Thank you for sharing your story. My brother has schizophrenia and is currently going through a psychotic episode. He often lacks insight even when he's in remission, partially i think bc he's pretty isolated and doesn't talk to other people going through it. So, I'm making a playlist of vids like yours to play for him after he gets better. I don't want him to feel alone and your video will help him there and also help give him his power back. So thank you. What a great way to turn your struggle into something healing for others.
My bout of psychosis. I was afraid of my own thoughts. And didnt sleep for over a month. I try my best 2 not let my thoughts create fear any more and that helped.
I get that, it’s so hard having those expectations imposed on you when you’re that broken. I felt like a zombie too & the amount of effort it took to do anything was insane.
its taken me 2 years to "recover". im pretty stable now, getting my CPR/BLS licensure for a job and about to go into college. i draw, paint and write often. i talk with friends. i go to church and attend guitar classes. But nonetheless psychosis left its mark on me; Im so scared of experiencing that ever again. The isolation, the social exclusion, delusions, hallucinations, etc. It is all so much to bear at times. No one understands the frustration that comes with recovery. The flashbacks, the aftermath. Somehow I did not let that stop me for as physically painful it was to remember the bits and pieces of my psychotic episode. I persevered even though my family almost gave up on me multiple times. Its still hard trying to explain what I saw, felt, heard and thought during that time. But I hope with this reply that you can feel less alone... its okay to cry and its okay to feel defeated... I know I do all the times... but when I look at the progress Ive made, I feel proud... when I look at the person I was back then, I feel so much compassion too... recovery is a slippery slope but it is possible and so worth it
Because it's just a story you have to believe in. Save yourself. I listen to Abraham Hicks all the time, it helps when I'm not too depressed. @@nunya3097
I have a friend who is having an episode. I have known her for years and this is something I haven’t seen. After trying to help her she has now put me on the “mass manipulator” list. I am very sad but I can’t help her and am fearful both for her and anyone around her right now. Your explanation of how everything you thought was through the psychosis was helpful.
After my 2nd episode of schizophrenia last may of 2000 as of now 2024 of Feb. I do not have a relapse. Also I have recovered my unusual math skills. Year 2021 was a crisis year for me. In may I lost my doggie friend. September my father died of COVID-19. The delta variant. October of same year I was hospitalized for moderate COVID. 10 days later I got out of the hospital. Lucky I did not relapse from schizophrenia and I was vaccinated b4 I was afflicted with COVID-19. Now I am doing great after the storm of my life. My hobbies are solving math and writing songs. It is really fun. Through them I releases my pain.
Thank you for sharing your experiences. My son who is 21 is currently in his second episode of psychosis his first episode happened about a year ago and this time around it is very hard he stopped taking his medication and trying to get him to take it again while in psychosis is very difficult he was recently taken to a facility I just want him to get better.
I sympathize with you, as a mom as well. My son just got diagnosed with schizophrenia last April and has had a few episodes. I too want my son who is 24 to get better. You aren’t alone with this… I hope your son gets better as well
Thank you for sharing. My son has been diagnosed in May last of Bipolar type 1. But we reckoned he started showing symptoms months before he got taken to the hospital. It was like a gradual build up of symptoms that lead him to full blown mania with psychosis and picked up by police and was taken to the hospital. He was discharged last June ‘23 but during recovery period at home he hit rock bottom and attempted suicide 😢 in September’23. For us parents it’s so very hard and painful to watch them in bed day after day 24/7!! No motivation at all! You’re saying, it takes a very long time for full recovery, now I must extend my hope that it will happen one day🤞🤞🙏 He is 30 y.o and lost his gf, friends, house, money and luckily his job is still there waiting for him to get back.🤞🙏 Again thank you for your advocacy. Bless you.🙏
@@simmic3766 I always hope it’s encouraging when I say it takes a long time, because I know I sure wish it had been shorter, but there absolutely is hope that it will get better. It just takes a lot of patience. It can take years but I think he can get through it.
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I am glad she just said it, because it helps so much to know I’m not alone in having had some really difficult experiences that, people will all tell you, is not normal but everyone seems to expect you to just snap out of without any help.
I've never been diagnosed. I'm 51 years old. My mother is schizophrenic, also undiagnosed because she's unaware (anosognosia). I have always known that she was ill, and recently I have viewed her symptoms through eyes that can now see. I realize that I'm not the person to help her, as she's "anti therapy" and she's always been adamant that there's "nothing wrong with her". Let's just say that being the child of someone who doesn't believe they're ill hasn't been easy. My whole life has been traumatic. (and I will admit that because of my own lack of awareness, I have caused my own children and partners pain and suffering). Around 4 years ago I was at the darkest place in my life. I had been suffering from intrusive thoughts all my life, but it became so unbearable that I couldn't handle it. I was ready to end my life. My body and mind was in utter turmoil. I felt as if I was living life in the wrong body. I was highly dissociated. But... I heard something on UA-cam, a sentence that made its way into my conscious mind. "God hears all your thoughts. He judges you for all of your thoughts, words and deeds." This scared me. I felt so much fear. I said out loud, "Lord if you are hearing my thoughts then I need to repent, because my mind is sick." I went onto my knees in prayer and in total submission. What happened to me that night was a miracle. I felt a love like no other descend upon me. I felt held, and nurtured. I cried, and I saw an image in my mind of Jesus on the cross. I realized that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. "Jesus, please forgive me. I'm so sorry for all my sins." I just simply surrendered and allowed Him into my brokenness. I felt a weight lift off me. I felt my mind calm down. I felt truly forgiven. It was beautiful. I was born again that night. The lord showed me, in visions, like a movie, all my past traumatic events that were causing my mental issues. I got up, I looked down at my own body and I said "I'm not 12 years old anymore" - as if some darkness had been lifted off of me. I had been living on auto-pilot. All I can say is that we cannot ignore the importance of repentance, the importance of faith, and our need for Jesus. I had to share this with someone, because if there's perhaps some way to get those who refuse to admit they are schizophrenic to somehow learn about the gospel, the true need for repentance and deliverance, then there's a chance that the lord will help them, too. I pray that my story is heard, and I pray that it helps someone. I didn't know that I was sick. I didn't know anything about schizophrenia. In learning more about others stories, it's obvious to me that this is what I have been suffering my whole life. Since being saved, I haven't experienced the intrusive thoughts or delusions. I am awake and aware. I'm learning how to live a christ-centered life. I'm no longer running my unconscious patterns of mental anguish, I'm no longer using alcohol or other addictions in order to calm my mind. I'm no longer believing the strange things I used to believe. I'm no longer thinking that my body was created to please others. I'm no longer using sex as a means to express and receive love. I no longer have OCD sexual fantasies. I no longer say inappropriate things to people. I no longer suffer with paraphilia. I no longer need to take my clothes off for attention. I no longer believe that I am here to save the world (although this one is tough). I no longer feel like I'm being controlled by aliens. I'm no longer subconsciously trapped in the mindset of my 12 year old self! I'm not on any medication, nor have I ever been. I was silently suffering for years, not ever knowing that I was sick. Anosognosia is an inability to recognize symptoms as warning signs of schizophrenia. I learned to live with it. I adapted my life and I normalized my behaviour. When I acted in ways that displeased me, I had a talk with myself, and I "became" someone else. I shifted my identity at my own will, according to what my environment called. I did this because "being myself" was disgusting and displeasing. My mother had psychologically abused me into believing I deserved to be punished, hated... And I ended up self harming my whole life. All of this was done in a state of unconsciousness. At my core I believed I was an object. An it. I had no innate goodness, no value or worth. I became a pretzel, trying to please people. Yet I knew that deep down I was faulty and wrong. I couldn't trust myself, and so I relied on my partner to take care of me, and to protect me. I had been deliberately harming myself, and I couldn't break free from this perpetual loop. I have had a very chaotic and complicated life. I have made really bad decisions. I have never lived alone, for fear of abandonment. After years of being married (to a narcissist), I'm now seperated, living back at home with my parents, and I have come face to face with my fear of rejection. The main goals in a schizophrenic person's life is safety, stability and support. We thrive when we feel safe, and when we are no longer living a life of self inflicted stress, which we often seek out because we normalize chaos and often we tolerate and accept abuse as love. Obviously many of us suffer with co-morbidities, such as autism, addiction, anger, co-dependency, narcissism, arrested development, paraphilia, etc, I also believe that God can intervene. God knows us better than we know ourselves. He can be the salvation that we need, He can free us of our anguish. The lord has been bringing my attention to the benefits of a healthy diet and gut health. He's been leading me to live a simple life. He's been leading me to stay in the word, to read the Bible, to understand the new testament, and to stay firm in my faith. He's been showing me that the Holy Spirit lives in me, sent to help me discern what's false versus truth. As you know, being schizophrenic doesn't make this path easy. I watch only Christian movies, and I listen only to gospel music because anything else leads my mind away from God. Spiritual warfare is real, often we allowed the enemy into our life through traumatic events. With Jesus centred in our life and in our heart, with the help of the Holy Spirit to guide us, we can live a life of freedom in Christ. There are certain prayers that I have been led to, for example, this morning I was led to a "break the curse of the vagabond spirit" - If this is something that resonates with you or a loved one, perhaps pray this prayer or have them pray it: ua-cam.com/video/1f_di6dYKV0/v-deo.htmlsi=LxAZ2b0gTSi_rfbu I know it's unorthodox and perhaps strange for some, but these prayers work. Praise the Lord, and thank you Jesus for your perfect life in order for us to achieve salvation when we are all so sinful. The lord knows how much we all need healing. This is a very simplified version of what I experienced. I feel 1000 years old already. Life has been so hard. May god save and bless someone else out there. Trauma repeats itself until it's confronted, and Jesus is really the truth, the way and the life. He knows what you need. I was uncomfortable with the whole "spiritual" aspect, but if you read the new testament, you will see how biblically accurate it is. Don't mistake the true gospel with new age spirituality. You will go down a very dark path. Trust me. There's a lot of false preachers out there. I would recommend Mike winger and Melissa dougherty. Be sure to stay in the word. May He turn your story around.
I cried after I read your messages, and prayed for my son . May Jesus Christ heal him from Schizophrenia. I don't know if he needs to continue his medicine because we are afraid of side effects.
Hey Carolynn, I work as a therapist in early psychosis intervention and I found your video incredibly useful. I showed this video to someone who is in that post psychosis cognitive repair stage and he found the video incredibly relatable. He's found it very hard to conceptualize his journey and this video has helped him a lot.
Oh that’s so wonderful! Thank you for sharing with him. I really appreciate what you do. I think it really makes a difference and I am grateful that there are therapists like you who care so much.
Thank you for your vulnerability, currently recovering from my 3rd psychosis. Tore my life apart and full of embarrassment and shame, my family is religious and thinks it’s more spiritual than mental health. These videos help me stay in reality so much. Thank you again.
@@abbyereid8761 I wish I could tell you to not be ashamed of yourself but you are going to feel it cause I have also like so many others. You so what ypu do and keep going g tour o. The right track. I a Afraid to say I. UT. Kat every ody will not get ypu a.d .ant will not support you if your like me. Just be what you are and stay in groups such as Facebook
Its really reassuring to know that recovery is possible and that i am not the only one who experienced something like this. I went into severe psychosis after surviving a traumatic event that resulted in brain damage. I had no idea what was happening, and i felt this was a never ending cycle. Thank God recovery is possible, more and more i am regaining my memory of the past 5 years which were wiped almost completely away
@@mfaye5549 that is so great to hear that your brain is healing! I’m sorry you’ve been through so much trauma. I’m really glad you’re recovering, you deserve it.
Did you know that according to the psychologist BF Skinner psychosis is caused by "extreme deprivation or total satiation and an inability to escape from such a stimuli". He is basically talking about how our behavior is completely motivated by our needs. We buy food because we need to eat, we go out for a walk because we need exercise, and we socialize because we need other people, etc., etc. It is basically theorized that schizophrenia, if not caused by any other somatic disease, it could be caused by social isolation. That is, lack of social stimulization. In people with schizophrenia the frontal and temporal lobes are atrophied and these regions are responsible for social cognition. Lots of people with psychosis isolate themselves as initial symptoms. I just wanted to write to you about what BF Skinner talked about when he was alive. I really hope this helps! I wish you all the best!
I wasn’t isolated when I had psychosis. I was working and interacting with many people even going to church. I didn’t eat or sleep for three days. My friends from church took me to the hospital. I was given the options of either taking medication or going back home to New Jersey. I chose to go back to New Jersey still hallucinating. Eventually after several years I figured out how to ignore and not believe in the hallucinations and delusions. There’s a direct correlation between what you believe and what you see and experience. All the symptoms are because of an escalating spiraling effect of what you are believing.
@@JungleJargon You said that you didn't sleep for three days! Sleep is a human need, and sleep deprivation is a known cause of psychotics behavior like hallucinations and delusions. You said it yourself! I really hope that other people can find the work of BF Skinner and understand more about the causes behind psychosis. I wish you all the best and I really hope you can recover from this horrible disease!
@@johanandersson7319 I actually recovered completely within several years. It was during my first episode of psychosis that I was unable to eat or sleep for three days. I was sure the world was going to end. When it didn’t end I cautiously went outside. Everything was very strange. I recovered around 1985 and I have since retired.
i know some people disagree with you but i think this is what happened in my experience. i have always been extremely isolated my entire life and as that has continued my positive smyptons have gotten worse. i really do believe that if i had gotten genuine, fulfilling social connection with just even one person (very hard to achieve with near permanent social anhedonia) i would not have psychotic experiences.
@@udonge1043 We can't be overly concerned about our past. There's really nothing we can do to change our past. What we have to do now is to make the best of what we have. My suggestion is to ignore and not believe the hallucinations and delusions. That's easier said than done but it requires changing basically everything you believe. I'm hoping the best for you.
I love reading. I lost the ability to read the written word and retain what I had read. I found I was able to read using audiobooks. I could throw the headphones on and clean and read a book. It was the only time I was able to process reading was through audio. I am now able to read the written word, but I still prefer audio. I have listened to thousands of books this way in the past 20 years. So, I take this as a blessing.
Thank you for creating this video. I particularly relate to the diminished cognitive abilities - hopefully this loss of intelligence is temporary. One of my biggest fears was always losing my mind, and I sure lost it. Trying to reclaim it now.
in psychosis your true inner child comes up which was surpressed to long because of trauma and a toxic environment. to say psychosis is an illness and to say that the one who are in psychosis has this illness and it is controlled by it and non of the inner content of this psychotic person should be seen as serious or sane ist just the continuation of the behaviours a toxic environment puts on this persons all life long. "your inner thoughts, needs, urges, emotions are false. you are crazy. you are too much." this is actually sick. one person who would have really listened to this person once in a lifetime or give them hold, is all whats needed. a "psychosis" or other mental ilnesses are sane reactions to insane environment. one would must have learned to leave them before getting crazy because of them.
I shared an apartment for a while with an acquaintance and I wasn't aware of her condition until I was. It was the most terrifying situation I've ever experienced so i can't even imagine what it was like for her. She completely checked out and the person who took over her mind was so impossibly crazy i don't think i could explain it. I moved out as soon as I could and learned that she had experienced a few more episodes. Hope she's doing ok.
Had a psychosis a few years ago from substance abuse. Still trying to recover, thank you for this video! It’s the first time hearing somebody talking about this and now i feel understood. I had to be admitted for 2 weeks and on lots of medications, since then life hasn’t been the same
@@bitsy002 I really feel for you, it’s earth shattering to go through. I’m glad you came out of psychosis. I hope you’re being gentle with yourself. ❤️ Take good care!
@@neomancr I kinda stumble onto it! I was just talking about it on TikTok and started getting lots of questions about symptoms and recovery and stuff so I geared my content towards talking about it. There are so many great ways to get involved. Social media is a big one and there are great communities here and on instagram, but you can also get involved in organizations like NAMI and the Hearing Voices Network. I hope you get into it! Good luck!
Epictetus said Reason is the ability to know what is true, what is untrue, and suspending belief when it's dubious. He also spoke about knowing what your likes and dislikes are. This has helped me. To thine own self be true.
Thank you so much for sharing. I have had cognitive issues. I am not as vocal as before and I have so much anxiety and depression. I am slower and cant complete what I used to do before. Car accident really messed my neck and body and it caused me to be in so muchconstant electrical and stabbing pain with nerves distending. But also did decisions I would have never done. I had all types of deaths too and saw my friends killing me as well and neighbors killing my dog. It was so harsh. I am so embarrassed but also so scared. This world isnt safe and being outside during psychosis is scary. I have so much PTSD.
@@mothergaia549 oh wow, you’ve certainly been through a lot. I’m sorry it was so bad and that it’s affected your cognitive abilities so much. I hope things get better and the PTSD improves. It really does take a toll!
Thank you for this video and for sharing. ❤ What was particularly interesting was when you touched on the cognitive impairments... Now as I understand it it's the cognitive impairment that is at the core of schizophrenia (I'm not saying you have schizophrenia, but perhaps you can relate to the cognitive impairment when I say it centres around absorbing and processing complex information around stressors and when stressed coupled with fear it leads to a state of "disorientation")... Stress in itself has its off-sets like struggling to have sufficient sleep, irregular meal times etc. etc. This in itself can lead to a state where someone can "hallucinate"... Now add "disorientation" (confusion with further barriers to cognitive function) on top of that and we can perhaps start to see how "disadvantaged" those with the affliction are in unravelling all manner of offsets to that affliction... Now hallucinations can invoke all manner of fear in someone and in a state of intense fear, panic can set in, and from a state of panic we often jump onto our very first conclusion (which tends to be our worse fear/case scenario)... Further experiences just add to that belief system to the point it "can" become habitual thinking... At this stage the belief system becomes the rabbit hole and the fear factor being the momentum driving someone further into that rabbit hole... Now in the case of psychosis/paranoia it really magnifies when someone struggles with low self-esteem... When someone has insecurity issues they can become highly triggered again adding weight to belief systems and conclusions jumped to... Now imagine someone questions their sanity on top and this whole concept/mind-set can become a "closed loop" forever cycling until something either gives, or there is some form of intervention, and medication has its place as does time (when someone's worst fears fail to materialise time can start to be a healer as they finally start to question if their initial beliefs and conclusions were actually right to start with)... It can of course be highly complex and "triggered" people can often react irrationally and disproportionately to how they would otherwise often with severe consequences and not allowing "time" to do its healing thing accordingly... Reassurance can be a great thing in calming the mind and slowing processes down to a level where they can be worked through calmly and methodically... for it is the latter which helps us to analyse and process and come to rational and "true" conclusions and perhaps the sooner this method is improvised the sooner real healing can take place... Trusting those who can make "tangible" differences from a place of full understanding and in touch with reality also has its place as it is these who can help steer and navigate sufferers back to their correct paths in life with all the "understanding" and "foresight" to prevent further "derailments" in the future... Just to add I am not a therapist etc... I just share here my "emotional understanding" of the affliction and how it can take people off on all manner of unhealthy and debilitating tangents that can set them back in life etc... I hope this has been both insightful and helpful... ❤❤
You are very articulate and bright. Not many people with your illness get your insight and heal and live by it. I personally know 3 people who died "self inflictedly" who were very intelligent. I feel like if they had chosen to educate themselves on their illness like you have maybe their outcome would have been different. Perhaps they just in too deep. None of them were on their meds when they died. It pays to be your own advocate. May others have that strength moving forward.
@@TerriW1203 my condolences, it’s a shame they are gone. It is a pretty heavy illness to live with, that’s for sure. It took so many years to be ok. I really feel for those people in your life. Unfortunately that is all too common. Thank you for sharing that with me.
I'm so glad your video showed up. And I'm grateful I decided to watch it. My husband is in Bipolar 1 psychosis with 37 days on medication. He has no awareness that he's in psychosis and could only leave the hospital if he was given an antipsychotic injection 12 days ago because he has absolutely no insight. None. I keep waiting for him to just say he's experienced delusions. He still believes his auditory command hallucinations were real (this caused him to be involuntarily committed and medicated) There's so many hurdles in this. I just want him well enough to understand his 2 year long reality isn't real real. Watching this video helped me see it from his side but also what he will eventually experience. This helped me gain patience towards him. Thank you!
I’m glad he has your care and support. What you’re doing takes so much heart and it does not go unappreciated. I hope he will recover well, he is so lucky to have you.
Wow! What an amazing recovery and ability you have to think through this complicated illness. You should be so proud. Thank you so much for giving us your story. What a gift to help us understand better.
it is really relatable to hear you talk about the process of realization and how confusing/disorienting psychosis is. these days when i hear or see something not real i can usually realize it after some time is passed and i calmed down but it took me years to get to this point. i was so completely almost braindead after i was delusional for the first time, when my therapist suggested antipsychotics i did not even understand at all why she suggested them, i was like no, why would i need those? this was after i barricaded myself in my room thinking my mother was going to kill me. and it would take me several more years to realize that that event wasn't normal...the existential crisis that go along with believing you are about to die are also really unbearable.
Thank you for sharing the part about how experiences are real and traumatizing even if they are clouded or actually entire psychotic delusions. I also found it healing that you shared an experience similar to mine about how you were vulnerable and targeted for crime, violence, abuse, and other harm by predators during psychosis and how it's not fair or reasonable to expect a person in psychosis to protect themselves. One thing I've struggled with is self-acceptance about this in my life as I experienced a domestic violent illegitimate marriage to someone who later was seen as the victim or someone I falsely accused even though I directly experienced abuse and he preyed upon me as did others afterwards and preyed upon others identifying me as crazy so that he could use narcissistic abuse and smear tactics to control my reputation. I feel self-acceptance, recovery, and knowing it was real and that even what wasn't the part of the same reality that everyone else had been living were also experiences that terrified and traumatized me helps with the consequences of being preyed upon or still vulnerable while I'm recovering.
I have psychosis from 1.5months.. I am waiting for recovery phase, i hope it comes fast.. I have only hallucinations, no delusions. I just want to go in revovery phase.. I just graduated mbbs but on my last viva exam, psychosis started fully.. Prodromal phase was forgetfullness, slight whispers of my brothee
This is really similar to what I experienced: being on fire, dismemberment etc. I went through ritualistic abuse as a child, so I also relate to the trauma of the psychosis intertwining with traumatic memory. You're not alone. x
@@vegaoksana oh no! That gives me chills, I am so sorry you grew up through that. It definitely affects psychosis in a big way. I hope you’re doing much better now.
Thank you for being so real and open about this shit. Your video is the only one I could find this morning that's actually helped me feel remotely better / like doing anything to help myself versus just feed the mood swings.
Thanks for sharing your experience. Our 19 year old son has been admitted to a facility because of psychosis. It g feels like this has come out of nowhere. We don’t even know who he is now. I’m just grateful for his safety atm and trying to learn what this is.
I’m glad they help. ❤️ I hope your PTSD improves & you get some relief. I know for me that was the hardest thing to get through (I have CPTSD from other stuff, too).
I've... found that gas lighting myself into a normal situation (sitting on couch with my partner) helps calm me down from a psychosis. It's a gas lightning mechanism but it's difficult for me to avoid it at times. Thanks for making this video. It brings up a great conversation.
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle That makes sense to you?!?! Oh gawd, where are people like me and you in my area? (Catskills) Who am I kidding? Some people understand me but I'm constantly trying to find a new friend in my area despite all the things I got going against me. Hmm.. I also make art when I go through psychosis as well. I even have an art gallery wanting to show it but I truly don't know what to do with it after that. I'm just grateful that I like working in my non-profit that lets me be my freaky art self outside of work and so I'm comfortable enough with what I'm doing. Hope you're doing well as well. Here's to the freaks,
@@NY_Mountain_Man here here! I make art in psychosis too! I applied to art school in psychosis and made my whole portfolio in psychosis haha. I don’t think I got in, I wasn’t quite well enough to know the results. It would have been amazing if I did! I doubt I did though. And yes, that makes sense to me. Kinda like fake it till you make it? Trying to act as if all is good?
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle See, I have no idea what you're talking about but this is fascinating. If my conditioning that I was given while living in isolation is anything to go by, I can see now why people think I'm pretentious. Fascinating. Also, art school is just an elaborate popularity contest / money drain. I spent my early 20s hiding from terrifying realities that most minds can't comprehend. I don't think we missed anything besides four years of irresponsibility. Keep being you, PS: I'll check out your work if you're not scared by me. I typically scare people off because of my frame, orientation, and psychotic beliefs that kids need to be protected. Especially the queer ones. (or could be queer). Yeah.. I'm proud of it. I hope you're proud of whatever you're doing too. (People think I have capgras but the reality is much more far more American Kafkaesque.)
I am in recovery myself from my last episode and it is definitely taking a long time to get back into life again. For me it is the negative symptoms of schizophrenia that have been difficult to deal with this year. My voice is monotone, my face is flat and my family thinks I am depressed but I don't feel depressed. Could you make a video discussing the negative symptoms of schizophrenia?
@@annelbeab8124 a lot of times in psychosis people will have a flat affect, which is basically not being able to express emotion even if they have emotions. This can look a lot like showing little expression, having minimal mannerisms, and having a monotone voice.
@psychotic.in.seattle thanks so much. I wondered as others might mimick regular behaviour to not get detected. That's of course outside of psychosis in individuals who simply don't get the drama around them, but fake it partly to assimilate
Yes, disabling in day to day life! I have lived in phycosis for 9 years now. 24/7 365. It has made me fall fromy own family😢 it hasase me this k my family has been a part of the disabling my mind and body! Not only does this affect my mind it's emotional and physical abuse as well. She is explaining very well. Pleaseiatwm as she speaks
I've suffered it since i was 16. I've always known but tried to hide it. As I'm getting older my cognition is becoming impossible to recover. It is the most terrifying thing you could go through.
you can not memorize that good after psychosis because you remember things without any problems when you are emotionaly attached to things and thoughts and stuff. But in psychosis your inner core got soudly because you surpressed or hide it too long that fight through. And if this failed and nobody took you on you ended up completely abandoned and alone. You died internally because you failed to find hold with your true self, not with your role you learned in your family. and if this holy core got crushed, your started to be one of the people who are already dead inside. and dead you dont have emotions, you dont care about anything anymore so therefor the is no emotion or passion which would make you recognize things. you jst dont care. your dead.
pyhchosis wrecked relationsships for me and half of my highschool and one of my jobs and caused me so much stress when i found out things werent real now i dont know whats real
You must be such a strong person being able to come out of all this! I'm struggling for the last four months with my partner who is having an erotomanic delusion. She believes a famous singer is in love with her and he is contacting secretely through his songs and his post on social media. She decided to break up with me but we still live together as roomates. She refuses to accept she needs help, she is living in her own reality. I try to keep calm and be supportive, hoping that some time she will be aware of her dillusion. There are times she seems to recover and that gives me hope, but then she dives again deeper in her psychosis. Any advice would be greatly apreciated.
Wow, that must be so hard! I’m sorry she broke up with you. I hope she comes out of her psychosis and recognizes the real relationship she has with you. That’s a really tricky situation, I’m not sure that I have any advice, but I gotta say she is so fortunate to have you by her side through this. You much love her so incredibly much and I’m glad she has you.
@psychotic.in.seattle Thank you so much for your support! I have to admit that the hardest part for me was before I realized about the dillusion. We have always been honest to each other, so I had no reason to believe that it was not true, and that drove me crazy! Realizing the actual thing made me stronger, and I am determined to be there for her at any cost. I know that realization will eventually come, and being alone at this time will be very hard for her. She may get depressed and I feel ought to be there by her side.
I hope you get her to see someone who can work with her medically. I am an avid believer in antipsychotic medication. Abilify is a good one. Her brain is getting too much dopamine and the medication will block some of the dopamine receptors and in due time she'll come back.
Get help. Maybe figure out why there is such a need in her. Biographical clues? I'm an avid advocate for finding out more about what drives us humans instead of only briefly shutting things down (which is great when harming oneself or others is feared. By that standard though, we should be all be on meds all the time,)
“Psychosis” happens on a spectrum. That part is saved for the end. 3rd rule of “reality based” Fight Club, always talk about Fight Club. Forget the fight part, forget weed, street drugs, alcohol and be careful who you talk to.
a friend of mine has psychosis..i am here to find remedies for him. In Ghana, mentally challenged people dont get the help they need because the struggle is real down here.
@@rischio7678 oh boy, I feel you. I have a researcher friend who’s been doing work in West Africa and I was blown away to hear about the issues with resources and stigma and such. For instance, I found out there’s only one psychologist per 1 million patients 😨 Is it really that scarce? I’m hopeful that the work my friend is doing helps in some way. There’s definitely a lot more work to be done, that’s for sure.
They don’t.. it’s sick. I am a mother and my daughter won’t heal. I am giving up and planning my death.. lost my hope after 6 years.. be strong.. I failed death is all I can do to get away from this I hate myself for not being able to help my only child
coming up on 15 years post breakdown and it still feels like just yesterday sometimes, the hardest part was having no counseling for what to do next. thanks for talking about this
Thank you for sharing. The stigma around this is a very big problem. I got psychosis eight years ago. I'm still delusional sometimes. I gained a lot of weight from the medication. Also I'm very low on energy and anxiety and apathy is a problem still.
What you are talking about is very similar to what ive been experiencing the last 2 years .....Im also an artist and draw to stay alive now . .. your very indepth descriptions of the mental experiences of the different forms of death is uncanny ....I feel im not alone in this reality .... Life is hard so I literally take one day at a time now .... . Thank you for your videos 😁
First I stopped telling people what I was believing and thinking. Then I stopped believing in the hallucinations and delusions so that they lost their control over me.
Thank you very much for sharing. It's a pleasure listening to you! And I must say, the background is also very nice and tranquil, and you yourself are pleasant to watch. :-)
Children dressed mortality at 9 and 10? I remember on my fourth or fifth birthday. I had an existential crisis and broke down crying because I didn’t want the responsibility of getting older. I didn’t want to grow hair and I didn’t want to not be able to run anymore eventually
How many month did it take to get your cognitive abilities back after each episode? Thanks for making those videos, they make me feel less isolated with my illness.
Some of it I’m still getting back, but overall when I got to the point that I was mostly back to normal it was about 18 months. The 18 month mark was when I was able to really talk like myself again. Before that, everything I said was very minimal - it was hard to come up with words.
Yeah I've picked up on the fact that I have it but unfortunately I've been in it since COVID. Wish me luck im going to be calling my Psych to inform them I'm like a total match for all symptoms minus hallucinations
5. Rage and grief debilitate me. It's impossible that this hell is actually my life. My only desire is to die. 6. I am paralyzed by terror and loneliness and trauma and longing. The emotional pain so intense and the darkness so all-encompassing, I feel I'm being buried alive 7. Desperate for escape from the pain of the reality of my life. On every level in every way, I am raped. I don't stop sobbing.
I’m so grateful for you sharing your story. I want more people to speak out about this because it’s so common… I love someone deeply who is catatonic and in psychosis. I’m curious if you were hospitalized, and how your road to recovery began? I’ll go to your channel to try and understand more of your story. ❤ You give me hope! Thank you!!
@@HalenNelah I hope they recover well! Yes, I’ve been hospitalized and it absolutely saved my life. I’ll make a video about it so look out for that in the upcoming weeks.
@@HalenNelah I made a video but I forgot the part about how my road to recovery began so I’ll make it two parts, I ended up going in a different direction and talking all about hospitalizations. So I will make it up to you in the next one! The hospital one will be up this week.
I saw my dead stepdad sitting on the chair,it only went away at dawn. I told my psychiatrist and was Not warned about the anhedonia I subsequently suffered or the inability to function that was confusing and awful,especially since nobody knew what it was,I think they thought I was lazy and selfish and depressed because of my own fault. I had a huge seizure just before the positive ( but horrible symptoms) I was taken advantage of by a person for money and other things that were outright abuse. It led to terrible consequences that again I was blamed for.
I'm a big proponent of this but I've never struggled with psychosis. I've heard extended fasting can actually trigger or make psychosis/mania worse in some people. When my brother is psychotic he will fast and it's very dangerous for him, it seems to deepen the psychosis and make him lose dangerous amounts of weight. It plays into his religious delusions too I think. I've heard fasting raises cortisol (which explains the euphoria and clarity of mind I feel) which explains why it could be dangerous for some. Do you mind sharing under what circumstances you do it and how it helps you? I'm looking into medical keto for my brother tho. I've heard some good things for people with severe mental illness. It definitely balances my mood/moderate mental health issues.
@@tinaferr You won't gain benefits until you break the fast which is when the rebuilding occurs, but you must keep low carb and have plenty of animal products. Glucose metabolism is very skewed in people with psychosis and the meds make it much worse.
@@tinaferr I think you might want to check out @livingwellwithschizophrenia she has been using the keto diet to treat her psychosis and has chronicled her experience on her channel. I find her videos very helpful!
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle i love her vids! low carb has really helped my mood issues and i wonder if it's even had a neuroprotective effect for me, as I haven't developed sz even tho it runs in my family. i've been doing it on and off for 20 years and nothing helps my mood swings as much. i hope it works for you! thanks again for being so transparent in your vids, my family and I find them very helpful
I don't hear enough people talking about the brain damage a manic or psychotic episode has on the brain. I remember I couldn't even play cards in the hospital or comprehend a book. My kids books were much the same. I'm type 1 bipolar and my manic episodes come on quick and leave quickly too. Your story about the two psychotic people who had an amazing experience in comparison to the horror and terror you experienced reminds me of myself viewing the bipolar subreddit. People are talking about hallucinating the smell of cigarettes or hearing classical music and I'm over here hearing people hacked alive and smelling decay. We aren't the same. Solidarity.
I question if I have psychotic episodes because it feels like literally once a year my life falls completely apart. It feels like it’s not my fault, but usually it totally is.
Hello, I believe this wasn't cover this in your video. I'm curious about how you managed to find help. Was it through a friend or family member, or did you have a personal breakthrough on your own? I ask because my sister has schizophrenia and experiences various forms of psychosis. Despite being aware of her condition, she has downright refused hospitalization, medication, and therapy for the past five years. We've tried legal measures to intervene, but it's proven to be incredibly difficult. If you could share how you were able to help yourself, I would be very grateful and thank you for sharing your journey.
@@julianada1567 I’ve had to be hospitalized involuntarily to get help, and like you said the legality around that is incredibly difficult. I hope she’ll come around and get the help she needs. I know that when my family member went through it I felt helpless trying to get her to get help, I feel for you.
What can you do if the patient does not want to take meds? Even when it is apparent they needs meds? They think the doctors and nurses want to hurt them?
É possível sentir falta de algum modo de pensar que se apresenta durante a psicose e vai embora com as medicações? Você sente falta de alguma alucinação auditiva, visual, tátil? A consciência de um self integrado desaparece durante uma psicose? Bom vídeo! Obrigada
Hmm, I hope I’m along the same lines as you - like a separate consciousness? I don’t know how to describe, but it was as if I had more of myself in psychosis and when I was medicated I lost all the insight and perspective I’d gained. It was kind of lonely. I’m not sure if that’s what you mean, correct me if I’m wrong.
Thankyou so much for sharing this I appreciate it. I had a psychotic break about 7 months ago. Am on medication and no longer have psychotic symptoms however ever since that episode, my sleep has Been terribly messed up and I cannot sleep without heavy doses of olanzapine. Have I permanently altered my brain or does the natural sleep eventually come back?
I think it takes time for everything to come back to normal, including sleep. There’s so much that goes out of whack in psychosis! I think if it doesn’t improve it could be a great idea to bring it up with your doctor.
Carolyn, thank you so much for your story, we are dealing with niece having psychotic episodes, she will be living in camper besides me when she gets out of hospital, what next steps would you recommend? Also social media seems to worsen her symptoms, taking her keys away till she realizes she has symptoms ect, what kind of dr, tx should we get her, she's 23, thank you, your do articulate
I hope she recovers well! I really can’t recommend anything since I’m not involved, but I do know that staying off social media helped me a great deal, too. It made my symptoms worse as well so being away from my phone & laptop helped a lot. I also just did a video about antipsychotic medication with some information about how it works and who can prescribe it which might be helpful, if you want to check that out.
My girlfriend is currently in the recovery process, feeling like a zombie, we had a few issues bc of her psychosis (trust issues, past traumas resurfacing etc) But now we're healing, both her and our relationship. What kind of things can i do to help her through this process?
@@johnny_mar it sounds like you’re already doing a great job of supporting her. Emotional support tends to be the biggest thing a person can do at that stage. Picking up the slack where they struggle to perform like they used to, being gentle with them, giving them the patience to put the pieces back together. I’m so glad she’s recovering, and I’m glad you’re both healing
@@DreamchaserAj24 Never! Not for me at least. I’ll be medicated for life. Every time I’ve gone off my meds I’ve gone right back into psychosis. That might not be the case for everyone, but for a lot of people it is.
Henestly, God delivered me from it. I drew closer to God and jesus. He saved me. I would see think strange things and hear strange things and realized God is real. Im also type 1 diabetic. That's what made me realise God's real. *Soon, there is going to be the rapture. It's when there will be trumpet sounds, and after the trumpet sounds, God will lift his people from here. Also, God said people should be living by the Bible. Amen, and God bless you. * John 3:16 - "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him shall not perish but have eternal life".
Thank you for sharing your story. My brother has schizophrenia and is currently going through a psychotic episode. He often lacks insight even when he's in remission, partially i think bc he's pretty isolated and doesn't talk to other people going through it. So, I'm making a playlist of vids like yours to play for him after he gets better. I don't want him to feel alone and your video will help him there and also help give him his power back. So thank you. What a great way to turn your struggle into something healing for others.
My heart goes out to your brother! I hope he gets all the support he needs & finds peace.
I need my son back
My bout of psychosis. I was afraid of my own thoughts. And didnt sleep for over a month. I try my best 2 not let my thoughts create fear any more and that helped.
God is real and he loves you.
just sent this to my family. it’s so isolating bc nobody understands the recovery process. people expect so much from you. i’m like a zombie.
I get that, it’s so hard having those expectations imposed on you when you’re that broken. I felt like a zombie too & the amount of effort it took to do anything was insane.
its taken me 2 years to "recover". im pretty stable now, getting my CPR/BLS licensure for a job and about to go into college. i draw, paint and write often. i talk with friends. i go to church and attend guitar classes. But nonetheless psychosis left its mark on me; Im so scared of experiencing that ever again. The isolation, the social exclusion, delusions, hallucinations, etc. It is all so much to bear at times. No one understands the frustration that comes with recovery. The flashbacks, the aftermath. Somehow I did not let that stop me for as physically painful it was to remember the bits and pieces of my psychotic episode. I persevered even though my family almost gave up on me multiple times. Its still hard trying to explain what I saw, felt, heard and thought during that time. But I hope with this reply that you can feel less alone... its okay to cry and its okay to feel defeated... I know I do all the times... but when I look at the progress Ive made, I feel proud... when I look at the person I was back then, I feel so much compassion too... recovery is a slippery slope but it is possible and so worth it
Could we talk?? I’m dealing with psychosis myself and I’m feeling the same way. Could we talk on Snapchat or instagram?
@@Psychotic.in.Seattlehi I’m currently having a episode and I feel so unmotivated all I wanna do is smoke and sleep. Do you refer me to stop smoking?
@@mooothaado I have very similar story, never give up bro ❤
I recovered from my psychosis through my faith in Christ and the bible brought
deep healing to my soul
SAME!! Jesus is lord.
I've been trying this for 4 years now, diligently. I don't understand why he hasn't saved me.😢
@@nunya3097
Christ knocks but we have to let him in...
Because it's just a story you have to believe in. Save yourself. I listen to Abraham Hicks all the time, it helps when I'm not too depressed. @@nunya3097
Hiwnlong did that take
I have a friend who is having an episode. I have known her for years and this is something I haven’t seen. After trying to help her she has now put me on the “mass manipulator” list. I am very sad but I can’t help her and am fearful both for her and anyone around her right now. Your explanation of how everything you thought was through the psychosis was helpful.
I hope she’ll be ok. I’m sorry you ended up on the receiving end of her delusion. Hopefully that changes and she comes around again.
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle Thank you.
After my 2nd episode of schizophrenia last may of 2000 as of now 2024 of Feb. I do not have a relapse. Also I have recovered my unusual math skills. Year 2021 was a crisis year for me. In may I lost my doggie friend. September my father died of COVID-19. The delta variant. October of same year I was hospitalized for moderate COVID. 10 days later I got out of the hospital. Lucky I did not relapse from schizophrenia and I was vaccinated b4 I was afflicted with COVID-19.
Now I am doing great after the storm of my life. My hobbies are solving math and writing songs. It is really fun. Through them I releases my pain.
I’m so glad you’re doing better! 2021 certainly sounds rough but I’m happy to hear you got through it. I like to write songs too, it’s helped a lot.
Thank you for sharing your experiences. My son who is 21 is currently in his second episode of psychosis his first episode happened about a year ago and this time around it is very hard he stopped taking his medication and trying to get him to take it again while in psychosis is very difficult he was recently taken to a facility I just want him to get better.
I hope he’ll be ok. And I hope you’ll be ok too, I can’t imagine how hard that must be for you as his mother. I wish the best for both of you.
I sympathize with you, as a mom as well. My son just got diagnosed with schizophrenia last April and has had a few episodes. I too want my son who is 24 to get better. You aren’t alone with this… I hope your son gets better as well
Thank you for sharing. My son has been diagnosed in May last of Bipolar type 1. But we reckoned he started showing symptoms months before he got taken to the hospital. It was like a gradual build up of symptoms that lead him to full blown mania with psychosis and picked up by police and was taken to the hospital. He was discharged last June ‘23 but during recovery period at home he hit rock bottom and attempted suicide 😢 in September’23. For us parents it’s so very hard and painful to watch them in bed day after day 24/7!! No motivation at all! You’re saying, it takes a very long time for full recovery, now I must extend my hope that it will happen one day🤞🤞🙏 He is 30 y.o and lost his gf, friends, house, money and luckily his job is still there waiting for him to get back.🤞🙏
Again thank you for your advocacy. Bless you.🙏
@@simmic3766 I always hope it’s encouraging when I say it takes a long time, because I know I sure wish it had been shorter, but there absolutely is hope that it will get better. It just takes a lot of patience. It can take years but I think he can get through it.
[Have you looked into nutrition? There's a video on DrJosef 's channel about nutrition related to mntal health that may be of severe value to you. Also a book called 'niacin the real story'.]
Your brave as hell for sharing such intimate information about yourself to strangers that could potentially harass you over it.
I am glad she just said it, because it helps so much to know I’m not alone in having had some really difficult experiences that, people will all tell you, is not normal but everyone seems to expect you to just snap out of without any help.
Having experienced psychosis I’m very blessed to have a psychologist as a mom who’s been so understanding of my ineptitude
I've never been diagnosed. I'm 51 years old.
My mother is schizophrenic, also undiagnosed because she's unaware (anosognosia). I have always known that she was ill, and recently I have viewed her symptoms through eyes that can now see. I realize that I'm not the person to help her, as she's "anti therapy" and she's always been adamant that there's "nothing wrong with her". Let's just say that being the child of someone who doesn't believe they're ill hasn't been easy. My whole life has been traumatic. (and I will admit that because of my own lack of awareness, I have caused my own children and partners pain and suffering).
Around 4 years ago I was at the darkest place in my life. I had been suffering from intrusive thoughts all my life, but it became so unbearable that I couldn't handle it. I was ready to end my life. My body and mind was in utter turmoil. I felt as if I was living life in the wrong body. I was highly dissociated.
But...
I heard something on UA-cam, a sentence that made its way into my conscious mind.
"God hears all your thoughts. He judges you for all of your thoughts, words and deeds."
This scared me.
I felt so much fear.
I said out loud, "Lord if you are hearing my thoughts then I need to repent, because my mind is sick."
I went onto my knees in prayer and in total submission.
What happened to me that night was a miracle.
I felt a love like no other descend upon me.
I felt held, and nurtured.
I cried, and I saw an image in my mind of Jesus on the cross.
I realized that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life.
"Jesus, please forgive me. I'm so sorry for all my sins."
I just simply surrendered and allowed Him into my brokenness.
I felt a weight lift off me.
I felt my mind calm down.
I felt truly forgiven.
It was beautiful.
I was born again that night.
The lord showed me, in visions, like a movie, all my past traumatic events that were causing my mental issues. I got up, I looked down at my own body and I said "I'm not 12 years old anymore" - as if some darkness had been lifted off of me. I had been living on auto-pilot.
All I can say is that we cannot ignore the importance of repentance, the importance of faith, and our need for Jesus.
I had to share this with someone, because if there's perhaps some way to get those who refuse to admit they are schizophrenic to somehow learn about the gospel, the true need for repentance and deliverance, then there's a chance that the lord will help them, too. I pray that my story is heard, and I pray that it helps someone.
I didn't know that I was sick. I didn't know anything about schizophrenia. In learning more about others stories, it's obvious to me that this is what I have been suffering my whole life. Since being saved, I haven't experienced the intrusive thoughts or delusions. I am awake and aware. I'm learning how to live a christ-centered life.
I'm no longer running my unconscious patterns of mental anguish, I'm no longer using alcohol or other addictions in order to calm my mind.
I'm no longer believing the strange things I used to believe.
I'm no longer thinking that my body was created to please others.
I'm no longer using sex as a means to express and receive love.
I no longer have OCD sexual fantasies.
I no longer say inappropriate things to people.
I no longer suffer with paraphilia.
I no longer need to take my clothes off for attention.
I no longer believe that I am here to save the world (although this one is tough).
I no longer feel like I'm being controlled by aliens.
I'm no longer subconsciously trapped in the mindset of my 12 year old self!
I'm not on any medication, nor have I ever been. I was silently suffering for years, not ever knowing that I was sick. Anosognosia is an inability to recognize symptoms as warning signs of schizophrenia. I learned to live with it. I adapted my life and I normalized my behaviour. When I acted in ways that displeased me, I had a talk with myself, and I "became" someone else. I shifted my identity at my own will, according to what my environment called. I did this because "being myself" was disgusting and displeasing. My mother had psychologically abused me into believing I deserved to be punished, hated... And I ended up self harming my whole life. All of this was done in a state of unconsciousness. At my core I believed I was an object. An it. I had no innate goodness, no value or worth. I became a pretzel, trying to please people. Yet I knew that deep down I was faulty and wrong. I couldn't trust myself, and so I relied on my partner to take care of me, and to protect me.
I had been deliberately harming myself, and I couldn't break free from this perpetual loop.
I have had a very chaotic and complicated life. I have made really bad decisions. I have never lived alone, for fear of abandonment. After years of being married (to a narcissist), I'm now seperated, living back at home with my parents, and I have come face to face with my fear of rejection.
The main goals in a schizophrenic person's life is safety, stability and support. We thrive when we feel safe, and when we are no longer living a life of self inflicted stress, which we often seek out because we normalize chaos and often we tolerate and accept abuse as love. Obviously many of us suffer with co-morbidities, such as autism, addiction, anger, co-dependency, narcissism, arrested development, paraphilia, etc, I also believe that God can intervene. God knows us better than we know ourselves. He can be the salvation that we need, He can free us of our anguish.
The lord has been bringing my attention to the benefits of a healthy diet and gut health. He's been leading me to live a simple life. He's been leading me to stay in the word, to read the Bible, to understand the new testament, and to stay firm in my faith. He's been showing me that the Holy Spirit lives in me, sent to help me discern what's false versus truth. As you know, being schizophrenic doesn't make this path easy.
I watch only Christian movies, and I listen only to gospel music because anything else leads my mind away from God.
Spiritual warfare is real, often we allowed the enemy into our life through traumatic events. With Jesus centred in our life and in our heart, with the help of the Holy Spirit to guide us, we can live a life of freedom in Christ.
There are certain prayers that I have been led to, for example, this morning I was led to a "break the curse of the vagabond spirit" - If this is something that resonates with you or a loved one, perhaps pray this prayer or have them pray it:
ua-cam.com/video/1f_di6dYKV0/v-deo.htmlsi=LxAZ2b0gTSi_rfbu
I know it's unorthodox and perhaps strange for some, but these prayers work.
Praise the Lord, and thank you Jesus for your perfect life in order for us to achieve salvation when we are all so sinful. The lord knows how much we all need healing.
This is a very simplified version of what I experienced. I feel 1000 years old already. Life has been so hard. May god save and bless someone else out there. Trauma repeats itself until it's confronted, and Jesus is really the truth, the way and the life. He knows what you need. I was uncomfortable with the whole "spiritual" aspect, but if you read the new testament, you will see how biblically accurate it is. Don't mistake the true gospel with new age spirituality. You will go down a very dark path. Trust me. There's a lot of false preachers out there. I would recommend Mike winger and Melissa dougherty. Be sure to stay in the word. May He turn your story around.
I cried after I read your messages, and prayed for my son . May Jesus Christ heal him from Schizophrenia. I don't know if he needs to continue his medicine because we are afraid of side effects.
Hey Carolynn, I work as a therapist in early psychosis intervention and I found your video incredibly useful. I showed this video to someone who is in that post psychosis cognitive repair stage and he found the video incredibly relatable. He's found it very hard to conceptualize his journey and this video has helped him a lot.
Oh that’s so wonderful! Thank you for sharing with him. I really appreciate what you do. I think it really makes a difference and I am grateful that there are therapists like you who care so much.
Thank you for your vulnerability, currently recovering from my 3rd psychosis. Tore my life apart and full of embarrassment and shame, my family is religious and thinks it’s more spiritual than mental health. These videos help me stay in reality so much. Thank you again.
@@abbyereid8761 I wish I could tell you to not be ashamed of yourself but you are going to feel it cause I have also like so many others. You so what ypu do and keep going g tour o. The right track. I a
Afraid to say I. UT. Kat every ody will not get ypu a.d .ant will not support you if your like me. Just be what you are and stay in groups such as Facebook
@@abbyereid8761 the spirituality really gets me. 😓 I found it hard to stay in reality too when it would get brought up!
Its really reassuring to know that recovery is possible and that i am not the only one who experienced something like this. I went into severe psychosis after surviving a traumatic event that resulted in brain damage. I had no idea what was happening, and i felt this was a never ending cycle. Thank God recovery is possible, more and more i am regaining my memory of the past 5 years which were wiped almost completely away
I could literally cut and paste this for my own life experience. Thank you for sharing. Best wishes for a full recovery friend 🙏
@@mfaye5549 that is so great to hear that your brain is healing! I’m sorry you’ve been through so much trauma. I’m really glad you’re recovering, you deserve it.
@@darrylsimms39 I wish you full recovery, healing takes time but it really does get better. ❤️
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle thank you, that means alot. I hope the same for you. You really are helping alot of people in the process. :)♡
Did you know that according to the psychologist BF Skinner psychosis is caused by "extreme deprivation or total satiation and an inability to escape from such a stimuli". He is basically talking about how our behavior is completely motivated by our needs. We buy food because we need to eat, we go out for a walk because we need exercise, and we socialize because we need other people, etc., etc. It is basically theorized that schizophrenia, if not caused by any other somatic disease, it could be caused by social isolation. That is, lack of social stimulization. In people with schizophrenia the frontal and temporal lobes are atrophied and these regions are responsible for social cognition. Lots of people with psychosis isolate themselves as initial symptoms. I just wanted to write to you about what BF Skinner talked about when he was alive. I really hope this helps! I wish you all the best!
I wasn’t isolated when I had psychosis. I was working and interacting with many people even going to church. I didn’t eat or sleep for three days. My friends from church took me to the hospital. I was given the options of either taking medication or going back home to New Jersey. I chose to go back to New Jersey still hallucinating. Eventually after several years I figured out how to ignore and not believe in the hallucinations and delusions. There’s a direct correlation between what you believe and what you see and experience. All the symptoms are because of an escalating spiraling effect of what you are believing.
@@JungleJargon You said that you didn't sleep for three days! Sleep is a human need, and sleep deprivation is a known cause of psychotics behavior like hallucinations and delusions. You said it yourself! I really hope that other people can find the work of BF Skinner and understand more about the causes behind psychosis. I wish you all the best and I really hope you can recover from this horrible disease!
@@johanandersson7319 I actually recovered completely within several years. It was during my first episode of psychosis that I was unable to eat or sleep for three days. I was sure the world was going to end. When it didn’t end I cautiously went outside. Everything was very strange. I recovered around 1985 and I have since retired.
i know some people disagree with you but i think this is what happened in my experience. i have always been extremely isolated my entire life and as that has continued my positive smyptons have gotten worse. i really do believe that if i had gotten genuine, fulfilling social connection with just even one person (very hard to achieve with near permanent social anhedonia) i would not have psychotic experiences.
@@udonge1043 We can't be overly concerned about our past. There's really nothing we can do to change our past. What we have to do now is to make the best of what we have. My suggestion is to ignore and not believe the hallucinations and delusions. That's easier said than done but it requires changing basically everything you believe. I'm hoping the best for you.
I love reading. I lost the ability to read the written word and retain what I had read. I found I was able to read using audiobooks. I could throw the headphones on and clean and read a book. It was the only time I was able to process reading was through audio. I am now able to read the written word, but I still prefer audio. I have listened to thousands of books this way in the past 20 years. So, I take this as a blessing.
Thank you for creating this video. I particularly relate to the diminished cognitive abilities - hopefully this loss of intelligence is temporary. One of my biggest fears was always losing my mind, and I sure lost it. Trying to reclaim it now.
My intelligence has bounced back quite a bit & I hope yours does too. It just took a looong time & lots of patience.
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle that's reassuring to hear, thank you!
in psychosis your true inner child comes up which was surpressed to long because of trauma and a toxic environment. to say psychosis is an illness and to say that the one who are in psychosis has this illness and it is controlled by it and non of the inner content of this psychotic person should be seen as serious or sane ist just the continuation of the behaviours a toxic environment puts on this persons all life long. "your inner thoughts, needs, urges, emotions are false. you are crazy. you are too much." this is actually sick. one person who would have really listened to this person once in a lifetime or give them hold, is all whats needed.
a "psychosis" or other mental ilnesses are sane reactions to insane environment.
one would must have learned to leave them before getting crazy because of them.
I shared an apartment for a while with an acquaintance and I wasn't aware of her condition until I was.
It was the most terrifying situation I've ever experienced so i can't even imagine what it was like for her.
She completely checked out and the person who took over her mind was so impossibly crazy i don't think i could explain it.
I moved out as soon as I could and learned that she had experienced a few more episodes.
Hope she's doing ok.
How was it terrifying? What scared you?
Had a psychosis a few years ago from substance abuse. Still trying to recover, thank you for this video! It’s the first time hearing somebody talking about this and now i feel understood. I had to be admitted for 2 weeks and on lots of medications, since then life hasn’t been the same
@@bitsy002 I really feel for you, it’s earth shattering to go through. I’m glad you came out of psychosis. I hope you’re being gentle with yourself. ❤️ Take good care!
Can I ask how? Like what drug and the details?
How'd you become a "psychosis advocate?" I want to advocate for psychosis
@@neomancr I kinda stumble onto it! I was just talking about it on TikTok and started getting lots of questions about symptoms and recovery and stuff so I geared my content towards talking about it. There are so many great ways to get involved. Social media is a big one and there are great communities here and on instagram, but you can also get involved in organizations like NAMI and the Hearing Voices Network. I hope you get into it! Good luck!
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle thanks. I'm writing an article for NAMI now. I haven't hear of your other suggestion. Thanks a bunch!
Epictetus said Reason is the ability to know what is true, what is untrue, and suspending belief when it's dubious. He also spoke about knowing what your likes and dislikes are. This has helped me. To thine own self be true.
Thank you so much for sharing. I have had cognitive issues. I am not as vocal as before and I have so much anxiety and depression. I am slower and cant complete what I used to do before. Car accident really messed my neck and body and it caused me to be in so muchconstant electrical and stabbing pain with nerves distending. But also did decisions I would have never done.
I had all types of deaths too and saw my friends killing me as well and neighbors killing my dog. It was so harsh. I am so embarrassed but also so scared. This world isnt safe and being outside during psychosis is scary. I have so much PTSD.
@@mothergaia549 oh wow, you’ve certainly been through a lot. I’m sorry it was so bad and that it’s affected your cognitive abilities so much. I hope things get better and the PTSD improves. It really does take a toll!
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle thank you so much for responding and understanding ❤️
Thank you for this video and for sharing. ❤ What was particularly interesting was when you touched on the cognitive impairments... Now as I understand it it's the cognitive impairment that is at the core of schizophrenia (I'm not saying you have schizophrenia, but perhaps you can relate to the cognitive impairment when I say it centres around absorbing and processing complex information around stressors and when stressed coupled with fear it leads to a state of "disorientation")...
Stress in itself has its off-sets like struggling to have sufficient sleep, irregular meal times etc. etc. This in itself can lead to a state where someone can "hallucinate"... Now add "disorientation" (confusion with further barriers to cognitive function) on top of that and we can perhaps start to see how "disadvantaged" those with the affliction are in unravelling all manner of offsets to that affliction... Now hallucinations can invoke all manner of fear in someone and in a state of intense fear, panic can set in, and from a state of panic we often jump onto our very first conclusion (which tends to be our worse fear/case scenario)... Further experiences just add to that belief system to the point it "can" become habitual thinking... At this stage the belief system becomes the rabbit hole and the fear factor being the momentum driving someone further into that rabbit hole...
Now in the case of psychosis/paranoia it really magnifies when someone struggles with low self-esteem... When someone has insecurity issues they can become highly triggered again adding weight to belief systems and conclusions jumped to... Now imagine someone questions their sanity on top and this whole concept/mind-set can become a "closed loop" forever cycling until something either gives, or there is some form of intervention, and medication has its place as does time (when someone's worst fears fail to materialise time can start to be a healer as they finally start to question if their initial beliefs and conclusions were actually right to start with)... It can of course be highly complex and "triggered" people can often react irrationally and disproportionately to how they would otherwise often with severe consequences and not allowing "time" to do its healing thing accordingly...
Reassurance can be a great thing in calming the mind and slowing processes down to a level where they can be worked through calmly and methodically... for it is the latter which helps us to analyse and process and come to rational and "true" conclusions and perhaps the sooner this method is improvised the sooner real healing can take place... Trusting those who can make "tangible" differences from a place of full understanding and in touch with reality also has its place as it is these who can help steer and navigate sufferers back to their correct paths in life with all the "understanding" and "foresight" to prevent further "derailments" in the future... Just to add I am not a therapist etc... I just share here my "emotional understanding" of the affliction and how it can take people off on all manner of unhealthy and debilitating tangents that can set them back in life etc... I hope this has been both insightful and helpful... ❤❤
You are very articulate and bright. Not many people with your illness get your insight and heal and live by it. I personally know 3 people who died "self inflictedly" who were very intelligent. I feel like if they had chosen to educate themselves on their illness like you have maybe their outcome would have been different. Perhaps they just in too deep. None of them were on their meds when they died. It pays to be your own advocate. May others have that strength moving forward.
@@TerriW1203 my condolences, it’s a shame they are gone. It is a pretty heavy illness to live with, that’s for sure. It took so many years to be ok. I really feel for those people in your life. Unfortunately that is all too common. Thank you for sharing that with me.
I'm so glad your video showed up. And I'm grateful I decided to watch it. My husband is in Bipolar 1 psychosis with 37 days on medication. He has no awareness that he's in psychosis and could only leave the hospital if he was given an antipsychotic injection 12 days ago because he has absolutely no insight. None.
I keep waiting for him to just say he's experienced delusions. He still believes his auditory command hallucinations were real (this caused him to be involuntarily committed and medicated) There's so many hurdles in this. I just want him well enough to understand his 2 year long reality isn't real real.
Watching this video helped me see it from his side but also what he will eventually experience. This helped me gain patience towards him. Thank you!
I’m glad he has your care and support. What you’re doing takes so much heart and it does not go unappreciated. I hope he will recover well, he is so lucky to have you.
❤❤ its hard seeing a loved one go through this. I haz 2 bipolar brothers.
Wow! What an amazing recovery and ability you have to think through this complicated illness. You should be so proud. Thank you so much for giving us your story. What a gift to help us understand better.
I think your content is inspiring and great. Im 25 and have schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. I relate to everything you've gone through.
it is really relatable to hear you talk about the process of realization and how confusing/disorienting psychosis is. these days when i hear or see something not real i can usually realize it after some time is passed and i calmed down but it took me years to get to this point. i was so completely almost braindead after i was delusional for the first time, when my therapist suggested antipsychotics i did not even understand at all why she suggested them, i was like no, why would i need those? this was after i barricaded myself in my room thinking my mother was going to kill me. and it would take me several more years to realize that that event wasn't normal...the existential crisis that go along with believing you are about to die are also really unbearable.
Similar situation here - I also thought my mum wanted to kill me. Thought I died a few times too. Plus a bunch of other crazy shat.
Thank you for sharing the part about how experiences are real and traumatizing even if they are clouded or actually entire psychotic delusions. I also found it healing that you shared an experience similar to mine about how you were vulnerable and targeted for crime, violence, abuse, and other harm by predators during psychosis and how it's not fair or reasonable to expect a person in psychosis to protect themselves. One thing I've struggled with is self-acceptance about this in my life as I experienced a domestic violent illegitimate marriage to someone who later was seen as the victim or someone I falsely accused even though I directly experienced abuse and he preyed upon me as did others afterwards and preyed upon others identifying me as crazy so that he could use narcissistic abuse and smear tactics to control my reputation. I feel self-acceptance, recovery, and knowing it was real and that even what wasn't the part of the same reality that everyone else had been living were also experiences that terrified and traumatized me helps with the consequences of being preyed upon or still vulnerable while I'm recovering.
I have psychosis from 1.5months..
I am waiting for recovery phase, i hope it comes fast..
I have only hallucinations, no delusions. I just want to go in revovery phase..
I just graduated mbbs but on my last viva exam, psychosis started fully..
Prodromal phase was forgetfullness, slight whispers of my brothee
Carolynn!! Thank you for doing this!!! It is so needed and you are a beacon of hope!!
Always glad to help in whatever way I can!
This is really similar to what I experienced: being on fire, dismemberment etc. I went through ritualistic abuse as a child, so I also relate to the trauma of the psychosis intertwining with traumatic memory. You're not alone. x
@@vegaoksana oh no! That gives me chills, I am so sorry you grew up through that. It definitely affects psychosis in a big way. I hope you’re doing much better now.
I can relate.
Thank you for being so real and open about this shit. Your video is the only one I could find this morning that's actually helped me feel remotely better / like doing anything to help myself versus just feed the mood swings.
Thanks for sharing your experience. Our 19 year old son has been admitted to a facility because of psychosis. It g feels like this has come out of nowhere. We don’t even know who he is now. I’m just grateful for his safety atm and trying to learn what this is.
No.body talks about the brain damage post psychosis recovery took me over 2 years while in college
Thank you for you videos I find them helpful though I have PTSD
I’m glad they help. ❤️ I hope your PTSD improves & you get some relief. I know for me that was the hardest thing to get through (I have CPTSD from other stuff, too).
Thank you for making these videos and educating people about this topic in a way not even doctors can🌷
I've... found that gas lighting myself into a normal situation (sitting on couch with my partner) helps calm me down from a psychosis. It's a gas lightning mechanism but it's difficult for me to avoid it at times.
Thanks for making this video. It brings up a great conversation.
That sounds like a great tactic. I think that would help me a lot of it ever happened again.
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle That makes sense to you?!?! Oh gawd, where are people like me and you in my area? (Catskills)
Who am I kidding? Some people understand me but I'm constantly trying to find a new friend in my area despite all the things I got going against me. Hmm..
I also make art when I go through psychosis as well. I even have an art gallery wanting to show it but I truly don't know what to do with it after that. I'm just grateful that I like working in my non-profit that lets me be my freaky art self outside of work and so I'm comfortable enough with what I'm doing. Hope you're doing well as well.
Here's to the freaks,
@@NY_Mountain_Man here here! I make art in psychosis too! I applied to art school in psychosis and made my whole portfolio in psychosis haha. I don’t think I got in, I wasn’t quite well enough to know the results. It would have been amazing if I did! I doubt I did though. And yes, that makes sense to me. Kinda like fake it till you make it? Trying to act as if all is good?
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle See, I have no idea what you're talking about but this is fascinating. If my conditioning that I was given while living in isolation is anything to go by, I can see now why people think I'm pretentious. Fascinating. Also, art school is just an elaborate popularity contest / money drain. I spent my early 20s hiding from terrifying realities that most minds can't comprehend. I don't think we missed anything besides four years of irresponsibility.
Keep being you,
PS: I'll check out your work if you're not scared by me. I typically scare people off because of my frame, orientation, and psychotic beliefs that kids need to be protected. Especially the queer ones. (or could be queer). Yeah.. I'm proud of it. I hope you're proud of whatever you're doing too.
(People think I have capgras but the reality is much more far more American Kafkaesque.)
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle Also, I say this in a strictly platonic and doopy manner.
Would you believe I'm married? That's the true shocker. lol
I am in recovery myself from my last episode and it is definitely taking a long time to get back into life again. For me it is the negative symptoms of schizophrenia that have been difficult to deal with this year. My voice is monotone, my face is flat and my family thinks I am depressed but I don't feel depressed. Could you make a video discussing the negative symptoms of schizophrenia?
Yes, I’d be happy too! Good luck with your recovery. I’m glad you came out of psychosis and I hope it gets better from here.
That's very interesting. How do you explain why some people speak with 'melody' and others monotonous ?
@@annelbeab8124 a lot of times in psychosis people will have a flat affect, which is basically not being able to express emotion even if they have emotions. This can look a lot like showing little expression, having minimal mannerisms, and having a monotone voice.
@psychotic.in.seattle thanks so much.
I wondered as others might mimick regular behaviour to not get detected. That's of course outside of psychosis in individuals who simply don't get the drama around them, but fake it partly to assimilate
Yes, disabling in day to day life! I have lived in phycosis for 9 years now. 24/7 365. It has made me fall fromy own family😢 it hasase me this k my family has been a part of the disabling my mind and body! Not only does this affect my mind it's emotional and physical abuse as well. She is explaining very well. Pleaseiatwm as she speaks
are u on any meds
You are a lovely, brave, articulate person! Thank you!
I've suffered it since i was 16. I've always known but tried to hide it. As I'm getting older my cognition is becoming impossible to recover. It is the most terrifying thing you could go through.
@@kirstyparker5253 I agree, especially with the cognition part of it. It definitely takes a toll.
you can not memorize that good after psychosis because you remember things without any problems when you are emotionaly attached to things and thoughts and stuff. But in psychosis your inner core got soudly because you surpressed or hide it too long that fight through. And if this failed and nobody took you on you ended up completely abandoned and alone. You died internally because you failed to find hold with your true self, not with your role you learned in your family.
and if this holy core got crushed, your started to be one of the people who are already dead inside. and dead you dont have emotions, you dont care about anything anymore so therefor the is no emotion or passion which would make you recognize things. you jst dont care. your dead.
pyhchosis wrecked relationsships for me and half of my highschool and one of my jobs and caused me so much stress when i found out things werent real now i dont know whats real
Wow I'm relating a lot of this to my life rn. I'm starting to understand that I may be starting some of these symptoms
You must be such a strong person being able to come out of all this!
I'm struggling for the last four months with my partner who is having an erotomanic delusion. She believes a famous singer is in love with her and he is contacting secretely through his songs and his post on social media. She decided to break up with me but we still live together as roomates. She refuses to accept she needs help, she is living in her own reality. I try to keep calm and be supportive, hoping that some time she will be aware of her dillusion. There are times she seems to recover and that gives me hope, but then she dives again deeper in her psychosis.
Any advice would be greatly apreciated.
Wow, that must be so hard! I’m sorry she broke up with you. I hope she comes out of her psychosis and recognizes the real relationship she has with you. That’s a really tricky situation, I’m not sure that I have any advice, but I gotta say she is so fortunate to have you by her side through this. You much love her so incredibly much and I’m glad she has you.
@psychotic.in.seattle Thank you so much for your support! I have to admit that the hardest part for me was before I realized about the dillusion. We have always been honest to each other, so I had no reason to believe that it was not true, and that drove me crazy! Realizing the actual thing made me stronger, and I am determined to be there for her at any cost. I know that realization will eventually come, and being alone at this time will be very hard for her. She may get depressed and I feel ought to be there by her side.
I hope you get her to see someone who can work with her medically. I am an avid believer in antipsychotic medication. Abilify is a good one. Her brain is getting too much dopamine and the medication will block some of the dopamine receptors and in due time she'll come back.
Get help. Maybe figure out why there is such a need in her. Biographical clues? I'm an avid advocate for finding out more about what drives us humans instead of only briefly shutting things down (which is great when harming oneself or others is feared. By that standard though, we should be all be on meds all the time,)
@@natas12rm cool idea
“Psychosis” happens on a spectrum. That part is saved for the end. 3rd rule of “reality based” Fight Club, always talk about Fight Club. Forget the fight part, forget weed, street drugs, alcohol and be careful who you talk to.
Your remarkable ... best of luck with life's endeavors .
Thank you, same to you!
a friend of mine has psychosis..i am here to find remedies for him. In Ghana, mentally challenged people dont get the help they need because the struggle is real down here.
@@rischio7678 oh boy, I feel you. I have a researcher friend who’s been doing work in West Africa and I was blown away to hear about the issues with resources and stigma and such. For instance, I found out there’s only one psychologist per 1 million patients 😨 Is it really that scarce? I’m hopeful that the work my friend is doing helps in some way. There’s definitely a lot more work to be done, that’s for sure.
They don’t.. it’s sick. I am a mother and my daughter won’t heal. I am giving up and planning my death..
lost my hope after 6 years.. be strong.. I failed death is all I can do to get away from this I hate myself for not being able to help my only child
@@PamJohnson-cx6ksplease don’t abandon your daughter. it’s not your fault you are unable to help her. but dying will only cause her hurt
coming up on 15 years post breakdown and it still feels like just yesterday sometimes, the hardest part was having no counseling for what to do next. thanks for talking about this
You are very brave to share this story. ❤
I’ve been looking for psychosis experience videos for… a very long time. so glad you felt open to sharing. thank you
Thank you for being so transparent! I hope this video is able to help a lot of people.
Thank you for sharing. The stigma around this is a very big problem. I got psychosis eight years ago. I'm still delusional sometimes. I gained a lot of weight from the medication. Also I'm very low on energy and anxiety and apathy is a problem still.
@@annafia those are so hard to regain, I really feel you on that. I hope it’s getting better
What you are talking about is very similar to what ive been experiencing the last 2 years .....Im also an artist and draw to stay alive now . .. your very indepth descriptions of the mental experiences of the different forms of death is uncanny ....I feel im not alone in this reality .... Life is hard so I literally take one day at a time now .... . Thank you for your videos 😁
First I stopped telling people what I was believing and thinking. Then I stopped believing in the hallucinations and delusions so that they lost their control over me.
Thank you very much for sharing.
It's a pleasure listening to you!
And I must say, the background is also very nice and tranquil, and you yourself are pleasant to watch. :-)
@@spr481 aw thank you! I put a lot of effort into the presentation of my videos.
Thank you very much for your videos!! 🥰
Thank you for posting. You are a lifesaver.
Children dressed mortality at 9 and 10? I remember on my fourth or fifth birthday. I had an existential crisis and broke down crying because I didn’t want the responsibility of getting older. I didn’t want to grow hair and I didn’t want to not be able to run anymore eventually
How many month did it take to get your cognitive abilities back after each episode? Thanks for making those videos, they make me feel less isolated with my illness.
Some of it I’m still getting back, but overall when I got to the point that I was mostly back to normal it was about 18 months. The 18 month mark was when I was able to really talk like myself again. Before that, everything I said was very minimal - it was hard to come up with words.
Bless this moment for you .🙏
Yeah I've picked up on the fact that I have it but unfortunately I've been in it since COVID.
Wish me luck im going to be calling my Psych to inform them I'm like a total match for all symptoms minus hallucinations
Well done, a great upload. People need to hear this.
5. Rage and grief debilitate me. It's impossible that this hell is actually my life. My only desire is to die.
6. I am paralyzed by terror and loneliness and trauma and longing. The emotional pain so intense and the darkness so all-encompassing, I feel I'm being buried alive
7. Desperate for escape from the pain of the reality of my life. On every level in every way, I am raped. I don't stop sobbing.
I resonate with this so much.
Thank You so much for sharing your story! ❤️
I’m so grateful for you sharing your story. I want more people to speak out about this because it’s so common… I love someone deeply who is catatonic and in psychosis. I’m curious if you were hospitalized, and how your road to recovery began? I’ll go to your channel to try and understand more of your story. ❤ You give me hope! Thank you!!
@@HalenNelah I hope they recover well! Yes, I’ve been hospitalized and it absolutely saved my life. I’ll make a video about it so look out for that in the upcoming weeks.
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle thank you! 💕
@@HalenNelah I made a video but I forgot the part about how my road to recovery began so I’ll make it two parts, I ended up going in a different direction and talking all about hospitalizations. So I will make it up to you in the next one! The hospital one will be up this week.
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle oh my gosh, you are amazing! I love following your channel, your story, and insights. Thank you for thinking of me!
I saw my dead stepdad sitting on the chair,it only went away at dawn. I told my psychiatrist and was Not warned about the anhedonia I subsequently suffered or the inability to function that was confusing and awful,especially since nobody knew what it was,I think they thought I was lazy and selfish and depressed because of my own fault. I had a huge seizure just before the positive ( but horrible symptoms) I was taken advantage of by a person for money and other things that were outright abuse. It led to terrible consequences that again I was blamed for.
lowering carbs and doing some extended fasting will help
Thanks, that’s such great advice!
I'm a big proponent of this but I've never struggled with psychosis. I've heard extended fasting can actually trigger or make psychosis/mania worse in some people. When my brother is psychotic he will fast and it's very dangerous for him, it seems to deepen the psychosis and make him lose dangerous amounts of weight. It plays into his religious delusions too I think. I've heard fasting raises cortisol (which explains the euphoria and clarity of mind I feel) which explains why it could be dangerous for some. Do you mind sharing under what circumstances you do it and how it helps you?
I'm looking into medical keto for my brother tho. I've heard some good things for people with severe mental illness. It definitely balances my mood/moderate mental health issues.
@@tinaferr You won't gain benefits until you break the fast which is when the rebuilding occurs, but you must keep low carb and have plenty of animal products. Glucose metabolism is very skewed in people with psychosis and the meds make it much worse.
@@tinaferr I think you might want to check out @livingwellwithschizophrenia she has been using the keto diet to treat her psychosis and has chronicled her experience on her channel. I find her videos very helpful!
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle i love her vids! low carb has really helped my mood issues and i wonder if it's even had a neuroprotective effect for me, as I haven't developed sz even tho it runs in my family. i've been doing it on and off for 20 years and nothing helps my mood swings as much. i hope it works for you! thanks again for being so transparent in your vids, my family and I find them very helpful
Great video!😁
Thanks!
I don't hear enough people talking about the brain damage a manic or psychotic episode has on the brain. I remember I couldn't even play cards in the hospital or comprehend a book. My kids books were much the same. I'm type 1 bipolar and my manic episodes come on quick and leave quickly too.
Your story about the two psychotic people who had an amazing experience in comparison to the horror and terror you experienced reminds me of myself viewing the bipolar subreddit. People are talking about hallucinating the smell of cigarettes or hearing classical music and I'm over here hearing people hacked alive and smelling decay. We aren't the same. Solidarity.
I question if I have psychotic episodes because it feels like literally once a year my life falls completely apart. It feels like it’s not my fault, but usually it totally is.
Hello, I believe this wasn't cover this in your video. I'm curious about how you managed to find help. Was it through a friend or family member, or did you have a personal breakthrough on your own? I ask because my sister has schizophrenia and experiences various forms of psychosis. Despite being aware of her condition, she has downright refused hospitalization, medication, and therapy for the past five years. We've tried legal measures to intervene, but it's proven to be incredibly difficult. If you could share how you were able to help yourself, I would be very grateful and thank you for sharing your journey.
@@julianada1567 I’ve had to be hospitalized involuntarily to get help, and like you said the legality around that is incredibly difficult. I hope she’ll come around and get the help she needs. I know that when my family member went through it I felt helpless trying to get her to get help, I feel for you.
What can you do if the patient does not want to take meds? Even when it is apparent they needs meds? They think the doctors and nurses want to hurt them?
❤ did you take meds? Thank you
@@leinad5243 yup! I still take them. I’ll be on meds the rest of my life.
É possível sentir falta de algum modo de pensar que se apresenta durante a psicose e vai embora com as medicações? Você sente falta de alguma alucinação auditiva, visual, tátil? A consciência de um self integrado desaparece durante uma psicose? Bom vídeo! Obrigada
Hmm, I hope I’m along the same lines as you - like a separate consciousness? I don’t know how to describe, but it was as if I had more of myself in psychosis and when I was medicated I lost all the insight and perspective I’d gained. It was kind of lonely. I’m not sure if that’s what you mean, correct me if I’m wrong.
How does psychosis cause neurotoxicity? Is it not caused by the antipsychotics?
Thankyou so much for sharing this I appreciate it. I had a psychotic break about 7 months ago. Am on medication and no longer have psychotic symptoms however ever since that episode, my sleep has Been terribly messed up and I cannot sleep without heavy doses of olanzapine. Have I permanently altered my brain or does the natural sleep eventually come back?
I think it takes time for everything to come back to normal, including sleep. There’s so much that goes out of whack in psychosis! I think if it doesn’t improve it could be a great idea to bring it up with your doctor.
❤ Religion is my personal wrecking ball ❤ Now I realize that I was not alone ❤ I still find myself in combat with this from time to time 😊 THANKS!!!
I’m psychotic, I enjoy the delusions, they keep life interesting. ❤
Do you experience such as emotional blunting?
@ I find the meds blunt the emotions. I’ve gone back on them, if I can remember to take them. Sometimes too many emotions are bad news.
I recoverd from schizophrenia paranoid 🤩
Thanks for sharing
I want to know what kind of medication you took to recover
Carolyn, thank you so much for your story, we are dealing with niece having psychotic episodes, she will be living in camper besides me when she gets out of hospital, what next steps would you recommend? Also social media seems to worsen her symptoms, taking her keys away till she realizes she has symptoms ect, what kind of dr, tx should we get her, she's 23, thank you, your do articulate
I hope she recovers well! I really can’t recommend anything since I’m not involved, but I do know that staying off social media helped me a great deal, too. It made my symptoms worse as well so being away from my phone & laptop helped a lot. I also just did a video about antipsychotic medication with some information about how it works and who can prescribe it which might be helpful, if you want to check that out.
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle I definitely will, I'm trying not to feel overwhelmed and videos like yours helps a lot, thank you
Hey anybody have some tips for improving alogia? I've experienced an LSD induced psychosis during a really traumatic trip..
My son has it and omg i am having a hard time watching this. I feel sick.
Yes to all you’ve spoken of.
Thank you for sharing this
My girlfriend is currently in the recovery process, feeling like a zombie, we had a few issues bc of her psychosis (trust issues, past traumas resurfacing etc)
But now we're healing, both her and our relationship.
What kind of things can i do to help her through this process?
@@johnny_mar it sounds like you’re already doing a great job of supporting her. Emotional support tends to be the biggest thing a person can do at that stage. Picking up the slack where they struggle to perform like they used to, being gentle with them, giving them the patience to put the pieces back together. I’m so glad she’s recovering, and I’m glad you’re both healing
I regret smoking that weed it completely made my episodes worse Ill try therapy
Good luck! I’ve definitely had more success with therapy than weed, but I totally get it weed was my therapist for a loooong time.
love your hair in this video
How long does it take to get off medication after psychosis
@@DreamchaserAj24 Never! Not for me at least. I’ll be medicated for life. Every time I’ve gone off my meds I’ve gone right back into psychosis. That might not be the case for everyone, but for a lot of people it is.
You sound like Zooey Deschanel ❤
@@faustina6708 haha aw thanks, I love her.
Fuck have I been in asymptomatic psychosis? This really got me thinking 😳
Psychosis does not dictate anything, it only spoils what everything means.
Henestly, God delivered me from it. I drew closer to God and jesus. He saved me. I would see think strange things and hear strange things and realized God is real. Im also type 1 diabetic. That's what made me realise God's real.
*Soon, there is going to be the rapture. It's when there will be trumpet sounds, and after the trumpet sounds, God will lift his people from here. Also, God said people should be living by the Bible. Amen, and God bless you.
* John 3:16 - "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him shall not perish but have eternal life".
I was in an abusive marriage too after I had recovered from psychosis.
Sounds like PTSD
Thank you for sharing, your style is wonderful and I could imagine having coffee or tea conversations with you!!
Haha that would be fun! Thanks
May I know if you don't mind how many days did you take medication ?
@@ThulungaBasumatary-cq5qi I take medication every day! Can’t live without it.
@@Psychotic.in.Seattle Oh okay, please take care. I hope you will get much better with time!
@@ThulungaBasumatary-cq5qi thank you!
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