I grew up with an absent mother and alcoholic father. I never realised how it affected me. I grew up thinking I was different to everyone. I had no friends, made bad decisions. As an adult I had a full on traumatic experience, a brain tumour nearly killed me and left me blind and disabled. My sight partially returned after a few months. When I started showing symptoms of PTSD my neuro psychologist worked with me and discovered I also had CPTSD. Once I knew this and the symptoms I realised thats why I've always felt different. I have a long road ahead of me to get past it all but I so need to do it. I want to feel at peace.
I suffered psychological abuse for about 9 years from aged 10. I didn't know the cause of my fears, anxiety etc until i was 60. I found out it was called Complex Trauma aged 70. I have failed in all areas of my life due to this trauma. My mind had been 'killed', called menticide. I believe millions suffer from this.
Sad thing is. It all can be. That is not said but that is possible. I think I have Complex PTSD, but I am hoghly intuitive and highly intelligent if that's even the right word. But I have an extreme high IQ. If anyone truly knows what that means lol But over all my all being is unraveling and I need to hold it and I can't. My mind is everywhere. I feel like conciousness is unraveling. NUMBERS ARE PLAGUING MY DAYS. ALL OF THIS IS TRUTH IN MY LIFE BUT NOT ALWAYS. I HAVE ISSUES ACCEPTING WHAT I KNOW. I NEED TO MAKE SURE I KEEP SANITY. BUT I FEEL THE KNOWLEDGE. I'VE GOTTEN TO THE POINT I understand a lot. And it kills me. I want to think that many things don't actually exist that they are fake, such as sexual assault. I can't accept that baby's are been killed so easily on purpose by evil do ers. I refuse. And this is truly why I am loosing my sanity I don't know how to stop. I don't know myself. But I know I'm someone and that I matter to someone and to THE LORD. But I am in sin, and I struggling to accept everything. To let go of the pain, but then I am fine sometimes. I do not know myself, and my mind isn't controllable anymore it has never been. All my light I've felt and I notice the world so deeply. I also believe in Jesus Christ. I am struggling with holding reason. I have it but my conciousness is like unraveling... or I should say as if I'm getting tons of information downloaded in my energy circle. I feel and can see life how it is, and it's truly beautiful and yet also so unacceptable. As if I'm able to understand everything and all. I can see humans as organisms but the beauty of it not being an organism but the vessel given by THE LORD. OMNIPOTENT, ETERNAL, INFINITE. LET'S REMEMBER WE WOULD MEVER KNOW EVERYTHING, BECAUSE CONCIOUSNESS IS ETERNAL. YOU'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT. BUT WE CAN ACCEPT HIS TRUTH. THE BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST HAS POWER
@@XKXXKXXyou are breaking beliefs and getting to know your truth. The kingdom of God and salvation is INSIDE you. Hands on your heart, drop the titles n names of God, define it as the true source of all that ever was and can be, open your eyes within your heart to find the christ WITHIN. -our eternal souls are going through an *Ascenscion* in our physical bodies with human minds, trying to detach and find ultimate truth of ourselves and God. Lots of false beliefs in religions are causing chaos in our minds. Its a rough ride. Look inward and give yourself the compassion you deserve. Once you get through yourself, you'll be able to help the others. The oxygen mask goes on YOU first. Speak to your own conciousness, reorganize the thoughts and throw away what doesn't work. I know its hard when other's don't see it. It's the path to *enlightenment the hard way. You may be in the process of a *spontaneous kundalini awakening, or having a *spiritual emergency... Look up the * words. Always Remember to use your discernment in all things others give you in any way, (any kind of drugs or alcohol can make it worse, check side effects). Perhaps look for others to help guide, but the answers are within you, they are offering pieces to your puzzle... though there is good, bad, and false light evil out there. When you know yourself it is easier. Many blessings 🙏
I have complex truma and disassociation disorder, that where I disassociate and I have another personality Pearson don't really know what to call her apart from Tash she's not very nice
@lousessssmith9869 I understand your situation. I have personalities but I am fully rational to a level with each one. Control is what matters. Medicine can help you but as much as Jesus christ can. THE BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST HAS POWER
OMG I would very much NOT tell anybody except my therapist if I were having a flashback. People do not want to know and they do not want to understand. I almost never talk to anyone about what I deal with every day and what caused it because they only care about how uncomfortable THEY feel. Who cares about trying to offer me any support when I had to live through the events and have to live with the damage all of my life. No, they can't even stand to think about it for five minutes. Meanwhile I am expected to suffer in silence and be happy and perky so they feel better.
I agree; I feel as if I’m expected to manage THEIR discomfort and anxiety, when I can barely deal with my own. It has been a very effective winnowing for friendships! 😂I am focusing on quality of social experiences, not quantity. Sending ❤
Yep that's exactly 💯 how I feel. I've tried to explain and they don't understand/go blank/ignore me/ blame me/ say unhelpful things...unless you've been there, they just can't/don't/won't understand and it hurts.
Yes! My personal CPTSD kicked in at my prolonged birthing, if not beforehand in gestation. From there it snowballed, from one trauma to another...eventually crystallising as a suicidal substance abuser. Way back when, I always did have a 'religious consciousness' in spite of all that and eventually put my foot on the path of healing by adressing the inner pain and disquiet...and expressing my deeply felt rage as sorrowful tears. A painful path, by definition. To anybody with whom this resonates, be brave, healing is possible. No matter how bad you are, I was the worst and I know that through dedicated study and prayer, even the worst potentiality can be resolved and the person can be healed. Nevertheless it must not be forgotten that the true healing energy comes from within and we can rely on outside agencies only to instruct and guide us on what may be a turbulent journey against the wind of societal convention and expectations.
So wonderfully expressed and I too have always felt different and experienced childhood traumas but working on the healing process. Much success to you on your healing path🙏💚☀️
Very accurate. I saw my mother completely unravel as a person, from when I was age 9 to about 15. She was a binge drinker, mentally ill, and went from being a generally creative and happy person to slowly turning into an extremely self absorbed, negative, mean, bully of a person. To see this as a child is one of the most altering & mind-f*cky things I’ve ever had to fight through. I used to have crippling anxiety & panic attacks, addictive tendencies and eating problems- whether it was over eating or starving myself. Thankfully now, I am happily married with my husband, and managing stress and anxiety a lot more effectively now. It is still something that I live with, but thankfully went it came to “the fork in the road” I ended up choosing the right path.
I have cptsd and personally I've found both cbt therapy and Buddhism very helpful with building better emotional regulation and interpersonal skills as an adult. They are both very practical.
Crafting helps people who are traumatised. It certainly helped me when I became physically disabled with severe chronic pain and the doc. repeatedly said they didn't know how to treat me - several years later I had MRI scans that confirmed a broken spine.
Difficulty coping with stress as mentioned there at the 3:24 point, I still remember when in 1995 and I was in my early 30s my GP looked at me and said pretty much these exact words, "The part of your being which processes anything more than the most minimal amount of stress is gone, used up, burned out, and probably not coming back. Get out of this telecom job and do only low stress jobs from here on out."
This is the most accurate and concise description of C-PTSD that I have found on YT, it also provides usable strategies for coping and realistic approaches for treatment. Thank you for posting.
EMDR is used in trauma patients because the eye movement used while recalling/reliving traumatic moments is the same as what we naturally do when we have REM sleep. It helps "move" the experience from one part of the brain to another where memories are stored. It helps us to be able to remember the experience while detaching the pain associated with it. I tried it before and it helped some but overall, wasn't for me.
Stuff like that is a complete waste of time. The pain/hurt/trauma is stored in the unconscious and needs to be released through effective grieving and somatic experiencing to completely eliminate emotional flashbacks. Pete Walkers books on cptsd contain the most effective methods.
EMDR is actually more effective at treating PTSD or a single event trauma than it is at treating CPTSD, although it can be helpful to a certain degree. I did 1 1/2 years of EMDR therapy and it did get me out of suicidal planning...although I still sometimes engage is suicidal ideation.
EMDR therapy I have found first hand is incredibly effective with cptsd - just takes longer as there is more to deal with than a one off event. I suffered decades of abuse - from birth.
Just hearing this video I got rising inner hysteria. Luckily when you mentioned eye movement I gave it a go throughout that segment, and I felt some calm come over me and then was able to get a huge deep breath. I had been holding my chest muscles or breath some how involuntarily, which I always do. It's exhausting and even my closest friend didn't believe me until they had a shorter lived experience with anxiety themself. Even children playing in my house can set my inner alarm going to the point of having to go in a room to cover my solar plexus or the tears will come down. It's the random noise and movement, I worked that out after years of it, but still get set off
I believe i have CPTSD, this is long winded but please stay with the story. On 28/3/24 i was a victim of road rage and was already suffering PTSD at the hands of the Police from 20 years ago, i didnt want to call them but the other driver and his partner kept coming up to my vehicle which was damaged banging on the windscreen and drivers door window. He was driving dangerously from the moment he joined the carriage way in front of me, doing an emergency stop for no reason and when he got to a roundabout sat there holding traffic up so i honked him, prior to this he was arguing with his family in the car and physically took his eyes off the road facing me behind him at this point i felt i needed to be cautious. Once i got on a stretch of road to over take i did so, it was at this point he rammed me trying to force into oncoming traffic. There was no safe place to stop so i kept driving, he undertook me swerved in front of me and refused to move blocking all traffic on our side if the carriage way. I am a 55 year disabled lady and felt i was being treated as the instigator by the Police, i decided to leave my driving licence with them and drove off for which they sped after me tried smashing my drivers window 3 times, they arrested me then de-arrested me and decided to fine me even though my vehicle is a motability car so is fully insured, taxed, Mot so had nothing to hide. Since this i threatened to take my life and had my front door smashed and was hit by 2 taser guns one to my right side the second in my left breast above my heart. Since this i have spent a week sleeping in my car as i couldn’t face going to the property and overdosed twice one which should of been fatal and may still be in the next 2 months. But this is our legal justice system here in the UK and is deemed acceptable behaviour, at no point did i pose a danger to anyone but myself which is why i believe i now have CPTSD, i literally don’t feel safe anywhere anymore inside or out of my home even by the Police.
I’ve had trauma on top of trauma and it’s taken me 52 years to finally arrive here where the journey begins I have flashbacks daily when I try to sleep I was hit by a car going 30miles an hour he drove off and left me age 9 …. I have no memory of the accident at all but the flashbacks are me driving and about to hit a child with the car has left me on high alert all the time , looking for more resources to understand and try to heal from all of this I was also falsely arrested for a crime I didn’t commit and how the police officers treated me was shocking so I hear you hope your healing and feeling better x
I've read your story. I'm sad about what you've experienced. It must have been so scary. Recently, I experienced a life-threatening DV. The Queensland Police arrived at my address numerous times due to the violence. Then, when I escaped that relationship, the police arrested me for something that's alleged to have occurred 24 years ago. Police are part of the PROBLEM, especially for females. Misogyny is rife.
It's more likely to be ptsd from a single event like this. Cptsd is more about suffering emotional neglect and worse, but over a sustained period of time (many months and years)
I was diagnosed years ago, I still have issues coping and honestly wish I could go to sleep and not wake up. I try to explain to people so they will understand I am not trying to avoid doing stuff or I am just lazy. I really do wish I was smart and strong like everyone else though, I will have to try the rubber band idea, I think it will be easier then trying to come up with how I got cut again. I will shut up now as I don't want people to think I'm complaining or looking for sympathy, I just sometimes need to get it out.
In score 9 on the aces test. I wasn’t diagnosed till the age of 48. My life has been hell. Parents telling me to eff off and never come back. I was sexually, psychologically and physically abused by my care givers from the age of five. I have to be on my own to feel safe. Everyone I have encounter has abused me in some way becuse I am emotionally stuck at the age of seven. It’s too late for me to sort my condition. I just have to managed it every minute of every day. I can’t wait to the next life. This one has been horrible.
Mine was not childhood abuse and it was domestic violence. Married to a narcissist for 9 years and it caused me tremendous damage and am still struggling 10 years after separation. I have got a divorce but still fear and also people especially friends and family don't get it and it hurts. It affects all aspects of my life. I would say never be kind to people who abuse you . Leave them . Am extra careful in not transmitting my trauma to anyone. Am starting EMDR next week. Please pray for me.
Diagnosed in 2019 but been dealing with first break since 1997. Increasingly hear about symptoms, treatment, causes, etc. SOOOO SICK OF ALL OF THIS!!! MISUNDERSTANDINGS FOR OUTSIDERS IN ADDITION TO THOSE w this - THE COMPLEX is in my opinion and experience- it is on an UNCONSCIOUS LEVEL! I don’t KNOW when it is coming! I never knew! I am not ok with the fact that it is not at no fault of my own. I am actually upset at all of it. Why? Loose independence, control. No free will. Suicidal ideation is not suicide. She is not accurate. Justice is needed to make it public and make those accountable and start protecting our children! Stop the loss! We are chronic! Special treatment is to expensive. NOT AWARE! She needs to stop! CPTSD IS UNCONSCIOUS! Somatic. Emotional Dysregulation. OH GOD. Stop forgetting UNCONSCIOUS! IF YOU HAVE EMDR YOU NEED ANOTHER THERAPIST ALSO! Flashbacks are traumatizing during it! Or somatic therapists in addition. Omg!
I was abused and betrayed by the veterinary instructors at my school, who lied and falsely accused me of things that did not happen, blamed me when one vet instructor made a clinic client angry, and then kicked me out of the vet program based in those lies. Other instructors and admin just stood behind the lies, many said nothing when they should have helped me. The extent of the unethical behaviour by people I had trusted, was simply amazing. People who are supposed to be ethical professionals and who have a huge responsibility to be mentors and leaders in our communities, acted entirely selfishly, immorally and illegally. I now find it very hard not to believe that all vets are dishonest and greedy, powerhungry and unethical. They are all liars and dont care about your animals. They are always trying to upsell or overcharge for their ‘medical services’ which are often not even based in actual evidence, but in whatever made up claims, fictional diagnoses or psychology that suits their financial goals in that moment. Dispicable and very verysad.
Similar thing happened to me at my uni when a lecturer sexually harassed me. I ended up in a psych ward, my uni friends made up gossip about me, 15 years on and I'm still messed up by it.
This is a very good, high level, explanation of what CPTSD is, and best practices for treatment. I would add that CPTSD can be so pervasive within a person's life that it can develop into other identified disorders such as Borderline Personality Disorder, or Dissociative Identity Disorder. In the treatment of those disorders, it's important to recognize the likely existence of CPTSD when formulating an individualized treatment plan. Also, EMDR is the best known treatment that can actually "heal" the brain from previous trauma, however, as she mentioned, it's not well understood. If you are a Christian, EMDR can be administered by a counselor that is guided by the Holy Spirit, which "does" understand why it works, and knows exactly what memories to access, when, and how. Thus, EMDR becomes "safer" for the patient as they confront traumatic memories. Last thing, medications should be administered sparingly as work delving into traumatic memories begins, as some medication can actually inhibit effective entry into repressed memories and suppressed emotions.
One additional comment regarding Holy Spirit guided EMDR. I used the term EMDR bc it is the most commonly known form of memory regression therapy. However, it's important to understand that rapid eye movement, as usually administered in EMDR sessions, is not the "only" way to gain access into repressed memories and/or suppressed emotions. Thus, the usefulness of a counselor guided by the Holy Spirit.
They forced me to have flooding. Not only have I been attacked at all angles after a lifetime of stresses, they made me do it while alone as they attacked me in email and on my phone and then worse when I would go into public so there's been so much flooding that I don't know that it solved the problem but it made me not care what they do anymore.
Really sorry to hear that. We have a list of helplines and support information on our website here that may be helpful - www.priorygroup.com/crisis-support You can also speak to your doctor, or reach out to Priory and our supportive team can talk you through how we might be able to support you. www.priorygroup.com/ Good luck 💙 Will
It would be helpful if they understood this in the US better. The UK seems to be ahead of us in research and tools for people. I really hope this changes. Been diagnosed 3 times with this condition.
Hello, thank you for reaching out, know that there is help and support out there for you. If you're in the UK, you can speak to your GP, or use a directory like the Hub of Hope (hubofhope.co.uk/) to find services near you. You can also call Priory on 0330 029 3011 and speak to one of our trained advisers about how we could help. Also - take a look at our self-help playlist. We've got a load of coping strategies and techniques that can offer relief for anyone struggling with their mental health: ua-cam.com/play/PLEizM40pda30z0niUkKe4wpvB1sc4Xmcr.html Hope that helps 💙🙏
on the 27th february this year i was given sertraline; still no focus no purpose no meaning to my life; studied everything I could find on insecure attachment; was aware i had avoidant personality and attention deficit disorder now with CFS still my addicion to nicotine and caffiene for my dopamine buzz what to i do with my life now. got 170 poems published after my experince with a pyschiatrist throwing his arms in the air and stamping his right foot on the floor go the CAB and get more benefit. all the tricks EFT EMDR beathing execrises mantras do not help i am still the same me.the inciting event happened many years ago with an NHS therapist sitting on my left hand side hanging over the left hand side of her chair telling me you are sexually repressed you are no good for therpay. years later i saw in through the glass doors of theraputic community and flipped out. sadly i had selective mutism and was unable to speak up for myself.thtawas cetinly the wrong environement for me and it crushed me
My G.F pushed me in the chest a few weeks ago, I went into complete mekt down, told her to go away, I became emotionally distraut ,crying , lots of symptoms, was basically in bits, never experienced anything like that before, Was that a panic attack ?
Did you have neglect or abuse in your childhood? If so, please read "CPTSD: from surviving to thriving" by Pete Walker. It may help you to identify what happened. It may have been an emotional flashback.
It sounds like it could be. Everyone tends to experience them a little differently. I can highly recommend vagus nerve calming exercises here on YT. Dr Peter Levine is amazing.
Sounds like the incidence triggered a memory of a previous event. For me panic attacks usually involve a fear that my heart is racing so badly I am going to die. Of course I don’t know if that is the same for everyone.
There are a lot of comments about family neglect, and even abuse, from parents etc, and I am sorry to hear that. But a couple of things that also needs to be said is that parents are not the only possible sources to serious childhood trauma. Maybe they were for you, but everyone’s trauma history is unique. I find that pshycologists and Psychiatry as a Disipline, are way more comfortable making parents the scapegoats for all of your psychological issues, than say, criticize the health service system, the school system, the economic system, etc. You can have as loving and strong parents as you will realistically get, and still be repetitively physically bullied, socially excluded, ridiculed, and made fun of at school for years, while the school administration keeps a blind eye to everything that doesn’t hurt them. People don’t want to hear this, but kids in the ages between 9-12 especially, can be especially violent and mean. Going to school every day, and sit in the same classroom as someone who you have learned to expect a beating from at any second for being… you, is exhausting. For me, my family is more or less the only people that I really trust. Socializing, however highly it is valued by both society and individuals alike, feels like a tough, dry and heavy duty at best, and like going into a warzone at worst.
If you constantly get told you are fat and things like that, that is ALL it takes to develop cPTSD, you develop a fear of being called fat... For autistic people it could be everyone telling your to sit still, when it's something you can't really do without harming yourself. cPTSD is when everyday occurring comments from others slowly erode your sense of safety, just like PTSD is that one big event that erode your sense of safety.
Yeah this is NOT an accurate description and you are missing critical details of the components which cptsd derive from. As a survivor as well as a counselor and peer support chaplain in the first responder world I can 100% attest that folks whom suffer with ptsd can and do indeed shed their symptoms as they raise children within an environment of those symptoms which causes behavioral issues that birth cptsd within families. In blatant terms, They bring it home with them and their families suffer the unaddressed symptoms and effects. Now the entire family suffers the same symptoms in catastrophic ways that portray and maladapt into their lives as normal patterns and expressions in said behavior. It’s very hard to navigate as well as complex to understand hence mis- diagnosis is usually the result and prolongs one’s journey to recovery
Who is the "we"? This speaker is knowledgeable, but she clearly has the "institutional" and "expert" mindset oozing out of her. Referring to her clients as "patients" that she treats in order to "cure" them doesn't demonstrate a lot of empathy. I have doubts if she has a lived understanding of CPTSD. This sounds more like the textbook and protocol rote learning you get with so many of today's "experts" in the mental health field.
No no big evidence check mate Gabor out on the diary of the ceo child hood trauma is 💯 will affect you. You must realise this as soon as possible and take action. This is what will make you understand and take action. This
I didn't grow up with abuse. I met a damaged victim at 20. I loved and wanted to save her. I was her knight in shining armour I couldn't, you can't. nobody can.
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I grew up with an absent mother and alcoholic father. I never realised how it affected me. I grew up thinking I was different to everyone. I had no friends, made bad decisions. As an adult I had a full on traumatic experience, a brain tumour nearly killed me and left me blind and disabled. My sight partially returned after a few months.
When I started showing symptoms of PTSD my neuro psychologist worked with me and discovered I also had CPTSD. Once I knew this and the symptoms I realised thats why I've always felt different.
I have a long road ahead of me to get past it all but I so need to do it. I want to feel at peace.
Yes and it looks like autism too x
Thankyou for sharing and I wish you much success, strength, peace and healing on your courageous journey🙏💚☀️🕊
I believe in you. I'm sending you healing and love. 🤗🙂❤️🙏
Wishing you all the best in your journey to peace Sarah - thank you so much for sharing your story with us here. Remember, you are not alone 💙🙏Will
So sorry to read this... good luck !
I suffered psychological abuse for about 9 years from aged 10. I didn't know the cause of my fears, anxiety etc until i was 60. I found out it was called Complex Trauma aged 70. I have failed in all areas of my life due to this trauma. My mind had been 'killed', called menticide. I believe millions suffer from this.
I think there was some info missed here - emotional flashbacks and dissociative symptoms are prevalent in people with CPTSD. 😐😢
Sad thing is. It all can be. That is not said but that is possible. I think I have Complex PTSD, but I am hoghly intuitive and highly intelligent if that's even the right word. But I have an extreme high IQ. If anyone truly knows what that means lol
But over all my all being is unraveling and I need to hold it and I can't. My mind is everywhere. I feel like conciousness is unraveling.
NUMBERS ARE PLAGUING MY DAYS. ALL OF THIS IS TRUTH IN MY LIFE BUT NOT ALWAYS. I HAVE ISSUES ACCEPTING WHAT I KNOW. I NEED TO MAKE SURE I KEEP SANITY. BUT I FEEL THE KNOWLEDGE. I'VE GOTTEN TO THE POINT I understand a lot. And it kills me. I want to think that many things don't actually exist that they are fake, such as sexual assault. I can't accept that baby's are been killed so easily on purpose by evil do ers. I refuse. And this is truly why I am loosing my sanity I don't know how to stop. I don't know myself. But I know I'm someone and that I matter to someone and to THE LORD. But I am in sin, and I struggling to accept everything. To let go of the pain, but then I am fine sometimes. I do not know myself, and my mind isn't controllable anymore it has never been. All my light I've felt and I notice the world so deeply.
I also believe in Jesus Christ. I am struggling with holding reason. I have it but my conciousness is like unraveling... or I should say as if I'm getting tons of information downloaded in my energy circle. I feel and can see life how it is, and it's truly beautiful and yet also so unacceptable.
As if I'm able to understand everything and all. I can see humans as organisms but the beauty of it not being an organism but the vessel given by THE LORD. OMNIPOTENT, ETERNAL, INFINITE.
LET'S REMEMBER WE WOULD MEVER KNOW EVERYTHING, BECAUSE CONCIOUSNESS IS ETERNAL. YOU'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT.
BUT WE CAN ACCEPT HIS TRUTH.
THE BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST HAS POWER
@@XKXXKXXyou are breaking beliefs and getting to know your truth. The kingdom of God and salvation is INSIDE you. Hands on your heart, drop the titles n names of God, define it as the true source of all that ever was and can be, open your eyes within your heart to find the christ WITHIN.
-our eternal souls are going through an *Ascenscion* in our physical bodies with human minds, trying to detach and find ultimate truth of ourselves and God. Lots of false beliefs in religions are causing chaos in our minds. Its a rough ride. Look inward and give yourself the compassion you deserve. Once you get through yourself, you'll be able to help the others. The oxygen mask goes on YOU first. Speak to your own conciousness, reorganize the thoughts and throw away what doesn't work. I know its hard when other's don't see it. It's the path to *enlightenment the hard way. You may be in the process of a *spontaneous kundalini awakening, or having a *spiritual emergency... Look up the * words. Always Remember to use your discernment in all things others give you in any way, (any kind of drugs or alcohol can make it worse, check side effects). Perhaps look for others to help guide, but the answers are within you, they are offering pieces to your puzzle... though there is good, bad, and false light evil out there. When you know yourself it is easier. Many blessings 🙏
I have complex truma and disassociation disorder, that where I disassociate and I have another personality Pearson don't really know what to call her apart from Tash she's not very nice
@lousessssmith9869 I understand your situation. I have personalities but I am fully rational to a level with each one. Control is what matters. Medicine can help you but as much as Jesus christ can.
THE BLOOD OF JESUS CHRIST HAS POWER
Dissociative Identity Disorder is a different thing to plain dissociation though.@@lousessssmith9869
OMG I would very much NOT tell anybody except my therapist if I were having a flashback. People do not want to know and they do not want to understand. I almost never talk to anyone about what I deal with every day and what caused it because they only care about how uncomfortable THEY feel. Who cares about trying to offer me any support when I had to live through the events and have to live with the damage all of my life. No, they can't even stand to think about it for five minutes. Meanwhile I am expected to suffer in silence and be happy and perky so they feel better.
I agree; I feel as if I’m expected to manage THEIR discomfort and anxiety, when I can barely deal with my own. It has been a very effective winnowing for friendships! 😂I am focusing on quality of social experiences, not quantity. Sending ❤
Omg EXACTLY!
Yep that's exactly 💯 how I feel. I've tried to explain and they don't understand/go blank/ignore me/ blame me/ say unhelpful things...unless you've been there, they just can't/don't/won't understand and it hurts.
Wow u said that so well. Its exactly how I feel and have experienced
Yes!
My personal CPTSD kicked in at my prolonged birthing, if not beforehand in gestation.
From there it snowballed, from one trauma to another...eventually crystallising as a suicidal substance abuser.
Way back when, I always did have a 'religious consciousness' in spite of all that and eventually put my foot on the path of healing by adressing the inner pain and disquiet...and expressing my deeply felt rage as sorrowful tears.
A painful path, by definition.
To anybody with whom this resonates, be brave, healing is possible. No matter how bad you are, I was the worst and I know that through dedicated study and prayer, even the worst potentiality can be resolved and the person can be healed.
Nevertheless it must not be forgotten that the true healing energy comes from within and we can rely on outside agencies only to instruct and guide us on what may be a turbulent journey against the wind of societal convention and expectations.
Beautiful xx
So wonderfully expressed and I too have always felt different and experienced childhood traumas but working on the healing process. Much success to you on your healing path🙏💚☀️
wonderfully written thankyou this gives me hope
Very accurate. I saw my mother completely unravel as a person, from when I was age 9 to about 15. She was a binge drinker, mentally ill, and went from being a generally creative and happy person to slowly turning into an extremely self absorbed, negative, mean, bully of a person. To see this as a child is one of the most altering & mind-f*cky things I’ve ever had to fight through. I used to have crippling anxiety & panic attacks, addictive tendencies and eating problems- whether it was over eating or starving myself. Thankfully now, I am happily married with my husband, and managing stress and anxiety a lot more effectively now. It is still something that I live with, but thankfully went it came to “the fork in the road” I ended up choosing the right path.
Thank you for sharing your story 💙 Be well 🙏
I have cptsd and personally I've found both cbt therapy and Buddhism very helpful with building better emotional regulation and interpersonal skills as an adult. They are both very practical.
very practical! interested in joining for an interview on my podcast reparenting daily?
Crafting helps people who are traumatised. It certainly helped me when I became physically disabled with severe chronic pain and the doc. repeatedly said they didn't know how to treat me - several years later I had MRI scans that confirmed a broken spine.
Oh my goodness!! I hope they were eventually able to help you. What kind of crafts do you do?
Difficulty coping with stress as mentioned there at the 3:24 point, I still remember when in 1995 and I was in my early 30s my GP looked at me and said pretty much these exact words, "The part of your being which processes anything more than the most minimal amount of stress is gone, used up, burned out, and probably not coming back. Get out of this telecom job and do only low stress jobs from here on out."
This is the most accurate and concise description of C-PTSD that I have found on YT, it also provides usable strategies for coping and realistic approaches for treatment. Thank you for posting.
EMDR is used in trauma patients because the eye movement used while recalling/reliving traumatic moments is the same as what we naturally do when we have REM sleep. It helps "move" the experience from one part of the brain to another where memories are stored. It helps us to be able to remember the experience while detaching the pain associated with it. I tried it before and it helped some but overall, wasn't for me.
Stuff like that is a complete waste of time. The pain/hurt/trauma is stored in the unconscious and needs to be released through effective grieving and somatic experiencing to completely eliminate emotional flashbacks. Pete Walkers books on cptsd contain the most effective methods.
excellent explanation of PTSD. I am from Spain with autism and we see that PTSD is also present. I loved your description, doctor.❤❤❤
I was misdiagnosed as bipolar but last year was diagnosed by my psychiatrist. As complex truma , i found out last year i was stolen at 5 months
Oh my, that's quite a thing to process.
i hope to find a good therapist in the states who can find the techniques and the pace that works for me. very tired over here
EMDR is actually more effective at treating PTSD or a single event trauma than it is at treating CPTSD, although it can be helpful to a certain degree. I did 1 1/2 years of EMDR therapy and it did get me out of suicidal planning...although I still sometimes engage is suicidal ideation.
true, in general. there can be come exceptions as everyone is unique
EMDR therapy I have found first hand is incredibly effective with cptsd - just takes longer as there is more to deal with than a one off event. I suffered decades of abuse - from birth.
Just hearing this video I got rising inner hysteria. Luckily when you mentioned eye movement I gave it a go throughout that segment, and I felt some calm come over me and then was able to get a huge deep breath. I had been holding my chest muscles or breath some how involuntarily, which I always do. It's exhausting and even my closest friend didn't believe me until they had a shorter lived experience with anxiety themself. Even children playing in my house can set my inner alarm going to the point of having to go in a room to cover my solar plexus or the tears will come down. It's the random noise and movement, I worked that out after years of it, but still get set off
I believe i have CPTSD, this is long winded but please stay with the story. On 28/3/24 i was a victim of road rage and was already suffering PTSD at the hands of the Police from 20 years ago, i didnt want to call them but the other driver and his partner kept coming up to my vehicle which was damaged banging on the windscreen and drivers door window. He was driving dangerously from the moment he joined the carriage way in front of me, doing an emergency stop for no reason and when he got to a roundabout sat there holding traffic up so i honked him, prior to this he was arguing with his family in the car and physically took his eyes off the road facing me behind him at this point i felt i needed to be cautious. Once i got on a stretch of road to over take i did so, it was at this point he rammed me trying to force into oncoming traffic. There was no safe place to stop so i kept driving, he undertook me swerved in front of me and refused to move blocking all traffic on our side if the carriage way.
I am a 55 year disabled lady and felt i was being treated as the instigator by the Police, i decided to leave my driving licence with them and drove off for which they sped after me tried smashing my drivers window 3 times, they arrested me then de-arrested me and decided to fine me even though my vehicle is a motability car so is fully insured, taxed, Mot so had nothing to hide.
Since this i threatened to take my life and had my front door smashed and was hit by 2 taser guns one to my right side the second in my left breast above my heart. Since this i have spent a week sleeping in my car as i couldn’t face going to the property and overdosed twice one which should of been fatal and may still be in the next 2 months.
But this is our legal justice system here in the UK and is deemed acceptable behaviour, at no point did i pose a danger to anyone but myself which is why i believe i now have CPTSD, i literally don’t feel safe anywhere anymore inside or out of my home even by the Police.
Yes you do have CPTSD.
I’ve had trauma on top of trauma and it’s taken me 52 years to finally arrive here where the journey begins I have flashbacks daily when I try to sleep I was hit by a car going 30miles an hour he drove off and left me age 9 …. I have no memory of the accident at all but the flashbacks are me driving and about to hit a child with the car has left me on high alert all the time , looking for more resources to understand and try to heal from all of this I was also falsely arrested for a crime I didn’t commit and how the police officers treated me was shocking so I hear you hope your healing and feeling better x
I've read your story. I'm sad about what you've experienced. It must have been so scary.
Recently, I experienced a life-threatening DV. The Queensland Police arrived at my address numerous times due to the violence. Then, when I escaped that relationship, the police arrested me for something that's alleged to have occurred 24 years ago. Police are part of the PROBLEM, especially for females. Misogyny is rife.
It's more likely to be ptsd from a single event like this. Cptsd is more about suffering emotional neglect and worse, but over a sustained period of time (many months and years)
@FreeBrunoPowroznik I have CPTSD. I live in constant fear *fight or flight mode*.
My childhood destroyed my life. I carry it with me everyday.
I was diagnosed years ago, I still have issues coping and honestly wish I could go to sleep and not wake up.
I try to explain to people so they will understand I am not trying to avoid doing stuff or I am just lazy. I really do wish I was smart and strong like everyone else though, I will have to try the rubber band idea, I think it will be easier then trying to come up with how I got cut again.
I will shut up now as I don't want people to think I'm complaining or looking for sympathy, I just sometimes need to get it out.
I wish I could talk to you. Thank you for taking the time.
Sad part about cptsd or just counselling in general it gets passed onto the carer.
it Is the parents fault. its time to recognize that some people refuse to work on their own shit before they has kids
Is setraline helpful for this ...l take it
Yes and anything that grounds you. TC x
if you have had psychosis in the past can the edmr therapy be ok ?
BOTH PARENTS WERE ALCOHOLICS AND I DIDNT HAVE A FATHER MY BROTHER PASSED AWAY AND SO DID MY MOM.
I have CPTSD. IT IS A BIIIIIIIIIIITCH
In score 9 on the aces test. I wasn’t diagnosed till the age of 48. My life has been hell. Parents telling me to eff off and never come back. I was sexually, psychologically and physically abused by my care givers from the age of five. I have to be on my own to feel safe. Everyone I have encounter has abused me in some way becuse I am emotionally stuck at the age of seven. It’s too late for me to sort my condition. I just have to managed it every minute of every day. I can’t wait to the next life. This one has been horrible.
Mine was not childhood abuse and it was domestic violence. Married to a narcissist for 9 years and it caused me tremendous damage and am still struggling 10 years after separation. I have got a divorce but still fear and also people especially friends and family don't get it and it hurts. It affects all aspects of my life. I would say never be kind to people who abuse you . Leave them . Am extra careful in not transmitting my trauma to anyone. Am starting EMDR next week. Please pray for me.
Diagnosed in 2019 but been dealing with first break since 1997. Increasingly hear about symptoms, treatment, causes, etc. SOOOO SICK OF ALL OF THIS!!! MISUNDERSTANDINGS FOR OUTSIDERS IN ADDITION TO THOSE w this - THE COMPLEX is in my opinion and experience- it is on an UNCONSCIOUS LEVEL! I don’t KNOW when it is coming! I never knew! I am not ok with the fact that it is not at no fault of my own. I am actually upset at all of it. Why? Loose independence, control. No free will. Suicidal ideation is not suicide. She is not accurate. Justice is needed to make it public and make those accountable and start protecting our children! Stop the loss! We are chronic! Special treatment is to expensive. NOT AWARE! She needs to stop! CPTSD IS UNCONSCIOUS! Somatic. Emotional Dysregulation. OH GOD. Stop forgetting UNCONSCIOUS! IF YOU HAVE EMDR YOU NEED ANOTHER THERAPIST ALSO! Flashbacks are traumatizing during it! Or somatic therapists in addition. Omg!
I was abused and betrayed by the veterinary instructors at my school, who lied and falsely accused me of things that did not happen, blamed me when one vet instructor made a clinic client angry, and then kicked me out of the vet program based in those lies. Other instructors and admin just stood behind the lies, many said nothing when they should have helped me. The extent of the unethical behaviour by people I had trusted, was simply amazing. People who are supposed to be ethical professionals and who have a huge responsibility to be mentors and leaders in our communities, acted entirely selfishly, immorally and illegally.
I now find it very hard not to believe that all vets are dishonest and greedy, powerhungry and unethical. They are all liars and dont care about your animals. They are always trying to upsell or overcharge for their ‘medical services’ which are often not even based in actual evidence, but in whatever made up claims, fictional diagnoses or psychology that suits their financial goals in that moment. Dispicable and very verysad.
Similar thing happened to me at my uni when a lecturer sexually harassed me. I ended up in a psych ward, my uni friends made up gossip about me, 15 years on and I'm still messed up by it.
This is a very good, high level, explanation of what CPTSD is, and best practices for treatment. I would add that CPTSD can be so pervasive within a person's life that it can develop into other identified disorders such as Borderline Personality Disorder, or Dissociative Identity Disorder. In the treatment of those disorders, it's important to recognize the likely existence of CPTSD when formulating an individualized treatment plan. Also, EMDR is the best known treatment that can actually "heal" the brain from previous trauma, however, as she mentioned, it's not well understood. If you are a Christian, EMDR can be administered by a counselor that is guided by the Holy Spirit, which "does" understand why it works, and knows exactly what memories to access, when, and how. Thus, EMDR becomes "safer" for the patient as they confront traumatic memories. Last thing, medications should be administered sparingly as work delving into traumatic memories begins, as some medication can actually inhibit effective entry into repressed memories and suppressed emotions.
One additional comment regarding Holy Spirit guided EMDR. I used the term EMDR bc it is the most commonly known form of memory regression therapy. However, it's important to understand that rapid eye movement, as usually administered in EMDR sessions, is not the "only" way to gain access into repressed memories and/or suppressed emotions. Thus, the usefulness of a counselor guided by the Holy Spirit.
They forced me to have flooding. Not only have I been attacked at all angles after a lifetime of stresses, they made me do it while alone as they attacked me in email and on my phone and then worse when I would go into public so there's been so much flooding that I don't know that it solved the problem but it made me not care what they do anymore.
I really don't like her using the word "strange" describing emdr therapy. It's not strange at all - it saved my life.
I have cptsd and did. Can't get help anywhere.
Really sorry to hear that. We have a list of helplines and support information on our website here that may be helpful - www.priorygroup.com/crisis-support
You can also speak to your doctor, or reach out to Priory and our supportive team can talk you through how we might be able to support you.
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Good luck 💙 Will
It would be helpful if they understood this in the US better. The UK seems to be ahead of us in research and tools for people. I really hope this changes. Been diagnosed 3 times with this condition.
I HAVE PTSD AND IM BIPOLAR.WHAT THINGS CAN I DO TO HELP ME . I DONT SLEEP WELL.
Hello, thank you for reaching out, know that there is help and support out there for you. If you're in the UK, you can speak to your GP, or use a directory like the Hub of Hope (hubofhope.co.uk/) to find services near you. You can also call Priory on 0330 029 3011 and speak to one of our trained advisers about how we could help.
Also - take a look at our self-help playlist. We've got a load of coping strategies and techniques that can offer relief for anyone struggling with their mental health:
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Hope that helps 💙🙏
I've found that melatonin helps me get a better quality of sleep... I still have to get into bed though....
on the 27th february this year i was given sertraline; still no focus no purpose no meaning to my life; studied everything I could find on insecure attachment; was aware i had avoidant personality and attention deficit disorder now with CFS still my addicion to nicotine and caffiene for my dopamine buzz what to i do with my life now. got 170 poems published after my experince with a pyschiatrist throwing his arms in the air and stamping his right foot on the floor go the CAB and get more benefit. all the tricks EFT EMDR beathing execrises mantras do not help i am still the same me.the inciting event happened many years ago with an NHS therapist sitting on my left hand side hanging over the left hand side of her chair telling me you are sexually repressed you are no good for therpay. years later i saw in through the glass doors of theraputic community and flipped out. sadly i had selective mutism and was unable to speak up for myself.thtawas cetinly the wrong environement for me and it crushed me
My G.F pushed me in the chest a few weeks ago, I went into complete mekt down, told her to go away, I became emotionally distraut ,crying , lots of symptoms, was basically in bits, never experienced anything like that before,
Was that a panic attack ?
Did you have neglect or abuse in your childhood? If so, please read "CPTSD: from surviving to thriving" by Pete Walker. It may help you to identify what happened. It may have been an emotional flashback.
It sounds like it could be. Everyone tends to experience them a little differently. I can highly recommend vagus nerve calming exercises here on YT. Dr Peter Levine is amazing.
Sounds like the incidence triggered a memory of a previous event. For me panic attacks usually involve a fear that my heart is racing so badly I am going to die. Of course I don’t know if that is the same for everyone.
Sounds like a flashback. I have them a lot.
There are a lot of comments about family neglect, and even abuse, from parents etc, and I am sorry to hear that. But a couple of things that also needs to be said is that parents are not the only possible sources to serious childhood trauma. Maybe they were for you, but everyone’s trauma history is unique. I find that pshycologists and Psychiatry as a Disipline, are way more comfortable making parents the scapegoats for all of your psychological issues, than say, criticize the health service system, the school system, the economic system, etc. You can have as loving and strong parents as you will realistically get, and still be repetitively physically bullied, socially excluded, ridiculed, and made fun of at school for years, while the school administration keeps a blind eye to everything that doesn’t hurt them. People don’t want to hear this, but kids in the ages between 9-12 especially, can be especially violent and mean. Going to school every day, and sit in the same classroom as someone who you have learned to expect a beating from at any second for being… you, is exhausting. For me, my family is more or less the only people that I really trust. Socializing, however highly it is valued by both society and individuals alike, feels like a tough, dry and heavy duty at best, and like going into a warzone at worst.
If you constantly get told you are fat and things like that, that is ALL it takes to develop cPTSD, you develop a fear of being called fat... For autistic people it could be everyone telling your to sit still, when it's something you can't really do without harming yourself.
cPTSD is when everyday occurring comments from others slowly erode your sense of safety, just like PTSD is that one big event that erode your sense of safety.
Breath work and meditation
Yeah this is NOT an accurate description and you are missing critical details of the components which cptsd derive from.
As a survivor as well as a counselor and peer support chaplain in the first responder world I can 100% attest that folks whom suffer with ptsd can and do indeed shed their symptoms as they raise children within an environment of those symptoms which causes behavioral issues that birth cptsd within families.
In blatant terms,
They bring it home with them and their families suffer the unaddressed symptoms and effects. Now the entire family suffers the same symptoms in catastrophic ways that portray and maladapt into their lives as normal patterns and expressions in said behavior.
It’s very hard to navigate as well as complex to understand hence mis- diagnosis is usually the result and prolongs one’s journey to recovery
Who is the "we"? This speaker is knowledgeable, but she clearly has the "institutional" and "expert" mindset oozing out of her. Referring to her clients as "patients" that she treats in order to "cure" them doesn't demonstrate a lot of empathy. I have doubts if she has a lived understanding of CPTSD. This sounds more like the textbook and protocol rote learning you get with so many of today's "experts" in the mental health field.
I thought it was well explained.
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I'm a tree hugger ❤
Me too. Wow
@Bas92583
No tree is safe 🤣
SSRIs make me have manic episodes
WITH THE HELP OF DR. ABODA MY CHILD IS NOW REALLY DOING WELL TALKING COMMUNICATE WITH OTHER KIDS AT HOME AND SCHOOL IT'S A BLESS...,,,
Did anyone here ever fully recovered from PTSD? Can you have sex the same way like before the event happened? I'm mostly asking men.
This is about CPTSD, not PTSD.
Having someone with you IF you think you're going to panic is a massive safety-seeking behaviour!!!!! Don't do it!
Why not?
No no big evidence check mate Gabor out on the diary of the ceo child hood trauma is 💯 will affect you. You must realise this as soon as possible and take action. This is what will make you understand and take action. This
“Het was allemaal zo erg niet”
You people need to toughen up. Men fought WW2 and came home to raise families. When they needed therapy they had whiskey and country music.
I didn't grow up with abuse. I met a damaged victim at 20. I loved and wanted to save her. I was her knight in shining armour I couldn't, you can't. nobody can.
I have seen this too, but I hope that they can be helped....
Lol its so depressing and why you feel the need to save her to begin with ?