My R | english cover (by KurageP) 【covered by Anna ft. Rachie + Bao】
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- Опубліковано 16 лип 2021
- Hello everyone! This week I sang My R by KurageP with @rachie and @baovtuber (previously known as HikaruStation)!
I’ve sat here for 30 minutes trying to figure out the right thing to say and what to write but nothing is really feeling right. This is pretty out of the norm from what I usually cover but I’ve been getting a lot of requests for it so I figured I’d give it a shot.
All revenue from this video will be donated to various mental health charities and a big thank you to both Rachie and Bao for collabing with me on this : )
As always, thank you for your continued support! It really does mean the world to me. Hope you all have a fantastic evening and I’ll see you next Saturday.
♥
(you can listen to this bad boy on the go too: distrokid.com/hyperfollow/ann...)
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• Credits • “My R '' - KurageP
Artwork: Rerebaka_tan | / rerebaka_tan + www.artstation.com/rerebaka_tan
English Lyrics: Rachie
Instrumental: Jeysun | @Jeysunmusic
Mix: PalmMute | / palmmuteaudio
Video: Coda| / codaanim + / codaanim
Vocals: Anna (that’s me)
Bao | / hikarustation + / hikarustation
Rachie | / splendiferachie + / splendiferousfantasy
(thank you to everyone who helped make this cover possible! You’re all super stars!)
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To offset the very intense nature of this video, I have two questions for you!
1) What is the kindest act you have witnessed?
2) What brings you the most joy?
Well the kindest act was some random stranger paid our electric bills and it was a lot. My parents knew that we would barely have Christmas presents that year. But someone paid it for us and left a note saying “Merry Christmas! Hope this helps”. And stayed random. It was a wonderful Christmas that year. As for what brings me joy, books, D&D, anime, video games, friends, and my boyfriend.
1. My dad taking his time to stay with me on a fishing ship while I was seasick the entire time
2. Playing Pokémon and/or listening to your covers
kindest act: someone trying to extinguish the fire in my car lol
brings me most joy: seeing people smile and making them smile :)
Listening to babies laugh makes me just so happy :’)
The kindes act i've witnessed? Maybe my english teacher comforting me after a nervous breackdown
Music bring me joy
Fun fact(maybe not that fun): in the original song, she is just hallucinating other people with her problems (in this version its more obvious because of the last few lines)
And those people is herself, that's why this song is called My R
Tbh that’s the same tactic I used to get out of a bad head space at a time where I hated myself. I thought of what I’d do or say to strangers when the worse thing they’d done was the same as mine and I realized I could never treat others that way. It did kinda make me think of myself in a weird disconnected way but at least now I can see I’m not special in a good or bad way which takes a lot of pressure off my expectations for myself
@@birdontheinternet The whole “treat others as your self” thing go’s both ways because it doesn’t work if you aren’t kind to yourself. “Treat your self as you treat others”
Wait I thought she was just talking to herself trying to convince herself not to jump and there is not meant to be several voices in the song
@@brianh5878 ....No
I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT THIS BOP! (but also everyone please be safe.)
Thank you, and you as well.
Same
This is one of those songs that shouldn't be a bop but really is
Same
@@valbea9958 Ikr like fr
I know this song is dark, but it fucking slaps.
@Andrea De Luca NOOOO
@Kylie Hua It was a lone song first, but it evolved into a concept album called Diary of Underage Observation. Check it out!
About the parental abuse, though, that's just what's implied in the line "I just wanna stop the scars that grow every time that I go home".
IKR🤣🤣🤣✨💕
Nope, it yeets xD
Agreed
Just a reminder that the Girl the song is about actually is implied to be saved!
"My R" is part of an Album/Series of Songs by Kurage-P called "Diary of Underage Observation". My R is the first song on the Tracklist and every song is about a Teenage girl struggling with some kind of problem.
One of the last songs is named "Diary of Underage Observation" and it is about a Girl observing her Classmates, which are all the girls in the other songs including the My R girl, writing about them in her Diary.
The My R girl is the only one noted multiple times by her, and she also sees her in her final line of My R, where she is about to jump from the roof.
The girl actually steps in for the first time during her observations, running up to the My R girl and repeating the line "Hey, don't do it please.", implying that she saves the My R girl from jumping.
I highly recommend checking out "Diary of Underage Observation" and the other songs in the series, they are all worth listening to!
im glad someone saved her it really broke my heart the fact she’d acknowledged others wouldnt do this for her thank you for sharing 🙏🏾❤️
That... just helps so much. Thank you.
Are you the real soulkiba?
@@mohammadrashya9418 Well uh... yeah, in case you know me from Twitter or such
Thank god that actually gives me hope
Everyone like and reply to this comment so others can see it
BLESSED TRIO 3 QUEENS WHO SLAY
The king kuraiinu just arrived
We are blessed with your presence
Yes
the legend says that if they fuse all the madness in this world will diseappeared within an instant by a single note
The art in Annapantsu’s videos are criminally underrated
ikr
amen
IKRRRR
THIS EXACTLY
Yeßssss
Me singing this song happily: 😍🥰😭
My mom who's more focused on the words: 👁️👄👁️
Lol same
@@Marble_Gacha AAAAH! Oh no!
Lol same
Lol same
Basically me rocking out to this then suddenly my mom opens the door and I just start singing badly so it could cover up the lyrics
I've witnessed a murder case and one of the reporters interviewed me, They asked me if I was okay because I was crying insanely. And I replied with "I'm alright, I'm just sad" So they gave me a chocolate bar and that was the kindest act in my life.
_hugs_
“You just witnessed a murder case, are you ok?”
“Yea, just sad.”
*Hands chocolate bar* :)
Oh hell no, I’m in America, so they probably give me Hersheys 💀
I'm sorry this happened to you
If true, you sure are surrounded by people that suck, bro. You should move when you can. There ARE nice neighborhoods out there.
The girl short as could be is told "Your still loved my everyone at home"
And the girl in the yellow cardigan says "I just wanna stop the scars that grow, everytime that I go home.."
And we all know they're all the same person...
it's sad how the singer, imagining herself helping others as a way to cope with her own feelings, slowly runs out of reasons to keep living until all she can say is that she's tired and just wants to end her pain. i love this song so much but man I hate how much I relate to it
Also, the girl told the girl with braids "You've never been robbed of anything" and the next short girl said "Everyone robs" :(
@@Playlist-ru5cw
Everyone steals*
But ya I like the point you made ^^
And the girl is told she has dinner and says "I"m hungry".
@@michaelflores9220 she says "I'm hungry" because now that she is reminded about the dinner, she wants to eat
My phase is literally haunting me at this point
Same …. Same
I feel ya
If anyone reading this is contemplating suicide, just know, no matter how hopeless it seems, there is somebody who cares for you, and if there isn’t right now, there is somebody who will. It gets better, and you won’t be alone forever.
@@ShadowsOfTheSky that comment made me cry. I needed to hear that. Thank you
I feel you
If I may point this out,, the lyrics given as reasons to live are, in the next verse, given as reasons to jump. "You're lucky that you've never gotten robbed of anything," then the next verse, "everyone steals." "But even so, you're still loved by everyone at home," then after, "I just want to stop the scars that grow, every time that I go home." Then, the singer can't find a reason anymore, besides to just... not jump. It's just not her day. And in the last verse, she can longer argue with herself, because she's fought that reason, too. Just interesting to me.
I picture someone on a rooftop, so done with life and the world, standing on the edge terrified. She talks to herself, keeps pushing and pushing until she decides she can't because of the relatively flimsy reason.
Then all through the next day she keeps repeating that same reason over and over again in her mind, until she starts to poke holes in that very reason and it twists itself into one more problem. One more thing she can't handle. And she's back on the roof, staring off the edge, terrified, and arguing with herself until she finds another reason not to.
Day after day, one reason after another that falls apart as she attacks and dissects it throughout the next day. Until one day she stands up there, tired of the mental argument as much as anything else. She looks off the edge, still scared but she can't find any more reasons. She's just tired. "one more day" she decides. Maybe she still hopes it'll be better. Maybe someone else will finally come.
But they don't. Not in this song.
@@Xazyv There's also the bit between the second and third verses where it says there was a person everyday, they went through so many reasons every day not to jump before finally running out.
And her responses change with that, too.
'I'm feeling better thank you for listening'
'I'm hungry'
'I guess today is just not my day'
The first one is sort of positive; she feels better. The middle one... more like she's distracted from the pain than actually feeling better. And the last one doesn't even do that; it's not her day, but she'll be back tomorrow, just like the last time, and the time before that.
@@Xazyv they do stop her. Watch underage observation version (as weird of a title as that is).
Why does every dark song I've heard throughout my life was such a freaking BANGER..?
FR
always. but now we know its well su!cidal and stuff i cant see it the same. btw i mean the japanese version of my r
i know have you seen help by pink guy
listen to bullet by hollywood undead - thats a dark af bop similar to this
@@jem_jaqovich listened to it hits deep btw have you seen Hethers the moive or musical hits kind of like bullet
oh so we're bringing back our middle school depression? cool cool. stay safe y'all and talk to someone if you need too ❤
bringing it back? It never l e f t.
@@ACastillo_ every gen Z:
It seems to happen everywhere doesn't it? If it happened at my Private Christian school, then I guess so.
@@shannonmcelroy8454 Yes :(
She should TOTALLY sing "You're gonna go far, kid" by The Offspring.
Oh yes
i would cry if she did
Yeah!!! It would be so cool!
Oh my lord yes!!
Oh for sure
Fun Fact: The "different" girls she keeps on seeing is herself. The first girl had braided hair, the second girl was short/petite, the third girl wore a yellow cardigan. These details are important. Starting at 3:29 the girl singing says "Taking off my *yellow cardigan.* Watching my *braids* all come undone. This *petite* girl, short as can be, is gonna jump now and be free." Paying attention to the details you can hypothesize that it's all the same person.
wow! youre such a genius!! i dont think anyone has caught that on the first listen!!
So she solving these problems it's her finding a way to deal with them, but when she couldn't with the last, she decided it was enough?
@@ameame9192 The song is called "My R", with the R standing for "reasons". She's not trying to solve the problem but trying to give herself reasons why she shouldn't jump: "At least no one's ever taken things from me", "at least my family loves me", "at least I have food to eat", etc. These things do eventually happen to her though, so she keeps trying to find new reasons not to do it. All the "people" she helped were really just her talking to herself. In the second-to-last verse she's struggling to find a reason to stop herself, ultimately deciding that the only reason she really has left is that she pities herself. She then comes back the next day, noticing there's no one else on the roof-meaning no more reasons to hold back-and that's when she finally jumps. But in the original video we see someone reach out and grab her, ultimately saving her life.
Such a happy song
(sorry, I was feeling sarcastic )
@@trashboi1286 Or her reflection IDK
For a song with such dark themes it has probably the most catchiest beats ever.
That's what all dark Vocaloid songs do
It's the kind of song you can hum, but if you sing it, people will start questioning your mental health
so true
fr tho another good catchy dark song is coin locker baby
Bullet by Hollywood Undead sounds disturbingly cheerful
Oh fuck, not the song I had a public breakdown to in middle school. I love your voice too much to resist
Damn that sucks. How are you doing now if you don't mind me asking?
Hey, how are you?
I think we've all had mental breakdowns at school or almost had before I had two breakdowns in second grade before. And when school starts imma be in 5th grade and at the end of the day it's fine because we're all human and it happens
hope you’re doing okay now !!
How are you now? Hope you’re doing well ❤️
I was literally just thinking this song would fit your voice how- ANNA GET OUT OF MY BRAIN :0
SAME I WAS THINKING ABOUT THAT YESTERDAY
SAMEEE ANNA IS ALWAYS READING OUR THOUGHTS
i searched it up and bam!! just uploaded
This is kinda like how another youtuber read my mind,but like THEY ARE MIND READERS
but tbh this is amazing anna!!!!
Anna never leaves our brain, she’s always stalking us. 😂😂
I always add an extra line to this song
“Is gonna jump now and be free.
Wait, don’t do it please.”
This is actually cannon
copied from @SoulKiba 's comment:
"My R" is part of an Album/Series of Songs by Kurage-P called "Diary of Underage Observation". My R is the first song on the Tracklist and every song is about a Teenage girl struggling with some kind of problem.
One of the last songs is named "Diary of Underage Observation" and it is about a Girl observing her Classmates, which are all the girls in the other songs including the My R girl, writing about them in her Diary.
The My R girl is the only one noted multiple times by her, and she also sees her in her final line of My R, where she is about to jump from the roof.
The girl actually steps in for the first time during her observations, running up to the My R girl and repeating the line "Hey, don't do it please.", implying that she saves the My R girl from jumping
Damn….😳 I’m gonna use that now
wow this makes the song have a happy ending..
It does have a happy ending in the original album @@maxie2518
Idk why but this is kind of one of my therapy songs. Every time when it gets to the end - “taking off my yellow cardigan, watching my braids all come undone, this petite girl short as can be is going to jump now and be free” I whisper “hey don’t do it please”. It’s almost this little reminder that there’s always another day to live for. This is all we have
Which is what happens in the sequel song in the album, that's touching too though.
This song resonates with me, but rather than going to jump
I sit by that place, guarding it to prevent anyone from going deeper down the hole
Everyone has a reason to not do it
Mine is to not let others do it
Ok this is sweet right here-
I may not ever meet you, but I just have to say thank you.
Same for me. I’ve saved over 100 people from suicide. All online friends of mine at a time or another.
Thank you, kind stranger.
Bless you man
I hope you'll convince them :)
Whenever I see anyone I know listening to this song I ask, "are you okay?"...
You doing okay Anna?
I am doing very okay, thank you for checking in on me! It’s very kind of you.
@@annapantsu Asking is basically the most I can do from my phone when making a YT comment lol 😅
Also just in case anyone here needs this, your body releases:
Endorphins: when you eat dark chocolate
Oxytocin: when you play with a dog, or make 10+ seconds of physical contact with someone.
Dopamine: when you complete a task
and Serotonin: when you go outside in the sunshine or exercise
kindness is a gift that not many are able to express, be pround of yourself for being able to
@@annapantsu Thank the Gods. I was getting worried.
Is it worrying I listen to this on repeat religiously more that three times a day?
Y’know being the therapist friend, this song gives a whole different vibe-
Warning this’ll be long
Long Edit: o boi my comment got some TRACTION- anyways yes, hello therapist friends, uhh *y’all got some people pleasing issues?*
Anyways jokes aside, I’m happy my comment got so popular but also sad that so many people are struggling with this issue. As someone who’s been on BOTH ends of being the therapist friend and the venter, uh *it doesn’t work out.* I bet we all know that by now though, but here’s some actual advice, *know your boundaries, set them straight, and tell them to your friends (or literally anyone who breaks them)* it’s not mean to not have energy 24/7 to give advice, we’re human, that’s just how we are, and boundaries are sooo important for relationships, no boundaries = toxic relationship (this goes for every type of relationship, friendship, family, lover, etc)
OH and you are NOT responsible for anybody else’s happiness. I’ll repeat that for the people in the back, *YOU ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR ANYBODY ELSE’S HAPPINESS!* And if ANYBODY tries to gaslight you into thinking so THEN GET OUTTTT of that relationship. That is very toxic and that person would need an ACTUAL LICENSED THERAPIST for that.
One more thing, all of those therapist friends out there, please take your own advice *or* see a therapist who can help you take your own advice, if you can’t get out of that toxic lifestyle it will just get worse I guarantee it, and no, your problems are not more or less than anybody else’s do not try and compare, we all have our own issues that are equally valid. Just for reference, I’m hopefully soon going to therapy myself, even though there’s people who has had a worse time than me, even though I seem to have it all together, I’m still going, because it will help me on my journey to be able to live a happier life.
I could go on more but this is already long.. I’m surprised you got this far tbh- proud of you ✨ Anyways, it’s your choice whether you want to take this advice or not, I’m not a licensed therapist after all, therefore I might not be correct about everything/know everything about the topic, I’m just going off of experience. Plus it is your life after all, you get to choose what you want to do. But anyways, I wish you all well, remember, your life has SO much value, don’t let anybody tell you otherwise.
Though I guess this is goodbye(for now?) Thx for coming to my Ted talk✨
A fellow therapist friend
@@Dewdear how are you feeling today?
@@Nothing-id8br I am great hope you are too 😊 if you're not it'll get better
@@Dewdear Glad to hear your doing good! And yes I’m doing good thank you for caring!
Therapist friend squad! : )
This song really hits me. Just like this girl, I considered ending it all, but the odd thing is every time I consider ending it all,something or someone stops me. Just earlier, my friend with the same dilemma reminded me not to give up. I hope anyone out there who is considering to end it all also find their reason to continue and never give up ☺️
I know I am a complete stranger to you, but I really hope you don't do it, I would feel really sad knowing you got hurt. While I do not know what your is like I can say at least two people to my knowledge care about you including your friend. Hope things get better for you and if like to send a message or anything do so, if you want that is. Bye then.
Yes, most of us have somebody who will be sad if we disappear. The reaper can wait.
I know someone wh9 struggles with Suicide and i can say with certainty the would be much less bright without you in it
I forgot which song it was, something like "diary of an underage observer". It shows the POV of a girl who observes her classmates.
My R girl is one of then. At the end the observer calls out to her and stops my r girl from jumping. It also references from many other songs.
Whoa that's cool! Imma go check out the song rn
Diary of underage observation is SO good. I keep hoping the rest of the series will get the My R treatment
@@OmniverousLawnClippings I'm waiting for the day that VR gets a good cover! Or trash!
Thanks!!!!!
I FORGOT ABOUT ITTTTTT!!!
The actual song IS called diary of underage observation!
6 not-so-fun facts that can add some context
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1. people in Japan take off their shoes before suicide to indicate that it wasn't a murder, this is symbolic of entering the afterlife, as people there take off shoes when entering a building
2.The Japanese version has two different ways of saying "Dont do it please" The one used for the first two people more specifically means, dont do it for others. For the last person it means, dont do it for me.
They both translate to "dont do it" I was just going into the specifics
3. The problems relate to eachother. The response to the first person was that there are more people there (roughly) The next problem was regarding people. The response to that was that there are people at home. The third person said that there are problems at home.
4. Many believe that My R means My Reflection. The singer went there every day, thinking of their problems, and coming up with solutions. On the last day, they couldn't think of a solution.
5. Another theory is that My R stands for 'My Reason'. The girl sees all the reasons that she wanted to commit suicide in the past. She belives the reasons are stupid and is mad at them. She thinks that she needs to sort out the past reasons before she jumps
6. the hand that reached out for her at the end is usually depicted as a person who cares about her that she didn't consider, but it could also be her will to live coming in too late
------- my connection
This is all coming from a young teen studying Japan, Japanese Culture, Japanese History, and also learning the language.
~ my best online friend committed suicide last year, and my current best friend is considering it. Please be aware that this can be a touchy subject ~
!! I got most of these from comments on the original Japanese version of the song !!
------- help
🌸If you or someone you know is feeling suicidal, get in contact with your Country's hotline. Tell people, talk about it, we will understand. You're not alone, we won't judge. There is always someone out there that knows your struggles and would be more than happy to help you
Going through with it will hurt more people than you think, you might not think you are important.
💮 You will be happy one day, no matter what is happening. It won't be today, it won't be tomorrow, it might not even be there for years, but it will come. You just need to trust that it will come and work towards it.
💮 There is always someone out there that is still alive because you simply exist
Stay safe and make sure you have a support system for these kinds of situations
I think the creator said that "R" stands for "Reason." Like, her reason for going up there.
@@alexandermayro7145 Oo! That might be why, tell me if you can find it (if you are already looking for it)
@@eclipseii8439 I read in a comment in the original video that says the original title was My reasons to live in this cruel world but It was too long so she just named the song My R, i dunno if is true, but i think It is, may you should give It a check .
they put me on wait (wtfff???) imma lose ittt
Thanks for the insight
This song is just her trying to convince herself not to do it. There was the girl with braided hair, who lost her boyfriend, the petite girl, who everyone hates, and the girl in the yellow cardigan who is abused. It’s not anyone actually. It’s just hallucinations of the girl trying to convince herself to not commit suicide. If you pay attention, at the end she says, “Taking off my yellow cardigan, watching my braids all come undone, this petite girl short as can be, is gonna jump now and be free.” Even so, she didn’t end up convincing herself. Please share this with others because a lot of people misunderstand this song
Wow. I never knew that. I knew the "Taking off my yellow cardigan, watching my braids all come undone, this petite girl short as can be, is gonna jump now and be free," lyrics but I always thought that it meant that she had the same problems as the other girls, just that the last straw was her abusive family.
Plot twist: She landed on a bouncy castle that was a surprise gift for her birthday by her family.
@@Hi-wp4gm She actually got saved by someone at the end. There's part 2 of this song but it's about the person who saved her
@@cruentusmagus pardon me? Where is this part two?
@@claymoura2484 I believe the name of the song is Diary of Underaged Observation. The girl from this vid was saved by the observer girl
I hope
This is such a cute twist on such a dark(but good) song
Just to be clear, for anyone worried, in the end she gets saved. There’s a part two to this song, and it’s all about the girl who saved her from jumping. So no, she does not commit suicide in the end. :)
I needed to know that thank you!! Do you know what the second part is called? 💕
@@claudiaw4342 i think it's called "diary of an unaged observer" by KurageP ^^
@@rocketstone9911 okay thanks I will have a look :)
it’s part of a series of songs, and talks about all of them in the last one (diary of an underage observer) which includes my r!
Can we just all agree that those who grew up singing this, we all need therapy now :)
I never related to it
But yeah, yeah we do.
I loved this song in elementary school 😩
YES.
Yeah probably lol
grew up listening to it, fell back in love with it last year, totally need therapy
Lyrics (from Google, by Rachie!):
Just as I was about to take my shoes
Off of the rooftop there I see
A girl with braided hair here before me
Despite myself, I go and scream
"Hey, don't do it please!"
Whoa, wait a minute what did I just say?
I couldn't care less either way
To be honest, I was somewhat pissed
This was an opportunity missed
The girl with braided hair told me her woes
You've probably heard it all before
"I really thought that he might be the one
But then he told me he was done"
For God's sakes please! Are you serious? I just can't believe
That for some stupid reason you got here before me
Are you upset 'cause you can't have what you wanted?
You're lucky that you've never gotten robbed of anything
"I'm feeling better, thank you for listening"
The girl with braided hair then disappeared
Alright, today's the day, or so I thought
Just as I took both of my shoes off
There was but a girl short as can be
Despite myself, I go and scream
The petite girl told me her woes
You've probably heard it all before
"Everyone ignores me, everyone steals
I don't fit in with anyone here"
For God's sakes please! Are you serious? I just can't believe
That for some stupid reason you got here before me
'Cause even so you're still loved by everyone at home
There's always dinner waiting on the table, you know
"I'm hungry", said the girl as she shed a tear
The girl short as can be then disappeared
And like that, there was someone every day
I listened to their tale, I made them turn away
And yet there was no one who would do this for me
No way I could let out all this pain
For the very first time there I see
Someone with the same pains as me
Having done this time and time again
She wore a yellow cardigan
"I just wanna stop the scars that grow
Every time that I go home
That's why I came up here instead"
That's what the girl in the cardigan said
Whoa, wait a minute what did I just say?
I couldn't care less either way
But in the moment I just screamed
Something that I could not believe
"Hey, don't do it please!"
Ah, what to do? I can't stop this girl, oh this is new
For once I think I've bitten off more than I can chew
But even so, please just go away so I can't see
Your pitiful expression is just too much for me
"I guess today is just not my day"
She looked away from me and then she disappeared
There's no one here today, I guess it's time
It's just me myself and I
There is no one who can interfere
No one to get in my way here
Taking off my yellow cardigan
Watching my braids all come undone
This petite girl, short as can be
Is gonna jump now and be free
extra canon line: "Hey! Dont do it, please"
3:04 you can really hear her emotions in the "please just" part
If you were in a band Anna, what would it be called?
Anna and the Pantsus /j
The Anna-maniacs
The Pantsu’s
Anna's Pantsu
Your very first comment :0
ANNA AND RACHIE LET'S GO NEVER THOUGHT I'D SEE THE DAY
SAME TWO OF MY FAVORITE SINGERS
@@lynn_studios9327 ME TOO!
YUHHHH
Same here. Hoped for them to be in a song and it happend :D
I was never suicidal, but this song speaks to me, because I was the one everyone turned to for a long time, but I had nobody to turn to myself.
I acted as the person that listened to everyone's problems. My friends, my parents, my brother, my sister, everyone. I tried to help them all the best I could. I lost many people and pets in my lifetime before listening to this song, and even made an attempt on my life once because I had no one to talk to myself. I am currently 18, turning 19 this Saturday, and I am still going strong. There is nothing you can truly say to someone that could get them to stop doing what they are doing, but you can be there to listen to their problems and be a shoulder for them to cry on. Not many people are going to remember what you said, but they are going to remember what you did, and how you made them feel. Be that ear that they need, be that shoulder to cry on, and for those that need to hear this....never stop trying....voice your problems, do not hide it all....it just makes your situation so much worse....
thank you for reading this, and god bless all of you
Thank you for all the good you've done for so many people. You too, when you're down and in need of help, if you're ever too hurt from listening to everyone's problems, I hope you'll have someone to listen to you and help you. Stay strong ^^
You know I may not be good in anything but youre not alone in that boat my problems I don't know what they are i just know I want to stop existing but if there's a thing almost everyone had said about me and it's good that thing is I always hearing them no matter what
❤️❤️❤️
Hey.
You too.
I completely forgot about this song- I saw your other video in it yesterday and fell in love.
10/10 cover as always to you, Bao and Rachie :)
OMG! I love your videos!!!
LETS GOOOOOOO ANTI IVE BEEN WATCHING YOU FROM 30 SUBS
I feel like this is me in a way I stop all my friends from killing/hurting them selfs but no one helps me
I know this song is about a girl hallucinating other people with the same problems as she stalls her self from committing suicide but DAMN THIS SONG IS AN ABSOLUTE BANGER!
I didn't even know I had this dream until it became reality
Oml I am BAWLING my eyes out at the moment. I found this song when I was going through a really dark time in my life, and it just brings back so much emotion. This song means the world to me, and I can't thank Anna enough for making it so beautiful
When I first heard this song and didn't know the people the singer was talking to was all herself, I thought 'that's a really insensitive thing to say to somebody struggling'. After, I found out and felt oh, that would be exactly the kind of thing I'd say to myself ("at least you have ___!") and though I was really sad about the ending, I hadn't felt offended anymore.
But now I'm thinking, that doesn't make sense. If it's a horrible thing to say to other people, why wouldn't it be a horrible thing to say to yourself. God, it's so hard to be kind to yourself.
Thank you for the great cover :) Your voice hit me hard here.
I think it's easier to be mean to ourselves because there's less reason to be nice, if you're talking to someone else you don't want to hurt them, make something you don't know about worse, or you just don't want to spoil the mood, but there is no incentive to be nice to yourself. I remember reading part of a theory recently that we're self critical because of a survival tactic, you're brain brings it up so you can fix it, so from an objective point of view it's more beneficial to be nice to other people (strength in numbers and the need to socialize) and it's beneficial for us to self-criticize and improve in order to survive better, but when you add subjectivity to it then everything gets gummed up.
I don't know if that makes sense at all, sorry if it doesn't.
@@Resters52_official Thai actually hits the nail on the head, thank you
I mean, everyone in my family always says these sorts of things when I bring up my problems.
I have no friends really because of them.
I completely agree. She has no support system and she treats herself horribly... Is it any wonder that she couldn't take it anymore?
@@tahraethestoryteller6079 I hope you do now, it will in the future. Need to chat?
My R is my comfort song because I have suicidal thoughts and this song actually convinced me not to jump. So this is amazing to me!
That's great!!
Same tbh
Throughout the whole song: "Im okay, im okay, don't cry, don't cry."
Last lines: *Crys intensely and clicks replay"
That’s so damn relatable, like it hurts.
Relatable.
to all the people who used to listen to this, had a breakdown, struggling in life or are depressed: you are not alone in this world. you may feel like no one understands you but there are millions of people who share the same pain. you may think “no one will miss me, right?” wrong. many people will miss you. i will miss you, even though i’m a complete stranger in the comments. i would listen to this song and relate to this song so much. make sure to take care of yourself, drink water and get exercise. ^^ (feel free to vent in the comments)
- Parker/P. (pronouns He/Him/They/Them)
thank you anna for posting a cover of this, it’s one of my favorite songs ^^
And even if you think that there’s nobody who really cares about you, there is, and even more importantly, there’s more people out there who will, you just haven’t met them yet. Those people you haven’t met yet care for you more than you can imagine, and even if they’re a long ways away, you’ll be glad you stayed to meet them, and can look back on this moment and know that you are happy.
Please don't make me cry again, but thankyou so much for that, I really needed to hear it. I hope you're living a good life, you deserve to
@@-millie-6748 you are very welcome. i hope you’re doing well in life too! :)
change the was depressed to
*am depressed
and had a breakdown to
*has breakdowns
I've been through alot of things-
I still struggle to this day
@@Jaden_Games are you ok? Don't worry, I'm struggling too, if you want to rant to me then you can
I sang this song with my friends at a lecture at my school about suicide and how to help a friend. As this song speaks very explicitly about that, we picked it and sang it together to see if it had more impact on the performance, and it ended up working :) I was the lead vocal. I LOVE YOUR WORK ANNA!!
I love your pfp
1) The kindest act I have witnessed was how so much people helped a stranded child who was crying. There was this old woman who took the kid on her arms and was calming him trying to make him spit out his mother's phone number. As much as I wanted to help, I just could stay there, watching, until the poor child's parents appeared. I smiled and went away. I think anytime we witness someone helping any other person we just can't help it but smile and consider it the best thing of the world. There also was this other time when it was raining so bad and the wind was blowing as if the world was gonna end, and all the motorbikes fell, so many neighbours and I started lifting them up, so they wouldn't break.
2) The most joy for me? When my beloved ones are happy. I feel pretty relaxed and also happy myself when there's no need to help anyone because they're all happy.
(sorry if I had any mistake on my grammar or vocabulary, not a native english speaker here ^^'')
That's a really nice thing to witness I didn't really witness but when I was 5 I was drowning in a long my family was a bit far away (I ran off) and a stranger saved I don't remember their face but I am thankful to them
Alright the fact that it sounds like she's holding back tears at certain parts of the song just makes this hit ridiculously hard.
Also the line "I can't stop this girl, oh this is new" just destroys me every time.
Wait, is this all the same girl? Like, is she fighting off her demons one by one as she convinces herself it's not worth dying for, until one day she can't even do that any more. Are they all the singer, just like, different aspects of her mind?
Yep
Yep
yep
The sadder thing is she killed herself in the end from what i got. Edit, scratch that she got saved.
She is trying to convice herself to not do it, but she fails at the end
However, it has a happy end! This is from a album with a lot of good songs called "diary of underaged observation" and in the last song (called just like the album) she saves the girl from My R before she does it
To anyone struggling in life rn: you always will have someone that will miss you when your gone, you will always have someone somewhat upset with you for harming yourself since they care for you so much. You're not alone, and you can reach out to some you trust like a friend or adult. You don't have to go through hard things in life alone. I know it may be hard right now, but your strong and amazing, and I know you'll pull through whatever your going thru. I love you, even if I don't know you ❤️
Let's get this high up
And also thanks for the support even if it's not aimed at just one person in struggling at the moment and this song is my coping method because I have friends that if I commit they will aswell or they'll go on a murder spree of everyone who even said one bad thing to me because their overprotective
SOBBING. I never heard the full version of this song till now. THE SWITCH UP AT THE END OHMIGOSH AND YOUR VOICE!?!? HEAAQQA!!!!
Yooo my childhood came rushing back hearing this song :’>
Same. POV: We were exposed to the internet really early
same here
I saw this on Apple Music the other day and listened to it already, so I can confirm that this is absolute ART!!
same here but with spotify :3
I saw this on UA-cam already
@@irachan3978 same
@@irachan3978 same
"You've probably heard it all before" is a really clever line in this particular cover considering the two other people featured in this video have two of the most popular covers of this song on UA-cam.
I really want someone to cover the part 2 of this song which is Diary of An Undercover Observer. The song revolves around a person who kept on observing the girl here in this song everyday, she noticed how the girl's mental health kept going worse so the observer had to save her before she jumped.
Just a message for you guys. For those who need to hear it. And I doubt anyone will see it, but that’s okay :)
If you are thinking about doing what this song says, it is not worth it. You have so much to live for, think about the small moments in your life that make it worth living. You are worth it. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Much love
-Your local Makoto Naegi
Thank you so much.
I just had these thoughts a bit ago and then this music found me. I'm trans and pretty sure my parents want me dead bc of it, they make me uncomfortable and overthink the small moments of happiness, so they're not as happy in my mind as I remember, be it by building plastic models with my brother or just going to the beach, they always stain it. I'm not really sure if things will get better, but I'll try to stay here. Hope you're safe, mate.
For now, I don’t really find the strength and motivation to believe your words. While it may be true, I’m just getting more and more exhausted, I… kinda want to give up haha.
@Tiger And Friends You’re welcome ^^
@@Gabe-wg9vu I’m sorry to hear about your parents not accepting you. I truly hope things get better for you soon. You’re just as valid as anyone else in this world ^^
Me seeing a song post by Anna: “PRAISE THE SUN!!! She grace’s us mortals once more!!!”
I know this is not the true meaning of the song, and that all the girls are actually the same person. But having the different voices for the different girls makes it seem as if the death of the person who saved them caused the previous girls to kill themselves. Showing that suicide greatly affects other people who are considering it, and increased their chances of also committing suicide. An interesting way to look at it.
Very interesting way to look at it indeed.
Just wanted to point out a small detail which I thought was pretty neat. The one time that she recognizes the person as "someone with the same pains as me" is also the first time that she couldn't stop them, it's like she finally realized how alone she was hence why she says "your pitiful expression is just too much for me."
This song hits different, I used to listen to this non-stop a few years back when I was in a really dark place because I kinda related to it. When I saw this cover I hesitated to listen because I was scared it would bring back the bad memories but I clicked anyways out of curiosity. It surprisingly made me feel free, like listening to it again in a happier place released the chains that held me down before. It feels so nice to get this off my chest, so thanks Anna! If you guys are ever feeling down in the dumps then just know it gets better, I promise. The longer you wait the better it'll get and one day you'll be thankful for every little thing that happens, someone holding a door or receiving a hug instead of cursing when a bug appears or when you get a tickle in your throat. Keep pushing through
Whoever you are, you are not alone. Your feelings are valid. You are cared for, you are loved, and you are a friend here. Please take care of yourselves. Suicide is never the answer. There are many hotlines that can help you and will lend an ear. I love you all everybody. ^^❤️
Songs like these have a very special meaning to those going through what they are talking about. I remember a few years ago, I was in a very deep depression, and listened to Dear Evan Hansen for the first time. Just the clear message that you are not alone in going through something like this is invaluable to someone who feels invisible to the world. Every time I see a song like My R or Lifeboat or Waving Through a Window, I smile a little because I know that someone will listen to it and know that they are not alone. So thanks, ms Pantsu, if that is your real name. You’ve done some real good here.
As a person who tried to hurt them self. It really does get better guys! I have so many amazing people in my life and I'm enjoying every minute of it!
What really got me through it was drawing. It brings me the most joy in life! Sending hugs to everyone who needs one till it does get better 🥰🫂🤗
I love this song! Your voice matches it perfectly. thank you for covering it♡♡
“My R”
This is more like a W (in terms of singing ability)
I don't get it...why a w
@@noonespecial2859 Its means a win
@@softyi what does r stand for?
@@Spectorwing I think I read in another comment section that the r means "my reason(s)".
@@dragonlordmusic4607 oh ok ty I was just confused
What brings me the most joy when someone comments something positive on my art or my appearence. On my 13 years of my life, I've been bodyshamed for being "fat." Im still insecure about my body, but someone saying that I look good today or someone actually starts a conversation with me instead of commenting on my body bring me so much fucking joy. Also, someone just saying that my art is so fucking good just makes me break down in tears. On my 13 years of my life, I felt that everyone was so much better than me and that I was the worst artist ever, but someone saying that it looks good just slaps so hard.
The kindest act I've witnessed is probally someone saying that my art was so fucking good and that they wish I had my abilities as an artist. I teared up by hearing that. It felt like I was on the top of my game and just because of that one singular comment, I continued to do art and learned to love it. :)
If dark song, why banger?
This song is like sorrow in disguise. The song has such cheery keys, but everything about the song screams sad, and not ok. I love this song so much, but gosh it’s has such dark undertones.
Also here’s an interesting fact. It contains indirect references to d*ath though so be cautious
In the song it references taking their shoes off before they attempted to jump, the reason is because when you are at the gates of heaven doesn’t want dirt all on the floors of heaven (or the judging place)
I was OBSESSED with rachie's cover a couple years back im so glad you did this it sounds AMAIZING
I don't think I've seen anyone else say this, but I absolutely love that Anna chose to do this cover with two people that have made incredibly popular covers of it in the past. It really feels like its paying tribute to the covers that came before it, personally I never listened to Bao's cover but I adore Rachie's cover as well as this cover, keep up the hard work
I love this song it sometimes let me cry when no one isn’t around I even listen to this during school you’re voice is amazing
I just finished singing this song and crying now I have to cry again :,(
* hugs you*
@@karaigrayson8198 thank you :)
YESSSS my favourite singer covering my favourite song, I don’t think this day can get any better!
SAMEE
The Story in this song is not finished. In the Song: "Diary of Underage Observation" a girl documents her Observations of her classmates.
At the end, she sees a Girl, wearing yellow, standing on the rooftop. She noted how she only observed so far, but now that changes. She needs to tell her something, something that she does not believe. The Guitar changes and plays the notes of this song: "My R" as she says:
"Hey,
don't do
it please."
I personally think that the singer isn't trying to stop others from jumping off. I think they are reasoning with themself to not do it. Like yeah the singer goes to the rooftop and sees another person but that person is just a personification of their bad thoughts. then stop themselves by giving reasons like they are never robbed or they are loved. But they cannot do this anymore, they cannot reason with themselves this time. hence the line "I can't stop this girl oh this is new" because their bad thoughts are right and they cannot convince themselves to stop anymore and from this realization they are up there crying. Next day they come to the rooftop again and are ready to un-live. So that's why their attributes matches other people. That's why they are taking of the yellow cardigan and opening their braids and they are saying that they are short, all these attributes of the singer matches the other people they have helped, because they were helping and convincing themselves only.
Idk just a weird observation and theory.
AND TO ANYONE WHO FEELS HELPLESS PLEASE DON'T. YOU WILL SEE BETTER DAYS. GO TALK TO PEOPLE (NOT PEOPLE AROUND YOU IF THEY ARE TOXIC) AND CALL A HELPLINE OR A THERAPIST OR I YOU HAVE NO ONE MESSAGE ME YES ME A RANDOM PERSON ON THE INTERNET. TELL ME YOUR WORRIES I WILL DO MY BEST TO SUPPORT YOU ♥️💞
Me on first listen: "hey this is a bop."
Me on second listen, actually listening to the lyrics: "...oh..."
Still a bop
@@biaj.8864 a sad bop but a bop nonetheless
@@xXCherriBxbaXx what is a bop?
@@Ruby7070 the song just sounds good. It just means it's uhhhhhh how do I explain it???
@@Ruby7070 basically a bop is a song that sounds really great and you love to listen to it like a personal theme song in a way
Not me sobbing on a bus full of people. Can’t believe I just got caught slipping.
I’ve been going through a lot lately so thank you for putting this out before I did something stupid.
You are loved, there are always people who are glad you are alive, even if you have a hard time seeing them
Remember leaving this world isn't as scary as it sounds.
"im hungry" me too girl me too
I never would've anticipated an Anna cover of My R, I've been blessed
“A blessing from the lord!”
royannalty
the part where she sings "are you upset cus you can't have what you wanted?" just scratches my brain
Bao ate the ‘Watching my braids all come undone’
EXCUSE ME???? THREE LEGENDS IN THE SAME GODDAMN COVER??? No cus we do not deserve 🛐😩
The song brings back 2018 gacha memories lol
Same lol
@@mayabean237 same
@@mayabean237 My gacha phase was cringey and also full of this song and miss wanna (unalive), damn I think I was one of those gacha kids (why past me why)
@@mayabean237 PLEASE I CAN RELATEEE GACHA JUST *HAD* TO BE THERE LIKE DID IT HAVE TO I want forget that phaseee
oh great another person who had a gacha phase in 2018
"For gods sake please" Dumbledore said calmly
Ripped jesus
@@jasbirks yes
Stay determined
Don't loose hope!
-undertale
Remember no matter how bad it is you are you no one else is you.
you can change your fate.
Please Live to see what this huge beautiful world has to offer you it will work out in the end.
This song always makes me tear up a little bit; the way I interpret it, she's dealing with each problem individually per day, and beating it, but eventually just the combination of all of it once, just cannot be overcome. I like to think the cover Emirichu did is onto something though, with someone coming when all seems lost, and catching her at the end.
Okay BUT LOOK AT THE ART-
*I hope everyone is doing well!*
Your amazing cover aside, I'm happy this song is still popular. I never found it in me to see it as unsettling. It just gives me the vibe of a necessary rough help, like the good shake we all need once in a while to get back on feet. I love that song and you made it even better ^^
Gosh I just got thrown back in time! You guys did awesome!! Your voice is always a blessing 🙏🏼
I listened to this wearing a yellow cardigan.
Let's just say I'm shooketh
I for real was hoping you’d cover this the last time I heard it, you’re so talentedd (Also stay safe everyone!)
Okay, so, for thoses who ask, yes, she survived... At least, it looks like it. This song is actually the first song of a sing serie called "Diary of an underage observer" made by Kurage-P. All the songs are talking about different peoples with different problems, and then, the final song (if chainsaw girl doesn't count), "Diary of an underage observer", the girl of this song kept record of all the other events, and she ended up interfering with the girl from "My R", telling *her* to not do it
This song just f*cks up my mental health but if you are singing it I can't just skip it can I? So just imagine me in tears sitting against my bedroom door listening to this full volume with my EarPods. You are awesome and this was an actually good moment for me!
Remember seeking help is NOT weakness.
Damn! This song hits hard and fierce, uncontrollable sobbing near the end.
I have a depressed friend who although her family loves her, her parents are divorced, her mom gets drunk alot and she is sexually harassed at her school. I showed her this and she said that she relates to this alot, and I just want to say thank you. She is suicidal and I hope that this song helps in my efforts to help her so thank you very much for making this.
I hope that you're friend and yourself are ok
"I couldn't careless either way". I really feel that. I do nice things all the time yet feel like that I don't really care. I feel like I do it because I think thats what is expected of me or that I'd be bad if I didn't. Sometimes I feel like I care about people but other times I feel like I am going through the motions and that I am just pretending. I second guess my motives a lot too and think to myself "Am I doing this to be nice or because I want something?" Like if it involves a girl I'm attracted to I try to do a similar nice thing for a dude just to justify to myself that I wasn't just trying to get her to like me.- It's nice to write things down and get them off my chest, thanks if you read my ted talk lol.
whether or not we care, i think at the very least we somewhat care enough to still do it. i think you're a good person if you're questioning your own motives, so dont downplay yourself
@@kuriositykilledthekat Thanks. You seem like a good person too based on your comment.
@@kuriositykilledthekat This is kinda heavy so don't read if you don't want to deal with that....
My friend recently committed suicide this november and I felt fake the two times I cried about him.They both started because hearing people that seemed more genuinely sad made me sad and was more uncontrollable crying then anything. Like I tried to make myself stop crying but I couldn't. It felt like I was lying to them that I was just as hurt that he died as they were. At the end of the day it seemed like it made them feel better, like people said that the speech I forced myself to do at his wake's open mic encouraged everyone else to step up and speak too, but it felt fake. I tried my hardest to stop crying during it but I couldnt control my body... I was actually upset that I apparently encouraged so many other people to speak during his open mic because i wanted to leave early and do home work.... but the speeches took up the full wake time after me.....Idk
@@theeye8276 grief is hard, and its difficult and different for people. you dont have to cry to show how much someone's death affects you, everyone's grief process is different. and i want you to know you're strong for having to put on a mask for everyone else. take care of yourself and take all the time you need to process it, im sure you were a very good friend to him in his life