i'm growing up and that scares the hell out of me

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  • hello! here's an intimate vlog of the reason why i went to the DR this past month. i was planning something different for this vlog but ended up crying on camera so i decided to do a voice over instead. love you and hope you enjoy ❤️
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  • @charlie4636
    @charlie4636 4 роки тому +224

    I’m terrified of becoming an adult, and then I get annoyed because I’m spending my childhood worrying about how I’m wasting my childhood 😂

    • @guyharvey9041
      @guyharvey9041 3 роки тому +8

      Exactly!

    • @angelyoshi4
      @angelyoshi4 3 роки тому +5

      Saaameee!!!

    • @candynecklaceeee
      @candynecklaceeee 2 роки тому +3

      how old are you? if u don’t mind me asking. Because I do the same thing and I’m not sure when my childhood years ended or if I still consider myself as a ‘child’. idk if I’m a teenager or just a child.

    • @KalamShellaby
      @KalamShellaby 2 роки тому +5

      I know I just want to be 10 again and not have a care in the world. but here I am, starting my first job and unsure of what the future holds, and that scares the shit out of me.

    • @charlie4636
      @charlie4636 2 роки тому +1

      @@candynecklaceeee I was 15 when I wrote this comment originally

  • @stuffandsh
    @stuffandsh 4 роки тому +245

    I’m terrified of growing up,just the thought of seeing my parents and grandparents die,my brothers changing,my friend group getting smaller,falling in love,and getting a job. I’m terrified that i end up having mental breakdowns over it- i start shaking and crying.And i feel like none of friends get it it’s just like they accepted it- i’m 16 and i’m only 2 years away from graduating i don’t wanna- it sounds childish but i don’t want anything to change i love everything just the way it is.

    • @emmadeluca7003
      @emmadeluca7003 4 роки тому +25

      I feel the same way you’re not alone

    • @UnknownUser_10
      @UnknownUser_10 4 роки тому +20

      That are also my biggest fears. I‘m 21 now, so school is already behind me and unfortunately I lost most of my friends after that and my best friend didn’t want to meet me anymore. And I also have a lot of fear about getting a job. And the biggest fear is like you already mentioned to losing someone of my family. My grandparents are all over 80 now and I can’t imagine a life without them. I know we all have to move forward, but when I think about it and all its consequences I have a lot of fear in me.

    • @Skullemojiwithacustardhat
      @Skullemojiwithacustardhat 3 роки тому +13

      I don't wanna grow out of the things I love then looking back on it thinking its cringe and falling in love for real people makes me forget how hard it is and especially since the world is changing for the worst I DONT WANNA FORGET

    • @poushimandal5080
      @poushimandal5080 3 роки тому +4

      Same.... I'm also 16 and feeling the same way

    • @JamsExtra
      @JamsExtra 2 роки тому +8

      I feel you so much, I’m also 16 and it’s tuff. A friend of mine always tells me to “get over it, it’s inevitable” she just doesn’t understand, why even try to make her comprehend. I don’t want to grow up, I don’t want to “act like an adult” I want to still go to playgrounds, go to Disney world, I want to go outside and play all day without having my friends or other people say “she’s too old for that, she still thinks she’s a child”, I don’t want to be seen as an adult who forgets that they were once a child, because from what I’ve seen, adults move on quickly from their childhood because they start doing “ adult activities” that as a child, they wanted to do. Like go clubbing, drinking, intimate things, driving, not having mom and dad around anymore, etc but I don’t want that, I want to have my mom and dad around I don’t want to drink, nothing that adults do interests me. When I become an adult all I want to do is relive my childhood. That might sound like a bad idea, but then again it’ll make me happy, so it can’t be that bad. I’ll always be a kid at heart no matter what, and if people want to judge me, so be it. I won’t care,I’ll cut my friendship with friends I don’t want to be around with anymore because they judge me. It’s my life and if I want to live it having actual fun, then I will.

  • @kat.ex3909
    @kat.ex3909 4 роки тому +198

    My biggest fear is growing up because I know there’ll be a time where I can hug my mom or my dad... eventually I’ll be an old woman seeing my kids leave me and gave their own lives, will it mean that they don’t care about me? Do I just wait to die? How is one happy when they’re older? How is one happy when they’re sick and only have a few months left to live? How will I feel when my dad or my mom gets sick? What I would do to stop time... right now what’s happening is that I’m gonna have to get a car soon and turn 15 and go into 10th grade, and u might be saying “wow u crying now? You’re so young” but that isn’t going to be forever, and my dad is turning 47 this year and it feels like every year we are just getting closer to death.

    • @pinkyh5273
      @pinkyh5273 4 роки тому +30

      hey! i’m 16 and am in 11th grade. I feel the exact same way. Covid kinda messes up the whole teenage experience, ya know? i think it’ll feel better once things even out. just wanted you to know you’re not alone.

    • @kat.ex3909
      @kat.ex3909 4 роки тому +11

      @@pinkyh5273 thank you!! I actually am feeling better currently. 4 months ago I felt like that was my breaking point because of COVID but the only way I recovered from it was to get your mind busy with other things. I began crocheting and art and I’m the happiest I ever been.

    • @Whadduphomie
      @Whadduphomie 4 роки тому +3

      Bro you have a good amount of anxiety there. Get to a therapist ASAP!

    • @kat.ex3909
      @kat.ex3909 4 роки тому +10

      @@Whadduphomieat the time I desperately needed, but unfortunately I don’t have that kind of money. I am feeling better now, what helped me was distracting myself with things I love doing, I began crocheting and I’m feeling so happy now

    • @Звезда-х3и
      @Звезда-х3и 4 роки тому +13

      Biggest fear is growing up and not being close to my family and friends because of “moving out “ or leaving for work or just getting old and not feeling the need to interact

  • @notesbysaraawynn
    @notesbysaraawynn 5 років тому +140

    Sending you a hug! I'm going through a similar situation, but I feel that I haven't fully accepted it yet, like I haven't interiorized what it truly means... and in that sense, I'm afraid of growing up too.

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +12

      I think as life keeps moving forward we’ll always feel this way one way or another. Hugs!❤️

  • @kajalbhatkal9838
    @kajalbhatkal9838 4 роки тому +39

    This is one of my strongest anxiety and fear - Of growing up, of aging, of losing. There are sudden moments when I think of all my experiences being turned into mere memories, and then historical memories to be shared. There's such a strong fear and sadness about knowing how one day all my childhood will be gone and it'll be just a story. Knowing that my parents won't be around and my parental roots will no longer be there, but I'll be the parental roots to my family if I have one. I still haven't figured out how to deal with this anxiety & fear because it is so paralysing as I turn 25 and I know I have to move forward, move out, and grow. Every time I see how far life has come, it feels me with such grief and fear for my loved ones because I cannot imagine a world without them, where I cannot go back to my parents, my friends, my grandmother. Its such a deep, devastating pain that I've been having difficulty to overcome and even articulate. Hopefully after the pandemic I get some help for this and feel more together but its so debilitating.
    I'm so glad your family is safe and sound, enjoy all the time you got, and live on these moments. They are truly just so precious 💕💕

  • @alexisp6755
    @alexisp6755 5 років тому +72

    I related to this video. I used to be petrified of growing up but everything just falls into place as time goes on and things end up being okay

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +6

      that's what i'm looking forward to! i know everything will be okay 💜

    • @Skullemojiwithacustardhat
      @Skullemojiwithacustardhat 3 роки тому

      But growing out of the things you love and saying their weird and becoming a different person you don't wanna be

  • @miaeditscoolshi
    @miaeditscoolshi 3 роки тому +14

    i feel like adults put alot of pressure on your childhood by saying that its the best part of your life, or joking about how it only gets worse or enjoy it while it lasts, because now i feel stressed out that i am wasting that time and i worry its gonna get rly bad once im older, especailly with covid. like everything has been put on pause and im loosing "precious" time and i have no idea how to cope with it

    • @dazzlebutterfly
      @dazzlebutterfly 3 роки тому +3

      Man I hate that adults do that, but honestly just because it may have turned out bad for some people doesn't mean it will be the same for you. And even if it does get worse it will always get better. Nothing stays the same and this goes for bad situations too. I use age regression to cope with these feelings. I still play with toys and my little sister, my family is really accepting when it comes to these things. So I honestly just think it's societal expectations rather than things that should be taken as facts. Peer pressure really can wreck you, however it's in your hands to live the life you want to. I think anyone can do it if they put their minds to it, that's what I'm going to do tbh. I will become an adult too next year.

    • @iiCounted-op5jx
      @iiCounted-op5jx Рік тому

      fr bro I hate when they put pressure on us like that, I can't even enjoy my teen years to the fullest because I'm being homeschooled and have no friends

  • @makiamiller121
    @makiamiller121 Рік тому +1

    I’m absolutely horrified of becoming a adult. I’m a junior in highschool and feels like my life is speeding up. I’m stressing over seeing my parents die one day, what I’m gonna do with my life, my friend group getting smaller. And if try talking to my friends about this they just deal with it. And then I cry about it. Ik this is apart of life and I have to just deal with it bc I can’t do anything to stop it but, I wish I could be in my youth longer.

  • @cinnamorollgirl4961
    @cinnamorollgirl4961 4 роки тому +51

    i'm 18 and covid messed my later teen years a lot 3: no prom, no proper graduation, no physical college.. college. in a way i'm glad it's online now since i'm so so afraid of growing up. i don't want to work routinely for the rest of my life and be a robot. that scares me so much. i just want to be a kid forever 3: most adults turn mean and stressed and i just want to be happy and carefree. i've been stalling getting a job because of it, or learning to drive. soon i'll be 19 (in two months ahhh). idk what to do. i want to keep doing what i'm doing but at the same time there's societal pressure to get everything done as soon as possible T - T i dread college so much and i still don't know what i want to do as a career.. i feel like becoming a youtuber since i love the idea and would work hard in that sort of thing but at the same time it's risky and might not pay a lot if you're not like super successful and well known ahhh i feel so stuck sigh. i just want to watch shows, play video games and be happy and not stress about things like paying bills and taxes and all.. how will i manage to be financially stable and be happyyyy

    • @Samcox2007
      @Samcox2007 3 роки тому +2

      Covid messed up my middle school years o was 12 when this pandemic started and now on July 31st I’ll be 14 and I’m scared to grow up and going into high school I’m scared that when I’m 15 I won’t be a kid anymore

    • @Skullemojiwithacustardhat
      @Skullemojiwithacustardhat 3 роки тому

      Vivid might make me think about the things I love and I will forget them

    • @cinnamorollgirl4961
      @cinnamorollgirl4961 3 роки тому +7

      updatesss i’m 19 now and slowly accepting adulthood but still letting myself grow at my own pace. it gets easier tbh you might have a period of growing up anxiety like i did but it doesn’t last forever like i feared it would. i still enjoy the things i love and make time for everything. i’m still undecided for my major in college but as time went on, i realized many people are lost about what they want to do and that’s okay. don’t pressure yourself to choose something right away like i did. i suppose it’s easier said than done but i mean if you don’t take it from me you’ll learn it for yourself over time. good luck everyone 🤍🤍 if you want more updates in the future just let me know :p

    • @cinnamorollgirl4961
      @cinnamorollgirl4961 3 роки тому +7

      @Neon Bulb of course not! a looot of people don’t know and that’s actually totally okay. it’s not your fault and it’s kind of sad how society pressures us to choose something right away, we can’t know everything at such a young age lol. i like to think, like some people were meant to do something and knew what they wanted to do from a young age, we fellow peeps who don’t know were destined to not know yet and it’s something we discover over time, kind of as if that’s our purpose, because we haven’t gotten the proper experiences and knowledge to choose what we want to be yet and that will come by at a later time. i mean there’s nothing wrong with that and it’s not your fault for not knowing. it’ll come to you, just give it some time 🤍 it took me some time to realize this but once i did it was so liberating

    • @cinnamorollgirl4961
      @cinnamorollgirl4961 2 роки тому +1

      @@thedreamer4222 i’m 20 now! and definitely don’t feel 20 xD i feel 18 still too tbh

  • @christy-anne-jones
    @christy-anne-jones 5 років тому +46

    A beautiful video as always. I've learned so much about the DR because of you, Monika, and it looks like a beautiful place and I'd love to go there one day 😊 hope your Dad is feeling better, and your family are doing okay. Love love 💛

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +3

      Thanks Christy! if you ever visit the DR I can definitely show you around! 😊

  • @lamakamal4072
    @lamakamal4072 3 роки тому +8

    I'm turning 18 this October and it feels so wrong. The past few years I was plagued by depression and although I had some great days my life wasn't normal. I wasn't the productive and happy go lucky teenager I thought, along with everyone, I would turn out to be. And though 18 is still young, and my mother makes fun of me for being worried sometimes, I still don't think I'll be able to live the teenage dream, at all. With my mental health and boring town and toxic family, is there ever a way to escape?

  • @TheHeartofLion
    @TheHeartofLion 5 років тому +52

    omg this is so me . I'm scared af . the last 2 months my dad was in hospital (he got a heart attack) he is fine now . but i realized like we are adults now. it's so stupid to be afraid cause we are here right now! it doesn't make sense to be afraid. Just live ..good things will happen, bad things will happen and that is "life" for you, who are reading this. "Let yourself be happy" .. I'm a cancer survivor and still.. i keep forgetting how important is that sometimes.

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +6

      I’m glad your dad is doing okay! You’re right, good and bad things will happen and some of them will make us grow up faster. It’s hard to get used to it but we all gotta do it! Much love and i’m glad you’re doing okay too!

    • @Skullemojiwithacustardhat
      @Skullemojiwithacustardhat 3 роки тому +1

      If I grow up my opinions might change for the worst

    • @TheHeartofLion
      @TheHeartofLion 3 роки тому

      @@Skullemojiwithacustardhat Don't lose yourself! yes u might change for better or worse. It's okie if u fuk up and make mistakes, that doesnt mean that defines you! I don't have the whole context for your situation, but i really believe that it's better to fuk up or change in a bad way (or change the way u think) because then all you have to do is to recognise that and try to change for the better. Sometimes u can't solve a problem if u don't see the problem. Realise and self reflect and then strive to be a better person. :) stay safe and happy

  • @carpet1938
    @carpet1938 4 роки тому +5

    My things i fear aging up is when i will see my parennts dying and then when i think more of future i thinking i will not make it to life cuz i dont know what to do with my life and then i feel scared of being robbed and feeling how i cant get friends

  • @NeonPlusNova
    @NeonPlusNova 5 років тому +36

    So glad you were able to go home and be with family during this time! Also very happy that your dad is doing better!
    Thanks for sharing.

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +1

      Thanks guys!💜

  • @keenaduffy
    @keenaduffy 5 років тому +60

    A beautiful and relatable video 😻💛 I hope your dad continues to get better 💛🌻 xx

  • @giuliachagas4473
    @giuliachagas4473 5 років тому +7

    sending you good energies! I hope your dad can recover well but it's nice to see the great support his been given!

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +1

      thank you!! he's surrounded by a lot of people that love him so that's definitely helping him recover!

  • @benikoniko6167
    @benikoniko6167 5 років тому +6

    Glad your dad is ok! It's good that you were still able to enjoy your time back home. Love the video, I can feel how much you adore your family

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +2

      thank you!! at first it was nerve-wracking but as soon as he was able to go home from the hospital a weight was lifted off of me and i was able to have a good time 💜

  • @louera
    @louera 5 років тому +8

    This was lovely! I relate to this so much, especially since I live away from home too. Every time I go back, it feels so good and nice. But little things about me change, and I feel it sometimes. I don't want to slip away from the me I used to be, but change can be amazing, and no matter what, my childlike wonder will always be there to accompany me.

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому

      this is exactly how I feel too 💜

  • @thomaswang
    @thomaswang 5 років тому +16

    It’s heartwarming to hear about your beautiful life☺️😌

  • @eddgouldart
    @eddgouldart Рік тому +1

    I’m 15, and I am very afraid of growing up, I don’t want to lose my grandparents and go out in the real world, lighting really affects my mental health, and the thought of living by myself gets me so depressed, literally a year ago, I never thought of these thoughts, but ever since I started high school, these thoughts kept occurring to me and it just makes me sad, I wish I could go back in time so I never had to worry about the future. I’d do anything to be 14 or younger again.

  • @Skinny-Billy
    @Skinny-Billy 5 років тому +8

    Monika is so great at making youtube videos and I can see that she will be a amazing filmmaker!

  • @gnixzy60
    @gnixzy60 5 років тому +14

    Nothing is more important than family. I wish you all the best! 💖

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +2

      you’re so right! And thank you❤️

  • @bestmermaid
    @bestmermaid 5 років тому +2

    I'm glad to hear your dad is doing better now! That's probably the worse thing about growing up, the fact that your parents are too (and they start getting sick). I'm glad you were able to visit and spend some time with them. I hope your dad continues to get better.

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому

      yes definitely one of the hardest things in life. Thank you so much 💜

  • @booktales1687
    @booktales1687 5 років тому +9

    You uploaded this as I was going through my childhood toys. Perfectly timed video, thank you.

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +4

      Aw i wish my mom kept my childhood toys 😭 i spend so much time just looking through old photos and childhood diaries lol

  • @Amberxxbbunni
    @Amberxxbbunni Рік тому +2

    I’m probably the youngest here, I’m 12 turning 13 in June. When it’s June, I’ll be a teenager. Last year I was so hyped and even more hyper about being 14, but now I want to go back to being 8 or 10.
    I recently had the realisation that I’ll die one day, which made me wonder, what happens when I die? Can I come back ( I believe in reincarnation)? And taking death into account that things don’t last forever is scary. One day I’ll have to live life without my parents. My mum said that she’ll always catch me when I’m falling and one day she won’t be able to do that. Maybe sprits are real or even ghosts and she can spiritually save me but I don’t know.
    I regret wanting to grow up so fast and wanting to be born years earlier. I wish I appreciated being a child, a young child.
    I hope in my next life, I meet my mum, dad and brothers again. Not being here is scary. Losing consciousness and it just being nothing, just like how it was before I was born/ existed is terrifying.
    I’ve had multiple panic attacks over this, stressing my heart which will probably sadly shorten my life, I hope it doesn’t. In the movies watching puss n boots I had a panic attack when death said “you know we’ll meet again, right?”. I’m fact I had multiple panic attacks, I cried and had mental breakdowns. Reality doesn’t sound/ look real anymore. I feel like I’m the only real person and everyone is just an Npc. When my eyes look at things and it looks like when a TV when it’s buzzing I wonder if it’s a galaxy and I’m just floating in space or in a bed in space needing to wake up. Last night it felt like I could float out of my body and I would see white lights and I was scared bc I thought it would be my death. I’ve been getting dizzy, nauseous when I get up quickly or just walk. My heart hurts sometimes, and I think “maybe me being scared of death means that death is here” I’m scared, I’m just so scared. I wish I could go back to the times I was happy and clueless and didn’t think about these things. I want to enjoy life and I hate saying and others saying “enjoy it whilst it lasts” bc it’s scary. We may not be able to enjoy this life again, but there will be another, I hope💗
    Sending love to everybody, just know that it will get better

    • @ari70110
      @ari70110 Рік тому

      hi! i am 13 and am going through similar things as you. i have a huge fear of losing my loved ones and not being able to see them ever again after death. im scared about one day being on my own and having nobody to lean on. i too wish i could go back to when i was younger and i didnt have these feelings. every day i wake up and i feel disconnected from reality. every day passes by so quickly and its scary. my entire childhood is just being wasted on worrying. reading your comment brought me comfort and made me feel that maybe im not the only one here. i thank you and i really hope that you are doing okay !

  • @injailrngettingoutsoonenou1258

    I just turned 13, and I'm scared of growing up, I remember when I was 7 or 8, I would spend my summer playing with toys and going outside and having fun. And now Idk what I'm doing, everything that I have I feel like I don't deserve, I don't feel as happy as I used to feel when I was younger and that scared me, it scares me to think that I'll never be as happy as I was before, I wake up stressing about either school or what I'm going to do during the day to keep me occupied, every day feels the same there's nothing new to do it feels like a never-ending cycle I don't wanna grow up anymore

  • @BisolaWidlin
    @BisolaWidlin 5 років тому +1

    Glad to know he is getting better. Take care

  • @mariat.1442
    @mariat.1442 5 років тому +8

    I may have teared up a bit watching this. Such a beautiful, honest video presenting an experience that is extremely relatable. It's so weird thinking that I'll soon move away from home (and the country) and leave behind my childhood. Even though it shall always remain in my heart.

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +1

      aww thank you so much 💜 you'll leave home but all your memories from your childhood will stay with you!

  • @ale.5073
    @ale.5073 3 роки тому +2

    It’s amazing seeing that I’m not alone in this situation

    • @ale.5073
      @ale.5073 3 роки тому

      @Neon Bulb trust me I was too over the summer , I’m not even lying it was terrible I was not happy. I just learned to accept it , it’s not as easy as it sounds but I promise it will be alright I promise. It will. I swear.

    • @ale.5073
      @ale.5073 3 роки тому

      @Neon Bulb well I always had the thought of that when I grow up I’m always going to have new experiences like getting married,meeting new friends,I can go skydiving (something I really want lol) but just always know that when u grow up u get to experience really fun stuff I promise this feeling of not wanting to grow up won’t last forever.

    • @ale.5073
      @ale.5073 3 роки тому

      @Neon Bulb idk what age/grade u r in rn but just focus on the present and I promise that through out your life u will know.

    • @ale.5073
      @ale.5073 3 роки тому

      @Neon Bulb it’s totally normal I know many people that have the same situation as u don’t worry you’re not alone

  • @iwanttoswimintheswanepoel
    @iwanttoswimintheswanepoel 2 роки тому +1

    i’m 16 the age i’ve always dreamed of and now i’m just feeling terrified and confused

  • @autumn-cameron
    @autumn-cameron 3 роки тому

    I'll be turning 18 in August of next year and I was supposed to be graduating in May of 2022, but it looks like that won't be happening anytime soon since I'm extremely behind. These past few years I've been really down in the dumps and have been distracting myself by watching UA-cam videos, playing video games, and sleeping. Basically putting everything off.
    I don't know what the future holds for me.. and that's scary. Almost everyone I know has an idea of what they wanna do once they graduate high school and I don't. Hell, I'm not even sure if I'll graduate high school. But growing up is so scary. I'm not ready to be on my own. There are so many things I wanna do. Sometimes I wish I could just turn back the clock and do things over again, you know?

  • @Productivity_diaries
    @Productivity_diaries 2 роки тому

    Same... even I am scared of growing up... I just turned 17 a month ago n...... I wonder how it will be... leaving school...my friends group growing distant more and more as days pass by... how just simply crying has become a bit embarrassing... ( even tho ik still sort of crying while writing this) ... how how we will grow a bit distant to even our parents as we go on to study in colleges which are sometimes in different cities...
    I at times feel anxious regarding how I will deal with this drastic change... I feel miserable... Nd most of my friends have already accepted and embraced the fact that our adulthood is round the corner... I wonder why I'm the only one struggling...
    I just wanna stop time right here... or maybe become a bit more younger...n enjoy... do childish things... hug my parents my dad my mom .. whenever I feel scared... I sometimes wish I was like other people , who are not that emotional n stuff... they are able to adapt changes very easily....

  • @beachboysswiftie
    @beachboysswiftie 5 років тому +2

    I feel you, it’s terrifying

  • @eathanwinters7737
    @eathanwinters7737 3 роки тому +2

    I’m 12 and I’m scared because of all the responsibilities. Taxes, housing, etc. I’m scared of the future. I know there will be a day when I “leave the nest” and live on my own. I’m just another bird leaving. I have no significance. I’m afraid I’ll be lonely in the future. Alone, stressed, scared, and just be like any other person. I’ll have a normal job, a normal wife, a normal life. I’ve grown up with no friends and haven’t played sports outside in the beautiful green grass, laughing, crying, and having friends that care for me. I’m lonely. I’m stressed. I’m… nobody… I’m just another person in this world. I don’t have a reason to be here. What was my purpose? Why. Am. I. Here…

  • @pixiekinsies
    @pixiekinsies 5 років тому +1

    I'm happy you got to be woth your family. I am from California and live in Texas now so I haven't seen my family in over a year. My mom was in the hospital recently so I am really grateful I will get to visit them in September. I hope your dad has a speedy recovery!! 💕💕💕💕

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +1

      aww i'm glad you're going to visit soon!! 💜

  • @amaliaasilis3508
    @amaliaasilis3508 5 років тому +2

    Loved it! Thank you for sharing this. I hope everything turns out okey for you and your family

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +2

      Gracias amalia!💜

  • @mandarinecult
    @mandarinecult 5 років тому +2

    Que bueno que tu papá este mucho mejor, te mando las mejores vibras y un abrazo, mucho amor💛💛

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +2

      muchas gracias Martha! 💜

  • @vickypalacios7963
    @vickypalacios7963 5 років тому

    Amo lo auténticos que son tus vídeos, como muestras tu vida y la persona real que eres. Hablas sobre muchos temas con los que me siento identificada y es muy lindo saber que alguien te entiende. Sigue con tus geniales vídeos, tienes mucho talento y estoy segura que lograrás grandes cosas. También te deseo lo mejor y que todos tus seres queridos estén bien. 😊

  • @vrandatandon3790
    @vrandatandon3790 5 років тому +2

    This was so relatable and authentic piece of content, when ypu back home to visit fam, there's just a nostalgia kind of vibe all around, and it just feels so wierd in good way! Miss home

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому

      thank you!! weird in a good way, i like that!

  • @mimi-vg1ye
    @mimi-vg1ye 5 років тому +4

    Always love your videos, keep working this hard 💞

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +2

      Gah thank you so much! 💜

  • @xcherrykinsx
    @xcherrykinsx 5 років тому

    so glad to hear that your dad is doing better!!

  • @doorbellrings9183
    @doorbellrings9183 11 місяців тому

    It's scary thinking one day I'm going to be old and dying and I'll be thinking back to these years and saying "where did the years go?"

  • @BubuuDuduu
    @BubuuDuduu 5 років тому +2

    Best wishes to you, your father and the family. like many here, I’ve had the same thing happen to me. My father has a bad heart and has had open heart surgery twice now and it’s always the most scary thing to hear when things go from healthy to hospital in an instant. I’m sure you can handle anything that comes your way. Adulthood is just another journey and you are only as young as you feel haha. This went from wanting to relate to trying to motivate. 😂 I should take my own advice. Much love M xo

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому

      hope your dad gets better!! and thanks for the motivation 💜

  • @freya222
    @freya222 4 роки тому +3

    I cry about it every day and losing my parents when they are old and scared of my childhood just flash infront of my eyes and its gone i am so scared and im 12

    • @mal4797
      @mal4797 3 роки тому

      You're still young I envy you.

  • @hqlola
    @hqlola 5 років тому +3

    Qué nivel de nostalgia me ha pegado :(

  • @marshallericksen7369
    @marshallericksen7369 5 років тому +1

    Nice to see what you've been up to

  • @ishiishi7351
    @ishiishi7351 4 роки тому +5

    i dont want to grow up, it scares me

    • @ishiishi7351
      @ishiishi7351 2 роки тому

      Wow im 17 years old now... I have grown up in these 2 years.. More focused towards studies and career and parents and towards God

    • @ishiishi7351
      @ishiishi7351 2 роки тому

      @@thedreamer4222 yeah ofcourse lol how old are ya

  • @moniwicz3381
    @moniwicz3381 5 років тому +1

    Monika your parents must be so proud. You can tell they appreciate you very much even here

  • @3rdnusskern
    @3rdnusskern 4 роки тому +1

    Welp, I've grown to an adult, but don't have people that give me as much hope as your beautiful family does
    And it scares me to the point I really don't know, if it will ever get better
    Very uplifting video anyways

  • @sabahfatema
    @sabahfatema 5 років тому +1

    Thank You ❤️

  • @Gina-qn5cd
    @Gina-qn5cd 4 роки тому

    Se que esto fue filmado hace casi, si no es que hace un año, pero espero que tu familia este super bien ahorita!!! Se ven bien bonitos y super unidos

  • @heyyoga7515
    @heyyoga7515 5 років тому +2

    I really hope you make it big in the film industry!

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +1

      thank you so much 💜

  • @ValentinA-sy8kw
    @ValentinA-sy8kw 5 років тому +3

    Your videos make me feel better. Hope you will too.

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +1

      i'm glad they do!! and thank you so much💜

  • @charinabacalso97
    @charinabacalso97 4 роки тому

    My family owned a bakery too... we started small and then boom it lifted us higher than what we've expected...

  • @Angel67898
    @Angel67898 2 роки тому

    I am scared of growing up.. I just don't wanna work like a machine, take responsibilities
    I know about a year from now everything will change
    I won't be able to talk with my friends, my family
    I will not be able to have any fun.... And most of all I think that I will fail so I just don't even want to try

  • @luvdiarvie
    @luvdiarvie 5 років тому +2

    i love you and your art~♡

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +1

      thank you and love u too! 💜

  • @spookyel
    @spookyel 5 років тому +5

    I really recommend you to listen to 19 by stray kids, it really describes ur situation lolz

  • @mal4797
    @mal4797 3 роки тому +2

    Growing up is weirdly sad.
    As an adult, the upside is you have more knowledge but the downside is you have more responsibility.
    As a kid, you have less knowledge but less responsibility. (And more fun)
    Hmmpf..

    • @mal4797
      @mal4797 3 роки тому +1

      Personally I like having more knowledge but I still want to stay as a kid, living with my parents.
      I'll be 20 this year, I know its a bit early but still.

    • @mal4797
      @mal4797 3 роки тому

      @Neon Bulb computer engineering

  • @afraaalam480
    @afraaalam480 5 років тому +1

    The bakery is so cute!!!

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому

      isn't it?? i love it so much and trust me everything is delicious lol 😭

  • @sledgehammer6596
    @sledgehammer6596 3 роки тому

    This is beautiful ♥

  • @Megnolia
    @Megnolia 5 років тому +2

    hope your family is doing well

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому

      thank you ❤️ my dad is getting better so we’re all happy!

  • @ChloetheCatintheHatFan9547
    @ChloetheCatintheHatFan9547 Рік тому

    Growing up is my greatest fear

  • @jupitired777
    @jupitired777 5 років тому

    sending you lots of love

  • @josuemendonca6941
    @josuemendonca6941 4 роки тому

    Monika, you are amazing

  • @kimberlyruizz
    @kimberlyruizz 4 роки тому

    this was beautiful.

  • @shahadshd5165
    @shahadshd5165 4 роки тому +4

    I’m 14 and I feel old what am I going to do at 22

    • @user-lm5ub8xg3d
      @user-lm5ub8xg3d 4 роки тому +2

      Same girl. I need help with this majorly. I’m not depressed or anything but like I just wish I could be playing with my toys and watching cartoons instead of worrying about high school and stuff. I’m just not ready for this life at ALL!

    • @shahadshd5165
      @shahadshd5165 4 роки тому +1

      Lena del Rey I’m starting high school next year and I just can’t believe it lol 😂, and same I wish I could go back to the times when I used to play with my dolls and toys, the times when I questioned so many things that I know now lol like the mystery of how babies are born and how there made 😳 lol 😂 but anyways life moves forward we will all grow up what matters is the memories that we leave behind ☺️

    • @user-lm5ub8xg3d
      @user-lm5ub8xg3d 4 роки тому +1

      Shahad SHD same and you’re right. I have to accept that I’m not a kid anymore and life goes on. even tho it’s killing me inside, I’m gonna be fine. I wish you all the best in high school!!❤️❤️

    • @shahadshd5165
      @shahadshd5165 4 роки тому +1

      Lena del Rey thank you and you too

    • @thiagogregory1
      @thiagogregory1 3 роки тому +1

      I turned 17 today and I feel so old. Like life's ending. I'm soon 18. I'm so sad.

  • @narcisoanasui246
    @narcisoanasui246 2 роки тому

    I’m about to graduate high school and I’m scared of adulting. It get’s harder to make friends and I don’t want to be in a dead-end job. I’ve never had a job yet and my sister said I’m likely to fail because of it. Any advice?🥺

  • @Kishan_Baijnath
    @Kishan_Baijnath 5 років тому +1

    This was Beautiful.

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому

      Thank you so much!

  • @ac-dh9pd
    @ac-dh9pd 4 роки тому

    because of your voice i feel like i'm watching a 3 minute movie 😔❤️

  • @lauraameliasanchez5466
    @lauraameliasanchez5466 5 років тому +2

    Love you ❤️❤️

  • @ebonix33
    @ebonix33 5 років тому +3

    Found u josie , stayed bcuz u

  • @merchehp
    @merchehp 5 років тому +4

    yo voy al taco, no el taco a mí.... no sabía eso ajajaja la voy a aplicar. Para mí regresar a la casa es diferente cada vez, cada vez se siente menos como mi casa 😕

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +1

      hahaha yo completamente ignoré a mi hermano pero por suerte no me ensucié 😂

  • @iridawson9642
    @iridawson9642 2 роки тому

    Im really scared of being an adult. Im 18 right now and this is my last year of highschool and i have no idea what i wanna do with my life. I dont know if i wanna go to college pr not and it scares the shit out of me. Unfortunately I cant really speak with anyone because I feel like im bragging because I have a really good life right now:/

    • @thedreamer4222
      @thedreamer4222 2 роки тому

      When you hit puberty you enter the confusion zone and this gets worse year by year until you are in your mid 20s cuz that’s when you are unarguably an adult. I’d say good luck before that cuz it’s all confusing as fuck when nobody can even tell what you are

  • @YourSweetPotato
    @YourSweetPotato 5 років тому +1

    Next up on Keeping up with Monika...
    JK.
    Hope everything goes well for your family.
    Well-made video as usual!

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +1

      haha i should make a reality show! thank you 💜

  • @videostargiveaways4698
    @videostargiveaways4698 4 роки тому +1

    i feel like i was watching a movie

  • @midnightshield4785
    @midnightshield4785 5 років тому +1

    Love u

  • @DplusPa
    @DplusPa 5 років тому +1

    Muy buen video, ademas tienes una bonita voz

  • @elietrinidad6633
    @elietrinidad6633 4 роки тому

    Waw quite impresive a youtuber dominican, me too

  • @tromboner6061
    @tromboner6061 4 роки тому +2

    I aint religious
    but if death and ageing scares you off
    I recommend you to read interpretation of Bhagwat Geeta in your language.
    I Don't want you to convert to Hinduism
    I aint a bigot.
    But please read it.
    Like...if it may help you to be content today at 30, imagine......
    For the rest of your life you will be devoid of this fear!!
    Worth the effort of reading ISN'T it?

  • @kennyarivera2463
    @kennyarivera2463 5 років тому +1

    Monika I need to go to RD with you, I NEED your family’s food 😂

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому

      Yes!! You can stay in my house and we’ll eat all day 🙌🏼

  • @meliquinnxx
    @meliquinnxx 4 роки тому

    you are so beautiful

  • @aysenurates7680
    @aysenurates7680 5 років тому

    I'm curious whether you have letterboxd account or not

    • @cinemoni
      @cinemoni  5 років тому +1

      I made one a long time ago but i never use it 🙁 should i?

    • @aysenurates7680
      @aysenurates7680 5 років тому

      @@cinemoni i'd love to know your thoughts and rates about movies

  • @cheyennebrown1457
    @cheyennebrown1457 3 роки тому

    So this video is more so related to aging ! And not mentally maturing and leaving the house?

  • @saybeessi
    @saybeessi 4 роки тому

    How old are you actually?

  • @syedpigeongreece
    @syedpigeongreece 4 роки тому

    🤝🤗 nice video like,🤗🤗