To have those type of existential questions is pretty normal for people your age. I think it is healthy; no one really knows what they want or has all the answers. The people who pretend they do, or who ignore those questions, are usually the ones who have real problems. Accumulate knowledge as you go along and things will fall into place. All the books you mention are essential to that. Love your channel, very peaceful.
agreed!! thank u for this comment - i think i did a poor job of explaining given most of the comments in response, but your comment reassures me that i was understood. thank u!
One thing that’s helped me really ground myself in what i want and get some direction in my life is sobriety. It’s been hard since I’ll always find a reason to smoke or drink but it’s helped a lot in terms of progressing in life. Sobriety doesn’t have to be for forever tho 😀
Erich Maria Remarque had immense impact on me. Most notably Arch of Triumph, Black Obelisk and Three Comrades. Lastly - The Night in Lisbon. He has a very poetic way of writing riveting and real romantic stories. Actually absorbing them seriously develops you as a better person, IMHO.
Brave New World by Aldous Huxley. Sometimes a Great Notion by Ken Kesey. The World According to Garp by John Irving. On The Road by Jack Kerouac and The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test by Tom Wolfe (read these last two in that order).
One of the more interesting and influential books I've ever read was "Evil: The Shadow Side of Reality" by John A. Sanford (who is a priest and a psychologist, if I remember correctly). It explores the concept of evil from both a religious point of view as well as psychology, and was the first book I'd read that discussed the concept of "the shadow," in terms of personality, which I found utterly fascinating. One of the other many ideas presented was of evil as that against which good must be tested in order to be known. Anyway, perhaps you'd find it interesting, too.
thank you! this sounds super interesting, especially given the author’s position as a psychologist and priest. i had a professor who was both a psychologist and a minister, i took his class on psychology of religion/spirituality and it was great! thanks for the recommendation:)
Existential moments are what center what really matters to you. It's important to find that because (as someone a couple years older than you) just getting a job won't answer that, or even if you had enough money to live comfy, you'll still be seeking whatever it is you want. It's about finding and pursuing what matters in life for you Book recs: - The Will to Believe and Other Essays in Popular Philosophy by William James (specifically 'Is Life Worth Living'). You might also be interested in parts of The Specter of the Absurd by Donald Crosby, tho it's a longish philosophy book. Also, Mortal Questions by Thomas Nagel. - Dostoevsky's novels: Crime and Punishment, The Brothers Karamazov - they're long and take a while to go through, but all get you thinking about what matters in life - The Plague by Camus is, imo, better than The Stranger - maybe you'd like The Count of Monte Cristo by Dumas Thanks for posting, let us know what you end up reading
agreed! that’s why i’m choosing to engage with my interests and hobbies right now rather than try to find a job just for the sake of getting a job (& i’m lucky to have the privilege to do so)! thank you for the book recommendations :)
Before you even talked about it, I was thinking how that colorful shirt looks so good on you. I would love to recommend a few books for you and anyone who sees this…‘Beqoming’ by Azrya and Benjamin Bequer (living a powerfully authentic life), ‘Braiding Sweetgrass’ by Robin Wall Kimmerer (nature connection), ‘Angels in my Hair’ by Lorna Byrne (or anything by her about the angels with us all). I wish you love and hope you take good care of yourself. 😀♥️ Thank you for creating these relaxing ASMR videos. -With appreciation…Ernie
i would highly recommend “the alchemist” by paulo coelho. a beautiful story and metaphor about discovering oneself and all the wonder and beauty in life. i feel so similarly at times but this book left a lasting impact on me and i always come back to it and i could not recommend it enough :)
Book recommendation : _Survivor_ by Chuck Palahniuk (he wrote Fight Club). Nice hat ( you won't have to worry about birds landing on you) Thanks for showin' and tellin' !
You can quit most jobs at any time. If you wait for job inspiration, it may never come. It's even possible your inspiration is waiting for you during one of your shifts or in a conversation with a colleague. You also have the option for something part time. Other advice would be to do a job where you feel you are giving back or contributing to the success of the organization. Lastly, colleagues are the 2nd most important thing so if you can think of a job that has like-minded people, give it a shot! I definitely agree that people should work to live and not live to work. If they can of course.
It's the end of year 'and what have you done' feels -- which is intense. As others prob suggest, volunteering maybe beneficial in exploring options (or perhaps a useful distraction). Find areas of potential interest (books, outdoors, animal welfare, etc) and commit some time. Dunno -- it's difficult, but sometimes making a start is a start. Also, learn a pragmatically useful skill. Maybe couple 1984 with Huxley's, Brave New World. . . both prescient. (Then again, AI is upon us so social conditioning a whole new level.) Keep playing around with music/beats. Have fun. Thanks for the asmr.
i feel like it’s okay to want things - i think that wanting things too badly leads to attachment to those things then leads to suffering, so it’s better to find fulfillment internally / with what you have available.
I mainly collect and read horror and "banned" books, you should like 1984. I recommend Where the Crawdads Sing, Pet Sematary, I`m Thinking of Ending Things and Edgar Allan Poe and H.P. Lovecraft collections.
This kind of videos are like therapy, as a kid the years go by slow as an adult the years go by fast. We both are on the same boat we want change as want something better, Maybe you should start your own thrift store business, I promise you 2025 will be your best!! ❤💯
…I thought, no way can anyone pull off that hat… and then you put it on! How? How do you look so damn cute even in that?!? 🐡 ~ 😍 (I’m calling it your Blowfish hat) That zip up shirt you’re wearing looks really cute on you too 🌈
I wish I had a place in the DC area but close to the white house or us capital building I would walk by their every single day , I walk every day in the morning for about an hour , Washington DC a lot of American history
You should work at a dispensary. Seems like chill way to make friends and make some money. Not many jobs encourage employees to use recreational drugs. Many places are not drug tolerant and test for it. It seems like a newer industry too, so networking with the right people could be lucrative in the future.
U have mentioned a couple time ur family roots being from Poland..so why not a trip there to figure out things in life..! - in terms of eye opening litterateur, philosophy, I would recommend J.Krishnamurti.
you seem like someone who might be hurting deeply inside in some places. Me too. Let me tell u that u ain't seen nothin yet and it will only get worse from here until you start to realize and pull out of your mind what really keeps you going. You'll never truly find yourself but u can find the little things that are a part of you that will make your life worth living. Much love and keep going with your life and this channel 💜
Kind of grim. My advice would be to remember how it felt good once and how you were enthusiastic about stuff.. and remind yourself that it was real and it can come back.
Life is as much beautiful as it is horrible. If you focus on either side you limit yourself and that makes it hard so see clear. Accept that there is good and bad and pick your own way. If you believe that it will become worse, you set yourself up for only that.
I feel like it may be dangerous to equate faith with a religious text. No religion can be, nor should be, reduced to its religious text. Religion and spirituality are very powerful - they can help people feel less lost, for example - but I think it’s more about the subject’s belief and faith than it is about reading the text since those are just words. Anyhow, it’s good to feel lost sometimes - that’s how you find things!
@ You seem highly intelligent, especially in the field of philosophy and religion. However, it is a mistake to equate the Bible to mere words or text on a page. It is the Words of God Himself. Life’s brevity is often ignored in youth, but is a hard reality as we age. I pray you will find true peace and contentment through the only one that provides it; the Prince of Peace.
The Bible is only the Words of God insofar as the person reading those words has faith and belief in God. If a person reading the Bible has no faith/belief in God, then it is just words on a page by some (perhaps) unknown author. You can find peace and contentment in God - I can find peace and contentment in Nature. People are different. Not everyone finds peace and contentment in the same entity, just let it be.
7 habits of highly effective people by stephen r. Covey was a really great book i read after i graduated college last year. I know youre looking for jobs and its just a really good read while youre doing so.
Beautiful girl, natural wholesome, everywhere love, but Tom wasted his life in peculiarities and ego trips, although surely dysfunctional family doesn't help. Lesson for the young. Anyway while there's life and health, there's hope. ♥️👍
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To have those type of existential questions is pretty normal for people your age. I think it is healthy; no one really knows what they want or has all the answers. The people who pretend they do, or who ignore those questions, are usually the ones who have real problems. Accumulate knowledge as you go along and things will fall into place. All the books you mention are essential to that. Love your channel, very peaceful.
agreed!! thank u for this comment - i think i did a poor job of explaining given most of the comments in response, but your comment reassures me that i was understood. thank u!
Your rambles are always so relaxing, thankyou Sophia! 😌
I love these ramble videos... Your voice is really soothing.
thanks!
This seems perfect to listen to when I can't sleep. Before I know it, I start to feel drowsy.❤
I didn’t want this video to end!✌🏻
This was a lot of fun to watch, Sophia. I can imagine how fun it would be to go thrifting with you.
One thing that’s helped me really ground myself in what i want and get some direction in my life is sobriety. It’s been hard since I’ll always find a reason to smoke or drink but it’s helped a lot in terms of progressing in life. Sobriety doesn’t have to be for forever tho 😀
Erich Maria Remarque had immense impact on me. Most notably Arch of Triumph, Black Obelisk and Three Comrades. Lastly - The Night in Lisbon.
He has a very poetic way of writing riveting and real romantic stories. Actually absorbing them seriously develops you as a better person, IMHO.
thank you for the recs!!
☮☮☮ I Love Your Mellow Flow . You have an excellent ASMR voice . ☮☮☮
Brave New World by Aldous Huxley. Sometimes a Great Notion by Ken Kesey. The World According to Garp by John Irving. On The Road by Jack Kerouac and The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test by Tom Wolfe (read these last two in that order).
thank you!!
I like when you talk, thanks.
absolutely get it sometimes you just want to exist without needing a validation or reason to exist
this sums up what i meant perfectly!!
@ glad i wasn’t projecting, just turned 24 and have been feeling like this so definitely get it
One of the more interesting and influential books I've ever read was "Evil: The Shadow Side of Reality" by John A. Sanford (who is a priest and a psychologist, if I remember correctly). It explores the concept of evil from both a religious point of view as well as psychology, and was the first book I'd read that discussed the concept of "the shadow," in terms of personality, which I found utterly fascinating. One of the other many ideas presented was of evil as that against which good must be tested in order to be known. Anyway, perhaps you'd find it interesting, too.
thank you! this sounds super interesting, especially given the author’s position as a psychologist and priest. i had a professor who was both a psychologist and a minister, i took his class on psychology of religion/spirituality and it was great! thanks for the recommendation:)
Existential moments are what center what really matters to you. It's important to find that because (as someone a couple years older than you) just getting a job won't answer that, or even if you had enough money to live comfy, you'll still be seeking whatever it is you want. It's about finding and pursuing what matters in life for you
Book recs:
- The Will to Believe and Other Essays in Popular Philosophy by William James (specifically 'Is Life Worth Living'). You might also be interested in parts of The Specter of the Absurd by Donald Crosby, tho it's a longish philosophy book. Also, Mortal Questions by Thomas Nagel.
- Dostoevsky's novels: Crime and Punishment, The Brothers Karamazov - they're long and take a while to go through, but all get you thinking about what matters in life
- The Plague by Camus is, imo, better than The Stranger
- maybe you'd like The Count of Monte Cristo by Dumas
Thanks for posting, let us know what you end up reading
agreed! that’s why i’m choosing to engage with my interests and hobbies right now rather than try to find a job just for the sake of getting a job (& i’m lucky to have the privilege to do so)! thank you for the book recommendations :)
Yay!!
Before you even talked about it, I was thinking how that colorful shirt looks so good on you. I would love to recommend a few books for you and anyone who sees this…‘Beqoming’ by Azrya and Benjamin Bequer (living a powerfully authentic life), ‘Braiding Sweetgrass’ by Robin Wall Kimmerer (nature connection), ‘Angels in my Hair’ by Lorna Byrne (or anything by her about the angels with us all). I wish you love and hope you take good care of yourself. 😀♥️ Thank you for creating these relaxing ASMR videos. -With appreciation…Ernie
Thanks so much!
I really enjoyed the Red Rising series, it’s similar to The Hunger Games but better written in my opinion.
i would highly recommend “the alchemist” by paulo coelho. a beautiful story and metaphor about discovering oneself and all the wonder and beauty in life. i feel so similarly at times but this book left a lasting impact on me and i always come back to it and i could not recommend it enough :)
thank you for this rec!
😍
Book recommendation : _Survivor_ by Chuck Palahniuk (he wrote Fight Club).
Nice hat ( you won't have to worry about birds landing on you)
Thanks for showin' and tellin' !
thank you for these recommendations!!
You can quit most jobs at any time. If you wait for job inspiration, it may never come.
It's even possible your inspiration is waiting for you during one of your shifts or in a conversation with a colleague.
You also have the option for something part time.
Other advice would be to do a job where you feel you are giving back or contributing to the success of the organization.
Lastly, colleagues are the 2nd most important thing so if you can think of a job that has like-minded people, give it a shot!
I definitely agree that people should work to live and not live to work. If they can of course.
The power of now by Eckhart Tolle is a great book!
it’s on its way to my home 🙈 ty for the rec!
Queen so active thx
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It's the end of year 'and what have you done' feels -- which is intense.
As others prob suggest, volunteering maybe beneficial in exploring options (or perhaps a useful distraction). Find areas of potential interest (books, outdoors, animal welfare, etc) and commit some time. Dunno -- it's difficult, but sometimes making a start is a start.
Also, learn a pragmatically useful skill.
Maybe couple 1984 with Huxley's, Brave New World. . . both prescient.
(Then again, AI is upon us so social conditioning a whole new level.)
Keep playing around with music/beats. Have fun.
Thanks for the asmr.
Tbh I feel the way same as you! I’m still struggling to find out the answers of what I want or if I should want anything?
i feel like it’s okay to want things - i think that wanting things too badly leads to attachment to those things then leads to suffering, so it’s better to find fulfillment internally / with what you have available.
@ Thanks for this!!☺️✨
Great book: 90 pages
Don't Believe Everything You Think: Why Your Thinking Is the Beginning&End of Suffering
Joseph Nguyen
all sounds great, thank you!
I mainly collect and read horror and "banned" books, you should like 1984. I recommend Where the Crawdads Sing, Pet Sematary, I`m Thinking of Ending Things and Edgar Allan Poe and H.P. Lovecraft collections.
thank u!!
Sounds like you need to stop smoking so much weed! 😂 Love ya! You have my support! 🫶
Love ya ❤
My favorite book / series is The Parable of the Sower by Octavia butler
thank u for this rec!
Happy New Year!!! I wish you the best for 2025 🎉🎊
thank u, to u as well!
@a_gapa thank you nena ❤
Gapa on a 2 day Streak???
Less gooo 😩🙏🏼
On the Road by Jack Kerouac is a pretty standard and influential read.
thanks!
Exquisite
Books:
The Alchemist (Insanely good everyone must read)
Desert Solitaire
Braiding sweetgrass
thank youuu for these!
East of Eden by John Steinbeck is probably my favourite book, I think you might like.
thank u!
This kind of videos are like therapy, as a kid the years go by slow as an adult the years go by fast. We both are on the same boat we want change as want something better, Maybe you should start your own thrift store business, I promise you 2025 will be your best!! ❤💯
Love Is A Mix Tape by Rob Sheffield.
sounds very good, ty for the rec!!
Gang
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…I thought, no way can anyone pull off that hat… and then you put it on! How? How do you look so damn cute even in that?!? 🐡 ~ 😍 (I’m calling it your Blowfish hat)
That zip up shirt you’re wearing looks really cute on you too 🌈
thank u!
Has anyone told you that you look exactly like Raboot?🤭❤️.You also look like glaceon.😊❤
I’m in Virginia! Not near DC tho
I wish I had a place in the DC area but close to the white house or us capital building I would walk by their every single day , I walk every day in the morning for about an hour , Washington DC a lot of American history
Little Women -Louisa May Alcott
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You should work at a dispensary. Seems like chill way to make friends and make some money. Not many jobs encourage employees to use recreational drugs. Many places are not drug tolerant and test for it. It seems like a newer industry too, so networking with the right people could be lucrative in the future.
funny you mention it cause i just recently applied to some!
U have mentioned a couple time ur family roots being from Poland..so why not a trip there to figure out things in life..! - in terms of eye opening litterateur, philosophy, I would recommend J.Krishnamurti.
you seem like someone who might be hurting deeply inside in some places. Me too. Let me tell u that u ain't seen nothin yet and it will only get worse from here until you start to realize and pull out of your mind what really keeps you going. You'll never truly find yourself but u can find the little things that are a part of you that will make your life worth living. Much love and keep going with your life and this channel 💜
Kind of grim.
My advice would be to remember how it felt good once and how you were enthusiastic about stuff.. and remind yourself that it was real and it can come back.
Life is as much beautiful as it is horrible. If you focus on either side you limit yourself and that makes it hard so see clear. Accept that there is good and bad and pick your own way. If you believe that it will become worse, you set yourself up for only that.
I’m feeling pretty good lately, but thank you for the kind words!
@@a_gapa you're welcome, good to hear, take care 💜
If I was you I’d try growing your channel
dude yr parents are sick. Ty Segall rocks, especially his older stuff.
If you want a job which is very easy super low stress I can hook you up but it’s in the Bay Area
i've lost this days...you need to smile more often...i did'nt realize how beautifull it was❤
thank u :)
@a_gapa learn spanish & gimme a baby.
@a_gapa keep making content, miss u.
Have UA-cam pay you for creating content.
The book of Sirach
The book of Enoch
The book of Jasher 😊
You seem a little lost. Buy a Bible and read it.
How is this supposed to help ?
FREE PALESTINE !!🇪🇭
I feel like it may be dangerous to equate faith with a religious text. No religion can be, nor should be, reduced to its religious text. Religion and spirituality are very powerful - they can help people feel less lost, for example - but I think it’s more about the subject’s belief and faith than it is about reading the text since those are just words. Anyhow, it’s good to feel lost sometimes - that’s how you find things!
@ You seem highly intelligent, especially in the field of philosophy and religion. However, it is a mistake to equate the Bible to mere words or text on a page. It is the Words of God Himself. Life’s brevity is often ignored in youth, but is a hard reality as we age. I pray you will find true peace and contentment through the only one that provides it; the Prince of Peace.
The Bible is only the Words of God insofar as the person reading those words has faith and belief in God. If a person reading the Bible has no faith/belief in God, then it is just words on a page by some (perhaps) unknown author. You can find peace and contentment in God - I can find peace and contentment in Nature. People are different. Not everyone finds peace and contentment in the same entity, just let it be.
7 habits of highly effective people by stephen r. Covey was a really great book i read after i graduated college last year. I know youre looking for jobs and its just a really good read while youre doing so.
thank u! it’s been acquired ;)
Nah a job is an awesome way to solve boredom. Just gotta find something that p3aks your interest.
too many things pique my interest 😔 i’m overwhelmed lmao
Beautiful girl, natural wholesome, everywhere love, but Tom wasted his life in peculiarities and ego trips, although surely dysfunctional family doesn't help. Lesson for the young. Anyway while there's life and health, there's hope. ♥️👍
How old are u?
twenty two
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