It’s Not Your Fault You Took Psych Drugs

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  • I wanted to address something that comes up time and again when I talk to people who are coming off psych drugs: we blame ourselves for taking the medication in the first place.
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    About me:
    I was 11-years-old when I was first taken to a psychiatrist. I soon received a diagnosis of OCD and the medication Luvox, an antidepressant, to treat it. This sequence of events kickstarted nearly two decades of wandering through the often exit-less maze that is the U.S. mental health system. By the time I was 25, I had received a half-dozen diagnoses, taken countless psychiatric drugs - including ten straight years on antipsychotics, and had more side effects than I could keep up with or manage. I weighed 400 lbs (181 kg), had out-of-control Type-2 Diabetes, and felt like I was dying. And honestly, I had felt so bad for so long - I almost welcomed it.
    But then, I experienced a spark of hope. A light bulb-over-the-brain moment. Maybe I didn’t have to live the way I’d been living. Even though the belief had been put in me at a young age that coming off my meds would surely seal my doom, something inside me told me to take a chance. Using this internal guidance, I began my psych drug taper and slowly started coming off every one of the drugs in my psych drug cocktail. Lexapro, Concerta, Ritalin, Geodon, Ativan, and Rozerem. All were on the chopping block.
    I’ve been off all meds for 7 years now, and haven’t seen a psychiatrist since way back in 2009. It’s been a journey down a long, difficult path. One that was often too dark to see in front of me, and littered with pitfall after pitfall. But I survived. And my life has been improving, slowly but surely, ever since I escaped the psych drug-induced haze and the unhelpful beliefs that had filled my mind for the better part of two decades.
    If you’re wandering down the same path, please know you’re not alone. And that you’re not fated to lose your way. It gets better.
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    Just put “Support Call Notification” in the subject line and you’ll be added to the list!
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    Disclaimer:
    Any advice given on this channel is not a substitute for medical advice. Please consult with a licensed medical professional before coming off psych drugs. Never-EVER-discontinue your medication cold turkey. It's too dangerous. Please be safe.
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    Please note:
    This is a judgment-free space as far as whether or not you take psychiatric drugs, or receive any kind of mental health services. Above all, we at this channel encourage each person to figure out and do what’s right for them. Life’s too short for anything else.
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 154

  • @suzannedutoit1003
    @suzannedutoit1003 Рік тому +10

    That’s where I’m at…20 years on psych drugs…was never depressed…I only had severe concentration problems…however I was so scared for it return so I asked the dr for an antidepressant …and it lead on on off meds my whole life…extreme withdrawals…and still healing

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  Рік тому +3

      It can be such a painful process to reestablish a connection with ourselves, but it’s so worthwhile. I wish you only the best as your healing journey continues. Much love to you!

    • @ohmannotnow272
      @ohmannotnow272 4 місяці тому +2

      Same here. 20 years on all types of meds. Now I am finally weaning off.

  • @simsim5919
    @simsim5919 3 роки тому +56

    My family put me in a psyche ward which led to a community treatment order and 7 antipsychotic injections, after 5 months off injections I still don't have any interest in anything, lost my motivation, no personality, no energy or ability to exercise where as previously I was a gym junkie and very fit. I have improved quite a bit but I mourn the loss of myself.

    • @simsim5919
      @simsim5919 3 роки тому +1

      @@russellbyt Thanks Russell , your reply is really helpful, it's great what your doing , thankyou.

    • @Steven-jf8hq
      @Steven-jf8hq 2 роки тому +3

      Jesus loves you and your pain and suffering is all for a reason believe that God has a plan for you and dont give up.

    • @Steven-jf8hq
      @Steven-jf8hq 2 роки тому

      A Look at 1 Peter 4: Suffering for the Sake of Jesus
      In the suffering of Jesus, we have an example of trusting in the promises of the Father.
      here is some irony in the fact that St. Peter is writing to us about suffering for the sake of Jesus. After all, isn’t this the same man that had a less than stellar record when it came to his own response to persecution and suffering during the ministry of Jesus? When Jesus first tells his disciples that he must suffer, it is Peter who tells him “no way” only to be rebuked as an instrument of Satan for doing so. When Jesus is about to be arrested in the Garden of Gethsemane, it is Peter who hastily draws his sword and slices off the ear of a guard in an attempt to rescue his friend. And once Jesus is arrested, and Peter is accused of being one of His followers, Peter denies even knowing Jesus. If this were the end of Peter’s story, he would have absolutely no right to tell us how we should respond to suffering. But Peter is especially singled out by Jesus for a public reconciliation. And it is from this that Peter becomes capable of affirming a faith that is strengthened by suffering.
      Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal which comes upon you to prove you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice in so far as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed. If you are reproached for the name of Christ, you are blessed, because the spirit of glory and of God rests upon you.

    • @simsim5919
      @simsim5919 2 роки тому +3

      @@Steven-jf8hq thankyou, I lost my trust and belief in God during this time but I've just started trusting God again and having my beliefs again, I also feel better just recently. Thankyou for your msge.😊

    • @simsim5919
      @simsim5919 2 роки тому +6

      I'm not fully recovered from the injections yet though, although I recently started to feel better than I have.

  • @VampireSquirrel
    @VampireSquirrel 7 місяців тому +5

    I try to remember I was suicidal before i went to the psych ward, and i might be dead if I didn't go for help, though it was a bit of a deal with the devil as i still died in some way. I am learning a new language now and trying to rebuild my ability to even read and communicate, and hopefully learn to draw again too

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  7 місяців тому +1

      Glad you're still with us! I don't think this stuff is all good, or all bad, for many of us. It's definitely complicated. I wish you the best with those very worthwhile pursuits. It can take a lot of patience on our part but I believe you'll be successful :)
      As someone who's currently learning a new language too (Hungarian), and went through years of tapering and withdrawal, I can say that learning a new language reminds me a lot of having to relearn how to communicate during, and after, coming off meds. (Though it's much easier to learn these days, now that my brain is in a better place.) My ability to use my native tongue was obliterated for the longest time and effectively had to be relearned. Like what you're going through now. Really sad how harmful those meds can be. All the more reason to be patient and kind with ourselves while our brains are still recovering.

  • @starrhall8160
    @starrhall8160 Рік тому +12

    Thank u...I never believed in nor wanted my son on meds...he was diagnosed SMI, schizophrenic at 25 and went thru years of hell, as have I, and was in and out of hospitals, jail, homeless, all while I was trying to help him ...then he got violent and I knew it hit so far bottom that I had to call a crisis team. Now he's on meds and it hurts me to see him numbed and unmotivated. But, his aggression and violence scared me. So many schizophrenics end up in prison. I still believe he will recover in time. Thx for ur channel!

    • @starrhall8160
      @starrhall8160 Рік тому +3

      @@russellbyt thank you...when he first was hospitalized, at 25, his friends " turned him in" and I didn't like that. When he was released, I spent hundreds on specific supplements outlined by the Carl Jung Institute..after two days, he stopped hallucinating, was back to " normal" and returned to work. But, he stopped taking them. He stopped interacting with people, he stopped everything...this is common whether it be supplements, meds, treatment, meetings, socializing...

    • @miriambochenek9083
      @miriambochenek9083 Рік тому +4

      I'm a mother of my son who has similar problems and no...not the person is violent...but the medication...injections changing the meds...are changing the person behavior. I have been through all of the medication he was on...Believe me I had 17 different sons in the one I have and love dearly . Schizophrenics...because the so called medical authority gave the name for any not fit for them behavior are harmless people when they are without drugs. They may act bizarre Talk to themselves ...walk back and forth count same tings few times...but no violent people in general. My son became violent when 3 sec guys forced him on the injection in the hospital He was young scared and alone in the hospital cell. Three big guys on the command of the crazy psychiatrist caught my NON violent son and he knew what medication they are trying to push in him So as the rabbit escapes from a lion my son was trying to push and kick...and oh boy ...was he dangerous to the environment. My son was not even checked out why he got memory problem and confusion...They put the label and after 3 courts attempts to push the medication on him the psychiatrist happily did it. Since then our hell on this earth began The antipsychotic drugs ruin life of many changing them to unrecognizable human beings ...Yes to anybody knowledge they are HUMAN Beings. Locked behind the doors left like a trash and fed with the nasty toxic pills to feed the big pharma who will never admits they killed millions and millions world wide. You know why Because they can They are evil and manipulate those who are money and power hungry to do the harm to others.

    • @seanodwyer4322
      @seanodwyer4322 3 місяці тому

      @@miriambochenek9083 these demons are anti religion/ faith too - why else do heaps off hare krshnas end upp in Demons mental Hospitals.

  • @matraiildiko5740
    @matraiildiko5740 3 роки тому +16

    As for me, I think it is not myself that I blamed. What I felt was not that I am blaming myself. Rather I just felt an unsurmountable anger about the injustice that was done on me by the mental health system through medicating me with the horror drugs Risperidone and Olanzapine which I benefited non from but felt completely destroyed and incapacitated by.

    • @danoconnell4536
      @danoconnell4536 3 роки тому +1

      I have felt the same was put on 750 mg of seroquel a couple years ago and havent felt right since

    • @nerdy2239
      @nerdy2239 2 роки тому +1

      @@danoconnell4536 please update me, do you feel better?

    • @danoconnell4536
      @danoconnell4536 2 роки тому +1

      @@nerdy2239 not doing well no idea where to go for help

  • @ohmannotnow272
    @ohmannotnow272 4 місяці тому +5

    Same here too bro. Ive been diagnosed with ocd when i was 11 years old. Ive been on all type of psych meds i believe since i was 14 years old. Now i am finally coming off after 20 years.

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  4 місяці тому +3

      Sorry you went through the same thing. Coming off isn't easy for those of us who started the meds so young and were on so many different drugs, but it can be done. It may seem like your screwed because of the meds (referencing your other comment) but our bodies are surprisingly resilient. We're capable of a lot of healing. It's worth it to have some hope that things will get better.

    • @seanodwyer4322
      @seanodwyer4322 3 місяці тому

      @@russellbyt sufferring is Faith.''

  • @christiansaravia7865
    @christiansaravia7865 5 місяців тому +5

    I regret taking psych meds. I’m still on them because I’m really scared of withdrawals and depersonalization. I didn’t want to take them but my parents took me to a therapist and psychiatrist when I was a teenager and I got on meds. They did help but they also changed me and I have no life in me left. I don’t know how to get off them though.

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  5 місяців тому +1

      Thankfully we have some really helpful online resources for coming off meds. And even some specialists and withdrawal coaches and so on who can aid us in the process.
      I mentioned a couple of online resources in this video:
      2 Huge Resources for Coming off Psych Drugs Safely
      ua-cam.com/video/OLW9R6ML-aE/v-deo.html
      There’s not much we can do to make this process easy, but gaining knowledge about how it all works can give us some peace of mind and confidence in our decision making. It won’t make us feel better about taking the meds and any other problems caused by psychiatric treatment. That’s its own thing to deal with. But learning as much as we can about tapering and withdrawal will make them less scary and intimidating, and will make coming off meds feel more real and achievable. It won't feel like something that's out of reach.
      You’re in a very difficult - but relatable! - position. Don’t lose hope though. There’s always a path forward.

    • @ohmannotnow272
      @ohmannotnow272 4 місяці тому

      Why won't you go to a doctor?

  • @wolfen26
    @wolfen26 2 роки тому +5

    Hey russel. Good video. I've had bad luck with psychaitrists before. My first time with one was to go for a diagnosis 17 years ago on ADHD. I knew a kid who had the same problem and was on meds. Before his meds he was a normal happy active little boy. After his mom gave him the meds, he went from that to a drugged up zombie. That scared the hell out of me. I also came from a family that didn't really believe in psychiatric help. So I didn't have high expectations when I walked into that office. I needed help though. I had told him about that boy and said that I considered meds as an absolute bottom of the barrel last resort, meaning I would have to be hopeless. Well it took a few sessions of testing and I was diagnosed with ADHD. All the classic symptoms of it. The only thing is I was diagnosed at the age of 26. Despite me telling of my fears of taking meds, the first thing he did was reach for the pill pad. I asked 'What are you doing?' he said 'I'm writing you a prescription.' I told him there was no way I would take it, I didn't want to be a zombie. He wanted to write out a script anyways. I asked about other treatment options and he looked at me like I was nuts. I was then told that I knew how to handle it anyways, I was old enough. I got very upset and walked out mid session. Basically no help for adults diagnosed with ADHD. Tons of help for kids, but not much for adults even to this day.
    I then tried to go for help depression and anxiety. I was given SSRIs on three different occasions, all of them made me worse. Either cutting off all of my feelings, or making my memory problems worse, or making me go into a rage. That last one made me quit meds and psychiatry all together for years. All I see is a talk therapist. It was only in the last month that I chose psychiatry again, but was discouraged after one session because the only treatment options were psychiatric drugs, CBD (aka weed), ketamine (aka A DATE RAPE DRUG!) or electro shock therapy. When I said no to all of those, I felt the doc just throw up his hands and he said that's all I can suggest. I've tried psychiatric drugs that made me worse, there was no way in hell I was taking 'prescription street drugs' since I deal with addiction issues, and electro shock is scary. He only listened to me for 20 minutes, that's all I could get for a session. So nothing changed in 17 years and in some ways have gotten worse. I left that session feeling worse and hopeless. Still feel that way.

  • @Nuit
    @Nuit 2 роки тому +6

    Thanks for your video brother ! I've been one month under 6mg of Risperidone daily in a psych yard, i got out and decided to stop medication for my own health, it's been 14 days im off and I still have bad symptom and feel bad, but seeing you go through 10 years of antipsychotic and still there happy to talk with us gave me a smile and some hope

    • @gabrielsiberianrifleman7358
      @gabrielsiberianrifleman7358 2 роки тому +2

      Dude my doctor gave this to me too ,i took it for a month too without knowing what it will do to me ,i was completely healthy when i started and then things turned upside down ,how long will it take to fully recover (i am 16 ) ,please give some advice , a supid doc ruined my sanity ,i want to be just like i was a month ago

    • @Nuit
      @Nuit 2 роки тому +2

      @@gabrielsiberianrifleman7358 hello bro it's been like 20 days i have took them after a month with them and I feel way better, not 100% back to myself but i dont think it will take long, drink a lot of water bro

    • @gabrielsiberianrifleman7358
      @gabrielsiberianrifleman7358 2 роки тому +3

      @@Nuit thanks for the advice , i just hope i will be normal again ,without any harm done to my brain or anything
      Coz i am young and i am barely starting out in life ,i don t want to be like this forever ,my mother would have to take care of me and she is already in her 50 s

    • @adriangraham1868
      @adriangraham1868 2 роки тому +2

      Nuit how do you feel now that you are off medication?

    • @Nuit
      @Nuit 2 роки тому +1

      @@adriangraham1868 IT's been 22 days off, and I feel way better, sometime some shaking in my neck but it got way better, I think it wont take long for me to feel totaly myself back

  • @sehakeseli
    @sehakeseli 2 роки тому +2

    hey man! thank you for the support and also love the way you are closing the video :D keep up :))

  • @jakedubose5688
    @jakedubose5688 3 роки тому +7

    I’m glad I found this channel. I am finally off of the antipsychotics. Yea I was blaming myself and my parents for bringing me to the doc, I still find it hard to believe that the doc didn’t know what he was prescribing. But it is good to hear that the whole system of our culture is set up for failure. I’m mean that is sick in itself but relieving. It took me 3 years of tapering. I’ve been clean for about 4 months. Still not in the clear. Kinda wondering how much longer do I need to expect before everything is ok?

    • @takyrica
      @takyrica 2 роки тому +1

      How are you doing? I'm looking around for inspiration since my husband tapered psych drugs

    • @adriangraham1868
      @adriangraham1868 2 роки тому +1

      Jake dubose how do you feel now that you are off medication?

    • @lucianogoyenechea8704
      @lucianogoyenechea8704 Рік тому

      @@adriangraham1868 i cant understand why these people dont comment... they commit suicide o r what

  • @cloveerika
    @cloveerika 2 роки тому +15

    I was 10. A literal child. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at the age of 10, which isn’t even an appropriate age to diagnose at. I did not have many symptoms of mania besides not sleeping and hyperactivity.Not only that, but I was forced to take these meds for A whole decade. Now I’m about to be 20, And I’m constantly crying my eyes out because every time I try to stop despite weaning down so far the withdrawals are terrible. Like to the point that I need medical attention every time I miss a dose. Am I going to be stuck like this forever?

    • @indianajombes7275
      @indianajombes7275 2 роки тому +2

      I was diagnosed with drug-induced acute psychosis and was prescribed olanzapine 10mg. After a month I felt my brain melting and all my thoughts vanished. I feel so dumb and empty. After 3 months I slowly tapered down to zero. Now I'm two full days off olanzapine and my state isnt improving. How do I even organise my day I got nothing to do nothing to hope for nothing to dream of? I used to be so smart now Im so dumb. Will I ever be myself again?

    • @nerdy2239
      @nerdy2239 2 роки тому +1

      @@indianajombes7275 please update me

    • @indianajombes7275
      @indianajombes7275 2 роки тому +4

      @@nerdy2239 nope, no impovements at all. It's been about a month or so off meds. Honestly I'm so close to suicide right now but I can't tell my familly cause they will put me in a mental institution if I did. My life has lost all it's meaning and time goes by so fast. Anyways that's all sorry I can't write very good now.

    • @nerdy2239
      @nerdy2239 2 роки тому +3

      @@indianajombes7275 it gets better slowly please don’t go

    • @Tylerdurden794
      @Tylerdurden794 Рік тому +1

      @@indianajombes7275 hey do you have email i think im in your situation wanna talk

  • @akhila8462
    @akhila8462 3 роки тому +4

    Hey... thanks for this video man

  • @davinadavina1331
    @davinadavina1331 5 місяців тому +1

    i been planting messages that im stealing disability benefits online. i dont beelieve im schizo. i was right about not having mltiple sclerosis even though im rated a disability percent for it. in the past my doctor called police to welfare check me and get me back on meds. so now i think if i wasnt on disability then they cannot make me take the meds.
    i argue with self diagnosed people about wanting it.

  • @oliviagross1998
    @oliviagross1998 Рік тому +6

    I made a huge mistake taking sertraline a few weeks ago I can’t forgive myself, it’s left me with PSSD and I can’t feel any emotions anymore. PSSD can go away it just takes time so I’m just trying to keep going, I just started Wellbutrin and I’m on day six of taking it to help with the PSSD. Please pray for me❤ I want to find myself again and never touch another psych drug again.

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  Рік тому +1

      @oliviasadler9566 It's definitely not your fault, so please don't blame yourself. Just focus on the fact that, as you said, it will go away in time. You will get better. Much love to you!

    • @ericjohansson4918
      @ericjohansson4918 Рік тому +1

      Are you taking any other form of meds? For example blood pressure meds, they can in fact affect your libido.

    • @Slidehhy
      @Slidehhy Рік тому +1

      How are you now Olivia

    • @ohmannotnow272
      @ohmannotnow272 4 місяці тому

      ​@@ericjohansson4918they can??

    • @ohmannotnow272
      @ohmannotnow272 4 місяці тому +1

      But you've been only taking them for a few weeks, you shouldn't have PSSD.

  • @lucianogoyenechea8704
    @lucianogoyenechea8704 Рік тому +3

    i started with generalized anxiety back in 2002, and started medicating in 2005... my life was a lot lot lt better pre-medication!! now in 2023 im still wanting to stop taking meds!! how can i do that, cant find a doctor who knew how to make a retire

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  Рік тому +2

      Hey Luciano, your pre-medication experience is very relatable!
      Finding a cooperative doc is a common problem. And even when one does help out, they’re typically not trained on how to do it properly and safely for the patient and this can lead to a lot of issues. It’s always _best_ to have a knowledgeable, cooperative doc giving us a hand, but if one can’t be found, as is often the case, then it’s most important to just be able to keep getting prescriptions for your meds so you can continue your taper without disruption. A prescriber who will at least do that is much easier to find (though still not as easy as it should be).
      For where to start with coming off meds in general, I recommend watching my most recent video “2 Huge Resources for Coming off Psych Drugs” and checking out the websites mentioned in the vid. There’s a lot of info on those sites. Both of them contain guides for how to do it, though the Withdrawal Project guide is probably a little easier to follow along with at first. It’s really helpful to spend some time learning about the tapering process before finding a doc, since it’ll give you a better idea about whether or not the doc you’ll potentially start seeing will be as helpful as you need them to be.

    • @lucianogoyenechea8704
      @lucianogoyenechea8704 Рік тому +2

      @@russellbyt thanks! yep i'm studying the complete Withdrawal Project a lot these days... i had 4 nearly catastrophic tries to withdraw in the past (cause ignorance mainly), now im preparing to do it in the near future, find it difficult to apply a 10% last dose reduction, but it seems to be the way

  • @FBAV
    @FBAV 4 місяці тому

    Thanks for speaking out

  • @jamesbartosh9295
    @jamesbartosh9295 3 роки тому +2

    Thank you. Great vidio!!!

  • @skrywar7598
    @skrywar7598 2 роки тому +2

    Good on you, bro! I love you so much for posting this! Lol haha xD

  • @allencollins6031
    @allencollins6031 26 днів тому

    Thanks man.

  • @thl895
    @thl895 3 роки тому +5

    Hey, an idiot psychiatrist had me cold-turkey the bloody thing after 1 month 1 mg. I had a pretty adverse reaction to the drug (which of course was ignored and labeled as anxiety), and I'm now 9 months off and only partially better. What I'd like to know is, is ct likely to cause lasting damage? Everywhere I look is super vague and sugarcoaty. " You may experience uncomfortable effects". Yep chronic pain for 4 months sure is "uncomfortable"

    • @thl895
      @thl895 3 роки тому +2

      I really hope It's all just reversibke sedation and not significant loss of intellect like it happens with long-term use. I'm really scared I'll come out with memory problems or never even be competent again

    • @adriangraham1868
      @adriangraham1868 2 роки тому

      Th l How do you feel now that you are off medication?

    • @nerdy2239
      @nerdy2239 2 роки тому

      @@thl895 please tell me how you are now

    • @thl895
      @thl895 2 роки тому +1

      @@nerdy2239 Ive been steadily improving since then and expect it to continue. There was great improvement in my memory and abstractive capabilities, I can even finally read and learn again, I can feel a little and navitage social situations but I`m still waiting to recover more of my intelectual and emotional capabilities, still kinda slow and tired and emotionally numb but so much better. My brain doesnt feel like its burning in every waking moment and getting extremely strained at any activity, I can even approach academic subjects. Oh well maybe the next six months will do it (making it 2 years of recovery)

  • @EM-wo6wf
    @EM-wo6wf 2 роки тому +4

    Hey I took setraline for about a month on 100mg and then vraylar for 2 weeks on the lowest dose (1.5 mg). I’ve been off psyche meds completely for about 2 months. Since I took them for such a short amount a time on relatively low doses, do you think I can recover completely? Don’t get me wrong I’ve come a long way, and I feel somewhat close to normal but there’s still somewhat of a disconnect, like some brain fog is still there. Do you think it’ll go away after a couple more weeks or months? I know you’re not an expert or anything I would just value your opinion.

    • @EM-wo6wf
      @EM-wo6wf 2 роки тому +1

      @@russellbyt Thank you so much for the response! Really appreciate it

  • @rockalord1
    @rockalord1 Рік тому +8

    Suicide pills

  • @arturorochoa9359
    @arturorochoa9359 Рік тому +2

    There are times I feel like a coward for taking my medication. Since to me, what comes to mind is parallel to the saying of 'drunk actions, sober thoughts'. When I'm NOT taking my medication, or miss a dose, I feel vindictive, impatient, a wizard: a healer, judge, jury and executioner;
    I hate this world and I hate myself. I am resentful of God and Adam and Eve, for me being kicked out of Paradise. It's selfish, I know. But I know that I need to come to terms with the world, myself, with God, and everyone. Everyone has a right to life, Life is a gift. Who am I to judge? The devil may has his hour but God has his day - in hindsight, I've might have been the antichrist on some point in my 'delusions'. Delusions or not, my experiences of them are deeply rooted in me and I feel the pain of my past - of what I have done, and what I have failed to do.

  • @nimcomohamed2858
    @nimcomohamed2858 Рік тому +2

    It's hard I took xeplion 3 months and I feel ill my passion is gone so my reaction and brain also, I thought to stop it completely even my doctor don't agree with me because I dindt come doing good

    • @nimcomohamed2858
      @nimcomohamed2858 Рік тому

      @@russellbyt next shot its been 2.11 but i am not gonna take it because it makes me feel all those things.

  • @arunat9316
    @arunat9316 2 роки тому +2

    Hello Russell. How did you reduce your dose? I have read that 5 to 10 percent reduction of original dose monthly prevent relapse. I am wondering how could we reduce 5 to 10 percent of dose? Practically is it possible. Kindly reply.

  • @juanzavala9023
    @juanzavala9023 2 роки тому +6

    HELPP!!!! PLEASE HELP!! GOD, PLEASE READ THIS I NEED HELP!!!
    I'm a 19 year old who had a temporary anxiety. My physician offered another anxiety medication like it was nothing, (i've previously been on chlonodine hcl which helps for both hypetension and anxiety). I found out it was a psychiatric(Buspar/Buspirone) :/
    No talk about how to use it, side-effects, how it works. And never told me it mitigates the brain. Never said it was a psychiatric drug.
    The first time I took it, I definitely noticed a decline in cognitive-faculties. As I kept taking it however, I seemed to regain the ability to think, however, my memory
    and the way I read (I tend to be VERY high in IQ, and read chunks ultra fast instead of slowly linearly from left to right) were downgraded.
    I will admit I took them all over the place. I tried to stick with taking it at morning (4am when I wake up) and then another in the afternoon. But honestly sometimes I'd
    forget and only ingest one. I made a follow up with my doctor once after the prescription and he told me it's until my brain adjusts. He had some point in there because i did kind of start seeing to regain my ability to think creatively but my way of reading was still changed from fast to slow and my memory was still bad.
    I had a realization realizing wtf I was taking and realizing it alters my brain and noticing my memory not as good and reading linearly instead of how I normally read. I then decided to search this thing up. I found out it's a psychiatric drug that mitigates the brain and I just got
    so fucking scared. I started searching up "buspar lowers intelligence." I've read some posts on quora about people feeling as smart as they were before and on when going on even more powerful
    things such as SSRI's (but then everyone is different). And other people saying "well if we define intelligence as the neurochemistry which is impacted by these drugs..." you get the point.
    Generally I'm hyper-aware with my eyes always looking everywhere and ever since this medicine, it has gone away. Also, I stumbled upon these videos claiming that psychiatric medicatinos can be the devil for some
    people: ua-cam.com/video/qTfuhKWWbGU/v-deo.html
    They say that it impedes cognitivie abilities, but what makes me think I can stay this sane is because my very High IQ (Stanford Binet 149) took the hit and I'm still
    able to cognitively function.
    I quit cold turkey. 10 days ago was the last time I took it, after taking it for 3weeks/month. However, I did not know that quitting cold turkey was a bad thing. No one ever had these conversations
    with me, and I really do feel like a victim :(
    I'm scared that quitting Cold Turkey will do brain damage, but I searched it just lists the withdrawal side effects as more severe. I just don't know what to do man. Please someone just tell me what to do to get out of this mess.
    I don't want to feel hopeless. Please don't put any blame on me, I admit that I was ignorant. In fact, I grew up in a bubble of my ethnic community (Mexican) and
    didn't really find out the difference between an entree and an appetizer til like a month ago or two.
    I've also seen other posts on reddit about brainfog on buspirone/buspar, and no one believing them. But I do.
    I'm just so scared.

    • @miriambochenek9083
      @miriambochenek9083 Рік тому

      Man contact me You can overcome anxiety . Don't get trapped

    • @juanzavala9023
      @juanzavala9023 Рік тому

      @@miriambochenek9083 wasup bro

    • @miriambochenek9083
      @miriambochenek9083 Рік тому

      @@juanzavala9023 If you need a real help you may like to see which aspect of your life is not going in the direction it should. Your diet is very important. Look into what you are eating and drinking. Quick fix when anxiety is striking is to have an organic celery and make your own juice and drink it. It helps a lot. It comes down the mind in a spot. Not eating nasty corn which is GM nor soy which is not for man ...too much estrogen. Avoiding pepsi product coffee junk and quit all the nasty oils...using only extra virgin olive ...coconut and ghee helps. Real cocoa on warm milk . Anything what is not good for your adrenals creates anxiety. Then too much stress Any infections etc You don't need the nasty poisoning pills because recovery from them are long and painful. Take your health into your hands

    • @lucianogoyenechea8704
      @lucianogoyenechea8704 Рік тому

      yep, the story of my like... 18 yrs ago...

    • @lucianogoyenechea8704
      @lucianogoyenechea8704 Рік тому

      @@miriambochenek9083 can i contact you too?

  • @dsiesddsssss
    @dsiesddsssss Рік тому +2

    I'm on antipsychotics. Do you have any advice on how to deal with sexual side effects?

  • @madiha3096
    @madiha3096 16 днів тому

    I wanted to ask does taking very low doses can effect us in person.. i didnt know whats emotional bluntness and assumed that i have one.. now im very low doses of queitapine and resperidone but still i dont feel like myself.. like i used feel good after cleaning the house.. even if i try i dont clean the house properly and dont feel good.. i feel i made a mindset which isnt changing..

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  16 днів тому

      Those are two really potent antipsychotics. They can absolutely affect you in those ways, even at “low” doses. I’m speaking from my own experience and others have had similar ones too.

  • @timwilson2920
    @timwilson2920 Рік тому +1

    A snare drum and a crash would be pretty cool.

  • @aurel344
    @aurel344 3 роки тому +3

    Hey!!!!! first to comment :)

  • @Tylerdurden794
    @Tylerdurden794 Рік тому +1

    Im having a really bad time life i was happy before 8 months ago. One day feel some urine retention and abdominal pain then i feel very panicked then the urologist recommend me to take the psy doc they give me some meds for months now i lost who i am. I lost my memories concentration everything. Even i cant cry through with my eyes tears dont come from it. And i have ed too after this meds. Life is fucked up i dont know what to do . I wish i never had to take psy meds

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  Рік тому +1

      None of this is your fault and I’m sorry you’re going through it. Sending you much love!

    • @Tylerdurden794
      @Tylerdurden794 Рік тому +1

      @@russellbyt i get my lost memories?

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  Рік тому +1

      Eventually, yes.

  • @morningstarscotty.8656
    @morningstarscotty.8656 3 роки тому +2

    Hey I'm about to come off seroquel prozac and concerta. I may keep the zopiclone for sleep but I feel so numb on these meds and dizzy .have you tryed any of those meds and how does it feel to be med free?is your sleep ok ?

    • @morningstarscotty.8656
      @morningstarscotty.8656 3 роки тому

      @@russellbyt thanks brother appreciate the feedback

    • @danoconnell4536
      @danoconnell4536 3 роки тому

      @@russellbyt how do you improve sleep when coming off seroquel was on 750 mg now down to 100mg and have trouble staying and falling asleep

    • @mitch5222
      @mitch5222 3 роки тому

      @@russellbyt what kind of nerve damage and where? I have neuropathy in my feet. Do u take anything for nerve damage pain?

  • @timcepin3386
    @timcepin3386 4 місяці тому +1

    If I took one dose, do I need to continue?

  • @DovahQueen1994
    @DovahQueen1994 4 дні тому

    i feel worse after quitting antipsychotics what do i do ? (i did taper) its been 4 months

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  3 дні тому +1

      I’m sorry you’re still struggling! Tapering is all about limiting, and _possibly_ preventing, withdrawal and withdrawal-like symptoms, but it’s no guarantee we won’t have any. The speed of the taper can make a big difference too. But again, no guarantees with any of this… Which is of course really scary and frustrating.
      For those of us who struggle with coming off meds, it’s not uncommon for it to take a while to feel like we’ve made some good progress. So 4 months isn’t a very long time in recovery terms. It’s a very long time to feel so bad. But it’s not long enough for our bodies to very noticeably heal.
      The good thing is that healing is taking place whether it feels that way or not. We can build a withdrawal and post-withdrawal toolkit. We can find ways to get through each day. Even each moment of the day. But time makes the biggest difference.
      In the meantime, check out this page on Surviving Antidepressants called “Symptoms and self-care”:
      www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/forum/8-symptoms-and-self-care/
      The info there applies to antipsychotics too.

    • @DovahQueen1994
      @DovahQueen1994 3 дні тому

      @@russellbyt thank you for your time. You did 5 year taper. How long to wait not to feel withdrawal depression ?
      I lost many things to the drug one of them is enjoying music. I used to say i cant live without music. Will i ever get it back ?

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  3 дні тому

      @DovahQueen1994 There’s no way to know for sure how long this will last unfortunately. Our bodies basically heal on their own timeline. But you’ll notice gradual improvements as time goes on.
      Most people won’t take as long as I did, so I wouldn’t worry so much about that 5-years number.
      And yes, the ability to enjoy music should return eventually :)

  • @polashrajkonwar2765
    @polashrajkonwar2765 Місяць тому

    Bro i am suffering from SSRI induced PSSD.How to recover.Please reply

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  Місяць тому

      Hey, sorry for the delay. Besides giving it more time, you can check out the "Treatments and Experimentation" page on the PSSD Forum site for some ideas:
      pssdforum.org/viewforum.php?f=20&sid=ad012010afdfd36df0237df2cf07ec13
      I can't verify the safety and effectiveness of everything on there, but it's a good idea anyway to always use caution when trying things out.
      Time has made the biggest difference for me and hopefully it'll help you too.

  • @user-xi3rs6zy2g
    @user-xi3rs6zy2g 10 місяців тому +2

    11 fucking months, still no progress

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  10 місяців тому +3

      It can take so long to experience even a noticeable amount of recovery. For many of us it can be measured on a timescale of years, rather than months. That doesn’t mean that will be the case for you, it just means that there’s always the potential for healing, even after a substantial amount of time has passed. It’s horrible and none of us signed up for it, but there’s at least hope. Much love.

    • @user-xi3rs6zy2g
      @user-xi3rs6zy2g 10 місяців тому +1

      @@russellbyt thanks for taking time in this temporary life, to write this comment towards me, much appreciated 😁

  • @Polecat-qz5om
    @Polecat-qz5om Місяць тому

    Hi russell can I contact you?

  • @nickcass4468
    @nickcass4468 3 роки тому +2

    I quit mind today I’m done I don’t need them

    • @conroycampbell3122
      @conroycampbell3122 3 роки тому

      @@russellbyt my brother had a panic attack the doctor give him prozac during the withdrawal I've had physosis symptoms they give him haldol ...what Is the best why for him to stop the medication?

    • @adriangraham1868
      @adriangraham1868 2 роки тому +2

      Nick cass How do you feel now that you are off medication?

  • @conquernremind408
    @conquernremind408 Рік тому

    How do i get away from all them move country ?????

  • @gemini-vibes6118
    @gemini-vibes6118 2 місяці тому +1

    My biggest regret in life was taking psychiatric drugs. An ssri gave me severe pssd. Chemically castarted and lobotomized for life. I cant stand living with no emotions, severe cognitive impairment, derealization and countless other symptoms. I refuse to keep living this way.

    • @gemini-vibes6118
      @gemini-vibes6118 2 місяці тому

      @@multiinuteis Thank you for the positivity, but the condition is almost always permanent.. 💔

    • @russellbyt
      @russellbyt  Місяць тому +2

      @gemini-vibes6118 That's horrible and I'm so sorry it's gotten this bad! Not sure how long you've been taking the ssri, or have been off it if you've stopped it, but it's possible those symptoms will improve over time. It can take a long time for some of us. I had PSSD symptoms for _years_ before they began to improve (Lexapro was one of the meds I tapered). It's difficult to know how much of that was caused by the antidepressant and how much was general withdrawal-related crap, but things have gotten better. Others have had a similar experience. Hopefully you'll have it too!

    • @gemini-vibes6118
      @gemini-vibes6118 Місяць тому

      @russellbyt I'm so sorry it happened to you, too. I never knew this was a possibility. I was on celexa for 7yrs 11mnths. My PCP told me to do a two week taper and cut me off. Its like a neurological hand grenade went off in my brain. I've been off for 7mnths now. I'm glad you found healing, but sorry it took so long. I don't have any hope tbh.