Thank you so so much. I just recovered my repressed memory of my sexual abuse at age 4 or 5. This video has helped me understand how repression happened. And helped my support system understand better. I just retrieved the memories, less than a week ago. Had some ptsd episodes.. The part with the slot machine was incredible. Thank you sir.
It just happened to me, a couple of days ago, I don’t think there was a trigger. I am familiar with traumatic memory since I’ve been SA’d multiple times in my childhood and teenage years but this is one of the earliest memories of my life (regarding SA). I always remembered the ones which started later but one day about 4 years ago this one just made its way into my memory. I rejected it, that was to difficult to bare, how could my grandfather do something so horrible to me? But then a couple of days ago all of the sudden everything came back, all fresh, like I was experiencing it again.. And it left me livid. I was that 5 years old powerless child again… It’s a very crushing experience, especially since it’s someone I deeply loved and cared for. Till now I still refuse to believe it happened to me…
If I have been suspecting that I may have been SA'ed when I was a child, how high is the posibility of it being true? I remember almost NOTHING of my childhood, just a few things about primary and junior, and almost nothing from highschool and university. What I remember in general, are normally awful and/or traumatic experiences... negligence from my parents, their physical and emotional violence, etc. Just a few weeks ago, I just felt like I might be a CSA survivor. Maybe done by my middle brother, who is like 15 years older than me. I experienced 4 r*apes since I was 16 (I'm now almost 27), and several sexual abuses in general. One of the r*apes was just like 4 months ago, by my ex partner. I always feel very anxious when I hear a baby cry somewhere, and I always think of the worst scenario. I'm actually right now using sound cancelling headphones because I heard a girl cry so hard that I couldn't stand it anymore. 🥺 I also provoked myself a sleep paralysis a while back. Maybe like 9 years ago... and I saw myself from above, while some "demon" presence came towards my bed and sat down. The "me" that was laying, got up and started hitting the sh*t out of that "demon". When I woke up, I felt very relieved and full of energy, even happy. I also remember that, one time, I was playing with my sister (who is 2 years older than me) on the floor at the back of the sofa in which my middle brother was sitting and playing videogames. Suddenly, out of nowhere, he literally jumped over the couch, pulled his pants and underwear down, and showed me his naked butt. He got them up again, jumped back and that was it. I remember I looked to my sister and she didn't even realize what happened. I told him years ago about all of the sexual abuse I've been through, and literally said nothing. He changed the subject and ignored me completely. To this day, my brother treats me like trash even though I have always been kind to him. I feel like it might be because we were the "second marriage" kids and I was the younger one. Just a few months ago I stopped any type of communication with him because of how awful he is to me. I don't know if there might be even a 1% chance of being a CSA survivor... but I want to ask if someone can tell me anything about this. 😕
Thank you so so much. I just recovered my repressed memory of my sexual abuse at age 4 or 5. This video has helped me understand how repression happened. And helped my support system understand better. I just retrieved the memories, less than a week ago. Had some ptsd episodes.. The part with the slot machine was incredible. Thank you sir.
Remembered being assaulted when I was younger almost fifteen years later. This helped. Thanks.
It just happened to me, a couple of days ago, I don’t think there was a trigger. I am familiar with traumatic memory since I’ve been SA’d multiple times in my childhood and teenage years but this is one of the earliest memories of my life (regarding SA). I always remembered the ones which started later but one day about 4 years ago this one just made its way into my memory. I rejected it, that was to difficult to bare, how could my grandfather do something so horrible to me? But then a couple of days ago all of the sudden everything came back, all fresh, like I was experiencing it again.. And it left me livid. I was that 5 years old powerless child again… It’s a very crushing experience, especially since it’s someone I deeply loved and cared for. Till now I still refuse to believe it happened to me…
thank you for this video. I've been going through this process this year as a 20 year old and it has been so tough
If I have been suspecting that I may have been SA'ed when I was a child, how high is the posibility of it being true?
I remember almost NOTHING of my childhood, just a few things about primary and junior, and almost nothing from highschool and university. What I remember in general, are normally awful and/or traumatic experiences... negligence from my parents, their physical and emotional violence, etc.
Just a few weeks ago, I just felt like I might be a CSA survivor. Maybe done by my middle brother, who is like 15 years older than me.
I experienced 4 r*apes since I was 16 (I'm now almost 27), and several sexual abuses in general. One of the r*apes was just like 4 months ago, by my ex partner.
I always feel very anxious when I hear a baby cry somewhere, and I always think of the worst scenario. I'm actually right now using sound cancelling headphones because I heard a girl cry so hard that I couldn't stand it anymore. 🥺
I also provoked myself a sleep paralysis a while back. Maybe like 9 years ago... and I saw myself from above, while some "demon" presence came towards my bed and sat down. The "me" that was laying, got up and started hitting the sh*t out of that "demon". When I woke up, I felt very relieved and full of energy, even happy.
I also remember that, one time, I was playing with my sister (who is 2 years older than me) on the floor at the back of the sofa in which my middle brother was sitting and playing videogames. Suddenly, out of nowhere, he literally jumped over the couch, pulled his pants and underwear down, and showed me his naked butt. He got them up again, jumped back and that was it. I remember I looked to my sister and she didn't even realize what happened.
I told him years ago about all of the sexual abuse I've been through, and literally said nothing. He changed the subject and ignored me completely.
To this day, my brother treats me like trash even though I have always been kind to him. I feel like it might be because we were the "second marriage" kids and I was the younger one. Just a few months ago I stopped any type of communication with him because of how awful he is to me.
I don't know if there might be even a 1% chance of being a CSA survivor... but I want to ask if someone can tell me anything about this. 😕
Validation! Thank you!
Thank you 😢
OMG thank you 😢
❤thank you!I am a surviver of sexual abuse.