my lil Depression Session™

Sorry this video is so long.
So this is basically just me recording a down day. I feel really melodramatic every time I look back at it - I know everyone has do-nothing days. I know that for a lot of college students, getting up around 3:30pm on a Saturday is early. Still, I missed practice for the sake of being "productive" and ended up doing very little. I am very behind and go to an extremely academically competitive school. In this environment, you just can't miss classes.
That aside, like I said in the video this is a pretty minor level of depression for me. It's kind of nice, honestly, that I can brush it off as just being a typical sleepless, overworked student.
Here's hoping it doesn't get worse over the next few days. Right now I'm just constantly reassuring myself that this is, in fact, my mental illness, and not just me being a whiney lazy person.
Tbh I don't want anyone to watch this. The only reason I'm publishing it is because I promised myself I'd be public about my illness. I don't want people to see it, but I want people to know. But I've reached the point where people won't know what's going on in my head unless I show it to them.