It’s actually so interesting to see how we can isolate people without realizing by doing something like asking about their childhood. Definitely something I will be more mindful of in the future. Glad you guys shared this.
This might sound like a crazy comment but I was cleaning my phone screen and it just so happened to be right over the thumbs down so it looked like I thumbs downed your comment…I didn’t, I just wanted you to know it was an accident if it showed that I did! 😬
The group chats bring out a lot of stories, but are difficult to hear. The second part of this chat had some subtitles occasionally that really helped with understanding and being able to follow the stories. Are you still married? Would Erik do a video about his story of leaving?
Very interesting but so difficult to follow when multiple people (unseen and girl in stripped shirt) are talking over each other whew! Amanda, I 🤞 you could isolate the girls/conversations to better hear or understand what is said. Ty!😁
Before escaping polygamy came out, my impression of "the order" was like the sister wives on TLC. Glad you all escaped and keep talking about what's going on. It's really important and means a lot to a lot of people. Thank you 😊 💓
I didn’t grow up In a cult, but I did grow up in a very over protective Christian family that and I ‘ran away’ from when I was 19 with only a few bags to a friends house so these videos bring me a lot of comfort and resonate a ton with what you all talk about. Not nearly as extreme but I just wanted to comment there are more people out there who can relate to you then you may realize. I struggled all through my twenties feeling the same way like I couldn’t relate to anyone and no one understood my story 🥰🥰🥰 my family and I are on better terms and I’m so sorry these people believe they are somehow being holy or Godly by treating outsiders the way they do. your videos bring me a lot of comfort almost like a sister or best friend vibe. I appreciate all you share and thank you for your vulnerability Much love to all you ladies ! And cute babies
You have a good point. I know of another religion that has nothing to do with FLDS that is similar (not quite as extreme) in what they teach regarding association with outside their belief system. You are absolutely right that in any religious belief, it can be taken to extreme. I hope there continues to be growth and peace in the relationships with your family.
Hi Amanda! Someone else down below mentioned the group convos are hard to listen to.. n I definitely agree! One on one convos are much easier to listen to! That being said it was still a ton of crazy info and thank you for all you ladies time and energy it took to make that video! We would love to see a one on one with Michelle! N also with Rachel Jeff’s would be very interesting! Blessings to you all!!! ❤️
Yeah I love the dynamics of the group conversations, but it’s so impossible to hear. I’d only do these with microphones, which I know might be too expensive etc
I think it is more how they are filming it. If they do something like a podcast where everyone has headphones and a microphone I think it would be easier to hear and follow.
Yes to more of all the content! I have to say, I hate that you guys feel like outsiders! I wish I lived closer so I could be friends with you! Just remember, everyone has something, and in that way we are all outsiders. I have lived in the Southeast US for most of my life, and if I moved out to Utah, I would definitely stick out like a sore thumb! You ladies are wonderfully brave and the compassion you show for those still in the order, despite how many of them treat you, speaks volumes about your character. I gather than compassion wasn't something that was taught to you all, or at least not well, because you all don't seem to recognize what a strength it is. Being able to have compassion, especially for those who have harmed you, is incredibly difficult, but it also shows just how much stronger you are than those who have hurt you.
The part where you are talking about how you have moments where you realize it's so weird that your story is your story resonates with me. I'm not from a cult but feeling like you have a crazy backstory and the strangeness of realizing how far you've come from that is relatable. You are awesome women and have so much compassion. Thank you for sharing some of your lives with us and using your voices and actions to speak and stand up. I would love a podcast!
When asked uncomfortable questions on your background or family you can just reply “ that’s a story for another time”. Then if and when you ready you can answer, but you can chose the time and place.
You girls are the definition of strong! Y’all have done something very few have had the courage/backbone/balls (haha) to do! I hope you can be proud of yourselves for taking charge of your lives and living them the way you think is right! I’m a mom and I have watched all your videos Amanda (all of escaping polygamy too) and I sit here beaming with mom pride for each of you…I would be proud to call y’all my daughters! 🥰🥰🥰🥰
It's so disturbing when a woman doesn't know sex can be fun because she's saying she's been raped yet doesn't even have the words for that. My great grandmother said something like that to my mother and I'm tearing up now just thinking about this happening to so many women.
13:36 of an adult files child support on their absent father, THE ADULT gets it, not the mother. Ive helped countless friends do it. Yall should all do it. The court will force the dads to do dna tests and theyll have to pay the entire 18 yrs directly to you. Pls do it. Itll show their asses that they cant just run around having 100s of kids with no consequences.
Commenting that we definitely need an interview with Michelle. 😊 As a matter of fact, Michelle could be your first interview on podcast! I download your videos to listen later. I constantly listen to podcasts, so moving your content (or in addition to) a podcast would be AMAZING!
The woman in the white striped shirt(I forget her name), can you make a short video of how you do your bun? It looks so cute! (totally off-topic, I know lol)
I totally relate to feeling alienated because you don’t interact with your controlling family. It’s so hard. Especially because most people either have good relationships with their family, or they don’t, but they still interact with their family and they judge you for “abandoning” your family. You’re not alone!
Very insightful! Especially the message of how you feel people on the outside might think of you. Always speak your truth! Your vibe attracts your tribe and the rest don't matter is what I have learned
In response to around @11:00 : I grew up in an atheist home, my mom had 6 children, we all spent time with her and I love having 5 siblings. I have 7 children, and we are all very close and happy. We chose to have a lot of children, they are spaced. I think having lots of children in a cult is troubling, but not because the number of children. Each person should decide for themselves, but it is not inherently bad to have a lot of children. Coming out of one extreme, don't go to the other, saying that everything that reminds you of that time is bad.
Again, thank you so much for your honesty and vulnerability in these discussions. I think I think the podcast is a great idea, both with you speaking alone and explaining things and having guests from different polygamous cults. I think an added layer, though, would be to include people with completely different religious backgrounds than you (i.e. Orthodox Jews, Muslims, Buddhists, Catholics, Amish, etc.) to compare and contrast your upbringings and beliefs. You could probably get people of different backgrounds just from your fans and subscribers. Obviously, though, whatever you do and are comfortable with is awesome. :D
Also, it really broke my heart to hear you talk about how you have a hard time connecting with outsiders because you had a "weird" childhood so I just wanted to say this: As you spend more time interacting with more and more outsiders, you will find that everyone has their own aspect of life that is weird. For example, I grew up in a blended family and my mom's family is SUPER blended (Just as a small example, she grew up as an only child and was raised by her grandparents but now, through both of her bio parents, she has 19 half- and stepsiblings total.) All that to say, people who grew up in polygamy aren't the only ones who have to explain their families and sometimes feel weird explaining their childhood. I hope that makes you feel at least a little less alone or weird. Frankly, you'd be weird if you had a "normal" family, lol.
Yes to the podcast! And do it in the chill format you used just now, with several people. It´s a more natural conversation, than an intreview. It would be nice if you could have a better microphone though, the audio quality now is really difficult to listen to. Actually it seems like there was a vacuum running in the beginning or something, which was the real problem.
I agree, I know it's hard to hear for some people but I like the hen party vibe. This is exactly how conversations sound when my family gets together especially the women.
Loved this video! I'm so sorry that abuse is soo rampant in the Order. I understand the fear you are ruled by with abuse. It's never ever easy with abuse from someone we love, trust and learn from. All of us are going to internalize our abuse in a unique way. Many like myself put the blame on ourselves and we wonder what is wrong with us. This is so misguided. The blame is on the abuser!!! I can't even image the religious abuse you all suffered. Listening to how you would be attacked (either verbal or physical) breaks my heart. It sounds like the boys learn to abuse from there "fathers". It actually should be called sperm donors because your mothers mostly raises you . Just from what I saw on escaping polygamy was awful! But this 3 part video shows such an in depth tragedy. But what is awesome is everyone of you that has left are so incredibly strong. And quite honestly I believe God is proud of who you all became. I love how you ended it with such a great reflection. If people could look at the relationship that they had and they didn't want that for themselves, then they needed to leave. Amanda when you said "it's YOUR LIFE" you are 100% right! I love 💕 your channel! You are doing an amazing job! Your making a difference. Keep it up. I believe you have found what you're supposed to be doing!
As someone who grew up very old school strict southern baptist, I can relate to some of these things. No sex ed ( because that would make us do it), don't drink, don't smoke, don't hold hands, stay pure and go get an MRS. degree. I grew up thinking I wasn't smart enough or good enough to be anything other than a wife. My identity was in whomever I married. I didn't get married until almost 30 (gasp!) and my husband had been divorced previously (sinner lol) and he was no longer allowed to be in ministry because of it (*faint*) I went on to college and obtained my bachelors and masters degrees with the full support of my husband. I want to go to law school and it is something I am seriously considering. My husband says I can be the bread winner and he will stay home. :) I can laugh about a lot of things now, however I am also sad that this is still a thing that a woman's worth is not her own. You and your cousins/sisters are over-comers and it's amazing to hear your stories. Thank you for sharing and if you did a podcast I would totally listen!
I would absolutely love a podcast with all of these women. The talking over each other is fine and would be way easier to understand if you were mic’ed more closely. Thank you all so much for opening up to all of us. I hope it is therapeutic for you to have these public conversations and I wish the best for all of you. I’m sure there are moments when you feel very vulnerable and weak, but the strength you have all shown by leaving us immeasurable and the support you can offer each other must be more valuable than gold.
100% would love a podcast! I do think one-on-one would be better and keep group things like this on your channel! Love you guys! ~Stay Strong and Continue Fighting~
I've sat through you and your family's stories and my heart is breaking for you all. I just want to hug you all and tell you how strong you all are. And your support system for each other is amazing. Sending love. LGx Ps. Would be a lousy member as cannot have kids 😑
Anyone who thinks you are weird are not worth telling your story to. You didn’t choose that life it chose you and once you had the chance to choose you did. That’s what should matter. I totally think a podcast would be a great idea I just think mics might help because it’s kind of hard to hear. And I do get a little confused when you talk over each other. It may be that I have add though so I can only concentrate on one voice at a time. But I am also known to interrupt or talk over people myself 🤣🤷🏻♀️ I love the dynamic though and hearing all your experiences and how you have changed your lives. You should all be so proud of yourselves for putting yourself first. Don’t let anyone take that from you.
The hymen thing is so funny to me bc it means nothing lol. Like I had already had regular sex for several years at the point mine actually broke. Like it doesn't always break anyway.
Thats not true about child support at least in Oregon. If he owes back child support then once you turn 18 in starts going to you. I started getting the back child support my dad owed when I turned 18.
The question about family where are they, ask any adult who was a kid in Foster care. "I just say they are not in my life period, there is no further info."
My only complaint is that I think you need to get microphones to balance the audio better. I know you are trying to figure everything out, so I know you are working with what you have. But I thought you may like the feedback.
Wow, yeah, even as a kid I knew I didn’t want my future kids to have relationships like I have with my parents. Being afraid of making any mistakes. Being shamed for expressing emotion, even too much positive emotion. Being controlled and manipulated and discouraged. I don’t want my kids to have that in their lives from anyone. If you abuse, you forfeit your family status. Family don’t abuse.
Would loooooove a podcast, you and the other former members have SO much crazy stuff that the world needs to know about! There are cheap microphones you can buy on amazon! Also I'm not sure if it was specifically my comment you were talking about but I know I commented before talking about the super weird "davis county co-op" website.... the hypocrisy on that site is sooooo real I'm glad you got screenshots.
Amanda, I love your videos, but the ones with a roomful of adults and children are just too crazy to listen to. I can't...... The sound is terrible. :-(
Yeah its kinda distracting i get it but its a UA-cam video...not a high budget professional production lol what do you expect. I think she's doing the best she can and I appreciate the content she creates that we get to enjoy without paying for, I don't think it's about the money for her.
I was a child bride of 15. Not in a polygamous relationship or cult. At 16 I had my son. I too left not because I was being beat and SA'd but because my newborn infant already had Ptsd at birth and because I wanted better for him and his children someday.
1 of six kids. Strict Cathilic. Lot of cousins. My dad was never home. Parents soon divorced. Just my mom and us kids most of time. We have alot in common!
I believe the rigidity of religious man made morals and their oppressive teachings of our natural human sexuality is the root of the dysfunction of millions of people in the world. Denying our sexual feelings, believing them a sin and flaming guilt and shame are contributors to people acting out these desires in an abhorrent , dysfunctional and criminal way.Imagine a world where we are taught that our sexuality is one of the highest gifts from our Creator. That a women’s menestration (moon time) is the time of her power...and that thier are Natural Laws that guide us when we are in this period once a month. Few of our tribal elders and respected medicine people have this knowledge and I have been honored to learn these teachings. We have lost so much in the name God, and of organized religions...I feel this is one of the main reasons human beings are so lost and off course today.
All those little kiddos are giving me baby fever lol my kids are 13 & 11 now and I’ll probably never have any more kids even though I want to but life doesn’t always work out like We want..
Hell when I was in sex education class if any of us had questions about anything(and I mean anything) all we had to do was write the question on a piece of paper and put it in a question box. I learned a lot of stuff that year 😂
Different cultures always interest me. So it was interested to hear about how Menstral cycles were handled. Do you still wear pads or do you now wear tampons/cups/disc?
What happens if you say no to everyone in the order. How do they punish you? I know it's different and difficult if you grow up in a cult. But what happens if you just stop doing what they want. Do you get kicked out? Punish you? What do they do? How long? Can they just isolate you for the rest of your life????
Only if you all kept sweet I wouldn't have binge watched all your videos...... OMG if you guys retained an lawyer, you could take Paul down to his knees..
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I like Michelle's idea of someone trying to just show up to church since their website says they are just a "regular church". LOL
It’s actually so interesting to see how we can isolate people without realizing by doing something like asking about their childhood. Definitely something I will be more mindful of in the future. Glad you guys shared this.
This might sound like a crazy comment but I was cleaning my phone screen and it just so happened to be right over the thumbs down so it looked like I thumbs downed your comment…I didn’t, I just wanted you to know it was an accident if it showed that I did! 😬
I was thinking something similar.
But if we don't know, we can't help. It's a balance.
The group chats bring out a lot of stories, but are difficult to hear. The second part of this chat had some subtitles occasionally that really helped with understanding and being able to follow the stories.
Are you still married? Would Erik do a video about his story of leaving?
Very interesting but so difficult to follow when multiple people (unseen and girl in stripped shirt) are talking over each other whew! Amanda, I 🤞 you could isolate the girls/conversations to better hear or understand what is said. Ty!😁
Shes divorced. She has multiple vids on it
Before escaping polygamy came out, my impression of "the order" was like the sister wives on TLC. Glad you all escaped and keep talking about what's going on. It's really important and means a lot to a lot of people. Thank you 😊 💓
I didn’t grow up In a cult, but I did grow up in a very over protective Christian family that and I ‘ran away’ from when I was 19 with only a few bags to a friends house so these videos bring me a lot of comfort and resonate a ton with what you all talk about. Not nearly as extreme but I just wanted to comment there are more people out there who can relate to you then you may realize. I struggled all through my twenties feeling the same way like I couldn’t relate to anyone and no one understood my story 🥰🥰🥰 my family and I are on better terms and I’m so sorry these people believe they are somehow being holy or Godly by treating outsiders the way they do. your videos bring me a lot of comfort almost like a sister or best friend vibe. I appreciate all you share and thank you for your vulnerability
Much love to all you ladies ! And cute babies
You have a good point. I know of another religion that has nothing to do with FLDS that is similar (not quite as extreme) in what they teach regarding association with outside their belief system. You are absolutely right that in any religious belief, it can be taken to extreme. I hope there continues to be growth and peace in the relationships with your family.
Hi Amanda! Someone else down below mentioned the group convos are hard to listen to.. n I definitely agree! One on one convos are much easier to listen to! That being said it was still a ton of crazy info and thank you for all you ladies time and energy it took to make that video! We would love to see a one on one with Michelle! N also with Rachel Jeff’s would be very interesting! Blessings to you all!!! ❤️
Yeah I love the dynamics of the group conversations, but it’s so impossible to hear. I’d only do these with microphones, which I know might be too expensive etc
I think it is more how they are filming it. If they do something like a podcast where everyone has headphones and a microphone I think it would be easier to hear and follow.
Yes to more of all the content! I have to say, I hate that you guys feel like outsiders! I wish I lived closer so I could be friends with you! Just remember, everyone has something, and in that way we are all outsiders. I have lived in the Southeast US for most of my life, and if I moved out to Utah, I would definitely stick out like a sore thumb! You ladies are wonderfully brave and the compassion you show for those still in the order, despite how many of them treat you, speaks volumes about your character. I gather than compassion wasn't something that was taught to you all, or at least not well, because you all don't seem to recognize what a strength it is. Being able to have compassion, especially for those who have harmed you, is incredibly difficult, but it also shows just how much stronger you are than those who have hurt you.
We need “Question everything until it makes sense.” Merch
The part where you are talking about how you have moments where you realize it's so weird that your story is your story resonates with me. I'm not from a cult but feeling like you have a crazy backstory and the strangeness of realizing how far you've come from that is relatable. You are awesome women and have so much compassion. Thank you for sharing some of your lives with us and using your voices and actions to speak and stand up. I would love a podcast!
I would like to see a video with Rachel Jeffs and give an update about her sister Teresa.
Agreed
Please make a podcast!!! You can release it as a video on UA-cam and the audio on other streaming services if you like :-)
When asked uncomfortable questions on your background or family you can just reply “ that’s a story for another time”. Then if and when you ready you can answer, but you can chose the time and place.
I love seeing Michelle’s growth. It broke my heart seeing her on escaping polygamy she was so broken. Now seeing the confidence in her I love it!!!
You girls are the definition of strong! Y’all have done something very few have had the courage/backbone/balls (haha) to do! I hope you can be proud of yourselves for taking charge of your lives and living them the way you think is right! I’m a mom and I have watched all your videos Amanda (all of escaping polygamy too) and I sit here beaming with mom pride for each of you…I would be proud to call y’all my daughters! 🥰🥰🥰🥰
Yes a video with Michelle. A pod cast would be very cool!
It's so disturbing when a woman doesn't know sex can be fun because she's saying she's been raped yet doesn't even have the words for that. My great grandmother said something like that to my mother and I'm tearing up now just thinking about this happening to so many women.
You never ruin a woman's life like that. You never hurt women.
13:36 of an adult files child support on their absent father, THE ADULT gets it, not the mother. Ive helped countless friends do it. Yall should all do it. The court will force the dads to do dna tests and theyll have to pay the entire 18 yrs directly to you. Pls do it. Itll show their asses that they cant just run around having 100s of kids with no consequences.
Commenting that we definitely need an interview with Michelle. 😊 As a matter of fact, Michelle could be your first interview on podcast! I download your videos to listen later. I constantly listen to podcasts, so moving your content (or in addition to) a podcast would be AMAZING!
would love to hear you do a podcast! its so great to hear all your stories and i really enjoy the way you all bounce off of one another.
Yes please make a podcast with all of you talking. It doesn’t need to be 1:1. It can be just like this. Like was said, fly on the wall type thing.
The woman in the white striped shirt(I forget her name), can you make a short video of how you do your bun? It looks so cute!
(totally off-topic, I know lol)
love the idea of a chill pod like this, im enjoying hearing all the different experiences
definitely would listen to a podcast like this.
That story about the kids that didn’t understand how sex works isn’t OK people need sex education or else they’ll end up confused
I totally relate to feeling alienated because you don’t interact with your controlling family. It’s so hard. Especially because most people either have good relationships with their family, or they don’t, but they still interact with their family and they judge you for “abandoning” your family. You’re not alone!
Thank you for all your hard work making and editing this video. It must have been hard. Love to all of you
You're all amazing! A one on one podcast with each girl would be so interesting. I wish yous all the happiness x
Very insightful! Especially the message of how you feel people on the outside might think of you. Always speak your truth! Your vibe attracts your tribe and the rest don't matter is what I have learned
In response to around @11:00 : I grew up in an atheist home, my mom had 6 children, we all spent time with her and I love having 5 siblings. I have 7 children, and we are all very close and happy. We chose to have a lot of children, they are spaced. I think having lots of children in a cult is troubling, but not because the number of children. Each person should decide for themselves, but it is not inherently bad to have a lot of children. Coming out of one extreme, don't go to the other, saying that everything that reminds you of that time is bad.
Again, thank you so much for your honesty and vulnerability in these discussions. I think I think the podcast is a great idea, both with you speaking alone and explaining things and having guests from different polygamous cults. I think an added layer, though, would be to include people with completely different religious backgrounds than you (i.e. Orthodox Jews, Muslims, Buddhists, Catholics, Amish, etc.) to compare and contrast your upbringings and beliefs. You could probably get people of different backgrounds just from your fans and subscribers. Obviously, though, whatever you do and are comfortable with is awesome. :D
Also, it really broke my heart to hear you talk about how you have a hard time connecting with outsiders because you had a "weird" childhood so I just wanted to say this: As you spend more time interacting with more and more outsiders, you will find that everyone has their own aspect of life that is weird. For example, I grew up in a blended family and my mom's family is SUPER blended (Just as a small example, she grew up as an only child and was raised by her grandparents but now, through both of her bio parents, she has 19 half- and stepsiblings total.) All that to say, people who grew up in polygamy aren't the only ones who have to explain their families and sometimes feel weird explaining their childhood. I hope that makes you feel at least a little less alone or weird. Frankly, you'd be weird if you had a "normal" family, lol.
A podcast would be great. Also maybe you could have an audio person to help with the talking over each other?
Hey Amanda. Are Jessica, Shanell, and Rachel finished having kids or do any of them ever think about having more?
Omg I would be so down for a podcast, and could u maybe bring Jessica, Andrea and shanell on the podcast?
Yes to the podcast! And do it in the chill format you used just now, with several people. It´s a more natural conversation, than an intreview. It would be nice if you could have a better microphone though, the audio quality now is really difficult to listen to. Actually it seems like there was a vacuum running in the beginning or something, which was the real problem.
You are all Family to each other. Not sure if you know that, but that is what I see in this video. You really sounds like family being together.
I agree, I know it's hard to hear for some people but I like the hen party vibe. This is exactly how conversations sound when my family gets together especially the women.
I don't think you are weird. I think you are all brave and amazing.
Loved this video! I'm so sorry that abuse is soo rampant in the Order. I understand the fear you are ruled by with abuse. It's never ever easy with abuse from someone we love, trust and learn from. All of us are going to internalize our abuse in a unique way. Many like myself put the blame on ourselves and we wonder what is wrong with us. This is so misguided. The blame is on the abuser!!!
I can't even image the religious abuse you all suffered. Listening to how you would be attacked (either verbal or physical) breaks my heart. It sounds like the boys learn to abuse from there "fathers". It actually should be called sperm donors because your mothers mostly raises you .
Just from what I saw on escaping polygamy was awful! But this 3 part video shows such an in depth tragedy. But what is awesome is everyone of you that has left are so incredibly strong. And quite honestly I believe God is proud of who you all became.
I love how you ended it with such a great reflection. If people could look at the relationship that they had and they didn't want that for themselves, then they needed to leave. Amanda when you said "it's YOUR LIFE" you are 100% right! I love 💕 your channel! You are doing an amazing job! Your making a difference. Keep it up. I believe you have found what you're supposed to be doing!
i would enjoy listening to a pod cast , i enjoy hearing your guys storys.
Definitely interview Michelle!!!
As someone who grew up very old school strict southern baptist, I can relate to some of these things. No sex ed ( because that would make us do it), don't drink, don't smoke, don't hold hands, stay pure and go get an MRS. degree. I grew up thinking I wasn't smart enough or good enough to be anything other than a wife. My identity was in whomever I married. I didn't get married until almost 30 (gasp!) and my husband had been divorced previously (sinner lol) and he was no longer allowed to be in ministry because of it (*faint*) I went on to college and obtained my bachelors and masters degrees with the full support of my husband. I want to go to law school and it is something I am seriously considering. My husband says I can be the bread winner and he will stay home. :) I can laugh about a lot of things now, however I am also sad that this is still a thing that a woman's worth is not her own. You and your cousins/sisters are over-comers and it's amazing to hear your stories. Thank you for sharing and if you did a podcast I would totally listen!
I would absolutely love a podcast with all of these women. The talking over each other is fine and would be way easier to understand if you were mic’ed more closely. Thank you all so much for opening up to all of us.
I hope it is therapeutic for you to have these public conversations and I wish the best for all of you. I’m sure there are moments when you feel very vulnerable and weak, but the strength you have all shown by leaving us immeasurable and the support you can offer each other must be more valuable than gold.
100% would love a podcast! I do think one-on-one would be better and keep group things like this on your channel!
Love you guys!
~Stay Strong and Continue Fighting~
I've sat through you and your family's stories and my heart is breaking for you all. I just want to hug you all and tell you how strong you all are. And your support system for each other is amazing. Sending love. LGx
Ps. Would be a lousy member as cannot have kids 😑
Anyone who thinks you are weird are not worth telling your story to. You didn’t choose that life it chose you and once you had the chance to choose you did. That’s what should matter. I totally think a podcast would be a great idea I just think mics might help because it’s kind of hard to hear. And I do get a little confused when you talk over each other. It may be that I have add though so I can only concentrate on one voice at a time. But I am also known to interrupt or talk over people myself 🤣🤷🏻♀️ I love the dynamic though and hearing all your experiences and how you have changed your lives. You should all be so proud of yourselves for putting yourself first. Don’t let anyone take that from you.
I would listen to your podcast! ☺️
The hymen thing is so funny to me bc it means nothing lol. Like I had already had regular sex for several years at the point mine actually broke. Like it doesn't always break anyway.
Also, thank you so much for sharing. Evil thrives in the darkness
Yes we would love a podcast
Whoa whoa whoa... how many people he has killed? Dude... I mean, I'm not entirely shocked, but at the same time, dang...
You guys def need to do a podcast!
i would definitely listen to a podcast like this!!
I like the "fly on the wall" and the interview episodes.
I'm sorry you all had to go through that child abuse. I'm so glad you are free and out of that incest, child molesting cult
Thats not true about child support at least in Oregon. If he owes back child support then once you turn 18 in starts going to you. I started getting the back child support my dad owed when I turned 18.
I would love a podcast.
Plzz get all the girls from escaping polygamy back
Which episodes from Escaping Polygamy are each of them from?
The question about family where are they, ask any adult who was a kid in Foster care. "I just say they are not in my life period, there is no further info."
My only complaint is that I think you need to get microphones to balance the audio better. I know you are trying to figure everything out, so I know you are working with what you have. But I thought you may like the feedback.
Wow, yeah, even as a kid I knew I didn’t want my future kids to have relationships like I have with my parents. Being afraid of making any mistakes. Being shamed for expressing emotion, even too much positive emotion. Being controlled and manipulated and discouraged. I don’t want my kids to have that in their lives from anyone. If you abuse, you forfeit your family status. Family don’t abuse.
Do more videos like this and a podcast ! Heck do it all !
“Are we gang members?” Hmm well looking in from the outside blood cult/gang same same 😂
If you had a podcast, I would definitely listen and subscribe!
Would loooooove a podcast, you and the other former members have SO much crazy stuff that the world needs to know about! There are cheap microphones you can buy on amazon!
Also I'm not sure if it was specifically my comment you were talking about but I know I commented before talking about the super weird "davis county co-op" website.... the hypocrisy on that site is sooooo real I'm glad you got screenshots.
Amanda, I love your videos, but the ones with a roomful of adults and children are just too crazy to listen to. I can't...... The sound is terrible. :-(
Also, please put a Patreon on your channel. You DESERVE TO GET PAID FOR YOUR WORK. You are not alone, and we love you!
Last comment -- you and Rachel look soooooooooo much alike!
Yeah its kinda distracting i get it but its a UA-cam video...not a high budget professional production lol what do you expect. I think she's doing the best she can and I appreciate the content she creates that we get to enjoy without paying for, I don't think it's about the money for her.
I was a child bride of 15. Not in a polygamous relationship or cult. At 16 I had my son. I too left not because I was being beat and SA'd but because my newborn infant already had Ptsd at birth and because I wanted better for him and his children someday.
1 of six kids. Strict Cathilic. Lot of cousins. My dad was never home. Parents soon divorced. Just my mom and us kids most of time. We have alot in common!
Yes! Please do a podcast.
You should do a podcast!
I’d listen to you doing a podcast
I believe the rigidity of religious man made morals and their oppressive teachings of our natural human sexuality is the root of the dysfunction of millions of people in the world. Denying our sexual feelings, believing them a sin and flaming guilt and shame are contributors to people acting out these desires in an abhorrent , dysfunctional and criminal way.Imagine a world where we are taught that our sexuality is one of the highest gifts from our Creator. That a women’s menestration (moon time) is the time of her power...and that thier are Natural Laws that guide us when we are in this period once a month. Few of our tribal elders and respected medicine people have this knowledge and I have been honored to learn these teachings. We have lost so much in the name God, and of organized religions...I feel this is one of the main reasons human beings are so lost and off course today.
All those little kiddos are giving me baby fever lol my kids are 13 & 11 now and I’ll probably never have any more kids even though I want to but life doesn’t always work out like We want..
Amanda you mentioned you were married. Are you still married? I would love to hear his story
i wonder the same thing.... i would love to hear his story
I would love a podcast!
Would love a podcast!!
You guys need to sue the order for damages, there are so many that have left, they couldn’t ignore it!!!
Hell when I was in sex education class if any of us had questions about anything(and I mean anything) all we had to do was write the question on a piece of paper and put it in a question box. I learned a lot of stuff that year 😂
The sound quality is terrible, i can't even hear you.
Yes, a podcast would be great.
I would love a podcast! But you'll definitely need mics & kinda like a turn dynamic to avoid speaking at the same time
Please please do a podcast
Different cultures always interest me. So it was interested to hear about how Menstral cycles were handled. Do you still wear pads or do you now wear tampons/cups/disc?
Who left first. In the show they talk about the 2 sisters that left and how it made the news. How did that change for you girls in leaving ??
Podcast, yes
I couldn't share my husband with nobody else.
Do the podcast plssss!!!
I'd love a podcast!
The internet says Mary nelson is the insider. She did a bunch of interviews.
Yes do a video with Michelle
Podcast sounds good
What happens if you say no to everyone in the order. How do they punish you? I know it's different and difficult if you grow up in a cult. But what happens if you just stop doing what they want. Do you get kicked out? Punish you? What do they do? How long? Can they just isolate you for the rest of your life????
I know you have talked about a lot of different topics but have you discussed domestic violence within the cult?
Please make a podcast!
Can you sue for back child support? You should sue the shit out of monsters!
Only if you all kept sweet I wouldn't have binge watched all your videos...... OMG if you guys retained an lawyer, you could take Paul down to his knees..
I thought on one of the sessions you guys discussed how woman are taught how to have sex for girls... what are the secrets? Lol
This is interesting but being talked about in front of the kids makes me uncomfortable. Not listening after 2 minutes, very sad
I was a huge fan of escaping polygamy. What ever happened to that show?
I’ve noticed that y’all do not have many piercings or tattoos. Is there a reasoning to that even though y’all have the freedom now?
I'm sorry I really like to watch y'all an these shows, but it wasn't the easiest to hear what y'all were saying