Just a quick sidenote I forgot to mention in the video - the "I Spent 50 Hours Training Like An Esports Pro" is not even nearly accurate representation of my attempt at esports or my skill level in CS:GO hahahha it's so dumb that I'm even saying this rn but I'm sure there's that one person who's gonna be like "blud made one UA-cam video where he didn't even make it to Global Elite and thought he was going pro" or smth :D That video was made for purely entertainment and storytelling purposes and in reality my skill used to be way above the level displayed for the video.
Honestly, yeah, I feel you. However getting into single player games or just more wholesome multiplayer games is really a nice hobby without it eating away your psyche like comp games do over time :)
Bruh I was a beast in CS:GO ngl and then CS2 came around and the game feels like trash mechanically(flicking is weird, movement is different and it overall feels less responsive) so I stopped playing, and I kinda feel unfullfilled because I didn't try to make something bigger while CS:GO was still around, unlucky but I couldn't predict it I guess.
It´s nice to see you again! Missed you, man :) and I still very much like your energy. Also... I understand that every person works for what they feel is important to them but I still love the saying - work til your delulu becomes trululu :D I mean, what´s the best thing that can happen, right? :D Have a great day!
Algorithm got me here. 5k hours in Csgo. 2k in R6S. 3k in apex. I wanted to be pro too. I was incredible. I'm 24 now. Late to the party and saving for college. Always have a backup plan... I didn't. What does a high rank mean when nobody clicked on my streams? Gave away my PC to a friend so I would be forced to quit. Funny how that works. I'll never get that time back. It makes me so sad knowing how much time I wasted.
That's just life for ya. Every day you make choices, better or worse ones. Some people make bad long term choices but in the end what matters is you try to change for the better, even if it seems too late. I've been a massive procrastinator my whole life, i'm 20 living with my toxic mother and brother. If i had studied at school just that little bit more, if i had put myself to getting a driver's license, i probably would have been living on my own by now. But i still look forward to the day i do finally move out and get to suffer the adult life, but hopefully without a toxic parent breathing down my neck. I'm not gonna say spending 10k hours on competitive multiplayer games was a perfectly fine way to spend those 10k hours, but there was a chance for something to come of it. Even that is something i couldn't say, almost exclusively playing through a backlog of games, and rarely opening titanfall 2 for a few matches these days. But hey, you're not a disintegrating 80 year old who can't remember their own name just yet, plenty of time still to make things work. Dwelling on your past mistakes, as relatable as it is, is not worth the mental effort. Nothing comes of it. Focus on the things that make your life better now.
such a great video :D ❤ I also had the idea of becoming an esports players when I was around 16. The reason I wanted this was because I wanted to be good. I just wanted to be good at the game. And I became good, but not good enough for E-Sport. At some point I started playing other games and I always played what I enjoyed the most. Which lead to me playing less CS:GO. And now I ask myself ,,if I would have sticked to the game with full passion, would I be an esports player now?" and This question hunts me ... I somehow feel like a failure because I played other games and didn't stick to cs to became a pro player... This hurts. Now I'm 21 and I still sometimes get the idea of ,,should I start grinding again?" and then I remember how good I was at my peak and I suffer from the imagination how good I WOULD BE NOW if I would have sticked to CS:GO ..... 😔💙
thank you! and honestly, since you're only 21, you could still easily go full delulu and go all-in for a couple of years on esports. Not saying there's a high chance of you making it, BUT you could easily find another avenue from there - coach, manager, analyst (there are SO many tier 1-tier 3 teams looking for people who'se only job is to come up with smoke/utility lineups for example) or even a streamer, content creator etc. The point is, even if you go for it and never make it as an esports pro, it will 100% open so many other incredibly cool avenues for you that you never knew were possible. Or.. maybe you will make it. Did you know the pro player roeJ is currently 29 years old and didn't start taking CS:GO seriously until he was 23 years old? Anyways, there's no point in letting fear & regret take over, life's not that complicated to be giving in to these emotions. Just do shit that lights you on fire, that's all that matters. Good luck bro!
It would have been a wasted life. Esports isn't very valuable in itself, but people are for some reason following it, hence the money. Why is it so entertaining? It's so boring at high level with ultra prelearned super trickery. Honestly it's a spiritual bubble.
@@reio_riisna well if maniac is lighted on fire by killing, it's clearly not good. General ideas are dangerous and limiting. And useless pursuits are also dangerous. But formed passion is indeed important for success and/or happiness.
One strange thing about CS is that it's same maps and prelearning based. Not really adaptability. If you have prelearned peeks, nades and tricks.. it becomes too boring. Got 3k hours CS, 1.9k hours TF2 and never even played Faceit. Discovered way better games then. Maybe 1k hours of TF2 was worth it. CS wasn't. Trying something extraordinarily new and gradually enjoying it is the ultimate reward. LOVE gaming.
I don't know how I landed here but I like the concept of following ideas to their conclusion (no matter if it works or doesn't) to "get rid of them" and make space for something new. It feels a bit like how to get rid of an earworm by just listening to the song and allowing your brain to finish it, therefore getting out of the loop. Took me at least a decade to get there but it makes life so much more interesting and it allows us to grow. Love that for you, good luck with whatever your next idea will be. :-)
i did the same thing. i play some minion masters or league on break time but havent bought a new game in 2 years and now focus all play money on game development and all free time is game development. play 1-2 matches here and there to stay sane. i am also making a vr chat mmo similar to your project which is how i found your channel. great looking project btw mad respect. very inspiring i hope to release in a week im crunching lol. i do admit when poe comes around i take a little 1 weeker but how can u miss poe lol.
also if you are esports player especially when it involves something like league or some kinda deep thinking math, u could prob be a game dev. unreal engine is basically a video game in itself it's so easy to get into for high level thinkers who are just lost on video games.
def agree with the fact that once you get into gaming there are so many different avenues you can take this to, starting from game dev to idk esports analysts or anything really.
Just a quick sidenote I forgot to mention in the video - the "I Spent 50 Hours Training Like An Esports Pro" is not even nearly accurate representation of my attempt at esports or my skill level in CS:GO hahahha it's so dumb that I'm even saying this rn but I'm sure there's that one person who's gonna be like "blud made one UA-cam video where he didn't even make it to Global Elite and thought he was going pro" or smth :D That video was made for purely entertainment and storytelling purposes and in reality my skill used to be way above the level displayed for the video.
Honestly, yeah, I feel you. However getting into single player games or just more wholesome multiplayer games is really a nice hobby without it eating away your psyche like comp games do over time :)
I can def see that!
Bruh I was a beast in CS:GO ngl and then CS2 came around and the game feels like trash mechanically(flicking is weird, movement is different and it overall feels less responsive) so I stopped playing, and I kinda feel unfullfilled because I didn't try to make something bigger while CS:GO was still around, unlucky but I couldn't predict it I guess.
Just take a look at the way ropz approaches CS2 compared to s1mple, for example. Attitude is what matters the most ;)
@@reio_riisna They are polar opposites, and I get what you are saying xD
Way to go man!🎉 Better to try than regret it in the future. Good luck in your future crazy ideas!
tysm bro :D gotta get all dem crazy ideas done hehe
It´s nice to see you again! Missed you, man :) and I still very much like your energy.
Also... I understand that every person works for what they feel is important to them but I still love the saying - work til your delulu becomes trululu :D I mean, what´s the best thing that can happen, right? :D
Have a great day!
Algorithm got me here. 5k hours in Csgo. 2k in R6S. 3k in apex. I wanted to be pro too. I was incredible. I'm 24 now. Late to the party and saving for college. Always have a backup plan... I didn't. What does a high rank mean when nobody clicked on my streams? Gave away my PC to a friend so I would be forced to quit. Funny how that works. I'll never get that time back. It makes me so sad knowing how much time I wasted.
That time is never wasted my friend. How can you "waste" your time when there is no "right way" to spend your time to begin with? ;)
@@reio_riisna I don't want to make any excuses... I could have graduated college and got my CS degree by now. I was immature.
That's just life for ya.
Every day you make choices, better or worse ones.
Some people make bad long term choices but in the end what matters is you try to change for the better, even if it seems too late.
I've been a massive procrastinator my whole life, i'm 20 living with my toxic mother and brother.
If i had studied at school just that little bit more, if i had put myself to getting a driver's license, i probably would have been living on my own by now.
But i still look forward to the day i do finally move out and get to suffer the adult life, but hopefully without a toxic parent breathing down my neck.
I'm not gonna say spending 10k hours on competitive multiplayer games was a perfectly fine way to spend those 10k hours, but there was a chance for something to come of it. Even that is something i couldn't say, almost exclusively playing through a backlog of games, and rarely opening titanfall 2 for a few matches these days.
But hey, you're not a disintegrating 80 year old who can't remember their own name just yet, plenty of time still to make things work.
Dwelling on your past mistakes, as relatable as it is, is not worth the mental effort. Nothing comes of it.
Focus on the things that make your life better now.
@@sinless There is still something you learned.
such a great video :D ❤
I also had the idea of becoming an esports players when I was around 16. The reason I wanted this was because I wanted to be good.
I just wanted to be good at the game. And I became good, but not good enough for E-Sport. At some point I started playing other games and I always played what I enjoyed the most. Which lead to me playing less CS:GO. And now I ask myself ,,if I would have sticked to the game with full passion, would I be an esports player now?" and This question hunts me ...
I somehow feel like a failure because I played other games and didn't stick to cs to became a pro player... This hurts.
Now I'm 21 and I still sometimes get the idea of ,,should I start grinding again?" and then I remember how good I was at my peak and I suffer from the imagination how good I WOULD BE NOW if I would have sticked to CS:GO ..... 😔💙
thank you!
and honestly, since you're only 21, you could still easily go full delulu and go all-in for a couple of years on esports. Not saying there's a high chance of you making it, BUT you could easily find another avenue from there - coach, manager, analyst (there are SO many tier 1-tier 3 teams looking for people who'se only job is to come up with smoke/utility lineups for example) or even a streamer, content creator etc.
The point is, even if you go for it and never make it as an esports pro, it will 100% open so many other incredibly cool avenues for you that you never knew were possible.
Or.. maybe you will make it. Did you know the pro player roeJ is currently 29 years old and didn't start taking CS:GO seriously until he was 23 years old?
Anyways, there's no point in letting fear & regret take over, life's not that complicated to be giving in to these emotions. Just do shit that lights you on fire, that's all that matters.
Good luck bro!
@@reio_riisna thanks
It would have been a wasted life. Esports isn't very valuable in itself, but people are for some reason following it, hence the money. Why is it so entertaining? It's so boring at high level with ultra prelearned super trickery. Honestly it's a spiritual bubble.
@@reio_riisna well if maniac is lighted on fire by killing, it's clearly not good. General ideas are dangerous and limiting. And useless pursuits are also dangerous. But formed passion is indeed important for success and/or happiness.
@@IrrationalDelusion Doing the thing in life that you love is never a wasted life.
One strange thing about CS is that it's same maps and prelearning based. Not really adaptability. If you have prelearned peeks, nades and tricks.. it becomes too boring. Got 3k hours CS, 1.9k hours TF2 and never even played Faceit. Discovered way better games then. Maybe 1k hours of TF2 was worth it. CS wasn't. Trying something extraordinarily new and gradually enjoying it is the ultimate reward.
LOVE gaming.
I don't know how I landed here but I like the concept of following ideas to their conclusion (no matter if it works or doesn't) to "get rid of them" and make space for something new. It feels a bit like how to get rid of an earworm by just listening to the song and allowing your brain to finish it, therefore getting out of the loop. Took me at least a decade to get there but it makes life so much more interesting and it allows us to grow. Love that for you, good luck with whatever your next idea will be. :-)
You seem to have good energy, gotta subscribe 🤔
damn right haha
i did the same thing. i play some minion masters or league on break time but havent bought a new game in 2 years and now focus all play money on game development and all free time is game development. play 1-2 matches here and there to stay sane. i am also making a vr chat mmo similar to your project which is how i found your channel. great looking project btw mad respect. very inspiring i hope to release in a week im crunching lol. i do admit when poe comes around i take a little 1 weeker but how can u miss poe lol.
also if you are esports player especially when it involves something like league or some kinda deep thinking math, u could prob be a game dev. unreal engine is basically a video game in itself it's so easy to get into for high level thinkers who are just lost on video games.
def agree with the fact that once you get into gaming there are so many different avenues you can take this to, starting from game dev to idk esports analysts or anything really.
Its true that if you let go of an idea more flows in
yessss
I feel like this video was made for me...
im glad it hit you in the feels man! Wanna expand on how it affected you? if not, thats cool :D
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I dont care :)
I like the fact that you care so little that you had to comment that you don't care. This really shows how much you don't care