 🤷♂️🫡🇺🇸🇮🇱🇬🇧
No offense, but I believe nothing you say.
I definitely believe her but I do study psychology,
@@tonrobert3391 then you are aware of the tapestry. Every lie and manipulation has a bit of truth. What does she get by posting videos? Better treatment by professionals and girlfriend stays. Acting. Faking Lying. Taking. What can prove her mind is healing? Not even words matching actions can do that. A mask of a different color is still a mask. Kudos to her for trying. If she can fake a decent mask to where people will enjoy her, good for her. That’s still a win. Until one day she pulls off that mask just to rip out someone’s soul.
ong she cappin
I see it in her eyes.
I agree. her older stuff she was blinking in. Kanika says sociopaths dont blink as much and now she doesn't blink. She claimed to have DID in the past when it was popular. Now being a narcissist and a sociopath is popular and trendy. Think she has Münchausen syndrome instead.
God gave her over to a reprobate mind. The Bible says she's an offender, not a victim:
Romans 1:18-32 KJV
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@@fatymah1138 Please read the passage. She had a chance to get saved but rejected it. She wasn't born this way, but it's too late for her now 🔥☠️🔥
@@fatymah1138 She wasn't born this way. She had a chance. She blew it.
You are an idiot. Bible also tells us “in all things have understanding.” Shame on you for being a jerk.