You think you’re gonna end it. It seems so easy, right? Until you look at the sky. Then the song starts playing from someone’s nearby apartment. There they are, waving at you. They feel you. Everything seemed planned out But the sky, the people and the world. Your friend playing the song for you Maybe you’ll stay here a little longer..
May I continue this,just for fun? If so,here: Maybe you’ll stay here a little longer,a little longer to see the beautiful stars at night,a little longer to say good morning to all the wonderful people,a little longer to cuddle with your favorite stuffed animal,a little longer....to be yourself.
If I'm allowed to add something, you sat down feeling a breeze go threw you, you hear foot steps behind you and you jump up thinking it's going to to be someone yelling at you and telling you not to do it, but it was just the person who played the song, they looked at you and told you they thought you looked cold they were holding a blanket a bowl of soup some hot coco and a rainbow lolipop (those make me happy and warm and ik it's not a good mix but I thought it's sweet) they sit with you as you talk about everything and nothing while the song plays on repeat (sorry if I messed up the pov
I can't even tell if that's an insult or a compliment, but either way I agree that what they're doing is the kind of story that, while not being professional quality, would certainly flourish on Wattpad because of the audience on the platform.
@@ferrin6326 i think it's a compliment or at least i hope so. the stories sound amazing and comfort me because it feels like they understand what it feels like to want to fall off the edge
The smell of the crisp air fills your nose. The only think holding you from jumping is your grip. People hold your arms Not letting you jump You push them back They fall to the ground You turn around facing the people You hold your arms out *"sorry"* People run to you You let yourself go The feeling in your stomach The breeze making you cold Giving you chills You almost hit the ground You wake up terrified It was all just a dream It was the worst nightmare I had. Goodbye
i’m that “therapist” friend helping my friends with their problems when nobody ever asks me if im ok, sometimes i think nobody cares. Nobody loves me, i just lay there knowing ill probably never be happy..and feel the tears rolling down my face down to my pillow, and just feel absolutely worthless. I hate it, i’m tired of living. I’m just tired. Edit: Thank you all for the nice replies, im sorry if i dont reply back. Just know that I read every single one of the replies and they honestly make my day a little better and im thankful
I’m a therapist friend much like you. Your struggles are known to many. I hope you know that every caring word you’ve given your friends rings in their bones when they think of you. They love you, and they’re grateful for your help. I know it’s hard to always seem okay when you’re helping other people, but it’s okay to break down to the people around you. The people you trust. The people you love. Every one of them will listen to you and help you, and if they don’t, I’ll gladly be here for you. You’ll feel your happiness. It comes in waves like the ocean tide. You’re just in a low tide right now. And that’s okay. There will be tears and hopelessness along the way, but every tear builds up the tide until you’re feeling better. You will feel better. Life has so much to offer you. Even if it’s just looking at the sunrise in the morning and noticing the beautiful blend of colors like oil paints in the sky. There’s so much to life that is so worth while. It’s easy to pinpoint the bad and say that life is terrible, but look at a sunrise. Look at a baby deer. See the beauty of street lamps glowing in the twilight downtown. Even the smallest things are worth enjoying. And so, the bigger things. If a star in the night sky is worth admiring, then so are you. So go ahead and shine, and maybe...maybe your glow will be reason enough to smile when the days are dark.
im a therapist friend too! always remember you're not alone, and that we'll be here for u if nobody else is just imagine how many people you dont even know exist in this world care about you ;) we dont know u but we care about u hehe stay strong always ♡
my insta is ( l0ves1ck._ ), if you ever wanna talk, slide in my dms💗 I’m always here for you, and you can talk to me about anything. Remember there are still so many people who love and care a lot about you, hang in there, don’t give up yet.
i know that feeling. i felt that way for a long time. i was at a cliffside one day and i kinda wanted to jump but i looked down and saw all these white birds nesting and it was the most beautiful thing i've ever seen. it saved me, at least for now. hold on.
I love you so much. look around you a little bit, the world is so beautiful. the world waits for you. sometimes, the only person who can save you is you. please, keep fighting❤️
imagine this: it seems so easy, right? just to jump... let go of everything. say goodbye. nobody would care, right? nobody would even show up to the funeral. everybody would forget about you within a day or less, right? *sorry theres no way out...but down* wrong. it's not that easy. many, many, *many* people would care. so please dont let go of that railing. dont let go. dont.
“take me to the rooftop, I wanna see the world when I stop breathing” I always wait for this song but in the rooftop version and then you made this. Thank you. 😇
The doctors said it was only a matter of time. They said you were so far gone, said that life support would be required if we wanted to prolong any form of consciousness... any form of life. But you didn’t care. You didn’t care that tonight was your last night. You didn’t care that it was going to go dark the next time you laid down to rest. Because you were happy. You were genuinely happy, genuinely at peace. Any sadness, any fears, anything that once held you to a mortal plane were gone. Finally.... finally your smile reached your eyes. I just wish you could’ve seen the sunrise. You almost made it, you were so close. You were holding on so tightly to me, I thought I was the only tether to life you had left. “Call my friends and tell them that I love them,” you gulped for air, “and I’ll miss them. But I’m not sorry.” I thought you were being nostalgic, being kind, maybe poetic. I thought when you asked me to sit down with you, you wanted me to hold you. I thought it was because you loved me. Please, god, please wake up. Please open your eyes, just say this is a nightmare, say it’s a dream, please just look at me. Please. Please.
I just imagine me being put on a death sentence and I ask the executioner to stab me on a roof top then leave me there to bleed out while I stare into the endless sky with a guard keeping watch of me while I slowly die of blood loss. I talk with the guard a bit and with my final breath before I bleed out “ I deserve this..and now....I’m gonna pay for what I’ve done in hell... “ then everything goes pitch black with the faint sound of other guards surrounding my now dead body- then just silence......I don’t know what’s going to happen or what’s going on- it’s dark,like a endless void of blackness..I’m gone,I don’t exist now...where am I? Who am I? I’m nowhere..I’m nothing,it doesn’t matter anymore..I’m....gone
Mac and Cheese jeez. If youre sick of people telling their story- just dont check the comment section. For gods sake, its a comment section, what do you expect? Especially on a video like this, people are most likely going to talk about their story and whats happened to them. If you dont like it, go away
i saw a recommendation for this in another videos comments and i knew i had to look it up and here it is 😭 it honestly adds such a surreal feeling to this song and makes it so much more sad
Fun creepy story time about this song. Ok so my class was dead silent and I heard music playing. There were no lyrics but I knew I heard the song before. Then I remembered this song. I don’t think a teacher would play this and we can’t have our phones out. Nobody else mentioned it and I knew it wasn’t in my head cause it sounded real and I could hear it through a wall it was that muffled quite. Now I wonder, Did anyone hear it?
This makes me feel like I moved to New York City for work and just got fired, so I decided to get on the rooftop of my job’s building to drink alcohol and look at the skyline as I contemplate what to do next.
You've lived in the city your whole life so you always hear the sounds of cars passing by and see the lights flashing and the tall buildings that make up the city. These sights and sounds, once upon a time, comforted you but you've gotten numb as you've grown older. You feel the cool breeze brushing your face as you step out onto the rooftop and watch the sky. Sadly, you can't see anymore stars in the city, only the few bright ones. You walk over to the ledge of the roof and climb onto it to only sit and watch the city for the last time. Tears run down your face as you think about everything. "I'm so tired. I want to sleep forever." You tremble as you look below you and stand up so you can be done with everything. You battle yourself in your head. "People love you, they need you, you can't leave them. Is that the only reason I'm still here? Because people _love me_ , because they _need me_ , is that all I'm here for?" *_"I just want to be happy."_* You look back at the sky for the last time with blurry vision from the tears that clouded your eyes. You closed your eyes for the last time and took a deep breath. You took the final step and felt the air below you consume your body as you start to plummet to the world. All those memories of your childhood, your friends, your family all flash by and you smile for the last time as your body hits the ground and
I hate being the “ therapist “ friend so much but I want to see my friends happy. I know that my family and friends care for me it just feels like sometimes they don’t because I constantly walk around with a “ smile “ on my face everyone thinks I’m ok but deep down I’m not and it feels like I’m slowly dying
If you guys are ready, you can open up and tell them how you feel. I would be very happy if my therapist friends are being more open of their feelings. No need to worry. I used to be that therapist friend too, back in school, now that I'm in uni, I started to tell her my struggles and she was very grateful to see me being brave enough to be honest. God bless you all.
I’m happy with being the therapist friend, because I’m finally happy, and now I can help my friends become happy as well, but I must admit it can me a bit tiring! :’)
@@_starlight_614 Oh no. That sounds awful. A good person shouldn't get mad at others for feeling low. You are a very good person for helping your friends. I hope you will always be alright.
2020 anyone? Imagine you're on the rooftop your eyes swollen, red from crying and tired and all you want is to leave the earth and be free but you're to afraid to let go and all you feel is the cold air blowing you're hair. You look up at the beautiful stars everywhere from miles and miles away from you but that's the only thing beautiful and joy from earth, you close you're eyes and have a flashback from all the wonderful memories you had and wish to have again, we're you had a dream you we're singer and telling the world how you feel and save peoples life with you're songs but ever since the bullying and depression started and the death of the only two people you admired...you're parents, the people who supported you and loved you, gone. You open you're eyes and start to rethink if this was the best idea, then you here this music playing and this is the music you love and always listen too, you start to back away from the edge and sit down on the cold hard floor and think about you're parents and still looking down at you from heaven so you closed you're eyes and just listen to the music and think... I think I'll stay here a little bit more... ( I just wanted to write this, this is not real.) You scrolling down and all the people, you are worth it don't listen to anybody who brings you down they are not worth you're time. You are beautiful how the way you are and if people can't respect that then they will have to deal with it, But please you are worth it and all of you and I mean all of you are worth it and beautiful God Bless you all and be safe. ❤️💕
i’m home alone because i’m having an allergic reaction and my eyes are swelling up. when it got to the “call my friends“ part i couldn’t stop crying. i've never had this happen to me before so i'm scared i might die. i'm also rlly insecure so the eye swelling makes me look ugly and i'm scared i might look this way for a long time. :
hey. i’m glad that in the comments about you said you’re okay. and that i wanted to let you know that i’m here for you, even if i am a stranger. know that i am always here to talk, and if you ever come back to this comment, i will be here. always.
You’re standing on a building high enough to see the whole city, it’s beautiful. Even with the cold wind nipping at your skin and tears rolling down your cheeks you feel numb. It’s your time. You think about the people you love and breath out an apology and a goodbye before letting go.
After hours of sadness and sorrow drowning me...I ran far from home...went to the tallest building that a saw...and sat on the ledge for what seemed would be my last breaths..tears ran down my face as the cold breeze dried them....I stared at the blinding city lights, the tall buildings in the distance, the faint stars in the night sky...I couldnt take the pain anymore...i had to end it all so i could be free...i looked down and felt as if the ground was so close when it really was hundreds of feet away..i stood on my feet...took a deep breath...until someone busted into the rooftop and stared at me...i-...they cried and told me that its ok...everything will be fine..to jus step down and relax...i didnt wanna live anymore and no one ever understood the fact that nothing ever got better...i took a step down...then another...they quickly grabbed me and hugged me as tight as they could..i never met nor knew this person and the fact that they really cared broke my heart..it reminded me of how my friends would never feel the same way with me around...i didnt wanna hurt them the way ive been hurt...my mind was rushing with so many thoughts...i pushed them away...my heart was racing and my mind jus didnt wanna drown in pain anymore...without any thinking i...ran to the ledge...turned around...looked ather twinkling tears...that filled up her whole eyes...she told me to jus stop and to trust her....i avoided any thought that would stop me from doing anything and jus feel guilty....i told her with tears running down my face...."Theres nothing in this world that i want more than to just be happy...it by the looks of it..it never will be that way..im tired...mentally and physically...i cant hold anymore sorrow or exhaustion....call my friends and tell them that i love them and that ill miss them....-" she looked at me as if she wanted to break down...i said "the world would be a better place once im gone...its okay...trust me.." i said with a smile on my face even tho i was breaking down with so many tears which made my face so cold from the breeze....i looked down and then at her....i turned to her...and put my arms up...then leaped....tears streaming down my face...then they went up....my stomach dropped as the feeling of falling poisoned me...i was calm and felt all the sounds from me fade as i closed my eyes....waiting for me to hit the ground...came flashes of my favorite memories...i laughed as tears ran down my face...everything will be fine once im gone i said to myself...i closed my eyes and waited for everything to end once and for all..... - Jenny
After reading a lot of people’s comments it made me think about myself and wonder what went so wrong for me and other people to experience this. The fear of being forgotten, the fear of leaving beautiful memories that can’t be re made, the fear of wanting to end it but not being able to. Everything hurts. I can’t act like I’m happy and do things everyone wants and be the person my mom and my family wants me to be. I’m not my dad. I’m not him and I will never be him. I love him and miss him and wish he was in my childhood and in my life for more then 5 years but I don’t want to be him. Everyone expects me to do things for them and to not give me anything in return and I know that I won’t get anything. I’m going through so much through out my 12 years of being alive. I feel so numb but I feel my 12 years of being alive have had some happy moments but having more sad ones. I want to end it so bad but I haven’t experienced being able to be my self and to live as my own person. Thank you for the person who read this and can relate to how I feel
Imagine this: It’s a breezy night, your standing on a tall building, wearing a hoodie with earbuds in listening to this on Spotify, your holding the cold bar and looking out at the beautiful city’s lights. You’re crying a little, You think about jumping but before you can, Your Spotify plays a KFC ad making you crave chicken so you walk away and go grab some Kentucky fried chicken because being depressed makes you hungry.
100 reasons why you should stay alive -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach 2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself 3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days 4. Your mom's smile 5. Your best friends laugh 6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you 7. The feeling of the sun against your face 8. Hearing the words “I love you” 9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday 10. Birthdays 11. Quiet late night drives 12. Missed opportunities and adventures 13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day 14. Long hot showers 15. Music that you connect with 16. You have a purpose 17. You can change somebody’s life 18. Snowball fights 19. Concerts 20. Watching people fall 21. As long as your heart is beating, there is hope 22. You will regret dying 23. What if Heaven isn’t real? 24. Marriage 25. You are enough 26. Pain is only temporary 27. Late-night food runs with your friends 28. The sound of rain 29. Reading powerful quotes 30. Eating your favorite foods 31. Stars 32. Good movies 33. Having children 34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them 35. Meeting new people 36. Your struggle will make you stronger 37. You have a lot of people that love and support you 38. Being able to say, “I made it” 39. Genuine smiles 40. Bonfires 41. You matter 42. Time heals most wounds 43. Your first apartment/house 44. The crunch of leaves in the fall 45. Finding your soul mate 46. Meaningful hugs 47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding 48. You are worth it 49. Sunday night football 50. The smell of Christmas trees 51. People care about you; lots of them in fact 52. Sunsets 53. Ice cream 54. You are brave 55. Things really do get better 56. Dogs 57. Cats 58. Pets in general 59. Rainbows 60. You are amazing 61. The city 62. Traveling 63. Vacations 64. Road trips 65. Hearing awesome stories 66. Inside jokes 67. Coffee/Tea 68. Snowmen 69. Your talents 70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win 71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness 72. You will be happy one day 73. All-nighters with your friends 74. Cuddling 75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college 76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years 77. Smiling 78. Seeing someone else smile 79. You are beautiful 80. Decorating your house/apartment 81. Capturing perfect moments on camera 82. You would be missed 83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants 84. Your favorite hobby 85. Swimming on a hot day 86. Being cozied up with blankets 87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap 88. Helping other people 89. Watching the people you love become successful 90. Becoming successful yourself 91. Babies/little kids 92. Cute old people 93. Love stories 94. You are strong 95. You will be proud that you continued to live 96. The feeling of grass under your feet 97. Telling crazy stories 98. The smell of rain 99. Watching lightning 100. YOU ARE LOVED
Parents always say “oh stop it! Your too young to be depressed” or “your overreacting” instead of “i’m here for you” and “it’s ok let it all out” or even “come here let’s talk about it”..i really just want to fall into my mothers arms letting it all out. I want her to comfort me.
imagine you’re on the rooftop of your apartment with your wrist slit and this song playing and your eyes are blurry you turn around and around while hearing all the sound around you you have little sister and you made her promise even if you don’t come back never open the door that leads to the rooftop at the end of the song you start to loose consciousness and fall that’s when you hear the police sirens but it’s too late that’s the visions i got i’m scared of myself i feel like my body is suffering from my soul
-The smell of cookies baking in the oven -petting a soft cat and hearing them pur -taking a beautiful picture of the sky -feeling sand in between your toes -the sun beaming down on your skin -listening to your favorite song over and over -seeing a butterfly pass by -finding that one piece of that puzzle that you've been looking for -waking up early and making pancakes or waffles -drinking a nice cold glass of water at 3am -finding a really good movie you can watch over and over -finding a gorgeous flower -smelling that one smell that brings back some good memories -reading a really good book Just a few reasons why you should stay a little longer
the cold air blew against your skin, the ground below look so close yet so far. you wondered if anyone would care. you felt completely lost. the police that stand around you get closer by the second. you are preparing to leap off but you quickly realize, you are so loved. you deserve help. you are important. you look down once more as your eyes fill with tears. you see your whole future flash before your eyes, as you let the police carefully pull you down, you soon know that you are a survivor
You look up at the sky..Remembering all the lucky time you had in your life..before it all started...What you mean by before it started: You were a family girl in College and you had been dating a boy for awhile! But he soon started to get really possessive, When ever you had to go to the grocery store he would make him go instead of you going and you couldn't hang out with your friends, etc. but He started to get abusive Yelling at you...Hitting and slapping you a lot your friends got worried, That's when you had enough you yelled at everyone..They turned you away..ignored you...You weren't anything to them..To your friends...To your classmates...to anyone at all! You wanted to end it all but you figured out to relieve the pain..You started crying every night..Waiting for warmth but got none...And you started to even cut and go up to the roof top a lot..everyone started to get worried for you so..You planned your suicide..As you went up to the roof top you could feel your Flowy skirt brush against your leg like a cat..The crisp air biting your skin and making your hair wave slowly you walk over to the ledge looking down - It was a long ways down 'Perfect!' but just then everyone busted through the door : Your Friends, Your classmates, your Ex Bf, "DON'T DO IT!!" they called out you didn't listen you turned to them facing directly at them and started walking back words as they start running when you felt the ledge just then one almost got you. But you fell when they tried to save you..Your body falling of the building as you envelope what's happening You stared into the city, It was night and then when you got closer to the ground you felt like you could finally be free as you got closer and closer you felt more free when you hit the ground people came running to you but it was to late you were gone...You were in peace... (Please if your considering suicide please don't! Get a hold of a suicide hotline trust me..)
I feel overwhelmed and like I’m part of some video game where the whole world is programmed to not acknowledge me and to tell me I’m not good enough. Everything is difficult
It's so upsetting how Billie understands how everyone is feeling. She can put it into words she can turn our feelings into a song. It's also sad that she feels this way too.
Its 3am and I'm sad so here's my story with this song. TW When this song came out I wanted to kill myself so badly because I felt so alone and too disgusting to live on this world. Now I still feel alone but talking made me realize that it was because of the trauma of being sexually assaulted by men I thought cared about me. I eventually realized that it wasn't my fault, that I couldn't stop them because I was scared and I shouldn't blame myself for that.
i dont want to live anymore. i just want to disappear from this world. i feel so much emotions. when i am sad i cant even cry anymore, no tears come out anymore, i just have to sit in silence as my heart and mind breaks into a million pieces. i really, really want to go.
take me to the rooftop i wanna see the world when i stop breathing turning blue tell me love is endless dont be so pretentious leave me like you do if you need me wanna see me better hurry cause im leaving soon sorry cant save me now sorry i dont know how sorry theres no way out/up but down mm down taste me the salty tears on my cheek thats what a year long headache _does to you_
i would listen to this song 24/7 because it was the only thing that understood me. i know it’s super common or basic to say this but billie genuinely saved me.
This was the exact view from the window in my room at the hospital. Comforting to sit on the window cill and write about every little detail of the boring day starting from being awaken by a nurse to take your blood pressure and the shower with no curtains.
I don’t know how long I can do this. Everyday I‘m so lonely.. My parents are at work, I finished school last year and didn’t get a job and my friends live an hour away. We don’t have a train station here and the bus doesn’t drive in their city. This year I got some work and I‘ll start in August or September but I don’t if I‘ll stay here.. I just feel so fucking lonely and nobody hears me. I talked with my mother like a thousand times about how I feel and that I really really want to go to psychiatrist but she doesn’t take it serious.. I don’t know what to do anymore.
It's hard- I know. The stress of life feels like it's physically pushing on your chest, and anxiety on your shoulders. It would be easier to die. Really, it would. But how much more beautiful would it be to live? Right now it's terrible, but think- tomorrow brings hundreds of new possibilities. Think about how many more lives you can save if you save your own. Think about how your soulmate is out there somewhere, waiting for you. For YOU. To the world, yeah, you're one person, but to one person, you're the world, and it's not fair to take the world away from them. The stars in the night sky, listening to music in the dark, hugs and kisses, flowers, weeds growing in the cracks on sidewalks, cliffs and mountains and valleys. There's so much more in life. I know it's hard to feel, and that hurts, but if you allow yourself to feel... Yes, there's pain, but a heart that's been broken is a heart that's been loved. You can make it, you can. You need to. You will. Suicide hotline (America): 1800-273-8255 Artists I recommend: SIA NF Billie (of course) I love you, and I know I'm not the only one. I wish you the best ❤❤
Cassie Rexroad Thank you so much.. Sometimes I really love myself and sometimes I hate me so much. Yesterday my boss called me and I got fired so I don’t have work again.. I really hope for better times.
If you have to just scream at the top of your lungs and cry and don’t stop until you feel all the stress, anger, sadness, loneliness, and hurt leave and be replaced with happiness. Make new friends, explore new things but make sure to stay true to yourself
I’m sick and tired of being there for everyone else with no one to do the same for me. They all come to me with their problems and I listen and comfort them. When I try to open up all I get is “same” or “mood lol”. I’m tired of it all. I’m not suicidal or anything but I just wish I had decent friends. People that would check up on me. People that care. I need real friends.
Yo, if your parents don't support you or your "friends" can't see you're truly unhappy behind those smiles you put up, im here for you! Luv you darlings
This song just hits different...I’ve always imagined me at this point in my life. On a rooftop, highest one in NY looking and reminiscing about my life. Wondering what got me here. Do I go through with it? As I gaze at the stars. Hearing this song in my head. Cold and feeling weak. As my feet hang off the rim, I think. What do I have to live for? No one cares. My hair free in the air. My head pushed up against the cold brick..while I look down, the people the life I’m leaving. Goodbyes hurt to much. “Im leaving soon” I say to myself. As I push my self a little closer to my destination. My tears roll down, like ice. The saltiness, the last thing I taste. As I take the final push in myself and I feel everything go into slow motion. As I look up with my body feeling an impact by the wind. The air rush against my body. I think this is what it’s come to as I close my eyes and find some peace for my last few seconds alive. The hard impact of cement, a rush of pain and everything just goes black. The last thing I feel...
I’m the “mom”/“therapist” friend It’s so tiring that no one really cares about me, they just want my advice I feel like everything I do it’s worthless I just feel frustrated, I help my friends daily but I can’t help myself...
imagine that ure on top of ur apartment roof bc it feels like its the safest place u can possibly be since ure confused and prob dk what to do in life and suddenly that person is also on top of the roof with a drink on his/her hand and planning to give it to u and both of u share ur problems and memories 2gether.
Imagine your all alone on the roof and your tired so you lay down. You feel the cold concrete through your shirt and you close your eyes as you hear the beat drop and feel the vibrations all throughout your body because of the giant speakers playing this song behind you. You open your eyes to see the night sky, it looks like a million stars are in the sky and you just want to stay there forever.
im so tired, im numb i just wanna go back to when i could feel something, i feel so worthless, and useless, im that friend that everyone goes to when you have problems i listen and give advice, i put on a fake smile amd go on with my day but when i get home im miserable, i cant even cry anymore, i just lay there feeling empty, nobody notices my constant battle to stay alive, the constant pain i feel, my heart just aches, i have no energy im just tired and its been months since my friends have talked to me, they dont care about me, nobody does, i just want this pain to end
i’m sorry you feel like this, i know how it feels to be the “therapeutic” friend. you’re always there for them but they not there for you. i hope you get through your struggles and stay strong. life does get better hang in there bud ❤️ also i may be a complete stranger, but i love you, stay strong. sending a warm virtual hug your way! 🤗
I’m tired. Tired of living Tired of breathing Tired of trying Tired of having to help others Tired of people not returning the favour Tired of people walking all over me Tired of not feeling anything
let me help you. I wanted to pop in and tell you that I love you, and I care about you. you're not alone. you're out here fighting so hard. please keep fighting.
@@iguessitsfine3410 I’ve been hiding lots of things from ma fris cause ya know they have their own thing to deal with so I kept on dealing stuff by maself and btw thank you so much I hope everything is going to be alright for all of us in a matter of time
I've lost the ability to care for a lot of things. To the point it makes me feel like I'm a monster. The monster, the fuck up that everyone somehow comes across. I don't ever wish pain on anyone who has hurt me but I live in fear, I lay awake that others wish cruelty upon me. I can't become hurt or heartbroken anymore because of how often its happened. I take in other people's problems to make up for what I've become. I ignore my own issues, even though I struggle with a few mental illnesses myself. When I manage to cry, which is so hard to do because it's difficult for me to cry even a few tears. I smile, wipe them away and help others instead. Because I have to be the okay one. Or else everyone and everything will fall apart. It's all an act. The question of "are you okay?" that occurs every so often when I finally speak on my own emotions, which I feel guilty for expressing. I simply laugh at, and reply with "Yeah!! I'm okay, just a bit tired is all!" I just want someone to see me without me having to point it out. I want my friends to say that they're proud. I'm so proud of them for getting through the day, to get out of bed and breathe even when their lungs have pressure put on them as they struggle to take a deep breath. But, I wish. That they could be proud of me. It's like I struggle from addiction to help others. I can't stop. Even when it clearly damages me. I can't stop myself from being sad. When I've had a day of festivities and I'm fueled with happiness, at the end of the day I feel numb all over again. I've become too comfortable in my sadness, and my anxiety. I wallow in my own head and can't live in light. I'm so tired. I can't care about school, no matter how much energy I try to muster. I have no motivation. I do consider myself the therapist friend. For every friend group I end up being pulled in. They use me to their advantage, I handle their own personal drama between each other and their own emotions. I'm glad, that they put trust in me. They trust me enough to tell me these things and be open with me. But after they feel better, they feel okay. They fade away. And we become strangers again. The friend group continues on without me in it. Fine by them, fine by me. And I can't seem to care for the endless cycle. It doesn't even hurt anymore. It just... stings. I've become understanding if people don't reply to me, because the majority of my friends suffer from family issues and depression. They're trying to get by. And sometimes it's hard to text back. Some don't seem to understand when I do that, though. And they guilt trip. If you don't text me back for a week, because it's overwhelming. Or if you're simply just annoyed by me. That's okay, I understand. I'm not mad. I don't get mad easily by most things. I lay awake for hours once I wake up, regretting everything that led to the moment I opened my eyes again. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of giving effort when I can't see the point in anything. I've lost interest in things I used to find immense joy in. I feel as though I can't do things correctly. The advice I give so much effort to goes to waste and ends up not helping. It's one of my fears. I also fear, that some resent me. Because I move on too quickly from people, from romantic and platonic breakups. I don't know why I do. And it scares me how I move past people in only a few days, where anger may remain in their hearts towards me for months or years. I'm not the better one. My friend views me as Heather. I don't want to be Heather. And I'm not. I am not as perfect as people make me out to be. I've just been hurt so much to the point I've got infinite patience for people, even those who have bad intentions towards me. I understand. Even though if I'm not in their situations, I say I understand because I don't want them to be alone. You're never alone. When down seems to be the only answer, look up. To aim to the sky is to ascend, to a better haven. Don't let yourself spiral. Please. When you catch yourself spiraling downwards, let the angels you have carry you towards a better light. It doesn't matter who your angels are. Friends, family. Characters. They all got you. I've got you. Jumping sounds like a relief. A relief to escape your head, to live out of your shell of a body. But, my love. You have been given years to explore. You mustn't let your head control and maneuver your own wants and desires. With mental illness it is hard to escape mindsets that have been made long ago. But by eating a meal, even if it's one per day. Waking up when you can barely lift your eyes. Smiling when you're on the verge of completely breaking down in front of everyone, barely able to hold in muffled sobs and tears. You're one step closer to being okay. You can't be happy when you aren't okay, so making sure you're at least steady is priority. You're doing wonderful, you're trying your best and I know it doesn't feel like you are. But being able to breathe without your heart feeling heavy is an accomplishment. I don't know what you've gone through, as I am a stranger behind a screen on the internet amongst millions of others. But, you're enough. Your feelings will never be a burden, your fake smile or mask is never unseen. I see you. I hear you. I'm with you for as long as you'd like me to be. Please don't give up, and don't give into death. Death will await for you, when they see that you've led a beautiful life. Once you've grown old and passed, they'll collect you and place you in their river of stars amongst the others. It will come to an end eventually, but not by your own hands. I know you're tired. But life's caress is motherly and wishes you not to pass so soon, as she has gifted it to you in hopes that you walk and run, skip happily and only be filled with giggling fits. I don't want you to leave. Stay for a little while longer. You may be barely hanging in there, but you're still here. I promise that everything will become easier even when everything is crumbling now. Take care of yourself. Be there for yourself.
is it only me who has written out their whole death note in their head that I’m going to write just before I just from a very high rooftop after listening to this song after it’s been on a 10 hour loop but you’re scared in case you pass all your pain to your loved ones
Just imagine the freedom of falling, knowing nothing else can hurt you because you’re flying for a few seconds. The feeling of knowing that it would be all over in a few seconds, a deep breath in and a sigh of relief, and then the cold gentle breeze against my falling body. I’m so glad they could save me after the fall, but after seeing what the worlds turned into, it doesn’t seem that bad.
You jumped. At the sound of a voice you once heard before. A voice that was tired, A voice that was angry, A voice filled with sorrow, A voice that took your hand and lead you; Lead you all the way up to that rooftop. You took in the sight ahead of you- and when the voice spoke, 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚓𝚞𝚖𝚙𝚎𝚍.
Take me to the rooftop I wanna see the world when I stop breathing, turning blue Tell me love is endless, don't be so pretentious Leave me like you do If you need me, wanna see me Better hurry 'cause I'm leaving soon Sorry can't save me now Sorry I don't know how Sorry there's no way out (sorry) But down Hmm, down Taste me, these salty tears on my cheeks That's what a year-long headache does to you I'm not okay, I feel so scattered Don't say I'm all that matters Leave me, déjà vu If you need me, wanna see me You better hurry, I'm leaving soon Sorry can't save me now (sorry) Sorry I don't know how (sorry) Sorry there's no way out (sorry) But down Hmm, down Call my friends and tell them that I love them And I'll miss them But I'm not sorry Call my friends and tell them that I love them And I'll miss them Sorry Credit goes to lyricfind
my mind says she’s going to leave, she says she won’t. my mind says she’s gonna find someone who isn’t as clingy, emotional and annoying. she says i’m not annoying or emotional and she likes clingy. but my mind is so messed up that i can’t believe it
even thinking about it can weigh a person down so much. I wanna let you know that I love you, and I care about you. its been a few months, so this is your encouragement to keep fighting!
Fun fact: it’s impossible to breathe while smiling Did you know that you look amazing when you smile 🥺 I love you okay. Please don't give up. Even if you think that no one loves you. I love you even if I don't know you. Well, I do know that you're an amazing person whos just going through a really rough patch. I do know that you're a caring person who puts others happiness before yours I know that your faking being happy to make sure that no one worries about you because you're a selfless person (and if you're not faking being happy its because you've been faking for so long that you can't keep it up anymore) I love you so much and my whole world and heaps of people that you didn't think cared about you worlds will shatter and their lives will never be the same again if you give up So please don't give up It will get better I promise 💕 I have been through this time and I even thought about killing myself but I pushed through it and I am so glad I did. My life only got better and I and now that happiest I have ever been Life may seem like its never going to get better but I promise you its will and I can promise that you are going to be so glad that you didn't give up Just thought I would remind you that I love you once more okay 💞♡ I wrote all of this but please copy this and spread it around. People need to hear this 🙃
there’s so much wrong with me. 7 years old. older cousin. emotionally scarred forever. 10-now depressed, hopeless. now. bi? come on give me a break i just want to be happy
life can be so so hard. I am so sorry its been hard for you at such a young age. this is your encouragement to keep fighting! keep going, the world waits for you❤️
awh bub your so young🥺 it's 100% okay to be bi and like both girls and guys, and i'll let you in on a secret here; so am i. it'll get better, i promise. keep fighting love💕
i feel like these videos really help people connect. everyone who comes here, is going through the same as each other. we feel safe to write it down and post a comment about it, for strangers to read. there is no hate. there is no shame. we all make sure everyone is okay, even when we are not. we give the support that someone may not have had. it’s beautiful really....heartbreaking, but beautiful.
i remember this march, like a week pre covid-19, while we were still in school. i thought i was at my lowest point, and in a way i was, but here i am november of the same year, and that felt like a lifetime ago. everything was so much easier, a simpler time and i had no idea. im losing my grip on everything and anything stable in my life. even my comfort items are gone, i thought i hit rock bottom yet here i am with a shovel digging deeper down than ive ever been
Since I was a young girl I always liked the night times the fresh air chills going through walking when I was young I used to travel every year to New York for New Years eve the feeling when I go there the cold I always pictured myself climbing onto a roof with my friends and relaxing and celebrating and having fun while were far from the edge but now I still do my main goal is to go to a rooftop in New York and admired it all alone relaxing in the fresh air agents the door drinks a soda and cheering myself I've even made playlist if that day ever comes to happen thank you for reading sincerely, me
the fact that i just have a need for all of my friends to be happy and loved and taken care of is mindblowing. i don't know why, but i just feel absolutely horrible if they aren't happy, like i'm not good enough, so i just always help them with absolutely everything. but it drains my energy so much, because no one ever asks me if i'm okay. no one ever helps me. i put on a happy face, and they just assume i'm happy as well, they'll think i'm perfect because i'm such an amazing friend and because i'm never sad. i'm dying though. i'm so fucking worthless, and i hate myself in ever possible way. of course i cry. i cry all the time when i'm alone. i don't need anyone to check up on me, i'm really fine on my own, i feel better like that. but i guess at some point i want someone to smile at me and tell me they're always gonna be there as well. that hasn't happened yet, however.
POV: u were sad so u decided to go to this rooftop that you have been keeping your eye on since you moved to new york......... if ur still reading this. i love you so much. you are so worthy. i am so proud of u.
man all these nice comments make me wish i actually felt something, they're supposed to be heartwarming and make you feel better. but for some reason i'm not allowed to be happy all the time, and that's ok.. but it gets tiring after a while of pretending. ah who am i to go on about myself when no one cares, if you're reading this i hope you have a good day, a good life and hope you live a happier life than i do. y know i've thought of many ways to do it, tried a couple times and failed - the outcome has always made things worse for myself. just dont try it or you'll end up a mess and in an endless cycle. be happy
im sorry. you are so valid. im reading this and im sorry for all that you've been through, but by reading this I know that you're here, and you're fighting. to be fighting all the time is so hard, but you're doing it. I care about you. let me be your encouragement to keep fighting❤️
POV: your family forced you to study abroad which was New York. You didn't want to study. You wanted to focus on your mental health but nobody cares, one day all the pressure hit you at once. You decide to sit up on your apartment's roof and plugged headphones in your ear and slowly start to cry. "Weak" "dumb" "ugly" "fat". Words that your most trusted person have said to you. You cried and cried. "What's the point of living?..it's just torture" "this place is sure pretty, I guess I have to say goodbye" u jumped off, slowly remembering that there will be no more pressure, torture just happiness.
im not okay.
feel so scattered.
don't say i'm all that matters.
*leave me.*
deja vú.
How did you know that's the part I was at!
@@poisonedmyself2857 me too😳
how did you know i was at that part-
You think you’re gonna end it. It seems so easy, right?
Until you look at the sky.
Then the song starts playing from someone’s nearby apartment. There they are, waving at you. They feel you.
Everything seemed planned out
But the sky, the people and the world.
Your friend playing the song for you
Maybe you’ll stay here a little longer..
penelope allen !!! This is sweet. ❤️
May I continue this,just for fun?
If so,here:
Maybe you’ll stay here a little longer,a little longer to see the beautiful stars at night,a little longer to say good morning to all the wonderful people,a little longer to cuddle with your favorite stuffed animal,a little longer....to be yourself.
This made me tear up
"Just a little longer..." that's a phrase I tell myself everyday. This imagery is rlly beautiful:)
If I'm allowed to add something, you sat down feeling a breeze go threw you, you hear foot steps behind you and you jump up thinking it's going to to be someone yelling at you and telling you not to do it, but it was just the person who played the song, they looked at you and told you they thought you looked cold they were holding a blanket a bowl of soup some hot coco and a rainbow lolipop (those make me happy and warm and ik it's not a good mix but I thought it's sweet) they sit with you as you talk about everything and nothing while the song plays on repeat (sorry if I messed up the pov
I want to fall off a building but not die..I just want to keep falling
Same
well let’s go sky diving 🍃
God damn I like this one
that feels nice
try skydiving
People in the comments should be wattpad writers
I can't even tell if that's an insult or a compliment, but either way I agree that what they're doing is the kind of story that, while not being professional quality, would certainly flourish on Wattpad because of the audience on the platform.
@@ferrin6326 i think it's a compliment or at least i hope so. the stories sound amazing and comfort me because it feels like they understand what it feels like to want to fall off the edge
Not sure if thats a compliment, im gonna take it that way and say agree
Me being one-
IM A WATTPAD WRITER
The smell of the crisp air fills your nose.
The only think holding you from jumping is your grip.
People hold your arms
Not letting you jump
You push them back
They fall to the ground
You turn around facing the people
You hold your arms out
*"sorry"*
People run to you
You let yourself go
The feeling in your stomach
The breeze making you cold
Giving you chills
You almost hit the ground
You wake up terrified
It was all just a dream
It was the worst nightmare I had.
Goodbye
Sleep well..
High On depression i know this was just a pov, but are you ok? if you ever need to talk my discord is anzu#2334 - stay safe ❤️
Lol then you blast everything I wanted ✨😌
Bro I’m sorry but I read the first part as the smell of crisps filled your nose- 😔
anzu bro can you and i talk?🥺
I like how all the comments are depressing as heck
Yeps, depressing as HeCk
but they are so beautifully written, my writing skills could never.
It kinda be like that tho🙈✨
I thought that was the theme here
I wanna hug everyone in thia comments and have a crying session with them💀
i’m that “therapist” friend helping my friends with their problems when nobody ever asks me if im ok, sometimes i think nobody cares. Nobody loves me, i just lay there knowing ill probably never be happy..and feel the tears rolling down my face down to my pillow, and just feel absolutely worthless. I hate it, i’m tired of living. I’m just tired.
Edit: Thank you all for the nice replies, im sorry if i dont reply back. Just know that I read every single one of the replies and they honestly make my day a little better and im thankful
@@arqamisOK
Thank you so much..i started tearing up, i really needed this❤ Stay safe please.
I’m a therapist friend much like you. Your struggles are known to many. I hope you know that every caring word you’ve given your friends rings in their bones when they think of you. They love you, and they’re grateful for your help. I know it’s hard to always seem okay when you’re helping other people, but it’s okay to break down to the people around you. The people you trust. The people you love. Every one of them will listen to you and help you, and if they don’t, I’ll gladly be here for you. You’ll feel your happiness. It comes in waves like the ocean tide. You’re just in a low tide right now. And that’s okay. There will be tears and hopelessness along the way, but every tear builds up the tide until you’re feeling better. You will feel better. Life has so much to offer you. Even if it’s just looking at the sunrise in the morning and noticing the beautiful blend of colors like oil paints in the sky. There’s so much to life that is so worth while. It’s easy to pinpoint the bad and say that life is terrible, but look at a sunrise. Look at a baby deer. See the beauty of street lamps glowing in the twilight downtown. Even the smallest things are worth enjoying. And so, the bigger things. If a star in the night sky is worth admiring, then so are you. So go ahead and shine, and maybe...maybe your glow will be reason enough to smile when the days are dark.
im a therapist friend too! always remember you're not alone, and that we'll be here for u if nobody else is just imagine how many people you dont even know exist in this world care about you ;) we dont know u but we care about u hehe stay strong always ♡
my insta is ( l0ves1ck._ ), if you ever wanna talk, slide in my dms💗 I’m always here for you, and you can talk to me about anything. Remember there are still so many people who love and care a lot about you, hang in there, don’t give up yet.
I felt this... I relate to this so much. But I hope you're happier now.
why do I feel so empty, with no emotions, no sympathy, nothing I'm just alone and empty with nothing to fill this empty slot
U are damaged, people who are damaged usually lose all their feelings and emotions
i know that feeling. i felt that way for a long time. i was at a cliffside one day and i kinda wanted to jump but i looked down and saw all these white birds nesting and it was the most beautiful thing i've ever seen. it saved me, at least for now. hold on.
I love you so much. look around you a little bit, the world is so beautiful. the world waits for you. sometimes, the only person who can save you is you. please, keep fighting❤️
Me: In a good mood just looking at me recommendations
UA-cam: *Well lets ruin you with this*
Me: *Why not-*
exactly
Sometimes I think bout namjoon says love urself but I find it so hard to love myself
KT Love same😭😭
@Alyssa Zachmeier PLEASE😭😭
Yuppie
It’s frustrating how difficult it is to take that one last step..
imagine this:
it seems so easy, right?
just to jump...
let go of everything.
say goodbye.
nobody would care, right?
nobody would even show up to the funeral.
everybody would forget about you within a day or less, right?
*sorry theres no way out...but down*
wrong.
it's not that easy.
many, many, *many* people would care.
so please dont let go of that railing.
dont let go.
dont.
I'm sorry but I can't promise😇
jimin 13 don’t do it please I care about you so much you mean the world to me please stay for me
@@linamarano8232 I'll try...
@@jimin-jn3md You alright??
@@Stranger-kb9tu yeah.... Thanks for asking 😊
Not a single dislike - That's when you know you created a masterpiece :)
theres one 😭
@@zoe2932 *it's probably from someone who fell of the rooftop and is now upside down, they thought it was the like button.*
these ppl disliking r insane
Two nowww
Two now :(
“take me to the rooftop, I wanna see the world when I stop breathing”
I always wait for this song but in the rooftop version and then you made this. Thank you. 😇
The doctors said it was only a matter of time. They said you were so far gone, said that life support would be required if we wanted to prolong any form of consciousness... any form of life.
But you didn’t care. You didn’t care that tonight was your last night. You didn’t care that it was going to go dark the next time you laid down to rest. Because you were happy. You were genuinely happy, genuinely at peace. Any sadness, any fears, anything that once held you to a mortal plane were gone.
Finally.... finally your smile reached your eyes. I just wish you could’ve seen the sunrise. You almost made it, you were so close. You were holding on so tightly to me, I thought I was the only tether to life you had left.
“Call my friends and tell them that I love them,” you gulped for air, “and I’ll miss them. But I’m not sorry.” I thought you were being nostalgic, being kind, maybe poetic. I thought when you asked me to sit down with you, you wanted me to hold you.
I thought it was because you loved me. Please, god, please wake up. Please open your eyes, just say this is a nightmare, say it’s a dream, please just look at me. Please.
Please.
I felt that
Woah
idk why but this is comforting is that weird of me?
Don’t say, I’m all that matters
*Leave me*
Deja Vu
how did know I was on that part wtf 👁👄👁
I just imagine me being put on a death sentence and I ask the executioner to stab me on a roof top then leave me there to bleed out while I stare into the endless sky with a guard keeping watch of me while I slowly die of blood loss. I talk with the guard a bit and with my final breath before I bleed out “ I deserve this..and now....I’m gonna pay for what I’ve done in hell... “ then everything goes pitch black with the faint sound of other guards surrounding my now dead body- then just silence......I don’t know what’s going to happen or what’s going on- it’s dark,like a endless void of blackness..I’m gone,I don’t exist now...where am I? Who am I? I’m nowhere..I’m nothing,it doesn’t matter anymore..I’m....gone
Wow
this gave me secondhand embarrassment
I'm getting tired of seeing these
Mac and Cheese then stop seeing them love
Mac and Cheese jeez. If youre sick of people telling their story- just dont check the comment section. For gods sake, its a comment section, what do you expect? Especially on a video like this, people are most likely going to talk about their story and whats happened to them. If you dont like it, go away
i saw a recommendation for this in another videos comments and i knew i had to look it up and here it is 😭 it honestly adds such a surreal feeling to this song and makes it so much more sad
same!
this song hits diffrent when you are almost going to suicede
please dont
You matter. People care, trust me. They love you. You just have to look
Hope u doing nowadays bud. Remember there are people out there for u mate. :) You matter
Please, if you already haven’t, don’t. I care about you, we’ve never met but there’s many people that care about your living. Stay strong Lara. ♥️✨
Yeah true
I love it when people i know see me cry and make it all about them but when i talk with strangers online they stay and listen to me for hours.
Fun creepy story time about this song. Ok so my class was dead silent and I heard music playing. There were no lyrics but I knew I heard the song before. Then I remembered this song. I don’t think a teacher would play this and we can’t have our phones out. Nobody else mentioned it and I knew it wasn’t in my head cause it sounded real and I could hear it through a wall it was that muffled quite. Now I wonder, Did anyone hear it?
Was it a good song tho?👀
kitkats are a good candy yes it very much was.
Update: turns out someone else also heard it. So, I am not insane.
@@sirtinythe3rdofitaly ah well then that's nice!~ also I like that story, it's very interesting :>
@@sirtinythe3rdofitaly jdkdkd oh lmao that's good...at least you weren't the only one
the one person who disliked this tried to click like but couldn't see through tears
Legit me
This makes me feel like I moved to New York City for work and just got fired, so I decided to get on the rooftop of my job’s building to drink alcohol and look at the skyline as I contemplate what to do next.
Mr. Scatman come home.
what happened?
You've lived in the city your whole life so you always hear the sounds of cars passing by and see the lights flashing and the tall buildings that make up the city. These sights and sounds, once upon a time, comforted you but you've gotten numb as you've grown older. You feel the cool breeze brushing your face as you step out onto the rooftop and watch the sky. Sadly, you can't see anymore stars in the city, only the few bright ones.
You walk over to the ledge of the roof and climb onto it to only sit and watch the city for the last time. Tears run down your face as you think about everything. "I'm so tired. I want to sleep forever." You tremble as you look below you and stand up so you can be done with everything. You battle yourself in your head. "People love you, they need you, you can't leave them. Is that the only reason I'm still here? Because people _love me_ , because they _need me_ , is that all I'm here for?"
*_"I just want to be happy."_*
You look back at the sky for the last time with blurry vision from the tears that clouded your eyes. You closed your eyes for the last time and took a deep breath. You took the final step and felt the air below you consume your body as you start to plummet to the world. All those memories of your childhood, your friends, your family all flash by and you smile for the last time as your body hits the ground and
*ｗｅ ｄｏｎ＇ｔ ｋｎｏｗ*
I hate being the “ therapist “ friend so much but I want to see my friends happy. I know that my family and friends care for me it just feels like sometimes they don’t because I constantly walk around with a “ smile “ on my face everyone thinks I’m ok but deep down I’m not and it feels like I’m slowly dying
i don't want to disappoint them or make them hurt by seeing how bad everything hurts for me
If you guys are ready, you can open up and tell them how you feel. I would be very happy if my therapist friends are being more open of their feelings. No need to worry. I used to be that therapist friend too, back in school, now that I'm in uni, I started to tell her my struggles and she was very grateful to see me being brave enough to be honest. God bless you all.
I’m happy with being the therapist friend, because I’m finally happy, and now I can help my friends become happy as well, but I must admit it can me a bit tiring! :’)
Hanna Mahfuzah last time I time tried to open up to my friend she stated to get mad at me for having problems so I eventually just shut down
@@_starlight_614 Oh no. That sounds awful. A good person shouldn't get mad at others for feeling low. You are a very good person for helping your friends. I hope you will always be alright.
2020 anyone?
Imagine you're on the rooftop your eyes swollen, red from crying and tired and all you want is to leave the earth and be free but you're to afraid to let go and all you feel is the cold air blowing you're hair. You look up at the beautiful stars everywhere from miles and miles away from you but that's the only thing beautiful and joy from earth, you close you're eyes and have a flashback from all the wonderful memories you had and wish to have again, we're you had a dream you we're singer and telling the world how you feel and save peoples life with you're songs but ever since the bullying and depression started and the death of the only two people you admired...you're parents, the people who supported you and loved you, gone. You open you're eyes and start to rethink if this was the best idea, then you here this music playing and this is the music you love and always listen too, you start to back away from the edge and sit down on the cold hard floor and think about you're parents and still looking down at you from heaven so you closed you're eyes and just listen to the music and think...
I think I'll stay here a little bit more...
( I just wanted to write this, this is not real.)
You scrolling down and all the people, you are worth it don't listen to anybody who brings you down they are not worth you're time. You are beautiful how the way you are and if people can't respect that then they will have to deal with it, But please you are worth it and all of you and I mean all of you are worth it and beautiful God Bless you all and be safe. ❤️💕
i’m home alone because i’m having an allergic reaction and my eyes are swelling up. when it got to the “call my friends“ part i couldn’t stop crying. i've never had this happen to me before so i'm scared i might die. i'm also rlly insecure so the eye swelling makes me look ugly and i'm scared i might look this way for a long time. :
memeulous is my uncle, I recovered and everything, but I still am a wee bit bummed. Thank you so much for taking time to lend a hand. :)
シAkrasia okay it’s all good, my DMs are always open if you’re struggling with anything
memeulous is my uncle, thanks. :)
hey. i’m glad that in the comments about you said you’re okay. and that i wanted to let you know that i’m here for you, even if i am a stranger. know that i am always here to talk, and if you ever come back to this comment, i will be here. always.
S h a r i f a A b d u l K a d i r, you made my day
when a song has helped u through more than any person😍😍
😔
RIGHT
You’re standing on a building high enough to see the whole city, it’s beautiful. Even with the cold wind nipping at your skin and tears rolling down your cheeks you feel numb. It’s your time. You think about the people you love and breath out an apology and a goodbye before letting go.
I genuinely wish I didn't feel this song as much as I do. I really really do. I wish it didn't hit so damn close.
After hours of sadness and sorrow drowning me...I ran far from home...went to the tallest building that a saw...and sat on the ledge for what seemed would be my last breaths..tears ran down my face as the cold breeze dried them....I stared at the blinding city lights, the tall buildings in the distance, the faint stars in the night sky...I couldnt take the pain anymore...i had to end it all so i could be free...i looked down and felt as if the ground was so close when it really was hundreds of feet away..i stood on my feet...took a deep breath...until someone busted into the rooftop and stared at me...i-...they cried and told me that its ok...everything will be fine..to jus step down and relax...i didnt wanna live anymore and no one ever understood the fact that nothing ever got better...i took a step down...then another...they quickly grabbed me and hugged me as tight as they could..i never met nor knew this person and the fact that they really cared broke my heart..it reminded me of how my friends would never feel the same way with me around...i didnt wanna hurt them the way ive been hurt...my mind was rushing with so many thoughts...i pushed them away...my heart was racing and my mind jus didnt wanna drown in pain anymore...without any thinking i...ran to the ledge...turned around...looked ather twinkling tears...that filled up her whole eyes...she told me to jus stop and to trust her....i avoided any thought that would stop me from doing anything and jus feel guilty....i told her with tears running down my face...."Theres nothing in this world that i want more than to just be happy...it by the looks of it..it never will be that way..im tired...mentally and physically...i cant hold anymore sorrow or exhaustion....call my friends and tell them that i love them and that ill miss them....-" she looked at me as if she wanted to break down...i said "the world would be a better place once im gone...its okay...trust me.." i said with a smile on my face even tho i was breaking down with so many tears which made my face so cold from the breeze....i looked down and then at her....i turned to her...and put my arms up...then leaped....tears streaming down my face...then they went up....my stomach dropped as the feeling of falling poisoned me...i was calm and felt all the sounds from me fade as i closed my eyes....waiting for me to hit the ground...came flashes of my favorite memories...i laughed as tears ran down my face...everything will be fine once im gone i said to myself...i closed my eyes and waited for everything to end once and for all.....
- Jenny
I feel this...and would want to do this...
I dont know if this story is real or not but i hope your okay now
Hits hard 💔
After reading a lot of people’s comments it made me think about myself and wonder what went so wrong for me and other people to experience this. The fear of being forgotten, the fear of leaving beautiful memories that can’t be re made, the fear of wanting to end it but not being able to. Everything hurts. I can’t act like I’m happy and do things everyone wants and be the person my mom and my family wants me to be. I’m not my dad. I’m not him and I will never be him. I love him and miss him and wish he was in my childhood and in my life for more then 5 years but I don’t want to be him. Everyone expects me to do things for them and to not give me anything in return and I know that I won’t get anything. I’m going through so much through out my 12 years of being alive. I feel so numb but I feel my 12 years of being alive have had some happy moments but having more sad ones. I want to end it so bad but I haven’t experienced being able to be my self and to live as my own person. Thank you for the person who read this and can relate to how I feel
hey. I want you to stay. truly. life is so hard, but you're here and you're fighting. please, always keep fighting.
I put the playback speed to 0.75........istg im crying even more 😭😭
Imagine this:
It’s a breezy night, your standing on a tall building, wearing a hoodie with earbuds in listening to this on Spotify, your holding the cold bar and looking out at the beautiful city’s lights. You’re crying a little, You think about jumping but before you can,
Your Spotify plays a KFC ad making you crave chicken so you walk away and go grab some Kentucky fried chicken because being depressed makes you hungry.
I knew where this was going and yet I couldn’t brace my scoff
the very last "sorry" at the end always gets me
100 reasons why you should stay alive
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1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach
2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself
3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days
4. Your mom's smile
5. Your best friends laugh
6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you
7. The feeling of the sun against your face
8. Hearing the words “I love you”
9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday
10. Birthdays
11. Quiet late night drives
12. Missed opportunities and adventures
13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day
14. Long hot showers
15. Music that you connect with
16. You have a purpose
17. You can change somebody’s life
18. Snowball fights
19. Concerts
20. Watching people fall
21. As long as your heart is beating, there is hope
22. You will regret dying
23. What if Heaven isn’t real?
24. Marriage
25. You are enough
26. Pain is only temporary
27. Late-night food runs with your friends
28. The sound of rain
29. Reading powerful quotes
30. Eating your favorite foods
31. Stars
32. Good movies
33. Having children
34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them
35. Meeting new people
36. Your struggle will make you stronger
37. You have a lot of people that love and support you
38. Being able to say, “I made it”
39. Genuine smiles
40. Bonfires
41. You matter
42. Time heals most wounds
43. Your first apartment/house
44. The crunch of leaves in the fall
45. Finding your soul mate
46. Meaningful hugs
47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding
48. You are worth it
49. Sunday night football
50. The smell of Christmas trees
51. People care about you; lots of them in fact
52. Sunsets
53. Ice cream
54. You are brave
55. Things really do get better
56. Dogs
57. Cats
58. Pets in general
59. Rainbows
60. You are amazing
61. The city
62. Traveling
63. Vacations
64. Road trips
65. Hearing awesome stories
66. Inside jokes
67. Coffee/Tea
68. Snowmen
69. Your talents
70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win
71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness
72. You will be happy one day
73. All-nighters with your friends
74. Cuddling
75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college
76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years
77. Smiling
78. Seeing someone else smile
79. You are beautiful
80. Decorating your house/apartment
81. Capturing perfect moments on camera
82. You would be missed
83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants
84. Your favorite hobby
85. Swimming on a hot day
86. Being cozied up with blankets
87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap
88. Helping other people
89. Watching the people you love become successful
90. Becoming successful yourself
91. Babies/little kids
92. Cute old people
93. Love stories
94. You are strong
95. You will be proud that you continued to live
96. The feeling of grass under your feet
97. Telling crazy stories
98. The smell of rain
99. Watching lightning
100. YOU ARE LOVED
I love that
@@iceceemcake7027 ❤️❤️❤️☺️
I needed this
Parents always say “oh stop it! Your too young to be depressed” or “your overreacting” instead of “i’m here for you” and “it’s ok let it all out” or even “come here let’s talk about it”..i really just want to fall into my mothers arms letting it all out. I want her to comfort me.
This is what hurt me most
Tariq Alenizii frfr
I don't have mother🙂🙃
jimin 13 i’m so so sorry
@@yuhyuh742 nahh it's okay you don't know😇
imagine you’re on the rooftop of your apartment with your wrist slit and this song playing and your eyes are blurry
you turn around and around while hearing all the sound around you
you have little sister and you made her promise even if you don’t come back never open the door that leads to the rooftop
at the end of the song you start to loose consciousness and fall that’s when you hear the police sirens but it’s too late
that’s the visions i got i’m scared of myself i feel like my body is suffering from my soul
I love just sitting here on my balcony in the dark with autumn wind and headphones
It’s a vibe
bahaha yes, also love your name
-The smell of cookies baking in the oven
-petting a soft cat and hearing them pur
-taking a beautiful picture of the sky
-feeling sand in between your toes
-the sun beaming down on your skin
-listening to your favorite song over and over
-seeing a butterfly pass by
-finding that one piece of that puzzle that you've been looking for
-waking up early and making pancakes or waffles
-drinking a nice cold glass of water at 3am
-finding a really good movie you can watch over and over
-finding a gorgeous flower
-smelling that one smell that brings back some good memories
-reading a really good book
Just a few reasons why you should stay a little longer
Thank you! This has helped me more that you could imagine. I’ve been going through a lot and these bring back good memories. Thank you
This comment is important
finally finding someone that actually care :)
@@pracheebhardwaj2790
-eating your favorite food/desert
-laughing so hard your sides hurt
-feeling the breeze on your face out of a window
the cold air blew against your skin, the ground below look so close yet so far. you wondered if anyone would care. you felt completely lost. the police that stand around you get closer by the second. you are preparing to leap off but you quickly realize, you are so loved. you deserve help. you are important. you look down once more as your eyes fill with tears. you see your whole future flash before your eyes, as you let the police carefully pull you down, you soon know that
you are a survivor
You look up at the sky..Remembering all the lucky time you had in your life..before it all started...What you mean by before it started: You were a family girl in College and you had been dating a boy for awhile! But he soon started to get really possessive, When ever you had to go to the grocery store he would make him go instead of you going and you couldn't hang out with your friends, etc. but He started to get abusive Yelling at you...Hitting and slapping you a lot your friends got worried, That's when you had enough you yelled at everyone..They turned you away..ignored you...You weren't anything to them..To your friends...To your classmates...to anyone at all!
You wanted to end it all but you figured out to relieve the pain..You started crying every night..Waiting for warmth but got none...And you started to even cut and go up to the roof top a lot..everyone started to get worried for you so..You planned your suicide..As you went up to the roof top you could feel your Flowy skirt brush against your leg like a cat..The crisp air biting your skin and making your hair wave slowly you walk over to the ledge looking down - It was a long ways down 'Perfect!' but just then everyone busted through the door : Your Friends, Your classmates, your Ex Bf, "DON'T DO IT!!" they called out you didn't listen you turned to them facing directly at them and started walking back words as they start running when you felt the ledge just then one almost got you. But you fell when they tried to save you..Your body falling of the building as you envelope what's happening You stared into the city, It was night and then when you got closer to the ground you felt like you could finally be free as you got closer and closer you felt more free when you hit the ground people came running to you but it was to late you were gone...You were in peace...
(Please if your considering suicide please don't! Get a hold of a suicide hotline trust me..)
these comments are making me cry even more then i already am.
I feel overwhelmed and like I’m part of some video game where the whole world is programmed to not acknowledge me and to tell me I’m not good enough. Everything is difficult
im sorry. you and all your feelings are so valid. I love you❤️
It's so upsetting how Billie understands how everyone is feeling. She can put it into words she can turn our feelings into a song. It's also sad that she feels this way too.
speed-.75. you wont regret it
Wow it's pretty good
DAMN
"Taste me,
The salty tears on my cheek
That's what a year-long
*H E A D A C H E*
Does to you."
OMFG I JUST FOUND THIS COMENT AS IT WAS PLAYING....
Its 3am and I'm sad so here's my story with this song.
TW
When this song came out I wanted to kill myself so badly because I felt so alone and too disgusting to live on this world. Now I still feel alone but talking made me realize that it was because of the trauma of being sexually assaulted by men I thought cared about me. I eventually realized that it wasn't my fault, that I couldn't stop them because I was scared and I shouldn't blame myself for that.
This song is a vibe when your actually on a roof alone at night
"I'm not OK i feel so scattered" that hit different :(
I love you. life is so hard, but you're fighting. please, always keep fighting.
i dont want to live anymore. i just want to disappear from this world. i feel so much emotions. when i am sad i cant even cry anymore, no tears come out anymore, i just have to sit in silence as my heart and mind breaks into a million pieces. i really, really want to go.
Bruh I can't even go on a roof without having an anxiety attack
People think suicidal people are weak because thay can't live but little did they know it takes so much courage to take the last step..
Keep holding on
I hope things will get better for you
I wish you all the best
Stay strong
take me to the rooftop
i wanna see the world when i stop breathing
turning blue
tell me love is endless
dont be so pretentious
leave me
like you do
if you need me
wanna
see me
better hurry
cause im leaving soon
sorry cant save me now
sorry i dont know how
sorry theres no way out/up
but down
mm down
taste me
the salty tears on my cheek
thats what a year long
headache
_does to you_
i would listen to this song 24/7 because it was the only thing that understood me. i know it’s super common or basic to say this but billie genuinely saved me.
That *I'll miss my friends * hits wayy too hard
Anything song that reminds me of ripping multiple pieces of paper in a book and crying constantly.....I like...😌
__Mila Vong__ why is this, how I feel?
Bold of you not to assume I’m already on an abandoned building listening....i am
This was the exact view from the window in my room at the hospital. Comforting to sit on the window cill and write about every little detail of the boring day starting from being awaken by a nurse to take your blood pressure and the shower with no curtains.
I don’t know how long I can do this. Everyday I‘m so lonely.. My parents are at work, I finished school last year and didn’t get a job and my friends live an hour away. We don’t have a train station here and the bus doesn’t drive in their city. This year I got some work and I‘ll start in August or September but I don’t if I‘ll stay here.. I just feel so fucking lonely and nobody hears me. I talked with my mother like a thousand times about how I feel and that I really really want to go to psychiatrist but she doesn’t take it serious.. I don’t know what to do anymore.
It's hard- I know. The stress of life feels like it's physically pushing on your chest, and anxiety on your shoulders. It would be easier to die. Really, it would. But how much more beautiful would it be to live? Right now it's terrible, but think- tomorrow brings hundreds of new possibilities. Think about how many more lives you can save if you save your own. Think about how your soulmate is out there somewhere, waiting for you. For YOU. To the world, yeah, you're one person, but to one person, you're the world, and it's not fair to take the world away from them. The stars in the night sky, listening to music in the dark, hugs and kisses, flowers, weeds growing in the cracks on sidewalks, cliffs and mountains and valleys. There's so much more in life. I know it's hard to feel, and that hurts, but if you allow yourself to feel... Yes, there's pain, but a heart that's been broken is a heart that's been loved. You can make it, you can. You need to. You will.
Suicide hotline (America): 1800-273-8255
Artists I recommend:
SIA
NF
Billie (of course)
I love you, and I know I'm not the only one. I wish you the best ❤❤
Cassie Rexroad Thank you so much.. Sometimes I really love myself and sometimes I hate me so much. Yesterday my boss called me and I got fired so I don’t have work again.. I really hope for better times.
@@maxima.286 just remember everything happens for a reason, and you'll find something better! Love you ❤❤
If you have to just scream at the top of your lungs and cry and don’t stop until you feel all the stress, anger, sadness, loneliness, and hurt leave and be replaced with happiness. Make new friends, explore new things but make sure to stay true to yourself
I’m sick and tired of being there for everyone else with no one to do the same for me. They all come to me with their problems and I listen and comfort them. When I try to open up all I get is “same” or “mood lol”. I’m tired of it all. I’m not suicidal or anything but I just wish I had decent friends. People that would check up on me. People that care. I need real friends.
Yo, if your parents don't support you or your "friends" can't see you're truly unhappy behind those smiles you put up, im here for you! Luv you darlings
This song just hits different...I’ve always imagined me at this point in my life. On a rooftop, highest one in NY looking and reminiscing about my life. Wondering what got me here. Do I go through with it? As I gaze at the stars. Hearing this song in my head. Cold and feeling weak. As my feet hang off the rim, I think. What do I have to live for? No one cares. My hair free in the air. My head pushed up against the cold brick..while I look down, the people the life I’m leaving. Goodbyes hurt to much. “Im leaving soon” I say to myself. As I push my self a little closer to my destination. My tears roll down, like ice. The saltiness, the last thing I taste. As I take the final push in myself and I feel everything go into slow motion. As I look up with my body feeling an impact by the wind. The air rush against my body. I think this is what it’s come to as I close my eyes and find some peace for my last few seconds alive. The hard impact of cement, a rush of pain and everything just goes black. The last thing I feel...
I’m the “mom”/“therapist” friend
It’s so tiring that no one really cares about me, they just want my advice
I feel like everything I do it’s worthless
I just feel frustrated, I help my friends daily but I can’t help myself...
Most therapist friends know what it is like helping people but then they don't get help.
I can't find anything like this except this
imagine that ure on top of ur apartment roof bc it feels like its the safest place u can possibly be since ure confused and prob dk what to do in life and suddenly that person is also on top of the roof with a drink on his/her hand and planning to give it to u and both of u share ur problems and memories 2gether.
Now just imagine ✨ jumping ✨
Imagine your all alone on the roof and your tired so you lay down. You feel the cold concrete through your shirt and you close your eyes as you hear the beat drop and feel the vibrations all throughout your body because of the giant speakers playing this song behind you. You open your eyes to see the night sky, it looks like a million stars are in the sky and you just want to stay there forever.
The fact that I just clicked on this cause I thought it would sound cool and the comment section is darker than I thought it would be
*_this comforts me and i'm not sure why maybe it's because someone finally understands me..._*
im so tired, im numb i just wanna go back to when i could feel something, i feel so worthless, and useless, im that friend that everyone goes to when you have problems i listen and give advice, i put on a fake smile amd go on with my day but when i get home im miserable, i cant even cry anymore, i just lay there feeling empty, nobody notices my constant battle to stay alive, the constant pain i feel, my heart just aches, i have no energy im just tired and its been months since my friends have talked to me, they dont care about me, nobody does, i just want this pain to end
i’m sorry you feel like this, i know how it feels to be the “therapeutic” friend. you’re always there for them but they not there for you.
i hope you get through your struggles and stay strong. life does get better hang in there bud ❤️
also i may be a complete stranger, but i love you, stay strong.
sending a warm virtual hug your way! 🤗
@@aaryhanasingh thank you sm, it means a lot even if we dont know each other, ily
i can't feel emotions anymore
I’m tired.
Tired of living
Tired of breathing
Tired of trying
Tired of having to help others
Tired of people not returning the favour
Tired of people walking all over me
Tired of not feeling anything
Ya know I tried to act tough and all , people think I’m very confident and cool but really I’m really tired but I just don’t wanna show it
let me help you. I wanted to pop in and tell you that I love you, and I care about you. you're not alone. you're out here fighting so hard. please keep fighting.
@@rika1630 you are so valid. please, keep fighting.
@@iguessitsfine3410 I’ve been hiding lots of things from ma fris cause ya know they have their own thing to deal with so I kept on dealing stuff by maself and btw thank you so much I hope everything is going to be alright for all of us in a matter of time
i don't know what you're going through, but please stay, we need you
I will try but I can’t promise...
I've lost the ability to care for a lot of things. To the point it makes me feel like I'm a monster. The monster, the fuck up that everyone somehow comes across. I don't ever wish pain on anyone who has hurt me but I live in fear, I lay awake that others wish cruelty upon me. I can't become hurt or heartbroken anymore because of how often its happened. I take in other people's problems to make up for what I've become. I ignore my own issues, even though I struggle with a few mental illnesses myself. When I manage to cry, which is so hard to do because it's difficult for me to cry even a few tears. I smile, wipe them away and help others instead. Because I have to be the okay one. Or else everyone and everything will fall apart. It's all an act. The question of "are you okay?" that occurs every so often when I finally speak on my own emotions, which I feel guilty for expressing. I simply laugh at, and reply with "Yeah!! I'm okay, just a bit tired is all!" I just want someone to see me without me having to point it out. I want my friends to say that they're proud. I'm so proud of them for getting through the day, to get out of bed and breathe even when their lungs have pressure put on them as they struggle to take a deep breath. But, I wish. That they could be proud of me. It's like I struggle from addiction to help others. I can't stop. Even when it clearly damages me. I can't stop myself from being sad. When I've had a day of festivities and I'm fueled with happiness, at the end of the day I feel numb all over again.
I've become too comfortable in my sadness, and my anxiety. I wallow in my own head and can't live in light.
I'm so tired. I can't care about school, no matter how much energy I try to muster. I have no motivation. I do consider myself the therapist friend. For every friend group I end up being pulled in. They use me to their advantage, I handle their own personal drama between each other and their own emotions. I'm glad, that they put trust in me. They trust me enough to tell me these things and be open with me. But after they feel better, they feel okay. They fade away. And we become strangers again. The friend group continues on without me in it. Fine by them, fine by me. And I can't seem to care for the endless cycle. It doesn't even hurt anymore. It just... stings.
I've become understanding if people don't reply to me, because the majority of my friends suffer from family issues and depression. They're trying to get by. And sometimes it's hard to text back. Some don't seem to understand when I do that, though. And they guilt trip. If you don't text me back for a week, because it's overwhelming. Or if you're simply just annoyed by me. That's okay, I understand. I'm not mad. I don't get mad easily by most things.
I lay awake for hours once I wake up, regretting everything that led to the moment I opened my eyes again.
I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of giving effort when I can't see the point in anything. I've lost interest in things I used to find immense joy in. I feel as though I can't do things correctly. The advice I give so much effort to goes to waste and ends up not helping. It's one of my fears. I also fear, that some resent me. Because I move on too quickly from people, from romantic and platonic breakups. I don't know why I do. And it scares me how I move past people in only a few days, where anger may remain in their hearts towards me for months or years. I'm not the better one.
My friend views me as Heather. I don't want to be Heather. And I'm not. I am not as perfect as people make me out to be. I've just been hurt so much to the point I've got infinite patience for people, even those who have bad intentions towards me. I understand. Even though if I'm not in their situations, I say I understand because I don't want them to be alone.
You're never alone. When down seems to be the only answer, look up. To aim to the sky is to ascend, to a better haven. Don't let yourself spiral. Please. When you catch yourself spiraling downwards, let the angels you have carry you towards a better light. It doesn't matter who your angels are. Friends, family. Characters. They all got you. I've got you. Jumping sounds like a relief. A relief to escape your head, to live out of your shell of a body. But, my love. You have been given years to explore. You mustn't let your head control and maneuver your own wants and desires. With mental illness it is hard to escape mindsets that have been made long ago. But by eating a meal, even if it's one per day. Waking up when you can barely lift your eyes. Smiling when you're on the verge of completely breaking down in front of everyone, barely able to hold in muffled sobs and tears. You're one step closer to being okay. You can't be happy when you aren't okay, so making sure you're at least steady is priority. You're doing wonderful, you're trying your best and I know it doesn't feel like you are. But being able to breathe without your heart feeling heavy is an accomplishment. I don't know what you've gone through, as I am a stranger behind a screen on the internet amongst millions of others. But, you're enough. Your feelings will never be a burden, your fake smile or mask is never unseen. I see you. I hear you. I'm with you for as long as you'd like me to be. Please don't give up, and don't give into death. Death will await for you, when they see that you've led a beautiful life. Once you've grown old and passed, they'll collect you and place you in their river of stars amongst the others. It will come to an end eventually, but not by your own hands. I know you're tired. But life's caress is motherly and wishes you not to pass so soon, as she has gifted it to you in hopes that you walk and run, skip happily and only be filled with giggling fits. I don't want you to leave. Stay for a little while longer. You may be barely hanging in there, but you're still here. I promise that everything will become easier even when everything is crumbling now.
Take care of yourself. Be there for yourself.
you too. im here for you, and I love you.❤️
I never been so close to crying after a long time
I usually get depressed when i see all the things we’re passing through all around the world, hope everyone gets better
IM GONNA DO A BACKFLIP!
HELL YEAH!
Then do a front flip
DO A BARREL ROLL!
is it only me who has written out their whole death note in their head that I’m going to write just before I just from a very high rooftop after listening to this song after it’s been on a 10 hour loop but you’re scared in case you pass all your pain to your loved ones
I’d love just be on top of a roof looking over what once was my life
plot twist: you’re about to jump off the abandoned rooftop
I need this now so much, thank you
Just imagine the freedom of falling, knowing nothing else can hurt you because you’re flying for a few seconds. The feeling of knowing that it would be all over in a few seconds, a deep breath in and a sigh of relief, and then the cold gentle breeze against my falling body. I’m so glad they could save me after the fall, but after seeing what the worlds turned into, it doesn’t seem that bad.
And no, this isn’t a POV. And yes, I’ll be ok. Maybe.
This remind me of my bestfriend when we were sitting at a rooftop crying together and holding each other real tight
(May he rest in peace)
I'm really sorry for your loss♡
You jumped.
At the sound of a voice you once heard before.
A voice that was tired,
A voice that was angry,
A voice filled with sorrow,
A voice that took your hand and lead you;
Lead you all the way up to that rooftop.
You took in the sight ahead of you-
and when the voice spoke,
𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚓𝚞𝚖𝚙𝚎𝚍.
Take me to the rooftop
I wanna see the world when I stop breathing, turning blue
Tell me love is endless, don't be so pretentious
Leave me like you do
If you need me, wanna see me
Better hurry 'cause I'm leaving soon
Sorry can't save me now
Sorry I don't know how
Sorry there's no way out (sorry)
But down
Hmm, down
Taste me, these salty tears on my cheeks
That's what a year-long headache does to you
I'm not okay, I feel so scattered
Don't say I'm all that matters
Leave me, déjà vu
If you need me, wanna see me
You better hurry, I'm leaving soon
Sorry can't save me now (sorry)
Sorry I don't know how (sorry)
Sorry there's no way out (sorry)
But down
Hmm, down
Call my friends and tell them that I love them
And I'll miss them
But I'm not sorry
Call my friends and tell them that I love them
And I'll miss them
Sorry
Credit goes to lyricfind
my mind says she’s going to leave, she says she won’t. my mind says she’s gonna find someone who isn’t as clingy, emotional and annoying. she says i’m not annoying or emotional and she likes clingy. but my mind is so messed up that i can’t believe it
I aint gonna do it girl im just thinking abt it
This is sad and also funny at the same time lol
even thinking about it can weigh a person down so much. I wanna let you know that I love you, and I care about you. its been a few months, so this is your encouragement to keep fighting!
@@iguessitsfine3410 thank you once again you literally made my day < 3
@@rika1630 sending love❤️❤️
My depession: Jump.
My anxiety: But what if-
Fun fact: it’s impossible to breathe while smiling
Did you know that you look amazing when you smile 🥺
I love you okay.
Please don't give up.
Even if you think that no one loves you.
I love you even if I don't know you.
Well, I do know that you're an amazing person whos just going through a really rough patch.
I do know that you're a caring person who puts others happiness before yours
I know that your faking being happy to make sure that no one worries about you because you're a selfless person (and if you're not faking being happy its because you've been faking for so long that you can't keep it up anymore)
I love you so much and my whole world and heaps of people that you didn't think cared about you worlds will shatter and their lives will never be the same again if you give up
So please don't give up
It will get better I promise 💕
I have been through this time and I even thought about killing myself but I pushed through it and I am so glad I did. My life only got better and I and now that happiest I have ever been
Life may seem like its never going to get better but I promise you its will and I can promise that you are going to be so glad that you didn't give up
Just thought I would remind you that I love you once more okay 💞♡
I wrote all of this but please copy this and spread it around. People need to hear this 🙃
thank you 🥺
this made me smile, literally
hope you’re doing well and stay strong ❤️
"Sorry there's no way out" ..........we'll ACTUALLY-
there’s so much wrong with me. 7 years old. older cousin. emotionally scarred forever. 10-now depressed, hopeless. now. bi? come on give me a break i just want to be happy
life can be so so hard. I am so sorry its been hard for you at such a young age. this is your encouragement to keep fighting! keep going, the world waits for you❤️
awh bub your so young🥺 it's 100% okay to be bi and like both girls and guys, and i'll let you in on a secret here; so am i.
it'll get better, i promise. keep fighting love💕
i feel like these videos really help people connect. everyone who comes here, is going through the same as each other. we feel safe to write it down and post a comment about it, for strangers to read. there is no hate. there is no shame. we all make sure everyone is okay, even when we are not. we give the support that someone may not have had. it’s beautiful really....heartbreaking, but beautiful.
is it good or bad that i feel nothing listening to this?
Man me too
Lucky yall lucky you
i remember this march, like a week pre covid-19, while we were still in school. i thought i was at my lowest point, and in a way i was, but here i am november of the same year, and that felt like a lifetime ago. everything was so much easier, a simpler time and i had no idea. im losing my grip on everything and anything stable in my life. even my comfort items are gone, i thought i hit rock bottom yet here i am with a shovel digging deeper down than ive ever been
Since I was a young girl I always liked the night times the fresh air chills going through walking when I was young I used to travel every year to New York for New Years eve the feeling when I go there the cold I always pictured myself climbing onto a roof with my friends and relaxing and celebrating and having fun while were far from the edge but now I still do my main goal is to go to a rooftop in New York and admired it all alone relaxing in the fresh air agents the door drinks a soda and cheering myself I've even made playlist if that day ever comes to happen
thank you for reading
sincerely,
me
the fact that i just have a need for all of my friends to be happy and loved and taken care of is mindblowing. i don't know why, but i just feel absolutely horrible if they aren't happy, like i'm not good enough, so i just always help them with absolutely everything. but it drains my energy so much, because no one ever asks me if i'm okay. no one ever helps me. i put on a happy face, and they just assume i'm happy as well, they'll think i'm perfect because i'm such an amazing friend and because i'm never sad. i'm dying though. i'm so fucking worthless, and i hate myself in ever possible way. of course i cry. i cry all the time when i'm alone. i don't need anyone to check up on me, i'm really fine on my own, i feel better like that. but i guess at some point i want someone to smile at me and tell me they're always gonna be there as well. that hasn't happened yet, however.
So when we jumping ? On the count of 3?
POV: u were sad so u decided to go to this rooftop that you have been keeping your eye on since you moved to new york......... if ur still reading this. i love you so much.
you are so worthy.
i am so proud of u.
man all these nice comments make me wish i actually felt something, they're supposed to be heartwarming and make you feel better. but for some reason i'm not allowed to be happy all the time, and that's ok.. but it gets tiring after a while of pretending. ah who am i to go on about myself when no one cares, if you're reading this i hope you have a good day, a good life and hope you live a happier life than i do. y know i've thought of many ways to do it, tried a couple times and failed - the outcome has always made things worse for myself. just dont try it or you'll end up a mess and in an endless cycle. be happy
im sorry. you are so valid. im reading this and im sorry for all that you've been through, but by reading this I know that you're here, and you're fighting. to be fighting all the time is so hard, but you're doing it. I care about you. let me be your encouragement to keep fighting❤️
POV: your family forced you to study abroad which was New York. You didn't want to study. You wanted to focus on your mental health but nobody cares, one day all the pressure hit you at once. You decide to sit up on your apartment's roof and plugged headphones in your ear and slowly start to cry. "Weak" "dumb" "ugly" "fat". Words that your most trusted person have said to you. You cried and cried. "What's the point of living?..it's just torture" "this place is sure pretty, I guess I have to say goodbye"
u jumped off, slowly remembering that there will be no more pressure, torture just happiness.