Why I've Always Hated My Birthday... And What I Did to Change It
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- Опубліковано 11 вер 2024
- This was a long TikTok/Reel that should've been a UA-cam video. Hello to all my new subscribers! My name is Koy Sun, I'm a sign painter and short form content creator that is transitioning to UA-cam. Earlier in the year, I tried to challenge myself to make UA-cam quality content for TikTok. Though my videos were doing well, it was hard to sustain a normal life since TT didn't really compensate me that well for my efforts. Which is why I'm here and I'm so grateful for this new community that just popped up! We are closing in on 100k subscribers just from YT Shorts alone and I can't wait to upload my first real video. There's so much I want to share but I'll pause here for now. Appreciate y'all!
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Thank you for sharing this story. I came across your content on UA-cam via shorts, and never have I ever been so drawn in to content as fast as I was with your stuff. Not only is your artwork flat out impeccable, but your cinematography and story telling skills are superb as well. I'm so glad you no longer view yourself negatively as you did in the past. That's something I've struggled with through therapy as well, and the light at the end of the tunnel is so sweet when you get there. I wish for nothing more than the best for you, and I can't wait to see what you do next! Personally, I'd love to have a longer form video of you conceptualizing and starting a project. I'd love to know what your thought process is when you start a project. Keep on keeping on!
Thank you so much for the sweet message!! Your encouragement pushes me to continue to make my shorts and help me get over the overthinking of making my full length videos. I have been slowly recording but just now starting to get the confidence to really buckle down to finish and your message helps a lot. Appreciate you truly!!
as an artist with bipolar, your story means a lot. it’s nice to know that if you made it, i can too. your story is a reminder that one day things will be better. thank you
Biggest roadblock for me is emotional permanence. No matter the milestone I still feel like I haven’t done anything so I’m trying to jump over that hurdle still. Wishing you the best!!!
“The value I had for myself was increasing more than my salary” …cheers to your wonderful journey!🦄 (I dropped out of art school too…it’s the way to go 😂)
Man, you're awesome. You show that changing the trajectory of your life is possible. Something I needed and you videos scratch a part of my brain I never knew existed. Wanna do more things to express my ideas and you inspired that.
Ooph, this hit like a ton of bricks today. I struggle with hating my birthday as well, though for a different reason. Over the years I have put everyone else's needs before my own. Slowly losing my sense of self. Making myself as invisible as possible as a means of protection. When a day like a birthday comes along where eyes are focused on me, asking me what I wanted it would just fill me with anger. I am hoping I can I get to a place you are at someday when it comes to my birthday. I just recently came across your posts, I am appreciative of the good you are putting out in to the world and look forward to all the success you have in the future.
Thanks for this insight of why you hate your birthday. Ive tried to figure out why my husband feels the same. Not that he feels the same as you, but its a possibilty. It just kills me when I want to celebrate him. I hope someday you will want to embrace it, consider it a celebration of life. God created you with purpose. Jeremiah 1:5
Thank you for sharing this. It makes me even happier that I stumbled across you on shorts. I wish you all the luck and happiness ❤
I'm so glad that it's finally working out for you! I turn 27 in a week and honestly I'm at my lowest point mentally, I've had so many ups and downs over the past 7 years just like you and your story gives me hope they maybe next year I'll finally start seeing the same progress in my life
Took me till 29 to start but I've been rocketing since. Like him, tapping into therapy took me far enough for me to begin working on my path again. Even at my lowest point, things got worse, then even worse, but now they're better than they have been in 4 years and looking to be twice as good next year.
@@Nonyah123 that's awesome, I'm so glad that it's finally working out for you!
I've recently recognized the self destructive pattern I've been living, constantly hoping things will work out for me, putting all my effort and energy into whatever next goal or project I find the motivation to work on and when it inevitably doesn't work out and I run out of that motivation, I fall back to my default state of depression. I've decided that despite how I feel, I'm no longer going to rely on that sense of hope and purpose to drive me forward. I'm just gonna keep working and pushing through it and know that eventually it will work out or it won't either way if I want to see results I need to make progress.
really powerful story💪💪 happy birthday man
Life is a series of ups and downs. Its up to you how you connect the dots, and what kind of story you tell about yourself. Be proud you’re still doing what you love in spite of the adversity.
Thank you 🙏⭐️ I’ll forever keep that in mind.
Struggled during my twenties, dropped out of med school, and also got dianosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Thank you for sharing ur story!
I really appreciate this video. The tenacity you have is inspiring. But the honesty, gosh.. that's very powerful. Thank you for the work you do. It is beautiful to watch you do your artistry. Cheering you on Koy Sun.
You're inspiring.
You're doing the thing.
So happy for you. 💗
This is a wonderful video for us to be inspired! As a Capricorn who is “too hard on myself” I needed to watch this today and feel camaraderie and understanding how it’s important to reflect with compassion for our inability to be aware of our trying to get by as suffering from our own minds. May your heart stay strongly connected to your journey and I’m a fan for life!!!
This was a wonderful story and I too am proud of your journey.
It's easy for me to be harsh with myself in terms of my own art "success" so stories like yours keep me optimistic. I love the fact that you're so vulnerable with your audience. It gives your content a tangible feel.
Grateful to have discovered you a few months back and to be part of your first 75K subbies.
Happy Belated Birthday - hoping I can learn to smile on my own special day next March. 🍀🍀
this means so much to me and I needed you to be here to make it. Thank you
I just graduated high school, and in the past 4 years I’ve fallen in love with audio engineering. I’m starting college on Monday, studying electrical engineering and getting a minor in av production. I can’t be a full time audio engineer, due to being sensitive to loud environments, and I get anxious and sensory overload. I feel bad that I can’t be a full time audio engineer, but maybe things will work out. I have more hope now thanks to you :)
PLEASE I hope you take my advice and actually finish your Electrical Eng degree. Myself and my brother had the exact path as you. Graduated hs, was in love with audio engineering and production all through middle and hs, and good at it. My parents insisted I at least finish my degree because you absolutely never know how much the market is going to change in 3-4 years and a solid, real tangible degree makes more sense than a degree in something that can be self taught. Well, I didn't listen, I ended up dropping out in my second year because an ep I had worked on was doing insanely well. Got to travel for a year and felt like it was the best choice. Diagnosed with bipolar and I suddenly hit a wall where I absolutely could not create musically for a bit, fell out with a lot of fellow people in the industry, got blacklisted, and I'm picking myself back up now. Couldve avoided years of being lost and being in debt if I had a degree to fall back on in the meantime. Thankfully I was able to warn my brother, he completed his degree, he realized later that his interests had grown beyond only audio engineering when he turned 22, and because he actually HAD a degree, he was able to land an amazing starting salary with great work life balance, and can travel and make all the music he wants in the meantime without having to rely on parents. His future is bright and he's avoiding the 'depressed mid 20s' that many artistic types face. So please, make sure you finish your degree! You have a lifetime to create amazing music AND be financially secure
Who put these onions here omg... 🥹
Well, now I’m crying
Just because I heard you said that you wanted to buy your parents a house, Like you my main goal in life is to be able to make enough money to buy my parents a house in the countryside so they can grow old in peace and have nights where they can sit back on a patio in their rocking chairs as I’ve heard my mom say that’s what she would love to spend her years doing.
That sounds like a wonderful life and sometimes I wonder if the countryside is better for me than city.
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I just found your channels today and you are such a gem! I relate a lot to this video, it made me emotional. Good job on what you do 🙌
This is wonderful. It’s amazing how looking at things from a different perspective can change EVERYTHING! Well deserved! ❤
Congrats on all the growth, and I can't wait to see what you do next!
Really liked this video! You have a super calming voice to listen too.
I just discovered you yesterday and I am in love with your soul. Thank you for being so "You" in all you do. Not only is your painting gorgeous and unique, but your cinematography is on point as well.
Being Bipolar II, I connect at a level more than you know.
Cheers from Seattle!
happy belated birthday! thank you for sharing your journey with us all. just by looking through any comment section of your videos, you’ve inspired me and so many people! i turned 26 a few months ago, still conflicted about my creative career path but this goes to show that with a little patience, anything is possible ❤
A lot of strangers are proud of you and inspired by your journey!
You never gave up. I'm glad I found your channel and hope you continue to grow and explore your gifts!
Don’t mind me ugly crying over here! Thank you so much for sharing your journey. I turned 32 this year and also hate my birthday probably because I definitely still feel like a failure. I love your idea of rephrasing each year with what I accomplished. Thank you! ❤🙏
Koy! I’ve watched pretty much all your videos over the past year but this was so beautiful! You seem like such a kind and deep thinking person. I had a meeting with a career advisor a few years back and told her I felt like a complete failure, she listed all of the things I’d done, the awards I’d won, the acclaim I’d recieved and said I wasn’t a failure, I just hadn’t made any money from any of the things I’d pursued. We couldn’t work out a job that would suit me and I still haven’t really made any money but every time I think about myself as a failure now I think about how she framed my achievements away from weather I made any money or not.
I also struggle with my birthday. Well into my early 30’s now. I remember being a kid and having some people I invited - friends and family - not show up a few times, and I think that anxiety just never left me. Maybe not exactly relatable to the beautiful story you just told here, but it gives me hope that I can learn to be happy on my birthday again someday.
This video is a gem, thank you for your story. As a person with bipolar, I know that it is devastating and can take years of your life to somehow get back close to where you once were. It certainly plagued my 20s for pretty much a decade. I'm happy to see you bounce back and strive forwards. Let's fucking gooooooooo baby!! I subbed.
Wonderful-thank you for sharing your experiences. I’m proud of you! Kick ass man. Love your art
Some of the best art and story telling I've seen in a while. The message is crucial to understand for anyone wanting to create something. Something that is truly theirs, they own it and they think it is worthwhile in this world.
As someone who used to feel suicidal, your videos have made me want to live again. Thankyou.
This is a beautiful story and makes me realize when I see someone with incredible drive and success, doesn’t mean it’s always been like that-I relate to the pain you described and deep depression and you just inspired me so much as an artist
I lived in OB for almost a decade but moved back to New England for family pressures and false promises that led to my own experience with yellow grippy socks. I've avoided any content associated with San Diego because of how much I miss it and how I was able to grow and stretch with all that distance I no longer have. While I am working on my wounds I think subscribing to your channel is more about the balm your content provides for me. Thank you for sharing this.
WOW! What an inspirational story! I'm taking my hat off to you! Finally, someone who's not drowning in self-pity, but actually doing something to change his life. Mad respect! Subscribed immediately. Thank you! ❤😊
Thank you for this. It looks like you are not only an artist but someone who *shares* it with people. That is rare, as you probably know. I see you as a rare gem. I love all your art (that I’ve seen) but most of all, thank you for sharing it with us. And offering to teach us.
loved this the first time I saw it on instagram, totally worth watching again as a reminder. Longer format videos from you would be fantastic! Also that sneaky artsy birthday is inspired, I'm kind of over parties where people sit around doing nothing but talk, but this is a great proactive alternative doing something you love that also takes your life a step forward. I love it!
As a 23 year old that constantly feels they’re wasting their potential, this video made me cry. Thank you for reminding me to look for the little wins instead of dwelling on the few big mistakes.
I love your art! No way are you a failure, you're an amazing success! You have been able to do things most of us can only dream of.
What an incredible journey! I’ve recently discovered your work and am so inspired. I’ve been on a similar journey through my 20s and finally feel like I’m stepping into my true self. Why is it so scary!? Your story and creations fill me with hope. Thank you ❤
I came across your insta on one of my worst days. Definitely felt the pressure of my own expectations that I lost hope in my myself and my work. When I saw your video, it gave me that push I needed. Your creativity is inspiring, and your story is definitely motivating. And while motivation, and inspiration comes and goes, I come back and see your work to remind me to keep going❤ thanks man.
Thankyou for sharing your story, it’s helped me realize that I myself did not fail in my early 20s and that while I am older I am still young and my future has brighter treasures in store for me. Thank you so much dude.
Just showed up in my feed for the first time dunno why but I’m happy about it. Also - being asian with 5 planets in cap and becoming an artist is an absolutely epic demon slaying level accomplishment. The internal struggle that nobody sees. Congrats, and thank you for being a pillar of strength and inspiration for us all. 🎉❤
Your story is so inspiring. The amount the you were able to pack in while saying so much goes to show your storytelling ability along with your creativity and artwork! Glad you never gave up on yourself ❤
Gives me hope Happy Belated Birthday 🎉
The message was so simple but this is one of the most relatable and inspirational videos i've seen in a while. Wish you all the continued success!
Thank you for sharing and even though I don’t know you I’m glad you’re feeling better.
I love watching your work because where I’m from there are no hand lettering signs or people who do it. So there’s really no way to learn.
Thx for introducing me to a new place in SD. Love that you are making your way through.
Good Work! you’re a great Sign Painter I’m also a Sign Painter currently Working at Six Flags in Los Angeles I’m one of two sign painters in the Sign Shop..keep up the good work!
You're telling my story too, and I don't know how to respond...except to say... YO! THANKS SO MUCH FOR SHARING THIS! 🎉
The meaning of all Life is to Grow!
Grow my friend! Never stop reaching for the sky.
Thank you so much for sharing your story its beautiful and gives me hope to see someone make light from a dark place i really appreciate how real your journey has been and i wish you nothing but success you rock please never stop expressing yourself through your art
This was so nice :,) it feels very inspiring that you went back through the years and looked at it more objectively, i'm so happy you got to this point! happy late birthday
Took 47 years to get where you are. I am proud of you too, and you not giving up and taking the harder way opens spaces for the rest of us. ❤
Wow, your story resonates with me so much. Im also 27 and i also hate my birthdays. You are inspiration.
wow i hope I can get an original piece from you one day
you are one of my very fav internet people!! you and your work are so inspiring in such a gentle and beautiful way. i wish you all the best and look forward to more youtube stuff :)
Wow man this was a really beautiful video and it helps me want to push to start doing my passion i just found your channel today and i watched everything already but you are going places and i love your work so far
Just had my birthday and this was exactly the kind of video I needed! Extremely well done and HBD 🎉
wow you’re the man bro. keep going
I’m a bitter old bipolar woman (40). this video speaks to me and makes me so happy for you. It’s lovely to see an example of Ikigai in real life.
Love this !! Going through something very similar with life and just wanna say thank you for sharing and so happy things are working out !! Love your work!!
ok I know this might sound stupid but the fact that you used the whale sonny angel made me kinda feel as if subconsciously you still had the strength to survive and push through the feeling of being "underwater"(I over-analyze things way too much lol but I thought this was sweet)
I used to love my birthdays, but it sounds like my life has had the absolute opposite trajectory of yours. 😅 I’ve started to believe “it gets better” is a lie, but I’m glad to see it’s true for some people, especially someone else with bipolar. All it’s done is progressively ruin my life with each passing year.
My 27th is coming up next week and I thanks for sharing. Feel like I needed this
Love to hear about your growth man.. its time for a long format video on your next job! I personally cant wait.. LOL
So cool! Very inspiring my friend 🙏
Love and agree with the video except "no one deserves anything."
I think everyone deserves everything. No one should have to work this hard just for feel worthy, but alas, that's the world we have created and allow to persist.
You shouldn’t have to work hard to feel worthy, but you SHOULD have to work hard to create things that are worthy of you. Always strive to make sure you’re living up to your worth, which takes a lot of work to maintain.
I love your videos so much! Where do you hold your workshops?
Good stuff. You're very talented.
I'm glad you found yourself! :)
I really hope you upload more videos!! This is so inspiring
Great video ! ❤ keep going x great art and love the Capricorn joke 😂
this actually made me feel a whole lot better
my birthday is two months away...i feel lost with no idea how to do what I want...I hope one day I can end up like you...-ffrom a fellow san diego artist
this actually moved me to tears
Well done, hun! 🇬🇧🕊📖🪔✝️👑🇬🇧
I really needed this, thanks.
🎉Happy Birthday. Great story
I didn’t know you were in SD too 💪🏼😎
Inspirational! 🥳
Fire W content ! ❤
Happy Bornday 🤎🫂
Hello, You create an awesome content, and inspires me to continue with my letrist journey. I wonder what type of basic brushes could you recommend for start? Thank you and keep doing this kid of content!
Happy Birthday 🎉❤
I love your channel omg
When you are painting lettering on captured street signs with a paint brush, what kind of paint are you using?
I feel like having a birthday in january can be so depressing for some reason (coming from a fellow january baby
What a sweet video! :D
Keep it up !
Hell yeah!
❤😊
Wow 😊
do you have any landscape format videos? i have a TV not a phone thanks
I comment to help statistics
Could someone explain to my dumb ass the two socks at 0:28?
Instead of crying and doing nothing. Cry and do something.
you cannot be a real person, abiding by the five planets of capricorn?
Buh
you vids are sick, cut ur hair tho, somthing fresh
I’m going for a Greg Universe vibe
@@koysunDude, Steven Universe is a goated show! You definitely rock the hair! I’ve always wanted a mullet :) 💚